#i like more stuff i just cant remember it right now

[s0m3b0dy2u]

"but roman..."

"why didnt you script youre immune to hate" / "why did you literally script haters into your dr???"

three words: because it's funny.

I scripted that hate doesn't bother me, and that i think it's funny. also, im very petty and i cant do dumb shit just to spite the haters if there are no haters. i did script that my friends dont get any/get very little hate. for example, people only think good things about theo because he literally posts the most gorgeous photographs, shes amazing at their job, and hes just the kindest person to literally everyone they meet. nico has haters in the way any loud and obnoxious youtuber will but theyre very few and far between and he also finds them funny, but in a slightly different way then i do. felix's legitimate work is amazing, and theres so little room for criticism to begin with, and most of his shitty takes are on tumblr, so hes safe. venus gets the same kind of hate anyone that makes the kind of music she does will, also largely angry christians like i have in my hatebase. she, of course, is the best at handling hate out of any of us. shes absolutely brutal. shes also the first to clap back if any of her friends get any hate to begin with. of course, she has the largest fanbase out of all of us so... yk how that goes, im sure. she also like... thrives off of drama.

also, i've litterally written whole critical articles about myself, if anyone wants to read them

Blasphemy Disguised as Art: The Dangerous Message of Empire’s 666

Style Over Substance? The Fall of Rome’s Theatrics

etc.

the first one is my favorite (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ

lets talk about 666

the only reason the ep (or even me in general) blew up as hard as it did is because of christian supremacists.

!! i dont hate christians or christianity, and i do not intend to mock the religion itself !! 666 is about my own personal struggles with religion !! also, the christians im talking about here are the kind that hardly live like christians--the ones that dont live and lead with kindness, but instead anger, and the kind that would condemn you to hell if they saw you walking down the street holding hands with someone of the same sex because "its a sin." the bible says we, as humans, are in no right to judge one another, etc. etc. etc. the reason i didnt script people like this out in this dr is because theyve greatly helped shape the person i am today--for better or for worse. (i feel the need to mention, now, i did script out homophobia, transphobia, and other forms of discrimination) !!

these people, maybe they saw the album cover, read the lyrics, or even just read the album and song titles, whatever it was they got so pissed. most of them havent seen anything else about me, and just jumped to the "hes encouraging devil worship" "he thinks hes better than God" etc etc etc. this lead more and more people to seeing my stuff and so... yeah

also the people that are like "EMPIREs too theatric" "romes too dramatic" like... no shit?? thats my whole thing?? idk what to tell you. my fans eat it tf uppppp too.

the people that are like "mmm maybe try making happy music now?? :/" piss me off tho like no???? my whole thing is doom and gloom. i am death incarnate, im fuckin--IM A VAMPIRE OK IM SUPPOSED TO BE VAMPIRIC ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა /silly

also theres nothing funnier than tiktok comments like "you need jesus" and "go read the bible" pllssss what????? (╥﹏╥) lmaoooo

and like keep hating, all youre doing is making me more famous??? idk like....

i also love ironic haters

like yes, lets pretend we hate each others guts while were sitting in a cozy lil cafe tg

lets say we hate each others music and then drop a collab not even a week later

૮꒰˶> ᴗ <˶꒱ა

uhhhh rant over

if youre still here, how was your day/morning? remember to take care of yourselves, drink some water, eat something--even if it's just a little bit--and take a break if you need to. i love you all <3 have a nice day/night

[xwiedzmax]

okay. so. i said i will not shut up about this song and.. well here we are

analyzing Watch Me Soar by Willemijn Verkaik (and Scott Alan) (guys i love Willemijn shes such a great singer and me when her Elphaba and i could rant about her for hours and-) [basically] line by line, here we go

"I know that it's hard for you to imagine That I'm not that young girl you once knew I'm no longer 12, what you see is a woman Standing in front of you"

first line and it starts off *strong*. like. 'im not that young girl you once knew, im no longer 12'. thats literally what would happen when Icarus came back, everyone only remembered them from the times before they first died. dropping the age like that is crazy everyone would remember them as that small child (we dont look at Chronicles of Wonder i found this song before that came out guys i promise this is still coded) and the first line just straight up calls that "And I, I have been patient, I have been kind I paid all my dues and I gave up my time I can't be confined to the past anymore My wings have grown"

the first two verses are just about them being Quixis. about trying their best to do their job, trying their best to just do the right thing and come back as fast as possible and- 'i cant be confined to the past anymore' is so- cuz like- theyre not the same person they were as a child. theyre not the same person they were during all the seasons. theyve changed, many things have changed, they want to be better than what they were before, they want to be a good brother, a good friend, not be remembered as the person who killed multiple of their friends, the person who hurt so many of their friends and family. they want to redeem themself and the line 'my wings have grown' is just so- because they dont have wings in the worldport. and their wings are important to them, theyre such an important part of them, and they dont have that in the worldport. and they finally get to experience having wings, experience the freedom of flying

"Everyone says just to be thankful, just to be grateful Or just let it be But I'm tired of this waiting, it's always tomorrow I'm done with perceptions that you've had of me"

something something Icarus just having to wait and wait and wait. wait for their job as Quixis to be over. with the knowledge that their family doesnt remember them, many of their friends dont even know who they are

"I've given you blood, you've given me tears I've given my heart and so many years It's finally time to fend for myself And open my wings"

now. first two verses are about their time as Quixis again. about how long theyve had to spend, waiting, working, alone. theyve given up so much, spent *so many* years alone, watching over the universes, with no one but a chicken to keep them company

the last two verses are them just being happy about being back. finally being able to do the things they *want* to do not the things they *need* to do they can open their wings again, fly, experience weather, nature, be themself again

"It's my time to soar, yes My time And I don't need you to love me, that's not what I asked I just want you to see that I'm more than my past"

its their time, they can soar the skies, experience things again, make bonds but they dont immidiately ask for forgiveness, they know theyve done a lot of bad stuff in the past. they just want people to see them as a new person, not what they were before, want people to see past the things theyve done. and this just fits so well

"You have expectations, well they're just too small And I'm dreaming big So watch me soar Watch me soar Watch me soar"

theyre so excited to be back, after being stuck for years. they just want to experience joy and do everything they werent able to do before

"It's time to let go, take a leap, touch the sky Feel the wind press against me as my wings learn to fly Then soar, I will soar Watch me soar"

they deserve to be a happy birb boi me thinks. 'feel the wind press against me as my wings learn to fly' because they would need to get used to that. they dont have their wings in the worldport and theyve spent so long without them, it would take some learning and figuring out muscle memory to fly like they used to

"Yes, I know that it's hard for you to imagine That I'm not that young girl you once knew I'm no longer 12, what you see is a woman Soaring in front of you"

this entire section is just so Icarus after coming back from being Quixis, especially singing to Rae, but just to everyone too- and.. even tho this is the wrong gender, its still *so frickin coded*. perfect ending to this song and honestly im actually amazed how coded this whole song is. especially because i know it only because Willemijn sings it (im normal i promise im not hyperfixated at allll-)

and in general the way this song sounds is just so hopeful, its giving new energy and happiness and just- pure joy of experience, and i love it if you for whatever reason read this all, have a nice timezone<3 hopefully some of my rambles actually made sense <- local guy is eepy and totally not writing this at 5am- totally-

[sleepyhouse2art]

i fucking hate the term "outsider artist". daniel johnston was an ARTIST. wild man fischer was an ARTIST, and made way cooler stuff than zappas exploitative ass ever did! just because i have schizophrenia, that means i cant be a regular person and a regular artist? i have to be an "outsider"?

i also think it's a way for normal people to feel cool for knowing about someone "obscure", even though any kind of cultural currency from knowing "obscure media" should have died when we all got little computers in our pockets. you're not cool for knowing "weird" stuff. you're not special. fuck you. anybody could know what you know.

i think people simultaneously fetishize mental illness and also condescend to the actual real people who have severe mental illness. they treat us like we're babies who can't do anything right, or like being crazy makes us lesser than them. i already get treated like a baby by almost everyone i know irl. drawing is really the only thing that makes me feel good anymore and one of my only remaining interests. i usually draw upwards of 8 hours a day. i don't like being regarded as weird because i try so hard to be normal and it's so hard for me to do the things most people do automatically. i feel like they know something about life that i don't. before my first break and my diagnosis i was so much more capable and now i can't even do most of my adls anymore because i keep having them and having them and my brain is so different now. im in and out of the hospital so much. people keep an eye on me. my husband gets frustrated with at me for acting like a baby. i hate it and it sucks.

but having schiz shouldn't mean im dumber than other people or less than other people even though that's how i feel most times. i wish people wouldn't be so rude. people are so rude to me sometimes just because i have a problem with my brain. i went outside for the second time in a year this week and a man laughed at me in the store. i couldn't remember how to swipe a card and the lady got frustrated and took it from me. i felt awful.

im sorry this is so long. im sorry to complain. i think this shit really pisses me off!!! i really resent the way people treated daniel johnston and wild man fischer. fuck everybody who made fun of their great art and acted like they were just a stupid joke, or felt cool for knowing about them. they deserved so much better.

[lemonywings]

(old art :P)

hey, sorry for kinda saying i was gonna post fanart once a week and then going quiet. (idk why im saying sorry i think i have like 4 followers-) ANYWAYS

i had a really rough couple months just pass me, and dealing with being back in college and also artblock AND burnout has been a mess. that with additional family stuff has made me dread posting because it felt more like an obligation than something i wanted to do. so im just gonna post whenever i want ig idk man. but yea im gonna try posting more often now. its not gonna be anything high quality so dont get your hopes up, alot of the junk i make is messy and i also have alot of class work to catch up on rn so idk man. aaaaaa

also i know this post probs isnt gonna reach alot of people, but if your seeing this, please consider lending aid to palestine in any way you can. any donation helps and even if you cant help by donating, sharing or spreading links is massively helpful too. i dont have the time and energy to post about palestine every day like some people are but ill try to put links with my art posts whenever i can.

with all that being said, if you wanna stick around and maybe see some art i make in the future then follow idk its 6am rn and i gotta finish my homework before i have to leave at 7 to go to class. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee bye

(gonna tag the fandoms im in aaaaaa)

[arovalentines]

time to make your choice only you can be the one

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Finals gift ….. for me … !!!!

[sonknuxadow]

ive joked about it before but man i really am the only person on earth who remembers the gun commander is a character that exists arent i . because the other day when the shadow panel was happening and the voice actors were talking about their characters and how they were eachothers only friend and maria was completely isolated from other people i was like What about the gun commander . and i havent seen anyone else point the contradiction out . lmao

[thorninyourpaw]

my existence makes me feel awful for my family

[orcelito]

I would like for life to stop hurting for a little while. Maybe. Pretty please.

[lost-in-beacon-hills]

Before the movie dropped, I had suspected that Lucy Gray was heavily Appalachian. But now that the movie is out, that's pretty much confirmed.

One thing I found myself thinking is that she is also Romani. She went on and on about how she wasn't from a District. How Twelve is not her home. She sings and dances and talks about belonging nowhere but ending up in Twelve as the war happened.

I think the Covey came from Romaina and got stuck. They were travelers passing through that couldn't get out.

[f1owermoon]

sorry i just. need to rant for a second

[skitskatdacat63]

Christopher Nolan making movies: I'm gonna make a film that is so confusing and non-linear

[nerdie-faerie]

Having a big family is too expensive. Where am I supposed to find the money for my brother's 20th, my cousin's 21st and graduation, my twin cousins turning 23, my other cousin turning 26 and having a baby all this month!! 😭

[ajdrawshq]

ended up buying start again to play after i 100% isat to the best of my ability and i Also got the artbook bc the bundle is on sale for less than just the games usual price so why not. and im glad i did bc i got to see concept art of siffrin getting fucking impaled 👍

[infizero]

im going fucking crazy im going to bite someone’s head off kris and noelle deltarune making my brain fucking melt

[alex-procrastinates]

pls click see more i spent like an hour writing these tags

This links to a wheel with nearly a hundred fic tropes for plots, settings, and more. Spin it twice.

This could also work with art inspiration, but the buttons only allow for so many characters on them. And please do ramble in the tags! I'm going to have no idea what most of you are talking about, and it's going to be great.