#i just need to vent sometimes

[abibliophobiaa]

doctor’s appointment was basically useless, because i needed to be scheduled for another test that’s two months out (i guess because the complexity they’re very limited on times/days they can do them and the health care system lol) and i’m feeling pretty defeated about it. 👍🏻

[gluttonyedits]

Honestly you're one of my favorite blogs and I adore how you edit and your style- I don't interact all that much due to school and not being on Tumblr much to fill my queue to keep active, but I'm probably going to end up practically spam queuing up your edits because they're absolutely scrumptious!

I'm not all that popular of an edit blog either- though I have taken a bit of a break, and you're definitely very underrated for the wonderful quality of edits you have!

Thank you very much, anon, you’re appealing to my ego a lot here and.. it’s so awfully very kind of you.

I mean I have come a long way in two years, I’ve definitely improved so so much from my earliest work and I’m proud of my growth as an editor. The problem I face though is that I feel like a lot of editors and editblr nowadays is just… very samey for me not gonna lie. And even if someone is only editing for, say, a few months and they’re a couple years younger than me, they’re still producing the same level of editing as everyone else I see. I don’t know how to make those popular gif and still image headers. I don’t like the popular lace image, it isn’t my style at all. I don’t use PSDs because they confuse me and I don’t have a PC or any software, all I have is ibis. I don’t mean to ramble here, but it’s merely how I myself view what I do against all the other editors.

I do feel sometimes this kind of invisible peer pressure to resort to more popular editing styles, with all the pastel colours and laces, but I don’t follow that because I feel like if I did, I would lose my identity as an editor. And yet the problem is I’m seeing all these editors who have been here for say a month or two and they’ve had this storm in requests and followers and they’re having milestones every month or two. It’s taken me two years and I’ve yet to get to 300. And while yes I started exclusively as a kin blog for a fandom, and then widened my reach, it’s.. still depressing.

But yk what? At the end of the day I’d rather keep my identity as an editor even if I stay small and my sources are obscure. I’m proud of myself and that’s what matters. My only hope is people don’t start exclusively requesting the themed flags instead of my many many edit types!

/gen for all of this, I’ve had a terrible few months. Here’s hoping June will be better. Happy Pride Month anon. Sorry I sound like I’m drunk. I’m not.

[aurorangen]

Let out all your frustrations Jay!!

Transcript & Bonus:

Renee's judgemental face earlier 😭

...

R: I saw your dad today and he does not look good. He looks so troubled and tired J: What do you expect? J: We both know he's a busy man R: He's still not reached out to you, has he Jay???? J: Damn. You can see right through this all detective

Renee: [continues talking on call] He cut me off when I asked about you. Jay: So typical of him. I thought when he bought the studio, everything would get better. But guess what?He bought the label and dumped everything on me. When I needed his help, I was forwarded to his assistant.

Jay: He's the same selfish jerk using money and other people to deal with all the problems in his life. Me being his biggest fucking problem. And you know what happened at the wedding Renee [sighs]. He acted like a complete stranger and that tells me enough already.

Jay: Sorry, I get mad every time we talk about him. He just pisses me off so much. Renee: You always hold it in and I want you to let it all out to me cos I get your frustrations. Honestly I wanted to call out your dad just then, but it was time for them to go inside and eat…[starts typing a message]

R: Harvey wants to cheer you up! J: Thank you Harvey! J: I love your little boys

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Leif: [forces smile] I'm good Renee. You should come to this restaurant some time, they've got great food. Renee: Yeah the place does look lovely! But Leif, how is Jay doin- Leif: [looks at time] Well uh we better get going now before the place gets too busy…

[artsymeeshee]

one of those nights

[gaminegay]

"someone somewhere needs help with something and I'm not there to fix it, this makes me guilty of Bad Person disease" <- stupid thought I really need to stop having

[teaboot]

Theoretically I enjoy living with people but unfortunately when you tell people you're a neuroatypical raccoon with twelve ongoing hobbies, completely random work hours, and a series of admittedly unusual lifelong compulsions they tend to hear that and go "oh haha you're trying to be Quirky okay" and then save their ten million questions and concerns for when you can't run away

[tempestmothstorm]

crazy how the sanshee plush is one of the few actual direct confirmations on what a non-act 2 Natsuki’s home life is like because of how cagey she is on literally everything. Like this isn’t anything surprising or something you wouldn’t be able to extrapolate from the games but unlike everything else we know about her the implications are right there on the tin.

They literally did the character bio trope where where all the likes are normal but the dislikes are about their very specific trauma it’s just so funny they did that on the plushie card

[astudyinfreewill]

not to be a goldilocks about this but i am BEGGING people to understand that pynch exists in a very particular spot of the wholesome/sicko continuum and so many people miss that sweet spot.

i’m not here to yuck anyone’s yum obviously because AU’s are a fandom staple, but purely in terms of canon dynamics, if you stray too far in either direction, sorry— you’re getting it wrong!!

is your pynch dynamic a cutesy romcom vibe where they both communicate super well in therapy speak and are adorable cinnamon rolls? that’s TOO WHOLESOME you’re maybe thinking of heartstopper!!

is your pynch dynamic an extra fucked up and unequal dynamic where they do not communicate AT ALL, and appear to be completely without moral compass? that’s TOO SICKO you’re probably thinking of interview with the vampire!!

to be clear i’ve watched and enjoyed both the abovementioned media, so this isn’t a criticism of either extreme— it’s just not where pynch exists on the spectrum. they’re not sweetly unproblematic — ultimately they’re kinda assholes and they’re kinda freaks! but they’re also largely well-meaning and good-hearted young men who try their best with the sometimes limited emotional tools they have. if that nuance doesn’t sit right with you maybe you need to reread the source material or explore other stories 🤷

[manhattan-gamestop]

The fact that some people can equate an entire musical genre to just its stereotypes and never listen to it is baffling to me. Like no, metal isn't just screaming, country isn't just trucks beer and misogyny, rap isn't just sexualizing women and getting money. When will people learn to escape their comfort zone oh my god

[beanghostprincess]

I'm not the biggest Zosan but you know when they make Zoro hold Sanji's face just like, forcefully enough to ground him to earth and help him let go of the burden he carries for a while by making it his instead? Yeah. That. That gets me every time.

[angelpuns]

Leo going through the horrors but the horrors are just that he had a shitt day and no one bothered to save him any cookies :/

[citricacidprince]

I don’t like people who say they instinctively don’t trust anyone who’s AMAB or presents as masc, not even letting that person prove their character and just assuming the worst of them from the moment they see them.

Why don’t you instinctively dodge this upper cut fuck head??? I’m blowing you up with my mind.

[starheirxero]

Also, on the end part of "Lunar breaks down" with Earth, I just have to say the posts I saw made that scene sound like she had looked Lunar dead in the eyes and went "I don't wanna help you" and walked away but like... She just accidentally overheard Lunar's breakdown and went "ah. fuck, i'll... let them cry it out first. i'll take a lap and come back."

Like that's? I feel like that's not even a bad or mean thing. If we're being real here, too, Lunar probably would have clammed up and tried to make themselves stop crying if Earth had walked in—which is arguably worse than crying it out for however long they needed to. There isn't anything she could have said to help either, this is evident in the fact there wasn't anything to say when Lunar properly came to the family about the matter the next day.

She didn't do a bad thing, she just... made a choice. Not even a notably bad choice. She just said "I can't help, I'll trust them to come to someone about that when they're ready." Like that's... that's fair. That's not even Earth having a flaw either she literally just chose to let Lunar have an alone moment like c'mon HDKSNDM

[strangertheory]

I can't tell you the number of times I'll see fans say "this thing happened in the show which seemed to make no sense!" and I want to politely and respectfully scream "it actually makes very intentional and symbolic sense, you just don't understand it within your frame of reference because you've assumed certain things about these characters and this universe that aren't necessarily true."

[wineanddineloseyourmind]

absolutely fucking sobbing at the end of Dog of War.

[rattusrattus3]

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