#i hope not but my urls dont match so i will never know

[ravedose]

i wanna draw more daverose art but not even gonna lie i dont have my finger on the pulse anymore (no pulse anyway) (sad) (i miss 2016) (2022)

[cloudcountry]

Aubbieeee, I failed to grab Masquerade Azul. (I blame the last chef event, I panicked over the idea of getting past chef cards.) So I figured maybe I’d just focus on getting SRs since I usually get the event SR in a ten pull but now Sebek’s avoiding me? Oh gosh he must have realized I’m not even interested in pulling for Malleus. (I only got 40 pulls in for Azul and I’m strictly free to play at the moment as there’s certain irl goals I want to hit before I feel I could finance responsibly into this game. This fail of a pull has made me possibly lose all desire to pull for SSRs and failing to get Sebek so far feels like the game is reading my goals and will punish me. It’s just like Pokemon and having to play mind games to capture a pokemon despite logically knowing the game is not linked to my brain.)

Anyway

Have you been reading fan translations or anything like that for the Playful Land event? I haven’t, so I’m only getting little bits from tumblr. Though I think I will try to find the translations for it on the one wiki (i dont recall the exact url off the top of my head) once I think there’s been enough time for a translation to be released.

I’m imagining Bobo trying to resist the temptation of just letting go and having fun. Honest is trying to talk her up saying since there’s no progress of getting her home that she might as well have fun here. What point is there in stressing if she can’t do anything about it anyway? Then she breaks when Gideon offers her either his toy hammer or a matching toy hammer.

Oh have you still been thinking if Seria you’re crab-mer? Have you thought of them participating in the different twst events at all?

HI AXVIE!!!! :3

hsafgdsfgdags NOOOOOO :(( I HOPE YOU GET HIMW HEN THE EVENT RERUNS!!!! AAAAAAAAA IM SENDING U SOME OF MY LUCK HOPEFULLY YOULL AT LEAST GET SOME OF THE SRS :(( ITS SO NOT FAIR THAT YOURE BEING AVOIDED LIKE THAT HELLO

that aside!!! i never read fan translations because i prefer to keep as much of an event as possible away from me. IDK IF THAT MAKES SENSE and with teh masquerade event it was kinda unavoidable but the only reason im writing for honest is because i like fucking around with an unknown personality and the people love him already LMAO

ANYONE WOULD BREAK WHEN OFFERED THE HAMMER.

honest okay i have thought about sereia in the masquerade event especially bc they'd be having such a blast with all the shiny accessories and those glass mobile thingys rook liked a lot. actually a think sereia and rook would bond a lot during that event!!!

[osamosa11]

*cough* here i am 1223423 years later as usual ... but here we go hehe (also im too lazy to deal with the font sizes i apologize in advance)

nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name

1. why did you choose your url? once when i had hopes and dreams my purpose in life was to find a miya twins enthusiast willing to twin usernames with me ... chaatsumu and osamosa because miya atsumu & osamu + samosa chaat .... but alas it never happened so now im osamosa on here and my ao3 is chaatsumu and just matching with myself like a loser /J /LH KASJDHNK

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. my dude. i barely have one blog much less a sideblog JBHDSJKSB

3. how long have you been on tumblr? gmail says 2021!! i haven't actually posted/interacted outside of liking before this month though (it's evo's fault yall are now subjected to my presence JHBDC)

4. do you have a queue tag? i just learned how to reblog .

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? sigh i was gonna make it for fic recs when i started and then promptly abandoned it like everything else that doesnt remain in my attention span for over 5 minutes JKBHDC

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? nan feng!!! beat up because he deserves to be bullied!!! /affectionate

7. why did you choose your header? pretty fictional people !!! bullying nan feng !!! sqx is my wife !!!!

8. what’s your post with the most notes? my sunflower fx art teehee <333 (she's at 69 votes rn actually ... we all know what that means *waggles eyebrows and then cringes*) but im so emo about him and sunflowers so it makes me v happy :3

9. how many mutuals do you have? idek how i would go about checking this but i probably have like . maybe 8 followers if that idk and i follow all of them back im pretty sure

10. how many followers do you have? refer to above hehe

11. how many people do you follow? mmm around 35?

12. have you ever made a shitpost? i shitpost on twt enough, the world wouldnt be able to handle me there and on tumblr

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? once or twice if that?

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? ive spoken to maybe 3 in total but theyve all been super super sweet <333 yall are so nice . i have been getting slandered and bullied by my friendo mi for years who also happens to be my mootie here tho someone save me /j

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts i dont think ive come across this ?

16. do you like tag games? always appreciate the opportunity to yap * nods sagely*

17. do you like ask games? once again idk what this is JKDVBSDB i know what asks are but game...?

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? basically everyone ever is more famous than me so i think all of them are hehe

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? nope!

20. what is the last song you listened to? saturn - sza is playing rn hehe

21. what are you currently watching? link click live action! also remembered the tgcf donghua exists and watched all fengqing fight scenes yesterday LOL

22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? i love love sweet and spicy!! preference depends on my mood hehe

23. what is your current relationship status? single pringle, just as it has always been !

24. what is your current obsession? fengxinfengxin and also my oc that evo knows about teehee ACTUALLY . GO READ THEIR FIC WITH HIM IN IT RIGHT NEOWWW ITS BEAUTIFUL ITS EVERYTHING THE UNIVERSE HAS EVER NEEDED

25. what are nine albums/ songs you've been listening to lately?

good days - sza

sunflower - rex orange county

alive - kehlani

best friend - laufey

the things you leave behind - maruwhat & anthony lazaro

the ballad of lucy gray baird - rachel zegler

blue neighborhood - troye sivan

manta rays - chloe moriondo

you were good to me - jeremy zucker, chelsea cutler

@beemilo @rampagingnoble @sugisyakult pokes you with a stick (v lovingly hehe <33) if you wanna do this !!!

nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name

(thank you for the tag @lianhuajing !!)

1. why did you choose your url? uh. it was a play on "rose tinted glasses"

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. nope!

3. how long have you been on tumblr? I think 2022? i knew about it before, just never bothered to make a blog

4. do you have a queue tag? don't kill me, what's a queue tag?

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? I had some Thoughts about Blue Lock and wanted to post meta for it

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? uhh Flora.

7. why did you choose your header? Reo is one of my Blorbos and I just really liked that panel of him

8. what’s your post with the most notes? probably the "do you download fics" poll

9. how many mutuals do you have? about 20? i don't remember

10. how many followers do you have? 120?

11. how many people do you follow? 91

12. have you ever made a shitpost? yes. i think.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? an hour?

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? nope

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts meh. some of them are funny i guess

16. do you like tag games? yep! it's nice interaction

17. do you like ask games? i do! but uh. it's a silent empty void here. an echo chamber, if you will.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? i have no idea but i see @kingsandbastardz a lot in the mlc community

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? nope

20. what is the last song you listened to? 若梦 by 周深

21. what are you currently watching? i just finished The Double! probably starting on Dashing Youth next

22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? savoury!

23. what is your current relationship status? single

24. what is your current obsession? The Double,,,,

25. what are nine albums/ songs you've been listening to lately?

若梦 by 周深

如故 by 张碧晨

如初 by 张碧晨

借过一下 by 周深

万物不如你 by 张杰

Our dawn is hotter than day by Seventeen

Hitorijana by Seventeen

my music taste is kinda...i tend to stick to a few artists...

26. tagging (no obligation to do this!) @randomingoftherandomness @good-vs-evo @chrysofightme @bbcphile

[plattenbau-persephone-praxis]

(I'm bad at this) INTRODUCTION

First off: yes, my lovely deranged friend is still doing ff14 aetheryte-less. She's currently mid-Endwalker finished Endwalker caught up. She went through the aetheryte sickness scene and her reaction was vindication.

Hey y'all, since Tumblr is back in the spotlight I decided to be more active here. I'm Sarah, my pronouns are she/her! I'm in my 20s. I used to be hate-x-hope, then dont-play-with-matches, but I changed my url (again). I've been active through the death of Tumblr so I was never really gone. IDK I'm mostly here to gush about my fav media or whatever media I consumed recently.

I can't promise that everything here will be kid friendly so please be 18+.

I do music under the moniker "hate//hope", my new release "joy" is out now!!! You can find me here and also on Spotify.

Uhhh what else, don't interract if you're someone whomst I kindly asked not to interract with me anymore (you know who you are). Also don't interract if you're transphobic, homophobic, a swerf, BSW Wähler*in, transmed/truscum etc.

[potentially-lemongrass]

hey! um i wanted to ask a bi queerstake member whose dated about this, um I want to marry in the temple and I know that means I'll have to marry a AMAB person, is it bad that I want a nb/nb aligned masc person or at least a bisexual or asexual partner? i feel like i wont find someone like that, I just want someone who understands and is also queer but also fits kind of with the church narrative. is that weird? you dont have to answer this I just wanted to ask since no one talks about it i guess

honestly my perspective on dating has changed a lot since meeting B so I might say something completely different to what I was saying in previous months. (and of course, as always, this is just Ryn’s Opinion TM so take what you will). Also, looong post incoming as this is also a bit of a life update/journal entry since it’s been a while. I’m using B to respect his privacy and as always, I know that i’m super personal on here but please don’t try to doxx me or find out more than I’m willing to share <3 I’m slightly paranoid so I feel like I always need to say that. 

ANYWAY, I am still decidedly bisexual ✌ and so I’ll fight against bi erasure all day long since I’m a cis woman dating a cishet man. I will never be a straight woman and B totally understands and respects that. However, it also doesn’t exactly matter?? since I’ve chosen him so I’m not dating any men OR women.

Before meeting him, I was thinking about dating in the abstract especially since I really never had a serious relationship with anyone. I was fantasizing about dating girls and feeling deeply cheated that the Church was robbing me of that opportunity. I was angry, deeply depressed, and just generally not in a good mental place.

Coming to college was when I decided I wasn’t mentally going to “do” Church anymore. I skipped a few Sundays, and still signed up for Institute but I was angry and very determined to distance myself from the Church. I had to know if I even wanted to do this with my life and part of my master plan was getting a girlfriend. (although with the caveat that dating a girl, *just* to date a girl and not a guy, isn’t the best plan and I should have been more focused on romance)

I didn’t expect to meet B and when I did, I was deeply worried about getting a man who was “Peter Priesthood” and I would never be able to share my queer identity with him. B isn’t at all like that. He spent enough time around the queer kids in high school to really get a feel for the struggle and he’s never ever made me feel weird about it. He’s even encouraged and asked me to talk about it so I didn’t feel like I had to hide anything.

I came to two conclusions (well, maybe two and a half). 1) I’m definitely bisexual. Over the summer, I had briefly wondered if I was a lesbian and comp het was just taking its toll. Nope. Men are hot and my bf is absolutely a snack. So if anyone is looking for advice about figuring out sexuality, just try dating someone. I totally believe that you can know your sexuality without experience but it most definitely helps if you know what you’re talking about.

2) I missed church. I hadn’t realized it until I walked away but I truly do have a testimony and I longed for the presence of the Spirit in my life. So I chose to turn back. I read my scriptures and prayed sincerely and listened at church. No, I’m not entirely happy with the Church. There are things that make me cry and cringe and grit my teeth, but I have decided that I want to be here.

Part of that realization was B. My friend asked me if I could see myself getting married in the temple and I realized suddenly that I could. Suddenly it wasn’t a faceless man dragging me into a suburban life of mommy minivans and LDS conformity. It was the thought of B and I, holding hands and promising each other forever in the most eternal sense and it was me, making covenants with Heavenly Father. He and I both know that I’ve always had real joy in my life when I was doing my best to keep His commandments.

What I really needed was to accept my queer identity and feel like I could date girls if I wanted to. Finding B and finding my testimony were linked, as wild it is to say.

Not to say that that road would be easy. I’m not even close to being ready for marriage. B and I are figuring things out, both between us and with the Church. If faith was neat and simple, it wouldn’t be such an enduring theme throughout all of history.

 But maybe sometime in the next 5 years? Maybe in 2-3 years? I might be Mrs. Lemongrass. (pffft yes we’ll assume we’re taking my tumblr url as a last name lmao)

SO now you’re wondering about how that applies to your actual question. There will definitely be people in the Church who match what you’re looking for. My philosophy is that there really is someone out there for everyone. You’re trying to forecast for the future which is great and necessary but love doesn’t happen in the abstract. A Relationship TM isn’t some nebulous concept or a copy and paste letter. It’s what happens when you and a specific other person like each other a whole lot and it goes from there. Your relationship won’t look like mine or your parents or anyone else’s because you and your future partner are unique people.

So you totally may find someone in the Church who is queer and down for a temple marriage. Keep in mind as well that you may also find someone in the Church who is cishet and that works too. Just because someone isn’t queer doesn’t mean they can’t understand--assuming no one will ever understand you has always felt arrogant and dismissive of the power of empathy imho--so a cishet guy could be just as amazing.

So there’s no need to feel bad about wanting a specific type of person but don’t close yourself off! Enjoy the journey and put yourself out there with confidence. No one is good at relationships; they’re inherently awkward. You’ll say dumb stuff or fart in front of them or they’ll overshare and you’ll panic. Just trust the process, laugh at yourself, and realize the only thing you can really do is live in *this* moment. I hope this doesn’t sound condescending at all! This is just all my big sister advice that I can think of. Remember that you are loved, always, always, always by our Heavenly Parents and They’ll help you figure stuff out.

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

hehe glad i could make you laugh, oooh that sounds awesome! yeah id love to be tagged it sounds great :)

YES the differences are so fucking weird. like, they do know they're the same age right? i feel like its just an exagguration of how much the persons role in the group matters, like we see chan being held up as such a mature, old leader while jungkook who is literally the same age, is still babied etc. like enha hyung line is basically the same age (if a bit younger) as chenle and jisung but somehow the rules are different?? as you point out, still legal but still bizarre. hehe yeah, i mean where else are we going to rant? quora lol. mmm, hopefully more people can just write less smut abt people who are barely adults

ah, no prob it didnt take long. yeah i think thats right (i keep forgetting you know my url lol) mmhmm :( i think if that happened irl there would be some major trauma going on. knock wood it never happens to you or me lol (/hj)

hehe same! oooh glad Redemption For Cheese was realised! yess we cant rllycomplain that theyve written/produced too much good music lol. yeah, ive dragged him into being a stay so *dusts hands off* mission accomplished. mmm yeah, they tend to have a certain vibe but tbh it couldve worked if they were any other group but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ahh ur one step ahead of me on the stages of listening to ssick i think, still not convinced but thats okay! hehe, it had to be said. yesss the itch in the back of my brain is very satisfied by sorry i love you, felixs vocals deserve to be appreciated! (side note i feel like hes trying to sing more like his speaking voice, sorta husky, but tbh i wouldnt be mad if he sang like in glow, his sweet honey vocals made my life lol. but i think ive heard him say he doesnt like singing like that cos it makes his normal voice less husky, so what can you do)

> YES SOMEONE SAID IT. seungmin rap KING, he sped thru that rap like it was nothing, he deserves more rap lines. i do like how they gave minho some melodic rap lines this comeback, my guy deserved to show off those skills that made him not be eliminated (flashbacks to stay collectively wanting to murder jyp) and we already know changbin can sing, my man murdered masked singer. hyunjin can obviously sing as can jisung and felix, and i want to hear chan rap more! i feel like he started as part of 3racha (as a rap unit not producing) and then just became a vocalist (which im fine with, but it could be nice to hear him flex his rapping skills) and was partially replaced by hyunjin. anywayyy

back to album talk. lmaooo sad music to twerk to PERFECTLY describes silent cry. yes secret secret is and will always be, a masterpiece. hehe glad i could make you laugh :) i just felt like they have similar vibes. putting off skz stuff bc of not having time to cry IS the kpop stan life summarised. oh my beloved track, red lights. ahh thats okay, we can have different opinions, but by god the lyrics are *chefs kiss*. *banging on table* TWISTED AU TWISTED AU TWISTED AU. yess id love to see ur take on it! sdfghjkl it would have been glorious

no no! not stupid, just able to predict my brainwaves. ooooh thats so cool! makes me want to go there (wherever there is lol) yeah the waves are pretty good here, but none of my familys a surfer, so we dont rlly enjoy the full potential lol. YES moving on to gone away, it is indeed a heartwrenching track, but the vocals and the bloody key change? makes me want to brave being sad just to listen to it. mmm yeah, good point :( i feel like ive just gotten used to overthinking so much so that it doesnt matter what mood im in, ill do it anyway, so might as well just do what i feel like doing anyway.

yeah i think ur right! it is quite comforting knowing that all the tracks will get the love they deserve. i feel like also people assume kpop is just one genre which is utter bs. there are so many different vibes and feels and songs, i couldnt get into kpop (of which i thought only the bright cheerful present day bts stuff existed smh) until i heard gods menu so... idk where i was going with this but yeah. :)

YES FUCK YG, theyre literally on the brink of being kicked out of the big three and they are holding their salvation hostage without letting them do ANYTHING. idek what thought process goes thru their minds but arghhh its so infuriating. yess lisa's cb will be awesome but ot4 is the gold standard here.

hehe, glad u could get to this point. no no! u dont sound like a cult member at all lol yeah, i loooove some of their songs but the whole 23 members thing is getting to me. thats prob a common problem with nctzens but what can i say? im a simple girl with a limit to how many korean boys i can give my money to. atm im just trying to get into ateez and finish memorising enhypen's faces. also kard is kinda sucking me into their fandom atm, as well as eric name lol. ah what can you do? ooh thats good!

hehe i love it too! its exactly like online penpals, that was rlly well put. aww ty! hmm im okay, recovering from a bad case of rsv so thats fun. im doing okay mentally, starting therapy soon (after having to convince my mother that its not just smth i can brush off). physically i wont go into, basically i should be doing stretches to help but they dont completely fix it so my lazy ass doesnt do them, plus i got told recently im going to be stuck with this condition for the rest of my life so thats fun! ah, before you type smth dw abt me ill be fine. the weather atm is cloudy but warm, its been raining on and off today which is good for the garden. uhh i just finished reading sunburnt veils and im in the middle of prom theory which is rlly good. ummm ive got a concert tonight? that i may or may not be able to sing in (bc of the whole rsv thingo) and uhhhh idk. my dog is cute? im drinking tea rn? ive got a school dance coming up?

wbu? hows ur day going, how are you? whats the weather like on ur end? done anything interesting lately? found smth that makes you rlly happy? just any random thing youve been dying to tell someone?

no no! dont apologise, i love these exchanges. i think im happy to continue them for a long time :) on the other hand, if you get tired of them, feel free to just not answer at any time. goodness gracious this was a long ask haha hope it isnt too annoying

<3 w.a. 🐺

sorry it took me a bit to reply, i was fixing my theme ;n;

yeah, i figured it was because of the roles too. my friends and i still get taken aback when 3rd gen idols are the same age as 4th gen ones. in my head it doesn't add up sometimes. PLS THE RANT AT QUORA SKJDK tbh tho it's just going to be normalized as the years pass? esp that the boys are growing older and the amount of explicit fics will just increase. i might have to start blocking tags.

i had to look up the previous ask to remember what we were talking about xd i hope the events in champagne problems never happens to anyone. realistically, it probably happens a lot. damn i really won't wish that pain on anyone. dragging your brother into being a stay i whEEZED JFKSA additional noeasy music enthusiast o.o and ALL I CAN SAY WITH YOU GUSHING ABT FELIX IS AHA WHIPPEEEED OML can't blame you tho, i also want to hear felix sing more in other shades (if that makes sense HAHA) i really hope they'll do the role exchange in the next comeback :( or like in the near future bc i know they can do it :( the day i hear seungmin rapping it i will respectfully pass away. minho was given more lines this comeback thank fUCK i could rmb my irl being vocal abt her frustration. i don't get why minho barely has center time/lines in title tracks??? like the line distribution in the past eras just made me ???? if seventeen can balance lines with 13 members why cant a group of 8 do the same? moving on. i haven't watched the stray kids show simply bc i don't want to cry HAJS but i've seen clips. imagine if skz debuted without minho and felix?!?!? i rmb another irl catching bias feels towards changbin bc of the masked singer only to find out that the man's a rapper. i love how skz's vocals were highlighted this comeback :c there were a lot of mellow tracks! i find it cute when chan sings/raps bc it gets kinda obvious that he's a foreigner? the accent (im not even sure if it's the accent) it just shows. "putting off skz stuff bc of not having time to cry IS the kpop stan life summarised." CORRECT.

abt the twisted au o.O i'll inquire my irl if she wants to write it or not. if she doesn't want to, i'll do it. i miss writing twisted aus <3___<3 and i also miss going to the beach with my friends :' ) but it's starting to get cold here and i don't think i'll be able to enjoy the beach as much as i would if i went beaching in the summer. so maybe next summer? gone away really has an sm-ballad vibe. the thing about skz being a self-producing group, their songs don't sound like typical jype songs? and i just appreciate that bc in all honesty im not a fan of jyp groups at all. PLS the overthinking. i wish i could mute overthinking.

anyone who assumes kpop is just one genre obv hasn't listened to a single track. if kpop was just one genre why do i like some tracks more than the others??? oh you've only recently become a kpop stan? tbh im not a fan of the bright songs of bts either. i liked their older ones *chefs kiss* really matched high school vibes. yg has good artists and they're just wasting the talent ~.~ that strategy they have will get tiring eventually. people will stop waiting on blackpink and move on to newer more active groups ://

HAHAHAH yeah the 23 members is pretty overwhelming! it was the reason i didn't bother stanning before quarantine started. i don't regret stanning tho, met my ult bias in that group <3___<3 i don't really purchase albums unless i like the tracks xd ohhh getting into ateez just in time for the comeback! let me know what you think about them! i was fond of them at some point but grew out of it. good luck with memorizing enhypen! it took me a while to distinguish to people there XD i haven't checked out kard yet but chan plays their songs during lives and they're sexc hype music me likey *u*

i had to look up rsv im sorry. i'm glad you're recovering! please rest more and don't stress yourself out. bro i wish i could go to therapy too bc i have weird issues i can't justify and i need a professional to tell me what's the reason behind it. stuck with what condition btw? what happened? i'm sorry in case i just forgot. yesterday was a bit rainy for me too :(( it's not the type of rainy that makes me anxious so B) oh concert! good luck and i hope you'll be able to sing but i also don't think it's best for you rn :c what's your dog's breed? and yes i just finished drinking tea too. AAAAA i miss school dances :(( the last one i was supposed to have was cancelled bc of covid.

i was less productive today and i'm teetering between being mentally stable and becoming a hermit again. i'm anxious with a lot of things atm so like : D not the best state. today it was a bit sunny but not hot hot which was nice. i changed my theme today bc i couldn't wait for sept. 1st. and no i haven't found anything that makes me happy HAHAHA shit like that's hard to identify. don't have anything to say too, i'm just thinking about why i'm procrastinating too much atm T_T and i'm listening to this rap song atm and one of the rappers sounded like han.

it isn't annoying! i enjoy the long exchanges but i do admit it takes me awhile to type down a reply. so if i get more busy, it'll prolly take a bit longer for me to reply.

[celestial--abyss]

hullo ! I hope the matchup stuff is still open :D

ok so I am an ISTP and an Aquarius!

I would say that im outgoing? but uhm, not outgoing enough to be considered extroverted if you know what I mean. you have to make the first move in trying to be friends with me or else your chance is never gonna come lmfao BUT when I'm feeling confident, ill reach out to those I want to be friends with and try to hold a convo without being awkward :D

im one of those "shy but has many friends" type of person

and uhm, id say that im very nice :D a lot of my moots associate me with the colors orange/red and I think that has something to do with me always being happy, warm and soft-ish - do u get what I mean? LMAO

I kin albedo, kaeya and hu tao !

omg idk what else I should put. I'll start spewing random stuff lmao;

I am a extremely dense person help ;; my ex told me that she kept dropping obvious hints but I would assume that it was just friendly so like </3 people have to be straightforward for me to pick up on it LMAO

id also say that I have slight abandonment issues I guess? I have a history of being left out and just being neglected so I get jealous/possessive easily D: BUT it never droops down to an unhealthy level, just a level where I can laugh abt it a few minutes later :D!

I dont have a good work ethic </3 I end up procrastinating A LOT, I just prefer to chat with friends than do boring work tbh :(

likes ; soft things, soft blankets, pillows, warm coffee - omg am I a pillow princess i

dislikes ; any kind of negativity - I try to keep a healthy headspace and thats why im happy most of the time :D! I also dislike immature people I guess, they make my head hurt </3

I am an insomniac! I stay up until like 4am sometimes D: I would appreciate someone that is willing to cuddle me bc I like hugs and I feel like cuddles will help me sleep :>

oh and, this ask might be too long so just feel free to tag me :D!

my URL is @/cxlrose !! thank you in advance for doing this, I hope you have a great day/night and always take care <3

I hope you don't mind the length </3 is it obvious that I ramble and go off-topic a lot D:

send us a bit about you + a fandom and we’ll do a matchup!

hi anon! yeah, matchups are still open, and i hope you have a lovely day as well <3 /p

i match you with...

ganyu !

↬ ganyu is pretty much the definition of good vibes

↬ she’s very much willing to cuddle with you, since she tends to feel cold and the warmth helps her sleep, too

↬ while she can be shy when expressing her emotions, good communication is important to her, and she can be straightforward if she needs to be

↬ she does nudge you to do your work, but is never too pushy about it

↬ after a long day, she likes to cuddle up to you under the stars, with a cup of hot chocolate or tea

also under consideration: 

↬ bennet, venti

[squiffer-propaganda]

upon seeing all the new splat weapon propaganda blogs, i want to be clear with what i expect from this community we’re building.

i know the concept of weapon appreciation blogs isnt my own idea, but because i am the first “propaganda” blog (that im aware of), i feel as though i should set a good example for everyone. here is my philosophy.

first off, propaganda blogs are not meant to be hate blogs, elitist blogs, or literal propaganda. im aware that “propaganda” has negative connotations and doesnt match the true purpose behind my blog, but i acknowledge this fact and thats why i wanted to address it so i could clarify. really i just thought this url would be a funny way to say i like the squiffer a whole lot. this in no way means that i dont like any other weapons; the squiffer actually helped me try out lots of different weapons, learn about them, and appreciate them as well. i know ive made lots of jokes about how certain weapons are “bad” or “below the squiffer” but these really are only jokes. i never had any ill-intention and it was all in good fun, and hopefully people understood that. however, others may not be like me. as ive been told about the downfall of the weapon love blogs, the more people joked about hating other weapons and claiming their weapon was perfect, the more chaos and division this behavior created. i will be more careful if i ever want to make jokes like this in the future, and i hope my past jokes didnt come off as rude.

i am not saying you cant have your own preferences. obviously, not every weapon is meant for every player. but, even with these preferences, that doesnt justify bringing other people down just because they dont share the same opinions. no weapon is objectively better than another; just like other combat-based games, the outcome is mostly dependent on the skill of the player. sure, some weapons make good counters against others, but even this doesnt guarantee a victory, as theres always a chance to turn the tables. thats the whole ideology behind turf wars anyway, right? so, once again, all weapons are good, and all weapons have potential. what i hope to accomplish in this new community is spreading the message of appreciating not only your favorite weapon, but taking the time to understand why others like their favorite weapons too. keep an open mind, be respectful, be kind, and remember that this is all just for fun!

i made this blog because the squiffer is what really changed splatoon for me. i got so much better at the game and even other weapons, and really i just wanted to show my gratitude as well as finally jump into the splatoon tumblr community that i used to watch from the sidelines. without going into detail, maining the squiffer gave me something to focus on and feel good about during some very difficult times. please dont taint that for me, or for others who may or may not have a similar situation. i want this community to have a positive impact on the people it reaches.

thank you for reading!! if youre a propaganda blog, please reblog this. i hope to see you all spread lots of positivity and lift each other up!!

[uglypastels]

4-73

Here it goes 

4. What do you think about most?

You ;) lmao, no uhhhhh... food? 

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

from my bf: Hi bb 

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

with 

7: What’s your strangest talent?

that I have none 

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

Girls like spaghetti, Boys like spaghetti-os (WHY WAS THIS THE FIRST THING THAT CAME UP IN MY HEAD)

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

i have unfortunately, it’s like a tradition here that for secret Santa, you write a matching poem for the person you picked, so i’ve had a few poems written for me... all horrible. 

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

I prefer drums lol, today (In the Air Tonight by Phil Collins) 

11. Do you have any strange phobias? 

Needles for sure, but if we really are talking strange, than it’s not of heights, but dropping something from high up. Or falling. actually, not even from high up, even like a bridge, or a manhole. i’m so fucking scared of dropping anything anywhere and not being able to get it back. 

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

lmao i had this barbie bracelet that looked like a septum ring and i loved to pretend i had one. so technically up my nose, but almost.

13: What’s your religion?

Atheist <3 

14. If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? 

walking back home 

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

BEHIND

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

5SOS???

17. What’s the most recent lie you told? 

that i liked the result of my group project

18: Do you believe in karma?

yeah

19: What does your URL mean?

pastels that are ugly

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

weakness: anxiety, strength: creativity

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

Tom Holland

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

yup, it was kinda boring alone lol

23: How do you vent your anger?

unhealthily (is that even a word?) 

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

books, pins/badges, and i used to collect angel (figurines) when i was younger)

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

on the phone

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

No

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

hate: i answered this before and said children crying, but they don’t even have to be crying.  love: rain <3 

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

What if I didn’t fail my classes two years ago (cause that's when my life went to complete shit) 

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

Yes. Yes. (or at least, I’d like them to be real) 

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

right: tablet, left: pack of Arizona ice tea 

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

nothing??? 

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

uhhh... i can’t remember

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

neither

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

Harry Styles 

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

42

36: Define Art.

something that should have been fun in the process of making, but eventually just makes you want to gauge out your eyeballs and then cry :) 

37: Do you believe in luck?

sure?? 

38: What’s the weather like right now?

windy and it just stopped raining <3 

39: What time is it?

11:16pm

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

Nope, and because of the idea of crashing, i probably never will

41: What was the last book you read?

The Executioner, by Chris Carter

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

Absolutely not, trauma triggers <3

43: Do you have any nicknames?

Zuzia is already a nickname (well, diminutive, same thing) 

44: What was the last film you saw?

I watched a part of Dolittle???

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

I broke my wrist

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

no, never even tried

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

yeah

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

don’t know, don’t really care

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

during a student exchange with a polish school, everyone thought i was dating of the dudes from that school (ngl i did have a crush on him and we did hold hands on a trip to Amsterdam AND he let me borrow his raincoat when we arrived back at school and i still had to cycle home while he was going back with car but FAKE NEWS) 

50: Do you believe in magic?

same with ghosts and aliens, i hope it’s real

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

nah

52: What is your astrological sign?

Sagittarius

53: Do you save money or spend it?

save

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

a few bday presents for my mom :) 

55: Love or lust?

love

56: In a relationship?

YUP <3 

57: how many relationships have you had? 

2 (and that half one with a polish guy since it was rumoured but still cute lol)

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

nope

59: Where were you yesterday?

in bed

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

yes. boxes

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

sure am

62: What’s your favourite animal?

zebra??

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

humor?? idk people dont like me 

64: Where is your best friend?

at home

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

@spiderrrling @captainpeggy40 @duskholland @justasmisunderstoodasloki @appreci 

66: What is your heritage?

Polish (and Dutch?? eh kinda?) 

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

texting my boyfriend uwu

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Johnson

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

yeah

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

sure

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

cry and try to get him out of the canal, fall in myself by doing so probably

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a) i would tell my family and closest friends b&c) no idea 

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

trust

happy now? 

[parisakamali]

hello bie !!! big congrats to your blog growing so quickly again !!! you're so sweet and a warm person so i think u deserve so so many more (also your edits omg they're STUNNING) !!! may I please get a ♡ & ❀ + *mine. my bday is on march the third !! thank u queen 😌💕

hello badrieh!!! thank you so so much, im pretty sure i wouldnt have managed to get here without all the lovely mutuals who kept following me after i moved blogs and im very thankful y’all did that 🥺 im so so happy you joined the celebration 🤍 obviously this got suuuper long so it’s under the cut, sorry

join my celebration uwu 

♡ : WELL, i always think i dont have much to say about people  after complimenting them for a while, but i somehow always manage to find more things to say about you! your themes?? brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same! im not even joking here, you have the most beautiful mobile themes ive seen and it’s so inspiring. i love how you match the icon with the header and the colour scheme and just create this gorgeous overall aesthetic! UR URL? we love to see it! missing blafard sometimes, but cant miss it that much given that it was replaced by the name of the only good man!!! i keep telling you how talented and creative you are and i mean it from the bottom of my heart, but i think we should also focus on what an amazing person you are! you’re sweet and supportive, you made me feel welcomed from our first interaction, despite how much i looked (and still do) up to you as an editor. you! take! no! shit! you always speak ur mind, you call out all the bullshit you see and that makes me respect you even more. add to that how intelligent you are and you get the recipe of a future very successful person. i really hope all your dreams come true and i know they will because you’re gonna go out there and take everything you deserve!!! i have a lot of trust in you; if you ever doubt yourself just know that i don’t. you’re gonna get far and it’s exactly what you deserve, my dear!! you’re one of my favourite people on tumblr and im glad i get to use this platform at the same time as you <3

❀ : miss badrieh, if you dont already know you’re my favourite editor it means i did a horrible job as president of the badrieh fanclub! idk if i told u this already but your edits are the reason i ended up on litblr (is this a thanks to or because of situation,,, we shall never know)! i kept seeing them and asking myself how can one be so talented (i still do) and eventually decided to edit too. so thank you for being my inspiration! now onto choosing... this is hard, ok!!! (i literally have 13 tabs open, how can i only choose 5??)

this eli edit and this victor edit! im simply in love with this style!!! im a hoe for b&w edits, but the pop of colour you added makes it even cooler. you really encapsulated the essence of these two characters in these edits; i love when i can take a single look at an edit and already feel like i know the characters even if i wouldn’t have read the books! 

shoutout to this villains edit as well! the style is a bit different but it has kinda the same vibes (it’s the same series, ofc it does...) i love how you played around with the pictures and the text, it looks very unique!

you are the absolute queen of coloring, point proven by this harry edit!, this gone girl edit!, and this renison edit! your coloring is always so stunning, i dont know how you make all the pictures look like they truly belong together while also matching the vibe of each character/book. also!!! fukn text placement!!!!!!! good god, you have such a way with it! it’s always just the right amount of text and it looks so cool! you’re also really good at choosing quotes, i admire that. you’re not just going for the overused, popular quotes, you’re taking stuff that speaks to you and turn it into the popular quotes.

this kaz edit and this jesper edit! i mean... is this shocking? the pictures fit both of them so so well and the colour schemes are stunning! again with the text placement, which looks so damn good!!! also, i love the oilpainting effect in the jesper one; that became sort of ur signature and every time you use it, i have to stare a little longer to make sure it’s an effect, not actual art! but then again, your edits are art!

this iwwv edit! absolutely stunning. i sometimes go back and look at it and im hit by how gorgeous it is!! the coloring is pretty, but that’s nothing new lmao it’s more than just an edit imo, it’s a vibe. idk how to describe this but it feels like the book yk. i love the gif overlay you added, it ties everything together. and the “text inside the text” is *chief’s kiss*

this grover edit! queen, you inspired me to try out moving doodles in edits, but no matter how much i try, i could never come close to what you did here. this is my favourite edit of yours, but also one of my favourite edits on tumblr. it's so simple, the coloring is immaculate, there are not so many elements on it, but that’s what makes me like it so much. there’s beauty in simple things or some poetic bs like that.

shoutout to this other grover edit! again, coloring: beautiful, fonts: really nice, pictures: perfect. i also really like the quote you used on the 4th picture, i think it fits grover very well and it also fits with the whole vibe of the edit too.

in conclusion, spare some talent, ma’am!!! or hand in marriage idk whatever it is, i’m good with it. keep being you, please never stop editing and i hope you’re gonna have not only a beautiful day, but a beautiful life 💛✨

[planetbass]

I FORGOT WHAT EMOJIS I WAS GONNA SEND BC OF WHAT U NAMED UR ASKBOX SO I HAD TO LOOK AT EM AGAIN DHJSSHDJ BUT HQ 🎥 💕 🏳️‍🌈

i accidentally xed out of this tab im going to commit kermit falling off roof vine. anyways im going to recreate the fuckign 500 words id already written best i can i guess. on the bright side, this draft will probably be much better than whatever nonsensical stuff i’d written before i accidentally thanosed it.

i Just changed my inbox name the other day but i dont remember what it is...... im sure it was something i thought was funny at like 3 am......

🎥 do you have any favorite scenes from your [special interest]?

SO fucking many. umm here r a few ig off the top of my head

the first thing that comes to mind is. the fucking scene where. theyre at training camp and hinata thinks there’s a . lost child among them or something and it’s fucking dark and scary and dramatic but it turns out it was just noya with his hair down (which added like 2 inches to his height)

any and all of the scenes in s2 with the 3rd gym squad (bokuto, kuroo, akaashi, hinata, tsukishima). 

in the manga, kuroo’s backstory abt how his shyness was “worse than [kenma’s]”

literally ANY and ALL times kuroo and daishou interact because theyre so fucking funny

kuroo: h

daishou: i hope youf ucking die i hate you i h

💕 tell us about one of your favorite characters and why you like them!

tit i cant believe you DO this to me when you KNOW how much i already talk about him and love him....

i think it really comes down to the fact that i see a lot of myself in him. it seems weird at first maybe, but when it comes down to his core character... similar. i identify with him a lot. he’s also a huge comfort character. poor kuroo suffers under all of my vent writing. it’s surprising i dont kin him but you never know i guess. 

idk if it still happens (it probably does tbh :unamused:) but he used to be characterized as like. extroverted sexy mccool guy by the fanbase and it was weird cuz kuroo is . A HUGE NERD. WHAT SORT OF KID, WHEN FIFTEEN YEARS OLD, DROPS THE TERM DOCOSAHEXAEONIC ACID INTO AN INSULT. his hair has no product in it to look Hot or anything it is not on purpose it is his natural, shitty bedhead from sleeping weird. he acts like a dumbass sometimes bc he’s a goofy guy, but he’s also SUPER smart. n people brush him off/think he’s joking when he says “i’m always this nice” but he IS he’s one of the most selfless characters. he’s really considerate and he helps people no matter what, even when he doesn’t have to - like when he helped tsukki during the training camp (not just on his technique, but he also helped him find his passion for volleyball) despite wanting to go up AGAINST tsukki’s team in nationals. not to mention that he wants karasuno to get better because he wants his team and karasuno to have an official match together to please his coach. AND despite winning against nohebi in the semifinals, when a group of strangers bash nobehi for their slimy tactics to scrape up points and gain the favor of the refs, kuroo DEFENDS nohebi even though he didn’t have to and when he has personal rivalry against their team’s captain. i will also stand by the fact that he’s anxiety disordered™. he just feels like a very real character to me n . i just love him a lot.

🏳‍🌈 do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?

yeah! a lot!

my biggest is that kuroo had/has selective mutism (n ppl can also interpret it as autism ! i just prefer sm bc thats what i got). that’s like. the One i will live and die by and it’s another reason why i really love him so much and that i see myself in him more than anyone else. as a teen and almost-adult i see him as still having some residual social anxiety due to the childhood disorder, and he’s hella depressed as well cuz it be like that. also for self-projection reasons i like arokuroo (i have that url stolen lol). ive never had a distinct sexuality headcanon for him, either pan or gay in my thoughts, but also since i see myself in him its hard for me to. do that ig?? idk lol

bokuto has adhd. i really support that one as well. he’s also ace!! he’s the ace ace!! i also like to see him as somewhat arospec, but in the sense that he’s just not really interested in that sort of thing? but he is still just... head over heels for akaashi.

akaashi has general anxiety n some social anxiety and also the pression. he’s GAY babey . ALSO he’s a he/him non-binary

kenma social anxiety babie. i mean, that’s literally canon. he has social anxiety. he’s also demi n trans. 

daishou is bi. i also write him as having paranoia. 

ask me abt any character n i can probably spit something out for u regarding lgbt headcanons. there’s too many to cover. 

[grailedsovereign]

hEY CENT! TALK TO US ABOUT GRAILED. WHY DO YOU LOVE IT? WHY DID YOU JOIN? IF I WANT TO JOIN, WHAT ARE THE THINGS I NEED TO LEARN?

i dont think i’ve talked about it much in my earlier post bUT NOW I AM HERE. I AM PREPARED TO SHOWER THE GROUP WITH MY LOVE???

the group is open. it doesn’t bar us in any way to interact with people who aren’t a part of it. this is a huge thing to me since i have a lot of mutuals that i dont want to lose just because i decided to join a group. i can interact with my friends freely and at the same time have fun with grailed people. i dont worry about who i have and who i shouldn’t write with. more cent for my good people.

you have so much freedom in grailed. it’s not like we were told to tag our stuffs (aside from triggering and heavy themes, which you should do because you are a person that is considerate of your followers, whether you are affiliated or not), to choose who to prioritize (i do this on my own accord, because i want the people in it to feel INCLUDED, because that’s the point of them joining.) or be here 24/7. the last part is important because i am someone who works every weekdays and i come home very late. it’s a challenge for me to jumble through my blogs and be expected to be here all the time. i can rp without forcing myself to come up with something just to meet an activity requirement. grailed doesn’t have that. it respects your limits and your being human. the mods themselves emphasize this as they, too, have a life outside of pretending to be a fictional character online.

MATCHING URLS BRO!!! this actually wasn’t a rule when it first opened. i am the guilty party who suggested it because i thought it was cute??? and it appeared that one of the mods and i shared that idea, so we decided to go through with it and it just feels?? really nice. to be included in something and to feel like you have a group of people you can rely on. as one of the mods have said to us ‘we are a family here’. isn’t that nice to hear though?? that you have a family in this community that you can always go to for stuffs without feeling like a bother. i’ve felt this a lot when i first started on the indie community, bc i never knew who to approach and stuffs. it’s just nice to see that grailed is making that effort to emphasize INCLUSION, which is becoming tame in the community. i also wish that the indie community could improve on this! this isn’t a sympathy that only extends on grailed. i hope for all RPCS to never ignore others in it. that we can be one whole community, you know? grailed isn’t attempting to discourage others or feel like the indie scene is a dying breed.

you can easily call all the members your friends. even though you’ve barely met or have barely talked outside of rping, when you’re in just one small chat, everyone can talk and have fun. you don’t have to worry about being judged when you feel like you have something that you need to say. everyone is just kind. what i want you to understand from this is that, THE GROUP HAS ALLOWANCE FOR MISTAKES. it doesn’t persecute you for what you do, what you did, what you want to do. we’re all human here. a lot of us had forgotten that over time.

i joined because i was kidnapped. i was being myself, minding my own business, having my own fun, being some nerd then ARTORIAS COMES AND ATTACKS ME ON MY DMS.. PUT A GUN TO MY HEAD AND SAID ‘join grailedrpg or i’ll murder you in cold blood’ blease… i feel so threatened :( that’s why i’m here. he threatened me so much and i am just one scared bean!!! of course that are lies. artorias came to me and gave me news about him opening an rpg. he is someone who used to be in the indie fate community and had disappeared, only to come back and give me this gift that is grailedrpg. he just asked me to check it. he didn’t put a knife to my neck and said i’ll stub my toe on a lego if didn’t join. he was very respectful and not forceful with inviting me. i wanted to give it a chance because i adored his writing and wanted to see how it could grow from here. so it was just me considering, and now i’m in this hellhole because artorias didn’t want to give me peace :(

if you decide to join: tell mod vixxey she’s the ultimate furry, mod skoll needs like five hugs and mod artorias need to stop bullying me i have done nothing :(on a more serious note: i highly encourage that you still open yourself to outside interactions! you don’t have to, but majority of the members are, because grailed strives for that kind of openness. never allow the indie community to feel like they’re being overshadowed or forgotten. never let others feel that joining grailed is a trend, because it’s not. it’s a place full of fun and promotes a healthy place for writing and encourages that WE SHARE THAT ENERGY TO OUTSIDE PEOPLE. we do not keep this to ourselves, nor would we deprive others of what grailed is teaching us and shaping us to be and become.while the usage of live action fcs are heavily recommended, you’re not out of the times for not using it. it’s not a mandatory rule, but something that most of the member base just want to do because it’s the core of the group first and foremost. it’s what the mods were striving in the first place. they have decided to compromise and have changed the mandatory rule to become an option in hopes of the people understanding that the mods want it to become a fun place. see?? the mods are even compromising a lot, and grailed hasn’t even been around for long. so when you do join, never forget to thank the mods for their hard-work. it’s never easy to handle a community!

that’s all! i had fun answering this

[dekiiru]

okay sorry it took so long for me to write and post this, but im home now and in the silence to be able to gather my thoughts and the peace to be able to write them down. a lot of this is me working through my own thoughts as i write it so im sorry its so long, but im still a little bit confused on how to feel about this, largely, i think, due to shock.

i had no clue about almost any of the stuff julie did or said to people. i knew of the miles thing to some extent (i didnt know why miles was uncomfortable with him, i only knew about the aftereffects) and i knew about the vague story surrounding why maddy, jay and marina didnt like him, although i had never actually spoken to them before.

my initial reaction to the callout was to get defensive, because that was someone i considered my friend and although somewhere i think i knew or had some inkling that he was like this, i chalked it up to mistakes and people jealous of his popularity because i wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. but the more i read the callout (i never finished it, partially because i had to take screencaps of the posts and painstakingly slowly read through them because the nature of my work makes it very difficult to focus on things for more than a few seconds at a time and partially because by the time i stopped, i had already made my decision regarding him) the more i realized that defending his actions isnt something i can, should, or would do.

and regarding the “sc/hool sho/oter” post, i live in america. in fact, i lived about 5-15 minutes away from where one of these sc/hool sho/otings happened (i lived for several years in roseburg, oregon, and the sh/ooting at u.c.c. happened a year or two after i moved to where i live now). i knew people who went there. i knew one person who died. the day it happened i broke down in the middle of marching band because i had no idea whether or not the friends i knew for three years were alive or dead and that fucking terrified me. and when it happened, i told julie over discord (because i was working when i heard about it) that i did not condone his actions or words and that it was wrong of him to say, but (and i still stand by this), it is not the place of anyone who was not even indirectly affected by a shooting to decide whether or not someone is worthy of redemption. no, julie should not have reblogged that post and while it is totally fine for you to be uncomfortable to interact with him because of it, i think only people who have been directly affected by sc/hool shoo/tings have the right to decide if he is worthy of forgiveness - for that. the rest of it is a different matter.

a few months ago i actually went through this with someone else. i wrote a callout post for daisy, a mercy blog in the overwatch fandom who deleted shortly after i wrote it. (if any of you want to see that callout, let me know and ill send it to you. i will admit here and now that there was something i shouldnt have added in there, but it was added with good intentions, but regardless, daisy’s callout really has nothing to do with the situation with julie and nothing to do with what is happening now. shes gone. im just making a connection to this situation.) it was a very similar situation; manipulation, hypocrisy, turning people against others, saving face and caring more about reputation than anything else. and while i was absolutely terrified of daisy’s situation happening again, where i get really really close with someone and then find out they manipulated the fuck out of me, i was also scared to lose friends, and i think thats a big part of why i wanted so badly to match or whatever, because i really really really wanted a place to belong, where i felt special and unique and yet part of a group and in the end that really fucked me over and made me blind to what was happening. i defended him (albeit not for long, ive only spoken to him for a few months now) for things i shouldnt have defended him for because i was terrified of losing people and im so sorry about that.

as for the callout itself: i will say that i do think there are two sides to every story. im not saying julie is a victim in this or that he is to be sympathized with, because at the end of the day, he hurt a lot of people and its good that the word was spread before more people got hurt. i dont agree that it is “a cis persons responsibility to make sure people know they are cis” because that kind of mindset will only lead to a witch hunt, but im not going to make a fuss about this because i know some other genderqueer people are more uncomfortable about cis people than i am and at the end of the day that is a personal opinion. i think some of the callout was worded with bias which probably, in some situations, did slightly twist the truth, ONLY because it is a callout and it is really difficult not to twist the truth in them even when they are written as formally as possible, HOWEVER while most of the time i disregard callouts (because a lot of them are written entirely based on personal bias because someone doesnt like someone else rather than on an actual need for people to be warned), this one was written very eloquently and very well. as someone who has been on that side of things, im really really proud of the people who contributed to it, especially those that werent afraid of giving their names out, because that is a really really hard thing to do, especially when its for someone really popular. i remember when i wrote one for daisy, i was almost sick to my stomach with the anxiety, and really pleasantly surprised when it was received much better than i expected. i am really proud of you guys, and thank you for letting me and everyone else know the truth of what happened.

however, that callout was not an attack, nor was it intended to be, and by people sending julie hate, youre just making the situation worse. i believe, in my personal opinion, that the best thing to do is to block and move on. we can come together as a community, and while julies actions wont go away, hopefully we can heal and understand from them. and i really want to thank manny for that post, because similarly to daisy, it is the people closest to the person in question who are left most in the dark. as julies friend, i had no idea about almost anything that was there and honestly, im glad now that i do. thank you for understanding that the people who associated with him are not always aware of what he did.

anyway this is really disorganized and im sorry, thats just my thoughts on the matter (as much as i can think anyway), and i hope it makes some sort of sense. i will be hardblocking julie on all of my blogs and changing the urls to both my izuku blog and my ouma blog and my icon for this blog. if you choose to continue to interact with julie, thats on you and i wont reprimand you, block you or unfollow you for it. please do not associate me with him anymore, though, add me to any groups anywhere with him, or tag me and him in the same posts.

and, as i said before, because i really want to get this point across, if you are uncomfortable with me because i interacted with him so much and so intimately and wish to hard or softblock or unfollow me, that is perfectly fine and i understand completely. i only ask if you softblock me that you let me know so that i dont accidentally follow you again, because i dont want to make anyone uncomfortable with my presence.

[heyangel]

I’m back like a bug what up (idk what that was but let’s just go with it) 1) tell me about your favorite tumblr users, tell me why you followed them 2) fangirl over something- BELLA YOU ARE SEEING HARRY IN 5 DAYS!!! HARRY WILL BE BLESSED WITH YOUR PRESENCE!! WHEN YOU WALK IN WITH A BOA AROUND YOUR NECK PLEASE BE CAREFUL DONT LET HARRY BREAK YOUR NECK STEALING YOUR BOA OKAY! I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT YOU WEAR! YOUR PICTURES AND VIDEOS! I HOPE YOU GET BARRICADE YOU DESERVE MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE

dont hate me im gonna miss ppl (i had to edit this because it became a lot longer than i thought it would) but ill answer my fangirl over something soooooo HARRYS DAMN 2015 HAIR WAS THE BEST THING OF MY ENTIRE LIFE????? THE FUCKING CURLS LIKE THE REALLY LONG CURLY CURLS??? YEAH THATS MY HOME???? THERE IS NOT A DAY THAT GOES PAST WHERE I DO NOT MISS HARRYS LONG LONG LOOOOONG HAIR

honesty hour!! ask me questions

@rainbowstour so this is sara. literally my best friend idk how she puts up with me cause i am fucking Annoying but she does and im so grateful. the most Relatable person on this fucking hellsite and its brilliant. she was one of the first few blogs i followed and we unintentionally had matching urls its so great. feeling very lucky to know her

@rainbowlouie another very early friend i made who pre much welcomed me into tumblr within the first week. we truly became friends when she started a countdown for me to see harry in 2017 and i literally cant believe cara was kind enough to do so (this bitch loves louis n will kick my ass if i dont tell people about it)

@babyhoneyjpg amanda aka banan is a literal angel. not afraid to speak her mind (which i admire and love ranting with her) and shes so supportive of everything. she truly is one of a kind and i love her very much (also loves louis and would kick my ass if i ever forgot it)

@lquis con AHHH con my sweet literal angel! always so so supportive no matter what! never fails to make me smile and their damn sense of humor is my favourite thing ever I LOVEEEE

@babyhoneylive lisTEN i feel honOURED TO EVEN BE A MUTUAL WITH KERI she is so loveable and likeable and funny with a DAMN GOOD BLOG AND im just ya know lil old me!!!! probs 80% of my blog is reblogs from keri but ya know what its fine 

@iconichalo the one and only alex. the one who misses her boy that much it isnt funny. im a Harrie (shocker) but alex’s constant louis posts n reblogs keeps me THRIVING she may be tiny (5ft U SMOL LIKE UR BOY) but she is FULL OF SO MUCH LOVE FOR EVERYONE AND LOUIS

@spaceboysweater arsh arsh arsh arsh arsh i feel like i press ur damn buttons but in a banter way and i feel like thats why we get along so well. she is so easy going (shes also full of shit) anD JUST LOVES THE HELL OUT OF HARRY. she is a bitesize package of ot5 its fantastic i love her

@rosesau im gonna have to limit myself here because i could go on for literally hours about syeda and how talented she is and hard working. her blog is purely the most Aesthetic thing i have ever seen. her writing is amazing (read b&d or unfollow me lol). i love syeda so much. shes got some damn good shitposts (that arent actually shit theyre great. and she just deserves the whole damn world

@louisandthedagger my damn tumblr crush! she is the purest n loveliest girl. shes always been SO SO nice to me even from the start (which omg i cry) but camila is truly so gorgeous, i dont have the words to say it. her posts (always) are amazing and that damn good content and her selfies? ya saved my life

@imisslouissomuch AH BEL IS SO FUNNY AND I JUST LOVE HER! someone give her louis tomlinson before she stops breathing but ofgdgidsi. i love her so much (HOPEFULLY SEEING HER IN 5 DAYS)

@fondleeds lysha is the kindest soul. i could never pick a negative thing to say about her ever. she truly deserves the whole world. she is so enjoyable to talk to and SHE IS SO TALENTED with her writing and musically. i literally would lay down my life for her

@roguecurls sara is an angel. truly have been friends with her for most of the time ive been on tumblr. we literally bond so much over snapchat and spamming us singing 1d. i wish we lived closer so we could sing irl. SHE LOVES LOUIS AND I CANNOT WAIT TIL SHE SEES HER BOY

and ofc you tea @stevieftharry you’re so incredibly wonderful, i feel like i reblog your whole tumblr at times because everything you blog is amazing. your tags are 10/10 and you as a person is such a damn blessing

[hyyunjinn]

idk I sort of just want to talk about hyunjin (this is not at all cohesive and i’m just really emotional so read at your own risk)

what really has been bothering me is that I’ve seen so many tweets saying that he’s more than just a visual—more than just his looks

and to think that people have to remind some stans about this,,, actually that’s not what I want to say, more like, the fact that people only like him for his looks?

I know we have this problem with Felix too but I just want to talk about Hyunjin.

I’ll admit the first time I watched Hellevator and he came on, I immediately screamed “oOH HE’S CUTE HE’S MY BIAS” as a joke but I wasn’t set on him being my bias. I chose hwanghyunjinnie as my url bc i always thought those solo member urls are cute compared to the group names (like ahsgahha is xbxngtxnsboys, ssvtss, or starsforastro cute? nO, i’m just attached to those names now haha) so I picked him. I was really hesitant on biasing him because all I knew was that he’s my age and is the visual/part of dance line. I legit thought I would later become Jisung biased.

Also the fact that he’s born in 2000 really threw me off as a potential bias because agsghsjaaj boys my age lmao

but anyways, I thought he was cute and as I kept listening to Hellevator, I really liked the way he fluctuates his voice, even if Jisung’s following rap stood out to me more because it sounded like Rocky’s.

So episode one came around and the one I completely fell for is Minho (and kept side eyeing Felix haha) and I was???? really close to??? biasing Minho? i mentioned so many times in my tags early on about how cute minho is (and the fact that he dances to bts is a big yes from me) yet there was always something that pulled me back to Hyunjin.

but tbh, since I called myself a Hyunjin stan from day one, idk when I really fell for him? like, I like him and my heart legit goes 💘💗💘💘💘💘💖 every time he does something, but the fact that

idk

idk what i want to say

i just really like him and while i know my friends and i joke about me swerving to minho’s lane all the time and i keep getting called out for it,

I really like hyunjin it sort of hurts.

my twt group chat was talking about their first biases and so many people dropped hyunjin, i don’t, idk it sort of hurt seeing that haha

like obviously it’s not their fault but because so many people found out how they ended up biasing someone else and—i guess the way they were joking about how they all dropped hyunjin,,? IDK MY MEMORY IS PROBABLY FAILING ME BUT I THINK I SAW SOMETHING ABOUT HYUNJIN’S PERSONALITY NOT RETAINING THEIR ATTENTION OR SOMETHING??? GUYS IF YOURE READING THIS, IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT I’M JUST RANTING

but yeah

I guess I’m just really afraid of how people are treating Hyunjin only as the visual. Like a decoration.

Or maybe I’m just really afraid I’m liking him for the same shallow reason.

and the fact that i just, hype of minho all the time, idk i do this thing where i never talk about my bias so it seems like i bias someone else

and all i say is how cute hyunjin is

idk i aort of want to cry as i write this but

I

Like

Hyunjin

so much I can’t even make myself use the word love because I feel like it doesn’t match this situation?/he doesn’t deserve my love?/idk?

Like,

I love his laugh and how it’s like a giggle or a loud noise comes out and then he’s laughing

and I love his scrunched up face when he’s smiling brightly and how his eyes curve

I also love how hardworking he is. He’s so determined to improve and pursue his dreams and he’s still so humble about it. This kid wakes up at 5 to go to school??????? and according to woojin their practices end really late? And all those times we’ve seen him practicing his pronunciation and I love how he went to Changbin for advice—

AND HE’S SUCH A NERD FOR DANCE OMG AHSHSHAJAJSBXB like 1) he’s enrolled in dance for sopa? that’s pretty amazing 2) i remember how much he wanted to dance for the 3:3:3 mission but he couldnt and he was lowkey salty about that 3) he looks s o o o happy when he’s dancing

during thw yg battle? he couldnt stop smiling and was such a happy sht when they executed the performance flawlessly. and that spot kids of him teaching chan? I WATCHED IT SO MANY TIMES IT’S NOT EVEN FUNNY but shahsgbsjas he’s so passionate even when he’s laughing as he’s practicing

ALSO HE LEANED CLOSER TO INSPECT A MOVE THE YG GROUP DID DURING THEIR PERFORMANCE AND I THIUGHT THAT WAS SO CUTE BECAUSE SAME

and this kid never stops wiggling or tapping his feet or dancing to himself it’s hella endearing

the moles under his eyes are really cute too 😞 i want to kiss them so badly

what I really hate though was the fact that he was smiling for Felix and that really hurt. he was crying but he wanted to cheer Felix up and sdfsadfghfd it was like watching Minho smile until Chan hugged him u g h

he can be pretty savage but I feel like that’s how he shows everyone he cares for them? I do the same thing so I think it’s sorta cute but some people might take it the wrong way and

yeah

honestly idk where I’m going with this because I lost my train of thought but

um

there’s also a concern of mine about him with the title of visual? i’ve seen him get sexualized a lot already and, i dont want that to happen anymore but it keeps happening and a piece of me dies a little inside because,,,, it’s so wrong and he doesn’t deserve this and the fact that he’s the visual there are some implications lkjfasdfasdf 

idk

that spot kids featuring him yesterday really hit me

i really like him and idk what to do or how to feel about it

he’s improved so much from what we’ve seen and he’s so passionate but he’s also really kind and funny and caring and yes he has the looks but he’s so much more than that and I hope people see it because it’s all I can see but I don’t know how to express it

AS CHEESY AS IT SOUNDS

my eyes always look for him and my heart swells every time he smiles and i smile like an idiot when I hear his improvement and i just want to let him know that I really appreciate him and

tbh

i don’t think any idol has made me t h i s soft hahah it’s bad

i got it bad

and i really want him to know he’s more than just the visual and that he’s talented and that people should appreciate him and not just mention his visuals

it’s like eunwoo--or all of astro tbh--again,, all visuals, no mention of the other things that make up them

ugh he makes me so happy i really just want to scream at him to stop 

i lost my train of thought again

idk should i even conclude this

i can’t even think straight lmao

what was i even gonna say about this

what was the point of this?

idk maybe i just needed to get this off my chest and i don’t really know who to rant to so uh

thanks for reading this nonsense this far? i guess? 

[tom-whore-dleston]

Thanks for the tag @poetic-fiasco 💜💜💜 I loved how fruitful these questions were hehe

1 - Why did you choose your url?

I use the w word as much as I unnecessarily say 'like' and I am Tom Hiddleston's secret lover

2 - Any side blogs?

nah just this one

3 - How long have you been on Tumblr?

since last August (?) I had another blog from middle and high school but I deleted that blog bc I had no idea I would end up returning to tumblr lol

4 - Do you have a queue tag?

damn i dont remember the last time i queued something 😂 like at this point I just post or reblog whenever I am on and i have a million drafts waiting to be posted 💀

5 - Why did you start your blog in the first place?

To read and write fanfics

6 - Why did you choose your icon/pfp

bc I'm an S word for Simu Liu (simp or slut? you decide) and even tho the original photo is not a purple background I edited it so then it still matches my theme

7 - Why did you choose your header?

My extra ass wanted a Loki header to match my theme

8 - What’s your post with the most notes?

Make You Mine has 600+ notes and it still blows my mind how much ppl love it. But I don't blame them bc I had such a blast writing it!!🥰🥰

9 - How many mutuals do you have?

I have a lot and I love them with all my heart

10 - How many followers do you have?

413

11 - How many people do you follow?

174

12 - Have you ever made a shitpost?

when do i ever not?

13 - How often do you use Tumblr each day?

According to Screen Time, I use Tumblr app an average of 30 mins a day but thats only the app. Idk about desktop version 😵‍💫

14 - Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

No and I really hope that I never do bc I'm sensitive

15 - How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

it depends on what they want me to reblog

16 - Do you like tag games?

YES!!!! TAG ME IN EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING!

17 - Do you like ask games?

See above answer^^

18 - Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

idrk how to answer that bc while having a lot of followers and notes is pretty awesome, I've always cared more about my friends enjoying the content they are creating/posting and don't feel the need to create/post for their followers ya know

19 - Do you have a crush on a mutual?

I wouldn't call it crush but I really do love my mutuals and would put my life on the line for them

Tagging with no pressure: @wint3r-h3art @ladyfallonavenger @give-me-a-moose @cloverrover @tmholland @crazycookiecrumbles @blackbat05 @buckybleu @wakingbeauty @sparkledfirecracker and anyone else that would be interested in answering these questions (just tag me so I can read your answers😊)

tag game!!

thank you for the tag @barnesafterglow !! 💕 (doing it on a separate post because is getting really long lol)

1 - Why did you choose your url?

my fist was @/habisbi (I was only here to read) but once I decided to write for marvel I chose it @/asgardwinter because I mainly write for Loki and Bucky (and winter is also my favourite season lol)

2 - Any side blogs?

I have I library blog (more for me than my followers because my own reblog makes me feel more confident when I post lol) and a fic rec blog I'm still working on

3 - How long have you been on Tumblr?

I created this acount a bit more than a year ago but only started to really use it on april/may

4 - Do you have a queue tag?

I did but I don't use it anymore

5 - Why did you start your blog in the first place?

at first I was curious about it and than when I returned this year I saw a lot of people writing here and it souded like a fun thing to do (I'm not a native speaker so it was a way to test if I really knew english lol)

6 - Why did you choose your icon/pfp

I liked it and that's it ? (I wish I had a better explanation)

7 - Why did you choose your header?

again, I just found it pretty

8 - What’s your post with the most notes?

my Loki fic Silly Wooden Box I'm so proud of this little oneshot

9 - How many mutuals do you have?

i don't know exactly but love every single one of them (I also know I don't have many but it's just because I'm afraid of talking to people)

10 - How many followers do you have?

244 (I still have no idea how)

11 - How many people do you follow?

about 161 but it increases every day 🙃

12 - Have you ever made a shitpost?

idk maybe?

13 - How often do you use Tumblr each day?

more than I should, for sure

14 - Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

no, the only thing I ever got into was some people translating tumblr works without permission

15 - How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I just ignore most of the time? idk I fell like not reblogging is my protest lol

16 - Do you like tag games?

I love them!! (I'm just really afraid of tagging people and upsetting them, but I love to see that someone thought of me)

17 - Do you like ask games?

yes yes yes!!

18 - Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

idk about famous but I'll say about people that I freaked out a bit when they followed me. @buckysbiota (Ari's so talented I was shocked lol), also @poetic-fiasco (I read her stuff on ao3 and was like "you?? here?? on my page??really??")

19 - Do you have a crush on a mutual?

i need to confess that i fall for everyone who is even a bit decent to me... so more than one 🥰

💕 no pressure tags: @/buckysbiota + @janetsnakehole02 + @writing-for-marvel + @/poetic-fiasco + whoever wants to do!