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One of my favorite things that happened during my last mage Hawke playthrough was during the final battle against Meredith. Everything's going well. We're kicking her ass, she's got just this much health left, we're so close... but then everyone gets stunned dizzy.
Hawke is stumbling around all confused, seeing stars. The rest of his companions are stunned. I'm annoyed because I just want to end this fight. Don't know how or who did it, probably Meredith, but the situation's dire.
Meredith's standing by herself at the center of the Gallows, shouting nonsense and smugly believing the Maker's going to come down and make her his new bride after she murdered a bunch of innocent people.
Truly, this is the part of the story where Varric says they all thought hope was lost, that in the end, Meredith would pull a fast one on us and claim victory...
Until the REAL hero of dragon age 2 comes storming at her. I don't know why Carver was the only one to not be affected, but he literally jumped out of no where and just started bashing Meredith with his sword while everyone else was too dizzy to do anything until she was dead and the cutscene played.
"Hawke defeated Meredith-" LIES, VARRIC. I know the truth! I was there! Hawke didn't do shit! Carver Hawke was the main character all along! He got shit done and Varric gave Hawke all the credit!
I bring this up because last night I finished my warrior Hawke run and when we got to the fight with Meredith, I kind of hoped the same thing would happen where Bethany dashed in all heroic and got the killing blow on Meredith.
She did not.
She got squished by a statue.
But it's fine, Bethany Hawke was the true main character in my heart.
#da2#dragon age 2#carver hawke#bethany hawke#da2 hawke#varric tethras#da2 meredith#listen i have so much love for the hawke twins they are the main characters in my heart like yes fine hawke you're there too#but THE TWINS aaaaaaaauughghghghhhhhh#seriously though i'll never forget being annoyed that ed was bumbling around and then watching carver be the only one unaffected#and he's the only one beating meredith and tbh i was cheering him on yes baby brother get her show her how you do it back in fereldan#honestly doesn't it figure though? carver would be the one to deliver the final blow and then be completely overshadowed#because varric has such a hard on for hawke BUT I KNOW THE TRUTH#and it's the same with bethany like this entire run i was so invested in her and i wanted her to set meredith on fire#though this time the fight was actually super easy because i was way more prepared and at a higher level so hawke never got stunned?#i dunno but i wasn't keeping track of bethany during the battle and somehow she did die once... but it's fine she got better#siiiiiigh.... do you know how much i want a playthrough with just the twins? so badly like listen hawke you're neat#but maybe this time you could let the ogre eat you instead? just this once? i love both of my hawkes but the twins??#hawke twins hawke twins haWKE TWINS HAWKE TWINS#i guess i have to settle for au crafting and fanfic...
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#ok .. the appt wasnt as bad as i feared. and the therapist wasnt at all as i had imagined#he was actually one of the more easy ones within the psychiatric dept i've talked to#it was still a bit uncomfortable for me to open up esp when i got certain feelings...#but... what actually was good is that when i did that he pushed just a tiny bit and remarked on it and asked my further#(which works bc he also accepted when i just didnt know what to say or didnt wanna talk abt smth)#it took 2hrs omg.. but felt like 20 minutes.#i could notice that he actually is specialized on personality disorders lol. like he actually got what i said etc (which most havent)#so yeah. not as bad as i feared at all. he was quite good to talk with. this appt didnt feel at all as bad as i thought it would#but ofc he couldnt decide immediately if they'll take me on as a patient. bc they gotta have the required team meeting and discuss etc etc#he did say that he thinks my personality disorder is definitely causing me issues and that even if they dont take me on as a patient i#still need help. so that's just nice to hear#even if bc of cutbacks and such i know that the chances of me actually getting help are slim :(#IF i do tho i wont squander it#anyway it's just nice now bc i was SO tense and stressed and scared but it went absolutely fine#and now i'll just wait until they get back to me. and i dont have any expectations or hopes that they'll accept me as a patient.#so if they dont - as i expected. if they do - nice surprise and actually a real chance for me to get help#for today i feel ok about it phew#i cant help but be anxious abt how at the end he asked me for feedback akskskskks and i was like umm i dunno...#bc it's difficult for me to talk abt a person to that person T-T#but really i wanted to saythat i thought it was really good that he sometimes asked me if he understood smth i said correctly#and explained how he interpreted smth i said. & when i was like oh idk how to explain it idk if this makes sense. he would tell me if he#didnt understand exactly but know where i was going w it etc etc. which honestly most of the therapists i've talked to have not done that#so ughh now im like.. he's one of the few ones who does that i want him to know thats a good thing why didnt i say this T-T noooooo. regret.#oh well....
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Markus Blake - Lionguard, ranger Tae Nari - Kestrel, bladesworn Hel Friasdottir Ravenlost - Ex-Archon of the Priory, scourge Hagan Wesson - Vigil Lieutenant, specter Ethanryel - Grace of Aurene, elementalist Maeveryl - Dragon's Watch member (Adamas's partner), berserker Lenorey - (Ex)Aetherblade, harbinger
My human, norn and sylvari (in-game) OCs for the easy oc-tober challenge (20 out of 31)! Oh the struggle of drawing humanoids, but I'm not that unhappy with the small steps of improvement I made (and I can always come back and improve)!
Quick trivia for all:
- Markus's family (father's side) has a history of being high-ranking members of the Lionguard, going back to his great-grandmother, who was the daughter of a member of Cobiah Marriner's crew and became one of his most trusted Lionguard Captains.
- Nari's mother was mixed Luxon-Kurzick who grew up with the Kestrels, while her father came from a pure Canthan family of Ministry workers. Their romance was worthy of the best holodramas, yet her untimely death led to her father taking advantage of his family's connections to bring Nari back to the safety of New Kaineng. Nari's heart remained in the Echovald forest with the Tengu and Kestrels, and she returned as soon as she was old enough, visiting her father whenever it was safe for her to do so.
- Hel's necromantic magic is extremely powerful, allowing her to commune with undead creatures. Discovered almost by accident during the Orr campaign when she managed to stop a Risen from attacking for a short time, she was later able to tame a Risen Chicken (named Chicky and entrusted to the Priory's menagerie afterwards). At first it took a lot out of her, but during her time in Elona she got to practice that power often in order to temporarily render Awakened harmless by interfering with Joko's hold on them, and during IBS she managed to hold down a Boneskinner.
- Hagan is unsettlingly quiet for a norn his size, moving so silently he often scares people with his sudden appearances. It came in really handy for both hunting and his years in the Vigil, and he jokes that it must have been a blessing from Snow Leopard.
- Ethanryel's crystalline growths change their subtle coloration depending on the attunement of their magic.
- Maeveryl has a scar on the right side of their face since the campaign in Orr, when second-hand flames of the Searing Cauldron scorched them during a fight, one they could have avoided if they hadn't underestimated their berserk state. The scar fades out over the years, but it still glows faintly.
- Lenorey's body produces a weird mix of chemicals that functions as powerful antitoxins, which allow her to consume pretty much anything. That said, those toxins still have a range of effects on her, and she's pretty much saturated with them, so... to put it bluntly, her normal state of being is a constant bender.
#oc-tober#gw2 ocs#gw2 art#easy oc-tober#sylvari#norn#gw2 human#my art#Markus Blake#Nari#Hel Ravenlost#Hagan#Ethanryel#Maeveryl#Lenorey#I didn't forget Eurys but I wasn't sure on a thing of her design so I skipped her ;;#designs are not final and at random points in time. WHICH IS FINE. they don't have to be perfect on the first try ffs#no colors because I'm sick and busy as heck#Mae ILU but your fungus head is still a mystery to me and I'll have to settle on a shape for it T_T
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I'm the wife in my marriage.
It's funny to me anyway. Funny to me because my wife is the very picture of femininity, loving, caring, sexy, pretty, beautiful wife, loving and adored by all her children. And a satisfied and hot for her husband.
But to me she is beautiful and terrible as the Dawn! Treacherous as the Seas! Stronger than the foundations of the Earth! All shall love her and despair!
And yet she chose me.
So to all the hella ladies who rejected my advances? Y'all missed out. Because she saw in me what way too many people couldn't. And sometimes still can't.
And she wants to run my life. And the lives of our whole family. And we all kinda love it. Mostly. But it ain't worth the headache or heartache of fighting her on anything. She's Daddy's little princess and her mother is the loving matron and queen bitch of the family and we all stay in line. Mostly. I love to do my own thing too much for my own good. But it keeps our fights about stupid stuff instead of my weed use again.
(I'm dead ass functional and present from 6am on till I finally get my insomniac ass too sleep while high just to escape the constant anxiety about my sick daughter's upcoming surgery, my dying suegro, my mourning wife, disturbed autistic son, special needs princess Daddy's girl I'm spoiling her to death to make her just as powerful and ungovernable mother and it's working too well already. Have you ever negotiated with a hostile bitchy entitled as fuck child? )
Anyway, you wouldn't know it looking at me or talking normal chitchat, but I'm pretty fucking manly. In the way my culture defines manliness. I'm not very masculine. But I'm very manly.
I'm feminine as fuck in my household. I mother the kids, help their emotional development, work on my wife's emotional and mental well-being, and I'm the one never in the mood for sex. And I do every single thing she says. And then she does the discipline and management of the family's affairs. And she's the one who has to seduce me. Did I mention she was sexy as fuck? (While I'm awkward as fuck every time we even roleplay.) And a horny Latina. (That's why these horny sexy, nice, Latinos are taking over. It's natural selection. The Whites just can't compete and as usual are getting their panties in a twist over not being able to compete even with everything in their favor to out reproduce them all but it was too many kids for a nuclear family to handle Whites.) So beautiful hot queen sexy as fuck Latina seduces me every night. #blessed. So fuck yeah I don't wanna fuck up this arrangement. So I do everything she tells me to and treat her real good and let her win every argument and over apologize. Except when I make a rare exception to make a stand in something important or just to make some trouble and have some fun.
Oh yeah. She's a clean freak 😮💨 But she's an impatient Latina housewife perfectionist clean freak. So she gets mad at my perfectly good job when company isn't ever coming job and tells me to stop even trying to clean. Go play Minecraft with your daughter to keep her occupied.🤣
I have the best living situation ever. I'll be your bitch my bitchy highness. Just please keep playing with my hair on your lap. Oh, and that sucking my dick the way you do and being right 95% of the time on judgement calls.
So yeah I'm the wife.
And I got a pretty good life.
#and know you know the rest of the story#when i was s younger man i had a good paying job at a factory plant as a temp worker#i liked this job#and it was easy clean indoor temp controlled light labor with a jovial#kindly and generally loving crowd of people all just trying to earn a living in this shit economy#and care for each get along with each other#it was a really nice atmosphere. there was only a little manager taking advantage of a woman's situation to force a relationship.#but she was petty please about the whole arrangement because she was lonely and he was kind and likable and#good looking younger guy#and it made her job impossible to get the boot#even as it got easier to boot#anyways i worked my ass off and just tried to get along with the boss#and it paid great#We could have been poor and happy working jobs like that for life if i really had to got some reason#but anyways this bossman manager sees me sweeping my ass off a clean floor and instead of telling me to go lean on a post for a bit#tells me I'm doing a good job#and that I'll make a someone s fine wife someday#i wanted to slap that smug mother fucker up there head w my broom. But i was laughing to hard at that fuckers joke because i liked the guy.#and i liked my job#anyway#here i am being a good little wife#and I'm living the life of Reilly doing it#i don't know the etymology of that phrase is. only my Dad says it in my experience#it might be good own little creation.#you're welcome#And the mother fucker just let me keep sweeping my dumbass all over a clean floor!#Union strong
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NOOOO I JUST FOUND OUT THAT ID5 ASSIGNED EVERYONE ACTUAL FAVORITE COLORS....... my colors for coffeeshop au are all wrooong
#i am not changing them at this point. i'm not. i'm not. i'm not ./ i'm not. i'm NOT going to that would be ridiculous#at myself i am NOT CHANGIGN THEM!!!!!#IT'S TOO LATE! TO CHANGE THEM! I ALREADY POSTED THEM ALL#gghgjfhgfhjkhfld#i'm just mad bc this means i want to change my Default Assigned Colors overall#which is fine and easy#but i don't want my coffeeshop au colors to not match the Assigned Colors or else i'll get mad every time i draw them in the future#>:|#isat#thoughts#it would be easy to swap mirabelle to pink and then i can give her light blue to bonnie#and then i can give bonnie's green to odile#which leaves more space in the color wheel for mira's new pink#but if isabeau is yellow then what is loop??? loop has to be yellow!!#i guess they could be orange but then i'd have to change euphie too and i really liker her as orange#i guess loop could be red?? but i hate red personally and it would clash soo bad with siffrin's indigo#>:| >:| >:|#hm... euphie could be more of purple-pink.. since mira's a warm pink...?#hmmmmmmmm
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doodlesssss
scriabin belongs to zarla-s
edgar belongs to jhonen vasquez
#sunny's art#vargas#vargas zarla#edgar vargas#scriabin vargas#scriabin#i wanted to draw scri with short hair because i love this hair lenght on him#he looks so gooddddd#oh man i'd give ANYTHING to look like this guy#we kinda have the same haircut C:#i used some pinterest bases to see if i could draw anything that i liked#i'm still blocked#like i still have a bunch of ideas but half of them are videos/tiktoks and the rest are way too hard#so i've been drawing a bunch of shitpost lately because it's fun#and easy#maybe when i have enough of them i'll post them here#speaking of tiktok#i have an account to post vargas stuff now. you should definetly check it out#just search @.igtky and it should appear :)#god these guys are so gay#i did these a while ago but#i kinda forgot that i made this account on the first place to actually feel comfortable posting stuff#unlike. twitter#i wanted this account to feel like a safe space (it's not working)#imma vent a bit so if you don't want to read these it's fine#for some reason posting on twitter makes me feel extremely anxious#that's why i post 90% of my stuff on my circle#i'm going back to school like in 10 days :C#it's been two months already and i haven't done ANYTHING#i wasn't expecting to be this depressed i can't believe this
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have been dyeing and spinning for long enough now that as i'm sorting through my stash i keep finding bits of unlabelled wool that i am 100% certain i dyed myself but i have no memory of doing so and i have to go back through my old dye notebooks to figure out what breed of fleece it is
#opens a box full of dyed fleece i totally forgot about and it feels like christmas morning#unfortunately past me dyed stuff magenta/pink all the time for no reason and thats not a colour i actually use much#so ill have to overdye and/or blend a lot of this with other fibre to get colours i'll use but its fine#i didnt even use that colour much 4-5 yrs ago either i think it was just easy to achieve w what i had
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Alright, I've been mulling on this for most of the day, and unless a night's sleep changes my mind, I'll be working on returning (remaking) a very old multimuse of mine, that used to be over at iniziare. The blog will be entirely remade, and I'll post it here when it's done!
For those wondering, it will for now house: Guizhong, Yelan, Kafka and Arlecchino. Time to finish up that other WIP theme for this, I suppose! See you guys on the flip-side of this brighter future.
#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.#[ honestly-- it's just a wiser choice for me. i don't know why i didn't make it sooner. i ran a multimuse successfully for /years/ before.#[ i'm immensely organized to a point where a multimuse is perfectly easy to handle. and i'll return to my theme maker roots soon. ]#[ and add extra organization when i've found my apartment and everything and can spend the time on making something perfect... ]#[ for how i operate. but that'll be the future. i can work with something simpler in the meantime. ]#[ outside of that-- i think preconceived notions of multis are in the past and if they're not; i've never let that stop me. ]#[ i also will feel like i'm not leaving muses behind as much. i hate not logging onto the other blogs. i truly do. i hate it. ]#[ i feel like i'm neglecting them while i'm not. but this way i'll have them all grouped up. all together in one place. actively /there/. ]#[ and that makes me much happier. ]#[ and also; i tag so thoroughly for each muse that people can easily blacklist those they don't like to see. ]#[ but also i'm so picky with new muses; it'll be fine. ]
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I'm so Sorry Y'all
I was just so hungry for a breadcrumb
#rwby#viz out here announcing every media project they have under the sun but rwby this morning#its cool its fine take overs take time i get it#I just wanted like the tiniest tidbit of information#We just got the music back I'll be grateful for that#Saw it on Reddit and got excited and jumped the gun#also I don't have access to twitter in general so reading rwbys official account not a thing i can do easy#sorry again guys
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hey hi hello good morning um i just got woken up with the knowledge of my bank account being way in the negatives because a bill came in later than it should have and i am not taking it well
i started a new job last week and im not getting my first check until later this week, and theyre mailing it to me so it may come even later. my phone bill needs to be paid (its $54 and i need my phone turned back on just in case my job tries to call me, i dont want to get fired/suspended over this) and of course my fridge is looking empty at the worst time too (literally any amount helps, i just need basic food to last for the next week. im running low on struggle meal ingredients 😅)
im transmasc and queer and i have no family or support system to fall back on, i would take on more commissions but my queue is very full and i want to make a dent in it before i open up again, plus its hard to be creative in a situation like this... i cant afford burnout right now
im so close to being back on my feet, this is my last roadblock and its coming at the worst time. as soon as things get steady with work things will be back to normal!!!
please please please dont feel obligated to help, only if you can afford to do so, otherwise id appreciate reblogs! i know we're all struggling right now, even just visibility helps
paypal.me/bewearrr
ko-fi.com/shadyhouse
venmo: tobias_leviathan
thank you for reading this far if you did, hopefully this will be the last time ever i need to make a post like this... 😭 i cant afford to lose my job and im hungry dude!!!!!! its pride month i shouldnt be living like this!!!!!!
#i woke up to go to the bathroom and checked my phone and saw that email and like#god i do not want to make another post like this im so fucking mad at myself#like things will get better i have a job now but fuuuuuuuuccccckkkkkkk its really hard out here#yesterday night i had like $48 in my bank account and i was like 'this is fine i'll just start a basic ych tomorrow :)'#and then today began :') of course its ALWAYS something. i really thought life would go easy on me for one month huh
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Well, I'm fed up with not being able to draw a decent picture of my MC 😫🤧
So this time I made my second MC: Warren 💛 (I also made his student ID card)
It took me 7 to 8 hours to do it (including 3 and a half hours just to do his face)
A really old-fashioned drawing, just like in 2016 when I started drawing realistically on a whim 😁 (I even reused techniques from back then when I didn't have any materials haha)
Well, I've had a bit of trouble with monochrome since I tried colour but... It's a bit like Proust's Madelaine to get back to basics 🥰
Well I'm a fraud, I shifted the outlines 🙏🏻😔 (I was already doing this in 2016 and unfortunately I've kept this bad habit.... At the same time I have trouble drawing, I'm just good at "colouring"... Anyway you can see what I've transferred to the image on the left below)
#And of course it's when I've finished that I notice I've made one eye bigger than the other.#That's all I can see now 😭#And then I cried for a good 3 minutes out of sheer nerves 🤡#I thought I'd have a hard time with his scar ut in the end it was fine#On the other hand in 8 years I still don't know how to do eyes properly... And so the hairs (more easy in color though)#It was a good reminder of my high school days and my first realistic drawings!#I've got a Tumblr draft with some of my old drawings especially those from when I was 16 (but I don't think I'll post it).#hogwarts legacy#drawing#art#hogwarts legacy mc
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speaking of ocd, I think I'm realizing that I truly don't have anxiety and it's literally just my ocd. im not anxious about anything until it involves me and suddenly I'm spiraling
#[static]#it's hard to describe succinctly but the anxiety I deal with nowadays is directly related to my ocd and autism#some anxiety is so easy to brush off but the ones stemming from my ocd are extremely difficult to get out from under#i'll spiral for weeks about one specific thing and ruminate on it and mentally worry and pick at it forever#it's utterly exhausting jfkdghdf some days are easier than others#and often that one thing I ruminate on becomes multiple things all stemming from the first thing#like recently it's been my car ... the thing is totally fine ... runs fine drives fine but ive been freaked out by it for the last 3 weeks#every time i go into the shop theyre like ... everything is good in fact its in good condition for its age and they'll mention like#one thing that will need to be replaced to keep it in tip top condition and then my brain will fixate on it and imagine all the ways#something horrific will happen if that doesnt get changed and then that leads to all the other things in the car suddenly freaking me out#i defs used to have general anxiety and depression but those went away literally the day i got top surgery#poof instantly gone it was wild and i kept waiting for the other shoe to drop#never did but now my ocd has been really bad the last 6 months cuz of all the extra horrifying things going on#so i thought it was just my anxiety coming back but this week i realized it was my ocd and have been treating it accordingly#and ive seen some relief but i definitely need to go back to therapy once i get my insurance again#its the only way to get a hold on it and my last therapist ended up moving states so we didnt get to work on tools for it very much#im yapping at this point i just needed to vent for a second about how truly yucky ocd makes me feel
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Rain Code Alternative Scenario Post Chapter 2:
So, what if Yuma became very ill after Makoto saved him from drowning in the river? Kanai's waters are very polluted, so that cannot be healthy to almost drown in. His body's already pretty frail so... this would really do him in.
The bacteria from the polluted water he may have accidentally swallowed from drowning would be thrashing in his system causing him to be rendered weak and completely helpless. Burning up with a high fever from both the bacteria, and from being wet and cold.
Makoto rescues him and puts him to rest in his room with whatever he could use to stabilize his ailing guest, AKA he "reluctantly" dries him off then places a wet cool cloth on his forehead then dips. Then he immediately calls for any sort of doctor in Kanai Ward. With him being Amaterasu's CEO, he probably has the connections, as well as the money that comes with it.
After all; He could not let him die like this...not while Yomi was still in the way.
Just a little quickie edit I thought of doing after finishing replaying Chapter 2 (and taking some screenies at the end) this game needs to stop giving me all this whumping bait frfr
Credit for the idea from this ask c:
#whumpcode#master detective archives: rain code#master detective archives spoilers#mdarc#yuma kokohead#makoto kagutsuchi#rain code#my edit#pixeledits#illness#fever#sicknario#makoto would probably do VERY little to take care of yuma#he'd just put the towel on his head then leave to have the doctors deal with him later lmao#he's thinking maybe its okay if he dies#but then he's like “wait no yomi is still a thorn in my side”#“okay fine I'll save you”#illness whump#whump edit#fever whump#sick whump#master detective archives: rain code spoilers#rain code spoilers#this is the last edit I do for a little bit#I just had to do it after seeing this scene#it was too easy he already looked uncomfortable xD#I wish I knew what font that this game uses... x-x; I tried to find one close enough to it.#sick edit#fever edit
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being homesick and changing as a person so much the place you grew up in isn't your home anymore is such a core part of ati and upon further inspection i think i was projecting a little
#like yea that is a very common basic thing that happens to a lot if not most adults#but also i think i get homesick a bit too easy#when i moved away from home i moved to the closest big city that's only an hour away and i was already deeply familiar with it#but i was so sad despite knowing i personally could never thrive in my hometown#i wanted to experience the big city but it was so scary and it still is and i miss the comforts of my hometown but it's not just me that#has changed#dont get me wrong i wouldnt move back bc i have hobbies and friends and a job and most likely a career in the city i live in#and this truly is a place i don't think i could ever move away from. unless it is to a neighboring city#it's so hard for me to imagine there are people who move not just across the country but a completely different country and they just. adap#i could never. i was visiting my hometown every week for like the first year i lived here#i eventually want to move to a bigger apartment and ive been looking at places already even tho i need to graduate before doing that#and i'm. getting homesick just thinking about moving to a different part of the city.#i like the area i live in. i like the cornerstore and the distance to the closest grocery stores and parks#i like how my grandma used to live in this area when she was around my age#i'm not good with change and i know it but there are several things about moving that make me miserable#like yeah obviously i will move out from my single bedroom apartment when i can and i'll be so happy and it'll be good for me#but despite having lived here for only a bit more than 4 years i'll miss this apartment. i have so many good memories from here and i'll#never be able to visit it again and have it feel the same#but that's the least sad thing imo. i dread being in a different area more lmao#but it's fine i know i'll adapt as long as i don't have to move to a different city ever again gfsahgak#idk ive had a long day and im feeling a bit melancholic#i'll sleep in tomorrow >:3c#leevi talks
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AKHDMCUKSNDM Hours after essentially giving up on getting an education job I got an email back for a position I applied to literally yesterday?? which would be an after school teacher at a private school in the richy rich part of town which is actually so so funny to me but well. it's a job
#I was honestly like this private school isn't gonna get back to me but they replied less than 24 hours later LMAO#it's not exactly what I'd ideally be looking for but hey after school positions are pretty easy work#and more working w kids experience I can put on my resume#and allows enough free time to like. have energy and also volunteer somewhere that doing what I actually want to go into#so if they Do end up offering me a job it wouldn't be disappointing by any means#the idea of me working at a private school is sort of hilarious tho#I'll have to ask if body mods are okay 😭#I'm sure it'll be fine because I live in a city where everyone has dyed hair and nose piercings#and it's not like a Franchise#but ya always gotta ask#ghost posts#text
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look at me, listen to me, trust me:
as somebody who is currently living through the worst trauma and depression of my life, i gotta tell you:
you cannot live on coffee
coffee cannot be your replacement for sleep or nutrients. it will become less effective over time and mess up your endocrine system (the system responsible for hormone and sleep regulation). your stress and anxiety will increase and you may put your heart and kidneys at risk. you also might shit yourself sometimes
this may all seem very obvious but its possible to be in the mindset where Living On Coffee makes sense to you
what i'm saying is coming from a place of experience. and love. you cannot live on energy replacements. no matter how tasty
eat veggies. drink water. sleep. you can do other things, you can indulge, i promise! just please, do basic self care too
#same applies to colas and energy drinks. except those are worse for you#colas are worse for your teeth and energy drinks are worse for your heart#in fact you might get a heart attack#yeah a few years ago i cut back on coffee because i was getting heart pain#but in the last five months i developed a dependence on pepsi and coke and coffee for energy#and in the last couple weeks the coffee thing got worse#and i reached a point where i wasnt even getting energy or even happiness from it anymore#plus my heart was hurting#so im taking a stand. im taking better care of my health. in general#fruits! veggies! showering more! water!#etc and so forth. and no more coffee until i can be trusted to be responsible with it#if it sounds like im describing drug addiction. then yeah#this behaved like text book drug addiction. even down to being induced by trauma#and me thinking about my next ''fix''' the second i was done with one. no good#except! coffee is waaaay easier to give up. i have painkillers for the headaches. i'll be fine#i've also been eating like shit too. because sad. but i bought healthier and easy to prepare foods#because the human body cannot live on maccas alone. it just can't. i've been having a Bad Time#everything will get a little better over time
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