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triple-starsss · 2 months ago
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I love checking up on this AU as if I’m reading the newspaper in the morning or smth and I have a couple things in my brain about it:
- Would Sonic and Jet ever have some sort of mutual common ground? like in a sense where they put the drama aside to be civil towards one another/have respect for each other for whatever reason?
- I feel like Sonic, despite being a talented musician, makes those shitty GarageBand beats you find on TikTok for the bit, possibly to annoy Shadow like “wait hear me out I think I cooked with this one”
- idk if anyone’s brought this up yet (probably tbh) but does Knuckles make rap music at all like in the Adventure games?
- do the Chaotix ever play their instruments together and is it still as awful as in canon?
(you do not need to answer all of this by any means, this AU just gets my brain whirring svdgsgsgsf)
next week's paper will feature me putting Triple S inside of a blender! hope you look forward to that <3 BUT ARGH REALLY FUN QUESTIONS!!
1) I think despite all the issues Sonic and Jet had with one another they did genuinely enjoy eachother's company. It takes them a while to get to a point where they can admit that but yeah!! definitely some time in the future though, when everything dies down.
2) Before he had Silver and Shadow to annoy, he for SURE bugged Tails with his shitty little garageband tracks. He'd have like 10 air horn sfx playing in the back of some really rushed keyboard melody and bat his eyelashes at Tails like isn't this peak? If he isnt annoying on purpose then whats the point </33
3) YESS god Knuckles' songs in SA2 are so special to me it'd be a crime if I didn't do something with them. He really wishes he had the time to produce music but balancing work on the farm and his hobbies isnt very easy when the work is so extensive. (I talked about it kind of in this post !!). I like to think that as a thank you from Sonic for staying with Tails and making sure he was okay throughout the time he was gone, he helps Knuckles bring his little dream to life!!
4) THEY DO! It's more of a hobby for them though considering how they're running a store n all. I think alone they play each instrument pretty decently but they're so adamant on playing together (despite how much their styles clash) which results in their music sounding like nails on a chalkboard <3
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girl-failure · 9 months ago
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Transwoman needs answers
this isnt an easy post to write and it's going to be full of info about me that's personal and embarassing but I am desperate for answers and assitance so please bear with me. Long story short, im almost 3 years hrt (may 19th will be exact) and it's like nothing has changed. More info under the cut.
I'm going to try and explain everything to the best of my memory, but exact dosages and stuff might be fuzzy and inexact. I began HRT on May 19th 2021, when I was 22. I took one and a half 2mg pills, twice (morning and night) daily. I took them sublingually. I was also prescribed Spironolactone, though the exact dose escapes me (i remember it was 1 pill nightly). I had only come out as trans in the December the previous year, so i considered myself unfathomably lucky to get to start so soon. I had done this through informed consent at a planned parenthood and was excited by the possibility of a future where my own body didn't make me want to die. The idea of changing my body gave me a feeling of control in my life that had been entirely absent until that point. I knew I wanted all the help I could get with breast development (the women in my immediate family are well endowed) and I had read & heard from other trans women that prog could help, but I'd have to wait to ask for it.
I think it was on December 15, 2021, I was officially prescribed 100 progesterone nightly. At this point I had began to notice softer skin, lighter hair, the few bits of acne left over from high school had gone entirely, and the inklings of breasts beginning to form. My libido had all but dissipated entirely at that point, but I was told (mostly by other trans women) it would come back, especially after starting prog, and that my body would likely experience pleasure differently, and that my orgasm would be very different. The fat from my stomach (i wasn't overweight or underweight, i was pretty average for a man my height, but I did have a masculine stomach I despised) hadn't relocated at all, but I knew HRT wasn't a sprint, but a marathon, and I had a long way to go. This continued for a long time, eventually i would be bumped up to two 2mg of E (sublingual pill) twice daily (8mg total), and my Spiro would change to 200mg a day EDIT: My Spiro dosages did fluctuate, though again I don't recall the exact dosages, (I initially got it confused with my prog dosage, sorry), though there was the occasional few week period where I'd be bumped back down to one and a half E pills because I had timed my blood-work poorly. It had been a while since starting HRT and I was starting to worry. My libido never came back, I was unable to feel the sensation of pleasure entirely, my breasts & nipples never became sensitive or had growth pains, and my breasts really hadn't grown at all. My stomach still made me feel awful and masculine because fat continued to pile up there instead of in the feminine places I was told and led to believe it should!!! I was scared and frightened and upset. I'd say I developed an eating disorder but my eating was already disordered. I was afraid of food. Afraid it'd just make me look manly, instead of going to my hips/waist/whatever and breasts like it was supposed to. I began to feel like the hrt that was supposed to save my life was just making me feel worse.
On October 23rd, 2023, I finally started seeing a doctor again after 9 years of not being able to afford it, and only then because a parent got insurance through their work. I was officially prescribed Estradiol Valerate (.3mL intramuscular, and the bottle itself is 20mg/mL) , and quit Spiro outright. Now that I was talking to a doc, especially one who had been working with trans people in my area for years, I was starting to have hope again that maybe injections would solve my problems. After all, they're supposed to be more powerful right? Well after some blood-work revealing that my T levels were so low they were undetectable, we started fiddling with my injection dosages. I went down to .25mL. Nothing changed. I went down to .2ml. Nothing changed. I stayed at .2mL and was prescribed a med called EstraTest (.625mg E and 1.25mg T), a single pill which has both E and T in it, to try and raise my T levels back to measurable levels and hopefully find that golden ratio of E and T where maybe my body will start working again and start changing. But that brings us today. I still don't feel any sensation of pleasure (masturbating is pointless, intimacy just feels like I'm disappointing my partner), let alone a female orgasm (which as embarrassing as it is to admit, I was really looking forward to), my nipples still don't get sensitive and my chest doesn't get sore or get growing pains. My breasts look the same way they did 4 months into hrt. I've still had practically no fat redistribution, though I've gotten better about eating and not being afraid of food. I'm even beginning to notice my acne slowing starting to come back. I feel like I'm losing my mind. Why has nothing worked? Why does it feel like I'm regressing? I lost my health insurance earlier this week, and I can't afford to see my doctor again with my dumb pizza delivery job, so I haven't been able to ask to try anything more drastic to try and fix these issues. My current theories are that maybe my body is just more resistant to E? Which would be awful, but might be handled by just tripling my dose or something? Or
that my receptors are fried, and that the only solution would be to stop taking my HRT for a while (maybe even a long while). I pray that isn't the case, because I'd sooner off myself then let my body regress any further.
So this is a call for help. If anyone has any idea what could be causing these problems for me, or knows how I might be able to fix them, PLEASE let me know. I've lost hope in having a future as a woman, or even just feeling apathy towards my body (instead of intense self-loathing) at this point.
Here's my ca$happ if anyone wants to throw some money my way and maybe I'll be able to see the doctor again. cash.app/$occultChloe
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just-some-random-blogger · 2 years ago
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good morning/day/evening, catmom! i feel like this floof actually when i go out... OMG I WANT TO HEAR YOU SO BAD TT 'im going to answer your ask privately' you can do this??? but cant see the time an ask was sent. TT ok i dont know how this thing works. i absolutely encourage you to link your cover publicly!! but if you want me too, i can send you ask non-anon. let me know. but im sure your talent is worth of all people seeing it. actually, ive read not a bunch but 2-3 fics about dream and well i also frequently judge a book by its cover (or face). so ig i understand his character enough. hope you can perform next time too!! im sure youll be the best! and it doesnt really matter what makes you feel like the main character but the very feeling, so good for you. the most important is that you enjoyed it, hottie-cutie) 'that means manual labor is just not for you' not really tbh. the main reason of my irritation was the story about men being disappointment which tumblr made me delete. actually, i feel pretty calm about and during manual labour. i love cleaning up, sewing, knitting, gardening and so on. i dont mind working with the hands. but the stories. 1) in the 8th grade the only 2 girls (me and my classmate) were carrying a sofa that was as heavy as a concrete slab while the boys were just staring. and we both had our periods. yeh feminism and all but?? they werent even doing smth?? we could even carry it together but they sucked. men = disappointment. maybe it has smth with my trust issues. 2) every time i was working in summer during the summer break in school, the job required digging, carrying heavy staff, gardening and all. and while me and the other girls were digging like we're not teenagers, the boys were just standing next to a woman who's planting a tree. herself. pretending to help her but actually not doing a thing and then laughing at us and saying we had done nothing. sorry if it seems to angry or too off-topic or anything. these just really annoyed me. 'WE GOT 2 FREE MEALS' OMG SLAY!! free food is the most delicious!! 'i now think russian is the superior language because of this 😔✊' YEY ig my mission is finished, i can die peacefully. slavik languages are slay!! stan russian for kisses from cats. 'WHY MY BABY BUILT LIKE THAT GIGA CHAD?' nature is a mystery. hope this cats doing good. 'maybe that means russians are secretly filipino and filipinos are secretly russian' omg how do you know??? actually all our frogs came to you in search of some warmth and yours came to cool down a bit. international frog exchange. 'i love making obnoxiously long titles' so i cant send you messages bc there are too many symbols?? 'i believe in the power of words' respectable. 'you hate literature?' not that i hate-hate it but i definately dont love it. and i hate it sometimes. bc literature isnt just reading things and appreciating it and all... idk what about your all literature but here we have a joke about blue curtains not being just curtains but a symbol of sky and all (usually its stated this way but its not a stable meme). but yeah. i just love you. no, i do like your fics and all. but i really like your personality. i like when people are emotional. maybe its bc im too dry myself but doesnt matter. i love your emotions and your (straight)forwardness, your kind and warm attitude and welcoming image, your intelligence and the way of thinking, the way you see fanfiction too (i still hate first person pov, its just for you). maybe its a little overwhelming for me sometimes but its not your problem. its not really a problem even. so yeah. i just love you <з i mean i wake up and come here obviously not to read a new fic, i come for you. tumblr didnt let me finish it again so... parts 2 are back, look for it ig. see you soon<з
GMORN MUNING <3
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THE WAY I HAD TO PAUSE BECAUSE I BUSTED OUT THE LOUDED AW AT THIS KITTY LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK!!! T_T
i feel like this floof actually when i go out...
naUR COS OF THE SNOW T_T that sO CUTE BUT SO T_T SAD HAHAHAAHAH BUT SO SO CUT E HAHHAA
OMG I WANT TO HEAR YOU SO BAD TT
I ACTUALLY PUT THE THING IN A PERIOD (.) HAHAHAHA BUT I DIDNT SAY I THOUGHT YOUD FIND IT DONT LOOK FOR IT NOW I REMOVED IT HAHAAHAHAHHHHAHHAHHAHah
'im going to answer your ask privately' you can do this??? but cant see the time an ask was sent.
HHAHAHAH SO REAL HAHAAH yeah but ig it only works on asks out of anon. still cant see the time
TT ok i dont know how this thing works. i absolutely encourage you to link your cover publicly!! but if you want me too, i can send you ask non-anon. let me know. but im sure your talent is worth of all people seeing it.
i just T_T dont want people who read my smut to know my face AHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHH and i dont want people who know my face know i write smut and read so many unhinged stories T_T HAHAHAHAHAH its not a talent thing. its that HAHAHAH shhh im hannah montana, singer by day, smut writer by night HAHAHHAH
actually, ive read not a bunch but 2-3 fics about dream and well i also frequently judge a book by its cover (or face). so ig i understand his character enough.
omg ur such a judger T_T HAHAAHAH maybe try not to judge people by their face T_T because im sure if you met me irl you wouldnt like me because a lot of people think im mean because well because im pretty T_T [cries in conflicted hot person] HSL:DHFSHD ON A REAL LEVEL THOUGH ITS SO WEIRD TO TALK ABOUT because ???????????????????? like i used to believe i was ugly AF then people would say i was pretty T_T but then ????? IDK and then when i started to believe i was pretty T_T idk thered be times were i feel weird accepting it because ??? people are uncomfy over the fact i am self aware?? and just my face and my height in general but yeah /: [cries in conflicted hot person]
hope you can perform next time too!! im sure youll be the best! and it doesnt really matter what makes you feel like the main character but the very feeling, so good for you. the most important is that you enjoyed it, hottie-cutie)
<3 <;3 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 i wanna perform the song i made a cover to so badly. im a rock star. everyone in school should know it.🤟🤟🤟 thank you for believing in me my star <3
'that means manual labor is just not for you' not really tbh. the main reason of my irritation was the story about men being disappointment which tumblr made me delete. actually, i feel pretty calm about and during manual labour. i love cleaning up, sewing, knitting, gardening and so on. i dont mind working with the hands. but the stories.
omg slayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy she said im good at everything
1) in the 8th grade the only 2 girls (me and my classmate) were carrying a sofa that was as heavy as a concrete slab while the boys were just staring. and we both had our periods. yeh feminism and all but?? they werent even doing smth?? we could even carry it together but they sucked. men = disappointment. maybe it has smth with my trust issues.
nah feminism is empowering women not letting them do all the work men could have helped doing 👎👎👎👎 men are L maybe you shudda tried askin em too either way their so L for that
2) every time i was working in summer during the summer break in school, the job required digging, carrying heavy staff, gardening and all. and while me and the other girls were digging like we're not teenagers, the boys were just standing next to a woman who's planting a tree. herself. pretending to help her but actually not doing a thing and then laughing at us and saying we had done nothing. sorry if it seems to angry or too off-topic or anything. these just really annoyed me.
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
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not too angry or too off topic. men are L. EW. id be so annoyed too L LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
'WE GOT 2 FREE MEALS' OMG SLAY!! free food is the most delicious!!
'i now think russian is the superior language because of this 😔✊' YEY ig my mission is finished, i can die peacefully. slavik languages are slay!! stan russian for kisses from cats.
LOL STAN RUSSIAN FOR KISS FORM CATS AHAHHAHHH. PRIVET lol thats all i know i used to have a russian twitter mutual i think her name was anya anastasya i loved her so much i didnt even think of saying goodbye when i deleted my twitter i miss her she was so sweet T_T her fav food was fried egg T_T she so basic T_T but i love her
'WHY MY BABY BUILT LIKE THAT GIGA CHAD?' nature is a mystery. hope this cats doing good.
T_T same i hope this cat good
'maybe that means russians are secretly filipino and filipinos are secretly russian' omg how do you know??? actually all our frogs came to you in search of some warmth and yours came to cool down a bit. international frog exchange.
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i dont even like frogs but KWOA makes them so cute. i dont like cold blooded animals T_T
'i love making obnoxiously long titles' so i cant send you messages bc there are too many symbols??
yes. (:
'i believe in the power of words' respectable.
AHAHAHHA
'you hate literature?' not that i hate-hate it but i definately dont love it. and i hate it sometimes. bc literature isnt just reading things and appreciating it and all... idk what about your all literature but here we have a joke about blue curtains not being just curtains but a symbol of sky and all (usually its stated this way but its not a stable meme).
HAHAHAA NO I KNOW THIS MEME ABOUT MAKING LITERATURE DEEPER THAN IT IS HAHAHHAHAHHA i understand what you mean about hating it then HAHAHHA it;s like when i say i hate my favs even tho i love them HAHAHHHA
but yeah. i just love you.
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no, i do like your fics and all. but i really like your personality. i like when people are emotional. maybe its bc im too dry myself but doesnt matter. i love your emotions and your (straight)forwardness, your kind and warm attitude and welcoming image, your intelligence and the way of thinking,
OMG people say russians are cold so T_T HAHAHHAAH I WILL WARM YOU WITH MY WARMTH HAHAHHAHH
the way you see fanfiction too (i still hate first person pov, its just for you).
HASHAAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH
maybe its a little overwhelming for me sometimes but its not your problem. its not really a problem even. so yeah. i just love you <з
<3 <3 <3 i love you <3 <3
i mean i wake up and come here obviously not to read a new fic, i come for you. tumblr didnt let me finish it again so... parts 2 are back, look for it ig. see you soon<з
im honored you come to tumblr for me. i have to go out of the house so ill reply to your p2 later T_T ill try to reply before doing my assignments
xxx
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comphersjost · 4 years ago
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Into the Storm ➸ Rafe Cameron
idk, i kept trying to post this, kept getting deleted, im high, idk if this is good, sorry for mistakes and stuff lmao also i promised scout i would post something tonight so this is for u bb @ptersparkers​
Rafe’s been helping you get over John B, and when you're worried it’s going too far, you try to disappear into a storm, not knowing that Rafe would follow you anywhere.
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warnings: smut, angst, storms, leetle beet john b x reader, rafe saying the L word
as usual: masterlist
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[oh and this is a song fic so go ahead and listen to into the storm by banners while you read!]
If you're far from home Broken on a lonely road Helpless when the sky explodes Then I need you to know When you're 'round the bend Close your eyes and count to ten I'll walk through hell and back again
Anywhere you go If your strength is falling down I'll be right beside you now And I'll keep you warm Yeah, I'll keep you warm
You felt like you were melting under the heat of Rafe’s gaze. You avoided looking at him at all costs, trying to stall the inevitable while looking for an escape plan. Rain poured down outside, the storm slowly getting worse. You and John B had surfed the surge just that morning. 
John B. 
You didn't even want to think about him right now, with the way Rafe was eyeing you like a predator. You needed to get out of here. You had to make it home before Rafe got to you because you both knew you couldn't resist him. He was addicting. 
You see your opening, weaving through the crow of people to slip out of the back door, heading for the guest house. You figured if you could hide in there long enough for the storm to pass and Rafe to stop looking for you, then you were good to go. 
“Come on, princess,” Rafe groans, annoyed as the door opens. “The guest house? It's like you're begging me to come find you, but felt like torturing me on the way.” You roll your eyes and wordlessly open one of the cabinets by the oven. 
“Here,” you say softly, tossing Rafe a towel. “Was just about to watch a movie, you can join me if you want. I'm gonna change.” 
You don't give Rafe a chance to speak before you've disappeared into the guest bedroom. When you come out, wearing a hoodie of Rafe’s and a pair of his boxers, he stares for longer than he means to, mouth open. 
“You're drooling,” you tease. Rafe brings his hand to his face, eyes narrowing and you when he realizes he wasn't actually drooling. Your voice drops to a murmur. “Stop staring.” 
You grab a soft fluffy blanket from the closet, avoiding Rafe’s eyes. 
“Baby, I could look at you forever,” he finally states, his tone serious. 
“Stop staring, Rafe,” you repeat again, softer this time. Weaker, giving in, tired of fighting. 
“I can't,” he whispers. “I'd follow you anywhere, like I followed you into the storm.”
I'll follow you into the storm Follow you into the storm I will, I will Be with you when you call Carry you to the dawn I will, I will Follow you into the storm
“Rafe…”
“Tell me you don't feel the same!” he shouts, his breathing uneven, voice quieting once more. “Tell me, that you don't miss me the second we’re apart, tell me that you can think clearly when I’m around because shit, Y/N, when you're around I can't remember my own name. Fuck, Y/N, tell me you don't love me, and I'll turn around right now and leave you alone.” 
“I - I can't,” you whisper. 
“Can't what?” 
“I can't tell you that I don't love you,” you confessed, letting him step closer to you, his nose brushing yours. “It’s just not true, Rafe.” 
“Say it then,” he challenges you. 
“I can't say it either.” 
“Say it.” 
“I can't.” 
“Say it.” 
“I CAN’T!” 
You feel like you want to cry when Rafe makes you look at him. “I love you,” he mumbles softly against your lips, giving you a feather light peck along with it. He can see it in your eyes that you want to say it back, but you just can't. So he scans your body, he hasn't seen you since the weekend before. He spots a set of three jagged parallel lines on your neck. 
“Woah, hey, what happened?” he coos, stroking the angry red lines softly, kissing your temple. 
“This rock came out of nowhere this morning when I surfed the surge,” you explained, Rafe’s concerned eyes trained on you. “I don't even know where it came from, but it knocked me off my board, John B had to help me get back to shore before I bled too much.”
You feel Rafe tense against you, and you wonder what it is that you could've said wrong until-
“John B,” Rafe says slowly, as if having been reminded of your friendship with him, and up until you met Rafe 6 months ago, the massive crush you had on him. “Right.” 
No pogue-on-pogue macking was the rule, so when Rafe caught you making heart eyes at John B across the Boneyard one day, he offered to help you out. He'd help you forget your feelings for your best friend and he “well, I get to bang one of, if not, the most eligible bachelorette on this island” Rafe had said. You'd laughed at him then, throwing a shell you'd found in the sand at him. 
“Okay, Mr. Kook Prince.” 
“That's Mr. Kook King to you.”
But that wasn't all, when you were with them, Rafe most left you and the Pogues alone, shooting you longing looks when no one was looking. And now you were here, with him in front of you, having just confessed his love. 
“You don't have anything to worry about Rafe,” you say to him, looking up into his eyes and placing your hands on his chest. “You know how I feel about you, even if-” you falter. But you know Rafe knows “-even if things aren't...totally, gone yet, with John B. You know me, Rafe and I-” Your eyes squeeze shut. You can't. 
“I know.” Rafe kisses your nose, then your lips. Pulling back too looks at you as you open your eyes. “I love you too.” 
“I'm sorry,” you whisper. 
“Baby,” Rafe’s hand tangles in your hair, bringing you in for a kiss. “You-” 
BANG! 
You flinch at the noise, instinctively retreating into Rafe’s arms while you scan your surroundings for the origin of the noise. When you come up empty, you look up at Rafe’s face and watch as it's plunged into darkness. 
“Fuck,” you say quietly, still shaking in Rafe’s arms, “Looks like the party’s over. What happens now? Don't you guys have generators? Who's gonna take care of it?” 
Rafe laughs. “Well normally, I would take care of it, but I’d rather stay here with you.” His lips are on yours before you can object, distracting you so deliciously that you could wait til morning for the generators.
So violently Held captive by your gravity Hold your breath and wait for me Where the wind may blow Through night and dark Through fantasies that fall apart Know you're always in my heart Anywhere you go
You're like a drug Rafe can't quit. You're worse than the cocaine. At least coke is predictable. 
But you, he keeps coming back to you like you're the center of gravity and he can't stray too far away from you. You love John B. You’ve loved John B, for so long. And Rafe knows it. 
But when he's kissing you, when he's fucking you, when his hands are wrapped around your throat, Rafe got to pretend you loved him. And now, when he pulls you into his lap on the couch, he can't help but feel the hope bubble to the surface. 
The way you looked at him had only happened in fantasies, late at night, or when he was daydreaming about you. 
If your strength is falling down I'll be right beside you now And I'll keep you warm Yeah, I'll keep you warm Oh, be with you when you call Carry you till the dawn Follow you into the storm Anywhere that you go Anywhere that you go I'll follow you into the storm Follow you into the storm Oh, be with you when you call Carry you to the dawn Follow you into the storm
It's when Rafe is fucking you up against the wall that you say it. It’s then you know that you would go to any length for him. He was it for you. 
“I love you, Rafe!” 
The words are enough to make him gasp, fucking into you impossibly harder and deeper until you cum helplessly. Rafe groans as he fuck you into the wall, surely leaving bruises on your back and your hips. 
“Say it again,” he growls. 
“I love you,” you whimper softly, grasping onto his shoulders as the tip of his cock nudges your g-spot. 
“Again.” 
“I love you!” this time you cry out as Rafe adds a sharp thrust to his word. 
“Say it again, Y/N, please, say it like you mean it.” Rafe is begging now, hand falling to your clit to make you cum on his cock again. 
“I do mean it, Rafe,” you plead, turning Rafe’s jaw so he was looking you in the eye. “I mean it. I love you, Rafe Cameron.” 
Rafe stares at you for a few moments, mouth open dumbly, before his face contorts as he groans and hunches over you. You whimper and writhe against the wall and the feeling of Rafe fucking his cum into you, arching your back when he throws you into orgasm as well. His lips close around your nipple as both of you start to come down. 
Later, when your breathing and heartbeat had slowed to a normal pace, on the soft mattress of the guest house bed, Rafe speaks again. 
“I would follow you into any storm,” he whispers into the dark room, eyes trained on the ceiling as his arms tighten around you and bring you closer to his chest. “I would follow you out to sea in the middle of a god damn hurricane, Y/N.” 
You're silent for a few minutes, Rafe almost thinks you've fallen asleep. 
“I would follow you into any storm too, Rafe,” you murmur in his ear, kissing his cheek softly. “I just didn't know it until today. Thank you for following me today Rafe.” 
Rafe turns his head to look at you. 
“Now that it’s all out in the open and stuff does this mean you're my Kook Queen?”
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cynettic · 4 years ago
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Hey! Can I request the "You wear their shirt that's too big for you the morning after a steamy night "but with childe, kaeya ,albedo and zhongli! Thank you
Reader x Genshin NSFW
Summary - You wear their oversized shirt after a steamy night.
Pairings - Fem!Reader x Childe / Zhongli / Kaeya
Warnings - NSFW so no minors plsss
A/N - Someone else asked for Albedo, so I’ll do that one soon! Hope you liked these ones though :) They’re a bit more descriptive than the last ones I did tho- so be careful if you’re not into that.
Childe
Often busy, the one instance where he has a bit of time before work passes by, and you walk out in his large shirt after a steamy night.
At this time in the morning, he’s sipping his morning coffee, eyeing the newspaper or whatever’s on the table.
That all changes when you walk in.
Of course he notices, and resting his elbow on the couch arm, he simply stares. Doesn’t attempt to hide his flirtatious smile and just waits till you notice his very persisting gaze.
When you turn to him, his eyes give you the sensation you might as well be bare naked.
“When did I ever say you could wear my shirt?”
He says this teasingly ofc, you wearing his shirt is the hottest thing he could’ve seen all day. Makes him very happy.
But you deciding to tease him right back, you pout, tugging at the hem of it. “You dont want me to wear it?” He tries to protest and say it was a joke and not to take it personal, but before he can even start, you pull the shirt off.
You have nothing under the shirt.
Nothing.
Flinging the shirt back into his lap, you turn back to the bedroom. “There you go, I’ll find something else to wear.” You make sure to strut, hips swaying from side to side as you touch the doorframe.
You don’t make it to the bedroom.
Childe’s hand glides down your pelvis, wrapping around your waist as the other pulls your hair back so he can give you a kiss on the neck. You’ve captured his full attention, and even though he has work soon, your antics stirred him up.
God… now all he wants to see is you ‘begging’ for him.
Childe has the awful tendency to turn almost everything into a competition, and you struck a nerve. He will waste no time in letting you know who is in control of who.
He pins your arms above your head, holding your wrists in one hand with ease. But holding you so tightly up, your back is arched, posture straight and breasts perked outwards with the awkward position.
“That was awfully bold of you Y/n~”
His other hand cups your breast, molding it in his hand. Index finger pressing down on your nipple while the rest of his hand rubs your tits in a down and up motion. You sink into the feeling, a content sigh leaving your lips as you lean into his touch.
Still sore from yesterday, Childe certainly wasnt gentle or merciful, and this contact is softly blissful compared to yesterday.
Till he pinches your little nipple in his hand, twisting it slowly and hearing you whine in annoyance.
Instead of moving onto the next breast, his hand moves down, gloves brushing against your stomach and your hips. Until its rested on your inner thighs, and he’s just caressing and stroking the skin of your thigh.
His black gloves are everything.
You unconsciously press your legs together, mewling at the sensation so close to your heat. You try to lean further into his hand so he can rub against your throbbing core, but his hand capturing your wrists keeps you firm, not letting you move an inch.
Childe moves teasingly slow.
His gloved finger rubs against your clit ever so softly, pressing deeper against it and then pulling away completely.
“C-Childe…”
“Hmm? Speak up Y/n.”
He adds a second finger, but continues only to rub your pussy. A torturous sensation that makes you buck your hips in desperation to feel his fingers sliding in.
“Childe… please.”
You speak louder this time, and he rubs harder.
“Please what? You’ve got to be more specific Y/n.”
He loves the way he has complete and utter control over you, your reactions, the noises and expressions you make. That even if you’d had the audacity to expose yourself and strut away, he still had control. That in this battle, he’d won.
“Stick your fingers into me,” you groaned out, louder than the previous sentence. “Please- please…”
His gloved finger poked at the tip of your needy hole, rubbing around the edge just until your eyes watered with frustration, and you tried to grind against the sensation. Again unable to with his hold on your wrists.
“P-please!”
It was only when you were begging that he shoved his finger in ruthlessly, pushing in and out. Your legs rubbed together, thighs pressing tightly around his hand as he added a second finger, and you were left gasping and moaning out his name.
When he added a third finger, your knees were trembling and it was only his grip on your wrists and the hand buried in your pussy that kept you standing. He leaned into your neck, his breath fanning your ear when he asked you who you belonged to.
“Y-you…” you breathlessly answered, coming close to your climax with every thrust of his gloved fingers. Pumping up into that G spot so hard that it left you crying out.
And then he pulled out his fingers, loosening the grip on your wrists.
“Good.”
Trembling and writhing just for him, he’d leave you bare and needy. Not letting you climax with him until he came back home from work.
Punishment for trying to tempt him earlier.
He licked your juices from his gloves, sucking on them and lapping them with his tongue. Just for you of course, laying on the ground whining and wet, so close to your climax yet stopped at the heat of the moment.
With a big wide grin, he waves his hand in a goodbye, grabbing his bag from the corner of the room before heading to the door. Fulfilled, watching you beg for him and shamelessly admit that you were his was the perfect start to his morning, and of course your revenge for teasing him earlier.
“See you after work Y/n~!” And with a wink he’s off.
Zhongli
For some reason, after a steamy night with Zhongli, the morning left you sensitive.
Not only physically, but especially mentally. To a point where getting up with the aching throb of your thighs was just enough to send you over the edge and sobbing.
You head to the kitchen, Zhongli’s shirt draped over your figure. He’s of course sitting in his rocking chair, reading glasses on as he scans something that he’s reading. Probably one of Liyue’s historical books.
You heat up some pancakes, planning on making the two of you a nice breakfast to start the day off. But grabbing the maple syrup, after opening the lid and stepping forward to spread it on the pancakes, your foot slid on something slippery on the floor, and you’re sent tumbling back.
Zhongli is leaning over you in seconds.
But the fall isnt the issue, and with the maple syrup in your hand, the bottle had tipped into the inside of Zhongli’s shirt, the one you were wearing, dripping into his shirt and onto your body. You’d managed to set it straight, but not after maple syrup was sent streaming down your chest and down your stomach.
“Im sorry…”
Tears gather at your eyes, and you try to wipe them away before Zhongli can see. Nothing was going right today, and you just wanted a distraction, something to keep your mind off of your emotional state.
“Itrs alright dear… would you like me to prepare a bath for you?” Zhongli is so soft and kind as he offers his help, thumb stroking your cheek as he stares into your eyes.
You dont want a bath.
Even with maple syrup everywhere on your body, sticky, you don’t want to leave the floor. A sob breaks past your lips, and you shake your head. “No… I just want it to go away…” your hands are shaking, and you slowly remove Zhongli’s shirt from your body, the maple syrup clinging to your form.
His eyes trail over the gooey mess you seem to be in, and he takes his shirt back, unsure of what to do. As the geo archon, theres not much he can do about the maple syrup, and his insides twist when hearing you sob.
He presses a kiss to your forehead and slowly trails it to your lips, satisfied when it seems to calm you down. You push him closer, until his head is on the same level of your chest, and the maple syrup dripping down your breasts.
Without thinking, he goes to lick it, the sweet taste of maple syrup in his mouth.
He backs away instantly, afraid that the action only saddened you further. But it was the opposite, and you stared at him wide eyed, tears threatening to spill. With a sniff, you wiped the tears away again, “That… didnt feel bad.” Was all you said.
Zhongli wasnt sure what to make of it, and leaning closer, he only licked the sticky liquid off your cleavage again, listening to the intake of breathing. When he glanced up, you were staring straight at him.
“It felt… nice.”
You were no longer crying, which meant that to Zhongli, he’d done something right. He didnt stop licking there, and dedicating his tongue to wiping every spot of maple syrup on your body, the two of you stayed draped there for a while.
His mouth completely engulfed your breast, tongue swirling around the lengh of it as he sucked in the sticky liquid. Your breathing grew erratic, but every time he’d look up to ask you if you were alright, you’d simply say that it was fine.
Zhongli began to realize that you were really turned on by the time he reached your core, and the maple syrup wasnt the only liquid drenched there. He didnt waste any time in pressing his head into your thighs, knowing from experience that you liked it. And that instead of pain, his tongue gave you pleasure.
So thats what he did, sucking, nipping, and licking every part of your cunt until you were shaking, and your inner thighs were tight against his head.
He would’ve pulled back, but no matter how much he licked your pussy, the sweet taste still coated his tongue everytime, meaning that there was still some maple syrup. It was until his tongue dug into your needy hole that he realized where the sweet taste was coming from.
It only motivated him to get rid of it.
He’d seen your tears, seen how shamed and embarrassed you were to have the sticky liquid all over you. He knew he couldnt get rid of it with his tongue, but if it made you feel better enough to take a bath after, it was worth it.
His hands grabbed the balls of your ass, slowly massaging them against his fingers before using them to thrust his tongue deeper into your wet cunt. Pushing your ass and hips with his large hands and thrusting them towards his head in rhythm with the lapping of his tongue sent you on overdrive.
Your legs were shaking, and instead of gasps, little mewls of pleasure sputtered out of your mouth. Hands tangled in his hair, you felt your eyes roll to the back of your head.
It felt like orgasm after orgasm, Zhongli still pressing his face against your pussy and licking every sweet spot. But there was always more, and you were going numb by the time he pulled away, your body sore and writhing after the intense feeling of pleasure.
“Theres too much,” Zhongli said softly, wiping the sides of his mouth as he stared at your fatigued face. “I could keep going if you’d like-? “
Your mood instantly boosted up, and with a chuckle at the poor archons innocent stare, you shrugged. “A-alright, a little bit more I guess…” Even as your core felt numb and your thighs still shook at how tightly you’d been clenching them around Zhongli’s head, the sensation was too good.
With a small smirk, Zhongli dug back down, hands groping your ass again as he sunk into the sensation of your pussy.
Kaeya
You woke up horny.
By the time you walked out of the bedroom with Kaeya’s shirt on, your intentions were very clear. Your boyfriend was sitting on the couch, reading over something that looked like a report for work. You didnt give him the time to think as you plopped down on his lap.
Directly facing him, he seemed surprised as you wore his shirt, sliding in closer to him inch by inch until you could feel the firmness of his dick against you. It was then that he chuckled, realizing what you were getting at.
“Oh? My my Y/n, so daring~”
He only leaned back, setting the report down and putting his hands against the couch to sit back and watch you.
“Now now, dont feel deterred, I want to see you take charge for a change.”
And so you tried.
Grinding your core against his throbbing member, he winced, the ever so calm smirk never leaving his face. So he simply watched, watched as you slowly took his shirt off your body, revealing the form he loved so much. It took all his control not to take you by the arm and carry you to the bed, a second round after last night.
But watching you struggle was oh so much better.
You fumbled with his jean buttons, hands trembling as you slowly slid them down his legs to reveal his giant member. You always had trouble fitting him in, but he always took control and made sure you were ready for him before he thrust into you.
Sliding down his boxers, you gulped, thighs trembling as you positioned his dick above your pussy.
Kaeya only chuckled as you slowly sank down into him, only taking in the tip of him before you whimpered. Your hands came to clench around the buttons of his vest, breaths coming ragged as you tried your best to lower deeper into him.
“Having trouble?”
You wanted to wipe that arrogant look off his face, fill him with pleasure and send him into the same ecstasy youd felt last night. So that he couldnt tease you about it, so that he could look at you evenly and admit that you were just as good as it as he was.
But god he was too big…
You could barely lower yourself any deeper, only reaching quarter way before the your legs shook and your inner thighs squeezed with need. But he was too much, and every little movement sent you into a fit of squeaks and whimpers.
Kaeya’s hands groped your ass, and with a sigh he slowly began to tug you further down. Slow, achingly painfully slow. You grabbed at his wrists, begging him to stop.
“Kaeya… it hurts…” you nearly sobbed, tears threatening to spilled onto your cheeks.
“Alright, I’ll leave it up to you then.”
He removed his hands, but you were now halfway through and pulling out would be just as excruciating as fully embracing him. You were stuck, thighs shaking so badly you had no option but to sink lower, legs threatening to give out on you from the sheer effort.
You mewed and whined when you couldnt stop the slow motion of your cunt taking in Kaeya’s dick. And no matter how you tried to resist and keep your thighs from taking any more of him, they always collapsed and you were back to slowly leaning deeper into him.
Finally, when you’d sank to the bottom and had fully engulfed his dick, your face was tear stained, sniffles escaping your lips. But Kaeya didnt move, staying still and refusing to help you. It took everything you had to slide up his length and collapse back on him.
Up and down, up and down, the process was torturous but you could feel the pleasure building up in your chest everytime you took him in. Even Kaeya started to enjoy it as your pace quickened, your breasts bouncing up everytime you fell down back into him.
“Kaeya…” you whimpered through lidded lashes as your hands gripped his chest. “K-Kaeya…”
He came at the same time you did, and you were left sitting on his cock more tired than before. Inner thighs trembling, your walls clenched around him. Holding back a moan, you tried to lift yourself off of him, finding yourself unable to do so.
“K-Kaeya…”
With a chuckle, he finally leaned forward. His hands gripped the soft flesh of your hips, and rubbing the swollen bruises of your inner thighs, he lifted you up, only to send you back down into him.
“My turn Y/n~”
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hoshi-y · 2 years ago
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Natsuhiko x Sakura doing the things in Natsuhiko's fantasy in "After School Hanako kun"??
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Fantasy Date
Natsuhiko x Sakura
Genre : Fluff
Characters : Natsuhiko Hyuuga, Sakura Nanamine
TW : None
A/N : when I tell you I cackled when I saw this photo I really did HAHAHA, my man has the wildest imaginations 😭😭
Anyways, I kinda yknow wanted to make it funny
I HOPE YOU ENJOY 💗 💗 💗
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I want to marry you, M'lady.
Would it be the end of the world if Sakura DID accept Natsuhikos date proposals?
Yes, it would be/j
Natsuhiko asked Sakura on a date to the beach and she said of course
He was over the moon
Jumped higher than the cow who jumped over the moon my guy was that happy
They planned the date to a nice beach resort on saturday
He counted the days
Would groan and complain in the morning on why it isnt saturday yet
But when Saturday was right around the corner he could not get any rest because
He didn't get any sleep just saying lol
So when it was time to pack up the car and leave to pick up his lady
He went faster than sonic, finished getting ready, packing his bags into the car in an hour
Since he did all of these too early he had to play another waiting game
He's just sitting inside the car, hands on the steering wheel, with a huge smile on his face at 5 in the morning
If I was neighbors with him I would've called the mental hospital
He was supposed to pick Sakura up an 6am so when they leave it won't be too hot
He was already outside her house
at 5:30 in the morning
Sakura starred outside the semi-dark street at a beaming Natsuhiko outside her house, She sighed as she opened the door and walked up to him
"Natsuhiko.. It's early in the morning, Our call time was 6pm" She rubbed her forehead
"I was excited to see you M'lady~" Natsuhiko flirted which Sakura ignored him "Well, My stuff is already ready anyways, Help me put them in the car" Natsuhiko jumped out faster than a rabbit which startled Sakura a little "Natsuhiko calm down"
"OF COURSE—" Sakura smacked him "Its 5am Natsuhiko, People are still sleeping or trying to enjoy the morning." Natsuhiko nodded and followed Sakura inside her house
Sakura loaded all her things in the car
In just a minute
Why? well you already know why
anyways, they were on the road
The journey to the beach resort was pretty smooth
No traffic
No harsh sun
And they got there really early, not many people were on the shore nor on the pool of the hotel they were staying at
so Natsuhiko and Sakura decided to check in their room to walk around and explore
"Your room will be on 307, if the two of you have any complaints or concerns please refer to the landline inside the room, Thank you for checking in!" The receptionist handed Natsuhiko their room keycard and went to the elevator to get to their room
The elevator they boarded had glass behind them letting you see what was outside
"Their pool here is huuggee" Natsuhiko peaked over "We should eat first, we haven't eaten ever since we left" The elevator halted to a stop at their destined floor, they got off holding their bags and scouted for their room
once they've settled their things in they went back downstairs
Since it's still early in the morning, they caught up with the hotels breakfast buffet
Sakura ate a light breakfast
while Natsuhiko went HAM on the bacon and eggs
"Natsuhiko no one is gonna take the bacon and eggs from you.." She eyed him from across the table, He was eating the bacon and eggs like someone was REALLY gonna take it
"It's so good tho—" He suddenly chocked as he immediately grabbed the glass of orange beside him and drank it all
"Eat slowly, this vacation might turn into a hospital trip." She went back to reading while drinking tea as Natsuhiko scratched his head
After they finished eating they went back to their hotel room to change and walk around
Explored every area
Natsuhiko would flirt with Sakura from time to time using their surroundings
"M'lady, are a flower? cause I'd always stop in my tracks and stare in awe at your beauty~" He said as he eyed Sakura looking at a flower bush, She turned her head as he saw the tip of her ears go slightly red
He cheered to himself that he made her blush
Afternoon rolled in, They went over to the indoor pool to swim around
Sakura wasn't wearing a 2 piece rather a rush guard
not like Natsuhiko was disappointed
he sulked behind a slide
"Man all that swimming around made me hungry" Natsuhiko said as he place the towel over his shoulders
Sakura got up from the pool and grab her towel "We should go eat, there's this food bazaar nearby" Sakura said as she stared off to the direction of the bazaar
"I heard they have tasty takoyaki and the line up was long"
"Well, we better get going before alot of people start lining up" Sakura started grabbing her things as Natsuhiko followed
Well the line ups were crazy
But they managed to get theirselves takoyaki and went to other food stalls to satisfy their hunger
they even tried out some bazaar games
Sakura's hands were full that day
full of prizes
the energetic and happy afternoon has passed and it was now evening
Natsuhiko was thinking of bringing Sakura to this fancy restaurant nearby
He could barely make a reservation earlier cause of how many people were reserving
But he manage to get them a table
Natsuhiko sat on the bed waiting for Sakura to finish up, He was anxious, He wanted to ask her THE question
the sound of the bathroom door opening made him snap out of his thoughs, he looked up and its like an angel was sent down for him
Sakura wore a cute dark green dress with an oversized white cardigan, black flats, and her hair braided into a bun.
He might've been starring at her for awhile cause she was now feeling uncomfortable with what she was wearing "Do I.. look weird?" She asked which he immediately swatted his hands anf shaking his head with a big bluch on his face
"NO, no you look.. stunning M'lady~" Natsuhiko stood up and kissed the back of her hand "Shall we?" He gestured to the door "We shall." Sakura wrapped her arm around his and off they went to the restaurant
the restaurant was fancy as HELL
Natsuhiko was a rich boy no wonder he could afford it all
They got a table on the balcony with a really great view
They ate while they talked, laughed
and most importantly for Natsuhiko flirting
The waiter poured both of them a glass of wine as they thanked him, They both picked up their glass and made cheers (is that what you call it..)
"I had alot of fun, Natsuhiko" Sakura said as she took a sip of her wine "Im glad you did, I saw how stressed you were so why not the beach ya?" he chuckled
"I also want to ask you something.." He placed his glass down and looked at Sakura in a serious manner
"What is it?" Sakura also put her glass down to give Natsuhiko her full attention
"I... I want to um.." He cleared his throat as he fidget in his seat, His mind cleared when he heard Sakura giggle and felt a hand ontop of his which made him explode "You wanted to ask me out, right?"
"Y-yeah! I've.. liked you for awhile.. well you already know that"
"Well, I accept"
He sat there utterly shocked
"W-WAIT YOU WILL?" Sakura nodded as she smiled a little "I've feelings you too Natsuhiko, and I was on telling you too when we get here" Natsuhiko smiled as he held her hand tight
"I'll take good care of you.." He kissed her hand, and enjoyed the rest of the night
(Meanwhile...)
We have once again come back to the school and into the broadcasting room
Tsukasa, Mitsuba, and Sakura were watching one of Natsuhiko's weird fantasies with Sakura, Again. Man they should make a whole series for him and his fantasies
"AHH NO FAIR He took you to the beach in his fantasy and we're not there!" Tsukasa pouted as he pointed at the cartoon bubble he made with his Kokujoudai.
Sakura sighed heavily as he rubbed her forehead "I'm gonna get fresh air. I don't want to watch this anymore." Sakura got up and walked out of the broadcasting room
Mitsuba sat there with a weirded out look till it turned into a terrified-disgust face
"AGGHH TURN IT OFF TURN IT OFF! I DO NOT WANT TO SEE THEM KISS THAT LOOKS SO WRONG!!" Mitsuba cover his eyes with his sweater as Tsukasa did not move and continued to watch
"Hey i think they're gonna make porn!"
"B-B-BE QUIET AND DON'T SAY THAT!!"
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SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG, I really wasnt feeling well the past few days 😞 and i had a sudden burst of ideas in the middle of the night
I HOPED YOU ENJOYED 💗 im gonna go sleept and get mi mi mi's
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dcptcnx · 3 years ago
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jjk men on period pain comfort (+ megumi, and itadori)
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characters: Satoru Gojo, Choso Kamo, Suguru Geto, Nanami Kento, Megumi Fushiguro, Itadori Yuuji, Toji Fushiguro
a/n: adding the 2 boys bc this isnt an adult topic (if you think periods are cringe, grow up) plus if they were to date someone who goes thru this, they’d want to help. i’m also not doin sukuna bc like. let’s be real-
hope you enjoy!
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Satoru Gojo •
he may not catch on right away (sometimes)
yes he sees all, but sometimes he doesn’t.
“Toru, can you get me some ibuprofen?”
“You okay?”
you never ask for medication bc you think toughening it out is good, but its evident that you’re in discomfort
when he goes to the bathroom, that’s when he realizes, as he sees the evidence of such in the garbage can.
will silently comfort you, knows his touch is cold, so he’ll wear gloves to rub your tummy, until he feels they are warm enough
when you’re sleeping, he’ll step out to the closest convenience store to buy you sweets that he read would work on calming the cramps you might be enduring
When he returns, she quietly slide into bed, and gently pull you close against him, his hands softly rubbing your belly and back hoping the cramps won’t be so violent on you the next day.
Choso Kamo •
i swear this man can smell when your blood becomes more potent or whatever 
(joking)
anyway, your change in behavior throws him off, bc you were just all bubbly and happy and now suddenly all hermit and cold.
he knows right away that its your time of month, and is already looking in the cabinets for any snack you may had to help.
he knows that its a literal blood loss, and so he does have you eat foods that help with iron regeneration and such.
bananas! he gets really happy when you ask for a banana and just admires you when you’re cutely eating the fruit.
“Thank you, Cho!” 
he snuggles you and makes sure you’re comfy and such and when you dash to the bathroom to change your tampon/pad, he doesn't hold you hostage bc its important.
Megumi Fushiguro •
gets flustered when he learns why you suddenly brushed him off for the day
Nobara had to tell him. and she laughed when his face turned a dark hue of red.
he doesn’t understand the severity of menstrual cramps, and is all “she’s tough, so why is she not here?”
he doesn’t like when nobara explains things so he took the time to look it up, and that’s when he understands why you’re absent from their outing to the mall.
he ends up feeling bad that he practically called you a coward, and is texting you if you need anything or if you’d like for him to bring back anything.
you tell him no; he still buys you things like sweets, fruits that he read helped with calming cramps, and bought you a new fuzzy blanket because he already read that heat can help too.
“Aw, ‘Gumi, you didn’t have to...i’m okay, really!”
he opens the new blanket and cuddles you in bed which leads to you both falling asleep due to the radiating warmth.
Suguru Geto •
such a gentleman.
can tell when you’re about to start before you do. 
so he’s subtle about it all.
you’d be cooking dinner, and he’d sneak behind you and softly caressing your stomach, gently rocking you side to side.
“Sugu? what’s the occasion?”
“You’ll thank me soon.” was all he said, which confused you so much.
lo and behold, later that night, your period came, and the cramps were painful.
It came while you both were asleep, and luckily you caught it before you bled thru onto the sheets, but Suguru was already up the moment you jolted out.
“Sorry Su, I didn’t mean to wake you..” you’d yawn making your way back to bed, before being pulled into his arms.
he shushes you and pulls you back into bed, making sure you’re comfortable before he dares adjusts himself. 
he rubs your tummy as you drift back too sleep and until he follows suit.
he does wake up before you in the morning, and quietly brings you a glass of water, a few chocolate kisses, and a banana bc these things helped on the cramping and such.
Nanami Kento •
much like suguru, he’s prepared more than you, but barely.
you are also prepared, making sure to pack extra products since you knew you’d be out away from home.
at first, you didn’t have cramps, and you thought it’d be smooth sailing.
oh boy were you WRONG.
halfway thru lunch, you suddenly set your fork down, and made such a disgusted face, Nanami watched your every move.
“You getting sick?”
You shake your head no, only to sigh in relief when the sudden cramp goes away after a couple minutes.
ofc Nanami knows its your cramps, and so he keeps a close eye on your during your lunch to make sure you didn’t need anything quickly.
he had plans on taking you shopping after lunch, but he decided that getting you home was best.
once home, you immediately rush to the bathroom as your cramps made your tummy hurt and you felt like puking. (thankfully you didn’t)
You’d come out to see your sweatpants, and a jacket laid out for you on the bed, causing you to smile since you knew He set them for you.
“Thank you, Nanamin. You’re the best.”
your night consisted of gentle cuddles on the couch, sweets, heated blankets!
Toji Fushiguro •
lets be real, he doesnt care 
nah, he knows the cycles, he has a kid HELLO
he kinda belittles you when you complain about the pain.
“You’re a baby, it’s probably not that bad.”
ah but that was his famous last words.
he knew you were tough, and wouldn’t let pain keep you from anything, so to see you in the bathroom, hovering over the toilet bc you’re afraid you’re gonna puke, he softens.
he doesn’t try to pull you out of the bathroom until you’re ready, but he does tie your hair back, and rub your back to hopefully ease your pain level.
i believe he’s a good cook, so he would look up a good meal to help nausea down, and something that you hopefully would like.
as he’s cooking, he does smile when he sees you trot down the hall into the kitchen to fetch yourself some water.
“’M okay, Toji, thank you for tying my hair though.” you’d speak before drinking your water, and walking to sit on the couch.
dinner is finished and he brings your food to you, and he sighs when he sees you eating and not grimacing through your tummy pain.
he does cuddle you to sleep, his big, warm palm comforting your belly.
he does, however, move that hand to your back during the night too. he cant stay asleep long enough bc he’s worried you’ll wake up to go to the bathroom and actually get sick.
back rubs + belly rubs
Itadori Yuuji •
soft BOY!!!!
immediately worried when you text him saying you’re having bad cramps
so he’s at the store buying both of your favorite sweets and snacks cause he plans to pamper you and treat you RIGHT!
He expects you to be in your bed, so when he enters and sees you on the couch, he kinda freaks.
“You should be resting!”
“I’m not sick babe, it’ll be okay.”
he’s so gentle with you, making sure he doesnt get too excited and accidentally hit your tummy since he’s lying on your lap.
he notices you’re dozing during the 3rd movie you both started, so he gently gets up, and picks your up to take you to bed.
You kinda stay awake long enough to go to the bathroom to properly change your product out, before standing, arms out, until yuuji scoops you back up.
he’s able to put the same movie back on, and you’re already out cold as his hands continues to gently caress your belly, and having your body against his and resting peacefully, it sends wave of sleep through him.
he passes out holding you, movie still playing.
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peterparkersnose · 3 years ago
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the witch and the spider chapter 8- “Please move in with me”
tasm!peter x reader
tasm/nwh!peter x reader
NO WAY HOME SPOILERS
After you and your Uncle, Doctor Strange, closed the portal on the statue of liberty life went back to almost normal. Besides the fact that the two other worldly Peter's were trapped in your universe.
*this is probably the farthest thing from anything canon
   *Tony Stark, Black Widow, young Steve Rogers, Vision, Loki are all alive
      *Timeline is completely off for some facts
word count: 2.1k
warnings: implications of sex, descriptions of sex, awkwardness involving sexual themes
a/n hi this chapter isnt my favorite, but it gives a good description of how Y/N and Peter’s relationship is moving. hope you are having a lovely day/evening
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Waking up with Peter had to be one of the best thing's you had ever encountered. His usually neat hair was all fluffy and disorganized. He also had the need to use the restroom first thing when he woke up. You were woken up early by Peter catapulting himself over you to run to your bathroom. You tried to ignore the strangely loud stream of pee, praying he put down the seat.
You turned over in bed once you heard the sink turn off, clutching your bedsheets tight to your chest. Peter walked out in just his tee shirt and his boxers. "Someone had to pee," you laughed. Peter sprung over you again, pulling you in his arms. You gave a tiny yelp, surprised by his actions.
"Your even more beautiful in the mornings," Peter yawned, brushing a piece of messy hair out of your face. You brought yourself closer to him, putting your head on his chest. You could hear his heart beating. "I wish I could stay like this forever," you sighed. Peter held you tighter. "Hey, doesn't your job start again tomorrow?" he asked. You sighed. "Yep. Can't wait for those early morning training sessions again." you said sarcastically. "I just wish I could do this every morning."
Peter moved his head back and looked at you. "What if you could?" he asked. You cocked your head. "What are you suggesting, Parker?" you smirked. "I dunno, I think you know what I'm suggesting. Strange."
You got up closer to Peter's ear and whispered "Please move in with me,"
You kissed his cheek and moved back to your place against his chest. "Deal."
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When Peter 3 came to this universe, the only thing he had on him was his phone and his suit. He was given clothes and emergency ID's from Tony, but he had almost no belongings.
"What would you like to do today?" he asked, pacing around your apartment. The aroma of pancakes filled the kitchen. "Do you have any actual- things?" you asked him. "Only what I came with. And what Stark gave me," he said, pulling a wallet out of his coat hanging on a hook. The wallet consisted of a Stark issued credit card, an ID, an insurance card, and a card to enter his apartment.
"If anyone pulls me over, I am Adam Webb, native of Connecticut." he laughs, showing you his forged ID. "Stark thinks he's funny. Webb?" "Oh," Peter chuckled. "I didn't even realize that."
"Seriously though, let's get you a few things today. Make you feel more at home."
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"This is so sweet," Peter says, exiting the chauffer's car. "You'll never miss the subway. Trust me," you chuckled.
"See you in 3 hours, miss." the driver said as you tipped him.
You and Peter walked into a clothing store, more on the high end. "Anything you want," you told him. He walked around in awe, looking at all the designs they had there. "I mean, don't get me wrong Y/N these clothes are cool. But honestly, I'm okay with the whole t-shirt jeans vibe I have going here,"
"Alright then, to the next store."
You and Peter entered a Target. "This-" he said, pointing to a shirt with a science pun on it, "is what I'm looking for."
You watched him pick up graphic tee after graphic tee, throwing them all in the cart. "This is great, really. I miss having actual clothes." he said. "We need some jeans," you reminded him. "Or anything else? Would you like some shorts?" you asked him. Peter was walking with the cart, his chest resting on the handlebar, sulking around. "You can pick them out. I trust your judgement," he said, wandering off to the electronics section. You scoffed, letting your boyfriend go explore.
You came back with a handful of jeans, and found Peter holding a plethora of things. Phone cases, a new computer, headphones, a new keyboard, a watch. He gave you his quirky smile. "Stark won't mind, right?"
You two found the snack isle. "Peter, Tony can just order all of this. It's much easier. The housekeepers put it away for you." "But Y/N! They have gummy worms!" he said excitedly. You rolled your eyes and smiled as Peter threw bags of his favorite foods in the cart.
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"Alright and your total comes out to 1,427 dollars and 34 cents." the cashier said, astonished at the price. You and Peter grabbed all the bags and was met by the chauffer outside.
"Maybe we spent too much," Peter said, feeling guilty on his splurge. "Too much? Peter this is like a cent to Tony. He won't care." you laughed, grabbing his hand.
On the way home, it started to rain. It was only a slight sprinkle when you two left Target, but now it was a full on downpour.
"Shit!" you yelled, trying to grab the bags out of the trunk as fast as you could and running inside without getting wet. Peter soon followed you inside, but the both of you were drenched. Peter was running to put the bags down on the common room table, but he slipped and fell right on his ass.
"Shut up," he blushed as you laughed at him. "It's not funny." he whined, rubbing his behind where he fell. "Let's get cleaned up, let the bags dry." you said as Peter pulled out his new electronics.
Back in your apartment, Peter and you were a soaking wet mess. You went into your bedroom, throwing your coat on the ground. "I want a shower," you said, taking off your shoes and your drenched socks. "A shower sounds great," Peter sighed, taking a towel and drying off his dripping hair. "You can go first, I don't mind." you said, taking off your leggings not even thinking about Peter being in the room. You balled them up and threw them in your hamper, noticing Peter was oddly quiet. You then realized you were wearing no pants. "Oh shit that's my bad," you said, grabbing a blanket from your bed.
"No, no. It's fine just-" Peter stuttered, rubbing the back of his neck and looking at the ceiling trying not to notice your lace pink thong. "Peter I'm sorry I should have asked, I didn't even realize." "I mean, we live together. We're dating. We're bound to see each other naked at some point." he said awkwardly.
"Should we just do it?" you asked, immediately regretting it. "It? As in..." Peter asked. "Just, you know. See each other. Naked. Get it over with."
Literally shut up, your scaring him. Stop running your mouth.
"Yeah, yeah that sounds like a great idea." Peter said.
"Should we..."
"Uh, how about we just get naked. Now. Like," Peter said, taking off his shirt.
The awkwardness was radiating off of you, giving yourself second hand embarrassment.
He didn't have abs, but he was perfectly fit. His arm muscles were perfectly sculpted, reminding you of the Greek statues you've seen in museums.
"Take a picture, it lasts longer." Peter chuckled. You realized you have been spacing again. "Oh, shit, uhm." you struggled to say, but just took your shirt off. You let the blanket drop, you were left standing in your thong and your bra.
Peter gulped.
Holy fuck did he just gulp?
"I am the luckiest man alive." he said, sliding his jeans off his slender figure.
You two standing there sopping wet (from the rain, you perverts) and staring at each other in your underwear. You both were so exposed, so vulnerable.
"I think I should shower," you said, ending the awkward silence between you two just staring at each other's bodies.
He probably thinks I'm fat. He's stuck with such a fat fucking pig. God, I wouldn't blame him if he wanted to go home now.
"Oh, yeah. Sorry I didn't want to freak you out just- I am just obsessed with you right now." he smiled, stepping closer to you. It was like he read your mind, feeling your insecurities and trying to change them. He grabbed the side of your arm, pulling you into his embrace. Your faces got closer and closer, begging for someone to make the first move and fill in the gap. You and Peter both at the same time, moved in and created a passionate, forceful kiss. Not meaning it to be that strong, you both pulled back a bit.
"Let me just..." you say, walking into the bathroom and turning on the shower. You could feel Peter's eyes burning into your ass. You turned around, and un clipped your bra. The poor boy almost ran into the bathroom, slamming the door behind him. He picked your body up effortlessly, and gently placed you against the glass shower door.
If you ever had a bucket list, and if you ever had shower sex on it, you would have been able to check it off now.
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You and Peter walked into the common room and was met with Peter 1, Peter 2, and MJ.
They noticed that you two were freshly showered and that you were walking with a somewhat limp.
"Hey guys," you said, trying to act non cholent. You were not expecting to find them out here, you were just going to get one of the book's Peter was trying to find in Tony's library.
Yes, the first thing he asked you after sex is where he could find a book.
"Hey Y/N," MJ said matching your tone. "What's up?" she asked. Peter 2 looked at you two and snickered. "Shut it," you gritted through your teeth, nudging Peter 2 in the arm. "She got it good," he laughed, sitting up from the couch and leaving the room. You were now petrified, eyes widened.
Seeing everyone in the common room together made you realize something. You really haven't talked to any of your friends. Your past week has just been filled with Peter. Sure, MJ and you texted but it wasn't anything like it was before.
"Hey Peter," you said, sitting down on the couch next to MJ. You groaned a little, realizing you shouldn't have sat down -that- hard. "Yes?" they both responded. "Uh, Peter 1, can you help Peter 3 find his book he's looking for? I really have no clue, maybe you would know better." "Y-yeah, sure." Peter 1 said awkwardly. They exited the room, leaving you and MJ.
"Dude, what happened to you two?" Peter 1 asked Peter 3 as they walked down the hallway. "Did you..." "Dude," "What?"
Back with you and MJ...
"You realize you are the worst actor in the world. It is so obvious that you got majorly fucked before you walked in here."
"MJ!" you said, slapping her on the arm. "Seriously though Y/N, how was it? I want all the details." she said. "What details? You said you could tell," you sighed. "Was it..." MJ said, scaling her hands between small and large. "MJ!" you scolded her, but stopping her at the most realistic length. "Holy shit no wonder your walking like that." she said, only half believing you. "How did it happen?" "In the shower," "SHOWER SEX?" she said, loudly. You shushed her. "Be quiet, team's working here today." you scolded her. "Okay, okay. Did you at least finish?" "Yes MJ, I did." "Did he?" "Oh my god your such a pervert!" "Did he?" MJ asked, brow cocked. "Yes," you sighed. "Inside? Or out?" "MJ!" "I need details! My best friend got fucked by the man of her dreams." "Your fucking disgusting." you laughed. "But yes, inside." you whispered.
"Wait- inside?" she asked. "Please tell me you had a condom," "I mean, it was spur of the moment sex." you said, ashamed. "Y/N! You are such an idiot," she sighed, rubbing her forehead. "No MJ, I have a fucking IUD. I'm not an idiot." "Oh thank god, I am NOT ready to be an Aunt,"
"Aunt?" Peter 3 asked, coming back with Peter 1 and holding his book. "Uh, like the animal! W-we were just talking about, uh" "Ant Man!" you interrupted MJ. "Yep, yep. Ant Man." you both said, shaking your heads yes.
"Okayy," Peter 3 dragged on. "I'm gonna go read," he said, holding the book in his hand. "Have fun," you say, as he bent down to kiss your forehead before he left.
You eventually retired back to your apartment after a long needed catching up with MJ and Peter.
"Did she tell you anything?" Peter eagerly asked MJ. "Why?" she asked suspiciously. "He wouldn't tell me anything!" "Peter, I love you, but sometimes you need to mind your own business," MJ sighed, snuggling up closer to him on the couch.
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elytrafemme · 2 years ago
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Uh... so I finally finished my analysis of chapter 29....Hours after chapter 30 has been published... Oops! I'll read it tomorrow, but for now, enjoy a link to my ramblings instead of a long ask because the word count is 2,910! :D https://docs.google.com/document/d/1IaWhaEahPMfeZ1qRba3qwl3yPbifsCjI5-2wLMBFJv4/edit?usp=sharing The link wouldn't work properly because tumblr is broken so you'll just have to copy and paste it, sorry! <333
HELLO MY FRIEND. I AM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG BUT I AM GOING TO REPLY TO YOU NOW THANK YOU SO MUCH! <3
“Why should I make my bed in the morning if I just going to mess it up after I go to sleep again.” <- THIS I am forever awed as to how WELL u get cs!Tubbo’s character you always make me feel like i’ve done my due justice writing him bc u always GET IT u are so fucking cool. this this this this THIS this is how he THINKS!!!
“Destiny is not based in logic. Destiny is a belief that comes from a strong emotional conviction that no action a person makes can change the future. So when it comes to cs!Tubbo’s own mentality, he isn’t logical at all.“ YES A THOUSAND PERCENT! the thing about him with destiny is that he thinks about it in terms of patterns, meaning that it FEELS logical to him but in actuality! he’s just predicting something with the evidence he has and the immense biases that go alongside it, and what he’s predicting is literally the entire course of his life. it’s reckless and it’s non logical in every possible way and that is how he views the world.
we call ranboo the dsmp enjoyer but REALLY it shouild be tubbo with these damn au assignments UR RIGHT!
there is a LOT that goes into him making these constant comparisons but some things i’d like to highlight is (1) you are so right about these biases his self hatred gets in the way of logic SO MUCH TOO! (2) his comparisons with himself are one thing but when he compares other people to people in the past it usually reveals a deep misunderstanding in who those people are, for example ranboo and quackity those two are BARELY anything alike but tubbo has this very strong association between them that is so unfounded in anything but his belief that he is just like schlatt WHEN HE ISNT!!! and (3) there r lasting consequences for believing that everything is destiny and set in stone, for example issues taking responsibility for things, and treating people callously like you know best. the latter tubbo is starting to do, the former is somewhat apparent but i just think its a thing that will be continuous in his character imo bc it is fucking real shit i would know LOL 
YES YESYEYSYESYYES EVERYTHING YOU SAID ABT CSBEEDUO SOOOOO FUCKING TRUE!!!!! Because here’s the thing about the 28th, where the two hang out: two facts coexist within it. (1) it was one of the happiest days in both of their lives in recent history, and (2) it was NOT ENTIRELY HEALTHY. which is why in the future i hope there can be some cross comparisons bc HERE IS THE THING! yes ranboo opened up more, yes they had a damn good time, yes tubbo came to terms more with being in love with ranboo, but the truth of dream’s interference in ranboo’s life was hanging over them the ENTIRE TIME, and you can SEE in this chapter that tubbo both really enjoyed the 28th and also resented it bc fuck dude that is stressful and ranboo’s life should NOT BE IN HIS HANDS but he thinks it is. they’re fucked up /pos
ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY TUBBO AND RANBOO BOTH HAVE DESTINY ISSUES & RANBOO AND QUACKITY R NOTHING ALIKE! YOU SAID IT SO WELL!
I could go on for forevera bt this one thing but what i love SO MUCH about these chapters rn is that we are truly seeing the worst of these characters. bc one of the most important things in mental health recovery is getting to a place where you don’t hate yourself enough to be outright a risk, and then once youre there actually thinking through the harm you did to other people. like it sounds harsh but its important! sorting through that shit makes u a better healthier and happier person! and what strikes me about this is not only how desperate wilbur is, but how fucking upsetting it is for BOTH of them. bc tubbo on one hand doesnt want this conversation forced on him, but wilbur also is in a weird place of “ijust told you something i never wanted to tell you and is deeply personal to me and after i tell you all that you STILL refuse to hear me out even a little”. it’s like. so fucked. and i love them. they have so much shit to work through!
im SO glad that the clingy scene had u emotional, and im SO glad that their arguments feel offputting bc THAT IS ALWAYS MY GOAL!!! i WANT it to feel strange and uncomfortable bc whether tubbo is aware of this or not, in basically the first half of this fic, these two did not fight. nothing serious anyway. they comforted each other and they started fights before immediately tubbo backs off and they drop it, they havent FOUGHT. which is why this scene is MEANT to gut punch you-- because it feels WRONG.
thank u so much for this doc seriously, i am SO fucking sorry its taken this long to get to it, i wanted to give u a lenghty reply and its just taken a wahile. appreciate u so much galaxy <3
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tender-rosiey · 4 years ago
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❥Confessions with BSD
❥— Includes Dazai, Kunikida, Atsushi, Ranpo, Chuuya, Akutgawa and Tanizaki
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ᴀ/ɴ: hi guys! Its been a while; I missed you all, anyways I hope you enjoy this <3
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Dᴀᴢᴀɪ ᴏsᴀᴍᴜ:
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ఌ "Hey Y/N! Can you follow me please?"
ఌ And so you did cause who would say no to this man.
ఌ Took you to a really beautiful river.
ఌ "Dazai you aren't going to ask me to commit double suicide with you, right?"
ఌ He shook his head with a smile and spoke
ఌ "Ever since you entered my life that suicide thought was out of my mind. Everything you do is literally mesmerizing to me, from how you fight and prove yourself in battle to how you snort when laughing. I really hope you know I am not joking with this and that you would really give me the chance to make you the happiest woman alive...s-so?"
ఌ Poor man got nervous at the end. where all them flirting skills gone Dazai
ఌ His answer was getting tackled in a big bear hug which caused a wide smile on his handsome features.
ᴀᴛsᴜsʜɪ Nᴀᴋᴀᴊɪᴍᴀ:
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ᴥ︎ God have mercy on him.
ᴥ︎ This poor shy adorable yet brave baby was stuttering so much.
ᴥ︎He was in awe of your beauty.
ᴥ︎ "I h-have liked you f-for a long time and-" he took pauses between the sentences until at the end he slapped himself and held your hand with a determined look "I hope you can return my feelings and that I can put a smile on your face everyday"
ᴥ︎ Spun you around from happiness when you said yes.
ᴋᴜɴɪᴋɪᴅᴀ ᴅᴏᴘᴘᴏ:
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✍︎︎ Drags you out of the office and stares you deadly in the eye.
✍︎︎ "My ideals say I should've met the woman that I would love after 4 years and then proceed to marriage and build a family but here you are... destroying every part of my ideals by making me love you."
✍︎︎ He held your hand gently "I wasn't supposed to love now, so will you take responsibility of this man who uncontrollably fell in love with you?"
✍︎︎ All I can say that he got the response he wants.
Tᴀɴɪᴢᴀᴋɪ ᴊᴜɴɪᴄʜɪʀᴏ:
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☃︎ A really simple but very sweet confession.
☃︎ A lot of shyness but we will let it pass cause his blushing face behind adorable.
☃︎ "Y/N, I wanted to tell you that I love you a lot and that everything you do is making to me and you always make me happy and I hope you can take me as your boyfriend?"
☃︎ Very shy smile with the bouquet of your favorite flowers and chocolate in hand.
☃︎ My man almost fainted when you said yes.
Rᴀɴᴘᴏ ᴇᴅᴏɢᴀᴡᴀ:
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☕︎︎ Got you a box full of candy and a really cute letter in side of it and it said:
☕︎︎ "Every morning when I wake up the first thing hit my mind, is you. Loving you is like an addiction to me. My life was incomplete before you came into it. Since I met you, my life has changed completely. You and I, both meeting together was not an accident. Our story was written by almighty even before we met each other. I thank god every day from the core of my heart for this! I wish you knew how much I adore you. I love you!"
☕︎︎ When you finished reading it and said yes he hugged you and bragged loudly "I knew you would cause you actually made it obvious you liked me but I wanted to show you that I appreciate you nevertheless!"
ɴᴀᴋᴀʜᴀʀᴀ ᴄʜᴜᴜʏᴀ:
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➪ Now mister fancy hat here has fancy words and really did his best to impress you.
➪ His confession consisted of multiple stages.
➪ When you woke up in the morning, you were greeted by higuchi giving you a present and that present had your favorite time of food/takeout and she told you it was from Chuuya.
➪ Later on the day while sitting in your office you found a cute letter on your desk and it said.
➪ "My Sweetheart, I never believed in true love until I met you. Since then, loving you has become the only truth in my life. My world is so dreamlike now and all I dream of is you.
➪ If you knew how much my heart craves for you, you would never know yourself away from me. I love you truly, madly and deeply.
Your Hopefully Future Lover, Chuuya"
➪And once you exited your room you saw him with a smile on his face as he took of his hat and bowed to you "so do you accept my confession?"
ᴀᴋᴜᴛᴀɢᴀᴡᴀ ʀʏᴜᴜɴᴏsᴜᴋᴇ:
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☾ Okay as we all know this guy isnt the best at showing and dealing with his emotions.
☾ It took him a lot of time to actually figure out his feelings.
☾ His confession was a little aggressive and here is how it went:
☾ You were walking through the walls only to be suddenly pinned to the wall by a mad Akutagawa which made you quiver under his gaze as he started speaking "Why do I feel like this around you? Why does my heart speed up so much around you? What is this giddy feeling I feel whenever you smile? WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME?! Why do I feel like I can't go on without you...?" He looked so angry and full of confusion as he was screaming his oblivious confession.
☾ Mori was passing by at that time and basically made him figure out saying "Akutagawa you are in love with Y/N" then went on his merry way.
☾ Akutagawa looked at you again and said "will you be....my lover, I guess..."
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https-sen · 4 years ago
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A Birthday Date with The Haikyuu Boys
(if its your birthday or birthday month rn, happy birthday ily :DD)
[ALL genders (including males) are allowed to read my fics <3]
Genre: Fluff :3
Pairing(s): Kenma x gn!reader
Characters:
Yamaguchi Tadashi & Kenma Kōzume
clowns/note: this is an excuse to write something like these because my birthday is on the 24th of May 🤭 but anyways i hope you enjoy, im not a professional and didnt proofread it since im lazy so im sorry if there are mistakes or if theyre out of character 🤡 i do these little fics entirely for fun! (i was thinking of an animal crossing or minecraft date but fuck it-🤺)
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Kenma Kōzume
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* click * * click * * click *
The sound of Kenma's keyboard clicking loudly as it awoken your peaceful slumber. Rubbing the sleep and tired from your eyes, you muster up a sleepy "Good morning" that made your sleep-deprived boyfriend perk up by the sound of your voice greeting him at 8 in the morning.
"Good morning, kitten."
He said sweetly, getting up from his gaming chair, giving you a kiss on your forehead followed by a "Happy birthday my lovely s/o" with a smile on his face. "You remembered?", you asked him in slight surprise, getting up from your cozy bed and putting on your Kuromi bunny slippers. "I might be playing games a lot but that doesnt give me an excuse to forget.", pouting slightly offended that you would think that he would stoop that low. Giggling softly, you tuck his hair around his ear and cupping his face with a reassuring "I love you" before getting up to take a shower.
"Pudding, whats all this?"
You asked him lovingly as you see the blonde boy in a kitty apron holding a shiba-inu spatula in his hand with flour on his left cheek (I CAN SEE THIS ONG 🥺). "Oh! You know that I'm not much of a cook so I found this 'Cloud-Bread' recipe on Pintrest and it didnt look so hard so I tried it..", he explained bashfully fiddling with the cat paw teaspoons you had. "I wanted to make you a special homemade birthday breakfast since you always make them for me but I made a mess instead, sorry. I'll make sure to clean ir up though!", he avoided eye contact and looked down at the floor. "Aw, bubs its okay I'm not mad with it, not one bit. Thank you for your hard work, now let's try it and cheer up okay?", you hugged him and rubbed circles around his back. Nodding, before he smiled, handing the little blue plate with an attempt of a pink heart-shaped bun with messy writing out of frosting reading out, "Happy Birthday Y/N <3". (imagine this though 😭) "Mmm, it's really good! It isnt over sweetened and its not burnt or has chunks in it, I'm really impressed.", after you take a bite from his little masterpiece. With a happy look tinted with his blushing red cheeks he took a bite himself.
"Wait, why'd you get me these Ken-Ken?"
Eyeing the pretty expensive looking ring in the little jewelry box on the coffee table thinking on how it costs a fortune. "I kinda knew I'd fuck the bread up so I got this just in case." Looking at him with a bewildered face full of awe and confusion, "But you didnt fuck anything up?? I told you I loved it and I even ate the entire thing as you watched me accidentally chocking within a few bites.", giggling softly he replied with "It'll be a waste since I got it either way and I know you collect these a lot anyways" Stuttering a protest, you got shushed by his finger along a scentence followed by a kiss on the cheek, "It can be our promise ring for now until we get married in the future, growing old together with kids and a great life ahead of us" Pulling him into a hug, you stayed there in each others arms as the sun setted with the thoughts of when the outcome will happen. "But for now, I'm glad being here with you."
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BRO THIS SHIT BE MAKING ME FEELING SAD THAT IK I'LL NEVER GET THIS RELATIONSHIP LMAO 💀 idk if its just me but i think my writing is getting better? oh well- pls gimme a follow if u like what u read to support me :( i hope you enjoyed this <3 have a great day :> stay hydrated, healthy and safe! remember that ily, reader ^-^
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mellowswriting · 3 years ago
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The way you write Javi has me fully convinced that Javi when in love is prime boyfriend. Like I struggle with pelples interpretation of him sometimes beacuse theres so much evidence to tell us that Javi loves deeply but that he struggles to get there.
But once he has you? And you both know you're not leaving eachother? Javi almost feels like he should have known back then that Lorraine wasn't it. He didn't feel a fraction of the kind of all consuming love he feels with you. Suddenly he could lay in bed and cuddle with you all morning work be damned, sex isnt just about how it feels it's about being as emotionally and physically close to you as possible, it's about when hes at his desk knee deep in paperwork wondering if he should call his dad up and ask about his mama's old engagement ring beacuse he cant shake the feeling of imagining how it would look on you, and then just opening up another pack of smokes to stave off that urge beacuse it's too soon and now that he has you the last thing Javi wants is to scare you away.
first of all, this compliment on my characterization made me tear up - I literally read it to my best friend bc it made me so happy. Genuinely, thank you so much 🥺
secondly, I agree so damn much. Javier is a man who cares so deeply, but he's seen so much awful shit in his life. It's so hard for him to accept that not only does he deserve that kind of happiness, but that he can make someone else happy too.
And the thing is? He's so fucking good at making his love happy. A natural at love, through and through. Once he feels secure in the relationship, he's doting in that gruff way, takes care of you because he likes making you happy.
Javier lets you take care of him, too. He isn't used to being vulnerable in that way, letting himself lean on you for support. The first time you show up at the office with lunch and coffee in hand and give him a sweet kiss, he's kind of shocked.
"You said you were having a hard day, so I thought we could have lunch together. If you have time, of course."
The relief is palpable. Javier gets to take a break and eat lunch, re-caffeinate, and talk with you and it makes him melt. It's the way you kiss his cheek on the way out and say, "I hope your day gets better. I love you, honey." that makes him start fantasizing about marrying you.
And later when Javier finally asks Chucho for his mama's wedding ring, his pop has the biggest smile on his face because he's had it ready months.
ugh I just love Javi so much
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prongssmrrcury · 3 years ago
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a very bleak christmas
wolfstar fic /// one shot
word count ( 6.2k ITS LONG SORRY)
fluff, not much smut
this turned out awfully long IM SORRY😭 having that said i hope you enjoy <33 ily mwahh
"you ready wormy?" james said, shutting his trunk and looking at his bed and around the dormitory to make sure hasnt forgotten anything. he looked over at the shorter boy with sandy coloured hair who was bending down apparently trying to get something he dropped from under the bed, but struggling a great deal. he nervously shot his head up giving james a weak smile and said "yes, im ready, i just dropped something here im not sure what-"
"just tell moony to fetch it for you while we're away" james said and peter just agreed and left the dormitory trailing after james with his trunk, shutting the door on his way. the gryffindor common room was emptier than usual, but the fireplace was lit with a couple of people huddling around it to shield themselves from the ruthless cold of december. despite this however, peoples spirits were as light as ever as almost everyone was departing for two weeks to spend christmas with their families, even lily evans stopped rolling her eyes every time james breathed, and started spending more time with him and ( to james' great delight) enjoying his company. speaking of lily, she was standing by the fireplace with her hair up in a ponytail with a furry winter cap on her head. james noticed her at once and made his way down the flight of stairs and tapped her shoulder softly, she turned around and gave him a warm smile, a short hug followed.
"happy holidays james!" she smiled so widely it watered james' eye. she called him james, not potter.
"happy holidays" he managed to respond, taken aback by the sudden affection she just showed him. she looked around furrowing her brows slightly then spoke, "wheres your trunk? have you not packed?"
"oh no i have! i left my trunk with peter to um, you know, come and say hi" he said the second part of the sentence quietly, she let out a soft laugh, god he just wanted to kiss her so bad. "wheres yours?" he asked quickly. she turned around slightly to show him her trunk which was standing behind her, tapping it twice.
"alright then, lets go down to breakfast, minnie wouldnt want us to be late" he told her, taking her hand and leading her out of the common room with him. he looked back at peter who was struggling with his own trunk and james' but peter just shot him a thumbs up as if he got everything under control.
"alright wormy, dont be late" he muttered. the pair of them walked down from the gryffindor tower to the entrance hall and right to the great hall where elaborate christmas decorations were encapsulating the place, giving the entire castle a more homey vibe. the four house tables were emptier than usual, james and lily made their way to the gryffindor table where they were met by a handsome boy with long hair that he managed to scruff in a very messy pony tail, and a taller boy sitting across him who seemed to find his buttering his toast to be a very intriguing activity. lily and james took seats next to them.
"morning" sirius spoke, looking at lily then at james.
"morning sirius, how are you" lily replied, who also began buttering her toast. sirius didnt respond right away, instead he eyed her then finally spoke, "oh im, im very good" it didnt really seem like it, sirius didnt seem to be in his loud, arrogant and flirtatious mood today, instead a rather dull and quiet one. lily looked at james silently trying to understand what had caused the sudden change in sirius behavior, she was met a mere shrug from james. the four of them sat in silence for the next ten minutes, no one breaking silence that seemed to have swallowed them. remus then looked up for the first time and sighed loudly, which made sirius look very attentively at him, waiting for him to say anything.
"im gonna go, im in the dorm if you want me pads. enjoy your holidays james, you too lily" he said lowly, also clearly in a dull mood in contrast to everyones mood right now. he got up and left, shooting them a weak smile before disappearing out of the great hall.
sirius watched him so closely even when he had gotten out of sight. it was common knowledge that the pair are in love and clearly fancied each other, almost everyone in school knew that. maybe its because of sirius' shameless attitude, cuddling with remus in the common room, sitting on his lap in the middle of the great hall, or pushing remus against a wall and just stand in front of him doing god knows what. the only problem was... neither sirius nor remus knew they liked each other. they obviously knew they had a different relationship than anyone else but they were so oblivious to the fact that theyre in love that it sometimes made james just want to scream it in their face.
"you okay pads?" james said mockingly, sirius had been staring at where remus left for at least ten minutes completely transfixed, he came back to his senses at once and looking abruptly between james and lily then back at his doughnut, fiddling with it slightly. he then shot james an alarmed look and said, "dont call me that james". he spoke so firmly, he knew james knew this is what remus calls him. no one was really allowed to use that nickname with him, even he and james who had a light hearted friendship that was basically based on jokes and pranks, sirius pronounced the words looking into james' eyes, which made james know he was being one hundred percent serious. james didnt respond, feeling a rush of guilt in his stomach, he just took a bite of his oatmeal.
"how are things with you two" james asked. sirius once again didnt respond right away but instead took time to ponder his answer.
"what do you mean how are things"
"you know, have you guys had a row or anything?" james asked, stuffing more oatmeal in his mouth.
"oh- um yea no. not really no" sirius hesitated a bit. the truth is that remus and him didnt have a row, but today was one of these occasions where sirius woke up finding himself on remus' bed not knowing how or why. it had happened a couple of times before and when it did, remus would immediately smile warmly at sirius and pamper him with kisses here and there on his cheek and his jaw. however, today, remus woke up a bit more shaky to the fact that he was in the same bed as sirius. he straightened his pyjamas quickly giving sirius an awkward smile and leaving without a word.
james dropped his oatmeal and looked at sirius looking serious for the first time, giving him a smile that carried something between sympathy and support.
"are you ever going to tell him?"
"tell him what" sirius said bluntly
james smirked. even lily suppressed a knowing look. sirius rolled his eyes.
"you guys are not onto that bullshit the whole school talks about right?" he asked cringing slightly.
"if the bullshit includes you and remus being blindly in love then yes" james gave a small laugh.
"literally blindly" lily mumbled, but sirius heard her and gave her a look.
"guys- hes my best mate"
"doing a lot of canoodling with your 'best mate' ?" james smirked rolling his eyes.
"first of all, what the fuck is canoodling james, this isnt the eighteenth century" he ppinted out the weird choice of wording.
"whatever, point is, people dont sleep on their 'best mates' chests every day padfoot" sirius opened his mouth to protest but james cut him again "just save your breath will you. im trying to help"
sirius sighed heavily burying his head in his hands and shaking it.
"i dont fucking know what to do prongs. fuck ugh i hate this so much why cant it be simpler" sirius' voice got weaker.
"mate just talk to him, remus cant read your mind. and its pretty obvious the feelings mutual" james tried to convince him.
"i dont know if hes into- you know, into me" sirius tried to explain. sirius had come out to the entire school three years ago so it was common knowledge that was gay.
"oh he is" lily said
sirius blinked.
"i mean, i spend a lot of time with him in our prefects meetings and in the library and stuff" she explained. sirius blinked again.
"i mean" she began again, "he talks about you an awful lot and seems to be quite fond of you" she smiled.
"look, you'll never know if you dont ask" james said again. "look at me, i had to ask lily out at least fifteen times-"
"james what the fuck this isnt the same, why are you even comparing it" sirius interrupted
"oh of course its not the same, but communication is key, no matter what the relationship is"
"yea and when i ask him out and he just says i misunderstood all his soft affectionate gestures, then stops hanging out with me because im gay and he would know i have feelings for him, that clearly arent mutual. i'll just ruin everything, and i'll lose probably the only person that likes me in this lousy world" sirius spilled, laughing bitterly.
"sirius! you know remus would never stop hanging out with you because of that, you know it!" james said, his voice getting a bit louder.
"yea but it'd be a sticky situation when your gay friend has feelings for you" sirius said, his eyes filled with tears that he wiped right away hoping james and lily didnt see that.
"sirius.." lily said lowly
"lily can you please check up on peter and help him if needs any assistance" james told her firmly, she didnt need telling twice, knowing he wanted to be left alone with sirius. she made her way out of the great hall until she was out of sight, then james look at sirius again who had his head buried in his hands once again.
"sirius i dont know whats gotten into you today, but you know damn well that neither moony or i would ever think of you any differently because you're gay. stop saying that as if its something that hinders you" this was one of the rare occasions where james was serious and firm. he wanted sirius to know meant every word that left his mouth. at this moment he heard a sniff followed by a weak sob.
"james, i sometimes wish i wanst- wasnt, you know, gay" he managed to say between sobs. james' face fell suddenly.
"no dont say that. please dont say that, you know we love you the way you are and we dont give two damns if you're gay or not" james got up and made his way across the table to sit next to sirius rather than in front of him.
"you're me best mate, i dont like seeing you like this. i love you a lot sirius and nothing your little overthinking brain comes up with could change that" he said, pulling sirius into a hug, so hard that he mightve broken a few ribs. he wasnt gonna let go before sirius does, he could stay here all day until sirius was ready to let go. he heard strong sniffs and felt his chest going up and down. sirius broke the hug after a few minutes, looking a lot more content than he had a few minutes before. james gave him his usual cheeky smile.
"your fucking snout sirius" james laughed, picking up a handkerchief trying to clean his shoulder.
"fuck off" sirius managed to laugh, sniffing again.
"thank you" sirius said quietly
"come off it, dont thank me" james smiled at him. he watched him grab a cigarette and right when he was about to light it with the tip of his wand james stopped him hesitantly. james never really liked to mother him about smoking or give him lectures about the effects smoking had, but he noticed sirius was eating less and smoking more the past couple of days. sirius shot a "what-do-you-want" look to which james responded, "um, can you please just eat something before you smoke" james said. he knew this was a touchy subject, he never liked to mention it but they were alone and he knows he's the only one sirius would listen to. sirius gave him a hesitant look, before stuffing the cigarette back in his pocket.
"just for you prongs" he rolled his eyes, taking a bite of his doughnut. james however was filled with so much joy seeing his best friend do that just for him.
"what are you smiling so much at you prat" sirius said between bites. james shook his head softly before saying, "im very proud of you sirius, i hope you know that" sirius smiled and laughed dismissively at that statement, james knew it touched him but sirius never really knew how to respond to affectionate words.
"you're very sappy you know that" sirius laughed slightly.
"whatever" james felt his cheeks go red. "anyway i have to get going before i get minnie mad on christmas" he said, getting up, swinging his backpack on his back leaving the hall.
"tell moony i say merry christmas" james called, leaving the great hall also disappearing out of sight.
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later that night, james and lily departed home to spend the upcoming weeks with their families to celebrate christmas, so did most of the school. as homey and welcoming as the school felt, everyone loved going back to their family, everyone except sirius. sirius was never fond of his family, he never had a good relationship with them and all they did was make him more miserable, he would take any chance to be away from them. sirius was sat in the library that was emptier than usual (but the ceiling was enchanted to fake snow) he was sitting with two giant books opened in front of him, yellowed by age. he looked over at the books, he hadnt read a single word despite being here for nearly an hour. he came here in an attempt to distract himself from the intensifying amount of nerves and stress, however, he was so lost in his thoughts that not even that gigantic book can save him from his exhausting overthinking. he sighed heavily, feeling the weight of the world on his shoulder, shutting the books that made a loud thud and put them back in their place. sirius swung his backpack on his back and left the library making his way to the gryffindor tower. he just wanted to sleep. yes, sleep, thats what he needed. he went through the fat lady's portrait and climbed up the stairs to his dormitory, finding remus sitting on his four poster bed completely engulfed by a book. remus shot his eyes up the second he heard sirius walking in and gave him a wordless smile, going back to his book. sirius' stomach did a funny lurch.
"i was starting to think youve forgotten your way around the castle" remus said, flipping the page of his book, still reading it. sirius looked at him nervously, not sure what he meant by that.
"what?" sirius asked, he was going to take his shirt off and get in his pyjamas but stopped abruptly. he didnt wanna make remus uncomfortable around him, especially after what happened this morning. they always had a very intimate relationship though, changing in front of each other was never a problem. remus suppressed a chuckle which made sirius look at him, unsure what he found comical in this very intense atmosphere.
"you can take your shirt off if you want sirius" remus said, still poured into his book.
"how can you even see me?" sirius couldnt stop himself. remus looked up from his book and gave him a is-that-even-a-question look. sirius slipped his undone tie, unbuttoning his buttons his fingers shaking horribly for a reason he didn't understand. he knew remus was looking in his book (not that he didnt want remus looking) but he still felt like all the worlds eyes are on him. a couple of awfully long minutes passed and sirius finally was in his pyjama and got into his bed under his blanket and stared absentmindedly into the wall. remus flipped the page once again, he hadnt read a word on the previous page. how could he? he was so preoccupied by sirius changing in front of him. remus did freak out when he found himself on the same bed as sirius this morning. he doesnt know why he freaked out the way he did, its not like its the first time. he knew that this had made sirius extremely self conscious the whole day, he was wearing a very dull look. he had to make up for his unexplainable actions, he cant stand seeing sirius this upset, especially if he was the reason hes feeling like that. he couldnt stand seeing him in such a bad mood on breakfast this morning that he had to dismiss himself early. but sirius' loss of his loud flirtatious attitude was what stirred the pot for remus. he didnt walk in the dorm and try to slip in bed with remus, or get a kiss from him, or remotely try draw any attention to hismelf from remus rather than that book in his hand, which was as un-sirius as one can get.
"why were you late?" remus asked sirius, knowing hes not asleep. sirius mumbled something inaudible from his bed that remus didnt catch onto. remus furrowed his brows slightly. he shut his book and put it on the bed side table, the sound he made when he shut his book made sirius shift in his bed to face remus who was staring back at him.
"where were you?" remus asked
"in the library" sirius said simply, avoiding any sarcasm or any joking around. remus face wore a surprised expression.
"oh- by your own will?" he said with a breathy laugh.
"yea" sirius replied
"what were you reading?" said remus, sounding excited. sirius didnt exactly know why he wad being interrogated by remus about his absence.
"um, i was just doing homework"
"oh, thats actually nice pads" remus smiled. sirius' stomach did another flip at the nickname. god this was so awkward and tense, sirius thought.
"sirius are you mad at me?" remus said, going straight to the point. every muscle in sirius' body went tense and completely still.
"no" sirius said bluntly.
"sure?"
"yea"
"okay. great then. um do you wanna come lay here with me?" remus offered, this was quiet foreign for remus as it was never him who initiated anything sexual or intimate. but he was willing to go out of his comfort zone for sirius. just for sirius.
"uh- sorry moony im really tired" it pained sirius to say these words, if he was being honest, he wanted nothing more than to lay in remus' chest right now and give him soft pecks and kiss his stupid plump lips.
"oh, okay" remus said lowly. "okay then" sirius wasnt sure what he meant by that tone, and before sirius has any other second to think about it, he felt his bed dip slightly and remus climbing on him, placing himself on top of sirius with his legs wide opened around his waist. sirius felt like all the oxygen in the world had escaped his lungs.
"tired, you said you are pads? want a little massage?" remus cooed softly. he leaned down on sirius' chest undoing his pyjama buttons revealing his tattooed chest.
"remus-" sirius tried to stop him. sirius promised himself he wasnt going to do anything like that with remus because he doesnt want to make him uncomfortable or possibly hate him more, however, this is different. its remus thats initiating it. it remus that did it.
"what pads?" remus continued cooing softly, completely stripping sirius of his shirt and attaching his lips on sirius' neck. at this exact moment, sirius moaned louder than he intended. he shifted slightly in his bed and put his hand through remus' hair. remus continued nibbling sirius' neck. he bit and licked at all the right spots, leaving a soft trail of kisses all over his neck and made his way up to his chin and on his lips, where he left a soft peck. sirius however pulled remus' head back towards him to kiss him properly, remus licked sirius' bottom lip which made sirius moan approvingly into the kiss. remus slipped his tongue in sirius' mouth and deepened the kiss, he felt sirius' hand wandering around his shoulder and slipped in his shirt to touch his bare skin.
"god this is so" remus moaned breaking the kiss only to attach his lips on his once again.
"remus-" sirius stopped him abruptly. remus looked down on sirius, his eyes mobing fast between his godly features, furrowing his brows slightly not understanding why sirius stopped him. did he make him uncomfortable? was sirius really not in the mood and remus overstepped a boundry? remus felt a horrible tingling feeling in his stomach as his brain raced between all the possibilities.
"remus im sorry- i cant do this" sirius said, as soon as the words left his mouth he felt horrible, reading the shocked and bewildered expression on remus face, he looked very hurt and unsure of himself.
"oh- fuck okay im sorry" remus said quickly, getting off sirius and leaving his bed, but sirius held his arm to immobilize him and not make him leave. they stared at each other for a few seconds that felt painfully long. both of them felt confused, upset with themselves and unsure of what to do or say next.
"can you please stay" sirius said quietly avoiding remus' eye. remus didnt respond which made sirius feel a horrible pit of nerves in his stomach.
"i- i don't understand. you just asked me to stop and told me you cant do this" remus spoke lowly with a soft rasp in his voice. sirius buried his head in his hand, he was on the brink of tears, he honestly didnt know what or how to explain his confusion to remus. how could he explain it or put it in cohesive words when he himself didn't understand.
"sirius please talk to me" remus said softly, holding sirius' hand
"rem i dont know how-"
"do you trust me?" remus cut him off.
"what- yes of course" sirius said sternly.
"then please tell me how you feel"
"how i feel about what?" sirius asked
"about doing this" remus tried to explain, sirius knew at once he was referring to all the sexual stuff they do.
"remus i love it. i enjoy it a lot, i sometimes just want the day to end only to get in bed with you. i- i dont know how to word my feelings because it's honestly just all a mess inside me" sirius spilled. this was the most he'd spoken all day. remus smiled at the last sentence. "what about you?" sirius asked, feeling the same horrible pit of nerves in his stomach increase. remus however smiled.
"i do things for you pads that id never do to anyone" he said, smiling more. he leaned closer to sirius' face and brushing a few strands of his hair out of his face. "but, if you feel unsure about this, we can stop and just be friends. i'd completely understand"
"no what the fuck moony" sirius said before he could stop himself, remus looked in his eyes. "no im unsure about your feelings to me, not about my feelings to you" he tried to explain.
"you think i dont like you?" remus asked quickly.
"well not exactly but im not sure how you feel towards me". at this, remus leaned down to kiss sirius lips a soft and tender kiss. he took his time to savor every bit of his mouth he could.
"maybe this would give you a good idea about how i feel about you" he smiled at him. "we're both exhausted, its best if we just go to sleep"
"right okay. can you sleep with me?" sirius asked, remus gave a breathy laugh at his sweet request.
"yes darling i can" he said with his usual rasp apparent, getting under the blanket and spooning sirius playing with his hair for the the next foreseeable hours until both of them were sleeping.
soft sun rays illuminated through the window of the gryffindor tower and on the entire hogwarts grounds. the translucent curtains that were in the dormitory were not doing any shielding from the sun rays whatsoever. it fell gently on the two boys that were sleeping together, tangled together, their bodies almost intertwining so perfectly with each other as if they were jigsaw pieces. sirius' head was on remus' chest, remus hugging sirius' body towards him and their legs just tangled. they looked so peaceful, their chests raising and going down every couple of seconds, it was all so perfect that one could confidently bet that even their heartbeats were in sync.
an owl came knocking its beak on the window above the bed theyre on, breaking the gentle yet majestically peaceful the state they were in. sirius shifted slightly in his sleep, opening his eyes to find uninvited sunlight penetrating right through his eyeballs. the owl made another knock on the window trying to grab their attention.
"fine okay" sirius said rasply, he got up sitting upright opening the window for that stupid owl that interrupted his sleep. the owl had two parcels tied on its leg. sirius untied them and the owl flew out at once.
"whos that from?" a raspy voice spoke he immediately knew it was remus.
"um, i think its" he turned the parcel around to see if there was any name, he smiled when he saw the senders name.
"yep, its from prongs" he said looking at remus who also smiled warmly.
"well, we'll open it later, lets just get up quickly now before we miss breakfast" he said, sitting up right and sliding his legs out of the bed. the two boys changed into their normal clothes. remus got into a hand knitted sweater and pants, sirius also got into a baggy sweatshirt and sloppily tied his hair up.
"pads is that mine?" remus smiled looking at the sweater sirius was wearing.
"maybe" sirius replied with a cheeky tone.
"course it is" remus rolled his eyes. "you literally have the biggest closet out of all of us, yet youre never wearing your shit" sirius gave him a weird look.
"not that i mind it darling" remus said softly, playing with sirius' hair slightly. they both left the dormitory and walked down to the common room with the intention to leave to the great hall, however they were met by a small table that was put in front of the fireplace with breakfast food laying on it. they looked at each other exchanging weird looks.
"there was no point of making you leave the common room only to go down and eat when its only you too in the whole school" professor mcgonagall's voice spoke. she was sitting on an armchair wearing her usual green dressing gown. "well anyway, im going down to have breakfast with the rest of the teachers. you two have a merry christmas" she smiled slightly and left the common room.
remus and sirius were just left there standing stupidly in front of the food table.
"well, i guess we're not leaving. sit down lets eat im starving" sirius said sitting himself down and starting to eat toast. they both ate until they were full and just laid on their armchairs to take their breath.
"wanna open the parcel prongs sent?" remus asked after ten minutes of silence.
"uhh sure" sirius said, getting the parcels, handing remus one box and he opened the other one. he tore the wrapping and opened it, a smile breaking on his face.
"he got me a wand polishing set. oh and look, he got me some hair bands" remus laughed a little. sirius put the hair bands in his wrist.
"what are you laughing at, i love it" sirius smiled "what did he get you?"
"he got me part six of 'crows or crowns'. its my favorite book and he knows i couldn't find that volume anywhere" remus' face wore a very big smile from that present. "oh and look! he got me a vest, it's beautiful"
"i'll be wearing that" sirius said at once
"of course darling you can wear it whenever"
"remus open my gift!" sirius said with so much excitement, remus held the huge box wondering what he has inside. he stared at sirius before opening it, unsure of what will meet him when he opens it. his suspicion grew larger when he was met by a cheeky smiling sirius.
"its not gonna blow up in my face right?" remus laughed a little
"only one way to find out" sirius shrugged
"oh god" remus joked. he opened the box and the first thing he saw was a big box inside labeled 'book polishing kit' remus' face fell with shock.
"sirius! sirius is this a book polishing kit? oh my god" he was gasping. sirius felt his cheeks burn by the fond expression on remus' face.
"holy shit pads where did you get this, these are so rare and expensive" he held it close to his face examining it with so much excitement.
"shhh its a gift" sirius was kind of embarrassed fora reason he doesnt know. "theres more stuff"
remus looked inside the box and laughed out loudly when he saw at least a doesnt bars of chocolate.
"what are you laughing at! this is the muggle chocolate you told me you like" sirius said flustered a little.
"yes yes i love it" remus smiled. "thank you"
sirius shrugged, not knowing what to say in situations like this.
"um, right open my gift" remus said looking nervous. remus' gift was something a little different and not very expected, he spent a lot of time thinking whether its a good idea or not. hes so nervous for sirius to see it, he felt his stomach lurch so badly he might vomit. he handed sirius an a4 piece of parchment that was folded into quarters. sirius gave him a confused yet excited look.
"are you giving me your transfiguration homework as a christmas gift moony" he joked.
"oh shut up and open it" every fibre in remus' body was screaming in anticipation and nerves. sirius unfolded the paper and read:
"dear sirius,
i am writing this in the dormitory for the fifteenth time at least. i thought so much about this and decided that its perfect. six years ago when i laid eyes on you for the first time, you had this aura that carried so much charm, something about your stupid gorgeous personality was so seductive and made me in complete lust for you. there aren't enough words in the english language to explain how you make me feel, nothing will come close to describing how i feel when you slip in bed with me every night, when i play with your hair, when i hear your heartbeats, when i hold your hand and stroke it with my thumb, when you kiss my scars, when you sit next to me in class sit there looking pretty doing nothing. i came to the conclusion that every little thing you do has me in utter awe. no one has ever made me feel like that, for a long time i was so confused as to why and how you could do that so effortlessly. i was confused about how i felt about you for so long, i was so confused about myself, and you helped me come to terms with who i am, by being so unapologetically you. at the end of a hard day you're always there to cheer me up, even in my darkest days, when nothing felt like it'll be okay ever again, you're always fucking here to change that. the number of times you've saved my life sirius, i couldnt tell you, by just merely being here. i figured that no matter what happens and no matter where life takes me, i want to always be with you. i never want to see that day i have to depart you, i dont ever see it coming because not even the strongest force from the gods above will make me leave you. im in love with you. im so fucking in love you idiot. im in love with the way you talk, the way you tie your hair, the way you dress, the way your eyes crease when you smile, your bark like laugh, your stupid jokes that i find funny unironically, your chirped nail polish... just in love with you. so sirius, this is me asking, do you want to be my boyfriend?"
sirius read the letters at least three times to make sure he wasnt missing anything, to make sure he was reading it correctly. was remus asking him out? was remus actually in love with him? none of this felt real. sirius felt like he's seeing stars in his vision, like he was going to pass out any second right now. he looked up at remus who was staring attentively on him and watching his every reaction. he met eyes with him and felt like all the worlds oxygen was being drained.
"so?" remus asked, his voice quivering.
"so?" he repeated as if this was a incredulous thing so say, " fuck yes i wanna be your boyfriend" sirius threw himself on remus on his armchair and splattered him with kissed everywhere he could reach.
"i never thought id be the lucky person to actually end up dating you" sirius breathed
"please, im the lucky one here" remus rolled his eyes.
"i mean hell yeah you are" sirius said sarcastically.
the pair of them spent the rest of the day sitting on the armchair cuddled up with the heat of each other, sharing soft intimate touches every now and then. they spent the whole day in peace and delicacy and made the most out of each other’s company. soon enough before they knew it, the holidays were over and students were returning to hogwarts for their second term.
“hi remus! hey sirius, good holiday? how are you two?” james showered them with questions enthusiastically when they saw him come in the gryffindor common room, he seemed to be in a cheerful mood.
“yea, great holiday” remus mumbled finding himself an armchair and sitting in it. the rest followed and sat on armchairs around him but sirius sat on his lap which remus scooted over a little to make space for him. james and lily looked at each other rolling their eyes playfully but happy that theyre on good terms, unlike the last time they saw them.
“what about you two? and you wormy? how was ur holiday” remus asked calmly, playing with sirius’ hair absentmindedly.
“great we had a great a time, i invited lily and wormy over, wormy couldnt make it though. but lily and i had fun, my parents liked her a lot” james smirked looking at her. “obviously they knew her because i always talked about her to them, but they’ve never really- woah WOAH” james’ speach was cut abruptly when he saw sirius attach his lips to remus’ and remus kissed him back fondly. they all exchanged shocked looks but they werent too shocked, they knew something was happening between the pair of them.
“woah guys” james laughed as they broke the kiss apart and giggled at their reaction.
“yea um, remus and i are dating” sirius said, lookinh flustered slightly. remus was still playing with his hair softly.
“does that mea we can go on double dates?” james said at once
“james potter i am not going on double dates with you and sirius thank you very much” lily said sarcastically.
“suit yourself, james and i are going on dates” sirius shrugged
“james and you are what-“ lily looked confused but cant help a laugh.
“thats right evans” sirius said in a dignified tone.
“dont you talk to my girlfriend like that black!” remus said at once. they all laughed at the sitiuation but lily said with a serious voice, “guys im so happy for you, youre finally together” she smiled wamrly. remus and sirius scooted closer next to each other smiling back at her.
“really proud of my mates” james said, trying to keep a serious tone but smirking at the same time.
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chemicallady · 4 years ago
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Matching
Greg Sanders x Reader!
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A/N: Hi everyone! Have you ever noticed that there are not enough Greg Sanders fanfiction in the world? I have looked for some for a while, but nothing. Now, stop complaining and let's have fun togheter, this is my first Greg Sanders x Reader! I hope you will like it! Besos! 
 Couple: Greg Sanders/Female!Reader 
Category: Fluff 
Content Warning: // 
 Summary:  this is the first time Greg tries to find love with an app. Who knows whohe  is gonna meet with a cyber matching?
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Las Vegas, October 5th 2015 
The last month was rough for him. Many things had changed forever. Nick had resigned from the team, Sarah decided to take a break after a big promotion in order to restore her relationship with Grissom, Catherine is back to her position as the leader of the night shift. 
Russell is moving on with his life and Finn is gone. Forever. No matter how much his tried to save her life or they prayed for her, she is gone. 
Greg is not confortable with big changes. For the first time in forever he is feeling like he is flooting. Dr Robbins said that is normal, in a moment like this one, in which he has escaped the death again, to feel this way.
«Maybe you need a fresh new start.»
Everyone is starting something, whatever. Nick is a boss now, Sarah is happy with her ex husband and former director of the lab. Even Hodges is living the moment, with a new girlfriend. 
«He met her on a website», Henry said to Greg during a coffee break. 
He laughted, then he used this information against Hodges. 
«It isnt a website... I am not dating a russian wife!»
Greg smirked, «No more girls interested in your Visa after the italian one?»
«Shut the fuck up, Sanders. Nowdays is normal using dating app. You should try and stop wasting my time!»
****
He didnt download Tinder only because Hodges suggested it. 
Of course.
He decided to try the app only to dimostrate that is a poor life choice. 
But the amounth of time he have spent in looking at girls profiles is already too much to look credible. Furthermore, Lindsay have noticed him swapping girls away and she giggled amused. «You should try to go on a date. Dont tell my mom, but I met a guy once, on Tinder. He was really awsome, but he was a tourist. An advice, always take a loool if she is a resident!»
And he followed her suggestion, making the opposite. Just to have some fun. 
There are many people who only are in Vegas for having fun and even if was cool, meeting girls who only want a one night stand, after three or four date started to make him feel bored. 
He always talk a little about is job, fake interesting in the girl’s plan for her vacation and everything ending in the morning. 
So he decided to try something else. 
A serious date, for once. 
***
He is exploring your profile since the moment you two matched. He is fascinating by your (y/e/c) eyes in the profile picture. You look smart but gentle at the same time. No mention to the fact that even if you are linving in Vegas, you are from (you hometown/nation) and you are a PhD candidate in Archaelogy. 
You dont look like the other girls he met in the last period. You are a student, a really good one. You have a picture in front of Columbia University, which you attended for your MSc and graduated.
So you are not only smart, but really intelligent. 
You have those beautiful (y/h/c) hair and a gentle smile. 
So he picks all his courage and writes you a simple ‘hi’. 
You dont answer immediatly, even if you have read the message. So Greg closes the app with disappointed. Well. It’s proved. You cant find love in one of this app. 
He decides that is far better to start with the awfull pile of documents on the desk, before is too late. Or to early, depends by the point of view. 
*** 
He had finished with paperwork around 7 am and so he decided to go home.
In the moment he enters the living room, he feels so lonely. It’s happening quite often in the last period. He kicks his shoes away and sits on the sofa, taking a deep breath. With his eyes close, he starts to thing about the last serious date and its look like a century ago.
And it was a complete failure.
Everytime he fell for a girl is always the same old story. Firstly, amazing. Then a mess because of his job.
But he doesn't have to change is life only because he feels the emptiness of his house. He has worked so much to achieve this results and now...
Now? What he has? A good position in an horrible schedule shift. An amazing group of team mates - unfortunately Hodges is still working in the materials lab, but who cares- but no social life. No family. He is 40 now and he was looking for a 25 years girl.
So silly.
So stupid.
But what's is even silliest? Losing himself in those throughs instead of sleep. He has his shift starting at 11 pm, but he has the laudary to do. And he need to clean the apartment. Is full of dust.
****
After seven hours sleeping, he feels himself far more positive. It's around 2 pm when he wakes up and start with the laudary. He gets a look on the phone and answer to Morgan under a pic on facebook, than he notices that he has a new notification on Tinder.
He is so surprise when he realises that is you.
-who wrote 'hi' at 4.30 in the morning?-
He blushes a little, thinking about it. It was really early and he hasnt realised it.
-someone who is working at night...?-
The answer is not the best. But you are smart and you bring a good observation.
-like a hooker?-
He laught a little, rising his elbow.
-sorta. But not so well paid.-
Making fun of the hookers is not a good way to start a conversation, but someway, it works. You two share some messages and then you give your phone number to him.
You are free tomorrow for lunch, even if is unusual meeting someone with the sun in the sky, in Vegas.
And he is totaly down.
***
Is strange for you to go on a date with someone you don't know. But it is even strangest go for a lunch date. It's look so formal to you, but the guy in the profile pic looks potentially awsome. You have read from his description that he works for the Clark Country Police Department and this is a hot detail: you have a thing for cops.
You dressed nicely for the lunch inside The Venice's restaurant. Classy choice by the way. But not elegant because is 12 am. You also decide to go easy on your make up, because after this date you have to help in teaching a bacherlo class and you are hoping that you won't have enough time to change, after the meal.
So here we go.
In front of the restaurant.
You look around and see a figure a couple of meters away from you. He is pretty tall and with dark blonde hair. He is also well dressed, better then you, but not formal.
Your glazes meet in the middle of the atrium and you both smile embarrassed. He is the first one to move some steps near to you.
《Hi. You are (y/n)?》
《Yes. And you must be Greg.》
You shake his hand and then catch his invitation to enter in the restaurant first. The waiter reserved you a nice place on the balcony. The cannel is fake, not even similar to the Italian one, but is romantic.
One score for Greg.
《What would you like to eat?》, he asked so politely that you can't help yourself, but smile back.
《I thing I'll go with a sandwich for lunch》
《Nice choice, I am down. Wine?》
《Sorry, but I have a class in the afternoon...》
This time he is smiling. 《Then water for two.》
He is so kind. He decides to drink water because you can't drink wine. This is another score.
After you two have made your orders, it's time for questions.
《Do you usually meet people this way?》, je asks, nicely. Even if there is no accusation in the tune of his voice, you blush a little.
《It's not the first time, but I am still a skeptical, by the way.》
《Why?》
《Because I've met only morons on Tinder. 》 You try your best smile. 《Hope you are not one of them.》
《I share this hope with you》, he jokes. 《I am looking for your verdict at the end of the meal, so.》
You both laught. Is a nice company and the tension is going away.
《So you are a cop?》
《Not exactly. I work for the crime like as a crime scene investigator.》
You looked impressed. 《Sounds amazing but hard at the same time. I am asking to my self you an awsome guy like you is still single.... is for your job?》
This time is Greg the one who blushes. 《Yes is really... It takes most of my time. Someday all of my time.》
《I can relate》, you say. 《I am not cool as you are, I don't save people for live, neither I am good in puzzle but... I work on field so I spend several weeks abroad. Sometimes even a month or two and when I come back...》
《...You have the feeling that everyone is carries on with his life but you are static》 he ends your statement. 《Yes, you can relate, totaly.》
You two share a smile and then he starts to ask you some questiom about your job, your position at the UNLV and stuffs.
In the end, after a sweet fight, he insists to pay the meal, but you put on the table the tips.
《It was really nice 》, you say and he agrees. 《We should do that again. What's your spare night?》
《Monday》 he aswers, immediately 《If my boss wont tell me otherwise.》
《If you are agree, you can see eachother again on Monday, so.》
《It will be amazing.》
Another smile and a little silence. You have no idea of what to do now. Is too soon for a kiss, but an hand shake would be awful. So you decide to come closer to him and kiss his cheek. Is so cute the way he blushes again. Greg is near now and you can feel his breath on your lips. For him, is not too soon. He gently puts a hands on you hip and drag you into a soft kiss.
The best way to end a good date.
****
《So how is she?》
After two weeks dating, Greg decides to tell the guys about you.
Terrible idea.
《She is so nice!》 He starts excited, while Catherine is laught, shaking is head and look at David Philips in the classical 'told ya' way. 《She is beautiful and gentle. She is also tremendously determinate. More than anything, she is so intelligent and her smell is amazing.》
《She can cook?》, Super Dave asks, joking.
《Everything you can say, she can do it. Is incredible. She speaks like five languages and is so sexy in bed.》
《This information is not necessary 》 is Catherine's comment.
But Dave wants to prove a point now. 《....She speaks five languages in bed or it was not correlated?》
《Guys, we are on a crime scene.》
The two boys share a small smile and wait for Russell to be far enough. So Dave asks one last question. 《Are you only fancy her... or maybe you are already in love?》
Greg thinks about it for a couple of second. 《I am already fucked.》
Dave laughs, 《of couse you are.》
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queenofwerewolves · 4 years ago
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Bright morning sun, warm sand, flesh breeze and the smell of the ocean...
This is the best that the beach has to offer, and no doubt our crew is enjoying to the max.. Well, most of them. Some just cant stand the Sun or will literally die if a single ray of sunshine hits them. Nonetheless, they still have fun alltogether.
Here we have our team, our protagonists: Future Hope is what they called themselves, because they are the hope of the future (corny but still a good message).
Eitch one is doing something different. Our big and buffy WereRabbit himself, Griff, is happily making a sandcastle along with the baby of the group, Muffin the Fairy, using her magic to make the little detaila of the castle. Meanwhile Rooko/Rooki, Spike, Blinkachu and Kip are having a volleyball tournament, and watching them are Spooks, Togekiss and the leader of the team.
Maria, but everyone refers to her as Queen. While she may not be an actual Queen, her actions and leadership replicate the same ones of an actual Queen, always loyal to those who care and help her, and isnt afraid to speak her mind.
Maria was sipping on a soda, watching the game, while Togekiss read a book and Spooks played Animal Crossing on her Switch.
"When the bubblegum pops..~ I want you to smile..~" Spooks sang along to the game's iconic tune, Maria looked at her and smiled. "I know you cant go out in the Sun." She said "But Im sure your cloak can protect you, you should go have fun too"
Spooks smiled softly. "Thanks but I am having fun, look I just got Marshall to move into my island!"
"Aw damn, I havent even got Ankha yet!" Maria said, the two girls giggling.
"HAHA!!! SUCK IT KITTY CAT!!!"
They turn back to the game to see Blink running in circles, celebrating another win between her and Spike, who were both a team. Kip was shaking her head.
"We get it dude, you won for a third time in a row" She said with a slight smile.
"And it was a remarcable victory indeed! You have such a wonderful jump!" "Ooh man why did we even bother playing? We suck at every kind of sport out there, we were destined to lose ever since we touched the ball!" Said the witch bird Rook, with her split personalities Rooki and Rooko. Polar opposites, one being a ray of sunshine and the other being a drag in the mud.
"Hey dont sweat it birbie" said Spike, brushing his hair back. "You werent so bad, too bad your height didnt help your jumps much" He playfully scoffed.
"Ohoho! See my dear? Even our friends know that we did our very best in this game!" "Why did we even bother? We were doomed to fail since our very birth with our stupid height, why are we even here? Just to suffer?!" "Oh dear me.. Let's get you some icecream, shall we?"
The witch birb along with the blonde kitty cat went together to get some icecream, meanwhile Spike and Blink went over to Griff and Muffin, who just finished their sand castle
Griff laughed out proudly "This is awesome! It's so pretty! And these details are so.. Detailed!"
Muffin twirled in the air "Im so happy too! Fit for a King!" She shouted proudly
"Or a Queen" Griff added, looking at Maria as she laughed along with Spooks about their conversation. He sighed.
"Our Queen hasnt been doing anything but stay in that tent with Togekiss and Spooks. While I get Spooks cant go out in the Sun and Togekiss is, well... Not really into beaches, I think Maria deserves to have some fun..." He added, Muffin looked at Maria and nodded in agreement. "You're right.." She responded.
"So how's the sandcastle?" Said Spike, chewing on a piece of gum. "Aw hey it looks nice. Why do ya'll look so down?" He then noticed that their looking at Maria, and imediatly knew what they were talking about. "Ooh I see. Queen aint doing much huh?"
"It was her idea for us to come to the beach, yet she isnt having any fun? What's the damn point then?" Blink added to the conversation, just as puzzled as the rest. "Is she just gonna sit around under the tent all day? I mean I get Spooks because she cant go to the Sun and Togekiss-"
"I literally said the same thing" Griff interrupted, seeming annoyed that the conversation isnt really doing anything to get Maria to have fun under the Sun.
"Well, what do you suggest Bunny Boy?" Spike asked, blowing a bubble with his gum. Griff's floppy ears twitched as he pondered a bit, then his ears perked as he got an idea, smirking.
"I got an idea."
A little bit more into the day, Maria noticed it was quiet. Looking up from her phone, she noticed that no one was in her view. Getting worried, she put on her flipflops, tied a swimming cloth around her waist, matching her swimsuit and walked out of the tent. She looked around and couldnt find her friends, beginning to worry.
"Griff?! Spike?! Muffin?! You guys?! Where did you-" "Woah!!!"
She was suddenly picked up by the WereRabbit, and by her side she saw all of her friends, and they were all running.
"What the hell are you-" "AAAH!!!"
"SPLASH!!!"
With a sudden movement, Griff threw her into the ocean, as the others laughed at her. "We came to the beach cause you wanted Maria! Why dont'cha cool off?" Spike added, making the laughter escalate harder.
As she submerged from the water with her back turned, panting, her voice changed..
"You... You..."
They stopped laughing, instantly knowing they were fucked.. Until she turned around with the widest smile they've ever seen, laughing her heart out.
"You damn rascals! This water is so freaking cold!" She laughed out loud
They sighed in relief, knowing they'll live for another day. And laughed once again. Until Griff got rudely splashed in the face with the sea water.
"Blegh!! Aye!! What was that?!" He sneered at her, who was giggling at his reaction.
"I know it was your idea to throw me in here, Im just returning the favor!" She said, showing her tongue.
The WereRabbit growled with a smirk "ooh now you're gonna get it, Lass!" He dived in the water, swimming after her as Maria ran laughing.
"Alright!! Cannonball bitches!!!" Shouted Spike, cannonballing into the ocean along with Blink and Muffin. Kip and Rook, who came back from getting icecream, saw the entire scene play out.
"I may be a cat, but Im down for a swim!" Kip said, running towards the ocean.
"Ohoho! Come on dear!" "Nooo I dont like the taste of salt water!!" Shouted Rooko as her body flunged towards the water.
Spooks and Togekiss, watching from afar, smiled at the fun mess that was happening in the ocean, Blink and Spike splashing eitch other, Griff was holding Maria in the air as she laughed, Kip was floating in peace as Rook twirled and spun around with Muffin.
"Such children.." Togekiss said. "Im so proud to be their friends" They said with a soft smile.
"Yeah.." Responded Spooks. "No doubt the future will be bright, as long as we're together.."
"I agree my dear Royal Of Darkness. Now, want to visit my island?" Said Togekiss, pulling out their Switch as well.
"Oh heck yeah!" Spooks smiled.
And so they enjoyed the rest of their beach day, as a well-deserved break from saving the day, changing the world..
Giving Hope, to the Future...
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babylon-cal · 4 years ago
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Don’t Like Me? - Calum
Pairing : Calum x Reader
Genre : Angst & Fluff
Requested : by anon : Can I request something? I want a fic where the reader is dating Calum & the rest of the boys don't like them because they don't like the LA party lifestyle. Angst with fluff in the end (Calum reassuring the reader that it's ok to not like the LA party lifestyle because he doesn't like it either)? Make sure you write it with gender neutral reader in mind
Word Count : 1.7k
I haven’t written for the 5sos boys since 2018, so i hope this is better than what I used to write, idk honestly gjdshk i hope you enjoy it!! Tried not to make it too unrealistically dramatic because I know that in all facts, the boys would not straight up not like someone for not partying so I had to make the reasoning about more thought out. 
Unrelated, but I have some 2012 wattpad fic type requests in my inbox that are just giving me flashbacks that I’m not entirely looking forward to write but you know what we gotta pull through fam so
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The air was cool outside the club and the cars that drove past would occasionally cause a stronger gust to blow against (y/n)’s hair, pushing it away from their face. The music from inside of the club sounded muffled from where they stood on the sidewalk that was cast with a soft orange hue from the streetlights, a half smoked cigarette nestled between their fingers. They took a drag from it, tasting the nicotine. They never particularly enjoyed the taste but it made them feel a little bit at ease, especially during the exuberant atmospheres of parties.
It was baffling as to why their boyfriend, Calum and his bandmates insisted on renting out clubs every other two weeks and indulging in exorbitant amounts of alcohol and dancing to deafening electronic pop until they were stumbling out of the doors in the wee hours of the morning. Calum had never made it too difficult on (y/n), trying not to get drunk too often. In all honesty he would rather stay at home with this partner rather than leave them while he was out, or even bring them along like they did tonight. (y/n) heard the music as it was unobstructed for a few seconds - assuming it was someone exiting the club, before the doors closed again.
“Mind a puff?” a voice said beside them and they turned to see Calum there, sporting his The Sensation t-shirt and a pair of black slacks. They handed him the cigarette and he placed it between his lips. (y/n) watched as the orange ring glowed and ate up the white casing slowly as he took a drag and how he blew the smoke up in a small cloud. “You alright?” Calum asked, as he handed the tab back to them, placing an arm around their waist and pulling them closer to his side.
“Yes, I just wanted some air, you know how all of this isn’t really my thing,” They dropped their cigarette, stubbing it out with their foot.
“Of course I do. Do you want to go home?” he asked, staring down at them as they continued looking out into the distance and at the bright neon from the 7-11 sign down the road.
“Actually, yeah,” they responded, looking at him once more, flashing him a small smile, which he returned before pressing a kiss to their forehead, mumbling an “okay”.
“We should say goodbye to the boys first, don’t you think?” Calum suggested and (y/n) felt their heart sink. They could never fathom why the other boys behaved somewhat hostile and cold towards them, whenever they met at parties most of the time. In the rare occasion they did meet at other smaller gatherings, the boys would only exchange a few words with them - only deciding to speak to them when Calum included them in a conversation. (y/n) would more often than not, stay silent by Cal’s side, disengaging from any conversation on the fear that they would dislike them more, in case their suspicions of their feelings were any way true.
Calum and (y/n) stepped into the club, immediately greeted by the strong smell of tequila and sweat, the cold air conditioning not really helping. Their fingers interlaced as they made their way through the stragglers, (y/n) feeling an awful discomfort at the unknown skin-on-skin contact with the strangers on top of the blaring of Physical by Dua Lipa through every corner of the room, the bass boosts giving them unsettling vibrations at the base of their throat. The couple approached a small booth where the other three youngsters sat with their girlfriends, sharing some drinks and laughing over the music. They set their eyes on (y/n) who was a few metres away with Calum, the girls giving them friendly waves which they returned with a grin which faltered quickly upon noticing the blank expressions on the boys’ face, especially Ashton.
He made eye contact with them for a second before quickly blinking away, the eye roll not going unnoticed by (y/n) which took them back slightly, feeling a small lump form in their throat upon discovering that their suspicions may be true. Maybe I’m overthinking, they thought but the not-so-inconspicuous eye roll from Michael who saw the couple reaching the table, made the whole idea seem anything but farfetched. (y/n) stood at the edge of the table, while Calum leaned over to whisper something in Luke’s ear who nodded, giving him a thumbs up and fist bump. He did the same to the other two, before returning to (y/n)’s side and giving one last wave to the table, which they did, out of courtesy as well. Only Luke paid attention, even flashing a small smile.
The car ride was awfully quiet, not much being spoken between the two except in the beginning of their journey where Calum told (y/n) that they could choose the songs to play. They stared out the window at the settled down, LA city at 1 a.m. with some shops still having their display lights on, while some had them off. They liked the city streets at this time in comparison to the multiple traffic jams and hustle throughout the day and early nights. Most of the town were indoors or at the club, leaving the roads almost empty and calm. Wait For Me by KIngs of Leon played softly in the background, as Calum turned at the traffic lights right before turning to spare his partner a glance, worried at their lack of chatter.
“Are you alright, (y/n), you haven’t been talking much tonight,” he said, resuming his attention to the road, letting his hand fall softly on their thigh, giving it a gentle squeeze. (y/n) blinked out of their daze at his contact, slowly turning to look at him while placing their hand on his wrist.
“Yeah, I’m fine Cal. Just a bit tired, that’s all,” He didn’t push it further, even though he knew that they weren’t being entirely truthful. He could read them like a book and he knew that (y/n) was only this quiet when they were upset because even when they were tired, they’d go off into pointless waffle that didn’t really make sense as much as it did in their head, which made Calum so curious to how their brain was wired in addition to finding it absolutely adorable.
(y/n) was quick to get into bed, having changed into one of Calum’s shirts that they always slept in and joggers. While he was in the bathroom, his phone pinged with a text and his phone lit up as (y/n) was scrolling through their own. They didn’t mean to but their eyes subconsciously glanced over to the strip of message that flashed on his lockscreen, covering the part of his background which was a photo - taken on their holiday to Venice - of them kissing on the Gondola as it floated under a bridge.
Mate, i hope this isnt rude
The first message read and it was from Ashton. Not long after, another message strip appeared under the other.
We think (y/n) is trying to control you bro
This hurt to read. At this point, every suspicion they had of not being liked by the rest of the band confirmed itself which broke their heart. These were his brothers. His soulmates. They were his forever before themself. What would he think of them, when his own brothers didn’t like them? Would he change his mind on how he felt about them? A tear slipped down their cheek but they quickly wiped it away, their throat tight from the lump that had formed in it. Their stomach churned and their skin burned as the phone slowly went black again. (y/n) didn’t say a word and continued scrolling through their instagram when Calum returned from the bathroom, a pair of grey joggers hanging low on his hips. He climbed into bed next to them, grabbing his own phone. They looked at him from the corner of his eyes, and saw him typing a reply to the text from Ashton, they looked away, trying to ignore it. It was difficult when his arm wrapped around their frame and he leaned down to their cheek pressing a kiss to it.
“Are you going to tell me what’s wrong and why you look like you’re going to cry?” his voice was deep but soft. It was their safety blanket. Hearing him was more than a reassurance that he was going to be there and be honest through all of their doubts. (y/n) sighed, locking their phone and placing it in their lap, leaning into Calum’s arm more causing him to nestle his chin in the crook of their neck and shoulder, his other hand rubbing down their arm comfortingly.
“Why don’t the other boys like me?” Calum’s heart sank at the intense amount of pain that they showed. “I want them to....they’re practically your family,” they added softly, their voice shaking, the tears forming again. Calum didn’t say anything at first, instead pulling them onto his lap, wrapping both his arms around their middle and pressing light kisses to the exposed skin at the top of their shoulder.
“They don’t dislike you, (y/n). They’re just a bit bothered by the fact that we always leave early whenever you come out to parties with us,” he spoke again almost immediately. “There’s nothing wrong with not liking clubs or any of that shit ok? I’m not one of those crazy party people either to be fair, and you have nothing to worry about anymore. I explained everything to them,” (y/n) looked at Calum as he finished his sentence, looking him smile back down at them. “If you like, we could invite them to lunch maybe? Somewhere that can help them have a proper conversation with you instead of just at the club all the time?” he offered and (y/n) smiled a little bit, trusting Calum.
“That sounds lovely, thank you Cal,” they shared a kiss before he hugged them tightly again, swaying them to the side slightly, making their mind feel at ease which (y/n) could not be more grateful for. 
END
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