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bold-embrace · 1 year ago

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We better get a much needed morales family hug at the end of the next movie OR ELSE (btw read this fic. bless)

Bonus messy doodle below but it’s got major spider verse spoilers!‼️‼️‼️

Earth 42 miles better get a hug and a kiss from his mom too

#my art #completed #rio morales #jefferson davis #miles morales #miles g morales #spiderverse #spiderman across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #me downloading so many screen tone brushes for this and going crazy #this movie bro. spideverse is so good i wish loving families were real /j #i havent rendered anything in ages and it shows FJSDHF or completed anything. im just out here #anyways spideverse took over my brain bc it's all i've been drawing for the past three weeks. trigun fanart again soon tho i prommy #i just. the first movie is actually my favorite movie of all time and i've watched it so many times in the past five years #it's on my mind at all times like a dormant volcano ready to errupt before i become annoying about it again #i just love miles so much and his family #AIGHGHHG #drawing jeff was beating my ass i cant actually draw men but we're learning today!!!#atsv #itsv #ID in alt text

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surreal-duck · 5 months ago

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catch you!!!

#duck scribbles #cardcaptor sakura #ccs #sakura kinomoto #syaoran li #25 years late but #due to reasons i got rly obsessed with the first op and decided to binge the entirety of ccs while i can take advantage of my family's #netflix acc and needless to say these two have absolutely captured my heart. head in hands #syaosaku #a couple eps into clear card rn o999 #incomprehensible sobbing they mean the world to meeeeee #my younger sib walking in on me wailing bc he hasnt given her the teddy bear yet #also cried really hard after watching the sealed card that i accidentally recorded my bawling in a friend server im in. it was kinda funny #dont ask a woman her age a man his salary and duck how many times they rewatched sakuras confession and bawled about it #you dont get it though i havent been this giddy over smth in a long time. theyre so cute i need to bash my head into a wall

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shoezuki · 1 month ago

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okay i have a social plight.

theres some people in my sociology class who i fuck w theyre cool n i knew em vaguely before this class from Other classes. granted i do not remember any a their names but we work together in this class n do the typical small talk.

how. the fuck would i be like hey wanna actually talk out of class? like i dont know how to talk to people outside of the predetermined setting yknow i mean theres rules to follow and a clear order to how small talk works when in a specific environment but i cant grasp how to breach that. i know its should jus be an easy 'hey whats your phone number' or 'do you want coffee' or some shit but whats the rules. i dont know

#I DONT KNOW HOW TO SPEAK TO PEOPLE. AT ALL #its probably sad but i dont talk to ppl irl besides my family like i dont have irl friends #and this year i wanted to try n change that but i been busy n havent done shit i meant to do like join uni clubs #but even w the clubs!!! like thats the Setting i would follow the rules and norms of the clubs #but how do u get outside of that?????

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not-another-robin · 1 year ago

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Anybody got alfred thoughts or headcanons I'm going through it

#havent cried this much since my mom died 😁#oversharing time #my family is very autistic #and we need help from a family that has been close with us for years sometimes #our water is out rn and i had to stay at their house #since i was literally 5 ive struggled with feeling like a parasite #so were talking about my mom to a new friend #and guess what one of them describes us as #a tumor #guess what my mom died of #so im having a breakdown over it. yaaaaay

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puhpandas · 8 months ago

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I change how I feel about Gregory and Tony's relationship ten thousand times a day

#like i dont even think theyd get together if tony was how he was in ggy #gregory wouldnt work to fix him or something hed hate him for being mean to ellis #its why all my beckory stuff i always imagine is in a specific scenario both when theyve been through stuff #and also after like years have passed and theyre 14/15 #AND most importantly tony has had the chance to become a better person and make up with ellid #i think there cant be beckory without ellis #all the stuff ive made for them save for like rabbit burrow i feel doesnt match how i see them in my head #i don't even know how i feel about gregory in a romantic relationship still #idc about it when hes 12 and doesnt have 3 star fam yet but ive alqays seen it in a beckory dtance #as it being good that gregory can think about romance now because he got what he needed most already #but atill.#hes just such a family guy #but i really do like the beckory ship #its so interesting #idk ive changed my mind a lot and havent made enough stuff of them to keep up #with how i see them nowadays #i want to fix that #also i think i feel like the beckody stuff ive made feels shallow because #if its in a scenario where a lot of stuff has happened to get them to that point #and none of that stuff is shown and you dont see them chance #they just feel like randomly completely different people #idk im trying to muster up writing that multichapter ive been wanting to write #and sovereign is pretty much abandonded only because it wasnt working out at all #and ive truly taken everything good from that fic and added it to this new concpet #that made both seperate ideas better #so its a good thing #after the week im gonna try and recharge my writing battery #since the great ipad explosion of 2024 and scrambling to finish the week kinds fried my brain #i miss writing💔#and also wanna explore this new fic concpet im absolutely in love with

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faaun · 8 months ago

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pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

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areyousanta · 1 year ago

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8 Years

#edward elric #fma #fmab #progress #its been 8 years of serious drawing non stop #and its the one thing i havent quit #does my family understand why i do it #no #but i do #cause it makes me stupid happy #and i can completely lose myself in it and its the only time my brain shuts up #gotta remind myself of this #sometimes i forget #ive come so far

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off-the-rails-raccoon · 6 days ago

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Which you like more, Humanoid Shroud or pet Shroud.

For a good few years I've had a huge obsession with humanoid Shroud, purely for the fact it'd be cool for cTommy to be a standalone older brother/father figure to someone, and Shroud was the easiest victim. I really liked to brainstorm what kind of dynamic they'd have, what cTommy's raising/parenting style would be, how Shroud would be affected by it, and just stuff like that. In all honestly I still am lol.

However, I have since gained a mild obsession with spiders, especially tarantulas, so now I project my dream pet onto cTommy. I find it really entertaining to imagine cTommy with a pet spider, because it kind of emphasizes the whole "lover of the unloved" and because I like cTommy with scary dog privileges in the form of a giant, eight-legged apex predator that he treats like a person or a very spoiled dog/cat.

In short: I used to like humanoid Shroud for the kid aspect of it, but now i prefer pet Shroud because I want a pet tarantula and it'd be really funny!!

#i distinctly remember thinking to myself like half a year ago #(or maybe its been a year ago by now)#“man; i cant just to begging for a pet tarantula when im deadly afraid of common house spiders! i needa knock that off”#and now im considered the Local Spider Handler by my family and its the most validating thing #only issue is that i havent gotten around to that pet tarantula yet #i love shroud #i wanna name my future pet tarantula shroud but im not sure if thats too far or not lol #i dont know what else id name it if not shroud #maybe something unsuspecting like naming it missile launcher but referring it as missy to surprise people #though i think that only works on cats #its very very obvious i dont have anyone else to talk to about my small spider obsession and dsmp other than my tumblr mutuals #and whoever reads this #WOAW i said a lot #oopsies #my super cool moots !!#crazed raccoon chitters #shroud the spider #ctommy #ctommyinnit #ill be experiencing post-yap clarity tomorrow and ill be so embarrassed !!!

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not-a-matopoeia · 10 months ago

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I think we should let men have a silly little breakdown every once in a while as a treat

#heres my spyxfamily comic i havent yet finsihed #spy x family #loid forger #yor forger #agent twilight #anya forger #comic art #the plot of this comic is that its been like idk a bit over a year at this point #and opration strix is nearing its end #and while tucking Anya in she tells Loid that she loves him #which yeah #not like that has not really happend before #but here shes half asleep and she means it and Loid is like oh fuck #because he at this point has this realization that thats his little girl #like he loves her and would die for her #and he's here acting like her dad #but he's going to leave her #and she and Yor will never know why #and idk he just kind of breaks down because he is disgusted by that thought #but simultaneously mad for allowing himself to get to this point #heres agent twilight #the best WISE agent crying over a mission #hes gotten weak #soft- what is his use to the agency anymore #Because that the end of the day is Loid cant be a good spy #and he cant do anything else- what is his purpose in the world if not to serve others and he cant even do that correctly anymore #but he cant bring himself to hate the person he is now because he loves Yor and Anya and their life together #so he gets to have a little cry about it #sorry for the novel in the tags #but I do think about that fact that Loid who grew up in war and lives and increably dangerous life where he dedicates his life to others

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girl-bateman · 1 year ago

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How does one get assigned as sam coded / dean coded ? Do I need a doctors note ? A psych evaluation perhaps ?

#i keep going back and forth on it #bc i used to identify with dean for the longest time bc i was so repressed and emotionally closed off (+older sister)#and at that point id spent my youth very purposefully protecting my younger sibling from our dad #and i guess in my brain i paralleled that with dean staying behind with john while sam took off for stanford #and dean protecting sam from knowing too much abt the supernatural #BUT having grown up ive now become the one resentful and angry at our father while my sister protects him #and our fights remind me a lot of scenes from the show where im obviously identifying a lot stronger with sam #plus the whole thing abt being the families designated academic or whatever #while also feeling cursed from the minute i was born and crushing at the guilt of everything wrong with me #and trying to be a good person and saving others to make for the fact that i feel an intrinsic evilness about myself #so like... yeah sam is very very relatable too in that sense #bc he also has that hope in him- the belief in god. in angels. in goodness. and i have that too !#im just also a miserable cynic at the same time :)#so ????#i havent been in the fandom for long enough to know the full requirements of being a sam or dean girl #(and by that i mean i havent been in the fandom for long AFTER i rejoined from my 10 year hiatus)#i literally would love to read someones page long explanation of what sam coded vs dean coded entails #someone with a spn hyperfixation or special interest needs to provide me with the goods fr 😭#spn

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milliekou · 1 year ago

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I tried.

I hope you like it ^_^

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#resumed with the requests..sorry its my first attempt drawing her so if its off..ill do better next time #yor forger #spy x family #fanart #my art #illustration #doodle #and ofc anything for you..youve been so supportive im sorry if ive been quite idle this year ORZ..rl sucks ass #but yor forger is fun to draw..even tho I havent read spyxfamily #i have a thing for assassin type characters haha

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tamagotchikgs · 6 months ago

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i can remember being 12 & even younger staring at my body n my face in the mirror n knowing i was hideous n i needed to fix it n promising myself i would so i can actually live & be of worth and yet . ive never gotten there. ive never gotten close. it's just repeat n repeat and im still here stuck in the same exact mindset never changing never growing never experiencing anything because it was all on hold n im still. sitting here staring at myself but unable to grow or do or feel anything like im supposed to. i dont have a personality or any traits to share i only have thoughts telling me how awful i am . how i need to fix it. how i need to fix everything . over and over for years

#& still ugly #& still gross and a nuisance 2 everyone #always just telling myself it'll all be ok if only i can get small enough. if i get small enough ill be loved. ill be able to get away #from my family n all the horrors of my life #id have people who cared about me #id get friends #i would be able to hold a conversation #i would be interesting #if only i could do that one thing #and still i never could #i am. so useless #for so. sososo many years. from a kid to an adult i am still here the thoughts r still here i havent grown at all #theyve blocked everything else #alongside the my parents forcing isolation and preventing any actual experiences having been a possibility #i am . so much nothing #i have never been anything #ive never had a personality #i dont know how to be a person #but i want to be so bad

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flamboyant-king · 1 year ago

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I had an Isaac run where it was so stressful my heartrate was at a 145bpm and it persisted for 6 hours. After that, like every day that followed, my heart would just suddenly shoot up to 120-140bpm for an hour if I so much as thought about something I've been stressing over recently. Everybody encouraging me to go to the ER. And I'm just like "Oh please I've actually always been like this, I'm fine." Had to chop down my Adderall dosage. But I swear I've felt like this since high school, but I guess the medicine enhances the feeling and that feeling was ANXIETY.

So, suffice to say, playing The Binding of Isaac™️ almost gave me a heart attack.