#i had so much ti post yesterday but i didnt want to post so much so i was trying to spread it out into two posts but

[totescrr]

art style study ig? mostly jonathan bcz I can NOT draw sock for the life of me

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plus swap au thing I tried to do but I suck at designing

AND THEN THIS

(also read tags maybe)(last few ones)

[the-winter-spider]

Good Guy | S.H

Word count: 1k

Warnings: None? Angst?

A/N: Yall i havent posted in ages, im still very much active reading everyone elses writings buuut im deciding to go thru and post everything i have in my docs, maybe finally fix my master list 💀🤭 we’ll see! Enjoy

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You were sitting on the edge of his bed, your legs dangling over as you turned to look over your shoulder at him snoring peacefully while you were holding your breath trying to savour this moment before the reality of what happened last night crushed you.

You knew what it was, it was ‘the world is most likely ending and the girl ive been in love with since high school still doesn’t love me back’ sex. Because there was no logical way Steve had feelings for you of any sort that would make him want to tear your clothes off and litter your bruised and scarred body with such tender kisses, whispering the sweetest of words in your ear, then proceed to hold you in his arms while he falls asleep.

There was no way in any world upside right or down that it was anything more than that.

You sighed, finally pushing yourself off the bed, tip-toeing around his room to gather the pieces of your clothing, ushering as quickly and quietly to his bathroom as you could. You wanted to avoid the mirror so bad, you were disgusted with yourself, not for sleeping with him, no but for letting your self think for a mere second that it was anything but sex to him. In all honesty it was probably just an itch he wanted to scratch, you were probably just a flavour of ice cream he was lingering on for a while something no one else in their right mind would pick but once you’ve tried all the other flavours you were the only one left.

Pathetic. That's all you were, you slipped off his boxers letting your tears hit the ground with them. The cotton fabric catches your salty waters as they hit the tile.

“Stupid, stupid, stupid” you whispered to yourself pulling on own clothes, before sliding out of his room and house.

The morning spring air hit you refreshingly as you closed your eyes, stopping to gather your thoughts for a brief moment, steadying yourself and the whirlwind of emotions going through your head.

You knew you had to hurry home and change to be ready to meet at the Wheeler's house for 9:00am sharp to discuss your next moves with Vecna, and arriving with Steve while you were still in yesterday’s clothes would raise suspicion, questions and leave you open for friendly banter and teasing but more importantly you didnt wanna still be at Steve’s house when he woke up, you couldn't handle seeing the pure regret in his eyes, the shame that would be radiating off of him, surely that would be your tipping point.

You looked at your watch, 9:00AM “Shit” you mumbled, downing the rest of your coffee like it was a shot at a party, you quickly tied the laces on your converse before running across the street to the Wheelers.

You let out a huff of hair, running your hand through your hair before knocking, the door whipped open revealing Robin “Oh! I'm so glad to see you” She grabbed your arm, yanking you inside, “We've been here all but maybe 10 minutes and everyone is already arguing” She threw her hands up “Can you believe that? it's too early for this!” You reached the door to the basement as Robin loudly started troting down “Y/n is finally here!”

You reached the bottom of the stairs giving a small wave and smile looking everywhere but the brown haired boy in the corner whose eyes you could feel piercing into you “Hi” your voice quiet before manurving your way to the side, far away from Steve.

You were sitting legs crossed on the wheelers couch, you could hear a buzzing surrounding you, squeezing your eyes shut, rubbing your temples you weren’t sure if at this point if it was the headache you’ve been nursing for a few days, the lack of sleep, or all the tears you cried this morning in Steve’s bathroom. All the voices of your friends overlapping one another mushing into a single sound.

tick, tick, tick, tick

“So we now know Max is one of Vecna’s targets, we just have to.…” Nancy spoke her voice trailing off as you tuned it out. Their chatter immersed into one inconvenient noise to you, the pounding in your head overpowering the conversation no one cared that you weren't taking part in. Even though you have always been more of a listener, never giving suggestions because someone always had a better one. You were just here to do as you were told and make sure no one else got hurt because they all had families, parents, people who loved them, you didn’t. And if one of your dumb ideas led to the possibility of one of them getting hurt or worse ending up dead, you would never be able to forgive yourself, so you stayed out of it.

You found picking at your pant leg was a better distraction, wasting all the energy you had on making the hole in your pants bigger than it already was, revealing a scar on your knee that you obtained last year running from russians, when for a brief moment the buzzing stopped and your sense zeroed in on the trickling cool wetness you felt on your upper lip and your eyes growing wide as you watched a single droplet of blood land on your jeans.

You moved your hand to catch the rest of the droplets when you looked up your eyes met Max’s, her eyebrows raised in shock before they softened as she watched a tear run down your cheek “Guys” she spoke, her voice could barely be heard over Steve arguing with Nancy that he didn’t want to be a babysitter anymore “GUYS!” she screamed even louder as all eyes turned to her

Steve and Nancy both turned their heads to her yelling “What?!”

Max lifted up her hand, directing her finger to point directly at you, suddenly one by one all pairs of eyes turned to you

“Holy shit” Dustin muttered “Holy shit!” He got louder as he pieced it together.

“No” Steve froze “No, no, no” He was panicking suddenly the room felt heavy, the air was leaving his lungs as he watched blood dripping from your nose.

[emerxshiu]

FORGOTTEN LAND'S SECOND ANNIVERSARY :3

I AM SOOOO BACK

I started this drawing yesterday around afternoon and finished it just a few minutes earlier.

I went with a messier type of drawing instead of more clean like the elfilin one from yesterday, i find it fun doing it like this, mostly cause i dont have to worry about making it perfectly so i dont get as frustrated as normal. Id place this one as my second best digital drawing. im pretty sure i havent posted what i consider my best digital drawing here, tho i do have it in instagram, i might post it here one day, tho these two are way too tied up, i love how this came out, its not exactly like how i imagined it but its really close to it, and also itd say that since i dont tend to play around lighting that much, this was such a joy to draw and i cant help but stare at it a lot, at least until i start hating it because i made quite a lot of errors. i also changed my elfilis gijinka just a tad bit from last time, but its not that big of a difference, mostly.

ofc i had to draw elfilis for forgotten land's anniversary, i tend to deny it in my head but yeah they're my fave of the kirby characters even tho i hate them a bit. I wanted to draw some more doodles, like, elfilis eating cake, kirby car, a bunch of other stuff (not elfilin cuz i already drew him yesterday) but when i tried i couldnt draw anything more, guess this drawing burned me out a lot, huh?

you can definitly tell i spent all the efforts on him cuz if you look a bit closer to the bottom part you'll see its almost barely detailed, but i mean, they're the focus so make sense i guess for me not add that much detail there. um also, maybe because i dunno i had OVER 130 LAYERS jeez no wonder firealpaca was slowing down so much, i need to manage my layers better next time, tho i did do something i keep forgetting, wich is naming them (most of them at least) that was a real life saver

Also, antares (fecto elfilis' spear/cadaceus), as always, was a pain to draw, but this time its probably been draw the most accurate out of every other drawing ive made with it in it, i didnt notice it was like, a little curved when it reached the blade

some close ups since his face is a bit hard to see

silly :3

fun fact! actually, this is technically a redraw, somewhere around between february and march i started a fecto elfilis drawing for the first anniversary, but i couldnt finish it in time, and i never finished it

thats...quite the improvement! (i remember being so proud of it)

also his wings are like that cuz i did not want to draw the pattern, its way too hard, i literally copy pasted it, wait, i was talking about the 2024 version but i looked at the 2023 one and i just noticed it also has the pattern copy pasted, i guess some stuff never changes since i still abuse the ctrl+c ctrl+v to this day

Also i ended up making a huge error there, i was planing to add the phantom spears from orbital pulsar (the attack he does first when you battle them at lab discovera) but theres an innacuracy, when they do the attack, they always close their eyes, i had actually sketched him (well i mean both these drawings are basically the first sketch (2023) or second sketch(2024) with some color, shadows and lighting. i didnt do lineart in the 2024 one cuz i wanted to be a bit like the og i made (too bad i sketched that one with black since the og was sketched with white due to me drawing the bg first)) with his eyes closed but them decided to make them open for a reason i cant remember, maybe i thought itd look nicer? idk

ive had the idea of redrawing this for quite some month now so it was kinda already planned

background cuz i think it came out really pretty

doesnt have the little stars since without elfilis and the structures it looks fucked up. the actual sky in game is more blue, but the clouds have some orange, in the 2023 ver. i made the sky orange, and in the 2024 ver i wanted it more accurate, but i didnt wanna loose the orange sky, so i did a gradient. pretty...

also here's a screenshot i took when i was like halfway trough it, its barely noticeable but i changed his mouth in the final drawing

I really love katfl, like a buncha whole lot, its basically almost my first mainline kirby game. 100% the demo, finished the game in almost one day, i literally play it monthly, like, every month i put the card in my switch, start it up, get morpho sword, and go shred elfilis in lab discovera. i would probably not even be here on tumblr and the kirby fandom if it werent for it. and i love it so much i genuinly cannot express how much i like it and treasure it with words or anything

Thank you for reading my unnecesarily long rambles lol

I hope i'll post tomorrow and dont forget like usual

Jambuhbye!

[justmagicalgirl]

Please talk more about Domina! I want to hear your analysis soo bad!!!

(I'm starved of Domina content, I need season 3 right nowwww)

WAAAAH THE PERFECT CHANCE. op ily thanks for making me yap.

(beware of lots of spoilers, religion, cult talk and run-on sentences from here on)

first of all. i wanna say that if you're a domina fan and haven't watched the owl house, you're probably a) gonna like the show and b) gonna have a soft spot for hunter. i've been talking about them as accidental parallels a lot and damn. for context, it started as a joke. i told my friend "that's so hunter coded" when the "devil's quintuplets + mash as spare pieces slash hearts created via magic for IZ" plotline first appeared, i think i even posted about that here, but then domina appeared and the brainrot arose STRONG. like, i haven't been as active in the fandom since Stuff HappenedTM back in 2023 and by last year it became kinda hard for me to engage with the show (tip of the day: dont use your special interest show as comfort and a coping method during one of the most traumatic periods of your life bc the special interest at least for me means it doesn't entirely leave your brain ever LMAO) and i'm back to thinking about hunter specifically because of domina like three hours a day at least. and most of my free time. i lost a full combo on pjsk yesterday bc i zoned out during a show thinking about them.

the thing is, they have a very specific flavor of trauma going on. i need to study their brain under a microspcope. gonna put this in domina terms bc that's the test subject/aff today

out of all the brothers, domina is the one shown to be closest to IZ. as in, he's the only one we're shown to have been raised by IZ himself before being sent to walkis. the only one we see IZ in their childhood memories. while IZ is one of the biggest motivations for all the quintuplets, he is basically domina's only one. domina and cell war's in fact (cell war is a whole other can of worms dude has very similar issues but with the slight variable that is the fact IZ isn't his father or at least doesn't consider himself as such and gave domina that idea as well). and the way he's like a replacement of mash but couldn't fulfill his only purpose WAH he also makes me unwell but my brain didnt latch onto him as hard sigh)

the way in which domina looks up to him is very closely tied to the fact IZ considers himself a god-adjacent figure. and the fact that IZ's following largely acts in a cult-like manner, which isn't that much of a surprise given the previous point.

before the eclipse arc, IZ conducts his following as the "priest-visionary-prophet" role (note the use of visionary there). the society in which the entire story happens is a theocracy. i found this really interesting as soon as the divine visionaries were introduced because i had a feeling they would be paralleled for evil and SURPRISE they were (as if they were all super nice to begin with lol). the thing is that every religion is a cult at its core, and the line is more arbitrary than is useful for analysis sigh.

after i got into toh, i got this really cool book called "cults: the language of fanatism" by amanda montell for analyzing it lmao. i really like the separation she uses in the book, taken from steven hassan, betwen what they call "ethical" cults and "harmful" cults. pretty self explanatory yk. in the story, their religion is considered by many in the ethical cathegory, although later we see from mash and regro's POV that it actually threads the harmful line, given that one of the main characteristics of a harmful one is the extreme polarization created by an "us" and "them", displayed by the hatred towards weak and non magic havers. since most of the world doesn't have weak magic or a lack of it, it would have otherwise never really popped.

however, in IZ's following's case, it's extremely blatant that it's a cult. they have a MUCH more extremely polarized version of the "us vs them" thing, all the language, etc (i heavily recommend checking out the book bc i could make a whole post on the details lol, if you cant find it send me a dm). while the divine visionaries are the "priest- prophet-visionary" leading role, expanding the power sphere and reinforcing the hierarchy in the meanwhile, the hierarchy in IZ's cult is way more strict and restricted, with a series of upper echelons that yet never equal IZ as the leader, leaving him only in the "priest-prophet-visionary" role. where the divine visionaries are seen as godsends to spread the gospel and the beauty of god in a way, and every magic user as someone gifted by divinity, in IZ's circle IZ is a god-incarnate to-be and the quintuplets only take the role of spreading the word and acting upon his wishes. we can also see this in the wands the visionaries are given: where they get to use the power of the gods, only IZ becomes a true one. only IZ is the leader

domina was raised directly by this leader. which means, he received the fullllll blast of all the indoctrination destined for the rest of the cult from the very moment he was created. and mind you, created with a predesigned role. i have questions on why he's the only one of the quintuplets with a last name when it doesn't match IZ's civil one, but i have a feeling it might be related to ostracizing him even from the other quintuplets given IZ considered him to have the most magical potential. which in the end, makes him more easily malleable and prone to giving in to IZ's manipulation.

the specific tactics IZ uses are particularly related to their bond, reaffirming domina's purpose as only one, and making him feel like he had to repay IZ for his affection. i suspect that this has a lot to do with the fact it's mentioned doom fought IZ at some point. IZ then, knowing domina has even more magical potential, resorted to saving himself the trouble by ensuring domina wouldn't have a motive to challenge him instead of placating his otherwise eventual rebellion.

thus, it was ensured that even if domina were to question his allegiance to IZ, he would find it hard to actually have a motive. IZ mistreating him? on the surface, IZ is nothing but caring, giving him attention and sweet words. IZ's requests making him uncomfortable in some way? easily solved by that "it makes me happy to see him happy" logic (which i find even more interesting given it's one of the few pieces of backstory shown, mashle is not really a manga that takes a lot of time with backstories). feeling IZ's affection or care to be deficient? in contrast with the other brothers, he has everything he could wish for. questioning IZ's divinity role? everyone that could have been around him was either going to agree or at least encourage the belief in magic power = divine blessing, therefore the next logical thinking process is IZ having more magic power than anyone else = higher divinity status. which, being sent to walkis, was never going to be challenged. every most likely doubt scenario can be covered by these points.

since these are very simple question-explanation thinking steps, most logical arguments most people could try to use to refute them would appear overcomplicated and less likely to have any actual effect. which is why only mash could break them. straighforward oversimplified logic ingrained into domina's behavior, determining his every behavioral pattern vs straightforward oversimplified logic user because more complicated stuff confuses him mash.

now now. diving into more technical analysis because im a nerd and unironically one of the main reasons im studying psychology is to analyze characters. HUMANISTIC ANALYSIS TIME. if you're not familiar with it, just read points one and two of this post. mash does a good ol' nuclear construct obliteration process through a catastrophic version of daseinanalysis that involves the oversimplification of constructs he observes for his own understanding, which puts the basics of it into perspective for the subject. actually ykw you should read point three as well. the thing that first hooked me into mashle was the similar daseinanalysis confrontation process mash and mob have going on, which is more throughouly (i hope thats spelled correctly) explained in the other post.

going back to domina, he has a very interesting thing going on, because in his pov, he's getting unconditional positive regard. however, IZ is placing undercover conditins of worth onto him, sugarcoated by the fact he never equates power with domina's happiness as much as he equates his happiness with domina's. and it works, because even without ever putting much emphasis into it, both the environtment of IZ's cult and the environment at walkis teach domina the standard condition of worth. thus, he gets both without having IZ as the resposible for placing the most obviously potentially damaging one onto him.

mash, having received actual unconditional positive regard, given the fact regro doesn't have strong magic which is the extended societal condition of worth, is able to point out that for domina. since it's heavily tied into the other one, both break at once, and domina is left to reevaluate and create a new eigenwelt and mitwelt. i want to point out though, that it's interesting that most characters with power levels similar to domina tend to mix up their umwelt and mitwelt, but domina just. doesn't. likely the product of the fact IZ was smart to sugarcoat his manipulation

wow that was a lot of text, but that's it for this post! i have so much to say on him still, maybe i could try to do a construct analyisis hmmm. anything specific that you wanna hear about lmk bc 'll be more than happy to yap again, this was so much fun to write and think!

[ceasarslegion]

I think one of the reasons the harassment post going around about me is making me so upset is not only because well, its a harassment post about me specifically that people are just uncritically sharing and has reached 2,000 notes now full of tags about how much i should kms and deserve to be shot and killed and how much of a fascist libtard i am based entirely on one meme post i made, but also because i have... already had a really rough month

This month alone i have been woken up at 3am to a slew of emergency texts of one of my best friends attempting suicide, ran to her apartment through sketchy alleyways because i have her spare key, didnt find her there, and had to play the waiting game as to whether or not she was still alive. She was, and went back to work the same day after refusing treatment. And then she just got back together with the guy who drove her to try it because "but i love him and he prommied real hard to change 🥺" and MOVED IN WITH HIM against everybodys screaming at her not to. Now we are in the awkward stage of not really talking to each other before the friendship probably dies out, after which i dont know what will happen to her, but i do have to accept the harsh reality that shes dug her own grave and i cant help her if shes going to act like this.

And then i got extremely harshly disciplined twice at work for stupid reasons. I was treated like a dumbass who cant do anything right because of other people's stupidity trickling down to me, and being blamed for the actions of passengers who didnt speak a lick of any language of any officer we had on the floor at the time and i couldnt effectively communicate the procedures i had to do with. It took me making a big X with my arms to get them to stop. And they treated me like i told them to do that

And then all my friends transfer to different airports because of a contractor switch giving them advancement opportunities as new positions get established. I dont want to advance yet personally, so i decided to stay where i am. Plus, im tied down here by a lease.

And then i wake up to someone spreading that about me yesterday. After i already feel like a piece of shit who cant do anything right and everybody hates or leaves at some point. So yeah its... its lingering a bit

Im sorry to beat a dead horse, ive just a rough month

[sillybeansss]

HELLO ‘TIS MORNING AT LAST!!!! i sent that in ten minutes before i went to sleep sorry

though im kind of mad at tumblr for nor showing me this post because a lot of your posts show up ok my dash usually so

okay actually it isnt morning anymore im at a relatives house sorry💥💥💥

HAIII!!!My weekend has been alright not much has happened which is expected ://

(^^ real!!! nothing happened at all yesterday…and i guess on friday i went to see a christmas tree lighting but it was planned very badly)

And no the diagnosis will highkey never happen ever,,, my mom was gonna plan it but she saw how expensive it was and WE DON'T GOT THAT TYPE OF MONEY!!!! 😭😭😭 but it's okay,, I got Boba and a Patrick pen today so uhhh it balances out trust,,, 

(^^ i do, in fact, trust!!! ouhhh boba sounds so cool!!!! ive never tried it but i want to sososososo baddd!!!! also its what? expensive????? well if i ever had a chance of getting one in the first place i certainly dont now…seriously though, sorry to hear it didnt happen! :[ maybe it was for a reason or something…[trying not to get too religious rn])

ALSOOO I FINISHED A BOOK YESTERDAY!!!>u< I'm waiting for Monday for my friend to lend me the next book in the trilogy I'm so hyped I need to know what happens also I was trying to draw Belarus cause like Deary me I wanted to draw so bad today but I didn't till now cause I had no real motivation but I never finished it cause I started drawing a character from my book 

:333

(^^^^ READING IS SO COOL!!!! ive been reading a book too and its so fun i love it….ALSO BOOK SERIES ARE THE BEST!!!! i remember reading this series once…and the characters were nice the plot just kinda sucked a lot so.!! also im so glad to see you were enjoying it!!! also the urge to draw is do real ive been so artblocked these months but i drew something yesterday so im proud!! also BELARUS MENTIONED!! i love her shes so sassy but they did her so dirty with the whole russia thing…but i think she was made with a certain president/any other type of sovereign in mind…which, as head of state, they do symbolize/represent their country…)

~🫶🏽🎳

HELLOOOO HAIII!!! :3 And yeah I was so surprised so the first appointment would've been 3,000 or smth and the second appointment (I didn't even know there wouldve been 2 appointments what) was 14,000 cash or something idk if cash I just remember my mom mentioning it and I was SHOCKED 😭😭 (maybe it was 140,000 but I honestly can't remember she told me this a few days ago wait yesterday I think actually wait no it was Friday mb,,,)

AND REALLL READING IS SO FLARPING FUNNY AUGHHH My friend finished the last book of the trilogy like in a day which I was honestly shocked and I NEED to read the next book starts shaking tbh :/

And they did her character so dirty why did they do that to her,,,she was quite fun to draw tho🦭🦭

[almond-tofu-chan]

i have never been angrier in my entire fucking life, it is taking every fiber of my being to not actually punch someone right now /srs

so this fucking show im assistant directing, WAS assistant directing, i quit because it was hell. the director is this piece if shit entitled bitch who doesnt know or care how to run a good show. i signed up to assistant direct, ended up babysitting a bunch of kids from four to six every day five days a week. while i was doing the job I DIDNT SIGN UP TO DO i was verbally berated, abused, mistreated, and taken advantage of at every possible corner. when i learned tech week would be till eight i fucking quit

heres where i get fucking pissed: the kids were amazing. theyre a bunch of talented, bright actors who are absolutely lovely, and for most of them this is their first show. i understandably feel awful for quitting, plus the bitch director hates me nowc but i show up to opening night to cheer them on

i want to kill this woman

kids are crying, shes yelling at them backstage constantly, lighting and sound cues dont work, choreo and blocking are nonexistent, so are props and costumes and set: everything needed to make a show a show is absent or so shoddily put together that it genuinely looked like it was going to fall apart

and the kids are amazing, they do so well with what theyre given and theyre so good and talented and im serious when i say theyre all gonna go far, if it werent for the fucking director

show starts 20 minutes late because she hasnt finished playbills, curtains are see through and on yhe verge of collapse at all times, they're doing this show in a HIGH SCHOOL CAFETERIA btw, all the costumes she got yesterday from thriftsmart, she got kids ti make all the props and set and it shows, and she never told crew what to do, so shes yelling at them constantly while giving them no direction at all. a crew kid is forced on stage at one point to turn on someones mic, he was crying

i had to comfort no less than four crying kids afterwards, all sobbing because she had yelled at them and berated them for no goddamn reason other than the thrill of the power trip

oh and btw, the second the show ended she disappeared. didnt talk to parents, cast, crew, just fucking dipped.

and you know what? im going to the show tomorrow too. i fucking quit because i forsaw this shit was going to happen, but no way in hell am i just gonna watch while these kids that i love suffer. fucking survivors guilt is a thing, and i want to kill her for making me kill myself for this goddamn show

i wouldnt be surprised if these kids hate theatre now. theyre all a bunch of talented, starry eyed young impressionable kids who she is using for her own power trips and abuse, and shes probably ruining theatre for them forever. shes hurting the people i love and forcing me to get involved again when i had already gotten out. seriously, fuck this shit, im so mad. you hurt me thats one thing. you hurt my kids? fuck you, seriously go fuck yourself.

sorry for the long fucking post, this show is so fucking awful i havent even talked about a quarter of the shit going on, theres so goddamn much of it

ill be fine, i just had so much fucking work to do this weekend that i cant get done now because of this goddamn show. if she directs the show next year i will actually kill someone, i hope she dies slowly and painfully /srs

[golbrocklovely]

when we’re talking about the 2016 rn (refering to anon) i wonder why he didnt have serious relationship since 2016? was that relationship SO serious to him that he didnt want to be with someone else or anything? Its actually kinda sad to see this tbh, because that means it really hurt him somehow.

Also im so sorry his grandpa died, i can imagine, my grandma almost died because of sickness and i cant imagine lost her absolutely. hope that man will be okay soon, hope he knows people are here for him💜.

(this is a bit of an older ask, from a couple days ago)

sorry for the delayed response :)

with colby's past serious relationship, it's hard to tell what happened or how things played out bc he mostly keeps that info to himself; which is totally understandable. he's let slip some things, like how he was very needy and depended on her a lot and how he wanted to be with her all the time and overall - he was just too much.

the worse thing he's ever said about her is that she was a bit flaky, and in reality he only implied it. he's mostly blamed himself for things falling apart or that it was just draining to be that in love with someone.

this is all my assumption, so take what i say with a grain of salt. i'm just basing my opinion off of things he's said and also a lot of old tweets from back in the day (some of which have been outright deleted but i saved lol): i think he fell madly in love with this girl, and just depended on her too much. i think he came across as needy and clingy, and she pulled back. she didn't love him as much as he loved her, and then eventually things ended. and he spent the next year just being heartbroken and trying to move on. then by 2018, he tried dating again (and by that i mean putting himself out there, not really having any serious relationships), and it went south once again. and he became bitter to love and dating and everything else. which is why he said the infamous quote of "all the girls in la suck". and i think only recently has he "tried" to dip his toes back into actual dating, and not just hooking up. but even then, he's not really trying.

i think his past relationship really hurt him. bc, while i don't think he wanted to marry this girl, i think that's how much love he had for her. hence why he said in his deep q&a "i only want to fall in love that deeply again with someone like my wife". i don't think he wanted to marry her, but i think he saw a future with her when she didn't feel the same way. and when they broke up, her reasonings tied with his past self esteem issues, it all just became a lot for him to process. i mean, he only recently just started to like being by himself and alone alone (ie solo vacations). respectfully, he has a lot of dependence issues. i don't know if that's bc he doesn't feel like he's enough, or if it's something else entirely. but it's clear that he's been hurt a lot in his life, and it effects the way he goes into relationships.

and i'm in the same boat as him lol

i hope in the near future he allows himself to open up to ppl. i know it's hard, but holding that area of his life back and blaming it on work or whatever other issue is never gonna fix what happened. you also can't allow your heart to grow dark. i think he has a lot of love to give, and he shouldn't hide that in fear of getting hurt.

as for his grandfather, he seems to be a bit better now (according to what he posted yesterday), so that's good. obviously the initial shock is a lot. so i hope he eventually goes home to see family and is around them for love and support.

and i pray that next year is nicer to him.

[serendipity-flow]

Jikook domestic & small moments

The most I read about it, the most I belive Jikook’s real, or, at least, their conection is special & different af. That being said, I was watchin RUN! BTS yesterday and spot some domestic and hella cute Jikook moment that I wanted to share.

The theory is that Jikook been together since 2015-2016, which means that they are a couple for 5-6 years and because of that, their relationship is stable and domestic.

Its episode 152/153: https://youtu.be/f1ifFiiYiiY

This ep is fun, adorable, amazing, and we can see Tae singing like a angel. The game starts at ep 152, and around 24 minutes, they have to change seats. JK keeps his, Jimin was seated on the last spot in leflt and he had to change. Jimin doesnt actually complains about changing, his words were “i think my seat is great.” and thats it. Then this happens:

JK FACE.

Here we can see JM changing seats with Tae so he can seat side by side with JK. It doesnt seems much, but wai for it.

They forgot the lyrics - again - and talk about a hint. JK reaction:

  JM:

None of them wanted to change sits, but JM & JK was really unsure about changing positions. Jikook was the center f this decision.

 They both said his seats were amazing, and now they dont want to change it? Just because you’re seating near? I mean....

They keep siging Black Rubber Shoes. Jimins part is kind of romantic. When it comes to it, JK turns at him, he turns at JK and sings looking at him:

I wasnt convinced that he was singing TO him, but I keept watching (cause tis ep. is ADORABLE). But again, JK turns to him and he sings looking at him, the same lyrics.

JK didnt get it LOL.

And again:

They even get closer.  Finally JK, finally! At the end, JK looks at Jin to see if he was about to mess up again.

I THINK THAT WAS SO CUTE

NOTE: Why I think JM part is romantic: we hated it, we loved it, we resented it. Thats about a strong - surreal, as the lyrics says - story. I dont think -if they are together - that their story was or it is easy. As I said in another post, I’m pretty sure the had a fight before de FESTA 2021 prologue recording, we know they had some considerable fights all over the years. We know that, if its true, two idols with a romantic (and secret) bound...Thats exremely hard to handle. I’m sure that they have resentments. IF you’re in a stable relantionship, I’m sure you can see yourself in this quote. The game changes. V sings “Drunken Truth”, its a really beautiful song and he sang so well, oh my Tae! They are all seated, singing, just vibing, and this small moment happen whe Tae sings “ But as the night becomes light I will hold you in my arms once again, “. (I dont speak korean, but the next line is “and tell you that I love you”, camera on Tae beautiful face) JM glances at JK for a couple of seconds while he was singing:

JM does not glance at anyone in any moment, besides JK. 

OK, lets keep going. Jin sangs “Wild Flower”, Jikook sings the chorus together - which is cute -, then J-Hope sings Gangam style and they start to dancing together and again, do the chorus, which was extremely fun to watch. JK, JM e RM dancing and JH singing is just hilarious, I loved that. Jikook literally are coping each other moves, spining in the same moment and etc, extremely cute.

JK sings next a song called “I love you” and we dont see much here, we can see JM looking at him, singing together but theres no focus on his face, even when he calls JK name. What can I say right...

Next song is Butter and Jimin sings, but he gets a low score and gets upset.

JK claps and laughs cause... Bickering. The cameras goes to Tae but gets back and...  

JK comforts him boyfriend style, and stay with his hand besides him for a while. ITS JUST TO CUTE AND DOMESTIC FOR ME. “I was just kidding, you did amazing” vibe. He could just keeping on bickery him like all the others did, but no, he had to make Jimin know that he was joking around. My gf does that, a lot. 

Those small moments that makes me think theres something there. The way Jimin looks at JK when he sing about romantic stuff, how JK supports him when he got upset by a joke, its just to cute for me to handle.

Watching RUN BTS or ITS knowing what I’ve learn about their history, how they got closer, then got loud, and all the small things that keeps conecting them in a really strong way, makes me look different at small gestures like that. If the theory is right, and they are together romantically, this kind of stuff just make it obvious, cause its not that much of friendly behavior. Or I’m being delusional. But y’know... I post my thoughts here, you’re free to desagree, just respect that.

[thoughts-on-bangtan]

Let’s talk: Vlive Asks and comment/chat discussions

From @cottoncandykings​: Hello! As u probably know jimin just went live recently and again he mentioned mandaggo and discussing about doing it with tae. I just find it so weird though. I mean jimin keeps constantly mentioning it and its not like vminnies were begging or dying for a vmin live everyday even before jimin mentioned it last year. Even now most including myself dont really care that much ofc i m happy if they do one together. But the way jimin keeps mentioning it is so weird. Like surely if he wanted to do it so badly he could have talked to tae privately and arranged it by now. And if tae is the one that doesnt want to do it then idk why jimin is pushing it. But what was really weird to me this time was that he said there were lots of comments about mandaggo yesterday in zoom call and yet they didnt mention it yesterday but suddenly today without prompting he talks about it. I also hope no one spammed the zoom call chat or the vlive chat with requests for vmin live (i didnt see any) bcoz thats just unnecessary and demanding. I hope vminnies wont demand/ ask for another memeber when one of them is live. Its just disrespectful. This turned into a rant sorry. Do you think it was weird too?

Since Admin 2 can’t type their thoughts themselves, I’ll relay their thoughts to you instead, since they had more thoughts/opinions/ideas in regard to this than I do, to be honest.

Admin 2 is sure that there is a good chance that we will get a vmin vlive sometime soon, which I know contradicts their original opinion and post from a few months ago, but there’s a reason for it. During the zoom meeting between BTS and ARMY they noticed something I don’t think anyone else noticed, or at least neither of us has seen any vminnies mention it anywhere, which in conjunction with Jimin’s vlive today and saying how he’d talk to Tae about doing a mandaggo vlive again, as well as another observation a little while ago, leads them to this conclusion.

So, the observation from the zoom meeting. Basically at one point when the question of Jimin doing a vlive arose Tae looks at Jimin and then he nods while smiling which in turn makes Jimin smile as he turns away from Tae and back to face toward the camera before answering the question and saying how he’ll come visit us the next day. Which he did.

Then the other observation from a while ago, this one being from their OT7 vlive celebrating their BBH100 #1 on June 29th where at one point Jimin says something but slips into satoori after which Tae encourages him to say that again but this time in the Seoul accent, so the way they actually should speak, which Jimin says isn’t difficult but he doesn’t actually end up repeating what he said.

And lastly in today’s vlive Jimin mentioned how he’s using satoori quite often but that he isn’t all that good at doing it on command or at teaching it to others, which is something he’d have to do for mandaggo but I’m sure he’d manage just fine if the time came for it.

Based on that Admin 2′s thoughts are basically that Jimin really meant it when he said, last year, that he’ll bring Tae around for a vlive, that it wasn’t a joke or a way to tease us with something he knew he wouldn’t be able to deliver, but rather that up until this point they weren’t quite sure how to do it. Which sounds a bit odd, I know, but what they mean is that if vmin were to just sit down in front of the camera and were supposed to just talk based on what the chat would give them, it would likely just turn out awkward and weird and no one, including them, would really have fun. Even more so when we take into account how idiotic the chat is during regular vlives so now imagine if those two were to do one together that’s just a casual chat. It would likely end up in disaster and honestly I wouldn’t wish it upon them to read all those awful comments that they would likely get, even worse ones than they already get normally, to be honest.

But now that the whole satoori thing was brought up, and Jimin actually mentioned mandaggo and wanting to bring it back after so many years, Admin 2 thinks that they must’ve finally figured out a solution to their problem, if you can call it that. Doing mandaggo would basically mean they would have an activity, something to do similar to how they did those ASMR videos for the Japanese Fan Club which were fun and cute, and so Admin 2 thinks that perhaps chances are we will finally get the vlive we’ve waited for so long (though like many others I’ve long given up the idea).

Another confirmation is that during his vlive today Jimin basically said that he only came by for a little while since they are quite busy and had to soon get ready for work with the other members but that he’ll return in two or three weeks for a more proper, longer, vlive. So, he could’ve treated today’s vlive as the promised one but instead he saw it more as a bridging one between the zoom meeting and the proper vlive he wants to do, so is it the farfetched to think that he had proper plans for a vlive, like doing mandaggo, but it just wouldn’t have worked out time wise today so he moved the actual vlive he wanted to make to a later date?

One last thing (well two actually) that has nothing to do with this question but Admin 2 wanted me to include it anyway is that one, have you noticed how Tae and Jimin were both on weverse around 3 am (until almost 4am (also both of them posting a comment to some post at 03:41 am KST)) one after the other (though with one day of a break in between them) recently and then also two, that Jimin was up until like 6 am (since he posted on weverse around that time) on the 8th and then during the zoom meeting Tae answered a question by saying that he’d been awake until 6 am the previous day (also the 8th) since he wanted to see the sunrise? Which is also something an anon mentioned to us. Curious, isn’t it?

From anon: I request both admins to please post this ask. So jimin wwnt live today and one of the accounts on twt posted a screen cap of them commenting 'touch your hair if vmin is real' in the live chat and jimin's reaction to it. Now idk if it is an edit or real. No matter i just want to say its not ok to bring up ships in front of the members no matter which ship it is. We dont know the reality of their relationship so lets not make them uncomfortable. Its not a joke. Its not funny. Be respectful the members are real people.

(Admin 1 taking over from this point onward) This ask nicely ties into the last one that’ll be further down in this post since they cover a similar issue of sorts. But let’s start with this one asking about, essentially, vlive comments and the things fans ask/comment, which also ties in with the above ask as well.

The thing with the vlive chat, and especially comments/questions that are like anon said, questions or “commands/requests” about touch your hair if XYZ ship is real or cough twice if you love XYZ member or, likewise, comments such as where is XYZ member or what are the other members doing, unfortunately those have been a steady and unchanging part of the vlive chat since basically forever. It’s been an issue on and off with different intensities though I feel like it’s gotten worse again this year. Particularly if we look back at the vlive Tae did with Hobi and Yoongi and how essentially the entire chat was filled with comments related to Xkook and not much else.

If my memory doesn’t fail me we once even had a situation some years ago (2016) where the chat during Hobi’s vlive was so bad, as in so full of questions about that other members instead of him, that you could see he was upset about it and eventually he handed over the vlive to Jimin, whom the chat had requested Hobi to visit, and Hobi just left. And I can’t blame him for it since the chat must’ve made him feel like basically no one cared about him so what was even the point of him being there, right?

Personally I’ve long given up looking at the comments during vlive because they just make me cringe and feel bad for the members, especially when I think back to vlives such as Yoongi’s D2 one last year where he was so excited to talk about the songs and the process of making the mixtape and yet so many of the comments were just unrelated nonsense and annoying request like speak english or can you say my name or say hello in XYZ language. If it makes me question why the people posting those questions are in the chat, why they are fans to begin with, imagine what the members must feel like, how discouraging that must feel like. After all they are musicians and yet so rarely do they get questions about that. Or rather they do get them but they are just drowned out by nonsense. Which is a shame. And also very disrespectful but any attempts that were made to remind people to be respectful, to remember their place as fans, to focus on the member that’s doing the vlive instead of asking about the others, and to keep ships away from the members have failed because some don’t care and will continue to not care.

From anon: what are your opinions on the Qs that were asked during that zoom meeting thing between BTS and ARMY?

Now I’d like to preface my answer to this last question by saying that by no means do my grievances come from a place of jealousy or anything. I’m very happy for all the ARMYs that won their spot, that they got to participate in the event and that BTS got to see ARMYs again even if only on screens and not in person still. No, my issue stems from something completely different, and I don’t want to say that the system chose the wrong people, because that would be mean and also who even knows how the winners were chosen, if it was pure luck or there were some actual criteria that went into the process, but the fact is that only a select 200 ARMYs got that spot out of however many that applied, so basically for some this was a once in a lifetime chance, right, even just getting this close to asking Bangtan a question and have really great chances of having them give you an answer while acknowledging you somewhat instead of just seeing pure words on a screen, you know what I mean?

Now imagine you are one of those 200 ARMYs and you get the chance to fill the chat with questions along with the other 49 participants of your session and you decide that asking questions such as what it’s like for Jimin to work as angel, if Namjoon ever broke a bicycle, or why JK smells the crowns of the other members heads? Or even worse, you decide to ask about JKs shower routine and in which order he washes his body? And sure, the “fault” doesn’t fall completely on the ARMYs alone, after all it’s the members who read out those questions and not some magical off screen entity, and since I wasn’t part of the event I can’t say with a hundred percent certainty that no one asked any “proper” questions, but if those were the questions that ended up being read out loud, is it that hard to guess that likely all the questions looked similarly? 

Which brings me to my main grievance of it all: have you forgotten that you are fans of musicians and not reality TV stars or vloggers/influencers? I know there were likely no rules for what questions you could or couldn’t ask (except for probably ones that were 100% about shipping or far too personal), but really, you get to ask your favorite band a question, something you might never, ever get the chance to do again, and your first thought isn’t to ask about their music but instead about some unimportant nonsense like the angel question or if they differentiate between the clothes they wear at home and those they sleep in? Like sure the angel one was kinda funny, maybe, and Jimin handled it in a cute way, I applaud him for it, but was that really necessary?

I know someone asked JK about Decalcomania, as well as Tae about his mixtape, and Yoongi/Jimin about Tony Montana (season 2), but other than that were there any other questions about their music? Perhaps I’m overthinking things, maybe I’m exaggerating and maybe I’m the only one who sees an issue with this, but if I would’ve won a spot, I’d rather have asked something about their process when writing lyrics or creating beats or how they prepare when learning new choreographies, what it’s like to be on tour (though perhaps that would be a mean question seeing as tours aren’t really something that’ll continue being possible for a while still), you get the point.

It makes me wonder if it was just bad luck or if it had something to do with how old the participants were (I saw some being as young as fifteen), which isn’t to say that teens can’t ask smart questions because they definitely can just like adults can ask stupid ones as well, but somewhere something, in my opinion, just went weirdly. And maybe that was the point of it all, for the event to be casual, funny, lighthearted, but my question then is when is the time for music discussions? For fans to ask those types of questions that actually have something to do with the boys careers? When even journalists aren’t asking them proper questions, ARMYs aren’t either, so what is the point of it all then?

Then again, after the event concluded and Seokjin came onto vlive he seemed so happy and excited, so maybe they had fun (I mean they seemed to have fun) and didn’t mind at all that the questions were lighthearted and silly, maybe I’m the one making mountains out of molehills. I don’t know, but anon wanted to know my thoughts/opinions, and this is them. Once again, I don’t mean to be mean toward the ARMYs that got rightfully in, that won, and I don’t want to insult them for the questions they asked, perhaps I just expected/hoped for something a little different? And perhaps I’m the only one. I don’t know. 

[okarawrites]

I’m glad you were born (repost_

Heres a repost of the little fic I wrote and posted yesterday (but the tags didnt work)

Happy Birthday Vincent Valentine!

Even though you had known him for years, he had never told any of you when his birthday was. When you had asked him in the past, he would simply change the subject.

Over the last few years since meteor fall, the two of you had become close. So much so that you found yourself falling in love with the red clad gunslinger. You don’t really know how the two of you had become friends, let alone started a romantic relationship, but that’s the situation you found yourself in. Not that you would change that for the world.

Vincent had become comfortable with you, showing a side of himself that he kept hidden from the rest of the world. He was a thoughtful man, who, behind the cold exterior had a devilish sense of humour. There was only one thing he kept from you, and that was his birthday.

You decided to take matters into your own hands. It was time to get Reeve involved. “What can I do for you Y/N?” He asked as you walked into his office at the WRO. “I need to see Vincent’s file.” you said, taking a seat. Reeve looked over at you a bit confused, “Well there’s a small issue of employer and employee confidentiality. What do you need it for?”

“I just need to know when his birthday is.” Reeve looked a little surprised at your request. “I suppose suggesting you ask him is out of the question. Well that will definitely be in there. I’ll get back to you by the end of the day.” You stood up with a smile “Thanks Reeve.” you said and you turned to leave. Just before you closed the door of his office behind you, you turned back to him “Oh and maybe don’t mention it” Reeve laughed lightly “Of course”

Later that day, you had just put dinner into the oven. You and Vincent had recently moved into a small house on the outskirts of Kalm. The house was a bit of a jobsite at the minute, but you were both slowly working your way through doing up each room. Vincent was upstairs painting the second bedroom when your phone buzzed. It was Reeve ‘October 13th’. It took a you a moment to realise that that was todays date. ‘shit, I wanted to do something nice’ you thought to yourself.

You quickly cleared off the small dining room table you had. You had recently bought a new table cloth that you had yet to open, so you ripped open the plastic covering and laid it out. You had a small garden that was framed by various plants, so you cut a few roses and placed them in a glass of water and placed them next to a candle in the centre of the table.

You poured out two glasses of red wine and tried your best to make the pasta bake you had made look fancy. The table was ready. “Vincent!” you called up the stairs “Dinners on the table” Vincent made his way done the stairs. His hair was tied up out of his face and there was a small paint stain on his black top. He paused when he got into the dining room “What’s all this?” he asked, a smile ghosting his lips.

“Come on, sit down. It’ll get cold” you said pushing him to the chair. You sat opposite him and watched him look at the little details you had laid out. “This is lovely, thank you. May I ask what the occasion is?” he asked again, still curious as to why you had put in this extra effort for a Thursday night dinner. “Well I just wanted to thank you for being so wonderful, and to tell you I’m glad you were born.” Vincent’s smile grew a little and he looked down a little shaking his head before looking back to you. “I love you so much Y/N”

[captain-jinguji]

hello! i saw you did QN react to wet dreams and then STARISH. is it possible for HEAVENS' reactions by now >w

Somebody asked for this yesterday after i posted STARISH and the only reason i havent gotten to it yet was becausr I ran out of dream ideas 😤😂

WARNING: NSFW, SLIGHT SMUT, SINFUL THINGS.

HEAVENS reacting to having a wet dream about their crush

Yamato:

Seeing you in your workout clothes earlier that day really did some things to him. Those squads, those shoulder muscles working, even you running on the treadmill; it was just so awfully attractive.

Apparently his mind decided that that workout was not over yet and in his mind, he returned to the gym. Except this time, you werent sitting on the bench and curling your biceps with weights. No. You were laying on the bench while he thrusted into you, shaking the small piece of equipment with every go.

He was praising you, telling you to hold on so he could come undone with you and right as his climax hit, his alarm clock went off, pulling him back into reality.

Feeling the stickiness against his bedsheets, he groaned and hit snooze on the alarm. At least he got to finish.

Eiichi:

He cant help but admit that you were the center piece of all his fantasies lately and he felt no shame in that. What you didnt know wouldn't hurt you, right?

But right now you were tied up against his bed, helpless and vulnerable, begging him to stop teasing you. And he couldn't help but give in, especially when you looked so hot at his mercy.

He could feel his length slowly entering you, your walls welcoming him inside with a feeling of pleasure and he groaned at the feeling. His body was rolling his hips into the air but the sensation was real nonetheless

Being the asshole that he is, he just had to tease your pearl and could feel your walla clenching around his length, driving him closer and closer to the edge and...

He jolted up right right as his dick spurted out his orgasm, moaning slightly and feeling his semen hit his chest. You're going to be the death of him, angel.

Shion:

It was way too late in the night and he had already been sleeping less and less, and you know what they say when you; when you get less sleep your mind comes up with some crazy things.

That crazy thing right now was your pretty little head bopping up and down on his length while his hands grasped at your hair. He was sprawled out on the bed, legs open for you for easier access and he could feel every suck, every swallow around him.

His hands rubbed over his clothed erection, fondling with his balls while he felt dream you's tongue run over them. God it felt so good, but he needed more.

His hips thrusted in the air, trying to get that sensation of his tip hitting the back of your throat and he swore he did right before he came undone.

Subconsciously, he stroked out his orgasm and continued to sleep peacefully. It was exhausting being around you like this.

Van:

It was definitely that fiery kiss you two shared earlier that night, blaming it on the alcohol that was consumed hours earlier and the sexual frustration that was build up over the years.

Right now he was back at your house. You were pressed up against the bedroom door, his lips devouring yours hungrily, with way too much need and power, while his hips thrusted into yours. Your body was supported by his hands on your ass, squeezing ever so slightly with every moan that escaped your lips.

He was so close, so hot, and then your lips found his neck and he knew he couldnt last long; only aware the cry of your own orgasm and the slick walls clenching against his cock. He groaned, giving one more hard thrust before he, too, came undone.

He woke up panting, retrieving his hand that had made its way into his boxer shorts. He could feel the slickness of his semen against it and let out a little frustrated whine. Maybe he should've stayed the night at yours.

Eiji:

Eiji wanted to treasure you in so many ways. Like a precious flower being kept alive on the dining room table for everyone to admire. You were his special flower, and his body desired for him to show that.

You were laying on his bed; soft white sheets surrounding you while he placed loving kisses over your body: feather light, but feverish nonetheless. Your back arched from the bed while his mouth latched itself onto your pelvic area, teasing ever so slightly with his tongue while your soft moans and whimpers send signals straight to his own core. He loved pleasuring you.

Hips hips crushed against the mattress with every stroke of his tongue, every encouraging push you gave with your hand against his head, needing him to go deeper. Give you more. And he happily obliged.

He moved with you; slowly, sensually, until you came with a whisper of his name and he, too, couldn't take it anymore.

Gasping into the night, his eyes slowly opened and he could feel the mess in his Pjs, slowly rising to get rid of it. He sighed; he just wants to worship you.

Nagi:

You were such a tease. Always nagging with him, always fighting with him; all in good humor of course. But it was getting so bothersome for him. He's young. His hormones are already crazy. You're just making it worse.

He could feel you grinding against him right now, needing to feel just as much friction as he needs to feel from you and he groaned. Open mouthed kisses were becoming to sloppy and both of you pulled away in a haze, only your hips moving.

You whined against his ear, sending attraction right into his dick while he breathed out a shaky moan. He cant keep doing this with you, but it feels so good...

His hips bucked into the mattress, feeling your slickness against his own. Except that it wasn't. It was just his own orgasm washing over him.

He jolted awake and groaned in annoyance, looking down at himself with a flushed face. You're so bothersome.

Kira:

Kira doesnt express many emotions, you knew that, and that was fine by you. You liked his quiet side all the same. Maybe thats why he latched himself onto you, relied on you so heavily. He didn't need you, no, but he wanted you.

Seeing your head thrown back in ecstasy while your naked form was sitting up on his lap, your hands gripping his shoulders for support, was so enticing. He needed more.

His hips matched yours, thrusting upward while you grinded down on him and filled his ears with moans. He groaned against the skin of your neck, his lips latching onto you and kissing every spot ever so delicately. He could hear your voice calling out his name in soft shudders and his thrusts became uncoordinated.

Kira came, panting into the night air while he came down from his high. He couldn't still feel the weight on top of him, rolling against him as he rode it out. How can he face you when he really wants to know what you feel like?

[emerxshiu]

Elfilis for valentines :3

did on y'all but im back, hopefully i'll post for a few more days before i dissapear again

anyways have a drawing of my wife

with text

i actually wanted to draw kirfluff but my need to draw elfilis took over and my hands and back hurt like hell so i didnt draw the rest of stuff i wanted. maybe i could draw it later or tomorrow but im posting this now before i fall asleep or something and dont post.

It was also an excuse to draw the redesign of my fecto gijinka i had made a few weeks ago so, yeah it was fun.

Tho i might make some adjustments to my gijinka if i see fit. also in this drawing he has some differences from the actual gijinka, mainly, the little hearts arent like that in my gijinka and the bangs here have been tied up because i wasnt feeling like drawing them since theyre really long. also the lashes, but here i kinda tried doing their eyes differently and then colored them so i might make my lis gijinka have his eyes like this or change them, im not sure.

tho the more i look at the drawing, the more dissatisfied i become, i mean i did it yesterday around night and stuff so i didnt really think that much about it, (it took around seven hours and i finished it at like 1 am, i definitly wasnt the most concious at that time) but i feel like something is missing i dunno

maybe its the coloring, i had to remake the shading a lot of times since i didnt know how to do it, my style is really inconsistent a lot of times, going from cell shading to soft shading to mixing them both and so on so forth with a lot more of that.

i do have a sketch with some half finished lineart i did of one of the ideas i had (i was originally going to do more pieces with more characters but i didnt go trough it cuz i knew i wouldnt be able to do it in time) but im too embarassed of it to post it

and even tho i complained, i still kinda like this drawing

(small edit i did)

next post is either one about a gijinka i have almost finished of an obscure kirby character i decided to adopt into an oc or a splatoon post following the fresh season 2024 and side order trailers, (fun fact side order releases just a few days before my birth day! im eating good with nintendo just like last year (last year was wave 1 of the dlc and return to dreamland deluxe))

Now im going to take a break after posting this on my other accounts and then later fight fecto elfilis (i do this almost every month sooo) and then grind my catlogue to get it to 100 before the next season starts

Jambuhbye!

(fuck i just remembered i wanted to talk about a silly headcanon i made for lis while drawing this but i forgot and i dont want to write more ahhhh)

[lia-the-potato05]

I want tickles

Reader (Ler) x Taehyung (Lee)

Description: Taehyung wants to be tickled so badly. And happens to find you a good Ler for him.

Author: This was supposed to be posted yesterday but I was busy with other stuff yeh without further a do let's get on with this. Sorry if its not so written well, I didnt had a lot of motivation while writing this.

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It was a normal day for Kim Taehyung who was chilling in the living room scrolling down tumblr where he secretly owns a tickle blog. He was in lee mood at the moment after a couples teases thrown at him by his followers

I need tickles. He pouted, staring at the ceiling.

"SAHAHAHAHAVEE MEHAHAHAHA!" All of a sudden he heard a familiar laugh coming from a certain room.

As curiosity took over him he stood up making his way to where the laughing sound was coming from. When he did, he saw Jungkook with his hands pinned above his head by Jimin and you scribbling your fingers on his armpits

"Y/N HAHAHAHA STOHOHOP!" Jungkook screamed in laughter

Taehyung felt his face burning red feeling awkward with the sight infront of him.

"Oh hey Taehyung" You stopped tickling Jungkook and looked at Taehyung who was standing by the door way

"W-what are you doing?" Taehyung asked

"Tickling Jungkook, his been a brat and needs to be punished" You said

"But I said sorry!" Jungkook whined

"Shush! You know that's not how it works, Jimin continue tickling his armpits I'm going for his tummy"

"With pleasure" Jimin grinned as he sat on Jungkook's arms, beginning to skitter his cute fingers all over his hallows

"NOHOHOHOHOHOHO TAEHUHUHUYUNNGG HEHEHELPPP" Taehyung awkwardly looked at Jungkook being wrecked right there right infront of him. Oh how much he envies the younger one

"Yah Taehyung why don't you help us, His feet are available" You suggested

"I-I'm fine guys...I'll just...uhmmm...get water, I'm thirsty. Bye!" With that Taehyung left the scene not wanting to witness more of it

He was at the kitchen drinking a glass of water. He placed the glass down and cupped his cheeks which were still burning from what happened earlier.

"Ah stop it Taehyung ah" He said to himself, lightly patting his cheeks

"Stop what Taehyung?" Taehyung turned around, startled to see you standing behind

"Y-Y/N hey...Didn't see you there" He let out a nervous laugh "Uhmm weren't you just punishing Jungkook or something?"

"Jimin got that covered, I left my phone outside and was gonna record them because they look so cute. But then I heard you talking to yourself just wanna check if your ok"

"Everything's fine, no need to worry about me" You narrowed your eyes at Taehyung not believing what his saying but decided to let it slide for now

"Ok then...I'll go get my phone now" After you left Taehyung alone in the Kitchen he let out a sigh of relief

He took out his phone and went to tumblr wanting to post a rant

I have this female friend I'm really close with. And as far as I know she is really a good ler. I've seen her wrecked my friends before and boy she wrecked them good. I wanted her to tickle me too but I doubt she knows my love for tickling. I want to tell her but I don't know how I need help😭

A few minutes after he posted that. It was flooded with his followers simply telling him to just ask you and not to be scared about it "Aish! But it's not that simple" He frowned.

For the whole day he couldn't help but recall the moment wherein you tickled the crap out of Jungkook, imaging himself being in Jungkook's place

•••

A week has passed since that incident. Right now Taehyung was in the middle of finding his phone because somehow he lost it "Aish where is it?" He checked his bed, his nightstand, his desk but its nowhere to be found. He is starting to panick as he ruffled his hair in frustration

"Looking for this?" Taehyung turned to your direction, seeing you leaning on the doorway waving his phone in front of him

"Yes! Thanks Y/N!" Taehyung smiled in relief as he was approaching you to get his phone back

"Wait" You hid his phone behind your back "You know your phone has very interesting information" Taehyung looked at you in confusion

"How interesting of you to have a tumblr account" Taehyung's eyes widened

"Give me back my phone!" Taehyung tried to reach your phone behind your back but you ran to his bed

"You know your password isn't hard to guess, Your birthday really?" Taehyung's face blushed in embarrassment

"I said give me back my phone!" Taehyung ran to you and you were able to dodge him

"You know that one post of yours has piqued my interest, I wonder who that female friend of yours you wanted to be tickled by so badly" You teased the flustered male as he tried getting his phone back from you

"Y/N! Stop that! Just give me my phone!" Your little game of tag has continued on until Taehyung has you pinned on his bed, successfully getting his phone back from you

"You know Taehyung, I don't often assume too much but it felt like that femal friend your referring to is Me" You smirked at Taehyung who couldn't stop blushing

Taehyung tried opening his mouth trying to find something to say to escape from this embarrassing situation but what you said is true afterall.

"So I'm right aren't I?" You were having so much fun teasing Taehyung. You then decided why not give him what he wants?. You started jabbing your fingers into his sides making him collapsed right next to him. You took this chance and sat on his stomach "Oh Taehyung we are gonna have so much fun"

You started skittering your finger nails around his soft tummy. "Y/N Hahahaahahahahahahaha" His cute giggles escaping his pretty lips

"You like that Tae? Hmm? you seem to enjoy it so much"

"S-stohohohohohop" Taehyung grabbed your wrist trying to push them away

"You said you wanted this, don't you dare waste such good opportunity" You grabbed both Taehyung's wrist pinning them above his head. It was good he decided not to fight against it.

You suddenly got an idea in your head "Hey Tae I got a challenge for you and I don't take no as an answer" Taehyung looked at you and gulped, without bothering to let him reply you continued on "I want you to keep your arms up and you have to keep them up for at least 5 minutes if not I'm gonna add another 5 minutes understand?" Taehyung slowly nodded his head "Good"

You slipped your hands inside his shirt and wiggled your fingers on his armpits. "ehehehehehehehehe" Taehyung giggled as bit his lip trying his very best to keep his arms up "Y/N hahahahahahahaha"

"Yes Tae laugh for me, your doing good" You started wiggling your fingers up and down his armpits and into his hallows

"Ihihihihihihitt tihihihihickless sohohohohoho muhuhuhucchhh" His eyes now were tightly shut and now his head waz shaking side to side Cute you thought.

It has been 2 minutes so you decide to take this up a notch and go for his weak spot which you remembered he mentioned in one of his posts. You then went and attack his hipbone using your thumbs drilling into the spot. Successfully you got Taehyung to put his hands down. Realising what he did he widened his eyes as you smirked at him "Uh oh taehyung has put his arms down and it hasn't been 5 minutes you know what that means?" You went and get a thin rope and tied his hands to the head of the bed "Oh how much fun I'm gonna have with you"

You attacked his hips once again wiggling your fingers on that area.

"Y/N! NOHOHOHOHOHOHO!" Taehyung shrieked kicking his legs as he was left with no choice but to endure the ticklish sensation

"Y/N Yes~" You teased, tickling his hips for a total of 8 minutes now. After that you were kind enough to give Taehyung a break

"Did you enjoy it tae bear?" You asked stroking his soft hair

"I sure did" Taehyung smiled still panting from earlier.

"You know, there's nothing wrong approaching me with this kind of topic I am your friend after all and I'd love to have a daily tickle session with you"

"Yeah I know, thanks"

"No problem" You patted his head "But I'm not ending the session without one thing" You grinned

"W-what is it?" Taehyung curiously asked

"This!" You blew a raspberry on his soft tummy earning girly like squeals from him. You chuckled at the cute reaction and blew a few more raspberries before you finally finished. You untied Taehyung's wrists and ruffled his hair

"You're so cute tae bear"

[pbandjesse]

James just said that he hopes it is easier for me to get to sleep tonight, and while I also hope this, I do not have much expectations of that actually happening. 

I could not fall asleep last night. It sucked. I couldnt get comfortable. I couldnt turn my brain off. It just wasnt a good time. He woke up around 2 and was like. Have you slept at all?? And I had to be like. Nope! And then didnt fall asleep for at least another hour. It wasnt fun.

He woke me up at 8 like I asked. And it was hard to get up but not as bad as some days. I got washed and dressed and soon enough we were in the car. Which we had apparently forgotten to lock again because someone had dumped all our sauces on the seats. Thankfully we dont keep anything of value in there. Though they might have taken our umbrellas? Eh. They must have needed it. 

We did have a slight problem of not having an ice scraper still since we lost our old one. So James was trying to get the ice off with his hands and it was making me laugh real hard but then a neighbor came over with theirs and helped out. People are nice. 

We went to the hospital for our covid test. This is James's third test and my first. I was nervous but only a little. It wasnt painful though. James says that they dont go as deep in your sinus anymore, and so while it felt weird, it wasnt even as bad as a strep test. I had that done once when I was a kid and I still remember how much that one sucked. Though after we pulled away from the nurse I sneezed 6 times in quick succession. 

We headed home and the plan was for me to sleep but that never happened. I tried a few times today but it just didnt work. So I did get some stuff accomplished today. I even had a little bit of mail! My goldfish shirt came, as well as the masks Jess made me to sell. And I worked in the studio a bunch today. Not just on my normal things, but on some other experiments. It was fun. I had a nice time. 

I played a little animal crossing though. And did some cleaning. I laid in bed for to long watching videos but I never slept. I tried to just have a nice day, but its hard. 

I also played around with crochet again. I had started that yesterday and then took that apart and started a new two more times. Its good practice for something I havent done in a long time. 

And Yo!! I have to stop tis post all of a sudden because ad I was typing I got my covid test and I'm negative! Christmas is saved! Now we just wait for James's results. Man that was a fast turn around on that test. I feel good now. Safer. Maybe I will actually sleep. 

The rest of today has been nice though. We worked on the train. Yes I spray painted in our living room to make it look like the mountain had snow. We just spent time together and it was really nice. Its been a good day. 

We just got off a call with Lane and Dante and some other friends. Lane gave us a powerpoint presentation that makes me want to spent some time working on my art history one I didnt finish. Its mostly pictures that I need and a few slides of info about general history stuff. That might be fun for tomorrow. 

But now I am in a good mood. And ready to take a shower and wash off my stress and try to actually sleep. 

I hope you all have a great night and a wonderful tomorrow. Take care of eachother! 

[seonfhwa]

hello friends! tis your favorite (or not) mingi stan, here with her first follow forever! 

recently, i hit the big milestone of 1,000 followers, something i never thought would happen! really, i want to thank all of you for following me, for supporting my content, for being a part of this mess of a blog. 

to those who came on over after i remade, and to those who only started following me yesterday, i love you all from the bottom of my heart.

click for some more fun things for my moots! (it gets long, i’m so sorry)!

i was thinking of doing something special, but i don’t know to what extent i could really do for all of you guys ;; if there’s anything you want (a lil blurb, a moodboard, a smol gifset) just let me know! this part’s only for mutuals, though, so keep that in mind. i don’t know how quick i can get all of the stuff done, but i would definitely do anything for you guys!!

for my mutuals, i’ve written each of you a little message. some may be shorter than others, but know that my love is overflowing and unending even if i may not be good with words!! also this isn’t really in any specific order!

@smol-joong 🌟 miss anett... i have a whole lot to say (if i say all of it we’ll be here forever), but honestly the main thing is... you’re my number one. you’re the sweetest, the most lovely, the most heartwarming. you’re someone i can count on no matter what, whether i need a pick me up or just attention. i love you, i truly truly do, and you always know how to make me happy. thank you for being my friend, for letting me love you, and for always being there for me!

@cherryjoong 🌟 maggie!! you’re honestly the sweetest bean, the most relatable human i’ve ever met. you were one of my first mutuals who really ever spoke to me, and i will forever hold you in a special place in my heart. you’re another person who’s always there for me, who really deserves the whole wide world. thank you for having such a big, caring heart.

@honeyboysan 🌟 jules, darling jules. frankly, you’re one of my first friends on this hellsite. you know how my first thing to you was me going “i poked around on your blog for a while before finally following you”? im just a big babey and you’re one of the most lovely people in the world. i’m really glad we’re friends, that i was able to meet someone like you. you make my heart happy, and you deserve all of the happiness in the world. it’s really, really good to see you happy.

@heoneyology 🌟 miss rainah!!! everyone always says you’re the mom type, and i’d have to agree. you’re sweet, you’re loving, you’re charming, and you’re one of the funniest people i know. your love for your biases (especially jooheon, zico, hongjoong, and ravn) makes my heart swell, and whenever i see you on my dash, i just get so happy. not to mention, when you’re happy, i’m happy! thank you for always being there to pick me up when i need it, and for being a ray of sunshine in my dull life.

@multidino 🌟 kimora!!! my multifandom queen!!! honestly, first of all i want to thank you for supporting me in all of my adventures and being one of the first people to help me kickstart my vav blog. second of all-- thank you, for being you. for being a great friend, for being a kind soul, for being one of the best people on this website. you’re doing your best, and that’s what matters!!! i love you so so so so much!!!

@ateezartblog 🌟 hello my sweet pumpkin. how are you today? have you eaten? did you sleep well? are you taking care of yourself? i hope you know how much i care about you!! i know you’re usually the one to come and check up on all of us, but sometimes you need it just as much as we do. please, angel love, remember to take care of yourself, even when you feel like you shouldn’t. you are just as deserving as everyone else, and one day, i hope you can see that. until then, i’ll make sure to remind you all of the time!! i love you lots!!

@wooyuong 🌟 precious angel baby inna!! hello my sweetest beanie baby. frankly, i don’t know how someone like you wanted to be friends with someone like me, but every time we talk i’m like !! that’s her im super blessed bc !! we friends!! you’re super talented, you’re super cute, and pls pls pls always remember that!!! you deserve all good things in the world and i’m so super glad that we talk ;;;

@wangtaeil 🌟 iconic miss bee!! life’s too short to only have one bias, and your words haunt help me to this day!!! i’m really glad i met you, because you’ve kinda sorta been a really big source of inspiration and help for me, especially recently. from feeling shitty about gifs, not wanting to be around, to even needing help with some stuff, i know i can always trust you and confide in you. you’re a talented woman, and you really have so much going for you. and you want to be friends with a lil nugget like me??? i am undeserving but thankful.

@choisansbitch 🌟 upaamaaa!!! now every time i eat a tuna sandwich, i think of you (i eat tuna a lot, so take that... i’m ALWAYS thinking about you). i know when we first started talking, i was nervous because i ??? really didnt feel like i even deserved to talk to you, cause you’re like... super amazing. but i’m so glad we’re friends!! you make some of the best gifs, and even if you don’t think so, i love them so so much!! and you’re honestly one of the sweetest, most relatable people in the world. please never lose your charm, i love you so much.

@missminji 🌟 hARLSS!!!! im still shocked that your super secret detective skills figured me out, but hey!! in the end they helped because now i actually talk to my “redacted” (we all know who redacted is) and i love her sm ;;; we havent been talking too much recently (i think life’s been kicking us rip) but no matter what, i love you, and i love getting to talk to you whenever i can. thank you for being my friend, i don’t deserve someone as lovely as you.

@utopiagf 🌟 you crazy, but ily. that’s it that’s the post-- ehrbgjehb im kidding, there’s so much more. you’re literally one of the most fun, bright, cheery person, and i love seeing you around. i know you just remade (and i was confused bc i was like?? nik??? where she go??) but literally i love love love seeing & talking to you, even if these days i’m still... super intimidated by you. but you’re such a sweetheart, and thank you for blessing me with your presence in my life. uwu

@visualsan 🌟 honestly i need to talk to you more ehjbrhjge every time i talk to anett and we mention you (all good things, of course uwu) i’m like?? why do i not talk to bea more?? literally you seem like such the coolest person, and i love love love seeing you, your gifs, everything uwu so yeah!! pls let’s talk more ilysm!

@prettyseonghwa 🌟 yas, i think you have one of the biggest hearts around here. you are so caring, so loving, and you really need to know that. i love you, really, so so much. thank you for always being there for us, for always giving the best advice and love that we all need. just know!! that you deserve a break too. you deserve all of the love you give-- and more. 

@dreamboyunho 🌟 cami, miss cami, my numba 1!!! you’ve always been someone i adore and cherish with all of my heart, but even recently we connected in a different, probably more personal way. it may not have been the best of circumstances but i’m really glad we did! i treasure you so much, and i’m glad i found someone i can truly confide in. we’re like!! two peas of a pod!! i’m really super duper glad i met you and that i can call you my friend.

@jonghostation 🌟 miss adelle uwu you’re so sweet and precious and we need more jongho stans like you (and more jongho stans in general) in this world!! i love talking to you, though recently i’ve been dead and not really socializing but i really do enjoy seeing you around and getting to talk to you!! you’re such a sweet soul and i love you. recently i saw you said you lowkey wish i was your mom?? c’mere baby you’re my child now uwu thank you for being the sweetest angel. aND I COULD NEVER FORGET YOUR ICONIC URL!!! ATINY LESSGEDDIT!!! DROP THE BEAT YOOOOO!!

@celestial-yunho 🌟 nini, you are literally... so talented. i dont know how i managed to score such a talented, loving, and sweet friend. your art!! is so good and im always really excited to see more of what you do. you’re my lil moon witch, and i love you so so much. thank you for giving me the time of day to get to know you, to be able to say that’s her!! thats nini!! thats my friend uwu you’re so precious and i hope you know that!!

@nctyping 🌟 im gonna be honest idek why i first followed you-- not in a like “ugh why did a follow her,,” i literally just cannot remember why i did. either way, it was one of the best decisions i’ve ever made. you’re one of the sweetest people in the whole world and i love reading what you write. like?? teach me your ways ;;; ily abbey!!

@toothgaptual 🌟 sun sun sunshine sunnie!!! okay, we don’t talk a ton, but i love love love when we do get to interact. you always manage to put a smile on my face, and i looove seeing you on my dash. please never ever think you’re bothersome or annoying, and talk your heart out! ilysm you cutie patootie!

@wonderhwalls 🌟 sweetest little flower, i know we’re more recently mutuals/friends, but i’m really glad i met you. talking to you always makes me feel better, whether its about what we’re doing, gifs, breaks, etc. you’re a voice of reason amidst the mess of this world, and i love being able to talk to you when i need a good pick me up. ily mika!!!

@atiteez 🌟 sonia, i literally think you were the first atiny mutual i ever had. i will always, aLWAYS hold you in a special place in my heart. you’re such a precious soul, and you’re lovely inside and out. i still dunno why you call me a moodboard queen-- i’m not thaaat good at that kinda stuff-- but i love you so much nonetheless. thank you for being my friend and helping me step into atinyblr (even though now we’re dying off).

@wlwrensung 🌟 miSS YUKKIIIII i hope you’re having fun on your trip!!! you’re one of my favorite people in the whole world, and i love love love talking to you. i mean?? someone like you??? wants to be friends with someone like me?? idk what you’re on that you wanna, but pls you’re the best ;;;; thank you for looking on someone like me and deciding “that’s it that’s her i wanna be friends with her” i dont deserve you but im all heart eyes bc i get to be friends with you!!

@shikyus 🌟 im an idiot with a brain the size of a pea and the memory of a goldfish. i love you-- i really do!! you’re one of the only people i clicked with immediately, and that’s kinda rare for me. you’re a sweetheart, you’re one of the most lovely people i’ve met, but you’re so chill and cool!! how do you do it?? honestly i’m really glad i met you, because like??? how often can someone say that they met someone and immediately clicked with them? i mean ok it happens often but !!! im still shocked!!! thank you for being my friend, for being super sweet, and kind, and caring-- a-and hopefully forgiving ;;;; im sorry im a dummy ;;;;;; im a big lovable dummy tho!!!!

and last but not least, miss kiki. i know she’s isnt on tumblr for now, but if she ever sees this... i have so much to say. thank you for being one of my best friends, for being one of the sweetest people in the world. i love you, i love everything about you, and i miss you. thank you for being my friend uwu

some other super awesome mutuals that i don’t have a ton to say about (either because we’re new mutuals or i havent talked to you too much yet) that i love with all my heart nonetheless: @meinyunho @fan-chngchng @ultvisual @seonghwalove @han-seungwoo @kthscenery @yooyonqha @woovoung @sanbotaged -- come talk to me more often!! i love to be bothered uwu

super special shoutout to my 3 starlight buddies who came over here and followed me despite originally knowing nothing about ateez and still supporting, loving, and talking to me: @hakjeon @babieken and @hansanghyuked. my longest standing mutuals, and even annie’s more than just a tumblr mutual-- she’s one of my closest friends. i love you guys ;;

now, i can’t leave a special message for every single one of my followers. hell, tumblr won’t even let me tag every single one of you (stupid tag limit), but know that i still love all of you. if i could (aka if i had time and energy), i’d go down the line and personally message each and every once of you to tell you all the important things.

you are all wonderful, you are all lovely, and i’m truly blessed to have all of you following me. remember to smile, to keep your chin up, because when the world gets going tough, i’m always there to support you! i love you all lots lots lots, whether we do or don’t talk. stay sweet, angels!