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truly in rhe worst headspace feeling out of my mind rn cause i socialized with people for an action and so many tjingd came up
#1 its really hard to be like 1 out of 2 fat people in a group of 25 like i did not miss this part of being fat when i was skinny lol#2 im just painfully boring to talk to i feel like i dont really know how to emote with my voice and so everything just sounds really flat#3 i dont really get a majority of jokes people make or i just dont find them funny and its really painful being the only person in the car n#not laughing or trying to pretend to laugh but its just an obvious fake laugh like i dont get jokes or references or i dont know enough abou#about life to know when things are funny or how to relate to them enough to know what the average reaction should be#so that comes back to point 2 where its just fucking boring as hell to talk to me because everything you tell me i jusr react with 'oh' or#if its a mundane thing i over react because im thinking thats how the average person would react to it but then i just sound strange#4 my ocd was going wild todau because i have intrusive thoughts about 'what if i believe (immoral thing)'#which really doesnt help me at an action for palestine because well im just questioning how i eben feel about it eben tho i know how i feel#anout it (positively$#like i just feel like everything i do is wrong#i feel so out of place in every situation no matter where i am#my body is too big and i just cant relate to the average person it seems like#my body isnt too big but when youre in a group where youre like one of the only bigger people ueah thats how it feels#and in a really cramped car#covid resllt ruined my social ability to relate to others and stuff i feel like im just a boring ugly ball of nothig basically that people#have to interact with#i#also i should clarify no ones body is too big or too small or too much of anytjing#also feel like i need to clarify yes the intrusive thoughts about immoral things and things that go against my moral code are intrusive they#arent real
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Following on about my comment of how in Zaun it's not unusual at all for a whole family to share a bed. In a version of the Zaun Family verse where it's MelJayVik in play, during the Occupation after everyone's ended up in Zaun Mel and Jayce get the true Zaunite experience of having so many bodies in one bed/room with 3 adults and 2 children (Naph + Amaranthine) sharing the smallest bedroom in the Last Drop.
#Arcane#Zaun Family#MelJayVik#Ramblings of the Goddess#Viktor's room never gets extended#because he's moved to Piltover by the time#they've given all the others bedrooms#so they don't see the point of it seeing#he's only really sleeping in it when he comes to visit#and it's not like he's kicking any of his siblings out of their rooms#and the alphas and children are all Clingy because of what's happening#so one very cramped room for them all it is#Jinx jokes it's like a clown car in the mornings
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Thank you so much for all the kind birthday wishes! I'll try and respond to them soon! You guys are so sweet and I love all of you <3
#naff nuh huh#okay so reason why i'll be slow to respond is in the tags so please don't keep reading if you don't want to read about being sick#SICK WARNING READ NO MORE#anyways#went to my favorite Brazilian grill last night for my birthday#loved it everything was great the coconut limeade was delicious#but the second we left i threw up everything in my mom's car#then all through the night#i was throwing up bile and uhhhh not doing so great on the other end#i think i got food poisoning#my stomach cramped so hard that i just wanted to lay down and never get back up#soooo#start of birthday: we're so back#end of brithday: we're so over#no one else who ate with me got sick though#so i'm not sure what did it but my whole body revolted#it was a really nice birthday despite all of that <3
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whatever shall i do with the rest of my day today
#No car no money no school mfs when they dont have work#actualy i have money but i hate spending it#I have been productive so far i cleaned a lot in my room#and got this old futon that i dont use out and put it on the porch#but then my mom got mad bc its on the porch#and shes also mad bc wecant find the duct tape to put it in this big plastic bag so the trash guy will take it#and its my fault we cant find the duct tape bc i used it last and have No fucking idea where i put it#But its okay#My room looks nicer#i want to remove this metal frame on the bottom bunk of my bunk bed#that was where the futon was#so i can put my desk there.. my room would be sm less cramped#but i need an allen wrench to unscrew the thingy#and i have ONE i found under th ebed when iwas cleaning but its slightly too big#OH i need to do my duolingo#i want to draw really bad too ive been itching to draw for like. weeks#but i cant get myself to do it im like scared#i kind of wanna play oblivion too#Or bee swarm simulator. The world is my oyster my schedule is free.
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Car sick but not in a in a car w nausea way but in a homesick I miss my car kind of way even tho my car is outside rn like. I’m just in my room
#mom got me the hinges I needed for my floor in the van yippeeeee#but now I just wanna be outside in the car not in bed in my room#I miss my carrrrr whatever#literally whatever !!!!! I have five dollars to my name until Friday ! okay ! ahhhhhhhhhh everything is so normal#* guy who’s flying up north Friday morning voice * I can’t wait to be around family and friends and totally not be triggered and weird#no im just kidding (not really( im gonna have a really good time and enjoy the cold and the family and the weed oh god the weed drools mmmm#Maine weed yum yum yummy I miss you Maine weed oh I love weed so much yayyyyy okay sorry#me when I’m gonna actually cancel whatever i was saying and go get high until my cramps go away or calm down and then hopefully I’ll pass#out cause I work tomorrow early as fuck again and then I have to shower and do a quick load of laundry and pack for the trip and sleep early#to be up early to fly out of an airport I’ve never been to before so waghhh whatever no I’m excited it’s okay I’m exited#it’s all good things#it’s fine
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I hate when the 100 thousand bees take root in your chest right before it’s time for slumber!! Guys please make your honey elsewhere I’m trying to sleep!!!
#guys i literally cannot sleep rn#sensory issues are the worst#the worst thing is I have a friend over and we are sharing my twin bed (top and tail style)#so my bed is too hot and too cramped which is NOT helping but I can’t just kick her out#she’s a guest!!#plus she got her car stolen today so like I have to have some grace here#and there is genuinely no where to put her unless we aired up the ol airmattress#or if I banished her to the couch which I just tried to lay on and is not really conducive to sleeping on#with all this extra time i should work on my essays but i think the bees won’t let me#really unfortunate situation because i cannot stay up all night I need to spend tomorrow actually working on my essay#ughhhhhh
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besties what does it mean when a straight man bakes bread and steam mops his entire house and goes out and buys sweet treats before you come over
#this wasn’t normal bread either he made a HERB AND GARLIC LOAF and then proceeded to dice shallots and onions to make a lil flavour burst#on top after it came out then made a chili infused oil to dip it in…#THEN ASKED IF (WE) WANTED HIM TO MAKE A BOARD WITH CHEESE AND MEATS LIKE???#HUH????#and yeah steam mopped all of their floors cleaned top to bottom#he did about 20x more than my actual friend would ever dream of 😭#THEN ALSO WENT TO A BAKERY AND GOT DONUTS?? HELLO???#i am still flabbergasted hours later#he also got play angry at me that i got in the backseat of the car and was like ‘no you should take the front’#and after i refused cause he’s TALL he got in the passenger door and then proceeded to move his seat all the way up so he was cramped and#i had a ton of room#i was just like… is this… what men are really capable of?#today truly made me enamoured with the kindness men can apparently be capable of AND HE DOESNT KNOW ME SUPER WELL#we’ve hung out like three times prior and two of which were within this last week#anyway what a kind man again my friend would never lmao#forgot the most important part: this man is a guy friends’ roommate!#talk time
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As a fan of fun action films I got recommended Bullet Train a LOT and I finally watched it...
The only time I laughed was when the girl got isekai'd by that truck 😭
#incredibly unfun. dragged on for 2 hours. boring cramped fight scenes cos train. the silent car fight should have been total silence#didn't make sense that no one on the train noticed all the fights and broken glass and blood and OPENLY CARRIED PISTOLS IN JAPAN#whole film weirdly poked fun at Japan? there were 2 ARENT BIDETS CRAZY?? jokes and the mascot sucked#people had hyped up tangerine and lemon but they were so boring#people kept calling prince (?) kid and child and I was like that is a full grown adult woman#Brad Pitt was bland and unfunny#they derail a whole 2 bullet trains and there's like 0 impact#feel like I wasted 2 hours#was really hoping for better?
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Man. What was wrong with today. At least I got to play yakuza ig.
#car 1 was really broken and repairs will cost thousands (usd)#car 2 broke down in the pouring rain#basement flooded#old lady's cat is dead so i didnt get to talk to her like she wanted#period cramps#like wtf#not cool#vent post#op
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My legs hurt
#kay’s random stables#hours of dancing and then three hours of being in a cramped car do not work wel together#I did have a really good time at the wedding tho#got to spend a lot of time with some of my cousins which was fun
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ow!
#cramps on a long car trip.. . hell on earth. tbh. on one hand i do have aspirin & i like. don't have to Do anything all day..#on the other hand my hips ALREADY really fucking ache from a weekend of standing & walking all over the place & sleeping in the car.#& i can't curl up in a little ball. so. as i said. hell on earth waiting for this shit to kick in :|#txt
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No but I'm still looking for the Denny's that is still in the middle of nowhere
having cis guy friends is so funny like youll ask if they wanna hang out and theyll send you to the dark woods
#no joke#my brother. fresh out of the house. 19#years old. rolls up to our house right after midnight with a car full of teenagers. tells me and my little sister to get in.#obviously we're asking questions. where are we going. how long are we going to be gone. what are we doing. why are all these people in here.#the whole shebang#he answers NONE of them.#so we get in the back seat. I'm being gay with my friend at the time. and we're chilling listening to tunes on the radio.#except now they're talking about a Denny's. i look to the front seat where my brother is driving and he pulls up pictures on his phone#of the inside of somebody's. house. What?#and if that wasn't weird enough. we had already driven 20 minutes off a sideroad into the middle of nowhere. nothing but grass#and a big ol barn/farmhouse that looks like it came straight out of a Scooby Doo snapshot. it's dark as hell out. the lone building appearin#blue in the dark. with a single orange lantern lit hanging from the top. i look to my brother who has never lead me astray before.#and I feel like i am part of Scooby Doo. five teenagers in a car. in the middle of the night. wondering where the hell Denny's went.#now finally my brother has some wits to him. and we take a tight u turn and turn ourselves around. good. shows over right? WRONG.#this bitch pulls up YET ANOTHER place on his phone and starts driving 15 MINUTES UP ONTO A DIRT ROAD AND KEEPS DRIVING.#we're going to a haunted bridge boys!#in the middle of the night! at like 3am! the witching hour! great plan broski. sounds awesome. good thinking there.#we get to this haunted bridge. and this mf is barely 5ft across. but the water below is dark and murky and my lil sis INSISTS she sees a#dude down below. so I'm silently freaking out because what the hell do i say to that. she's like. 13. i tell her it'll be okay. because#that's what big/middle bros do. we drive over the bridge. nothing happens. cue relaxation. my brother is audibly disappointed#“well that was useless” bro you almost took us to Denny's in some cannibalistic farmdudes basement. i think I'll take the barely haunted#bridge. my brother. who still wants to show us an adventure. and probably save face in front of his friends. flips us around yet again and#starts heading off into a whole NEW direction. towards the World's Largest Gas Station!#it is like 4am by now. we're hungry. we're cramping. losing our marbles with exhaustion. and still processing our latest episode with the#Mystery Machine. so fine. I'm taking a nap. just don't get us killed in the long run.#we survived. btw. if that wasn't obvious. and we did actually make it to The World's Biggest Gas Station. and it was pretty fun.#as far as gas stations go at least. i got some honey sticks and a lollipop in the shape of a bear. i don't really like honey. but it wascute#there were walls FILLED with stuffed animals.a whole clothing department. a candy shop. and even a full fledged restaurant on the other side#i think there were even two levels to it? i can't remember. but anyways. we eat. we leave. we survive. end of story.
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Today honestly sucked ass
#im really tired too which isnt helping#my aunt died earlier this year and her husband brought his new girlfriend and her kids to our family get together#the kids were annoying as shit too. normally im chill with kids but they were pissing me off#my grandparents were once again passive agressively trying to persuade me to be more 'feminine' with their gifts#i really only got one present this year which was a new desk. its 25% smaller than my old desk and i now have nowhere to put a ton of shit#my present for my mom was ruined. which. fuck her but also im pissed because i spent a decent amount of money on it#we are traveling tomorrow and our car is broken so we are going to have to take a much smaller vehicle#which means over 7 hours cramped next to both my sisters with no leg room#and our trip is going to be really stressful and annoying too because of my cousins new wife who i hate#plus three extra people staying at my grandparents. when theres definitely not enough room for us all#its gonna be an exhausting week#one positive is that i did get a little bit of cash so im no longer in an unexpected crisis financially#vent#ill be fine i just need to sleep. although since we are leaving so early tomorrow for our trip i probably wont get very much
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vent in tags don't mind me
#skye talks#vent#it's been a long time since i had a panic attack in the grocery store but here we are#maybe it has something to do with spending my last money on food and gas#new job tomorrow just gotta make it through#all my days are full of tasks now and i have no choice really i gotta do things i gotta maintain and yet im so tired my whole body aches#i want to sleep for twenty years and i haven't even started yet#actually i want to sob and someone to run their hands through my hair#i got home and nearly fell asleep sitting in my car and my muscles keep twitching like they'll cramp#and my feet feel like they're going to split in half#and all the lights in my space were different from how i left them and blinds were open that I didn't and somebody turned my fan off#and like wow i really can't leave my room for even a day without everything being different#and they'll just yell at me and yell me I'm being so disagreeable and difficult if i beg them once sgain to please respect my space#I'm 30 amd saving to move out but they open the door on me unannounced like I'm a child#and i nearly started sobbing in the kitchen as i tried to pack up some chopped onions in the freezer and I coulnt even do that#i begged four separate times in like ten minutes to please let me do this stop goving me other bags stop questioning what I'm putting where#i just couldn't talk i could barely hold myself together#everything in my body hurt and my chest feels like it's being stabbed and my brain is screaming at me and i just#i just needed to put the onions in the freezer and be allowed to be nonverbal and it was too much and it took everything i had#all of it to just beg and say please don't talk to me I'm so tired i just need to do this#and i got literally shrieked at the fourth time i said it#i just#i don't#oh my god i'm gonna lay here for hours and maybe cry again#AND THAT'S NOT EVEN THE BIGGEST THING ON MY MIND IT WAS JUST THE PANIC AFTERMATH#somebody sedate me or something why is it all so hard#I'll deal with it but holy fucking shit
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i need a car 🧍🏽♀️
#horrific#i hate driving but i can't do shit w/o it#2day was rhe perfect day 2 go beachcombing#i was planning it for a week#then mom had to take grandpa to the ER and im mad cuz i told her to do that yesterday but she didn't#and i know she didn't really do it on purpose but why did she have to leave 30min b4 i planned on leaving 😭#i'll try again tomorrow but i didn't wanna go on a day she had work bc i don't like feeling rushed#it was supposed to rain but it did not. it wouldve been gr8 cuz then most ppl wouldn't have gone to the beach#my hands won't let me do anything for too long but shark teeth hunting is a little easier on them#grasping things does make them cramp bad tho#but let's ignore that i need teeth#scarlett.txt#employment era soon i need an early 2010s toyota or honda civic#my medical bills burning thru my savings too#my body is always deteriorating please hire me#good thing i didn't apply to spirit halloween tho it is so humid and hot in the old sears at the mall#i was supposed to get my little brother's 2014 nissan but my dad gave it to my tío instead and he did need one but im mad#bc he always does that kind of thing to me LMFAO#this was last october im over it now (the car not the dad thing)#(there's always a dad thing)#(dabi let's super glue endeavor to his toilet seat)
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Today is good I think. My brain isn’t fully happy my body isn’t fully happy but I’m treating myself kindly anyways
#I hate you chemical imbalance in my brain everything is going so incredible and I’m still not happy I’m only content#I picked up weed went for a drive hung out with my mom swam in the pool sat in the sun took a warm shower got high#I think I might journal or read for a bit maybe do a face mask while I read and smoke#watching Rick and morty also counts as self care I think. season three specifically is self care. I know pretty much all the words I’m just#mouthing along the entire epsidoe it’s heavenly#I think I might paint my nails too hmm am I feeling masculine enough to present fem recently. thank you buzzcut I love you buzzcut#I also did my eyeliner today and wore my cute earrings#did I post pocket joe on my dash. I think I forgot him there and he’s gonna be in the car all weekend in an airport parking lot lmao whoops#sorry pocket joe. I’m watching pickle rick epsidoe it’s so good. it’s beautiful out today even tho it’s sunny and I don’t think I’m burnt so#that’s incredible and then also when I took my warm shower I used my body scrub I haven’t used in like months and now my arms and legs feel#super soft it’s fantastic I am in a good mood today I just have to think really hard to actually feel it bc I have a headache and cramps#(still. not. fucking. bleeding. ANGRY.)#and I’m still sad about my middle school teacher dieing but I’m trying not to think about it so it’s fine
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