#i have simply Perished
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Sometimes when my anxiety is particularly bad, I’m unable to sleep. At all. Sometimes this goes on for days at a time. Sometimes, this deprivation gives rise to Very Vivid and Very Silly story ideas when I’m staring at the ceiling at 3am trying to convince my body that I am reclined on a pillowtop mattress and not, in fact, being chased by tigers. Sometimes, instead of finishing the novel I’m supposed to complete next month, or even working on the fanfic I’m not meant to be working on because I should be finishing the novel I’m supposed to complete next month, I start writing an entirely new book about a disabled reluctant monarch falling for his (equally reluctant) would-be assassin.
This is fine.
#mylife#author things#my writing#lol#but also if I don’t get some sleep soon I might simply perish and then I won’t have to worry about what I should and should not be writing
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let’s all have one eye and not tell ena
#okay guys i tried. really hard.#to get myself to draw froggy#but sorry i just cant draw men#it’s too early on in our friendship#so it’s just moony for now.#+ fun little name ideas#i decided to make moony have simply a prosthetic eye which she changes often#to mimic her silly hole#also i just really need coral glasses to have freckles or i#ll perish#burgerdoodle#ena dream bbq#ena joel g#coral glasses#moony ena#ena#humanization
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I'm well aware that I'm probably alone on this hill but this is basically my ideal dynamic for them. Sorry not sorry lmaoooo
#goldenheart#ballister x ambrosius#ballister boldheart#ambrosius goldenloin#nimona 2023#nimona#alors art#suggestive#literally everyone else sees Bal as the perma-bottom and i am so so sad bc they were both so switch-coded to me </3#and I KNOW that if A/B/O gets popular enough that its gonna be omega Bal all the time every time#so i will stake myself on the alpha Bal hill and simply perish here by myself rip me#(also yes im well aware of the omega Am fic thats on ao3 rn i am kissing it so deeply you have no idea)
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you could theoretically read the series in the order 8.5, 9.5, 9 instead of 8.5, 9, 9.5 because books 9 and 9.5 take place parallel to each other but also sophie and keefe never interact between them so hypothetically there should be no difference (and no spoilers either way).
another thing you could theoretically do is alternate between reading books 9 and 9.5. a chapter here, a chapter there. it would be like reading a longer version of unlocked, with the povs alternating between sophie and keefe.
in fact, in theory, there could be a possibility of even less spoilers if you read it 8.5, 9.5, 9. for example, if vespera makes an appearance in unraveled, and you didn't know she would die yet, it could be a really cool way to see her last minute and have an extra layer about her before her death. whereas if vespera makes an appearance in unraveled and you already know she's going to die, it feels a little more empty. not completely meaningless, but like. kinda empty. like if vespera hints at a larger plan or something in unraveled and you didn't know she was going to die, you'd be super excited to see this plan shake out, but now that we know she's going to die something like that wouldn't hit as hard.
#kotlc#unraveled#kotlc unraveled#kotlc sophie#sophie foster#kotlc keefe#keefe sencen#i am. theorizing. hypothesizing. if you will#i wanna see a new kotlc fan do this in like five years#and tell us about their experience as we vigilantly take notes#obviously this is theoretical because idk what shannon's gonna put in unraveled yet so we'll just have to wait and see#if that's a valid possibility#if i was a new fan and someone told me that unraveled and stellarlune take place parallel but never interact#i'd read them side-by-side#alternating between the chapters as if i was reading unlocked lmfao#because i can't take an entire book of keefe straight i will simply perish lmfao#ngl i am kinda hyped for this book now i wanna see what direction shannon's gonna take this#seeing it as less of a kotlc book and more of a case study#and praying to shannon that this point five thing doesn't become a habit#i think it's just cool that now in theory at least there's a different way that you could experience the story#mine
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“She’s tolerable, but not handsome enough to tempt me”😤😤😤
(Regency AU with Eloise and Sebastian inspired by my slow trek through Bridgerton these days & @bassicallymaestra ‘s AMAZING regency inspired art😮💨😇🙏)
#I just have a love of big regency dresses what can I say😔🙏#if you haven’t seen them yet this is a study of the GORGEOUS P&P illustrations from the 1890s by Charles Brock#they are all just so spectacular & I stare at them alllllllllll the time wishing I had an ounce of his talent🙏🙏🙏#so I do these studies to pretend even though I change some things😅😅 bc these studies is the best way to improve imo🙏#but I remembered halfway through why I rage quit trying to draw with my fountain pen a year ago😂😂😂#that thing is amazing for writing and I love it like a child#but drawing?! tbh I should have used my drawing ink pen but whatever#I woke up with a hankering to do some crosshatching (which I hate) in an attempt to get over myself#also!!!!!! when Mr Darcy says something like that it’s no wonder Elizabeth jumps at the bit to believe every awful thing she hears about him#it’s like Mr wickham’s dumb stories that nobody else in their right mind would believe#are speaking right to her soul. like OF COURSE that asshole from the assembly would do all of those things😤😤#he called me ugly so OF COURSE he would deny mr wickham his living😤😤#(I don’t blame her I would do the same🤝🤝)#ALSO why tf did he even say that when he’s clearly smitten from the beginning#I’m sure if he knew that she heard him he would simply perish from mortification#well thst is my p&p - inking horror - inspiration rant of the day🙏🙏#(I read p&p at least once a year & it is the only fanfic I really read😅😅😅)#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#sebastian sallow#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise#eloise babbit#regency au
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Me sending a confused carrier pigeon to my friends so I can’t be tracked (I thought about perceptions of myself in the world for a little too long after midnight and gave myself anxiety): Hey guys! Just realized I don’t actually wanna be perceived anymore! If you could forget I ever existed and never speak about me again while I strike my name from the records and erase any mention of myself, that’d be great, thanks! Sorry for the inconvenience of meeting me, love you, have a nice life!!
#I need to hide in a cave#Or perhaps languish in a bog#I could also lay on the floor#These are all options#I simply would no longer like to feel Seen and all of my past actions made around friends no matter how innocuous can no longer be spoken#They can keep the memory but By God let it no longer be shared. Let it wither and perish or else feed it to the crow.#I cannot have different versions of myself be tossed about when I am no longer sure of the version walking around.#My Being would like to go on hiatus until I am figured out.#Unfortunately. I must persist.#just yelling into the void#That or I really really need to catch up on my sleep.#meme time
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I've said it before and I'll said it again, it really hope this isn't the "kids conversation" because God, I hate that media trope.
I know it's too early, and I can see Buck totally acknowledging that fact but adding "if this is gonna be a deal breaker it's better to know now before we're in too deep" and Tommy just says "I think it's a little late for that."
#hate hate hate the “one person must have kids or they'll simply PERISH and the other person doesn't want them” trope#so i hope that's not where we're going#i didn't really like it with Tarlos but the way they handled it was GOOD#bucktommy#911 abc#plus honestly i just really don't see them as parents and i HATE the mandatory offspring trope just as much
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Known only to the dying and the dead.
#enderal#vynblr#enderal: forgotten stories#enderal prophet#prophet oc: the marksman#debated whether to put this in the main tags or not#but he's my prophet!!#oh and there's generic enderal highwayman number 117 too I guess#anyway if I don't draw something edgy and cringe at least once a month I will simply perish!#been feeling oddly self-conscious of late#not wanting to post any of my art#gotta just power through that feeling I suppose -_-''#his bow doesn't have a name at all btw#the bow's part of the Marksman. can't be a marksman without a bow
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Was overcome with the urge to smooch @clxckwork-sun-n-moon So Cries The Wolf Eclipse - only I ran into a slight issue
Namely, they're 10ft tall:
Had to bait them down with chicken nuggets <3
#post let luce#dcamv#so cries the wolf#clxckwork sun n moon#my art#hi limey it seems like i simply have to draw myself smooching your eclipses one way or another#I JUST WANTED TO DRAW THE FOREHEAD SMOOCH BUT THE FJKFDDUCKING HEIGHT COMPARISON#WHY WOULD HE BE DOWN HERE?? IDK NUGGETS APPARENTLY!!#boy is taller than fucking. SJ Eclipse. whom I'm now very accustomed to#BUT SCTW ECLIPSE ALSO HAS FOUR ARMS AAAAHHHHH#screams. perishes. can i bribe them to be my weighted blanket also ill bring dino nuggies
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“Listen here, you life size skull emoji, I am the fuckee in this situation"
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I’m a simple person, I don’t ask for much in this life. I really could live without a lot of things if I could just have my basic needs met.
My basic needs: food, shelter, human connection, Ty Blackthorn’s POV.
#you don’t understand how desperate I am#I’ll take anything#a paragraph#two and a half sentences#any crumbs Cassie wouldn’t mind dropping#alas#it seems I’ll simply have to perish#these two years will be the death of me#ty blackthorn#Kit herondale#the wicked powers#twp#tlkof#the last king of faerie#shadowhunters#tsc#the shadowhuter chronicles#cassandra clare#kit x ty#kitty#tda#the dark artifices#sobh#secrets of blackthorn hall
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@extravierge put the idea of bishop's knife trick back in my brain and now i am pacing like a caged animal imagining it as patrick's emotional devastation piano ballad leading right into don't stop believing
#'these are the last blues we're ever gonna have' & 'the glow of the cities below lead us back to the places that we never should have left'#into 'took a midnight train going anywhere' & 'don't stop believing'#i would simply Perish
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the problem with taking a break from The Project(TM), i fear, is that without something to dig my wretched little claws into, i collapse in a pile on the floor like a jellyfish out of water. which could mean nothing-
#.txt#have i overworked myself or am i just Like This when i'm not working?#who knows. not me#once more i am forced to ask myself ''is this the sort of despair i need to push through for my own good?''#''or is it simply exhaustion that i need to acknowledge fully lest i perish?''#unfortunately. i don't have an answer for you on that one
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Chat I'm writing something so cringe it's great I'm having a lovely time
#I don't know how much I'll actually be able to write for it but I wanna write enough to publish it secretly and never speak of it bc if#certain people saw it I'd simply perish#Very well might not get it long enough for that but I'm having a good time :D#cryptid.thoughts
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guys my exchange fic is going so badly it's actually like. embarrassing
#when i tell you i have forgotten how to WRIIIIITE!!!!#someone send HELP omg...#first check in is TODAY!!! my doc is nothing but an OUTLINE!! ohhhh i am simply going to perish#ceilidh served me an entire plot on a silver platter and i said “tysm. i have no idea how to do anything with this”#im so sorry queen 🙏🙏🙏
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Hey brittanyyy Here are some leaks of luo yunxi as chu xun from immortality (when will it air im so sad)
https://www.tumblr.com/stellarflex/710415267980886016
W A I T
I haven't looked at the MDL page for this in aaaaaaaages, what the fuck do you MEAN Chu Wanning is Till The End of the Moon guy who was all over my dash for months last year!?!!!?!!?! WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNNN
#GW Asks#Immortality#Isn't the potential ban lift still 2-3 years away?#Not that I'm optimistic because I'm sure they can just renew or what have you#But istg if these shows ever leak I was simply perish
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