#i just realized that bonny is almost like bonnet

[rocketrouquine]

I’m sorry but …

Are the lesbians doomed to put some sense in clueless or hopeless gays ?

Is it like a prerogative ?

Anyway… in the pirate world, the double date/couple therapy doesn’t seem to work on our baby girl, she just wants to break some furniture

Rude.

[themusicsweetly]

An Exclusive First Look at Brianna and Roger’s Huge Outlander Wedding

(Warning: Contains mild spoilers for Outlander, episode 1, season 5)

TV loves a wedding, and after almost a year of a what-felt-like-forever Droughtlander, Starz’s hit series Outlander is back with a bang on February 16, and the entire Fraser family is celebrating Brianna and Roger’s nuptials in a big way at their newly built homestead on Fraser’s Ridge. Fear not, Outlander faithful—the first episode of season 5 delivers everything the fandom has been anticipating, complete with Jamie playing the touching role of father of the bride and Claire getting sentimental before watching her daughter walk down the aisle.

“The wedding is such a beautiful episode,” Caitriona Balfe, who plays the show’s lead Claire Randall Fraser, told Vogue on set outside of Glasgow while shooting season 5. “First of all, I think Claire goes through a very emotional process because, having left Brianna back in the 20th century, this is something she thought she’d never get to experience. She felt like she had sacrificed all of these moments to spend her time with Jamie. She loves Roger and thinks she and Brianna are a great match. Jamie [on the other hand] is still on the Roger-fence. But it’s a really special moment [for Claire] to see Brianna happy—especially after what happened to her last season—to see her and Roger reconcile and be ready to start this new life together.”

In the event you’re not one of the converted, or if you’re in need of a quick refresher, the epic Outlander saga, based on the book series by Diana Gabaldon, begins with combat nurse Claire visiting Inverness, Scotland, with her husband Frank Randall (Tobias Menzies, a.k.a. the new Prince Philip on The Crown), hoping to reignite their romance after a long separation courtesy of World War II. While in Scotland, Claire is transported back in time to 1743, where she meets James “Jamie” Fraser (Sam Heughan).

Upon first glance, this strapping Scottish man seems like nothing more than a lad with a kilt and a killer bod, but she quickly realizes he’s more than just a pretty face. Thanks to the tides of history, Claire is caught up in the Jacobite risings—the attempt by the Charles Edward Stuart (a.k.a. Bonnie Prince Charlie) to regain the British throne—and along the way falls truly, madly, deeply in love with Jamie, a match-up which, for Outlander’s many fans, constitutes the hottest couple on television.

Five seasons in, the Frasers have been to hell and back, but they’ve still got it. The list of atrocities they’ve endured runs long, and their multi-decade, Gone with the Wind-esque family saga has taken them from 18th-century Scotland to Paris to Jamaica, and now to 1770s North Carolina. It’s there where, at the end of season 4, Jamie and Claire have made a deal with the devil by accepting a land grant from redcoat leader Governor Tryon and settling Fraser’s Ridge in the back-country.

Their daughter Brianna (Sophie Skelton), has joined them, having traveled back in time from the ’60s to warn them about their untimely deaths. Her significant other, historian Roger (Richard Rankin), follows after her, and is embroiled in the the doings of pirate Stephen Bonnet, the series’ latest supervillain—who, after terrorizing the Frasers, sexually assaulted Brianna. In a Shakespearean-level mixup, Jamie believes Roger was the one who had attacked Brianna, and sells him to the Mohawk; only after a major search-and-rescue operation is everyone able to return to Fraser’s Ridge and reunite with Brianna and her new baby (whose paternity is unclear). Just as it seems like the Carolina dust has finally settled, Governor Tryon orders Jamie to squelch the fervor of a group of liberty-seeking insurgents who call themselves the Regulators, and are led by his godfather, Murtagh Fitzgibbons.

Season 4, while packed with action and soap opera–esque twists, wasn’t exactly full of the tender Jamie-and-Claire moments that had originally enchanted so many viewers. Fans wanted more intimate J&C screen time—and also for this family to finally catch a break. Shortly after the finale, Heughan and Balfe were named producers, and they, along with executive producer Maril Davis, assured the Outlander clan in various interviews that there would be more of what they were hoping for in season 5.

Episode 1 delivers on that promise. On the big day, Claire helps Brianna into a cream wedding dress embroidered with orange blossoms, a subtle nod to the bohemian-ness of the ’60s and ’70s. “We make a point of showing that this is one of Jocasta’s dresses that has been reconfigured for the wedding,” Skelton notes. “It’s a hand-me-down, which is quite sweet. We tried to get a little bit of the ’60s and ’70s vibe in there, too. It’s not your conventional wedding dress. There’s the fichu [collar], which we often wear when we have a corset on in the past. And then later for the dancing and party time, that comes off, and it feels a little bit more free.”

Costume designer Trisha Biggar (who is new this season and oversees all of the handwork and sourcing for the fashion and jewelry on set) is the woman behind the wedding dress. “It’s a cotton and silk gauze over a very fine silk taffeta. I used a variety of different photos for inspiration,” she explains. “[The bride also wears] the family pearls—they’ve come from Scotland and been passed down. Unfortunately, we don’t have a 1960s wedding [this season], but it is great to have the two periods to explore and to see characters in both times and try and give them a similar feel, albeit a very different look.”

The series’ 1700s/1960s mashup is apparent on the wedding night, when Roger serenades Brianna with Nat King Cole’s “L-O-V-E.” As for those intimate moments fans have been craving, a montage of each couple’s bedroom antics that evening ensues. “The wedding was a very anticipated moment both in the books and for us,” Rankin observes. “Obviously, Sophie and I have been playing the relationship for a while, and Brianna and Roger have gone on quite a journey through time and through a lot of trials they’ve been separated. They’ve had a lot of drama and conflict. So to see them have this day [and night] is really nice—them finally coming together properly in that union is something I think the audience will really enjoy. It’s also a platform for their relationship and a catalyst for us now because they’re very, very together.”

It’s not unusual for movies and TV shows to end with a wedding as a way to neatly tie up a season. Outlander fans know all too well, though, that in this show a wedding is often just the beginning of the drama. Season 1’s episode “The Wedding” set the stage for Jamie and Claire’s entire relationship, while simultaneously defying typical portrayals of sex on TV and kicking off all of the action. Episode 1 of season 5 flashes back to that first wedding and continues in this tradition, showing raw, real intimacy, but also serving as a jumping-off point for everything that is to come—after the marriage is consummated, there’s a gathering right there on the Ridge that essentially sets the stage for the American Revolution.

This season, we see Jamie and Claire grow even more—they’re now grandparents, in-laws, and the leaders of Fraser’s Ridge. But we also get back to basics when it comes to their connection. “Jamie and Claire’s love story is what drew us to the story [in the first place],” Heughan says, standing, fully costumed, in the center of the show’s Wilmington set. “It’s the rock of everything else that goes around them. They have this extended family now, but always at the heart of it, Jamie and Claire are deeply in love. There’s finally no more wondering, When will they be together? They’ve aged gracefully together, and they still have a great love for each other, and I don’t think that’s ever going to end.” With this unforgettable occasion, Brianna and Roger MacKenzie further the family tree, but things come full circle for Mr. and Mrs. James Malcom Alexander MacKenzie Fraser too—and isn’t that what we’ve been waiting for?

[drunklander]

Drunj!Der Yells About Outlander

Thoughts on Ep. 509

So this episode had some all-to-brief moments I really liked, a moment where I was definitely laughing at it and not with it, and a whole lot of Jamie being an ableist douchecanoe with a side of toxic masculinity.

The scene where Marsali calls Claire her Ma is the sweetest fucking thing. I have diabetes now. Their relationship is literally like my favorite thing about this season. (What little we’ve actually gotten of it...)

Also thank fuck she’s not gonna be preggo anymore. I swear, she’s gonna pop out a walking, talking toddler.

Also it took me longer to type that than the scene took. Can we please get more good character stuff that lasts more than fucking 0.5 seconds? Is that really too much to ask?

Hard pass on the Bree and Roger stuff, but I am 1000% here for babies swearing so Jem can stay.

Did they cast a blonde baby though so it could pass as Bonnet’s? Or did they not actually put any thought into that?

Jamie shading Roger when he asks Bree to go hunting is like the only time he’s not a douchenozzle this episode.

I know we’re supposed to be like fully on board with Roger by this point, since Jamie is by the end of the episode, but nah. I’m cool with still not liking or caring about him.

There is so much grunting and groaning in this episode it’s like the opposite of an ASMR video.

The noises in this episode are like the equivalent of someone saying “moist” over and over.

Oh hey, my favorite color! DYE ALL THE THINGS!

Seriously though, Lizzie is like that weird kid in high school that never actually has a glow up. “It’s a good day for dyeing.” I’m sorry the writers hate you so much, Lizzie.

Omfg, finally, a Claire and Bree scene that is [mostly] not about men! More of these, please. And more of Claire and Marsali. And more of Bree and Marsali. Can we please have an episode of just the ladies where the men are never mentioned?

But gee, I wonder if Bree’s engineering is gonna come back at some point this episode. Hmmm...

Ok they’ve talked about going back like almost every episode. Can Bree and fam please just go back in the finale and get it over with?

Irrationally angry at Roger for how much time he wastes just dicking around the woods because he has no idea where anything is.

Also like, buddy, if you shoot off your gun and then immediately peace out, folks are gonna come looking for you in the wrong spot...

Omfg, Jamie is like literally dying and the priority is to tell someone to go do some murder. Yes, Bonnet is straight garbage. Def won’t be sad when he’s dead, and given how he has everyone who’s anyone in his pocket, murder’s probs the only way to get rid of him. But like, take the testosterone down a notch, bro.

Jamie went from “stay and take care of the Ridge” to “all y’all gotta get the fuck outta here” *rull* quick.

Aaand is this the start of Roger wanting to be a minster? Jamie talked about his father the soldier, but he wants to follow in his other father’s footsteps? Def would be a better fucking reason than “I wanna get close and friendly with the ladies in a way that’s mildly creepy and don’t want people to think I’m cheating.”

“Dinna tell me ye don’t have snakes in yer time.” Ok but like Marsali is right there. Are we supposed to assume she knows? I swear to fuck if we got cheated out of her and Fergus finding out about Claire...

Nurse!Marsali is legit my favorite and my favorite adaptive choice the show made in a long fucking time.

Claire telling Jamie she doesn’t need to inject the penicillin into his bum is the fucking cutest.

Glad they did the “you’re not yelling at me so I must be dying” scene, it’s adorable. One good thing before Jamie turns into a twat.

Like seriously, what the fuck is wrong with you, buddy. He’s obsessed with being “whole”. Always has been. It’s lowkey a bit gross, tbh.

Ableism is never a good look, bro.

Like oh hey, Claire, you left everything and traveled through time to come be with me, but if I can’t have my leg, then sorry, that’s just a sacrifice I’m not willing to make. Fuck you, dude. Fuuuck you.

“Well people of this time see the child as proof that... That you were a willing participant, because God wouldna allow a child to be conceived through... Rape.” IT’S NOT JUST THAT TIME, ROGER. WE STILL LIVE IN THE BAD PLACE.

“It seems to me, from what I understand from doctors, that’s really rare,” Mr. Akin said of pregnancies from rape. “If it’s a legitimate rape, the female body has ways to try to shut that whole thing down."

Friendly reminder that the Republican Party is evil and if you support them you are a garbage person or an idiot. :)

I said what I said, @ me and get blocked.

Literalol at Bree getting punted by a fucking buffalo. Like that is the most unintentionally hilarious fucking thing ever.

Like seriously, that bit was dumb af in the book and it’s dumber af here because the CGI or whatever the fuck composite it was is so fucking terrible.

I fucking love that Claire and Bree talk to each other like equals. The mutual love and respect there is great. More of them together, please and thank you.

But also like, fuck Jamie for making Claire thing she’d lose his love if she saves his life by taking his leg. Fuck him, selfish asshat. What a fucking bastard.

She’d risk losing his love to save him. She loves him that much. And he’s willing to make her feel this pain because he doesn’t want to be crippled.

CLAIRE FUCKING ELIZABETH FUCKING BEAUCHAMP FUCKING DESERVES FUCKING BETTER. FUCK.

Young Ian calling Jamie on his complete and utter offensive bullshit is my fucking everything.

FUCKING PREACH, YOUNG IAN. FUCKING PREACH.

Put some respect on Ian Murray’s name, James Fraser. And show some fucking respect for your fucking son.

YOUNG IAN AND FERGUS, MY BROTP RIDES AGAIN!

I love this scene between the them. I really hope we get more with the two of them. GIVE ME ALL THE FRASER KIDDO BONDING, YOU COWARDS.

Marsali and Fraser are literally my favorite couple on the whole damn show. Can Young Ian move in with them and then the whole show can just be about that squad? Because ngl, I’d watch the fuck out of it.

Gah, I want to feel what they want me to feel with this scene between Jamie and Claire. This should be my brand of angst. But they made Jamie be such a twat that all I feel is sorry for Claire that she’s going through this.

I WANNA GIVE CLAIRE A HUG OK.

LOOOOOOL THE RESUSCITATIVE HANDJOB!

(Named such by Bonnie.)

Fuck you that it took a deathbed handy to realize that you should fucking live, Jamie.

Yes, I know it’s Claire that made him live, but she was literally there all day begging to save him and he fucking blew her off. Fuck that guy.

Fergus is a fucking adorable father. Fergus is fucking adorable in general. I just fucking love Fergus a lot.

His face when Marsali goes into labor is fucking hilariously precious.

Oh hey, Jamie realizes he was a dick! I can’t remember the last time that happened. Notice how he doesn’t actually say he’s sorry though. He never, ever does that. That’s just asking too much of our oh so glorious king of men. *vomits onto keyboard*

MIT to the rescue! (Did they ever say Bree transferred in the show? Or are they still pretending like women went to Harvard at that time?)

Claire talking to babies is my kink.

Aaand just like that, the toxic masculinity is back in full force. Le sigh.

I’m so tired of men, tbh.

Except Adso. And Fergus. And Jem. And Germain. And Young Ian.

Ok so Jamie resigned himself to die after Culloden. And I get that. I fucking 100% get that. He thought Claire was gone. Him being alive was a risk to Jenny and Ian’s family. But here? He resigned himself to die? Instead of fighting like hell to survive? To stay with his wife? His daughter? His son? His nephew? His grandkids? Fuck you, Jamie Fraser. Fuck you that fighting for them wasn’t your first choice.

I came back because I have to fight in a war. God says so. Ugh.

Like yes, there is a war coming. And as we’ve been beaten over the head with for years, ThE pAsT iS dAnGeRoUs FoR tHe LaDiEs so he needs to be there to protect them. But like come on, dude. That can be a secondary reason. I know he’s like oh I don’t need to say I came back because I love you because you know I’ll always love you. But like, maybe fucking prioritize it here, bro. Just a thought.

Ugh, men.

#EternalMood

[whereiswere]

Personal Fnaf Headcanons:

FNAF 1:

Freddy: Male, Optimistic but slightly manipulative, probably bi

Bonnie: Male or Nonbianary, Slightly depressed and probably Freddy’s main target for manipulation, either gay or bi

Chica: Female or Nonbianary, maybe Demigirl, Optimistic but hates baking and dislikes pizza, most likely lesbian

Foxy: Male, Wants attention, attention hog, acts like a dog sometimes, gay or bi

Golden Freddy: Male or Nonbinary, Depressed and hates everyone, Freddy constantly seeks his approval and he hates it, aro/ace

FNAF 2:

Toy Freddy: Male or Demiboy, A little nervous but happy all the same, afraid of Withered Freddy, gay for days

Toy Bonnie: Male or Demiboy, Loves music and thinks Withered Bonnie is cool, totally gay

Toy Chica: Transmale, Hates his body, most of the time wants to slap fanboys, wants everyone to feel happy despite all this, loves cake, hates pizza, bi

Toy Foxy/Mangle: Genderfluid or Male, Working on his self confidence, loves hugs, annoyance to others, rather dislikes Withered Foxy, pan probably

Balloon Boy: Male or Demiboy, Actually only an annoyance to Nightguards, everybody else love him, a bit over confident, either aro/ace or gay/ace

Marrionette: Male or Nonbianary, Loves music, don’t disrupt their lullaby, prize counter boss, judges everyone silently, either aro/ace or bi

Withered Freddy: Male or Nonbianary, Thinks his toy version is adorable, actually thinks everyone is adorable, just wants a hug, either straight or bi

Withered Bonnie: Male, Loves singing and music, shuts himself off from most others, gay but maybe demi

Withered Chica: Female probably, One of the only Chicas who actually likes food and cooking, tries to be optimistic, thinks Toy Chica is stupid and needs to like pizza and actually do his dang job for once, lesbian or bi

Withered Foxy: Male or Demigirl, Thinks very lowly of himself and is really depressing, always goes on and on about the ‘good days’, annoyance to pretty much everybody, either straight or bi

FNAF 3:

Springtrap: Male, Hates that he is the host to William, Talks to the phantoms a lot, sometimes talks to himself too, gay or bi

--Phantoms came to be of the rage felt by the ghost children at William being active again, they all came to life at different times, with P.Freddy being the last to form

Phantom Freddy: Nonbianary, Male, or Demigirl, disliked Springtrap at first but actually kind of likes him now, probably straight

Phantom Chica: Nonbianary or Demigirl, thinks everybody is cool, wants to make everyone happy, rather shut off from the others, bi

Phantom Foxy: Nonbianary, Wishes that they could be of more help to stopping William, one of the first to realize that Springtrap also hated William and become his friend, aro/ace most likely

Phantom Balloon Boy: Male, Hates pretty much everyone, actually an annoyance to the others, strangely befriends the nightguard, aro/ace

Phantom Marionette: Demiboy or Nonbianary, Actually one of the last to come to existence, one of Springtrap’s best friends, has imaginary friends and acts like a child, aro/ace

Phantom Mangle: Genderfluid or Demigirl, One of the first ones to form, dislikes Springtrap but tolerates him, lesbian

FNAF 4:

--The nightmares were created by William to track down his children along with targets, their main focus was on Michael

Nightmare Freddy: Male, Acts like a father to the Freddles, probably actually is their father, is hostile towards the other nightmares, gay

Freddles: Multiple, N.Freddy’s children, act like such

Nightmare Bonnie: Demigirl, Genderfluid, or Nonbianary, Is the most aggressive, despite that they pretty much adopted Nightmare Balloon Boy, either aro/ace or bi

Nightmare Chica: Female, Makes Michael sandwiches for lunch and jumpscares him whenever he refuses to take them, the most jumpy of the Nightmares, bi or gay

Nightmare Foxy: Female or Demigirl, The first to rebel against William, loves enclosed spaces like the closet, She likes to watch TV, gay

Nightmare Fredbear: Male, created by William just to spite Michael’s love of Fredbear, actually helped the others rebel, became pretty much a true father to Michael, aro/ace or bi/ace

Nightmare: Male or Nonbianary, The last to rebel, but became pretty much the best father to Michael, easily annoyed, aro/ace or gay/ace

Nightmarionette: Male, Is a bit short, hates people commenting on it, quick learner, scary dad but fun dad, gay all the way

Plushtrap: Nonbianary or Male, small but will fight you, rude and sassy, pretty much Michael’s older brother, talks to the other stuffed animal and thinks that they’re alive too, bi/ace

Nightmare Balloon Boy: Male or Demiboy, loves teeth, has a small crush on Plushtrap, anyone who defies him gets bite, can’t bite very hard, gay/ace

Nightmare Mangle: Genderfluid or Demigirl, The weird mom, also the ‘can I speak to your manager’ type of parental unit, has the best understanding of human culture things, lesbian

FNAF SL:

Baby: Demigirl, the mom friend, a demon to her enemies, brags about ripping out Michael’s organs, very smart, gay

Ballora: Female or Nonbianary, Eyelids don’t work and it annoys her, rather aggressive, will kick anyone in the nuts, gay

Bitybab: Multiple, Baby’s main minions, will steal your kneecaps

Minirina: Multiple, Ballora’s adoptive children, won’t attack very often but will steal your snacks

Funtime Freddy: Male, Loves to party, clumsy, rather unintelligent, aro/ace, gay, or bi

Funtime Foxy: Genderfluid, Will stab a bitch for no reason, follows others blindly, rather unintelligent, bi

Bon Bon: Female, Loves her wife, F.Freddy is her son, very math smart, gay

Bonnet: Female, Loves her wife, F.Freddy is her son, very social smart, bi

Ennard: Nonbianary or Male, makes vore jokes, lives with Michael, intimidated by the nightmares, aro/ace or gay/ace

Funtime Chica: Female, loves attention, claims to be using others but wants to be their friend, gay

Lolbit: Female, steals stuff and sells it back to their owners, a bit of a hoarder, loves money above all else, aro/ace

FNAF PS:

Rockstar Freddy: Nonbianary or Female, will throw a mic at anyone who talks during their performance, bi

Rockstar Bonnie: Male or Demiboy, Embarrassed by the other rockstars, likes to hang out with the salvages, gay

Rockstar Chica: Genderfluid, Likes pizza but likes tacos better, will bite, lesbian

Rockstar Foxy: Male or Nonbianary, Loves music, loves animals, won’t bite, gay

Lefty: Male or Nonbianary, doesn’t talk much, has a small crush on anyone with even a small resemblance to a bear, pan

Molten Freddy: Male, loves climbing on the walls and ceilings, partially deaf, aro/ace

Scraptrap: Male, Springtrap but William has almost total control, Scraptrap tries to talk to the Phantoms whenever he can, gay or bi

Scrap Baby: Demigirl, has no friends to be the mom friend to, barely talks to the other salvages, focused on making everyone’s life a living hell, gay

Nedd Bear: Male, doesn’t talk much, dislikes the Freddys, straight or bi

Happy Frog: Female, talks a lot, especially to Nedd, straight or bi

Mister Hippo: Male, talks way too much, husband to Orville, annoys most everyone, gay

Orville: Male, only talks a tiny bit, talks mostly to his husband, gay

Music Man: Male or Demiboy, very loud, doesn’t talk a lot actually, partially deaf, bi

El Chip: Demiboy, the best cook ever, outclasses the Chicas, very overconfident, bi

Candy Cadet: Nonbianary, a troll, tells you they’ll do things but they never do, aro/ace

Pigpatch: Male or Demiboy, steals other’s eyes, hoarder of the odd, somewhat formal, aro/ace or bi

Helpy: Male, very helpful, despite that will indeed stab a bitch, insults others rarely but is amazing at insults, aro/ace or gay/ace

Security Puppet: Male, loves people too much, interested in humans, has a collection of random things, gay

Glitchtrap: Male, William’s fursona, actually a different being than William but shares his ideas and murderous tendency, merged with Vanny, aro/ace or straight/ace

Humans:

William Afton: Male, a bitch, that’s all you need to know, straight

Henry Emily: Male, a pure cinnamon roll, probably has autism, fidgets a lot, bi

Michael Afton: Male, also a pure cinnamon roll, honestly just wants this all to stop, adopted by the nightmares and then adopted by the funtimes and then adopted by the rockstars, has way too many parents but at the same time not enough, crying child, gay for days

Elizabeth Afton: Female or Genderfluid, died too early to tell, haunts Baby but is a bit disturbed by her actions, aro/ace

Older Brother Afton: Male or Bigender, regrets almost killing Michael, almost killed by the nightmares, fear of robots, straight or bi

Mike Schmidt((Michael Afton)): Just Michael but with his mother’s maiden name, if not then

Mike Schmidt: Bigender or Demiboy, stubborn as all hell, was one of the masked bullies to Michael, demi gay

Jeremy Fitzgerald: Male or Nonbianary, just wants the fucking pay check, befriended the toys and was then adopted by them and the withereds, has no clue what’s going on, demi

Fritz Smith((Older Brother Afton)): OB but married a woman and changed his last name to hers, if not then

Fritz Smith: Male, one of the masked bully’s older brother, long hair probably, absolutely fabulous, straight or bi

Frightguard: Transfemale, raising money for her transitioning surgery, determined and has punched Springtrap more than once, bi ((Don’t have a name for her yet))

Phone Guy: Male, nervous, pure cinnamon roll, maybe Henry’s nephew, gay demi

Phone Dude: Male, over confidant, Frightguard’s best friend, thinks that she’s joking until he somehow befriends P.BB, actually the one to give the phantoms different names, straight or bi

Vanny//Ness: Female, didn’t want to join William at all, accidentally merged or whatever with Glitchtrap, can’t escape from his grasp, gay as fuck

Tape Girl: Female, nerdy lesbian book lover, she attacks when frightened, wants to save Vanny, lesbian

[imagineclaireandjamie]

Flood my mornings: Ian (II)

Notes from Mod Bonnie

This story takes place in an AU in which Jamie travels through the stones two years after Culloden and finds Claire and his child in 1950 Boston.

See all past installments via Bonnie’s Master List

Previous installment:  Ian (need I say more?)

“I’ll bet the nuns LOVED you.”

Jamie jumped, startled out of his stone-like state. “Nuns?” he asked of the nurse, dumbfounded....or rather asked as best he could through the great yawn that overtook him without warning the moment he opened his mouth. 

The woman laughed at him, which gave him enough time to regain his composure and apologize profusely for his rudeness. “Ye caught me by surprise,” he finished lamely.

“Well, that’s what I was getting at!” she said. “The nuns at my school were INTENSE, and you had to sit up straight and stay focused, or you’d get the whap! with a ruler across the knuckles, or worse. I’ll bet you were the star pupil, though, the way you’ve been standing straight and still all this time.”

Jamie relaxed and gave her a tired grin. “I didna have any nuns in my own schooling, I’m afraid.” 

“Military, then?” 

“Aye, just so,” he said, impressed. “How did ye ken that?”

“You’ve just got that well-trained look about you, ya know?” Her humor softened into evident concern. “Honestly though, you should go sleep for a bit or get a bite to eat, at least.” 

“Thank ye verra kindly, Nurse...Thompson,” he said, reading her name pin (and in his beleaguered state, feeling inordinately flustered over having just peered at her bosom like a lecher), “but I’ll do.” 

He glanced immediately back through the glass, reassuring himself that Ian was still there. Aye, second row on the left, asleep in his tiny bonnet and swaddled in blankets. All well. Unless...was he staying too still? How long had it been since the lad had moved or kicked? How often were new weans supposed to wake up? How—

“He’s okay, don’t worry,” Nurse Thompson said, following his line of sight. “Vitals are great, and he’s sleeping like a champ.” 

Jamie exhaled and smiled sheepishly down at his shoes, realizing how much of a simpleton he must seem. “I find myself overworrit at every turning, tonight.” 

She gave him a knowing smile.  “First-time dad, huh?”

“Nay,” he admitted, “we’ve a daughter as well; she’s three in November.” Knowing well the implication of the question, Jamie offered, “I was away—at the war, when she was born, and a good deal of time thereafter.”

“Ahh,” she said, turning back to the glass as well, her voice soft with understanding.  “So it’s an even bigger day for you, then.” 

Those minutes with Claire just after the birth, with the three of them joined in absolute peace and love as Ian nursed for the first time, had been nothing short of perfect. 

There had too soon come the moment, though, when Reynolds had stepped closer to say that ‘while all seemed well, they would both need—No, Mr. Fraser, nothing specific to worry about as of yet—He’d only feel better if both Mrs. Fraser and the baby received a more thorough medical examination.’ There was the afterbirth to attend to, of course, and then mother and son would need to sleep in order to properly heal and get back their strength.  

Only concern for their safety could have made Jamie pull his hands from them, but in fact, he found himself gritting his teeth in frustration at how SLOWLY everyone seemed to be moving. If there were medical problems to discover with HIS wife and HIS child, these people needed to be moving with all haste!  

Lost in his angst, he was completely taken aback when Claire suddenly grabbed his sleeve and said anxiously, “Go with him?” 

The nurse had just taken the babe from her arms and Claire’s eyes were wide with worry of the impending separation. “Might I?” Jamie had asked the nurse, hardly daring to hope and already dreading another confrontation with hospital security (for he’d do whatever was necessary to heed Claire’s request, Nurse Kline be damned). But to his relief, he soon learned there was a large window that opened out onto the newborn nursery where he might stand and watch over the bairn as long as he wished.

He’d scarcely moved all the while, standing there overseeing every single action involving care of his son. The boy was washed and wrapped; weighed; checked and prodded, notes made about him on papers and forms. Jamie was aware of the progresses of his heart: racing when Ian woke and cried, quieting again to see the nurses come at once to tend him, Nurse Thompson among them.

“Look.” The woman crossed her arms and gave him a very stern, unnervingly Claire-like look. “You’ve been standing here for what....six hours?” 

It had been the stroke of nine o’clock when Ian was born. Glancing at his Wristwatch, he found that she wasn’t far wrong. Still, he smiled and tried to make light of the situation while still making it clear he had no intention whatsoever of budging from this spot. 

“Here’s the thing, though,” she cut him off neatly, gesturing through the glass. “Your little peanut there is snoozing away. Your wife should be doing the same, and so when they wake up in a few hours, they’ll be all rested and fresh while they’re getting to know each other.” She tilted her head, a master wheedler at work. “Stop me if I’m wrong, but I would imagine those are moments you’d like to be awake for, right?” 

Fair. 

“And how about when your daughter arrives to meet her little brother? How much of a lovely memory will that be if you can’t keep your eyes open for it?”

He opened his mouth to reply, but then closed it and laughed a bit, rubbing a hand over his face. “Aye, you’ve maybe a point.”

“I most definitely do,” she said with authority. “Go on now, find your wife’s room and get some shut-eye.” 

“I shall,” he promised, relenting at last. 

“Let me or someone know if you need anything, like a blanket or pillow, okay?” 

He nodded assent, then added, “My wife always says I’m stubborn as rocks, and I canna just say she’s wrong. I truly thank ye for the talking-to.” 

“Not my first rodeo,” she said with a smile. “Had a new dad just last month who stood for so long and was fool enough to LOCK HIS FOOL KNEES and ended up getting admitted to the fifth floor for a concussion!” 

Jamie laughed, thanked her again, made to turn, then faltered, looking back through the glass to where Ian slept.

I should stay wi’ him...I shouldna leave my son... 

She was already shooing him on his way, but Nurse Thompson’s voice was earnest and solemn as she promised, “I’ll take good care of little Ian.”

And fact that the woman kent the boy’s name, among more than twenty newborns under her care—

That allowed him to make his way through the halls with his fears—for the moment, at least—at bay.  

She was so lovely, in the faint light from the window. Her hair had been washed, he saw, and the fresh, soft curls framed her face. 

He felt a deep, aching tenderness pulling at him in watching her sleep. She’d gone through hell and come through it in safety, she and the bairn, God be praised. This woman....she was his own heart; and thrice, now, she’d given birth and given him an entirely new heart, without any diminishment of the original. The wonder and love and miracle in that fact.....

Sleep, he reminded himself. In his haze of exhaustion, he spent a comically-long space of time looking from the bed, to the chair, and back again. He didn’t wish to wake her. Lord knew, she needed to sleep after her ordeal; but he couldn’t bear to be apart from her, either.

Silently, he removed his shoes and slipped onto the bed, curling up next to her on his side. Sleep tugged at him almost at once,  but he couldn’t resist kissing her cheek and putting his arm over her to hold her close in sleep.

“I love you, Claire.”

She didn’t wake, nor did she need to. Her love was on him all the same. 

[ponyguru]

Ponies from eBay!! 

I’ve been pretty ‘good’ for the last few months and limited my shopping to strictly IRL locations (which isn’t good at all but sshhh), but I checked out some lots last week and found a couple winners, and won this one! I’ve wanted a Dazzleglow for awhile (definitely due in part to @glownshowpony‘s deep and abiding love for her ;)), but it seems like she gets snapped up REAL fast any time she comes up for sale! And since my only Glow ‘n Show pony is my Happy Glow from childhood, I really wanted another one to be her pal; especially Dazzleglow, since she’s music themed! I tend to scroll through lots, so when I saw Dazzleglow peeking out of the back of the auction photo, I was SUPER excited - but worried! The ponies all looked pretty scruffy, so I thought, what if she’s scruffy too? Plus, with shipping clocking in at $14, it almost doubled the auction price - lucky for me, I won it at the starting bid! 

Once they arrived, I was initially panicked to realize that the seller had wrapped them in newspaper - but they were safely protected within a plastic bag! Phew! I realized that what looked like Bonnie Bonnets’ frizzy hair in the auction photos was actually FACTORY CURL! :O I’ve never seen a Bonnie Bonnets with such wonderful hair before, she’ll definitely be staying with me! 

The other ponies aren’t terrible (Cotton Candy has the pictured haircut, Parasol has some ... questionable makeup, SS Sundance has gorgeous fuzz but her hair is somehow tacky?? and chopped off!), they just need a bath for the most part! And Dazzleglow, who I almost exclusively bought the lot for, has very rough hair. It’s halfway to dreads, but I’m hoping it’s the kind of roughness that can come from factory curl getting rubbed, and will clean up well with a conditioning treatment! Her paint looks awesome, and I took a couple closeups of her symbols just because I was so relieved that they look so nice! 

Plus, always a fun surprise with vintage toy lots - two vintage barrettes! I had hoped the blue one might turn out to be MLP since it wasn’t clearly visible in the lot photos, but I think the ‘cat playing an upright bass’ is pretty adorable too!