#i honestly can't tell if this is okay or plain crap

[mcbeetlebeeb]

OOOOkaay time to dump homestuck garbage on here cause although only my friends look at my barely active page, I can't ever garble my stupid gobbles out to my friends in actual person so here I am

anyways have some? domestic?? relationship? crap? headcannons 🤷

🫐John Eg fart bert☁️

typw of mfker to be out in public and just rest his head on your shoulder, causally getting groceries? in supermarket? head on shoulder. making fuckin pancake? head on shoulder. literally standing doing nothing? head on shoulder

even if he's shorter, he will do it,

don't doubt him

I think he'd have god awful pick up lines but not, like, offensive or crude, just plain stupif bad- some garbage like

"I'd bring you too the movies but they don't let you bring your own snacks :("

like sneaky almost, some would genuinely be so thought out it'd just smear right over your smooth brain

fuckin- breath pick up lines, always-

"I hope you know CPR! you just took my breath away!"

whata fuckin dork

but he takes pride in that and if your interested in him you automatically become a dork yourself

you can't not get looped in with his garbage movie taste and stupid shenanigans

silly pranks with him

he'd pull pranks on you, matter fact if your his partner he'd probably pull pranks on you the most

genuinely sucha simp-

not clingy simp or overbearing simp just, yknow, can't help but go on and on about his significant other if ever brought up in a situation, probably brings them up just to do that

I think hed show physical affection in soft, gentle ways? nervous.™

like im talking hesitantly moving to hold your hand, or doing that stupid move of yawning and placing your arm around the other person and bringing then closer

holding you by the sides of your arms, gently trailing down to hold your hands

so soft for you, an even bigger dork when its just yall, absolute bafoon, a fool for you I'd even say

he 100000% babbles about you to his friends, and your friends, and you- lmao, his whole friend group will and can not escape his wrath of adoring you

absolutely talking Jade and Rose's ear off about you cause Dave can't take another moment of it-

will tell you how amazing and cute and this and that you are

no hesitation

I think hed be more than comfortable with pda, holding hands?

yes.

face smooches?

absolutely.

picking you up like a damn bag of flour over his shoulder?

indeed.

🪅Gamzee Makara🧫 (gamgee maraca)

gonna be honest with you? probably a bit stinky

and not in like a swamp ass way like, he just distinctly smells like face paint and whatever who's guess at sopor slime smells like if it even has a smell-

mfker looms over you

he doesn't get like half of the words you say into his brain a lot of the time unless you specify its importance

he's trying his best

but regardless of not actually listening to your words, he loves listening to you talk, just speaking, he could stare at your face all day

like- in an unblinking manner but still lovingly

speaking of your face, that's what he'd mostly end up hugging, he's already hunched over a shit load so when he hugs you he just hugs your whole dome to his chest

probably garbles some silliness to you in a drunk/high like state, just holding you impossibly close to him and mumbling some junk like

"YoU..yOu GoT a NiCe..A nIcE fAcE..aNdD..sMeLl GoOd,,..WaRm"

I like to think the higher up on the hemospectrum(?) idk that trolls gradually get like more cold-blooded? if that makes sense?

okay like the higher it goes up the more the troll has a tough time gaining and keeping warm

he'd love warm stuff, like some big cat he'd just flop on it and purr away

you get clown makeup on your face each time he gives you a smooch, I don't make the rules

honestly would sniff you, and like, not subtly like straight "SNIIIFFFF"

can seamlessly re-create the actually honk squeek sound, but yknow, saying honk is much easier

and god forbid he finds you sitting or relaxing

all up in your biz, not like, verbally but he's already waddled over and rested his head on your lap or wrapping his arms around your waist and tugging you closer

I think hed be really mushy gushy over physical affection, not like embarrassed but he just enjoys it greatly and will do anything for you to play with his hair more

tbh a bit scary ngl, like, has that uh, union effect from Steven Universe, just sorta appears sometimes, there, observing,

he'd try and get you to eat sopor slime, he wouldnt force you but he'd definitely like, lean in with a tin of it and try and convince you, but he's not shoving it down ur gullet

probably great at taking snuggle naps, like he could most likely just drape all his limbs over you like some limp cat and just peacefully snooze away

also that whole shit of trolls having nightmares if not all snuggled up in sopor slime?

I love to believe it's canceled out by another person snuggling with them,

and that person is you of course,

you can't leave his presence without like a visable mark somewhere on you that you where around him

wether that be clown make up or sopor slime smeared somewhere on you

or you wearing his shirt, or his incredibly long pants

he's also a dork

I think hed enjoy how squishy humans are in general

he'd hold and love every part of you with a lopsided smile

hugging his arms around your hips as he leaves sloppy kisses against your tummy, smudging clown makeup on you

aahugh sleepiness is kicking in but I don't care I must persist because I'm. GAY.

Dave Strider (who names their child this)

breaking news! he's also a major dork

but in secret?

and an even bigger dork when its just yall

type of mfker to just pour his heart out to you in a way that makes you blank in the brain and then go "haha sorry that was weird" or "my bad that was probably cringe"

so unbelievably soft for you behind door, cannot do pda- for the life of him-

"hey, uh I made us a playli-" "YES."

listening to music with you at any given chance, likes sharing music genres and songs

if you dont make mention of him not smiling or laughing often around others he'll just let himself slip like that yknow?

like he'll giggle and laugh at more things, stupid, silly things,

comfortable with you to say the least

CAPE BLANKET, CAPE BLANKET, CAPE BLANKE-

like mentioned above- if you got the chance to snuggle up close to him he'd drape his silly cape over yall both,

mostly you but 🤷

probably had a god damn coronary trying to figure his feelings out

talking with Rose or John like

"I dunno the fucks wrong with me, my heart hurts and my gut feels likes its in knots like im gonna barf?- "

"you like them dave‐ you like _____."

"....i—.....whuh??-"

stammering and studdering round you like he has a speech impediment, has words in his head but just cannot execute them at all-

not with you around

it legit don't matter to him, he will call you bro, dawg, dude, homie, homeslice? home dawg?

probably would use these in an endearing way tho, just "dude?...bro?" in a loving way

"you have a smoochable face dude"

"...fruity.."

"fuck you-"

very hesitant on touching, not that he minds, he just will mentally perish if he ever made you feel weird

he'd definitely be the mfker to when cuddling with him to just to nestle and nuzzle the top of his head into the crook of your neck

mentioning cuddling- like whilst asleep, he'll still have a part of him touching you, wether it's his foot against your calf or his entire leg draped over you

[trillscienceofficer]

idk if you’ve seen this post but it very much made me think of b’elanna and a lot of the conversations we’ve been having about her recently: www(.)tumblr(.)com/weltenwellen/614081842448056320/lindsay-c-gibson-adult-children-of-emotionally

Thank you for bringing this to my attention, this quote is SURE relevant to B'Elanna (here in plain text):

Not Trusting Your Instincts Emotionally immature parents don't know how to validate their child's feelings and instincts. Without this validation, children learn to give in to what others seem sure about. As adults, they may deny their instincts to the point where they acquiesce to relationships they don't really want. They may then believe it's up to them to make the relationship work. They may rationalize why they have to try so hard in the relationship, as though it were normal to struggle daily to get along with your mate. While effort is needed to maintain communication and connection in a relationship, it shouldn't feel like constant, unrewarding work. The truth is, if both partners fit each other, understand each other's feelings, and are positive and supportive, relationships are primarily pleasurable, not arduous. It isn't asking too much to generally feel happy when you see your partner or look forward to time together. When people say, "You can't have everything," they're really saying they don't have what they need.

As a human being, you can trust yourself to l know when you're emotionally satisfied. You know I when you've been given full measure. You aren't a bottomless pits of ceaseless demands. You can trust the inner prompts that tell you when something is missing. But if you've been trained to discount your feelings, you'll feel guilty for complaining if everything looks okay on the outside. If you have a place to live, a regular paycheck, enough food, and a partner or friends, conventional wisdom says, "How bad can it be?" Many people can readily enumerate all the reasons why they should be satisfied and be shy about admitting that they aren't. They blame themselves for not having the "right" feelings.

— Lindsay C. Gibson, “Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents”

You're right, this is B'Elanna in a nutshell. The constant racial stereotyping she was subjected to and the fact that her own father bought into it really did a number on B'Elanna's self-esteem. So many of her childhood memories revolve around people goading her into a reaction then berate her for her anger once she finally snapped. It's like she was gaslighted into believing that every single one of her feelings was unreasonable, and therefore now she doesn't trust herself when it comes to evaluating how she fits within any social structure, deferring to the opinion of others.

This is most obvious in her relationship with Tom (honestly, this quote describes their relationship so well it's kind of uncanny) but I'd argue that B'Elanna trying to get into Starfleet only to quit the Academy is a twisted symptom of this as well—she didn't trust herself enough to know whether she could actually graduate, so she believed the people who told her she would never make it (and never mind the fact that in reality the Starfleet instructors were impressed with her—rattling cages doesn't work with everyone and was clearly NOT what B'Elanna needed).

And in “Drive” we see this coming back with a vengeance, she doesn't trust herself enough to call it quits with Tom and when he eventually proposes she just... goes along with it, mixed feelings suddenly irrelevant in the face of someone else's (apparent) convictions. I think Tom has similar issue as well so this is truly a 'but who's driving the car??' situation, they're both thinking that the other wants it more than they do and that they don't actually deserve any better!

(ETA: frankly their entire relationship started this way too, like... with all the alien crap making a latent attraction actually become overt in a way they wouldn't have chosen otherwise, B'Elanna and Tom practically pulled each other into a relationship)

I also think this is why B'Elanna seems to latch onto authority figures (like Chakotay and Janeway) so readily, though she would never admit it. It's a way for her to figure out what's the 'correct' way to interface with other people, so she can orient her feelings towards fitting into any expectation they might have. Of course that never really works out as well as she'd like because she is an actual person, and one with many feelings and opinions, even if she's spent so many years running away from them. And running away from feelings is sure another one of B'Elanna's traits (it's the entire plot of “Extreme Risk”).

The part of that quote about parents not validating their children's feelings makes me now wonder about what would've happened if B'Elanna had had parents who consistently and explicitly supported her, and made sure she understood that she was not overreacting when she was being bullied. Mostly if she'd had a father who didn't suck so bad; I think Miral tried in her own way to support her daughter as best as she could, although she was completely isolated and probably dealing with a lot of self-doubt of her own in the middle of a crumbling relationship. I'm not so naive to believe that better parenting would've solved every single one of B'Elanna's issues (you can't just wish away the impact that racism has on children, unfortunately), but she would probably be better equipped to trust herself and her own emotions than she is on the show, at least.

[caliburn-the-sword]

finished reading scarlet; last thoughts and reactions and ponderings

was about to be like "ew wtf did not want r*pe in MY y/a book" AND THEN HE SLIPPED HER AN I.D. TO ESCAPE

thorne is SO real for only being concerned about his jacket despite human bites being very dangerous lol

why are these werewolves acting like vamps

it's kind of nice how cool thorne is with lunars with all the lunar hate there is - i remember when reading cinder being apalled about how she generalised them all as corrupt

YES SCARLET KNOWS SHE KNOWS NOW

NO NOT GRANNY I'M LITERALLY IN STUDY PERIOD RN I CAN'T CRY (note: i managed not to cry in study period but god my eyes burned for a while lmao)

tf i thought wolf was just being possessive in like a protective way against ran and not just a plain old possessive way. he's honestly making me nervous rn like goodness i can literally feel scarlet's fear rn. STOP WITH YOUR I CAN FIX HIM DISEASE AND RUN (note: okay he got brain fucky wucky by mind control so this isn't him)

HOLY SHIT THEY'RE ALL FINALLY MEETING I'M FROTHING AT THE MOUTH

i think kai is going delulu. i bet his office isn't bugged and he's got a spy. literally since cinder my money has been on torin. but maybe huy

omg kai's recognition of cinder's sacrifice by going to the ball <3

gotta agree with everything cinder's saying about kai's marriage because it's everything i've been thinking since kai decided to marry levana. i wish he would see how it's a bandaid for a stab wound. he's barely fixing a short term problem, which is gonna have the same long term problem regardless

the girls (all current pov characters) ARE FIGHTING. not mad tho because i'm a messy bitch who lives for drama <3

"She'd had the bridge built for herself out of very special glass, so that she could watch (...) all without being observed herself" levana YOU MEAN A TWO WAY MIRROR??? don't go acting all superior you're not special

from what wolf has described of his Tragic Backstory there is NO way he ISN'T a virgin. i'm so sorry that was my only takeaway but i'm trying to distract myself

"We met less than a week ago and in that time I've done nothing but lie and cheat and betray you" FKSDHFSDK sounds JUST like ouat rumpelstiltskin and yet he's STILL healthier than him and not toxic LMAO

wait did wolf need to pretend betray scarlet without her knowing instead of just making THAT the plan because those supersoldiers can smell hormones?? i bet they can. i reckon he needed her to feel REAL fear (note: now that i think about it it's probably just the bioelectricity crap but also ONLY the thaumaturge would be able to detect that???)

if i keep having to read "alpha female" with my own two eyes, i'm going to need bleach. marissa meyer you owe me financial compensation for the psychological distress i've been caused. 3 is in fact 4 times too many. it is a crime that it was ever thought into existence

predictions for cress

didn't do this last time between cinder and scarlet but figured it would be fun!! you guys get to silently laugh about how wrong i am, no spoilers

first off, doc erland's place in africa becomes the home base and cinder starts her training

someone tries to recreate garan's device since it will be useful for the rebellion - could be a joint effort between cinder and cress since they have the hardware and software down respectively. idk who's gonna fill the last role of like. bio stuff and the surgeries tho but we'll see

MORE THORNE BACKSTORY

definitely more wolf pov chapters now that marissa no longer needs to make him dodgy

cress is at least a LITTLE bit delulu wackers bonkers cray z lost her marbles etc etc from being so isolated for so long. i would LOVE to get into that mindset and character voice. would make for a very interesting pov

on reading the blurb:

i'm REALLY fucking dumb it finally occurred to me that in rapunzel the hero falls from the tower and gets blinded by thorns. so that tells me exactly who carswell thorne is (rip to when i thought he was the prince from sleeping beauty cause that's embarrassing). i wonder if he gets ejected into space from the satellite and his eyeballs freeze out of his sockets or something

i wonder WHY cress would be locked up by the queen BEFORE she was even able to hack since she wouldn't have been useful then. my first thought was that glamour doesn't work on her like with shells but she's not a shell herself but that wouldn't make sense because the thaumaturges seemed surprised by cinder and michelle benoit so it can't be that. for the sake of my running joke of every fairy tale character either being related or knowing each other, i'm just gonna pin it down to her being somewhere in the family tree and leave it at that

can these people STOP getting separated from each other?? i can't handle it. from the blurb it seems like the boys got cut off from the girls??? and then kai is also separated from all of them lol. this is a prediction only in the sense that i'm trying to guess who's getting separated from who. i think it would tie well into separating everyone from their love interest like poor cinder

i wonder if this will be the book that we meet princess winter since with royal etiquette and all that her presence will p r o b a b l y be required during all them wedding preparations and what not

@eddisfargo @francforever @winterrhayle @winterpinetrees

[alexplayssimsnstuff]

Questions, thoughts on a lot of Sims' backstories or character traits in 4 being changed? Like Nina & Dina Caliente's personalities having been swapped? Or their new mom? Or the fact that none of the character's pre-set relationships match their household bios? And have you seen/thoughts on MatPat's recent (2 month old now) Bella theory?

All good questions, and you deserve a response.

I don't know who Katrina Caliente think she is but like--I have a headcanon that in that AU, she's like, Flamenco's second wife or something and not supposed to be Nighat Caliente. Fun fact, you can't name a sim Nighat and put it on the gallery. I understand the flag that may result from that name--but Nighat is A REAL NAME. I hate it. If I have a save file where I focus on the pre-mades, I delete her every time. If not, she usually marries Marcus Flex and that's that. As far as the relationships go--just plain laziness on the devs' ends. In 2, you could tell that people actually played around a little bit before they shipped the final product out and spent some time in game. In 4, they literally just built them, put them in houses, made up some crap, and shipped it out. Three's the same way, but at least it has a slightly played with feeling to it instead of dropping them flat on the lot and never playing with it. I think the Dina/Nina personality situation is equal parts lazy devs/difference of interpretation on who the characters are. I've been playing a lot of 2 lately, and Dina actually makes for a great mother and friend when she needs to, but she's still a heartless golddigging betty (I love that for her) and Nina has her mean streak, but has a heart of gold.

As far as MatPat goes--I've seen it. Boy, I've seen it. And I wanted to make a post about it, but honestly? I didn't because I was just more annoyed than anything and I didn't want to come off as--I guess off my rocker is the best phrase for it? I was really upset. Back in my late teens, I used to watch his minecraft theory videos almost religiously, and still use those theories in my gameplay today. But the fact that I spent a whole entire six months on something during a highly stressful, dangerous period of my life and then published it in a point in my life where I didn't know where tomorrow would take me so YEAH, it's gonna have issues, and then Mattyboy comes along two years later, shits on it, and then spits out some half-baked crap that you can tell, he has very little, if any experience with the Sims and absolutely no love for it? The Bella Goth thing was something I've been personally invested in since I was six years old and then he comes in and corporate memes on it in a rush job. It's frustrating to say the least, and uhhhh I hadn't watched his videos in a long time but I actually unsubscribed from him because of it lol.

That's okay, I'm actually trying to teach myself how to use Premiere Pro so I can take this all to Youtube and brush up on some things that need brushing up.

[ciaossu-imagines]

Am curious about this so just wanted to ask, so hope it’s alright. You’ve talked about various faves of different series in the past and it’s always nice seeing you gush about them so could you do that for your faves from K and Nanbaka? I want to hear what you love about them and all of that. Just anything you have to say about them I’d love to hear.

Okay, but I find it just really flattering that it's interesting for you guys when I gush and talk about characters from my fandoms that I love! Nanbaka and K are weird ones for me to talk about though, because honestly I don't really have one solid favourite from either series, or even just a couple of favourites from the series. Both are series full of really great characters and I honestly love so many of the characters that this is more easily going to be easier for me if I just tell you who I don't like, I feel.

So for Nanbaka, I do love almost all the characters, even the batshit insane Elf! I always do have a soft spot for Mitsuru, who amuses me whenever he shows up, Hajime, because I really do relate to him on a lot of things and find how authentic he is as a person really refreshing, for Seitarou, because of how badly he's bullied - it does activate that 'baby, must protect' instinct in me, and for all of Building Five, with two exceptions, especially after the arc that focused on them, because that arc had me nearly in tears so many times.

That being said, I hate Hachiman, and not in that oh, he's a great villain and I love to hate him but plain out and out, he's a disgusting beast and while that's the point of him, he makes me sick. I'm also not really that fond of Ruka. I can't even fully explain why, but there's just something about his character that kind of bored me and I found it quite hard to really connect to him.

For K, I do love my alphabet boys, both HOMRA and Scepter 4, especially after reading the spin-off mangas, though HOMRA's alphabet boys do win out just a little bit more but overall, I do enjoy the more popular characters too, especially Seri and Fushimi. That being said, Kuroh kind of gives me the creeps, not going to lie, Shiro slightly got boring after a bit, and I find Nagare extremely hard to write for and I find my writing for him to be off-beat and forced sounding and I feel guilty for the crap I offer up every time I get a request for him, as I never feel it's quite good enough.

What about you, anon dear? Are there any characters you really love from those fandoms? Any that fall flat to you? As much as I love giving my opinions on fandoms, I also really love hearing your guys'!

[albumwalloffame]

Top 10 Worst Album Covers of 2023 - Part 1/2

Happy New Years! It's time again, the time were I judge books, or in this case albums, by their covers. Okay, that is a bit harsh, but the album cover is an important part of the music listening experience, I mean so much about Pink Floyd's "The Wall" and it's symbolism would be lost if not for the incredible art hidden beneath the fold of the brick wall album cover, Tuomas Holopainen's Scrooge McDuck album would not feel as complete if it did not have a beautiful Don Rosa piece as it's cover, Charli XCX's "how i'm feeling now" was such a perfect capture of the mood of 2020.

I love looking at album covers, and I love talking about them, especially the bad ones, because I love learning from bad art. This is all this list really is, looking at some bad art and learning from it, so without further ado, here is the top 10 worst album covers of 2023.

#10. Miss Grit - Follow the Cyborg

In 2021 I put the cover for "The Art of Losing" by The Achoress at number 8 on the worst list. It was a probably unintentionally phalic piece of art that, quite frankly made me chuckle. I mention it because, again I'm fairly certain any phallic imagery was not intended in that piece, though I am not one-hundred percent certain. This cover on the other hand… I mean…

I guess the idea is that there is a recharge port in the mouth, but um… I can't help but look at this and think, "Yeah, they knew exactly what they were doing", it's not even that's it too much or distasteful really, it's just… I mean I'm fairly certain most sites would have this flagged as inappropriate content.

#9. Queens of the Stone Age - In Times New Roman...

A good part of this entry is simply due to the fact that I just can't fricking see anything, I can vaguely make out a figure, but for the most part it may as well just look like Metallica's Black Album. The other part of this is that, when I can see what's on the cover, I still can't really make out what it is, it's like a biker with a wolf coming out of his head, and three hands caressing him… this is reminding me a little bit of that Offspring album from 2021.

#8. Fall Out Boy - So Much (for) Stardust

Oh, I'm probably not gonna make a lot of fans for this pick, but I gotta be honest, this album cover is bad. You remember when 30 Seconds to Mars released America, and they let you make your own version of that album's cover? Then people immediately began making it a massive joke? Well, Fall Out Boy did the same thing letting you put your own image on the cover. It really does feel like they just did this so they could make a meme. The image itself isn't even that good, it's a dog and some bubbles… that's it. Thankfully, it isn't the worst offender for a band who should know better.

#7. Foo Fighters - But Here We Are

That honour goes to the Foo Fighters, who last year, released an awful, just plain awful horror movie, and this year gave us an album that has quite literally, next to nothing on the cover. You know, when The Beatles did their album cover with nothing, they had an idea behind it, but this isn't even nothing, there is vaguely something in the distance, but it's so faded that it may as well be nothing. Honestly, what has it been with the Foo Fighters and their album covers as of late? Oh well, I guess I'll see them next time.

#6. Swiss Army Wife - Medium Gnarly & Anti-Flag - Lies They Tell Our Children

And here is our yearly tie and yearly entry for "Too much crap on the canvas" bad album cover. I think if I had to pick a "Worse" one I'd have to pick "Lies They Tell Our Children", it's just incohesive and full of random crap, I can at least make out some things on the Medium Gnarly cover, I mean it's still a jumbled mess but I can make out some things. I really do hate this kind of "collage with no rhyme nor reason" aesthetics, they just, are not fun to look at. If I wanted to stare at an absolute mess, I'd take a look at my city's downtown area.

Part 2!

[midtownsciences]

Bound to Lose

Part Two

Pairing: Peter x reader

Summary: Peter and (Y/N) have broken up, and (Y/N) wants nothing to do with her ex-boyfriend. Peter respects her wishes, until he stumbles across her one day — as Spider-Man.

Warnings: more angsttt, the reader is angry and says some things 

A/N: this fic is still inspired by Lose My Mind by Dean Lewis. Huge s/o to @thekillingquill for her expert advice for this chapter <3

Part One

“I only lose my mind when I ain’t got you

and how can I win when I’m always bound to lose”

Peter watched (Y/N) from across the cafeteria. She sat with Michelle, but her mind was somewhere else. She pushed her food around her plate with a fork, staring through the table, jolting when Michelle nudged her out of her stupor and placed a comforting hand on her arm. When (Y/N) wasn’t looking, Michelle shot Peter a glance so vicious he finally understood the phrase “if looks could kill”.

He knew the breakup was as difficult for (Y/N) as it was for him. There were times when she would show up to class with bloodshot eyes and a red nose, tears staining the sleeves of her sweatshirt. It broke his heart to know that she was hurting, but what could he do? He was the last person she wanted to be around. She hadn’t spoken to him since the breakup; she couldn’t even look him in the eye.

And Peter wanted to talk to her, beg for forgiveness and start over, but he had no right. Yes, she was hurting, but it was Peter that had caused it. He had lied to her for so long. Who could blame her for giving up on him? In truth, he didn’t deserve her in the first place. When you’re two people at once, you’re bound to lose some parts of yourself along the way. (Y/N) deserved someone who could give her every part of himself. But Peter couldn’t give up being Spider-Man—not when there were people who needed his help.

He thought about telling her. She wouldn’t take it well, he knew that for sure. She probably wouldn’t forgive him, either. He had used her. Every day, Peter saw humanity at its worst, foiling muggings and theft and assault, but he would forget it all when he climbed through her window at night. For months, she was his anchor. Being in her presence (even when she was asleep) was a relief that he couldn’t comprehend. When she wrapped her arms around him, he felt all the weight tumbling from his chest. He could breathe again. She was his sun; she cut through the dark and he basked in her light, but he gave her nothing in return.

Come morning, Peter would be fully recovered. He’d climb out of her window without a second thought. Some mornings he made it out without waking her, others he had to lie through his teeth about where he was going and what he was doing. He hadn’t realised it was hurting her, hadn’t known it would cost him their relationship.

He was sick with the guilt of what he had put her through, of the complete disregard he had had for her. Even as Spider-Man, the remorse ate through him, sloshing around in his stomach like molten lead. The weight of it was so great he feared his webs would no longer be able to support him when he swung from one building to the next.

(Y/N)’s gaze flicked up to meet his across the cafeteria, and his breath caught in the back of his throat. Her eyes widened, cheeks reddened. Peter’s brow creased and he drew on all his pain and heartbreak to plead with her from across the room. She looked away, but not before he saw the heartbreak reflected right back at him.

 “I know that I broke all your rules

Now you’re looking at me, and I’m looking at you like a fool”

Peter was not following his ex-girlfriend.

He had been sitting on a balcony, playing Tetris on his phone (it was a slow day for crime), when he happened to see (Y/N) appear from the subway. He watched her weave through a crowd lined up beside a hot-dog cart, eyes glued to her phone. She was chewing on her lip the way she would when she was nervous. A man in a suit dodged out of her way as she marched down the sidewalk, so transfixed by whoever she was texting that she barely glanced up to see where she was walking.

(Y/N) was a disaster waiting to happen. That’s why Peter followed her. Not because he was desperate to find out who had captivated her attention so successfully over text. Not because she looked beautiful in her little dress, and he wanted to see where she was going (and who she was seeing) in an outfit like that. Not even because it was a school night and they had homework, so where had she been and why wasn’t she at home studying for their physics test? No. It was because she was distracted and flustered and a danger to herself and others.

So he stuck to the rooftops, following her at a safe distance. Not that she would see him if he was on the ground; he could walk right beside her in his Spider-Man suit and she wouldn’t so much as give him a second glance.

She was becoming increasingly frustrated, her eyebrows furrowed at her phone, thumbs tapping furiously across the screen. She trudged across the sidewalk towards the road. Peter glanced up, catching sight of a yellow cab barrelling down the street. Surely she’ll see it, he thought. She’ll look before she crosses.

She did not.

Peter dived off the roof, slinging a web towards a building and swinging towards her. She hopped off the curb, took another step. The cab driver’s eyes widened. He was going so fast, he couldn’t stop in time. Breaks squealed as he blasted the horn and (Y/N) glanced up, the colour draining from her cheeks.

He caught her just in time, his grip tight around her waist as he dragged her through the air, dropping her back onto the sidewalk. A chorus of applause erupted from the diners outside a restaurant who had watched the whole thing. (Y/N) would have been mortified, if she hadn’t felt like she might collapse.

“Are you alright?” Peter asked, barely masking the shake in his voice.

(Y/N) didn’t answer. She stared off after the cab, now long gone, eyes wide. Her breath came in short pants through her parted lips. If she had been any paler, Peter might have thought she was dead.

“Miss?”

She shook her head, dislodging the panic that gripped her thoughts and ran a shaking hand through her hair. “I-I’m okay,” she breathed. “I’m fine. Th-thank you.”

“Of course,” he answered. He cleared his throat, focused on disguising his voice. “Would you mind if I walked you home?”

“You don’t have to do that.”

“I know, it’s just that”—he gestured towards her trembling hands—“you’re a little shaken up. It doesn’t feel right, to leave you like this.”

(Y/N) shoved her hands in her pockets, staring at her feet. “Yeah. I guess that’d be nice. If you could.”

“Yeah. Yeah, it’s no problem.”

They walked in silence for a few blocks until (Y/N)’s phone rang. She ignored the call, slipping her phone into her pocket. “I don’t know if I said it earlier,” she began, “but thank you. I really owe you one.”

“Oh don’t worry about it,” he shrugged. “It’s no big deal.”

“Yeah, it is. It’s a huge deal. You saved my life!” she enthused, beginning to feel the effects of the adrenaline coursing through her. “I almost just got wiped out by a taxi. If you hadn’t been here—”

“Don’t,” he blurted. He didn’t want to hear it. He couldn’t imagine a world without (Y/N), and he didn’t want to. “Don’t say it.”

(Y/N) looked at him quizzically, opened her mouth to say something but her phone began to ring again.

“You should probably get that,” Peter remarked. “It could be important.”

She sighed, dragged her phone out of her pocket and answered the call.

“Michelle?” she answered. Peter’s ears pricked up. “I know, I’m a little busy right now... No, I know… I’ve told you already, you can’t just—yes, I know that. I already did, he doesn’t need to hear it from you, too… Can you just-can you just give it some time? Maybe he needs time… MJ, I have to go. Just promise me you won’t say anything, okay? Good… Okay, I’ll see you in school. Bye.”

(Y/N) huffed in frustration as she put her phone away, hands shoved in her jacket pockets.

“Is Michelle the reason you almost walked out in front of a cab?” Peter asked quietly.

She huffed again as she chewed on her bottom lip. “Kind of. Yeah,” she nodded.

“What happened?”

She glanced up at him, seeming to consider whether or not she could tell him, before looking down at her feet as they trudged across the pavement. “My friend is… well, she’s opinionated. She can be a little argumentative. When she gets an idea in her head, it’s hard to talk her out of it.”

“So, what are you trying to talk her out of?”

“Confronting someone,” she shrugged, though there was a weight to it that told Peter she was anything but nonchalant about the issue. “A guy. My um… my ex-boyfriend.”

Peter’s heart folded in on itself. He used to revel in the word “boyfriend” when it was breathed through her lips: he had only ever heard her use it to refer to him. With one syllable, she had taken a broadsword to their relationship, and sliced it clean in half.

“Ex, huh?” he said, fighting hard to keep his voice level. “Why does your friend want to confront him?”

“She’s just looking out for me. He uh… he hurt me pretty bad.”

Peter glanced at her, and it was all he could do not to rip the mask off right then and tell her everything. She was so close, but they couldn’t have been further apart. “Sounds like an asshole,” he muttered, kicking the pavement as he walked.

She smiled softly, but her eyes were all sadness and unshed tears. “No. He isn’t. That’s why it hurt so much to lose him.”

Even though he wanted to change the subject, couldn’t stand to hear about all the different ways he hurt her, he had to know. This was his chance to finally understand how she felt. She had ignored all his calls and texts since the breakup. She couldn’t talk to Peter, but she could talk to Spider-Man. “Why did you guys break up?” he asked.

“Well,” she said, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear, “I guess I couldn’t take it anymore. He lied. A lot. About things that he shouldn’t have had to lie about, you know? Like, he’d lie about where he was going, and who he was with. For months. It was driving me crazy. The only thing that made sense in the end is that he was seeing someone else.”

“He wasn’t cheating on you,” Peter blurted. She startled, glancing at him with her eyebrows raised. “I mean, probably. He probably wasn’t cheating on you. You know, he- he’d have to be an idiot to cheat on someone like you.”

“Even still,” she said, throwing him a suspicious glance. “He lied to me. And he couldn’t explain himself when I called him out on it. There was something going on and he kept it from me.”

Peter scoffed. They had reached (Y/N)’s apartment building, and stopped a few yards from the door. “He sounds like a real dumbass.”

“No,” (Y/N) laughed coldly. Her sadness had drained away, replaced with contempt written all over her face—in her narrowed eyes, the firm set of her jaw. “He’s one of the smartest people I’ve ever met. That’s what pissed me off the most; this guy, who was a straight A student, is going to have his choice of any college he wants, thought I was dumb enough to believe all his bullshit lies. It was insulting.” She paused, taking a deep breath, before looking up at him from underneath a furrowed brow. “Do you want to know the worst part?”

He bit his lip under the mask, nodding despite not really wanting to know at all.

“The worst part, is that he wasn’t even hot.”

“He wasn’t.” Peter had intended the phrase as a question, but it fell from his gaping mouth as a flat statement.

“Nope,” (Y/N) replied shortly. Her eyebrows were raised, lips turned down at the corners. “He’s short, for one. And his hair was always combed back like he stepped straight out of a twelve-year-old’s school portrait from the eighties. Oh, and his voice! His voice still cracks like he’s struggling to get through puberty. I guess that’s why he couldn’t just man up and be honest with me.”

“I- I’m sure his voice wasn’t—”

“And to top it all off—the icing on the cake—he made me feel like crap,” she spat. “I thought he was betraying me. He lied to my face and let me believe he was seeing other girls behind my back, when in reality, he was running around the streets of Queens in red latex, calling himself a superhero!”

Peter stood in front of her, mouth hanging open, as she stared daggers into his mask. Her words manoeuvred, slotting themselves into place in his mind. “I don’t know what you mean,” he replied pathetically.

“How dumb do you think I am, Peter?”

“P-Peter? Who’s Peter?”

She scoffed, her tongue poking out from between her teeth as she bit it to keep from screaming at him. “Well, you sure as hell sound like him. And you walked me home without any directions. You made every turn without hesitation. Then we arrived at my apartment building, and you stopped before I did. Either you’re Peter Parker, or your powers include reading minds.”

“I’m not Peter,” he insisted.

(Y/N) stared off into the distance, shaking her head in amazement. “I’m going inside,” she said resignedly, turning on her heel.

“(Y/N), wait!”

At this, she halted. “I never told you my name was (Y/N),” she called over her shoulder.

Peter slouched. It was over. He reached out to touch her arm lightly, and she turned to face him. He flinched at her expression: completely deadpan save for the accusation in her eyes. “No one is supposed to know,” he said quietly, reaching up to pull the mask from his head. “It’s supposed to be a secret. And the only reason Ned knows—”

“You told Ned?” she asked, and the anger was gone from her tone, but the way she swallowed thickly, as if she couldn’t stand the taste of the words, gave away how hurt she was.

“N-no! No, that’s not- look, I can explain, okay?”

“Don’t bother,” she muttered.

“It’s not- it’s not as bad as you think,” he insisted. “I never meant to hurt you!”

“But you lied to me,” she reminded him. “You kept it from me, and even when you knew it was bothering me, you knew I believed the worst, you still didn’t tell me. You chose to keep this secret, knowing that I would walk away. Did I really mean that little to you?”

Peter stared at her with wide eyes. His mouth hung open, but he couldn’t answer her. He didn’t know where to begin.

“And you would’ve let me go, too,” she said. “If you hadn’t walked me home today, we would’ve gone to school tomorrow and I still wouldn’t know about any of this. You would just let me go. God, you’re unbelievable.”

“Please, (Y/N),” Peter said, his voice cracking. His vision swam through tears, but he was determined not to let them fall. “I’ll explain everything. I’ll tell you everything, just- just—”

“It’s a little late for that, Peter,” (Y/N) told him. She turned her back on Peter and his tears did fall, her words playing on a loop through his mind. She sounded so tired, so done. She had given up on this fight. She had given up on him.

Part Three

tags: @jvghead-jones-iii

[purplerose244]

My thoughts on Seabound!!! 🌊🌊🌊 (2/4)

SPOILERS ALERT!!!

For now, nothing to complain about! We got Nya, we got MAYA AND RAY, we got GILES PANTON BACK A LEGO SHOW!!! 😍😍😍

Of course now I'm definitely curious about what the story is really about, like I'm guessing Wojira will wake up at some point so... Great Devourer all over again maybe? 😅 Idk, for now I just wanna enjoy Nya having her moment 🥳

Alright, here we go!

GENERAL THOUGHTS

New alert for reader, during the Nexo Knights period I was and still am the hugest Clay fan. Now that his voice is in this season I might scream more than necessary... keep that in mind 😅

I love the humor in this, all random but still kinda clever 😂😂 Maybe I'm biased because I love Jay but still 🤷‍♀️

I really like the design of the marine world, very cool!! 🌊🌊🌊

I guess I'm not really seeing any big plot twist moment for now? Ninjago seasons have history of basing seasons on a "we need to prevent this event from happening but it will happen anyway", so I can see Wojira waking up no matter what 🤷‍♀️

I wonder if that will be shocking? Usually when this situation happen, someone makes a major sacrifice (Zane with the Overlord, sensei Garmaron with Chen, again sensei G with the Preeminent...). Maybe Maya? I DON'T WANT THAT 😭 But I am curious, everything is going nicely and I'm not sure what it will bring! 🤩 I'M EXCITED SO LET'S GO!!!

THE WRATH OF KALMAAR

So this is the name of Clay's new incarnation, neat! 👍

Okay really, for having a season lately the main character just can't help but be trapped by the villain: kinda Zane in the ICE Chapter, Jay in Prime Empire, Cole in Master of the Mountain... we can call it a tradition at this point 🤷‍♀️

Giant serpent, yadda yadda, I wonder if we're gonna address the Great Devourer at some point? Not mandatory, but the reference would be very cool 🤩

Clay's new incarnation is a prince I- *hyperventilates in awe*

Nya playing dumb lol, I don't know if that's personal experience as she used to get kidnapped a lot in the past or she just have too many idiots in her life 😂

ALSO ANOTHER BEST GIRL'S SMIRK

NYA YOU'RE TOO MUCH ILY ❤💙❤💙

Jay I love that you're so worried about Nya but maybe try NOT TO DIE? YOU'RE WITH LLOYD AND ZANE YET YOU'RE THE ONE GOING FOR THE SACRIFICE WTH?? 😱 But he's worried about his cool GF I kinda get it, also he didn't do it so good...

WHAT. THE. HECK.

WHO ARE YOU OH MY FIRST SPINJITZU MASTER YOU'RE ADORABLE I WANNA KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU YOU ABSOLUTE CUTIE 🤩🤩🤩

So Giles is doomed to voice LEGO characters with daddy issues 😂 That being not having a dad at all or having one that is... a good guy? Idk he seems chill with the surface at first glance, I wonder what's the story of this family

Maya reminds of my mom, she also mentions her work a lot and I study the same thing. But she doesn't want to brag, it gets annoying but she just wants to give me advice. It's nice to see actually 👍 Also Ray reference NEAT ❤❤❤

Wow, if any child-parent couple of this show was doomed at going semi Emperor's New Groove style, I would've bet on Ed and Jay honestly 😅

Oh HECK yes I knew that with my water girls things were BOUND to get cool 😎 ... yeah I know where the door is *goes away*

JAY NO WHAT DID I TELL YOU ABOUT TRYING TO DIE STOP DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING!!! 😱😱😱

My GOSH that scared the crap out of me 😅 Jay honey we have too many deaths in this team, you're not helping... BUT YOU POWERED AN ENTIRE SHIP BECAUSE YOU LOVE NYA AND YOU DIDN'T DIE AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BLUEBELL 💙💙💙

They were all so worried, I love this ninja family so freaking much 💜💜💜 Also better not tell this one to his GF 😂

And Bluebell?

Welcome to the "change eye color because of elemental power" team! WE GOT ANOTHER ONE I LOVE WHEN IT HAPPENS!!! 😍😍😍

Awww, Zane letting Jay be the captain, that was so cute of him 💕

Another great episode! Doing great so far but I still wonder if we got into the main story. Feels like there should be more, well we got time! Next one! 😊

LONG LIVE THE KING

Sooooo... that's one very telling title 😅 If we're going full Lion King on this one, I think I know where this is going 😵

Maya: Don't they know that metal taste terrible?!? (Again feels like Kai could say something like this 😂)

FINALLY NYA USING FREAKING WATER POWERS UNDER THE SEA!!! Thank you Maya for saying out loud what we were all thinking 👌👌

NINJA TO THE RESCUE!!!

Pff, okay, the fact that Kalmaar is all evil and cruel and then he gets startled like that, it's kind or adorable! 💕 Honestly Giles got such a deep voice, with Clay it was firm warm and reassuring, here we got plain devious and I ADORE it 😍😍😍

Maya come on don't doubt your daughter 😅 But I like her, and if she knew Nya they way we all do she wouldn't doubt that she could make it every time 😎

Yeah I was right, the king seems chill... oww I fear what's coming then 😳

Okay, so Kalmaar thinks that the world should go back to be lead by them like in the past, while the king just wants peace with the surface. And as we know, no drama no season so...

Yep, saw the death coming 😅

WHOA DID NOT SEE THAT LITTLE BLAME ACT COMING KALMAAR IS SO EVIL!!!... with a glorious voice but still (Rose focus on something that is not that godlike voice, you can do it 💪💪)

THE OLD ONE TWO I LOVE THIS SO MUCH COMBO ATTACK!!! 🌊❄🌊❄

Awww Benthomaar is actually really cute, he's so worried about his father 😢 And he's adopted apparently? I wanna know the story!!! 🤩🤩

Yep, there's the reason why Zane got a mask even though he doesn't need one, it completes his attire 😂😂😂 My gosh how I love this nindroid ❄

Did... did Jay just say phooey? Dude Ducktales ended a while ago but I'm still not over it 😭

I said it once before I'll say it again, Ninjago is really REALLY good at making death scenes. Like, omg, I genuinely felt sorry for them 😢😢 I also really liked that the king didn't ask to be avenged, he still wanted peace and he asked his son to protect the ninja and he cried actual tears...

MY HEART WTH 😭😭😭 So we're adding this to the real tears moments of the show, with Jay crying over pie, Zane with the flashback of his dad, Jay crying over Nya and Lloyd thinking the ninja are gone... my world this show is angsty 🙂

Third startle for prince Kalmaar, I love the gag 😂 Oh wait, king Kalmaar 🤷‍♀️

Okay, we got a coup, the ninja running away because they got framed, Benthomaar is most likely going to join them or at least help them, I guess Wojira will come out at some point while... Kai, Ray and Cole are still playing videogames? 😅

THIS IS GETTING COOL I WONDER WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT AAAAHHH HECK YES THERE IS THE HYPE!!! 😍😍😍

Although I hope we get more stuff with Nya and Maya, that's what I like 🤩

ESCAPE FROM MERLOPIA

I'm good at English and I can follow most of it, but the fantasy names are tricky so I didn't get before that this was the name of the place 😅 It's nice, at least it's not another Atlantis 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

LLOYD I SWEAR TO YOUR GRANDPA IF YOU TRY TO DIE AGAIN 😱

NYA YOU ARE NOT A GOOD SUBSTITUTE NONE OF YOU ARE OMG 😱😱

Ah, there he is, my new son Benthomaar 💙 He is so lovable already, I know nearly nothing about him and I like his character already a lot! He could relate with all of the ninja really, but maybe with Jay the most? They were both adopted after all 🤔🤔

*scribble note for a fanfic for later if this doesn't come up in the season*

Alright moving on 😗

I am so happy Nya gets a season, Kelly got a great emotional range that doesn't come out often in my opinion, but with a full introspection of water goddess we are all blessed by her voice acting 😍

Gotta say, admitting that Bentho didn't have to help them to answer the usual 'Can we trust him' question is pretty reasonable, like, better than other stupid answers 😅

Also don't mind me

Just screenshotting by ship 💙❤💙❤

Somehow lately we are letting Jay do the talking and I both hate and LOVE the fact 😂😂 Plain Bluebell nonsense, heck yes that's my jam👌👌

MAYA IS SO COOL OMG 🤩🤩

I literally can't not laugh at the startle gag with Kalmaar 😂

LLOYD WHAT DID I JUST SAY ABOUT SELF SACRIFICING!! PLEASE IT'S NOT EVEN YOUR SEASON!! 😱😱😱😱

Aww Jay is still the Captain, nice! Wonder if it's giving him Skybound flashbacks... I hope not considering all he went through that time, poor Sparky 😅😅

ARE THOSE LITTLE WU ROCKETS?? 🤯

Can we skip a season and hang out with Pixal one time? I really wanna know how she organizes her free time to create these things 😍😍😍

THANK YOU LLOYD FOR NOT DYING ONCE AGAIN, MUCH APPRECIATED!!! 💚💚💚 My green bean needs a vacation... they all do 😅

THEY ARE

SO BEAUTIFUL 💙🌊💙🌊

Alright, back to the island hoping Kalmaar will not track us and follow us so he can get to the place and discover the amulet 🙂

Are we not calling the others? I miss my flame babe and Rocky ❤🖤❤🖤 Also RAY WATCHA DOIN I WANNA KNOW EVERYTHING 🤩🤩

THE TALE OF BENTHOMAAR

Wait what? Shark boy backstory? SHARK BOY BACKSTORY?!? 👀👀👀

Wow, I see that Kalmaar didn't change a thing growing up, still the same gonna-be-a-villain 😂 Of course his voice got a lot deeper and cool and okay you know I love his voice moving on

I find it kinda funny that Kalmaar is so focused on royal blood and superiority, while Clay was basically a farm boy who worked his way up. Giles knows how to get the character no matter what 😍

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

BABY BENTHOMAAR AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

The king seems like such a good pers- fish- creature 😅 Now I'm double sad that he died, my world, why do I always care so fast, it's not healthy in this show where everyone could die 😰😰

I'M SORRY IS THAT KAI'S HAIR??? 😂😂😂 I LITERALLY CAN'T LOOK AWAY WTH I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS

Literally every frame of Benthomaar makes me love him even more 😢

Interesting that we got an academic villain, he kinda reminds me of Clouse in a way, maybe even Harumi since she studied her way to her plan as well? I like that we got a bit of personality too!

Using your little bro for your own purpose... it's very evil but kinda also brotherly like 😂

Benthomaar really gives me that very PRECIOUS vibe, kinda the perfect son but also a naive and unaware BABY 💙

LEGO HUG 🤩🤩 Not exactly reciprocated but still 😅

Ooohhh, so this is how he found the temple! I like this, it shows that Bentho is most likely physically stronger than Kalmaar, while evil brother is focused on brain and studies. They are planned differently, I like it! 😚😚

Ouch, peer pressure... sibling pressure? Eh you get what I mean 😂

POOR BENTHO 😭😭😭 YOU GOT THE NINJA NOW DON'T WORRY WE'RE NEVER GONNA LEAVE YOU ALONE YOU PRECIOUS SHARK BABY!! 🦈🦈🦈

Bentho: will I really fit in with you guys? Do you really understand how I feel?

Lloyd: Jay was adopted, Nya's parents were gone most of her life, Zane lost his father while mine turned evil

Bentho(tearing up): yeah that can work

Okaaaaayyyyy, I like that we got a bit of backstory for Bentho too! We didn't get much for Vanya in Master of the Mountain, which is the only thing I was sad about (very little detail, AMAZING season 🖤🖤🖤), nice to see it here!!

But I really want more Nya and Maya interactions, I hope we'll soon get to them again!! 😍😍😍

Alright, getting somewhere here! I'm very curious about what's next 🤩🤩

[kerra-and-company]

#s6, 9a, and 15 for whoever you feel like talking about! ♥ @cousinslavellan :>

Oh, cool cool! :D <3 Some ask answers coming right up for ya! (This got long and I am utterly delighted about it :D :D) 6. (For commanders) their relationship to Aurene Kerra: From the moment Aurene hatches, that's her daughter, plain and simple. She knows full well that she can't protect Aurene from everything, but she can and will do whatever she can to help and prepare her. And she'll always bring her daughter fish, for as long as she can. Nisha: Xe's not technically a commander--xe holds the Marshal title for a bit, instead--but I thought xyr relationship with Aurene was worth mentioning. Xyr bond with the hatchling isn't as instant as Kerra's, and xe's not as quick to claim her as xyr child. But xe stays in Maguuma longer than Kerra, spending a good portion of LWS3 there taking care of the Pact and wrapping up loose ends. By the end of that period, xe definitely cares about Aurene. The events that transpire with her and Balthazar during PoF are Nisha's realization bit for "ah, okay, I think that might be my kid." Xe's quieter about this than Kerra is, but Aurene knows, and when Rhi's born, xe's the first to introduce them to their big sister. Cyprian: In the AU where Cyp is the commander, Kerra's still Aurene's champion--he ends up as Vlast's. So he basically sees Aurene as some amalgamation of a niece/cousin/little sister. At first, he only cares about her because a) her connection to all the other crap happening in the world and b) because his little sister Kerra clearly does, but Aurene is bright and inquisitive and sweet and brave and just a kid. Just a kid with too much on her shoulders. And he'd already proven his weakness to that by taking on the commander title in the first place back in 1325. 9a (for ships) how does A greet B after a long time apart? Kerra, Nisha, and Canach absolutely try to out-dramatic-reunion each other, and it's fantastic. For the first year or so they were dating, they did their best to keep it on the DL (so to speak) for several reasons. During that period (which was also a time they were separated often--Nisha with marshal duties, Canach as a semi-reluctant "member" of the Shining Blade, and Kerra managing to run across half of Tyria on various missions), whenever they saw each other, they couldn't be super outwardly affectionate, so they'd just...kinda see how far they could push it while still seeming casual. (Taimi tells them on various occasions during and after that period that they were honestly doing a terrible job of being subtle, which, to be fair, they knew xD) After that year: there will probably be a kiss of some kind, it will probably include some sort of flourish that's unnecessary, one of them might dip one (or, on one memorable occasion, two*) of the others...it's a whole thing, and, again, it's great. I love them. (*Nisha's the one who did that. Xe's very proud.) 15. (For single characters) what does their dream partner look like Weylon: generally calm but with one hell of a backbone, willing to offer forgiveness but not reckless with it, probably some flavor of badass, really knows who he is and still somehow is okay with him Tanza: not unduly afraid of dragon magic, understands and respects dedication to duty, willing to travel, kind, enjoys the cold, willing to laugh at their own mistakes Pliarr: trustworthy (a list in and of itself, to be fair), isn't an ass to his sister, unafraid of his magic, willing to support him when he needs it**, can generally keep themself safe, willing to talk about problems (**He'd definitely be supporting them, he supports everyone too much, so this is maybe more clearly stated as "he wants an equal exchange of support here.")

[onemuseleft]

I am having a weird sad night and can't find the kiss ask list, can I get some jake/marco fake dating kiss in public?

*hugs* I hope your night is going better!

Also this came out more fake married than fake dating, I hope that’s okay!

Fake dating Kiss, Jake/Marco

About an hour into the charade, Marco was forced to the realization that if this was going to happen, he was going to have to do it. 

“Your spouse is very quiet,” the Ambassador said, waggling one of her tentacles in Jake’s general direction. “Is he upset?”

Marco flashed a smile, though he wasn’t sure if it would come across quite as reassuring to a seven and a half foot-tall being with transparent - and, glittery? Sparkly? - purple flesh and multiple tentacles. Body language was a crap shoot in situations like this. “Oh no, he’s fine,” he said. “Jake’s just a quiet guy.”

The ambassador made a kind of… wibbling sound that made their whole body vibrate. Marco thought it might mean they understood. “Humans place great value on the stoic nature of their leaders. I understand.”

Marco wasn’t sure if that was good or bad, but one thing was sure: of all the couples in the room, he and Jake were the only ones who weren’t cuddling, kissing, hugging or at least standing with their arms around each other. It made sense the Ambassador had noticed. He gave the Ambassador and their spouse - a slightly rounder, slightly more red transparent orb - a bright grin and made his excuses to slip away as soon as he could.

He caught Jake at the bar and threw an arm around his shoulders, plastering himself against Jake’s side. “You’re so bad at this,” he said.

Jake didn’t even flinch when Marco grabbed him which - since Marco had seen Jake once toss a guy over his shoulder for touching him unexpectedly - meant either Jake had seen him coming, or Jake knew it was Marco just from the touch.

The first one was pretty likely. Jake tended to be hyper aware in situations like this, where they were surrounded by unfamiliar faces and high-profile targets (like they weren’t high profile targets themselves) and he would have been keeping an eye on his six, and probably on Marco’s as well.

The second one kind of made his stomach do flippy floppy things that Marco was pretty sure shouldn’t happen when he thought about his probably straight best friend who had never once so much as batted an eyelash in Marco’s direction.

Jake turned his head a little so at least he was facing Marco’s direction. “Sorry. I thought maybe if I wandered off to get a drink it wouldn’t look so awkward, but…” 

The holiday they were ostensibly celebrating was an alien one. Marco had skimmed the reports they’d been given in the briefing, but honestly hadn’t retained much besides “epic romeo-and-juliet-style romance from a hundred years ago ended the equivalent of a nuclear war and now the planet places a huge emphasis on romantic love and incorporates it into all their political and social policies to the point where they won’t negotiate with a non-married being.” It was phenomenally stupid in his opinion. Were there no asexuals on their world? People who weren’t comfortable with PDAs? Introverts? People who liked being alone for a while? So far none of these guys had split up long enough to go to the bathroom. It was weird. “Maybe they don’t need to use bathrooms,” he said.

Jake let that one pass, used to how Marco’s train of thought went after all these years. “Please tell me we can leave soon.”

“Sorry, buddy. We’ve barely been here an hour.” The party was supposed to last until dawn, as the fabled lovers had apparently ended the war with the break of a new day, and Marco was painfully aware of how far away that was. “What’s got you so wound up?”

Jake hunched his shoulders a little, then sighed and straightened up. “It just feels weird,” he said.

There was clearly more to it than that, but Jake was stubbornly silent. Marco cocked his head, eyes locked on Jake’s face. “What, the relationship thing? I know you don’t give a shit if people think you’re gay.”

“Not that.” Jake took a deep sip of his drink, which looked an awful lot like a plain coke. At least Marco didn’t smell any rum in it. Jake wasn’t a lush, but he wasn’t a teetotaller either. If he was going sober for this it meant either he thought they were in danger - which, while more or less the defaults of their lives since that night in the construction site, was a very low risk at the moment - or he thought he needed to be in control of himself.

“Wait, is it me?” Marco almost pulled away, but remembered their cover at the last moment. “Jake, hey, wait. Are you weirded out that I’m touching you?” He was suddenly, intensely, aware of his arm around Jake’s shoulders, how close they were standing, the fact that his mouth was just inches from Jake’s. They’d stood like this before, probably a hundred times - Marco had always been touchy and Jake had never seemed to mind. 

But there was the whole “prentending to be married thing” now, maybe that was making it weird? Or.

Or there was the whole “Marco was more than half in love with his best friend and maybe Jake had finally noticed and didn’t like the idea that Marco was taking liberties” thing.

Panic bubbled up in his gut, pushing up his throat until he almost choked on it. Shit. If he’d been making Jake uncomfortable - he’d thought he’d been doing okay hiding it, but considering Rachel, Tobias, Ax, his father, and at least two different reporters had called him on it recently he might need to re-evaluate his standards of “okay.”

“Don’t be stupid,” Jake said. He made a face at Marco, apparently seeing more in his expression than Marco intended. That was always the problem with trying to hide something from your best friend. They knew you too damn well. Marco hadn’t been able to get away with anything during the war, either. “You’ve literally held my intestines in with your bare hands. We’ve shared beds since we were three, why the hell would I mind you holding my hand.”

It was an excellent point, but did nothing to explain what was going on in his head. “So tell me what’s wrong.” Marco glanced around, then tugged Jake away from the bar, toward a window along one wall. He positioned them so no one in the room could clearly see their faces, then leaned into Jake’s personal space.

Jake’s arm came up around his waist, tugging him in closer, turning them just a little so he was between Marco and the window - overprotective bastard. Marco didn’t bother calling him on it. “If something’s wrong we can bail early. This is just a diplomatic thing, no one’s going to get hurt if we take off.”

“No.” Jake gave the room a once-over, then focused his gaze solidly in the direction of Marco’s left ear. 

The panic was back, pulsing in Marco’s chest. Jake wasn’t even looking him in the eye now? “Tell me,” he said in a low voice so it wouldn’t carry. 

Jake sighed and pulled back, just a little, letting go of Marco’s waist. The sudden absence of touch felt strange and left Marco feeling cold. “I don’t want to get into it here,” Jake said, and me met Marco’s gaze suddenly. There was something there, something afraid, that Marco hadn’t seen aimed at him since… ever.

Jake wasn’t afraid for him - he’d seen that a thousand times during the war. But he was afraid of Marco. Right then, at that moment, he was afraid of what Marco was going to say or do if he kept talking.

Marco’s hand jerked with the sudden urge to pull away. He forced himself to be still. To stop, and not feed into whatever bullshit was going through Jake’s head. Because something had to be going on - they’d been friends for twenty years and Jake had never acted like this, not when he broke up with Cassie or got back with Cassie or broke up with Cassie again, or had to execute war criminals or give the order to abandon his own family. Jake had never not looked him in the eye.

“I need a drink,” Jake muttered under his breath and like a freight train, it all made sense.

Jake hadn’t flinched when Marco touched him - not once all evening, had even leaned into it a few times. But he wasn’t touching Marco back - and when he was, he stopped. Like the arm he had just removed from Marco’s waist.

Jake wasn’t drinking because he wanted to stay in control of his own actions. 

“You’re weirded out about touching me?” Marco asked, fighting to keep his voice low. “Jake what the hell? That intestines and bed sharing thing goes both ways, you know.”

Jake snorted and almost spit out the Coke he’d just swallowed. “Jesus, Marco, do you listen to yourself? Intestines and bed sharing. God.” He took another sip of Coke and sighed. “Look, can we talk about this later? After all this,” he waved his drink in the general direction of the rest of the room, “is all over?”

It was probably a put-off. Marco figured the odds that Jake would conveniently forget all about this as soon as they got home and had a good night’s sleep between them and all of this were better than even.

But Marco also wasn’t going to bully him into doing something that made him uncomfortable. They’d all had enough of being forced into uncomfortable situations by the time they were in high school to last the rest of their lives. “Yeah, okay. Hey.” He caught Jake’s eye. “We’re good, right? You and me?”

His heart was beating hard enough that the entire room could probably hear it. 

But Jake just scrunched his face up. “Of course we are.”

“Okay.” Marco gripped the back of Jake’s neck and squeezed a little, holding on for just a second. “So you and me, we’re gonna go get a real drink and we’re gonna nurse the shit out of it in a dark corner somewhere and take off the second the horizon turns pink. Plan?”

Jake swallowed, hard, then nodded, just a little. “Plan.”

Marco let go of his neck and reached up to tousle his hair. “God, you’re gonna give me an ulcer always worrying about you.”

Jake blushed, cheeks pink. “You worry too much,” he said. “I told you everything is fine.”

“Liar,” Marco said, but cheerfully. He ruffled Jake’s hair again, not quite a noogie but he made sure the intention was there.

Jake closed his eyes and leaned into Marco’s touch, just for a second. 

Jake stiffened and pulled away, eyes cutting past Marco’s shoulder, and that fear was back in them. “I’m gonna go get a refill. What do you want to drink?”

Marco’s hand hung in the air for an instant before he let it drop to his side. “Jake.”

“Yeah, I know, anything but red wine. Give me a minute, I’ll just-” Jake stepped back, ready to beat a hasty retreat, but Marco snagged him by the wrist and yanked him to a stop.

“Jake,” Marco said again. “Are - are you as fucking stupid as I think you are?”

Jake’s eyes snapped up to meet his. “Hey!” He stilled as he seemed to see something in Marco’s eyes - Marco wasn’t sure what, but honestly at this point he’d settle for anything as long as he didn’t see Jake look afraid of him ever again. “Marco?”

“Such a fucking idiot,” Marco said. He curled a hand in the front of Jake’s shirt and yanked him down.

The kiss was a little messy, a little unpracticed, and Jake stiffened up so much that Marco thought for a moment that he’d misjudged and ruined everything.

But then Jake relaxed into the kiss and his arms came up around Marco’s back, pulling him closer.

Marco’s pulse was pounding in his throat, behind his eyes, so hard he thought he’d pass out. When Jake broke the kiss, Marco kept his eyes closed, and waited to see if he’d ruined everything.

Jake pressed a kiss against the shell of Marco’s ear. “If I’m an idiot for never saying anything,” he said, “then what does that make you?”

“The one smart enough to figure it out, obviously,” Marco said.

Jake didn’t stop laughing at him even when Marco pulled him down into another kiss.

[karenmoore3721]

Being Assumed you are Democrat just because your gay.

Written By: Karen Moore

The thing that I can't stand, or the one thing that I cannot stand is the fact that just because I'm gay I'm automatically assumed to be Democrat. Okay I will admit I used to be a Democrat, and the only reason I was a Democrat was because of my grandmother. My grandmother passed away September 7th of 2019 at the age of 97. Before her death though, she really liked Donald Trump.

When I was younger I assumed mostly of what other young people assumed that Democrats are more accepting of people of difference, which is true at some point, but not necessarily. My mother was nice enough to go with me to a gay pride festival last year, and while we were there, there were Democrats there. How did I know they were Democrat, because they told me so, and because they were supporting someone who was running for office who happened to be Democrat. I can say thought since they were at a gay pride festival that it would be easy pickings to find supporters for their candidate. My mom told me not to say nothing because she's also Republican, and she worries about me which is understandable. But they came right up to me being nicest pie assuming that I would vote for who they wanted me to vote for, boy were they wrong.

The one thing that I hate is labeling, yes we are Democrats and we are Republicans, but that is just because we have different beliefs I guess. I was assumed to be Democrat many many many times, and it annoys me. Let's get one thing straight, not all gay people are Democrats, and honestly a lot of us are waking up to the Democratic pile of lies, and just plain crap. I was told by many people that I can't be Republican because I'm gay, because they tell me that Republicans hate gay people and that they want to take our rights away, and that they do not accept us who we are. Now I am 36 years old, and I apologize for the many last years that I was Democrat thinking that this was all true. It's just like the whole thing with religion. Like many games and lesbians feel like they don't fit in because of those stupid verses in the Bible that certain people just can't help but shove in our faces. What I would like to say to them is that men wrote the Bible, and men are not God. The point that I'm trying to get across is that a lot of gay lesbians are Republican, and I feel bad that I was brainwashed. Yes my grandmother was a Democrat, but she has nothing like the deadbeat Democrats that are out today. My grandmother was a kind sweet, understanding woman and I miss it dearly. Yes I am a lesbian, I am a Republican, and I support president Donald Trump.

The one thing that people need to understand, and what I finally understand. Is that no matter how nice you are as a person, not everyone in the world is going to like you, or accept you for who and what you truly are. The secret is to be nice anyway, to just be a good person and to ignore those who are mean to you. For you cannot please everybody in this world, love you too come out with a few good friends who love you. If I go to hell for being lesbian like I've been told by many many Christians, then I guess I'm screwed. If a Democrats don't want me to be Republican because I'm gay well, all I could say to them is too bad. Now do I think I'm going to go to hell, and do I think I can't be a republican because I'm gay, heck no. I am who I am, and I like who I am, and I love everyone else no matter how they treat me.

[secret-rendezvous1d]

I can't believe people have the audacity to spread such hate. It's disgusting and uncalled for. I can't wrap my mind around it. To those anons- is it really worth it? I'm sorry you're on the receiving end, but I appreciate you responding in such a way that the rest of us can see those messages for a couple of reasons: 1) so you don't have to go through it alone, and 2) you're shedding light on a major issue that continues to exist with cyberbullying. I hope you enjoy a little peaceful break!

It’s honestly shocking.

It never made sense to me why people think it’s okay to be nasty behind an option to hide them in an Anonymous way; you may think you’re the superior one by coming across as powerful with the way you speak but you don’t. You look like a coward because you can’t show yourself to the person you’re crapping on. If you have a nasty thing to say then at least have the audacity to come forward with your name or blog URL so I can do the job of stopping you from accessing my blog since it seems like they can’t so that by themselves.

They wake up in the morning and think that someone deserves to read a little message that is hateful and cruel. They must lead a boring, unfulfilled, unhappy life if they find it okay to tell someone to kill themselves and to send hateful messages to someone that they don’t know.

I can handle the shit that people say about my blog or my writing... it’s opinions on something you come across. But to talk about my personal life and my relationship and my boyfriend, that is a low blow and I would appreciate it if it came to a stop because it’s absolutely unnecessary. If those haters (or just plain nasty people) were part of the relationship then, by all means, shit on me... but they’re not. It’s just me and my boyfriend and that’s it. Kindly back off since you know nothing about what is happening. xx

[a-darling-thing]

I think we had too much faith in Moftiss. A lot of the time I thought "this can't be it, there must be a big reveal at the end cause otherwise this is just plain bad writing" but alas it /is/ just plain bad writing. In retrospect, it's unbelievable that T6T was even an episode.

*slinks into a dark corner* I actually kind of enjoyed TST, but of course it was the first episode of the series, and I had hope that they would flesh things out, and it would have meaning, somehow, and apparently it pretty much doesn’t, so...  Now I don’t know how I will feel about it in isolation.

TLD was the episode I felt betrayed me, and everything I sort of loved about the show.  There were a few lovely moments (all that stuff with Sherlock and Faith walking through London at night was wonderful, bad ass Mrs. Hudson was sort of fun), but in general it felt like a sort of betrayal of narrative and characterisation in a lot of ways (and don’t even get me started on what they did to Mary’s character this season - I actually feel sorry for Amanda).

The writing this season has been incredibly bad.  I’m not going to shy away from saying that.  It almost felt like they were just calling it in at times, and yet they were over-hyping it all as the summation of everything they’d been working toward since the beginning, and history making television, and I just never felt that.  After TLD I knew there wasn’t time to salvage it, and apparently, from what I understand of TFP, I was right in that respect.  Like lets be clear, even if they pull of this ‘multiple ending’ stuff everyone is hoping for, it’s still not going to save the inconsistent writing and millions of lose threads in the rest of this season.

Honestly, if you can’t keep doing your best work, then just stop writing a thing.  It’s okay to abandon a project.  I think that’s far preferable and less painful to your audience that producing crap just to get it out there.

I get kind of real about mofftiss under here, so if you don’t want to read that, then maybe don’t jump under the cut:

I also think that some of the view of Mofftiss as these brilliant, flawless writers, and benevolent father figures looking out for queer kids was a bit of a fandom construction built up by a very small number of fans, and it just sort of snowballed.  I think that first and foremost these men are writing for themselves.  This is the story they want to tell, and so they are going to tell it the way they want to tell it.  Fair enough, I suppose.  I don’t think they feel they owe anyone anything.

If you look at their work on other projects, the view of them as flawless writers doesn’t bear up.  I mean don’t get me wrong, they do have some good stuff on their CVs.  But they also have a lot of not great stuff.  They’re just normal working writers.  Sometimes they produce great work (I think that in ‘Sherlock’, for Moffat that was ASiP and ASiB, for Gatiss TGG), but a lot of the time it’s just average, and sometimes it’s quite bad.  

And of course, I do sincerely believe that Mark Gatiss cares for LGBT causes and people.  He supports many great organisations, and speaks out a lot.  I just don’t think that he sees this show as any sort of activism, nor does he feel obligated to provide representation of the kind a lot of people were hoping for.  He approaches queer narratives differently than a lot of the younger generation does, and that’s not really surprising given his age, and the kind of queer media he grew up with.

So anyway, yeah.  The writing this season was inconsistent and disappointing.  People have a right to say that, and to ask what happened.  And I say that in isolation, not even touching on the explicitly confirmed johnlock issue.  I think that if the writing had been superb, I would have been willing to hope for a fifth season, or have faith that there was still a long plan, or something exciting and groundbreaking coming.  But I just don’t feel that now.  After this season it feels like it’s just sort of become a bit self-indulgent on the part of the writers, and I’m honestly kind of growing a little weary of it.