#i just want to be okay

[adharastarlight]

i want to go back to being a baby when crying all day was considered normal and not a "psychiatric meltdown"

[naeemajusthasthoughts]

I've been putting too much pressure on myself that I just can't seem to write anything at the moment. I kind of feel lost with not having a way to let out some of my emotions. I feel like I'm bursting at the seems and I feel like have to pretend that there is nothing that is affecting me around other people, when all I want to do is scream. Shout out that I need time to collect my broken self, put myself together and heal from my mind. But there is no time for that as the year comes to an end and it gets harder and harder to pretend that I'm okay. I just want to be okay.

[3-lavender]

I’ve been fighting myself for as long as I can remember. I’m so tired of fighting.

[mewhenthecat]

i’m so sad, can’t i just stop time and disappear for a few in-between-moments days?

[scoutingthetrooper]

I'm in such an awful way that even stuff that I'd usually find funny is making me angry😮‍💨

[a1nsl3yyy]

i miss snow. i miss the holidays. the holiday spirit goes down every year. we got a tree very late this year. just yesterday i was allowed to start decorating which took the whole day.. i just want to be a kid again and be happy during the holidays. oh and snow? yeah no it’s been a while since that.

[submissivefeminist]

Love going out and having a nice night out with my friend and then bursting into tears when I come home to an empty apartment.

[gay-xylophone]

why can’t i fucking think without it hurting

it’s like my brain is being ripped in two every time i try to talk

in other news: i fucking love hemingway right now

[sunflawyer]

vent.

im genuinely tired of being shoved with jimmy's canon ship here and there. (you know who.) i tried so hard to ignore it, but lately it's gotten into my mind a little bit too much. i genuinely hate feeling like this, but everytime i see that canon ship, i get reminded of the trauma of being attacked by their hardcore shippers just because i selfship with him.

its been bugging my mind a lot lately. i just wish they'd leave me alone. especially with people who comment like, "i cant see jimmy with someone else," "abby is boring", "youre replacing her with your character" etc. god, my head hurts.

all i want to do is just give him the love he deserves in my own way.

someone please reassure me he loves abby and sunflawyer is valid. please. please.

[vskitty]

[thisiswhatmakesusgirrls]

[emmy101118]

Back to depression

[psycho-freitag]

How do you heal when every time you think you've moved on, one tiny little insignificant thing brings it all right back and you're trapped again even though you're free?

[incoherentyearning]

Sitting at work wondering why I'm in such a good mood today and then remembering that I took a hit off of my pen with my antidepressants this morning "to spice things up". Don't feel high or anything, it was just one puff & got me in a good mood. Shit honestly works 10x better than the SSRIs my doc has me on. Thinking about doing this every morning, but at the same time that seems like speedrunning psychological addiction.

[spiced-demon]

I just want everything to work out

[tefeckincraicen]

These past two months have been really... Eye opening?

I knew I was disabled, but I always just pushed it down and pushed through it. I guess I was stuck in my own ableist mindset against myself. "It's not that bad." But it is. And I don't really know what that means for my life.

I have to do this for the rest of my life :)