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Will forever be grateful for this post and your writings crab! I usually read this every know and then! Really recommend and read crabdrables blog!! Sorry for the VERY late thoughts but taking L's left and right irl lol Onto some of my personal thoughts:
Relating very much with reader's unending cycle of self-doubt and hatred that may stem from themselves and from family too.
Ain't exactly an academic achiever expect when college but please for the love of find time in social life to or you'll kind of end up with reader here. Asian things lol.
Speaking of Asian things, reader's parents love language here is more on actions and less on verbal. This alright but kinda toxic when its something one thing only. Reader craves to of validation through words too. What's one action can be interpreted as another; example
Academic validation you'll find in majority of families unfortunately something reader thought that they should do for majority of their life but their is life outside school too.
Pleasing for other people is what person's identity will get themselves killed literally and metaphorically, it shows that reader is drained from what all happened in their life.
Reader really giving it all, as they think it would be make it or break it on the military.
Sad with reader that even if they joined the 141, their feelings of doubt and emptiness is still their and not easily those feeling be swayed easily.
Reader be yearning and wanting to be part of the 141 fam yet really made them out of place at the task force at first.
Calling "kid" by the 141 pulled me some of my heart strings, reader for sure was touched by their endearment thought they are still processing what the 141 say.
Reader's mind and thoughts be really damaged, so deep in their mind that they forgot the positive interactions with the 141.
Not the reader overhearing the string of Gaz' words and reader walking away not hearing the whole convo. Gaz seeing through reader and worried mother hen.
Ghost be the terrifying lt yet softie understanding big bro here.
Soap the ever social butterfly yet respecting social boundaries for reader.
Dad!Price ain't giving up reader that early. Yearning for someone like Price wanting to understand and talk to like reader here.
Reader may not feel that they have place in 141 but they already are, they are just in denial and still on process.
Reader be shocked that Price finds them.
Price be observant due to years being in the military.
âSomething on your mind?â Price asks that lead to conversation his understanding that led to Reader's opening up even when they cried earlier.
Price be knight in shining armor and Papa bear that is ready to defend anyone and especially 141 and that includes the reader. "Violence and timing." as Price known quote.
Reader be awkward on calling Price's first name and sharing what on their mind is.
Price despite reader's doubts on their place on 141 still reassures and knows that reader is in the right place. That not anyone could replace reader as they already carve into 141's hearts.
Price giving reader more credit as he sees that reader worked their ass off hard and well.
Not the joked that turned to not joked with hugging and effing Reader still protecting their parents and Price horrified with the silence and revelation.
Captain with his words about obligation and not love for sure hit Reader's head like a truck.
Price really giving the words that Reader crave and wanted to hear for their whole life, did gave them hope and made them less empty.
Papa John Price gave hug that Reader may not realized that they need it.
Reader felt seen and appreciated for who they are. Reader be stuck and with their found family as long as they can (forever).
Hiii Crab so happy to see you write outside of our rants/idea chats and my fellow delulu cod enjoyer! Would love to request Platonic!141 + Reader (sorry if this is long and somewhat confusing lol). You can do headcanons, drabble or whatever you comfy for. An idea that popped in my head kinda semi personal: Civ or 141! Reader though has parents and family is the reader is quite something else. Reader despite having somewhat normal upbringing still feel empty; they shouldn't be feeling this numb and empty deep inside of them. The reader craves the love that they give but couldn't or lack of receiving it back, though they donât expect it or selfishly want it. Just someone who understands them even in their deepest darkest secret or flaw then boom cue the task force 141 unexpected yet welcoming to their life and maybe the one that the Reader can lean and let them be vulnerable on (finally). Â
Take your time on doing this Looking for to your other writing genuinely -Cee, your fellow Soap delulu
GN!Reader & 141 (Mostly Price)
Warnings: Slight angst Ships: None. A/N: This absolutely ran away from me and I do not at all regret it, hope you enjoy, Cee!!! Words: 3549
Almost your entire life had been a cycle of self doubt that also started to churn and twist into self-hatred. You blamed yourself for the feelings. Afterall, you had a relatively normal upbringing. Two parents who were both present in your life, both of whom worked so that you all had food on the table and a roof over your head. A luxury that very few had.
The least you could do for them is follow the path that they wanted to put you on, no matter how much you didnât want to do it. Because you loved them.Â
So you excelled in your education, studying hard to try and impress your parentsâ to make them love you just as much as you loved them for everything that they did for you for your entire life. They wanted you to do all three sciences despite the additional workload it would add to your already stretched thin time? Then you would do them, take any extra classes after school in order to keep up with the work and not lag behind any of your peers.Â
There was no such thing as a social life, either, not when you had homework and projects due. Friends were few and far between. Generally, most people left when they realised how hyper focused you were on your grades instead of social interaction.Â
Did a classmate get a higher grade than you on a test? Well obviously you didnât study hard enough, you just needed to dedicate more time to school even though school was all you had.
Did you get the highest marks in the class? Good, that was what was expected of you. Why didnât you get full marks? You were better than that. You would do better because you loved your family. They showed it in their own way, of course, by encouraging you to study harder and get better grades. That was their love language, and yours was doing as they asked without a second thought. Because, at the end of the day, you were lucky to have an upbringing like you had. You would ignore the hollow void clawing at your chest because you had no right to feel that wayâ not when you had a roof over your head and parents that loved you(?).
It was when you came top of the class with full marks in a recent test, you came home with a beaming smile on your face and proudly showed the test to your parents. They took the papers from your hands, flipping through your work with critical eyes, before handing the papers back to you.Â
âWell done, weâre so proud of you.â That was all you wanted them to say to you. That was all you needed to hear. To know that they loved you.Â
âYour penmanship is terrible.â Was what you got instead. When you tried to point at the big 100% in green pen, you were waved away. âHow are you expected to get a job when you write like a child? Iâm surprised the teacher could even read your answersâ.Â
After several years of balancing a work and educational life and paving a way for a line of work that you didnât want for parents you should have been grateful to have, you decided that enough was enough.Â
No matter how hard you worked, no matter how high your marks were, they would never be proud of you. They would never return the love that you had for them until you nearly killed yourself trying.Â
Spending your entire childhood, teenagehood and all of your current adulthood trying to please your parents predictably would damage oneâs psyche. You had no friends, family who had never been devoted to you as you were to them, and high grades serving as the foundations to a prison-like future.
You dropped out of University. The only option forward that you saw was joining the army in the vain hope that the empty feeling inside of you would dissipate when you actually did something that you believed was more worthwhile than any University course.Â
So you threw yourself into the military, working harder than all of the other recruits and training at every chance you could.
Your skills and determination became widely recognised amongst your peers. It took several years, but you eventually caught the eye of none other than Captain John Price.Â
Impressed by your willpower that not many soldiers possessed, he offered you a place on the 141.Â
Naturally, you agreed. You believed that being part of such a well renowned and respected team would finally beat back the lingering self doubt and emptiness that had curled itself around your heart.
It didnât. If anything, it made it worse.
You were invited to join the 141, sure, but they had already established their own relationships between each other, had already bonded into a close knit group, and you were simply an outsider. Yes, you had been hand picked by Price himself, but that didnât mean you were part of the team. They had their own inside jokes that they told to one another, leaving you feeling left out on most days.
And you felt⊠lacking around them. Ghost was stronger, Gaz was faster, Soap was smarter (he was a demolitions expert for crying out loud!), and Price was almost all of those rolled into one. They all complimented each other as a team. Meanwhile you felt like a spare tyre, a master of nothing and barely a jack of any trade.Â
Despite how you felt about it all, they all called you âkidâ. Regardless of age gaps between yourself and the rest of them, the nickname stuck mostly because you were the newbie. It came as a surprise that it wasnât spat with vitriol as your peers before had, but it was in fact said with⊠an affection you couldnât quite place.
You couldnât ignore the hole in your chest that had been chipped at over the years, forming a gaping maw that no reassurances could really mend.Â
Doubt lingered in the back of your mind, chipping away at your sanity as you prepared for the worst. How long would it take before they realised you werenât good enough?Â
You were so deep in your doubts that you didnât realise that you had been distancing yourself even more than before until you overheard a conversation in Priceâs office a few months down the line.
â-- they donât belong on the team.â Gaz said as you passed Priceâs office and your heart dropped. It was only the tailend of what he had been saying but you had gotten the gist. You wanted to stay, to listen to the conversation more and listen to what your team had to say about you, but you didnât. What you were going to hear were likely things you had already told yourself right from the start. You keep walking on, ignoring the sting of tears burning in the corners of your eyes. The blood rushing in your ears prevented you from heating the rest of the conversation.Â
â-- not only are they acting like they donât belong on the team, but theyâre acting like theyâre not good enough.â Gaz continued, sighing in frustration.
âMaybe they need more time.â Ghost rumbled in reply, âLet them come out of their shell a little bit. Best not rush these things.â He was talking from experience, after all.
âAye⊠maybe I can invite them out for drinks or sommat? I wouldnât want them getting transferred before we got to know them a little more.â Soap had been the one that had tried the hardest to get close to you but had also tried to give you space so as to not suffocate you with his personality.Â
âThey wonât be getting transferred.â Price said with conviction, tapping his desk, âI chose them to be part of this team and this is where theyâre going to stay. Let me have a word with them first.â
âAye, sir.â
â â â â â â
You found yourself in the smokerâs shelter outside the main building. It was late enough that most of the soldiers had gone to bed or off to do their own things elsewhere so you doubted that you would be bothered for a little while. Just enough time for you to get your thoughts together. Your tears had dried in your eyes a few minutes ago, making them sting in the cold air. You didnât need to look in your reflection to know that you probably looked like a wreckâ entirely unbecoming of a soldier of your apparent status.Â
You didnât want to get transferred. Despite your distance with the 141, you didnât hate them. Far from, actually, you held a great deal of respect for each and every one of them. It was just that you felt like you didnât have your place amongst them. Not good enough to be associated with them.Â
âBit late to be out here in the cold, chuck.â A voice startled you out of your thoughtsâ one that you would recognise anywhere from the low rasp of a smoker's lungs.Â
âCaptain.â You croaked, wincing at the patheticness in your voice. There was a scuff of boots as Price came closer, leaning into your line of vision with a furrowed brow which only furrowed more as he took in your dishevelled appearance.
âSomething on your mind?â He asked kindly, perching on the arm of the bench to give you some personal space. He left his question open, allowing you any chance to steer the conversation how you wanted to. There was no judgement for catching you at your lowest, no disgust at your red rimmed eyesâ just polite understanding and a non verbal offer of pleasant company.Â
âWhy did you pick me, Captain?â
The question made him tilt his head, a frown beginning to tug on his features. You were worried you had insulted him.
âWhat brought this on, huh? Someone say something to you? Need me to have a word with them?â He straightened his back, scowling. Whilst you felt like you didnât have a place in the 141, you could never deny the shield of protectiveness that Price held over his team. You remember in the back of your mind the day that some General who thought he was hot shit had the audacity to undermine Soap as nothing more than a âyappy dogâ when offered the Scotâs demolitions expertise. Price had appeared almost out of thin air and almost ripped the General a new one and things would have escalated into a fist fight had Laswell not intervened. It wasnât as though Price didnât think his own soldiers were capable of defending themselves, but he couldnât care less about punishments aimed his own way over that of his Sergeants and Lieutenant. It was just a surprise that the protective streak extended over you, too, despite your distance to your teammates.
âIâll sound stupid.â You mumbled, looking down at the ground as if expecting him to chastise you like a child. He didnât.
âIâve had my fair share of stupid over the years. Try me.â
â... and ungrateful.â
âI once had a guy punch me in the face two seconds after I took a bullet that would have killed him.â Price countered with a cut off chuckle once he remembered what was probably a mission long finished and cleared his throat. âCâmon, tell Captain whatâs on your mind.â
And he sounded so sincere when he said it. Sounded like he genuinely wanted to hear what was going on in your headâ that he was willing to waste what was already his important and limited time on someone like you.Â
âSirââ
âJohn.â Price corrected gently, crows feet more noticeable at the corners of his eyes scrunched up when he smiled, âWeâre off duty, you donât need to be so formal.â
â... John.â You echoed, finding that you really didnât like saying that. It felt like calling your teacher by their first name in primary school or a classmateâs parent other than their last name.Â
âNow, câmon, tell me whatâs on your mind. Might not be a therapist, but Iâm better than bottling it up.â You wondered in the back of your mind how often Price did this. Sat with his soldiers and talked with them, offered them a listening ear to hear their vents and fears. You couldnât help but feel honoured to be one of the few he willingly offered said time to. Your silence stretched on as you thought of the words to say, how to phrase what you wanted to say without sounding unappreciative of the opportunity that Price had offered you when he requested you join his team.Â
âI donât feel like I belong here.â You blurted once the silence had stretched on for long enough to border on uncomfortable. Johnâs face fell and you quickly realised how bad that sounded and rushed to correct yourself.
âNo, no, wait, let me explainââ the Captain closed his mouth to allow you to continue speaking, but you could tell that it was hard for him. âI just⊠you could have anyone better than me, you know? Iâm not a demolition expert. Iâm⊠Iâm not the best Sniper. Iâm the slowest on the team, pretty sure Iâm the weakestââ
âNope.â Price interrupted, finally breaking the bubble of your personal space as he took a proper seat next to you on the bench but still respecting the distance enough to keep a few inches between you. âNope, not lettinâ you say another word.â
âButââÂ
âNope.â
âCapââ
âNo.â
âBut you could have anyone betterââ
âBut they wouldnât be you.â He deflected easily. Far too easily. He leant back on the bench, crossing one leg over the other as he folded his arms over his chest. His fingers twitched and you could tell he was itching for a cigar but didnât light one out of respect.Â
âAlright, sure, I can ask Laswell to give me one of the best soldiers in the SAS and have them brought here tomorrow. They could be the best of the best, top of their class, better than you and maybe even better than me. But thatâs a bit of a stretch.â He winked and earned a weak chuckle from you. âBut they wonât be you. I donât pick just on skill alone, kid, I pick based on how I feel people would fit into the team. I chose you because I knew that youâd be perfect.â
âAs for not being a demolitions expert, let me let you in on a little secret. Iâve no fucking clue about demolitions, either. And you donât have to be on the team to be the âbest Sniperâ. Youâre better than most, and thatâs whatâs important. As for being the weakestâ did you or did you not bodily lift Gaz in a firemanâs carry during training the other week while he was trying to act as an injured civilian? Quite dramatically, might I add. Swooned and everything.â
You remembered that practice mission. Quite fondly, actually. Gaz was a civilian and , after being struck by a foam bullet from Soap, had dramatically screamed in agony and crumpled to the floor. When you had lifted him up and over your shoulders, the bastard continued to wail something along the lines of telling his non-existent spouse that he loved them and that his money be given to his equally non-existent children. Soap got in another shot to the manâs head, knocking off his cap in the process. Distracted as you were trying to haul your teammate out of the danger zone, you couldnât help but laugh thinking about it now.Â
âLast time I checked, Gaz is somewhat heavier than a sack of flour. Donât tell him I said that, Iâll hurt his feelings.â Price was right, you supposed. You were more than capable of carrying Gaz over your shoulders, maybe even Soap or Price himself if the time called for it. Ghost you werenât so sure about, though. The man was a walking mountain.Â
âWhat Iâm trying to say is that you have to give yourself more credit. Youâre more than good enough to be on my team. I chose you for a reason.â
You⊠did not expect that sort of reassurance from Price. You had hoped for something along those lines, yes, but perhaps with a thrown in criticism or three. You waited for a âbutâ that never came. The man snorted beside you and when you gave him a quizzical look, he waved off your concern.
âShit, if I didnât know any better, Iâd think the next thing out of your mouth would be that your parents never hugged you as a kid.â
Your silence made him slowly turn his head towards you. It would have almost been comical if the situation wasnât. His face crumbled and a wounded sound emerged from his throat.
âSometimes they did!â You rushed to defend the people that raised you. âAnd they gave me food and shelter, clothes when I needed themââ
âFucking hell. No, thatâs what theyâre supposed to do because theyâre your parents. What about telling you that they were proud of you? That they loved you? I saw your records. Top of your class in not just your training but in your education, too. Triple sciences, mathematics, all of it. They had to be proud of you for that? My parents would have killed for me to get even a passing grade in my GCSEs.â You looked down at the ground and it was Priceâs turn to have his eyes fixed on you.Â
âThey were proud of you, werenât they?â He asked again, leaning forwards so he could catch your eye, his own filled with concern. âKid?â
âI donât talk to them much anymore.âÂ
Price inhaled sharply and he leaned back again, looking around and clenching his jaw as if fighting back his anger. His fingers twitched again. You admired his self control as he was still yet to grab a cigar that you knew he kept on his person. Usually in his breast pocket while his lighter was in his right pocket.
âListen to me.â The Captain said, a more stern edge to his voice now that he had gathered his thoughts together. âWhatever your family said to youâ how they treated you? Forget it. They showed you obligation. Not love. They didnât want what was âbestâ for you, they wanted bragging rights. What youâve achievedâ here, in bootcamp, in university and in school, is something to take pride inâ no, no, look at me.â
Your gaze had trailed to the side so you avoided looking at your Captain in the eyes. He noticed and clicked his fingers to gain your attention back on him.
âDonât look away from me because I want you to listen to what Iâm gonna say and I want you to look at my face as I say it.â Your eyes met his blue ones, âYou should be proud of everything that youâve achieved in your life. Iâm sorry that your family never told you that and Iâm sorry that I havenât said that enough to you since you joined 141.â
You opened your mouth to say somethingâ to argue or disagree but he shook his head.
âNo. Itâs my turn to speak now. Iâm proud of you. I am so proud of you. Everything youâve done and everything that youâre yet to do, I will always be proud of you. Youâre an exemplary soldier and I knew the moment I saw you that you would be a perfect addition to the 141 and you have proved me right time and time again. You belong on this team just as much as the rest of the boys. Do you understand?â
So many wordsâ proud, proud, proud. Thatâs all you had wanted to hear for so many years from someone whose opinion mattered to you. You wanted to be seen and Price, this godsend of a man, had seen you and more.
âKid, do you understand me?â
You nodded once and then realised that Price wouldnât have been able to tell through your shaking. Tears blurred in the corners of your eyes and you nodded again, not trusting your voice in case it shattered.Â
âWhat do you need from me?â Priceâs voice was oh so soft, like he was talking to a frightened fawn. He could see how much his words had affected you and it clearly broke his own heart.
âA hug.â Your bottom lip wobbled and his face softened as he opened his arms, twitching his fingers to urge you closer.
âI can do that.âÂ
You leaned into him and he quickly wrapped his arms around you, drawing you in close. You could smell the lingering scent of his last cigar. The smell of his office and cleaning oil. You felt his chin on the top of your head and felt how his chest rumbled as he spoke.
âYouâre part of the 141 whether you like it or not, alright? Me and the boys want you here for as long as you want to be.â
At that moment, for the first time in your life. You felt wanted. You felt appreciated and you felt seen.
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It has been a bit over a month since the first time I watched Dead Boy Detectives and I now have watched it from start to finish four times. Oops. I don't know how that happenedâI certainly wasn't prepared for this level of love for a series.
Since I haven't really been in any fandoms or tumblr in, like... ten years or whatever, I wanted to write about why I fell in love with Dead Boy Detectives when I saw the series for the first time. I don't know if anyone's interested in reading a long-ish post, but in case you are, buckle up because this is going to be pure love and positivity from start to finish. It's mainly about Edwin and Charles, though.
I started watching the show without any background information and never having seen the Sandman either. I rotate streaming services and it was Netflix's turn. I read queer fiction quite a lot and watch queer movies and series as a hobby, and remembered someone mentioning Dead Boy Detectives.
The beginning on the series was intriguing enough already, but it was during this scene that I knew I was going to watch the entire thing:
This leads me to the reason I love the series so much: the carrying force of the story is the love Edwin and Charles have for each other, be it platonic or romantic. I'm a sucker for themes like found family and being loved as your authentic self because that's something I crave. I have always been more or less lonely because of social anxiety and struggling with social situations. Perhaps that's why stories containing those themes have such a profound effect on me each time.
Of course, the way the series combines elements of horror and comedy with heartwarming and wholesome sweetness is delightfully refreshing in itself. Dead Boy Detectives kept me glued to the screen so that I finished it in a day the first time I watched it. However, the characters are what makes the show so brilliant. I think the cast in general is phenomenal, but it's the love between Edwin and Charles that I felt most while watching.
This obviously is where I have to praise George Rexstrew and Jayden Revri for their acting. I think it's largely thanks to them that I love Edwin and Charles so much. Their characters' chemistry and the fond way Edwin and Charles interact with each other in the series is something I felt viscerally right from the beginning. It's obviously ingrained in the overall plot, but the love can also be felt in the smallest gestures. How many shows do you have where your favorite character dying is one of your favorite moments in the series because it's so sweet? (I'm sure you can deduce my favorite character from this...)
Personally, I also think that George Rexstrew and Jayden Revri's acting is particularly spellbinding during the moments their characters break down and show raw emotion. In an odd way the characters' suffering is what makes episodes like The Case of the Devlin House and The Case of the Very Long Stairway so brilliant. The characters' emotions during their most vulnerable moments are so tangible.
I know there has been talk about how season two would look like if the series was revived, and honestly, I think there's one crucial thing that should be kept as it is or the entire thing would be ruined: the carrying force of the show being that Edwin and Charles are willing to do anything to not to get separated.
I can't see any universe where someone becomes more important to the two main characters than what they're to each other. Charles says that Edwin is the only person he'd go to Hell for. We know how Edwin feels. The love is there already. If either of them had a long-lasting romance with someone else, the love interest would get two with the price of one. Equally important? Wellâpossibly. Love isn't finite. More important? Never.
I'd like to see Edwin and Charles get together, though. They're like an old married couple already and I can't imagine them being together with anyone else in the long run. At least the first season left things open enough for interpretation, with the cancellation and all.
Last but not least, it's a bit crazy that I only saw the show for the first time a bit over a month ago and was ready to splurge on a cameo. It was my birthday during the gameoden week and I got a birthday message! It was very sweet and has cheered me up ever since. I'm not sharing it here because I feel it's a bit personal with my birthday and all, but I loved it.
In case you ended up reading all this, thanks for reading my love letter for the show and the characters and the actors!
#dead boy detectives#dbda#save dead boy detectives#edwin payne#charles rowland#george rexstrew#jayden revri#this series has me in a chokehold
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I saw someone playing Twilight Princess and it got me wondering.
Does Chain have a horse or an animal companion? If so, what do they think of Key being around?
If not, what's Chain's and Key's thoughts about animals? (Are seen they pets, for working, or beings in their own rights?)
Are there any animals that hate Chain or Key on sight?
Sorry if this has already been asked. I looked through the blog but I was fast scrolling so I could have missed it.
(Also, I'm pretty new to LoZ so I'm not sure how common having animal companions is in the series. I've only got pieces of BoTW/ToTK and Twilight Princess as a reference point so my bad if it is pretty uncomon.)
Sooo, in loz almost all links have partners/companions and then there's only a few of them who have animal companions too, who are mostly used for transportation
From what I remember, the only ones who do have animals are sky, time and twilight.
Wild is an outlier since he can have horses but they're optional and he doesn't have an emotional bond with his horses lol
So, Key&Chain are post wind waker and post spirit tracks
Anyway, in the wind waker, since the land was flooded to the point of everyone living in islands on a great sea, there aren't many animals, just seagulls and pigs mostly
And then in spirit tracks, since it's post wind waker there aren't many animals either, there are rabbits though, that I remember lol (if anyone remembers more animals from spirit tracks let me know pls)
I suppose that by Key&Chain's time comes along, there could be more animals around, like cuckoos, but I like to believe horses and cows are completely extinct by that time
Travel in land is done via train, like in spirit tracks, so horses and carriages aren't necessary at all for normal life
Anyway this was a long way to say that no, Chain doesn't have an animal companion since he doesn't need them for transportation lol so like most links, he just walks around
In wind waker pigs can get pretty mad and charge at u if u bother them too much, so maybe pigs would attack them randomly lmao and well if there are cuckoos then those too
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About Trafalgar Law and his vitiligo
Feel free to ignore this post if you so wish, but I chose to speak up on this matter. I have seen so many fanarts that portray Law with his white skin patches, often looking like a dalmatian and it bothers me. Are you all aware that animal-like patterns for vitiligo are considered insulting? And you all might look at me weirdly now and ask "how can something so cute/wholesome/unique possibly be bothersome to anyone?!" Read further on your own risk, slight tmi.
Law's disease is of course fictional. Visually it looks the closest to vitiligo, but it has a lot in common with autoimmune skin diseases as well. I happen to know how it's like to live with a skin disease. Meds for my condition aren't really for curing anything, they just make the symptoms dimnish, but in return they leave white patches on my skin that are resistant to tanning for a long while (also those meds are very dangerous for your kidneys apparently if used too often, as a side note). Why would anyone use them? Well, because it's a hereditary skin condition: it never goes away and there's no way to cure it, those meds are literally the only thing that does anything. I just get lucky whenever symptoms aren't visible for some time until they inevitably come back anyway. And believe me, this isn't "wholesome", "cute" or "unique" to have discolored skin patches. You all probably have no idea (why would you have anyway, it's natural that you don't) how it's like in summer, when you go on a bus or tram, you wear a t-shirt because it's freaking hot and you can't hide under the clothes or you risk melting or fainting. And people see your discolored skin or red patches on your skin. You know how they react? They stare at your hands/arms and then they move away. That's the default reaction whenever your skin looks unusual. People would rather move away, just in case it's something contagious. They will also stare, a lot, and you can feel it's judgemental, even though my condition is in no way my own fault (or anyone else's who also has it), thank you very much.
That being said, I doubt Law would be happy parading openly with white patches visible on his skin. Most people wouldn't realize that's it's just a leftover from his old, cured disease. They would simply assume what people always assume: that it's something contagious. Evidence below, if you need it:
And Law's reaction to their reaction:
He doesn't look very happy, of course.
People would isolate him, avoid him and *stare* disrespectfully at him like he's a weird specimen, at best. Law would quickly learn to hide it under his clothes, long sleeves, long pants, gloves etc. No one truly wants to attract negative attention like this, especially not someone who already went through a lot of traumatic experiences, like Law. And sure, as a child he didn't really hide it:
But take into account those are the clothes he was wearing ever since Flevance happened. He didn't have any other clothes. As soon as he's accepted as part of Doflamingo's family he starts to wear different ones, and he covers up the spots on his arms by wearing long sleeves:
And oh boy, I can totally relate to that.
Sure, in ideal world, no one would assume Law has a disease just because his skin is discolored. But we're not living in ideal world. Some people, just like me, have hereditary skin conditions and feel bothered by fanarts that exoticize skin disease or skin disorder. Yeah sure, why does it matter, Law is a fictional character with fictional disease, right? But vetiligo is very similar to this and is a real condition which is part of life of real people. Those aren't freckles that are just cute and make you look unique (and some people might have freckles and still hate the extra attention drawn towards it, and it's valid if they feel like that!).
Just wanted to get that off my chest. I don't need sympathy for my disease, this is not why I wrote this post. I just wish people would realize that by drawing a vitiligo Law they're toying with a lot of emotional baggage there, please treat it respectfully. Maybe one day the world will be wholesome enough to think of it as normal (normal, not fetishized, ugly, contagious or exotic!), but I assure you it still doesn't. If you think it's just a "me" thing, check out this blog: https://www.tumblr.com/vitiligo-is-not-a-trend/765530242896003072 and many other posts of theirs. Not everyone with skin conditions might react the same way, but keep in mind people with actual vitiligo and skin diseases can and often will be really sensitive about it, and for a good reason.
Yes, that being said I also think it's wholesome if Luffy accepts vitiligo spots on Law easily like it's not a big deal, especially in comparison to the rest of the world which would fear him instead. It's definitely something Luffy would do. But that's completely different from fetishizing it. Please, you're stepping on a thin line here, tumblr.
#one piece#trafalgar law#vitiligo law#autoimmune skin disease#not how I imagined I would come out on tumblr but here we are#I still think this is important#please be respectful#people often carry really heavy emotional baggage about it
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Regarding Alastor being redeemed, I have been seeing some posts regarding how it can happen that trigger an instant ick reaction from me. I have taken time to think about why I keep having such a strongly negative reaction to it. The first thing I took into consideration is that I really do not want my current favourite bad boy to become good. I am first and foremost a villain fan and his becoming good has a high chance of ruining the character for me. This means that there is a chance that I would dislike any theory that ends with Alastor redeemed. A lot of time you see people making arguments for why a ship or character should not be liked when the real reason is they personally don't like it and the reasons are merely support. I try to make sure I am aware of my personal bias.
Regardless of my personal bias, I have decided that there is one particular theory regarding how Alastor can be redeemed that I hate from the bottom of my heart. It is the theory where Alastor after being humiliated, degraded and losing everything including his pride has no choice but to accept Charlie's care and change for the better. Sometimes it involves betraying the hotel first, but generally involves him being unable to deal with the challenges that he faces. I am sure how this works in the minds of those who like this theory makes perfect sense. He can no longer rely on himself, he sees that he isn't capable of anything and now has no choice but to become what Charle wants him to be. I hate it so much. I have kept turning it over in my mind and I think I have figured out all the reasons why separate from my bias.
First, suffering doesn't make people better. It just doesn't. The theory seems to require enough suffering to rewrite Alastor's personality and make him Charlie's puppet. It also reminds me of William Shakespeare's The Taming of the Shrew. The story of how the proud woman was broken down to make her obedient. She might be "better" but it also felt to me like she died and became a puppet. He would be "redeemed" but that wouldn't be Alastor. It would just be something that looks like him. I just feel like fans of Alastor who like this theory don't realise that he would lose everything that pulled them to him in the first place if this happened. Some could not deal with him being less energetic in the main show than the pilot due to him being bored. How would they deal with what would essentially be a hollow creature wearing his face trying to become good because there is nothing left in him?
Second, with a proud character you can't brute force them into letting people in. Part of the idea of the theory is that after he is humiliated and suffers in front of them, he will drop his smile and be forced to let others in. That doesn't make sense to me. We have already seen in S1E8, how Alastor deals with things not going his way. He holds onto what little control he has by refusing to drop his smile and holding onto his pride while going through a breakdown. The best way to get someone like Alastor as far as I am concerned is to deal with him the same way you would deal with a wild animal. Slowly lower their guard. I think Charlie is already doing that whether Alastor knows it or not. Besides, pride is an important part of the character. Pride is part of what drew me to the character in the first place. The kind of pride that makes a person think it is okay to say, "If I wanted to hurt anyone here I would have done so already" in front of the Princess of Hell, is part of what drew me to Alastor. If he lost it, the character would likely immediately lose all appeal to me. So, there is some personal bias there.
It would make sense to me if the theory was more about Alastor learning that he can rely on others and doesn't have to depend solely on himself which leads to him opening up and letting others in. However, the theory leans very heavily into suffering as a way to make him a better person and a complete erasure of everything that makes up the character through suffering to make him into someone who wants and is worthy of redemption. That's fine for fanfiction but I hope it never becomes canon.
#hazbin hotel#alastor#long rant#disclaimer: i have stopped enjoying a character in the past because they turned good#i have a vested interest in alastor remaining the token evil teammate
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ok here are some In Stars and Time thoughts: (wow! that's a lot of thoughts actually! long post warning! also warning for like every possible spoiler, don't read this if you haven't engaged with the game to your satisfaction)
I'm obsessed with the fact that the loop that ends up being the final one is the one where EVERYTHING goes wrong. I spent the whole game subconsciously building up my Perfect Final Loop in my mind, how I'd get every item to make sure I didn't miss an opportunity to use em, do all the friendquests and such... I didn't even realize I'd been building up that ideal scenario until after credits rolled! Really really cool. The timeline where Siffrin does the worst stuff he does in any loop is the one that stays. And it's still a happy ending! it's a better ending because of that! His friends saw him at his worst and still loved him! He didn't have to do everything perfect to keep them around actually! Something about that feels so right, to me.
I keep using "ludonarrative resonance" to describe this game and yeah ok I'm huffing my own farts here whipping that out but whatever, it's REAL. The player and Siffrin are on the EXACT same emotional journey as each other, we're getting tired of seeing the exact same lines over and over again right alongside them, we're taking shortcuts because we've seen it all before and just want to grab key open door grab crest etc etc make the progress go. We're starting to find these previously-charming characters grating because we've just seem them repeat the SAME lines over and over and over and OVER again until they start feeling like caricatures of themselves who we can barely feel any real compassion for any more.... It's just so.... clean, it's so perfect, to me. It helps that Siffrin is also one of the more relatable characters I've encountered in, like, media. I don't usually relate to fictional characters much, but, man, the emotional constipation, the building scorn, the depression, the Being Weird About Touch... I mentioned in another post that it's really just Siffrin and Murderbot who I've ever found viscerally relatable, of all the characters ever in media. So like, it's a pretty rare position. (I do not relate to the pun-love though. I'm funny I'm good at goofs but bad puns are extremely tedious to me. Which perhaps goes to show how well-realized Siffrin is, given that I'm able to look the other way....)
I think they could have stood to make Loop's Whole Deal a bit more obvious. I had no clue what their fucking deal was at any point. I totally missed the interaction that lets you learn about The Incident and thus get more Loop info at the end, and... it's valid to have different endings in a game of course, but... I felt like I really missed out tbh! And I had no way of knowing I had to keep interacting with the silver coin.... idk. It felt a bit like a gotcha I suppose. And Loop's deal is really cool! Holy hell! I'm doing a quick replay of the game to see more convos with them with this context, and to get the ending with them, and like--!!! There's so much here! Loop tellins Sif to use the royal We, they even tell Siffrin, like-- Loop asks Siffrin why he doesn't just tell his friends about the loops, maybe they can help, why keep it a secret? Meanwhile... Loop!Siffrin is stuck in their own helpless timefuckery world and refusing to let Siffrin know about it! The Siffrin from the Start Again timeline never learned those lessons, they're still trying to help someone else while refusing to ask for help themselves, refusing to even let on that there's a problem! And getting more and more emotionally fucked up about it! Man it's good. I guess it does make a replay more rewarding, not knowing this until the end, the first time, but so much of the game is already a replay that, idk, it does feel weird to replay it. I've already done so many repetitions y'all.... But I guess that's pretty meta, also...
Oh I'm under the impression this is not terribly uncommon but I absolutely did get got by the ?diary? that had the story of the person making a duplicate of themselves so they had someone to talk to. Like I fully thought that was describing the King and Siffrin, I spent a long time under the mistaken impression that Siffrin was a copy of the King in some capacity. Oops.... I might try to gently lead Beloved Roomie away from this interpretation when she plays it. Planning on being pretty hands-off overall but this is one area where I feel it might be justified to violate the prime directive.... But we'll see!
I wish I liked the music more..... This is a game that I think really begs for some real heartwrenching tunes to enhance all of the everything but instead none of it does it for me at all. I think that's a real shame, it's by far my biggest complaint. I'm not asking for Undertale-tier, but, at least something I'd want to put on my playlist for the emotional resonance, y'know?
THEY ACTUALLY KILLED THE KID !!!! LIKE!!!! I guess I have some biases I might should think about but I was not expecting a game that begins with so many explicit pronouns introductions (rather than just giving us context clues) and that has no real cursing to be willing to kill the kid, even impermanently? Let alone so gruesomely? I think I was expecting a much greater level of.... idk, tweeness, fanglessness, than we actually got. In spite of being a fan of insertdisc5's comics for YEARS and years! And like! Damn! Props to them!
God. God. So, like. All the ending fakeouts were fucking great. I genuinely thought the All Friendship Quests ending might be the Real One, I was prepared to be disappointed because it felt too soon and just not.... quite.... right? But I did think that was probably where it was heading! But it wasn't! I got got and it's so heartwrenching and also so satisfying, the mood whiplash from loop to loop is fucking sublime.
And-- AND! The real ending! So like. Some of the stuff I missed was just me not pursuing specific content correctly. But some of it is genuinely just, like, stuff that has no actual purpose besides flavor. Flavor, and.... The locked passphrase door in Dormont. The four-pointed leaf you can get (but not in the final loop!), the bell chime, etc etc. You can't actually really do anything with any of this stuff. But you don't know that! It feels like there's still all these loose ends! And!!! Those loose ends do their job SO WELL! The dev knows Gamer Instincts, knows people are gonna have that mental tally of boxes-yet-to-be-checked. Left some forever unchecked on purpose, which-- At the end, the real end, when Siffrin is about to talk to the Head Housemaiden and find out, for real, if this is the final loop or if it's all going to happen again, again, again. He's scared. He's traumatized! He's thought he Had It so many times! SO many times!!! Hope is terrifying! Hope is a poison! And the game has left these loose threads, and at least for me I really was not sure it was going to work. Like it seemed likely but the same metaknowledge of story structure that made me think it was likely also told me "but wait, there's all these loose threads, and the only way for them to trick us again WOULD BE to make the ending SO elaborate and epilogue-y....." I was nervous right along with Siffrin! I was uncertain! Fucking fantastic work, using my own gamer's instincts against me. Thrilled about it.
All the characters are so well realized. They all have specific relationships with each other, not just with Siffrin (Important!!!!! Huge complaint I had with BG3, they didn't put their whole pussies into this!!!!). And, and, I love how they all have different feelings about the time loops. I love that Mirabelle doesn't want "spoilers," and meanwhile Bonnie doesn't mind them and thinks of their alt-selves as like... them-but-not-them in a very cool way.
There's something about-- the way the game starts as a regular degular videogame and then graaaadually becomes, essentially, a visual novel as the actual gameplay becomes trivialized. Which itself is like, really really cool with the themes! And also, just.... I never would have picked up a straight up visual novel, I just, don't get into them, I'd rather read a book, but! I was already invested! It got its hooks into me when there was gameplay mixing things up and those hooks weren't about to let go just because the gameplay didn't super matter any more!
Straight up when we first see Red I didn't at all process that it was a Color in a game with No Colors, Canonically. They had to spell it out for me. It didn't occur to me to be surprised. I'm just too used to colors existing I guess idk. I think I wish the colors thing had gone somewhere a bit more...? I'm GUESSING it mostly originated as just a cute little explanation for why the game is all grayscale and then fit in with enough stuff to be given elevated importance (?) But it felt... hm. Underdeveloped, maybe. I think I really want more stories in this.... "Setting" and "Universe" and "Series" are not quite the right words but hopefully you get the idea. I want more so there can be one that develops that more. Not that leaving stones unturned is, like, illegal ofc. I just find the idea very compelling....
What is it with time loop stories and themes of loss that cannot be outsmarted. Man. I wondered, for so long, if Siffrin's country was going to be restored in people's minds, if that was one of the main big Plot Things we'd see. And it just didn't! Their memory is going to keep being bad, they're going to keep having all these huge tragic gaps and it's just. What can you do. At some point you have to either be permanently paralyzed by the horrific injustice you've suffered-- or you have to try to live a life. And. Man. I don't think I've actually ever encountered a story that was so much about that exact specific form of loss, the loss of one's culture, history, language! All of it. Gone from everywhere. It made me think of the obvious things and just. Man. What a howling void. The contrast with Odile's deal made it a lot more effective too I think. More of an expanded meditation upon these themes than just one toe dipping in, I guess? Hm.
Odile's battle profile pic when she's at low health is so fucking hot this cartoon character is so hot goddammit.
Game good. You're only reading this if you've already played it, I hope, so I can't use this space to recommend it in a meaningful way but. Heck. Game good.
#toasts poasts#in stars and time#isat#effort#media#I had SO MANY THOUGHTS it turns out!#way more than I realized! I just kept going!
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Radar Festival - July 2023
#sleep token#sleep token worship#sleep toke pics#i have seen those and someone already posted them for sure
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tbf i do think the story could have given the wol more of a connection to it/the antagonist outside of solely through wuk lamat and that probably would have alleviated a lot of pplâs problems with it
#they did this in hw and sb which is how you still feel like the main character while aiding someone else#at least thatâs how it felt to me lol#i donât think itâs bad to want to be the mc in a game where you have been it since the beginning ahdhdjsk#i need a text post tag#like the only reason you fight sphene is bc sheâs like we calculated youâre the best fighter#dawntrail spoilers#also i did think we were gonna get more erenville and krile so many times in the first half i was like can i take a little trip with them đ„ș#only to get sent to wuk lamat again ahdjdk but i do like her. i can see why she would be annoying tho#like if youâre not into characters whose political campaigns are âhappinessâ agshdjskdk#idk thereâs a lot of ppl who arenât into super happy upbeat characters and i think thatâs fine. iâm not one of those ppl but i get it#also i donât think the only way to do this would be like oh a foreigner exploring an exotic world OMG TACOS#contrary to some popular posts iâve seen lmao. surely we can be more creative than that#also there was a ton of OMG TACO in it already#anyway. ahdjfkks#one day iâll make a post about things i really did enjoy#maybe i should think about that today
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having some thoughts......need to watch/read/etc more weird stuff
anyway society if i wasnt at work n could make weird posts n watch weird movies </333
feel free to rec stuff btw if u wanna!!
#i know i think 'i shld watch a weird movie' like daily lately#but im thinking abt body horror stuff in a certain way like. i wanna maybe make a post thats#someones own body turning on them/changing against their will/trying to hurt them. as body horror#not that thats original im sure but i am thinkin !!!!#i already have some examples in my brain i could use hmmmmmm#idk if i know a quote for it but. maybe ?#i need to watch more cronenberg movies i think#ive seen u guys post abt crash + videodrome so im curious abt those. watched the fly recently#his new one looks neat too#hmmm!!!!#n with my lil concept i mentioned its weird cuzzzz thats smth that kinda gets to me (derogatory)#like. body stuff in that way#but that makes it kinda interesting too?#like ya horror stuff is supposed to be uncomfy n gross sometimes n its in a fun way idc!!!!!#im on the clock rn this is so fucked up :(((#when did i become so into weird stuff. idk im weird also! its w/e!!#i used to be way wimpier tho lmao#p#update: this is way vaguer than i realized. v common occurance in horror aldhdk w/e idc#also i wish i was better w gore -_-#ive gotten better than i used to be but. medical school scene early on in reanimator got the best of me#n i gave up aldjdk#so it depends kinda tbh#blood is fine n cool its just when its someones like. insides/organs that i x__x#still im better than i once was! aldhdkj#i can deal w some for sure#anyway!#thinking thoughts again. making work more interesting at least <33
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so
now that I've blacklisted the polls correctly so i can look at them as i feel comfy to (and after blocking everyone that was using them just to be an asshole lmao)
I've been looking at them more and hearing how ppl keep waiting for the roll out
they wouldn't do it like how we had to spread the messaging feature to each other like a virus, would they?
#text post#im sure someone has already tried this but i haven't seen any posts abt it#like that would be both inefficient and absolutely peak tumblr#the cute polls are p much all i see now and those i am enjoying i have to say#plus one of the folks i had to block sent me what i think was supposed to be on anon but they did not hit that button lmaooo#so there was another reason on that one#does suck bc i liked them and thought they liked me but nope! they were laughing at me and using me as entertainment#just like the bullies at school used to do lmaooo#everyone who says that shit stops after school is a goddamn liar adults absolutely still pull this shit
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Jean may barely be a character but I love them for what they are. We truly need more cranky old farts who are nonbinary
#rat rambles#oni posting#tbf they're probably not That old but theyre probably at least middle aged#I personally imagine them as being in the 50s-60s range#so yknow greying a bit but not necessarily crumbling into dust#I can accept them being in their 40s tho just not much younger#theyre also part of the Aid squad so theyve probably been working at gravitas for a while#probably significantly longer than most of the others if we assume that they are in fact decently old but otherwise who knows#anyways all they do is yell at some employees abt to be trapped in sub sub sub basement hell and be grumpy abt the holidays#well ok they dont necessarily yell but they do get mad that one of the scientists that was supposed to be here went home for the holidays#and then after being all like take down those lights this isnt a mall they fuck off and are never seen again#well ok. technically speaking we dont have 100% confirmation that its jean since someone goes jea- before correction themself to last name#but like. its jean. theyre the only character that it could be unless this was some rando. which if I've learned anything theres no randos#everyone who I thought was a rando turned out not to be and Im sure even the completely nameless mentioned characters are probably someone#ok ok. there are Some randos I Think. but most of them are mentioned in relics as historical figures#its very possible that they do appear in other stuff in the logs but Ill have to double check#but from the top of my head theres only like 3 ppl I feel confident calling randos#and thats because two of them are reffered to in historical context + we get full names and the other seems to also be in the past#and also gets a full name so while technically the third Could be someone given that they have initials instead of comfirmed middle names#but both are e and the only e named person we have is ellie who we already know the last name of#so basically theyre almost certainly a rando but a very very weird rando since theyre mentioned in an email I think
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#nishi vents.#i have never felt like i have had any use to anybody. i am always the second option. i am not anyones number one#and if i am theyve never told me because people are generally embarrassed to be seen with me#and i understand that. people have their own friends n such. but is it too much if i asked that i be wanted one day#i wish someone would just. see that i do have worth. because i know i do#i call everyone my best friend. but i dont think anyone has ever called me theirs and genuinely meant it#i want to be the person they have inside jokes with. i want to not feel like a bother every time i msg them#i already messed up with Her all those years ago. i mean. sure we made up again recently. but its not the same#and the rest of our (her) 'friends' dont even remember me.#what even is this post.. okay anyway. im gonna go drink some water
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The Eyes of Death.
This story is mostly inspired by Jaybirbie's prompt | Master post | Next?
"Hey, sweetheart?" Danny called, quickly jotting down the last sentence for his paper. He'd have to remember to go back and reread it and make sure he didn't trail off into another tangent. He swears he wasn't this bad at managing his ADHD back in Amity...
"Yes, Danny?" Damian asked, turning back from the door to face him as he scrolled further down the story he was reading. The familiar font of Gotham City's gazette blurred as a picture of Mr. Freeze and Penguin finally loaded. So that's what was going on. Danny should have known; the bats already dealt with the other usual rouges, and these two were next on the list.
"Can you walk with me? I just know Nancy and her boyfriend are out there, waiting. I really don't want to deal with them again... We could spend more time at my place? Tucker sent me another movie, and I'm unsure if I should watch it alone after last time." Danny pleaded, quickly shoving all of his papers into his bag. He'd deal with straightening them out later, it wasn't like his professors weren't used to his wrinkled essays at this point.
However, he should probably redo the blueprints for Workshop. Mr. Anthlow was a hardass, but nothing could compare to his anger when a student handed in wrinkled blueprints; he claimed he wasn't going to have another 'Tanner' incident on his watch, whatever the heck that meant.
He was not looking forward to whatever Nancy wanted to talk to him about, she looked excited. Which could only mean bad things for him; considering the last time she was excited, he ended up spending time with Bane of all people. And there was no way her boyfriend was just going to let Danny get away again.
Damian grimaces, finally looking up and away from his phone. "I'm sorry beloved..." he held up the device just in time to show an incoming text from his Father, "I promised Father I'd be home a while ago. And with what's happening down on-"
"It's ok, I'll just head out the back door," Danny cut in, seeing the start of guilt on his boyfriend's face. He knew how much Danny hated having to deal with those two, and the fact Damian hasn't been able to even introduce himself to them hasn't helped. With a smile, Danny scooped up his textbooks and made his way to stand in front of Damian, "They can't bother me if they don't see me!"
Unsurprisingly, Danny could feel the guilt grow and start to float around Damian as the boy glanced at his phone, the message tone sounding out again in warning.
Danny only met Damian's father once; it was just a simple shake of hands and sharing names before the man ran off, but it did leave an impression. The man felt tired and paranoid; like, to the point Danny kind of wanted to drag Jazz over and lock the two of them in a room, paranoid. (Danny wants to say he's never seen someone that paranoid, but he'd be lying. He looks in the mirror after all.)
The point is; Danny's only met the man once, but that was enough for him to know that the man would tear down the world if he thought for even a second that one of his kids was in danger. This meant, that if Damian didn't go and reassure his father that he was alive and safe within the next sixty or so seconds, then there was a possibility that there wouldn't be another date for at least another week.
And considering this "study date" was supposed to make up for the last one Damian had missed because of his Father? Yeah, Danny wasn't going to be happy if Damian got grounded or dragged into another 'surprise' family road trip because his father was convinced his children would be dead before the 'yearly' planned get-together in November.
They had a trip to the zoo planned for tomorrow, and Delilah was supposed to be allowed out with her kids. This would be Delilah's first public outing since her kids' birth. There's no way Danny was going to allow Damian to miss that. (he swears to the ancients, if there was a rouge attack he was going to kill someone, Dark Dan's future be damned.)
Lifting his heels off the ground so he could stand on his tiptoes, Danny snagged Damian's arm and pulled him down so he could kiss his cheek. "I'll get home safe, just focus on keeping your dad from going insane. We've got a date at the zoo tomorrow and we're not missing it even if your father becomes the next city rogue."
Damian wrapped his arms around Danny, trapping him in a hug as he sighed in fond frustration. "I promise I won't miss it, ok? I'll be there."
Danny rolled his eyes and pushed Damian back, dropping back to stand on the ground, "You better, 'cause hell hath no fury like a gorilla denied the chance to meet her human best friend's boyfriend."
Damian snorted, before looking away and pretending to cough. Danny moved his textbooks to rest more securely in one of his arms, so he could point at his boyfriend. "I'm not kidding, if I show up tomorrow and tell her all about my life and you're not there, she will break out and track you down. I won't stop her either, you'd deserve whatever she does to you."
"Alright, alright. I get it, and I already promised I'd be there didn't I?" Damian chuckled, raising his hands up in surrender. Which would have been cute if it wasn't for the fact that his phone went off again, this time in an insistent buzzing. His eldest brother's ringtone; which meant Damian was going to be busy for a while.
Cursing, Damian turned and answered, "I'm in the middle of something, this better be important Grayson," glancing back at Danny, he mouthed for him to wait a moment as his brother started talking.
Smiling, Danny shook his head, snatched Damian's jacket, and started making his way out the door. There was no way Damian would finish this phone call any time soon. Danny's learned not to wait after the last four times this happened. Damian turned back with betrayed eyes, but the urgent voice of his brother buzzing even louder held him back. Waving goodbye with a smile, Danny shut the door and started making his way down the hall.
He'd have to ask Damian what happened tomorrow, Grayson didn't usually call him, especially when he knew Damian was spending time with Danny. He said it had something to do with how it was sacrilege to interrupt time spent with a significant other. Danny had wanted to ask him more about it but hadn't gotten the chance when The Riddler crashed their spontaneous meeting.
Speaking of The Riddler, Danny's social science paper wasn't looking too hot right now. He'd have to block out a time for him to work on that at some point this week. He wasn't doing anything on Friday, well, besides his early morning classes. That should work...
"Hey, Danny!" someone called, pulling him out of his musing. Glancing up, Danny internally groaned when he noticed Nancy waving at him in sheer delight. Giving her a half-hearted wave, Danny sped up and continued making his way to the back of the library. If he was quick enough maybe he could-
To his dismay, Nancy's boyfriend stepped out from behind one of the shelves and latched onto his arm. Tightly.
Just great, this is exactly what he wanted to avoid. Curse his inability to pay attention when he got lost in thought. Damn ADHD. Blasted non-existent spatial awareness. This was what he got for relying on his ghost sense, he just knows it.
"She said hi, kind of rude of you to just keep walking, Kid." Wyatt huffed, roughly dragging Danny back and towards his girlfriend. Nancy smiled brightly as Wyatt let him go, allowing Nancy to weave her arm with Danny's and practically drag him toward the front of the building.
"There's this big party going on tonight, some Jr invited us. He said it was going to be a night to remember! You should totally come with us, Danny! My friend Shela said she was bringing her nerdy freshmen too! I just know you'd fit right in with them!" Nancy squealed excitedly, shaking Danny as they finally made it to the front doors.
One of the desk attendants rolled their eyes at them as Danny glanced over, hoping that Barbara might intervene. No such luck, she was nowhere in sight, probably off somewhere shelving books. So much for that plan.
"uh, thanks, but I already-" Danny tried, stopping when Nancy scoffed and yanked him out the door and into the frosty night. "Damn, it's cold!" Wyatt cursed, taking his jacket off and quickly handing it over to Nancy. She let go of Danny and pulled it on, then stared at Danny for a moment, "Put your coat on Danny, no way in hell am I letting my kid catch a cold!"
Rolling his eyes, Danny wrapped Damian's coat over his shoulders. He was too lazy to actually put it on, not when that meant handing his textbooks over. The last time he did that, Nancy got bored and started doodling all over them. (how she had managed to do that in the little time it took to put a hoodie on, Danny wasn't sure.)
"I just want to go home, Nancy. I'm not really a party person." Danny sighed, allowing Nancy to drag him down the dark streets. His apartment was in this general direction anyway. Nancy turned to her boyfriend with a huff, "Wyatt! make him come with us!"
"Let the nerd do what he wants, it's not like it affects us if he kicks the bucket all alone," Wyatt grumbled, rolling his eyes.
Ouch, but true. Please listen to your grumpy boyfriend, please listen to your grumpy boyfriend, please listen-
"But Shela said she was bringing Carly!" Nancy turned back to Danny, a pout clear on her face, "You two would be so cute together! she's nerdy just like you! And she's totally into all those murder mystery shows you watch!"
Damn it. Not this crap again.
"That's nice, Nancy, but I'm not interested. I already told you guys, I have a boyfriend," Danny sighed, trying to gently extract his arm from hers; for a human, Nancy sure had one heck of a grip.
"Yeah, right," Wyatt snorted, patting Danny's back, completely ignoring the fact that Danny was literally wearing someone else's jacket. "We'll believe you when you introduce us, until then. You're a virgin loser."
And there we go, people; the reason Danny wanted to crawl into the sewer and die whenever he saw these two. They were nice, don't get him wrong, but they were also stubborn idiots.
"Being a virgin has nothing to do with my relationship status, Wyatt. I'm ace. you've known this since the first time we talked." Danny grumbled, allowing Nancy to drag him down another street. He wasn't sure exactly where they were going now, but he was too tired to care at this point.
If these self-claimed 'Parents' of his wanted to drag him to this stupid party, then fine. Whatever. It's not like Danny had any other plans tonight anyway.
"Asexuality isn't a thing man," Wyatt huffed, speeding up so he could guide them in the right direction now that they were heading into a rougher patch of buildings. Danny could see the man was shivering, though trying to act tough in front of Nancy. Smirking, Danny sent a cold breeze his way. The man scowled up at the sky, cursing quietly.
"Yeah!" Nancy agreed, smiling brightly down at Danny without a care in the world. Like they didn't have this conversation every other week. "You just haven't met the right person yet, Danny! And I know how awkward it is to admit that you're staying celibate until marriage, but you don't have to hide it behind being ace."
Taking a deep breath, Danny closed his eyes and focused on not shouting out of frustration. The celibate comment was new, the acephobia, not so much. "Ok, first of all; Asexuality is a thing, which many people ARE. Literally, 1% of the world is ace. That's over 70 million people. Second of all, I'm not celibate, and I'm not sure if you even know what that means, considering you know I was raised Atheist."
"What does being an Atheist have to do with celibacy?" Nancy asked, tilting her head to look at him. Danny groaned, smacking his forehead against his textbooks. He was NOT going to explain this to them tonight.
"You know what, Nancy? It doesn't matter." Danny huffed, trying again to gently pry her hands off. He wanted to go home. He wanted to cuddle with his boyfriend. He wanted to go back to Amity. Maybe go to the realms and play with Cujo. He did NOT want to deal with these idiots.
Wyatt stopped walking and turned to face them, rolling his eyes as Nancy pouted at Danny. "Come on babe, let the loser go. He obviously doesn't appreciate your efforts."
"but who else is going to convince him to live a little? He's just going to go back to his apartment and sulk by himself!" Nancy cried, tightening her grip again.
"Who cares what the kid does, Nancy? let the dude die a virgin loser. Now let's go, we're already late as is."
"But I really want him to-," Nancy tried, cutting herself off, as both she and Danny spotted a cloaked person appear out of the shadows behind Wyatt.
Wyatt lifted his brow before slowly turning to see what the two of them were staring at. The cloaked figure suddenly whacked him over the head with a metal pole before he could fully turn around. Wyatt's body dropped to the ground with a heavy thump, making Nancy scream, "Wyatt!"
Shit, Danny stepped back, trying to pull Nancy with him as the cloak dude tossed the metal pole to the side with a loud clank. Which was confusing, why would he through away his weapon?
"Shut her up!" the cloak dude cried, bending down to grab Wyatt's arms. He better not be telling Danny to do that, because that would just be stupid and- Suddenly, a dozen more cloaked people flooded out of the darkness and surrounded them. That answered Danny's questions at least.
Danny tensed up as a couple of the people tried to grab onto him. Quickly pulling Nancy back, successfully this time, Danny glanced around to try and find an exit. He couldn't do anything crazy right now, not unless he wanted to give away his secret, but some self-defense should be fine.
Nancy suddenly let go of his arm and smacked one of the cloaked people in the face, "Don't you fucking dare touch me! Wyatt! Kid, get out of here!"
Danny turned to her in alarm, eyes wide in horror as she quickly disappeared into the cloaked crowd. Another cloaked person managed to latch onto Danny's shoulder, reminding him to focus on his situation. Quickly stepping back, he slammed into the man grabbing him, knocking his grip loose. Ducking under another attempt, Danny swung out his leg and tripped the dude into two others.
Twisting to try and make his way over to where he figured Nancy was, Danny dropped his textbooks and punched someone in the face. Damian's jacket was yanked off his shoulders, making him turn with a growl. Punching another person in the face, Danny lunged at the group.
"Hurry! before the bats find us!" the supposed leader cried, making even more cloaked people surround Danny. There was no way a normal civilian would be able to fight their way out of this, so Danny would have to allow himself to be caught soon. Only after biting and scratching the fuck out of them though. Just because he had to let them catch him, doesn't mean he has to make it easy.
~30 min later
Danny stared at the leader as the man droned on and on about needing the right sacrifice for the ritual to work. Nancy and Wyatt grumbled behind him, agreements from the other kidnapped victims filling Danny's ears like bees.
"The sacrifice shall be the one who treads the veil between life and death, the one who's beloved by the spirits as their own! He shall be pale as a corpse, his body kissed by death many times throughout his life. His hair as black as the sky on a moonless night, cradled by the moon since birth." Mr. totally-read-one-fake-ritual-book-when-he-was-a-teen-and-now-has-to-make-it-everyone's-problem droned on dramatically, reverently dragging his finger down the old dusty tome's page,
"so Mr. Wayne?" Nancy huffed, pressing her back into Danny's side. Wyatt chuckled, shoving his foot into Danny's knee, "No, it's totally Mr. Drake he's talking about. Have you seen that dude's eyebags? they make him look like a ghost."
One of the strangers leaned over, rolling their eyes, "No, it's got to be Mr. Dent. The dude's literally half living half not."
"No, Two-Face is half insane, half burnt chicken. Ain't nothing about him going to please ghosts. He was a fucking lawyer, for Christ shake." another guy added.
"the dude said 'he' which crossed out half of y'all," Danny added, glancing at the group around him. The women blinked and then rolled their eyes; only in Gotham would they get kidnapped and not actually be needed.
"Assholes," Nancy huffed, she glanced over her shoulder and down at him, her face set into a frown, "You good, kid? you're like freezing cold."
"I'm fine," Danny huffed, focusing back on the leader. He could just feel the old magic rolling off the book; this was something dangerous, especially in this dipshit's hands. Ancients, he was going to have to do everything he could to keep the man from actually doing the ritual or mess it up if the bats didn't get here in time.
One of the cloaked people suddenly dragged a camera out from a side room, grumbling about networks and livestreams being shit. Huh, well that would definitely help provide their location to the bats. They must be really inexperienced cultists then...
"The sacrifice shall fall into our hands by fate's design. The sacrifice is here and waiting for what his whole life was meant for. Now-"
"Elder!" one of the other cloaked figures cried, waving their phone in the air in excitement. Dread quickly filled Danny's stomach.
"All the bats and birds are busy dealing with those scoundrels they call rouges! If we hurry, we can complete the ritual before they can interfere!"
"Perfect!" Mr. 'Elder', cheered, slamming the tome closed and handing it off to one of the others. "So?" Mr. Elder started, turning to face them with a sharp grin, "Who's it going to be?"
Danny glanced at the group behind him, all of them having gone silent as the cloaked group started pulling out their ritual things, one of which was a very blood-stained knife.
Mr. Elder started circling them, humming and hawing as he studied each one of them. He stopped next to Wyatt, studying him intently.
Quickly weighing his options, Danny straightened up and glared at the man, "I'll be your sacrifice."
Immediately Nancy leaned away from him with a gasp, Wyatt's foot dropping to the floor with a thud. "Danny, no!" Nancy hissed, turning her body so she could face him. Danny didn't glance at her, just continued glaring at the cultist. The cult leader laughed, "Well then. So it shall be! You heard the sacrifice, tie him to the chair!"
With everyone watching, all Danny could do was tense as four of the followers walked over and pulled him up. "No!" Nancy shouted, leaning over and grabbing onto him. Wyatt reached out to Nancy, wanting to pull her back. The men tensed up, ready to interfere. Quickly pulling back, Danny frowned at Nancy and Wyatt, "I'll be ok, just don't do anything stupid!"
They harshly pulled him up and away again, before Nancy could reply. And because he was already pissed off, he made it as difficult for them as possible as they dragged him to the wooden chair. The camera person focused the lens on them, recording it as they shoved him down to sit and wrapped a bloody rope around his limbs.
So much for thinking they were inexperienced... They've done this before, he knows now. How many times? He wasn't sure, but if he had any say in it after tonight, they'd never do it again.
Once he was securely tied to the chair and gagged, because Danny couldn't help himself but insult them, the cultist started preparing the ritual. Why they hadn't done so beforehand, Danny wasn't sure; that is until one of them sliced a deep gash into his right arm and collected his blood into a bowl.
With a grimace, Danny watched as they mixed his blood with black paint and started drawing a circle around him. The camera dude stepped closer and practically shoved the camera into his face. leaning back, Danny glanced between the camera and the people drawing with his blood.
Suddenly, his arm tingled with ectoplasm, making him panic for a second. he can't heal the wound! not with all the people around him and being recorded! Shit, what had Vlad done last time?? Uh, right! core smothering. He could just smother his core to stop his body from healing. Man, acting like a civilian was a pain in the ass.
Glaring up at the camera now that he wasn't as panicked, Danny watched as the dude stepped back, pulled out a paper, and started reading out loud. "GOTHAM! tonight you shall join us as we summon the most powerful being in the world!"
Did he seriously need the paper just to remember that?
The leader stepped forward when the circle was complete, "Now!" His voice echoed around the silent warehouse, startling the other kidnapped victims. The cameraman turned and focused on him, stepping out of the circle altogether. Danny watched the kidnapped people out of the corner of his eye, wanting to make sure they weren't hurt during this whole fiasco.
"Let us begin!" the leader cheered, suddenly gripping Danny's shoulders tightly. "Join me as we summon our lord and savior! The great tyrant of the dead! The embodiment of war and bloodshed! The one named PARIAH DARK! THE HORRIFIC GHOST KING!!!!"
Immediately, Danny was both completely terrified and amused. He had been worried that they were going to try and summon some great evil demon, not the fucking old tyrant. He could fight Pariah any day of the week.
No, what terrified him was the fact that because Danny won the right to the crown by defeating Pariah the first time, he had no idea what this summoning was going to do. Was it going to work like they wanted and summon Pariah? cool, great even. He can deal with that, might have to reveal his ghost powers if the fight got dirty, but nothing too bad.
or was it going to summon him because he was the king, and if so? how? Would that even work considering he's the sacrifice? would he just disappear and reappear? This could lead to a lot of questions Danny was NOT ready to answer. Gaslighting everyone here into believing he could fight Pariah as a 'meta' human would be easy, convincing everyone that he's not the ghost king or a ghost AFTER getting summoned; not so easy.
The leader released Danny from his grip as he walked over and snatched the tome from one of his followers. Snapping the book open, the man started chanting without warning, pointing at random people to notify them when it was their turn to start.
It was like watching a school play; all the student's doing as they were taught as their teacher directed from the side. Cultist A slammed the bowl of leftover blood on the ground, splattering the black remnants all over Danny and the circle. Which was gross, Danny was going to have to burn this shirt, because there was no way he was going to get this stain out. Cultist B tossed salt at Danny a few minutes later, smacking him in the face with the small white crystals. Shaking his head, Danny glared at him. Cultist B threw the salt again.
The leader's smile grew as he continued chanting.
Seven other cultists joined in the chanting, waving their hands up and down as their voices echoed around them. Danny glanced nervously around the warehouse, hoping he'd spot one of the bats. This was being broadcast, they should be on their way at the very least.
After another minute of looking, Danny glanced back at the other kidnapped victims. Nancy was balling her eyes out, burying herself into her boyfriend's chest. Wyatt was staring at him with wide eyes, clearly unsure about what to do. Probably feeling guilty because they both knew the leader was going to choose him. A few others were looking away, clearly fearing for his life. The rest watched on, trying to show him through their actions that they were there with him till the end. (whether he 'died' or not)
It was weird, but Danny had to give it to them; Gothmites were badass. He doubted anyone in Amity besides his friends would have been brave enough to watch what was happening. Even if they didn't know if he would live or not.
His core crackled, making him choke a little as he finally felt the pull of the summoning. Well, that's just great. Shaking his head, Danny tried to clear his throat. The summoning was making him feel weird and he did not appreciate it.
The chanting got louder as one of the people walked up to him, holding the knife in a white-knuckled grasp. Danny eyed it wearily, glancing between it and the rafters above. Where the hell were the bats when he needed them???
The cultist kneeled before him and raised the blade, slamming it down into his chest right as the leader stopped chanting; Danny gasped, more out of surprise than pain as he stared at the knife. The dude gave him no warning that he was going to stab him. Usually, cultists slit people's throats, right? What the fuck was up with stabbing him???
His blood slowly bubbled up and around the knife, slowly staining his shirt red. Yeah, there was no way in the realms he was going to be able to save this shirt now. Man, he had liked this one too.
He could hear Nancy's sobs turn to wails as the cultist yanked out the knife and handed it to the leader, who Danny just now noticed had joined them in the circle. His blood started gushing down his chest with every beat of his heart, again he held back his core. (what does he do now??? faint? scream? how do normal people react to getting stabbed?????)
"Take this lowly sacrifice as a sign of our eternal loyalty, and grace us with your presence! Your humble servants plead that your godly ears hear our prayers! Join us in this mortal realm and bequeath us your power and name to rectify the sins of our brethren!"
Ok, first of all Danny was no where near lowly you piece of fuck-
Danny's core pulsed, sending out nauseating pain up and down his spine. Gasping, Danny leaned as far forward as he could, trying in vain to grasp at his chest without using his powers. His core crackled, striking a blinding flash through his brain. The echoes of his death crawled up his left arm, waking the old dead nerves into firing signals at his brain.
Danny couldn't help himself, he screamed as the pain grew worse and worse. His thoughts turned hazy, his body cold as his core pulsed again. His heart stuttered and then froze, his core flooding his body with freezing ecto not a moment later. Absently, he could feel the wash of ectoplasm crawl over his body, changing his body minutely. He didn't transform, but he definitely looked more ghostly than human.
All the pain disappeared a moment later, allowing Danny to slump forward, his head hanging low and blocking his face from view. His chest did not rise in ragged breaths, nor did his fingers twitch with life. His mind was still sluggish and clouded with something, making it nearly impossible to think. Squeezing his eyes shut, Danny tried to focus.
"Your Highness?" someone asked, their voice too loud as it rang in Danny's ears. His core pulsed, another flood of ectoplasm flooding his body. His eyes slid open again, allowing him to see the green glow lighting up his chest and lap as he stared down at them.
Slowly, Danny lifted his head, his bright green gaze locking with the man in front of him.
Next?
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Just fair warning- I said on my personal post about this that I wasn't going to talk about Neil Gaiman anymore, but as it's becoming clear that him and his publishers and anyone else who makes money off of him is circling the wagons and trying to bury these allegations, as well as some fans still defending and trying to 'rationalize' this information, I feel like, actually, we need to keep talking about him (as much as I cannot stand him and feel physically disgusted now when I so much as see his face somewhere). Specifically, the fact that he's a liar, master manipulator and should not, under any circumstances, be given access to his fans like he has in the past. At the very least. (And if you need to blacklist his name or even unfollow me so as to not be triggered, I completely understand, but I will always try to tag these posts accordingly and I think it's crucial right now that the truth be put where people can see)
This post specifically is in response to those 'rationalizations' I've seen, some that have gone as far as to blame the young fans/groupies that hooked up with him for being 'golddiggers' or just making a mountain out of a molehill for something they now regret. It's not that simple, yall. (And, again, this requires some amount of completely ignoring the story about him extorting his tenant for sex under threat of eviction of her and her three young children, I'm not sure how you 'rationalize' that under the best of circumstances)
So let's be clear here. What we know is that NG has routinely, for possibly an upwards of 30 years, pulled sexual 'partners' from his fan groups, most of whom are 18-22 year old young women (though possibly younger, accounts are coming forward of 16 year olds having allegedly been inappropriately touched/flirted/propositioned by him, which ig is the age of consent in the UK but still?? 16 year olds!!). This wasn't one or two times in the course of three decades, this was a constant pattern of behavior for him and for a very insidious reason.
This isn't to try to infantilize those fans or young women/young people in general or try to suggest that they couldn't have consented to sex with an older person or famous person. In fact, the onus isn't on them at all. This is about an older guy with a lot of fame, power and wealth choosing to sleep with people that he had already conditioned to idolize him and using that power imbalance to coerce them into doing things they didn't want to.
Regardless of one's age or gender identity, it can be difficult to impossible to say 'no' to someone like that. After all, you've been 'chosen' by the chosen one, you're special and not like everyone else, and if you don't do what the popular person everyone trusts is telling you to do you could end up ostracized. Alienated. Or worse. And you know what? Gaiman knew that! He knew it when he was crafting his 'approachable dad' persona on tumblr. He knew it when he was cultivating a fandom of personality. He knew it when he was having huge meetups to try to ensnare more victims. I hate to even think it, but I'm starting to believe he knew it when he was writing children's books too.
It's been talked about again and again in separate issues, but needless to say something not being strictly illegal does not make it inherently, morally okay. It does not erase the fact that this man has been essentially grooming his fandom to feel safe meeting/speaking with him so he can coerce those he can snare into sexual acts they're not comfortable with. That is predator behavior, whether strictly 'illegal' in the eyes of a court or not (but ofc I think he should be criminally punished even if I'm not naive enough to think he actually will be, because this IS rape and rape should be criminally punished)
I'm not personally advocating for anyone to give up being in his related fandoms, but what I am personally advocating for is that people don't forget who he is and what he's capable of, especially when he tries to crawl back to where he was (I'm almost certain he will eventually, as I've said).
Again, at the very least, we need to use what little influence we do have to keep him from infiltrating fan spaces again. He should not be on tumblr yukking it up with young people, he should not be at public appearances hitting on teenagers, he should not be given the unrestricted access to fans that he's 'enjoyed' for the past 30+ years because he is not a safe person. While I wish there was more in the way of restorative justice that could be done, I think at very, very least we should do what we can to limit his proximity to people he could hurt in the future. Make sure no one forgets, because sweeping this under the rug means Gaiman gets to hurt more people.
Lastly, no one is the wrong for having been manipulated by him. Let's make that very clear. What we're NOT gonna do is blame ourselves, each other, the victims, etc, for evil acts that Gaiman chose to do himself, time and time and time again. It doesn't help the situation and it certainly doesn't protect future potential victims. We were all duped because we're human and we attach and a lot of us want to believe there are good people out there, particularly those who make art that means so much to us.
And there are. But let's also use this a teaching/learning tool about how much faith we place in famous people in the future, regardless of how 'approachable' and 'safe' they might seem. Let's remember to have a healthy suspicion of creators/famous people that are oddly immersed in fandom spaces- yes, even the ones you still currently like that seem fine, as difficult as that may seem.
At the end of the day, we don't know them or what they're capable of doing or what they might be plotting to do to us. Support victims. Amplify their voices. Don't forget.
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NEIGHBOR BLUNDER, pt. 3 â JJK
in hindsight, you should have seen it coming. had always known your luck â or lack of it, thereof â and the universe's meticulous plan of your downfall made it easy for you to get tangled up in a series of unfortunate events, which presents itself as the neighbor that lives across from you, jeon jungkook.
PAIRING jungkook x (fem) reader
GENRE r18+ (fluff, angst, smut) MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!
CHAPTER WORD COUNTÂ 18.7k
CHAPTER WARNINGS/MISC neighbor!jk, bsf!jimin, accountant!oc software engineer!jk, jk and jimin are chaebols lol, minjoon boyfriends <<<<3, mature language, lots of screaming into your pillow moments, litol bit of #domesticity, FLUFFY FLUFF FLUFFFFFFFFFFFFF, angst if you squint??????????, the x file spoiler lol, suits cameo (me inserting my niche interests into conversations), the biggest warning of this part is: naked jungkook đ
NOTES sorry for being almost 3 hours late efhkjdhfd i overestimated my abilities a bit mb mb anyway, AGAIN, i want to thank you guys for the overwhelming support! i want to take this opportunity to announce that i'll be taking a break from nb for around 2 weeks to work on my new jungkook one-shot fic that i will be posting for his birthday â€ïž if you are interested, i have posted the teaser on my tumblr page. LASTLY pls let me know your thoughts!! i LOVE LOOOVEEE reading every single one of your replies/reblogs/asks. i hope you enjoy this one and have a good weekend ahead!!!!!!Â
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PART ONE | TWO | THREE
You always wonder how a company this big seems to not have any budget lent for a copier that actually works â something that one doesnât need to violently slap just for it to function perfectly.
Youâve been a victim not just once but five times to its inefficiency, the recent mishap being a month ago when the ink blots jumped right over the cuff of your shirt.Â
With the way that youâve been harassing the copier at the very moment, youâll say itâs about to do you wrong for the sixth time and you absolutely canât let it happen anymore â not when youâre currently wearing a white polo shirt that stupidly costs a little too much more than anything in your wardrobe (you decided to spend a little more than usual last New Yearâs).
So, with a last unnecessary kick to the bottom of the machine (out of pure spite) you left the copier room of your floor and think, fuck it â go to the IT department and ask Taemu to back you up from his supervisor so you can use their copier instead â which is something youâre not so sure of.Â
Itâs embarrassing to go there just to ask him for help. Not with your history. But admittedly not that much of a history. After all, he seems to be cool with you and everything seems to be pretty chill. You can just go there; ask a little favor from a friend, and then hurry down to your floor.
There are some other options, though. Like, you can always ask the intern to do it for you. But the thing is, you kind of feel bad for those three. Your co-workers are doing a lot already; asking to fetch them things all around the building, buy them snacks, stuff like that. Thereâs another one but sheâs way too quiet and didnât really take shit from any of her seniors⊠which is kind of intimidating â but she's someone you wish you were when you were also an intern. You personally donât want to help cultivate a somewhat toxic journey for the other three because you also started the same way as them. Beyond that, it would also be too rude to ask favors from Taemu indirectly.
Youâre ultimately left with little and only one choice.
The elevator dings and the doors open after it does so.Â
One of the people in it is a woman youâve never met around before. Long, black hair; tailored suit, slender figure, and a posture that screams sheâs never hunched her back in her entire life.Â
Other people that entered at the same time as you start to bow their heads down slightly and greet a polite, âGood afternoon.âÂ
You mirror their gesture as well.Â
As you step inside and settle on a spot, you wonder who she is.Â
An executive, maybe? She looks very put-together, and thereâs authority that hangs over her frame⊠but exceptionally young in the physical aspect. Jungkook is also young, though â and heâs an executive, so thatâs entirely possible. Additionally, others seem to know her. Or they're just pretending to know her like you did. Did you miss a ceremony? A meeting? Or did you gloss over some HR email again? Youâll have to check later to find out if thatâs the case.Â
Anyway, your curiosity doesnât last long when the elevator doors open once again, indicating the IT department floor.Â
You already texted Taemu awhile ago that you were on your way so he should meet you on-time.Â
As you walk down the hallway with your phone in your hand, your attention is caught by a familiar voice.
âHey,â
You look up from your phone and see Taemu waving not too far away, heading towards your direction. It doesnât take him long to get near you. When he does, you give him a smile.
âTaemu, hi.â You say as a small greeting. Taemu lifts his hand and you thought he was going for a high-five, so you lift your hand as well to meet the gesture. But then he leans in closer, one arm about to enclose your waist, and thatâs when you realize he was actually gearing up for a hug.
Taemu seems to register that you werenât exactly going for the same thing, so he steps back. He seems shy when you look at him in confusion.
âOh, okay, sorry,â He offers his hand again, but just when youâre already thinking about hugging him because that was what he originally meant to do, he speaks just as you lean in closer to hug him. âI thought we were high-five-ing?âÂ
Embarrassed, your hands retreat to yourself.
âI thought... you wanted to hug?â You chuckle.Â
âOkay, letâs justââ Taemu steps closer again and this time, itâs more than clear to you what he wants to do.
You reciprocate the hug he gives.
âThis is so stupid.â You say, chuckling against his neck. The contact is quick as you two simultaneously break apart.
Taemu laughs at your remark, nodding his head. Then he gestures ahead, pointing to the direction of the copy room.
âYour copier not working again?â He asks as you walk down the hallway together.Â
You heave a sigh. âYeah, they really need to change that one. Anyway, have you told Mr. Lee?â You ask, referring to his supervisor.Â
Teamu nods his head, opening the door to the copy room for you.Â
âYeah, itâs fine with him. Just sign the logbook and stuff.âÂ
âThanks, Taemu.â You say, quickly getting to work, feeling slightly delighted at how their machine smoothly does its job and not like the one at all in your department. âHey, Iâm really sorry for bothering you with this.â You lament as you wait for the paper to slide out.
Taemu waves his hand, shaking his head at you. âItâs fine.âÂ
You purse your lips into a thin line, giving him a somewhat apprehensive smile. The paper comes out and you get your thing. After a quick scan to see if the copier got everything right, you look back at Taemu to say, âThanks again, Taemu. I really appreciate this.âÂ
âNo worries. Anytime.â
When you announce that youâre done, Taemu calls your name.
âHm?â You hum, looking at him and wait for his next words.
He looks coy when he rubs a hand on the back of his head.
âCan I take you out for lunch?â He says, and you still in your position. Taemu seems like he surprised himself with his own words. You open your mouth to speak but then he beats you to it quickly, âItâs not a date. I phrased that as a date â but itâs not â ah, this is all coming out wrong,â Taemu chuckles, interrupting himself. With his hands in his slacks' pockets, he leans to a random table inside the room and looks at you with a more confident stance this time, as if he just gave himself a quick internal pep talk after jumbling his words. âWhat I meant to say is, if we can go out for lunch together today?âÂ
You chuckle. You were just about to say yes. Contrary to his assumption, you didnât really take his first question as an invitation for a date. Besides, he helped you with the copier today.
Nodding your head, you offer him a grin as you say, âYeah. Iâll go to lunch with you.âÂ
Taemu walks you to the elevator even though you said he doesnât need to. He's insistent but you let it, anyway.
Taemu puts his hands on both sides of the door before it closes. The ride is pretty much empty except for yourself.
âWhen are you off?â He asks.
You think about it for a moment. âIs 12:15 okay?â
Taemu nods. âSure. See you at 12:15?âÂ
âYeah. Later.âÂ
The elevator closes and you laugh to yourself when you catch Taemu awkwardly waving his hand at you goodbye.
âNo, you didnât, I kicked your ass at mini golf!â You say, laughing as Taemu looks at you with squinted eyes, obviously saying that was absolutely not what happened on your date a few months ago.
âUh, you disregarded all the rules.âÂ
You roll your eyes. âOkay, fine. Rules do not matter, though. Itâs just some stick and a ball and⊠fake grass.âÂ
Taemu laughs, surrendering his hands to the air, nodding when he says, âFair, fair.âÂ
Youâre currently at a restaurant not too far away from your company building. It took Taemu and you about five minutes to get here; just a quick waiting time to cross the pedestrian lane to get from one street to the other.
Looking around, you can actually see some people inside wearing your company lace. The restaurantâs sort of like a famous spot around the company, though, so it doesn't necessarily surprise you. Youâve also had a few company dinners here some time ago.Â
Safe to say, lunch with Taemu is going⊠okay so far.
No â actually, itâs way better than you thought it would be.
You could have never, ever predicted that youâll be out with him alone again after⊠you know, ghosting him. Your whole assessment of his character has also changed a bit after the whole fiasco.
See, some guys start feeling entitled over your permission and consent when you entertain them even just for a bit. When you go on dates and you break it to them that itâs just not working out between you two, they start to act weird. Like youâve hurt them. Or that you lead them on â even though itâs absolutely not the case.Â
But Taemuâs proving himself to be different. You honestly expected him to act like that guy because he seems the type after your first date. But he surprises you by acting the total, complete opposite.
Heâs so⊠nice. So casual. Like nothing happened. You feel bad because right now, you've officially confirmed to yourself that you totally misjudged him.Â
You canât believe youâll say this, but Taemu is not an asshole. Like at all.
Even now, youâre recalling what happened to your date and laughing about some of the memories of it, and it feels so long ago youâre starting to remember it differently.
âAnyway, this milkshakeâs really good,â you say, taking your glass and looking at it curiously.Â
âYeah? I told you,â Taemu grins, eating from his own plate.Â
âYou always come here?â You ask out of curiosity since he seems to be familiar with the menu.Â
âSort of? I mean, I try to take in the city as much as I can.â You nod, recalling what he told you before. He came from Daegu, and itâs his first time in Seoul.
Before you can say anything to that, the waiter comes to your table and gives you your bill.Â
Taemu and you simultaneously take out your wallets. When he sees you do it, though, heâs quick to shake his head, gesturing for you to not bother.
âNo, no, itâs fine. I got it.âÂ
âI got it, too,â You say, smiling at him, already picking out your card, ready to put it inside the check presenter.
â__,â Taemu says your name while chuckling. âI swear, itâs fine. I was the one who invited you for lunch.âÂ
âTaemu,â You call him, using the same tone he used. Taemu grins at that. âI think we should split the bill.â
Itâs only fair, you think. You ate pretty much the same thing.
You hold what felt like a minute staring competition until Taemu gives in and lets you stack your card on top of his in the booklet.
Youâre about to resume eating â pick up on the conversation you left a few minutes ago â when your phone dings on the table, a message popping out on the notification center.
When you read the contact name, your eyes widen but you relax your face real quick lest Taemu asks questions.Â
âSorry,â you say, pointing to your phone. Taemu nods, understanding. You pick the device in your hands, turn to your other side to not be rude, and read the text from Jungkook.Â
Jungkook (Unit 446) [12:47pm]: hey I bought you lunch Jungkook (Unit 446) [12:48pm]: i was gonnna ask you to go with me earlier but I got busy with some papersÂ
Shoot.
Youâve done a pretty good job of not thinking about Jungkook at all for the entirety of the day. You woke up so early this morning that you waited for twenty whole minutes for your bus just so you can avoid seeing Jungkook because everytime his name pops up in your thoughts, you remember what you did the night before and it just messes with your head so much.
Listen, you arenât embarrassed about trying to get yourself off. Itâs just masturbation. Itâs a carnal need and itâs totally normal. What you are not proud of is the way you thought about him â out of all people â and how it actually made you feel⊠a little more motivated to get yourself there.Â
But itâs a slip-up. A big mistake.Â
How are you supposed to look him in the eyes after that and act like you didnât do what you did? Granted, you did stop before it escalated. But still, the point is that you thought about him while you were pleasuring yourself. Even if it was for a tiny bit second, it still counts!
Stupid fucking ovulation, you think to yourself with bitterness. Youâre a much better person without it, you swear. You donât go around thinking about men when you try to get yourself off, not at all! Personally, your head is mostly blank when you go through it.  Â
But Jungkook left two texts. And heâs probably seen the read tag on his end already.Â
You [12:49pm]: I just got lunch ): thank you for buying me one tho thatâs really nice ofu
You turn your phone off after sending your reply, placing it on the empty space of your table. When you look at Taemu, heâs eyeing something behind you. With furrowed brows, the question about what heâs looking at is on the tip of your tongue when he suddenly says,
âIsnât that Mr. Jeon?âÂ
âW-what?â You stammer, not sure if you heard him right.
The knots on Taemuâs forehead fades, and then he nods to himself. âIâm pretty sure thatâs Mr. Jeon. Heâs going this way.âÂ
âWhaââ
âGood afternoon, Mr. Jeon.â Taemu stands up from his seat and does a slight bow for greeting.Â
Without thinking about it, you mirror Taemuâs action, bowing your head longer than necessary.Â
âGood afternoon, M-mr. Jeon,â
Itâs no use to avoid his gaze, though.
When you look at Jungkook, he seems pretty much just as surprised to see you. You look away, but your eyes fall to his hand, and you see that it carries a take-out paper bag from the restaurant. You think about his text.Â
âGood afternoon.â Jungkook says with an easy-going smile. He goes from surprised to casual real quick and glosses over you as if he doesnât know you.Â
You donât really know how that makes you feel.Â
âI was just going, have fun with your lunch.â He says and politely bids his goodbye, going straight to the direction of the restaurantâs door.Â
âHeâs really cool, you know?â Taemu brings up when you both sit down again.Â
âIâ huh?â
âYou must have heard about the new project theyâre starting at the end of this month, right?â He asks curiously.
You sit there stunned. Stunned from earlierâs interaction with Jungkook but also because you donât really know what the hell Taemuâs talking about.
âNo⊠I didnât get any memoâŠ?â You say instead, trying not to act way too oblivious lest he thinks youâre lazy or something. Not that it matters! Youâre not trying to impress him or anything.Â
Taemu nods. âWell, youâll probably know about it soon.â Â
But your head's too far gone now, still stuck on what happened a minute ago.
You look over at your phone while Taemu speaks, hoping for it to light up with a new notification from the messaging app.Â
A few minutes passed by and it doesnât, even when you leave the restaurant.
You donât really know why youâre here.Â
Itâs been three days since that night in Jungkookâs place where you tried to bake in his kitchen, so itâs also been three days since you started practicing during the nights after work to perfect your cookies. Tonight, it just so happens that the cookies finally taste edible and honestly, itâs more than okay.Â
So, maybe thatâs why you find yourself in front of Jungkookâs door with a plastic container in your hands, decently-baked cookies prettily arranged inside.Â
Jungkook was with you when you made those pathetic excuses for cookies, so you thought itâs only fair for him to try these ones and tell you what he thinks. Brag a little. Maybe have a little chitchat if heâs free or whatever.
Itâs also⊠sort of like a peace offering for something he doesnât need to know about. You canât tell him youâre sorry for thinking about him when you did the deed because thatâs just plain weird.Â
Speaking of weird, though, the interaction from yesterday left you feeling a little empty. Thereâs this gnawing feeling inside of you that something went wrong â but you canât exactly point out why. Jungkook also hasnât texted you after that â which isnât out of the ordinary. You donât text everyday and you donât meet every single day, either â for the record. Youâre both busy people. You can only imagine Jungkookâs schedule.
Anyway, if thereâs anything that you learned about your friendship with Jungkook, itâs that you donât need to lie to him. You just have to knock on his door and heâll unintentionally clear your doubts by being the voice of reason because heâs nice like that.Â
You do hope though that tonight clears any weird air between you. Maybe youâll find out later on that thereâs nothing weird going on at all and youâre just overthinking stuff as usual.Â
Youâre about to ring the doorbell twice when the door finally opens, showing you Jungkook still wearing his polo shirt. He looks like heâs just gotten home from work, red tie undone around his neckline and a few buttons popped open.Â
âHi.â You smile.Â
âHey,â Jungkook looks at you, obviously wondering what brought you to his door.
âI wanted to give you this,â you hand him the plastic container which he takes with a confused look. âThose are cookies. I baked them. I didnât give you anything when I baked two nights ago because they were bad.â
âAh,â Jungkook nods, looking down at the plastic. He smiles, then leans on his doorway. âSo itâs good now?âÂ
You gesture a so-so with your hand. âDonât set your expectations too high. Itâs not exactly PoilĂąne. But it tastes like matcha cookies, I swear.â When Jungkook doesnât say anything for a while, you decide to add, âYou also wonât get food poisoning, if youâre worried about that.â
Jungkook gives you an amused look. âI wasnât⊠worried about that.â
âItâs a simple disclaimer. Just in case, you know, you suddenly feel weird in the stomachâŠâ Jungkook arches his brow while you trail off. You roll your eyes lightheartedly. âIâm kidding.âÂ
He lets out a chuckle and then stands upright. âThank you for this.âÂ
âNo worries,â you say. You shift your weight from one foot to another. âUh, do you wanna grab dinner? Right now?âÂ
Jungkook looks at you apologetically.
âI really wish we could, but I have to finish something tonight. Work stuff.âÂ
âOh,â You nod immediately. âOkay. Uhm, good luck with that.â
He smiles at you. Lifting the container up, he arches his brows, saying, âThank you, again. It looks good.âÂ
âYeah, I hope you like it,â You say. Realizing that thereâs nothing more left to say, you turn on your heel ready to go. But before that, you look back at him one last time. âBye.âÂ
Jungkook grins.
âIâll text you what I think about them.â He says, pointing to the cookies.Â
âOkay, Anton Ego.â Â
You both laugh at that, and you enter your apartment with a small smile on your face.
You donât want to admit it even to yourself, but you might have taken Jungkookâs words about reviewing your baked goods too seriously that you waited for it last night longer than necessary. Even when the night ended and you go to work the next day, which is today, none of his texts come, and you donât think anythingâs coming anytime soon.Â
You try not to think about it too much because he did say heâs busy with work. Youâre sure thatâs the case, so you feel slightly bad for him.Â
Right now, youâre looking for Ms. Seo to get her signature on a document. So you head to the elevator, rushing a bit to get inside the one thatâs about to close. Itâs a little urgent, so you cannot waste any more time.
As soon as you enter though, you notice whoâs in it.
Itâs Jungkook and the woman you saw in the elevator two days ago.Â
Youâre starting to think you need to start using the stairs from now on because your elevator trips are getting too ridiculous.Â
It feels like youâre running on auto-pilot when you greet them both, walking to the side to make space for the other people entering.Â
You wish you went beside the woman instead and not Jungkookâs side because you then have to try real hard not to look at him.
It proves to be an uneasy task when more people squeeze in as the elevator takes a few stops in between floors. You had to taut all the muscles in your body just to not get into any contact with Jungkook, but even with all the effort, it goes unsuccessful, as you brush his arm when you step back to move a little.Â
Jungkook looks at you the same time you do.
âIâm sorry.â You utter, low enough to not cause any unnecessary attention.
A few do turn to stare, anyway. And you canât help but notice the way the womanâs hand moves towards Jungkookâs to hold it as she takes a look at you.Â
Jungkook, meanwhile, gives you that same professional smile he seems to have reserved for every employee that greets him around the building, warm voice saying, âItâs okay.âÂ
Youâre thankful that the next floor is where your stop is.
As you go back to your cubicle, you wonder who the woman is. Again.
There's something about her that feels familiar. She looks familiar. Like youâve seen her before. You canât just figure out where exactly.Â
â__,â Sol calls beside you.Â
âHuh?â
âYouâre not having lunch?â She asks.
âOhâŠâ Right. Itâs currently your break time. âAre you guys going out?â You say, looking at Joonhwi whoâs two cubicles away from you.
Sol shakes her head, taking her coat from the back of her chair. âNo, just at the cafeteria.âÂ
You nod your head. âOkay, Iâll follow in a few minutes, just need to look over some stuff here,â You point to your computer.Â
âOkay. Just text me.âÂ
You give Sol a smile and watch as she and Joonhwi head out of the office.Â
Your gaze falls to the time on your computer.
12:10pm.Â
Is Jungkook possibly having lunch right now? You remember him buying you one two days ago and feel a little sense of regret about not taking it even though it isnât your fault and he shouldâve told you first to give you a little heads-up.
You never really talked about it. You never really talked for the past three days.
But then again, he seems to be busy.
With a little hope in your heart, though, you pick up your phone and decide to send him a text.Â
You [12:12pm]: hey do u want to go out for lunch?Â
Or should you just buy him one like he did for you? Itâs not like youâre trying to up him in a kindness competition. It can just be a small, thoughtful gesture from a friend to a friend.Â
You receive a reply a few seconds after.Â
Jungkook (Unit 446) [12:13pm]: hey __Â Iâd love to
Your lips curl down when you read the next one that comes in a second.
Jungkook (Unit 446) [12:13pm]: but I have a work meeting in 5mins
Oh. Okay. That tracks.Â
You [12:14pm]: okii!! Thatâs totally cool! good luck with work đ
You stand up from your chair and take out your wallet from your bag, going out of your office and sending a quick text to Sol that youâre coming to the cafeteria.Â
When you get there, your peripheral vision catches a familiar figure.Â
You look back, trying to see if itâs someone you know.
Turns out it is. Because itâs Jungkook.
Youâve seen him in the elevator this morning and he wore a grey pair of suit. Youâd also recognize his stature anywhere, but just like how it was inside the elevator, heâs with the woman again; long hair down like it was yesterday, this time adorning a suit dress that hugs her figure really well, her stilettos making her legs look longer but somehow Jungkook still stands a little taller.
For the very brief moment that you laid your eyes on them, you saw how Jungkook had his hand placed on the low of her back, how she laughed at something he said, and how they looked good together from your point of view. It seemed like they were on their way somewhere.
You realize that was what Jungkook meant when he said heâs busy.
They say a silver lining comes in every worst situation possible, and youâre more of an optimist rather than a pessimist so usually, you believe in the concept of silver linings even though right now â it looks like itâs going to be winning the jackpot in the lottery or⊠free education for everybody across the world.
âThe contractor estimates it would be a week-long repair.â
âOne week?â Is your immediate response, disbelief coloring your tone. âIâm sorryââ You try to fix your tone, salvaging yourself from being seen as outright rude in front of your building manager. âYou mean seven whole days?â
The building manager, Mr. Han, nods his head. He looks genuinely apologetic as he delivers the news, for the record.
âThatâs⊠really long.â You say, albeit calmer now. But you still canât imagine it.
âItâs just an estimate. Contractor said it might be faster than that, but they still need to do a full assessment of your unit tomorrow, together with the water damage restoration company. Weâre doing all we can to respond to the situation. Weâre also talking to your upstairs neighbor about the stipulation of his negligence.â
You nod along to his words.
Obviously, itâs his job to ensure everythingâs taken care of, but still, youâre appreciative of the way they are going about the current situation. Youâve heard horror stories about tenants getting into arguments with their building managers or landlords when their apartments experience accidents.
âCan I ask about relocation?â You ask. You have to read your lease again to make sure.
âUnfortunately, itâs not indicated in your lease policy, but your renterâs insurance should cover it. You can also talk to your landlord about reducing your rent for this month due to the inconvenience.â
You nod, giving him a small smile. âOkay. Thank you.â
The plumber and some of the help the building manager employed to dry up your place from the accidental flood had already left a while ago, and soon, Mr. Hanâs figure disappears entirely after a few seconds as you watch him walk down the flight of stairs and away from the building.
You can hear the loud whirring of the air movers placed inside your unit from where you stood on your porch. Your hairâs damp, including some spots on your work clothes from the water that trickled down your ceiling as you panicked earlier to pack some of your belongings in a medium-sized luggage you managed to grab in the timeframe.
Itâs the state that Jungkook catches you in when you see him emerging from the stairs, looking like he also just got back from work.
âHey, what happened?â Jungkook, with his brows furrowed, looks at you with worried eyes, sounding equally concerned.
You sigh. âHey,â you greet weakly. âMy apartment got flooded.â
âWhat?â
âItâs the upstairs neighbor. He apparently left his tub running while he went to work this afternoon,â You take a sharp breath, getting pissed again at the negligence. So goddamn stupid, really. âHe flooded his own place and the water leaked to my ceiling, and when I got back home from work I was welcomed with two inches of water on my floor.â
âWhat the hell?â Jungkook says in disbelief. You nod at his reaction. That is exactly what you said when you heard the story from the property manager. âAre you okay?â He asks, and you appreciate it.
âNot sure about that.â You answer honestly.
Jungkook furrows his brows. âYou called your landlord immediately?â
Letting out a sigh again, you nod and move to sit on your suitcase â the lonesome bag that youâre planning to bring with you to wherever the hell youâre going to stay tonight. You donât even think you have enough clothes in it.
âMy place is a complete wreck. Most of the waterâs drained, though, and the building manager brought some help inside and they put air movers inside to dry the place right now.â You blow air to the strand of hair that escapes from your ponytail out of frustration. âItâs a shitshow, I know.â
âGood that they responded fast,â Jungkook comments, but concern is still etched on his face as he asks you, âHave you called your insurance company yet?â
âYeah, weâre emailing right now.â You tell him, showing your phone. You hate sending email through such a small device but you left your laptop back at the office â which is kind of a good thing, now that you think about it â because it wouldâve gotten flooded had you left it in your place.
âDid you document everything?â
Your response comes in a little curt.
âYes, Jungkook. I did.â The onslaught questions just somehow seemed to prompt irritation in you, and you canât help but add, âI know everything I have to do. Iâm an adult.â
Predictably, you render Jungkook surprised.
âIâ I didnât mean it like that. I apologize.â
When you look up at him, you see his expression softening â and you feel bad for what you just did.
Chill, __. Heâs just asking logical questions.
âNo, Iâm sorry,â You shake your head, feeling a little ashamed for bursting like that. You shouldnât have talked to him like that, anyway. âI donât know why I snapped, youâre just asking the important questions.â
Jungkook hesitantly hovers his hand on your shoulder, and the look he gives you seems to be asking for permission to touch you. You donât even know if thatâs his intention, but you give him a nod.
He smiles, tapping your shoulder for a brief second, saying, âItâs okay. You must be really stressed right now.â
âYou think I canât be calm in this situation?â You look at him with a blank expression. Jungkookâs taken aback and you witness the very split second his smile drops form his face, probably thinking he said something wrong. Then you canât help it, you break. âIâm just fucking with you.â
Jungkookâs brows furrow as he sees you bursting into a gentle laugh, breaking your serious demeanor.
He shakes his head slowly, seemingly incredulous of the stunt you just pulled.
âYou and your jokesâŠâ
âYou shouldâve seen your face.â
âYou got me.â Jungkook chuckles.
âIâm sorry⊠itâs just me trying to ignore the fact that my apartment literally got flooded and those loud and big ass fans they placed inside are about to tear my ears off.â
You see the way Jungkookâs face winces.
âWhere are you staying for the night, then?â He asks.
âI donât know,â you shrug, genuinely not sure about your options. âProbably gonna book a hotel or something.â
Of course youâve thought about Jimin. He can probably easily help you find a place for the meantime but itâd probably be hard with him not being physically in the country just yet. Sol also crossed your mind, but you remember she has a roommate.
Getting a hotel to temporarily stay at is the most obvious option there is. It would be too much of a hassle, not to mention expensive, butâ
âYou can stay at mine for the night.â
You think youâre getting around to Jungkook offering you help without you even asking â but it doesnât mean you still donât get a little taken aback when he gives it so willingly and so quickly like this.
âNo.â You shake your head.
âSeriously.â Jungkook stares at you.
You stare at him right back.
âI canât.â
âWhy?â He raised his brow.
âI canât think of reasons right now.â
âYou donât need to think at all.â
You squint your eyes at him, he does the same.
Soon enough, Jungkook breaks first and laughs.
âCome on! Youâre gonna freeze in here.â
Hesitantly, you say, â⊠Are you sure?â
âWhat are you worried about?â He cocks his head to the side, awaiting your response.
Well. Thereâs a lot to be worried about.
Thereâs the thing where you always just seem to be caught into some shit and then he catches you right exactly in it. Itâs starting to get embarrassing.
But Jungkook just doesnât really seem to mind it.
âNothing, really.â Is what you weakly settled for.
âOkayâŠâ He trails off, raising a brow, obviously a bit confused. âThen whatâs the big deal? Do you really want to go through the hassle of picking out hotels and booking a room at this hour? You have to go to work tomorrow.â
You visibly wince at the mention of work.
Heâs right and you kind of hate it.
âYouâre rightâŠâ you say after a while.
âYouâre staying at mine?â Jungkook asks again, in which you nod your head in confirmation.
You stand up from your suitcase and pull up the handle. Then you look at him sincerely to give him a smile. âThank you. I think this is like the five hundredth time this kind of thing happened between you and I.â
âNot counting.â Jungkook shrugs. âHave you had dinner yet?â
You nod your head. âI went with a friendâ a co-worker.â
Jungkook visibly stills.
âThe guy from a few days ago at the restaurant around work?â
You perk up at that, surprised he still recalls that day.
âYeah, thatâs him. Taemu. From the IT dep.â
He nods. You donât know if heâs interested or not.
You think itâs a bit random that he brought that up, though, but you shake the thoughts away and call his name.
Jungkook looks at you.
âThank you.â You say, hoping he hears the sincerity in your voice.
He chuckles. âYouâre welcome,â Jungkook then gestures to the luggage youâre holding. âLet me.â
Jungkook doesnât wait for you to say yes before he takes the handle from you and carries the luggage with him to the direction of his place just across from yours.
You consciously try to make your steps lighter as you walk out of the shower box, making your way towards your suitcase to check on the clothes you packed.
When you open it, you thank the heavens that there are underwear â and a lot of them, for the record â but as you rummage around some more, you find that other than your work clothes, you only have nightwear inside. And when you say nightwear, not the comfortable cotton pajama kind but the nightie one â and that basically means the baby blue silky set of tiny camisole and shorts that can pass as a pair of panties.
I canât possibly wear these, you think to yourself, hastily burying the pieces of clothing in the bottom of your luggage.
It shouldnât mean anything â those are nightwear after all! But it was already embarrassing to ask Jungkook earlier if you could use his shower and his towel. You canât come out of the bathroom wearing clothes that Jimin once tagged as âslutty pjsâ. Not when youâre in Jungkookâs place.
â__?â
You look over to the door when you hear Jungkookâs voice, a knock following.
âYes?â You answer.
âDo you have clothes in there?â
At the question, your gaze automatically falls to the suitcase where the thin strap of the camisole peeks out in between some other clothes that are completely useless for the night.
With hesitance, you say, âUhm⊠do you possibly have a shirt I can borrow? I promise to clean it and return it to you tomorrow, ASAP.â
You hear him chuckle from the other side. âI brought you some. Thereâs also a pair of sweatpants but Iâm not sure if theyâll fit you.â
Itâs hard to not celebrate silently when Jungkook says that â but you might have jumped a little at his words.
When you walk towards the door and open it, you give Jungkook a huge smile as you tell him, âThanks!â
He stops. And then you stop.
You realize youâre only in your towel â his towel, to be exact.
You feel the blood rushing to your cheeks the moment it registers.
Before you can do or say anything, Jungkook moves on quickly and stretches his arm, thrusting the clothes heâs mentioned into your way.
âThere.â He says simply, smiling at you.
You take them from his hand, giving him a smile too, albeit a bit awkward.
âT-thanks.â
Jungkook turns on his heel to leave, and you lock the door to the bathroom as soon as he walks away.
You settle his clothes on top of the flat surface of the lavatory, physically shaking your head as you look at yourself in the mirror to shake your thoughts away.
Thoughts of his slightly parted lips when you opened the door while youâre only in a towel.
But it happened in such a split second that youâre not sure if it even happened.
When you take his white shirt, it feels soft to the touch and thereâs a scent of fresh laundry that wafts through your nose when you wear it on yourself.
Itâs loose on you, the sleeves almost covering your whole arms and the hem stopping mid-thigh. But because of that, it feels comfortable â like the oversized shirts you wear to bed that you, unfortunately, werenât able to pack with you in the heap of panic.
But the pants show a different case. Itâs so big that it drags on the floor as you wear it.
You made do, though; drawing the strings tightly and and knotting them together, pulling up the gartered hems up to your calf.
When you come out of the bathroom, Jungkook welcomes you with nothing but a towel wrapped around his lower half.
âH-hey,â You stammer, eyes meeting his own to avoid looking at his naked torso.
âI was just going in. You done?â He casually says, as if he doesnât mind being naked in front of you.
âYeah, yeah. Iâm done. Thanks for the clothes.â You say, gesturing across your body.
âLooks good.â Jungkook comments before entering the bathroom.
You think your cheeks just got impossibly hotter.
The sound of water running is heard before you scramble to the living room.
Why was he naked?!
Okay, he wasnât actually naked naked but still, he had no clothes on. Why did he have no clothes on? Youâre trying to erase the image of his torso, the lines that draw an obvious four-pack, his firm-looking chest, and the way the tattoos over his right arm apparently go way above his shoulder. Itâs obvious that he goes to the gym and works out from the way those polo sleeves of his always hug his biceps a little too tight â and with a body like that, you completely understand why he wouldnât mind parading it around.
The AC in his unit is turned on, but it suddenly feels way too hot from where you currently sit on his couch.
Shut up. Ugh. You tell yourself internally.
Completely wanting out of that headspace, you decide to take out your iPad to get in contact with your insurance company to discuss your current situation, and it does a good job of keeping your mind off Jungkook for a while.
Youâre so deep in the activity that you donât even notice a few minutes has already gone by, and with that, you donât notice Jungkook coming out of the shower.
When you see him in your periphery, heâs now thankfully dressed in a shirt and some basketball shorts. Heâs drying his hair as he walks over to your direction in the living room.
You look at him in surprise when you notice the pillow and comforter he has in his hands.
âSorry. You shouldâve called me, I couldâve helped,â you say, standing up from the couch, ready to help him with it, assuming that youâll be on the couch tonight.
Jungkook looks at you with furrowed brows. âIâm taking the couch.â
You stare at him, ready to hear him say heâs kidding or something but he doesnât look like heâs joking.
You shake your head vigorously.
âNo, thatâs ridiculous.â
âWhatâs ridiculous about it?â Jungkook says, putting the pillows on the couch, starting to make it all the while looking at you through the process to engage.
âItâs your place.â You reason.
âAnd youâre my guest.â He says as a matter of fact.
âButââ
Jungkook cuts you off before you can even finish your sentence.
â__, itâs fine, really. You can take my bed. I insist.â
âJungkookâŠâ you trail off, sounding more like a whine.
He laughs and then looks at you with a playful smile. âOkay, should we compromise? Like, what, share the bed or the couch?â
You ignore the way your cheeks heat up at the suggestion.
You honestly donât know why Jungkook says these kinds of things. You know itâs just his usual teasing, but heâs about to confuse you one of these daysâŠ
âGod, no.â You respond with a shake of your head.
He chuckles. âOh, is sleeping with me that repulsive to you?â
You push a little at his shoulder and roll your eyes.
When Jungkookâs done fixing the couch, he gestures to the door by the far end of the room. âCome on, I'll take you to the bedroom.â
You both walk towards that direction and as much as youâve been over his place for more than once now, youâve actually never seen his room â and for the record, why would you?
But it looks nice. Just like the rest of his apartmentâs interior, his room is also almost the same. Kind of bare, but there are some sleek furniture that add character to the whole place.
âToo cold?â Jungkook asks, and you look at him to see him holding the remote of his AC.
âThe tempâs fine.â
He hums and puts down the remote.
âAlright, then. Just call me if you need something.â Jungkook says, gesturing to the door. Heâs about to leave when you call him again.
âGood night, Jungkook. Thank you for your bed.â
âGood night, __. Uh⊠sweet dreams?â
You roll your eyes. Jungkook laughs.
When he leaves, you sit on his mattress covered by black duvets and sheets. Itâs soft, and you let yourself bounce on the fluffy surface, delighting at the feel.
Itâs about the same size as yours, and when you lay on it, you smell that usual scent that Jungkook always emanates. Clean, crisp, a little sweet. Like fresh apples. Or fresh laundry. He just always smells so⊠clean.
You feel a little sense of strangeness at the different environment youâre in, but the bed is too soft that you feel like youâre almost floating â and maybe itâs because you are tired from work and drained from the whole fiasco at your apartment, but you fall asleep fast and heavy within just a few minutes.
You almost jump from the bed when you open your eyes and see a different type of bedding, only to realize that youâre actually not in your apartment and in Jungkookâs instead.
After processing that, you begin to do a little stretching, finding that you slept quite well. As you do so, your eyes catch the digital clock on the bedside table, and you read 4:30 am.
Itâs a bit too early to start getting ready for work, but maybe if you start prepping now, youâll be ready to go out just as when Jungkook is waking up.
When you stand from the bed, you discover the absence of pants around your waist, the cold air sending goosebumps over your bare legs â and as expected, you see the sweats getting caught in between the heaps of dark sheets on the bed.
You must have taken it off in the middle of the night. Itâs why you usually forgo pants when you sleep.
You decide against wearing it again, though, assuming that Jungkook is still sound asleep by now so he canât possibly see you walking around his place naked from the waist down. Besides, the shirtâs big and almost serves as a dress.
Carrying the pants with you, you silently open the door to his bedroom to tiptoe on your way to the bathroom.
âHey,â
âJesus christ!â You clutch your heart at the sudden sound of Jungkookâs voice booming across the unit.
When you look at him, heâs⊠working out. Apparently.
Jungkook takes out the airpods from his ears and drink from his tumbler.
âWhat are you tiptoeing for?â He asks, brows furrowed.
From where you stand, you see droplets of sweat on the side of his forehead, his chest heaving from the push-ups you catch him doing a few seconds ago on the mat that he laid on the floor. There are small weights on the side, and Jungkook is still wearing his clothes from last night.
Did he possibly just⊠wake up and then choose to exercise? Is this his everyday routine?
âI didnât want to wake you,â you make up an excuse thatâs kind of partly true. He slept on the couch in the living room, after all. And from the sala, everything is pretty much visible to the eye as the unit has an open layout. So one single noise couldâve awakened him.
âToo late for that,â Jungkook chuckles. He looks at you longer than a second and youâre just about to get conscious when he asks, âYou get ready for work at four?â
You purse your lips into a thin line. âSort of. I also have to check my place.â Jungkook nods, understanding. âUh, Jungkook?â He hums to acknowledge you. âCan I use your shower? Again?â
He laughs at the way you smile at him awkwardly. âSure. Your towelâs just over the rack.â
âThanks.â You smile at him and go straight to the bathroom.
You make quick work of washing yourself, and the shower, just like last night, isnât your usual routine because of course, most of your stuff are still over at your place. Though Jungkook is kind enough to lend you some of his unused products â even giving you a spare toothbrush which now sits beside his own on the bathroom sink.
When you finish showering, you wear his shirt and his pants once again. As you go out of the bathroom, the sound of oil popping from the kitchen doesnât escape your ears.
âI made breakfast.â Jungkook says as you make your way towards the kitchen island. Heâs a few steps away, working around the stove, frying up some sausage. He takes some eggs and then turns to you. âHow do you like your eggs?â
Youâre sure he doesnât mean anything by that, but then you both laugh at the realization anyway.
âSunny side up.â You say after a while, seating yourself on one of the high stools. âCan I help you?â
âItâs okay, just sit there.â
You put your elbow on the island as you watch him work. âWow, do you really treat all your guests like this?â You tease, deciding to poke a joke.
Jungkook laughs as he starts breaking eggs into the frying pan.
âYouâre the first one.â He raises a brow your way, lips tilted into a playful smile.
âAwe.â You pretend to curtsy which makes Jungkook laugh.
It doesnât take long before Jungkook serves you a plate of sausage and perfectly-made sunny side up. You say a delighted âthank you!â in which Jungkook returns an adorable smile for.
You thought he was going to eat with you, but he only ate the sausage and began to work on cutting up some bananas while you continued to eat.
âWhat did they say about your apartment? How long is the repair?â Jungkook asks while he takes out a mixer.
âWeek-long,â He visibly winces at your answer. You purse your lips. âIâm trying to look for a place to stay for the remaining days.â
Jungkook furrows his brows. âLease doesnât cover relocation?â
âTalked to the building manager and the landlord last night and they said it doesnât. I also read the policy again myself last night, though, just to be sure. Anyway, landlordâs cutting my rent this month for up to thirty, so thatâs something.â
âOkay⊠how about your stuff?â
As you watch Jungkook during the whole conversation, you realize that heâs apparently making a protein shake, and when he finishes shaking the bottle, he gestures it towards you, silently asking if you want to try it.
You shake your head, also answering his question. âI already filed a claim on it with my insurance company, so theyâre handling it for me. Theyâre probably going to seek reimbursement from my upstairs neighborâs insurance if he has one,â You shrug. âAnd Iâm also gonna have to ask him to pay for the deductible.â
Jungkook nods, consuming his drink. You watch as he leans back on the kitchen sink, putting his protein shake down and crossing his arms, looking right at you.
âWhy donât you stay here for a while?â
You look right back at him weird.
âYouâre not serious.â
âWhen am I not serious?â
You hold a staring competition after that, but Jungkookâs eyes are way too intense so you break away first.
âI just canât.â You say, interrupting the silence.
âItâs friend to a friend. I bet youâd do this for me too.â Jungkook shrugs.
He doesnât understand, though. Staying at his place for the remaining six days would mean that youâd be both living under the same roof together, and while itâs true that you would probably do this for him if he was in your shoes, itâs just not the same.
But you donât want to get into all that. Itâs too complicated to explain, even to yourself.
So you decide to joke a little.
âProbably not.â You tease.
Jungkook chuckles. âMean.â He comments, shaking his head at you and playfully clicking his tongue.
âIâm joking,â you smile apologetically. âItâs just for six more days, though. The manager told me it might take faster.â
âWhere do plan to stay, anyway? A hotel would be really inconvenient. The nearest one around here is too far from work, not to mention itâd be expensive as well.â
âThereâs loss of use coverage,â You say, even though you know the stipulation, and your apartment flooding because of your neighborâs negligence might probably not be in the clauses.
Itâs just to reason with Jungkook, but heâs quick to present another point.
âItâs gonna take a long while, no?â
You pout. Sighing, you say, âYouâre right.â
âOkay, so why not stay here?â Jungkook asks curiously. âYou know I donât mind. I wonât mind.â He says and it sounds so convincing and genuine.
You decide to deflect a little because you feel like giving in any seconds now.
âYou say that but wait until you find that Iâm not very likeable as a roommate.â
Jungkook raises a brow. âShoot. Hit me.â
Pursing your lips into a thin line, you try to think of your bad habits.
âIâŠâ you trail off, but it stretches into seconds way longer than necessary.
Jungkook chuckles. âSee, you canât even list one.â
âI donât cook.â You point out.
âI already know that.â
You frown. âSo we canât take turns cooking while I stay here.â
Jungkook only shrugs. âThereâs take-out.â
âYouâre gonna eat take-out for a week?â
âI can cook.â He chuckles.
âOkay⊠but sometimes, I get super cranky.â
He nods. âIâll be out of your way, then. You wonât even notice Iâm here.â
You sigh, out of reasons now.
âIâll try to be helpful with you in the kitchen for the next six days. And Iâll also be nice.â
Jungkookâs brows perk up. âYouâre saying you want to stay here?â
âYeah,â you nod. âBut⊠I wan to pay you.â
â__, the whole reason why Iâm offering is because a hotel is gonna cost you,â Jungkook laughs.
That prompts you to put a frown on your face.
âFair point. But Iâm going to take your couch the entire time, okay? And thatâs final.â
It takes a little longer for Jungkook to agree to that. But he nods his head, anyway, saying, âSure.â
It sounds so non-committal. You think he's going to still try insisting taking the couch.
âOkay.â You say, ignoring that thought, smiling at him. âThank you.â
âYou know youâre always welcome, right?â Jungkook says.
Youâre thankful he turns around after he says that to tend to the stuff he used a while ago in the sink, giving you a perfect leeway to avoid his gaze lest he takes notice of the way you canât help a big smile.
âIâm gonna take a shower. Finish your breakfast.â He says, pointing to your unfinished plate.Â
You give him a small salute.
Before he goes to the direction of the bathroom, Jungkook turns around to ask. "Do you want to go to work together?" He raises a brow, but then a second after his question, he puts a hand up, effectively stopping you from answering. "You're gonna say no. But I insist. Say yes, I made you breakfast."Â
You laugh at his squinted eyes.Â
"I was going to say yes, anyway."
"No, you weren't." Jungkook fires back.Â
You shoo him away playfully before he finally leave for the shower.
All you can think about is that maybe silver linings are indeed true.
Sharing a space with somebody has always felt⊠weird.
You had a roommate back in college for the whole four years, and while it wasnât the worst thing that ever happened to you â it was just an experience that didnât really strike you as something memorable or fun. Min Heeji was a Bio major who was an extreme introvert, and past the casual hiâs and helloâs, you both just never hit it off.
After moving out of your dorm, you rented around Itaewon. You found the unit through a listing you saw on Facebook â some woman who was finding a roommate to split the rent with. You found out later that the reason why the previous people before you left was because she was quite an interesting lady⊠letâs just say â she was a person who dabbled on the arts of illegal drug trading. Jimin jokingly told you he wondered about how her weed tasted like. Sometimes, you want to smack him on the head.
You pretty much decided on being against roommates for the entirety of your life after that.
But Jeon Jungkook is thankfully not a total hermit, nor does he sell weed.
Itâs been long since you lived with somebody, and being under the same roof as him is different â the good kind of different, to be clear.
Heâs somewhat a clean freak so itâs almost embarrassing to do anything in his place because itâs always so spot clean.
One thing that you learned though is that heâs a busy man. You had an idea about a packed schedule and non-existent free time for an executive person like him â but the idea feels more real now that youâve witnessed it.
On the first day of your stay, after your apartment got flooded, he drove you both to work just like he offered. During the night, though, he seemed to have come home late. You slept at around 10pm and never saw him entering the door, and when you woke up the next day, heâs gone, only a note on the fridge telling you that heâs prepared some breakfast you can heat up to eat.
Nonetheless, you feel into quite an easy routine with him.
After a great deal of insistence from your side, Jungkook is rightfully assigned in his bedroom while you lay on the couch. Itâs a bit bigger than the one you have on your own, so thereâs space for moving around. Even when you wake up with shitty back pains in the mornings, sleeping on his couch is better than sleeping in your current wreck of an apartment as the contractor is already repairing your place.
As of the third day since the incident, theyâve already changed your ceiling, the flooring coming next. It was starting to look good as per your visit.
That made it clearer to you, though, that youâre indeed staying at Jungkookâs for another four days.
Jungkook was so busy that he even worked on a Saturday â told you that it was a hectic week for his team over a shared dinner that you thought will happen only once during your stay with his packed schedule. On Sunday, you kind of assumed that Jungkook will still be at the office, but he surprised you when he came barging in the bathroom while you were in it.
You had your leg propped on the edge of the bathtub, squeezing the bottle of lotion in your palm and spreading the cream over the skin of your shin, adjusting the towel up your thighs so you can cover your entire leg with the product.
You did so mindlessly, part of your usual after-shower routine, completely unassuming of the sound of the doorknob clicking and Jungkook suddenly barging inside the room with a hamper in his hand.
Frozen in your position, your eyes locked into his own as he stepped a foot forward on the tiled floor. You realized the hamper is his laundry.
âSorry, I didnât know you were here,â Jungkook apologized, and he looked genuinely bashful.
âI thought you were at work.â you said, adjusting the towel on the top of your head.
Jungkook raised a brow, but thereâs a smile on his lips. âOn a Sunday?â
You narrowed your eyes at him which prompted him to laugh. A beat of silence, and then you noticed Jungkookâs gaze. You felt his eyes to the direction of your raised leg on the porcelain tub â and if your own sight didnât deceive you, you couldâve sworn heâd made a quick glance-over to the expanse of your bare leg before he snapped right back into looking at your face.
âAnyway, I was just gonna do my laundry,â Jungkook twisted himself away from the bathroomâs door. âIâll wait for you to finish, though. Iâm sorry again for barging in.â
At that, you quickly shook your head and planted both your feet on the tiles, standing upright.
âNo, itâs fine. Iâm done, anyway. Are you in a hurry? I just need to change into some⊠clothes.â You said, glancing at the heap of some pajama pants and a t-shirt on the bathroom sink.
âNot in a hurry. You can change here.â Jungkook gave you a small smile.
You nodded your head. âYeah, yeah. Sorry. Iâll be super quick.â
Your lips curled into an apologetic smile, but Jungkook waved you off.
He took one last look at you before he locked the door â one thing that you forgot to do in the very first place.
You blamed it on your habit of not really being mindful about it since you were used to living alone.
The day after that â one fateful Monday â Jungkook once again was MIA at his own place. You woke around 6 am, and as you got ready for work, you noticed a note on his fridge that he went to work earlier than usual that day, and heâd also be working late so you should lock up at night.
At the company, you did not even catch a single glimpse of him.
You bought some food on your way to his place later that day, thinking that maybe you could share a meal together â nevermind the fact that he had told you he was going to be home late. But you did not expect his âlateâ would exceed past 11 pm, and since you were also pretty much tired from your own activities for that day, you fell asleep on the couch without making it, lying on the surface with no pillows and comforter over your body.
In your dreams that night, you felt like you were floating.
Somebody has tucked their arms under your knees and neck, taking you off the previous surface you were lying on. The unfamiliar man cradles your body against his, carrying you somewhere and putting you on a much softer place. A mattress. A big, soft, mattress. And you noted that the man smelled of green apples and laundry. An almost familiar scent.
Needless to say, your dream was quite vivid that night.
When you woke up the next morning, you were welcomed with the familiar grey paint of the walls â the white ceiling, and the dark sheets and pillows that surrounded you. A waft of fresh laundry smell. The Iron Man figurine on the top shelf of the cabinet in the corner of the room. The black slippers on the side of the door that are way too big to be yours.
Jungkook.
The strange man in your dreams was Jungkook. And it wasnât a dream at all.
It was Jeon Jungkook who carried you all the way to his bedroom from the sofa so you could sleep comfortably on it.
When you went out of his room that morning, ready to thank him and tell him he didnât have to do what he did, feeling bad at the thought of him sleeping on his couch at his own place, Jungkook was nowhere to be found.
But as if it was becoming tradition, there was a note on his fridge that told you:Â I hope you donât mind that I brought you to my room. I found you uncomfortable on the couch last night. Didnât cook us breakfast because I have to go to work early again today, but Iâll have food delivered at around 7. Good morning, __ :)
   â Jungkook.
That night, though, Jungkook miraculously came home early.
He arrived an hour after you, just in time as you finished doing the prep for the bibimbap you were planning to eat on your own, assuming Jungkook was going to be late again. When you saw him entering the door, you decided to make the portions of the ingredients bigger, thinking that it was the perfect opportunity to say thank you for the other night.
And you did not forget to say that either.
âThank you for last night. You didnât have toâŠâ you trailed off, giving him a sheepish smile across the dining table as you both ate.
Jungkook, with his mouth full of rice â seemingly (thankfully) enjoying the meal you prepared for him â munched on it before he said, âYou looked real tired. And uncomfortable, which reminds me, you should sleep in the bedroom as well tonight.â
You shook your head. âItâs fine, Jungkook. Last night was just â uh, I was waiting for you to come home because I didnât want to just lounge around your living room while you arenât around, but then I guessed you arrived a little late.â
Out of all the things youâd said, it seemed Jungkook only remembered one thing.
âYou were waiting for me to come home?â He said, his hand reaching for the side dish pausing mid-air, eyes trained to you. Curious, his brow piqued in what seemed like genuine intrigue.
You stopped. You went over your words, not realizing those came out of your mouth.
Obviously, you didnât mean for that to slip out.
So, you shook your head slowly. Hesitantly, you reasoned, âItâs just youâre always in your room first before I fix the couch for bedtime. So.â You shrugged, knowing your explanation didnât suffice.
Jungkook gave you a nod with small a smile on his lips.
âIâm sorry for making you wait, then. Itâs just extra busy at the company these days.â
Your brows furrowed in curiosity, âYeah, I heard about the collaboration with Kang Tech.â
You found out about it at work that day. Itâs in the accounts payable youâve worked on the past few days, and when you asked Joonhwi and Sol about it, they confirmed the recent moves the company is recently making.
You also realized then that the reason why the mystery woman in the elevator was familiar to you was because youâve seen pictures of her before.
Of course youâd know her. Sheâs the woman Jiminâs parents are trying to set him up with. The one and only Kang Heesu. She took over as CEO just very recently at Kang Tech.
Apparently, Blue Nexus and Kang Tech are collaborating on a product that will be announced later during the month â which explains her being at the company oftentimes, Jungkook being busy, drowned with work stuff â them working closely together.
Whatever you felt on that day you saw them together â youâd like to dismiss that as just a blip in the system. Your system, to be exact.
It isnât any of your business whoever gets around with Jungkook. Whether heâs close with Kang Heesu outside work or not (like what youâve pondered about ever since finding out about the information of their collaboration) â thatâs their thing.
âYeah, the teamâs been working overtime because of it.â Jungkook added to your words from earlier.
âSo, youâre more tired than I am,â You pointed out, noting the obvious. He went to work at the ass-crack of dawn, went home late, and whenever he was home â all he faced was his laptop.
You even doubt he was getting enough sleep. There were bags under his eyes that werenât there the past month you first met him â and even though he carried them with a certain grace, you could still see that some of the shine in his eyes was becoming absent.
You were glad you were able to prepare something for him. Did something for him. You didnât have to â but you did. Because you wanted to be a helpful roommate.
âDoes it show?â Jungkook chuckled, leaning back on the chair, a bashful expression on his face.
You shook your head. âNope. But yeah, you donât need to give up your bedroom tonight. Iâll be fine here.â
âI actually bought something. Wait a minute,â Jungkook suddenly said. Your brows furrowed when you watched him saunter over the living room and in towards his bedroom. When he came back to the dining area, he was carrying a huge paper bag. You looked at him, visibly confused. Jungkook cleared his throat as he sat back down on his seat. âI was thinking you could use this. Itâs a foldable cushion or whatever so you can sleep more comfortably on the couch.â
You gawked at the paper bag, and then at him.
âWhat?â
âI went to the mall yesterday and the lady told me this is one of their best sellers⊠I donât know. Do you want to have a look at it?â Jungkook said, worry seeping in his tone.
âThatâs a⊠cushion? For the couch?â
He nodded.
âOh.â Was the only thing you could utter. You didnât really know what to say. âI⊠this is really thoughtful. You didnât have to, you know that, right?â
Jungkook shook his head and gave you a small smile.
âThank you, Jungkook.â You told him sincerely.
âItâs nothing.â He waved you off. âI got that dry-cleaned already, by the way, so you can use it tonight if you really insist on sleeping on the couch.â Jungkook said with a teasing smile.
âThat,â you point to the paper bag, âwill single-handedly get me to want to live here for another three months.â
Jungkook raised his brow. âReally?â
You chuckled, leaving the conversation up on the air.
When you both finished your meal, you offered to do the dishes yourself, but Jungkook was insistent to do it, saying youâve already done a lot for the day. You begged to differ, but you relented, anyway.
After you showered and made the couch, geeking internally at how soft the cushion he bought was, you couldnât sleep right away, your mind finding it hard to focus on the lull of the crickets. So, at around 11 pm, you opened your laptop to pull up an X-Files episode, thinking it could condition you into being sleepy.
You promised yourself you were just going to finish one more episode, but the next episode button was too tempting and you found yourself binging the show into the wee hours of the night.
â__?â A voice coming from the far end of the room called, followed by the clicking sound of the lights turning on. With that, you found Jungkook standing on his door with his eyes half-lidded, hands rubbing his chest, seemingly having just woken up from his sleep.
âJungkook,â you acknowledged him, straying your attention from your show. Jungkook started to trot towards the direction of the kitchen, and your eyes followed him as he stopped in front of his fridge, taking some water out and pouring it into a glass.
After he drank it, he looked at you to ask, âCanât sleep?â You nodded your head. He made his way towards the couch, pointing at it. âWould you mind?â
âNo, do you want to?â You adjusted the duvet you put all over your back to make room for him, and Jungkook placed himself beside you, peering over the screen on your laptop.
âWhat are you watching?â He asked, voice a little groggy.
âThe X-Files. You know the show?â
âHeard about it a few times. Never gotten around to watch it, though,â Jungkook said, leaning on the back of the couch, eyes still glued to your laptop.
You smiled. âMaybe you can start it now.â
âWhatâs it about?â
âUh⊠aliens,â you started off, feeling a little silly about it. Gauging his reaction, you waited for him to give you a judgmental look but he seemed to be intrigued when he looked at you, asking for more details. You perked up that, feeling suddenly excited. âOkay, so, the guy here â his nameâs Mulder. Heâs an FBI agent whoâs tasked on cases that have, you know, unexplainable nature. Basically, he believes in aliens, all that ET stuff,â you explained. Right on time, Gillian Anderson appears on frame. Pointing at her, you looked at Jungkook as you introduced her to him, âAnd the woman â sheâs so pretty â thatâs Scully. Sheâs a skeptic. Sheâs an FBI agent whoâs also a scientist and was assigned to be with him to debunk his work.â
âSo, they investigate cases together?â Jungkook added.
You nodded your head. âYeah, and itâs different for each episode. Thereâs the alien storyline which is like, the main plot of the show, but thereâs the fun filler episodes. Monster of the week, they call it. Iâm rewatching one of those right now âcause theyâre fun and donât have a backstory.â
âIt sounds good,â Jungkook looked impressed, training his eyes back on the show.
You werenât sure if he was just trying to make a conversation, but he seemed genuinely interested as you both watched the show, which tickled your excitement more. Youâve tried to get Jimin into it but he wasnât really an avid fan of watching long shows, so youâve given up on trying to convince him to be as obsessive of the show as you.
âDo they kiss?â Jungkook suddenly asked mid-episode, brows furrowed as he watched Mulder wiped something off the side of Scullyâs lips. Itâs the episode when Scully just got back from being abducted.
Amused, you looked at him and let out a chuckle. Jungkook turned to look at you, confused at the reaction.
âHm?â
You shook your head. âNo, itâs just funny. So, thereâs a thing in this show, right? Scully and Mulder are not supposed to be a couple, but they act like one.â
Jungkook let out a seemingly enlightened, âAh.â Then he looked at your screen again, âIâm watching it right now out of context and Iâm assuming theyâre a couple.â
âRight? They have such insane chemistry. Itâs why I love this show so much.â
âWait. They never get together? Or kiss, romantically?â Jungkook asked curiously.
âThey kiss on the seventh season. Weâre on the second one.â
âWow,â He breathed, genuinely surprised. âThatâs a long wait.â
âI know,â you chuckled.
You both sat beside each other as the episode finished. Jungkook would have some questions, and you happily answered each one. It was also fun to share some lore about the show â and you didnât know if you were coming off too geeky about it â you were just unbelievably excited that he seemed to genuinely like it.
Time passed without you both noticing, and it was 2:23 am when you became hesitant on clicking the next episode button.
âDo you still want to watch another one orâŠâ You trailed off, eyes glued to the screen, waiting to hear Jungkookâs response. But then a few seconds passed, and you didnât receive one. Turning your head to the side, your eyes widened when you see the state Jungkook was in.
He was leaning far back on the couch with his head resting on the backrest, arms crossed over his chest, lips slightly parted with his eyes shut closed. You could see his chest rising and falling from the way he breathed in and out of sleep, looking quite peaceful regardless of his seemingly uncomfortable position.
You shut your mouth and closed your laptop quietly, trying to be careful with your movements so as to not disturb him and accidentally wake him up. Stretching your back to lean down, your breath hitched as you tried to set the laptop down on the coffee table, not daring to graze any part of Jungkookâs body, especially when his thigh was so closed to your own.
When you successfully put away the device, you went back to sitting beside him, contemplating on your next move.
You ended up staring at him, noting the way his biceps are bulging out of the sleeves of his white shirt with a thin material from their crossed position. Your eyes trailed down to the veins on his forearms, and naturally, you focused in on the one with the swirls of ink around it. It was a body of art on the first look â but looking at it at that moment â close up and free, you took time to identify the drawings on his skin.
There was that snake that trailed down close to his hand, the skeletal rock nâ roll hand, and the script that says ârather be dead than coolâ. It was a shame that you couldnât see from your current view the flower tattoo you were always curious about, nevertheless, the entirety of his inked arm was just⊠breathtaking, to say the least.
You wanted to ask him what they meant â or if they even meant something. You knew by now he only got them in college â when he moved to the US â and you were just curious about how he decided to get them; about the backstory, anything⊠Would love to trace down your fingers on his skin as he tells you the exact moment.
And then you realized what you were doing and suddenly looked away.
You felt like a creep. What were you doing, staring at him while he was unaware, unconscious in his sleep? It was not right, and you were supposed to scoot over to the edge to give him plenty of space all for himself.
But as you looked at him again, your eyes stopped at his face, and you couldnât help but stare at it.
Again.
His nose was something you weirdly have a liking to, and thereâs a scar on his cheek that once again bubbled up another layer of curiosity within you.
âStop it.â You mumbled out loud â not loud enough for Jungkook to hear â but just enough to snap yourself out of the trance you were in.
It was stupid. So stupid. To stare at a sleeping man and have those thoughts inside your head. Jungkook would never do anything like this to you, and at that sentiment, you stood up from the couch to get away.
You caught a sight of the duvet that you used a while ago. As you looked at Jungkook, he seemed to be in dire need of one, so you made quiet steps to put it over him, stopping your breathing in case you did it too loud and he wakes up.
As you carefully laid out the blanket on top of his body, Jungkook stirred, and your breath hitched as you stopped on your tracks.
He mumbled something incoherent, his neck craning to lay on his cheek. Regardless, he stayed on his position, arms still crossed, seemingly going back to his deep sleep instantly.
You stepped out in front of him, letting out a breath of relief.
Standing there for a few seconds, you wondered about where you were going to stay. Jungkook was on the couch and unlike him â you could not carry him to his room without him noticing.
Looking at the direction of said room, you thought about staying there for the night, but decide against it. You didnât get his permission to do so, itâd be rudeâ
But the couch is only one, though. And you could feel a yawn ready to come out of your own mouth, sleep lurking at the back of your head.
You could try to wake Jungkook up to tell him to go to his room so he could sleep more comfortably, but you couldnât do it. The past few days, he had been so busy with work and seemed like he wasnât getting enough rest. What if you woke him up and he couldnât go back to sleep anymore? That would just make you feel bad.
Getting the pillow strewn over the edge, you walked towards the direction and fixed it against the arm rest, sitting on the spot and making yourself comfortable on it. Of course, it wasnât â you were craning your neck too far to the side to try to lay your head, and your body was sprawled in a weird sitting and lying position.
It was fine, though. Jungkook was about two feet away from you, and you felt like you could sleep in the state.
But it was a few long minutes before it completely overtook you.
Thereâs a feeling of a hard plane against your back when you feel yourself waking up.
Youâre in a curled position, hands tucked under your cheeks. As much as youâre starting to slowly feel conscious, youâre still not a hundred percent aware of your surroundings just yet. Itâs why you ignore the blow of hot air against the crook of your neck.
When you blearily open your eyes, youâre welcomed with the sight of the back of the grey couch youâve accustomed yourself with over the past few days. The white foldable cushion youâre lying on. The familiar scent of Jungkookâs apartment.
Itâs another usual morning, as far as youâre concerned.
So, you stretch an arm up as well as your leg, groggily mumbling something as you go back to closing your eyes again to hopefully sneak in a few more minutes of sleep.
âHmmâŠâ
At the sudden sound, your eyes snap open, surprised at the embodied voice that came out somewhere thatâs definitely not from your own mouth. It was close, though â something close to your neck; you felt it so â and at that realization, your eyes trail down to your waist, and your breath catches in your throat when you see an arm wrapped around it.
Under your head is another arm that adorns a familiar sleeve tattoo.
When you crane your neck to look behind you, youâre welcomed by Jungkookâs locks of black and messy hair, his face apparently buried in the crook of your neck.
He mustâve felt you move because he stirs in his position, mumbling something, arm tightening around you.
You feel your heart starting to beat faster than usual as you feel the tips of Jungkookâs fingers resting on the bare skin of your stomach due to your camisole riding up, and your eyes continue to widen when you saw that the shirt heâs worn last night is now lying haphazardly across the coffee table where your laptop is.
When Jungkook pushes himself against you closer, thatâs when you feel something hard against the cleft of your ass.
âOh my god!â
âWhat the fuck!â
âIâm so sorry!â You immediately say, retreating your hands that just pushed him off the couch once everything registered in your head.
You just⊠slept with each other! You woke up with Jungkook spooning you! The hard plane against your back that you felt earlier was his chest and the hot air blowing in your ear was his breath! You both fell asleep together on the couch!
Jungkook â the poor man â visibly winces as he cradles the back of his head, adjusting himself on the floor after you forcefully yeeted him off the couch.
He didnât expect that, of course he didnât! He still looks like heâs half asleep when you kneel on the floor in front of him, grabbing his shoulders and craning your neck to check if youâve done damage to his head.
âWhat the hell was that for?â Jungkook asks, still lost about what just happened.
You grimace as you hesitantly put your palm over the back of his head and rub to soothe the pain youâve caused him.
âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to push you. I was just surprised and shocked when Iââ
You stopped speaking when you notice that Jungkook is looking up at you, eyes half-lidded from sleep. Stopping your ministration on the back of his head, you retreat your hands to yourself and look away.
âWe slept together.â
âWhat?â Jungkook asks, his tone incredulous, but more like confused. When you train your eyes to him again, you see him looking down on his body and then yours.
Your cheeks heat up when you realize what you just said.
âOh my god, no! Not slept slept with each other! I mean, we slept together. Like, literally.â You say, looking at him in panic.
Jungkook furrows his brows. And then after a beat of silence, he lets out a low, âOh.â
âOh?â You parrot back.
âYeah, oh,â He says drily. Jungkook rubs his eyes with his fists and then looks at you again. âIâm sorry, I feel disoriented. I just woke up.â
You wince at that, feeling bad for pushing him again.
It was just a reflex thing, okay! Especially when you felt that certain something in your ass.
When Jungkook stands up from the floor, you notice the strings of his grey shorts getting undone, and your eyes betray you as they pay a look at the noticeable bulge on his crotch.
Jesus H. Fucking Christ.
You stand up quickly, following after him, feeling your heart hammer in your chest.
Okay, boo-fucking-hoo! Men get boners in the mornings. Whatâs the big deal about it?
âWhat time is it?â Jungkook asks, brushing his hair back, and you have to physically look away and try to busy yourself by looking for your phone so you can ignore his naked chest on display and his abs and stupid big arms.
You spot your phone nearby and turn it on.
âSix thirty.â
âShit.â Jungkook hisses.
Youâve never heard him let out so many curses before.
âWhat? Itâs still early.â you say, in case he was referring to work.
Jungkook shakes his head. âYeah, no. I was supposed to get ready at five am sharp. Need to go there early.â
âOh.â
He groans, and the sound makes your stomach feel a little weird.
âI have to go shower,â Jungkook says, picking up his shirt from the coffee table. âIâm sorry about earlier.â
âHuh?â You realize what heâs talking about and is then quick to shake your head. âNo, not your fault. I, uh, you fell asleep on the couch last night and I didnât want to wake you.â
He nods, more like to himself. âHow did weâŠ?â Jungkook points between you, eyeing the couch.
âI didnât want to use your bed without your permission, so I slept on the couch as well,â But then you decide to add, âBut I didnât sleep beside you, I was like ââ you point to the edge of the couch, âthere.â
âAh,â Jungkook follows your eyes, and then nods. âOkay.â
âYeah.â you purse your lips into a thin line. âSorry about that. I shouldâve just woken you up, huh?â
âNah, itâs fine.â He dismisses you with a wave of his hand. âWell, is it okay if I use the shower first?â
âOf course.â
Jungkook smiles before he saunters towards the bathroom. You try not to stare at the hard lines of his retreating back, taping down to his narrow waist.
You failed to do that, obviously.
Sighing out loud when youâre sure he canât hear you, you busy yourself in the kitchen to make some toast.
After work, you paid a quick visit to your apartment to see how itâs going, since youâre supposed to be able to come back tomorrow.
Your building manager told you that you can pretty much move back already, but thereâs no water yet, so you will still have to stay at Jungkookâs place for the last time. At least for another night.
Speaking of him, when you step out on your porch, you see him in front of his own unit, back turned to you, opening his door.
âHey,â you call. Jungkook turns on his heel, and he smiles as he sees you.
âHey,â He greets, his hand pausing on the door. Jungkook gives you his undivided attention as he looks at you. âYour apartmentâs fine now?â
You nod happily, grinning widely. âYeah. But I have no water yet. Theyâre turning it on tomorrow.â You saunter towards his direction and stop beside him. Pointing to the paper bags in his hands, you ask, âWhatâs that?â
Jungkook lifts them up. âSoju and Midday Miso take-out.â Then, hesitantly, he looks at you curiously. âDo you drink?â
That prompts you to laugh.
âOf course. Are you drinking tonight?â
He nods his head. âYeah. I was gonna ask you to drink with me⊠but if youâre not up for it, Iâll just be in my room.â
You cock your head to the side.
âWhatâs the occasion?â
Jungkook chuckles. âNothing. Just thought I could loosen up.â
You nod in understanding.
You think about asking him how workâs been, but decide against it, not wanting to pry in case he doesnât want to talk about any of it.
As you both enter his apartment, itâs almost so domesticated how you take off your shoes and put them in the rack in the threshold. Jungkook wears his black sliders while you wear your baby blue ones. Following him into the living room, itâs almost wild to see yourself being so familiar with his place already.
âWhere can we watch The X-Files?â Jungkook asks suddenly after he set the bags on the table, going for the remote and turning on the TV.
You look at him in surprise, not expecting him to ask that.
You answer nonetheless, and Jungkook clicks on the show once it shows up on the screen.
âDo you really want to start with the pilot episode?â You chuckle when he hovers over it.
Jungkook grins. âI enjoyed it last night. Maybe this could be a new favorite.â
âWoah,â you breathed, shaking your head. âDo you know how much I have to convince Jimin to watch this show?â
âJimin doesnât like shows. I wanted him to watch Suits but he said he couldnât stand Harvey Specter â which is fair.â
âOh my god, thatâs also what he told me when I recommended Suits!â You say. You narrow your eyes at him, excited about the information. âSo⊠you like Suits?â
Jungkook nods. âSort of like a guilty pleasure? I used to watch it a lot in college. My roommate studied law and started telling me about how inaccurate it was, but itâs fun regardless,â He says with a shrug. âSue me.â
âI know, right! People always wanna be smart about procedural dramas, but I think itâs just camp they canât comprehend,â You shake your head, feeling a certain high bubble inside you. You lean your elbows on the coffee table. âOkay, okay, thoughts on Jessica Pearson?â
Jungkook grins. âA dream.â
You breathe a sigh of relief.
âIâm so glad you have the correct opinion.â
Jungkook laughs at that, and you begin to eat the take-out he bought, The X-Files playing on the big screen before you.
âYou went home early today,â you comment as you take the shot glass he offers you.
A few minutes has passed already and youâre beginning to open the bottles of soju, Midday Miso take-out boxes all finished.
âManaged to finish early tonight. Thatâs probably why I wanted to drink,â Jungkook says, tipping his head back to drink from his own bottle. âAlso, itâs your last day here.â
You nod. With a teasing smile, you jab, âAre you going to miss me?â
Jungkook looks at you briefly.
âMaybe.â
âMaybe?â You ask incredulously, feigning hurt.
He chuckles. âI liked your little dance in the kitchen last Sunday.â
Your lips part, recalling that time when you reheated some pizza during the night. As far as you were concerned, Jungkook was in his bedroom at that time!
âYou saw that?â You say, embarrassed.
Jungkook mustâve noticed, because he chuckles and begins to sound comforting when he says, âSome part of it, yeah. Megan Thee Stallion would love to perform with you, I think.â
âOh my god, no,â You giggle, covering your face with your hands because if he caught you during that part, it means he saw you trying to throw it back. âYeah, I think Iâm packing my things right now.â
Jungkook laughs, and his eyes crinkle as he does so, overjoyed at your tactics.
âI thought you wanted to drink with me?â
You squint your eyes. âJust because I feel sorry for pushing you off the couch this morning.â
He shakes his head, still chuckling. âYeah, that hurt. I think I have a bump on my head right now.â
You stop, eyes widening. âSeriously?â
Jungkook presses his lips together and nods. You grow concerned, ready to lean over the table to check the back of his head, but as you do so, Jungkook makes a sound of stifling his laugh and you realize heâs fucking with you.
âThatâs so mean.â you say, going back to your side and pouting at him.
âNot meaner than you pushing me off the couch.â He wiggles his eyebrows.
âUgh, Iâm sorry. You just surprised me, 's all!â
Jungkook laughs and nods his head. âI know, I know. Iâm sorry about that. I have a habit of being able to sleep anywhere.â
You scrunch your face. âMe too.â
And then a beat of silence.
Jungkook tips his head back for another sip of his alcohol. When he looks at you again, a gentle smile is playing on his lips.
âI had a good night sleep, though. Did you?â
He looks at you with something in his eyes â something soft and gentle â his gaze making the hair on your nape stand and your cheeks burn.
âYeah, I guess so.â
The night continues to envelope your surroundings and as time passes by, the empty bottles of soju multiply.
Youâve always had a high tolerance for alcohol â and soju, in particular, is generally not too strong for you personally. With one bottle in, you donât feel hammered just yet. Thereâs a daze at the back of your head that youâre starting to feel, though. One and a half is your limit, sometimes two â youâve had that down since college.
Jungkook seems to share the same trait, it seems like. You noticed heâs on his second one, and even though his cheeks are starting to get painted red, he still speaks with you like heâs a hundred percent conscious and not like alcoholâs hit his system already.
âItâs so hot,â you say, popping open the first two buttons of your shirt. Jungkookâs coat has long been disposed on the couch, and his ties are loosened, with the long sleeves of his dress shirt pushed to his elbow, showing his tattoos.
âShould I adjust the AC?â Jungkook asks, looking at you as you gather your hair up in a ponytail.
You manage to secure it even without a tie and answer him, âNo, itâs fine.â
When you feel like you can breathe again, you look at Jungkook. As you think about what to say next, you giggle lightly.
âLetâs have some fun with these,â You point to the empty bottle of soju. Jungkook quirks his brow, which prompts you to continue. âLetâs play spin the bottle. When it points at you, you have to answer some questions. If you donât want to, then youâll have to drink.â
Jungkook snorts. âTruth or dare? Really?â
You roll your eyes. âNo, not truth or dare. Just truth because Iâm sophisticated like that. Besides, are you going to entertain me if I dare you to wear a rainbow suit for work tomorrow?â
âThis is your idea of fun?â Jungkook says, teasing you. Playful with a boyish grin.
You shrug. âI mean, itâs quite fun, actually. But I know about how thirty-year-olds get. If itâs past your bedtime, thenâŠâ you glance at the door to his bedroom.
Jungkook bursts out in laughter.
âYou like making it sound like Iâm sixty, donât you?â
âAre you?â You pout.
Jungkook chuckles, although relenting to your game proposition.
âAlrightâŠâ
You do a little shoulder dance which makes Jungkook shake his head. As you spin the bottle, it stops and points at him. You let out a little sound of enthusiasm.
âOkay. Whatâs that mean?â You ask. Jungkook looks confused as he tries to see what youâre looking at. His arm. âThat flower tattoo â or if it even has a meaning.â
âOh,â Jungkook utters, realizing. He lifts up his right arm and twists it so that the flower tattoo is within both your sight. There, you see a full view of the flower drawing tattooed in orange ink. You find yourself staring at it as Jungkook starts to speak, âItâs a tiger lily. My birth flower. It meansâŠâ You can see Jungkook hesitate for a little while, and youâre just about to take back your question when he continues to say, âIt means please love me.â
âWow.â You gasp. âThatâs⊠so pretty.â
Jungkook caresses his forearm, staring quite lovingly at the art. âI know. My tattoo artist did a really good job.â
He takes it to himself to spin the bottle again, and this time, it points at you.
âWell⊠do you have a tattoo?â Jungkook asks, and itâs obvious he meant to tease.
You nod your head. His playful smile drops.
âAre you serious?â
You raise your brow at him. âSorry. Only one question gets entertained.â
He clicks his tongue playfully but then begins to spin the bottle one more time. When it points at you again, he gives you a smirk.
âCan I see your tattoo if youâre saying you have one?â
You scrunch your face, cocking your head to the side.
âHm. I donât think so. Itâs under my boob. So.â
Jungkook stills, and you watch as his eyes trail down from your face down to your collar â although he did it quite subtly.
âOh.â
You grin. âYeah, âohâ,â you chuckle. When he shakes his head, you tell him, âWhat?â You look at him weird, regardless of the smile on your lips. He stares right back at you, and you narrow your eyes at him. âOhh, I see. You think Iâm lying.â
âNo, Iâm not,â he scoffs. âI just thoughtâŠâ
âYou just thought what?â
âI just thought you wouldnât have one. Or if you did, itâd be a like a small thing on the leg or something. I donât know.â He shrugs, still smiling.
You grin. âInteresting insight.â
âNevermind that.â Jungkook rolls his eyes, spinning the bottle again.
When the rotation stills at his direction, you clap a little and put your elbows on the coffee table.
Your next question sounds stupid in your head, but you let it out anyway.
âWhatâs your ideal type?â You ask.
âOh, are we doing that?â Jungkook says, sounding intrigued. âAre you going to ask me about my first kiss next?â
You snort. âThis feels so high school. But answer my question.â
âYes, maâam,â He playfully gives you a salute. You couldnât help but giggle. âOkay, well, I like women who are smart and⊠funny,â Jungkook says, and when he looks at you, you move back a little. With a soft smile, he adds, âAnd pretty.â
You break the eye contact. Raising your brow, you nod your head. âPretty women. Like Kang Heesu, right?â
Jungkook looks surprised when he hears the name.
âHow do you know her?â
âHow can I not? Jiminâs mother has been trying to set him up with her for months now.â You shrug.
Jungkook chuckles, as if he knows exactly what youâre talking about.
âYeah. Youâre right â not about the part that sheâs my ideal type, though.â
You canât help but let out a scoff.
âThatâs such a cop-out answer, Jungkook.â
He looks at you incredulously, chuckling as he says, âWhat? Itâs not a cop-out, itâs the truth.â
âYouâre awfully close with her. I heard from my coworkers youâre both dating.â You raise a brow at him.
Itâs true. Words are starting to get around the office that Jungkook and Heesu are more than just collaborators.
Of course, you know to ignore that. Not because you want to be in denial or anything â but because you just donât think it is actually true.
But maybe poking fun at it will get you the confirmation. Or whatever. It doesnât matter.
Jungkook laughs at your previous words, though, as if you just told him a big joke.
âGod, no,â he shakes his head, as if he couldnât believe it. âTheyâre really saying that?â You nod your head, your lips pressed into a thin line. âI ought to make everybody know weâre just working together. You know about the project the company has in collaboration with Kang Tech, right?â
âYeah.â
âThere you go,â Jungkook chuckles. âIâm not dating Kang Heesu.â
The words feel a bit different in your ears. Paired with the way he looked at you as he said it, he sounded as though he was⊠almost assuring you.
But of what?
You shake off the idea in your head.
âOkay. Next one.â you interrupt the silence to change the subject. You curse in your head when the bottle stops at you.
âYour turn. Whatâs your ideal type?â Jungkook asks as if his tongue is just itching to ask you that. You know heâs just excited to get back at you.
You think about it for a moment, though, and you find you donât really know what to say.
Itâs not a thought you ponder over a lot. The guys that youâve been with were so⊠different from each other.
âIâIâm not sure,â you shake your head, genuine.
Jungkook points at the shot glass. âNew rule. Iâll count to ten and if you donât answer, you drink.â
You glare at him; he just gives you a grin.
âI really donât know! I mean, my past relationships are so different from each other,â you say, pouting. âButâ okay. I guess I like guys who are⊠confident,â You look at Jungkook and then let your mind float. âAnd I guess I also like somebody whoâsâŠâ You watch as he leans in closer to wait for your next words. Your feel blood rushing to your cheeks as you finish up with, âAttentive. I like good listeners. Yeah.â
âAh,â Jungkook nods. And then, he adds, âIs Shin Taemu from the IT department a good listener, then?â
Your brows furrow. âShin Taemu?â He nods. That earns a laugh from you. âNo, weâre friends.â
âFriends?â Jungkook asks curiously.
âWell, we â uh â did date. Didnât work out. So. Weâre only friends now.â
âDate, as in, a long relationship?â His eyes are so full of genuine curiosity that you cower away from them.
You shake your head at his question. âNo, no â not long relationship, it wasnât like that. I meant date as in â dinner date. Once.â You look at the shot glass and down it because of the sudden nerves that enter you. âWeâre doing this game wrong.â
Jungkoon chuckles at the way you drink another glass. He mirrors your action, though, and ask, âHow so? Weâre questioning each other.â
âYeah, but itâs too many questions!â You complain, jutting your lips into a pout.
âYou said you only wanted truth, so there goes your questions,â Jungkook says. You roll your eyes, which makes him laugh. âOkay, just so I can amuse you, Iâll do a dare if it points at me, and youâll do one if it stops at you. Deal?â
When you nod, Jungkook spins the bottle. He did it quite forcefully that the bottle takes a longer time to stop. You both watch keenly as it begins to slow down. Nervous, you pray it doesnât stop at you, and you let out a sigh of relief when it finally points to Jungkook.
Jungkook shakes his head when you let out a contained, âYes!â
âI dare you toâŠâ you trail off, watching as he looks at you curiously. âLet me pluck your brows.â
âWhat?â Jungkook asks incredulously.
âA promise is a promise.â You remind him.
âLike all of them?â
âWhat? Of course no!â You chuckle, seeing the genuine panic in his eyes.
âOh.â
âYou silly,â You say, laughing at him. âNot right now, though. I actually feel like Iâm about to pass out. Oh my god, I have to tend to a hung-over tomorrow.â You let your face fall into your hands and stifle a groan.
âIâll cook us some porridge or something, donât worry.â Jungkook says. Curiously, he asks, âWhy do you want to pluck my brows?â
You stare at him, and then focus your eyes onto his brows.
Pouting, you let your shoulders deflate as you sigh. âTheyâre so thick.â
âWhat?â Jungkook lets out, laughing incredulously. âIâm so confused.â
âYou wouldnât get it.â
âOkay⊠well, would you let me pluck your brows?â
You try to think about it.
âNo,â you shake your head. You add, âUnless youâre flirting with me.â
Jungkook stops. And then raises a brow. âUnless Iâm flirting with youâŠâ
You snap your eyes to look at him. Mirroring his brow, you ask, âAre you flirting with me?â
âMaybe,â Jungkook looks at you, lips tilted into a barely-there smirk that suddenly makes your cheeks burn with heat. âDo you like it?â
It takes you a while to answer, processing his words. You donât know if heâs joking or what. Is this just his usual teasing? It feels different this time.
But why are you denying it again to yourself, though? You may be stupid sometimes, but you know his teasing gets a little⊠borderline flirty. Youâre scared to ask him about it outright, though â afraid to be faced with the possible truth that itâs just your head playing mind-tricks for you; that Jungkook, with his teasing, is not flirty at all and youâre just flattering yourself to think about it that way.
But right now, his question feels real.
If he is flirting with you⊠do you like it?
You pour a drink into the shotglass and down it quickly. You feel your vision starting to get a little hazy as you put it down the table.
Jungkook realizes what you just did, and then throw his head back to laugh.
âNow, that was a cop-out.â He says, pointing to the trick that you just did.
You give him a smirk. âNo rules about not answering except down a drink.â
Jungkook chuckles. âSmart girl.â
He watches as you stand up, but when you trip over the carpet, heâs quick to follow and go over to your direction to hold your wrist, his arm going around your waist to guide you to stand upright.
âYou okay?â He asks. When you look up, your faces are just a hair's breadth away.
âHm.â You hum, blinking your eyes up at him. You find itâs because your lids are starting to get heavy.
âBe careful.â Jungkook says, but he doesnât let go of your waist, nor your wrist.
You stand there in the middle of the living room with that position, and weirdly enough, you feel like youâre both glued on it.
You canât move â or donât want to. You wish you want to. But you donât, and itâs why you let Jungkookâs fingers trail softly to your waist.
âYou look real sleepy,â he comments â whispers, more like, his bated breath hitting your skin.
âI am a bit dazy.â You say, finding yourself indulging in his touch.
Somehow, Jungkook never makes a move to get away even when youâre already steady on both feet. You feel that fading away so soon though, your knees starting to feel like theyâre about to buckle at the way Jungkookâs eyes bore deep into your own. You feel a sort of heightened sense within your body, his hand on your back making something in you tingle.
Itâs so intimate â the position. Jungkook looms over you with his much bigger frame and with his support on your back, you can just let yourself fall back.
Can you, though? Are you sure heâs going to catch you?
âYou do look a little dazy,â Jungkook comments, but his eyes have traveled down to your face, and you can see them stop at your lips.
That makes them part.
You see Jungkookâs adamâs apple bobbing at the action.
âI do feel dazy,â you say, parroting back his words. Maybe theyâre coming off slurred. You donât know. You find you donât care.
Jungkookâs lips tilt into a gentle smile. Soft like his demeanor. Soft like his arm that somehow found a way to tighten its hold around you even though you donât need it. But itâs Jungkook though, and as much as you deny it even to yourself â you do like his touch.
âYeah, you told me so.â His voice becomes an octave lower. His hands start to rub your clothed waist, and the ministrations of his thumb distract you a bit.
You roam your eyes around his face â noting the scar on his cheek which story you want to know so bad. When you trail you eyes down to his lips, you see the mole under it. You donât think you were being subtle at all â itâs quite obvious that youâre just staring.
And you know Jungkook notices.
âJungkook,â you breathed out, calling him about nothing in particular.
His only response is a small, gentle hum.
A beat of silence, and you feel Jungkookâs face leaning closer to yours.
You donât make a move away from him, just let your legs stay where they are, letting Jungkook slowly pull you to him. You can tell his movements are slower than usual â like heâs testing the waters, searching for something in your eyes, quietly asking if itâs okay â if what heâs about to do is okay.
It makes your heart hammer against your chest â his breathing becoming more audible in your own ears. His mouth reeks of the soju you both drank earlier, but youâve always liked the smell of it, especially when it comes with a man as breathtaking as him.
You feel the tip of his nose touching yours, your chest pressing against his own, his hand travelling from your waist to the back of your head.
When Jungkook leans down to close the gap, you swerve your face just in time to have his lips press against your hair instead.
âIâm sleepy.â You say quietly, a nervous lilt to your voice. You duck your head a little lower, laying your face on his chest and bury it with his scent.
You can feel Jungkook freeze in his position, taken aback by the sudden turn of events. You hope he doesnât feel the way your heart goes abnormal in your chest with such proximity â but right now, all you want to do is hide. Hide your face away from him because if he sees you, heâll know exactly what youâre thinking.
Heâll know exactly the effect he has on you.
It takes a few seconds of silence before Jungkook comes back to you.
âHm,â He hums, and you feel his hand letting go of your wrist to wrap around your waist, squeezing for a brief moment. Jungkookâs other hand cradles your head to his chest, swiping his hand against your hair in a repeated manner, and with the way he rests his chin on the crown of your head, you feel comfort in the whole thing. âWe should sleep.â
âYeahâŠâ you trail off, and you can just feel your lids getting heavier at the remark.
âYeah?â
âHm.â
âIâll take the couch. Do you want to shower first?â You shake your head against his chest. You feel it vibrating when he chuckles. âOkay.â
âMy body feels like jelly.â You say, and you feel that to be actually true.
âIs that code for âcarry me to your bed, Jungkookâ?â
Youâre thankful your face is buried in his chest as you smile widely.
âDo you want it to be?â
âI donât mind.â
You nod. âGood. I think Iâll get alcohol poisoning tomorrow.â
You feel Jungkook lifting his chin off your head as he sounds scold-y when he says, âDonât joke like that.â
You giggle against his chest.
âCarry me before I pass out.â
Jungkook snorts. âOhh. Bossy.â
âItâs my last day here. I deserve some slack.â You grumble.
âFine.â
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Meeting the Mayor
Sleepy King Master Post
Mayor Masters had left their little group waiting for far too long. It was clearly a power move, something Batman expected of someone like Lex Luthor, not the mayor of a small town that had been all but swallowed up by the nearby larger city. It was so predictable that he even started a mental countdown on when they would be allowed to meet Masters. He was, of course, right.
On entering the mayorâs office, Masters was sitting behind his desk, an oily smile spread across his face. He didnât even stand to greet them. âGood afternoon, itâs not every dayâŠâ Masters trailed off as his face scrunched up. âStrawberry shortcake! Did some youths play a prank on you?â
Batman glanced briefly towards his fellow League members, they looked just as confused as he was. Diana squared her shoulders, âWhat do you mean?â
âYou donâtâŠâ Masters frowned as he looked them over, âNevermind, my mistake. What did you want to discuss?â The man smiled brightly as he leaned over and pressed a button on a small desk fan, the blades whirred to life.
Diana smiled just as brightly and just as fakely as she sat down in front of his desk. âWeâre here to make sure youâre aware of the resources the Justice League has made available to any municipal body.â
Constantine took his cue and lounged in the chair next to Diana while Batman chose to loom over her shoulder.
âResources?â Masters asked with a raised brow.
âYes, we understand that attacks on a âsuper villainâ level can leave a lot of collateral damage that smaller cities may struggle to repair, especially those that havenât had to deal with such things before. The Justice League provides aid to anyone who applies.â
âAh, how generous!â Masters gave a smile that made Batmanâs skin crawl. âBut Iâm sure even you have limited funds, would not they be better left to those truly in need? As youâve seen, our little town is doing just fine without your help.â
âAnd how is that?â Batman asked. âThereâve been reports of numerous attacks over the last two years, where is Amity Park getting the resources to repair the damage?â
âBelieve it or not, ghosts are incorporeal and thus donât cause as much collateral damage. Also, the appearance of ghosts has caused a spike in tourists, which has been quite the boost to our economy. And lastly, as the mayor is it not my civic duty to support my town, which I love so dearly? Of course Iâve been supplementing Amityâs budget, and Iâve been making sure to hire only local businesses to keep Amity Parkâs money inside Amity Park.â
Batman narrowed his eyes. He chose not to mention that Vlad had only moved to Amity Park shortly before running for mayor, or that he had bought and combined a few local construction companies and has been using them exclusively. Certainly everything about the man was suspicious, but that wasnât what they were here to talk about. Instead he pulled several pamphlets from his utility belt. âWhile youâve been lucky so far, it would be in your best interests to be fully aware of the resources available to you and your fine town in case something larger scale happens.â Not that it hadnât already, he couldnât imagine anything larger scale than the entire town and neighboring city getting pulled into another dimension by an undead tyrant king.
While Batman and Diana painstakingly went over the pamphlets with Masters, whoâs smile wilted more and more the longer they took, Constantine kept muttering under his breath and making motions with his hands where Masters couldnât see them, staring intensely at the mayor the whole time. Batman was curious what he was seeing.
The wall suddenly burst, small bits of plaster and wood showering over Masters and the cape Batman had used to shield himself and his fellow League members.
âVladdie!â A familiar voice called boisterously, âYou wonât believe what happened! Oh, I didnât know you had guests.â
Masters was brushing debris from his person as he spoke with clear disdain, âYes, well, if you would use the door as. Iâve. Asked! Numerous time. This whole situation could be avoided.â
âHello again,â Dr. Jack Fenton said cheerfully with a little wave. âWhat are you doing visiting Vladdie?â
âWe were just ensuring Mayor Masters was aware of all the JL resources available to him,â Batman said as he let his cap fall back around his body.
âOh, that reminds me,â Diana said brightly. âWe also have support available for minors doing hero work, you wouldnât happen to be able to get in contact with Phantom, would you?â
Dr. Madeline Fenton, along with both their children, approached as Diana asked her question. Mastersâs eyes trailed over to the group before focusing back on the League members. âNo, Iâm afraid not. Heâs a ghost, you know. Likely he spends most of his time in the Ghost Zone, only comes here to play around with his ghost friends and cause collateral damage.â
âHey!â Danny said indignantly. âPhantom is a hero whoâs working really hard to keep the town safe!â
âYes yes,â Masters said while waving his hand at the family. âI know you and all your little friends think Phantom hung the moon and stars. Wait, shouldnât you two be at school?â
âThere was an incident,â Jack said proudly.
Masters sighed, âIt wouldnât happen to have anything to do with these fine people, would it?â He waved at the League members as he spoke.
âGood guess, Vladdie!â
âI thought so.â Masters swept the pamphlets into his desk drawer. âWell thank you very much for your concern, I shall make sure to keep these in case we ever do need assistance. Now if youâll excuse me, I need to contact someone about repairing my wall. Have a lovely day.â Masters stood and simply walked through the busted wall with the Fenton family.
Batman watched them leave through narrowed eyes.
âNot the oddest town Iâve been in,â Diana remarked thoughtfully.
Batman simply turned to look in Constantineâs direction.
âThe mayor is also dead as a doornail, but fully alive.â
âHe also clearly smelled your demon blood,â Batman added.
Constantine nodded. âI'm getting all kinds of odd readings off the mayor, no I'm not explaining it. Just know he's weird, but still not as weird as the kid, though he's close."
"Should we not follow them?" Diana asked.
"I put trackers and bugs on all of them," Batman replied.
"'Course you did, mate."
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