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It's the way that in every mv him with the scar got killed by him without it but not this time... This time his past self was running to try and save his future self
#does this makes any sense? idk ever since i've seen it my brain hasn't been able to form a coherent thought and write it down exactly#as it is#maybe that's how it's supposed to be because it's this personal..#so i kinda don't even want to try overthink it nor try to connect the dots#i'm just letting it be because even like that it's something i never would've expected#for a song personal as this to get a mv#and the said mv being so personal too#he just never fails to amaze me and that sounds so cliche i know because so many people say it about so many other people but it's true#he's been through way too much and he really gets it#all the pain struggles destructive thoughts and loneliness#and he takes all of those negative emotions to turn them around into comfort for the others#in telling you that you are not alone#and as long as he's around you never will be#ugh i feel like i could talk about him and this song and its music video for hours but like i said i'm not really able to express myself#that well right now so i'll probably just go on and on in circles and ramble#idk i'll probably delete this later anyway#i just felt like saying this now#agust d#amygdala
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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Edwin after the confession is a menace
Bonus Charles being normal about it:

#payneland#edwin x charles#dead boy detectives#dbda#give a man a warning Edwin smh#what is he doing anyway? is it on purpose? he just can't help himself now thta he accepted his feelings? he just likes saying it?#not even he know methinks#honestly charles should hear how loved he is often#i think edwin would agree#also I think it would be funny if they had to deal with a specific kind of creature at least once a year#i picked the church grim because there truly are a lot of stories about them#and it felt fitting
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Birds of a Feather previous / next
#my art#feralnette au#birds of a feather#long tags#sorry I went apeshit in the tags#LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW#I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO#its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical#and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread#as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational#in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away#and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do#shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again#legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it#but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings#alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird#she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her#knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself#between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot#and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo#essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that#busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way#to show her she's self sabotaging#cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD
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Trump survived. Here's what will happen.
Every media, news outlet will be showing this photo. Not of a convicted felon who was impeached, who summoned violent terrorists to the white house, who sexually assaulted many women, but of a survivor, a hero.

And Trump will win 2024. The Alt Right and his MAGA supporters will see this and be more motivated than ever to vote Trump. Centrists will see this and think "the left is so much more extreme than the right" and vote Trump. Fuck, even liberals, after seeing Bidens disastrous debate performance might vote trump. In their eyes, he's a survivor now, he's strong now, he's worthy now. If you don't believe me, wait and see the top comments of news articles, the Reddit posts, the twitter quote tweets.
It isn't if Trump wins, it's when Trump wins, Ukraine is Fucked. Palestine is extra Fucked. And of course, America is absolutely Fucked.
I don't like Biden, but Americans have to remember: you live in a two-party system.
It is Biden or Trump.
And I'd much much rather an old husk of a man that has done so much good for trans rights, social policies, and human rights in general, than Trump. Yes, Biden has sent aids to Israel. Do you think Trump won't do the same? Do you think Trump won't do worse?
"Vote for a third party, they're both awful" you might say. Come on, be realistic. This is about holding the line against fascism. It is going to be way WAY easier to change the system when you're up against milk toast Joe than an actual dictator. So,
For the love of god, vote Biden in Novermber.
#supernatural#donald trump#joe biden#2024 presidential election#us politics#destiel#im aware that posting on tumblr wont help much#but i felt like saying something. a stark warning perhaps#i get the celebrating and honestly i find it amusing too but this is such a critical moment to be serious and attentive#speak to your relatives if you can#or post this on other socials#you can even copy and paste this i dont care about credit#i just am very very afraid. trump winning is so much more than probable now
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there's something so incredibly sweet about how many times davrin notes in his journal that talking to rook helped him with something. he keeps bringing them out to touch grass and gaze at nugs out in the woods with him which I think must be very good for them, and their company clearly helps him work through and get more clarity on things he's been stuck on emotionally. it's just kind of lovely and a great little nuance in that relationship.
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#davrin#now picture davrin shaking rye by the shoulders (gently lifting him off the ground in the process thanks to the height difference)#and lovingly yelling 'ALLOW ME TO PROTECT AND CARE FOR YOU BACK OR SO HELP ME YOU LITTLE SHIT!!'#and that's basically their late-game dynamic fhsdja#rye spends an embarrassingly long time genuinely believing that davrin thinks he's an idiot. self-worth so abysmal#he cannot pick up on the myriad context clues that this is perhaps Not the case and that davrin in fact trusts him so deeply#it finally clicks literally only in the moment when davrin asks him to help decide the future of the griffons. y'know. we got there#it was kind of embarrassing for everyone involved but the realization did dawn finally lmao#just got to the post weisshaupt talk with him on this playthrough and I am In Agony#also when he says 'make it count I can only die once' and it felt like a knife in the gut! fun times. video games are fun
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a well deserved rest
my secret santa gift for @onlyyouexisthere ✨ i hope you enjoy this drawing of winters having a little break, which we could all use
#my art#hbowarsanta24#band of brothers#hbo war#richard winters#dick winters#u mentioned liking the little scenes of the guys relaxing or laughing#so choosing a moment from the end of the war felt appropriate#i was going for something peaceful…… so here is winters having a little moment of quiet to himself#i was inspired by an old recolored pic of the guys from easy in berchtesgaden#and i realize now this makes it look like winters draw all that wine but i promise he’s just having coffee#let’s say nix or some other guys were just with him lol#also i listened to the Sing Movie (animated animal movie) version of golden slumbers/carry that weight#for the last like 3 hours of working on this thing. that isn’t relevant to anything but feels worth mentioning#for vibes maybe#but anywayyyyyyy HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!#i hope it is restful and brings some peace!!!!
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I really enjoy the idea of Godpoke just straight up not buying Inspekta's shit
#i see some interpretations of godpoke liking inspekta and i get them and think they're rrly neat dont get me wrong#but i think this is really funny and also thats just how i felt through the first playthrough#i mean godpoke IS told MORE THAN ONCE to sit back and let the bizzyboys do their job and does the opposite like. immediately#i also think about the fact that godpoke really doesnt say anything other than what they get through megapon + some nods&shakes#meanwhile inspekta is described as 'not a good listener' and as 'putting words in your mouth' in the artbook#so i like the idea of inspekta doing all these monologues at godpoke and like the artbook said putting words in their mouth and they just-#-kinda stand there & rarely object but in their mind its just 'yeah whatever specter boy can you let me get back to my godpoking now'#fanart#great god grove#ggg#inspekta#godpoke
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hey everyone - i know there’s a lot going on in the world right now, a lot of causes that need support and visibility now more than ever.
i’d like to take an opportunity to highlight a cause that’s very literally close to home for me: i live very, very close to springfield, ohio. the haitian community there has always needed help and support but now, with white supremacist rhetoric and bold faced lies being circulated nationally, with threats of violence and heightened ignorance being more common than ever, they need it perhaps more than they ever have.
there has been a lot of hate since trump and his little bootlicker attack dog jd vance have started this shit, but there’s also been an outpouring of love and community outreach in the weeks since springfield was thrust into the worst kind of spotlight.
the hatian community support and help center has been invaluable in helping hatian refugees get what they need to start a new life here. they are headed by a team of haitian immigrants that are personally familiar with what their fellow immigrants need. they have been instrumental in keeping their community from falling through the cracks.
i’m humbly asking, if any of you can - please, please consider donating to the HCSHC. every bit helps. and if you can’t donate, please, please share this around. if you’ve ever reblogged one of my posts or found them funny, if you’ve ever scrolled through and liked and reblogged what i’ve put here, i implore you to share this too. this is a very personal cause for me; i want to see these people who are new here, who enrich our community but are met with too much derision and spite, receive the help, respect, and dignity they deserve.
#haiti#springfield#donate#signal boost#yes i’m tagging that stuff because i’m hoping it helps#i’m so serious when i say this is personal for me.#springfield and the cities/towns surrounding it have all felt the heavy gaze of the nation resting on us#there’s been both so much hope and love but also so much hate and violence#it’s been. emotional. i can’t imagine what it’s like being a haitian refugee here right now#please please give if you can. they need our help and deserve our time and respect.#fleeing violence and fear just to be thrown into a different kind of violence and fear…#no one deserves that. we can better better than that.
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my stages of watching columbo
1: hahah hes just a silly detective ;)
2: columbo is actually a cunning manipulative liar that hides his true persona behind the facade of a slow and clumsy middle class detective
3: hahah hes just a silly detective ;)
#columbo#when i was watching for the first time I used to analyze these things a lot#and columbos character always struck me like an unsolved puzzle#cause you cant never say what goes on in his head#but as the show kept going you notice that hes not ill intentioned at all#and he does enjoy befriending his suspects and knowing them#although i do think he lies a lot he doesn't do it to “trick” them#but to create intimacy and get to know them better#he actually thinks they deserved to be treated with respect and considers it fun#its kinda rare to a character writing be this consistent#the moments i felt “this doesnt sound like him at all...” were almost nonexistent#well im just babbling around now
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when payneland eventually gets together i fully believe they date for one week and then send out the wedding invitations
#like they are CONSTANTLY talking about how they have forever together and how they want to be together for the rest of time#i know charles would suddenly go ‘lets get married’ and edwin would be like ‘oh yeah thats legal now well off we pop’#cause that man can never say no to charles#and he never wants to anyway#seriously though i think everyone else would view it as such a big deal#but the boys would just see it as a piece of paper proving how they’ve felt about eachother since they MET#yes charles frames their marriage certificate and puts it behind the desk#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective netflix#dead boy detective agency#edwin payne#edwin paine#charles rowland#payneland
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listen, now that everything is said and done i'm going to say something i've been thinking but not outright saying for the past nearly four years. frankly, imogen and laudna's relationship is a pale shadow of caleb and veth's and if you really sit and think about it, it's outright embarrassing for the former party. it's like if you saw a beautiful piece of art and tried to emulate it and then the only thing you managed to jot down that was the same was the basic shape and you never added any color when the color was the most important part. imogen and laudna's relationship is formed out of almost the exact same origins (troubled mage who needs to keep a distance from regular society joins up with monstrous misfit with a traumatic backstory and become each other's most important person while traveling place-to-place because they keep getting into trouble in cities). the difference is, genuinely, how much more colorful and lived in caleb and veth's story feels. they met in a podunk county jail and worked together to break out of the place, stayed together for practical reasons (straight-up survival) and then out of genuine friendship. they were hobos in the woods together. they cuddled on the side of the roads on cold nights together. they were genuinely each other's sole lifeline because they were the type of people no one in the world cared about in a very real, visceral way. they were also con artists, and sam and liam worked together to come up with an entire booklet of different cons they used to survive, which come into play surprisingly often during the campaign (Modern Literature, famously, but also Mother's Love and Money Pot featured).
comparatively, we know next to nothing about what imogen and laudna's lives looked like after leaving gelvaan, and the Incident™️ that sent them running in the first place remains amorphous and random no matter how many times the story is told or whatever extra details get added. the people of gelvaan found laudna to be a generically threatening presence (because of her fun-scary appearance and/or kooky-fun-scary behavior) and picked up their torches and pitchforks to run her out of town. imogen heard her thoughts and found them so beautiful she nearly killed two of the townspeople she grew up with the defend her and then they fled into the night together. and that's it. what did they do for two entire years after that? i don't know! neither do you. they don't appear to have struggled for money like caleb and veth did, there's no reference to hard-living, no real reference to what jobs they took to stay afloat, no mention of the practical realities of living as homeless nomads, no mention of towns and cities they'd visited and how those places impacted them. nothing. empty. no color. how did their relationship develop? also don't know! they seem to have slotted together perfectly as friends with no conflict for years before slotting together perfectly as lovers while batting aside all attempts at conflict later. done and dusted, that's the relationship, and people have the gall to call caleb and veth's successor relationship 'soulmatism' when it doesn't hold a candle to what the original offered.
which was, to be clear, endless complexity. i can't tell you how to define it, and i don't think the character's themselves could define it if they tried. sam went into the campaign intending to lean into a familial relationship and quickly realized that wasn't the vibe, course-corrected into veth having a crush on caleb--something sam has said developed fairly early in the campaign.* liam went into the relationship not intending to care about her nearly as much as he ended up doing, then spent the early campaign eps grappling with just how suddenly important she was to him, to the point that, in the face of her potentially dying in episode 20, liam says to sam, "do you want to make my character turn evil already?"** both were surprised at how tightly their characters clung to each other, and developed a deeply caring, highly insular dynamic where they were suspicious of outsiders and desperately guarded each other. with full retrospect, both went into the relationship intending to use each other (caleb for general usefulness/protection and veth, obviously, hoping caleb could change her back one day), then found such deep and tender care that they became each other's worlds. for a time. until nott became veth and veth had a husband and it sent their relationship into a tailspin because no matter how you frame the relationship, caleb clearly felt his feelings for her and the way they behaved together stepped over the line of how one should act with a married woman. after that, he is terrified of the idea that he might not have a place in her life and works so hard to create opportunities to insinuate himself into her present and future (teleportation spells so she can travel home quickly and still return to the group, making room for her family in the tower so she can stay with him, offering to tutor luc in magic to stay in her life, etc). veth gets her body and her life back but fears returning home will be lackluster compared to what she's experienced with the group, starts falling out of love with her husband, and has intense extra-martial feelings for caleb that are canonical. their relationship morphs and changes constantly throughout the campaign, and the one thing about their dynamic that never changes is how deeply and truly they love each other. you want to talk about soulmatism? them being the two party members with fake names who's real names share aspects of each other ("Bren" and "Brenatto") both from small-town dwendalian empire who's lives have been deeply impacted by meddling of the cerberus assembly (veth's in adulthood, caleb's in childhood) and who's deepest traumas are respectively fire and water does the trick for me.
so why is one so popular and the other, particularly as a romantic ship, very much is not? it would be obtuse of me not to immediately point to the fact that imogen and laudna are two pretty, skinny white women who claim to have deliciously little agency in their own stories and provide a blank enough canvas that the relationship can be whatever you want it to be. there's a reason there's so many AU fics for them, after all. caleb and veth on the other hand would center first a relationship between the handsome white fandom-popular sadboi and *checks notes* a self-described ugly, unfeminine goblin with deep neuroses and later a short, fat brown woman who also happens to be a young mother from a small country town. popular fandom, tragically, will almost always turn away from dealing with complexity of the latter for the empty calories of the former regardless of the quality gap between the two. if anything, watching the popularity of imogen and laudna's relationship has cemented my opinion that if veth had been different (either a man or a generically attractive white woman or someone more conventionally pretty just in general), widobrave would have been a massively popular ship, and i think it would have been regardless of veth's marriage. people can forgive a lot to write about their two generically attractive favorites getting together. they're a lot less forgiving for an ugly goblin or a fat, brown young mother, though.
tldr: reject modernity, embrace tradition. ship widobrave
*Talks Machina for C2E88, VOD no longer available, but a paraphrase of the quote can be found here **(2:09:30 on the YouTube VOD).
#this felt really good to say ngl#i've been holding that in for FOUR YEARS now#and honestly the quality gap only gets more obvious from rewatching early c2 like. holy shit you guys#anyway this is FAR from a complete discussion of the situation/comparisons between the two. i just really needed to say this finally#cr tag#long post
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Good news everyone i remembered how to draw cullen -- (please don’t tag/comment with your inquisitor, thanks)
#dragon age#dragon age: inquisition#cullavellan#shep'lan lavellan#cullen rutherford#felt' some muscle memory come back online as i went lol#hehehe cullen's fur mantle just gets bigger everytime i draw it = good problems XD#now i hear you saying “you only added that shep ft image so you could post them all on this side/account”-- to which i say “MAYBE" >8D#i like how they all look together i didnt wanna separate em across accounts TT ^ TT#but freal needed to do these as practice for future cullavellan draws >:3
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Day 1 (slightly belated): Once upon a time
feligami february 2025!
#feligami#feligami february 2025#ml representation#miraculous ladybug#So.#time to talk in the tags#i actually just wanted to make a little sketch to celebrate the start of the feligami month!#just a little redraw of the iconic feligami storytime . what could be easier#but then a devil on my shoulder says. what if we just make them out of paper. and masks too#and just make a silly little video where i pull the string and they open their faces. easy#but then just the vision of the string itself felt so Wrong. like. you know why. you know why.#and i started thinking about an alternative#and then accidentally spent an entire day crafting a crazy setup for filming these 15 seconds#and then spent an entire night trying to film it#so sorry I'm late! ahahahaha#i hope it looks fun because it was fun to make#my post#kagami tsurugi#felix graham de vanily#i know i won't be able to participate in most of the days 💔 but i have a big wip that i really like.. 🙏 excited to finish it#now i sleep#my art
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there's meta to be had about just how much of viktor's arc is about loneliness and the blatant visuals they use in his evolution about metamorphosis, butterflies, cocoons, in utero, etc, as he molts from a soft, vulnerable larva who keeps getting hurt in his bids for love and acceptance, into a hardened final form complete with an exoskeleton acting as both physical and emotional armor. a shield keeping his emotions in and the pain of loneliness and rejection out, until it's cracked and his humanity is forcefully exposed. like. sorry if it's just the entomologist in me but this was blatantly obvious the very first time i watched the show and I've been continually surprised that no one's really pointed this out. as a certified lonely person it struck such a deep cord with me, when he accepted his fate, his path ahead, to be one he'd have to walk alone, finally putting up that last seemingly impenetrable wall around his soft parts (but keeping the blanket, this signal that he never asked for this, and that he's not unreachable). So much of his s2 arc centered around not just his desire to right his wrongs and help the world, but to connect with others and not feel alone, both of which got twisted by the hexcore. His attempt to create a hivemind where no one would ever suffer loneliness or rejection or loss, and he would feel their souls with him as well (even though that was an illusion in the end, he truly believed it). The whole 'I now speak with all their voices' but he's just floating in an empty space. And for the consequence of the glorious evolution to be eternal solitude, it just drives home how that's the worst possible fate imaginable for Viktor.
#arcane#viktor arcane#jayvik#arcane meta#look i barely post analyses but i've been on a roll lately and i just wanna say i'm theorizing CONSTANTLY. i havent stopped for three month#i just havent posted it.#anyway i felt the need to say this one even in rough form because it's. such powerful imagery they use and yet barely anyone talks about it#given esp the canonical butterfly motifs used over and over and over#viktor's so fucking alone in the last year of his life. he shrinks in on himself. he's deeply hurt. getting rejected in the council room wa#like IT for him. the defeat when he finally gives up and gives in.#i just. bro. this is a big part of why i identify so strongly with viktor as a character because it's so much about his loneliness#i may clean this up and post an actual meta about it if i feel like it. this is really one of the most important parts of his arc imo#mage viktor leaving jayce down in that ravine. watching him but not intervening. in a way forcing jayce to experience his loneliness#idk how you watch that scene with The Line and Viktor standing alone after hex-Sky disappears and not get a knife through the heart#at feeling his utter soul-crushing loneliness#he's now alone in the astral plane. no one could understand him before because of what made him different#now he's alone again. no one can perceive him how he actually is. again and again no one sees him for who he is
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Casual touches between Sol and Sunjae 💛
LOVELY RUNNER - EPISODE 16
#lovely runner#kdramaedit#kdramadaily#kdramanetwork#userlab#my edits#if anyone is wondering why the colouring is kind of all over the place it's because:#a) i'm all over the place#and b) my computer crashed while i was in the middle of this set ghjfkg just started glitching out of nowhere#[ the out of nowhere is actually me having around 40 psd files opened :))))) ]#anyway i say casual touches because they're not the big kiss or the reunion or the proposal etc#but i love that we got so many this episode they really felt like a couple (grown up too)#and also i liked that sol initiated so many because a lot of kdramas tend to have their fl shy away from that#but they're both playful with it#ok i'm done giffing now sorry @my pc#byeon woo seok#kim hye yoon#this isn't even all of them btw 💜#mine: lovely runner
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