#i know i just made a post but literally what is tumblr for if not being my own personal journal that surely no one else can see

[27daisuki]

Hello again! I recently added subs to the dmmd stage plays (except Ren's! i do not take credit for that). Originally i only had 4 routes, but I received Mink's and ViTri's routes and just finished subbing! (thank you @minkiemoo for sending them to me!!)

They're all updated on the same Google drive that i posted before but I'll repost it here

I hope you all enjoy!! please let me know if I missed anything or if it's not working (I didn't finish subbing the post credit conversations but i wanted to get the rest of the play out there first)

translators notes and general thoughts below if u care

Woo!!!! I'm so happy i got to watch all the routes and I'm very happy to make it easier to consume for English speakers! the game blew up in 2014 on tumblr from a fan translation iirc? so I think it's only fair that I do my part now that I'm at a level of fluency where I can do that too! my goal since i was a kid to be able to watch/play things in jp without subs or translation, and i think i only recently realized i can do that now lol

it has been a very long time since I started learning jpn (i believe in total it has been 18 years on and off 💀 god) and i just wasn't confident in my skills but when i was watching Ren's route (it was the only one available overseas without vpn shit and had subs) and no shade to whoever had to sub Ren's route but i noticed some subs were just straight up wrong? (there's a part where aoba is looking at a screen at toue's speech and it was just all wrong) so i think that coupled with having friends that also like dmmd and wanted to watch the other routes inspired me to do my own damn subs lmao 😂

I'm absolutely not saying my subs are perfect, I'm sure there are spots that aren't 100% accurate (mostly because i can't 100% hear exactly what syllables they're saying sometimes because they talk so fast or just the audio quality or mumbling lol noiz I'm looking at you), but if i was unsure at any point I'd cross check the game lol if anyone notices any point where my subs are inaccurate, please let me know! i take no offense and honestly would love to be corrected so i can know for the future

also lastly, i did wanna touch on my strategy for subbing! jpn and English don't translate very well to each other all the time so there are some things that are said in jp that if i wrote literally in English would feel awkward or be hard to understand, so for some dialogue i tried to convey what they were saying with phrases that would make more sense to an English reader. So if you hear some sentences/words and you're like, wait that's not 100% exactly what they said, there's a good chance I know and i made the choice to translate it differently. it can be really hard to know when to leave something literally translated and when to localize it, or how far you should change the wording even if you keep the important information in a sentence, and which words i can leave out because of how fast they talk😭

jpn is also a very context heavy language, which means they leave out words in a sentence because it's implied that they're still in the sentence but you're supposed to fill them in. so there are many times where it sounds like in jp, they say 2 words, but it could really actually be like 6 because they're assuming you filled in the other 4 words. English you can only really get away with so much not said, and it can feel a bit weird when u read 6 words on the screen but hear the actors say 2 words lmao but just trust me on this, i promise I'm not adding words outta no where😂

one example: when Mizuki is holding a knife to Tae, he says 後悔すんなよ which literally means "don't regret this", but with the full context he's saying something close to "don't regret this because it's gonna be your fault your grandma dies" which obviously is a lot more than what he said and I can't write all that on the screen for 2 seconds. The best equivalent to this (imo) was too write "You'll regret this", because even though it's not what he said in jp, it still gets the point across to english speakers and eng speakers can fill in the blank that he'll regret this because he didn't take Mizuki's threats seriously. It's less words and it's easier to digest in the few seconds that you have to read the sub

anyway i just want it to be known that i put a lot of care into these subs and thought very hard about how I translated each sentence, so i hope that you can trust my work!

Thank you again for all the kind words! I hope you enjoy the plays!!

[plaest2k]

hey, im a young nz artist too and i like making comics/want to do something bigger when im older, and i think your stuff is genuinely so fucking cool. i love it so much. i was wondering how you pursued art after highschool, like did you go to art school? if so, where and what was that like, and if not, how’d you find the time to continue doing it? its always felt like my opportunities for a career in art specifically seem smaller living in nz, but idk your stuff inspires me to think otherwise. thank you :)

kia ora!!

thanks so much for asking, it's truly so flattering that a young nz artist would ask me for advice! <3 sadly i might not necessarily be the best person to ask...

First of all, it's been a loooooong time since i've been a young artist hahaha I'm 32. After high school, I studied architecture at university because, as you're probably aware, we don't really have art schools like our peers do overseas. But after studying for a few years, I had a major depressive episode and dropped out. After that, I ran away to Korea to teach english for a year before coming back to work in cafes for about 6 years. Back then I was pursuing a career in editorial illustration cause that's what all my favourite artists were doing but I didn't realise that it was a dying industry at the time and there weren't exactly lot of full-time professional artists here who could have warned me...

So after about 10 years of trying to piece together some kind of profession in illustration, I ended up looking for a tattoo apprenticeship which was looking pretty promising but my bosses turned out to be not-so-great people. I tried to keep tattooing on my own but that was around the time COVID hit which wasn't (and still isn't) great for a job that requires you meet face-to-face with a lot of people. So, since the pandemic began, I've just been subsisting off of jobseeker, chipping away at comics and the occasional illustration gig.

The whole experience had me perpetually burnt out for the past ~15 years and made me realise that art as a career really just shouldn't be a thing. Under capitalism, it requires either an embarrassing level of compromise, privilege or luck to pursue. All the household-name artists you know in NZ either come from privilege or got unbelievably lucky. I don't say this as a value judgment or anything, most of them are truly wonderful people, it's just what I've learned about them as colleagues who've worked together a few times over the years.

I don't fault anyone for wanting to pursue that, but if you want to make uncompromising art that makes you feel fulfilled, you can't stake your livelihood on it. Art is supposed to be a by-product of life well lived, not content to be sold.

It's why I'm making plans to go back to uni next year to switch careers into a cushy office job because, as you've observed, even if you still want to pursue this as a full-time career, opportunities for artists in Aotearoa is extremely limited.

Having said all that, there's still a lot of nuance to this whole thing that would take me too long to cover in a tumblr post, so if you'd like me to elaborate or anything or have more questions, you're more than welcome to contact me through my email: plaest2k@gmail.com!

And this offer extends to literally anyone who might be looking for advice or just wants to talk about art <3

Final thing: the thought of studying something else at college/ university and keeping your art as a hobby might sound bleak when you're young, but life is so much longer than you think. You might feel like you have limitless creativity and ideas at the moment but when it becomes your entire life, you burn through it all faster than you'd think. It's because you need fuel to inform what you make and you can't get that from just making art. Like I always say, art is a by-product of a life well lived; You need life-experiences; You need to love, hate, care, be hated and loved to make art and you can't do that if you're too busy to do any of that. Those 3 years you spend on a bachelors is nothing in comparison to a lifetime of staring at a blank page, agonizing over what to make next.

[ohrupie]

Reality check for all the Hamas stans in my timeline...

The most shocking part of so much of this hellsite enthusiastically supporting Hamas isn't the blatant antisemitism---Tumblr is justifiably known as the most blatantly antisemitic site this side of Nazi's "Stormfront", and it's often cited as evidence that large portions of the left have become just as antisemitic as the far right. When Ron-fucking-DeSantis condemns antisemitism far more strongly than 95% of the left, you know there's a problem. So I was prepared for that, blocked tags and certain bloggers accordingly, and refrained from pointing out the blatant falsehoods and sometimes outright "Jew hating" in certain posts. "That's just Tumblr," I thought, "filled with teens and college kids who are very often wrong yet never in doubt. Their religion is "identity politics" and they tend to automatically assume that any marginalized group with darker skin is the innocent victim while Jews, who tend to have lighter skin overall, are therefore always the evil oppressors. There's literally zero regard for history, context, nuance, or proven facts and many tend to blame average citizens for the decisions made by a few world leaders in power, but, hey, they'll learn eventually!"

So I was grimly resigned to most of the blatant anti-Jewish hatred or the way every fact is twisted to the point of absurdity in order to confirm their preexisting narratives - e.g., "no, see, the Jews are attacking *THEMSELVES* on college campuses and pretending it was Hamas!" We Jews have gotten used to hatred from both the left and the right and have been scapegoated since literally the beginning of humankind.

The shocking part is that Tumblr conveniently overlooks not just their own antisemitism but the fact that Hamas is antithetical to EVERY SINGLE VALUE most Tumblrs claim to hold. They subjugate women, they're intent on literally executing LGBTQ, they ban not just books but all valid information and education, they have zero compunctions against sexual abuse, the less said about how they view Blacks and Latinos the better, they advocate for the oppression of all citizens under authoritarian regimes, and that is literally just the tip of the violent and inhumane iceberg.

Kamala Harris isn't sufficiently "woke" and progressive enough to pass some of your purity tests, but HAMAS - a proudly violent, virulently anti-every-marginalized-person-you-claim-to-care-about - terrorist group elicits your wholehearted support and applause?! JFC. To quote my beloved Rupert Giles, "the earth is doomed."

Some of you guys are absolutely wonderful @rigginsstreet , I wish others were as brave and thoughtful as you! So this obviously isn't meant for my amazing mutuals or many others---just the Hamas stans who need to realize exactly what they're embracing. (And realize where you're giving your money as well---a lot of the heartstring-pulling posts floating around are scams, and Tumblr is known as hating Jews and loving terrorists so much that they've deliberately targeted many of you as being easily duped)

[drieschersies]

bullshit? why do you guys keep making assumptions about me and what happened? i was skeptical over the red car because someone said they seen the video on someone's instagram highlight. i made a ask before he posted the yellow car picture as proof and i also believe him a bit too because you can manifest a car including with the void state. (like hours before? (idk but i also have a screenshot of it because tumblr doesn't let you see the asks you sent.)) i saw someone else had asked the same thing too and someone else confronted them about it and they never responded (so did the person that alleged that.) and blocked them. because i wanted both sides i figured it would be best to ask him for more proof of the red car (my ask he never responded to.) not because i didn't believed him but because i was skeptical of the video and wanted clarity.

i misunderstood the post about him not showing proof because of death threats because of the post and thought he just didn't want to show proof. (i thought the death threats were unrelated to the proof.) and kept asking him if he could write his username on a piece of paper and hold it when recording in the car because i thought he was making excuses. (before i deleted the link you could see i was framing him for making excuses on not showing better proof.) and btw a video of someone starting a car isn't proof at all for it if someone is saying that's someone else's video. or is showing a different car in a different place with writing on it and that's what made me skeptical even more.

i also want to add that image reversal tools don't work for instagram and i think for other social platforms because of their policies. so it's useless if someone is saying it's someone else's instagram highlight. and you don't know if it was a past memory, deleted, or they are just lying.

at one point i misread the being at his friends house and car reply and thought the picture he posted as proof for having cars was his friends car. (idk how to explain why i did.) then i got fed up and said "also is your friend aware you are pretending their car is yours?" "

i would admit and take accountability for the constantly proof asking because that probably came off as harassment but it wasn't my intention at all. i just misunderstood his post. i am not obligated to believe or accept or is the death threats a reason that the red car video is his video.* if he doesn't want to show proof for it, nor can i make him show proof if that's his boundaries. (ikik this is contradictory. i misunderstood why.)

i dm'ed loaisacult bc i could understand where they were coming from about the cult part and the message was relating to it and also the random hate because i saw someone calling them racist and ableist for saying they saw the instagram highlight, and i sent that ask way before they started being active again on that account after the allegation. but there is literally no proof that the video is his or if it's not. on both sides.

and i'm pretty sure the "you came after bro for no reason other than that you're sad about your own miserable life" is just a jab to make me upset even more but that's not the case... i just wanted a understanding about it.

literally this was just a misunderstanding about why he doesn't want to show proof anymore and me wanting clarity on the alleged instagram highlight. but since there is no proof on both sides if the video is his or not i can't take anyone's side. i know this is contradictory to the title for the link of proof, i made it because i was mad about the situation and since deleted it because I DONT KNOW IF HE IS LYING. like i'm starting to also doubt loaisacult A LOT about the alleged instagram highlights and just dmed them now asking for proof about the instagram highlight. (ik i should've done it before but they were inactive on the page when i saw it so i thought why not ask matheoxs for proof that the video is his and not someone's instagram highlight and because he blocked someone and didn't respond to their, someone else's and my ask about it.)

so please i wasn't attacking him. it was just misunderstanding over misunderstanding and no proof to back up the car. i just wanted clarification. that's all.

the *'s are edits btw*

i also want to put here that i feel like im getting gaslighted about by* him about the screenshots and what happened. because of the constant hate i am getting i deleted the link because i just want this to be over with. but no matheoxs came onto my page or saw the vent* post attacked me and then others started attacking me and calling me a hoe, miserable, insecure, slow and ugly.*

and maybe if you see this or he sees your reposts or someone else screenshot this i am blocking him and someone else because i don't want anything to do with it anymore. the situation was becoming super disrespectful and now it's gotten worse.*

why is this blogger making it seem like i am stupid and miserable for pointing out inconsistencies of their success stories- like im sorry but i just wanted clarity if someone is alleging your proof is false and that they seen it on someone’s instagram highlight story…

like “i have the odacity (audacity.*) to say something” well i think everyone does if they want clarity on inconsistencies. like it doesn’t matter if i was late to see that post because i was just now seeing it and asked a simple question if they can prove the specific car that was alleged to be in someone else’s instagram highlight is theirs.

[sammygender]

wrt prev post and sam’s original ‘fed demon blood by azazel as a baby’ arc like. actually that was the most insane thing to see depicted on my television especially when it seemed like no one else i knew or followed was talking about it. it felt so explicit and yet it was sooo deep in metaphor. she walked in on us. sammy, you’re my favourite. god it must be terrible to know something happened but that you’ll never be able to remember it or tell anyone about it. never be able to rip it out or scrub it clean. so azazel could get into my nursery and- bleed in my mouth? because i wasn’t clean. these trials - they’re purifying me. anyway. augh

[ray935sworld]

Okay serious question, how do I keep a friend away who I stopped seeing as a friend due to dismiss and ignoring of my feeling and he has romantic feelings and asked me out multiple times/ made hints about a what could have been despite knowing I'm not into men?

Edit: Okay! He is blocked now and yes I had a ray that's not normal moment

[uwudonoodle]

Writeblr: "NoNoWriMo are sell outs. Let's cancel them!"

Me, who is brand new to writing, thinking it was just an activity people chose to do, much like making a New Year's Resolution: "It's an organization...? With like money and stuff???"

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

[icewindandboringhorror]

examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

[a-really-cool-blog-name]

My art isn't the best but I thought this was a painfully accurate funny idea that I had to get out

Textless version

[steakout-05]

having social anxiety on tumblr dot com is so fucking frustrating cause like. i'll see a post i like and want to reblog but i do it with so so so much embarrassment because my brain's just thinking "oh god oh fuck im being so stupid right now what if op sees it and thinks im annoying" but like. they realistically would either not care at all or be happy about someone reblogging their post so like what the actual fuck am i afraid of??? but here's the kicker. the reason i have social anxiety in the first place is because i HAVE experienced these comically horrible social experiences of being judged and insulted for no reason before. multiple times. recently. the possibility of this happening is not a 0 chance. i have legitimate reasons to be afraid. and that is. actually horrific

[sol-draws-sometimes]

I know everyone has complicated feelings about Valentines but shoutout to my fellow aro/arosepc people who forgot it was Valentines. Like I knew it was the 14, but I forgot that Valentines has festivities such as candy and dressing up in red/pink. Anyway, GO US!

[stelmao]

of covens and magicians is really great u guys should read it

[derpinette]

i have a weird relationship with weight because i hated eating more than anything the moment i was ready for solids ( i hate chewing with my entire life always have & will ) which made me underweight for most of my life ( to this day ) & during late primary-middle school this made me actively suicidal because i felt like something was wrong with my sex because i just was not developing whatsoever prompting me to have a years long phase of trying to gain weight in any way i could ( #EPICFAIL by the way ) & i was already insecure but i felt seriously so unforgivably ugly after bullying not just at school but by adults of my entourage. but then i did in my late 15s which prompted the pendulum to swing in the other direction & suddenly i FREAKED OUT & thought well being skinny is pretty much all i have & know myself to be & clearly it is not going to last forever so i Better preserve it i was delusional about how skinny i thought i was actually i look stumpy & weird i have to prove myself. But now i am normal again kind of

[isthisjackie]

I feel like between just like existing in the US rn and spending any time online has just caused me to feel angry so often that it has literally become exhausting. Like my nerves are fried to the point that makes me so tired

[secret--history]

the whole 'there are not very many Great Causes worth fighting for these days' from Julian scanned as WAY more out of touch than the moon landing thing for me the first time i read tsh