#i have faith in you my dearest creation

[okerum]

welcome to hell 2 was NOT on my 2024 bingo but i am not complaining

[yuurivoice]

We've hit the stage of Echoes of Evalas' creation that I'm spending a lot of my quiet time with scenes and characters, including time that is usually occupied by...well, nothing creative. At least, it hasn't been creative time in a long while.

Some of the dearest and most important moments of my young creative daydreaming was before bed. If I might overshare, it was specifically as I lay in bed and tried to drown out unpleasantness I'd hear from other rooms of the house. I'll spare you the details.

I didn't even have music at the time, though in later years as I became a depressed teen, I'd throw some music on my computer to fantasize and fall asleep to.

Oftentimes, these stories and characters I'd contemplate were favorites from various things I enjoyed. In time they'd adapt and evolve into something of my own, in worlds and stories of my own making.

Sometimes it wasn't so grand. There were no sweeping narratives or adventures. Just some self insert character being comforted by a friend or a lover.

Recent nights, I've thrown on my EoE playlist and let my mind wander. I haven't really done that in a long time. Haven't had the need to these days. I'm not running from much. Life is quiet. But as I start to turn over more stones and find what's beneath some of the characters and themes I'm exploring, I've found myself here again.

I don't know if anyone will love what I am making, and I never have. Every person who has let my characters and stories into their hearts means a whole lot to me, though. I've not forgotten when all of this was nothing more than a comfort to myself to soothe away all my fear and loneliness.

As it all starts to come together I'm seeing a stark difference between where I am at as a writer and creative in general in comparison to BitterSweet Chapter 1, as I've revisited it recently.

The pieces were there but it's so clear to me that I didn't have the conviction that I do now. I didn't have the comfort or security of knowing that I can take chances and be bold. I thought I had to color within the lines, and lacked the confidence to really let it rip.

So as much as I've been looking forward, I've also looked back. Further back than I typically like to.

When Charlie said he never thought he'd be this old, that was real shit man. I was a morbid kid. I have a crystal clear memory of being on a school bus in Washington state. Blink 182 just dropped an album. I hate Blink 182, but I listened with a friend whose face I can barely remember. As the high schoolers got on the bus I remember thinking...damn, I'll never be that old.

Not sure what could possess a child to feel that way. Or how that feeling could linger for years. It took a long time to find enough faith in myself to live. Now that I've got it, I think I'm encouraged to give breath to those lost dreams and wandering fantasies. Echoes of Evalas is an exploration of that.

I can't even grasp what that really means yet.

Things like faith, anger, insecurity, and longing for change. I've rattled a lot of locked doors while digging up this story and putting it together.

I am uneasy. That's probably how I've ended up writing this essay in bed, and boy is it a rambling one.

There was a point somewhere. I am excited for what's to come, but uneasy. Not out of fear that anyone will like it or content brained thinking like that. More like...a reverence for this magical thing I've found. Storytelling is magical for me. And that's not me waxing poetic, I think there's something terrifying and beautiful about it. It is the thing I was made to do, and the actual experience of crafting a story like this isn't just fun. I'm removing chains from my soul.

If that ain't magic, I don't know what is.

Anywho, I need to sleep. If you read all that, thank you for putting up with my yapping. 💖

[unforgivablego]

I still see people talking about the Season 2 being bad. Sometimes they explain their opinion, and sometimes they get hung up on what happened in the final.

I want to speak out a little about it. “Some dumb theories” time. You can’t stop me, anyway.

Yes, the characters can't come to an agreement again. Yes, Aziraphale still believes that Heaven can be fixed. Yes, Crowley is still in love with him and wants to run away from problems instead of solving them. Yes, they are still the same as they were in the Season 1. Yes, they have learned nothing in 6,000 years. But is it really that bad?

Let's start with the fact that we were warned in advance that there will be no important storylines this season. "Quiet, gentle, romantic" - the style of the Neil for this season. And I don't think it goes against the grain of the first season. Season 1 was about the Apocalypse. Season 1 was about how the characters come to the conclusion that they like the Earth the way it is. Season 1 was about the love of the Earth. It was a journey of 6,000 years. Do you think it taught them anything besides the fact that the Earth is really dear to them?

Please don't forget the fact that Aziraphale is an angel. He may doubt that Heaven is so good, but he will never doubt that God wants the best for everyone. Aziraphale is loyal to God, not to Heaven. When Crowley asks which side he is on, Aziraphale doesn’t answer that he is on the side of Heaven, he replies that he is on the side of God. The decision that Aziraphale makes at the end of the second season is "I never doubted God, I believe that I can change Heaven if my faith is stronger than Heaven itself."

Entire Season 1 was about Aziraphale's belief in a simple thing - God never wishes them all harm, so Aziraphale trusts Him. It was Aziraphale's faith that saved them all from the Apocalypse in the first season. Heaven, Hell, Crowley, Gabriel, Michael, Sandalphon, Uriel, Metatron - the voice of God, they all told him that God wanted this war to happen. But Aziraphale refuses to believe it, he is ready to doubt them all, but not God. God loves his creations. They are His children, they are dearest to Him, and if the Great Plan dictates that all this must be destroyed, then the Great Plan is wrong. Tens of thousands of angels and demons are ready to believe that their Creator created them only to destroy them, but not Aziraphale, no. No matter what, he will never begin to doubt that God loves them more than anything in the world and this war is certainly not what He really wants.

And do you think Aziraphale will lose his faith after the Season 1? No, he will never stop believing. His faith is so great that he is ready to turn a blind eye to all the atrocities that Heaven has arranged for the Earth and which God hasn’t prevented. Aziraphale is the most real Angel of all. This is his essence, this is his curse.

For me, Aziraphale's refusal to run away with Crowley at the end of the second season doesn't go against the idea of ​​his character. What goes against the grain is Crowley's repeated desire to run away. In Season 1, we saw how strongly he was against the Apocalypse. Who persuaded Aziraphale to save the Earth? Not Heaven, not Hell, not God. Crowley! He loves the Earth, he loves Aziraphale, he wants these two things to continue to exist together. He likes life on Earth, life with Aziraphale. He doesn't want to destroy it all. But what do we see in the fourth episode of Season 1? Knowing that there is no way out of the situation, Crowley is ready to leave the Earth - the Earth he loves as much as Aziraphale - and run away from the problem. Only after finding out that Aziraphale is getting involved in the development of the Apocalypse, he rushes to him. Only because his angel is there. Where did his love for people go? Why is he suddenly ready to fly off to Alpha-Centauri and leave everything burning in hellfire?

He has no faith. This is their difference with Aziraphale. The angel believes that there is always a way out, that if the Great Plan is talking nonsense, then this is not God's plan. And he is ready to fight for the Earth, even if for this he has to go against his own. He openly defied Heaven, he openly sent his side and returned to save the Earth and Crowley.

Second. Why, if the Season 1 was filled with action, rush, wars, an abundance of characters and puzzle solutions, then the Season 2 should be the same? Season 2 is not about the Apocalypse. Season 2 is about what happened after it. The characters behave unnaturally precisely because we have only seen their behavior on the brink of War before. In Season 1, their characters were not fully revealed to us, there was almost no emphasis on inner experiences, since the End of the World is right here, there is absolutely no time for this. Season 1 was filled with many storylines and we just didn't get a break between them to consider the nature of the relationship of the main characters.

Neil said that he intentionally inserted a journey through the years into the ep3. Precisely because we wouldn’t understand why the quarrel in the bandstand at the end is so important. Season 1 doesn't let us learn much about the characters. We almost don't see Aziraphale being bastard and Crowley being kind. We don’t see why they are so attached to each other. Season 1 had a clear plot and this plot had to be kept. Season 1 had a rigid framework that the plot couldn’t go beyond. And the abundance of secondary characters didn’t allow to keep track of everything at once.

What happens in the second season? We finally see how the relationship of the main characters looks like. We see their interaction. We can look into the subcortex and read how they feel. Now Crowley's inability to contain his anger is brought to the fore. We see how he runs away from solving difficult problems, we see how he avoids everything that can be simply discarded and forgotten. And by watching how Crowley handles different situations, we can finally understand why Crowley left Aziraphale in the bandstand. We now see him in the full picture, and we can imagine why he was ready to leave the Earth he loved so much and run away with Aziraphale. This is his way of solving problems. He simply avoids them, shifts others well, or decides in the simplest way - gets rid of them, like plants with spots, or how he wanted to get rid of Gabriel in the Season 2.

Aziraphale solves problems. He is ready to sacrifice his time and energy to figure something out and face it face to face, instead of letting everything take its course. He doesn't get rid of defective books, he gives them as much love as he does for everyone. No matter how difficult the task, he is ready to fight. Even if it Hell, Heaven or an amnesiac Archangel. Even if he had to face Satan in combat, he would raise his sword ready to fight for Earth and Crowley. He can pull himself together. He is kind, sometimes naive, but he has faith. He doesn’t believe that someone can be fundamentally bad, he thinks that the right approach can change everything.

Crowley is a perfectionist. He fell because he asked uncomfortable questions - he wasn’t like everyone else. Therefore, plants with spots are an analogy to his life. He believes that they need to be disposed of, as Heaven once got rid of him.

Aziraphale is the opposite. He keeps misspelled Bibles in the shop. He is proud of his collection, he sees nothing wrong with being different from everyone else. This is an analogy to his worldview.

Crowley only has Aziraphale. He was expelled from Heaven, expelled from Hell, he lost his faith and this is justified. I can understand his point of view. I understand why at the end of Season 2 he asks Aziraphale to run away again.

Aziraphale has Crowley. And faith. Knowing what happens in Heaven, when he is offered to change something, he is ready to go for it. But with Crowley. Remember, he refuses the offer until Metatron pressures Aziraphale to bring Crowley back to Heaven with him. Aziraphale wouldn’t leave without Crowley, which would mean that Crowley wouldn’t be safe. But an offer to go back to Heaven with Crowley, where they would be there all the time and he wouldn't have to worry about Crowley being in constant danger? Think about it.

They both ask each other to leave, but cannot understand why each chose their own path. They don't listen to each other. This is their problem. They love the Earth, they love each other, but they don't listen to what they is trying to tell each other.

And both - BOTH - act in the way that is very characteristic of them. Crowley runs away from the problem, and Aziraphale goes to great lengths to solve the problem.

Why is Aziraphale going back to Heaven? We all pay attention to the fact that he doesn't return Crowley's kiss = he rejects Crowley. Nobody rejects anyone! This act of Crowley was quite cruel. It’s like he’s saying, "This is what we could have if you would give up your God." Do you remember that Aziraphale is an angel? For him to refuse God is the same as to fall. If he renounces God, he will no longer be an angel. I don't understand how people still can't understand something as simple as Aziraphale's true faith.

Crowley left him, so he leaves alone. No, let me explain it differently. Crowley really abandoned him and for lack of an alternative, Aziraphael humbled himself and went, where he was pulled harder. In this case, Metetron was just nearby. If Crowley had been in his place - if Crowley had stayed and not left again - Aziraphale would have stayed with him.

Aziraphale loves Crowley and this season we're being revealed more about that because there's time for that. We are not in a hurry. Against the backdrop of the mystery of Gabriel's memory loss, even the threat of Hell and Heaven is no match for the Apocalypse in the Season 1. This season is not about that. He fully justified his main syllable "quiet, gentle and romantic." Despite the dramatic ending and broken hearts, we have atmospheric quiet everyday life, gentle characters with funny stories, and romance that wasn't given much time in Season 1. “Every day it’s getting closer” describes this season perfectly. We have a breather between global events and the opportunity to enjoy our favorite characters that we haven’t seen for a long time. All this against the backdrop of a showdown between Hell and Heaven and funny scenes in which characters are thrown in order to tell as much as possible about them.

The denouement with Gabriel and Beelzebub may have turned out to be strange. But don’t forget that this season is not about them. If Neil wanted to go into more detail about their relationship, he would’ve spent the entire season on it. But we came to see our husbands, didn't we?

Maggie and Nina's love line doesn't seem out of place to me. They played a good role in developing the relationship of our main idiots and lived up to the phrase "romantic" well. Yes, they also didn’t have a good ending, all our expectations that they would become a couple in the end didn’t come true, but this is a human life, as simple as in Season 1 (the love line of Anathema and Newton was simply illogical and very striking , like sand in mouth) it will not be shown again.

We were shown more of Shax's story to get an idea of ​​what would happen to Hell if this character was in charge.

Despite the certainty, we still don't know who Crowley was before the Fall. Here's another mystery for you. We also don’t know what Metatron is up to, although everything is also crystal clear with the Second Coming. Maybe.

For me, the ending was heartbreaking, but quite logical. The characters acted as they normally do, without losing their principles and beliefs. Aziraphale is not the villain in this story. Crowley is not an abandoned puppy suffering from unrequited love. They just have another quarrel, which of course they will resolve and survive, because they simply cannot live without each other. This is not the end of their relationship, this is an occasion to start again. Believe me, all they really ever needed was to talk. Crowley's decision to talk now was just the wrong moment. This doesn’t mean that Aziraphale abandoned him. This means that both of them are simply not ready until they deal with their main problems.

Think how many times before this, Crowley left Aziraphale, and then dramatically drove off into the sunset? How many times did Aziraphale stand and look after him brokenly in the hope of replaying everything? How many more times is Crowley ready to return and Aziraphale to accept him? Believe me, this is not the first time for them, they will cope. We still have a whole Season 3 ahead of us. And they certainly won't end up all apart.

Season 2 is all about Crowley and Aziraphale. Season 2 is about their experiences, petty fights, arguments, romance and the life they both love. Angry that we didn't get a concrete plot in Season 2 just because Season 1 was like that? Well, excuse me, we have here an ordinary sitcom with ordinary, standard human problems. With ups and downs, with partings etc.

Graphics not up to par with Marvel? Well what do you want? This is not a super universe for you with a global audience. I don't think this season is bad. I consider him as much as he can.

So it goes.

Also, I think you need to read this👇🏻

Geniuses among us

[uptoolateart]

Plagg to Tikki: ‘We’ll see each other again. You know that you and I are one.’

I loved this line so much, for so many reasons - too many, really, to sum up in a simple Tumblr post, but I’m gonna try!

Let’s start with the ‘you know that you and I are one’ part. This is clearly a yin-yang thing. Creation and destruction are not separate; they are parts of a whole and cannot exist without each other. They define each other.

The two halves of the yin-yang symbol are often defined as masculine and feminine aspects or energies. Keep in mind this is not the same as male and female bodies; it is something much deeper and more subtle, particularly as both energies are said to be contained and expressed within each and every one of us. ‘Male’ and ‘female’ are merely words commonly used to express such concepts as the active and passive, day and night, the conscious and unconscious, and so forth.

Each half of the yin-yang contains a dot of the 'opposite' colour, to signify that the masculine contains aspects of the feminine, and vice versa. They are not opposites; they complement, contain and need each other to form a whole. The goal in life, according to so many eastern belief systems, not to mention western magical systems including alchemy, is to tap into the yin and yang within the self and achieve a perfect harmonious balance between the two sides. If you’re following my Miraculous tart card paintings, you’ll notice this is a feature of just about every card meaning.

Plagg and Tikki represent these ideas. One cannot exist without the other. How can you create if there is no prior destruction? And what is there to destroy without creation? Therefore, Plagg has this faith that he and Tikki will be reunited because he understands the nature of the universe.

As the embodiment of the power of destruction, Plagg is usually seen as a selfish, apathetic, giant stomach. This makes sense to me, because destruction is a kind of devouring process.

However, in this scene in ‘Deflagration’, he had one of his rare moments of sensitivity, highlighting that yin-yang concept once again. Remember in ‘Dearest Family’ when he said there’s a reason there’s also a kwami of destruction, after Tikki caused so much damage with unchecked creation? Creation is not good and destruction is not bad. It’s all about balance and context.

What was really interesting was that when Monarch got both miraculous in ‘Deflagration’, Plagg was the one with the instant plan. He knew the solution was self-sacrifice - again, you would go there, if you were destruction. And he’s not technically alive, so he can’t truly be annihilated. As long as there is creation, there is destruction. When he cataclysmed the ring, he must have simply returned to his energetic non-personified state.

However, his unhesitating self-sacrifice paralleled all the times Adrien has sacrificed himself. Usually, this has been as Cat Noir, although in ‘Gorizilla’ he made a major leap of faith as Adrien. Plagg’s words to Tikki could have been spoken as Adrien / Cat Noir, expressing that unwavering conviction that  Ladybug will bring him back. Tikki’s worries could have been Ladybug’s.

We are often told Plagg is rubbing off on Adrien, e.g. in ‘Rocketear’. So, it’s tempting to say this is why Cat has these suicidal moments. But as already noted, he made that jump in ‘Gorizilla’ as Adrien. He was clearly chosen for his particular miraculous because he already embodies these qualities in some way. In this world or another, he will gladly go down firmly believing that he and Ladybug will be reunited in some way.

In other words...when Plagg immediately leapt to the self-sacrifice solution...was this an instance of Adrien rubbing off on him, rather than the other way round?

Also - it implies that Adrien and Marinette, or at least their souls or however you want to view this, are truly destined to be together, because they are two halves of a whole, just as their powers are. The red string of fate binds them together.

Not gonna lie - there is so much more I want to say about this, but it all feels like it’s there on the tip of my mind and I’m struggling to find the words for it because it’s so subtle. But there’s my stab in the dark at trying to pin down what I have been thinking of that scene ever since it first aired. It was a beautiful moment amid the chaos.

[kindheart525]

Neither Celestia nor Luna could explain what happened to them during the eclipse. ‘Twas was so sudden, so powerful, and it was over as quickly as it had started. But something had called them, they just knew it. They couldn’t explain the feeling they had gotten but they followed it, soon finding themselves in a clearing a distance away from their hometowns. But there was nothing there to see when they arrived.

“What ho!” Celestia exclaimed upon meeting the unfamiliar pegasus filly. “Art thou lost, young one?”

“Nay,” Luna replied. “A strange magic brought me here. Pray tell, what about thee?”

“I was also drawn by a peculiar magic,” Celestia affirmed. “‘Twas the eclipse, I suppose, but I know not how.”

“I knowest thou not, never in my life hath I met you. Why us, I wonder? And what are we here for?” Luna questioned.

Suddenly, a bright light flashed before the two fillies, nearly blinding them. Once the light died and they regained their vision, they beheld an ethereal white pony standing before them. She was not a pegasus or a unicorn, but both! She was an alicorn!

Celestia immediately recognized the mare from her books and bowed. “The God Mother Gaia! ‘Tis the highest honor to behold thy presence!”

Luna sat in confusion and awe. She had heard about the God Mother, but had hardly believed in her. But now, here she was before her eyes. “Truly, thou art real?”

The mare smiled down at them, a gentle, motherly smile, and said in an utmost soothing voice, “Verily, it is I. But do not bow or stand in awe. Do not worship me as thy God. For behold, I am thy mother. And thou art my daughters.”

Celestia sat up, unable to change her awestruck expression, but Luna only scowled. 

“Nay, that cannot be! For my mother was a wretched harlot named Amaryllis!”

Gaia cocked an irritated eyebrow. “That wretched harlot was me, child.”

Celestia turned to Luna, aghast. “How dare thou disrespect thy God Mother so?”

“Pray thee, Celestia, do not cause thy mother further discomfort,” Gaia reprimanded her.

“My sincerest apologies, my Go—er, my dearest mother,” Celestia blushed in embarrassment.

“But why? Why didst thou abandon me? Why didst thou leave me with such a wretched bastard?” Luna asked.

“I couldst not raise two fillies as the ruler of all creation. I left thy sires to raise thee until the time was right. I tried to choose them with the utmost care, but I chose thine in horrid taste, Luna,” she acknowledged to the scowling filly. “But presently, the time has come, which is why I brought thou here.”

“The eclipse was of thy doing?” Celestia inquired.

“Yea,” Gaia affirmed. “I grew weary of waiting to meet thee, hence I brought thou here myself. For I hath created thee, I hath watched thee grow, and now thou art prepared to take thy rightful place.”

“Rightful place?”

“As the rulers of Equestria. Thou shalt unite the ponies and rule with the grace that this land has long lacked. Celestia, thou shalt rule the sun. And Luna, thou shalt become the steward of the moon and the stars. I have the utmost faith in thou both,” Gaia smiled. “Now pray tell, art thou prepared to ascend?”

“Oh, it would be the greatest honor!” Celestia beamed. 

“As ruler of this land, canst I banish my bastard sire for his crimes?” Luna asked.

Gaia chuckled. “Verily, thou mayest.” 

Luna grinned. “It shall be my first decree!”

“There is much left to learn, my daughters. About thy land and each other, for thou art sisters,” Gaia brought them in for a hug, to their amazement. “I only hope that thou learn to adore each other as I adore thee, for there is no truer love.”

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Previous: Day and Night Next: Memories

Background by adcoon Celestia’s cutie mark by BlackGryph0n

[thestateofardadreaming]

I see a lot of spiritual advice that centers on the concept tha heart is only attached to God, this world won't hurt us and we will be closer to him. In fact, some say that having only God in your heart is a sign of having a strong faith.

I don't understand this concept. As from my perspective, it's impossible to love fellow humans the way we love God. It's just not the same kind of love.

God is the One who has created me. My love for Him will always be beyond my love for His beautiful creation.

But that love doesn't prevent me from loving deeply His creatures. Loving Him doesn't make my parting from them any easier. And parting we must. As this is the difference when we love His creatures (from my dearest violets to my cats snd my loved humans) : one day we will be separated. And it will hurt.

This pain of separation from our loved ones was experienced by our prophets and we especially know about the grief our Beloved last Prophet went through.

Therefore, if you are grieving over the loss of a loved ones : your faith isn't weak. Your heart is in the right place. You are actually following on the footsteps of all the prophets.

We are human... We love, we lose, we feel pain, we feel joy, we love again. Attachment is human too. We are made to get attached to the creatures that make our lives beautiful. Yes, even that stranger in the bus you've never spoken to but whose absence you notice when they aren't on that 16:50 bus.

Getting attached isn't a sin... Now, the lesson is in knowing when to let go and finding peace in God's never failing presence.

Love is a beautiful gift God has given us. It makes life more beautiful and gentle. It always drives us closer to Him, especially when it's time to say goodbye.

[theprayerfulword]

June 5

2 Corinthians 5:17-18 If anyone is in Christ, there is a new creation: everything old has passed away…! 18 All this is from God, Who reconciled us to Himself through Christ, and has given us the ministry of reconciliation.

1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins to Him, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.

Isaiah 53:6 All we like sheep have gone astray; We have turned, every one, to his own way; and the LORD has laid on Him the iniquity of us all.

1 Peter 2:24 who Himself bore our sins in His own body on the tree, that we, having died to sins, might live for righteousness—by whose stripes you were healed.

Ephesians 1:7 In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of His grace

Isaiah 54:10 “For the mountains may be removed and the hills may shake, but My lovingkindness will not be removed from you, and My covenant of peace will not be shaken,” says the LORD Who has compassion on you.

May you see with the eyes of God to understand the purposes behind actions and discern the motivations of choices, lest what seems a simple option to the natural mind bring the chastisement of God against a prideful and arrogant heart. 2 Samuel 24

May the offerings you give to the Lord come from deep in your heart and carry meaning and value, rather than being casual and uncaring in your thoughts and words, for what God has given you is His dearest and best-loved. 2 Samuel 24

May you be willing to give that which you have received from the Lord to those He brings you to, who hunger for and desire after the deep and eternal things of God, the healing of the soul and the confirming of His word by the healing of the body, that all may see and know the truth of the glory of God. Acts 3

May you humbly acknowledge the Source of the blessings which are poured out by the Spirit, reverently pointing others to Jesus, keeping none of the glory and desiring none of the praise, but joining with all to honor the Father for His love toward us. Acts 3

May you daily live in the joy of forgiveness and times of refreshing which come from repentance and the wiping away of your sins, knowing you are in right standing and full fellowship with the Father, communing with the Son, as you are led by the Spirit in the work of the kingdom. Acts 3

My child, will you follow Me? You joyfully answered this question before when I asked it of you, and you left the place you were and the things you were doing when I first approached you. The road we have walked has taken you to unexpected places holding unsuspected surprises, bringing, in their turn, unanticipated sorrows and unimaginable joys. You have grown fit and strong in faith, and you have gained new perspective and greater wisdom in My Word and Spirit. The road turns upward here, My dear one, and the path grows more rugged. More will be required of you. Much of what you have been allowed to carry along the way this far will have to be left by the wayside. Your heart will know greater gain, but your flesh will know greater loss. I extend the same invitation now, offering a higher plane, if you are willing. Will you follow Me?

May you lift up your eyes to the One Whose throne is in heaven as the eyes of a slave looks to the hand of his master till He shows you His mercy for you have endured much contempt and ridicule from the proud and arrogant. Psalm 123

May you be known for the intelligent understanding and prudent discernment which the Lord gives you with pleasant and gracious words that promote instruction and increase learning, as the wise-hearted are known for. Proverbs 16:21

May the Lord give you good sense, prudent insight, knowledgeable discretion and wise understanding which will be a wellspring of life to you and a life-giving fountain to those God wants to bless. Proverbs 16:22

May the Spirit of God renew your mind and the Word of God regenerate your heart to give you wise and prudent speech, filled with grace, which is persuasive and instructive to those who will hear what God has given you. Proverbs 16:23

[lunarcry]

hiii i finally read shitoris fate eps<3 spoilers for those + main story hihi

Shitori: (Still, this is quite nostalgic. When I was little, I snuggled up like this with Mother every day.)

this line knowing in msq mikaboshi opens her arms toward shitori and goes 'hm? when u were a child u would have alrdy been hugging me tho?' im unwell

Shitori: It was an Astral who adopted me, a child without a home or family. Mikaboshi was her name, but to everyone else she was a lunatic driven by hatred and obsessed with revenge. I always thought that if they got to know the motherly side of her, they wouldn't say those things anymore. They couldn't say those things if they learned of the woman that saved and raised me—the only mother I've ever known. The mother that I loved most in the world.

Shitori: But Jayne… Mother isn't crazy like everyone says. She teaches me whatever I want to learn and makes me tasty food and sweets. If I do something bad, she gets mad at me, but if I do something good, she tells me I did a good job.

T_^ shitori.................................the way mika talks about shitori too......of she cared..she cared sm.....but also mika teaching shitori things makes me sooooooooo........mika who showed love to shitori....shitori who showed love to mika.....

Jayne: Be that as it may, you don't know when madness will swallow her completely and drive her to harm others. If that puts your life in danger one day, we would be devastated. And if that were to happen, I don't think we would be the only ones to suffer. She would too, if I'm to believe what you've told me.

Shitori: That's why I'm going to stay with her. If I don't, no one else will when she needs help.

T______T

Shitori: The more I learned to do things on my own, the more Mother devoted her attention to her own developments and experiments. I knew she was modifying her body so she could stand against the power of the Astrals. It was evident in the way her body often violently trembled and her fits of temper as she became increasingly unstable.

Shitori: Mother's mad thirst for vengeance against her fellow Astrals was finally given form through the completion of the Great Wall. I'll never forget the way she looked the day that nightmarish creation was born. It was as if I were gazing at a feral beast. A howling animal that rejoiced in its thirst for blood, devoid of intelligence and reason. The kind mother that I believed in way nowhere to be found, and my faith crumbled to pieces. Seeing the terrifying weapon she had created, the skydwellers deemed Mother a threat and made attempts on her life. They only succeeded in assembling a massive pile of corpses, their power insignificant against the might of an Astral.

mika unreal hours. lokis lines about her when they talk about changing 'The Astral who ruled over the Nalhegrande Skydom was supposed to be a terrifying monster. Not only was she armed with a weapon that didn't rely on primal beasts, but she was also intent on destroying her fellow Astrals. Or so they said.' augh

Jayne: The Torhid Kingdom wishes to prevent further sacrifices and has already pledged their aid. With disputes breaking out between skydwellers and Astrals, the last thing anyone needs is for it to escalate into a large-scale war.

Shitori: Whispers of a potential outbreak of war spread like wildfire. The creation of Mother's weapon only amplified the chaos, and people began to wonder if she would destroy both skydwellers and Astrals alike.

TORHID MENTION !!!!!!! but also torhid...skull emoji. that said mika being there hating other astrals and building the great wall and this fueling the skydwellers fear of a war (that did end up happening)....

Shitori: You know something, Mother? No matter who you become, you'll always be the person I hold dearest. I love you. Even though I'm sure you don't feel the same way. Nothing's more important to you than your revenge—not me, not even yourself…

i dont think i can do this gamers. 'Goodbye, Shitori. No matter what happens, you'll always be my beloved daughter.' (in tears) shitori addresses these feelings later but her feeling that way in that moment when shitori was always important to mikaboshi..T_T

Shitori: Mother raised me. More than that, however, she gave me love when no one else would. Helping with the seal would mean betraying everything that I owed her. But I couldn't continue to turn a blind eye to all the victims of her rage and wait for things to settle. More pressingly, Mother's body was falling apart, and her mind and soul were fracturing as she bathed in more and more blood. I became certain that, sooner rather than later, she would break if something wasn't done.

Shitori: All I could see was her face, moments before the end, seared into my mind. Her eyes filled with hatred, anger, confusion, then despair.

thinks about the scene when the second seal is broken. RAUGH.

Shitori: She proceeded to reveal a bit of her own past to me for the first time. "You reminded me of myself, so I took you in out of pity." That was why she raised me, according to those words. It was painful to hear her admit as much—that there was nothing else binding us together besides sympathy for our shared circumstances. But upon seeing my dejected expression, Mother gave a troubled smile and gently pulled me into a hug. Then she told me, "Shitori, you're my dearest daughter, and I would have no one else but you. I love you."

MOMBOSHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

thinking about playable mika with fate eps that mirrors shitoris makes me dizzy. shitoris 5* is gonna be amazing if its set after act3 too <-no hint of shitori 5* on the horizon

Shitori: I really believed… that nothing mattered to Mother other than her revenge—not me, not even herself. But I couldn't have been more wrong. Do you know how she looked at me, right before the end? Her eyes, filled with despair, screamed "why?". And it finally hit me: I did this! I betrayed her! No matter how she changed, she always thought of me as her daughter until the very end! I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Mother!

Shitori: Still, I resolved to stay by her side, so that at the very least she wouldn't be alone when she woke. That was why I chose to be sealed alongside her.

Shitori: (This might just be me being selfish, but I'd like the chance to apologize directly one day. For now, all I can do is apologize in my head. I'm sorry, Mother. I love you so much, and I always will.)

last one makes me ill cuz of this one loki & mika convo before the seals broken

Mika: If they meet each other… and Shitori say she's very sorry… will she stop crying forever? Loki: Oh, definitely. It must be painful to feel all that guilt but have no one to apologize to. Loki suddenly gets a distant look in his eyes, as if recalling a memory.

ill get into lokis emo self at another date but mika...T_T

Shitori: I was fully prepared to die by Mother's hand upon our awakening. But I desperately hoped that I'd be able to apologize before the final blow. With that last wish etched into my heart, I drifted into a long slumber.

u kno what also makes me so upset. when io mentions shitori when they meet mika at bestia islands, and mika uses 'daughter' to speak of shitori. 'dont mention that...that daughter of mine' or whatever.......T_T shitoris her daughter thats her kid her child her

Mika: I found Shitori crying for her mom in her sleep one day. It made me think… me and Shitori have our own real moms, don't we? It doesn't matter to me, since I don't have any memories and I'm happy with Shitori. But Shitori probably doesn't feel the same way. Maybe she wants to leave here… and find her mom.

Vyrn: I got a question though. How can she miss her mom if she doesn't remember her? Mika: I already asked everyone else about that. They said even if her mind doesn't remember, her heart does.

Lyria: Maybe we'll even find your mom and dad too… Mika: My mom and dad? No, that's not what I…

THIS CONVERSATION................her heart remembers..........mika and her parents...mika and astral society...mika who picked up shitori cuz she reminded her of her own situation...mika who wants shitori to be happy......shitori is faking amnesia but mikaboshis heart.....

Blessed One: We have plenty of Astrals here in case it fails, but… Blessed One: You truly believe we'd stand a chance against her hatred? She could easily destroy the entirety of the Edgelands. Blessed One: Then we must strike before she has the opportunity to. It's prudent we take advantage of her child-like state and end her immediately, as our final mission commands us to do.

lov ppl being scared of mikaboshi

Mikaboshi never hid the fact that she was an Asral, leaving skydwellers to regard her warily, while the madness stemming from her hatred toward other Astrals was impossible to ignore.

mika astral hater boshi !!! girlie who built the great wall !!! girlie who put echidna on bestia island went hehe astrals struggle against otherworldly beings (it backfires) oh no! shes my everything

Shitori: You're asking me to betray Mother… No, I don't care what happens to this world. I just want to be with Mother.

Jayne: My poor Shitori… Forever bound to her, forever bound to misery… I'll never forgive the monster who took your happiness away from you!

'When I accepted my fate to be sealed together with Shitori following her betrayal, the monster in me died and I became a mother' ill

Mika: I-I'd never hate you either! No matter what bad things you've done, I'll never hate you!

Mika: What about you, Shitori? Would you hate me if I was a bad person? Mika's anxious words stop Shitori's breath for a split second. Shitori: Never. No matter what bad things you've done, I'd never hate you.

I CANT DO THISSSSSS

anyway going through these & hearing shitoris suffering knowing her future in one timeline is to watch everyone die & leave it together with a dying lyria thanks to ebisu & some voice telling her to keep going. and then crying nonstop while apologizing. preparing papers & ids so we can enter oarlyegrande even before eugen was born. dude she has gone through so much..........i cant write an entire post about it rn but shitori.........

main story lines but i think about these smT_^

Mikaboshi: Because I also knew the reason you betrayed me. You did what you did for my sake, not for anyone else. You even went so far as to sacrifice yourself… It was the first time anyone had gone to such lenghts for me. I felt blessed, even if your actions were a betrayal. And I did confront you at one point to hear your thoughts on that…

Mikaboshi: You're an amazing person, Shitori… It wasn't some skydweller plot that stopped a monster from destroying her own kind… No… It was all you. To know that you cared for me meant so much. It was your love that saved Nalhegrande, and me as well. That's why I know you can do this, Shitori. You can even save the world if you set your mind to it.

'Leaving something behind as a parent might not be such a bad thing after all.' T____^ mikaboshi.....

[labbaik-ya-hussain-as]

Imam Hussain AS in his final moments, exhausted, heavily wounded, and under the severe emotional strain of seeing dozens of his closest and dearest killed along with his infant son, turned to Allah SWT and demonstrated the purest of faith in His plan:

 “O Allah! Sublime You are, Great of Might, Omnipotent, Independent of all creation, greatly Proud, Capable of doing whatever You please, Forthcoming in mercy, True of Promise, Inclusive of Blessings, Clement, Near to those who invoke Him, Subduing His creation, Receptive to Repentance, Able, Overpowering, Appreciative when thanked, remembering those who remember Him! You do I call upon out of my want, and You do I seek out of need!

From You do I seek help when in fear and cry when depressed! Your help do I seek in my weakness, and upon You do I rely! O Allah! Judge between us and our people, for they deceived and betrayed us!

They were treacherous to us, and they killed us though we are the ‘Itrat of Your Prophet and the offspring of the one You love: Muhammad (S) whom You chose for Your Message and entrusted with the revelation! Do find an ease for our affair and an exit, O most Merciful of all merciful ones!

Grant me patience to bear Your destiny, O Lord! There is no God but You! O Helper of those who seek help!

I have no God besides You, nor do I adore anyone but You! Grant me to persevere as I face Your decree, O Helper of the helpless, O Eternal One Who knows no end, O One Who brings the dead back to life, O One Who rewards every soul as it earned, do judge between me and them; surely You are the best of judges.”

[alzaeemadel]

O’ Allah! That which lays hold of my mind (from the following): doubt, disbelief, disappointment, intoxication, conceit, insolence, vanity, show, desire for fame, disagreement, hypocrisy, infidelity, transgression, disobedience, pride or any thing that You do not love may kindly be substituted with: faith according to Your promise, inspiration to fulfill Your promises, contentment with Your decision, piety in the world, a desire of that which is with you (good) impression, mental tranquility, and a sincere repentance. I ask You O’ Lord! of the Worlds for all of these.

O’ Allah! I am Your servant, son of Your servant and son of Your slave girl, I am weak and stand in need of Your Mercy. You are Omnipotent and Mighty. You have reckoned their deeds and accordingly distributed to them their livelihood and made them creation after creation of different languages and colours. The people know not what You know and esteem You not with the estimation due to You and all of us stand in need of Your mercy. Do not turn not Your face away from us and ordain in Your decree to make me among Your creatures - virtuous in deeds and hopes and in your decree and verdict.

O’ Allah! I beseech you for ease at the time of my death and forgiveness at the time of reckoning (on the Day of Resurrection). The sins of Your slave are great (in number) but forgiveness from You should serve my purpose well. O’ the One deserving to be feared and fitted to pardon. Your pardon! Your Pardon!

O my Master! Remove the adoration of worldliness from my heart, And unite me with Mustafa (Muhammad: the chosen messenger) and his family, the dearest of Your creatures and the last of the prophets, Muhammad, Peace from Allah upon him and his family,

O My Lord! You are more vast in bountifulness and greater in patience than to judge me according to my deed, or to stumble me with my sin.

O my Lord! In Your remembrance, my heart flourished, And in confiding to You, I relieved my pain of fright. So, O my Lord! And O the One whom I hope! And O the One who is the Ultimate Destination and Grantor of my request! Separate between me and this sin of mine that disables me from abiding by Your obedience, For I only ask You due to the ancient and long resting of hope upon You as well as the great coveting of You, in what You obliged yourself with from compassion and mercy. Evidently, the command is yours, for You are the only One without partners, and all creatures are in Your maintenance and within Your grip, and everything submits to You, blessed You are O Lord and Cherisher of the worlds.

[riverdamien]

April

“…And now, after

 the crucifixion, just when they feel that the dream is dead, that their faith is only fantasy, they are told to go

 back to the place where it all began: “Go back to Galilee. He will meet you there!” 

Fr. Ronald Rolheiser

Easter Sunday April 9, 2023

My Dearest Friends,

“Christ is Risen! Christ is Risen Indeed!

This past year has not been easy dealing with the brokenness we find in the world and in our own neighborhoods. In the struggle with my own pain {both physical and emotional}, with my loneliness and fear—my own demons, I have found myself recalling the words of Fr. Ronald Rolheiser, and I return to Galilee:

“Whenever we are discouraged in our faith, whenever our hopes seemed to be crucified, we need to go back to Galilee, back to the dream. .that we had embarked upon before things went wrong.”

I return to the Galilee of the Tenderloin and Haight Street and I simply do what I was called to do some twenty eight and six months ago now—to be a friend in the lives of the homeless  young and older adults.

For in each person, you see the broken body of Christ!

Each pair of socks, every sandwich made, and in the minutes and hours spent with each of these persons, the pastoral care we give shows our respect and appreciation of each one!

I invite you, personally, to see in each of the faces on the next page the face of Jesus and to join me on this journey into Galilee and provide the finances needed for our work!

In Jesus, Street Person and Rebel,

Fr. River Sims

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“Whipper”

 “Brandon”

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 Damien”

“Birdman”

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  Dear fellow Companions Along the Way,

I am the Rev. Michael Mallory.  On April 5th, the second Sunday of Lent, 2023 I was ordained a priest of The Society of Franciscan Workers by Fr. River Sims.  It was an outdoor ordination hosted by the San Francisco Night Ministry Open Cathedral at the UN Plaza.  I was so blessed to have so many people attend and give me encouragement to continue on with that insistent calling from God, to simply be friends and find family in the people that the world has declared unworthy—the hungry, the stranger, the penniless, and the imprisoned.

“For I was hungry, and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.” Matthew 25:35-36

The Rev. Lyle Beckman, preaching at the ordination, said that being a priest is like being a gardener.  The daily task of tending, nurturing and patiently waiting for the garden to grow.  As a person of God, I have experienced firsthand how God has tended and nurtured and patiently waited for me, as God does for all of Creation.  I believe the Realm of God to be the same as that Beloved Community that Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. proclaimed and that no one will reach it, until we all do. 

When will that day come?  No one knows the day or the hour. But I believe that every time we see in the strangers’ eyes an image of ourselves and recognize ourselves as brothers and sisters, that day draws closer.

May God bless you this Easter Season! Be bold and have no fear, for we belong to that one who created all of us.  When the journey seems long and unforgiving, remember that we are together in Christ and only together will we reach that distant shore. 

With all my heart,

Fr. Michael Mallory

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[flightfoot]

So I rewatched Dearest Family last night, and it got me thinking. The arc Marinette goes through regarding Tikki makes me think of the arc she’ll need to go through regarding Chat Noir as well. 

Near the beginning of the episode, Tikki eats the galette that was meant for all the kwamis, something the other kwamis realize quickly. But Marinette’s quick to defend Tikki, even though she knows she’s guilty.

Marinette: (titters) You guys are joking! Tikki would never do such a thing!

Sass: Marinette, you know how much Tikki loves to eat, but do you really understand the Kwami of Creation's appetite for food?

Stompp: It's a gourmet craving of cosmic dimensions!

Sass: The pastry your father and his father created together is exceptional, unique. I'm afraid its impact on Tikki will—

Marinette: You're exaggerating, Sass. It's just a galette.

Sass: I'm sorry to have to tell you this, but I think you don't know Tikki as well as you think you do.

(Tikki glares at the kwamis angrily.)

Marinette: What?! Of course, I know her! I can say that I know her better than anyone!

Good on Marinette to believe in Tikki, but in this case, the other kwamis are right. Marinette doesn’t want to believe that Tikki might have a problem - and Tikki’s not exactly forthcoming about it either - so she thinks the other kwamis must be exaggerating. She thinks she knows Tikki better than anyone else. But as the episode later shows, that is not the case.

Marinette: So, Sass was right. But... why didn't you tell me anything?

Tikki: (cools down) I was afraid you'd think less of me... because of my cravings.

Marinette: Oh! Of course, not! I'll always like you, Tikki! Everyone has weaknesses, you know? (reaches out her hand) Let me help you overcome yours, just like you're always helping me overcome mine. (Tikki's stomach continues to rumble) You can resist! I have faith in you! Look at me! (Tikki flies to hold Marinette's hand and Marinette cups her in them) Bravo! (goes to hide behind a tree) Now, Tikki, spots on!

Marinette finds out that Sass was right: she DIDN’T know Tikki as well as she thought she did. Tikki has weaknesses and problems that she never would have thought of, ones that Tikki hid from her, for fear of her reaction.

But she reached out to Tikki instead, reassured her and encouraged her, which helped Tikki get her cravings under control.

With Chat Noir as well, Marinette believes that she understands him well. That she knows what he’s like, and what he’s NOT like - as can be seen in Ephemeral, with her reaction to his identity. But she only knows a few sides of him, and only what he’ll show her - and what she’s willing to see. It wouldn’t occur to her that Chat’s vulnerable as well, has issues of his own to overcome, has insecurities and things he’s hiding.

But at least Dearest Family provides some reassurance, shows how Marinette may react once she does realize that Chat’s more vulnerable than she thought. She reached out to Tikki, and she’d reach out to Chat as well.

[esuemmanuel]

He besado los labios de los ángeles, he tocado con las manos la excelsa suavidad de sus alas, me he arrullado entre sus brazos mientras han cantado a mi oído las alabanzas al Creador y he sonreído, como he agradecido, saberme sublimemente amado. Mas, ahí no ha acabado mi gratitud, ya que, así como me han llevado de la mano a las estepas del Paraíso, también me han aconsejado visite los pasillos de ese lugar que yace escondido en la profundidad de mi corazón. “Ahí radica el más bello de toda la creación, el que lleva la luz y te guía por las sendas benditas del conocimiento para que, en la última estancia de tu vida, alcances la sabiduría que Dios te ha concedido como a Su hijo más querido”. Y los he escuchado, tanto como los he obedecido, pues nada que sea dicho por los fieles súbditos de Dios ha de juzgarse bajo la lupa de la soberbia ignorancia. Por eso hoy hago de la oscuridad mi fiel consejera, mi amiga y amante, ya que Yo Soy el que lleva la luz… y sólo Yo puedo apagarme.

— Esu Emmanuel©️, I have kissed the lips of the angels, I have touched with my hands the sublime softness of their wings, I have lulled myself in their arms while they have sung in my ear the praises of the Creator and I have smiled, as I have been grateful, to know that I am sublimely loved. But my gratitude has not ended there, for, just as they have led me by the hand to the steppes of Paradise, they have also advised me to visit the corridors of that place that lies hidden in the depths of my heart. "Therein lies the most beautiful of all creation, the one who carries the light and guides you along the blessed paths of knowledge so that, in the last sojourn of your life, you may attain the wisdom that God has bestowed upon you as His dearest child." And I have listened to them, as much as I have obeyed them, for nothing that is said by God's faithful subjects is to be judged under the magnifying glass of arrogant ignorance. That is why today I make darkness my faithful counselor, my friend and lover, for I am the One who carries the light... and only I can extinguish myself.

[beccaclev]

Readerly Exploration #2

September 16th

Undivided: Through Forgiveness By: Katherine Wolf

Big Take Away- Life is both good and hard and although there is suffering, as future educators we have the ability to, whether it be directly or indirectly, teach children the goodness of God in tough times.

Nuggets:

Fake it till we make it, live out Psalm 42:5

“Suffering is not the end of the story it’s the beginning of a new story.”

God gave us an assignment of life- we need to live out our lives with this in mind

Reflection

Wolf’s speech was very interesting to me, and I was engaged throughout the entire video. She made many points that I think are very easily applicable to us as future teachers. One of the last sermons that I heard at my home church was the beginning of a series on suffering. I think that although trauma and suffering can be hard topics to explain to children but need to be addressed in a way that they can make sense of them and begin to create a deeper understanding of hard things. I like how Wolf talked about life being good and hard and that things happen. I have had a few challenging experiences in my life, and I will use Katherine’s story to help look at my life and ask myself some of the questions she brought up like: Are we living out our calling?  Are we living out our creativity for him in the creation of our story?

Evidence

I can see a similar theme in one of my favorite songs by Riley Clemmons called Healing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDiG3Nxm7CU  Some of the lyrics from song share the ideas of learning to be grateful and to be healed and breathe again through believing. The song talks about being broken and finding strength and courage to be healed by taking a leap of faith. Many of her songs have some of these deeper meanings and share her story in her faith through her music.

I couldn’t just pick one of her songs so another that relates to Katherine’s speech is a song called Keep on Hoping!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_GKqi4pFGoM

One of my dearest friends has known that I have been trying to see Riley Clemmons in concert and when she sang at a festival my friend was at she Facetimed me to watch her whole set at the concert!! She sang into the phone "Keep on Fighting, keep on dreaming, don't you ever stop believing" and I cried, anyways my point to this little story is to say that I hope as a teacher some day I can encourage my students in this way not only when they are going through hardships but everyday!!!!

[riuhdilangit]

To Dearest, My Baba

Barakallahu fii umrik. Happy birthday my bapak 💙

A person who loves his family so much.

A person who always have faith to handle anythings.

A person who cares us the most.

A person who I cant describe due to His creation like him is so so adorable.

Bapak, although we dont ever to say 'I love you' each other, but I believe that we love each other by Allah.

Bapak, miss you. Keep healthy, Pak. Please wait until I finish my degree, and we can go to travel and sighseeing in other places together with Bue also ya Pak 😻

-hugging tight from dif country 🥺🤗

Aug 10, 2022

[feltpool]

S1 Omega Overview

I want to like Omega.

She’s small and she’s cute, she’s friendly and she’s fun.

And I wouldn’t trust her as far as I could spit her!

She appeared out of nowhere. Despite her claim to having spent her whole life on Kamino none of the clones she’s interacted with have ever laid eyes on her before. Not the team, not even 1st generation clone Rex. No one. So why not?

She launched herself at this group of unsuspecting commandos for reasons that’ve been touched on so lightly so far that it’s more like the feel of a breeze passing by rather then a hand on your arm, and only really in the last two episodes of this season.

.

Way back in Ep 2 Cut talks briefly to Hunter about Omega:

Cut: All right. Out with it. What’s with the girl?

Hunter: She’s a defective clone, like we are.

Cut: Not exactly.

Hunter: What do you mean?

Cut: The Kaminoans don’t create without a purpose.

        You all have one, so what’s hers?

Hunter: It doesn’t matter. She’s just a kid.

But she isn’t ’just a kid’, is she?

Nothing the Kaminoans do is accidental. They might be willing to work with what they already have to see what they might be able to make out of it, but you can’t tell me that the Kaminoans “… manipulated preexisting aberrations in our DNA, resulting in your brute strength, Crosshair’s sharpshooting skills, Hunter’s enhanced senses, and my exceptional mind.” by sheer accident in order to create CF99.

Everything they create is by design, and they’ve had years to perfect their fleshy weapons of war.

.

We only have Omega’s word for it that she’s a Jango clone.

In Ep 1, Tech says “I confirmed my suspicions after analyzing her DNA while we were in the infirmary.”

What? You mean in the infirmary on Kamino where Omega lives and works and has full control over the equipment and could rig up a false scan to fool someone who is bound to scan her sooner or later? It isn’t like it’d be hard for her to dig out a record of Jango’s DNA to provide a false reading with, is it?

Later on when Tech further analyses that info and tells us she’s a pure source clone he’s still basing that fact off the same initial scan.

I’m calling bullshit.

Not only does she show that she knows exactly who they are and what they can do when she first meets them in the corridor on Kamino, but it never made any sense in the first place.

She’s female, she’s blonde and she’s no clone of Jango Fett!

Although there is a popular theory out there that she is a clone of Palpatine, and I see no reason to argue with that at this point. She’s certainly manipulative enough, and he wanted a way to ensure that he could live forever.

She’s a Kaminoan creation, a valuable one that none of the Kams wanted to fall into this unknown new regime’s hands.

I’m willing to bet that she’s far older than she looks, and she’s manipulated them all right from the start of their lives. Long before they were born.

.

Right from the start? What?

In her desperation to retrieve her property, human action figure, meat droid, dearest darling Hunter, Omega has to show some of her hand.

She takes the boys to Kamino and shows them the secret landing platform and the tube tunnels which lead into Tipoca City - which she doesn’t know is currently almost completely empty of Empire troops and poses little risk to them at this time.

She could have done this for Crosshair at any point if she’d ever felt inclined to go and get him - which she never has, and since Hunter didn’t care to go after him, neither has anybody else.

On the way there she presses A LOT of buttons on that panel for someone controlling a bubble passing through a fixed tube with no intersections.

When they arrive Echo finds all of the system files have been mysteriously wiped clean. Why? The Empire wouldn’t bother to wipe them when they’re about to destroy the city anyway, and Nala Se would be better off giving them all of her files as a show of good faith. Being found to have destroyed them would only get her in trouble with her new ‘employers’

The only person to benefit there is Omega and her desire that the boys not find out what she’s been doing, or for how long. Look at her operating that panel. She pauses just before her last press, like there’s just one last ‘ok’ to wipe the system clean and destroy all record of her hard work.

Only once she presses it does she step back and look sad, and when Echo says 'you alright?’ She doesn’t say yes, or I’m fine She says 'It doesn’t matter. Saving Hunter is what matters.’

Or, Yeah. It’s fine that I just deleted years of research, all of my work, all of my memories of the place that was my home, because that isn’t what matters. Hunter is.

But why? What makes HIM so fucking important to her? Why doesn’t she see the others as being equally desireable? They’re all from the same batch, they were all enhanced in that same creepy laboratory.

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And then the focus is on Tech talking and you can barely see her head due to the camera angle shift.

Then she blames it all on Nala Se, says it’s her lab and implies that she’s responsible for the creation of the enhancements the Batch boys have. But she doesn’t ever state that, we’re just left to assume.

That likely is a lab where Nala Se works, think back to Ep 1 and the scene with Echo in the med bay. Azi-3 (offscreen and slightly muffled): “But Mistress Nala Se summoned you to the sub-level medical wing.”

But Azi-3 doesn’t say to *her* medical wing, only to the

Is that the lab where Omega works too? The lab where she enhanced their mutations?

Because the only things she’s willing to state is that this is where she was created, and where the boys were enchanced.

“Your mutations were enhanced in this room. Experimental Unit 99 began right here. I was there.”

and

“It was only for a short time, before you were sent to be with the other clones.”

‘I was there’ Yeah? Watching or participating?

Were they taken away so they could be trained up along with all the other clones, or were they taken away from her and what she was trying to do with them?

Were they taken away for their own safety?

.

In Ep 15 she tells the boys that she was there when they were enhanced, etc.

But in Ep 16, talking to Crosshair, she says:

"I spent most of my life in this lab.

I was alone down here, until you four were created.

That's why I was determined to find you all again."

She says she spent most of her life in Nala Se's secret lab. She doesn't say she wasn't still kept in there after the batch were created. Only that that was the first time she wasn't alone.

It does nothing to clear up just how much older than them she might be but it does suggest that the only reason she's running about in Ep 1 is because the Empire have arrived and they don't want her to stand out as a special secret project, they're trying to hide her in plain sight. Hence classing her as a medical assistant.

She’s tries so hard to appeal to Crosshair here, to win him over to her side, by essentially saying:

‘you hated it here on Kamino? I hated it here too.’

‘You’re all on your own now, you must be lonely. Well, I’ve been stuck here all by myself and I’ve been sooo lonely too.’

And a little later on she says to him: “I wanted to believe it was the inhibitor chip that made you like this… but I was wrong.

"We’re supposed to think that she’s saying is 'I thought it was the inhibitor chip that made you want to turn away from us and join the Empire. But I was wrong.’

'But she isn’t. She’s saying 'I thought it was the chip that made you stubborn and unwilling to do what I want you to. But I was wrong.’

And then, because she can see she has no further way to persuade him, she gets up and walks away.

Looking sad at her failure to keep her collection complete.

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And what about the possibility of the team being sent on secret missions only Hunter knows about?

What does she know about those? Did she have a hand in that or has she just seen the process occurring?

She had access to the external landing platform and knew exactly how the system operated. She knew that those tunnels run all over Kamino. How much time has she spent exploring those tunnels and getting into all sorts of places she wasn’t supposed to?

She could have been in touch with any number of people willing to promise to take her away from all of this if she'll just help them out, or pay her well so she can fantasise about running away and taking her boys with her to a place where they can live together forever like the creepiest kind of fairy story.

So she’s either complicit in their creation, using them for her own means, and/or has developed an unhealthy obsession with them – no combination of those options would be good.

Either way she's set up with the potential to be super creepy and abusive, even if she turns out not to be the worst possible person she could be.

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But what do you get when you have a character who’s grown up in an environment where clones are livestock, things to keep and own. To control.

Does she view the Batch boys as people in their own right, or like something which belongs to her? Like pets or playthings?

And what happens when they don't want to play her game anymore?

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She doesn't wear it anymore, but it's possible that her headpiece (diadem?) contains a device which emits a signal which Hunter is constantly receiving. A signal which continuously makes him feel good in her presence, or makes him feel like he wants to have her around.

A signal which Echo unknowingly relays to him when they’re out on missions together.

Because after the fight in the mess hall back in Ep 1 Echo awakes to find himself in the med bay with Omega and Azi-3 standing over him. He’s being scanned by machines and the only other time we’ve seen Omega refuse to leave someone’s side like she does there was when she was waiting for Wrecker to wake up following his surgery to remove the inhibitor chip.

She’s alone with him and has full access to the medical suite there. She could have done anything to him or his internal systems, and who would even think to suspect her of any wrongdoing? Right?

Well, me obviously. But not any of the team.

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Most of the time just having it in her pocket and remaining close to him is enough to maintain the signal strength, but when he's further away Echo extends her range.

If Omega has this level of access to Hunter’s personal wifi she can both send him a direct message and reinforce the idea that he wants to keep her around, regardless of whether or not he actually does.

And since he never makes any sort of contact with her, trains her, or otherwise spends any sort of quality time with her unless it’s absolutely necessary I don’t think that he actually does.

But this sort of access could explain why Omega seemed oddly on his mind when they were on Raxus and she was sulking in Cad's bar.

But when Hunter was held on Daro, so was well out of range, she really freaked out and worried that she was going to lose her hold on him and would have to start all over again. Because this isn’t an instant process. She failed to snag him initially on Kamino in Ep 1 and had to resort to sending him a direct command to come and pick her up.

He almost left her behind with Cut and Suu in the following episode. She’s having to reinforce that connection, that control, all the time.

Immediately following both occasions when she’s been separated from Hunter for any length of time the first thing she’s wanted to do it to be in close physical proximity to him.

She threw herself bodily at Hunter after her retrieval from Cad Bane, and she literally steps over Crosshair’s unconscious body, or at least over his rifle, to reach Hunter to hug him when they’re in the training room in Ep 15.

Seriously, watch her position, the way she steps back after releasing him and you can see where her feet are. It’s totally wrong and creepy.

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Even if her motivation for this was nothing more sinister than her being scared of being alone again and desperate to keep hold of him, it's still awfully abusive and gross.

She seems to have built Hunter up in her mind as the ideal of a big, strong and perfect leader, and has so far been disappointed when that hasn’t turned out to be the case.

That he’s been self-involved and unwilling to put himself out to help others.

Not at all matching up to her metal image of ‘what soldiers do’

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After saying they’d take Crosshair with them Hunter looks to her and she gives him a nod to show her approval.

She’s working hard on trying to convince him to be her perfect little soldier boy.

But just how far might she push it when he isn't?

How much control can she exert over him to force him to be the man she wants him to be?

I’m not trying to say that she has a romantic obsession with him, but she definitely has plans to keep him close to her forever.

And why is it just Hunter that she’s SO fixated on?

Because he’s the one she can exert control over, and through him she can control the rest of the team. She has no leverage on the others without Hunter.

She freaked out when he got hurt and when he was captured, but she never panicked about leaving Wrecker behind in the tunnels with Fennec.

She was willing to save Crosshair on Kamino and to make one last attempt to convince him to go with them. But she never made the effort go after him previously even though she very clearly could have done.

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She could only have access to Hunter via the EM system, since he’s the only one who’d be able to pick up on the signal.

Crosshair might be with the Empire, might be miserable and alone, but might also be in a safer position than anyone else is right now.

Why?

Because obsessions are unhealthy and can get out of control without anyone meaning for them to do so.

Which means Tech and Wrecker are at risk from her obsession.

They're currently useful and she wants to keep the set together. But if that changes things could get very nasty, very quickly.

Especially if she has control enough to turn Hunter on them.

But what if she simply decides that Tech can't teach her anything useful anymore so he's surplus to requirements now.

What if she starts to find Wrecker's child-like nature to be less amusing, and more annoying?

What if they start to see that things just don’t add up here and begin asking inconvenient questions?

Could she make Hunter turn on them too, even though they've done nothing wrong.

What if she simply starts to feel like Hunter should spend more time with her and less with them, that they're taking up his time that could be spent with her instead? That she simply doesn’t need more than one?

If she got rid of the other two so that she could have more time with Hunter she wouldn't need Echo anymore either.

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Currently she's cute and the boys like to have her around. But she's either going to age physically, or it's going to be suspicious when she doesn't.

It's a novelty to have a little girl with them.

But novelties wear off

And sooner or later she's going to do or say something which just doesn't sit right with them.

Tech records everything, he should have a record of everything she said on Kamino, just the same as he should have a record of what Crosshair said.

And you can't honestly expect Tech not to have questions about everything they saw on Kamino in that lab.

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Consider:

The speed with which she picked up using a blaster, which she claimed she’d never used before and had possibly only just seen used for the first time. Not just used either, but literally shot the rifle out of Crosshair’s hands.

The speed with which she picked up using that energy bow, before suddenly turning into an expert with it exactly when she really needed to.

The speed with which she assessed the needs of the Ordo Moon Dragon and got the part they needed.

The speed with which she worked out that she needed to set Muchi free in order to cause the distraction she needed to get her team back. That didn’t quite work out as she expected, but it was still successful.

The speed with which she learned to play dejarik, supposedly just from watching other people play it a few times.

She isn’t just observing. She’s either picking these things up at a vastly increased rate, or she already knows them.

And what about her swimming skills? That was convenient.

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Can Hunter redeem himself slightly here by only having persuaded her to play dejarik with him because he’s finding her sudden winning streak suspicious?

I mean, if she’s gone from zero skill at it to wiping the floor with all comers then even Sergeant Scribbleface surely can’t be thick enough to not notice it. And they’re the ones she’s been spending time with. Surely they should’ve noticed if she was pretty good at this game already.

The look on his face at the end as he prepares to play her could be concentration, it could also be a suspicious frown as he settles down to watch her technique.

And it’s never actually stated who won, or what went on during that game.

But I’d be surprised if Cid wasn’t watching.

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This is why Crosshair had to go off and play villain for a while

He’d have spotted how wrong she is in a heartbeat if he’d ever spent any length of time around her. Part of his job on the team is the lookout. To observe.

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And what about my suggestion that she faked removing Hunter’s inhibitor chip?

And what happens if her control over him is lost?

If either of those suggestions are correct then the shit’s really going to hit the fan when that happens.

Not to mention the impact of that on the entire team, including Crosshair.

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So what do I think all this is building up to?

The Kaminoans were never expecting to make clones for the Empire. They had contracts with the Republic, whose clones were encouraged to show their own individuality with their colours and their names, etc.

Remember in Rogue One where they’re looking through all the Empire projects and they find the reference to War Mantle?

They also mention Mark Omega

Coincidence? I don’t think so.

So… who exactly is she a clone of that there could be a reference to her in Empire files?