#i just need to vent sometimes

[abibliophobiaa]

doctor’s appointment was basically useless, because i needed to be scheduled for another test that’s two months out (i guess because the complexity they’re very limited on times/days they can do them and the health care system lol) and i’m feeling pretty defeated about it. 👍🏻

[gluttonyedits]

Honestly you're one of my favorite blogs and I adore how you edit and your style- I don't interact all that much due to school and not being on Tumblr much to fill my queue to keep active, but I'm probably going to end up practically spam queuing up your edits because they're absolutely scrumptious!

I'm not all that popular of an edit blog either- though I have taken a bit of a break, and you're definitely very underrated for the wonderful quality of edits you have!

Thank you very much, anon, you’re appealing to my ego a lot here and.. it’s so awfully very kind of you.

I mean I have come a long way in two years, I’ve definitely improved so so much from my earliest work and I’m proud of my growth as an editor. The problem I face though is that I feel like a lot of editors and editblr nowadays is just… very samey for me not gonna lie. And even if someone is only editing for, say, a few months and they’re a couple years younger than me, they’re still producing the same level of editing as everyone else I see. I don’t know how to make those popular gif and still image headers. I don’t like the popular lace image, it isn’t my style at all. I don’t use PSDs because they confuse me and I don’t have a PC or any software, all I have is ibis. I don’t mean to ramble here, but it’s merely how I myself view what I do against all the other editors.

I do feel sometimes this kind of invisible peer pressure to resort to more popular editing styles, with all the pastel colours and laces, but I don’t follow that because I feel like if I did, I would lose my identity as an editor. And yet the problem is I’m seeing all these editors who have been here for say a month or two and they’ve had this storm in requests and followers and they’re having milestones every month or two. It’s taken me two years and I’ve yet to get to 300. And while yes I started exclusively as a kin blog for a fandom, and then widened my reach, it’s.. still depressing.

But yk what? At the end of the day I’d rather keep my identity as an editor even if I stay small and my sources are obscure. I’m proud of myself and that’s what matters. My only hope is people don’t start exclusively requesting the themed flags instead of my many many edit types!

/gen for all of this, I’ve had a terrible few months. Here’s hoping June will be better. Happy Pride Month anon. Sorry I sound like I’m drunk. I’m not.

[tropicalfreckles]

Just because tw*tter has weirdos on it, I kind of feel more comfortable rambling about this topic on my own blog here.

There has been a LOT of discussion about the thing with D*sney, colorism, and L*lo&St*tch + H*waii lately.

And I'm glad to see the discussion on the table for people who are actual natives of H*waii, born and raised there no less, being able to shed light on a lot of issues that have been going on for a while. I've known at least a little bit about it for a year or so now, but some stuff I still obviously don't know because.

One, I'm disconnected from my own culture(sadly, I would like to actually know way more about it. I wish I could learn the language, but I'm someone who needs to learn in a environment that isn't a phone language app and none of my nearby family members speak the language, only ones who do are on the islands.), not because I am biracial, but because my dad was disconnected from his own culture because his mother's mother never had time to teach her kids anything since she had like fucking 13 kids to raise as a single mom. Also cause of other things that are personal family stuff I don't want to get into, basic of it is dad is an ass that further disconnected himself from his own culture and only cares about it when it comes to food and music. So, because of that, and I don't know my distant cousins very well on the Islands (I never get to go to family reunions because I'm broke, thx US g*vernment for making H*waii too expensive to go to, really love that) and my knowledge is VERY limited. I have to learn from others online.

Two, what I do know, I see gets easily buried under so many other things because the truth of the matter is. Barely anyone here on mainland cares about H*waii. It's just a fun, little tourist attraction to them and the suffering of the people, struggling to AFFORD to stay on their home land, is not important to them. Not surprised from what I've been hearing from natives that D*sney plays a shitty hand in the problem with t*urism.

Three, c*lorism really is such a big deal in a lot of places in the world, and it's shit that it's once again being painted loud and clear by H*llywood, but what else is new. I already knew this movie was not going to be a good adaptation, not because all of the ones before it were shit (they are I mean that doesn't help it lol), but because I knew modern D*sney doesn't know their own IPs very well at all. I mean, D*sney has always sucked as a company but idk I feel like they legit don't know the actual themes of L*lo&St*tch at all and how being native was a key part of the film along with the alien stuff. Just... man, I'm tired guys.

Real tired. I wish things would stick every time this conversation about the shit things happening in H*waii happen, but nothing ever really does stick that long. Just how things always go with natives of places.

Also, this is me @ all the people that were suing Ariel as an excuse for N*ni getting white washed

[bamsara]

I love Arson he's my favorite heater but I should really get a cheap laptop one day so I can leave the house to write because the Noise. Is . Too Much. I need to go write in the forest

[artsymeeshee]

one of those nights

[gaminegay]

"someone somewhere needs help with something and I'm not there to fix it, this makes me guilty of Bad Person disease" <- stupid thought I really need to stop having

[teaboot]

Theoretically I enjoy living with people but unfortunately when you tell people you're a neuroatypical raccoon with twelve ongoing hobbies, completely random work hours, and a series of admittedly unusual lifelong compulsions they tend to hear that and go "oh haha you're trying to be Quirky okay" and then save their ten million questions and concerns for when you can't run away

[tempestmothstorm]

crazy how the sanshee plush is one of the few actual direct confirmations on what a non-act 2 Natsuki’s home life is like because of how cagey she is on literally everything. Like this isn’t anything surprising or something you wouldn’t be able to extrapolate from the games but unlike everything else we know about her the implications are right there on the tin.

They literally did the character bio trope where where all the likes are normal but the dislikes are about their very specific trauma it’s just so funny they did that on the plushie card

[manhattan-gamestop]

The fact that some people can equate an entire musical genre to just its stereotypes and never listen to it is baffling to me. Like no, metal isn't just screaming, country isn't just trucks beer and misogyny, rap isn't just sexualizing women and getting money. When will people learn to escape their comfort zone oh my god

[beanghostprincess]

I'm not the biggest Zosan but you know when they make Zoro hold Sanji's face just like, forcefully enough to ground him to earth and help him let go of the burden he carries for a while by making it his instead? Yeah. That. That gets me every time.

[angelpuns]

Leo going through the horrors but the horrors are just that he had a shitt day and no one bothered to save him any cookies :/

[ali3nboyfriend]

i see a lot of talk of fellow adhd and autistic folk feeling like they’re too much for other people but i don’t see a lot of talk about feeling like you’re not enough. low energy adhd and autism where it takes a lot of effort to use words so your way of showing affection is to sit there and vibe in people’s presence but it comes off like you’re not paying attention or it’s not “active” enough to count, or forgetting to reply to DMs (or like i said, Words Hard), and it again comes off as you not caring or ignoring people. it’s really hard to be putting in so much effort to maintain friendships you value only for that effort to not be seen, or to be read as apathy, or for it to be seen but still not be what other people want. even worse when you try and talk more and be more active in a relationship but you end up burning yourself out because you don’t have enough energy to maintain it.

[citricacidprince]

I don’t like people who say they instinctively don’t trust anyone who’s AMAB or presents as masc, not even letting that person prove their character and just assuming the worst of them from the moment they see them.

Why don’t you instinctively dodge this upper cut fuck head??? I’m blowing you up with my mind.

[skunkes]

that "i wish that being aware of a mindset being ridiculous would make it easier to snap out of it" post hitting hard every single day

[tsams-and-co-memes]

Just heard that Kat is leaving a lot of her online spaces because no matter where she goes, she gets bullied and harassed, and I'm speechless. She's a wonderful, talented person, and she doesn't deserve any of this. It's literally just a witch hunt at this point, which is so so unbelievably stupid

Why can't people just walk away when they don't enjoy things? Harassing and bullying people because they don't cater everything they do to your specific wants and needs should not be the default that people resort to. Anyone who does this sort of shit needs serious, professional help, and they need to go touch some grass or something

I don't like that this is happening. Not at all. I know I usually try to keep this blog as drama-free as possible, but I can't stay quiet about this. I've stayed quiet about a lot of things in my life for far too long, and I'm getting pretty fed up with it

Some of this bullshit makes me want to leave this fandom too, but I'm determined to stay, because I love the stories that are being told, I love the characters, and while the writing can be a little silly sometimes, I like it! I adore what these shows are doing, and I'm so happy that I can watch these things for free, because if I had to pay money to see them, that'd really suck, and I'd never be able to afford it

I will stay as long as possible, and I will continue to support the VAs however I can, because they're amazing and they deserve all the support and love in the world

If there's anyone following me that supports the horrid behavior that's been going on, anyone who thinks people are justified to target Kat, or anyone who's sent any hate to any VA ever, I don't want you here. This is my space, and I want only kindness and acceptance here, so take your bullshit somewhere else

I'm tired of all this nonsense, and honestly, I feel embarrassed and ashamed sometimes to even associate with this fandom. It is so, so bad, but I'm hoping that it'll eventually be sorted out and resolved

[callmecoke]

A recreation of something that happened that really peeved me:

Me, to another cod blog: Hey! I mean this nicely but it would be really great if you could put trigger warnings on this fic you wrote that included abuse

The blog: *no response blocks me*

Me: oh okay fuck you I guess.