#i just kept thinking it was the end of my thoughts but my brain would go 'OH AND ANOTHER THING'
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âtis the damn season.
âso we could call it even, you could call me babe for the weekend.â
pairing: rafe cameron x pogue! reader
warnings: 18+, SMUT, p in v, fingering, begging, overstimulation, use of babe....let me know if i forget anything lol. ALSO in some places in america, thansgiving eve is literally just a holiday to get drunk in your hometown
your home for the holidays for the first time in years. you've been avoiding rafe, the reason you've been away for so long, but after seeing him again all the old feelings come back. when rafe sends a text one night, you end up in the back of his truck like old times.
i parked my car out front of my childhood home, staring at the old exterior.
somethings never change.
being back in the outer banks felt strange. it has been a while since i have been back, avoiding come home for as long as i can. but with a few begging phone calls from my mom and kiara, here i am.
i knock on my front door and am greeted with a bright smile.
"jj?" i ask, confused.
"welcome home, stranger." he says, with a hug and grabbing my bag.
i walk into my living room and see the pogues, sitting with my mom. a homemade 'welcome home' banner hanging above their heads.
my mom comes over and gives me a big hug. "i thought i would never see this face again." she says with a squeeze.
"boston isn't that far, mom." i tell her but i know she would never leave the outer banks. never in a million years. i turn towards the others and smile. "i wonder who could've put this together?" i say, looking at kiara.
"hey it wasn't all me, pope was the one who brought it up." she says, engulfing me in her arms.
"guilty." pope chimes in, joining the hug. i feel jj and john b join in as well. my family.
we break away and hang out in the living room, catching up.
"don't tell me you went all city on us, y/n." john b pokes fun at me.
"not completely. but it is nice having more things to do than hang on the beach and smoke." i wink.
"who could want more than that?" jj asks, making us all laugh.
"speaking of," kiara starts. "there's a little thanksgiving eve celebration happening at the wreck. just some people from high school. nothing big."
"just a chance to get drunk of our asses and go to dinner the next day hungover." jj says, causing kiara to nudge him.
"what do you say? want to join us?" i look around the room at my friends, all eager waiting for my response. with a sigh, i nod and they all cheer. "thank god, i don't think i could've done that alone."
i smile and nod. it should be fun, it will be. but my brain can't help to wonder if the one person who's kept me away from coming home will be there. no, he wouldn't. not with the pogues. but a part of me can't help but hope to see his face.
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i fix my sweater in the mirror in my room, my body fidgeting from anxiety. it's been a few days and i still can't shake that feeling from my body about being home. sure, i'm happy but this place holds so many memories. memories i wish to bury. i stare at the photo booth picture tucked into my mirror of him and i. i guess i forgot to hide this with the rest of the stuff. i take it off the mirror and sigh, examining it.
almost four years since it was taken. almost four years since we called it quits. and yet, he still haunts my memories. his presence making itself known through cheap beer at the bar, expensive men's cologne at the mall, exhaust that leaves motorbikes as they ride down the street. he's always there, whether i like it or not.
the sound of a horn breaks me free of my thoughts.
"y/n, they're here!" my mom calls from downstairs.
"coming!" i open my dresser drawer and slip the photo in before racing downstairs. i kiss my mom on the cheek and slip out the door, rushing into the van.
"ready to get fucked up?" jj asks with his devilish smirk.
i roll my eyes and laugh. "let's go."
we pull up to the wreck, it's already dark outside and a slight breeze fills the air. we all hurry in, greeted by familiar faces. my name is called from every direction, old friends from high school or the beach. all my fellow pogues who i know and love. when i'm done making my rounds, i head over to our table. everyone has some drink in their hand, beer or cocktail, and they all smile up at me.
"who would've though little y/n y/l/n would be a pogue celebrity?" pope jokes.
i flip him off and slide in next to john b. kiara hands me a beer and i take a sip. "i'm not a celebrity, i'm just one of the only people from this island who actually made it off."
they all make jokes at my despair, teasing me in any way they could when sarah walks up. i feel my stomach flip and i smile at her. "y/n!" she embraces me. "i'm so happy to see you!"
i hug her back and smile. "me too, sar. how's everything been?"
"the usual but i can't complain." she sits next to me and lays her head on my shoulder. "it's been forever."
"it has." i sigh. "it really has."
we all share stories and laugh around the table. we take shots, chug beer, and play different drinking games. just like old times sake.
"i need another beer." i say with a slight slur in my voice, standing up. "anyone else?" everyone shakes their head as i excuse myself.
i walk up to the bar and wait my turn, twirling my debit card in my hand. it could be the alcohol but i feel content and happy to be home.
"y/n?"
until that moment.
i don't want to turn around, i don't even want to accept my fate in this situation.
i know that voice, i could recognize it in a crowd of millions of people. it was the voice that lingered in my dreams, my thoughts.
i turn around and look at the man.
"rafe."
he looks older, his hair buzzed and some facial hair covering his face. but those eyes. they are the same eyes of the boy i loved.
we stood there, not saying a word. just taking the sight of one another in.
"i didn't know you were home." he says, not breaking eye contact.
i nod, biting my lip. "i am, i got home monday."
he chuckles to himself and shakes his head. "how long you here for?"
"till saturday. then i'm going back to boston." my throat feels scratchy and my face is on fire. i want to be anywhere but here now.
his eyes continue to study me. "two more budweiser's, please." he says to the bartender. i open my mouth to protest but he shakes his head. "on me, think of it as a welcome home gift."
the bartender hands me the beer and i smile. i turn back to rafe and tip the bottle to him. "thanks."
"no problem." he clinks his bottle to mine. we both take a long sip. my eyes are desperately trying to find a place to land, ending up on the bright sign above the bar. but rafe's are still on me.
"you okay?" kiara asks as she walks behind rafe. she is my gurdian angel.
"yeah, just waiting for my beer. excuse me." i squeeze past rafe and walk back to my table. i look back at him and smiles. i hate him.
a few drinks more and my ears are ringing. it was loud and everyone was far too drunk. i excuse myself for air outside. there are a few people lingering, smoking cigarettes or waiting for ubers. i smile and take in the nostalgia.
"you know, it would've been nice to know you were home." i hear rafe's voice next to me.
i roll my eyes and look up at him. "oh, would it have been? sorry, i didn't think you'd care." i say coldly. that liquid courage is taking control.
he looks down at me. "and why would i have not cared?"
"hmm, let me think." i put my finger to my chin. "oh, right. 'don't ever contact me again. we're so over. i wish i never met you. blah. blah. blah.' do you want me to go on?" i say to him.
i watch as he processes what i said to him, the words of our last fight. he looks guilty, for once in his life. "that was years ago, y/n. w-we were just kids."
"oh, really? then why haven't i heard from you for the past few years? phone works both ways, rafe." i say, shrugging.
he stands there quietly, i got him.
"how's school been?" he asks, nonchalantly.
"are you for real?" i ask.
"what? i'm being nice." he says.
i huff with frustration. "you are such an ass." i push pass him and walk onto the sidewalk.
"where are you going?" he asks, following after me.
"away from you." i say, not looking back.
i hear him run up behind me and he gently grabs my arm. "y/n. y/n, stop."
i turn to look at him. "what do you want from me, huh? you want to torture me even more?"
he stares at me, hand still on my arm. "what? of course not. y/n, i missed you."
"fuck off." i spit out without thinking.
"you're drunk."
"and you're an asshole." i say, flatly. "you...you fucking broke my heart and you expect me to act like everything is fucking dandy?"
"y/n." he tries to plead his case.
"no, rafe. you don't get to waltz in here and act like everything is okay with us. do you know how much you fucked me over? one day you're telling me you love me and you want to move to boston with me and the next, you're dumping me over the phone." i poke his chest. "i did everything you wanted, i kept what we had between us a secret, i took care of you. and nothing was enough for you."
he looks down at his feet in guilt. "i-i know, i'm sorry. i was...i was fucked up back then. with my dad on my case and the drinking...i wasn't okay. i felt like..." he cut himself off.
"what, rafe? you felt like, what?" i ask.
"like i was going to hold you back, alright?" he raises his voice. "you are too good for this place, for me. i didn't want to hold you back. i loved you too much to do that to you." i stare at him and laugh. "what? what's so fucking funny?"
"you, rafe. you." i sigh. "instead of being a man and handling your emotions, you ran and hid. we could've worked that out. but you were too scared." i close my eyes and shake my head. "goodbye, rafe."
i walk down the street, hugging my body as the wind blows. a weight has been lifted off my shoulders but there's still that feeling i get whenever i think of him. that feeling that i miss him.
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thanksgiving flew by, even though i had a hangover that felt like it would last a lifetime.
i helped my mom clean up the kitchen as the pogues did the dishes and took the trash out. just like old times.
once we were done, we sat outside around the bonfire. you would think after yesterday, drinking would come to a halt but jj found a bottle of vodka in the freezer and mixed it with kiara's apple cider. we all enjoyed each other's company but my mind could not help but wander. my last conversation with rafe ringing through my head.
"instead of being a man and handling your emotions, you ran and hid."
i shake my head and take a sip of my spiked cider. as much as it rang true, there was still that part of me that wonders 'what if?'. the more i thought about it, the more i wanted to pick up my phone.
no, i need to be the bigger person. i'm stronger than that. i can't text him first.
then i felt my phone buzz in my lap.
rafe: hey
i stare at the text and bite my lip. i know i should ignore it, let it go unread. but my fingers work against my brain and type 'hi' back to him. i sit there, eagerly waiting for a response.
rafe: can we talk?
rafe: i'm sorry about last night, i'm a fucking idiot.
rafe: there's so many things i could say to you rn
rafe: but i miss you.
rafe: i wanna see you.
i look around at my friends and sigh, they would be so mad at me for this.
y/n: sure, give me like an hour.
y/n: park down the street at the usual spot.
my friends leave my house, mainly due to me faking another wave of hungover puking. i run upstairs and check myself out in the mirror, i look damn good. when i get his text, i sneak out the backdoor and hurry down the street. i see his truck parked under the big tree, the spot he always parked in.
i open the truck door and hop into the passenger seat. i look over at him, he's still in his dressy clothes. a blue polo that hugged his arms right and khakis that made his thighs look exceptionally big. he knew what he was doing and i can't tell if i hate him or love him for it.
we drive in silence for a bit, his radio playing music faintly. his hands grip the steering wheel as his mind looks like he's on another planet. i play with the ends of my sweatshirt, anxiously waiting for him to do something. anything.
he pulls up to the beach, the spot where we would always come to. it was dark and the waves crashed against the shore loudly. he turns the car off and looks over at me.
"thanks for meeting me." he says simply.
"sure."
"i'm sorry about last night. you went out to have fun and i ruined it, i know i did."
i just nod at him.
"and...you were right. about it all." he sighs, running his hands over his face. "i should've manned up, talked to you about how i was feeling. but you know how i get. i get too in my head and just jump to conclusions. it wasn't fair to you." he looks into my eyes. "these past few years without you have been a living hell and i have only myself to blame."
"are you drunk? high?" i ask.
"w-what?"
"are you not sober?" i ask again.
"i'm sorry, what? of course i'm fucking sober." he says. "why would i not be?"
"rafe cameron...taking accountability? i'm sorry, it just seems so...foreign?" i laugh.
"i'm being serious, y/n."
i laugh again. "oh, i'm sure. and...the sky is green. we live on the planet pluto. aliens exist and so do unicorns!"
he pinches the bridge of his nose. "y/n, i'm telling the truth! god, you always joke around."
"yeah, because i know you." i say to him. "and you would rather eat concrete than admit you are wrong."
"eat concrete?" he asks, with a smirk.
"you know what i mean!" i huff with frustration.
he grabs my hand and stares in my eyes. "y/n, i am fully sober. we are not in another universe, it is not opposite day. i was wrong and i am sorry."
my brain malfunctions as i look into his eyes. "y-you mean it?"
"every word i said."
my brain not working means i experienced a lack of better judgment. i grab rafe by his collar and connect our lips for the first time in years. this kiss, the one i have longed for since i left this place, was the missing puzzle piece i've been searching for in my life. everything seemed to make sense again.
his hands cupped my cheeks as his tongue slipped into my mouth. he was hungry for me and i wasn't going to stop him because i felt insatiable as well. his hands roamed from my cheeks down to my neck and onto my shoulders.
i needed more.
i climbed onto his lap and straddled him. my arms connected around his neck as he pressed against me. i felt his cock hard against his khakis and i wanted it. i wanted it all. i rubbed myself against him, causing us both to moan.
he continued to kiss me until he broke away and looked at me. his puffy lips formed a cocky smile as he brushed his nose against mine. "you missed me."
"shut up." i was itching for more.
"admit it, you missed me. you missed the way i made you feel." he states.
"rafe, shut up and kiss me, please."
"ah ah ah." he shook his head. "not until you tell me."
"you're such an ass." i roll my eyes, trying to catch my breathe.
"yet, here you are, rubbing yourself against me in my truck." he says, kissing my cheek. his lips then go to my ear and down my neck. "i want it all with you, right now, babe. but i need to hear it."
"fine! fuck, i missed you. are you happy?" i groan, needing him.
"very. get in the backseat." he demands. i quickly follow his order, hopping in the back over the seats. he gets out of the truck and opens up the back door, sliding in next to me. "come here." he pulls me back onto his lap and we pick up where we left off. i continue to rub myself against him as he sloppily kisses me. "just like old times." he jokes and i hit his shoulder. "c'mon, don't act like you don't think about it."
"oh, i do. but i bet you think about it more than i do." i smirk.
"probably." he laughs. his fingers fall to the hem of my sweater and he plays with it. "now are we only here to kiss or?"
"why? you wanna fuck me in your truck? just like old times." i say, making fun of what he just said.
"i do, i wanna fuck you right here, right now. it's all i've been wanting to do." he kisses my jawline. "do you want me to fuck you?"
this is what i missed the most, our back and forth.
"yes, rafe. i want you to fuck me." i moan out.
with that, he practically rips my sweater off my body and starts to kiss down my chest. his large hands palm my clothed breast. i bite my lip and let my head fall back, missing the way he affected my body. i felt his hand snake around to the back and unclip my bra quickly.
"show off." i say, out of breathe.
i smirks and connects his lips to my nipple, sucking and licking it. his hand massaging my other. "don't pretend you don't like it."
i smirk and shake my head.
he continues to focus on my tits, going back and forth between the two.
"more." i whisper, eyes clenched shut.
"what was that?" he asked in a teasing tone.
"i need more, rafe. please." i beg.
"look at you all needy for me. i knew you missed me." his hand slipped under my jeans and panties, stopping right at my core. i felt his fingers curl inside me, going in and out. "all wet for me, huh? what a good girl." he pushed in, fingering my cunt, when his thumb found my sensitive bud. he added pressure, circling it, and i felt as though i was seeing stars.
"s-shit." i cry out, moving my hips to try and gain some friction.
"feel good, baby? let me hear how could i make you feel." he picked up his pace and a pornographic moan escaped my lips. it's been forever since someone has made me feel this good. rafe knew my body like it was his own, he knew how to get me going. "there we go, like how my fingers feel?"
"u-uh huh." i nod, mouth hanging open.
his fingers worked their magic, rubbing my clit at a pace that'll make me come undone in no time. "love the way you look on top of me, baby. so fucking sexy." he attached his lips to my tits again and continued fingering me.
i felt on fire.
i place one hand on the window and the other on his shoulder, holding on for dear life. the more he whispered about me and the faster his fingers were going, i was cumming on his fingers before i knew it. i rode out my high, screaming his name. once i was done, i felt him pull his fingers out of my pants, my juices getting all over myself. i stared down at him, trying to catch my breathe, as he popped his fingers into his mouth and sucked.
"just as good as i remember." he cleaned his fingers off and kissed me again. my hands ran down his buff chest and stopped at the bottom of his polo, lifting it up. his gold chain laid against his chiseled body, he was perfect. i felt as though i was in a trance as i began to kiss down his chest. i could feel his groans vibrating in his chest and i smirked because i was the one making him feel this way. "i need to fuck you."
"you need to?" i laugh, kissing lower and lower.
"yes, y/n. i need to bury myself inside of you, please." he pleaded.
"i like when you're the one begging." i bite him lightly, causing him to hiss.
"i bet."
i unbuttoned his khakis and sat up so he could slip them off. his grey boxers were discolored from the precum leaking off his cock. he took his underwear off and his cock sprung out. "i-i don't have protection." he said, mentally cursing himself out.
"well, are you clean?" i ask.
"yes. i-i haven't been with anyone since." he openly admitted.
i felt the darkness overtake my eyes as i lower myself down onto him. his breath hitched as he slipped all the way in. he was deep inside of me, causing a few tears to leave my eyes. but the pain subsided as he started to rock my hips with his hands, moving me back and forth. i picked up the rhythm he started with me and placed my hands on his shoulder to steady myself. i felt the truck rocking back and forth as i did so.
his hands found my ass and rested there. "fuck, i missed your pussy. so good, takes me so well." he kissed my chest as i grinded back and forth.
i felt my finger nails dig into his shoulder as his cock hit all the right spots. i looked down at him and he stared at me in awe, like i was some work of art. "fuck, rafe. you're so big."
i bite my lip as i let my head fall back in pleasure. i ride him fast as i keep saying his name. "shit, y/n. you're such a good girl, you're so hot. you feel so tight."
i connect our lips, i feel his hands tighten around my ass. this means he was close. "i want you to cum in me, rafe." his eyes widen as he opens his mouth to ask for permission. "p-please fill me up. i miss it so much." i say, trying to catch my breathe.
with that, he lets out a groan and my name falls from his lips like a prayer. "y/n." i feel him coming inside me, painting me. it doesn't take long for his thumb to find my clit again. with the extra pressure applied to my overstimulated cunt, i feel my head reeling. the air in the truck is hot, making it almost hard for me to breath. it all feels too much, my body releasing onto rafe yet again.
we sit there, panting with our eyes closed. i rest my head on his sweaty chest and he kisses me gently. he rubs my back, tracing circles into it.
"felt even better than i imagine." he says, his voice gruff.
"you thought about it a lot, huh?" i smirk.
"all the fucking time."
i take him out of me and sit next to him in the truck. the windows are foggy and our hands find each other, holding them. i get a sense of weird nostalgia, from how things used to be with us.
"well that was a thanksgiving to remember." i joke, trying not to feel overwhelmed by what happened.
"'tis the damn season." he replies.
i slowly slip my sweater back on and try to find my pants.
"w-wait." rafe says. "is this...is this it? just a single fuck and you're gone."
i look at him, his eyes pleading with me.
"i go back to boston on saturday rafe, we only have like a day and a half."
i wish we could keep this going, i wish this was how things always were. but i had to think realistically. i have to go back home, i have to move on with my new life.
he grabs my hand and squeezes it. "boston is only an 11 hour drive. hour or two by plane."
"rafe." i say.
"i can't lose you again. i can't, y/n. these past few years have sucked without you. i can't wait until you come home for christmas again. now that i've got you again, i can't risk it."
i sigh and kiss his hand. "i know. i know." i close my eyes and shake my head. "we'll make it work. we almost did it before."
"we can do it again." he smiles sweetly. i kiss his lips gently, laying my hand against his chest.
"you'd do an 11 hour car ride for me?"
"y/n, i'd fucking walk if i have to." he smiles.
i roll my eyes and kiss his cheek. "you're so cheesy."
he lays me back against the truck seats and kisses me. "don't act like it doesn't work for you."
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Waste a Moment / Part 15
Summary : Bucky had always kept his distance, but seeing you get hurt on a mission changed everything. For the first time, he has a chance to start over with you.
Pairing : Bucky Barnes x avenger!reader (she/her)Â
Warnings/tags : Mentions of food. Cursing. Memory loss. Head injury. Reader used to work in a museum.
Requested by : Â @remoony
Word count : 2.7k
Note : I have a lot on my inbox and I havenât been replying a lot lately, but I will go through them tomorrow! Please let me know if I miss anyone on the tags! Enjoy!
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âName a Priceâ
Tuesday.
You had said it allâevery bitter feeling, every thread of anger that festered so deep inside you that you barely knew where you ended and it began. Alex hadnât interrupted, hadnât even shifted in her seat.
She just sat there beside you, listening like she did the first time.
Not as someone who pitied youâ but as a friend.
For a while, she didnât say anything.Â
You stared at the glass case in front of you, the one holding Buckyâs war uniformâ a symbol of his past that he was still piecing together.
You began to wonder if heâd been someone else back thenâ someone untouched by Hydraâs corruption.Â
But you knew better. That uniform belonged to a man already carrying scars from war you couldnât begin to fathom. Hydra just amplified it, took advantage of it, added to it.
âIâm not defending Bucky,â Alex finally spoke, âBut let me ask you somethingâhypothetically. If you were still with him, and he somehow forgot all about his Winter Soldier days, would you remind him?â
What?
You turned to her sharply, mouth agape with shock. âThatâs not fair.â
âIâm not trying to be fair,â she replied calmly, âit was just a hypothetical question.â
Your hands clenched into fists in your lap. âBut thatâs neither here nor there,â you muttered, looking away.
âIs it?â Alex pressed, her tone patient but unrelenting. âThe only difference I see is scale.â
Her words lingered in your brain like a disease spreading. You wanted to snap at her, to tell her it wasnât the same thing at all, but⌠wasnât it?
âWell,â you said, your voice faltering a little, your conviction a little less absolute. âItâs not the same,â you insisted. âItâs a painful memory for him, and he wouldnât know how to process it. I wouldnât want toâŚâ
Your voice trailed off, realising your answer.
The truthâ the truth was that you wouldnât tell him.Â
You wouldnât tell him because you couldnât bear to see the pain, to see the humanity ripped away again. You wouldnât be able to look at the way it would twist his beautiful blue eyes and pull him back into the darkness heâd spent so long trying to climb out of. You wouldnât tell him because you didnât think you could survive watching him rip himself apart, questioning his very existence, his place in the world.
But was that fair? Could you make that choice for him?
Alexâs voice cut through your spiralling thoughts. âDoesnât he deserve to know the truth?â
You flinched, feeling the words hit like a punch.Â
âIt wouldnât be my place to give it to him,â you said, your tone harsher than you intendedâ like it was your last line of defence.Â
âSo youâd be complicit,â Alex said bluntly.
That word stunned you. It froze you in place.
Complicit.
You felt your chest tighten, your breath stopping for a split second.Â
Complicit.Â
Like Yelena.
The realisation struck you like a punch to the gut.Â
Even as you tried to tend to the wounds, you still held a grudge against Yelena for what sheâd done, for keeping the truth from you. You hated the way she had looked at you with pity in her eyes. You hated that sheâd known all along. You hated that she knew when the truth came out, it would destroy you.Â
But now, you realised, if you were in Yelenaâs shoes, wouldnât you have done the exact same thing?
âAnd how do you think heâd feel if he found out the way you did?â Alex continued quietly.
You swallowed hard, but the lump in your throat wouldnât go away.Â
You didnât have to imagine it. You already knewâ you knew exactly how heâd feel.
Heâd feel like the ground had been ripped out from under him, like the air had been stolen from his lungs. Heâd feel betrayed. Hurt.Â
Like his entire world was a lie.
Just like you had.
You loved Alexâ she was your friendâ but you hated how exposed you felt, how easily her words broke down the walls you've built around yourself.
âItâs not that simple,â you said, your voice breaking.
âI know,â Alex replied, she put her hand on yours, trying to keep you steady. âBut I think⌠Bucky did what he did out of love. It doesnât make it right, but it doesnât make it wrong either. It makes it human.â
âSo what?â You almost snapped if not for the stray sob that escaped your mouth. âIâm just supposed to forgive him? Pretend like itâs all okay because he meant well?â
âNo,â Alex said firmly. âYouâre allowed to be angry. Youâre allowed to hurt.â She paused, her eyes holding yours. âBut ask yourself this: whatâs holding on to this anger costing you?â
You knew exactly what it cost you: it cost you your happiness, and his.
â
When you stepped into your apartment, you saw him.
Bucky stood in the kitchen, his back turned to you, shoulders tense he moved around the stove. The soft clatter of utensils and the low hiss of simmering liquor on the burner made your apartment feel like him.Â
The scent was rich, warm, and familiar. It was your favourite dish.Â
On the table nearby, your clear vase was now home to a bouquet of flowers, your favourite flowersâ the ones he always teased you about loving because they never lasted long. Youâd playfully huff, telling him it bloomed so beautifully in the short time it had lived.Â
They were arranged with painstaking careâone you knew Bucky was capable of. The petals were flawless, the colours vibrant, as if heâd combed through hundreds of blooms to find the most perfect ones. Â
âHey,â he said softly. He turned to face you, his movements careful, as if afraid to shatter the fragile truce between you.Â
When his eyes found yours, a tentative smile curved his lips. His voice was differentâ gentle, stripped of the defensive edge you had expected.
Your breath hitched.
Youâd imagined this moment countless times while you were laying in the hospital bed.Â
In some versions, your fury took centre stage, unleashed on him like a storm. In others, the anger had dulled, leaving only an all- consuming sadness, refusing to acknowledge he existed all together.Â
You had breached for him to plead, to beg. But this? This peace, this tendernessâit wasnât what youâd prepared for.Â
âHi,â you managed to say, your voice barely more than a whisper. It felt heavy, like the first crack in a dam threatening to spill. You closed the door behind you, and walked to the dinner table, sitting down before your knees gave out.
Bucky turned back to the stove, setting the spoon down, giving himself a moment to gather his thoughts. He wiped his hands on a towel before walking over to the table.Â
His movements were careful, like a man walking a tightrope. âI didnât want you to come back to⌠an empty home. Not again,â he murmured, his hand raking through his hair, as it always did when he was anxious. âSo I thought Iâd, uh, take care of the place. Until you came back. If you came back.â
You stared at him, then at his careful effort heâd put into making the apartment feel welcoming. After all this time, your home didnât feel yours anymoreâ not entirely.. It felt like it belonged to both of you.Â
âYou didnât have to do this,â you said finally, your voice trembling.Â
âI know,â he said, his voice barely holding steady. His eyes met yours, and for the first time since the hospital, there was no mask, no shield. No defences raised, no excuses. âBut I wanted to.â
The vulnerability in his eyes was an invitation, not a deflection.
âDinnerâs almost ready,â he said, breaking the moment as he turned back to the stove.
You nodded, fingers brushing over the soft petals of the flowers. Questions swirled in your mindâso many questions, accusations, words youâd rehearsed over and over. But you didnât say any of them. Instead, you let him take care of you as you once didâ you let him finish dinner. Â
When he finally brought the plates over, he sat across from you, his hands resting on his knees like he was bracing for impact. You stared at the food, then at him.
âThank you,â you said. Picking up your fork felt⌠comforting. It felt like home.
âI can go,â he said suddenly, almost panicked. âIâll do the dishes and leave.â
âNo,â you said quickly, the word surprising even yourself. Your chest tightened as you recalled your conversation with Alex, her reminder that he was human, a reminder that healing could only start if you accepted that he could make mistakes. You set your fork down and met his eyes. âIâm ready to talk.â
Bucky hesitated, his fingers tracing anxious patterns along the table. His muscles tightened, his eyes fixed downward as if the weight of what he was about to say could shatter everything between you. âI donât⌠I donât know where to start.â
You swallowed, the lump forming in your throat. You forced yourself to breathe through it.Â
The thought of finally hearing him out was terrifying, but you knew you owed it to yourself. âI donât care where you start,â you said gently.
His hand stilled in a grip that held the tableâs edge a little too tightly. âI know you know I wasnât always this w-way. This perfect person youâve known these past few months⌠Iâve always wanted to be him, for you.â
His words hit you like a wave, the sincerity pulling at your heartstrings.Â
âI never needed you to be perfect, Bucky,â you said, the tremble in your tone almost taking over, âI just needed you to be honest.â
He lifted his gaze then, his eyes clouded with regret, pain, and mostlyâ shame. âHow could I?â He murmured, his voice cracking, âFor so long, I thought I was protecting you by keeping parts of myself locked away. By being⌠distant. I thought that if I didnât let you get too close, youâd be better off. Safer. I didnât⌠I didnât know how t-to justify this change.â
âBut why?â you asked, your voice sharper than you intended. âWhy did you think I couldnât handle it? Why didnât you trust me enough to let me in?â
He flinched at your tone, his shoulders dropping as if the question had drained him. He closed his eyes for a moment, thinking before answering. âBecause I didnât think I deserved you.â He looked at you then, his eyes so full of pain. âI told myself you deserved someone whole, someone who wasnât⌠broken. And I thought that if I kept my distance, you would hate me. But you didnât. Not until⌠not until now.â
But he was wrong. You didnât hate himâ you never could. You hated that he lied, But him? No, you could never bring yourself to hate him.
âSo you pushed me away,â you said quietly, a confirmation of what you knew all along.
He nodded, lI thought I could keep my distance and pretend like it was for the best. But every time I was around you, I felt this⌠like I couldnât breathe.â
There it was again.Â
He couldnât breathe around you, he admitted time and again. But not because he hated you. Not because he found your presence suffocating.
It was because you were so damn precious to him that the very thought of sharing the same air as you felt like a privilege he hadnât earned.
âInstead of facing it,â he continued, âI built a wall around myself.â
Today, his words werenât excuses; they were admissions. Every letter felt like it cost him a piece of himself.
âI know I hurt you,â he said, his voice breaking. âAnd I know I canât undo that. But when you lost your memory⌠I donât know. It felt like I had this chance toâto start over. To be the man you deserved. To show you the kind of love Iâve always wanted to give you.â
You blinked back tears. It was like piecing together the puzzle of your past, one fragment of pain at a time. âBut you didnât think to tell me?â you asked, âYou didnât think I deserved to know?â
A pang guilt crossed his face, his mouth falling into a frown. âI should have,â he admitted, âI shouldâve told you everything from the start. But I was so scared that if you knew, youâd see the worst of me. That youâd hate me for it. And losing you⌠I couldnât handle... couldnât thinkâŚ.â
You wanted to yell at him, to tell him how much his silence had hurt you, how it had made you question everything. But you also understood, in a way that only love could explain. Alexâs little thought experiment made you connect to his fearâ the paralysing fear of losing that meant so much to you.Â
âIâm not going to pretend this doesnât hurt,â you said, your voice steady despite the tears welling in your eyes. âI canât go back to the way things were before, Bucky. No more lies, no more walls. If weâre going to try thisâ I need to know all of you. The good, the bad, the broken. All of it.â
His eyes widened.
A second chanceâafter everything heâd hidden from you?Â
It seemed impossibleâ yet here you were, offering it to him.
He hesitated, then reached for your hand, still not believing that he deserved your touch.
When his trembling fingers brushed against yours, you didnât pull away. Instead, you turned your hand, weaving your fingers through his.
âI promise,â he said, âIâll be better. Iâll be honest. No more walls, no more hiding.â
His fingers tightened around yours, afraid you might still let go, afraid you might change your mind.Â
But you held on, your grip firm âI donât need you to be perfect,â you repeated. âI just need you to be honest. I need you to let me in.â
His breath faltered, and for a moment, he looked at you like you were the only thing that could keep him tethered to this earth. âIâll let you in,â his voice broke. âIâll spend the rest of my life proving to you that you made the right choice.â
As you sat there holding his hand, you felt the presence of something stronger than fearâhope.
âCan I kiss you?â He finally asked
Your heartbeat quickened, your chest tightening at the sincerity in his request.Â
For a moment, you saw itâthe life you both wanted, the way it could feel so right, so safe, in his arms. And yet, the cracks of what youâd been through together were still there. The answer that rose within you wasnât what youâd expected, but it was clear.
âNo.â
The word left your lips gently, but firmly. His thumb froze against your skin, his body tensing. The faintest flicker of hurt crossed his eyes.Â
He opened his mouth to apologise, but before he could, you interrupted him.
âIâm not saying no forever,â you said, âBut I want to take things slow. I need to trust that thisâwhatever weâre building nowâisnât just us rushing to cover up the hurt. I need to know itâs real.â
For a moment, he just looked at you. Slowly, his shoulders relaxed. A small, almost shy smile tugged at the corners of his mouth. âWeâll go as slow as you need,â he said.
He leaned back slightly, letting his fingers slip from yours.
There was no more resentment, no bitternessâ only understanding.Â
The two of you continued eating in silence, exchanging glances that lingered just a little longer than usual, small, subtle smiles that promised a fragile piece. Each moment felt like a step forward, like a rebuilding of trust, brick by brick, piece by piece.
When the meal was over, he stood to clear the dishes. As he walked past your chair, he paused. His fingers brushed against your shoulder, a fleeting touch. It wasnât possessive or pleading anymore. Instead, it was a quiet reminder. Iâm here. Iâm staying. Iâm not going to hide anymore.
And for the first time, you truly believed him. Not because heâd said the right thing, not because he was perfect. But because he was trying.Â
Because he was human, and he finally saw himself that way.Â
-To be continuedâŚ
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End of Act 1 - Author Thoughts
So, this concludes Act 1 of Dead Eye.Â
âIt's been a struggle for me to write this afterthought piece, because I have learned so much from writing this original story.
This was not the first time I've written original fiction, of course. I had a brief attempt at a web serial back in late 2016 (I can't even remember the name of it), I've written numerous short fiction stories for Reddit Writing Prompts, and I've dropped some short stories here in Creative Writing in the past. Not to mention contest submissions over the years IRL (nothing gained unfortunately).
However, what made this different is that I actually committed to the act of finishing an entire arc and do my best to flesh out the characters as much as possible. I kept a plan, I followed it, and I tried to make it enjoyable for the readership.
âAdmittedly, going from the hundreds of likes and views of my fanfic to the thirty or dozen on these posts felt initially disheartening.Â
Initially.
But then I realized that I wasn't thinking about things in perspective. I was no longer using larger fandoms as a crutch for engagement or relying on readers already having a basic understanding of the characters: I was needing to WORK and gain the TRUST of the readers for a totally experimental project.
And bonus, I got amazing comments and analysis each chapter, with people seeming to really enjoy the mystery and action I wrote. I got people investing in characters in just a little under 30k words, which I think is pretty darn decent!
Is there room for improvement? Yes, absolutely. I ended up unhappy with how little screen time Milian got, but a lot of my plans for him involved future plot points that couldn't fit within 6 chapters that I challenged myself. I struggled a lot with describing the city (because I find building descriptions boring), and perhaps I made the tension between Sabra and Persa a bit too thick?
More things I could discuss on that, but there are also things I'm proud of. I really enjoyed the action set pieces and how I distinguished character behavior. I really like that my magic system (based on me noticing how special eyes are so prevalent in fiction, why not make an entire system set around them?) flowed so easily for me to write, and that it allowed me to do fun things with the world. Giant glowing eyeball in the sky makes me giggle all the time.
âSo, what is the plan going forward?
For now, there will be a small intermission. I would like to get back into Janus and HITF, maybe do some other fanworks too, just to flex my brain a bit from being in Persa's pov for so long.
The plan is that after a month or two, I will then return for Dead Eye - Act 2 for another 6 arc continuation.
Finally, I want to say:Â Thank You
Thank you to everyone who supported me, be it by like, comment, or Ko-Fi donation. It was you who kept me going, and made me achieve a dream of becoming an actual author of original fiction.
I promise I won't let you down!
#ridtom#ridtom web serial#ridtomblr#dead eye#dead eye web serial#web serial#web novel#urban fantasy#supernatural
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BANGER POST AGAIN !!!
I both hate and love the ambiguity. Because I'm tryna think back to Bjorn (who lived an incredibly short life omg) but the difference is he was brain dead and couldn't fight back. The retired characters aren't. So he must've found a way to keep them steady??
And omg??? How he'd feel WHEN he dies??? I didn't even think of that. But that is honestly such a good point.
Now everything past this point I'm just assuming things again
Wayne loves life and I believe it's because of the free will he gets. Death would mean the end to all that possibility and fun shit to do. He seems like the kinda person to make his own meaning to life than find one (to me, at least). I don't think he'd think about his mortality too much cause he just lives in the moment. He doesn't think about the future or past, he just goes through time as it is. Wanna add on more to this but my brain's overheating.
First death was blunt. No torture, no build up, no nothing. He was led out and just bled??? He also said help me even though he was in THAT state.
I'm spewing shit here but maybe he was begging cam to save him. (And I think he might've asked Robin to help? I forgot so I won't talk about it until I resetâšď¸) I believe Wayne knows Cameron is Wayne is a pussy when it comes to confrontation so when Cam dies from an allergic reaction he caused, I doubt Wayne called for help with the possibility of Cam snitching. Then Cameron just comes back lol and they're back to pranks. Clearly he wants to live. He has a little hope that Cam would bring him back. And he does?? In short, the death was just that so Wayne had faith he'd be resurrected.
Second death, he does an oopsie and talks to justin. Then we see him help captive looking half dead and talking about how there's more people. Hear me out, what if Justin saw the retired cast get made into clones? I mean not literally. I don't think the captives would be kept in the same room as the one Justin would be experimenting in. He might've either seen how they struggled or possibly heard something (which also feels unlikely yk Justin might get soundproof walls or like uhh tranquilized them? (Sedated? Chloroform? Put them under anesthesia?What's the word?) idk I have too many thoughts on this).
The way Wayne looks is awful I can't even lie. No one can tell me he wasn't stressed out of his mind. But he's just been kept there? He either died by a bullet or by becoming Justin. But those deaths wouldn't just be quick. They had build up. And he might've lost hope and it didn't matter which way he got out of the situation, he just wanted to get out. So when he dies, he'd feel relief. But I'm still clinging onto the idea he doesn't want to lose his life so I'd think he'd so conflicted.
Then he's just brought back by the guy who saved him the first time. The same guy who killed him. Just brought back to suffer. Bitchy husk as a man I hope you don't come back. ( If he does I'm actually gonna be so pissed even though I love him mwah. Let him rest! )
I hate that I'm so invested in this.
AAAAAAAAA JUSTIN CASE UPDATE??? WHAT THE FUCK WHY DID HE JUST POST RHE SPOILERS TO THE NEXT INSTALLEMENT OF THE STROY RIGHT THERE INSREA DOF BEING LIKE YEAH IM DOING IT IM KILLING CAM RN FUCK ME (ron intended)
anywayssssss
nathaniel is dead, not very skibidi sigma of him at all but iâm not too surprised, camâs been trying to get rid of olâ nathan for a WHILE (besides, look at his last name. it was inevitable)
cam added a mary sue self insert oc thatâs basically a god into the cgcu whoâs summoned by racism and sexual jokes. damn.
i get the ending and itâs alright, but also seems anticlimactic. like cam shows up and tells justin âdude youâre a fictional made up character on the internet youâre already immortal đâ and justinâs like âoh fr then ig iâll stopâ which isnât that satisfying at all. i donât like that ending the discordâs ending (ask me for an invite link if ur interested in the server, weâre all very cool) is much better since yk. it has actual character development.
personally? i donât like this ending much and i am unsatisfied. it might be better if he actually posts it but i still donât like it much. if onlyâŚâŚ.i finished the goddamn animationâŚâŚ..ughhh
alsoâŚâŚâŚ.max? whipping it out? right there? cam you better film this part or else /hj
#trying to remember when justin explained how he made clones.#did he inject something or???#also just read the fic u recommend and lord it has me tweaking i need more case studies (from gus specifically)#cameron gender#idc what anyone says even if it's canon Wayn didn't go through torture#He did in my mind idcc just LOOK AT HIM???#one foot in the grave.#i wish people could look into my brain and see all these cool ideas#i wish i could look into YOUR brain becuase thia is brilliant#like towards his death? he would feel like a weights been lifted off his shoulders but not really get why#he gives me vibes of idk whatâs going on with my feels im just gonna ignore it and hope i feel better#<<<these tags omg you're so smart#like seriously you have so much intelligence#i might've gone a bit off topic somewhere#nothign brings people together like a hostage situation#maybe he talked with the others about their own lives#maybe they tried to find a reason for it all#idk#how long has justin been doing this#I feel like I'm just repeating points omg#give me an 5k word assignment and it's straight bulshit for twice the needed amount#i actually did that with less words and i got good scores for writing a lot#i miss when it was that simple
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am i autistic or am i just paranoid. level: impossible
#seeing a friend of mine for the first time in 2 years but it was at a 9hr work training and i barely talked to him the whole time#so i text our gc multiple times bc im excited#but everyones drained from the day#so am i being a good loving kind person or am i being annoying as hell#my brain says the first one and my gut says the second#i also might have a big fat crush on this man (he is unfairly attractive and kind and funny and TALL)#so i may be overreacting bc of that#i just missed him and now my big fat crush on him is bigger and fatter than ever#at the end of our first summer he hugged me tight and told me he loved me (platonically)#then he asked if i was coming back and i said yes without any hesitation#and then he didnt come back#so ive been going on 2 years of stewing in this fucking crush soup and now im just#tumblr is the only place where i can talk abt this no one important in my life can know this#no one#i just really like him#and i wanna be around him all the time#and i wanna sit with him and talk to him and laugh with him#and help him with stuff#and i have not had an actual crush on someone since my sophomore and junior year of high school#which was 4 and 5 years ago at this point#this guy also kept staring at me from across the room and everytime i would glace in his direction he would look away#and every time i would get a glimpse of him at training i could physically feel the butterflies#hell#every time i even thought about the fact that we were in the same general area i would get butterflies#this never happens to me and its such a weird feeling#would you be so kind by dodie is the anthem of the hour rn#and i know there's a huge part of me that thinks i am unlovable bc of how i look#and ive never had anyone love me or even like me enough to initiate any kind of anything#ive been on one date in my life#never been kissed never had sex
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sometimes i get way too aware of how me being depressed affects my loved ones and i just feel an incredible amount of guilt!!!!!!!
#i remember a year ago my suicidal ideation got BAD BAD to the point where my brain kept thinking of all the ways i could kill myself#and it was so frustrating for me bc i wanted to do it so badly but i was too scared#and i also thought of my family and loved ones bc i didnt wanna hurt them. or what would happen if i didnt succeed#it got so bad to the point where i ended up telling my mom about it cause she knew something was wrong#and she obviously got incredibly upset and started crying. and i felt so bad and kept wondering if i should've just stayed quiet#but it was eating at me and i couldn't deal with it anymore#and its just like yeah i know you care about me and i wish i didnt feel unlovable and worthless and wanted to kill myself sometimes#oh wow sorry for the rant#// suicide#raquel speaks
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*draws something for the first time in a while. âMan I suck at drawing! Maybe go back to being good at it if I draw more!â
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âOh I got a neat idea for a drawing! Surely I have gotten better by now!â Loop post
#this revelation brought to you by the one and only#midnight brainrot#probably could not of put these things together without the malaise of a mind awake at 3 am again despite saying that theyâre âtrying to fix#their sleep schedule ~â#bah. I say things yet never do them. my brain always blocks any sort of progress with âjust one more videoâ#even fun and enjoyment bends the knee to this declaration#even other YouTube videos!#when I do break it I end up back where I was because like asking for literally anything my brain does so much pushback that it feels#inherently wrong on a fundamental level#I donât think Iâm depressed I like life too much and enjoy existence#is this my brain punishing me for not dying before reaching adulthood like I always thought I would? or is it punishment for not constantly#going from the end of high school to another school like I planned because my purpose in life was to learn and go to school until I die#now I am left without purpose. literally wandering my house like a ghost when no oneâs home#I say the two same things to my brother when he gets home so much that he once made a joke about me being an npc#and the worse part is. it wasnât about that dumb TikTok brainrot meme thing. no it was because I say the exact same things the exact same wa#y every time he gets home. worse more is I can think of several other ways that that statement could be more accurate that he doesnât know a#bout#I wish to game but never do#I want to make art and such but I never do#I went to an art class for years when I was a kid for Peteâs sake!#my parents complain about my hair being too long and I agree but I still want it long I just always kept it short because of simple ma#maintenance. the only reason I ever grew it out was to keep warm I. the winter!#I spent my childhood with self imposed utilitarianism for no reason#no reason to expand my horizons and explore myself because I thought of myself as a lesser being that was fated to die randomly before#I could reproduce.#oh my goodness the reproduction thing! I thought I was straight for the longest time because I had to be#because the purpose of a person is to reproduce. yet I was all likeâI canât reproduce as I am autistic and would taint my offspring. I am a#genetic dead end and deserve to have the effect of natural selection take placeâ#through tv show mimicry and being a utilitarian little git I forced myself to be straight for years#and the worse part is I KNEW GAY PEOPLE EXISTED AND I ENVYED THEM FOR NOT HAVING TO REPRODUCE OH MY GOD IS THIS WHAT KARKAT FELT LIKE? NO I
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im so worried about. roan. i know theyre literally my character but im worried
#feeding my dogs thinking about how they feel after breaking away from bhaal#empty furious lonely devastated ecstatic. afraid numb sheer relief. it goes back and forth#going from relieved to be free to enraged at bhaal for everything to desperately wanting to return to him and then hating themself for it#i think they try to find information about their foster parents. some kind of desperate hope that the memory of killing them is just#a result of their brain being excavated by orin#who i think they cared for! in their way! by the time of the absolute plot there's barely anything left that hasn't been honed by bhaal into#an implement of destruction#but orin is family; her blood is diluted but they still share it. roan sees the way she plays with her bodies as selfishness#also that seems to be the way sarevok sees it and that's the vibe i get from the book/letter durge writes her#which is interesting that she kept it#anyway. roan kills her because they have to but even doing that feels familiar to them. some distant thought in the back of their mind#that says they always knew it would end this way. and some part of them berating orin for not killing them#thinking that this is what they meant; if she had just listened even a little bit she couldve been bhaal's chosen#but she chose personal glory and satisfaction over bhaal and that's why she failed#and i wonder just how much durge changes afterwards. how much of their thoughts still revolve around murder#like. habitually. ofc it obviously varies for everyone but
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friends are making plans to go stay with each other but it's the weekend I'm going to see my favourite band. the universe fucking hates me
#I CANNOT have a third rsd episode in the space of a month i will kill myself. or at least do near irreperable damage#wish i was joking. i feel like im going to throw up even just thinking about it#well. well i can skip the concert i guess. i saw them last year anyway theyre just doing a second europe tour of the same album#and theyll probably release another album in a few years and i can see them again then#ahhh. ah okay okay i cant think about this right now ill decide at the weekend its not for a few weeks anyway#ahhhhhh but maybe theyre doing this bc they dont want me there idr if they know abt it already and if they wanted me there they would#plan it with me from the start instead of telling me once theyve already made the plan oh i cant do this right now i will Spiral#im going to take a cold shower đ#to clear my head i was just starting to feel better @ my brain like that dont fucking ruin this for us andy samberg corgi gif#its fine i dont need to panic. im just frazzled from work i lost the ability to focus after like 3pm but they kept sending me emails with#stuff they want me to do before the end of the week and i was having stupid levels of task paralysis trying to think about it#bc i dont have time to fit everything into my schedule and its multiple projects so much thought. and my meds dont help anymore by then#AND ppl kept coming and finding me and giving me samples and verbal instructions for things and i couldnt write down bc i was busy#so ive probably forgotten smth important its fine its fine its just work#and tomorrow morning my meds will smooth everything out i can organise it then. but just made me feel so mentally congested#and ive had no signal again so couldnt even open tumblr to complain abt it#cold shower and then im gonna make stir fry so i have leftovers for lunch tmr to fuel me for the gym. and ill get my gym stuff ready#and i need to get my shit together bc im calling a friend tonight and i am NOT going to fall apart in front of them đ#its all good its okay ill make everything work out#okay. showertime#.diaries
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imagine youâre dating ghost and no one knows. the two of you have kept it a secret on your end and his just for your protectionâ because ghost knows what could happen if someone finds out, how someone might try and target you to get to him, or worse, given his line of work.
but then imagine that heâs on a mission, interrogating some piece of filth ready to decorate the fucking wall with his brain matter when the guy says âyou know what, simon, killing me would be the biggest mistake of your life.â
immediately ghost would pause, eyes narrowed, though his hardened demeanour wouldnât fade much, heâd just blankly stare at the prick like âoh yea? nâ why donâ you tell mâ why.â
the shit-eating grin that would crawl across that fuckers lips would have ghost ready to kill him right then and there, but then heâd say âreach in my pocket. pull out my phone.â
id like to think ghost would have absolutely none of this assholes bullshit, not at all entertained by his theatrics. iâd like to think heâd just press the muzzle of his gun to the fuckers temple within an instant, all teeth barred and ready to get it over with when the guy would add,
âyour girlfriend is a fucking beauty, isnât she?â
everything would pause. ghost, time, the world, air, the universe itselfâthe life that would drain from ghosts face would almost be enough to make his alias a reality. his heart pounding in his throat, his fingers fucking trembling as he immediately reached into the assholes pocket to find his phoneâa picture of a woman tied up (face not in view however) lighting up on the home screen. thereâd be no thinking rationally, no thoughts in ghosts head except for making sure you were fucking okay. heâd do whatever heâd have to do, kill the guy, leave him strapped there, whateverâheâd be out of that room in two seconds flat and personally flying the helicopter back to your house calling you nonstop every fucking second until you answered.
âhello? si?â
heâd wait a second before answering. taking everything in. background noises, the inflection of your voice. it sounds calm, maybe too calm? heâs grasping his phone so fucking hard itâs a miracle it hasnât shattered between his fingers.
âprincess,â he breathes, fighting with everything in him to keep his voice steady. âsee any birds today?â
though it was a genuine question, it also was an established one. ghost had set up a series of questions for a situation precisely like this. if you said blue jay, it meant you were fine, at home, as usual. if you said crows, it meant you werenât.
âoh just the usual blue jays, si.â he could almost hear the smile on your lips. âeverything okay? i miss you.â
ghost would exhale a shattered breath. âiâm coming home.â
and then heâd show up, not all but a few hours later, hands still trembling slightly, heart rate still struggling to regulate. it was too much, reminding him too much of his past traumas, he knew he needed to find better protection for you, but that was a conversation for another time.
heâd come in the house, barely even taking the time to shut the door behind him, almost frenzied again, relentless, unable to relax until he could finally lay eyes on you. and then, the second he did, heâd just pause and look at you, all messy hair and pyjamas still on, in the kitchen cooking breakfast for you both since you knew he was on his way.
and he wouldnât say a goddamn word, heâd just come up behind you and wrap his arms around your waist, hugging you so tight youâd hardly be able to breathe, his face buried in your hair and his heart thumping at your back. youâd feel the pain the fear the anxiety radiating off him and you wouldnât try to say anything because you knew he needed this, you knew he needed to see you, hold you, feel your pulse stable and alive. you knew he just needed a moment to breathe.
and so the two of you would stand there like that for a while, and then heâd take a big inhale and spin you around to face him, pulling up his mask to plant soft kisses on your jaw.
âi love you so fuckinâ much.â
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Fuck being nice to you
Tags: Nanami x Reader, nsfw, mdni, exhibitionism, cock worshipping
An: Iâm thinking about either doing a part two or an alternate ending where Satoru ends up joining in đ¤
âYn, this is ridiculous- Come out from under there⌠No, come on. Someoneâs going to see you- You want me toâŚ. Yn, darling, thatâs too risky. I promise we can do whatever we want as soon as weâre home. Just let me.. Ngh~ fuck.. donât⌠donât look at me like that.. Oh.. my god, where did you learn that..? F-fuck⌠This is so⌠irresponsible- Youâre going to.. ngh agh! .. pay for this, you little m-minx.â
Thatâs what Nanami sounded like as you climbed under his desk, begging to taste him while you two were at work. You had successfully undone his belt buckle, and pulled his length out from his boxers and slacks.
Nanami is such a handsome, well put together man. He always smelled so clean with an undertone of his woodsy cologne. He kept himself nicely groomed⌠everywhere. He wasnât shaved completely because neither he nor you liked the look. So, he kept his blondish pubic hair trimmed down for you.
His dick was also just⌠pretty? You always thought that was impossible after your years of being sent unsolicited dick pics by disgusting men, but Nanami?? No, his cock was pretty, long, and cut. Along his shaft, he had one protruding vein that ran up the underside of his dick. His tip was thick and swollen. It was always such a pretty shade of red when you made him hard like this. When you held it in your hands, it was nice and heavy too. You wondered how he managed to walk with that thing.
You had pressed his cock up against your face, and you fluttered your eyes up to look at him while his length was nuzzled against your cheek. It was nearly bigger than your face for fucks sake. Nanami had no business keeping weapon like that on him.
Nanamiâs face burned bright red as he told you not to look at him like that. You looked so pretty on your knees below his mahogany wooden desk. All he wanted to do was wreck you, but he tried to force those thoughts aside.
Nanami was a lover in bed. He loved to kiss on you, dote on you, rub on you, make you feel so so good. He cherished and respected your body wholeheartedly. He fucking loves you. But sometimes⌠on rare occasions, Nanami felt the sick intense need to just ruin you. ravage you. wreck you. use you. fuck you until heâs shooting blanks.
Seeing you look up at him all nice and pretty with his cock so blatantly pressed against your face just sent his brain into overdrive.
He let out small groans as you licked his tip, teasing the very sensitive portions of his length with your tongue. He held one of his hands over his mouth to mask some of his noises. You two were still in his office, and anyone could walk in at anytime. His other hand was grasping the back of your hair, entangling his fingers in your soft locks.
A gasp left his mouth as soon as he felt your plush lips wrap around his girthy length. The wet noises that left your mouth soon following were nothing short of pornstar worthy.
You had this grown ass man moaning, growling, and shaking with your mouth alone as you sucked, licked, and kissed all along his length. You were absolutely sloppy with it too. He was always clean and put together, and you just wanted to defile him.
A mixture of your spit and his precum was gathered at the base of his length from you bobbing your head up and down. Spit trickled down his balls, and you used your hand to cup them.
âYouâre so f..fucking good at this..â He groaned lowly as he kept his eyes on you. It was like watching an artist at work. âSo fucking perfect⌠my good girl.â He cooed as he petted your head, still trying to repress the thoughts of making you his fucktoy.
His praise only seemed to make you work harder for him, swallowing and gagging around his length. You would hum and whine from the discomfort, sending vibrations up his cock. Small tears involuntarily dripped down your cheeks.
Gods, he was so fucking torn. On one hand, he wanted to wipe your tears away and tell you to be gentle with yourself. On the other, he wanted to yank your hair and make you take more of him. In his intoxicated state, he ended up doing both.
âDonât push yourself too hard.â He chided as he forced his length down your throat.
He sounded like an absolute asshole.
If your mouth wasnât full of cock, youâd probably giggle at his little blunder.
He was close. so fucking close. He could feel his balls tightening as he started to rut his hips upward, making you take more of him in at his pace.
So close. He was right on the edge when his office door opened.
Violence was a necessary part of Nanamiâs career. He didnât ever search it out by picking fights with people. He actually didnât even enjoy confrontation all too much, but he wanted to fucking kill whoever was daring to interrupt his moment with you.
Nanamiâs eye visibly twitch when none other than Satoru Gojo walked into his office. He was not in the mood, and he was all out of patience right now for the white-haired man.
Now, your sweet husband assumed youâd.. you know⌠pause your sucking while his coworker friend? was in the room. Unfortunately for him, he was unaware of your sick and twisted sense of humor.
âNanami~â Satoruâs voice drawled in a whine as he dramatically flopped himself over the back of the chair across from Nanamiâs desk.
âWhat is it-â Nanamiâs eyes almost rolled back into his head as you slowly took his length back into your mouth. â-Gojo?â He added as he gripped the sides of his chair tightly. His veiny hand was red, and his knuckles were turning white.
âSomeone ate my dessert in the break room.â Satoru dramatically whined again. âWho would do such a thing? Iâm wanting to launch an investigation.â
âAre you seriously bothering me about this right now?â Nanami hissed in a more vicious tone than he normally used. He didnât mean to be rude, but he needed Satoru to just fuck off right now.
You swallowed his length, trying to be semi-quiet about it, but there was some wet noises. Nanami quickly coughed and shifted around in his seat. You were going to pay for this.
âWhy are you so grumpy, Nanamin?â Satoru asked, unfazed by Nanamiâs harsh tone. He was used to it by now. The white haired male cocked and eyebrow and lazily smirked at your husband. âWife problems already?â He taunted.
Oh yeah, Nanami had a wife problem alright. His problem was that his wife was on her knees practically begging to be fucked.
âWhat do you know about-â Nanami coughed loudly again to prevent from moaning as your tongue swirled around his tip. â- wife problems?â
âUh⌠Nanamin, are you okay?â Satoru asked as he tilted his head to the side.
âYeah.. yeah.. Actually- no, I think Iâm falling ill. I think you should g-go now⌠I donât want to contaminate you..â You didnât know your husband could be such a filthy liar, but here he was. His voice was breathy and needy. He was nearly panting in front of his coworker.
âOh- Oh ew.â Satoruâs face twisted in disgust as he hated getting sick. âText me if you need anything, Nanamin.â He said as he promptly left the room.
As soon as Gojo was gone, Nanami rolled back in his chair quickly so he could get a good look at you.
âCâmere.â He grunted as he grabbed you by your blouse. He stood up out of his chair, pulling you to your feet.
He spun you, so his chest was against your back, and he carefully tread his hands up your sides, feeling up your curves that your pencil skirt didnât bother to hide in the slightest.
He then gently tugged your hair back, causing for you to lean your head back into his shoulder with a small yelp. His lips ghosted over your ear. âDid you have fun making me look like a mess in front of Gojo, hm?â
Youâre such a brat sometimes. You nod your head and let out a small giggle, remembering Nanami stuttering over his words and shaking while you sucked him off under the desk.
âYeah? Was it funny?â He asked as his hand pressed to the center of your back, and he bent you over his desk. âYou want to act like a whore so badly; I might as well fuck you like one, isnât that right baby?â He purred into your ear, making your eyes widen. Nanami had never spoken to you like that before in the past. You didnât even know he was capable of degrading you.
You fucked up.
Nanami curses as he looks at your plush ass against his bare cock. Heâs carefully rutting it against your backside while heâs intoxicated by the way his cock looks buried between your clothed cheeks.
âKen~â You moan as you arch your back up off the desk a bit more.
âShut up.â He demands lowly. He canât hear your whiny voice right now while heâs trying to hold whatever sliver of self restraint he has left.
âMmnnph.. p-please..â Your whimper sends him over the edge.
âFuck being nice to you.â He growls lowly as he pushes your tight skirt up and over your ass. He marvels at how pretty you look, bent over his desk like this.
Slap!
His hand forcibly connects with your bottom, causing you to jolt forward from surprise. A small whimper escaped your mouth. âT-too loud..â
âYou didnât seem to care earlier when Satoru was in the room. Is it different when heâs the one hearing you slurping?â He taunts lowly, and he gives your ass another firm spank.
âN-no!â You whine out.
âYou wanted him to hear you, didnât you?â Your husband growls as he swats you again.
âNo, I-I just wanted t-to make you feel good.â Youâre practically searching for friction on his desk. The ache deep inside you feels like torture. You raise your hips again, hoping Nanami will finally just take you.
Your words tug at his heartstrings a bit. Deciding youâve had enough punishment, he pulls your panties down around your ankles. He carefully presses his fingertips to your warm, wet heat, and he groans from the feeling.
âYouâre this wet from sucking me and getting spanked?â God, youâre a national treasure to him. So perfect in every way.
You weakly nod and hum in approval. You try to push back on his fingers, but they were already gone. The sound of clothes shuffling filled the room as Nanami pushed his pants and boxers further down his thighs for easier access.
He looks down at you with a barely noticeable smirk as your displayed so prettily for him over his desk. His wifeâs pretty cunt was practically begging to be fucked, and who was he to deny her that pleasure?
A small grunt escapes his mouth as he aligns himself with your dripping entrance. He feels a bit of resistance against his cock that normally isnât there. He normally preps you a lot more, given that he knows his size can be uncomfortable if not properly prepared.
âKen.. ngh.. p-prep?â You breathily ask as you drag your hips upward, presenting yourself to him like a bitch in heat.
âNo, I want you to feel this, baby.â He lowly coos before burying himself to the hilt deep inside of you. Your fingernails claw at the desk, and tears spring into your eyes involuntarily.
âF-fuck!â You whimper out, trying to hold yourself together.
Nanami lets out a quiet groan from the feeling. Youâre squeezing him so perfectly right now. His hands trap you against the desk, and he pulls all the way until just his tip is in before pushing back inside forcefully. He repeats this motion a few times, making you feel every inch of him. You did this to him. You asked for this.
Small whiny gasps and moans fled your mouth. You tried to be quiet. You really did, but it was so hard when he was fucking you so deliciously from behind, making your cunt squelch with each forceful thrust.
âI hope he comes back and sees you like this.â Nanami growls lowly in your ear. â.. sees my pretty wife.. ngh fuck! .. taking my cock so well..â
His words literally have you hypnotized. The thought of someone walking in was frightening yet erotic at the same time.
âI wouldnât stop either.â He goes on as his hips clap against your ass. âIâd let him watch how I fuck my wife.â
âKen~â You whine from his vulgar words. Youâre practically seeing stars as he hits all the right places. He knows you like the back of his hand. He knows just how you like to be fucked.
As you turn your head to look at him over your shoulder, Nanami growls from the look on your face. You look so fucked out and cock drunk already. He canât hold back anymore.
His grasp on your hips is nearly bruising as he pounds himself into you, not caring about the noise. The desk creaks and scrapes against the ground with each powerful thrust. You try to keep yourself together as he fucks you into oblivion, but your body is nothing but a puddle.
âF-fuck~! Ken, I- .. cumming..â You barely manage to warn him before youâre spasming on his cock. He fucks you through your orgasm until youâre panting and whimpering against his desk. You weakly try to sit up, but his large hand catches your shoulder and forces you back down.
âIâm not done with you yet.â He lowly growls as he resumes his harsh thrusts. Your hands grab at the desk tightly, and your eyes screw shut as your poor cunt is so sensitive.
âFucking⌠ah~ fucking take it, slut.â He demands as he rails you from behind. His thrusts are growing erratic and uncoordinated. Heâs so close for the second time. He leans down over your back, and he bites down on your shoulder harshly before pumping you full of his cum. Your sloppy hole clenches around him as you find your second orgasm. Something about Nanami taking whatâs his just really did it for you.
Slowly, he releases your shoulder from his teeth, and he presses soft kisses into the bite mark. âAre you okay, my love?â His adoring tone his back.
ââm perfect..â You mumble quietly, on cloud 9 from receiving the best dick of your life.
âThat you are, darling. So perfect.â He praises as he trails his kisses up the side of your neck. âI love you so much. Youâre such a good wife.â His lips press against your jaw and cheek. âand a good girl too.â
âSo, Iâm not a slut?â You ask with a small giggle, remembering how he degraded you for the first time earlier.
âYouâre my slut.â He quietly corrects with a soft chuckle. He then quietly hisses as he pulls out of you. He watches as some of his cum trickles down your swollen cunt. âSo pretty.â He murmurs quietly as he leans into your heat and presses a small kiss to your sensitive folds, making you shiver.
âYouâre not going to get any work done at this rate, Nanamin.â You playfully chide as you bite your bottom lip, silently hoping heâll kiss your cunt again.
âFuck that work.â He grumbles lowly before pressing another wet kiss against your core as you tremble before him.
He didnât get any work done that day.
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voice kink ⪠nanami kento
I ended up watching a YouTube short of Kenjiro Tsuda and it made me deeply unwell, hence this 30 minute drabble. Have my horny. Part 2 here
Nanami was a dedicated â you could even say devoted â lover. Truly, after so much time together, you doubted there was anything vanilla-related this man wouldnât do in bed if you asked him to. The sheer lengths heâd go to have you finishing at least twice every time you had sex were surprising.
However, there was this one thing that still nagged you. You thought about it, mulled it over, and considered talking to him after he got home. However, your eagerness to talk about it got the better of you.
âKento, why donât you talk dirty to me when weâre having sex?â you asked him, still laying on the bed with your pajamas on.
He turned to you surprised, already dressed in his classic blue buttoned shirt, beige formal pants, and yellow tie with a splatter pattern hanging around his neck as he got ready to leave for work.
âFor no reason in particular. I think I just tend to focus on how it feels rather than talking about it,â he answered, âwhy? Would you rather have me talking more?â
âPerhaps. I mean⌠I find your voice very sexy,â you admitted, blushing a little, âand one of my favorite parts of sex is when I get to hear it.â
He lifted an eyebrow, a soft hint of amusement taking over his impassiveness.
âYou do?â
âYes.â
He seemed to ponder on something for a moment, and then, began walking towards the bed as he opened the top button of his shirt.
You were confused for a moment as he climbed with his work clothes from the end of the mattress. However, in an instant, he took both your hands, entangling your fingers while he pressed them to the sides of your head, and sunk his hips in between your thighs, his belt softly catching on the edge of your pants.
Having you caged underneath him, Nanami brushed his lips against your cheek, and slid them slowly down.
His warm breath caressed your skin, and Nanami grazed his teeth on your earlobe before whispering only inches away from your ear, âwhat would you like to hear me say?â
âA-anything, really,â you stuttered out, thoughts becoming nothing but jumbled bits in your brain.
He hummed, âthen, let me tell you what my favorite part is.â
Each syllable had you melting like honey under him, his deep tone caressing your hearing in all the right ways.
âMy favorite part is when you are about to finish for the second time with me inside you, and you always dig your nails on my shoulders. I really like when I look in the mirror and see those tiny marks you leave me with, because every time I notice that theyâre gone, I know itâs time to get some new ones.â
You let out a moan, sinking your head back on the pillow and arching your back. He pressed himself a little harder, and proceeded.
âI also find your taste to be exquisite, but Iâm still unsure if it feels better when I have my tongue deep inside as you tremble all around it or when Iâm thrusting it in your mouth right after Iâm finished eating you out.â
Another moan tumbled out of your lips as you felt your heartbeat throbbing in between your legs, and at that moment, you were absolutely sure that if he kept going, youâd cum completely untouched underneath him.
âK-Kento...â
âAlso, feeling you all warm and wet and tight around my cock when you ask me to have you completely raw is one of the most delicious sensations Iâve had in my entire life, topped only by when I cum inside you and fill you whole, all thick and warm.â
Holy. Fuck.
Your body was quivering underneath him, your breath completely broken in hitches, and you squirmed your hips desperate for some friction over your pooling wetness.
âI hope I gave you enough for you to think about me while Iâm gone at work, darling,â Nanami concluded, planting a kiss on your cheek before lifting himself up, carrying his warmth along with him.
You realized that moment you definitely shouldâve waited until that night to tell him that.
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what if rafe found kook!sweetheart!readerâs girl blog? omg and he seeâs some nsfw reblogsâŚ
warnings: use of the nickname âdaddyâ (just once), reader is just a girl, 18+ links
a/n: i think i would die if this really happened omg
âi still think i should join you in the shower..â you looked up at rafeâs reflection from your vanity, a teasing smile playing on his lips. âwe both know how thatâll end.â you laughed, adjusting your robe before twisting the door knob of your bathroom. âiâll be right out.â rafe watched as you closed the door behind you, collapsing onto your bed with a sigh. he wanted nothing more than to get you underneath your sheets and, hopefully, have his head between your thighs.
just as he felt himself growing hard at the thought of you gasping his name, he heard your phone ding!
thinking nothing of it, he glanced at the device on your nightstand, a few more notifications coming in. his eyebrows knitted in confusion. you always had your phone silenced at this time of night. fingertips itching to check what was making your phone go off, he muttered a quick âfuck it.â before grabbing the damned thing. âtumblr?â he narrowed his eyes at the unfamiliar app icon.
[11:41 PM] lanasweetheart liked your post: âsomething about a manly man getting the bestest sleep in a pink hyperfeminine bed (heâs so babygirl đ)â
rafe clicked the notif, a âwhat the fuck?â falling from his lips when a picture of him sleeping next to you lit up the screen. tapping on the profile icon, rafe was in for a surprise when all your posts were now at the tips of his fingers. âthree thousand notes?â he was in disbelief that a photo of the back of his head peeking out of your pink comforter had gotten so much traction. âgirls really go crazy over that shit?â he laughed, full on scrolling now.
rafe thought it was cute that all your posts consisted of photo dumps of your nights out with your girlfriends, cute selfies with freshly done makeup, nail pics, some rant posts here and there about drama he already had the full scoop on, but then he came across a tag that said âŕ¨ŕ§ thinking thoughtsâ that completely flipped his brain inside out.
bf looked so dilfy today, should i ask him for babies?
âyou totally should.â he whispered to himself, tongue running across his bottom lip as he kept reading. the next post was a reblog.
gorgeous gorgeous girls pout and whine and whimper instead of using words
âyeah, you do.â rafe could feel heat starting to settle in the pit of his stomach. you were always so sweet and graceful, your boyfriend couldnât help but feel a smidge of jealousy that an app got to see this side of you before he did.
i just want him to break me sometimes. slap me, choke me, degrade me.. rough me up a little bit thatâs all :(
âholy shit.â he cleared his throat, his cock now straining against the denim material of his jeans. he wouldâve happily done all of that for you if you asked, but then again maybe that was the problem. you shouldnât have to. apart of rafe felt bad for invading your privacy like this, but man was he glad that he did.
love when daddy picks out my lingerie for the night <3
rafeâs jaw was on the ground. âdaddyâ???? oh, you were so going to get it. âwhat are you doing?â rafe jumped at the sound of your voice, having not heard the water to the shower stop. you were in nothing but a robe, the scent of your strawberry shampoo filling up his senses. âwhat am i doing?â he repeated your question, getting up as he placed your phone back on your nightstand.
âyeah.. did i get a text message or something?â your heart started pounding in your ears as you watched rafeâs eyes grow dark. âno. no text message. âwas just looking through your filthy tumblr account.â you blinked, chest rising and falling as your blood ran cold. âoh?â you backed away with each step rafe took until you were finally blocked by your wall. âmhmm, turns out my sweet little girlfriend wants to be treated like a whore in bed.â
you swallowed thickly, a gasp leaving your lips when rafeâs hand wrapped around your throat. âwanna be roughed up?â he laughed, dragging you over to your bed before ripping the robe off of your body. âiâll fuckinâ rough you up.â
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â. you've been on the run for a while. you knew someone would come eventuallyâbut not him.
tags. fem!reader, old west era, bounty hunter simon, size difference, size kink, implied the reader's husband is a terrible human, accidental voyeurism, period-typical sexism, masturbation [18+ only]
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Youâve been running for months, first from your husband (the phantom grip of his hand still sending an ache through your wrist) and now as a wanted conwoman for stealing the clothes from an unsuspecting cowpoke who thought he was getting lucky. You can only imagine what Mama would say about trading your ruffled skirts for grass-stained trousers and boiled-leather suspenders.
(Itâs unbecoming of a respectable woman, dear. Uncouth.)
Sheâd probably have a lot to say if she knew everything youâve done to survive.
You hop from one place to the next only by the mere chance someone was willing to let a helpless woman accompany them on their travels. Nearly a month has passed since being stranded in a dusty old mining town after a man and his wife dump you off and leave you behind. Washoeâs a little gritty and not welcoming unless thereâs money to spend.
Itâs not exactly safe, not unsafe, either, but nobody asks questions as long as you keep your head down and play the part of a mourning widow just passing through.
You know youâve overextended your stay when you canât leave your room during the day without worrying about a noose and the open end of a barrel meeting you outside.Â
(That your husband or that gun-waving cowpoke finally found you.)
Sleep practically clings to you like a second skin, but you donât dare close your eyesâyou canât.
This is how you end up sitting in the corner of the saloon, using the last of whatever you have in your change purse to order something strong, something your husband kept locked away, and anything else he thought women shouldnât have a part in.Â
You donât even realize that your eyelids begin to feel heavy, steadily blurring out the flickering lantern on the wall while you wait for your drink.Â
You catch yourself once or twice before your head can hit the table, rapidly blinking away the exhaustion before your eyes slide to the swinging doors.
You should stay awake.Â
You need to stay awake just a little bit longerâ
Your luck runs out that day.Â
Itâs one thing to know itâd happen eventually, and something else to realize that you make it easy for himâthe man with an infamous name and a faded black bandana covering half his faceâhow he walked into the saloon and scooped you up (all unladylike sleepy dead weight) out of the weathered booth without a fight.
When youâd woken up to find yourself trussed up and thrown over the back of his horse, you cursed him out with every word you could think of that would make Mama clutch her skirts. Your captor ignored you, only talking to you whenever he warned you he was about to set up camp.Â
âDid my husband send you?â Acknowledging him after all this time tasted like pennies on your tongue.
The man, Simon Riley, had leaned back against his bedroll and tipped the brim of his hat over his eyes. âGo the fuck to sleep.â
That was several weeks ago.Â
Now, you find yourself stranded in another state thatâs more green and vibrant than anything youâre familiar with, stuck with a man who refuses to answer the questions you throw at him. He doesnât talk outside a few cursory words you greedily latch onto. Anythingâs better than silence and the sound of hooves hitting earth.Â
The pace he keeps you at is exhausting. You complain about it enough until he moves you in front of him, tying your hands to the saddle's horn.
âI would strongly advise you to shut that mouth for the rest of the ride unless you want me to do something about that, too.â The low growl of his voice in your ear makes the fine hairs on the back of your neck stand up, muddling your brain.
Youâre distantly aware you had something to say to that, but you donât.Â
And that is really saying something.
Itâs because thereâs someone he needs to meet in townâan errand that lawbreakers who run their mouths arenât allowed to go on.
This is how you end up sitting in camp alone, twirling around a knife he gave you solely for emergencies.Â
(Surprise, sharp and quick through your middle, when he tosses his pocket knife into the grass beside you. âWhatâs to stop me from leaving?â
You couldâve sworn he rolled his eyes. âWill you?â
It doesnât seem worth dignifying with a reply. You donât want to travel alone, and thereâs a high possibility of getting lost, finding yourself saddled up with worse company than the one youâre stuck with.
Until he evidently catches you again.)
Heâs a lot nicer than you first gave him credit forâif only by a fractionânot that you know much about Simon other than what you overheard from gossip circles before you became Mrs. Thornton. Afternoons spent sipping tea laden with honey and lounging around a table full of cakes in the sun parlor while wealthy women talked behind their lace-covered hands to hide secret smiles you were too naive to understand.Â
Trying not to stare at the bulge of his arms with thin pink scarsâunlike the men youâre used to who got through life with a silver spoon hanging from their mouthâas he places his saddle back on his horse, you think you finally know what they smiled about.
You learn those scars also litter his torso from the time you accidentally walked upon him mid-way through putting his trousers on after washing in the river. Itâd been too dark for you to see much else, and you quickly returned to camp before he could say something that would embarrass you both.Â
Then, of course, tucked away into your bedroll, you canât help wondering what the rest of him would have looked like if you had stayed a second longer.Â
If his jaw is sharp or soft behind that mask he insists on wearingâthatâs if heâd let you see at all.Â
Simonâs always so serious that itâs often hard to determine whether heâs merely tolerating your existence until he can get rid of you or if heâs unused to traveling accompanied for so long. Itâs not as if he goes out of his way to make pleasant conversation with you for you to assume otherwise.
You look off in the direction where he disappeared into the dense line of trees hours ago, wondering if you should go out looking for him (mainly because youâre hot and sticky from the humidity) despite his order to stay put.Â
But after four hours turns into five, you head off, searching for something to help cool you off.
Luckily, unlike the heavily eroded lands youâre used to, there isnât any water shortage in a place that sees rain three times a day, so it doesnât take long to find a lake. You set your knife down on the stone-covered beach, followed by your boots, until youâre left in nothing but your undergarments.Â
The water is icy cold and laps gently at your feet when you step in. You canât find it in you to complain as the heat from the day slowly washes away the further you walk in and find a wide ledge to sit on.Â
Your thoughts drift back to Simon, incessant and intruding even though you shouldnât be thinking about him while wet and naked. And suddenly, you can picture it: his hands replacing yours as they trace along your neck. You have a feeling theyâre probably rough and scarred from years of living hard and gunslinging, extracting the readily available knowledge that theyâre big enough to encase your waist.
He could maneuver you around however he wants (you know this), and you feel dizzy just thinking about it.
Sighing, you sink deeper into the water while your hands smooth over the tips of your breasts and down your stomach.Â
You wish you could see him without violating whatever personal preservations hide him from the rest of the world. Instead, youâre left with your imaginationâthe benefits of being a married woman and the little experience you have in the bedroom finally coming into play.Â
Closing your eyes, you picture what he might look like under those sun-weathered leathers, knowing that the broadness of his shoulders isnât only due to his vest and holsters but also from how his job has shaped him.
Your hands travel lower, fingers brushing through the creamy, soft wetness between your legs, evidence of what Simon does to you even when heâs not around. A moan, too high and breathy, slips past your lips as you use your middle finger to circle your clit in slow, clumsy swirls from lack of practice and patience that spreads warmth through your middle despite the cold water.Â
Itâs good, your fingers discovering places your husband always ignoredâtoo many nights spent with your hand under your nightgown long after heâd tucked his cock away and gone to sleepâbut probably donât compare to the ones youâve caught yourself staring at far too many times.Â
They donât fill you nearly enough, unlike how you know Simonâs wouldâthick and unrelenting. Rough and long, reaching deep enough to make you breathless.
Your breath hitches from pinching the tight, sensitive peak of your nipple until you feel a slight sting, and then it slips out, a tiny thing thatâs only audible to your earsâSimonâa secret you now share with the lightning bugs and crickets.
âDirty, no good rottenââ heâd tell you for thinking such lewd thoughts about him, for sinning so easily. Maybe you are, for getting so worked up over a man who isnât your husband (no matter how terrible a husband he may be).
A man whoâs so big that he makes you feel small, the type that gives before he takes. Itâs enough to make you work your hand fasterâyour body vibrating from the chill of the water and the ache between your trembling thighs. Â
Fantasies arenât enough to sate the deep longing in your chest. Yet youâre slipping over the edge of ecstasy before taking your next breathâall of it builds up and gradually crests inside you like the lake rippling against the shore.
Afterward, it leaves you feeling soft and blurred around the edges, a watercolor painting drying under the sun while you wait for your rapid heartbeat to slow.
You donât realize your eyes have fallen shut until they flutter open, and youâre startled to find Simon standing at the shoreline, his chest heaving as if he ran here.Â
(Though he probably did to see if you took the opportunity to leave.)
Youâre glued to your spot on the rock, suddenly struck with the mortifying realization that heâd seen you comeâthat he possibly heard you cry out his name so intimately.
You watch him remove his hat and hang it on a branch with wide eyes. Followed by his undershirt, guns, andâ
He keeps removing clothes until heâs completely naked on the shoreâaside from his face that stays hiddenâscars marred his chest, spreading to his collarbones and below the water as he steps into the lake and sits on another ledge across from you.
His mask makes him look more menacing, erasing any trace of softness there. And you wonder if heâs angry at you for wandering off.
"Come here." His voice is low and deep, rumbling in his chest.
You don't think he'd hurt you. If he wanted to, he would have done it by now.
At least, thatâs what youâre going with to settle the nervous fluttering in your middle.
Water laps at your arms as you wade through the water, each shaky step bringing you closer until you stop before him.
"In my lap."
Your breath sticks in your throat as you do as he says, settling down onto his sturdy thighs, palms falling flat against his broad chest. That same breath comes out in one large exhale as his fingers slide along your jaw, to the nape of your neck, curling into your hair, wet and falling around your shoulders.
âLike this?â you ask, trying to ignore how breathy you sound.
He grunts, apparently in confirmation.
You donât think youâve ever felt so conflicted in your lifeâfear and arousal turning into a messy cocktail in your veins.
âWhy do I always have to use a heavy hand to make you listen?â
Your lips part. Breath growing short. âIâm sorry.â
And thenâ
Simon pulls your head back sharply, exposing your throat.
Your body goes slack against his. Mind blissfully blank.
âNo,â he says, tone flat. âBut you will be.â
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Hii. I couldnât get reid and lila kissing episode out of my mind lol, can i request a fic with spencer getting interrupted (/kissed) while heâs rambling about something that annoyed him at work.. heâs so annoyed that he just keep talking but also keep kissing the reader back everytime until heâs just âwait why r u kissing me rn im literally so annoyed????â but then he continues kissing her anyway lol. You can write however you want though! Love your fics so muuuuch!!!!!
i think about that scene at least twice a week (my roman empire tbh)
warnings: kithing
Spencer paced the length of your living room, his hands gesturing wildly as he ranted about whatever had set him off at work that day. ââAnd can you believe they didnât cross-check the fingerprints before starting the entire interview process? Itâs such a basic step in protocol. I mean, we wasted hours, hours, running in circles!â
You watched him, nodding sympathetically from your spot on the couch, though you could hardly get a word in between his breathless, frustrated tirade. He was adorable like this, completely wrapped up in his thoughts, even when he was annoyed. His brow furrowed, lips moving a mile a minute as he laid out every little detail of the day that had irritated him to no end.
ââŚItâs not even like itâs the first time, either! Youâd think after all this time working together, weâd have this stuff down, but no, apparentlyââ
He paused as you stood up and crossed the room to where he was pacing. You had this urge to just... kiss him, mid-rant, to break through that whirlwind of frustration. Spencer glanced at you but didnât stop talking. ââapparently, no one knows how to follow through with the simplest procedures anymore, and itâs not like Iâmâ"
Before he could finish, you cupped his face in your hands and pressed your lips to his, cutting off his next string of words. For a second, Spencer froze, mid-sentence, but then his lips moved instinctively, kissing you back without missing a beat.
You pulled back slightly, but his brain hadnât quite caught up yet, and he kept talking. ââasking for perfection, just a littleââ
You kissed him again.
This time, he melted a bit, his hands instinctively coming to rest on your waist. But just as you thought you had him completely, he pulled back, blinking, still distracted by the cloud of irritation hanging over him. âWait, why are you kissing me right now?â
You grinned, biting back a laugh. âMaybe I thought kissing you might help.â
Spencer blinked at you again, clearly processing this new development. âHelp... with what?â
âWith getting you to stop ranting and relax for two seconds,â you teased, your hands still resting on his chest. âYou were getting worked up, so I thought maybe Iâd try to calm you down a bit.â
His frown deepened for a second, like he was trying to figure out whether or not he should continue being annoyed, but then he sighed. âI mean, Iâm still frustrated about it, butâŚâ
You leaned in, kissing him again, cutting him off before he could dive back into his complaints. He groaned softly, his hands slipping to your back, and after a moment, he gave in, his lips soft and warm against yours.
But then he pulled away again, furrowing his brows. âI really shouldnât be kissing you right now. Iâm so irritated.â
âMm-hmm,â you murmured, pressing your lips to his again, and this time, he didnât pull back.
He kissed you deeply, hands gripping your waist now, his frustration slowly ebbing away as he lost himself in the warmth of your embrace. When you finally broke apart, he sighed, resting his forehead against yours.
âOkay,â he said quietly, his tone much calmer now. âThat... kind of worked.â
You grinned. âI told you it would.â
He huffed a soft laugh, brushing a strand of hair from your face. âYou really know how to distract me, you know that?â
âAnytime youâre annoyed,â you whispered, trailing a finger down his chest, âIâll be here to help.â
Spencer gave you a small, amused smile, finally letting go of the frustration heâd carried with him all evening. âOkay. I think Iâm officially done being annoyed.â
âGood,â you teased, leaning in for one last kiss. âNow, what were you saying?â
He shook his head, smiling against your lips. âI donât even remember.â
And with that, the conversation shifted into something far more pleasant than his earlier rambling, Spencer finally letting go of the dayâs annoyances, and choosing to focus on you instead.
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I just got really inspired soo...here we go!
my first multi-jjk men-mega-drabble huhuhu
I didn't include their names specifically in each drabble in case you want to think of someone else maybe :^) these are just some of my headcannons!
puuuuhh I usually write all of my stuff in one sitting, but I actually wrote this over the span of a few days the brain juices were flowing I really got into it, they turned out way longer than I anticipated, but anyway without further ado hope you enjoy
-characters aged up as needed we know the drill-
TW: dacryphilia, degradation, name calling/pet names, bitch, slut, good girl, honey, sweetheart, babe, baby, blowjob, a smidge of angst, comfort, impact play, oral m&f receiving, doggy, mating press, multiple positions, riding, missionary, choking, safe words, overstimulation, lmk if I forgot anything!!
âĄfeaturing: toji, geto, gojo, choso, nanami, yuji, megumiâĄ
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JJk Men making you cry during Sex
fushiguro toji
"Dumb bitch, can't even suck my cock right.", he scoffed and pulled your hair even tighter.
Endure it. Whats up with you today you're usually so into this, but today his words were hitting too close to home. You could feel tears gather and saliva drip onto your sore thighs.
"Damn are you crying? Are you serious?", he laughed. "Does sucking my cock get you off so much? Here take this."
He pulls your face flush against his stomach, with too much force making you gag and shut your eyes.
You tapped his thighs three times ending it with a scratch, your safe word.
"Oh fuck I-"
He cussed before you let out a deep sob covering your face with your shaking hands. You felt so embarassed, runny nose and saliva dripping down your chin.
"Shit, come here." he reached out to you, but you pulled away as soon as his fingers grazed your shoulders. your throat was burning, voice hoarse while you continued crying.
"Y/N."
Hearing your name snapped you out of your distraught state, finally looking at him. He was sitting across from you, one arm spread out while the other was patting his lap signalling for you to come and sit on it. You took a few deep breaths, wiping your face and finally allowing yourself to fall in his embrace.
"Was that too much?"
"I've just been really stressed lately, I thought this would take my mind off of things but i guess I made it worse.", you sighed.
You distracted yourself with playing with his rough palm and thick finders while he continued.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I dunno...", you trailed off when he interlocked your fingers
"Hey, look at me.", he pulled your chin up. "I know I'm usually pretty mean and strict, but I'm not a monster, you know. You can tell me stuff like that. I don't mind vanilla once in a while.", he smirked down at you
"Pft!", was what left your mouth before you elbowed him. "That's good to know. I just didn't want to look weak and sensitive in front of you..."
"That's nothing new you know? I know that in comparison to me you're way- OW"
"Alright, alright mister that's enough. You've cheered me up, don't push it.", you grimaced while pulling his cheeks.
"Yesh, ma'am.", he grinned,bringing his hand to his forehead in a salute.
You let out a sigh. "Just shut up and hold me a bit more.... ", you said while nuzzling your face in his neck
He didn't say another word and just kissed the top of your head, wrapping his strong arms around you.
You got to see a new side to your boyfriend today and it wasn't half bad. You could get used to this soft and caring persona of his.
geto suguru
He's been going at it for what feels like hours. He has eaten you out in every position imaginable. From face sitting to eating you out fron the back he's done it all today. But right now he had you spread out on the bed with your legs draped over his broad shoulders. The way his eyes were eating you up, had you constantly squirm away. The hand that was splayed over your tummy kept you in place, however. Between thrusting his fingers he kept littering your sensitive thighs with bites and sucks.
You were huffing his name, hair sticking to your sweaty forehead. You looked incredibly attractive to him, the way you were offering your whole body to him. He was getting off to that as much as you were getting off on his tongue and fingers.
Each orgasm that washed over you felt more intense than the previous one. As you were nearing the nth one this night you began smooshing your cunt into his face more aggressively and pulling his hair making him groan. Your squishy thighs felt heavenly around his head and he thought that getting smothered to death would be a fine way to go.
You were starting to sob, tears collecting at your cheeks, making him look up at you. When he was about to pull away and ask if you were okay you pulled him back against you.
"I said don't stop fuuuck!", you whined.
Eyes teary lips bitten swollen, you looked so messy and he knew that making you cry was his new kink. So he just smirked, licked his lips and finger fucked you through another orgasm.
"Fuck fuck fuck!!", your eyes shot open.
When he pulled away he grinned with his tongue sticking out. "Don't worry, we'll he here all night, sweetheart. Cum as much as you want.", he whispered biting along your thigh and kissing your ankle.
gojo satoru
When you first suggested role play he was oddly enthusiastic about it. He became hesitant when you mentioned spanking.
"Wait, babe, are you sure about that?"
"I can take it, you're not that strong.", you rolled your eyes. "And be as nasty and mean as you can. You can do that for me right, big boy?"
"Don't come crying to me later, missy."
The start was good you were taking your punishment well. He was pounding away from behind, pulling your hair in between mean spanks to your reddening cheeks. You were challenging him between every thrust and spank. He was getting ded up with you but tried to stay composed.
"That's all you got?", you mocked. Now he's had it, So he started hitting your thighs and going inwards.
"Wait hold on what are you-? Ah-", you yelped shortly after earning yourself a mean slap to your pussy for all the mockery.
"What's up princess? All that big talk just to look this pathetic.", his words were getting to you way more than you had expected.
"We din't talk about this, asshole ow-", you tried to stay strong.
"Just shut up and take it."
Those words broke the dam and your tears came spilling from your eyes and onto the pillows beneath you. At first he didn't realise those were bad tears as he teased you, "You cryin? C'mon big girls dont cry,? he thought it was part of your role play so he landed another harsh slap on your ass cheek, it stung and you lost it.
"STOP fuck no more...please. I get it. I give up."
"Babe are you alright? Shit. Hey, hey, c'mere.", he turned you around, holding you up by the waist.
As he was wiping away your tears he spoke, "Now that we know you can't handle much. How about a safe word for the future? Maybe purple, hm?"
You didn't like his tone so you pulled his ear
"Aaahhh purple purple", he giggled.
"No, it'll lose meaning if you just say it like that. And just so you know, I'm not weak, you're just way too strong.", you shot him a glare.
"Sorry sorry.", he put his arms up in defeat. After a few soft kisses and hugs he spoke up again.
"Have you calmed down? Wanna go again?", he dared to ask wiggling his eyebrows, which only earned him a slap across his chest
"PURPLE!" he panicked.
"SHUT UP!!!"
choso kamo
From the first time he got to hug you he became painfully aware of the obvious size difference between the two of you. And since then he became deathly afraid of accidentally hurting you. He always tried to controll his strength around you, especially during sex when he bends you however he pleases and pushed you into positions you didn't know you could assume.
He was a gentle giant, however, so imagine his shock when you suggested that he should hurt you on purpose. You know, be a little mean play rough.
"Are you out of your mind?"
"Pleeaasee, I know you're always holding back I wanna know how strong you really are.", you purred, sliding a finger across his clothed chest.
"I can't be mean to you.", he dead panned.
"Why not? You're mean to people all the time.", you blinked up at him.
Well, I actually care about you.", he thought to himself but soon gave in to your begging.
Fine, I'll try. But tell me if it gets too much.
"Yaay!! Thanks.", you stood on your tippie toes to peck his cheek.
That's how you found yourself riding him like there was no tomorrow. His cock was hitting you so deliciously deep you were starting to lose your mind. The slaps you asked to give you across your face were lighter than you'd like but beggars can't be choosers. And when he first spanked you, you could feel tears sting your eyes.
He took notice and slowed down his pace.
"Nooo mmh I like it, please, you shook your head, desperately rolling your hips into him.
"Baby look at me? You're crying!! Does it hurt, let's stop, c'mon."
"No not at all, i love it...it feel so ah good. I can feel you all the way up here. Mmh don't stop.", you mewled while pulling his hand to press against your tummy.
Fuck the sight of your pink cheeks and teary eyes did turn him on. It was making him crazy actually.
"Fuck, you have to take responsibility for being so fucking hot.", he growled and you received your long awaited hard spanks.
"Yes, hit me some more, please<3", he swore he saw hearts in your eyes. "Be mean, call me names."
"You slut...", he tried and that had your toes curl and eyes roll back
"Yeah, I'm your fucking slut, just for you. Give it to me more.", you pulled his hand to your mouth to suck on his thick fingers. After placing them on your tits he gave tem a few pinches before grabbing handfulls of your ass. Meanwhile you pressed your chest against his face, essentially drowning him in your swollen tits. You swore you came one step closer to heaven with each thrust against your cervix.
nanami kento
You were currently folded in half with your husband thrusting away at your cunt. You two were practically sticking to each other at this point. He lifted your hips up, putting your feet on his shoulders and holding your legs in place with a strong arm. The new angle made you see stars. After a few thrusts he brought his thick fingers to your swollen clit. The speed of his hips was brutal and the circles he was rubbing with his fingers felt almost painful.
"Wait if you keep that up I'm gonna- oh fuck", you gasped eyes blown wide open.
"Well, that's the whole point honey.", he mused kissing your ankle.
As he continued his ministrations you came with a loud sob, shaking when he kept playing with your clit.
"Shit, no more pleaseee", you tried grabbing his hand, tears collecting at the corners of your eyes.
He only stopped when he saw you cover your face with shaky hands. That was when he finally set your legs down and kissed your hands
"Hey, don't hide. Look at me."
"N-no, I don't want you to see me in such a pathetic state", you cried and tried to squirm away from his burning gaze.
You heard a low chuckle rumble through his chest before he grabbed your hands with one of his, pinning them above your head. He leaned down and caught your lips in a hungry kiss.
"How could you ever look pathetic to me. Do you understand how perfect you look beneath me, hm?" I know that you want to go again.", he mused kissing away your tears abd letting go of your hands.
You gave him a weak nod, slinging your arms around his neck and pulling him close.
"Don't worry. This time I'll make you feel even better.", he whispered against your neck before starting to roll his hips into you once more.
itadori yuji
Earlier he was boasting to you that he has been researching how to choke someone the right way. And at first it felt just right, but once he got more and more into snapping his hips into you, low groans leaving his lips, his grip changed. Instead of light pressure that was making your head spin just right, he was almost completely cutting off your airway now.
You tried to adjust in his grip in between high pitched moans and mewls leaving your mouth at how he bullied himself inside you. But to no avail, he just added a second hand. Once you were getting dizzy you tried to mutter your safe word.
"Pine-"
"Pain? You like that, huh? Wow baby I don't now you were such a masochist."
He squeezed you even harder. Your eyes shot open, tears spilling out as you clawed at this firm hand around your neck. You could barely talk.
"PINEAPPLE!", you finally managed to shriek.
His hips immediately came to a halt, pulling out and detaching his huge palms from your neck. he could clearly see the red fingerprints he left behind
"Baby! My god, I'm so sorry are you okay-?"
A loud cough left your mouth, shutting him up. You took a few deep breaths, panic written all over your face and you tried to smooth over the sore area. At first you didn't even notice the tears that kept falling from your eyes, you were to focused to catch your breath again.
He was shocked and so disappointed in himself. He actually hurt you even after all his research.
When you continued to rub your neck, small "ows" left your mouth and that snapped him out of it. He laid down and reached his arms out. you immediately fell into his embrace.
"Sh sh its okay you're safe I'm so sorry", he reassured while gently stroking your hair. You were still shaking but your breathing soon evened out. Your ear was pressed against his chest and you could hear his heart hammering like crazy. A stark contrast to his composed, soothing voice. Must've been shocking to him as well, you thought to yourself before speaking up.
"Yes I'm fine, thank you.", you looked up and pecked his lips.
"Let's never do this again.", he mumbled while squeezing you flush against him.
"No, I did like it at first. You just have to be more careful next time. And please just stick to one hand. One is plenty, you're too strong for your own good.", you chuckled while rubbing your nose against his.
He just hummed and kissed your forehead.
"C'mon, let's get you cleaned up.", he said while sitting up pulling you with him. Before he stood up he grabbed your hand and kissed your knuckles with a soft smile on his face.
fushiguro megumi
You've been dating for a few months now, but the furthest you have gone was a few gentle pecks and light groping. Each time you wanted to take things further, he found an excuse. Until the day came that he invited you over to his.
You were sat on his lap on his bed across while he licked at lour neck and groped your tits. His cock was hitting your cervix with every squirm of your hips. He told you to stay still but it was growing increasingly difficult with each teasing motion.
It was when he moved one of his hands from your breast down to between your legs, that you felt tears swell up.
"What's wrong? You don't like it?"
"No, I love it. It's just I've liked you so much for such a long time. I'm just so happy right now, so don't mind me.", you mumbled, squeezing your eyes together.
"You're so wet for me baby. Do my fingers feel that good hm? Just look at yourself in the mirror."
"Mmh noo it's embarassing", you whined as his fingers sped up.
"Do it for me. Now."
How could you say no to him, when he spoke with that tone and with how his fingers were working wonders. So you reluctantly opened your eyes and saw him staring right back at you.
"Atta girl.", and with those words he began rocking you up and down on his lap. You were so loud and expressive, he loved every second of it.
"Good girl, tell me, who's fucking you so good right now?
"Mmhh, you do. Ah, so good, please don't stop."
Instead of speeding up he pushed your hips down keeping you in place and making you sob. "Beg some more", he huffed while he licked up your neck and dug his teeth into your shoulder.
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