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AHHHH @nataliescatorccioapologist thank you for the tag lovely!!! these were so fun to answer, i kinda rambled in most of them though lol
1. Are you team Rational or Supernatural?
personally, I would love for it to be rational. The idea that it was truly just the girls out there, with nothing supernatural going on at all makes me have chills and it makes the girls and everything that happened out there and in the present a million times more tragic.
the only thing that would sway me into thinking its supernatural is if Van's cancer gets cured.... cause like.... there's no way
2. Who is your favorite teen timeline character? Favorite adult timeline character?
for favorite teen timeline character I think I would have to go with Lottie, i see so so so much of myself in her, i adore her to pieces (jackie is SUCH a close second though)
for adult timeline, I honestly think misty, she's so silly and goofy its a nice break from everything else lol (tai is a close second)
3. What is your favorite needledrop?
"no return" playing in the background and snow falling towards the end of lottie 's mall vision with laura lee... GOD my favorite scene that entire show its so good, goosebumps.
4. What is your favorite ship?
gotta be jackienat, i love those two so much, I'm a sucker for enemies to lovers and grunge/outcast x popular girl
it also wouldn't feel right for me to not mention lottielee... those two are a VERY close second, I adore them forever
and of course taivan!!! my cutie patooties,
5. What is your favorite episode?
i honestly don't know, maybe F sharp??? I have to rewatch the series to really think about it though!!
6. Who do you want the Antler Queen to be?
GOD i have no clue.....
if it was natalie it would make her story so much more tragic
if it was lottie it would ALSO make her story so much more tragic,
i love the theory that the antler queen is the chief mourner, but i also heard a theory that the antler queen is whoever made that specific kill which i think is really interesting
I think it's probably gonna be lottie (and i lowkey want it to be lottie) but who knows!!!
7. What is your favorite scene in the entire series?
any scene with lottielee SPECIFICALLY ghost laura lee i eat those UP
also look back at question three lol
8. A theory or prediction you have about Season 3?
the girls eat coach ben OR mari alive..... i say "or mari" because of that one pic from the trailer of shauna biting mari's (?) hand.... and mari screaming in the background.....like why else would she be doing that....
9. Which character do you relate to the most, and why?
I would have to say lottie/jackie...
for lottie I relate to her because of her past.... feeling isolated and alone in your own home... parent's not being around or caring really, having your mental illness demonized by your own family.... my own parents are eerily similar to Mr.Matthews.
I also feel like lottie always tries to make a good change, she never does anything with bad intention and somehow, it gets messed up, gets taken the wrong way, she's a teensy bit shy and insecure and when she can finally express herself the way she wants to without masking or hiding she flourishes
i also relate to her on a more trivial level with fashion sense lol, her pink party scene outfit is something i have worn piece for piece.
jackie is very similar for why i relate to her, always wanting to make things better but it always getting taken the wrong way
but the one thing i relate to the most is her friendship with shauna.... I had a shauna and our friendship did not end well in the slightest... when jackie finds out about shaunas betrayal and realizes how shauna truly felt about her i related to jackie more than any other character I've ever watched in ANY show, her hurt over losing her best friend so suddenly was so heartwrenching to me because I went through that…the jackieshauna fight was a glimpse into my own fight with my ex-bestfriend (not including the fucking my ex or dying in the snow part lol) (also don't get me wrong i love shauna she just hits to close to home sometimes lol)
jackie was just trying her best, and i adore her forever for it <33
10. What is the craziest thing you’ve done in the name of Yellowjackets?
when the season three trailer came out I was in class, it was a lecture and i sat in the back, so i watched the trailer, got the zoomies bc wtf was that trailer, got up, left class halfway through and took a couple laps around campus to calm myself down LMAO
Bonus:
11. What’s your most controversial Yellowjackets take?
i'm sorry i do not like travis.... nothing can make me like travis..... i don't care for that man in the slightest..... yeah he had a redemption or whatever but like..... i don't care..... give me my girls.... i don't mind when people do like travis, but like, he will never be for me and that is ok!
NPT: @before-it-felt-like-a-sin @jupititties @lunarzomb @passionpita-taylorsversion @madamvampie @lottiesangel @dearanhedonia @vanpalmerenthusiast
Starting a Yellowjackets tag!
I want to get my mind off of things so: If you want, answer any or all of the questions below and tag 10 people (or however many you want) who also might want to share! I would love to see what you guys have to say!
1. Are you team Rational or Supernatural?
2. Who is your favorite teen timeline character? Favorite adult timeline character?
3. What is your favorite needledrop?
4. What is your favorite ship?
5. What is your favorite episode?
6. Who do you want the Antler Queen to be?
7. What is your favorite scene in the entire series?
8. A theory or prediction you have about Season 3?
9. Which character do you relate to the most, and why?
10. What is the craziest thing you’ve done in the name of Yellowjackets?
Bonus:
11. What’s your most controversial Yellowjackets take?
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Here’s mine!
1. I am mostly Team Rational because I love the way this show depicts trauma but I also love seeing the supernatural side of things through the survivors’ eyes if that makes sense.
2. Natalie in the teen timeline because I love her compassion and softness underneath the front she puts on. Lottie in the adult timeline because I love her internal battle with herself and how afraid she is of her own mind. Misty is a close second in the adult timeline!
3. “Cornflake Girl” playing while Nat sees the mossy tree for the first time, Callie seeing the Adam Martin driver’s license in the barbecue, and Shauna eating Jackie’s ear. It just goes so perfectly with everything that’s going on (especially the elevated piano while Nat and Travis are scaling the mountain and the lyrics while Shauna takes the bite!)
4. LottieNat is my favorite ship I can’t help it Nat and Lottie are my favorite characters so having them together is a dream (TaiVan, JackieShauna, and TravNat are up there, too).
5. 1x09 “Doomcoming” is just amazing and captures everything I love about Yellowjackets. I love when they let the girls go batshit crazy, hoping we get more Doomcoming vibes in S3.
6. I want the Antler Queen to be Natalie because that would show a true descent for her in the Wilderness from being the most morally grounded one to the leader of the group at their most unhinged and primal. But honestly I think that Shauna might be the AQ after all…
7. I think the Jackie-eating scene is the best in the entire show. The “Climbing Up the Walls” song choice, the bacchanal feast flashes as a way of coping with the horror of what they’re doing, seeing them go fully feral for the first time, it’s such a well crafted scene.
8. I know this probably won’t happen but I’m just going to throw it out there that Cabin Daughter is alive and she will be revealed to have been Javi’s “friend”!
9. I relate to Shauna the most because I also admittedly have a bit of an obsessive/intense personality and I, too, internalize my emotions to a very unhealthy degree sometimes. I also grew up being in love with my childhood best friend who is very, very much like Jackie (and now we have been dating for 7 years!)
10. Mine is a mix of going to a Yellowjackets panel and sitting like 5 feet from the showrunners, doing everything in my power to score early screening tickets to Heretic and Companion, and pretending I was sick so I could go home early from work the day that the S3 trailer came out.
11. The male characters on this show get too much hate🫢 I like Travis, Jeff, Kevyn, and Walter (even though his introduction and storyline are rushed and forced). I don’t like them more than the female characters, but I like them nevertheless and appreciate their contributions to the plot.
No pressure tags! (I’m tagging 15 bc I feel like it) @before-it-felt-like-a-sin @baked-potatoes-rule @jackiesnats @deerest-deer @whodoesnataliehave @stilllsage @fairytwles @glitterfairy-21225 @lesbianforlottie @tr4vnat @lauraleetaylor @cassioo @natsboygirlfriend @soapyjackets @pinkkkkat @natgf123 +literally anyone else who wants to!
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gif tutorial: selective colouring
turning this gif
into this gif
(requested by @oogelyboogely)
quick disclaimer: i'm mostly self taught, so a lot of the methods i use might not be the most efficient or the ones that other people use, so apologies about that!!
with this tutorial, i'm assuming you know the basics of how to make a gif (loading in frames, turning them into animation frames, etc), but if need be, i would be more than happy to make a tutorial on that too
i use photopea, a browser-based photoshop replica that's free to use and i highly recommend it!
first step is loading in all the frames, which should look like this:
the main thing i want to be in colour is his hair (and the petals that fly around him when he unhoods, same colour so it shouldn't be too much of an issue to deal with). however! for this particular gif, i want his eyes to also be the same/similar shade of pink so they're also in colour.
for this i'm gonna go to the top bar and go to layer > new adjustment layer > hue/saturation > blue, which should give you an adjustment layer that looks like this
if i move this around, this is also gonna change the background very slightly, which we don't want, and it won't change the colour of his eyes very much.
in order to change just the blue of his eyes, i need to adjust the slider at the very bottom. this shows the spectrum of the colours selected and the colours it's changing. if you're testing this, i would say change the hue to 180, then mess around with the adjustments until you've found a setting that only changes the selected hue
this seems to work well for this, so im gonna keep this adjustment layer specifically for changing the eye colour and move onto another
everything i want to be in a specific colour is now in that colour, so i'm gonna move onto working on making everything else in greyscale. it's exactly the same process (using a hue/saturation adjustment layer), but you're altering saturation to -100 (making other colours grey), and changing lightness (which colours you want to be a lighter shade of grey in the greyscale)
this gif in particular shows a specific problem i have with doing this: red and red-adjacent tones with selective colouring. many skintones fall under red hues when altering them, so when trying to isolate a red colour, it can get a bit finnicky. the spectrum slider tends to get very precise with the hue/saturation adjustment layer.
shown here, i'm using a new adjustment layer and going for the red to try and desaturate the skin tone, and you can see it's desaturated the hair too, so i need to adjust the spectrum so it only gets the skin tone (while i'm doing this, i'm also going back to check on the first frames where the petals are to make sure they're not affected by this since i want them in colour too!)
next up is the back wall which is a blue tint (as exampled with changing the blue setting with the first adjustment layer, we can now use the blue adjustment on the second adjustment layer freely since it won't affect the eye colour anymore)
while doing this, it's important to go over all the frames occassionally, especially with scenes that have a lot of varied colours, because a lot of the time, some layers may have stray areas of colour that fit into what is still allowed to be in colour, in which case a 'replace colour' adjustment layer (layer > new adjustment layer > replace colour) should be used to try and get out specific shades you don't want to be in colour. it's not an issue in this gif, but in cases where it is, those adjustment layers can pile up, but that's natural! (it can also be used in cases where you're close to greyscale but not quite there, just eyedrop the colour and set saturation all the way down)
after this, i'm just gonna do some adjustment layers to alter lighting to make sure the colours are balanced well (curves, levels, brightness/contrast, etc), and it should be done from there!
remember to save psd files regularly so you have backups of your work in case anything happens! hope this was helpful and if you'd like me to elaborate on anything, please ask!
examples of some of my gifs with this effect include: this, this, and this
#gif tutorial#i have no idea what else to tag so i'm just gonna tag that#alt text has been added to each photo for clarity as well#to the person tagged/who requested the tutorial: i hope this was helpful!!#i've never really done a tutorial before but this was fun!!#also sorry for the shit compression on the gifs they were a bit rushed fdkhdfkjh
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Had. An extremely funny vision to revamp Moe's staff.
The design isn't super final, I can never really decide how I want the accents to look... trying to keep them in line with how the Askr trio's weapons look. Especially the signature color magic glow that's present in their special arts!!!
Anna has it too!!!!! You just don't see it bc her art gets cut off in game. Also, additional image bc you don't see the handle v well in her special.
Which is why, here, the green gem is most prominent on Moe's weapon.... geen....... idk if I'm keeping the other ones that look like the summoning circle orbs. It was just something I wanted to try out!
BUT. BUT. The Main Idea here is that Moe added its own touch to the staff. Yeah, the dangly halo was a Neat idea, but this concept is just so much funnier to me..... says SO much about Moe as a character... it is ALWAYS. Making and customizing things. I can also see Moe using the carabiner practically as well! Now, I wonder why it held onto those two feathers in particular... 🤔
#moe tag#actually if i canonize the idea that those are hero feathers from alfonse and sharena that's gonna fuck up the timeline.#like i'm gonna have to invent Lore. about it. but the two dangly spinny twirly feathers were ALWAYS a part of moe's Concept#like before it got simplified for ease of drawing moe had a dangly feather earring along the staff decorations#IDK IDK I'M WAY TOO METICULOUS. if i just draw two feathers please forgive me. i LOVE LORE#AND I LOVE. WHEN CHARAS ARE SENTIMENTAL. IN SILLY WAYS. GET ATTACHED TO EVERYTHING ‼️‼️‼️‼️#but like. sometimes it Is just for The Look of it.... i'm so sorry#ANY WHICH WAY. as i was drawing i had a strong vision. of changing up the halo to be something else#a dangly handmade charm. then i had the REALLY striking idea of making it a dreamcatcher. the FORESHADOWING.#and the Theming. of complex relationship w spirituality. but. i... ended up thinking better of it tbh.#like. asking myself okay how do i be respectful and honor this. then realizing hm.#maybe the only way to be respectful of this is to Not Do That. like. just feels in poor taste as a white guy no matter what.#but it DID get me Thinking. about what moe Likes to make anyway. what are the things that are significant to It.#AND THE. THE VISION. if anything it's appropriating butches here its ass is NOT BUTCH.#but no harm no foul. slap some more punk ass trinkets to that thang!!!!!! the practical use ALSO GETS ME THOUGH#like. moe IS practical. it likes its diys to be functional as well as fun. ect ect!!!!!#fe anna#HONESTLY. what if i only tagged her just to not clog up the tags and also that art is a good ref for later#just might.#summoner oc#my art#moe ref
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my favorite edits - 2023 edition 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9
#ts4#simblr#once again i don't know how to tag this so...#i'm just gonna use the same tags i used last year ig#2023 was apparently the year of the monster boyz#only 3 of these are not mb posts & i'm ok with that actually#ik i've said it a million times already but#i had soooo much fun doing mb stuff this year!#i'm really excited about all the stuff i have planned for the AU tbh#like. i have a list#i'm hoping................... to get the origin stories done at some point.#probably gonna do some writing here soon ish.#i've gotta make all of the side characters still & finish the character page so idk. i'll figure it out. i have a lot of ideas#i really wanna start sharing more about the story & the boys' actual personalities so that's probably what i'll focus on this next year#edit-wise i mean. like doing lore edits & stuff. idk#making cricket's was really fun so i think i'll like making stuff for everyone else too#i just have to not try to do a whole story bc then i'll lose interest. it'll be like the degenerates all over again lmao#idk why i just hate making story posts#lore posts are fine but story posts? mm no. not for me. idk how but they are different in my brain ok#n e way#i rambled. sorry. bye lol
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Sorry for reblogging an old post like this, especially if your opinions on the matter have changed, but this is really helping me put things together in my head.
(I was gonna put it in the tags but realized I kinda went off. Also sorry if you get this notification twice, Tumblr's been glitching out on me & I accidentally first sent it before I finished writing)
The fact that there's a precedent at all is still bad, but if you read fics or the way people discuss it, you'd think he's dropping this kind of language every two sentences. But as I was thinking about that scene, I was like. But it doesn't usually happen, does it? It only happened like twice.
(Tbh completely forgot about the Gamesters one, but the other two scenes are so iconic, which is probably what is colouring people's perception here, & why the hobgoblin thing is so widespread. Or maybe it's because of AOS, but then — why did they put it in AOS. In 2009??)
If anything, McCoy compares him to a computer the most, & this is also something Kirk uses to bait Spock with in "This side of paradise". So it might be worse than it seems.
Additionally, McCoy only brings up the colour of Spock's blood in the show in situations when they're specifically talking about blood. (Which happens a lot because he's a doctor). It's often in a "I wish it was the same as everyone else's & my job was easier" kinda manner, which is still. Bad. Especially if you're a doctor & Spock had probably been around sentiments like that all his life since it also has "human elements" in it. What I mean to say is he's not going around randomly calling him "green-blooded loser" or anything like that.
And sometimes it's hard to know what the writers are trying to convey and if they understand how it comes off. Kirk and McCoy can compare Spock to the Devil and it's all in good fun between friends, but when an antagonist of the episode does that it's bad and racist? Was Spock's reaction even meant to be about the ear comment or was it just because McCoy got all up in his face?
There's also the thing that there's a precedent where Spock actually somewhat reacts "positively" when the differences between him & other humans, ("And as for my anatomy being different from yours, I am delighted."— "Naked Time", & what's more, after the first time McCoy makes a comment about his blood iirc) but that doesn't mean he couldn't have gotten fed up with it or that it wasn't a defensive technique to begin with.
& I know Spock is the only Vulcan on the Enterprise and when you're isolated & not sure if you would get support it's harder to come forward with the problem, especially if you're trying to project an image of a Vulcan unswayed by his emotions & when everyone (& especially McCoy) is just waiting for you to show an emotion.
But Spock also doesn't have a problem with commenting on how savage & backwards human culture is, you'd expect him to be hitting McCoy (& everyone else) with how boorish it is to obsess over physical differences between species outside of immediate medical contexts. Of course, speaking about humanity in general might be one thing, but speaking about personal problems leaves you vulnerable, but on the other hand, he is able to bring up when he's been insulted in other contexts.
Ngl I also think it's kind of in a bad taste to make it the moment that makes McCoy realize that Spock's not being himself. The idea that Spock would only be unhappy with someone for a derogatory comment if he's not in his right mind and then McCoy is validated for it? It seems like Spock has a problem that's to be taken seriously, but then it's in the episode where Spock eats meat and sleeps with a girl he barely knows, so how seriously can it be taken? I don't know how I feel on this.
I'm sorry I don't have any kind of conclusion here. I've just been unsure how to interpret this scene & been kind of turning it around in my head.
When I was writing the previous post, I had a random thought, so I want to offer a different perspective I just thought of lol
MCCOY: You listen to me, you pointed-eared Vulcan. SPOCK: I don't like that. I don't think I ever did, and now I'm sure.
imho people are too quick to jump to the interpretation that Spock has always hated McCoy because of this line. That Spock was just silently suffering and never said that McCoy's words bothered him.
Which is literally so ??? to me because Spock will express his dissatisfaction.
SPOCK: Frankly, I was rather dismayed by your use of the term half-breed, Captain. You must admit, it is an unsophisticated expression. (What Are Little Girls Made Of?) SPOCK: Captain, I hardly believe that insults are within your prerogative as my commanding officer. (The City on the Edge of Forever) SPOCK: Don't be insulting, Doctor. (The Trouble with Tribbles)
are just a few of them. Spock typically says "don't be insulting" when Kirk or McCoy suggest he has feelings (or when Kirk compares him to a human), but as you can see from What Are Little Girls Made Of? he literally brought a thing that bothered him with Kirk up. Why would you think he just silently suffered McCoy's words? Why would he say he was bothered to his commanding officer and not his subordinate? That's not Spock.
Plus, when people use the line from All Our Yesterdays to "prove that Spock hates McCoy", why is
MCCOY: I wonder where Jim is. SPOCK: Who knows. We can only hope that he is well, wherever he is.
that precedes the "pointed-eared" comment ignored? Why is it ignored that Spock literally doesn't care about what happened to Kirk? That he just hopes that he is well. Why do you think McCoy got angry at Spock in this scene? Because Spock didn't show any kind of worry about Kirk. He just accepted that they couldn't go back. He gave up.
Now, when I got that out of my chest, this is the third time in 79 episodes (minus those McCoy didn't appear in), that McCoy used "pointed-eared" with Spock. The third time. One, in Bread and Circuses during an emotionally charged conversation, two, in The Gamesters of Triskelion, where Spock was like do you wanna mutiny (when Kirk, Chekov, and Uhura disappeared).
Why would Spock's reaction be at McCoy, especially? He doesn't say "I don't like you saying it, Doctor", he says he doesn't like the words. People - Kirk, Uhura, McCoy, random people - kept talking about his ears throughout the series, sometimes as a joke, sometimes as an insult, comparing him to Devil even (Uhura and Kirk both btw) or Midsummer Night's Dream's Puck. When Kirk tried to make him angry in This Side of Paradise, he uses "you're an overgrown jackrabbit, an elf" - both typical for pointed ears.
Humans always pointed out his ears. Always.
And now, when he's not in control, he's realizing that maybe he never liked humans talking about his ears. Not just McCoy. Everyone ever.
And it makes more sense to me that Spock's statement is in general rather than aimed at McCoy only.
yeah, anyway.
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as I'm going back over my past history and items and journals and years, I come across all sorts of things, like the pencil I saved from that so-precious memory from second grade, and a pair of flip flops I've been missing for two years, and [checks notes] the modern-high-school-AU-kidnapped-by-a-serial-killer story I wrote in late high school jdfsjdfsjkjlksfd
#i can't wait to find out what red flags I didn't see in my own self back when I last read this thing in 2015 hfdhfdhjsfd#also. there's gonna be like a good sentence here and there and then CRINGE. the whole rest of everything is just me still trying to copy th#breathing pace (essentially) and ways-of-describing-things of mainstream authors like I thought I was supposed to#so this'll be somewhat painful but also god what a joy and a gift and an honor and a delight to get to hold this close to my heart#and witness it with understanding and empathy and slow reflection and care like my past younger self deserves#i'm so lucky i'm alive to be here and do this#i'm so grateful i'm headed towards welcoming back and embracing the last little girl i was that still felt a lot of things#so excited for her focus and precision and tenacity and constant curious joy and movement to be back someday#i'm afraid people won't like the me i was before rule after rule and then dangers#but my god it'll feel so good to be the fully-flowing energy machine and dance and conduit again how will I have enough bother to care?#people who are good to each others' nervous systems cumulatively feel better and better#if i'm not good for you and yours then you really truly SHOULD go elsewhere and find someone who makes YOUR self feel right and light + war#anyway now that i wrote an essay in the tags as usual [nervous laughter]#personal#add to journal#words n rhythm#WHY DID I FEEL CAPABLE OF UNDERTAKING A STORY LIKE THIS#cradling my past self gently but also BANGING my HEAD against the WALL lmao#i'm proud of myself for writing and sharing this and its creative ideas. even if i don't like it now or feel ashamed or see mistakes.#anything. it mattered that it came to me and it mattered that i explored it and it mattered that i poured myself through it to help shape i#and it mattered that I left it on the internet so that now it still exists. i'm going to honor this story no matter what current me would#objectively think about it if it was written by anyone else.#this is a gift i give myself now.#this is a lot of what I learn and learn to do#trauma evolution#mosswrites
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had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what
#lolaa.txt#what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!'#'i wouldnt lie to you!'#okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time.#its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa#also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!'#yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up.#i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men#and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man#so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up.#and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face#that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense.#shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin#you dont have to worry about anyone else.#im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to#never really have#im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are#if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box#then when would you have any space for self discovery#youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats#and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that.#and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names#and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy#and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares.#and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look?#then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness.#SORRY RANT OVER.#im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric.#tw homophobia#tw transphobes
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i am really never going to understand why people post "shifting antis dni" in the astral projection tag. "here practice that constantly gets appropriated by us and used as a weird justification for a new set of beliefs that aren't really based in the same reality you work with, and that also gets completely misunderstood by our community because we don't care to understand what you do and just pretend we know it's what we do like christians saying other religions worship the christian god, have a post! Also dni if you don't like our practice that has nothing to do with the one whose tag we just shoved this into"
if you're not astral projecting don't put shit in the ap tag. if you don't even know the difference between AP and RS I dont think your opinion holds enough weight to counter the pushback against flooding a separate practice's tag with "if you dont like the practice I'm talking about in your tags dni"
#I mean on the other hand I sure am Not Interacting my god#Im not of the opinion RS isnt a thing. I know its a thing - its a complex programming of mental spaces that branches off of#actually. I wont say it branches off things. Its its own thing like autovisions dreams mindspaces and other simulations - but it is#ultimately mindwalking - or whatever term someone else would want to use I just coined that for myself. It's travelling and projecting#into the Mental Realm. which is. explicitly. not the Astral realm. It's still a thing! It's not lucid dreaming or imagination. Very much th#early stages of it and experiences of those who cant programme the reactive mental into settling are gonna be lucid dreams and#imagination - just like what happens when youre not good at AP. but like. it's. a fucking. separate practice#and i do not understand flooding tags that arent what youre talking about and then saying ''dni if you dont like what im talking about''#like yeah theres an element of ''dont blame people for how others treat them'' - its not a case of ''you piss people off and then expect#them to not hate you?'' its explicitly a case of... you are continuously misunderstanding AP and using it as a backing#for your own practices and mixing up the two showing you have fucking No idea what youre doing with AP... so how else are we#supposed to take RS other than ''its a complete misunderstanding of AP and clearly it isnt even developed enough as a practice nor#based on enough truth to have its practitioners have the slightest clue about off-plane and OOB practices... if this is what RSers think of#the world and how it works and this is the depths of their understanding of it I cant support Shifting as anything more than#fantasy with vague references to established practices used incorrectly as justification''#~abyssal murmurs#like. tldr. youre putting it in the way of a tonne fo Anti Shifters because a) youre putting it in the tags of an art your art steals#justification from and chronically chooses to misunderstand and walks all over and b) you're showing a complete disrespect to the#practice of AP by posting this in the tags showing that your ''information'' and ''teaching'' is so misinformed you think AP and RS#are the same thing... so of course people are going to see that and think negatively of your practice. Not out of spite - but as a reaction#in the way of you are showing us that your practice is shallow and misunderstood#Look! If i walk into a jewish theology lesson and the speaker is convinced christianity and judaism are the same religion#to the point that when they post on social media they tag both when they talk about either... it looks like that speaker is clueless if the#cant even getthe basics of ''So what is it that I'm teaching about?'' answered right. If you cant even define the boundaries#of your practice as ''this is our practice this isnt'' then why is anyone going to think what youre teaching is real and grounded#and worth listening to and anything more than a crock of shite based on sounding mystical and Love and Light and freeing#at the cost of turning your mind off to just Believe what youre doing is grounded outside the mental??? why would people NOT#see these posts and BECOME antis
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#okay no it's not the darkness getting to me there is a real life thing occupying a lot of my brain space#and idk if there's anything to be gained by speaking it out loud into the void but at the moment it's the only thing i Can do#i don't even have to click the 'post' button if i don't want to#but yeah. yesterday got the news that my mom's husband is dying. had a surprise heart attack and he's not gonna make it#just feels super fucking weird#personally i never really liked him at all so it's not like i myself necessarily have to grieve. never was that close with him#but like. oof this is going to be hard for my mom. and i'm super worried about how she's going to survive#but there's nothing to DO about it really. she wanted to have some space to come to terms with this on her own#and she has a strong support network of friends in her city. while i'm on the other side of the country#and don't even know what i could do to help if i was closer to her. i just. like. what can you even do in a situation like this?#just feels weird to Not do anything when i know how huge of an impact this will make for her entire life#she'll probably have to move to a different place too#and there are people there to help her. people with more life experience. people who probably know more about grief than i do#i just. i have no idea how one handles something like this. except for being there for her when asked#do eldest daughters have some sort of universal responsibilities that i'm just not aware of?#it feels kinda horrible how this is constantly circling back to what can *I* do and what must *I* do. how *I* feel#i'd never ever ever make things this much about me in any other setting than my own tumblr blog. in a tag whisper i'm not sure i'll post#but yeah all of this is eating my brain in a very weird way. an odd sort of limbo where it feels like there should be something here#it'd certainly be easier if i had any sort of relationship with the dead person myself. if i had something to grieve myself#now there's just a feeling that something Should be here to feel. and the knowledge of how hard this must be for my mom#ahhhhh idk none of this makes any sense i'm just speaking in circles and everything feels bad#it's bad and horrible and i don't know how to process any of this and i'm stuck in my brain and can't DO anything#there's nothing i can do to help my mom at this exact moment when she wants to be left alone with her thoughts#and i can't do anything else either because all of this feels like a heavy black cloud fogging up my brain#can't concentrate on anything at all today#not fun. not cool#sussitalk
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I wonder how many tags i can add on to this
#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30?#idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo#this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed#the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do.#i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg#but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count?#I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or#something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who#thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding#very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting#absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is#basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post.#why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags*#it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows.#where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since#i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li#type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to#be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell#'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one.#this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer#anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can.#which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi#whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23#except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang#i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue#i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan#to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone.#thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really...#...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though#would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y
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I decided to give a go to @niennanir’s lovely print-your-own-fic recipe on my Inside and Out as a test run and I’m quite pleased with the results as a first pass :D
I wish I’d taken a few more process pictures but there was a slight lull as I had to go shopping for 12x12 cardstock lol, but! I do have a couple closeups/extras that I added for funsies :D
I went with freehanding the title and I think in the future I would opt to not do that lol, at least not without a printed template. That said, both LibreOffice and SAI refuse to recognize my SCII fonts >:0 If you notice on the first page, I used the Ace Attorney font in italic haha, it’s an okay alternative even if it’s not what I actually want |0 I am happy with the gold detailing tho :3c
I did have an unconscionable amount of fun freehanding the ship caption tho ahh <3 <3 Immediate happy stims upon completion, their names together look so pretty ♥ Credit to Zarla’s original minicomic on that one :3
I also managed to get the last sentence of the fic isolated on the last page thanks to the formatting haha ♪
I was also able to add a bookmark! Ma happened to have a couple very thin ribbons to choose from and red ended up complementing the green very prettily!
It reminds me of VUX tongues hehehehe ❤️💕💖💞
#What do I tag this lol#SCII#I am continually and incurably in love with papercrafts <3#Hard to believe it's been since Pokemon Homestyle since I've given anything a go! These darn talented artists inspiring me! Lol#Honestly tho I would absolutely recommend this project :D The prep work is manageable and friendly and the action itself is enjoyable#Depending on how much you enjoy repetitive motions haha ♪ Folding and creasing the pages was very relaxing to me :)#I went for my own fic as a first run since y'know - I have very direct access to it lol#Plus it'd be less sad if I messed something up - I want to do right by my favourites from other artists! I'm allowed to make my own mess lol#Also finally convinced me to return to the loving embrace of LibreOffice after like a decade away lol#I just never had a reason to redownload it! Wordpad does exactly what I want 95% of the time!#But it couldn't do columns so okayyyyy fiiiiine I'll get it again (lol) I do rather like it :)#There's still some things I'd change! I'm sure you can see from the pages where you can see both edges that the layout's a bit uhmmmm#Skewed? Corner-heavy? Lol just a matter of changing the borders :) LibreOffice's measurements are wack tho :P#But I fully intend to do this again! :D Print a few test sheets first >:3c Legitimately looking forward to it!#Probably gonna do another one of mine next before I give a go to someone else's I'd like to keep#I have ideas for how to improve! And better and more plentiful supplies! It makes me want to make! :D#Oh yeah and being in the book-making mood reminded me of one of the Vargas-as-a-psuedo-bible ideas I had but didn't put anywhere lol#If I may posit for your consideration: Before as the Old Testament and After as the New Testament :3c#I'd Absolutely buy two versions - And a full version for the record lol I would easily own multiple copies of physical!Vargas lol#Fun thought to me hehehehe ♪♫
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What do you mean this audio is 6 years old, I just heard it yesterday--
#Insanity Draws#Insanity's Videos#Insanity of Mojiru#透明な無名世界#If I didn't have a falling out with one friend of mine this would have been a video for her OCs#You guys ever clean out your old shit and see something and go 'I guess I can change this idea up and do it for something else'?#I've been cleaning out a lot of my old shit lately with people I don't talk to anymore and it's both hella toxic and weirdly relieving#I'm so tired y'all but if I don't organize this shit who will?#Really I'm just trying to grab a lot of the ideas I had from back then that I like and feel I can work into something else#Like this video for example#LOLOL So what's really funny is I was looking back in my art folder and I have a lot of art of her OCs but I realize I never posted any#Turns out I found an old discord message where I was explicitly told not to make her OCs public so...#There's still an unlisted YT video I made for her from back in 2018 I'll die if someone finds it#Okay so if any of you remember a Wil and Momiji 1 2 Fanclub picture from 2019 that's a still from a different video for her#Okay I'm gonna level with you guys if you're still somehow reading these tags#There is a video on my tumblr from Feb 9 2019 that for the last 3 seconds has that friend's OC's legs in it LOLOL#If any of you find any of these things I'm mentioning you should DM me because you deserve a reward XD
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It (was) that time of the year again!
[Genshin Impact 4.0 Trailer Reaction]
More than 2 months after filming this, I'm finally able to upload it! While I fully expect no one to watch it, such is the nature of starting anything new. Even though I'm very late to the party, I'm not letting the footage go to waste- if I've got it, might as well post it.
Above is the first 10 minutes of my reaction, but I spent another ~30 minutes going back through, pausing and giving further commentary on the trailer, and then let the rest of the program play out as well. If you're interested in watching any or all of that, you can follow the link to the full video on YT directly below!
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#genshin#genshin impact#genshin video#video#video games#Seven's Genshin Commentary#Seven's Clips#i have no idea what else to tag this as#anyways. apologies for how damn loud the trailer is and how quiet i am in comparison!#it's only like that during the trailer portion thank god. the audio levels are slightly Less Bad for the rest of the video#but my setup isn't the best anyways so ur just gonna have to live with my grainy facecam and quiet mic#no one needs to see me in any better quality anyways lmao i'm doing u all a favor#but yeah. probably said it ten times by now in various places but i'm gonna be doing my best to upload my backlog of videos#and hopefully soon i'll be on top of things instead of 2 months behind!#i know my videos aren't the most groundbreaking or interesting content but i'm just doing what is fun for me! and that's what matters#and i get more and more comfortable on camera every time i sit down to film which is good bc i almost died of cringe while editing this#'editing' being a few small bits cut out and two Very Impressive Zooms in on my facecam while i ramble at the beginning and end lmao
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Borrowing
#can uou pleas e look away this is private.. thank you.....#moe is constantly stealing his shit in askr but like. a concept i ALWAYS find funny.#is alfonse having to borrow moe's clothes in the world of steel. granting....... everything is mostly untouched ect ect#don't let me think about the details. the only thing that matters is the fact that moe is short and stocky.#like. almost deceptively. it's more bottom heavy. which is why you see it in baggy pants/knee length shorts#like almost all the time.#the idea that only ONE pair of moe's pants would feasibly fit alfonse and they're the big oversized ones#like i'm talking leg length too. alfonse is almost ALL fucking leg. ESP compared to moe#the idea that those do actually fit nicely. at least length wise. something about it is SO funny to me#and while i did just give him a plain muscle tank like. god it would be SO funny. to put him in#one of moe's one million band t shirts.#i'm taking a break today so like. self indulgence....#i also have so. at least a few. concepts. about moe and sharena actually being about the same size.#but i'm not ready yet LMFAOOO#first. i gotta be on my faggot shit#I HAVE SO MANY CONCEPTS. FUNNY CONCEPTS. of moe having free reign to dress him up#visiting or straight up au. it's just really important to me that moe is entirely 100% focused#on the task at hand. maybe a little bit of jealousy/dysphoria in there. but ultimately it is On A Mission#meanwhile alfonse is fighting for his life. he's gonna fucking explode.#idk what else i'm gonna do today i am just resting. for the most part. also tumblr keeps crashing.#i do just need to take a break maybe though. i wanna play touys... but i do need a break.#fe alfonse#moe tag#my art
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#tag talk#gonna talk about Dodie's music and why I like the lyrics and themes#she sings about being queer in a very vague way besides “Rainbow”. It feels very much more about relationship type rather than sexuality#“In the Middle” “I Kissed Someone (It Wasn't You)”. songs about wanting a different kind of relationship. feeling out of place because of i#dreams about people being okay with you wanting a different kind of romance or sex experience.#it's not “oh no ooouuu I'm gay” but a more subtle relationship style misfit. the closeted bi vibes. the poly forced to be monogamous vibes.#a kind of queer that gets overlooked because so many people assume that gay/lesbian people are still monogamous romantic who want to marry#“okay you can be gay but only as long as you aren't anything else queer.” you still have to find “the one” and settle down and get married#and if you want anything else then we demonize you again. we decide that this one thing is okay but everything else is still social devianc#idk. the sad loneliness vibes she catches are really good because it's not just lonely. it's being invisible while still being seen#there's people around you but you're still shut out. you're in a relationship but you still don't feel loved.#you're visible and yet they still never see you.#and I forgot to mention! the traffic idea of cheating. like. being pulled away from a relationship because it isn't for you#and knowing that you what you're doing isn't great but being unable to sit still in a bad situation.#we do not always escape situations well. or without causing harm to others. but we hurt others in our attempt to protect ourselves#especially clear in “I Kissed Someone”. like. when you're not happy with a situation but you opt for small hurt instead of catastrophic hurt#the fear of breaking up a relationship so you seek small escapes instead of destroying the prison you've built around yourself
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Finally decided to jump in AO3′s Mariocest collection, which is really good btw I recommend Priorities Rewritten by Karatecake, easily my favorite one I read all night
Anyway I accidentally ended off on an Angst/Unrequited Love/Dark fic because I apparently cannot read warning tags so now I’m sad and it’s 5am so I have to go to bed sad
#I don't know how to use AO3 I love it it's so cool people there are incredibly powerful#I am just stupid#I have no reason to actually tag this Mariocest I don't wanna be the guy flooding the tag with personal posts#but it might end up there anyway sorry read the fic I linked and don't read anything else I guess dkfgjdfkjgk I'm annoying#Aaaaaaaaaaugh#I'm SUCH a bad Angst/Non-Con guy it just BUMS ME OUT#I have no idea how people do this more power to you and all but man#MAN#I don't even know how I got there it was ALSO the only Smut I read because I don't care about Smut#How did I GET HERE#I didn't read the damn tags is absolutely what happened it was my own fault#I did this#The best Mariocest fics aren't tagged Mariocest btw they're Mario/Luigi + Sibling Incest only#And a few that should be tagged Mario&Luigi but kfgjdkfjgf I don't think the kids are ready to know that difference just yet#I'm making this post to procrastinate going to bed because I'm legit gonna just lay there and be sad over this fic I read#And I don't know how to fix it#Hhhhhhhhhhhh I wanna write a Mariocest fic but how and about what other than the Bros Kiss huh#Brain tumble#Aight off to bed to be sad and mildly triggered by my own choice (accident) to read Fucked Up Shit#I dub-coned myself with a Fanfiction. I consented but did I really#Anyway.Good night to my Baled Mario plushie I kissie him head and know he is fine and nothing is wrong between him and Luigi#They are in romantic love
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