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gameplay combat comments (complaints)
jesus fucking christ i am playing a warrior next bc it SUCKS how long you have to wait to get one… i’m so fucking squishy and so is everyone else but the horrible armored mercenaries just spend all of combat SPRINTING directly at me and so i spend 15 minute dodge rolling around while neve/harding/bellara barely make a dent in them. it’s not fun!!!! this is not fun combat! WHEN WILL I FINALLY GET A TANK… like i know i’m bad at combat at the best of times but spells for mage also feel so slow i wish i could kill the animation and just get to damage bc by the time it’s gone off i have gotten stabbed 3 times and am on the brink of death
#like am i missing something#i would like to try orb/dagger but figuring out just staff has been such a hassle i cannot risk complicating it right now#with a second method#i keep buying all the stuff to up#my health bar also but honestly i can barely tell there’s any difference#ramblings#jade plays dav#also like in prev games u get one of each class like right away for party comp reasons#and i am baffled that that’s not happening here cmon
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Yet another jewish privilege: Stores putting sales on holiday items because (apparently) management has no clue when "those people's" holidays are.
They put chanukah candles on sale for $0.71 a box the week before chanukah
#jumblr#meme#personal thoughts tag#those stores wouldn't DREAM about putting xmas stuff on sale which makes this extra funny#look if stores keep doing this then... i hope they never look up when the holidays are frankly#i am a COLLEGE STUDENT. let me be cheap 😭😭😭#tbf thaose stores have notoriously cheap judaica#i got my shabbos candles for a couple bucks and i'm good for like... six weeks now#honestly if i were a manager i'd do that on purpose#just make everyone think that nobody'll buy them anyway so we should just put a sale on it#when all along.... it was THE WEEK OF CHANUKAH THE WHOLE TIME (evil laughter commences)#edit for the first tag: i meant putting xmas stuff on sale DURING the xmas season. the day after xmas is fair game ofc#and i respect that. get those sales. jews apparently get them 24/7 unless it's a jewish store (because they know better)
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Thank you to all the people on discord who have been supporting by buying bean style commissions!
#got a lot of these lined up#more to come cuz im doing pretty much everything i can to cover this bill#and everyone who buys something or donates is helping#first appointment is tomorrow so at least i will be getting stuff fixed#i just need to keep going to pay for all of it#commission art#commissions#homestuck#hiveswap#art#artwork#fantrolls#fankids#fantroll#fankid#not my characters#commission work#yes i do in fact do same day delivery/hj
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Love the thought of Leo just casually being well traveled to absurd degrees. Like one day they’re facing their new Big Bad of the year and like, Draxum or whoever says that the key to their fight is located somewhere in, like, Latvia or some place, but no one knows where to start.
Then Leo’s like “oh I know a place” and when asked how the heck he could know of one it smash cuts to Leo falling through the ceiling of said place due to a portal mishap.
Also love the idea of Leo, being as accidentally (and then later, purposefully) well traveled as he is, sometimes taking his family on outings to different places all over, maybe to some new Yokai spots he found along the way.
In these places, Leo 100% lets his bros get scammed by tourist traps.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#rottmnt headcanons#bro was so excited about buying stuff that he didn’t realize it was a scam until too late#so now he’s super sus of all that BUT super willing to laugh at his fam for making the same mistake#anyway yeah I love Leo being well traveled because it honestly makes sense? why NOT use your teleportation to travel if you can do it fast#all his portal mishaps in the series as well as that time he accidentally went to Paris (+ once a diff dimension?) live in my head rent free#Leo destroying the stall of some random family’s restaurant in Paraguay and having to work it off the rest of the summer#he’s just like ‘hey guys I’m heading out’ but doesn’t mention it’s for a part time job in a different country#he only knows like English and Spanish BUT he’s picked up on a lot of other languages too due to his misadventures#tho he mostly knows a whole lot of various swear words#leo about to tease donnie for getting banned from witch town only to remember HE’S banned from a place in Turkey: 😬#he keeps trying to find where he accidentally put his brothers in Tahiti but he can’t find it and he’s so salty about it lol
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for dca fandom members specifically: have you played and completed security breach?
when i say "complete" i specifically mean "played through it at least once and got to 6am", whether you got all the endings and/or achievements is irrelevant to the question
another additional note is that if you've played other fnaf games but haven't completed those then that still counts as you playing them and you can answer yes to that!
no shame towards anyone who hasn't played the games! this is just to see what the general statistics are among everyone here
please reblog for a larger sample size! thank you ♡
#my post#daycare attendant#dca fandom#dca#fnaf daycare attendant#thats a good amount of tags right??#anyway i was just curious about this a little bit... i wanna see how many gamers we have here HDJZJFJD#i personally have 100% beaten sb (and the flat mode for hw1 too actually!) and have played all the older entries as well#except for hw2 bc i dont have a vr headset + am not super interested in buying it tbh#i do play sb the most just because of the stranglehold it has on my brain but i've experienced the other games too HFJZJGJ#im just wondering if there's a larger amount of people who's main experience with the series is through sb? and specifically with dca stuff#but idk.. i shouldnt make assumptions#this question does keep me up at night sometimes though
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CHARM PREORDERS JUST ADDED TO THE OL ETSY SHOP !! blew off some of the dust off my etsy shop for 2 new charms !! they're up right now and will be up for preorder until SEPTEMBER 9th !!!!! international shipping SHOULD WORK THIS TIME !!! i know last time i was unable to for whatever reason despite etsy giving me the thumbs up for it but now i think im able to !! (if not though PLEASE let me know somewhere so i can see what to do to change it as im still very new to etsy and already etsy does not like me lolol </3)
#oooooo you wanna buy from my etsy sooo baddddd oooooo#oooooo a little cici by your side oooooo#cicero#skyrim#cicero skyrim#dark brotherhood#skyrim fanart#the elder scrolls skyrim#the elder scrolls#tes#charm#if the links dont work ill cry#after the preorder is up and everythings sent in with vograce btw is when i plan on making my big fallout merch stuff !!!#ive got a notes app list ready to go for that fandom its about to go down#originally i planned on dropping everything all at once but A) i cannot keep burning myself out and B) i get too exciiiiiteddd
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stede is 'oh this place has something related to my interest i must go in immediately' autistic and izzy is 'if we deviate one inch from my plan for today i will murder someone' autistic
#stede wandering off into the forest to look at bugs was not on the schedule or any of izzys contingency schedules#new thing i think would fix izzy: a clear fucking plan#in the nebulous reunion timeline future i see izzy researching every port town they are gonna stop in HARD so he can figure out everywhere#stede + ed might possibly want to go and plan several routes for the day to keep himself calm in the inevitable chaos#(and yet somehow every time stede finds something he missed and they still go off script anyway)#(he tries to go separately around port from them one time and its a fucking disaster; someone gets stabbed; so he just resigns himself to#incredibly stressful port stops)#its not like stede + ed mean to do it!! theyre both awful for it individually and they just feed off each other#its ok because theyre very good at letting izzy have the deck Exactly how he wants it and scheduling as much big picture stuff as they can#with him#(when stede realises theyve been the cause of like. 65% of izzys stress they finally agree to let him redo the rigging as an apology and#they suddenly realise watching him buy the supplies that hes just as bad as them in his own way)#(he absolutely terrorizes the rope guy but they have never seen him so relaxed as when he was up there redoing all the lines)#nyxtalks#ofmd#izzy hands#israel hands#stede bonnet#you can pry autistic izzy away from my cold dead hands
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Writing the first ever fic for a pairing goes crazy. Im just making up whatever the fuck I want. Rembrandt has a day job at a movie theater actually.
#warriors musical#when you get obsessed with characters with like no lines or defined character traits you just get to make shit the fuck up#i mean tagger can't be a full time job right. rembrandt probably does other stuff.#she needs money to buy all that spray paint#ajax is hashtag unemployed tho#she keeps getting fired from every retail job she gets for yelling at customers#she would kill it as a bouncer for a gay club but unfortunately i dont think they have those in coney island
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Quite a zoo you got there, Connie... 👀🐾
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#AAAA I FINALLY GOT IT ALL HUNG UP!!!!! AAAAAAAAA#for the most part... still a few empty spots on the other side of my window#i'll fill it gradually as i collect a few more alan magazines/advertisements 🙏 maybe animals too bUT i might keep them to the other side#STILL DECIDING.... there's not a single general theme to each wall of my room just. animals. ALAN PRICE.#well except the record wall behind my tv sort-of#AND THE PRICE-BURDON CORNER. THE UNSUBTLE PRICE-BURDON CORNER.#everything i did in that corner was 1000% on purpose#including buying an issue of fabulous just for the eric photo on the back#aaaaa all of these magazines and posters make my room so bright now.... i love the paint color as is but the contrast is really nice too 🥹#kind of like how the animals and alan came into my life and really brightened it up aaa.. 🥹#GOSH SAPPY STUFF ASIDE. I AM VERY HAPPY WITH HOW THIS TURNED OUT!!!!#everything is vintage/original copies btw!!!! no photocopies at all!!#special appearance of the comfort shelf(tm) as well#needed to hang up that photo of hilton hitting john with the stick... that was important#along with the 'congratulations mickie most and lulu' poster LOSING MY MIND ALWAYS AT THAT#losing my mind at my price-burdon issue of beat instrumental..... aaaaaaa#the animals#eric burdon#hilton valentine#chas chandler#john steel#alan price#not a second mag#things i said today#british invasion#60s rock#vintage magazines#classic rock#vintage collector#sooo many pokémon scattered about as well I LOVE THEM DEARLY. I LOVE MY SPECIAL INTERESTS. ALAN PRICE HAS A GLACEON.
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little rich boy sirius who gets disowned and can barely survive without his expensive brands and the basic human need to eat at least once a day meeting the entirely too generous james potter who just falls for the vanity and sincerity of the reformed rich boy and decides that once sirius stops caring about brands and status and rich boy things and just cares about what matters in life he decides to spoil his boyfriend to pieces because he’s secretly sitting on a fucking fortune
#idk i just think it’s funny#like james would find sirius when he’s struggling with money because he’s so bad at saving and prioritising his spendings because he’s never#had too before and so james would teach him how to do all that stuff and emotionally support sirius through it all and sirius just falls in#love with this beautiful guy who’s just so generous and who teaches him so many things and finds value in kindness and sincerity and#compassion and all that jazz and james falls in love with sirius helplessly because he might be stuck up and vein and kind of selfish and#is stuck up and cares all too much about status but he’s trying so hard to be better and he finds empathy because sirius got kicked out for#the worst reasons because he’s always been the black sheep of his highly cultist christian family or whatver and he’s also outwardly queer#and james decides that he wants to give sirius everything and loves the way he looks in expensive makeup and designer faux fur coats and#heels and divine jewellery and all that jazz but makes sirius sell it all and learn what it means to be human and not rely on money and#status and brands and stuff and sirius learns what it’s like to be decent and in touch with humanity and only then does james take sirius on#a surprise luxury holiday for his birthday or something and then just buys him thousands of dollars worth of all these glamorous looking#things and sirius is like omg what the fuck jamie and then he just becomes sirius’ sugar daddy because he can’t help himself but they’re#also in love and much better people because of it and when sirius buys things now it’s not because of brands or because they have big price#tags like he used too. he now buys things with james’ credit card he keeps in his own wallet because he thinks he’ll feel pretty in them or#because he thinks james will loose it if he sees sirius walking around in it or if he sees a really cute toaster that sends him into a#frenzy that has him spending all way too much on an impromptu kitchen renovation but james doesn’t care because as long as his boyfriend is#happy and actually paying attention to the price of things and calculating the best value and taking james’ opinion as well and just being#happy and safe and accepted in his new home and family here with his jamie#please i think they’d be so cute ugh!!!#prongsfoot#bambibelle#drabble#fic idea#marauders#james potter#sirius black#jay talks
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#okay random story time i don't know why im narrating this or how i even stumbled upon this memory rn#but i generally do sad vents in the tags and for a change this is a funny one#so back in highschool (i say highschool but i mean junior college) i used to visit this park near my house a lot#i was an sg kid back then and the thing about parks there is that they're kinda beach-parks and they have the best cycling/running tracks#they're also really massive parks so i used to go often. sometimes bicycling. other times walking. yeah. the park was like my sanctuary#anyway. there are quite a few bike rental areas in the park and there was a cute lil shop next to this one particular rental place#and they sold like biscuits and water and icecreams and stuff and i went there a lot#and on one particular day i went there and there was this guy around my age part timing at that shop#now again this might be culture specific bc i dont see it in india but part timing in uni/pre-uni is pretty common is sg#a lot of shops and restaurants employ teenagers to twenty something ppl for part time jobs... anyway im just adding context#point is that i had walked to the park with my mum that day and she told me to go buy a couple icecreams so i went to the shop#and i saw this guy around my age and like. not to be a simp but this dude was so pretty?#like he saw someone had come to the counter so he looked up and shot a smile and i thought i got slapped by sunlight#i could spend the next several lines going on about his pretty tan skin and his glowing raven eyes but this is pathetic enough so ill stop#anyway he saw me and smiled really wide (customer service smile- i thought to myself) and i smiled back and asked for icecreams or whatever#and then this guy started getting chatty right. so he was all 'you come here (to the park) often right? ive seen you with your bike a lot'#see now. the problem with me is that i always think im bothering people. this poor dude was attempting to make conversation#and i was replying with one word answers#and i wasn't even realizing that he didnt want that. bc he kept asking more questions and i. kept. shutting them down.#then when he gave me the icecream he was all 'are you here alone? icecream alone is no fun... i could keep you company if you want..?'#which. he was being really cute about right. but because im so fucking dense i was all 'oh no i came with my mom actually'#and he went 'aw man' in this really cute but faux sad way which i didnt understand at the time and i left and then#after three full fucking days. i realized this man was tryna hit on me?#and then i went to the park like a week later and he was gone. poof. i even thought of asking the uncle in charge of that place#then i got too embarrassed and chickened out#yeah so turns out my neurodivergence neutralizes any sort of rizz that comes my way#i could've been chilling with a cute boyf rn but no😩 this is my destiny#megumi in the tags
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I’m a day late for my favorite holiday. I am so distraught. alas, better late than never I absolutely love this goofy series The stream yesterday was fire , her new voices / the concept art is so cool wahhh nonsense post HAPPY ENA DAY!!! ! !! ! (wordless ver. under cut)
#ena#ena dream bbq#ena joel g#ena temptation stairway#ena day#the most important holiday ever#i am so excited for this game yall ghhrg#there are very few tags for ena#so sad#Also i know i keep doing this but ty guys for all the notes its insane???? yall are so nice#want to buy you all coolattas from dunkin donuts#. yes that is foreshadowing#if u know you know i guess >:]#anywho#in summary#wishlist dbbq and if you want sign up for the merch to support#watch the series if you havent because its magical#(youll really enjoy it if you like weirdcore and stuff)#and have a blessed day :]
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having a lot of problems with my hands now that the weather has dipped into cooler temps. it's so annoying. i love colder weather but typing in a vaguely average temp room at work or home for my JOB is painful.
#not dogs#i think its raynauds acting up but its not super white like that usually is#but it's a similar feeling#my hands can't get warm#so i bundle up to keep warm#but then i sweat#like the knuckels/second joint on my fingers just...ache. always.#(fyi yes i am seeing a doctor on thursday but we all know how hard it is to get this stuff taken seriously)#is it a connective tissue thing or is it the youve had frostbite thing#who knows!#all i know is all the so called solutions for it online are dumb#i did buy 'the writers glove' and it better work#when i get to go outside and have cold air on my face and wear GLOVES is better than sitting inside in a poorly insulated room
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Do you have any favorite horror book recommendations?
hhng... well i did a lot of reading like a month ago but i can't say much of it was very good.... otherwise im in a perpetual state of reading many books at once that i have still not finished... but from what i've read recently:
fluids & girl flesh by may leitz - these are both extreme horror novels and i actually still haven't finished girl flesh yet. fluids is about two women who meet on tinder during the pandemic and spend a few fucked up days together in a hotel where they hurt each other (and others) very badly.
girl flesh is about two (different) women who are both "famous" in different ways and find themselves kidnapped in the middle of nowhere together and it follows them as they try to escape through the texas mesa.
to be devoured by sara tantlinger - this is a novella and it's one of my top reads. about a woman who really really really wants to know what it's like to be a vulture and eat carrion. (apocalypse party who published the newest edition have quite a few interesting horror books/novellas. i have more from them on my to read list)
death in the mouth: original horror by people of color - this has been my "work read" for a while now which means i read it when i'm on break at work (this also means it's taking me forever to read it) it's an anthology of short horror stories and i've read four of them so far and have really enjoyed every single one.
not read recently but that i remember fondly:
annihilation by jeff vandermeer - i do recommend the entire southern reach trilogy but annihilation is the first one and also my favorite. you follow the biologist and the rest of her team into area x. weird stuff happens.
the luminous dead by caitlin starling - one woman in a high tech suit going on a solo caving expedition. she is guided (and sometimes controlled) by another woman who is able to talk through and manipulate the suit to get her to do what she wants.
bonus round two good horror stories i've read on itch.io lately:
childhood homes (and why we hate them) and gutless
#the way all these books are about women. Feminism#definitely look up the trigger warnings for fluids i think thats the worst one on here#i think the newer editions actually have the warnings literally printed on the cover lmfao#to be devoured is probably my favorite on this list#i've been struggling to read lately and i took a break to read stuff for pride and now im just behind on everything....rip#and i keep buying more books :/#unfortunately w horror im really picky and it's SO easy to lose me in like the second half of a book#and a lot of extreme horror turns super goofy in the second half#and then the book just falls flat to me#ask#anonymous
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When it comes to hygiene tasks and self care with disability and chronic illness, its pretty much a constant case of: don't let perfect be the enemy of the good.
Basically: it's better to do something, than to do nothing at all.
TLDR: Just because you can't do something "properly" doesn't mean you shouldn't do it at all. Do it half-way. Do it shitty. Do it barely. Do it on a technicality. But do what you can. Just try, because doing something will help you.
If you don't have the energy to scrub your body with a sponge, just rub soap over your skin with your hands.
If you don't have the energy to wash your whole body with soap, just hit the places where sweat accumulates, or where you're smelliest.
If you don't have the energy to wash with soap AT ALL, just sitting in water is better than nothing. It will wash away dirt and oils.
If you can't bathe or shower at all, a warm wash cloth is your new best friend. If that's too much, then try bath wipes. They're a bit bigger than regular wet wipes, and a bit more heavy duty. They're designed to help keep bed ridden patients clean in hospitals.
If you don't have the energy to dry yourself after a bath or a shower, just put on a bathrobe and get into bed. If you don't have the energy to get dressed afterwards, just don't. It can wait until you can.
If you don't have energy to brush your teeth for two minutes, honestly, just a cursory scrub is better than not doing anything.
If you can't brush your teeth twice a day, brush in the evenings. It will help take away the build up of food from the day.
If you don't have the energy to brush AT ALL, honestly, just take a cloth and wipe the plaque off your teeth. Rinse with mouth wash after if you'd like. Something is always better than nothing.
If you can't floss twice a day. Try once. If that's too much, try a few times a week. If that's too much, try setting aside a day once a week as a goal. If you can't keep a schedule, do it when you're able to. Hell, I keep some floss next to my bed so that if I forget and don't have the energy to go get it, I can just reach over.
If you can't iron your clothes, don't bother. Wrinkles are fine. Wear jumpers over wrinkly t-shirts. No one will know, and honestly, most people won't even care. If it's really wrinkly and it's A Big Deal And It Needs To Be Ironed, here's my life hack. Step 1: take a spray bottle, and spritz the item of clothing (while you're wearing it is easiest) until it's lightly damp. Step 2: use a hair-dryer on the clothes until they're dry. It gets rid of creases like nobody's business, it's easier than lugging out the iron and ironing board, and you get to have nice toasty warm clothes afterwards.
If you can't fold your clothes, try just hanging them up. It's less commitment. It's quicker to do. Granted, you need to have the space in order to do this, but it is also good at helping you downsize, and lets you visualise exactly what you have.
If you can't put your clothes away, invest in a couple of laundry baskets, and then just keep your clean clothes in the baskets. You can then separate washed clothes into underwear, pants, and shirts baskets. You can just leave them like that. I'm giving you permission to never fold your laundry again if you can't. Just leave it unfolded. Who's going to care? Something is better than nothing. If you can, try to put those baskets into your closet so that you can keep the clutter out of sight, and give yourself a more restful environment.
If you can't separate your clothing out into different categories and wash them "properly" (whites, warm tones, cool tones, darks, delicates / switching between hot & cold washes / paying attention to laundry instructions on the label) then just don't worry about it. If you cold wash your clothes, colours won't bleed. Maybe gradually over the course of dozens of washes there'll be some changes in hue, but it's really not as high stakes as the One Red Sock In The Whites Turns Them Pink trope makes it out to be.
I've pretty much come to the point in my life where if a piece of clothing can't survive the washer and dryer, then it's just not meant to be. I colour separate my clothes, and if I have the energy/remember I'll take my bras and jumpers out of the washing machine to drip dry. But otherwise, I leave it to the universe.
If you can't separate out your recycling, then don't. If you have a large amount of rubbish you need to get rid of but the idea of separating it out properly is stopping you from doing so, then just don't worry about it. I know it's not ideal, but if you have garbage in your room/house and you need to get rid of it, please just get rid of it. Don't let the problem get bigger and harder to deal with. Don't let "doing something properly" get in the way of keeping your living spaces clean. Please. Give yourself understanding.
If you can't wash your dishes, get paper plates. Obviously, it's not ideal, but it is better that you eat food than skipping meals. It is better that you have a clean kitchen, rather than having dishes piling up and making it harder to look after yourself.
If you can't prepare meals for yourself keep making the tasks easier and easier. If you can't do recipes, then simplify. Use pasta sauce from the jar instead of making it. Eat canned soup. Buy food you can just stick in the oven. If you eat fish fingers and microwave veggies every night, it's better than not eating anything at all. It's better than having to fork out money on take-out. If you need ready-made meals, then get them. If you're literally just eating a raw cauliflower for dinner; 1) I see you, 2) me too, sis, 3) something is better than nothing.
These are the basic things you need to do every day to function as a person. They are your activities of daily living. Brushing your teeth. Bathing or showering. Using the bathroom. Getting dressed. Eating. Drinking. Sleeping. Keeping your environment clean. You don't need to do these things perfectly, but they need to happen in order for you to have a decent quality of life.
And it breaks my heart, because I know that so many disabled people can't do these things every day. I'm not saying this to guilt or judge, I'm saying that these are basic needs; you deserve these things. These things bring dignity. If a disabled person is unable to do these things, it diminishes their quality of life. It robs them of dignity.
If you need help to do these things, Its okay to ask for help. It's okay to need help. But if you can't get that help and you have to do these things by yourself -- or you just plain want to be independent and do it without help-- then don't hold yourself to standards you can't meet.
Don't let perfect be the enemy of the good. Doing something is always better than doing nothing. Even if it's not perfect. Even if it's not done well. Do what you can.
#lord knows that im still trying to pull myself out of the muck and into independence and dignity#i had to set a rule for myself that i need to wear clean clothes every day. and that i need to wear pyjamas to bed#that one's been hard. sometimes I dont have the energy to do it and i just stay in the same clothes for two days at a time#or i go to sleep in what i was wearing. but when i do follow that rule my quality of life is drastically better#not feeling dirty or gross goes a long way to making you feel more like a person#i also made a rule that im not allowing myself to look frumpy outside anymore. that means clothes that look nice#no more trackies and pj pants and all that stuff. i basically lived in perpetual pyjamas for four years and im over it#i still dress comfortably but the important thing is that i dress. i look put together. i wear things that make me happy#(and i didnt need to buy anything to do so. i just needed to start taking better care of myself)#and i stopped letting perfect be the enemy of the good. i started doing things shitty rather than not doing it at all#and the more i keep pushing with my ADLs the better i feel#what helps is now i dont have to contend with stairs and that has made a dramatic change to what im able to accomplish#ive also finally built up enough strength in my body that im able to go to the shops by myself. so i can buy things to make easy meals#and mum doesnt mind if i just put some things in the oven or air fryer for us for dinner.#i still cant really cook. i felt bad about that for the longest time. i didnt even try bc i knew what id make would be disappointing#or it wouldnt be up to the standards of what everyone else was making. i was so sick of feeling like a let down all the time.#now i just make what i can and my mum doesnt complain bc shes in the same boat.#and yeah. having help would be nice. it would mean id be able to do more than what i can do by myself.#and its great to see how far ive come. but im not a burden. and when i have the accommodations i need i can do a lot more#i do something rather than nothing and my life has dramatically changed since then. ive just gotten better and better.#chronic illness#disability#chronic pain#spoonie#one things for certain and thats that im never going to let myself rely on anyone else ever again.#i never want to be on the other side of that ever again. I don't want to be anyone's burden. i dont want that hanging over me#i do things by myself or i dont do them at all. and god fucking willing i'll never go back to needing as much help as i used to#i really didnt realise just how much of an obstacle living with stairs was in my life. it was the biggest barrier against everything#stairs stopped me from being independent. if i couldnt traverse them i just didnt go anywhere. my world shrank so much#and not having the proper wheelchair shrinks my world even more. im stronger than i used to be but im still severely limited in where i go
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oh my god I need to order food for Sammy asap but my bank account is VERY sad. Can the month be over already. So much anxiety 😵🥵
#random stuff#sam the papillon#I had to increase his portions because he was getting to thin#no idea how to keep that up in the long run 😖#wet food is SO expensive#and while this isn't even the most expensive stuff#I can't just feed him trash because he's pretty sensitive about food orz#ideally he should be getting raw but I can't do that for several reasons 💔#not fun#once all the positions have been booked I'll have less than 50€ left ahahaha#and once I've paid my part for the house it's only 15€ 🙈#I guess no groceries for me next week 😂#this is scary as hell lol#technically I also need to buy food for Bats but I hope what I've got left lasts until I get my benefits#also cat litter#that one will be a stretch to last for the entire next week but nothing to be done at this point#thankfully Pukki is relatively resilient when it comes to her litter box 😅
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