#i have severe brain rot

[mistynatruther]

i was trying to sleep but i needed to get this out somewhere so here i am:

with this new scene of young silco and the new knowledge we have of him knowing jinx’s mom made a lot of people who favor jinx and silco’s relationship come out of hiding, so i just have a few words. now this has probably been said before but i have curated my space to not show me much silco and jinx tbh for this specific reason.

so don’t get me wrong. i LOVE their relationship. it has made me cry on multiple occasions. but what really GETS me in this fandom is the romanization of it. and i don’t mean the part where people say their relationship give off weird vibes ( bc i GET that one ) but i mean the people who think everything in the show revolves around them two. that their relationship was the BEST and he cared about her more than anybody and he was such a GOOD dad.

bc i feel like we watched two different shows.

because to me, sometimes, their relationship barely feels like a father/daughter relationship. yes, he raised her. but it’s more than that. silco is a deeply traumatized man who has clung onto a child who he THINKS ( !!!!!!! ) is just like him.

and what i mean by this is:

he projects onto her soooo much. if you remember the scene in the monster you created when he’s telling her that everyone has abandon and betrayed them and blah blah blah… it’s not true! it’s him wanting her to be like him so bad, him grabbing and pulling and gripping onto somebody who understands him. it’s unhealthy.

when silco looks at vi, he doesn’t see felicia’s daughter, he sees vanders. and with that, he sees the betrayal. and it hurts him. vi, unintentionally, harms him in ways that he, himself, does not understand. when he looks at vi, all he can see is the the life he once had and the hurt he now has.

so he’s projecting his pain and trauma onto jinx because she is SOOO vulnerable. she is deeply traumatized as well, but it’s not in the same way silco is. because he says it over and over again, he says that vi ABANDONED jinx when she didn’t. she never did. never would have. he wants jinx to have gone through what he did so he’s not alone.

i think jinx and silco’s relationship is very sweet at times and i could never be mad that he took her in, because in that moment, she truly had nobody else. vi got taken away, her family was dead, where would she go? i mean sure, she would’ve ended up as a firelight probably, but silco didn’t know that. all he saw was himself when he looked at her.

and i saw some people saying he held her because he knew who she was and it was because of felicia, but when you rewatch that scene with the context of him and vander’s past, it’s so clear that vander is his motive, not felicia.

he sees powder and when she says that vi is not her sister anymore, in his head, he believes that he has now found a kindred spirit. someone who is just like him. “we will show them all” he is saying that they will show everybody that it was THIER loss, vi and vander lost silco and powder, not the other way around. “we will show them all” that we did not let this affect us like it could have!

idk rambling is now over. it’s 1am and i work in the morning but i could not get this out of my head.

( also pls don’t take this as jinx and silco hate cause it’s not! like i said i only appreciate their relationship but i appreciate it for WHAT IT IS and not what the fandom wants it to be. i just think they’re interesting and complex and severely trauma bonded. vander is jinx’s dad. silco was the man who raised her. there’s a difference. and yes, her love for silco would be so much stronger bc she spent so much more time with him!! anyways good night. )

[grantstrainers]

No you don’t get it.

Sirius with a cleft lip.

Deaf Regulus.

Latino Monty - Bengali Effie.

Ugly hot Remus.

Pandora being albino.

Regulus being a dickhead and mean and rude and horrible to people.

BPD James.

Welsh Remus.

Barty low-key being a bigot and being a punk not for political reasons just to piss off his dad.

Sirius, Peter, and James being bullies.

Quadrilingual Sirius and Regulus being a polyglot just to one up him.

SLAVIC-FRENCH BLACK BROTHERS.

Brazilian Rosier Twins.

Marlene being from Derry.

Remus personality form TCOPTP

[killerqueenhetfield]

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[fbiartist]

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[lettertoanoldpoet]

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[luckyspike]

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[bludhavensbirdboy]

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[elizakai]

guys i need to consume dustyrottencrop (i hate that name) content consider this an invitation to self promote or link/suggest any horror dust farm content, art, fics, ideas, headcanons whatever in the ask box or comments or reblogs or anywhere😭

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[andypartridges]

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[finngualart]

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[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

seeing ari answer recent asks while mine is rotting away like a decaying corpse for months make me feel like the ugly duckling

……. anon please know that i’m not saying this to be mean but asks like these are . kind of hurtful??? and i’d appreciate it if you didn’t send any more :’) my ask box is quite literally overflowing to the point where i’m considering turning them off completely, i have like . 400+ unanswered asks at the moment so you’re in no way the odd one out, i’m not ignoring you, asks just end up piling up for a plethora of reasons. i genuinely have zero clue when i’ll get to yours because that would involve me digging through my inbox and that will … overwhelm me even more

i understand being frustrated but please don’t put pressure on me, answering asks is not an obligation for me in the first place, it’s something that i take time out of my day to do because i enjoy it!!!! i don’t want this to come off as mean but your ask did sting a bit 😭😭 i promise i feel plenty guilty enough

[ivomartins]

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[green-green-grass]

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[josephtrohman]

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[shaykai]

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