#i have to change my pillow cases every 2-3 days and i hate it bc if i forget then i get acne

[bunnyb34r]

I have a huge pimple on my chin like the side of my chin, and it fucking itches but it HURTS 😭

[huellitaa]

౨ৎ ⋆｡• vogue beauty secrets 🐰 ๋࣭ ⭑

🎀𓂃 ࣪˖ hair

don't wash your hair every day! i think everybody knows this but i know a couple people who still dont wash their hair only 2-3 times a week. obviously it depends on ur hair type but only wash your hair when it needs it!

don't wash your hair with scalding hot water either. its not only bad for your body and face but its also bad for your hair as it ruins the natural oils and damages cells etc

if you have frizzy or easily knotted hair i recommend keeping a comb on hand in the shower and using it to detangle before putting in any products

i've been emulsifying my shampoo for only a couple of weeks but my hair is sooo much fluffier afterwards so i definitely recommend that!!

now i'm torn on this one but apparently shampooing twice is better for your hair than doing it once? i tried it one time and it did not end well for my hair type but i know it works for a lot of people so if you wanna give it a try then go for it ♡

i squeeze excess water out of my hair before i put in my conditioner so i can completely get it in there without

also change your pillow case often! this is for your face too, as the oils will build up and thats not good for ur hair or face. i change it once a week but 2x a week is good too if you're able 💓

don't go to bed with wet hair. stop doing that. its super bad for your hair and keeping it pretty & fluffy & cute

airdrying is my holy grail, been doing it since i was little and dont regret a thing. its a billion times better than blow drying & makes ur hair so fluffy too ♡

🎀𓂃 ࣪˖ body

DO NOT. HAVE. THE WATER. BOILING HOT. i am guilty of this and have been for years but it has such a bad impact and you shouldnt do it! cold showers are better but i prefer warm showers so theres a middle ground (& its always cold in england, so id freeze to death.)

using body lotion after the shower has been such a game changer for me its incredible. makes you smell nice, feel nice, look nice, and its so relaxing and i feel like a princess after i do it <3

exfoliating is really important if your aim is for soft skin 💓 i have been doing it for months and as somebody with super rough skin its SO soft now

partake in some form of exercise. i hated hated hated sports and exercise when i was younger but i did do dance up until i was eleven and have been doing pilates consistently for months now, and my mindset towards it has changed drastically over the years to finally a healthy one. it can be a difficult thing to get into but make it something you enjoy. it doesn't have to be sports. ill make a post on this soon but it can be pilates, kpop dances, running, hot girl walks, anything! and most importantly, do it for mental health and physical health, not losing weight.

make sure you're eating properly. remember that 1400 to 2400 calories of nutritious substance is the MINIMUM. this of course depends on many variables including, weight, height, BMR, what it is your eating, et cetera. your body is so important & is there to be nourished and not neglected !!! ♡ (💭🎀edit: updated info on calories and nutrition from a lovely anon i received a message from this morning! ♡)

change your bedsheets every week if you wanna smell good, this is so important bc sweat and odour will build up if u dont and thats icky and wont make u smell good & probably isnt the best for your skin either!

i also put two similar body washes on in the shower that i get SO many compliments on & its really helpful if one of your priorities is smelling good

dont just wash body wash straight off, let it sit for a few moments so the scent can actually sink into ur skin

🎀𓂃 ࣪˖ face

skincare every morning & every night. if ur tired or just not feeling it today then simplify it, just make sure you never leave it out because its super important! no. skipping. no work = no reward.

on this note, try not to have a too complicated skincare routine, as this can backfire and make ur skin worse than before. your skin isnt meant for 18 different products and 200 chemicals every morning!

never wash your face with hot water... this is also a given but just in case... it strips your skin of its natural oils and does more harm than good

stop touching ur face... just for those who need a little reminder

make sure ur sleeping enough. seriously disney princess movies meant it when they talked ab beauty sleep; it seriously makes a difference, so please try make this a priority, especially if you already have dark circles like myself! (like girl did you see aurora's face? my girl's skin was so clear i could see my reflection)

pay attention to what makes ur face puffy or irritated or makes you get break outs. i keep a little break out log in my skincare page in my journal (little teaser for an upcoming post 🤭) and this has helped me go over what helps or hurts my skin! i recommend this especially if ur prone to acne or breakouts 💖

cold spoons in the morning to depuff your eyes; ive only been doing this a handful of times but im making it a habit seeing as it really helps! (as someone who can get vv puffy eyes 😭)

hydration is so important, for everything in this list, but most of all (from my experience) your face! i drink A Lot of water every day. probably a bit too much. but its so worth it, my skin has been absolutely amazing ever since i started actually making hydration a priority. (and this is coming from a girl who didnt touch a drop of water when she was younger & had to go hospital for dehydration several times.)

i'd recommend scrubbing ur lips too in the morning when you brush your teeth, i saw this on pinterest aaages ago bc i had super dry lips and i do it every morning & every night RELIGIOUSLY. its so so good and i definitely recommend

i have super dry lips in the morning so lip balm in the mornings w my skincare is absolutely essential for me

i also put perfume behind my ears & on my neck so its the first thing people smell when they hug me! im a very touchy person and i love hugs and i love showing love to people so this is essential for me but its optional, just makes you smell good ♡

[minthysugamon]

Why'd you only call me when you're high? (J.JK x Reader)

Drummer! Jungkook x Manager's daughter! Reader.

Warnings: Mentions of sex,drugs and alcohol. Usage of foul language (like in most of my writings bc i talk like a roadman). Friends with benefits type of relationship. Kinda angsty but also fluffy if you search for the fluff with a magnifying glass.

Word count: 2222 (hehe,angel number go brr)

A/N: I promise,i will try to do some smut but i don't feel comfy enough to write it bc idk...i just cringe when i see my writing. So sorry if it isn't what you guys expect...

3:03 am

Your phone buzzed once again. It was for the 6th time tonight in a row,so even without looking at the device,it was safe to assume that the rockstar your dad managed was probably at some pub,hammered and not even being able to call a cab for himself so he called your number. Like usual. 3:04 am. It rang again. "What? It better be an emergency cause i swear to god if you're calling because you're dru-" his laugh was as intoxicating as the liquor he had sipped on some minutes ago. "Doll,listen...i need a ride...and since your dad is our manager,it would be greatly appreciated if you came for me..." a sigh left your lips as you hang up on him.

But Jungkook didn't stop pestering you. The drummer of V2J was a pain in the ass. As shy and awkward he was in his sober times,his horndog behaviour was equalising if not surpassing his normal behaviour when he was thrashed.

You picked up the call one more time when the familiar ringtone went off. "Hey,why are you so rude,dollface? Don't you know hangin-" your words cut off his as soon as he was trying to do his monologue. "Jungkook. Like how you said it so cleverly,MY DAD is the manager. Not me. Pester him at 3 am if you have some difficulties to go home,not his daughter. Thank you. I have an exam in two days, i have to study tomorrow. Or today because at this point of the night i can't say tomorrow,so let me get the 2 hours of sleep i could still get tonight if i go to sleep in less than 10 minutes.. Leave me alone. Call Taehyung or something,i don't care. Now please don't call me again. Thanks." Then the tune of the "Hang Up" option resonated in your room once again.

Truth be told, if it would've been the first time he calls you and asks you for help at 3 in the morning,you would've helped his dumbass out,but it wasn't the case. Whenever Jungkook had some nightly problems, you were the first target in his contact list. It wasn't the first time he called you to pick him up from somewhere or to let him stay at your place for the night because he lost his keys to his appartment after a wild escapade with his bandmates to the nearest club. And it never ended with him only sleeping on your couch. It usually started at the front door and ended with him sleeping an arm around you after fucking your brains out. If he had been serious about this whole weird relationship you had, it would've been official for more than a year now,but he has to keep his rockstar persona intact. So of course,you were nothing more than the daughter of his manager who was good enough to be fucked when he was drunk or high.

At 3:36,someone rang at the interphone of your home. When you got up from your bed with a huff,you were already seeing the tatted up boy's smirk on the camera in a mental image. And you weren't wrong. His smirk was present as soon as the little screen had lit up with his face so close to it,you though he was a toddler seeing an interphone for the first time in his life. "You really came here at 3 and a half? Jeon,for fucks sake. If i get down there,i'mma beat some sense into you,so you better start running now." He simply laughed,a noise of exasperation leaving his throat. "Aw...come on (Y/n)...let me in,i lost my keys..."

You pushed on the key button,you let him in again. At this point it was exthausing because you knew what this meant. And even if you wanted to deny it,your brain wanted this to stop,but your heart was yearning for him. "I swear to god Jungkook,if you come here again at 3 am,i will stick a pipe up your ass." You unlocked the door for him and let him enter your home.

Fatal mistake because he didn't even answer,he simply pushed you against the wall and looked into your eyes,foreheads touching. "And why would you do that sweetheart? Hm? I thought you liked when i come here...for you." You can't deny it,you fell for him over the months,you fell for this idiot who liked banana milk more than anything else,who drank whisky with more cola than he should because he hated alcohol but wanted to keep his bad boy persona. But the smell of a woman on him made your heart sink. "Jungkook,please...just go and take of your shoes,i will bring you a blanket and a pillow so you can sleep on the couch."

He took your words in a hurtful way,his expression changed from flirty to genuinely hurt. "So...we aren't sleeping together like always?" You scoffed and got out of his grip. "I don't even know why i let you in. If you wanted to get your dick sucked again,you could've called one of your groupies." You disappeared in your room to search for a blanket and pillow,not that you deemed him deserving of such comfort,but he was also keen to be shivering at night without a blanket so it would be better for him to get some warmth during the dark hours. With a shaky breath,you went back to the living room and placed the pillow and comforter on the couch. "(Y/n)...what's the matter?" No answer. You didn't want to answer his question,he wasn't worthy for an answer,but his insistance was made clear when he took your hand into his and brought you closer to him. "Please...(Y/n)...answer me,i'm getting worried at this point,what's the matter?" Inhaling some fresh oxygen as the lump in your throat was only getting tighter,it finally dawned on you. You were in love with him. "Why'd you only call me when you're high?" The tears started to sting in your eyes,the drummer looked at you with a questioning expression. "High? What do you mean?" "Why'd you only call me and come here when your high?" After repeating your previous question,your voice cracked and all tears were let to flow down on your cheeks. "What? (Y/n) i really don't understand what you're talking about." "Why are you only showing interest in me when you're drunk and need to empty your balls. Is it more clear like that?" Jungkook's heart cracked at the sight of you crying because of him. He didn't want you to fall for him,not when he's at the peak of his career,but it would be a lie to say he didn't feel something for you.

"(Y/n)...come on,you know i can't be with someone. I thought that we both made this clear." His tattoed arms were still securely wrapped around you,stroking your back in the hopes of the action giving you some comfort,but as soon as you looked up to him with teary eyes,he couldn't help but let his waterworks flow too. Truth be told,Jungkook hated to see you sad,as awkward as the situation was right now,he hated seeing the one he fell for sad. "No,you made it clear for yourself. You're always acting nice with me,always closing any distance we had between us...no matter how hard i try to stay away from you,you suffocate me...if it was with hatred,it would be better,but it isn't. You're always here to fuck me up then rebuild me once you're sober. I fucking hate you for making me fall for you but i hate myself more for letting myself fall for you."

Your words were stinging. Even poisonous to his ears. Did you really hate him? And as much as it hurt him,it hurt you the same. You never really saw someone else in the hopes of being his one day,you won't blame it on him because you were the one in control of your own life,but every step you declined from someone else was to aliment the hope of being his one day. "I'm sorry...(Y/n)...i...i know you like me...but it won't work out. I do see you as more than just a friend with benefits,i do like you too...but...i can't be with you when i don't even know what tomorrow is made of." You tried to get out of his grip,but it only tightened and he brought your chin up with two fingers. "Listen,don't think i don't like you...if i didn't..you wouldn't be the first one i call to help me,fuck,i know i sound like an asshole for saying this but i do like you...i just..." he was getting ridiculous at this point and he knew it. "You just what? You don't want to miss out on someone else. I get it. You want your target list to be finished then crawl back to me when you're done."  "(Y/n) it's not like tha-" you finally got out of his grip. "No. Don't say anything. I get it. But i won't be a second choice to anyone. Let alone you. Good night." You quickly wiped your tears away and went to your room,closing the door behind yourself,leaving Jungkook alone,in the dark living room.

He was tossing and turning for more than an hour now. You could hear it from your room how he was walking up and down the hall. 'I really fucked up.' he thought to himself and he wasn't wrong. You were probably the only person who would really go to hell and back for him and you were the only person he would do the same for. Then why was he acting like an asshole towards you now? Now that he was sure of your feelings,why did he have to break everything he tried to build? It couldn't end like that.

He softly knocked on your door,even if you told him to go away,he opened the door and lied down next to you,taking your body in his arms,nuzzling his face into the skin of your neck. "I'm sorry..." his soft lips placed a kiss on your neck and hands grabbed yours. "Sorry for what? For at least telling me the truth?" "(Y/n)...it's not like that...i just don't want to fuck things up. I prefer to fuck it up now than once we're together. I...i do love you...i heard the bells and the fireworks as soon as i saw you...but i don't want to fuck this up. Simply because i know how fans are,how groupies are. I prefer you seeing my fuckboy image than the real me,as much as i hate it though." You turned around,facing him,still in his clutch. "Well too late dumbass,i fell for the awkward and nice you,the one i see during studio hours,during practice,not this...whole flirty fuckboy persona that i get to see at every thursday at 3 am." He inhaled then kissed your forehead,bringing you closer to him. "It's too late for me to ask you to be my girlfriend...right? I don't want things to end...and,if the only way for me to stay with you is to put that image aside,i'm willing to do it."  You sighed. He was still in the wrong. You didn't want him to change for you,but for him. To be himself again. "Jungkook,you don't understand...i want you to be you. I don't want you to rush into things because you don't want to lose me. Plus,you might not like a relationship,so if you don't want one right now,then leave me alone and don't make me fall for you more."

He shut you up before you could go on your monologue with a kiss. Not a rushed one like usually. But a soft one. One that tasted like cigarettes,monster,alcohol and love. "I love you...and starting a relationship now...or in 5 years...it won't change shit...no matter what i think now. I...after thinking about it...what you said...you're right. If i don't jump in right now...what will it change in 2 or 5 years? Nothing...i will still be the same if i don't change now." His frown turned into a small smile when he felt your nose in his neck,a light peck on his skin and your hands on his back. "So...you really want to start something with me...out of love and not out of pity?" He smacked the back of your head,out of habit but also out of outrage,he didn't want you to think he was doing this out of pity. "You dumbass,i want to be with you. I really want to. Out of love. Not because i pity you. You are probably the only person who would accept my headassery...and i love you. So please...don't ever think i would do this brcause of pity." You simply laughed,still sniffing a little bit and cupped his cheeks. "Good,because...i love you too." He kissed you first,again. Now with more passion though. His hands roaming around your back and ribcage,then on your waist,he couldn't help but pull you closer,until it couldn't be done anymore. "I know you do...now...shouldn't we sleep..? Because it's half past five...and you have to wake up at 10 so you can study..." You kissed his neck once more then placed your head on his chest. "It's already almost 6..might as well watch some cartoons and eat breakfast,no?" Jungkook's face lit up like a child's at the candy store. "Now i know why i heard the bells and the fireworks when i saw you."

I hope you guys enjoyed this,i kinda made it longer than most of my writings,but i still hope it's okay!

My requests are always open,so please,if you have something to request,i am more than happy to do it!

[prosopopeya]

New Year’s Meme

this survey has been a tradition among my friend group for YEARS, but i haven’t filled it out since 2015 apparently. i’m not entirely sure why except 2016 was the year a lot of stuff changed for me, namely in that i finally got out of school in some form and started a new job, but i also had a few health problems that kept plaguing me (thyroid medicine being off, vitamin d) and my anxiety was all over the place. so here we go i’m doing it again and feel free to do it too if you want!!

1. What did you do in 2020 that you’d never done before? tried on wedding dresses. taught virtually. dealt (poorly) with drunk teenagers. performed in a pep rally. wore face masks all the time. i’m going to lump in living with someone. jon moved in october 2019, but i don’t think i did this quiz last year so. taught ap.

2. Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions and will you make more for next year? i don’t really like resolutions. they put too much pressure on me and i am a fragile person when it comes to setting expectations and living up to them. i did want to try to read more this year, and i maintained that until the pandemic, and then just kind of gave up requiring myself to do anything but live.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? i don’t think so. a coworker did.

4. Did anyone close to you die? jon’s cousin committed suicide in march or april. the circumstances were pretty upsetting. um. andy died in february, very suddenly. andy was my high school boyfriend for four years with whom i had a very... he scarred me in a lot of ways when it comes to sex and consent. it’s taken me a long time to unpack all of that. and i struggle with how much any of that was his fault or just bc he was a stupid kid too. our mutual friends had nothing but nice things to say about him on fb. anyway. he would guilt me into saying he’d kill himself if we broke up, and jon’s cousin killed himself over his girlfriend. so that was a complex part of the year.

5. What countries did you visit? none. literally the week before the quarantine, we went to asheville to visit jon’s cousin.

6. What would you like to have in 2021 that you lacked in 2020? maybe a different job? or at least some peace at doing mine.

7. What date from 2020 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? march 13 we cancelled classes and had a technology training day; the 15th we had another one, and then we were virtual the rest of the term. it was such a sudden shift and while i so loved working from home tbh, it was such a relief after a supremely shitty january/february work-wise, i still had a lot of keyed-up, stressful days centered around transitioning to being the senior upper school spanish teacher. i hate it!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? writing 50k in the month of november. i have literally never done that before and actively reject nano as being typically unhealthy for how my mind works, so it was nice to do it entirely by accident.

9. What was your biggest failure? mishandling the drunken teenagers on that field trip in january.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? i sit crosslegged in my virtual teaching chair and i did it so much that my ankle hurt for the entire summer.

11. What was the best thing you bought? we put a deposit on our elopement in ireland. jon’s wedding ring. (i didn’t buy my wedding dress.)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? my best friend at work who keeps me sane and is represented by benny in my au, which other than the fact that he is not my sidepiece, is perfect he is crucial to my survival at work and i love him so much. (also he is gay and the french teacher so the benny parallels just keep coming). everyone who tore down a statue in virginia (and other places, but especially monument avenue). everyone putting their lives on the line during this pandemic.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? guess! but aside from all the obvious, i found out a friend of mine at work voted for trump. my work bff and i had been trying for years to sway his politics, but that had us both deciding to give up on him.

14. Where did most of your money go?  food, ALCOHOL. god., our savings account. i did a pretty excellent job saving this year, though a good deal of that is because jon moved in and makes more money than me, and also we split all the bills.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? my wedding dress but strangely only when i went to try it on after it came in bc after the purchase i was so sure i’d made every mistake possible. my wedding band. wellbutrin changing my whole life. and, last but certainly not least, the gay angel and the bi(lingual) hunter. i wouldn’t have survived nov-dec in school without that distraction. the election.

16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2020? the entirety of taylor swift’s oeuvre this year, maybe specifically “this is me trying”

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:  i. Happier or sadder? happier, i suppose, perhaps contrary to what should be the case, but wellbutrin is a hell of a drug. ii. Older or wiser? wiser. ii. Richer or poorer? richer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? reading. cleaning. exercising.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? stressing. chaperoning.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? so, an update; last year was the first year i didn’t go to my mom’s for christmas. i was supposed to see her for thanksgiving last year, but she basically told us not to come bc she wasn’t feeling up to it (cool!), and we went to jon’s for christmas and my mom’s for new year’s. 

this year, obviously we couldn’t go to my mom’s. instead, we rented a little cabin by the lake. it was perfect; it was really really nice inside, the beds were SO SOFT, the pillows were the best things i have ever laid my head on, like i took off the pillowcases to try to find the brand. we had a little tiny christmas tree with tiny ornaments from walmart that we decorated. the 23rd, we went and picked up our wedding bands. we slept two nights in the (cold) back bedroom so i could wake up and look out at the lake. it snowed for christmas. :)

we opened presents on christmas eve, per jon’s family’s tradition. on christmas eve, we also went to his family farm and sat outside and hung out a little. every year his family does like a secret santa sort of thing and i got my first present in that exchange, which is notable bc jon and i are not yet officially married. i got a remote control car -- jon’s idea bc i couldn’t think of anything, and he was so delighted to hear that i loved playing with rc cars when we went to the beach as a kid.

christmas morning we facetimed my parents and opened some presents together. then jon and i marathoned mandalorian (after spending the previous few days watching several die hard movies), and then we watched wonder woman 1984 which was a bad movie.

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve? ok LAST year for new year’s, we were in a hotel room, so that was nice, bc it meant minimal stress with my parents. i had always wanted to go to this restaurant near us that has a special new year’s menu, so we did that. the night before or after i think we went to cheesecake factory, which was also amazing.

this year currently i’m tumbling and he’s playing pokemon, and in a bit we’ll try to time it so we finish schitt’s creek in time for the new year.

22. Did you fall in love in 2020? i re-fell in love with supernatural so that was nice.

23. How many one-night stands? 0. i submit we should randomly change question 23 each year to something more relevant to any of our life experiences.

24. What was your favorite TV program? what did i even watch this year. schitt’s creek. mandalorian. i mean obviously we know supernatural. the circle. are you the one (the queer season). pose. unsolved mysteries. we’re here! perry mason. watchmen. oh maybe that mcdonald’s monopoly fraud documentary. avenue 5. i’ll be gone in the dark. of those i think my favorite maybe is... pose or we’re here.

OKAY UM. on my 2014 version of this there were a bunch of questions about tv shows that i’m putting back in if only for the memories:

25. Which TV shows did you start watching in 2020? the haunting of bly manor, which we still need to finish. derry girls.

26. Which TV shows did you let go of in 2020? HERE’S WHY I WANTED TO RESURRECT THESE. here was my answer in 2015: “supernatural. goodbye, my sweet prince.” CAN YOU EVEN FUCKING BELIEVE

27. Which TV shows did you mean to get into but didn’t in 2020? Why? so far, queen’s gambit and that one on hulu with catherine the great. EVENTUALLY. 28. Which TV shows do you intend on checking out in 2020? fleabag. queen’s gambit. 29. Which TV show do you think you might let go of in 2020 unless things significantly improve? idk i drop things pretty regularly if they don’t entertain me 30. Which TV show impressed you least in 2020? GUYS HERE’S MY ORIGINAL 2015 ANSWER: “supernatural. :(”

anyway back to the rest of the quiz:

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? every person who refuses to listen to facts and information.

26. What was the best book you read? killers of the flower moon: the osage murders and the birth of the fbi, or the his dark materials series.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? well i knew about tswift so i’m not going to count her albums. i will count this song that jon played for me once in the car that got stuck in my head for two weeks straight and led me down into a great related-songs spotify playlist: through the roof ‘n underground.

28. What did you want and get? a wedding dress and a very specific kind of wedding band. a gay angel. a christmas getaway. animal crossing.

29. What was your favorite film of this year? idk i don’t know how many films i saw this year. maybe mucho mucho amor: the legend of walter mercado

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i was 32. we went to an escape room with a BUNCH of people -- work bff, my old work bff and his wife (old bc he quit and we’ve fallen out of touch :(), the cool new physics teacher and his fiancee, and the aforementioned trump voter and his wife, before we knew... we went out for brunch/lunch after. it was pretty great!

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? not having to chaperone that school trip in january. dean being bi in english as well as spanish. cas just ilke, appearing in 15x20. not having to physically go back to work this fall.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2020? no! real! pants!

34. What kept you sane? jon. supernatural (in a way?). animal crossing for a while. wellbutrin! i haven’t really been able to detail this yet, but finally i did something about tumblr and my therapist making me think about adhd. my doctor gave me wellbutrin (bc i lack any official diagnosis and was on anxiety meds anyway, and he was like let’s try this!) and it’s fucking. it’s a fucking godsend. surprisingly enough, my students. trying to provide them a safe space has been a calming thing for me.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? jensen ackles’ silence. misha collins again, i guess.

36. What political issue stirred you the most? the summer was so fucking intense. i guess though it was me trying to exert my influence in a responsible way with my students without trying to try to make them feel uncomfortable but then one kid was a vocally upset trump supporter after the election and i had to try to defuse that situation.

37. Who did you miss? my old work bff. several old friends that i’ve fallen out of touch with bc i have no object permanence.

38. Who was the best new person you met? people i met through the spn resurgence!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2020: if you manifest it in an au, it will come. no really though. maybe that expectations are only as important as i make them out to be.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: usually i have a hard time coming up with anything for this and i default to looking at my most played songs of the year. my most played song of the year received each and every one of its plays within the month of november and you can guess why. anyway see if this works

I had all and then most of you Some and now none of you Take me back to the night we met I don't know what I'm supposed to do Haunted by the ghost of you Take me back to the night we met - the night we met, lord huron

[regalmadness]

50 questions you've never been asked

Tagged by @love-hope-faith-feels-like-a-lie thanks love!

1. What is the colour of your hairbrush?

Pink

2. A food you never eat

There is something in my country called Auyama... yup that just

3. Are you typically too warm or too cold

Too cold, like I be cuddling and people will get scared that im as cold as ice and so to ease their worries I just burry my hands and feet into their coat or clothes 🤣

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?

Studying

5. What is your favourite candy bar?

The ring pop. I love it! It brings back memories. Either that or any white chocolate.

6. Have you ever been to a professional sports event?

Yes I once had the oportunity to go to a basketball match between the Miami Heat and the Rockets

7. What is the last thing you said outloud?

Take your time its fine, I'll wait

8. What is your favourite icecream?

Bubblegum

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?

Water

10. Do you like your wallet?

Well it keeps my money safe and its got a cool design I guess

11. What was the last thing you ate?

Carrots

12. Did you buy any new clothes last weekend?

🤣🤣🤣🤣 living out of my pj collection lately

13. Last sporting event you watched?

The superball (Go 9ners!)

14. What is your favourite flavour of popcorn?

Butter ir cheese

15. Who is the last person you sent a text?

My best friend

16. Ever go camping?

Never have, but Im game all the way!

17. Do you take vitamins?

In case this is ever leaked outside of tumblr and out of the internet I just wanna say from the bottom of my truthfull heart... Mom if you are reading this, yes I am definitelly taking my vitamins every single day without fail. I definitely dont forget and take them daily and not just sometimes.

18. Do you go to church every sunday?

Not every sunday but whenever I can sure

19. Do you have a tan?

In this economy?

20. Do you prefer chinese food or pizza?

Pizza pizza pizza pizzaaaa

21. Do you drink your soda with straw?

I dont have an issue drinking it either with or without a straw but I prefer without since you know *Poison Ivy's voice* gotta do enviroment

22. What colour socks do you usually wear?

Bold of you to assume I only use 1 pair of the same colour and not go all harley quinn on my feet.

23. Do you ever drive above the speed limit?

When its an urgency type of thing. (Always being caferul) *Insert panic voices in the backround, followed by the 'but did you die' meme* Otherwise I drive as fast as the speed limit lets me.

24. What terrifies you?

Well they dont terrify me but like big bugs are a HUGE NO from me (if it has wings make it an ULTRA NO)

25. Look to your left what do you see?

These handsome boys

26. What chore do you hate?

Cleaning the bathroom

27. What do you think of when you hear an ausie accent?

HOT!

28. Whats your favourite soda?

Its a Colombian brand its called cola y pola

29. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?

Depends on the mood of the day

30. Whos the last person you talked to?

My best friend

31. Favourite cut of beef?

I like beef I dont have a preference as long as it tastes good

32. Last song you listened to?

Westworld theme (lmao Im just learning piano so I kinda wanna learn how to play it... not because Im still NOT okay with what happened and want to remember Dolores anyway I can, nope Im totally fine with that, Im handling it like a normal grown adult, Im A OK)

33. Last book you read?

Oh wow. Uhhh I think it was a greek mythology one, cant remember the name 😭 its been so long since I've read anything other than the 1000 manuals and documents for work

34. Favourite day of the week?

Kinda varies from season to season, it depends on which tv shows are airing and their schedulle. It used to be sunday bc westworld but now *sighs*

35. Can you say the alphabet backwards?

I can do it midly fast in spanish but in english? 🤣 Im like (how do you sing the song backwards again?)

36. How do you like your coffee?

Sweet! And I prefer Ice coffee to regular.

37. Favourite pair of shoes?

Captain marvel addidas sneakers

38. At what time do you normally go to bed?

That depends, are you refering to actually sleaping? Or at what time I tuck in and either spend till sunrise scrolling through this godforsaken website looking at memes or remembering all the emabasing moments of my life in movie secuence in my brain

39. At what time do you normally get up?

8-9am

40. What do you prefer sunrise or sunsets?

Sunsets

41. How many blankets are on your bed?

I know sometimes bitches be sleeping under 3 blankets, 4 pairs of pillows and butt ass naked because you know life. But you know... its me im bitches.

42. Describe your kitchen plates

Round and white

43. Do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage?

Absolutely love cocktails! Anything with blue curaçao or tequila in it Im asfkkshsk! And if I had to choose a plain? Tequila for sure.

44. Do you play cards?

I do like card games and sometimes we play went we get together (family) but im not really good at it I just have fun lol

45. What colour is your car?

Dont currently own one. But my sub card is green if that counts

46. Can you change a tire?

Im a lesbian

47. What is your favourite providence?

Theres a city at the north east of the country called Bucaramanga. Its really nice the weather the people everything!

48. Favourite job you've ever had?

That would be my current job. Flying is my life! (I miss it so much 😞)

49. How did you get your biggest scar?

Long story short my mother was fixing some metal stuff and told me not to come into the house running (I was 5) so ofc I listen to the very wise advise my dear moma gave me and definitely didnt run, hence I definitely dont have a scar on my left cheek (its very tiny now)

50. What did you do today that made someone else happy

Gave my mom a letter and a beautiful everlasting rose.

Thank you, this was fun!

Tagging: @fandommember @dino-hoodie @mccdimples @hipesque @duranza @awhitefairytale @dfincher @giffing

[terybogard]

Home sick, huh? Well in that case... all of them....

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? 

spot

is your room messy or clean?

a pile of games and blankets, its also tiny

what color are your eyes?

real dark brown

do you like your name? why?

i used to hate it as a kid bc i thought it was too girly but im cool with it now, its uncommon which is cool plus my initials are djp which makes me feel like a cool dj

what is your relationship status?

describe your personality in 3 words or less

three sega saturns

what color hair do you have?

dark broum

what kind of car do you drive? color?

a white volvo

where do you shop?

game stores that arent game stomp

how would you describe your style?

clothes that i have a sentimental bond with

favorite social media account

i guess this one

what size bed do you have?

full

any siblings?

i got the bros: calvin @dragonquestviii3ds and andrew @insanecowposse

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

somewhere cold i dont like hot weather

favorite snapchat filter?

the one that makes dark pictures look like a corrupt jpeg

favorite makeup brand(s)

huh

how many times a week do you shower?

when im dirty

favorite tv show?

adventures of sonmnic the hedgeshog$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

shoe size?

9

how tall are you?

i was 5′7 but scoliosis shrunk me so now im ever so slightly below that

sandals or sneakers?

sneanks

do you go to the gym?

buff

describe your dream date

neo turf masters with

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

probably a penny and a bunch of used up gift cards

what color socks are you wearing?

white and ornge

how many pillows do you sleep with?

a lot

do you have a job? what do you do?

no

how many friends do you have?

all yall

whats the worst thing you have ever done?

i used to hit myself when i was mad at me

whats your favorite candle scent?

i like the fruity ones

3 favorite boy names

chungus bungus mumbus

3 favorite girl names

mom friend chungy

favorite actor?

i dunno anyone

favorite actress?

still dont know anyone

who is your celebrity crush?

does the obvious count

favorite movie?

the sonic ova movie is special to me we have it on cassette and its been here forever

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?

not really

money or brains?

you think id hang out with some rich chunkus? no

do you have a nickname? what is it?

my grandma calls me dais i guess

how many times have you been to the hospital?

not much

top 10 favorite songs

get ready for a lotta blur also theyre not really in order

1. tender - blur

2. no distance left to run - also blur

3. sweet girl - fleetfloop mac

4. welcome to the room sara - flopflop mac

5. the universal - also blur

6. sable on blond - stevie nicks

7. the tourist - rabioheab

8. black book - blur again

9. every song from the donkey kong country tv show

10. young and lovely - blibb blur burbvvmmmm

do you take any medications daily?

yeah 2 antidepressants

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

im an oil

what is your biggest fear?

no thanks

how many kids do you want?

no thanks

whats your go to hair style?

short kinda messy

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)

my moms is kinda small and my dads is kinda big i think

who is your role model?

gun waifu

what was the last compliment you received?

friends wanting to buy me nice drinks bc im sick

what was the last text you sent?

telling buds im sick

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

i forget

what is your dream car?

i dunno one with character if that makes sense

opinion on smoking?

if you do it im not gonna hate you but i really would like you to try to stop

do you go to college?

i applied

what is your dream job?

fix games

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?

somewhere

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

i havent been to a hotel in years

do you have freckles?

not really

do you smile for pictures?

yeah

how many pictures do you have on your phone?

a lot most of them are gun waifu

have you ever peed in the woods?

i think

do you still watch cartoons?

yeah

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

i dont eat a meat

Favorite dipping sauce?

soy sauce

what do you wear to bed?

clothes

have you ever won a spelling bee?

i was qualified to go to one sort of but i didnt

what are your hobbies?

draw fix game play game u kno

can you draw?

you decide

do you play an instrument?

nou

what was the last concert you saw?

i think it was blur i cried a lot it was great

tea or coffee?

leaf woter

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

donk donts

do you want to get married?

i have gun waifu

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

g(un) w(aifu)

are you going to change your last name when you get married?

daisy waifu sounds silly doesnt it he he he

what color looks best on you?

i dunno red and white

do you miss anyone right now?

i have a lotta friends at college or army and i wont see them much for a while

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

close usually

do you believe in ghosts?

a ghost try to approach me he got leery

what is your biggest pet peeve?

be jerk

last person you called

i got a call from my grandma

favorite ice cream flavor?

a good one

regular oreos or golden oreos?

oroeos

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?

chonk

what shirt are you wearing?

a shirt for our family dairy theres a cow on it and it says have a very dairy christmas

what is your phone background?

gun waifu

are you outgoing or shy?

i am me

do you like it when people play with your hair?

i dunno havent really experienced hairplay

do you like your neighbors?

my one neighbor collects games so his yard sales are always amazing

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

when its dorty

have you ever been high?

no

have you ever been drunk?

no

last thing you ate?

i forget

favorite lyrics right now

theres a lotta trick stuff that makes ya fall into a trap

summer or winter?

winter boyssssssssss

day or night?

day

dark, milk, or white chocolate?

milnk

favorite month?

october or december i dunno

what is your zodiac sign

scoopio

who was the last person you cried in front of?

my bud @clumsyrubicunda bc we were watching............ anime.......

thank you if you are on mobile i apologize

[katgiringiringirin]

I Need U Part 2/?

[gif credit to owner, bc I don’t own this]

Warnings: Strong language, violence, can be triggering for some and… Just don’t read it if you can’t handle abusiveness and stuff.

Member: Yoongi, but all of Bangtan will make appearances.

Genre: Angst / Comedy?

Words: 1.85k

Synopsis: You’re invisible, a nobody, no friends - no nothing. Your mom died while running away from your still abusive and drunk father. You live a life no one wants, but a shared passion for piano seems to perk your interest. Who is Min Yoongi? The answer may have changed your life.

>>| Part 1 | Part 3 | Part 4 |<<

>>|Masterpost|<<

Every Friday.

Every Friday is the day Min Yoongi plays the piano. He arrives at exactly 6pm and plays for two hours before meeting up with the rest of Bangtan by the entrance. They then walk through the school towards the dance studio and stay there til midnight.

Saving from your mental notes. Yes… I may have stalked Min Yoongi. And yes it may have gotten me into some trouble. But it’s not your fault he’s intriguing you. There’s just something that draws you towards him, kind of  like gravity pulls you towards the earth, so you don’t float out and implode in space. Or maybe it’s your shared interest for pianos? At least it seems like he has the same love for that piano as you do.

Though that first Friday did scare you away - for a while. You had never been beaten unconscious by your dad before. But you were lucky enough to find him sleeping like a rock on the sofa the day after. You were used to the smell of beer and… other liquids. But it still stank as you made your way to the kitchen. 1:32am, the clock showed. Well at least you could get a couple more hours of sleep.

It’s pretty crazy. Why don’t you go to the police? Why don’t you turn your dad in? Well it’s not that fucking easy. 

1) Your dad is a judge. No scratch that… Was a judge. But he still has contacts and authority. Plus everyone seems to look up to him… so yeah.

2) He would therefore easily know if you went there. He would pull some strings and you’d be right back on square one. 

3) Your mom tried it, and it only led to her death…

It was raining. The droplets pouring down with such force it almost hurt as you ran. Your hand firmly gripping your mother’s, leading you to the police station.

“Mom, what’s going to happen to dad?” you asked as you finally made it indoors.

“He’s going to be locked away and he will never touch you again. He won’t touch any of us again” your mother said. Her hands resting calmly on your shoulders as she looked into your eyes.

Lies. Everything was just lies. As soon as my mom told the police about it they laughed in her face and called my dad. They fucking called him to come and get us.

It was so weird seeing my dad nice for once. Acting normally as one should, laughing away with the police. They completely ignored the screams from both you and your mother, they ignored the bruises, cuts and scars that had come from years of abusing. They ignored all that and threw us back - back to this hell hole.

You didn’t understand much then. How could the police do that? Isn’t it their duty to take care of us, the citizens? Especially children and women? 

Now you knew better. Your dad had prepared for this. He knew which strings to pull, and oh how he pulled them. He did this. Always knowing he could win. I must give him credit for using his power, even though it destroys my life. 

When finally back at home, he beat us both like he never had before. My mother were knocked out cold and I actually thought I lost her.

You crawled your way over to your mom, taking her face between your hands, shaking it and yelling.

“Mom! MOM! Please come back!” snot was running from your nose and the tears in your eyes made everything blurry “MOM!”

“That won’t help. That bitch won’t listen. She did this. She did this to you and to herself” your father spoke as he sat down, bottle in his hand, taking a swig. You looked over to him, hate burning in every cell of your body. But you were tired, your body wasn’t strong enough. You wanted to fight back but you couldn’t. “She’s not dead, I’d never allow her to die here. Not under my roof. But she’s going to wish she died. She’s going to wish she’d never gone to the police” the first sentences were for you but then he spoke more to himself. Looking at his unconscious wife, taking another swig.

Three weeks after that, it had gotten so bad that your mother saw no other solution than to run away. She didn’t think about taking you with her, and that kind of makes you hate her too. For being so selfish. It’s possible to see where she’s coming from… But no!  The worst part? She did it while you were in school.

She sat down in the car, turned on the engine and drove away right into a truck. But that wasn’t the case in the newspaper, they said the truck hit her. Not the other way around. She died instantly, or so you were told, but you really don’t know if you can trust that.

In one way, you wish she did, and in one way you didn’t. She’s still your mum, but you hope she had a couple of minutes before she died, where she thought about you. How she left you, with this monster. You hope she’s watching, seeing how much you’re suffering…

“Y/N!” the teacher yells and you yank your head up.

“Yes?” you ask. Did I really just zone out? And in anger?

“Will you answer the question please?” he asks looking at me with a knowing smirk thinking he got you. You panic for a bit before looking at the board behind him. Oh, I’m in math… I got this. You took in the problem and solved it.

“The answer is the square root of three” you answer flatly, his smirk disappearing as fast as it came. You gave him a goofy smile. 

“That is correct” he said in a tone you couldn’t quite make out and turned his back continuing on talking about some math problems. You could feel some other students staring at you, but quickly turning their attention back when Mr. Rowley flipped and yelled at them to listen.

You may not look like it, nor act like it - but you are smart, in a lot of ways. Next to invisible makes you perfect for sneaking around, listening and gaining information. Being a shadow has it’s perks sometimes…

You also don’t have much of a choice, since your father has his eyes on you. Quoting him; “You have to do well in school not to gain any unwanted attention. Stay away from most social interaction to avoid attention and risks of them knowing what’s going on understood?”. I understand he does have a reputation to live up to. But it’s shitty nonetheless.

“Okay class’s over!” Mr.Rowley yells and you snap out of your thoughts again. You pack your books quickly and make your way to your locker. You can take your sweet time, today is one of the few days where your dad worked and actually didn’t drink. And most importantly - he wouldn’t be home until tomorrow, so the house is all mine.

As soon as you got out of the school’s main building you got a text.

[Monster] I locked the door. Hope you have keys ;) Back tomorrow, or maybe next week. Whoops.

THAT LITTLE BITCH!

Your first impulse was to throw the phone - but you just got kicked from your part-time job so… Not happening. 

But how could he do this?! What are you going to do? 

I should run away! YES that’s it I should…

[Monster] Remember I’m watching. Don’t try to run away. You’ll end up like your mother.

You clench your fists staring at the text. I’m this close to killing him [Imagine the radius of an atom, about that close] Don’t he dare bring up your mother like that. And the key thing? How low is that? He knows you don’t have a key! And knowing him he probably closed your window too… But what if he didn’t?

Through the entirety of miserable life, you’ve probably never ran as fast to your house as you did now. When you finally arrived, you saw a lot of things thrown out on the yard. 

Some of your clothes, a toothbrush and tube of toothpaste, a pillow and a blanket were thrown out of your window before it was closed and locked. How considerate of him…

Can he get more hateable?

Well shit. What are you going to do now? You have no foo- oh wait. He threw out a 12 pack of Snickers and a post it note was attached. 

You’re not you when you’re hungry. Not that being you is so much better… Have a fun week! 

- Dad

Am I allowed to just punch him? Yes? Okay, will do. 

This is ridiculous! You started to laugh out loud to yourself. You probably look like a maniac. Holding a pack of snickers and a blanket, laughing like there’s no tomorrow.. Yeah it kind of gives big maniac vibes. It also hurt to laugh so it sounds like you’re crying at the same time too. Great.

Back to the real problems though. Where were you going to sleep? It’s the beginning of winter, it’s getting real chilly outside and none of the clothes nor blanket will hold you warm. You have to find somewhere warm to sleep. Like a home. 

That’s it! Home a.k.a. the music room! You can hide and sleep there for the week and maybe take some food from the kitchen! But you can’t go to the school now… It’s only 4pm, you have to wait at least another hour before even thinking of going there.  

It’s friday and the clock is 5pm, there’s no one at school anymore so might as well make myself comfortable.

So let’s see what this place offers for “beds”. You look around the room searching for someplace hidden enough for someone not to notice (in case someone would come to school on a saturday or sunday), but comfortable enough to make an ok bed. 

Behind the drums maybe? There was a rug that was fairly comfortable, placed under the set and it was hidden. And it’s either the drums or by the cello that’s old and smells… Drums it is. 

You make yourself comfortable, putting down your pillow and other clothes making it at least somewhat comfortable. With your stomach growling for something to eat and you being you a.k.a lazy, you set for one of the Snicker bars. 

As you sit down on the makeshift bed made of your clothes, a pillow and a blanket, you can’t help but feel depressed. How sad mustn’t this look? A lonely teenage girl sitting in a music room at school, having only a 12 pack of Snickers. This must be an all time low even for you. It’s actually kind of laughable, but it really just makes you want to cry. So you do. 

But you’re not allowed to cry for long before footsteps are heard. 

Shit. It’s friday.

And we all know what that means…

Authors Note: Another part done! I hope you guys like it and I don’t know… Can this be called a cliffhanger? Yes? No? Muahahah >:D 

I also wanted to go for a more comedic vibe in Y/N to change it up and to brighten the mood a bit. She’s just like that so deal with it. The sun is always shining somewhere - Quote by me.

And I’m also sorry for how little Yoongi or the others are in this. There will be much more next part, I promise. But I felt like a backstory was needed, hence this was born!!!  

I’ll post part 3 soon (Probably friday and that’s probably gonna be my scheduled time if nothing else happens) so you don’t have to wait for Yoongs longer ;)