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sibelin · 1 year

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i might be back but i'm so physically and morally exhausted i don't even know why i'm here✌️

#i haven't felt like this in months #i'm just entirely empty #people at work asked me if i were ok so it must be on my face too #anyway. not everything is about me. sending lots of love to anyone going through a tough time rn #ik several mutuals are #we're going to survive <3

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confinesofmy · 1 year

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recently a big thing that i was scared of and had been for many months went away completely and i was really happy for 3 days. then a major fucked up thing happened that shook me to my core. now that's as resolved as it will ever be but i don't have my Big Problem anymore so i'm back to replaying the trauma that i put on pause months ago to try and deal with said big problem. i think i hauve Trauma.

#i just got so hysterical i threw up #i feel like my head's gonna explode #i haven't felt like this in months #which don't get me wrong i've felt incredibly bad in the past few months #but god i don't even wanna wake up tomorrow this is so fucking bad #i would go to the er if i didn't know this was stress #it's so crazy i thought i was still this bad. like i thought i was this bad that whole time but really i'd just forgotten #i swear to god i think i'm blocking out a solid 50% of my reality on a daily basis and have been for over a year #this won't be processed for the next decade #the time #the time will pass anyways #adam talks too much

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territorial-utopia · 2 months

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Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)

Sure has been a year.

#got my wisdom toofies out #well 2 out of 4 #still got stitches #idk if this removal lowkey fixed my fear of the dentist?#it was so easy and painless #also finally i'm on anxiety meds jkahsdjash #i also got depression meds but i haven't tested them yet #I'm going to see the love of my life soon again!!!#only 2 more months to go....#i've also finally found awesome friends who don't make me feel like i'm insane for wanting to be cared for #the difference is like night and day #old friends saying hey let's surprise another friend of ours oh also i think it's your birthday on that day #new friends reminding me to pick a brunch place for us to go on my special day #i am sobbing #the right people are out there #don't lose hope #i've never felt this platonically loved honestly #also yes i'm working on the next dragon's lair aksjdhasjkd #just #a lot of things happening and i'm sooo burnt out #this piece was such a strain and i just #don't have patience for art rn #this is photobashed btw there's an actual photo of my typewriter under all those layers #i'm not about to spend 300 hours just to draw a typewriter from this angle kajshdjkasdh #ALSO ONE MORE THING CAN I JUST GUSH ABOUT THE ANASTASIA BROADWAY OKAY?!?!?!#I didn't realise until now that they made it way more historically inspired and i mean bruh BRUH #i have been having a recording of it playing on the background nonstop for like 3 days now #Vladimir Popov I want to inject you straight into my veins holy shit he is a perfect man #Vlad and Lily the love story that we don't deserve but need #their kiss is just perfect ajsdhajsdasdsf

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bestagons · 4 months

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What Dan and Phil Text Each Other 4 + Familect (article)

#dan and phil #amazingphil #daniel howell #danisnotonfire #phil lester #this idea has been cooking in my brain for literally MONTHS but this weekend was literally the first day off i've had since JANUARY #which is so cruel and unusual don't get me started but anyways #and also the first time they haven't dropped something unhinged that i felt compelled to run through photoshop #also it took forever because originally i was going to do all the WDAPTEOs so like i pulled clips from 2 3 and 4 #and didn't end up using any of the ones i pulled from 2 and 3 so guess i just wasted some time there #so it didn't take me actually as long to put together the actual set but like i spent a solid 5 hours working on the general project #tbf though the videos are 20 minutes long so like an hour was just watching to get the time stamps #and i didnt want to miss one by putting it on higher playback speed bc some of them are really quick #well congrats if you made it this far in my fucking tags essay about this post #this is like a 'stick around after the episode for a look behind the scenes' segment #hexagifs

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tblsomedoodles · 21 days

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a stupid Preferable Alternative doodle b/c i'm getting back into the swing of things and am feeling excited about this again.

#tmnt #rottmnt #preferable alternative #my doodles #rise mikey #rise donnie #i haven't drawn turtles in over a month i feel rusty #of course i haven't drawn much over the last month so yeah #personally i'm starting to feel better #i had a pretty bad creative block that i had trouble getting through #and i think i'm starting to finally get past that #i actually want to work on things for the sake of working on them again #which i haven't felt like doing in over a month #so yeah #idk when the next update for this will be out #but it is being worked on once again

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ambivartence · 11 months

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no one but you

#wayv #xiaojun #xiao dejun #nct #nctinc #nctzenart #*ambiv.art #itsnctsworld #useroro #meltracks #melontrack #hibiebear #raylook #haven't drawn him in so long. SO. LONG.#13 MONTHS! wtf #but ofc it felt like coming home he's so easy to draw i could never forget how to

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logicpng · 5 months

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i love her your honor

#corru.observer #corru observer #corru #akizet #akizetesche #this was born out of a sketch made at work... i wanted to shade something because it felt like it would be fun in my style to work #with the colors given and the limited reference #and then an entire day was spent working on this #in fairness i haven't shaded anything in literal months so i really needed this

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o0kawaii0o · 7 months

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#I feel like I haven't uploaded smth in forever so have this #some wip of a SxF fanimation I have been working on and off for months somehow #time is passing by so fast and this is on the backburner orz #also felt like posting this since I discovered the latest manga chapter has been delayed sadly #anyhow rambling as always #when will I make an OP fanimation? good question but I will at some point #no one asked but I'm just telling this to myself #spy x family #sxf #loid forger #yor forger #yor briar #anya forger #o0kawaii0o

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ugghouly · 4 months

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strilonde family mario kart night is an absolute disaster. Roxy is willing to be cat peach but dave and dirk keep them from leaving character select for thirty minutes

#I haven't drawn people that look like people in like a month #only birds and some homestuck style fanart #strilondes #rose lalonde #dave strider #roxy lalonde #dirk strider #homestuck fanart #homestuck #my art #dave is the only one in socks because he seems like a sock guy #can't explain it I just felt it

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calamitys-child · 3 months

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I love when you have the most earth shattering realisation and it feels like you're a genius but actually you've just stopped being stupid and levelled up to Normal. Did you know that if you wear orthotic insoles normally to stop your feet leaning inward and keep your knees and hips from hurting. And if you struggle with oversteering on your inner edges when rollerskating and your knees and hips hurt after training. You're allowed to put insoles. In your rollerskates. And you would not believe what that helps with!!

#im the dumbest boy alive and im off to buy extra orthotic insoles #it took me TWO MONTHS #TO REMEMBER I HAVE LIKE. MOBILITY ACCOMMODATIONS #i felt insane i like went to the coach and was like hey buddy can I. am i allowed to put insoles in my skates #and they were like YOU NEED INSOLES AND HAVEN'T PUT THEM IN YOUR SKATES???

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chrisbangs · 4 months

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i finished thesis, won an award, and have graduated.. hello 👋🥸

#i'm not coming back but :') hello #i forgot i even had tumblr still on my phone djdkdkdkdk #i just opened it for the first time in ??? 5 months or smth i think idk for sure #life is weird :')#remember when i said i wanna drop out every day of my life :') bc i suck at design #welp i won an award for my design thesis :')#jsjdjdkdkdkdj #turns out having friends kinda changes your life 🫂#having friends at school has actually :') made me a happier more normal person lol #i haven't been miserable?? i haven't wanted to kms ... i have been so happy and yes school was shitty but i wanted to go and try hard bc #my friends motivated me to stay and try and that's crazy :') idk #felt really loved and like i belonged somewhere for the first time in my life 🫨 like woah ppl like me and wanna be my friend? me??#:') i'm really happy... isn't that weird #i used to want to kms every other day hsjdndkdkdks lol 😭#now i'm like 😭 every day i look forward to waking up bc i'm happy and i have ppl who love me and i wanna see them again and i wanna spend #time with them again and play games with them again :')#literally stayed up till ??? 4 am yesterday talking to one of them like #😭#god jm djjdkdkdkd idk :')#my life is good...#???? IM NOT MISERABLE IDK GUYS #wild af #even winning the award was such a shock like 🥲 damn . who ? me?#ppl from like :') this big design thing in toronto we're praising it too like djdjdodjdkdj #:') it's kinda crazy.. i was super !#man.. i cant believe how 5 months ago i was gonna kms 🥸👆 and now i'm like erm actually maybe we do need to live #:') anyway #i hope ppl on here are doing good 🫨🔨#it is sad to not be here as much but also 👋😌 i'm happy to be free at the same time so ✨

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pleasantmsp · 11 months

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I love Beauyasha so much. I miss them so much.

The reunion gave me so much joy and now I'm in this weird happy but melancholy state. I love the Nein so much and I want more of them. And I especially want more of Beau and Yasha. If we get a Fjorester wedding one shot, I will be stoked. But then also give me the Beauyasha wedding too!

I'm really just hoping they keep doing these little reunions cause I love the Mighty Nein so much and seeing them makes me so happy.

#critical role #cr spoilers #beauyasha #the mighty nein #echoes of the solstice #and the rest of the tags are a rant #got a bit carried away lol #my depression has been real bad for the past like 9 months and i dont have the money or resources to go to therapy #so i am in a real interesting head space lately #this one shot gave me so much joy #i haven't felt that engaged and excited and happy in a long time #but now that its over that feeling is being joined by (like i said) this weird melancholy that i've never felt in this way before #tm9 mean so much to me #beauyasha means so much to me #especially in these times with the strikes and all the cancelations of wlw inclusive media #i've been trying to get back into c3 but getting through those first arcs is proving difficult #bh just doesn't feel the same as the m9 to me which is fine but sad in a way #cause I feel like there's still so much the nein could do and participate in #i definitely understood what ashley meant when she said she didn't feel like she was done with yasha #i feel the same #so i hope they keep doing these one shots and i hope they release some news on the animated show soon #and here's hoping that as I catch up on bh i can come to love them even half as much as tm9 #cause that'd be enough to keep me coming back and then some

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savage-rhi · 7 months

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Magenta.

#i lost my job #even though they're not saying its because of my disability it is because of it #I've been applying to places and some of the safety nets i had fell through #im scared right now and feel very betrayed #i got enough to get me through the month but beyond that idk what to do #i have resources im looking into and as most know that doesn't put a dent into finances #i need help #i feel bad for asking and i know i preach people shouldnt feel ashamed #but i do get where folks are coming from with that #the shame is powerful especially when you pride yourself as someone that takes care of themselves #im open to ideas opinions whatever folks want to say #i haven't felt this triggered ptsd wise in a long time past homeless experience and work abuse has been creeping in #I'm trying to get to the good but its really hard seeing it right now after getting screwed for the millionth time #for something i can't control with my body #i guess on a good note that partnership meeting went well #it seems like an excellent opportunity but its also an investment and i don't have the means to put into that right now

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eyobis-andthe-bunnycats · 8 months

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My collection of cute Cow Girls grows... Hornwort, the moss cow, she/her. Original design by @bethdehart.

[ID Start: a quick colored pencil drawing of a thin, green anthropomorphic cow girl standing on one leg. She is light green with large dark green splotches sporadically on her, with one being a heart shape on her right hip. Her hair is brown and long and the ends are curly and a very dark green. From her head are two chartreuse atene similar in appearance to the plant hornwort and from her back are dragonfly wings also chartreuse. The cow girl stands with her hands clasped behind her back, stretching them far out and her left leg is bent slightly to have her hoofed foot off the ground. /End ID.]