#i know i should be ashamed

[nabi-unveiled]

Sung-hyun bought Da-on congee when he was sick.

Sung-hyun told Da-on it was okay to cry when he was upset.

Sung-hyun stepped in to help when Da-on was in a tight spot.

Sung-hyun offered up a distraction when Da-on needed it.

Sung-hyun TOOK THE PHONE when Da-on was worrying.

Sung-hyun offered Da-on a place to sleep when he needed it (which by his own standards makes them very close).

And Sung-hyun is one hell of a smooth operator.

So THANK THE HEAVENS Sung-hyun can't cook.

He was looking a little too perfect there.

[incorrectbungou]

Everyone I have something horrible to admit to…

I’ve only read halfway through the second bsd manga, the first beast manga, and light novel and I’ve only watched up to episode 1 of season 3.

I only know what’s going on rn cuz it keeps getting spoiled for me

[yepmimix]

the christmas party ended 3 days ago and shes still here

[not-the-living-ghost]

gotta love when your teacher asks you what types of books you like to read, and you have to say "fantasy" and "historical fiction" because "fanfiction about ghost boys kissing" is not a socially acceptable answer to that question

[oboeonecannoli]

ARMS ARMS ARMS ARMS ARMS ARMS ARMS

[queenwille]

them: yOU SHOULD BE ASHAME-

us:

[sandeewithtwoe]

Fav papyrus au?

Oh man that’s hard to choose… handplates is probably my favourite, I adore how he’s written. Gosh, the whole handplates comic will always stay on my mind every once in a while.

But if I had to pick the one I have the most fun drawing, it would be Fell Paps, even though I have no idea what’s going on with his shoulder pads.

[terrys-min-catl]

due to recent updates

[maddie-grove]

I wholeheartedly love the stilted titles of category romance novels. Like:

Fallen: A Governess for the Earl?

An Innocent Widow for the Viking’s Bed

Betraying the Movie Mogul’s Secret Secretary

Wanted: A Cowboy Father for Her Surprise Baby

Wedded to the Marriage Wife

Betrayal: Trouble at Knuckle Beach, What Really Happened with My Baseball Team?

[sammimts147]

I’m fully aware that I’m decades late to the fandom, but here I am. At the risk of sounding ridiculous and self-centred, Carter is the character I like and relate to the most.

Full disclosure: I haven’t watched every single episode of ER. I’ve known about the show for decades but never really had the chance to sit down and watch it. I’d love to say I’m a longtime fan, but in reality, I watched Noah Wyle in The Librarian and Leverage first. Those are my comfort shows, and I’d love to watch more of his work. I guess life happens and things just fell into place now—I've developed a deeper connection with the medical frontline, Leverage is coming back soon, and The Pitt is currently airing, which makes this the perfect time to finally go through ER. I actually started ER before watching The Pitt, and during this time, I also lost a family member—just as Carter did.

Carter and Abby are so deeply trauma-bonded, bordering on CPTSD. They come from completely different backgrounds but share similar experiences of profound adversity within their families—psychological abuse, abandonment, even physical abuse and CSA. Both were forced to grow up too soon—Abby became the de facto mother to her brother, and Carter carried the weight of promises to his deceased brother. Seasons 8 and 9 have been particularly heavy to watch—painful yet incredibly well-written, especially in how Carter navigates his contradictions: his defiance toward his family versus his deep care for his patients, friends, and Abby.

They both experience deep loneliness, but their coping mechanisms are vastly different. Abby is the "marry me a little, love me just enough" type, while Carter is constantly searching for something stable in his life, a confirmation of unconditioned love. I can't quite fathom Abby’s reaction to relationships, though ironically, I have close friends who behave the same way, shaped by similar upbringings.

That said, I understand and agree with Carter’s hesitation about the proposal. Psychologically, they were never a good fit.

Both of them are, unfortunately, addicts, but what initially rubbed me the wrong way was Abby’s attitude and behaviour toward John’s near relapse compared to her own. When Carter confided in her about almost slipping, she immediately pressured him to tell Weaver—despite the very real possibility that doing so could cost him his job, trust, and friendship. Yet when Abby began reconnecting with her family and spiralling into alcohol relapse, she refused to be held to the same standard. She asked Carter not to “fix” her—something he never actually tried to do. In fact, he explicitly told her that she didn’t need to be fixed. What he wanted was for her to let him in, but she resisted, shutting him out instead.

Their dynamic became an ongoing cycle of miscommunication, with too much left unsaid. It’s heartbreaking because they understood each other’s struggles so well, yet they could never find a way to bridge the gap between them. Carter ultimately needed stability, and Abby needed space to figure herself out.

Addiction is a disease, and while love and understanding are important, the peer effect plays a huge role in recovery. If Abby couldn’t—or wouldn’t—manage her addiction, it was inevitably going to pull Carter down with her.

One of the most compelling aspects of Carter’s character is the stark contrast between his interactions with his biological family and his chosen family. With his family, he is resistant, defiant, and unwilling to conform to their expectations. But when it comes to the people he loves outside that world, he gives everything—sometimes to the point of self-sacrifice.

His near relapse wasn’t just a moment of weakness; it was the culmination of exhaustion, emotional distress, and the weight of always stepping up for others. He was overworked, sleep-deprived, and had just supported Jing-Mei through an incredibly difficult moment. And when it came to Abby, his loyalty was unwavering—getting arrested with her, cutting his vacation short to be there for her.

But the tragedy is that when Carter needed Abby most, she left to find her brother. While understandable given her family dynamic, it only reinforced how one-sided their relationship had become. Carter was always there for her, but when he needed support, she wasn’t there for him in the same way.

And to make things worse—how Abby handled it when Carter told her he had lost the one family member he truly felt close to, the only one he knew loved him. Bringing her brother and crashing the funeral?

Carter is a great physician and a compassionate listener, but he struggles to voice his own needs. He refuses to be seen as a burden, constantly pushing aside his own well-being. He copes with his PTSD from the attack largely alone, to the point of addiction, and later even handles his own kidney transplant without truly letting anyone in. So when Carter finally opened up and showed Abby his vulnerability, it was his cry for help. And when that call was left unanswered, or answered in a “professional way” it broke the trust between them. After his outburst in the ER following the funeral, he told Abby to leave him alone—and she did.

It’s unfair to expect Abby to be a mind reader—she couldn't possibly understand everything he was going through if he never communicated it. By the time When Night Meets Day happened, Carter had reached full burnout, on work and life. When Abby runs into him, she mentions they haven't talked in a week and questions why he has nothing to say. But by then, Carter has nothing left to give. He feels the need to run, to escape, and as he later tells Kem, everything felt like too much, and he just needs to get away. Carter walked away, and Abby let him go.

Carter and Abby’s relationship was never meant to last—not because they didn’t care for each other, but because they were caught in an endless loop of unspoken wounds and unmet needs. Carter spent so much of his life holding everything together for others, and when he finally needed someone to hold him together, Abby wasn’t able to be that person.

In the end, Carter’s decision to leave wasn’t just about running away—it was about survival. He needed to step away from the chaos, to finally put himself first.

ER never tied things up in a neat little bow. It gave us characters who were messy, flawed, and painfully real.

And decades later, here I am—still thinking about them.

[tacagen]

one of the things that fascinate me about thawne: yes, he CAN be normal with kids! surprisingly normal!

((not at all times, though. his mental illness still spills through and as usual he, in trying to manipulate or hurt others, spits out at them the exact stuff that would hurt him (or have in his childhood/barry's rejection interpretation) the most in the first place lmao))

but at the same time. his like second instinct when doing his bullshit is FUCK THEM (as) KIDS

(and, well. whatever this classifies as)

[skunkes]

anyway i feel like im 3 seconds away from drawing baby's first oc x canon. Goodnite

[uncanny-tranny]

Recognizing the alliance that trans guys* pre or no surgery and cis guys with gynecomastia have is actually something that's saved me. Genuinely, we ought to form a group alliance together because frankly, the things that affect us trans guys* aren't inherently foreign to cis people of our gender

[shalom-iamcominghome]

One of the classes I'm taking is History of Early Civilization and I'm really looking forward to week four when our schedule says we'll be covering Mesopotamia and Judaism. I'm crossing my fingers and toes that it will be good 😭

The funny thing is that we're also covering early xtianity and the schedule mentions that we'll need a copy of the Bible. Of which I don't have. So I'll have to use an online alternative. I used to have a copy, but as you can tell, I don't read it and don't particularly want to keep it

[lameow-l]

GAMING IS MY SON AND IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO HIM IM GONNA KILL EVERYONE IN THIS ROOM AND THEN MYSELF!!

LOOK AT HIM HES SO CUTE

i still have hope in getting the other boys too

its ok they can be a band or smth.. at least then gaming wouldn’t have to be so disappointed in people not hiring him bc he’s just having fun with his boys…

[serenadeofsunshine]

i was getting super nervous about the clothes i have picked out for tomorrow so i did this to help me feel better👍 <- strange individual