#i know i'm past ng+10

[gazingatmydoom]

gone back to sekiro cos it's been too long and idk what ng cycle i'm in rn but what i do now is that i am currently charmless and true monk is whopping my ass

[buttercupshands]

So.

Act 5, huh?

Oh, and that.

"You can start breakdown now."

Finished the game couple of days ago and had some thoughts I needed to process a little. Like. Yes.

So anyway I actually didn't plan this and just wanted to redraw some sprites to just make sure I understand how to draw Siffrin correctly (still working on that!)

What did I learn from this? How fun it it to draw on a canvas that literally doesn't let you draw with colors without some layer cheating when necessary. Never tried it.

The beans. Sleeping beans.

Basically what happens when you want to sleep AND draw. Draw characters sleeping on your behalf.

Doesn't help, but at least it's cute.

I have no idea what was going on in my mind as I drew this. Feels like a fever dream of 'I want to sleep' at 4 am and 'Hm...' of thinking random things

Also that phone craft sign. Still too funny to imagine. I had to.

[simp4pedropascal75]

bad guy (Joel Miller x Reader)

summary: since joel came to jackson, you only had eyes for him. but he didn't had eyes for you.... well, he did. but he hid behind a facade of a cold, mean asshole.

trigger warnings: 18+, minors dni, mature content included, some angst, fluff, explicit language, mention of guns, smut (f!nger!ng, p in v, mention of daddy k!mk, praising, degrading), age gap (reader in his 20s, joel in his 50s)

words: 2k

a/n: hey guys, so, this is my first post after a long break now. this was my first time writing smut, i'm still learning yk, but I hope you like it! Please keep in my mind that english isn't my first language, so I'm sorry for spelling mistakes and stuff.

Also I wrote this while driving to Croatia and I'm still sitting in the car, so yeah. There'll be a part 2 of this ff:) now, I wish y'all a fun time reading<3

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Why do girls always love the bad guy? Why can’t I just find normal people attractive? And especially men in my age, you think.

Obviously I can’t, because I love Joel fucking Miller.

Since he came with this girl Ellie to Jackson, you couldn’t get him out of your mind. You tried, you really tried. But no, Joel stayed in your mind. Every fucking time he walked past you, butterflies flew in your stomach like crazy. When he looked at you, your heartbeat speeded up. And god, when he talked to you, even for just 10 seconds, you needed to squeeze your legs together, because you couldn’t bear the ache between your legs.

But sadly, he didn’t talked to you often, he didn’t look at you, he just always walked past you. Sometimes you two had to go on patrol, but to be honest, he was an asshole. He didn’t talk much, and when he did, he was mean. He was so cold towards you. The only person where he softened up, was Ellie. You and her got along well, she is a smart girl, with a big mouth, but still smart.

But, what did you expect? He’s like doubled your age. But you always found men, who could be your dad, more attractive than boys in your age. Older men are more mature and… they have experience.

With every boy you slept in your age, has never made you cum, never.

Not to mention your daddy issues.

Actually, you’re on patrol with him right now. It was quiet, very quiet, while you walk through a abounded building with him. You’ve met some clickers on your way, but they were easy to kill. “So, was it already so quiet when Tommy was out on patrol?”, you ask him while you reload your gun. “‘haven’t talked to him”, he answers cold. You look at him confused, because they usually always exchange about their patrols.

“Why didn’t you?”, you ask curiously.

“Why would you care?”, he scoffs and doesn’t even look at you. He stands up and continues to walk.

Asshole.

“We have to move, come on”, he adds. You just roll your eyes at him, get up and follow him. “Well I care, because we have to know what we have to expect.”, you mumble pissed.

He turns around to look at you with a stern look. “If you would shut your fucking mouth, maybe we could hear what we have to expect”

Yeah, that’s it.

“You know what, I don’t fucking care. I understand that we’re definitely not friends, but that doesn’t mean you have to act like the arrogant bastard you are.”, you speak upset. “Guess what, I don’t like you either, but at least I try to be nice to you!”

“Shut up.”, he whispers harshly.

“You want me to shut up?! Did I hurt your ego because someone finally said how you really are, Joel Miller?! I swear I’ll soon kick you in your non-exciting balls-“ He suddenly slams you against the wall and covers your mouth with his hand. “I said, be. quiet.”, he growls quietly. You try to move and push him away, but he’s too strong.

As you give up and stare into his eyes, you hear it too, stalkers.

You feel how the speed of your heartbeat increases and feel the big ache between your legs again, but even stronger as the last time’s. His chest was pressed onto yours and you sense his hot breath on your neck. While Joel’s concentrated on the sound of the stalkers, you get a chance to admire his face closely. His hazel eyes, his lips… and his nose.

Fuck.

As the stalker noises get quiet and disappear, you gulp as he stares into your eyes. He releases your mouth from his hand and you take a deep breath. “s-so.. where was I-?”, he cuts you off.

“You really can’t shut up, can you?”, he raises an eyebrow at you as he asks.

“You fucking basta-“, suddenly he smashes his lips on yours. That’s when you get quiet. Your heart was beating out of your chest while you were melting under his touch. You can’t resist and wrap your arms around his neck while kissing him back.

Joel’s hands run up your curves while he’s pulling you even closer to his body. You feel how his dick begins to harden under the fabric of his jeans. He stops kissing your lips and continues to place kisses on your neck to leave you with his marks. You whimper softly as you feel how his hand glides down your stomach. As Joel slides his hand under your pants, he touches your already wet panties. “god, were you so desperate to be touched? you dirty little girl.”, he whispers in your ear and nibbles on it. “Fuck, Joel-“, you breathe. He pushes your panties aside and his thumb starts to rub your clit slightly.

“you need to be quiet, darling.”, he whispers again as you feel his hot breath on your neck again. As you nod and give him your permission he slides two of his fingers into your core. “Joel- I-“, you begin to breath heavy. You really tried to keep quiet, but as he starts to pump his fingers into you… “Joel, I can’t-“, you moan, that’s when he puts his hand over your mouth again.

“keep fucking quiet, you’re gonna’ get us killed..”, he growls as he stares into your eyes.

While he continues shoving his fingers inside you, your hands make your way to his belt. As you start to unbuckle it, he slaps your hands away. “not here.”, he whispers harshly.

“Please Joel-, I need you.”, you whine.

“No.”, he says with his deep voice, which even more aroused you. You start to feel your climax coming nearer, so does Joel as your inner walls squeeze his fingers gently. “Joel, I’m gonna-“, you cry out and he immediately covers your mouth again. “thats it, baby.. cum all over my fingers, darling…”, he whispers right into your ear and that’s when you reach your climax. He presses his hand onto your mouth to quiet down your moan and a slight smirk appears on his face. As your legs are still shaking, your hands try to unbuckle his belt again, but this time, he lets you do it.

“Fuck, y/n… you really want to get us killed, don’t you”, Joel groans quietly.

“Please Joel-, just-“, he cuts you off while slamming his lips onto yours again. He flicks his younger against yours and gasps as your hand touches his clothed dick. “Goddammit, y/n!”, he growls.

“Please Joel, I need you inside of me-“, that’s when he can’t resist your begging and he turns you around the wall and pushes you against it. “‘risking to get killed, just to be fucked by daddy’s cock”, he whispers and you hear how he pushes his pants down, which leaves a smile on your face. He takes his dick into his hand and rubs the tip at your wet pussy. His other hand glides to your mouth again, because he knows you definitely can’t keep quiet.

And he’s right.

You cry out loud as he pushes his shaft into your throbbing core.

God, he’s big.

“Fuck.”, he exhales. He begins to thrust into you while your moans get louder, he presses his hand harder on your mouth. “Such a good girl, taking my dick so fucking good”, Joel praises which makes you squirm under his grip. His other hand rests on your waist and his breath starts to get heavier. As he increases the speed, you feel how your legs begin to shake again. “how long have you been waiting for this, hm…?”, he breathes into your ear and wraps his arm around you to pull you closer. Joel begins to hit your g-spot and as your breath becomes heavier, your moans do too.

“Use your words, princess”, he groans into your ear.

“S-since you came here-“, you try to answer while he’s trying to muffle your moans again. You hear him chuckle. “‘never thought that you’re such a dirty girl”, he whispers. “‘squeezing my dick real good- you’re gonna’ cum?”. You nod.

“Words.”, he growls. “Y-yes, I’m gonna cum!”, you whine and you rech your climax. As your pussy tightens around his cock, you hear his groan and feel how he fills you up with his cum, leaving you two breathless.

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.

.

As we walked back to Jackson, he was quiet, too quiet. “‘you’re okay?”, you ask concerned and also confused while he’s walking in front of you. “This was a mistake”, he growls and keeps walking. “What- I don’t understand-“, you mumble confused and grab after his hand so he stops walking. “What don’t you understand?”, he speaks louder and pulls his hand away. “This, was a mistake”, he points with his finger at you and himself. “A fucking big one.”, he growls and turns around to walk. “So, after you just fucked the shit out of me in a building full of zombies, you tell me that this was a mistake?!”, you almost shout and walk after him.

I can’t believe him, you think.

“yes, that’s exactly what I mean.”, he points out and it seems like he really doesn’t care. “Are you kidding me right now?! Don’t you notice how fucked up this is?! You fuck me and now tell me it was a mistake, and you don’t even feel bad!”, you shout after him upset and try not to tear up. “Exactly”, he just answers coldly.

“And now what huh?!”, you try to grab his hand again and finally get him stop walking. He turns around and just looks at you, his eyes were pitch black now. You don’t see any emotions in his face.

“Now, we’re going our separate ways”, he grumbles coldly.

.

.

.

Why do girls always love the bad guy?, you think.

It’s already been two months since it happens with Joel. And like he said, we’re going our separate ways. He didn’t look at you, he didn’t talked to you and he didn’t even went on patrols with you anymore. And you really tried to hate him, and did because of what he did, but you couldn’t get this night with him out of your mind anymore. Every time you close your eyes, you feel his lips on yours and his dick thrusting deep into you.

So, since he really didn’t felt bad and ignored you like you don’t exist, you tried to keep on with your life and tried dating again. You’ve met a really nice boy, Jack. He was two years older than you and he really was a gentleman. He was nice, kind and lovely. He made you laugh and feel safe. Since Joel didn’t go on patrols with you again, he did. And it was fun. Today you’ve had your third date already and as you walk into the bar, you see Joel sitting there.

Fuck.

And that’s when it hits your memory again. His hand pressed on your mouth, his hot breath on your neck and his dick pounding into you. You got pulled out of your mind, as you feel Jack’s hand on your waist. “Hey there, beautiful”, he says with his sweet smile. “Hey”, you smile back and go with him to your table. You thought Joel didn’t notice you, but he did. He saw you with this guy before, and god it has made him jealous. But Joel’s good at hiding his feelings, always hiding how he looks at you in secret.

You and Jack had a good time. Sometimes you took a glance at Joel, but his back was turned towards you. As you two finished eating, you stood up and wanted to look after Joel, but he wasn’t sitting there anymore. “I’ll pay real quick, you can wait outside”, Jack says and places a kiss on your cheek.

You nod and go outside. It’s already dark outside. A breeze of cold air flies against your body and you get goosebumps. That’s when you let your keys fall. “Fuck…”, you swear and try to see them in the dark. As you spot them, you bend down but suddenly someone else picks them up.

As you look up, you freeze:

“Joel.”

-> part 2

[a-star-that-burns-brightly]

EVERYONE I just saw the new DRDT twitter post, and I have some things to SAY /pos (if you don't know what I'm talking about, you should probably view this post https://twitter.com/DespairTime/status/1703105596134654210 before continuing on reading this one) ... ... ...You back? Awesome !! First and foremost, gonna take a look at the synopsis

This concept is giving major 999 vibes, I love this already I also really like the shorter number in cast, I don't actually see a lot of fangans with shorter cast and I think that's a shame because I think there is a lot you can do with a shorter cast of 10-12 participants (see Danganronpa Lapse). > eleven students are forced to continue a killing game that they’ve supposedly already started. However, no one can remember the past trials, nor the deaths of their missing classmates. This is the main thing that caught my eye, and it definitely explains the shorter number in cast. And with their memory erased and the way this is worded, it feels almost like this death game that these characters are in has restarted. Like, something went wrong with it, and that resulted in the death game restarted using the eleven students still left. And if that is the case, that makes me wonder about the possible connection this death game could have with DRDT. But I will get to that later. > Between the killing game, their lost memories, and the “NG codes” that restrict their actions, how could anyone escape unscathed? So this is also using the NG Codes from Danganronpa 3? Yet another thing I find very interesting. I so badly want to know more about this cast. Which is why they are the next topic of my insane ramblings !!

Okay before I even get into anything, I just want to say mad fucking props to DRDT Dev for these designs and for their art in general. They have genuinely improved so much since the start of DRDT, and it's so cool to see Second of all

> That is to say, this is a story about a person who wants to become the perfect teacher. So hi, I love you very much first of all Go to a damn barber second of all I am very worried for you third of all /lh (Also my first thought when I saw him was that he reminded me of Enju from Ayakashi Akashi, and I think that's funny)

DRDT-Dev has confirmed that this is the protagonist, so I am already very intrigued with him and what his deal is even though we won't find out for a long time Another fun little thing I noticed was that in all of the art so far out with him has him with his eyes closed. I wonder if that means anything Anyway, I love him, and I am also concerned for his safety for something I will talk about later

As for some smaller observations, given how closely these two are depicted, their fire and ice motifs, and their general simialr appearences. I don't think it's a stretch to say that these two could be sibling, or related in some way. I think that's cool

I've seen a few people say that this person could be Elliot Cuevas, Charles' older brother, and I definitely think that's a fair theory to have. Not just because of the purple hair, but also because of the collar around his neck. What is one of the only details we know about Elliot?

His favorite animal is dogs. And that collar (to me at least, looks very similar to a dog collar. Just something to think about

I have nothing insightful to say, this person is precious and I want to give them ice cream If people start theorizing them to be "secretly evil" istg... /lh /hj The rest of the cast (except one) I have nothing to comment on, so let's get to the main question I am thinking about at this moment Does this project have any connection to the lore of Despair Time?

This wasn't something that was confirmed, nor denied by DRDT Dev, so everything I'm about to say could age awfully. But I think there are a few pieces of evidence that could hint to this project having more relevence to DRDT than it comes across at first glance. Three to be exact. Let's start with the first and most obvious one

This man who is looking very smug at me is wearing a jacket with an XF-Ture Tech logo on it, or at least something that looks the part.

We do not have much information on what XF-Ture Tech as it stands right now. All we know at the moment is that it is a profit tech company that sponsored Min's family when she was younger at the promise that she would become the Ultimate Student in 12 years time, and that they also do "a lot of other things"....whatever the hell that shady sentence means. Due to the lack of information about XF-Ture Tech, there is not much else I can analyse at this moment. But this fact alone does seem to connect this project and DRDT in some way. But obviously that's not all For my second piece of evidence, we go back to that teacher character. Because I swear...there was another, albeit hidden, place where a teacher character was mentioned... Oh yeah !

.....Ohhhhhhh righttt... Teacher man, you're in big trouble. In all seriousness, considering how intricate DRDT-Dev's writing is, I just don't think this could be a coincidence at all and if it is I'll be genuinely surprised. I think this teacher character and the teacher mentioned in the about page's hidden text are the same person. Now that does not exactly answer the big question of who is saying this text. It could be the mastermind of this project's death game, could be another participant in this project's death game, hell the possibility that this is the mastermind of the DRDT cast's death game still isn't really ruled out. But the main point is that I think it's a very big possibility that this teacher and the teacher in the about page's hidden text are the same person. And lastly, I would like to go back to what I said in the beginning: > it feels almost like this death game that these characters are in has restarted. Like, something went wrong with it, and that resulted in the death game restarted using the eleven students still left. If we're following the idea that this is a restarted death game, that honestly gives me the same vibes as a reboot of a television show. Which brings me to my point: What if this death game is also being broadcasted? I feel as though it is definitely a possibility given the summary, but for right now there doesn't seem to be much proof of this idea. _ That's basically all of my current thoughts on this project that DRDT-Dev has shown us. If this does end up becoming the next fangan DRDT Dev releases after the completion ot Despair TIme, I am very excited to see in the future what has been cooking

[certifiedlesbianvampire]

my thoughts and theories on ep 5

starting with the things i did like, i think the animation + visuals are overall very consistent for the series so far. the tone of the episode was a bit more serious because, well... akutaro and the gang war and the growing tensions between characters.

we finally got see the full flashback of matakara and arajin's backstory and it was a nice surprise to see how matakara stood up for himself and arajin of course runs away (understandable) but i'm hoping in future episodes we get more on their pasts (with matakara's brother too. maybe the reason his brother is in juvie is because he did something bad to the bullies and he didn't tell/lied to matakara? this could be interesting later on) and how it affects the present and future character growth. I hope we also get to see the reason why arajin moved away as it’ll help us understand his character more (literally running away from circumstances. A lot of his character is running away and how he has to confront it) akutaro is a fun villain! a complete dramatic and horny menace. i'm so glad he got his face punched in. i wonder how he got ichiya (what influence does ichiya have over him/he have over ichiya?) and if he’ll continue to be the series’ big bad later on or if he’ll just be the antag for this arc.

the good thing about arajin being so indecisive about joining anyone is that we get to see how each gang operates. this time, we see the ng boys (and girls?? they have girls too) and how akutaro has everyone under his finger. he uses fear and threats to manipulate them into doing what he wants, forces them to do his dirty work. we also see how he got kicked out of minatokai and a bit of kenichiro and marito's battle in the background. i wonder how the blue majin will merge with matakara because it's foreshadowed heavily. (“no doubt those kicks are ichiya’s” and matakara’s fighting style revolves around them) right now the blue majin is with akutaro) i’m also dying to know senya’s motives and past with ichiya and how it could tie into the conflict between their person.

i feel like the gag of arajin and his *cough* rampant thinking with his dick is starting to wear on my nerves a bit, but i don't HATE him. i get that his character is supposed to be poking fun at that trope. i think what's interesting is that you could point out that male characters who are considered to be strong also happen to have lots of connections + affections (platonic or romantic) toward other men. arajin by contrast, rejects it in favour of chasing after women (maybe it’s what he thinks will prove his masculinity to others? or it's like. a distraction from his issues?)

maybe it’s not that deep, but it's something i wanted to point out anyway.

on the topic of arajin: my biggest worry is that while i DO have hope arajin's character development is on the way soon, i am concerned that they'll start it too late (like ep 10 which is unlikely but) and not give us enough time to fully sympathize or connect with his relationship towards matakara and the others around him. i understand he's supposed to be a selfish and unlikeable character, but i feel with like there's only so long you can stretch out the drama before it wears thin if you don’t expand on it; which is something have hope that they’ll do since there’s a lot of setup there.

i know arajin’s character is why most people are dropping the anime, but i'm hoping most people will at least be patient for the development. we're only at episode 5. (like sk8 for example had the conflict span from ep 7-10. this is a larger scale conflict so ofc it'd take longer) bucchigiri has a lot of potential, and i’m hoping they’ll stick the landing.

(i also need to see the fight between kenichiro and marito next ep ; i know it'll be awesome.) with the title of the next ep's title being "much much friendship! 'nira-reba'-lution 21!" i do hope we get to see much, much more in terms of friendships (a falling out maybe?) , arajin-related or otherwise. i'm excited to see where the anime goes next!

[hetalia-club]

I just have to spill my thoughts here for a second about my personal life for my own sanity. feel free to happily ignore and scroll by.

Good news everyone :D I just dumped my toxic emotionally abusive boyfriend. Terrible News everyone! :DDDD He was also my best friend and childhood best friend so isn't that great!? :)))

We were supposed to go to Sicily together in May...Why did I DO THAT!? I spent 2k on my plane ticket...the room is reserved... Do I like just not go to Italy now? Do I say F it and just go by myself? Do I try and quickly beg someone else to go with me who's okay with spending at least 2k on a plane ticket? Which would be no one in my life, maybe my parents would but idk what they got going on. I really wanted to go. Why could I have like just not waited until after that? We share a friend group and they are all more his friends than mine. So I just like isolated myself for no reason.

Sorry to dump this here and no I don't expect any of you to have the answers or do anything with this information.

These past few weeks for me have been really rough and I just made it somehow worse.

He distanced me from all my former friends who have all like moved on and have families and whatever and who I have not spoken to in five years so all I have right now is my family and work 'friends' I don't even like. I'm going to have to live with my parents for who knows how long because it was his house he had all the money in our relationship. He convinced me to quit my good desk job with benefits to work part time as a barista so I could clean his house and cook for him. But he also put up with all my weirdness and was fine with it.

Like when I say I have no idea what to do I truly mean that.

again I don't want anyone to feel responsible to do something about how I royalty screwed up my life. It's no ones fault. I shouldn't have let him isolate me so much from my friends and former life but TOO LATE NOW! I just need to stop being with men who have brown hair and brown eyes but are objectively terrible.

My only silver lining is that I was the one to end it. Which if anything am proud of myself for that because I have never broken up with anyone before and I normally just deal with whatever people do to me no matter how terrible and mean they are. I just have always forgiven him and everyone else.

But when some dude bro sits you down and asks you to "List reasons why you deserved to be loved by him" it was just too much. Like that might seem petty but I am sick of being the 'pretty girlfriend' I am so tired of having to dress to the 9s to go out and be expected to be perfect even if we're just going to a F*ng dive bar where I get stared out for dressing like I'm going to a club. Where he gets to look like a diarrhea stain who can't be bothered to wear a shirt that's not wrinkled or shave his scraggly beard. Why he thinks I should make a list of MY worth as a human being in his eyes. When he is average at best!? Like I'm not a 10 I'm not perfect I'm not delusional, I don't think I'm the hottest girl in the world or gods gift to man kind. But I'm out of his league, I do know that!

I always tend to cling to Hetalia harder when my life is falling apart around me because that's sort of just what I've done since I was a teen. I've never been in a healthy relationship with someone who actually likes me and Hetalia has always been there for me. Which is why I have been making a lot of content lately, it's been a distraction and I'm sorry if I've been bugging people with how much I've been posting. That's not been my intentions its just my coping mechanism and it's better than drinking...

This is the only social media I have that he's not on. I don't hate him enough to block him. I do still want to try and be his friend at some point if that's possible. I love his family and they love me and it's going to be so upsetting to see them again from a different perspective.

I'm okay...It's just been really rough lately...And I somehow just made it worse.(No I'm not going to hurt myself or anyone, don't even worry about that.)

[wookofwallst]

(Article) Starfield Steam reviews are sliding fast.

Well, it's been a month now since Starfield has released, and players have really let loose on the internet about how they feel. Good and bad reviews have popped up on Steam, Metacritic, and the Xbox store.

My main focus here is going to be on Steam for a few reasons . It's easier to sort by play time and alot easier to find other reviews rather than just "Xbox Exclusive Bad".

Underlying numbers kind of shows the 75%. Alot of people want to talk about review bombing but what about review lifting? Review inflation? Whatever you want to call it, the first day of reviews should probably be disqualified based merit. If you don't like that idea, then you're telling me more than 20 thousand people played the game enough to give a thoughtful review? I doubt it.

The reviews that I put in here will be from people who have put in over 100 hours. For a game this size and with how much there is to do I think that would be best.

After a pretty lengthy review and 170 hours played, one user said:

"I regret taking the time to bond with my companions, talking with every NPC, flying & running around scanning the planets, and lockpicking every door or chest I encountered. Overall, I regret completing the main story. I can't believe I'm saying this, but IGN was right about the 7/10."

It's hard to disagree with what he said. There was alot of hype in NG+, even the CEO of Xbox said "The game doesn't start until you beat the game" and what happens after? You get a new ship that can fast travel anywhere in the galaxy and all of the loot, weapons, and everything you had is all gone. The ship cannot be expanded upon, and you're given a new space suit.

149 hours played and multiple paragraphs. Another user said:

"The writing in this game is AWFUL. Image if you will, you are a new corpo grunt, your first day as an intern and boom you find out the CEO is selling company secrets. So you confront them, kill them and everyone loves you for it from this one piece of 'evidence' and gives you a promotion. This is Starfield in a nut shell."

"I have 1000+ hour in Fallout 4 for example. I will never hit that in Starfield. It's just not that interesting.

No vehicles

No atmospheric flight

No groundbreaking features

No taming

ZERO Aliens..."

It's hard for me to disagree with anything this reviewer said. I can even expand upon it. 90% of the "aliens" in this are gigantic insects with no intelligence at all. I understand that space might not have a lot of aliens in our neck of the woods, but this is a video game. Put some aliens in it! Outposts are stupid, copy pasted time wasters.

Final one 114 hours played. This is the full review:

I was expecting a game i could play for 100s or thousands of hours but after just 100 hours i can say i have beat the entire game and done everything. It is bland and nothing like the interesting games we were previously given... Biggest disappointment of 2023 worst rpg i have ever played... all bland procedural content that is the same on every planet. Their is no interesting characters or unique items to chase after. It is literally 6 quest lines and a main quest line that take a 100 hours to complete then their is nothing but small meaning less quest that are all similar with the same places and dialogue in different planets.

Bland, meaningless content that's procedurally generated. And that's the common theme. It's Kwibblekop AI bad, dull, and void of any emotion.

So yeah, looking at actual negative reviews of the game with valid criticism is reinforcing the score I gave it. 6.5.

Did you like Starfield? Do you think reviews that are posted should have a time limit? Do you believe in review inflation? Anything new you're playing? Let me know! Thanks for reading!

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[nayruwu]

I don't want to come off as rude please don't take it as offense but I don't think guren is actually taken accountable, maybe by fandom on certain matter but narrative pretty much white washed most of his actions & whatever is left will be done in future I don't have any doubts about that. I'm not even saying this as his hater because I used to defend him before a lot but with how kagami is going right now I don't think ons wi have any 'good' ending because kagami makes characters do some heinous & evil things that cannot be undone but then justify it later on even if it make sense or not. As for mahiru, im not asking you to see her from different perspective if you don't like her I understand she's just too far gone as character even I feel uncomfortable with her. But consider this for a second, she don't actually have her own character, her personality revolves around guren most of time even tho she have her own traumatic past but none of it ever get mentioned let alone explored, she's just an accessory for guren so pushing most hate on her for what author is doing is kinda stupid cause no one is putting gun on his head to write that & logically speaking a person like mahiru who loves her own standing & hates when others cannot go all out like her wouldn't actually fall for someone like guren it's just author who fixated her on him so he can write gurens story. As for constant glorification of beauty, she was 16 don't you think author is very weird with how he was sexualizing a minor through narrative in every weird way possible? & why I think this needs to be talked more when addressing all those "mahiru goddess" complains is because he's really weird for that, 1st he sexualizes kids a lot be it shikama saying toddler looking mikayuu to breed, ferid's mansion having kids in very suggestive clothing in mikaela novels & kids literally r4p!ng eachother on same novels, kureto using r4p3 threats baby shinoa, sayuri & shigure just there to get stripped time to time, mitos assault end up becoming more about how much hurt guren is, & 10 yo mahiru mocking about putting seeds in her to shinya like that's not normal & mahiru isn't any exception. Take it as grain of salt but when it comes to actual criticism ons fandom tend to not talk about what's actually weird about the writing aside from bad writing & hiragi sisters getting in way by doing something dumb & irredeemable ons fans only ever address it when they're really pissed off by chapter or hit the ceiling with patience. That's it, I hope it didn't come off as offensive im sorry if it did tho.

oh don't worry, you're good! i've talked about these things before and don't really want to repeat myself again so i'm sorry if this answer is short. but yes, kagami definitely messed up with guren recently and i don't think anyone that seriously likes him on a deeper level disagrees. i'm all up for criticising him, i just think that the fandom has been beating his ass enough for the last 3 and a half years. especially now that Mx. 'I Cause Pain And Suffering To Get My Loved Ones Back Version 2.0' Doji has entered the stage and is somehow getting glorified to hell and back for it.

you guys keep making me think about mahiru please stop i don't wanna. i'm gonna be mean to her and say i think her obsession with guren mostly stems from the weird fantasy she's got going on in her head with the forbidden romance and her prince freeing her from the clutches of her family, so it could have been any guy naïve enough to fall for her brainwashing. insert "she's in love with the idea of guren, not guren himself" paragraph here. she's weird, i don't get her, i want to think about nicer things. like byakkomaru's paw pads. they're good.

perhaps you should just ask the guremxhi stans. they probably know more than me! be nice about it though.

and i've seen plenty of criticism towards the consant SA mentions and really odd descriptions of the girls - it's the first thing anyone talks about when someone asks whether or not they should read catastrophe. we're all aware of it, we all hate it, but it's useless to complain about the same thing over and over again. kissies

[fforeversserene]

Late Night Deeds

Summary: Cas had been noticing her boyfriend, Jesse, coming home late for the past few weeks. She was starting to get suspicious. What was happening during Jesse's late night escapades? The last straw had been pulled, she decided to confront her boyfriend about his strange behaviour and started to fish answers from him. However, the answer came from someone else.

Side Note: Hi, I would also like to remind that there are some words in tagalog and also in English. This is actually a taglish work. I've been trying to write and publish but just couldn't find the right time to do so. Also, please dont copy this, I actually worked on this since 2022. Give credits if you're gonna repost this, thank you for understanding!

It's late. Di na yun uuwi, wag ka na mag antay.

The voice in the back of my brain spoke as I lock my eyes to the door, waiting for him to walk in. Tumingala ako to check the time, it's 10:57 PM.

As time passes by, my eyes start to feel heavy.

Aantayin kita

Before I could close my eyes, the door swung open; it's him and he's home.

"Bakit gising ka pa, mahal?" Said a masculine voice following after the sound of the door closing.

"Wag mo akong ma mahal mahal, Jesse." I rose from the chair I was sitting, tucking the stray hair behind my ear.

"Babe why did you call me by my first name? At bakit ayaw mo na tawaging kitang mahal? He looked at me up and down in a confused manner.

"Stop fooling around, Jesse. The past few weeks, umuuwi kang late. Care to explain bakit?" I crossed my arms waiting for an answer from him. For some reason, he looked like a deer caught in headlights, may tinatago ba siya? I brushed the thought off and continued to wait for him to talk.

"Cas please, pwede ba na pagusapan na lang natin to bukas? Pagod na pagod na nga ako and you're nagging me?" He spoke, earning a scoff from me. He called me by my first name, well we're even now I guess.

"Wow, pagod ka? Bakit, are you tired of fucking your secretary?" That was it. He went pale at di gumalaw. "Say something, Jesse. Yan ba yung rason kung bakit palagi kang late?" At this point parang naiiyak na ako pero I battled the tears.

"Oh stop it Cas now you're just taking it this far." He stuttered over his words, not daring to look at my upset and judging eyes.

"Don't even try and guilt trip me, Jesse." I looked away, signalling him to stay where he was.

"Cas, wala kang proof. I don't know what you're talking about but can we just talk about this tomorrow please? Do you really not trust me that much that you're assuming things?" He remained calm still not glancing at my eyes.

The Next Day.

Gumising ako hoping that he was still in bed so we can talk the argument from last night out.

Umalis siya ng maaga.

I sighed and just got out of bed to get started for the day. I couldn't stop overthinking and the thoughts were zooming so fast through my head like a bullet train.

I went to the kitchen to cook something for myself for breakfast. I chose to cook ham and egg and decided to make myself some iced coffee. I wanted to start the day positive and filled with motivation. I wanted to forget what happened last night.

As I was eating my breakfast, my phone suddenly rang. I opened it hoping that it was Jesse. But instead I was confused.

A random number?

I answered the call.

"Hello? Sino po ito?" Sabi ko, trying not to sound nervous. Why was a random person calling me?

"Hi uhm, Is this Jesse's girlfriend I'm speaking to?" Babae? How did she know my boyfriend's name? I thought to myself.

I paused for a while due to shock. "Yes po, you're talking to her. How may I help you and how do you know Jesse's name?" I was confused, how the hell does she know about Jesse?

"We really need to talk. Tungkol ito sa kay Jesse." My heart started racing, what's going on?

"Yeah sure, please get to the point." I encouraged the mysterious woman to speak. Trying to contain my nervousness.

"I'm really sorry to tell you this but Jesse has been cheating on you for weeks. He's been coming late home right? It's because he's been with me ever since I stepped foot in the company. I didn't know that he had a girlfriend I swear! I just found out about you a few hours ago nung na overheard ko yung mga employees near the stairs. I'm really sorry miss, I know that this should be coming from Jesse." The mysterious woman sounded sincerely upset and worried for my reaction.

"I- wala akong masabi." I laughed it off, why the fuck am I laughing when I just got told that my boyfriend of 5 years, just cheated with me for weeks? I don't know but I think nababaliw na ako.

"I'm sincerely sorry talaga, miss?" The mysterious woman asked.

"Cassidy, Cassidy Sanchez." I replied, "And your name is?" I asked but hiding the fact that I've been desperate for her identity.

"Iris, Iris Macapagal. I'm Jesse's secretary." I was speechless. I started to feel tears falling and my body went numb.

"Oh my god.." I stuttered, "Thank you for telling me, Iris. I'll have a word with Jesse once he gets home. Please, wag mong sabihin kay Jesse that we spoke." I let the tears fall and clicked off the call right away.

I was devastated. I didn't know what to do. Everything that happened last night, my so-called accusation and his lies. It was all true. I stood up and went to put my plate away, not in my best mood to wash it. I went to the living room, seeing photos that we took on events. Our 5th anniversary photo caught my eye. It was weeks before I noticed that Jesse had been coming home late.

"Why, Jesse? Why?"

[wisdomshoes]

alright, I read it... I don't really understand your take on Elden Ring, if it's just dark souls 3 but worse than it's still a good game also, why does it being overrated make it worse? one of them being music is really funny to me just because I've never met anyone who doesn't like music. all around you have pretty good taste 👍

have a great day :]

i KNOW, I'm so perfect in every aspect yet no one ever compliments me. i mean they do but i shrug it off with a joke or a bit and entirely forget about it. (anyways here comes a thorough explanation on why i fucking hate elden ring) (oh god i am so sorry if you're gonna read all of this) (to prefix this i wanna say you're wonderful and i hold no ill will towards you and i don't want you to feel bad about liking elden ring or fromsoft. i love you. personally. this is not parasocial)

also elden ring is shit. it being overrated is a problem because fromsoft might just get the idea to make more games unbalanced but also make them completely without challenge by adding super op items. then again fromsoft rarely ever listens to fans. they just do what the hell they wanna even if it's shit. part of the reason why i love and hate them. end game pve unbalanced as shit. having spent 60 points on vigor should stop me from dying in two hits. enemies have so much HP it's just not rewarding in any way to fight the lot of them. unless ofc you force yourself to use stupidly op starts and items. so you lose either way unless you ride past them. dungeons are unmemorable except a few actually interesting ones. the world is rather empty and besides blowing a massive hole in the ground and burning down a tree is not really affected by anything you do. all the open world is is spectacle. just a lot of sepctacle with very little gameplay. they made multiplayer unfun. not only invading. duels (rip) and arena are just a shitfest of people only using the most overpowered bullshit and when they're not, they're using fucking magic. which if you play your cards right makes you pretty much immortal. i only found one way to counter semi decent mages. it's being a mage. only time I had fun was this one time in like level 100 arena where this guy changed his entire set to mine including weapons and kicked my ass. besides that only fun in pvp is low level. mages aren't bullshit yet, people don't use the fucking rot (mostly), people are just having fun. actually not pvp, just arena, cause when you invade low level it's always going to be a gank of one regular character and two ng+7 assholes baiting invaders. but that's just part of fromsoft pvp i suppose. the 60 euro experience ladies and gentlemen. instead of balancing it, make it so unfun for one side people will just stop playing it! what else.. they added horses but no horse combat. way to go from. status effects are just taken too far. curse is still useless though except for cheaters. status effects apply through rolls and you can easily make an instaproc build. im not sure if that happened in their previous games. all of the enemies you fight are going to or have been reused. can't have sex with the fingers. 0/10 would probably play it for another 300 hours. I'm not proofreading any of that.

but the mods are great. im not buying the dlc though. it's just going to be more of the same. i mean maybe they could improve it to dark souls 3 standards but if i wanted that I'd just replay dark souls 3. im far too busy replaying Sekiro for the 50th time though aka THEIR BEST GAME BY FAR.

also ive met several people who "don't like" or "don't listen to" music. fucking lunatics, i didn't keep contact with them. also i don't just like music, I'd be dead without music. im beyond obsessed. that's why i felt the need to add it y'know. anyways love you.

[dragon-snoots-a-boopin]

10 Video Game Series/Franchise I've Tried But Can't Get Into

Here's a fun little list of game series/franchise that I've tried to get into but just was not and still am not able to. No order to this one.

Final Fantasy Franchise

Now, maybe I've just not tried the right ones here. I've tried some of the games on the Nintendo DS and I believe Crisis Core on the PSP and none of it made me want to really continue playing more games in the franchise.

2. Destiny/Destiny 2

I have spent a decent amount of time in the free version of Destiny 2 and tbh, like it was fun, but it didn't do much to make me want to buy the expansions. The content is just dry and all the weapons just look the same and there no variety in the enemies either. Just doesn't do it for me.

3. Runescape

I'm not sorry if anyone has nostelgia for this one but this game to me is the definition of boring. The combat manages to be even more boring than SWTOR and there's not much direction in the sense of where things are for quests which makes me have to use resources outside the game to know what I need to do for a quest. I also am not a fan of level locked quests too.

4. Assassin's Creed Franchise

I played ACII from start to finish and enjoyed it. Then I tried AC Brotherhood and that was the end for me. Not to mention how later AC games release and some never got fixed like, I just have no interest in more of the games.

5. Need For Speed Franchise

I've tried about three NFS games and the closest I came to enjoying one was NFS 2015 but that one has a separate set of issues that make it not so enjoyable to play. I am very particular about racing games as Forza Horizon 4 and 5 is the standard for me.

6. The Witcher Series

I spent a good amount of time with the first game. The problem is that while the story was interesting and why I played as much as I did, the combat was awful and was why I stopped playing it. I tried the second game but couldn't get past the opening of the game.

7. Ninja Gaiden Series

I tried NG Sigma and it was just button mashing repetitive crap with confusing areas and puzzles that did it for me. I have zero interest in Sigma 2 or NG 3 as I am sure it'll be more of the same.

8. Warframe

A little bit more enjoyable than Destiny 2 but also every area has the same types of missions and that gets old quickly.

9. Star Wars: The Old Republic

SWTOR does good in the area of story and dialogue choice and that's what strung me along for so many hours. Ultimately it was the boring combat that got me to stop playing.

10. Castlevania

Tried to play Lords of Shadow first but the colossus at the beginning of chapter 2 is impossible. Tried Dawn of Sorrow on the DS but didn't like how I'd die and have to start over.

Feel free to share some of yours too!

[djd95]

August 18, 2024 7:06AM

-Nasa kapilya na ako para tumupad sobrang antok na antok pa pero kakayanin namin organista ako ngayon ay hindi guro po

August 18, 2024 9:17AM

-Kakauwe ko lang galing tupad - nung pauwe ako kanina para kong tanga na parang ang lungkot lungkot ng pakiramdam ko. Hindi ko alam tapos bigla ko lang natanong sa sarili ko na - kung yung pag sasabi mo ba sakin ng "Mahal mo ko" eh kapag nasa good times lang ako kasi bat ganon? Pakiramdam ko kapag hindi na tama yung nagagawa ko or hindi na yung gusto mo yung nasusunod laging hiwalay yung gusto mo or kaya huminga? I don't know sobrang daming nag sisink in na mga bagay sakin simula kahapon hanggang ngayon and sobrang bigat nya sa pakiramdam. Naalala ko nanaman yung hinihingi mong assurance... hindi ba dapat ? Ang assurance hindi lang sa isang tao mang gagaling kasi parang ang unfair? Gusto mo you take it first bago ka mag bigay ng sayo? Ganon ba talag yung pag mamahal? - Naiintindihan ko naman na ako to and nasaktan na kita ng maraming beses from the past pero ano to? Tinanggap mo ko ulit para iremind sakin lahat ng nagawa ko sayo noon. Hay. Pasensya na ngayon ko lang na put into words lahat ng nararamdaman ko - grabe yung realization ko na I'm holding everything pala on the back of my mind na para lang hindi na tayo mag away, na para lang hindi na masira yung araw natin, na para chill nalang tayo, na para okay lang tayo kahit pala sobrang sakit na hinahyaan ko nalang at pinipili ko nalang maging okay. Tama ka nga nakakaubos - sobra palang nakaka ubos.

August 18, 2024 5:12PM

-Okay lang yan nathan, kaya mo to ha. Kayanin mo kasi wala ka naman pedeng pag sabihan ng lahat ng nararamdaman mo. Okay lang umiyak, okay lang na mag pahinga, itulog mo nalang ulit to tas pag gising mo kahit pakiramdam mo kulang ka - ilaban mo nalang ulit. Baka talagang binigay sya sakin ng Ama ulit kasi para maramdaman ko na hindi talaga ako para sa kanya kasi wala ka namang akong naidudulot kundi stress at pagod lang. you're living your life again so baka mas better na wala ako, na hindi ako para gumulo sa isip mo. I'll leave it here. Hahayaan ko munang ikaw ulit yung maging parte ng buhay ko - wala eh. Wala na akong mahihingahan ng bigat ng lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Thank you.

August 18, 2024 10:53PM

-Nathan, kaya mo to. Matulog ka lang tas huminga ka ng malalim tas bukas okay kana. Valid yung feelings nya kaya hindi ka dapat nasasaktan ng ganito. Dapat lagi kang tumitingin sa positive diba? Tanggapin mo nalang ulit lahat tas move forward. Sanay ka naman dito diba? Okay lang yan. Kaya mo to nathan. Hinga lang ha. Tapos pag tulog mo dapat okay kana pag gising mo ha. Laban lang kakayanin natin to.

[junksandarchives]

Three days, Thesis days

August 7: Cafe and pagpapanggap na gumawa ng thesis

It's been a while since nagsulat ako dito because I took a vacation to refresh my mind. Pahinga then laban ulit sabi nga nila. Two weeks before the pasukan ay plano ko na i-maximize ang aking time para naman magkaroon ako ng progress sa aking thesis. With that, I contacted people that may help me and endorse me sa mga government offices since I need local ordinance and resolution documents para I can track the political progress (in term of policies, rules, and etc.) of our town.

But before all of that, nag-cafe muna ako kasi gusto ko mag-romanticize ng thesis era by studying at a local cafe haha.

A rough draft of my thesis. Like super duper draft lang siya so don't trust that write up. Plus, my matcha latte 4/10. Masarap naman yung ibang drinks like the Ube latte (8/10).

9/10 CR ng Mapandan Town Center. Maganda, malinis, at may tissue.

I decided to message Mayor's Secretary since I am confident that they might know where can I access documents that I can't find in our municipal library. Then, I messaged some friends and colleagues para more chances of winning. After waiting for a few minutes, Ma'am Marie replied naman and endorsed me (after a day) sa Vice Mayor's Office since as far as I know ay sila ang nagke-keep ng record.

August 8: Reflections and pagod all day

I got an endorsement na sa Vice Mayor's Office to access the files. I was so excited like I can't believe na may naiwan pang record ang mga namuno before sa aming town. I'm thankful rin sa mga nag-preserve kasi helpful ito bilang references.

The first record na aking nahawakan would be the Ordinance and Resolution from 1967 to 1982. Arawi la ed thesis timeline ko pero sarag to nin nagamit parad future research da ray estudyante ya kaparak.

The second record naman na binigay sa akin ay ang Ordinance and Resolution from 1917 to 1960s. The record was interesting because somehow I had a glimpse of the situation of Mapandan during that time period. Daiset labat may record ed 1917 to 1920s pero importante pa rin ta walan sensyay naibaga tod history ya Mapandan.

Local ordinances and resolution records and the Centennial Celebration of Mapandan ads.

The last book naman na binigay sa akin ay ang Centennial Celebration ads ng Mapandan. Nag-iisang copy yung ads sa munisipyo so I can consider it na rare document ito. Yung mga details na kailangan ko for my thesis ay nasa ads na like the history of Mapandan from 1887 to 2002 and the history of its barangays. Thankful for the Mapandan National High School teachers and student-researchers kasi sila yung nagsulat at nag-compile ng mga data for the Centennial Celebration.

Pinakain rin nila ako ng kanilang merienda. Goods naman ang lugaw with egg and Sprite after mag-picture ng mga documents.

When I accessed the records ay mas lalo akong naguluhan sa kung paano ko gagawin ang thesis ko. I'm glad na may mga existing records na like may nahawakan at nakita na ako na alam kong makakatulong sa akin. Ayon na nga, I've been busy for the past three days and clouded rin thoughts ko whether itutuloy ko pa ba o hindi na? Paano ko sisimulan ang mayroon nang nakasulat? Will I be able to pull off my historical research? *nagbuntong hininga*

Ayon na lang muna,

gct

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

7.26.24 Friday

7:11 am

Still, have windblow...

Aunt Teresa will process her documents managed by Uncle DD ( license of Aunt Teresa) , they will go in QC... All of a sudden yesterday she invited me to renew my license but from the past months Uncle DD didn't assist me on this, they knew that I had no job... I said I will just process it some other time coz I don't wanna go with them coz it feels weird, it seems there are some secret that they are keeping... Anyways, let's just wait...

Again, I have awareness here,I'm still thinking of my own future angels... I can't be like this on the hanging bridge...

Uncle Jun cooked a breakfast,he gave a different positive glow... In fairness on this Uncle Jun... He got a hotdogs yesterday from baranggay, I guess... This am Uncle Jun cooked a hotdogs, fried eggs and some fried rice...

I have complex again and again...I want to have my own future... It is difficult for me to find a partner coz I have complex...

I need to get a life on my own, I hate other family that can possibly will step on me on this.

I need to get a job,angels...

7:25 am

Aunt Teresa is insisting for me to renew my license....Then, I will go with them this am... From the past weeks Uncle DD seems a barrier on me.

10:02 am

Uncle DD suddenly commented on me where will I go? Huh.! Go with them of course...He said why my top is so see through, I said it is hot and I have a jacket... Huh? Hmmm... Hmmm... I wonder if there is a malice.

10:24 am

Thanks Kuya Erning & Marah for the water container service...

Thanks for the friendship!

In spite of their operation is really exclusive for the family only but Kuya Erning let me in...

12:51 noon

Uncle DD got an another plan to make it 10 years the international license of Aunt Teresa??? But it sounds and feels weird... It seems he doesn't want me to be with my Aunt Teresa but I have maturity to make my own life...

I therefore conclude Uncle DD has a plan to make Aunt Teresa stay in Japan for straight 10 years and cut our relationship or my link on Aunt Teresa... In a way I'm just flowing...

But I'm processing as well my license and still, I feel self-pity... I need to have my own life and money... I'm so broke these days...

1:58 pm

Waiting for my license, ready to be a driver of a "luxury car"...

Latte is so good! LTO QC...

Passed it guys!

4:38 pm

Still,have windblow...

The news is shocking this afternoon... According to Uncle DD, Ate Liza is shouting coz of the creditz... I said Ate Liza will never do that... Uncle DD said Uncle Jun said that Ate Liza will report him in baranggay coz of our food credits...

4:49 pm

I pity my Uncle DD and most specially this Aunt Teresa for suggesting that we should use "Perla" soap as shampoo and bath soap if we don't have money... I said that is wrong! We have friends to ask for support or to borrow money... Aunt Teresa said I feel that I'm higher and I'm so wicked. I said I'm not wicked, I'm just correcting that we still have friends to back me up in times of defeat... I don't wanna use "Perla" as soap and shampoo just to thrift...

That is purpose of having "friends"! To back you up in times of defeat...

Aunt Teresa is asking help coz she is on thrift these days,she is having a hard time... I said I can work but the reality of life is really biting me these days... ( ginigipit ng panahon ) "reality bites".

I need to work these days angels and I still feel self-pity these days... I know everyone needs to work... I don't wanna be a supporter but I love to support money on my family if I can... I need to have money and job...

5:10 pm

Still,have windblow...

In fairness for reality knowledge, "Perla" soap can be used as a mixed for bleaching solution. It can whiten in a way the skin... It is made of coconut and coconut oil.

But I feel self-pity... I need a lift angels...

10:28 pm

Still,have windblow...

Aunt Karen & Uncle DD went out again...

I have runny nose, I don't know if it is stress or allergy...

I wish and pray to get a bf that I want... I don't know, I like the theme of having a relationship with someone like Ken coz I wanna be Barbie for some logical reasons...

Barbie & Ken???

He is Ken-like, Barbie's bf... Even my cousin-white...But I wanna slap his face for being handsome... Will he be faithful if I can get him to be my bf or partner???

Can he be supportive of me???

Like I want this Garret... I'm so hopeless on my cousin-white... Ash is with her BG...

It is ideally to be normal though Ash is really pretty as well....

I'm still having this self-pity and sent an important mail on Credit Peso, Tala and Moca2x....I have no guilty emotions... Still, not sure if uncle DD is genuiene or not... He is reacting on me that someone from loan apps where I borrowed called him. He said that don't put me on the contacts on your loans. I said I didn't put your name, I just put the name of my friends... I added ,how did they get your contacts, but I remember I put you on my reference on one of the companies.

I got my license and the expiration date is after 10 years. Hmm... I do have angels here.

10:40 pm

Going to LTO QC and going back here we tried using "google maps" it is so cool and weird... Accurate in a way, as long as you have a full wifi signal or data but there is a strange thing on it. There is an "autopilot" which is somehow, weird! It is like and I know there are some virtual police on "google maps".

Autopilot means just search your "final destination" and automatically google maps can find you on the map then will guide you going to your destination.

It is so cool... When you are driving a car planning to go somewhere like Tagaytay here, just put on the search box the destination you want to go on then automatically that "google maps" will find your present location then Mr. Google will guide you using Kilometers or Meters.... When you go to a wrong direction, like if you don't follow the correct route given by Mr Google. Let's say you must turn right but you turn left but then the destination is already saved on the search box. Then, the autopilot will help you again to find a new route going to Tagaytay ( for example your target location to go on ).Plus, there is an exact time on how will you reach your target location. There is as well somehow a bit of traffic guide, Mr. Google will suggest you as well the best route to go on to reach your target place.

Philippines should maintain all the landmarks even some new gasoline station,let's make them an emblem in the Philippines... But I know it can be easily edited by the computer and amazing gprs...

I suggested don't waste your time, use "Google Maps"....

[ikaelawa]

Hellooo,

So ayun nga, hahaha ikkwento ko lang ule nangyari sakin ngayong araw.

Tamad na tamad pa ko bumangon kanina kasi mga past 10 na ako nagising ulit. Ayoko na gumising ng maaga ewan ko kung bakit. Parang feeling ko kasi ang haba ng oras ko sa maghapon pag maaga ko nagigising tapos mag iisip lang ako ulit hahaha so ayun nung lunch 24chicken kinain ko. Alam mo naman na paborito ko yun dibaa. With kimchi!! Dati ayoko ng kimchi pero i'm trying something diff naman. Tapos nung after lunch nagpasama pinsan ko papuntang SB kasi gusto nya magpacute dun sa crush nyang barista hahaha pero may jowa yung barista. Kulit eh pinapaasa daw sya e nag aassume lang naman sya kasi sa maliliit na gestures?!??

Ayun, meron ditong barista girl na smol tapos nakabraces sya, morena ganun. Nacucutetan lang ako pag nangiti sya pero nothing romantic feelings naman. Feeling ko nga mga nasa 20-21 lang yun ay hahaha sabi kasi ni insan crush daw ako non. Suki na kasi si insan sa SB dito kaya alam na nila order nya pag dumadating sya. "Usual mam?" Ayan. Kabisado eh.

Habang nagsusulat sya sa tablet nya, nagmamasid lang ako sa paligid kasi puro fam ang magkakasama, wala ko nakitang couple sa loob. Bigla nya kong tinanong ng "Okay ka na ba?" Tinitigan ko lang sya at nag okay sign lang ako. Ngumiti lang sya sakin tapos nagsulat na ulit sya.

Kumusta ka na kaya? Gustong gusto kitang kumustahin pero you never replied, last message ko sayo sa twitter e blinock mo na ako haha. Okay lang, sinasabi nila sakin na may iba ka na raw siguro at ayaw mong makita ko. Iniisip ko na hindi ka namang ganung tao na maghahanap agad... Pero.. sa damage ng nagawa ko sayo? Hindi naman medyo saktong masakit isipin na baka nakahanap ka na nga hahaha pero if ever nga, sana happy ka. At sana safe ka palagi lalo na ulo at tuhod mo!!!! You know too much sweets e sumasakit agad ulo mo. Pakiingatan din ang tuhod plssplsss.

I didn't cry today habang iniisip kita. Nitong mga nakaraang araw palaging kumukulog at kidlat. Actually hanggang ngayon na tinatype ko to. Hindi ako nagtatakip ng tenga pag kumukulog kasi naalala ko na yun tawag ng friends mo sakin noon sa review mo diba haha. Hayaan mo kong alalahanin to lahat kasi baka nakalimutan mo na to. Feeling ko nga bumalik sa 2019 yung body clock ko na dapat gising ako ng gantong oras kasi magrereview na kayo ng 1AM at kelangan kitang maabutan or makapagsabi ng goodluck sayo. Look at us now, ako lang ang gising at nagiisip ng kung ano ano and ikaw..baka tulog ka na ngayon at maayos kana. That's good. Ayoko mag worry sa future kasi alam ko namang kaya mo at kakayanin mo pa. Praying na makuha mo yung comfy, maayos na kasama sa work at syempre promotion kasi deserve mo sobra. Alam mo naman na pwedeng lumipat ng ibang clinic/hospi kung feeling mo stagnant na yan diba???

Nangingiti ako na naiisip ko na to ngayon, future na ikaw kasama ko. Di natin to napapagusapan noon kasi puro aral at work lang tayo. Naisip ko naman tong iopen up sayo, pero hahaha syempre duwag ex mo eh. Yung present self ko nga nung tayo pa di ko maayos.

Alam ko na maayos ka na ngayon, kasi habang tayo pa you're going out with your friends and nagseself care ka. Nakakainspire nga yung ginagawa mo na may self love ka eh hahaha this time ako naman, i'm learning to love myself now, nagreconnect ako sa ibang friends ko, will try na mag explore kasama sila para kahit papaano..madivert naman yung mga nafifeel at naiisip ko.

Dadating kaya yung time na..di na ko makakapagkwento sayo kasi okay na ako? Dumating na kasi yung time na hindi na ako yung hingahan mo. Sinasabi nila sakin na bat pa ba kita iniisip e di mo naman daw ako iniisip hahahaha kelangan ba ganun? Mabigat pa rin sa dibdib. Pero that's okay kasi kelangan kong mafeel to lahat para alam mo yun..marelease ko.

Sana less ang anxiety mo ngayon at breakdowns mo. Kaya mong pakalmahin sarili mo pagdating sa ganyan and nagfail ako iparamdam sayo nitong mga nakaraan na nandito lang ako. Hanggang ngayon naman eh one message, one email away lang ako rereplyan naman agad kita kung gusto mong magsumbong haha.

Ayun lang!!!! Napadrama tuloy ako hahahaha nightyy.

[dhampiravidi]

my review of Bring Me The Horizon's POST HUMAN: NeX GEn...

k so, I didn't know it was released til 15 min ago. also just got the Angry Oli Maid Pics. I have a feeling that I know how this first listen is gonna go, but who knows.

[ost] dreamseeker - no rating

If any of this is Eve from the concerts, I'll have to skip the OSTs, because AI scares me (been giving me nightmares for months now). Anyway, this just seems to be a clip of filler/ambient noise. I'll only give ratings to actual songs (longer than 2 min & w/singing).

2. YOUtopia - 5/10

I keep hoping it'll get better as I listen...it just sounds kinda whiny & maybe it was a Jordan Fish thing, but there's no build really. Of course, the name of the song is a pun...IDK. Song sounds a lot more hopeful than I thought it would, since I thought POST HUMAN was all apocalyptic/post-. Giving this a 5.

3. Kool-Aid - 8/10

Pretty sure they already released all the good stuff. I remember hating how "heavy" this sounded initially, but I love this song now. It's an anthem for...something. I guess it's a warning tale for cults, hence why I thought this was an "end-of-the-world" type thing. Solid 8.

4. Top 10 staTues tHat CriEd bloOd - 6/10

IDK why I just thought of FOB's Under the Cork Tree. Probably because I'm getting a pop-punk sound (apart from the fairy techno) that's either UtCT or maybe a lighter That's The Spirit (specifically, "Avalanche"). The sound definitely matches that of "LoST". I keep asking myself if BMTH's songs usually repeat the same parts musically & lyrically...I don't remember. If they do, I didn't notice.

5. liMOusine (ft. AURORA) - 6/10

Optimistic about this one! As long as it picks up...I like the guest singer's voice! It's beautiful on it's own & it complements Oli's pretty well. I'm thinking there should be (based on what BMTH usually does in its collaborations & what I think would go well) a section where he screams while she sings...ah, here we go. I guess I was thinking about what happens in AmEN. Hmm...I suppose they wanted a slower song.

6. DArkSide - 10/10

RAHHHH! I love this song sm. Again, I think all that we heard before today is probably the best parts of PH: NG. This is my favorite BMTH song (the last one Jordan worked on, I think). Pretty sure we've all heard the comparisons to Linkin Park for this one 😊. I love how it ebbs & flows but ultimately is a complete song, one that sounds great onstage, makes me dance, has a message & uses all of Oli's range.

7. a bulleT w/ my namE On (ft. Underoath) - 7.5/10

Immediate mixed feelings here. I love the part where the guitar & drums kick in. It always takes me a second listen to get used to the parts where Oli screams because I don't always expect them. I don't like when they edit his vocals to sound super-techno because then it's almost like implying he can't sing without autotune. OMG I can hear Jordan in the background...then I hear "guess this is goodbye" RIP, man. Have we ever had a song where he clearly sings backing (w/o muffling)? Oh, well. ANYWAY. This song fits the BMTH style, I think. IDK what it's saying at the end--I'm never a fan of editing in stuff that can't be understood unless it's a rhythmic thing.

8. [ost] (spi)ritual - 7.5/10

Best of the OSTs so far. It's a chill lil bop. *looks up the lyrics* oh sHIT. I had to pause it because apparently it's an occult ritual used to clear the room of negative energy prior to doing another ritual & um...I'm no expert in this stuff, so I'm just gonna skip to the next song!

9. n/A - 8/10

OK initially I thought this was a bad joke of a song, given Oli's past addictions & time in a mental hospital. It's actually a good song musically & lyrically. I just feel really awkward listening to it. I think it's referring to how he relapsed during COVID...the music video part of Spotify shows a demented kid's picture...

10. LosT - 9/10

Again, we got the good part. I think we all know the message behind this, which I respect considering how many meds I've gone through trying to improve my own mental health. I have thoughts (positive) about the music video, but this isn't a music video post-! "LoST" has the ebb & flow that I love. "Too much to take, I can't fucking stand it" & "I think I'm gonna break down" are my favorite parts. I can only love screaming when it's done to emphasize clean singing &/or the melody.

11. sTraNgeRs - 8/10

All I'll say is...I prefer this version to the acoustic & my favorite part is "take us back to yesterday" (that whole thing before the last chorus).

12. R.i.p. (duskCOre Remix) - 9/10

This is the first new song that I actually like. I love the "club" songs that BMTH makes, where they sound happy but the lyrics are metal as hell. The "make me the villain if you want" *side-eyes The Darkling* I feel like that man has heard a BMTH song.

13. AmEN (ft. Lil Uzi Vert & Daryl Palumbo) - 10/10

I'm not familiar w/Daryl Palumbo, so I'm not sure what part he sings/screams, but I love this song. It's almost like a dramatic monologue, in the way that I can imagine someone doing all these over-the-top gestures as they sing each part of the song (maybe using puppets). I know I'm mouthing the words every time the song comes on (even though I still don't know the screamed part at the beginning, lol).

14. [ost] p.u.s.s.-e

Very interested to see what the acronym stands for (if it stands for anything)...welp, the Genius annotation says it's about a drug created by the fictional Church of Genxsis to "suppress people who will not obey their will" o-o don't fuck w/cults, kids.

15. DiE4u - 10/10

o-o just releasing how long it's been since this was released. This is bringing up angsty memories...anyway, I love the music video for this (Oli's a Real Vampire Agenda) & I love the pacing of the song. IDK why the "lemme see my halo" part sounds so good.

16. DIg It - 7/10

Fuck, I think this might be Eve talking...*scans some of the lyrics* OK the song's actually alright. Just don't look up the song on Genius unless you want some meta-AI-related stuff. I can tell this isn't supposed to be a banger as much as it is a sad song. It reminds me of Oli's monologue (done while high) on Music to Listen to...("Underground Big", I think?) & it could definitely be used on a soundtrack IMHO. I'd love to hear Oli just sing something chill w/o editing.

Alright, the average of all the ratings is...

5 + 8 + 6 +6 + 10 + 7.5 + 7.5 + 8 + 9 + 8 + 9 + 10 + 10 + 7 = 111

111/14 = 7.9 out of 10

So to me, about half the songs were good. I've felt that way about albums before. I wonder how they finished the album considering that Jordan left in December & yet he's credited on the songs. I don't think this album will be given high ratings, but if it wins an award...I wonder how that'll go down. Anyway, yay for angry maid pics!