#i know im late to getting the campaign done. very late. but i wanted to properly cherish it. and i am so so happy i did

[wolfwarrior142]

I finally finished The Final Shape campaign. I was taking my sweet time to really savor it, and I'm glad I did.

It made me cry so much. The whole campaign was made with so much love, but especially those last cutscenes. They were just beautiful and so much love and adoration was put into them. A little bittersweet, but also so amazing and beautiful. The last mission was also very fun and kind of emotional too with a bunch of different well-loved characters joining in.

I've been playing Destiny for over 7 years, since end of March 2017. I've played through all of D1 and D2 with my same character I made all the way back then, with her design never changing from that day. Still remember that first day all those years ago.

And I was a fan of Destiny from the very beginning since I grew up with Halo starting at 11 years old. The Law of the Jungle has been my favorite poem since my early teens, and from the second I saw the Destiny trailer with that in it, and I knew I was hooked. That trailer still makes me feel so much. And the only reason I didn't play Destiny from the very start is because I didn't have my own console to play it on for a few years, but my brother played it from the beginning and I watched him a lot (but he didn't let me make my own character on my own account on his Xbox cuz he's an ass...he's the one that got me into videogames starting with Halo, at least let me try Destiny).

Can't find the right words to describe the kind of emotions I'm feeling rn, after playing the game this long. And after finishing the game with the same character I made from the start, design never changed, from all those years ago, Cerys-8. And with her ghost, Pepin, having the same shell and shader since the first D2 Dawning.

The whole campaign was emotional in the best way. And those last cutscenes....beautiful. Just beautiful. Amazing. All of them made me cry so much, even the artistic one that features all the characters just doing their thing now. And the New Vanguard and the Young Wolf, looking over the City they saved, filled with humans and eliksni and cabal allies, all in one. Protected for now, for the first time in ages. Safe. Happy.

Don't touch me right now I'm so emotional. The beginning of the Red War campaign also made me insanely emotional and is actually the reason why I thought to name Cerys and Pepin anyway, and this is making me even more emotional. I love this so, so much.

[skythealmighty]

haha i love when i struggle with multiple hyperfixations at once. i am a coward for not making a crossover between allnof them but like. worldbuilding hard stfu

#rocket talk #the hyperfixes: #tmnt #inanimate insanity #bfdi #dsmp #the last one mostly spurred on by the stupid shit dreams doing #love clowning on that fool

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🤍 notalwayssecondplace Follow

i love how people are reblogging gi's hit post like it isnt a sign of his crippling inability to deal with change or to come to terms with his own self

anyway on other news i have a bunch of ideas for a new d&d campaign!

#i love my cousin but he really really needs therapy #like REALLY really

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I just realized... why do we call it "humanity"? Shouldn't it be "objectity"? IS it that in some universes? Can we claim universes that use "humanity" all once had humans???

⛳ bossy-bot Follow

Hello! Golf Ball from the BFDI universe here. I can confirm we use 'humanity' because we have, and also have had, humans. I cannot say for other universes though.

💥 fans-fantastic-features Follow

Fan II at your service! we use both- humans are kind of a myth for the most part. depends on how religious you are sometimes

💊 the-cringe-one Follow

Cringe Pill, TDOS- 'objectity' is the main term we use. Hadn't even heard of humans until Real Life Battle, honestly

👓 the-nerdiest-glasses Follow

guys, you're way overthinking this. here one sec

add in the tags what universe you're from (and if you picked humanity, if you know why add that too)

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Oh, hadn't even thought of that...

#Goes to show you can be as smart as you want and still be stupid 😅 #Very curious to see the responses

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🎩 not-a-magician asked: Hi, I've been seeing people ask you for advice on auras and mental wellness and things... do you have anything for sleeping? I don't know if I have insomnia, but I've definitely had some trouble sleeping lately. I'm tired as hell but can't seem to just. Do it. Any advice at all would mean the world to me, really

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(Reminder to all: my advice on here is not meant to replace professional help by any means. If this is the cause of underlying trauma, please turn to therapy and not Tumblr. I'm not licensed yet.)

Thank you so much for the ask! While I'm sorry to admit sleep habits are not something I'm particularly versed in, I will give advice to the best of my ability as always. Best wishes on your journey to heal ^-^

Full advice below the cut to save space, as always!

Keep reading

#mental wellness #sleep habits #sleep #candle's light advice #not-a-magician

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ive come to a realization

you're welcome

#tpot #gravity falls #bfdi #one bfdi #bill cipher #i spent way too fucking long on this #if anyone's done this before me don't tell me please #also please dont come after me one THIS ISNT AN INSULT

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WHY THE FUCK AM I GREEN NOW?!

👿 darkness-reigns-supreme-3882 Follow

GREEN ISN'T INTIMIDATING. GREEN IS STUPID. GREEN IS ~nature~ AND ~healing~ AND PEOPLE WHO GET STUCK UP ON MOUNTAINS!!!!!

👿 darkness-reigns-supreme-3882 Follow

there will be hell to pay for this.

#i SWEAR if who i thought did this did this.

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Ummm why did I just get a bunch of hate dms after I changed my username? I thought these were over :[

#It's the same guy too.... #oh wait right I unblocked him since he stopped

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Finally getting therapy ✌ unfortunately my therapist says it's not productive to be literally dancing on my dead father's grave. that beign said tune into my next stream where we do dares at his gravestone

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how to stop water in pot from burning? tried to cook ramen and failed

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i did not mean to type this in google im crowdsourcing

🎩 not-a-magician Follow

What the hell did you do?!

🗒 meme-pad Follow

NOTHING

#wait u have a tumnlr?

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📛 loud-and-proud Follow

i know this is ironic because of my username but uh. does anyone have any advice for being in love w your best bro and not knowing how to say it

🎚 all-about-dat-bass Follow

bro... im right here...

📛 loud-and-proud Follow

bro... so... is that a yes?

🎚 all-about-dat-bass Follow

hell YEAH, bro!! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

📛 loud-and-proud Follow

no way... i love you dude ❤

🎚 all-about-dat-bass Follow

love you too man ❤

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Fucking finally

#They were SO BAD off screen #Definitely didn't expect this on Tumblr of all places though.

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🥧 threepointonefourwhatever Follow

time sensitive question: is it possible to get sued by algebraliens

🥧 threepointonefourwhatever Follow

this was posted literal months ago why are you idiots still reblogging it.

1️⃣ theoneandonly Follow

I mean~... if you want help not getting sued, I could always lend a theoretical hand?

🥧 threepointonefourwhatever Follow

no soliciting

1️⃣ theoneandonly Follow

That's not what "no soliciting" means, you know.

🥧 threepointonefourwhatever Follow

suck my dick

1️⃣ theoneandonly Follow

Haha, rude! I'm only offering help, you know.

🥧 threepointonefourwhatever Follow

go away you bill cipher wannabe or ill bite into you like a stale dorito

1️⃣ theoneandonly Follow

I can find you, you know.

🥧 threepointonefourwhatever Follow

lol

#im about to do whats called a pro gamer move

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i blocked her 🎉

[insert-clever-username-1133]

*burns down building cutely* guys im literally just a girl!!!

welcome to my blog

hi guys!!! im loralai but you can call me lora. this post is a running collection of all my chaos

you guys like lists? good bc that's all ive got for you

~

stuff i do

art

i draw in ibis paint on my phone with a disc stylus and use capcut to edit animatics (which yes, i can still do, despite being in the us). most of my stuff is tagged with either #art or #doodles, rarely both. doodles is my old tag for sketches and... well, doodles. i put everything under the art tag now

writing

i have one published fic right now with another multi chapter on the way and some one shots im going to get to eventually! i don't have an update schedule. im little1133 on ao3

music

if you have perfect pitch talk to me please i need someone who understands the feeling when you get a song stuck in your head and you can't remember what key it's in but all the keys you picture it in sound wrong so now it's in your head but it sounds WRONG

fandoms

epic the musical

this is my main fandom right now! epic has had a huge effect on my life, gotten me back into drawing and writing :) im always down to yap about the babies or read your fic or whatever

i love odypen so so much. also i heard someone use the ship name penelody and that's the prettiest ship name ive ever heard i think. platonic eurypoli is also one of my favs. im a eurylochus defender for life

if you follow me you are big time signing up for epic spam

kotlc

this is my longest-term fandom i think. i love this little fandom so much!! Katie (@ myfairkatiecat , very cool user) got me into it last summer (i know, not very long term for my longest term fandom. im young okay). im a keefe defender (sorry stria) and i love fintan pyren a normal amount. fav ships are sokeefe, dexiana, and fintante! i am a sucker for platonic sophitz. they go well together what can i say

iywalirayhtdwa > wiityispb

percy jackson / riordanverse

i love love love this series so much. leo is my baby. percabeth should be called smartwater for ever and ever. i don't participate in this fandom because i learned my lesson from kotlc about joining the fandom before you're done reading and ive already gotten spoiled enough just from random youtube comments. am i really going to abstain from this fandom until ive read all however many series there are? probably not

greek mythology in general

dnd

yeah... right above this is percy jackson and epic the musical. you knew this was coming. im rapidly turning into the greek mythology kid. it's bad.

hadestown

i listened to the soundtrack with animatics a bit ago and im planning on watching a recording of the actual show. this musical has already. made me. FEEL THINGS. A LOT. doubt comes in absolutely broke me which im sure isn't a surprise to anyone who's seen hadestown. just like in epic Hermes is a whole vibe and a half. living it up on top, chant, and why we build the wall have alternated being played on loop in my brain. this musical is literally so.

im currently playing in a dnd campaign (#ivanna) as an elven wizard named Ivanna and in the late planning stages of dming a campaign (#crossfire campaign) for me and my friends. im unwell about both of these things

mouthwashing

i... don't have much to say about this fandom. im not very active in it. love the fanart. love daisuke and anya ofc. we be taking responsibility with this one

elnea kingdom

i don't really post about this game on here because the fandom is mainly on Reddit. this is here purely for propaganda. look up this game and play it. you know you want toooo ohh you wanna play it soooo baaaad

posts i want you to see

too lazy to do this list rn. im gonna link the seaglass vacker eyes post, the Ody is the short one in odypen, and some of my top posts later

tags ig

#art - self explanatory.

#bookmark - things I'm saving to refer back to later.

#liveblog - ive been doing this less lately but it's always a tradition for me to do at least a few liveblogs whenever im consuming a new media. i love this tag because it contains my magnum opus: my huge reblog chains with every little thought i had while reading kotlc. all of them have like 40 self reblogs to just add to them. there's a chain for each book, and i did it for the first like 5 or 6 books. i highly recommend looking at those they're very funny.

userboxes + other

i don't have a dni. if i don't like you ill block you

im not donating to your gofundme

my interests are subject to change on a whim with zero warning

[kirnet]

tag people you want to get to know better!

i am very late but thank you @rosebarsoap @druidgroves @lavampira @nsewell and @pinkfey for tagging me in this!! i am sure this has already made the rounds so ignore me if you've already done this, but tagging @saintalessia @arcenergy @asexualastarion @bethesdas @much-mercie and anyone else who wants to do this!

LAST SONG: heartbreak feels so good - fob

CURRENTLY WATCHING: a lot of naomi jon youtube vids while i paint. also started TD season 2 but i havent finished the first ep yet.

THREE SHIPS: UUUUHHHHHH benny/raiden kirnet/atton and avvid/astarion which is abraham ruthie's tav. i am dearly obsessed with them

FAVORITE COLOR: blue!! love a super saturated blue

CURRENTLY CONSUMING: water <3 and i just had a gf bagel

FIRST SHIP: perc'ahlia??? i think???

PLACE OF BIRTH: norcal!

CURRENT LOCATION: socal!

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: contemplating either downloading a dating app or wandering into the mist. but neither of those sound appealing so im just smashing my lil ocs together to make them kith

LAST MOVIE: ...barbie??? a few months ago??? i dont watch a lot of movies rip

CURRENTLY WORKING ON: i had a big painting day so ive got a couple cloud paintings + a self portrait going on. also wrapping up the donation commissions! always actium always. im also rewriting my jjk oc fic grave + weep so im in the middle of outlining that. dbtw is also there but i got stuck on this chap and just couldn't push through... i need the twc brainrot to come back in full in order to push through. also also also a new dnd campaign! still have to work on the actual stat blocks and maps (paris and i are also making a city map together!) but i have a lot of arcs outlined. very excited to start that up!

[galaxae]

✨ & 🍀 for the oc ask game!! idk if i'm supposed to say an oc with this so just go with whomever you want

i'm gonna pick a few different ocs to go through these with! specifically ocs i haven't done any other asks for yet

also this turned out very long. so im putting it under a keep reading

✨- How did you come up with the OC’s name?

> kimberly rose forest: i don't remember the specifics, but i know that her surname "forest" goes with the nature theming of her story and the other characters within it. forests specifically are a common setting. her first and middle names were sort of meant to evoke "oh this is a rich person"

> farhan "blue flower" ahmad: within the canon, farhan was named for his grandmother, farah. his first name also means "happy" in arabic, which i chose specifically because farhan is not a happy person. he acts cheerful, but that forced, toxic optimism is a coping mechanism for a godawful childhood. "ahmad" means "the most praised" (there's more to it culturally but i'm not an expert), which i found kinda funny as a family name for him since his older sister gets all the praise from their mom and farhan himself gets none of it. his superhero name, blue flower, is not based on any superpowers (farhan has none), but rather, based on the first healthy relationship he had. he asked his late ex on their first date what his favorite flower was, and his ex replied that he didn't think about it much, but he liked blue flowers because they stood out to him, given his red-green colorblindness. it took a few years of processing and a lot of growth as a hero, but farhan settled on the name "blue flower" to honor that ex, as well as his sister and her partner, who trained him to be a hero and who also enjoyed flowers. as a bonus, it also honored his grandmother, who had a flower garden in her front yard, and she's his namesake! it all comes full circle.

> sebastian "ice dust" yun: including his superhero name for fun. "sebastian" means "venerable, revered", which is fitting because this man is a celebrity superhero. "yun" is a common surname in china, which is his father's nation of origin. that one was chosen less for the meaning and more because "sebastian yun" sounds cool together, in my humble opinion. "ice dust" is. well. he has ice superpowers.

🍀 - What originally inspired the OC?

> kimberly: first, i made my oc ace back in 2017ish. they were for a completely different project, but then i started thinking about them again in 2018, and i thought, hey, their name is card-themed, let's make some friends for them who are based on card suits! kimberly was made around the diamond card suit. her original design and personality were heavily inspired by that. traces of that are still very much present in her current iteration.

> farhan: he was created in tandem with his older sister, the latter of whom was my player character in the first masks campaign i ever played in. farhan was meant to serve as a sort of "annoying but ultimately sweet and supportive little sibling" npc for her, so i made him obsessed with superheroes and i made their family dynamic an absolute fucking mess. then, for another masks campaign, i thought it might be funny to play farhan a few years later, where his sister is an adult and he's old enough to be a hero himself. i took his original characterization as an npc and i expanded on it. he was also "the beacon" playbook, a la robin teen titans, no superpowers but a whole lot of determination and unarmed combat skills. that informed his characterization too.

> sebastian: so actually, he's based on farhan! long story short: later on in his life, farhan (a superhero with a fucking bonkers backstory, who goes on wild missions and gets injured constantly) marries the world's most normal and mundane guy. their dynamic was very funny to me. i wanted to adapt that kind of relationship into a different story, a romcom about the world's most normal guy (who in this case would be the protagonist) getting asked out on a date by a celebrity superhero. sebastian is the celebrity superhero there.

[idontsleep15]

Hello reader! It's been quite a while, hasn't it? A lot has changed since the last time I have written to you guys, and I wanna give you guys the update you deserve so nonetheless, let's get started!

A little bit after my last post, school started; a nightmare for anyone with social anxiety and a knack to not talk to people because of it. Learning my classes was a breeze as i had some of the same teachers as last year (for different classes, of course). My classes aren't as important to this recollection, though; simply because it's probably the most boring part.

Last month, I made a few friends and became closer with some acquaintances. Kat and Kostya in particular. Kostya is someone i met through my ex last year, but he stuck around, and now we're closer friends! Kat is someone i met more recently online only to learn that we go to the same school! We all play Minecraft and talk about silly stuff with some other acquaintances. It's been quite nice having them around. I appreciate them both a lot.

Kat even came with me to get my septum pierced! (Which i got done on the 9th of this month! It's been healing just fine! I've been cleaning it twice a day or when needed. Currently, it's day 14 out of 42 of healing!)

Me and Kat are starting a DnD campaign! With me being the DM! I've been working on the story a lot but have taken a slight break from writing it due to burnout from other factors.

For this next part, im going to need to give some specific context to my relationship with someone.

In 6th grade, I met N (shortened for privacy). We became acquaintances, and then covid started. 7th grade my school was doing a and b days, and we never really saw each other, so we drifted a bit. In 8th grade, we didn't even recognize each other but met again and became acquaintances again. In 9th grade, I started sitting with them on the bus and have been since.

After this school year started, N started to sit with me at lunch. We've become closer since, and now, we're dating. We've been together for almost 3 months; but, I fear I may have rushed myself. Recently, I haven't been able to focus on myself. School and family and new friends have been demanding of me lately, and I haven't been able to focus on me or my mental health. I've been finding myself neglected by the person who should care the most, and that person is me. My negligence has led me down a path of self isolation and sadness, and I fear i may not be treating N right. I don't want to lose her, but I know the only right solution is to let go. I'm currently very conflicted in myself, in how i feel emotionally and physically, and answering these questions is too much for me to handle alone.

Thank you for reading this far! Have a splendid day/night!

[heartscaffold]

there's a jojo ttrpg character i used to be obsessed with and i want to revisit his story so bad but without the stuff added by the game master of the campaign he's from because SHE SUUUUUCKS

(this art is almost 4 years old wow time flies)

zucca amaretto i miss you so much... my beautiful identity stealing sheriff with a disorder who misses his wife and has done nothing wrong in his life ever

i am not joking when i say i was obsessed with the guy btw, he was probably the first ttrpg character i was so heavily invested in. i genuinely considered writing a standalone story of his life before the events of the campaign, aka how he met his girlfriend, his atrocious relationship with his older brother salvia, that time he got roped into murdering their father (who's also terrible) without knowing about it, escaping a death sentence years after the fact because his brother accused him of killing their dad etc etc

his stand is called the ride the lightning after the metallica album & song and it's a whip that has an electric current running through it! its main use to connect to the nervous system of whoever it touches and cause the muscles there to contract, taking control of that person's body essentially. it's like that because zucca wants to have control over the people in his life because he doesn't want them to leave. he is very normal

his beloved is one maria mandorla, a young italian woman whose family has been in awful financial trouble for years, and as such her parents have been looking for a husband to marry her off to so they could leech off them both. unfortunately for maria, their choice was zucca's brother who is a total creep

between all of this, a genuine connection between zucca and maria begins to blossom as they see the other as a refuge from their awful families, and it's not long until that the both of them start having feelings for each other

salvia sees his little brother as a burden and a potential romantic rival so at some point when they're all grown up he reports him to the authorities for their father's murder from years ago (which salvia was mostly responsible for and just strung zucca along) to get rid of him once and for all, a kangaroo court is in place and zucca is sentenced to death. oops

thanks to some major string pulling and the coinciding major world event of the president of the united states funny valentine going missing (yes this campaign took place shortly after steel ball run) zucca manages to flee for the us where he can have a fresh start. he takes on the identity of a late sheriff in a small town and also gets stuck in the devil's palm at some point where he gets his stand idk

the events of the campaign proceed after that point but im not gonna recite them because it kinda sucked!!!!

but yeah do you see why 2020 me went crazy about this character now.

i dont have a lot of his art archived so im sharing what i got on hand

i will always miss him he was so cool thank you for reading this post

[imperialmask]

Homeworld Bound: Afterthoughts A Very Late Notice

Hello guys, sorry for putting this out on a Wednesday, bad form ik but i'll explain why that is.

I've been hard at work on a lot of stuff lately, in fact i'd say it was a miracle i kept HWB running weekly for 7 weeks despite the amount of pressure i got from coursework, exams, other projects im working on, my physical and my mental health but it's all finally caught up with me. You may have noticed chapter 7 was shorter and ended weirdly, that's because i didn't spend nearly enough time working on it, wanted to end it a certain way but realised that it didn't lead into anything, atleast this is the reason for the weird cliffhanger i barely followed up on.

This leaves me in a really tight predicament for Chapter 8 which is THE chapter i've been ping ponging on for awhile, it keeps swapping between 3 different ideas for what should happen that i keep forgetting which one im going with in the moment. So i've decided to do something weird since i'll be honest, i don't have a fresh chapter to give you guys today. Instead, i'm going to do a sort of part 2 to Chapter 7, it'll still be Chapter 7 but just continuing off the last line.

This isn't the only reason why i've been struggling, like i mentioned before i've been extremely busy as of late since i had 2 bits of coursework and an exam all due in on the same day as Chapter 7 (June 5th), plus i've come down with something like a cold (not sure what it is) which has been sapping any energy i have to do work on HWB. After this week, i'll be free to do work on HWB but i wouldn't be shocked if i do take a break next Wednesday (and maybe the Wednesday after that) to recoop after the extreme amount of work i've done lately. Hey, maybe i'll blow off steam with a Lyrics chapter, who knows!

So yeah, all that complaining out the way, let's talk about the content of HWB. I'd love feedback if anyone out there has any, especially on whether i should focus on being descriptive or focus on action or focus on character. I'm not 100% sure on what's the right way to go here.

Something i do want to start doing is filling chapters with 2 stories like a TV show, swapping between the 2 for a more episodic feel every chapter. It makes little sense in this format until you realise HWB ultimate goal is to be a TV show at some point, this whole series is just a first draft. A bad one, i'll say that, but a first draft none the less.

We're almost out of the woods when it comes to this boring opening arc, i'm not the happiest camper with these chapters but they'll have to do i guess. We have only about 2 more chapters until the end of this small opening before we genuinely get into London Calling and that arc, that'll last for about another 10 chapters and then we get onto full on new content. Anyway, instead of a teaser, here's a synopsis of the next 4 chapters!

Homeworld Bound Chapter 8- Alien Vs Zombie The anticipated Mick and Gas Mask Fight has finally arrived. A duel to determine the leader of Gold Squad on looked by it's members, as Mick starts to pull out all the stops to guarantee a victory, Gas Mask must find a way to get around Mick's Manipulation. Can Mick stop Gas Mask's brutal onslaught of attacks or will Gas Mask fall to Mick's constant shifting around the battlegrounds? Lets find out!

Homeworld Bound Chapter 9- Your Worst Enemy Red, a nobleman and well respected hero of Salem, and his squad mate Minos, the deadliest marksman COG has to offer, set off to stop a squad of soldiers that have broken into Salem. Meanwhile, Mega begins his training with Kip, showing him how to do magic.

Homeworld Bound Chapter 10- London Calling: Absolute At a campaign rally for the upcoming election, an assassin attempts to take Jones life. Dan chases him in pursuit to find out where he comes from. At the same time, another squad of soldiers led by a dangerous Rogue break into Reverend Bay to free the original group that was captured.

Homeworld Bound Chapter 11- London Calling: Kings and Thrones Mick and Dan head to London to meet the new King of Britannica who supposedly has information about the assassin who attempted to kill Jones. While they're there, Leech and the Salem Watch's professional scout Kate search for their own clues.

Alright, see ya!

[paperbagsandwich]

omgosh thats more than fair!!

!! Gotta love a couple of dorks, i know i do also awww bless thats so sweet and cute!! Please tell me about them (if you want to of course!!)

Im glad you think so!! It really shows in cartoon redesigns ive done and a few cute lil creatures (strawberry shortcake, moon dreamers, carebears, a love bug and some other stuff)

same!! My fav ghibli film is kiki's delivery service. If i were to rank my top 5 it would be kiki, arriety, howl, nausicaä and ponyo. Do you have any fav games? Mine are stardew valley, skyrim and sonic adventure 2.

it really is!! Thinking of a character for ages and finally managing to draw them how you imagine them is such an amazing feeling!! I make a bunch of random designs as well and just putting together the inspiration and the aesthetics of the character to make something new ane beautiful is just so fun!!

Thats so cool and awsome im so happy you managed to do it !! I love campaign stuff (ive played 4 campaigns of dnd with different characters and I've been so happy with each of them!!)

id happily ramble about any of my oc ideas if youd like!! If there's any in particular that you want to hear more about please tell me!

also please don't worry about replying late! I don't mind, take as much time as you need! You, your life and your mental health come first!!!

Well, the main constant thing about them is that Ros is mostly an anime nerd and she's been trying to get Darnell into too but alas...

Ros loves trying new things while Darnell is kinda complacent with things being the same but is also down to support her just to keep her happy. He doesn't want to drag her down and he loves seeing her excited for something.

I don't really have a whole about there son, but he's a very sweet 3 year old that loves to help like a big boy.

He also has a bit of a raspy voice despite being a toddler, but he's perfectly fine.

Yeah, I can definitely see that!!!

OOOH, I don't think I've ever heard of Nausicaä before?? Maybe it's a film I've missed or I've must've heard of it by a different name?

I don't really play a whole lot of games but I do enjoy playing Animal Crossing and Miitopia. They're just so fun and simple.

And YYYYEEEEAAAAHHHAHAHAHAHAAA, just finally having the set design that perfectly matches what you have in mind, I LOVE THAT FEELING!!!! And yes, I love putting together character by using different designs together. I have one that I'm very proud of but it's a character for the campaign and one of the players actually do follow this blog... but I'm pretty sure they'll know who when they see them... 😏

OOOH, I wanna hear more about the Werewolf and the baker, actually!! 😭😭

And also, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH, you're too sweet!!!! 😭🥺😭🥺

[zoppzoop]

hello lish tis the monthly council who hopes ur doing some variant/s of good, well, wonderful, fine, dandy, rested, reposed, lavished and leisurely in these hours, and if not, will be doing soon. hello!! hope ur good, how u doing?? just wanted to let yk ur art is like a cookie to me i see it everytime and i want to eat it while flaking crumbs all over me and assembling them afterwards so that i can have more of it. ur animatics!!!!! im too speechless to say in tags but know that they blow my mind always!!!!! hope ur good and having a fun time!! do tell me 5 songs u love listening to rn or anything u want to talk abt!!! have a good day!! (solar)

also ps im not sure if tumblr is eating my asks?? but i did try to send u valentine cards and if they reached, yay<3 and if not, happy (belated) valentine's day to this site's belovedest user<3

hello solar my beloved i love and adore you and your regular check ins so much <3 not doing too great at the moment but hopefully things turn up for the better <333 also 🥺 thank you so much i love seeing the tags you leave on my art and i regularly keep going back to them <3333333

the 5 songs! oh um!!! pacific by chase petra, from the start by good kid, smoke with the devil by kian stone <3, allies or enemies by the crane wives and the sureshot by nathan hanover <33 ive been so deep into the jrwi podcast lately, i'm like almost done with my second listen-through for the whole riptide campaign and yeah <33 i cant wait for this semester to end so that i can go back home and be less burdened with managing my finances so that i can get the patreon content and listen to the rest of the campaigns theyve got <3

also ps, i did your valentines ask! and i replied to it with an ask of my own saying that i wanted to keep it in my inbox forever because yeah <3 hoarding it <33 but it seems maybe tumblr ate that ask?? because i do remember sending it that day itself-

anyways! happy (belated) valentines day to you as well <333333333 and thank you so much for that ask i appreciated it a LOT and it made me very happy <3333

[pesterloglog]

Dave Strider, Karkat Vantas

Meat, page 38

DAVE: hey

DAVE: want to get drunk

KARKAT: HUH?

DAVE: i went and got all this fucking booze

KARKAT: YOU *GOT* BOOZE?

DAVE: yeah check it

KARKAT: YOU ACTUALLY WENT AND *GOT* IT.

KARKAT: LIKE, YOU LITERALLY LEFT THE HOUSE AND EXCHANGED CURRENCY WITH A REAL, LIVE PERSON TO OBTAIN ALCOHOL.

DAVE: yeah i walked into the boozery all pigeon toed and embarrassed

DAVE: like some fuckin hooch noob

DAVE: was all like yo whats the most pathetic thing you got to drink yourself to death with

KARKAT: THE BOOZERY???

DAVE: passed right by the box wine

DAVE: the bagged wine

DAVE: the shots they put in those little blister packs by the register

DAVE: the wine in the little sippy cups with the disposable plastic straws like juice for fucking babies

DAVE: i made that last one up i dont actually know anything about alcohol

DAVE: anyway two plastic soda bottles of vodka cooler seems to be about where were at right now

DAVE: i think thats what this is anyway

DAVE: i dont really care long as it gets the job done

DAVE: i decided that im an alcoholic now

KARKAT: HAVE YOU NOW.

DAVE: yeah

DAVE: its never too late to develop a substance abuse problem

DAVE: ive been thinking about it for a while and it seems like its time for me to finally get on the wagon of not being on the wagon

KARKAT: THAT’S REALLY GREAT, DAVE.

DAVE: thanks

DAVE: anyway hows the inauguration

DAVE: you having a good time dwelling on every tiny little factor that cumulatively led to our electoral defeat

DAVE: and how if just one thing had been different it would have been us up there

KARKAT: UGH.

KARKAT: YOU AND I BOTH KNOW NOTHING MATTERED IN THAT CAMPAIGN BUT JAKE’S FUCKING SPEECH.

DAVE: yeah

DAVE: i mean, like

DAVE: i just keep imagining what wouldve happened if that absurd rube goldberg machine of life ruining humiliation had been stopped at any point

DAVE: maybe just being backstabbed by his endorsement alone was something we couldve recovered from with some rigorous counter campaigning

DAVE: but what if i had been fast enough to cut him off before hed even said anything

DAVE: what if i hadnt accidentally fallen on him on the stage when i was rushing over there to stop him

DAVE: what if he hadnt freaked out like i set off fireworks next to a nam vet and started trying to fucking scrum me

DAVE: what if id just backed away from his punch with my legs like a normal person instead of warping the flow of time to escape causing him to become so startled he shit his pants

DAVE: what if i hadnt gotten so visibly grossed out by the smell that even the people watching it on tv could tell what had happened

DAVE: what if he hadnt started sobbing when the audience in the front rows started throwing up

DAVE: what if wed had better security and stopped that lady from running onstage during the fracas and announcing that jake has been dodging paying child support for their 3 kids

DAVE: like what was the LINE

KARKAT: IT WASN’T... *THAT* BAD.

DAVE: you think

DAVE: yeah see thats why im an alcoholic now

DAVE: want a drink

KARKAT: IF I’M BEING PERFECTLY FUCKING HONEST

KARKAT: I’M GLAD I LOST. I NEVER WANTED TO FUCKING WIN IN THE FIRST PLACE.

DAVE: dude come on

KARKAT: NO, I’M BEING SERIOUS.

KARKAT: I’M NOT EVEN DOING SOME SOUR GRAPES “I NEVER WANTED IT IN THE FIRST PLACE BECAUSE I’M A SORE LOSER TRYING TO DELUDE MYSELF INTO THINKING I DON’T CARE” SORT OF THING.

KARKAT: OBVIOUSLY I FUCKING CARE SINCE NOW THE PLANET IS GOING TO BE COMPLETELY RUINED BY THIS JUMPED-UP FASCIST DICTATOR WHO HAS EVERY INTENTION OF GRADUALLY GENOCIDING MY SPECIES INTO NONEXISTENCE BEFORE MY VERY EYES.

KARKAT: BUT I CANNOT FUCKING THINK OF A SINGLE THING IN THE UNIVERSE I WANTED TO DO LESS THAN BE THE STUPID FUCKING PRESIDENT.

KARKAT: THANK HUMAN OBAMA.

DAVE: wait was there a troll obama

KARKAT: I’M THE FUCKING TROLL OBAMA, REMEMBER?

DAVE: karkat

DAVE: you wouldve been so much more than obama

KARKAT: HEY.

DAVE: yeah buddy whats up

KARKAT: I JUST...

DAVE: hey dont worry about it

DAVE: you dont have to explain yourself to me

DAVE: i get it

DAVE: it makes sense. id always felt the same way kind of

DAVE: like about all my shit with sburb and whatever. the reluctant heros journey

DAVE: that feeling where youre being dragged along to being a kind of guy everyone is saying you have to be but youve never felt like theres any way you can really BECOME

DAVE: where every second you feel so sick with your own self doubt and fear that you cant bear to even imagine the future

DAVE: and you think

DAVE: why me

DAVE: even though you know it cant be anyone but you

DAVE: and thats why you do it

KARKAT: YEAH.

DAVE: lol

KARKAT: I WASN’T TRYING TO EXPLAIN MYSELF, THOUGH.

KARKAT: I JUST WANTED TO THANK YOU.

DAVE: huh

DAVE: for what

KARKAT: FOR... EVERYTHING.

KARKAT: EVEN IF WE DIDN’T WIN, I’M GLAD WE TRIED.

KARKAT: I’M GLAD WE WENT THROUGH THIS TOGETHER.

DAVE: me too

KARKAT: MORE THAN ANYTHING, I... YOU...

KARKAT: YOU BELIEVE IN ME IN A WAY NOBODY EVER HAS BEFORE.

KARKAT: MORE THAN I’VE EVER BEEN ABLE TO BELIEVE IN MYSELF.

KARKAT: AND I’VE NEVER REALLY...

KARKAT: FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE.

DAVE: felt like what

KARKAT: I MEAN, LIKE

KARKAT: YOU KNOW.

KARKAT: IT’S NOT LIKE I’VE NEVER HAD FRIENDS BEFORE. PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT.

KARKAT: BUT WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME THEY CARE ABOUT ME, ON SOME LEVEL IT’S HARD FOR ME TO REALLY BUY IT.

KARKAT: THEY CAN LIST WHATEVER JUSTIFICATIONS THEY HAVE FOR LIKING ME AND IT ALL FEELS LIKE BULLSHIT.

KARKAT: IT’S LIKE, ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? YOU CAN’T REALLY EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE YOU SERIOUSLY THINK THIS ABOUT ME.

KARKAT: THERE’S NO WAY YOU ACTUALLY SEE ME THAT WAY.

KARKAT: YOU JUST FEEL BAD FOR ME. YOU’RE TALKING DOWN TO ME LIKE I’M SOME SORT OF PATHETIC WIGGLER WHO NEEDS TO BE CODDLED.

KARKAT: OR YOU’RE JUST IMAGINING I’M WHATEVER WAY YOU WISH I WOULD BE, SOME PERSON WHO’S BETTER AND SMARTER AND STRONGER AND KINDER AND MORE VALUABLE THAN THE PERSON I REALLY AM.

KARKAT: I CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY ANYONE I CARE ABOUT WOULD EVER WASTE THEIR FUCKING TIME ON ME.

KARKAT: BUT WITH YOU...

KARKAT: BUT WITH YOU, IT MAKES SENSE. I GUESS.

KARKAT: WHEN YOU SAY SOMETHING NICE TO ME, I’M LIKE... YEAH? OK?

KARKAT: THAT’S COMPREHENSIBLE? I SEE HOW YOU GOT FROM POINT A TO POINT B.

KARKAT: I CAN KNOW YOU THE WAY I DO AND THINK ABOUT WHO YOU ARE AND I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY YOU’D WANT SOMEONE LIKE ME BESIDE YOU.

KARKAT: I DON’T HAVE TO WONDER WHAT’S MISSING.

KARKAT: YOU’RE ON MY LEVEL. AND I’M ON YOURS.

KARKAT: I BELIEVE THAT YOU SEE ME IN FRONT OF YOU THE WAY I ACTUALLY AM, FOR BETTER OR WORSE, AND STILL LIKE ME ANYWAY.

KARKAT: SO EVEN THOUGH IT’S STILL HARD FOR ME TO BELIEVE IN MYSELF A LOT OF THE TIME,

KARKAT: I BELIEVE IN YOU, SO I DON’T NEED TO.

DAVE: so what youre saying is you believe in me who believes in you

KARKAT: YEAH, KIND OF?

KARKAT: FUCK, MAN. THAT’S KIND OF DEEP.

DAVE: i know

KARKAT: SO, YEAH.

KARKAT: THAT’S WHAT I’VE NEVER REALLY FELT BEFORE.

KARKAT: AND I’M GLAD YOU’RE...

KARKAT: THAT WE’RE...

KARKAT: I’M GLAD YOU’RE MY FRIEND, DAVE.

DAVE: oh

DAVE: same

DAVE: so...

KARKAT: IS SOMETHING WRONG?

DAVE: huh

DAVE: no

DAVE: sorry i just had an absolutely insane train of thought that kind of sent me for a loop

KARKAT: UHH... WHAT?

DAVE: no its extremely better that i dont tell you

DAVE: i kind of forgot what we were talking about because it was so awful

KARKAT: ...

DAVE: oh right

DAVE: yeah

DAVE: all that shit you said about us being friends and on the same level or whatever

DAVE: yeah i feel the same way basically

DAVE: or like

DAVE: well

KARKAT: WHAT?

DAVE: im not sure that i like...

DAVE: hm.

DAVE: im kind of getting the feeling that... maybe...

DAVE: theres a level to what were thinking that isnt entirely coming across in words

DAVE: and since we dont have the right words we arent getting to the right actions either

KARKAT: WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT.

DAVE: like maybe we feel the same way about certain things

DAVE: but what were saying and what were feeling

DAVE: maybe those arent exactly the same thing

DAVE: and maybe... we should...

KARKAT: WE SHOULD WHAT?

DAVE: maybe its time to

DAVE: talk

DAVE: about... that

KARKAT: THAT???

DAVE: yeah, like

DAVE: how... when you say were friends

DAVE: what... does that mean

KARKAT: THAT WE’RE FRIENDS?

DAVE: yeah but

DAVE: is that it?

DAVE: just friends

KARKAT: OF COURSE NOT.

KARKAT: YOU’RE MY...........

KARKAT: B......

KARKAT: ......EST FRIEND.

DAVE: oh

DAVE: i see

DAVE: well

DAVE: ok then

KARKAT: D... DAVE?

DAVE: karkat

DAVE: i

DAVE: i think i

DAVE: wait

DAVE: fuck

KARKAT: WHAT’S WRONG?

KARKAT: DID I DO SOMETH—

DAVE: no

DAVE: i just cant

DAVE: shit

DAVE: it just feels like

DAVE: what the fuck is going on

DAVE: this feels really off

KARKAT: ????

DAVE: idk

DAVE: i just keep having thoughts i know id never think

KARKAT: WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?

DAVE: i have no idea

DAVE: im sorry

DAVE: GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD AND JUST LET ME DO THIS MYSELF!!!

KARKAT: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DAVE: dude

DAVE: come here...

[rianafying]

i’m on tumblr again about to journal so hard. anyway, i’ve been extremely busy and overwhelmed lately, with school and work. some would say i’m doing better than ever but i would say i am living in an internal prison hell of my own creation and my therapist would say i have a fear of success. she did actually say that. and after reading a couple of articles it makes a lot of sense. i have a huge problem. imposter syndrome and always downplaying my achievements god knows why. well god didn’t tell me but i found out why. it’s scary, being in the spotlight especially after experiencing so much bullying throughout my life. now i’m not scared of the direct bullying but i find myself actively sabotaging my own life. for example: i’m doing this podcast and so i’m researching relevant topics. after i learn about the topics, i feel worthless and like why would i make this podcast, if i know this information surely it’s either useless or wrong or everyone already knows better. i’m scared of putting my hand up and lately i’ve somehow developed crippling social anxiety, which is completely undetectable to the people around me. turns out i’m an introvert. i mean i kinda knew it but it’s been very relevant to finding the perspective that is keeping me alive recently. i’m doing great and somehow i hate it. i want to rip my skin and hair out and it makes no sense. i need to get on some sort of adhd medication at some point in life because raw dogging it is proving to be too exhausting for this poor brain. my assignments have been going kind of really well and yet i feel like i’m flopping harder than ever. no matter what i achieve it feels like the bare minimum and nothing i could do would actually make me happy. what is this hell i have placed myself in. at least i’m not screwing up. but i’m always this close to screwing up. the best i do is not screw up. somebody literally offered me extra money for my work because they liked it so much and i’m here still wondering if i let everyone down. aaaaaaaaaaagahsgshsjskkdjjdks. talking about my fear of success sounds an awful lot like i’m bragging, but i’m done with this part of today’s journal entry so let’s move onto other things that are bothering me.

my cousin and my little sister are both going through hell with their uni applications and as big sister ™️ it is often my responsibility to help them out and i love them so much and i’m so so glad that they value my input so much that they come to me with their problems and have me check their essays and applications. and i love helping people especially the people i love so much but sometimes i really just can’t find the time and i forget to get back to them and it makes me feel awful!!!! but i try my best, they know i try my best and they love me so it’s okay.

number three is that im fucking broke, i do fun work and fun work in the fashion industry pays very little. im often doing very cool projects with student designers or little emerging brands and underground artists and obviously they can’t pay the way big corporations do and im so grateful for whatever they give me and for the opportunity to work with them, but at some point im gonna need to find a steady job. i’ve been talking about this for exactly a year and a half now. a lot of problems in my life will be automatically resolved as soon as i get a job. this summer inshallah.

there’s always so many little things to remember and i do my best to keep track of them by putting them in my calendar and my master to do list and my notebook and anywhere and everywhere literally plastered all over everything. it’s kind of overwhelming but the top things im worries about rn are my business presentation, my collab, my interview, the photoshoot for the social media marketing campaign, the blog posts, the exam, to return some stuff i borrowed from designers and the hair makeup gig. all of this needs to happen before the 12th of december, after which i am fully dedicated to finding and doing fully paid steady work in retail or hospitality.

oh i’m also worried about not sending back the pictures i took for my photoshoot, because i’m not happy with the quality of my work. hahah crippling imposter syndrome and self hatred check!!

and my relatives are visiting me this week in my tiny studio apartment that’s messy (as always) (actually not as always, it’s much cleaner than ever before i’m actually getting better at this). there’s just a few too many things on my mind.

it’s gonna be okay though. things are going well, despite how i feel, despite all the fears i have, despite all the complaining, the reality is that i’m killing it. and i’m gonna listen to my therapist and try to have a goo

[sitsonatable]

I AM DONE I HACVE FINISHED i put it bellow the break if u wanna read it :DDDDDD in actually kinda proud of it

chat im so good at formal writing (lying through my teeth)

What was the effect of Dungeons & Dragons on society?

            When people think about the table-top game Dungeons & Dragons, many things might come to mind. Some may think about their favorite D&D podcast or recorded campaigns, while others may just imagine it as that nerdy game from Stranger Things. Either way, Dungeons & Dragons has become a topic of the public’s interest over the years. The game is renowned for its ability to bring people together through the process of world building and imagination. According to Denis Storey from Psychiatrist.Com, “The game’s collaborative and creative nature fosters a sense of control and emotional connection, helping players deal with real-life feelings of powerlessness” (par. 1). The platform of the game gives a reason for people to meet, and keep meeting, for hours on end and bond over their collaborative stories. That kind of human connection over shared creativity is difficult to emulate elsewhere.

            Although D&D started as a niche hobby, confined to people’s basements, it gradually started to take off in the table-top community. “Within its first decade, D&D sales soared to more than $16 million a year” (Smithsonian Magazine, par. 5). The game was spreading through game tables and comic stores with a cult-like following. This year marked the 50th anniversary of the game and has acquired around 12 variants, with more likely on the way. With all this success, Dungeons & Dragons went on to breach the medium of paper and pencil, inspiring many different forms of media.

For most, the fact that it got its own movie alone would be enough to solidify its standing in the public consciousness, but its reach extends far past that. The “Baldur’s Gate” series is a video game franchise based on the lore of the most common setting of D&D, the “Forgotten Realms”. In the past few years, the franchise has gone on to partner with Wizards of the Coast and Hasbro (the owners of the Dungeons & Dragons domain) and create their third installment, a game aptly titled “Baldur’s Gate 3”. This game uses most of the mechanics of 5th edition D&D and follows the lore of the forgotten realms and expands on it in a way that rivals the game itself, with hundreds of different story paths and unique options. All of this to say, this game is highly derived from Dungeons & Dragons, which makes it even more influential that in 2023, “Baldur’s Gate 3” was the first to be named Game of the Year in all five major video game award shows. D&D’s impact on the way we interact with, and view media and role-playing games (RPGs) as a whole is far greater than it seems from the surface.

Step 4: Reflection

I realized far too late that my writing about the video game Baldur’s Gate 3 was getting far longer than my first paragraph, so I had to split the second paragraph in two (I really like that game). I also really like Dungeons & Dragons and feel that translated very transparently in my writing. The language I used was formal enough to be recognizable as an intellectual source, while still being familiar enough to be welcoming to my target audience (people who like video/table-top games and want to know more about them). I apologize profusely if the paragraphs are longwinded and all-over-the-place, this topic is extremely interesting to me and is very close to my heart. :D

Week 3, Day 1, 9/9/2024

hhhhh didnt finish the last 4 assignments from last week ok thats FINE

im goingnto do 2-3 assignments daily but i am high so. latr

WEEK 3 TO DO:

econ

1.08 quiz

1.09 assignment

english

1.03 assignment

1.04 assignment

4.04 quiz

4.05 assignment

US gov

1.05 assignment

1.06 quiz

1.07 assignment

1.08 quiz

peer counseling

5.05 DBA

vocal techniques

2.02 performance

[internetgremlin-writes]

Hi!! Im not sure your prompt night is still open or not so feel free to ignore this, but congrats on 1.3k either way!! Could I request Seb Vettel with prompt number 90?? Something fluffy if possible, thank you!! <3

90 - “If I ask you to kiss me in front of all these people, will you do it?”

oooo go on then. How could I possibly ignore Seb?

This is the last one for tonight because it's getting super late. I have some pre-reading and work to do before I go on placement on Monday so I won't be writing consistently over the bank holiday weekend but will try to chuck out a bunch more during my breaks each day. Every request is getting done i promise <3

love that i've managed to scare you guys into specifying fluff bc you know i will make it sad otherwise. On another note. Seb's smileee

Secret relationships were never easy, you knew that. But it came with the territory, and you were willing to accept it. It made sense, paparazzi just loved to catch drivers on dates and then stir up stories about them seeing multiple people at once until it blew up into a big scandal.

When Sebastian Vettel had asked you out, you were hesitant at first. Dating people in the F1 industry was pretty normal. You were one of the few female engineers, and you'd grown up working in a male-dominated field. You were used to male attention and awkward dates with colleagues. But there are awkward dates with colleagues and then there's been asked out by a four-time world champion and one of your heroes of the sport.

You'd met Seb when he joined Aston Martin, and you'd never been happier to be put on the team managing the green car with a number 5 on it.

Sebastian had a reputation of being a terrible flirt, and you were concerned that as the only female on his team, he'd see you as anything less than your peers. But he didn't. He was interested and respectful, he asked you questions, he wanted your opinion. Several times he stopped one of your co-workers from talking over you when you were mid-point in a meeting.

He'd asked you out over a year ago now, bringing you a coffee because he'd noticed that for the third night in a row you were working until you were the last one in the garage. You were so tired you told him you loved him when he pressed the machine latte into your hand.

It took him a week to coax you into going on a date with him. You liked him, of course, you did. Working with him had given you time to get to know him for more than his reputation. He was sweet and kind, funny - he could make you laugh even on the worst days, so incredibly stubborn, he cared about politics and human rights, he gave a lot of his money away to charities, he was heading an environmental campaign. And he was drop-dead gorgeous in his own understated, scruffy way. But you were terrified of him, of the attention it would thrust on you, of what the media would say if they caught a whiff of it.

He promised you that it would be okay to keep it a secret. He didn't mind, he understood. Of course, he did; he was bloody perfect.

And everything had been going perfectly. You'd moved in with him in Switzerland. It was new and completely different but you adored it there. Seb was a master at avoiding the media, and he knew all the safest spots. Most of the time you didn't even have to think about your relationship. Even when you were working with him, he was very professional, and when the wins started trickling in he was so swamped with the attention that no one questioned his head engineer giving him a hug.

It was in Abu Dhabi that everything changed. Out of nowhere, Aston Martin had managed to pull a car together that Seb had just taken to. It was like he was one with it again, and then he started scoring points. And then podiums. And then wins. It was like his Red Bull days, except a lot more green and a few fewer parties. And now you were standing in the garage in the pit line, your nails bitten completely down to the quick as Seb was in a locked-out battle with Max Verstappen. It was one of those awfully exciting final races, where the world champion needed to win the race to get those last few points.

You screamed yourself hoarse when the nose of your green baby tipped through that chequered flag. The entire garage erupted around you, the energy crackling through the place was untouchable. Seb was dancing on his car, some arms stuck out in an odd flapping dance that was probably mimicking the wings of the logo. You were so proud of him, of both of you, because it had taken so many late nights sat up, you tinkering with parts and him studying tracks to do it.

What you didn't expect was your boss approaching you. The team didn't win the Constructor's championship, but because Seb had won the last race there was still a constructor's trophy that needed collecting. You weren't sure you were hearing properly when you were asked if you'd do the honours.

"On the podium?" You squeaked. Crowds weren't your thing. Seb got wind of what was happening and he'd grabbed your arm and marched you to the podium before you could say anything else.

The ceremony was unreal, it almost felt like an out of body experience. You cried through the German national anthem, and you could tell Seb was too. This had been a long time coming for him and you knew there were no words to describe how badly he wanted it. The weight of the champagne bottle was much heavier than you expected it to be, and shaking it was a challenge, but you managed to get a decent spray. With yourself and Seb from Aston Martin, and Toto, Max and Checo from Red Bull rounding out the podium you found that you'd naturally split into two celebrating groups. You and Seb were spraying each other, his grin devilish and you knew what was coming the second before you felt the cold splash and knew he'd emptied the rest of his bottle directly over your head.

He then took your bottle and shared a very large swig with you. The atmosphere was electric, confetti everywhere and a shower of champagne covering the pair of you. Never in your wildest dreams had you ever thought you'd be able to be celebrating with him on the podium, let alone for his fifth championship crowning.

"If I ask you to kiss me in front of all these people, will you do it?"

Your heart was thudding in your ears. The Red Bulls were celebrating right beside you. The entire grid and all their teams were below you, screaming and shouting and cheering for your boyfriend. No, for the love of your life. Cameras were broadcasting you to millions of people, but the only person Seb was looking at was you. There was only one answer you could give him. There was only one answer you wanted to give him.

You grabbed the collar of his race suit and pulled him down to you, crashing your lips onto his. You felt him smile into the kiss as the noise below you erupted once more, wolf whistles now piercing the night air. He kissed you like there wasn't a soul watching, his arms wrapping around your waist and lifting you slightly off the floor as he did. When he pulled away it wasn't far, his forehead pressed against yours.

"I love you,"

He'd said it before, but it felt different now. The five-time world champion loved you.

"I love you too,"

You picked up the remainder of your bottle of champagne and dumped it out over his head, catching him by surprise and pulling an infectious giggle from him as you did so. You stepped back to run away, but Seb caught you before you could even try to get behind the Red Bulls, who were watching the pair of you with mild amusement.

He pulled you back to him, dipping you down like some kind of Disney character as he kissed you once more, one of your legs lifting off the floor as he supported your arched back. It tasted like champagne.

That photo broke the internet.

It was also framed in almost every room of your home.

[spacevampires]

nobody really talks about how the church of prismatic light is employing cult recruitment tactics

and coming from a cult survivor who's talked to other cult survivors about this i think we really need to start but i do not want to do this alone

that being said if i have to i will, keep in mind i dont associate with them and know im susceptible to it so i have no intention of interacting with them more than necessary

i cant figure out readmores on mobile so please proceed with caution

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one of the big things ive noticed is playing on major political struggles and catering mostly to minorities - dont get me wrong this isnt in and of itself an issue, but paired with the rest of what im about to say sets off red flags

and like. cults dont usually bring up the cult shit right away. they usually try to make stuff seem like common sense - in this case, equality, acceptance, etc. (specifically over-acceptance - we see this with them and their followers attacking people for saying did/osdd-1 are trauma disorders and endos arent really a thing), yeah equality and acceptance ARE good things

but its... the way theyve somehow made it so that im afraid to even vaguely say they give off weird vibes

iirc all of their clergy are women, which is also fine, but tends to play into a motherly/big sister vibe to make them seem more approachable

and the way they talk is very... careful. they try to please everyone to draw in followers, theyre very charismatic, to make it seem like their morals are common sense so everyone can join

and their followers will start to spread this ideology to get you to also join, maybe apply some pressure if a lot of your friends or a lot of people you see are joining or in it

the thing with cults is they play on that to draw people in, and then they'll drop something a little sletchy, but its all in the name of those objectively good things. they might start a smear campaign to further divide followers and non-followers and force people on the fence to pick a side. anyone who doesnt 100% agree with them is persecuted or forced to hide. and as time goes on and you're in it longer, things that aren't great but are done in the name of those things you see as common sense... they just stop being questionable in your mind. potentially very horrible things stop registering as horrible.

and by the time you're in that deep, it's too late. even if you do still question it, your position or membership or status is at risk, so you either have to flee and disappear or risk your life.

i don't know much about the church of prismatic light, i try to stay away from them because i'm sketched out and suspect if we join they'll re-trigger our programming. but i don't trust them, something about them is very very off.

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hnnnnng i have thoughts about essek's newfound want to time travel

like... it's been like a month or two in game since they last saw him? and back on that boat, essek did not regret a single one of his actions (other than hurting the m9), if you gave him the opportunity to do it again with the m9's support, he 100% would have

and i keep thinking about all the metas after 97 that were like, essek is just caleb but like a year behind, and that keeps getting more correct

granted, caleb regretted his action of killing his parents from the moment he did it, but up to that point he had absolutely no doubt he was doing the right thing, or at least the necessary thing, everything he did as a lawful evil 17 year old was incredibly justified in his mind

until it hurt people he cared about

and granted he had his 11 years of mental breakdown that essek didn't and we can argue whether that was all caleb or partially caleb partially feeblemind, but when he came out of it, the first thing his mind went to was time travel

and god that's such a wizard response. because like... when something world shattering happens, the normal response is to try to fix it, do anything to put things back the way they were, it's only because we usually can't do that that people learn to move on from their grief and regret, because otherwise it drags you down and keeps you trapped

but wizards? who's ever been one to tell them they can't do something. they've spent their life studying how to bend reality, and the skilled ones inevitably reach a point where they believe they can do things no one else can, that even if this has never been recorded possible, they'll be the first one to do it, because who else could? they trust completely in their own abilities to either know already how to make something happen, or to figure it out

so, it's almost a childish response, really, because they don't get past the initial "i have to make this back how it was before" to get to the "it's time to move on", because they get stuck on "i can make this how it was before"

and essek's just gotten to that point. he wasn't even feeling the guilt and regret when they first cornered him, not nearly to the extent he has been lately. 97 was an initial shock, now he's had a month or two to stew on it with very little communication from the nein, and the risk of being discovered getting closer and closer. he's gone from insisting the dynasty will never find out what he did, to "i know i am living on borrowed time". and every day that passes it eats at you

that was caleb, when we met him. alone, very few people on his side, a traitor to his nation, knowing if anyone found him he'd be dead, endlessly stuck thinking on his past actions and how badly he wants to go back and change them. essek was even the one who warned him against time travel, warned him that no one who's tried it has ever come back, but now he's in this situation, it's starting to look real tempting. and between him and caleb, how could they possibly fail?

what's interesting is caleb's grown to want that a lot less over time. liam's even said caleb's development went very differently to how he was expecting, he didn't think caleb would turn out like this, he thought a lot more evil and a lot more committed to the time travel plan. but as he's met the nein, travelled with them, seen the world through their eyes, found a family that genuinely loves him, one he hasn't burned to the ground, it's taking a lot of the focus off of that one singular event. it still haunts him, but there are other good things in the world, there are lots of things he's done that he doesn't want to take back, because they were good things. time travel would erase those too. and maybe this world he's living in right now is a good thing, and he can work to change the future, not the past

essek's still in that spot caleb was when we found him. he's alone, he's trapped, people on all sides want to kill him, and nothing is there to distract from the guilt burning a hole through him. fixing it by manually wrenching time to suit his needs, regardless of what it would do to everyone else, is the only thing he can think of doing to help (and, it's a very neutral evil response, despite the fact that successfully doing so, might save thousands of lives, who knows)

but cr, both campaign one and two have been very good with the message "you can make the world better not by changing the past but by investing your energy into changing the future", we first had it with percy, caleb's done it, essek's in the first steps of it

and im interested to see if he gets there