#i just relapsed

[faggotymaggot89]

I love life so much.

[cravingthin]

the feeling of relapsing on s/h is kind of comforting in a way. like yeah it feels bad at first bc im guilty it happened again, but when the familiar sting comes back again after I drag the blade across my skin it’s like i cant ever imagine being without it

[riobobio]

god i love relapsing after almost a year clean

[silentscroll]

It happened again. I thought I had locked it away, that unbearable urge, but it found its way out, creeping into my consciousness like a thief in the night. I watched as my heart sank, a heavy stone plummeting to the floor, each beat a reminder of my failure. The anger inside me was a violent storm, screaming silently, tearing at the edges of my sanity. Tears fell, hot and relentless, carving paths down my face. They felt like shards of glass, each one a testament to the pain I couldn't contain. My entire body shivered, a trembling wreck of emotions I couldn't control. Yet, despite the tears, despite the shivering, I did it again. The compulsion was stronger than my will, an overwhelming tide that I couldn't resist.

The silence around me was deafening, a stark contrast to the chaos within. It bore witness to my actions, an unyielding observer that offered no comfort. I felt the weight of my solitude, each tear amplifying my isolation, each shiver deepening my despair. I watched the red lines appear, each one a whisper of the agony I couldn't voice, a silent scream etched into my skin. Every moment was a reminder of the battles I fought and lost, the internal wars that left me scarred and weary. The cost of each act was immense, a heavy burden that crushed my spirit. I felt trapped in a cycle I couldn't break, a cruel refrain that echoed through my mind, relentless and unforgiving. My heart bore the brunt of my silent suffering, a constant reminder of the pain that lay just beneath the surface, waiting to break free again.

[losingmyhope]

!! TW Cvttin !!

I relapsed again today, and it still feels that it wasn't enough.

[rueckfaelligesarschloch]

When your mood starts to worsen over the day and you suddenly find yourself imagining cutting your wrists open when you've actually thought you'd been past that and then you're just like WOOOOW CHILL.

Just me?

Aight

[im-back-damn]

FUCK YOU MOM!! IM DONE TRYING TO NOT RELAPSE

i’ve been on the edge of fully giving up but i keep myself from jumping off the ledge every time

NOT ANYMORE

my mother called to ask about getting a weightloss coach for me. fuck you i don’t need it. i’ll get rid of it. i’ll make myself small again

why can’t you accept me when i’m healthy why must you push me to my breaking point time and time again.

IM DONE

i’m gonna be what you want me to be. thin. and then i’ll be thinner. you’ll worry and you won’t be able to do anything other than feel bad cause i’ll be on the other side of the world. you’ll wonder if i’m okay or if something happened and you won’t know and it’s gonna be your fault. you pushed me to my breaking point so watch me break. watch me break into a million little pieces and know that this time you won’t be able to pick them up.

FUCK YOU

[i-want-to-let-go]

okay, but this feeling when you were clean for almost a year, but destroy it<<<<<<

[rexigirl047]

relapsing with $H is so heartbreaking bc i was so good for so long and just one bad day ruined months of progress

[endlesswish28]

recovery is stupid. my brain never recovered so now i’m just a fat girl with a skinny brain

[struggle-puddle]

On my third day fasting and doing so good, how long should I go tho?

Don't want to crash my metabolism:'))

[lozerzo]

I love to think, I love to imagine, but my imagination runs wild sometimes and I feel myself drowning in my own head.

[gvampp]

Relapsing once again 🥲

Girlies I literally just relapse so whatever, im back ig

I hate that all my old tumblr acc got deleted but whatever, need buddies!!

[twilightsnights]

Walked 18,000 steps today and planning on doing a goal of 20,000-25,000 for this week and next. While fasting 3 days and eating 400 cals max. I want to loose abt 30 pounds by the end of may and be at around 80 by June 4. Tops and tricks would be appreciated.

[losingmyhope]

I relapsed today. i was clean for 8 months.

! ↓ TW ↓ !

I still feel that it wasn't enough. I didn't bleed enough.

[wronggalaxy]

I want chicken and ranch so bad. ):