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craving food but i am also craving to be severely underweight sooooo..

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i only feel beautiful when im empty

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I’m gonna focus on my ed this summer fuck everything else

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fuck recovery. im over it. coming back once again

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If you feel hungry it's not a signal to eat. It Is a signal from Ana that all the hard work you've done is working! So enjoy the blessing of being hungry as much as you can.

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I won’t be deserving of love until I am thin.

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i miss the feeling when i was at my lowest weight and so unwell but also so proud of myself

i need to go back

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my appetite is so small.

i never crave food.

when offered food, i decline.

i’m jst never hungry.

i can never finish my food.

i’m fine having jst water.

i am skinny.

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2024 goals

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Black swan

Him: what are your hobbies?

Me:

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"2024 gonna be a vibe!"

the vibe:

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"2024 gonna be a vibe!"

the vibe:

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Trying the 75 hard challenge cant wait to feel so much better 😍

Rules + my own custom goals:

Read ten pages of non fiction

Drink 1 gallon of water

Stick to a diet no cheat meals

Workout 45 minutes 2 times a day 1 outside

1 progress photo

Custom:

7-9 hours of sleep a day

Omad/vegetarian diets

Run 1 time a week

Less screen time

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Bella hadid is so real

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Need

christmas list:

skinny

less than 100lbs

thigh gap

little skinny cigarette arms

weed

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its not enough.

relapsing is not enough.

i need to cover my whole self in blood.

its never enough.