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the lesser known did symptom of not knowing anything about your life because not only do you not remember anything (and the memories you Do have are heavily fragmented so you have no idea when they occured), but you also consistently destroy all traces of yourself during dissociative episodes. rip every diary ive tried to keep and almost every social media account. i will never know what i got up to or who i was during those years
i have a spreadsheet i use for documenting memories that turn up before i can forget them again. where i also do my best to estimate what year or season or month they came from. but its all just such a mess. even 2021 onwards which are supposed to be my therapy years are very very patchy. i wish i could just know my life
#kostik speaks#having a moment#is it fucked up that the vast majority of what i can place on my life timeline is directly lifted from the internet archive#where i desperately try to remember old urls and see if any evidence of my existence has been immortalised#just so i can know what i was doing. and who i was. and what i was going through. when.#anyway#im so upset about how much evidence of myself ive destroyed now that im finally trying to put the pieces together#just because i refused to accept that was me and i took it upon myself to delete the old mes from existence#over and over again#because reading what id written and identifying with who i was was immensely dysphoric and distressing#any sort of life history is just. not there#i try very hard but i rely a lot on other people and archives that i cant wipe myself#because otherwise the pieces of my memory just dont work and none of it makes sense#its tough#just had to ask my mother when my grandmother died#it was really not long ago#because it was a significant event. i have a memory fragment of learning the news. i have no idea when it was though#maybe learning the time of year will explain some things. heres to hoping#im venting ignore me#i must have asked her before already but! youll never guess. i forgot#so i asked again and this time ill get it on the spreadsheet#so maybe i can build up a small timeline of that section of the year around that date#thats what im hoping. heres to hoping
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The fucking choking noise I made when I tuned into a podcast for my run and heard a recent favorite actor go, “I’m still on Tumblr, don’t tell anyone.”
#me frantically looking at the date:#‘right this was 2021. what are the odds they still are? I mean. 14 years for MY gay ass. so. soooo.’#'do you look at your own tags? at your character? at your ship? SURELY Not. but i would. so could i even blame you? welcome? sorry? help.'#I’m honestly so much less alarmed at the idea of favorite actors finding me NOW vs the truly horrendous idea#that they might have found me back in like 2011-2015#like. I hate that person. the person who ran my blog back then suuuuucked#which is great cuz it means I’ve grown and matured and experienced life enough to improve#but also like. imagine your favorite actor knowing your tumblr blog from Before#and just loooooathing you#finding out you’re the one writing a ton of fic for their character now and being like ‘THAT one? really?’#'i've had your URL blacklisted since the GLEE DAYS' fucking imagine#anyway. all of this is moot certainly. like there is just no way. it's all good.#but it did make me make the most unholy noise mid-run so thanks for THAT
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At first i thought: you are extremely intense and you stress your self out easily and that you need to chill with remaking constantly.
but after a while i understood you actually you are totally valid and like its non of my business if you remake or not i like you and your content and reblogs enough to hop around behind you from blog to blog! I do hope that you are not stressing yourself out too much though!
skshdkhdkdkd i think it’s quite funny how different people can view this. i’m used to communities where people remake their twitter because they joined a new fandom and wanna start fresh in it, so they could remake multiple times a month. i’ve remade twice in a year and to some people that’s a lot! so so interesting how different people view this …
#fray.txt#ask#anonymous#im glad you think i’m valid now hehe#i don’t wanna be perceived !!#so i don’t like when i gain too many active followers#that’s all#like my first move#was because i went from a tiny 100 follower blog#then changed my url to bg3 and somehow my blog blew up to 2000 in a couple months#and i was receiving death threats for my bg3 opinions and it was just. A LOT. like people would#send me anons trying to get me to comment on drama in the fandom and get involved and i hated it !!#i had no idea what to do with that popularity#so now i just. leave blogs that get too much attention. it makes me anxious#i am simply not cut out for it! i’m used to locked twitter accounts with like 30 followers lol#this is also why i turn my askbox off now because i’m just. i’m scared ? yeah i’m scared
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Always Ready ★ 230506 [cr.]
#yugyeom#kim yugyeom#got7#got7edit#got7daily#malegroupsnet#dailybg#kpopedit#madstual#eritual#kim yugyeom release this song challenge#actually kim yugyeom release anything challenge#anyway#best quality: his wiggles#third gif <33333#also shout out to the op of this fancam for the most stable well lit CENTERED white balanced video i have ever seen#i only had to do 3 adjustment layers god bless#221-224#btw i had no idea i was going to change my url when i made these so idk what im doing w my watermark#it's me though i swear#*lq
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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog#didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move#across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s#so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help#with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the#location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright#colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird#like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the#southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December#it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but#i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and#jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen#im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and#the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier#for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy#but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked#up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents#r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes#better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book#like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭#so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-]#unrelated
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I like how people in the comments of that "tag your traumatizing incest media" post are trying to one-up pr*shippers by going "we're all just saying to tag your works, idk why you're getting so mad" while I'm in the bg having said something like You people talk about coping mechanisms like there are no others.
#someone with the url proshippers-against-censorship went on a frenzy and got combative w a lot of people me included#except what they said was really dumb like ''ficto#''fiction is the TOP way for people to cope'' or something#like wow yeah i had no idea! I've literally never been traumatized myself. difference is i dont go around reading and writing about the#abuse i endured. why? cause it's unhealthy and i deserve better. and you people do too!!! so idk why they want to cling to the whole#''its my maladaptive coping mechanism and you can't say shit to me!'' like you don't deserve to cope in a HEALTHIER way?? in a better way#that actually relieves your pain instead of romanticizes it???#fucking insane the shit theyll get mad at you for man.#I'll rb the post in a moment so you know which one im talking about
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BLAGH !!
#just me hi#BLOOGH#B.LEEGH#i'm excited + happy so i'm getting the Impulses but the Impulses are something that should only be preformed by trained professionals hfvbs#usually i'd just say what i want to do out loud to the dismay of my family lmao#but they're all busy. so i just gotta sit here..................#and i don't wanna say what they are because i do not want to concern random people hbshd#like i'm not gonna DO it. but i would like to :3#i won't though. definitely conforms to my idea of a desirable action atm tho tbh ngl in all honesty with all transparency etc etc etc#/hey why doesn't 'in all honesty' have an acronym (i think it's called acronym) ?#iah. ik we have tbh and ngl but iah is just a nice variant to Have you know?#or like With All Transparency ? oh wait i guess you couldn't do that one hvfsh#wat. wat. hvfhbscd#//oh also been thinking but if i had a nickel for every mutual i have who is a/has 'dragon' in their url i'd have two nickels#which isn't much but i think it's just neat :D#i also get them a little confoosed. my bad hfvshfdc#[waves] hi dragon(1) hfvsbhd :D#//a blooop boop hoop badoop#ohhhhhh shanandoughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i love yer daUGHTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR#aweyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy you rolling revirrrrrrrrrrrrr#oh sssshaNOONNNNNdoughh#i luvb yer dddau ghterrrrrrr#[mumbling.... mumblINNNNGGG.......] [something sooooomethinnnnngggg]#ROLLING RIBEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR-#//i should prolly get myself something to do rn fvhsfbsdc#i have things to be doing and things that are done. but alas lmao
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I feel like one of my friendships isn't equal
#its in different ways for us both#i don't put in as much enthusiasm as they do into when we talk about shows we both like or other stuff we both like#but I still try#but when it comes to talking about me or what I like it's more of near radio silence#and I constantly feel guilty for being a bad friend#like once I rbed a post with a guy mentioned that I had no idea who it was#and they asked others what to do because it hurt that the post was insulting the guy#and they ended up talking to me and telling me it made them feel bad#but that sent me into a spiral#like i became afraid that I was going to accidentally hurt them again because I didn't know they liked something#i wanted validation on my new url and they ended up being uncomfortable with my url#idk it feels like I keep on messing up on being a friend#they always ask if they're annoying me which they're really not but it makes me feel like I'm acting in a way that suggests they are#probably with my late and limited responses to their paragraphs#it doesn't feel like I'm a good friend at all. like they need to stop being friends with me because I suck#idk sorry#i feel frustrated because I can't really talk about what I like anywhere it seems#maybe I'm just not a compatible person
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Just a bunch of Useful websites - Updated for 2023
Removed/checked all links to make sure everything is working (03/03/23). Hope they help!
Sejda - Free online PDF editor.
Supercook - Have ingredients but no idea what to make? Put them in here and it'll give you recipe ideas.
Still Tasty - Trying the above but unsure about whether that sauce in the fridge is still edible? Check here first.
Archive.ph - Paywall bypass. Like 12ft below but appears to work far better and across more sites in my testing. I'd recommend trying this one first as I had more success with it.
12ft – Hate paywalls? Try this site out.
Where Is This - Want to know where a picture was taken, this site can help.
TOS/DR - Terms of service, didn't read. Gives you a summary of terms of service plus gives each site a privacy rating.
OneLook - Reverse dictionary for when you know the description of the word but can't for the life of you remember the actual word.
My Abandonware - Brilliant site for free, legal games. Has games from 1978 up to present day across pc and console. You'll be surprised by some of the games on there, some absolute gems.
Project Gutenberg – Always ends up on these type of lists and for very good reason. All works that are copyright free in one place.
Ninite – New PC? Install all of your programs in one go with no bloat or unnecessary crap.
PatchMyPC - Alternative to ninite with over 300 app options to keep upto date. Free for home users.
Unchecky – Tired of software trying to install additional unwanted programs? This will stop it completely by unchecking the necessary boxes when you install.
Sci-Hub – Research papers galore! Check here before shelling out money. And if it’s not here, try the next link in our list.
LibGen – Lots of free PDFs relate primarily to the sciences.
Zotero – A free and easy to use program to collect, organize, cite and share research.
Car Complaints – Buying a used car? Check out what other owners of the same model have to say about it first.
CamelCamelCamel – Check the historical prices of items on Amazon and set alerts for when prices drop.
Have I Been Pawned – Still the king when it comes to checking if your online accounts have been released in a data breach. Also able to sign up for email alerts if you’ve ever a victim of a breach.
I Have No TV - A collection of documentaries for you to while away the time. Completely free.
Radio Garden – Think Google Earth but wherever you zoom, you get the radio station of that place.
Just The Recipe – Paste in the url and get just the recipe as a result. No life story or adverts.
Tineye – An Amazing reverse image search tool.
My 90s TV – Simulates 90’s TV using YouTube videos. Also has My80sTV, My70sTV, My60sTV and for the younger ones out there, My00sTV. Lose yourself in nostalgia.
Foto Forensics – Free image analysis tools.
Old Games Download – A repository of games from the 90’s and early 2000’s. Get your fix of nostalgia here.
Online OCR – Convert pictures of text into actual text and output it in the format you need.
Remove Background – An amazingly quick and accurate way to remove backgrounds from your pictures.
Twoseven – Allows you to sync videos from providers such as Netflix, Youtube, Disney+ etc and watch them with your friends. Ad free and also has the ability to do real time video and text chat.
Terms of Service, Didn’t Read – Get a quick summary of Terms of service plus a privacy rating.
Coolors – Struggling to get a good combination of colors? This site will generate color palettes for you.
This To That – Need to glue two things together? This’ll help.
Photopea – A free online alternative to Adobe Photoshop. Does everything in your browser.
BitWarden – Free open source password manager.
Just Beam It - Peer to peer file transfer. Drop the file in on one end, click create link and send to whoever. Leave your pc on that page while they download. Because of how it works there are no file limits. It's genuinely amazing. Best file transfer system I have ever used.
Atlas Obscura – Travelling to a new place? Find out the hidden treasures you should go to with Atlas Obscura.
ID Ransomware – Ever get ransomware on your computer? Use this to see if the virus infecting your pc has been cracked yet or not. Potentially saving you money. You can also sign up for email notifications if your particular problem hasn’t been cracked yet.
Way Back Machine – The Internet Archive is a non-profit library of millions of free books, movies, software, music, websites and loads more.
Rome2Rio – Directions from anywhere to anywhere by bus, train, plane, car and ferry.
Splitter – Seperate different audio tracks audio. Allowing you to split out music from the words for example.
myNoise – Gives you beautiful noises to match your mood. Increase your productivity, calm down and need help sleeping? All here for you.
DeepL – Best language translation tool on the web.
Forvo – Alternatively, if you need to hear a local speaking a word, this is the site for you.
For even more useful sites, there is an expanded list that can be found here.
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Sorry but I’m not getting over the person who basically implied that headcanoning Jimmy as taller than Tango is thinly veiled rpf and they’re not REALLY separating cc from character. Like WHAT are you cooking
#sometimes I look to CCs heights for my headcanons cuz I don’t have any ideas for my own but HUH? also idk either of their heights#like for all I know Tango is taller. that would make their post way funnier tbh. but I’m gonna assume Jimmy’s taller irl based on their post#but like brother who cares if ppl take real life aspects that aren’t present in mc for their headcanons.#sometimes it’s just cuz it’s a trait you think would suit the character or cuz u wish more characters had that trait. it’s not usually cuz#ur trying to turn them into the CC lol.#aside from actual reasons I disagree with them WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT. ‘YOU HEADCANON JIMMY IS TALL? SUSPICIOUS.’#bro pulled the ‘canonically they are both 2 blocks tall’ and everything 😭#I only headcanon Jimmy is taller cuz I saw other fans doing it and went ‘that suits the character’ so I adopted it. idk his height irl.#and then it’s like assuming my height headcanons DO prove that I’m doing Jimmy rpf. am I NOT doing JOEL rpf cuz I make him rlly short?#why am I doing half rpf half fictional characters? thats kind of odd.#shipping cc!Jimmy with c!Joel lol. unironically would read that tho imagine. wouldn’t write it tho I could never write rpf. anyways#anyways the point is. sometimes fans use the CCs as a point of reference for designs. that doesn’t mean it’s thinly veiled rpf. we need#sources of inspiration and sometimes that comes from the actors. why is that suspicious.#if they’re straight up drawing the real life guy with no mc skin elements then it is more likely about the cc instead of c but they’re not#even talking about that bro literally referred to them as a blaze and canary and STILL said the height was suspicious LOL#sorry for vagueing (literally don’t know their url despite reading the post over and over) and don’t want them to see this cuz I don’t wanna#potentially be mean like if that makes them uncomfortable and is a red flag then… ok that’s your problem. I won’t force u to change ur views
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"Queer" was always our word
Don't trust anyone who tries to tell you otherwise, it's a trap
Your forebears did not march through hostile streets chanting "We're here, We're LGBTIA+, Get used to it"
Your forebears marched through hostile streets chanting "We're here, We're QUEER, Get used to it"
That is why you have the freedom to be out enough to hold this stupid "discourse" in the first place. Those who have gone before us chanting QUEER, our word, the word we have always owned and will always own, are what you owe your liberty and security to.
Show some goddamn respect.
#good post#queer is not a slur#that shit is literally terf propaganda#quit falling for terf shit 2024#you're here#you're queer#get used to it#the absolute blind privelege this whole discourse betrays#do you have ANY FUCKING IDEA what being queer was like before the 2010s?#the advances we've made i FULLY EXPECTED to take another 100 years#i did not think i would see marriage equality in my life#nor the death of the ���gay panic” defense#nor being able to get pride merch outside hot topic#there is pride fabric at joann#cities are painting sidewalks#when my roommate came busting into my room yelling the supreme court gave us equality#i literally thought they had forgot to check the url#and it was the onion or otid#i wrote a queer fairytale and submittdd it to a fantasy short story publication#amd got a handwritten rejection letter#saying we want to print this but we're afraid it's too progressive for our audience#but please find somewhere#and i never could#tried for years#eventually gave up#they put a parental advisory on Ellen's show because she held hands with her gf#now there's queer characters in multiple children's shows#and yall want to use that freedom to ATTACK your fellow queers?#nah#not on my watch
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i've been itching to redo my blog's theme and everything, i need to change things somehow in some way
#me#i was like 'i'll wait until i figure out a new url and then i'll just change everything at once'#but ever since i had the thought of actually doing that#i'm stuck between wanting to change other things right now and not being able to think of a url yet#like for example i have my#'80'sphase - it's not just a phase' thing which doesn't make much sense actually but it's a thing#i wanted to do something like that again where it relates to the url but for something else but i don't know what so i#don't know what to change that part to either#but i want to change it#all of everything#maybe i'll just spend the day looking at things for ideas#see this is why i like to have things to be suitable forever regardless of my content#if i have to change anything i lose my whole mind over it#if i don't feel like it's 100% me#it's so difficult#but i guess even if it's something that COULD work forever i might still crave change eventually#there's probably no escape from that#i feel like i leave everything the same for too long until i start feeling like i will explode if i don't change something#both in my tumblr life and my outside-of-tumblr life#maybe changing things on tumblr is an outlet for things i can't change outside of tumblr#either way
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ive been considering making a blog for cartoons n shit but knowing myself ill either never use it or itll become my new primary blog and ill abandon this one
#originally i only made this blog bc of some irl friends who had a history of 'teasing' me for my interests#who i felt didnt deserve to know i was watching grian enough to have thoughts and opinions about his content#but now i primarily post here#i do wanna keep this blog mcyt and adjacent#since i do still watch hermitcraft - just far fewer hermits than before#and i still wanna post about it/engage with the fandom#so since ive been posting/reblogging about the turtle show (+ other cartoons) here recently#maybe just to keep it organized ill make a new blog#not sure what the url will be though#i dont want it to be super obviously based around a specific cartoon#thats what i appreciate about THIS url - i did the first thing that came to mind that was vaguely in line with waht i wanted to post#it's clearly about the block game but not a specific series or group or channel#which gives me the freedom to talk about like. the eboys smp if i want#since the only indication of what i post are the posts themselves#like i never advertised myself as a hermit blog - i simply posted about it a lot#i wanna follow the same idea for a cartoon blog
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minted (m) (snippet) | myg
title: minted (m) pairing: street king!yoongi x street cart vendor!reader rating/genre: m (18+) ; angst , smut ; haegeum au , gang au summary: all you do is wake up, sell your fruit on the dusty streets below your flat, and go to sleep. but everything changes when a customer you always look forward to seeing turns out to be dangerous. really, really dangerous. note: again, this wasn't on the docket for 2024 until i saw one (1) mint yoongi edit on my pinterest feed💀 anyways, this is dedicated to hali @sailoryooons for ur belated bday, nary @joonary for being a cutie pie and letting me adopt the tangerine cart girl idea in general, and luce @minttangerines for ur url and for being a wonderful friend. love you all! warnings: language, violence, weapons (guns/knives/chopsticks/etc.), blood/wounds mentions, drugs, alcohol, murder, gang activity, poor reader is just trying to get through the day, mint!yoongi, haegeum!yoongi, tatted!yoongi, his eyebrow is pierced, knife held to the throat, tension, reader suffers from “my cabbages” levels of disaster, orange!jimin, fight scenes, both versions of yoongi have their own red warning labels smut warnings: to be dropped on drop day but lmfaoooo est. drop date: july 2024! teaser word count: 486 total word count: projecting 15-20k✌️
With a head full of thoughts, you stare into nothing, stirring your noodles and waiting for the heat to die down.
Maybe you should’ve just walked a shorter distance and checked the shops you originally wanted to browse. If things went to plan, you could’ve been back home by now, freshly showered and curling up on your worn bed.
But instead, your feet are sore, your head is anything but washed, and you have to trek home empty-handed—on the first day off you’ve had in months.
Defeated, you sigh, going back to your bowl and watching diced vegetables swirl in aromatic broth.
At least the food in this area seems good. And the fading decor really adds to the…
Ambiance.
Wait.
You can’t pull your eyes away from the group walking in, bringing heat from the sweltering sun on their clothes and in their eyes.
But you can only kid yourself for so long because the one that has your gaze tethered is the man in front. The one you haven’t seen in weeks. The one looking right back at you with a visage so shadowed you feel like moving tables to let him pass.
…Yoongi?
As he gets closer, you swallow hard, not expecting to see him and having no earthly idea what to do.
But from the slight confusion pinching his forehead, he didn’t expect to see you, either. Which makes it even weirder when he slowly takes your chopsticks right from your fingers.
Hold on, what—
“What are you—”
A lone, long digit over lips is the only response you get, silencing you immediately before you whip your head around to watch him rush past.
All of them waste no time rushing up the stairs, a myriad of blues blending in with gritty paint and smoke.
And just like that, your reunion is over.
Home. You need to go home. Leave, leave, leave, because something is bound to be going down upstai—
A thud faintly shoots out into the staircase, and you spin around again in your chair, eyes snapping to the ceiling.
Shit.
Even though you’re on high alert, you realize with a quick sweep that no one else is noticing. Or moving. Or even paying attention to anything else but their own company.
Does no one else care about the commotion? Do hits happen in this area that often?
Mind running, you can’t decide what to do. Because even though Yoongi’s guys have plenty of weapons, he clearly had nothing since he needed to borrow your damn eating utensils.
Another crash rains dust on conversations around your shoulders, causing you to look up one last time.
Go home, go home, go home. In what universe would Yoongi himself ever need your help here?
With one more look at your noodles, you curl your lips before biting a side.
Already yelling at yourself for choosing to book it towards the back staircase.
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Man vs machine
Hello! This is my first fanfic written in English so I'm slightly nervous to post this but I couldn't get this idea out of my head so... I hope you enjoy :)
Bucky Barnes x Reader
Just an old man confused about modern technology.
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You were walking past the living room door when a discontented grunt caught your attention. You took two steps back to crane your neck past the half-closed door. Bucky was sitting on the sofa, leaning over the living room table, which looked like a toddler’s table compared to him, his face illuminated by the bright screen of his new laptop that you’ve bought him not too long ago. His eyebrows were tightly knit together when he mumbled a quiet curse. You turned around, a curious expression on your face as you walked through the door.
"You okay, baby?" you asked and promptly sat down next to him. Bucky gave you an inscrutable look before turning his eyes back to the screen. “Where the hell do I find my emails?” he asked in frustration. A sudden laugh escaped you. You should have realized that a 106 year old man who had little to do with electronics would have some trouble with a laptop. Bucky gave you a displeased look with a slight, unconcious pout appearing on his face. “Click on the internet icon.” You spoke softly, willing to help. Bucky’s brow furrowed. “I don’t need the internet, I need my emails.” You stayed silent for a moment, slightly baffled by his words. Just last week you took the effort to set up a Google account with him and you were pretty sure he had paid attention then. “Bucky.” You said an amused huff escaping you. “Your e-mail is connected to the Internet. Just click on the icon.” Bucky clicked his tongue in annoyance to cover his slight embarrassment and went back to staring at the desktop. He was definitely taking his time, and at one point you doubted he knew what an icon was. “Need any help?” you asked as kindly as you could, though the sight of Bucky squinting his eyes like a real old man made your voice sound rather amused. With an exhausted sigh, Bucky leaned back against the seat back and rubbed his face, his shoulders visibly slumping. “You do it.”
You snort, but immediately apologize after he gives you an exceptionally grumpy look. “You can do it.” You said encouragingly, giving him a small smile. Bucky rolled his eyes, but relented and bent over the laptop again. You shuffled closer to it so you could see the screen properly, and the little orange and blue Firefox icon literally jumped out at you. You pointed your finger at it and looked at it again. “Just click on this one.”
You tried to be patient with him, really, and actually he did exactly what you said, but you couldn’t hold back the little sigh that left your mouth as he moved the cursor over the Firefox icon and clicked. Once. “Okay.” You mumbled, rubbing your eye. Apparently, you needed to be more specific. "This time you click twice." Another brief but piercing look from Bucky before he actually double-clicked and the browser opened. You sent a quick thank you to the heavens before instructing him to type the url into the search tab and cringed silently when he started typing with both of his pointer fingers. Right this second you decided to teach him how to properly type with all ten of his fingers later. A few more instructions later, probably a little more than usually necessary, he reached the Google log-in site.
“I assume you can handle the rest?” It was supposed to be a statement but your voice shifted into a question at the end.
He hummed quietly in affirmation, though his brow was still furrowed as if this whole thing was incredibly complicated which, to be honest… it probably was for him. You pressed your lips together, a slight sting of guilt coursing through you, your previous amusement and frustration about his hardship completely vanishing. One second you were quietly sat next to him and the other you had your arms wrapped around his bicep and your head leaning on his shoulder. “I’m sorry about laughing earlier.” You whispered, almost too quiet for him to understand if he weren’t a Super-Soldier and had enhanced hearing. “I know it’s new for you.” Bucky tried to shrug it off but you saw how his eyes softened when he tilted his head to look down at you. A sudden, quiet chuckle escaped him, making you quirk an eyebrow in curiosity.
“You’d think, as a Cyborg, I’d be better at this.”
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