#i have new asks i need to answer. i know this 🤡

[kaontic]

Oh my actual Lord, the dream’s come true. O_O

*Kicks down door* OH THUNDERCRACKEEER~

BUSTER’S ‘BOUT TO GETTA NEW FRIEEEND~ (´∀`)//🐱

He’s got a pet human now too, I guess—

Why my dumb human ass, with my crappy art, could almost wish upon an evil shootin’ star, that it was me instead “What?” What—? 😶

Alright. Now we just need Skywarp to get one. Or two. Or a few. Someday. Maybe.

Um—

*Whispers* Psst, hey, Megs, I don’t wanna be that betch—I make unintentional mistakes I gotta edit for my sanity all the time—but, it’s “What do you say?”. That’s probably why they’re givin’ ya looks.

I mean, that’s pretty accurate Megatron dialogue ngl. Like this is the same guy that said in G1 “Power flows to the one who knows how”, as if that was an actual full sentence.

Ik, that’s beside the point of what the frag’s goin’ on, so, “respectfully” (with heavy emphasis on the quotation marks)—

Can ya just…rip out your own chain-smoker soundin’ aft voice box, and shove it? Pretty please? Mr. Geneva Suggestions?

“YoU kNoW tHe LiMiTs Of My PoWeR! i NeEd SoMeOnE tO wIElD mE!”

“But my leader, you have your fusion cannon—”

“Do NoT qUeStIoN mE sTaRsCrEaM!”

Unless Skybound’s gonna give us a “good” aft explanation for this, like some Cybertronian gunformer curse we dunno about yet (given the serious corruption goin’ on, from the looks of it, with Star and Op)—

I would say more about Megs’ gun mode as an effective concept, but I’ll save all that for another post.

Instead I’ll just spout out this scrap to review:

Most explanations are welcome for why villains do what they do, even if it’s just “Cuz I’m evil”. 😈

(TF One Sentinel tho…yeah. Gotta make a post regardin' him as well)

Here, they wanna save their home planet as energy sources dwindle.

Ok, so resources. Got it. Yes. #1 reason why wars are fought, and wars need soldiers to fuel ‘em. Enemies turned potential recruits who are prisoners don’t comply? Well, logically speaking then— 🤡

Or maybe, just maybe—this might sound crazy, but—how about not start a whole goddamn war that will worsen this crisis, Megs?

How about not turn fellow Cybertronians into the worst versions of themselves, and delete their innocence? Cuz great, now ya created a monster that will betray ya!

Ask yourself: what the frag are you fighting for?

Cuz you’re just makin’ the problem worse, mate.

At least Jetfire tried to look beyond Cybertron peacefully for a solution, which despite how well that went, sounded a helluva lot better than exhaustive in-fighting, but no, frag exploration.

Frag trading with “filthy” organic alien species.

Frag experimenting for new sources of energy (lookin’ at you, Shockwave. Now I know your aft was enabled).

Frag examining Cybertron’s history for answers.

Frag speaking with Optimus like a civilized individual.

Population control’s where it’s at, apparently. ಠ_ಠ)

Jesus, so many questions NOT ENOUGH DEETS. (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

WE NEED MORE FLASHBACKS STAT.

Skybound Megs so far, is coming off as a guy who, when the worst happens, will just use the situation/impending apocalypse to his advantage to do terrible stuff, and get away with it through all the chaos.

Furthermore, it’s like we’re watching him live out some sick fantasy of his while he’s all “This is for the greater good of Cybertron!”. Like no bitch! There’s other options! You have no excuse!

You wanna be a pred, who kills for pleasure and power, while demanding to share that experience with others with or without their consent.

There. That’s what kept me up last issue.

Well, this is one moral of this ongoing story, and life advice I guess:

BEWARE THE F*CKIN’ NICE ONES!

For they may be the worst of all. Great…

*Proceeds to pollute my sketchbook with more Megatron art cuz I am indeed that betch*

[vesperpharsalius]

hey, i'm new to here so i dont know if someone asked you to same question so, sorry to bother. may i ask if you countinuing your fic ice and fire? as i say i'm kinda new and i dont know your update schedule or smth. have a good day!!😚

Well... welcome to my corner of the hellsite! Happy to have you. Please always feel free to send me messages and asks; my inbox is always open (although it’s bursting at the moment and I tend to reply with about as much speed as you’d expect if we were communicating by transatlantic preindustrial letter) and I don’t mind repeating myself in the slightest. An admirer could never bother me.

😘

So, there really is no underestimating or underselling how passionate I am about Ice and Fire and Alis Aquilae, generally, which is the collective name for my planned Bellonaverse. Words, quite simply, fail me whenever I try to convey the depth of my obsession.

Let me just say this—if, for whatever reason, this project is abandoned, it will be for one reason and one reason only: I am dead. Mourn me. Remember me fondly. Because nothing but death itself could keep me from finishing it—and, indeed, it may very kill me. I have reached a terminal level of freak and am likely committing acts of hubris in this endeavor from which I may never recover. But goddamn it, kitten—we are finding this Northwest Passage and exploring Darrow’s southwest passage, too.

The good news is that the bulk of I&F is already rough–drafted. When I first started posting, about fifteen months ago, I thought it was closer to being done and that I’d only need to do some final touches on each chapter before I published it, and… yeah. No.

🤡

Extensive rewriting and revising and polishing has delayed progress significantly; I never thought it’d take more than a few months to finish this, tbh, and it’ll be two years, come July. And, hell, I’m not even halfway through; fourteen—out of 150? To say nothing of the supplementary fics that I’ve planned for AA, written from the perspective of other characters that will complement the main trilogy; these will be about 50k apiece. 

Which is not exactly… inspiring.

😬

I also completely underestimated how distracting feedback would be. It’s difficult—almost impossible, really—for me to focus on I&F itself when I have so many wonderful comments and messages and asks that I could be answering instead, because I enjoy discussing my fics far more than I enjoy writing them, if I’m honest.

It’s the instant gratification of it all. And, y’know—the praise kink. It’s kinking. 

(If you’ve sent me an ask or a message or left a comment on I&F that I’ve yet to answer, please know that I cherish each and every one and fully intend to respond. Don’t worry about being overlooked or forgotten. But you’ll have to be very patient with me, unfortunately, because I am swamped.)

That said, I’ve decided to change the paradigm a bit. What I’m going to be doing hereafter is batches of twenty–five; so, I’ll write twenty–five chapters, release one (or maybe two) a week, go on hiatus while I write the next twenty–five chapters, and so on. The first batch will be much smaller, only eleven, as I’ve already posted fourteen. 

The hiatuses will only apply to the trilogy, though; I’ll throw y’all a different bone to chew on while you’re waiting. The first one will be the final chapters of MTB; after that, though… we’ll start digging into AA’s supplementary fics that I promised and some independent Cassius–centric stuff, too.

Hopefully, this will increase my productivity to a more satisfactory rate and give y’all some consistency in your lives. Really, it’s cruel what I’ve done: all this suspense, these empty promises of updates and responses and sex so torrid that a single read will permanently alter your brain chemistry and damn you straight to superhell.

They should try me at the Hague for this.

At my current pace, I should be able to wrap up I&F by the end of 2025 and get started on the sequel, which is still in the conceptual phase right now. At the very least, though, this series will be ongoing for the next three years.

So. Here’s hoping y’all don’t get too sick of me. 

You can expect Chs. 15–25 of I&F to start getting posted in late June. I’m gonna chain myself to it. I may or may not release Ch. 15 on its own, as it’s 95% done; right now, I’m inclined to save it for the group. 

But... you never know. I have been known to lie.

Thank you for the ask, for your patience, and for being such a good sport as I edge you. What can I say?

In typical Cassius fashion, he’s taking his damn time.

Stay tuned. 

Update: I lied. Ch. 15 is live.

😉

[doesntmeanitsmeaningless]

Hi Ailo. I don't know how online you had been this day but just in case here is the recap you didn't ask for 1d news' version:

-Oasis is having a reunion and will do a tour the next summer (funny meme about oasis and Louis, another meme of one direction and this one). I imagine Louis will be the most happy person in the planet right know.

This Oasis reunion has made the fandom had some thoughts: 1. If Oasis can do a reunion so does One Direction 2. Louis could be a tour opener for them 👀🕯🤞3. @thechavier share this theory about H&L and Oasis🤞🕯🙏👀 .

Oasis is also related to Openstage who is a company where Louis has invested so is a double win for him!!!

-Harry was seeing with André 3000, he lately had been seen with a few artists 👀, seems like it was from this other day that he was with Pauli and Yaffra.

-Now Narry news: Harry was at Niall's show in Manchester today!!!!Everyone was freaking out (myself inclueded), Harry was so happy dancing a lot, clapping, whistling, it was beautiful, not surprise duet thought 🤡 but we did clown for a few moments because he went from the vip box to the side of the stage at some point. He did leave before the last song end it lol, he didn't follow the 1d rules and harry's rules to not leave before the show ends.

I think my favorite part was him dancing during Stockholm Syndrome and filming that part. I don't know if you saw this but I did a post a long time ago about the color tribute of the 1d boys during that song at Niall's show so I think is so beautiful that Harry was able to see that too.

-We got the Louis Tomlinson: Live !!!! If you only want high in california and wdbhg here is the other link, thanks to @highwaytosomewhere , Meg saves us all!!!. Also the links for kill my mind and only the brave.

P.S.: -I don't know if you saw that at the Victorious Festival Louis try during barricade to drink from a beverage of a fan? Lol only Louis.

-Another extra note, a few days ago Niall sing Little things with Ed Sheeran and today Ed have this funny answer to a fan about the 1d reunion. I do hope he at least try to be a wizard and helps us with the 1d reunion, we need all the help we can get.

And that is it for the recap, I hope you are having a wonderful day/afternoon/night. Let me know what you think about all of this and if this was helpful or a waste of time because you were in fact online and this recap wasn't necessary hahaha.

Te mando un abrazo.

CC!!! A recap I didn’t ask for!!! AMAZING!!!

And I apologise for the delay!!! I used up my data, and we had to abandon our vacation due to illness. I just got home.

This is such a great update!! And I’ll respond more later, but want to put this beauty in the world asap! This needs to be shared with everyone one who was offline or wants a recap!! 🫶🫶🫶

[katyspersonal]

Continuation of the previous post about SOTE adventures from today! (More like the end)

1) So, after finally trying to fight on Torrent and beating Tree Sentinel very quickly without even getting hit myself, I've gotten a BRILLIANT IDEA to try and battle Gaius like this too. That was really pointless. In fact, I just spent the next hour pushing for it and not getting further than reducing his HP to like 60%... Because you know, doing the same thing over and over and OVER hoping that this time the result will be different is definition of insanity. XD

2) Eventually I gave up and tried something else. In this case, to relocate my stats; I have 80 Int as sorcery user, but here it was useless, so I relocated these stats and some extra in those I needed more.

So, uh... Good news: turned out that Int reduces magic damage, so my 80 Int was crucial for surviving his attacks. Bad news: I wasted 2 Larval Tears to learn this lesson. 🤡🤡🤡

3) I tried to do more stuff and the very last thing I tried was to give Mimic Tear Morgott's blade to spam fire attacks, while I have shield and stab him with Scarlet Rot. I've already noticed that fire was dealing much more damage, but by that time @jarognieva whom I asked for help answered me!! So, we cooperated!

4) .....

Turned out that she forgot to change her name from МАМКА ТВОЯ)))0)0)0)0) АХАХПЖПЛАОП

(It says 'your mum' XDDDD)

5) Jara also confirmed that this boss WAS weak to fire and holy, so that sealed the deal with Morgott's blade! I legit didn't have a better fire skill weapon on hands.

6) We made a great attempt at first, she is very strong with holy attacks! We only lost because earlier I relocated all flasks to Crimson, so I ran out of skill and could not use it again because I didn't have any Cerulean (🤡🤡🤡)

7) BUT WE WOOONNN OH MAN WE WON

(Damn, how does Messmer keep attracting so many friends? I read it as both them being cursed and being close with THE war person (Radahn) were important here)

@jarognieva YOU ARE SUPER HELPFUL HOW DO YOU EVEN DO THAT GDHYGGHTGFH AAAA I WAS SUFFERING FOR GOOD HOUR AND MORE ON THIS BOSS!!!!!! POWER OF FRIENDSHIP BITCHES!!!

(Also it was the second time we started to aggressively smash jump button after beating the boss XD It should become the running gag now! Or should I say..... the jumping gag? *gets shot*)

8) I was ready to go for the day since it is late and I need to cherish what little sleep I can have, so for the last instance I decided to go and check new stuff at Enia's!

Not much to add here, though seems like it would be a good spell for my random surprise Faith build moments! Though two overlapping stalks repeating the Erdtree pattern did remind me of that overlapping serpents symbol from previous post.

I was JUST questioning what weapon would actually WORK while I am fighting on Torrent! Thank you king xd

So he invented that cool sorcery while trying to prove Radahn that he was a better sorcerer!

9) Interestingly enough, first at Enia's I only could find Gaius head, chest and arm pieces but not the leg one!

I wondered if something was wrong with that! The description did mention that he was one with his boar after all! My assumption was that simply his set was not going to have the legs piece, but... it did!

10) So, outside of the area where we battled him, surprisingly there was an ALBINAURIC WOMAN! Just a normal one, riding a wolf and all!

And she dropped... this:

Ohhhh boy. So Albinaurics can't wear boots and pants, now? Oh boy. Well, I told that Loretta was likely not an Albinauric, but the girls didn't believe me. 🌛 This feels like it confirms this! Like I said, she is oddly similar to Dung Eater in cosplaying the species she is protecting vghhggh What a realization....

11) So Albinaurics were pretty much servants for Carians (like Pidiya), and Rykard straight up tortured them, so that makes the fact that one was like an older brother for Radahn interesting..? Perhaps, a glimpse on the "kinder former self" of Radahn that presumably was "lost" to war-mongering (if not some corruption due to wrestling with the Stars)? If Miquella yearning for younger version of Radahn (as far as I got spoilered) is any indication?

12) Another one for that type of talismans is also found nearby:

13) The reward at the end was 5 Scadutree Fragments! Yaaay!!! All scattered near 'Scadutree Chalice'. What an object 🤔

_____________

So yeah, a lot of optional stuff was tackled today! It is so satisfying to finally adapt to a hard boss and defeat them, really. For real, Soulsborne games do not need difficulty selection.

[rainbowsky]

hi rainbowsky, love your blog and your very articulate and sane view of things. It’s been very calming and comforting when there’s so much noise (and hate) in the world. So, thank you!

Curious your take on wyb wearing a bandana hanging from his left belt hook, at the Shu Uemura event today. And not a designer bandana, like the Chanel one he had on his backpack on recent trip to Japan.

I immediately thought of 1970s San Francisco gay culture, men would signal their orientation by hanging them from left side, right side, back pocket (L/R). Not thinking too much about color significance since red is Shu Uemura’s brand color. I don’t know anything about the new ad campaign he’s doing with them, but 1970 and 1971 were on 2 posters behind where he was seated.

It just flashed on me so I’d thought I’d ask. 🧐 🤡

Hi Hellopedey! Thanks, I'm glad you're enjoying my blog! 😊

Inquiring minds want to know: is DD trying to signal to the world that he wants to stick his fist up their ass for Shu Uemura?

You aren't the only person to take note of this. I've seen people mentioning hanky code in the tags of reblogs of my post of the photos from that event, and I've seen people talking about it on Twitter, too. It's become quite a topic since the event.

This is a question that has come up a few times in the past, but alas - it's often impossible to find old posts on Tumblr, so rather than being able to point to my previous post about it I will just re-answer.

Fake, fan fiction, CPN.

Long story short: I don't believe for one hot second that DD is using hanky code. There are a lot of reasons I feel this way, and I'll get to that in a minute, but the number one thing I want to bring home for people is that:

Everyone is allowed to wear hankies without assumptions being made about their sexual activity/preferences.

Including you, Hellopedey, and every other reader. Maybe that's not as much of a relief to some readers as it would be to those who happen to be queer and heavily sexualized by others, but it should take a load off some minds. 😅

You know that old saying, "Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar*?" Well, sometimes a hanky is just a hanky. I'd go so far as to say that a hanky is almost always just a hanky. Even if worn by a gay man.

*Incorrectly attributed to Freud, the origin of that quote is actually unknown.

Here are just a few reasons it's obvious to me DD isn't signalling (and I can't believe I have to say this, because it seems obvious to me):

Location, location, location. Please remember that hanky code is used when people are looking for sex. DD is at a brand event. He's not looking for sex.

His outfit is likely put together by a stylist, and that stylist is unlikely to be trying to hook him up with people for sex.

Hanky code isn't much of a Thing with young people these days. There's no need for it, since now all anyone needs to do to hook up with someone based on preferences is tick off a few boxes on Grindr or other apps (even in China).

Hanky code is pretty Western-centric. It's unclear whether it's even used in China.

As was discussed in the notes, bandanas are popular in hip hop fashion and in other fashion styles DD often wears.

Hankies are a very widely/wildly popular fashion accessory worn by people from all walks of life. Both GG and DD have worn hankies a lot, including for their fabulous Happy Camp dance, and in this context, it really is just a fashion accessory.

I'm going to say this as gently as possible, because I get it that people are just being clueless and oblivious, and that they don't intend to offend, but it really tweaks something in me as a gay person that so many fans are casually willing to make the assumption that DD is sexually signalling at work.

This goes back to the whole oversexualization in the fandom thing that I often lament.

I think fans - especially turtles - get so used to scrutinizing everything for signs and signals of GG and DD's sexual and romantic proclivities that common sense and GGDD's basic humanity are often overlooked. Fans could also stand to do a bit more to reflect on how their behavior and attitudes might (unintentionally) come across as offensive and homophobic* to queer people.

*Not saying this is where you were coming from, Hellopedey, but I hope all fans will reflect on it.

Please read this post for more info on that, because it's important.

PS] For those looking for something salacious about GG and DD, how about checking out the lyrics for the song they danced together to on Happy Camp? That's a pretty racy song for a couple of 'straight' guys to be dancing together to. 😅

[not-goldy]

They think so because of his choices in chapter 2. I remember them being so defensive when anons asked them about why JK had songs with female protagonist and mocked antis for thinking that he's het, said female subject is for the technicality. But the same person is saying his chapter 2 decisions looks like he's preparing Fandom for a dating reveal with a woman just so he can show a partner of opposite gender to the society, for convenience. They said he will never ever reveal a male partner, understandable. We all know both of them are not gonna explicitly come out but they can always keep quiet and decide not to have any public relationship... there are many korean actors who are 40+ but have no public gf or relationship till now. They say Jikook may remain as Tony and Jaeduck ? Idk.. that couple but also says he will leave Jimin for a better future.. because that's what his social status in korea is.

Previously they said even his antis in kside don't believe that leaked video as it was blurry and even if it's real it doesn't mean they are dating. Now she's saying his video with that woman didn't made any noise in kside because they are already prepared for a dating news and kinda know about it.. just like taennie. They have a side blog where they stan other kpop groups and ship some of duos, there they said none of kpop ships comes close to what Jikook has. Recently they said no one in their right mind in Kside even cares about Jimin Daeun rumor as it's BS... but I bet in next week they are gonna say Jimin is also preparing Fandom for a dating reveal with her 🤡🤡🤡🤡 coz that opposite r their answers from one to another ask lol.

This is the same person who thinks JK didn't had any extra push from company, it's all his power and he deserves a grammy for seven when we all know how much scooter pushed seven to be top. This is the same person who thinks Jimin wasn't even sabogated or how everyone is living in lalaland at hybe.

This is not making followers insecure but straight up maniacs. Every Jikooker in right mind will always keep it in mind that maybe we could be wrong about them. But straight up mocking them saying Jikook are in love but also JK is getting ready for a dating reveal with a girl is so ???? 🤯🤯🤯🤯

Oooooohhh I see. Thanks for the explanation.

I see what they are saying here and in part I understand what they mean or where they are coming from.

It's not so crazy a theory to be honest. It's nothing that hasn't happened before. People fake date, spread relationship rumors or even marry to cover up their gayness. And if you are dating a closeted person who tend to develop that insecurity cos there's always that possibility they will burrow further into the closet than stand in their truth and claim you choose you or fight for you and with you.

I think Lil Nas X has a video that explores this much prevalent and painful queer experience you can check it. It's I want. Troye Sivan too. Blue Neighborhood watch/listen to the entire song series. Particularly Talk me down. Those are just my favorite queer artists but there's more who touch on this aspect of queer experience.

Partner abandonment is a huge challenge that faces the community especially as not everyone has the strength or luxury to stand and live their truth.

Hearing you say these things about Jikool actually makes me sad 😔

I don't want yet another "friend" to abandon Jimin😔

He already complained of friends betraying him and all and how he does so much for their love and I think he deserves love he deserves happiness he deserves someone who's interactions with him will heal him and nourish him and I think Jungkook- whatever you think their relationship status is- does that for him😔

People are so cruel when they say I wish Jikook break up, or that Vmin is crap and Jimin needs to cut Tae loose, like yall are wishing for Jimin to be abandoned 😔

You are wishing for him to experience the pain and trauma of partner separation or disconnecting from his primary sources of connection be it friendship or romance. All because you hate Tae and JK. They wish Tae Kook with develop a connection and "free" Jimin. And these are his fans yall. His own "fans."

For Jikook this is not something new to them either, all these "tattoo girl scandal" and Paris club scandal and rumor has it they have a gf and thus and that- they are all just ploys to cleanse their queer image by fans and to some extent the company who plays complacent in these situations neither refuting those rumors or refuting them too late whether advertently or inadvertently.

There's a queer idol who said his management would deliberately leak rumors about him dating girls or would ask him to build his body and become hyper masculine just so he appears "straight" to the public.

So perhaps you an disagree with her takes on these. I certainly do- unless Jungkook has done something really controversially gay I don't see why they would want to stage a queer cleanse for him this time around.

I mean he even said he wasn't dating no girl. If he wanted to queer cleanse he would have kept absolutely quite about it- at least for a while just as Hybe asked the tattoo girl to keep quiet about those rumors. Later she had to come out and throw hybe under the bus because the rumors were harming her- until she of course switched up and played it up.

It's messy. Kpop is messy.

Everyone is entitled to their views. Time will tell which views are more accurate than not is what I always say.

[jikookuntold]

Tbh answer I expected. I only bring in taennie to prove my point. Me, you and all others who are not taekookers or have an unnecessary hate boner for blackpink knows they were real pics and videos. But a majority portion is obsessed to prove it was fake because the argument was there were no quality videos/pics where Tae's face was clear and clear pics were edited. Likewise, whoever not jikookers or generally JK shippers knows its real video 🤷‍♀️

Ik his face wasn't clear. We all know it lol. But other evidences are very clear. Forget about the exact Dora hairstyle he had in that period or black outfit it can be setup, even though the grainy pic you posted looks like JK's silhouette. But his apartment? Same switch boards and couch ? The window ? The mood lamp which color changi order was exactly like his lamp ? His own dog who's tail is not amputed.. walking around him just like bam does ? I didn't even saw karmy who are biggest jikookers trying to prove it was fake 🤷‍♀️ idk man, all of it seems like too real to be fake especially when we are trying to not be biased while watching Jikook.

Btw, when he posted his latest gcf army saw a cropped Harley jacket which is way petite for him to wear. It obviously belongs to a girl. Forget about hello kitty plushie or two helmets we can ignore them as his. But I don't think he needs a small cropped jacket in his home if there was no girl. I also remember he outlined a female hourglass body in one of his karoke lives... goes along with my point

I'm just asking doubts which I have for long time, was waiting for you to become active, and I'm sure many of jikookers here still have even if they act cool pretending none of these affected them because that's what 99% of jikookers here did that month. While 1% accepted its real and been inactive since. All those back to back things he did and we found out affected me and made me rethink about Jikook.

I'm so flattered that you have been waiting for my come back to ask me about some shadows moving around. I don't know how you did the statistics, but I'm not in that 99% nor the 1%. Maybe you are new here, but I have seen many things real-time, including the Mijoo drama and I know what goes on here.

You started with that video, and I told you any kind of authenticity is questioned when the quality is that horrifying. But eventually you reached the point of trying hard to involve JK with girls and your proof is a kitty plushie or a crop top? Are you serious right now? Is this the best you can to force heterosexualoty on someone? 🤡

I don't and I can't take you seriously because it's getting boring already. Only in the past year JK has been forged into dating with 11 different women (yes, I counted and I have the list) from a random bystander to a staff or even famous idols, just because he breathed the same air with them for half a second. Aren't you tired? I'm genuinly asking.

Btw no one said that girl in Jeju was staff. JK was there with high school friends, (surprise! He attended mixed gender high school), so she was either a friend or a friend's date.

You can keep trying to find a faceless woman for JK and convince yourself that he is a straight fckboy, or you can be creative for once and come up with the Daeun/Jimin furniture theories, but you have to know you are not affecting me or Jikook or anyone else, you are just clowning yourself 👻

[misaxz7777]

⌗ೄྀmᥱᥱ𝗍 𝗍һᥱ ᥲr𝗍іs𝗍 🧸 :

➩ ིྀ◡̈ 𝑨𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒆 ⚜︎𓂀:

➥ Hello, guys! I'll speak about myself here, I hope that you like this post of mine.

☞ My name is Misa, it is a female japanese name , because I like animes, my fav animes are My happy marriage, sign of affection and Hajimete no Gal , I'm shy a lots and pervert but not much, in my free time I love draw and listen to music, but, my really fav anime is Death Note.

☞ I'm heterosexual, because I love men, my type man is shy boy a bit, pervert and honest etc.. , but It's so hard to find a good man when shows his true love for another woman. When another man asks me if I'm dating... And I'll answer, I am arromantic for men and except for my beloved possessive stalker who is heterosexual.

☞ When I get nervous I can't speak , because I feel anxiety and fear on inside me ( It's normal for everybody) , I feel comfortable to chat with my friends, however, I prefer to conversation face to face, when u listen my sweet voice , u'll know bout my personality .

☞ My fav animals are white seal and cats, I enjoy so much with they.

☞ I'm pastel emo, I love so much the clothes from another people using.

☞ My dream is to be loved by someone who shows true love for me, who gives me affection, attention, teaches me everything, encourages me to read, love and even more sensual affectionate kisses. Sometimes I try not be pessimistic, besides I am learning new things in this unknown and unharmonious world. Because I'm optimist I think good things on my mind.

☞ I'm learning American English and this year I reading the dictionary's mom when she was young along with my uncle part of the father , I think the English is a art for me, I love to express my feelings on the sheet of paper when my mind and also my heart, they see creativity things and they want to show me their feelings. I think the art pretty also georgous for express our emotions on the sheet of paper .

☞ I like eat everything, however my favorite food is like pudin, ice scream and some fruits ( I don't like so much) .

☞ My fav character is Alice Returns of Madness, I like her so much, the my personality some likes of her too.

☞ I love to make a new friends and I'd like to travel another country and city, my dream is travel for the USA, however I'm finding the city in which I can live.

☞ I need glow up my draws, but I'm watching on the YouTube tutorials, I'll need to learn and to pratice :).

☞My religion is Spiristim.

☞ I'm a Antreepypast and my artistic killer is LadyMiss, that means Black Angel I like dark só much, I'm Not satanist, I'm spirist. You Can call my new nickname Bloody Lover Painter, because I LOVE draw so much and express my feelings I some likes a Masky Lee and Bloody Painter, mixed the both a bit , however, I think the my Antreepypast clothes is a Purple and Black Jaquet and also my name " LadyMiss " on the color Red, That would be an overcoat of my Antreepypast outfit, obviously (how would it be right? And the post I posted a few weeks ago is here on Tumblr) It's will amazing I'm wearing this clothes :) .

☞ I like the Creepypasta fandom .

☞ I'll be artist and I don't like someone ask my age, my real name etc..., because there are some who don't like to talk about themselves, that is, their own identity. And I'm that semi-artistic person who hates this type of questioning and I generally prefer other questions related to certain subjects on this next future.

☞ My bday is 3th April on 2008 ( 🤡🤭).

☞ My sign is Aries.

☞ I'm creative and I like to detail and organize in a folder...

☞ I love to write poems and books ( I'm trying Lol).

☞ I like Dark Romance and Terror Books, they're my type, " Do you like to read porn?" yes, I have dirty mind a lots lol.

☞ My personalities are : my Mind is the creepypasta Sally and emo pastel, my side personality is Melody ( Sanrio) also academic vibe person and my outside personality outside is Cinammon ( Sarion), When the person observes I have countless of these types.

That's it today, thank you for enjoying this post!

[missys-mansion-of-mistakes]

Weekly Wrap-Up

July 22nd, 2024 - July 28, 2024

🌸 This week has been pretty great overall. Let's review what I managed to get done:

Two visits to my parents. One for the car, one for the garage sale.

Submitted 5 scholarship essays

Deposited 5 checks that have been sitting around

Cleaned out my car/fridge. They're very neat now

Went grocery shopping instead of procrastinating it

Ordered two new chargers. One for my office, one for home

Fixed up a chapter of the book I'm writing for NaNoWriMo and posted it in the writing group for folks to workshop today

Researched 10 different programs for my conference presentation

Sent in the BOD application. Even though it was auto-rejected (due to number of applicants) I still finally sent it in

Did my nails for the new job, then took them off (didn't like them)

🏫 School is rapidly approaching. Mid-to-late August. I wanted to apply to 100 scholarships before school starts, but at this rate, it'll be more like 50. I still have around 3 weeks left so... guess we'll see. Gonna increase the rate I work at.

🎧 My pink headphones I've had since... it has to be since 2020 finally gave up the ghost. They underwent some heavy daily use, and spent a short stint of time in a garage when I was between houses, so I'm honestly shocked they lasted 4 years. I just went to lay down while I was wearing them a few days ago, something went CRACK in the left ear, and since then it was a right-ear-only headphone 🤡 Thankfully I had brand-new extras in my closet I ordered because I thought these broke previously but hadn't-- the cord was just loose-- and so I wasn't bothered in the least. Awesome.

🎤 Nervous for the upcoming conference in... a week and a half. I know I'm prepared to write my piece of the deliverables (the powerpoint, the presentation) but I'm not convinced my co-presenters are. Tomorrow, I need to ask them more directly if they're able to answer several questions pertaining to our topic-- because that's what we need to put in the slides. They only have like 3 days left to research enough to rectify that if they aren't. And I understand some people operate on a last-minute based work schedule, but I'm not. It's important we get this DONE.

💼 Work for the upcoming week should be smooth enough. Still settling into my new role and trying to figure out what would be best to change/adapt for the program. I need to brainstorm some more while I'm at work and figure all that out.

Good things ahead, I know it!

[Photos: heart-shaped lipstick I got from a mystery box, unidentified flowers from my family's garden, new pink headphones, bullet journal entry, postcards on my wall (detail), postcards on my wall with ivy.]

[valeffelees]

An Ask Game for Writers to Procrastinate Working on Your WIP(s)

thank you kindly for tagging me @shrekgogurt @youarenevertooold, and @monbons i've been seeing this game make its rounds on my dash and was really hoping someone would pull me in!

🦈 Tell us the name of one of your WIP(s)

my main three wips at the moment are without sun, ballad of the final sparrow, which is more commonly known as bitverse, and fragile things (and how to break them), but i've also been fucking around a bit the last two or three weeks with a new (terrible, evil, very self-indulgent) wip called god-forbid.

🍄 Describe one of your WIPs in the format of “___ + ___ =___”  

i think i might be dumb bc i don't understand this question at all.

🌍 What tags or warnings will your WIP(s) need if you intend to share it?

bitverse: heavy angst, psychological horror elements, alcohol abuse, allusions to suicide, unhealthy coping mechanisms, dead dove: do not eat.

🧭 An alternative title to one of your WIP(s)?

ballad of the final sparrow -> baz is typing fragile things (and how to break them) -> there's a werewolf in london god-forbid -> the gap between a tragedy and comedy

⚠️ Which WIP you’re most likely to finish or update next?

i have no idea. i mean, you'd think the answer would be without sun since it's the only fic i actually have posted at the moment, but unfortunately i am an untrustworthy villain.

💾 What is the document of your WIP called? (Not the story title, but what you’ve saved it as.)

same as the fic title. if i start a new wip and don't know what to call it, i'll pick something at random and add (working title) at the end.

🖍 Post any sentence from your WIP

from without sun:

“You don’t like peppermint,” he says. But maybe she does. Maybe that’s one more thing he can add to his growing list of things he got wrong about Agatha Wellbelove. No. 1 — Dislikes peppermint; actually, she is quite fond of it. No. 2 — Likes Simon Snow; him, not so much.

♻️ A scrapped idea for your current WIP

one of the biggest changes i made to the plot of without sun really early on was penelope's role in the story. i had a clear idea of the story i wanted to tell as soon as i saw the prompt for the fic. without sun was always supposed to be about more than simon and baz. the story is about grief and love, and the space we take up in the lives of the people around us. but n e way, in my orig draft, penny was actually supposed to be able to communicate with simon a bit, and there was gonna be a whole sect of scenes in the middle of the fic where they sat around together trying to break simon's curse what we know and what we don't know style via passing notes. i ended up tossing this idea really quickly tho, and i'm glad i did bc one of my favourite moments i've ever written in any fic happens in chapter two of without sun and it belongs to simon and penny.

🤔 What’s a story you’d love to write but haven’t even started yet?

so many. or, well—what counts as "haven't even started"? i hate to let ideas sit around in my head bc it feels like leaving raspberries in the fridge for too long, like that shit is gonna get mould on it, so usually the first thing i do is rough out a few scenes and/or script out a very rough outline of the plot (like this / this / this style) so that i have something to come back to later. i have dozens of zero drafts just lying tf around. but otherwise, yeah, so many. one big idea i have is called heart on fire and it's based on fanart, but i haven't started it yet bc obvs i wanna get permission from the artist first but i've been holding off reaching out to them about it until i've knocked a few of my less intimidating longfics off my wip list bc heart on fire is gonna fucking hefty so i don't wanna give'r until i'm sure i can manage it.

🤡 How many WIPs are you actively working on?

LMFAO

🛠 Is there a scene or anything in the WIP you are struggling with right now?

i'm having a real bitch of a time with agatha's main scene in chapter two of without sun, i've been fighting with it on and off for months, but i can't get it to do what i want it to do.

❤️ Not a question, just a second kudos to send.

cheers!

sorry for any doubles but, tagging: @drowninginships @cosmicalart @that-disabled-princess @fatalfangirl @cutestkilla @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @artsyunderstudy @thewholelemon @roomwithanopenfire @hushed-chorus @blackberrysummerblog @imagineacoolusername @nightimedreamersworld @prettygoododds @confused-bi-queer @mooncello and an open tag for anybody else who wants to procrastinate their wips!

[agentgrange]

I tried to ask this in the Delta Green Reddit but it was extremely unhelpful! What do you think is the difference gameplay wise between Delta Green 2017 and Fall of Delta Green. Besides being different systems do you think there is a different style of play? What is stopping someone using Gumshoe for a modern day game and 2017 for a game set in 1969? Thanks!

I love this question, I'd actually love to do a full breakdown of these two editions someday the same way AlfaBusa broke down the different editions of World of Darkness. I actually wrote *so much* the first time I got this question my phone died while I was editing it down and I lost all of it. So here's my second attempt. Bare with me:

I prefer GUMSHOE, regardless of time period. A lot of my players though like the classic D100 system. I think that mostly comes down to chance and progression. Classic Delta Green actually rewards you for fucking around and testing fate by granting you one or two percentage points every time you fail a role. I can understand why it feels like it encourages you to take more risks and play outside your characters comfort zone, and unlike GUMSHOEs point spends there's no reason not to try something you're bad at every time. You aren't going to run out of spends, and baring an alien parasite feasting on your brain your skills can only go up. Sure, you might fumble so bad that you blew yourself up with a claymore but... at least it'll be funny, right?

To most people GUMSHOE / Fall of Delta Green is the much more grounded hardboiled version of the two. You aren't a bunch of cowboy murderhobos, you're professional murderers. Your character knows their strengths and weakness, and they're one of the best in the world at what they do. Skills aren't so much how probable a character is to succeed at a task but "what skill does your character use to succeed." They have a tool belt of experience to fall back on, and they really are that good. But while most investigations will never leave your character at zero spends left, I can understand why people don't like the idea that your character can theoretically just run out ideas and use up that tool belt or point progression being something given out by the Handler in between sessions rather than something that can be earned in the moment to moment gameplay. Broadly though, on the surface Fall of Delta Green agents seem much more buttoned up (and, dare I say, flat) than their roudy D100 siblings who act like they just fell ass-over-teakettle into a Mi Go hive. And for some people thats not as fun.

EXCEPT THEY ARE TOTALLY WRONG BECAUSE GUMSHOE CAN BECOME 🤡 CLOWNSHOES 🤡 WITH THIS ONE WEIRD TRICK.

The best addition to Fall of Delta Green is actually Nights Black Agents. Here's four things from Nights Black Agents you can add to FoDG to COMPLETELY change how you play the game, give it a tier one operator high speed low drag coat of paint for any era, and WELL OUTWEIGH the perceived benefits of d100 DG:

Preparedness and Bureaucracy Rework-- Preparedness alone in Fall of Delta Green is a game changer by answering the dilemma of "man every time I need a new gun I need to roleplay going to the Gun-Carry, Gun-Ross army-navy surplus store and counting out our petty cash fund to determine exactly how many bullets I have. What if I just had an Uzi under my jacket with enough ammo to wipe out this entire bowling alley?"... or you know boring shit like "man I wish I had a crowbar RIGHT NOW, hey DM do I have one?" NBA has optional rules to take the same rules that govern Preparedness and apply them to Bureaucracy. Instead of a numerical value of "how good am I at arguing with my parent agency about the collateral I need to requisition the communal AC130" you can instead skip the arguing and treat it like an elevated preparedness role. Your character works within the system offscreen to retroactively get access to privileges only afforded to members of your organization. Simply think "boy I wish we had gunship cover right now" and with an appropriate Bureaucracy roll your character already filed the mission paperwork three weeks ago. Your patron organization is only going to stick their neck out for you so many times though, so unlike other stats Bureaucracy doesn't replenish at the end of a mission. Your character will have to invest progression points into Bureaucracy if they want to keep dipping into it, and can expect to get shit-canned if it hits zero.

Network-- What if you need something done off the books? What if you really wish you had a guy who knows a guy who's willing to move an ungodly amount of Crank no questions asked, and you need them right now without having to consult your character's tragic backstory? Wonder no more, by letting Agents put points into Network they can create Brampton the Hells Angel Biker on the spot for all their black budget needs. Like Beurocracy, Network doesn't replenish on its own but players are allowed to keep the contacts they spend points on between missions to create a web of off-the-books contacts, informants, and assets.

Cover-- Did one of your Agents get caught in a C O M P R O M I S I N G position? No they didn't! With Cover, that State Trooper didn't stop Agent Yancy Grange. They stopped Rusty Sheckleford, beloved member of the Galveston Texas community with the IDs and paper trail to prove it! There's no limit to the amount of aliases you have, but like Bureaucracy and Network Cover doesn't replenish on its own. Once you hit zero your covers blown-- someone somewhere put the pieces together and any future attempts at using your alias will get you recognized.

Roleplay based skill feats like TECHNOTHRILLER MONOLOGUE-- NBA is filled with a ton of these and I encourage handlers to pick and chose which ones to offer to their players to dial in the exact level of pulp they want in their campaign setting, and Technothriller Monologue is my favorite. With a sufficiently high Firearms skill Agents can get the equivalent of an Action Surge by describing in Tom Clancy-esque detail exactly how they squeezed the trigger before canoe-ing a cultist so badly they blow out their brains through the back of their neck.

[mcdonaldsnumberone]

NEW GAME ALERT 🫡 Assign a song to each of your tumblr friends?? 💪

IM SORRY FOR TAKING FOREVER W THIS AOUGHGHGHHGHGH im rlly bad at answering asks on time 🤡 anyways without further ado (buckle up for mostly kpop)

@pernonix: cliche but it has to be cast me a spell by mili! perno is like The mahoyaku mutual for me so it's only natural that i associate the mhyk theme song w them AHAHAHA if i had to give a non-mhyk song, it'd be in&out by red velvet!

@pocasu: AOUGHGHGH ion my beloved 🫶 suit dance by onlyoneof is the song i'd give them! it's got the suave elegant #swag that i associate with them <3 keep serving all that cunt bestie bae we love to see it

@ai-kan1: (grips ai) i give you boy by the boyz! it's super cheerful and fun, which is genuinely the vibe u give off hehe i also think the song is super ace-core which works perfectly well for one of our resident acekissers xoxo

@anzepanpan/@venushotline: i'm giving you new by yves (loona)! this is actually my favorite loona solo and i stand by it when i say yves only makes music for hot girls <3 it's classy, it's girly, it's got the pretty girl energy dia embodies perfectly!

@senqv: your song is sunny side up by red velvet! i kinda associate you with a sweet, lackadaisical energy, and i think this is the perfect kaiserkisser enemies to lovers thing (pov im delusional) im thinking of <3 we love to see it nyehe

@tartppola: im giving you by other ace anthem, which is we must love by onf! our taste is impeccable and our shady smut peddling dms are even more tasteful. keep kissing adeuce and letting me beat u up w love &lt;3 also liar liar by oh my girl is my deuce anthem so im tacking that onto u as well

@scornelious: hello tv :] my song for you is meddle about by chase atlantic! this is what u get for being my resident aikukisser. im sorry i have to. i didnt want to assign you a machine gun kelly song, so ur getting chase atlantic instead. love u to pieces muah hehe

@pearly-elain: elain my bbg (fuckboy lipbite /j) i'd be doing u dirty if i didnt give u a girlboss anthem! so im giving you snapping by chungha <3 please dont grill kaiser too hard i still need him sort of alive if i wanna continue by whiteboykissing

@sophiethewitch1: im assigning you villain by stella jang! it's so preppy and mature, and i think that suits you very well! i love seeing u in pitlock, and i think the nuanced nature of the song is very sophiecore in my opinion :]

@takumipineapplexd: taku babe u are love o'clock by wjsn! it's the perfect teenage-girl daydream heartthrob crush song, and it fits your vibe to a T! love seeing u being delulu and love smacking u into the ground with said delulu

@spadecentral: im giving you hula hoop by loona! it's such a cute, fast-paced bubblegum song, and that's generally the vibes i always get from you when we talk! thanks for always being supportive of my interests, and keep brightening my day lovely!!

@antiv3nom: POPPET <3 you are getting wow by loona! it's another banger song, very cute very fun very dancey! i wanted to give u smth more creative than slapping on some videogame-themed kpop song, so loona it is 🫡

@yaakultt: aough anyone who has been on my blog for like . longer than 3 seconds knows that i am Not the biggest fan of newjeans but i truly mean this when u give me immaculate hype boy by newjeans vibes! it's the girlypop, chillax big sis vibes yanno? only the cool girls get assigned newjeans songs by mac :]

@katasstrophy: ur song is so what by loona (can u tell im an orbit ADKGKJSD)! it's so loud and unapologetic and layered, it's the perfect bad bitch song for none other than the baddest of them all <3 thank u for feeding me so well w kaiser thoughts always hehe

@leiqi: ur getting superhuman by nct! idk why but i keep associating nct with u 💀 and this song for some reason but its ok!! its a super fun song that fits a super fun person, and i love how u always indulge in my delulu ass tbz x bllk thoughts HAHA

@kruinka: hello kaiserkisser :) you're getting picassO by onlyoneof! it's such a beautiful sensual artsy song, which is perfect for The kaiserartist of tumblr dot com! i love seeing ur art, and i cant wait till i get to commission u again!

@torufilms: im giving u the One and Only heart attack by chuu! it's cutesy and fun and so so so huggable, which sums up everything about you so well! even ur acc theme is adorable, so i think heart attack rlly is the cherry on top <3

@gloriium: your song is to heart by fromis9! it's a super heartfelt coming-of-age song and i cant help but think abt how well it'd fit ur yumeship w sebek :] it's so pure and catchy and innocent, and it's definitely a song i associate with you!

@earthtooz: my song for you is change up by seventeen! you're like a spark of joy to see, so naturally, my song for u is something that matches that high-tension energy! you never fail to make me crack up, so i adore having u around!

@aanobrain: every time i see u, all i can think abt is the tag u left abt me almost making u like kaiser, so i just Have to give u gaslighting by onlyoneof! the enemies to lovesr arc before becoming a fullfledged kaiserkisser is a rite of passage <3 u'll become like us soon enough

@hammannii: man there's like . a bajillion songs i cld give u, but i am assigning you with begin by jungkook! i think it's a good testimonial song to our . unconventional friendship, and i hope we continue indulging (read: bullying) each other!

@notaliarr: hello kaiserkisser :) your song is the stealer by the boyz! it's such a slutty yet like . oddly yearnful song? and if that doesnt sum up kaiser–and by association, you–then i dont know what does <3 i love seeing ur art, and i always gobble it up

@hyomaluvr: my song for u is rococo by iz*one! i remember u mentioning them being ur ults, and rococo is one of my favorite songs by the group :) have fun with ur dangans and ronpas or whatever, and ill be back to smack u over the head w kuroo at some point

@chaosinanutshell: your song is dkdk by fromis9! can u tell im a sucker for cutesy pop? it's so whimsical yet endearing, and that's the sorta vibe i get from you! i love seeing u pop into my inbox and im so so sorry for being so bad at answering ur asks, but ur effort doesnt go unnoticed here!!!

@itshis: i'm assigning you get it by pristin v! it's such a good song, and it's so pussyslay just like u <3 i look up to u a lot, so im always excited to see u on my dash and to see whatever it is ur up to! im cheering u on zari!!

@by-moonflower: i salute to the backbone of kaisernation 🫡 my pick is velvet by exid! it's such a chill, sensual grown-woman-ass song (im so sorry i wish i cld be more elegant) which is genuinely the kind of vibes i always get from u. like the red-wine-rich-aunt-poetry-night sort of aesthetic, yanno?

@aiixen: your art is sOOOO cute!! i love seeing ur oc smmmmm im giving u flash by rocket punch! ur art is always so smooth n yummy n i wanna shove it into my mouth like taffy (pov i have the impulse control of a toddler)

@echarie: your assigned song is orbit by jonghyun! your bllk takes are so big brained (like u deadass predicted lorenzo being a major character before any of us did, and im excited to see what role drago might play!), and i love hearing ur input!

@daiseukiis: my pick for you is eve, psyche, and bluebeard's wife by lesserafim! it's the "it girl" song, the boss bitch song, the hot girl summer song if u will :3c keep doing ur thing and slaying, cuz we love to see it!

@00fabulous/@doki-doki-imagines: your song is love on the floor by nct! our dms are . A HOT MESS so to say, and it's uncanny how well our thoughts match up HAHAHA it's real genius to genius (read: clown to clown) communication up in this bitch

last but not least @ayushipop: my sharty bae, my babagrill, my mark to my lee <3 your song is irreplaceable by nct! it'd be illegal of me to give u any other song after ive heard u going apeshit over teehee go drown oingo boingo in a vat of water for me <3 hope u get unbanned from twt soon and have a safe trip <3

if i missed anyone, pls dont take it personally! as u can tell, this was a longass list, so im bound to accidentally let a few people fall thru the cracks 🤡

[devine-devil]

Hi, I have a few questions about writing.

How do you manage to write so many chapters?

I read The New Era, the story has no loose ends, do you have any tips for someone who is a beginner in writing to be able to do this?

What tips can you give to beginning writers who want to write stories with more sensitive content?

That's it, you don't have to answer everything if you don't want to... I really like your way of telling a story.

Okay. This is the first time someone has asked me about my writing... I don't consider myself a professional, but I'm glad they asked me this now and not when I was just starting out in ANE.

ANE should have had a maximum of 10 chapters, yesterday I posted chapter 61 🤡 people must have already died of boredom because this shit never ends. I think I only created such a large apocalyptic universe because I had a lot of incentive at the beginning. I had that feeling of "hey someone read the atrocities you write! And they want more" . All it took was encouragement and organization. After writing about twenty chapters, I organized myself and planned the chapters. Including the end of each story. Basically, plan ahead, even if the incentive doesn't come, just plan ahead. If you make an effort, you'll be able to write a story with many chapters.

My tip is: reread what you wrote, that way you remember the problems you created and need to solve. As much as I hate reading my old chapters, I always do it (and I wrote so badly that rereading hurts.) And plan the end of the story before you even know the middle. I learned this from Edgar Allan Poe. If you know where you want to go, just follow the path without taking any detours. This coupled with re-reading what you wrote eliminates any loose ends. Using Chekhov's Guns works too, I've used thousands. Only use things in scenes that you will definitely use in the future. Don't waste elements. Never give too much focus to a boat at the beginning of a story if that boat is not going to be used as a method of escape in the last chapter.

This one is simple. Be sensitive. Don't romanticize crimes, don't write about a terrible act as if it were something normal or beautiful. If I write something very brutal in one chapter, in the next I show how it is destructive and has terrible consequences. Always warn when sensitive content is going to appear, putting a TW will not kill the writer nor "spoil the Plot". If you are going to use AO3 or any other site, please use the tags well. Inform in the tags EVERYTHING sensitive that will be in the work so that you don't trigger anyone by surprise. Always have a broad knowledge of what you are writing, don't make the villain seem right, I use insanity and evil to ensure this, none of my Caul's convictions are really entirely plausible, he is crazy and demonstrates his madness and obsession. Basically don't make an asshole seem cool. Whenever I think Caul is being too charismatic,or being very brilliant I make him commit another atrocity to break any empathy my readers were having with him. It's a reminder: don't sympathize with this guy, he's an MF. And never forget to show the victims' point of view in the story. As an author, your mission is to make people hate the villain and empathize with the victim.

I think that's it, I'm not a professional writer, I'm glad you like ANE, the first chapters are a mess, then the story gets more organized, I promise we are officially at the end of ANE, I don't intend to write the next GOT.

[shwarmii]

okay, ill make a new one 🤡 ive personally only seen off-shoots of Booboo The Fool (somehow. dont ask me how. i have no idea either) that shortened it to Bobo. but also, some of these pronounciations make me laugh so i needed an update to better include them too (also, no, this isnt a case of that "bullying works" joke lmao the people who were polite convinced me, the people who played along regardless of spelling convinced me, the people who gave me new pronounciations convinced me, and the people who affectionately called me as "from the Bobo-verse" convinved me, not anybody else; i didnt feel bullied at all lmao rip)

i just heard one of my favorite youtubers say this meme out loud in a video and the pronounciation FLOORED ME so now i gotta know:

poll is just "which way do you say it"; tags are "which way is right", assuming your answer to "which way is right" is different to "which way do you say it". or i guess tags are also uhhhhhh if your answer is complicated and if you wanna explain, if you have a diff way of pronouncing (pls tell meeeee), or whatever else you want, im not your parents, idk

[this-is-all-unreal]

My Dear Friend

Part 12

Masterlist

Warnings: Blood, Injury, Needles, worse of all clowns 🤡

      My flashlight hardly illuminated the dark alley. It didn't help that my hand was shaking so bad the spotlight was moving all over. 

      "Sir?" I ask one more time. The man starts to laugh before slowly turning to face me. His white face was almost glowing from the artificial light shining on his skin. His smile unnaturally long, just like the news lady. It was the Joker.

       "Sir? So formal." He taunted. "You and I are buddies right?" He asked as he took a step closer. 

        "No no we are not buddies! Felix help!" I cried out. My brain was screaming at my legs to run but they wouldn't budge. The clown's expression turned to an over exaggerated frown. 

        "Well why not? I wanna be your buddy."

        "Felix please God do something!" I begged in utter horror as Joker closed the distance. Just as he reached out for me he was yanked by his coat with such force he did a somersault backwards into a bunch of trash cans. He just laid on the trash covered ground. Not moving an inch.

      "Did you kill him? Batman is going to be so mad." I hesitantly take a step closer to the pile of trash cans. He still didn't move. Rain started to pour down from the sky. Large heavy drops pelted against everything. Suddenly Joker sat up and looked up at the sky. 

       "That's not fair! I was going to spray you. That rain is gonna ruin all my gas!" He said as he held out a fake flower likely filled with that laughing gas. He finally looked back over at me and eyes widened for a second. Then his lips twisted into a sinister grin. "Well that's more interesting than any laughing gas." He said as he pointed behind me. I turn around and see the silhouette of my old friend outlined by the rain falling against him. Felix turned to look at me. I had never seen such a clear outline of him myself. He was much taller than I remember him being. He was even taller than Jason. His silhouette disappeared and the rain fell to the ground as it normally would. 

       "Two new bat brats. Daddy bat is busy." Joker said standing up. 

        I was much closer to him now than ever before. My legs seem to lock up again. In a way I was thankful for it because I was sure if I ran he'd chase and that's a race I'd never win. Felix began to laugh again. It was unnerving. Having someone laugh inside your head is maddening. 

         "Don't come any closer. I don't want to have to hurt you." I warned, most of it was a bluff but I was mostly banking on Felix snapping out of it in time. He laughed in my face. 

       "Oh you got a tiny Batarang? Is the partner going to pull me again?" He came a bit closer but this time Felix did not pull him back. Just feet a away from me he stares with a big smile that never reached his eyes. My legs felt like jelly but at least I could feel them now. Felix laughter stops abruptly, the silence was deafening. 

       "Last chance." I say in a small mouse-like voice. 

        "You know I could be your babysitter. Since the big invisible guy left. I bet batman would do anything to get a fledgling crime fighter back." He was going to hold me for ransom or something. 

       The rain only seemed to get heavier as we stood there. Part of him has to be buying my bluff why wouldn't he just grab me by now. 

        "Margaret can you hear me? Why aren't you answering me?"

         "What?"

         "I said you need a ba-"

         "Not you! Felix can you hear me?" 

        "Finally." The evil clown was flung back again. This time Felix stood over him blocking out the rain. The Joker just laughed. A fight broke out between them. Both men rolled around on the wet garbage and trash cans. Without the rain outlining Felix the Joker would have looked even crazier. I took the chance to run. I think even the Flash would have been impressed with my speed. I looked back to see if he got away from Felix and saw nothing. My body collided with something, the force knocked me flat on the ground and the back of my head bounced against the concrete. I looked up to see 4 or 5 Jasons looking down at me. 

      "Magpie? Can you hear me? Why don't you look where you are going! Who runs full speed and looks behind them?" He grabbed my arm to pick me up but I was still seeing stars so a limp noodle was the best he was gonna get. I mumbled to warn him about the dark alley. "What? Jo who is Jo?"

       "Joker, Felix has him." Finally my head stopped spinning enough for me to figure out how to speak again. I lift my arm to point in the direction. Dick and Tim were running to us when Jason straightened up and took out a gun and cocked it. Without a word he walked off. Dick reached me soon after.

        "Where is he going? What happened? Did someone hit you?" It was too many questions to answer. I sat up and felt the back of my head. A warm sticky liquid cling to my fingers. I Pulled my hand in front of my face to see the substance. It was blood. Seeing it snapped me back to reality. 

        "Joker, he is down there." 

        "Shit. Stay here, you too." He said pointing to Tim as he raced down to the alley. Tim helped me to my feet. 

         "Did he hit you?" Tim asked as he put his hand on the back of my head making me wince.

         "No I fell when I bumped into Jason." 

         "You must have fell hard. It's gushing."

          "What!-

          "I mean um it's fine um just keep your hand on it." He said as he moved his hand to make room for mine. There was a shot fired then shouting all from the alley. They must have caught him. Tim and I look at each other for a second then we both run in the direction of the yells. The alley now lit up by Tim's flashlight, we could see Dick and Jason struggling against Felix. Jason took a step back and emptied his mag into the invisible man the bullets stopped dead in their tracks and fell. This enraged Felix who picked Jason up and lifted him over his head.

       "Felix no!" I screamed and the online disappeared, Jason was dropped. Him and dick rolled around on the ground for a second and caught their breath. 

        "What the fuck! That thing was Felix?" Jason said as he stumbled to his feet. 

         "I had him until that big clobbering idiot showed up. He let him jump the fence." Felix sounded mad. 

          "Why was he attacking Red Hood?" Dick asked trying to keep a level head about thing. 

         "He shot at me before you guys even showed up!"

         "why did you shoot at Felix!" 

         "I didn't even notice he was there! I was aiming for Joker!" 

          "Everyone calm down. Let's get back home and patched up. Then we can rip each other's head off." Dick reasoned. My head was pounding. I could feel the blood start to run down my neck.

        Jason and Dick argued for a few minutes. Jason wanted to go looking for Joker. He was a dog with a bone. Finally Dick just let him go. Tim retrieved his bike from the bridge and Dick and I rode home in the Batmobile. The whole drive he was trying to hand me napkins to stop the blood but it just kept coming. 

         "First night in charge and one go's AWOL and another gets brain damage. I'm screwed when Bruce gets home." 

          "I thought you did alright as leader. And I'm not brain damaged!" He laughed a little. 

           "Well thanks, that means a lot." I could tell he wanted to ask me about Felix. The whole situation would undoubtedly be told to Bruce in a variety of different ways. We got home and Tim went to shower. We changed and Dick took the first aid kit upstairs to the kitchen for better light. 

        I sat up on a stool as he parted my hair looking for the cut. 

        "Shit" He whispered under his breath. 

          "Oh my God! I can see your skull! Is that brain?! Nah I'm just kidding. It's looks gross though." I rolled my eyes at Felix's antics, at least he seemed to be in a better mood. 

           "So I'm going to have to look up a video. I need to brush up on my stitches." He said as he took the gloves off and pulled out his phone. 

        "I need stitches!?" I say lifting my head and turning around to look at him. His eyes widened realizing he messed up. 

         "No no I mean my quilt stitching. I'm working on a quilt for Barbara. Why don't we move to a sofa or something." He said looking back at his phone. I knew he was lying Felix didn't need to tell me. 

        "You're not a doctor Dick you can't give me stitches."

        "Relax Alfred has had to show me plenty of times how to do this. It's easy. He'll teach you too." I shake my head as he helps me to the sofa in the living room. He laid down towels to keep the expensive furniture clean. Then patted the sofa.  

          "Lay down on your stomach." He was still looking at his phone as he slyly tried to hide a needle. 

         "He won't be teaching me because I'm not going back out there! And I see that!" I say pointing to the syringe. 

          "It's just a numbing agent. It's a local anesthetic. Just a small pinch in the back of your head then nothing."

          "No, it's not happening! It's going to hurt!" I yelled at him. He sighed and sat on the arm of the sofa. 

       "Normally I'm cool with some defiance. Hell I think it's funny usually but this is serious. I'm not going to have your head keep bleeding and have Bruce wondering why I couldn't handle a small wound. So you are going to lay down on this sofa or I'm going to make you lay down, Your call." He sat the needle down on the table as he crossed his arms and waited patiently. I had neve heard him use this tone of voice.

       "Let him try. What is he gonna do flip around you?" I shook my head no as he looked across the room at me. He raised an eyebrow before getting up from his spot. It was like he was walking towards a wounded animal. He was slow as he kept his hands in sight. 

         "Don't make me manhandle you. You have a head injury Margaret." He warned. I wasn't sure if I'd have Felix's help on this. He might find this entertaining. I grab the lamp from the table and toss it at him before running for the dining room. He grabbed the lamp out of the air and set it down then chased after me. Before I knew it he picked me up over his shoulder. I wiggled and kicked as hard as I could. The front door opened as he carried me back to the living room. A soaking wet Jason was standing in the foyer. He took off his mask and watched the show. 

      "She needed stitches?"

      "Yep." Dick said as we passed him. 

       "Just let her head be split open if she doesn't want to be patched up. Maybe that will fix her imaginary freak problem."

       "Real mature Jason. If you're not going to help, just go to your room." Dick said as he put me down on the towel covered sofa. I tried to turn on my back to stop him from touching my head. He kept me on my stomach and grabbed my arms and pushed them under me pinning them down. "Please Margaret just calm down! I don't like this either!" I panted as he spoke. I didn't have nearly the stamina he did. 

        "It's going to hurt!" I cry out as tears roll down my face. 

         "It's alright. It won't be bad, You're tough." His tone was much softer now.  He kept me down on the sofa with one hand while he reached for the kit with the other. Jason walked over and handed it to him. 

          "Here trade me spots so she can lay her head down." Jason suggested. They switch around. Dick kneeled on the ground with the kit as Jason held me down and turned my head to the side to give Dick as much room as possible. I didn't really fight too hard knowing it was useless. 

           "He's lucky there is a needle so close to your skull right now. As soon as he lets go I'm going to hit him for you." I knew it wasn't for me. Felix just wanted to hit Jason for earlier.

          "No Felix don't." I sobbed out. 

          "It's okay." Dick said softly. I felt a pinch then a burning on the back of my head. "There That's all it was. You won't even feel the stitches. Can Jason go get changed now?" Dick asked as he fiddled with something in the kit. I nod as Jason takes his hand off my back. 

            "Kids man, I don't understand why Bru-" he was interrupted by what can only assume was Felix hitting him. "You want round two you creepy little-" 

         "Jay, just go upstairs please." 

         "Yeah Felix, just leave him alone." I add, this was bad enough without people fighting. Once the room was empty Dick touched around the gash. 

         "Can you feel this?" 

         "No but I can hear it." He laughed 

           "Yeah I know what you mean. Alright, just try to relax, it shouldn't take too many stitches." He paused. as I hear the sound of paper and gloves rustling. "I'm sorry I had to do that but you couldn't just walk around with a hole in your head. I don't ever want to be that guy but I was worried." 

        "I'm sorry for running. And about the lamp."

        "Hey it was a good distraction you just didn't throw it hard enough. You're pretty quick. And hard to predict." I smile thinking it was funny he was complimenting me on my ability to get away from him. "Just don't do something like that to Jason. He's not as patient, or gentle." Dick really wasn't a bad guy, not at all. He just wants people to trust him Most of all Bruce. 

      "Are you almost done?"  

      "Kinda. Why don't we talk about something else. Felix is really tall, I kinda figured he was your age." 

     "No, he's always been an adult."

     "Is he a ghost?" I let out a chuckle. 

     "Don't be silly, ghosts aren't real. He's just my imaginary friend. He's always been there."

     "I get that but I had an imaginary friend growing up and he never could do what Felix does, mine wouldn't even talk to me. You have to realize that he's not a normal imaginary friend" I could feel Felix closing In on the conversation. He wasn't liking it.

      "Tell this pretty boy to mind his own business. He's a loser, that's why his imaginary friend never talked back."

       "No I know but he is just Felix I can't explain him. It's like trying to explain why the wind blows."

       "Actually we know why the wind blows and I hope one day we can find out why Felix is here. To help him and you. Alrighty we are done. Don't ever shave your head because that's definitely gonna leave a scar." Dick said as he helped me sit up. I was proud Felix didn't attack him for asking so many questions. 

         "Thanks Dick." I say as I dry up the last of my tears. 

         "Don't worry about it kid. I'm gonna go soak your suit so it doesn't get blood stains." He said as he ruffled my hair like Bruce does. He walked off and only Felix and I were left. 

         "So what's the deal you weren't answering me back there with Joker." I touched the back of my head softly trying to feel the stitches. 

         "You were the one laughing. You weren't asking me anything." 

        "Margaret I wasn't laughing, I was screaming at you." I got chills just thinking about the idea that something could prevent me from hearing Felix like that and why did I hear laughing. He hates being ignored. No telling what he might do if he feels ignored. 

         "I don't know but I do know I'm never going out with them again. I haven't been so scared in a long time. I hate clowns." 

        "I went to bed that morning wondering what happened with Felix, why couldn't I hear him and why was he so big all of a sudden. Was I getting smaller? No Dick thought he was really big too. Maybe I should keep track of his height. Like a growth chart or something. What was making him grow? Was he taking something from me? Feeding off me somehow.

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Wait a damn min…. I new to your blog, have read through all your work (fucking unreal btw, it’s beautiful. I need to go re read it all and start reblogging everything. Have to come back some other time and praise you more) and when I was reading you Din story and you were describing medical things I was like… wow, I’m a newly graduate doctor and I was surprised, like WOW this girl did her research. But wait, cause after I read that last ask you answered… you are a doctor??? Or nurse?? Or student?? That’s so cool dudeeeee

Hahaha yeah no I specifically make readers have a medical background because it means I do NOT have to do research. write what you know and all that jazz lol. It's just me being lazy.

AND HEY! Newly grad! As in from med school or residency?? Are you about to be a brand new baby intern on July 1st? B/c if so I wish you all the luck in the world my friend. I'm about to be a PGY III so I'm jaded and bitter to the world lolol. What specialty are you in?? (You don't have to answer I'm just nosy🤷🏻‍♀️)

But thanks so much!! I'm so glad you've been enjoying my work enough to leave me such kind words😌 And yes feel free to come back, read, and leave me more kind words I am always a slut for praise💁🏻‍♀️✨

ALSO ANNOUNCEMENT OVERALL TO ANYONE WHO SEES THIS POST:

I did do some writing today! Granted it was not for what I thought it'd be for, but come tomorrow I will be updating the third part of the Cyar'ika!Reader series with Dark!Din🤡 It only took me twelve years to get around to it.