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holy shit it IS real I truly am so evrartpilled that my eyes skipped right past "fruity yet forbidden kisses". I really did not actually read any of that update huh. I actually hate that so fucking much fuck whoever wrote that
#wheres the post thats like we need to keep bringing back faggot bcus its the only word theyll never use to market to us#texticles#that being said i AM unfortunately having fun messing around & i know this is like THE most helpful thing imaginable for art regs#i cant TELL YOU how mucj time i spent scouring google image for decent ref of a charactwr & not finding them jusr to have tk like#scroll through some yourubwrs gameplay bcus my save file at the time was either#already past encountering the character or too far from it for me to go get a screenshot myself#but like. sigh.
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Is it allowed to fxck myself everyday with your delicious pretty cute lil kylar writing🥺 or should I be punished bc of too sinful?
WAAAAHHHHH THIS IS POSSIBLY THE MOST FLATTERING COMPLIMENT I'VE EVER RECIEVED ABOUT MY WRITING!!! tysm anon and no you should not be punished embrace the horny
#sigh i literally cant get aroused by ANY of my own writing...#i look at too long n find spelling mistakes n grammatical errors#then i sob because i jusr rewrote 2 paragraphs in my head instead of actually reading my own stuff#yeah...#hatkuuasks#kuuskylarposting
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what the hell does doomed by the narrative even mean. i know doomed by canon but i dont think thats the same thing. is this a real trope thats been used in media or are we fucking around i genuinely dont understand
#it frustrates me because I CANT FIND A SOLID DEFINITION#its jusr 'a character who was destined to die' ok??? all of them are because its the authors intention and they cant consciously object????
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my insurance hasnt been paying for my needles too bcuz even tho its the pharmacy that has fucked up now THREE TIMES giving me the wrong injection needles, insurance just reads it as ‘you are getting more needles when you dont need them’ even tho it wasnt MY fault and i couldnt even use 2/3 of the needles (the ones i have now i can technically use but Very difficult so its not sustainable, i am going to have to go thru this again sometime this week trying to find my old needles or getting my endo to order a dif kind that will Actually work). at least theyve been cheap
#im jusr sick of how fucking incompetent medical stuff around here is. no one can get their shit together#mysteriously no one can find a box of the needles i use ANYWHERE. i thought i was good today after being a the pharmacy for an hour#explaining to the pharmacist the specifications of my injections and what kind of needles i need and no this one wont work#these ones i have CAN work they r just difficult to inject into Myself and its hard to aspirate them cuz theres so much#plastic garbage all around the needle i literally cant see my own fucking syringe
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Finished the dark beyond the stars 🫡🫡🫡 get ready for the next book poll maybe with actual titles this time 😳
#Short review it was good and i liked it a lot#Long review it was rly good and i liked it a lot and its a good example of how sci fi is much more about humanity and our relationship to#Whatever the sci fi concept is than the sci fi concept itself#How do you believe in somethjgn you cant find but need to find how does that belief drive you at what point does determination#Become obsession#With aliens 👽 its like its like its how much is humanity unique how much is just a series of fortunate accidents are we just lucky? Are we#The only lucky ones? And when yoh remove a section of humans from humanity from the structure of society tm how do they act what cultures#Form what becomes important#Im very high right now if you cant tell am i making any sense like especially if you havent read the book i think thats a no but#Basically 10/10 but the epilogue was really silly but its allowed#Like the ending kind of? Pulls the same thjng 10 Cloverfield lane did if that makes sense?#weed mention#<- jusr in the tags but just in case o7
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truly in rhe worst headspace feeling out of my mind rn cause i socialized with people for an action and so many tjingd came up
#1 its really hard to be like 1 out of 2 fat people in a group of 25 like i did not miss this part of being fat when i was skinny lol#2 im just painfully boring to talk to i feel like i dont really know how to emote with my voice and so everything just sounds really flat#3 i dont really get a majority of jokes people make or i just dont find them funny and its really painful being the only person in the car n#not laughing or trying to pretend to laugh but its just an obvious fake laugh like i dont get jokes or references or i dont know enough abou#about life to know when things are funny or how to relate to them enough to know what the average reaction should be#so that comes back to point 2 where its just fucking boring as hell to talk to me because everything you tell me i jusr react with 'oh' or#if its a mundane thing i over react because im thinking thats how the average person would react to it but then i just sound strange#4 my ocd was going wild todau because i have intrusive thoughts about 'what if i believe (immoral thing)'#which really doesnt help me at an action for palestine because well im just questioning how i eben feel about it eben tho i know how i feel#anout it (positively$#like i just feel like everything i do is wrong#i feel so out of place in every situation no matter where i am#my body is too big and i just cant relate to the average person it seems like#my body isnt too big but when youre in a group where youre like one of the only bigger people ueah thats how it feels#and in a really cramped car#covid resllt ruined my social ability to relate to others and stuff i feel like im just a boring ugly ball of nothig basically that people#have to interact with#i#also i should clarify no ones body is too big or too small or too much of anytjing#also feel like i need to clarify yes the intrusive thoughts about immoral things and things that go against my moral code are intrusive they#arent real
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I love it when people blatantly shit on dni posts and say how they're not going to check, then Immediately log onto their 2nd account after being blocked to ask "why do you hate me 🥺 im just a little guy who followed, I didn't know, why didn't you tell me!"
#this is sarcastic but i also do find it funny#'i will not look at your interact jusr block me. why cant i see you anymore what happened'#like i also find most dni stupid if its just an ongoing thing but its there Because of people like you#bc regular dnis for a blog is about following. not interaction done through like. the 50th person that it goes to that doesnt interact ever#like i dont have a standard interact on any account#but like. yall are so into 'curate your own experiences' you forget other people are interested in. not you lmao#i block freely its no big deal#this is specifically about That brand btw#bc how are you going to say 'just block me im not checking >:('#and get annoyed. when folks do that.
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hiii!! can i get an angst to comfort joost fic where the reader is just having a really hard time lately w everything. like family, work, and just everything in general is stressing her/them out so they get really distant bc they feel bad about burdening joost and joost jusr shows up at their apartment and is like “why” and they break down in tears and it ends all fluffy?
February i almost died.
notes: this is actually a bit gotten from a real story, i removed the happy part of it , made parts different , and i just added joost lol, im good now, dont villanize my mom, she was very sad too because she knew i was always crying, shes a good person
summary: literally look at the request 👍
relationship:joost×fem!reader
WARNING! theres a part where Y/N commits sh (head banging)
Reader was always a very clingy person to Joost, always texting him, asking him to hang out, going to restaurants, but, november came, her mental health started to go down, she felt lonely, like nobody wanted her, like she was a burden, she never spoke, whenever she did she'd get ignored, she always argued with her parents, she made each of them cry at least once, she was guilty, she was close to running away from everyone and never coming back, the only thing stopping her was that she didnt have any money to use, one day, she was in her room listening to music, bawling her eyes out, in fetal position,her mom came in, she kinda screamed "go shower, and do your room." her voice cold "CANT YOU SEE HOW DOING RIGHT NOW?" Y/N screamed back "Y/N, youre never happy." her mom left and closed the door, Y/N got up, and slammed her head into the wall twice, she got white flashes each time, joost lived in an apartment, attached to hers, he could hear the banging, the crying, the screaming, as Y/N was pacing back and forth in her room just crying, joost was trying to find her , she didnt want to be a burden to him, so she ran to a public bathroom and just cried there, her eyes were already puffy from the day before since she cried everyday, when she calmed down, she went back to her house and into her room, just to find joost talking with her parents, he was almost screaming, arguing "YOUR FUCKING DAUGHTER IS ON THE VERGE OF KILLING HERSELF OR RUNNING AWAY AND WHAT DO YOU DO? OH YEAH, LETS SCREAM AT HER A BIT MORE, MAYBE SHE WILL BE HAPPY, WHERE IS YOUR COMMON SENSE?" he yelled, her dad yelled back "SHE TRIES TO MAKE HERSELF A VICTIM,SHE NEVER LISTENS" joost didnt even answer, he noticed her rooms door closing so he ran and found her on her bed, staring into nothingness "what happened?" he asked, his tone concerned, he was almost gonna cry too, Y/N didnt answer, she just fell into his arms,crying, she showed him the mark of her head on the wall to him, he didn't say anything, he just packed her bags and got her to his house, made her favorite tea, atleast attempted to, since it was an ethnic recipe, put it near his bed, and got with her, trying to comfort her, he held her to his chest, she gave him a faint kiss on the cheek, the stubble hurting her face a bit, she didnt care, since it was him "Why didnt you tell me anything?" he asked "i didnt want to be a burden to you." she answered, he didnt say anything, just hugged her, he saw her eyes getting heavy, almost falling asleep on him, she looked so cute but so miserable, the only things keeping her alive were him and her phone, he kissed her, and told her "just know that if you even ran away i would find you and come with you.", the period of her life that went from november to february finally ended, she was there, felt happy, loved, for once.
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been watching creepcast more or less since the first/second episode and after latest i keep wanting to talk to ppl abt my thoughts and im tired of trying to engage with other youtube comments / i dont wanna keep bothering my spouse with this plus id want to talk to other ppl who are viewers but dhkdhfk im gonna rant behind the cut; tw animal death/violence, child abuse
gonna rant assuming readers is also a viewer cause too tired to explain, sorry. this is just “stuff id want to chat with fellow fans of the poscast but i dont have friends who watch it, and the youtube comments suck for the most part and id rather be turned inside out than login to reddit”, like i did end up using rhe comment section way toomuch already, jm tired and its like 3% normal ppl and 97% dicks and assholes with bully disorder
like it was a big enlightening to just properly label things last night at last and process the feelings and situation. this is jsut a podcast with isaiah bullying his cohost hunter (“as a joke”) and the fans at large are people who enjoying bullying snd find it funny, and try to bully commenters who disrupt their “fun”, trting to discret and demean them as friendless parasocial losers for not playing along the theater of mockery and treating it as socially acceptable.
like its one thing to tease between friends and make dark jokes, its another thing to repeatedly, insistently, laugh at your friend for being traumatized as a child by violent animal death? like. its like i get that initially he was just really baffled at the event like haha oh my god did that happened thats so fucked up (which is annoyingly normie in its own way like yeah dude, none of us have control over fucked up shit happening to us as children, like he makes such a spectacle about it like its this earth shattering thing). like its tragic and a big deal but like wrt trauma its usually safe to be on the level that the person with the trauma is setting, if theyre talkinf about it really intensely it makes sense to match up to that tone or lower. instead hunter is trting to move on while isaiah is just obsessed fascinated with it like its fiction almsot. idk just . uggghhhhhhh
i could kust make a collage fo commwnts that made me like lose hope for humanity each time but i dontw anna dwell on annoying bullshit and commit it more to memory. like people are jusr… like there is some dark humor inherent to like calljng your mom as an adult on your show to have her back you up only for it to turn out it was way worse, but like the way isaiah kept laughing about it for so long.. like hecan laugh and joke like that at his Own traumas if he has them. just. idk. tgisn podcast like just. ugh its making me irritated tot hink abt explaining whats happening in it to people like go watch it with adblock on, im gonnaskip explainjng more and jsut say some feelings to the void that id rather like scream at someone about. i was gonna say scream at assholes in the commmebts but i actually want their internet connection destroted and for them to be forced to dismantle their phones and pcs and set them on fire so they can never speak again.
isaiah is coming off like such a monster. like, “””as a joke””” acting like an asshole is still acting like an asshole, i dont care anymore that hes actually probably rly well intentioned and ncie bc he jsut needs to stop being fucking rancid and a shitty cohost and friend. an honestly i cant even believe the “hes actually nice” shit anymore. starting tj feel hes been an ashsole all along and just pretends to be a good guy. like he takes too much joy out of excessive bullying to be a good person. like genuine just bullying, with no consequences. ppl are like “oh hunters fine with it bc hes putting up with it” like as if every single person alive Never has to put up and laugh along shit that bothers them. specially on what is essentially their Job. hunter barely appears comfortable and he does not dish back nearly as viciously- and we jnow hes capable of rly dark humor and banter too, on his own channel tje vibe is completely different but he has none or that edge with isaiah. while isaiah is literally like i wnan dox you please fans m*lest hunter in the meet and greet, i want this guy dead; isaiah literlaly makea such a huge deal every time hunter had a disagreeing opinion irs clear hes started to just not weight in when he doesnt like something, itd be one thing to make these super intense mean comments if hunter did them back but every time isaiah would not take or tolerate it when it was towards himself,; and honestly all of the stuff before had been like accumulating to be pretty bad but rhe latest ep with the dog story eallyi guess like crosses a line of like, this is just genuinely wrong and i dont care how mcuh the comments say its ‘parasocial’to have basic human empathy! youre watchint a guy talk abt having the family dog shot in the back of the head in front of him by his grandfather, only to then find out on air feom his mother the shooting had been intentional and his grandfatehr was actuallt a monster instead of a disabled man traumatizinf you by accident. like the ironic tragedy of him calling his mom to back him up on that ‘its not a big deal’ only for her to contradict him is funny on a cosmic sense, but like it is iust. not that funny dude. like isaiah kept bursting into laughter just thinking about it. oh is it too absurd for you to take seriously? do yoh just not give a fuck about how tour friend might feel? dude didnt even fucking ask. he didnt eveb show a sliver of care , sympathy empathy anything. he literally says “ill never let you live this down”. LIVE WHAT DOWN???? having his grandfather intentionally shoot his dog in front of him as a 7 year old child? like what the actual fuck is wrong with him??!! have like even a shred of respect for your cohost, like its all ‘as a joke’ but if you consistently ‘as a joke’ act like a cruel manipulative bullying person, im just gonna choose to believe youre actually just that person using “humor” as a shield to excuse your behavior.
like wtf. i was actually a fan of isaiahs chanel first and i didnt rly vibe with hunter that much and i wouldnt have expected, bc i woildnt enjoy watching an asshole, that isaiah wouldve turned out to be such a self centered horrible person. like its all funny TO HIM, i dont get the sense its enjoyable at all to be in that room when isaiah is getting all giddy and having a kick out of treating hunter like a punching back. yeah he probably doesnt mean to be actually hurtful but it doesnt look like the thought even crosses his satan spawn eyes that someone could have a different reaction than the one he was intends there to be. like i dont know hunter and idk if id even like him if i talked to him in person but it sucks qnr is horrible to watch anyone be treated that way consistently. like i wish creepcaet juet actually ended or isaiah learned how to not be shitty. i dont care if its not in his nature to not be awful he should just try to pretend to be a decent person for once. like i feel bad for hunter becuase it comes across like hes more stuck in the podcast than enjoying it and i empathise with struggling to leave “friends” who treat you like shit. and its like work too, i have no idea how much of a monetary and reputation loss it would be to leave. ppl are like “theyre adults they surely worked within themselves” yeah bc no adult ever has struggled or been stuck in a situation thats hard to get out of. honestly like yeah this is just a shitty podcast with shitty fans who just enjoy watching a bigger guy get bullied for no reason because they are probably mostly awful bullies in their own lives too hurting the people around them and i dont need to convern myself over what people who get a kick out of hurting others think.
i guess obligatory like. insane and unwarranted comment to the hosts bc no one is readingnthis let alone either of them but its like what if they read it and like felt x or y way in reaction. maube writing this will give me some semblance of peace
@ hunter: you seem cool and youre a really talented artist and naturally funny on camera/audio. i relate to having memories from childhood warped like that, and im sure/i would imagine that was the story told because it was far from the actual worst one. i think you deserve to respect yourself more, im sure being bullied is no skin of your back, im fat and ive been derided bc of it my whole life, from since i was 70kg and im 100kg now. its smth you get used to and it feels like not a big deal but on a fundamental level i thibk everyone deserves to respect themselves at least enough to not let friends treat you like shit to this extent. like i know banter and teasing is normal, butlike. its so excessive dude. it comes across like youre just stuck there and idk your financials and maybe you coulr be, ive heard of stories like that wrt youtube projects, and subversive animations arent loved by youtube’s revenue. heavy condolences if this turns out to be the case and hoping things can change. im sure it would be hard to quit anyway bc ppl would make such a big deal abt it. but if you are free to leave at anytime and you have freedom and are safe with isaiah,thank god thats great, get the FUCK out of there or get isaiah to stop treatiny you like shit cause you deserve better. if somehow you iust love beint berated like that i guess like each to his own too, i just hope youre doing ok juwt oj the basis of beint a fellow human being who appears to be in a legitimately shitty situation. if you are ajd im insane, thats fine too, id rather be insane than someone be suffering.
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@ isaiah: i really liked your youtube vids. you seemed like a decent enougu guy. ofc like i dont actualyl Know either of tou, injust am human and relating on basic emotional levels based on the behavior you choose to display online. man. what the hell is wrong with you? if i expected you to actually read this i would be more polite but i dont expect a single soul to read this, really. like, man… i want to believe theres capacity of good and kindness in every person so surely you must have it, and if you do.. why are you acting like that. is being mean That funny? i love dark humor but ive never taken joy out of actively bullying people so i cant really relate but like, surely you can find otuer ways to have fun with your friend? im sure you think its all fine bc hunter wont throw a tantrum like you do but some people are actually way more inwards with their emotions and like you coild try to be a little more interested in how someone else feels when you bully them. “as a joke”. like maybe its not as funny as you think itnis, or they migut not be enjoying it like you do. i know its hard to stop when you want to talk but please try to stop interrupting hunter repeatedly after you clewrly mustve heard him adter the call delay? honestly, i thought you were a fine guy but now its like maybe youre just on a power trip, havint someone hostage to validate your opinions on horror and to bully for fun who wont talk back to you in a way thats actually challenging. since you love the sounf of your own voice so much you could do a solo podcast, you dont need hunter to be there as a punching bag in order to make a podcast. if you lvoe and care about hunter as a friend sincerely and iust have been totally by accident actint like a major piece of shit, id like want to hope for you to improve as a person in how you act and id want to believe thats very possible, but episode after episode its just.. like i dont give a shit abt dark mean humor i dont care if you call us in the audience pieces of shit or freaks or whatever, we’re not there talking to you, but hunter Is hearing what youre saying and is actually there.like id say for a christian you are extremely cruel but that is just ao on brand for open christians to behave that way that i honestly wanted to believe you would subvert that expectation, but it seems i was wrong. you know like i dont get this being mean as a joke thinf and neber have, i would say if hunter died tomorrow would you not have rather spent time with him in a positive way where he was loved instead of berated, but youd most likely “joke” that youre glad hes dead and that you didnt bully him enough. im not christian and i dont believe in heaven or hell but i know for you that youre most likely not seeing the pearly gates until you learn to pretend to be a good person to your friends. its probably not even smth you genuinely want to do or care to do but you could make that sacrifice of being nicer so the world is a better place while it has to have you here.
big sigh this isjsut hggggghhhhhh like a shame bc i love horror and i had enjoyed isaiahs youtube vids but , man this is such a disappointment. obviously i dont rly wana watch the podcast anymore butni like hunter reading and his voice and i would just hope for the best for him going forward, and the insane in my brain is like i gotta check it out maybe isaiah apologizes and acts like normal and nice without being rancid for once. even tho i know that wont be true bc it hasnt been for weeks since i started watching, i guess ill tune in for the next and if he foesnt shape up i’ll quit it. find a diff horror podcast or smth. makes me sad imagining hunter stuck in there. kike idk if hes even a good person like hes edgy on his own channel too but in general like he comes across like isaiah used to , lile someone who just seems fine and i havent heard anything saying theres smth horribly wrong with him. just on a basic human level it sucks to see people struggle and suffer. speciallt when its situations i relate and have been to. its been at least (uhh math…) damn 10 years or smth since an event that really stuck with me, where i was kust telling soem school friend abt my life at home bc we were just talking, and i relayed one of the ways my parents would beat me and how i was so scary, and she burst our cackling in my face. its a feeling that took a long time to stop having it sting in my head. she wasnt intending to laugh At me, or bc she thought beating children was genuinely good or funny, but to her the situation was so absurd it was funny. i can understand that on a detached level like if it wasnt real there would be some comedy timing to it. but instead i iust felt like a joke. like i was stupid, like it was this really funny ass thing, and i tried to play along, and it was like the fear trauma and pain that resulted from those events was a joke too. like i was stupid for having my life warped ny the abuse and it affecting me, because it was just so absurd and funny! like damn, i shouldve been abused as a child in a less absurd and funny way so people wouldnt mock me to my face about it. i guess i deserve it and its natural to be treated this way. until i met someoje who actually respected and gave a fuck about me and wouldnt make me feel that way i thoight it was normal and like i was fine with it too. i used to get bullied communally by my entire classroom for half of middle school and i thought those people were called friends too because id never been treated any better by anyone.
hgggghj i think its helped a bit to get it off my chest, maybe. man this sucks. i wish people would iust be nicer to eachother. life is so short, and some people cant even have the courtesy to not be tormented by people they call friends
#.talk#creepcast criticism#tagging for the poor flowers that will get pissy if they see someoje not validate their enjoyment of bullying
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i have school today and i cant seem to find my watch and it is STRESSING ME OUT
not to say my timing is godly or anythign i jusr like knowing when im late to all my classes bro
🤞😠🤞
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*SLIDES IN SLIGHTLY SMOKEY AND ALSO WITH SOME WATER*
YOU CANT JUSR LEAVE US ON THAT CLIFFHANGER(you can and its fun and I love it and cant wait to see what happens next💜)
I NEED TO KNOW QHAT HAPPENS(take your time)
Also us serving everyone drinks and meeting them 🤌🤌🤌 very good and very tasty
Cant wait for the next part!!(again, take your time)
Also any headcanons you have for the au?👀
I am gobbiling it up like a man starved
-Mafia Simp Anon(ps I was the one earlier to slide in with cookies💜)
THANK YOU♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥! I'm so glade you liked it!
I try to find ways to make the story feel organic but also stay true to the characters and story. I have many headcanons about the Au that you can see here.
Thank you for all the support it means the world to me. Also, those cookies where delicious thank you for the sweet treats.
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I rly dont kno what to do its dumb to get depressed new year like it means anything amd i rly have made incredible progress the last year but like my mom wont stop drinking and its past the point where she knows its wrong but continues to do it and will just go lock herself in her room to drink and drop all of her responidibilties and have me have to do them all like going grocery shopping or picking up ny sister etc. I jusr feel so defeated and know the only way out is to mpve out but i cant do that til i get a job and have to rly get extremely lucky to find a job with tge hours that still lets me watch the cats in the hours theyre most vulnerable to run outside doors my family leaves open so i rly just dont kno what to do. Whatever plans i have for a day get thrown out when i get informed that my mom has no intention of picking my sister up from work and that im left to do it. Rly all of 2023 was just me progressively more and more totally losing my trust in her i think the real final nail was when she spent a week convincing me to go see priscilla w/ my two siblings n drive them there n stuff and how good of a experiencd it would be and that she would watch the pets and it was no problem just for me to come back to her completely shitfaced abd my cats werent even watched with dendy eating some spicy food on the counter and throwing up by the door. Like just for her to use bonding w/ my siblings as a chance to drink and completely ignore my cat rly hurt me. I dont kno what to do cause i dont rly have anywhere to go or to escape to and any happy feeling when im out driving is ruined when i remember how everytime im out shes probably using it as an excuse to drink. Im happy whenever i drive somewhere but get this rly bad sinking feeling on the drive home when shes home alone cause i kno shes just drinking and that thats what im returning home to. I rly dont kno where to go and feel like i focus so intensely on my interests as an attempt to milk out ahatever happiness i can find in them i rly dont kno where to go or what to do.
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you enable my mod on the steam workshop. and well. lets jusr say you find out why its called "steam" (the computer expodes)
i have 111 mods installed atm this cant be that bad
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I feel kinda relieved now that youve sent the ss and shii ngl😮💨. I have this past of sending asks and being ignoredd just like that so i felt bad uk?
But i trust you nowww so its ok:)
Also WHY ARE YOU SO ADORABLEE AGHH. I JUSR WANNA GOBBLE YOU UPPP. I was reading your replies to anons and ure so kind and cute it breaks my heart😖
Rhinos are not my fav animal but my friend says that my crush kinda looks like a rhino so i learned to like 🦏 hahahd.
Cheetahs are so cool yoo id love to see one irl:'(
OMGGG ALSO THE CHAPTERS ARE CRAZYY. I LOVE TO SEE MARK BEING DOWN BAD NOW HAHADHDH. Cant wait for the nexttt!!
Take care bb love youuu🤎
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no bc i swear i was freaking outtt like omg can’t believe you thought abt me hellaurrrrr?? and oh noooo i hope you find an account that makes you feel comfortable and doesn’t ignore youuuu (like i said for me personally i will reply to your asks ASAP I SWEAR!! ty for trusting meeee)
DONT GAS ME UP LIKE THATGGG (it’s lowkey rlly funny the perception people on tumblr have of me lmao i don’t think people irl would call me cute 💀💀💀)
i hope he’s good looking but if he’s your crush im not worried lmaooo. it’s so specific tho like how does one look like a rhino??? either way it’s kinda cool he has an animal lookalike
me toooo but the only places where you can see cheetahs well they’re in terrible conditions so i’ll pass!!
THANK YOUUUU but prepare for the worst in the next couple chapters like… trust me prepare your feelings because… 😬😬😬
take cate too!! hope you had/have a great dayyyy lov uu
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cbmthy 5 is so good, you never fail. i'm so happy to see reader fight with eris word for word i just wish she did the same with azriel. if she hit azriel with that "not everyone wants to waste their life being miserable and bitter" he would probably cry lmao. no but he's actually starting to get me mad because he did good in coming to talk to her after the shit show but then i realized he wasn't even going to apologize, it was just to try to know more. are you planning on writing anything from azriel's perspective at all? i just feel like at this point him being so dismissive of her feelings is weird since i feel like in the books azriel is a good listener and he understands other's feelings well (we can tell by how he saw nesta in acosf) so it would make sense that he's not trying to be mean here but just keeps saying the wrong things unintentionally, it would also help him to not come across as irredeemable tbh because right now (and i cant believe im saying this) eris is being better with her than azriel. though i think part of that is that she doesn't like eris like she does azriel so she just doesn't care about what he has to say much.
i think it's also a testament of how azriel jusr doesn't really take notice of her that he thinks she can't comprehend why eris is dangerous or whatever, like he genuinely never paid attention to her to know she's actually smart and since he has shadows and all that to tell him these things, he really just never gave it a thought lol she should slap him like she did eris
i hope we get to see her more with the ic though, like i like the eris thing she has going on and it would be fun to see them more but if the endgame is for her to stay in the night court i hope we get to see her more with them, especially with the last part where she doesn't even like saying they're her family (even if it's partly because of her wanting to sit on azriel's face). i think it would be good to see her ask feyre or even rhys the same question she did eris, or other things she doesn't understand well and i dont know what you're doing with her powers but i wish she'd show them instead of them finding out because i can see how they would feel a little betrayed that eris knows but not them and at some point her not telling them makes it feel like she doesn't trust them and like i said if she's supposed to stay in the night court i hope they're good to her. speaking of powers i can't believe eris' bitchass figured it out and didn't tell her (yes i can, the little asshole) but im so excited to see what they are. she glows like starfall and eris connected the dots when she was talking about the mother 🤔
it's also interesting how you bring up the science being a blasphemy thing into it because i never even thought of it since for us science is the real thing and there's no proof god is real but for them the mother is definitely real so i get that science could rub some people the wrong way. it would be fun to see her with helion since there's so many scholars in day court and it's something she likes but i feel like we're more focused on eris here
Sorry for taking so long to answer this 🫠
I’m completely with on you anticipating the beginning of reader managing to stand up for herself! Also getting to see how Azriel will respond when she starts vocalising her emotions, because at the moment she really doesn’t know how to even start on that when it comes to him 😬😞
Her communication skills really 📉 when Azriel.
With Azriel not really taking notice of her, I suppose it is partly that he was more focused on Elain in the past, but reader definitely has some reclusive tendencies (she really loves her books—though at the expense of social interaction, sometimes😭) that I’m not sure I’ve properly highlighted, so I’ll work on that because it’s an important part :)
Honestly the Az pov is a really good idea, since it would help clarify why he’s acting so strangely in Reader’s pov, so thank you for that!
‘(even if it's partly because of her wanting to sit on azriel's face)’
😭😭😭 no you didn’t—
For real though, she’s a bit confused about her sexuality and the idea of being a woman, give her a moment to figure herself out—human society wasn’t exactly encouraging about women enjoying themselves or having any agency/autonomy 😞
Definitely agree about having more IC content since the most they’ve been in CBMTHY is the bday part where their image was a little conflictive? I think it’s important to show how various misunderstandings have happened over the years, and how strange behaviour kind of slipped by because that’s the only way they’ve known her :/
We’ve already seen in acotar that attitudes toward women differ depending on where you are, so I don’t think it’s unreasonable that in places like the Night and Day Courts that attitudes toward science would be more modern, whereas Autumn’s pretty set in its ways 🍁
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The fact that SMG gave us a WLW relationship with both woman being WOC and they are paid absolutely dirt by a fandom who sees two white guys where one is literally the VICTIM to the other and everyone goes (yea that’s the love story of the game :D) hate it here. I absolutely hate Charlie and when you play the game you’ll see why 😔.
YEAH EXACTLY! ive already had to filter out the charlie / dumet or whoever the fuck tags bc its begun seeping into the stuff i look at LMAO
i wont get too into it bc i dont wanna get extremely pissed off rn, but fandom will ALWAYS find 2 white guys more appealing than 2 woc. esp in terms of romantic relationships (even platonic ones lbr). and thats for like. a billion different reasons and its so maddening. fandom hates women and poc, so of COUUURSE erin / jamie isnt gonna have nearly as much content as charlie / dumet. AND ITS LIKE............. ERIN / JAMIE CAN ACTUALLY HAPPEN YEAH? LIKE. THEY ACTUALLY HAVE CANON CONTENT AND HERE'S DUMET TRYING TO FUCKING KILL CHARLIE RIGHT? LIKE ?
i still of course need to play the game but im just ????? so confused as to where the charlie / dumet ship even CAME FROM.... and i jusr KNOOOW when i do find out, its going to piss me the fuck offf
but yeah. the SMG fandom isnt the only victim of this mindset. you literally see it /EVERYWHERE/ and its really frustrating. it makes engaging w/ fandom so unappealing tbh. as you said, hate it here </3
but oooo im interested to see why you hate charlie.... i havent seen much genuine hate for any of the characters so i cant wait to see why. cant wait to see what ive been missing in terms of characters in general tbh
#mine#text#asks#anon#the devil in me#thank u for sending this in. i will /forever/ talk abt stuff like this even if no one gives a shit#my thoughts#[emma mountebank voice] ok :) i’m done#TDIM
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