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Hello from @mcnotok! My name is Snap, and my answers will be tagged as "mod snap". I am an avid fgod Enjoyer⢠:]]. I mostly enjoy Nightmare and Error, but every character in this universe is so fascinating to me.
and im @my-names-kris! which my name is uh. kris, obviously. answers from me will be tagged as "mod kris". i usually like blueberror in most utmv aus, but theres something about ink in this one that grabbed me by a stranglehold. also an avid fgod enjoyer, to the point where it actually got me to start writing for the first time ever!
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NO ASKING CHARACTERS NOT LISTED HERE
DONT BE A JERK TO THE MODS
PHYSICAL CONTACT WITH THE CHARACTERS IS VERY MUCH IMPOSSIBLE (BUT YOU CAN SEND OBJECTS)
Story:
The backstory of this blog takes place after Error jumps into the void after he was attacked. Fate, annoyed but viewing him as replaceable, grabs a Swap!Sans, Blue, from his multiverse into the Anti-Void, and in a rushed manner, makes him into an error and the new God of Destruction. Destiny, angered by this and knowing Error would be too, tells him about what had happened to Blue, now known as Blueberror. Wanting him not to be alone, he returns, along with his newly adopted children, Void and Null that insisted to go with him.
Characters:
Error:
The first God of Destruction, jumped into the void wishing for death, and was sent to another multiverse instead with Destiny's help. Returned upon learning that Blueberror was made the next God of Destruction in his place, bringing two children named Void and Null with. Arguably the most powerful of the three gods, holding the ability to make a universe crumble with his very step. Despite this, he is normally a chill (and rather quiet) guy when you haven't done anything to anger him. It takes a lot to anger him, anyways.
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Nightmare:
Nightmare is so detached from his past life that he considers himself a completely different person, but he is not. He hates all reminders of his detached past before the corruption, as they make him feel complicated feelings and thoughts he'd rather do without. Doesn't view Dream as a brother, but a part of him that he hates feels as if that feeling should be there. Due to the multiverse oversaturated in negativity, he has extreme mood swings. Took in the murder-time trio in an attempt to spread SOME positivity. It didn't do much, but he ended up keeping them anyways. (my mans is soft)
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Dream:
Dream is extremely loyal to Ink to a fault, never believing the truth of the multiverse's oversaturation, even when Blueberror starts destroying. Due to this, he neglects his duties of spreading positivity, as that would disrupt Ink's creations... even if he suffers for it. Ink's right-hand man ruling over the Star Council. Is used as a mascot for the "happiness" that Ink can spread. Has only ever been used as a beacon for positivity, so when someone genuinely treats him as a friend, he gets very attached.
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Ink:
The God of Creation, Ink, is the only god out of the three that was unable to hear Fate. Despite this, after hundreds of years go by, he figures out the instability of the multiverse he has caused. Knowing this, but having formed a council and an image of himself along with it, he still insists that he has been doing nothing wrong. Ink is extremely strict about his creations not being disrupted by any outside source, even when the scales of emotion are tipped in negativity's favor. Holds a hatred for Nightmare for taking the murder-time trio in. Hates Error and now, Blueberror, as well for their insistence that he is the one in the wrong. Very close with Dream, not really ever realizing how he's hurting his friend.
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Blueberror:
Blueberror was a well-liked Swap!Sans (teetering on the edge of being a swapfell!sans) before he was snatched by Fate. It was to the point where he was even asked by Dream and Ink to join them. But being a neutral party, he refused. Before he was snatched, he sometimes travelled the multiverse, helping out anybody, no matter which side they were on. After Fate snatched him, he became the second God of Destruction. He is significantly less merciful than his predecessor, Error. Still helps out people in other universes, but less often due to his new duties.
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Void and Null:
Void (age 2) and Null (age 5) are two children from the alternate multiverse that Error fell into's Handplates AU. Originally finding him lying in the ground unconscious in their Snowdin, after Null fled with Void away from their Gaster, the two of them have been extremely attached to their adoptive father ever since.
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Minor Characters:
Minor characters that won't be making any major appearances in the blog, but still exist nonetheless consist of Horror, Dust, Killer, Star Council Fell, Fresh, and Core Frisk.
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question can you infodump about your Little Guys (atbb) to me because ive been following for like a year and i still dont totally understand them past papyrus au. they are really cool tho
oh my god ok so. first off atbb is the acronym for my ask blog @ask-the-bone-boys that's been on hiatus for a little over a year now. it was born in 2018 out of the annoyance of everything au-centered being sans and also a way to explore how the classic "aus get stuck in the original universe" fic trope would go if it was somebody from the "original" story leaving their universe instead. and also an excuse to make papyrus miserable to be fully honest
also also im going to preface this by saying i ship selfcest and there is some selfcest in this story ok if anybody has issue with that then uh. oopsies (i can explain the way i view it at another time if anybody;s interested but im already gonna ramble like hell here so not rn)
with that groundwork laid im gonna put this under a cut lmao dont click this
for the sake of organization- part 1: RUSS
STARTING AT THE BEGINNING so some very basic backstory for this Undertale Papyrus specifically is that he and his brother are twins, they grew up bouncing around several foster homes until they decided to run away to live in the woods on their 14th birthday, where they lived in a bigass tent for three years until Papyrus got badly injured and they had to get help from the townspeople, who uh kinda unofficially adopted them and thats how "they just showed up one day"
then more time passed and around 3 years after getting to the surface Papyrus was booted out of his universe by Mysterious Circumstances. he got a very bad introduction to the multiverse because the place he landed was my own version of horrortale, undermunch. there he meets Spooks!
i have a whole side-fic where you can read in better detail how this goes but basically monsters don't turn to dust in this world and also Spooks is a cannibal, which Papyrus doesn't know until he realizes he was fed spaghetti made out of a rabbit monster. IN addition to that, Spooks has very different magic from other aus, that being it's pretty much all concentrated into a kind of blue-magic-venom that comes out of his teeth like a snake.
Long story short Papyrus has to escape from Spooks somehow, and that's how he learns he's able to move through universes by himself. It still takes him a while to learn how to without being in a life-or-death situation, but that's ok because almost every other universe he goes to after that puts him into a life-or-death situation :>
and then FINALLY he gets spat out into a variation of Underswap, where he meets Honey. this one's a bit spoilery because i haven't finished writing this fic yet BUT its ok because this will be so so so disorganized. anyway so Papyrus is scared of Honey at first because he's been getting completely fucking obliterated by the multiverse (his leg is broken and he's wearing a chest plate he stole from a different papyrus who died in front of him) but Honey is relatively patient with him and lets him stay on his couch on the surface. This is where Papyrus gets the nickname Russ!
Russ is dealing with a broken leg when he shows up in this universe, so he stays with Honey for a little over three months while he recovers from that as well as (some of) the multiverse traumas he'd been collecting up to that point. The main things that he still can't shake are nightmares, trust/attachment issues, and EXTREME food paranoia. he refuses to eat anything he hasn't prepared himself, and even that can be a struggle. Also, because of how long he spent without getting it properly treated, his leg never fully heals.
He starts getting really really homesick the longer he stays in this universe. It builds up over his whole stay, but only starts to get Very Bad after he gets the cast off of his leg. Honey's home is extremely similar to his own home, and sometimes just seeing him and his brother interacting with each other makes Russ upset.
OH I FORGOT TO TALK ABOUT THE CODEPENDENCY ok so at some point Russ just starts completely clinging to Honey and Honey doesn't know what to do about it so he just kinda. unintentionally feeds into it and this turns into Russ sleeping in Honey's bed and blah blah blah eventually this becomes a problem for Honey because he doesn't know how to address Russ's homesickness and clinginess without hurting him somehow even though Honey is extremely stressed and actively burning out
Then Russ overhears Honey venting to Undyne and feels. crushed. And he reacts incredibly rationally! By avoiding Honey as much as possible! But it does not take him long at all to break down and the two finally have a chat about boundaries. They work out a plan together that Honey thinks will genuinely help and Russ thinks will get himself off of Honey's back. The plan is that they'll figure out how to control Russ's world-hopping ability and get him back home.
The idea is that if he's able to control when and how he leaves, he can control where he goes. Then, when he inevitably lands in his home, he'll pop back in Underswap and tell Honey how it went. Because he can control it! Of course!
Honey gives him one of his hoodies and a photo camera to remember him by. Russ tries to figure out what it was in the past that might have helped him jump universes, which was the desire to be just about anywhere other than where he was at that moment. So, he just, thought about going home instead!
And it worked! And he left Honey's universe! And then he realized he didn't land at his home at all! And when he tried to go back to Honey's universe, he went somewhere entirely different as well! And he never saw Honey again! Wahoo!
This is the point where he just becomes a complete mess I'm not gonna lie to you, he starts drinking even though he really really REALLY hates alcohol, he only eats enough to stay conscious, he gets into fights just for the adrenaline rush, and only stays in one universe long enough to confirm it's not his home before either leaving for the next one or collapsing somewhere and hoping he doesn't get attacked while he sleeps for two hours
then he lands in Edge's universe and this needs a part two now OOPS
#trousled rambles#EMPHASIS ON RAMBLES#atbb#undertale#papyrus#russ#wasnt gonna use main tags but you know what. the papyrus tag could use this kind of enrichment i think#glanced at it today and must've reported like 10 posts for spam in 15 mins#at least i put my long shit under a read more!!!!!!!!!!!!#ahem. anyway yeah it is slightly embarrassing that i have to break this into multiple parts but i put. so much thought into the lore here o#at least russ has the bulk of it so the next ones wont be so insane#i'll keep going in a bit but i think i need a break from typing and also to. eat somethjing lmao#edit oh my god i forgot ALL of the tws guys sorry#cannibalism //#broken bones //#eating disorder //#codependency //#alcohol //#self harm //#(not outright stated but he does deliberately harmful stuff yknow)#ask to tag
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I read your timmy/riven/helia headcanons and I LOST IT hahahaha I love it! I just got curious about that sad headcanon you mentioned about helia (I think about his past?)? Like you have said, like other people I project into him a lot so he's my favorite and wanted to know about that hc cuz now I can't stop thinking about it đ
AHH A FELLOW HELIA STAN MY BELOVED!!! HI!!!!
okay so,, i'd like to preface this with a couple things. 1. it's based off of a rewrite that i've had in my head since i was like, 10 and i'm never actually gonna write/post it kldhglahdgl. 2. i want to explain why i came up with this backstory and headcanon! cause ik anyone who isn't a helia stan or at least really likes him, probably won't understand (not in a gatekeepy way but in a "this character is so underdeveloped that if you haven't paid attention to every little thing about them you probably won't immediately catch on to the thought process behind this" kind of way).
So,,,, oh dear okay first no one is allowed to judge me. if you judge i'm gonna cry >:(
When I was trying to come up with Helia's backstory, a lot of different ideas went through my mind. Naturally being a Helia stan, I first went with the "he grew up at red fountain" route! But then I realized I wanted something with a little more umph, and as I realized certain things about him, growing up at RF (red fountain) didn't immediately make sense? At least,, not completely... You see, Helia is a major perfectionist (we've covered this in past lessons) and a major escapist. Something that stands out about him though, is that everyone we've seen that knew him for a long time (ie family members or childhood friends) are extremely supportive of him and understanding of mistakes (even bigger ones).
Helia's escapism has a direct connection to his perfectionism, ie if he makes a mistake, no matter how small or inconsequential, he freaks out and leaves. Something that makes him slightly different from other, similar characters though, is that his perfectionism only has to do with himself (usually). He doesn't worry about what other people think of him, only about the guidelines he's set for himself. So, if he makes a mistake that crosses those guidelines or rules, that's when he gets upset and leaves. (I honestly think him leaving RF for art school the first time could've been a product of this, though that's heavily just thinking and not canon).
While anyone can be a perfectionist and escapist without any big reason, I really wanted to explain why Helia is like that. His issues in particular seem more based on fear and invisible rules than just feeling inadequate (like some of the other escapists in the group... ahem bloom ahem). One thing that really stood out to me, was the arc in the comics where he left the school for a third time because he made a mistake on a mission that almost cost Brandon and Codatorta their lives. He let emotions and personal life get in the way of what he was doing and that allowed someone to mess with their ship, causing a malfunction that almost killed them. Helia, instead of trying to figure out what happened, immediately resigned from the school because "a good specialist wouldn't have done that". He places these almost impossible standards on his entire life, both personal and work-related. And again, while that can happen to anyone, the level he does this at is so much higher than the other characters (even the royals who are notorious for doing this).
I want to preface this next bit with I'm a dumb bitch who's obsessed with apocalyptic media. So like,, the backstory I came up with is that his planet basically got overrun with monsters born from wild/dark magic and that most people died in the chaos. This happens when he's very young and he only survives because he had adults taking care of him. Eventually, he would get separated from his family and come across another group of survivors are willing to bring him along. He ends up bonding with a young woman who he essentially uses to replace his mom (cause yknow,, kids need parents and all). At some point, they're looking for food or medical supplies and he makes a mistake (likely making a loud noise or something) that draws monsters to them. The young woman saves him and in the process sacrifices herself. Cue survivor's guilt that transforms into extreme perfectionism. After this, he would run away and eventually Codatorta finds him because specialists were sent to find survivors. Cue him growing up at RF where he can get the proper training but he's too young to go on missions. This sparks the perfectionism and starts the escapism. (Not even gonna pretend that this backstory isn't heavily inspired by tlou and twdg.)
I also wanted a reason for why he's so heavily protective of Saladin, a very strong wizard who's been in countless wars and by all means, doesn't need protection. Like,, obviously they're family so duh. But idk,, his protectiveness of Saladin tends to overshadow his own life (for instance in the comics I mentioned earlier, Helia only comes back to RF because he had to help save Saladin and in the process gives up his job as an artist). I wanted to explain why Helia is such a good specialist but is also constantly trying to get away from that life (ie he grew up there and doesn't want to live in war constantly). I also wanted to explain why Helia seems so unphased when things happen! Like he just,, he shows emotions, but they're so subdued compared to everyone else.
OKAY ANYWAY,, jeez this is long already (and I condensed it... I have an entire google doc that explains all of this in a much more eloquent way). The trivelia headcanon was about Helia feeling comfortable sharing these things with them. He would bond with Riven specifically over not knowing/having family. Over the years, Helia would share just the tiniest little tidbits here and there about what happened (this apocalypse coincided with the Domino war and as such no one helped them. the Magix news centers kept pushing this issue aside to the point where a lot of people don't even know it happened) and how he feels about it. Like I've said before, Helia has a hard time talking about his life and especially his emotions. So Riven and Timmy (and Flora :) ) would really be the only ones who get to hear these tidbits. Eventually, Helia would have to go back because there are rumors that the monsters are trying to spread to other planets. Timmy would be his main source of communication when he's there as the others wouldn't be allowed to go (since they aren't native to the planet and could be in danger with the wild magic around [.. things happened to the first specialists that got sent... not good things]). (Also not gonna lie that the monsters are heavily inspired by the aliens in a quiet place.. In the google doc, I have an entire section dedicated to the monsters alone alkgdldajg).
.... this is so long.........
#also he has an older sister a twin sister and a younger brother cause why not#they also have sections in the doc...#his big sister is a big reason why he isn't fond of self-sacrificing.. but that's a whole other part of the backstory#i didnt even get into his family.. what happened the day it started.... his parents.... his little brother......#mmm.....#answered#zeldanny#winx helia#but also thank you!!!! i love talking about trivelia im glad people liked that post :)#like. this post is too long and i didn't even get into a lot of it#like. the perfectionism and escapism? i didnt explain that too well#in this rewrite a lot of helia's personal skills have to do with this#like. the things he's especially good at from rf? yknow the string wrangling and stuff? the holding big monsters back? yeah..#i had another backstory for him (completely different) that im still really attached to..#again never gonna write this but if i did i would be stuck between this one and the other one#its about a magic school.. and not a good one...#has a ray that turns favorite character's backstories into a sob fest#oughh.... i have a doc for this one too............ actually that reminds me i need to edit it#its still in the rough draft stages ladhglajdg#this one i thought about a lot so the doc is more organized! but also very long. multiple pages of bullshit#i think other helia stans would like it. non helia stans would look at it and go what the fuck is your problem#would love to hear your thoughts if you read this though ajldghladg (no pressure ik its long)#id like to hear from other helia stans since we all have the same brain#posting this and running away#although i doubt anyone will actually read it so i probably have nothing to worry about lkahgedjhagljh
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@sambambuckyâ : âpls... Pastels, Peaches and Pain??? among us first draft??? marvel meets warframe meets a bunch of tumblr posts (itâs not an au!?!??!)
hi jo !!! Pastels, Peaches, and Pain is one of those sambucky wips i have mostly fully fleshed out in my head because of one (1) extreme moment of clarity after a rogue âwhat ifâ tangent thought but havent written anything of yet out of restraint / knowing i need to finish at least one of my current sambucky wips before i start it or none of them will get done
this was the rogue tangent thought:Â âwhat if Sam is haunted by Figaroâs ghost and has been since he was a kid?â. iâve changed the ghost cat to not be Figaro but thatâs the premise !
i refer to the fic as the cat fic âcause the whole plot is based around samâs ghost cat companion insisting he adopts natâs cat Liho after endgame and then Figaro later and then [insert redacted because plot spoilers but just know it relates to Alpine]. no im not projecting my feelings about cats idk what youre talking aboutÂ
hereâs some note snippets just for you:
the cat, inexplicably, takes a liking to bucky, which is really annoying bc sam doesnt know how to explain to him that all the oddly soft gusts of wind are actually sam's dead cat insisting on getting pats
bucky getting shade thrown at him by said ghost cat during all of tfatws + them making up (and not out. yet)
starts when sam's a kid & follows him as he grows up w/ a ghost kitty as a companion only he can see & interact with + angst with an undertone of comedy + getting together
he whispers to ghost kitty, who simply mmrrs happily
for the among us first draft thing, what basically happened is i saw this tweet and this video and my brain latched onto these dynamics so hard i had to write about them.Â
hereâs a sketch of my two main imposters, Black (left) and Cyan (right):
and hereâs a snippet:
The thing having Cyan pause and stare out at the asteroid field is how the colors stretch to family. When they and Black came aboard, they had thought every crewmember was an adult working on the planet-change project. That the patch of off-white with a black something-pattern-or-shape signified status. In a way, Cyan supposes it does, but just not the way they expected. They had expected it to show what rank an individual held within the hierarchy of the crew, from deckhand to division leader to captain, not to show that you're family of the crew and not actually part of the crew itself.Â
There are innocents on this ship. Children. It was not something any of them had anticipated, and not something Cyan had been prepared to deal with. They and Black boarded this horrible place to eradicate a threat, believing each and single one of the humans were accomplishes and dedicated to the goal of destroying Cyan and Black's species, and their planet. But, now?
marvel meets warframe meets a bunch of tumblr posts... doesnât have a wip title or seperate document for itself yet cause itâs been stuck in my âstory ideasâ document since its creation. so âmarvel meets warframe meets a bunch of tumblr postsâ is literally just me describing the vibe of an original world gjkerfkds
the world came to be for two reasons. firstly, i want to do make take on a superhero universe because the plot and complete lack of communication in both the dcu and mcu piss me the fuck off. secondly, needed a place to dump ocs with elaborate backstories or fantasy / sci-fi abilities that dont fit into any of my existing worlds
which sounds super competent but trust me, it isnât. it didnât gain any solidity at all until i decided to do a personal âhow different can i make spn castiel look & still retain the same vibe?â challenge. i have my own cas now
however, the reason i said âmarvel meets...â is because iâve snagged a couple of different things from the mcu, most notably: enemies to reluctant coworkers to lovers, yes our best friend have the same name. no theyâre not the same person, secret evil org is controlling the government, and the assassin that tried to kill you several times is now your best friend
warframe was added to the world because i got attached to my Volt build, gave them a name, and have some headcanons idk what to do with because i refuse to interact with that fandom. also because the friend i made through discussing warframe lore + plot dicked me over so it feels Bad to create for
the glue to this whole mess is that one âin every friend group thereâs a mean bisexual, an even meaner lesbian, a she/they, a he/they, a himbo, an astrology bitch, a short king, and a token straightâ tumblr post. my main group of superheroes ala the avengers consist of these people. the token straight is the only one i havent figured out who is yet
ever since i figured that out ive been throwing story / character ideas and weirdly specific aesthetics from popular tumblr posts into this worldâs notes. hereâs some examples:
sword grandmas
that trope where someoneâs really nice and acts super well-adjusted to society but then they do something super whack and dangerous and you realize âoh theyâre secretly a little bit insane, actuallyâ
anti-gay groupâs leaderâs wife leaves him for another woman
superhero who swore to be the best hero [city / planet / solar system / continent / ????] has ever seen ever since he lost his wife. not because sheâs dead but divorce just sucks & the hero-to-be is terrible at coping
dishevelled swamp witch
that one person who runs around with an amulet all the time & isnât aware itâs cursed
an exasperated, tired superhuman assassin running after their husband and their husband's best friend. their husband and said husband's best friend both have wings. chaos ensues (yes, this one is a sambucky post)
ask me about my WIPs!
BONUS:
@sambambuckyââ : #i want to have a coffee and listen to synopses of all of these.... #i miss the discord wow #WRITING TAG #waitttt time jumping dream movie? lmao I'VE READ THIS LIST FORTY TIMES and every time i rediscover something i wanna know about #outfit doodlesss ugh i need to go
couldnt not respond to your tags because they make me go ghrkjfnerknf but in the good way. we miss you too jo !!
the time jumping dream movie was one of the first vivid dreams i had and the whole thing was so stupidly coherent and whacky i had to write it down. it grew plot, a queer love dynamic, weird sci-fi apocalypse elements, anti-military propaganda, questionable science, and a sequel while i wasnt looking and now i just. have to make it a real movie or iâll combust
outfit djoodlles.png is only on there because my best friend sent me a âdraw this outfitâ meme and space kitty, my current character brainrot, stole all the outfits for himself. otherwise, that file just sits there until im feeling like designing an outfit or wanna see how a stupid thing looks on my oc patrick
hereâs one of the two poses-to-doodle-outfits-on of space kitty ive made so far:
and hereâs one of those stupid things on patrick (that then turned into an actual outfit of his because i have no self control):
#.jax speaks#.my art#.my writing#tysm for the interest jo !!!#if you have literally any questions or if youre serious about the synposes thing...#i love rambling abt my stupid brain people#i WILL answer all your questions#even if the answer is 'good question! ive got no clue'#.patrick mortensen#.space kitty#.pastels peaches and pain#.the among us thing#.marvels meets warframe meets tumblr posts#.time jumping dream movie
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I made this a long time ago and I thought it was worth showing
It's definitely not accurate because everyone imagines the characters differently - like Bart is no longer 19 y.o. boy, Ryley never shows any emotion in the game (except pain when attacked, but that's all) and Avery was most likely just annoyed that they had to look for the Aurora instead of continuing in the Sunbeam's travel.
They have almost no background/backstory so it kinda gives people the freedom to create their own stories to the characters (not just these three, but all the others from Subnautica and BZ)
(This was made in August, I think, and my own views on their personalities changed a bit)
But I always wonder about what others think they are like so some HC is welcomed with open arms.
SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO ANSWER THIS BUT BROO THIS IS SO GOOD... I NEED TO MAKE ONE MYSELF FOR THESE THREE TBH?? OK SO ANYWAYS HERES JUST A BUNCH OF NONSENSE THOUGHTS I HAVE:
-honestly ive never rlly thought of pet names they'd have? there's only a few i care for and i can't rlly imagine any of them calling another person like. baby or honey.
-on the OTHER HAND. nicknames is absolutely my favorite way to show affection. i like to think that marg CONSTANTLY using nicknames (like she never calls bart or paul or robin by their names ever??) rubbed off on bart so now he also uses nicknames way too much (do i actually write this in?? i don't remember. i make up new ideas constantly. pretend i did.)
-ryley probably also uses nicknames sometimes, but avery tends to just use first names. he's fancy like that. (but also sometimes u just gotta call ryley ry. thems the rules)
-anytime any arguments or anything like the Jeffrey Situtation comes up, the three of them have pretty different reactions. ryley is Big of Heart, Dumb of Ass, and forgives basically any treatment or misgivings almost instantly. very attached and rarely gets into arguments in the first place bc he is so easy to compromise with and also super open?
-bart is. the opposite. although he also doesn't usually get into arguments, this is not due to being open. it is because he bottles up Every Negative Feeling and refuses to bring things up (this is a paul trait, thanks for the terrible coping mechanisms paul) if you DO manage to get him upset enough (a man has been murdered in lego city, oh god my dad's still alive but he doesn't seem to like me after all) then he lets out a lot of festered bitterness and maybe has a panic attack. often tries to act tough or completely ok in scenarios, but then one tiny set back makes him break down. will try to physically fight someone for causing pain to someone he knows completely fine, and then starts crying for an hour because like, roman said something that MIGHT have been a little harsh if you really really read into it (im projecting đł)
-and avery is somewhere the middle to rein those two back in from Forgiving the Actual Murderer and Pretending to Not Be Sad over Daddy Issues. the most willing to genuinely talk about something, but also doesn't stand for anything genuinely harmful to anyone. he's like that one john mulaney bit about his wife dealing with conflict for him.
-all three of them are also incredibly affectionate. like beyond affectionate. bart will talk/listen to ppl for HOURS without getting bored, ryley is super physically affectionate (cuddle him and he'll give his life for you), and avery adjusts depending on how the other person shows affection. like super well. he can instantly go from Ryley Cuddle Feast to just a nice friend to sit quietly 3 feet apart from and watch the sunrise. he's just a dad friend through n through.
-ryley would DEFINITELY be the one to confess first. he blurts out things constantly and is also incredibly open and honest anyways. bart is too afraid of admiting to emotions to say anything about anything unless heavily prompted. (he has lost a lot, ya know? he's terrified of losing even more.)
-SORRY TO END IT ON A SAD NOTE BUT TUMBLR WONT LET ME ZOOM IN ON THE PICTURE AND I HAVE A V POOR MEMORY...ENJOY MY RANDOM SCREAMING THO I HOPE??
#i see your confesses first with ryley and avery.... you will enjoy a certain chapter in awa.... đ#i have so many thoughts and feelings for these three..... im just big đâ¤đđđđđđđđ at them...#bart has dealt with a lot and he doesnt know how to deal with this all!! he just wants eveything to be good and normal!!#then he went and caught feelings... whadda fuck man....#LAJDKSBKRBAOHF#FR THO I LOVE THESE HCS!!! i share a lot of them or feel rlly similar about them!!!#bart torgal#ryley robinson#avery quinn#subnautica: survivors#subnautica: a world alone#ask#excuse the probably plentiful typos đł i wrote this all on my phone and im kinda tired and in pain so i didnt proofread v well đłđł
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season 6 thoughts
hey quick question why the FUCK did you start with that
like on the one hand iâm glad that now i know what happened right after the end of âthatâs too much man!â. on the other hand⌠ow
the mountain bojack climbs is called âmetaphor mountainâ God bless Lisa Hanawalt
i LOVE the way the episodes are framed⌠like you get one flashback to bojack drinking and you think that was the first time then itâs like NOPE he was even younger
CINDY CRAWFISH AKSHDJDSF
AND BABY BOJACK SNUGGLING UP TO HIS MOTHER⌠TRYING TO FEEL AN EMBRACE SHE WOULD NEVER GIVE⌠CATCH ME CRYING IN THE CLUB
WHO THE FUCK CAME UP WITH THIS NEW INTRO
AND THE WAY IT HAS ALL THOSE FLASHBACK SCENES BUT IT STILL ENDS WITH HIM FALLING INTO THE POOL AND DIANE AND PEANUTBUTTER CHECKING TO SEE IF HES OK AND THEN HES JSUT LOUNGING IN HIS APPLE SHORTS;;; itâs just,, heâs going back home in the end, going back to the place where he started, as if everything will go back to the way it was before and heâll find himself stuck in the same cycles he tried so hard to escape⌠all im saying is, i dont think this season is gonna end well
and how it dwells on his past, everything he did wrong, all the most heartwrenching moments, and there arenât any changes to the intro (as far as i could tell) until episode 8⌠nothing changes if all you do is look back.
I am LOVING the Mr. Peanutbutter weâre getting this season. I was never really attached to him before; itâs not that I hated him, just that I liked all the other main characters better. and now that theyâve had him do something really bad and reckon with that,, heâs plumbing new depths, exploring those dark places, questioning if heâs truly as happy as he says he is
and bonding with bojack??? who would have guessed
bojack keeps giving advice that is, at best, the kind he doesnât follow himself, and at worst, bringing others down into the well of self-pity that heâs been stuck in the whole series
Someone give Princess Carolyn a breakâŚ
SHE NAMED HER DAUGHTER RUTHIE IM CRYING
Guy seems like a cool guy but I feel like theyâre setting him up to seem nice so that itâs more surprising when itâs revealed heâs not. Iâm probably being too suspicious, but also we donât know much of the details about his divorce, do we? Lakeith Stanfield's great tho
EPISODE 4 WAS COMEDY GOLD
The return of Queefburglar69
I WANNA WRAP PICKLES UP IN A BLANKET LIKE A BURRITO AND TELL HER EVERYTHINGS OKAY
Oh man Pickles talking about how her subscribers will always be there for her⌠like⌠itâs not one person, itâs a cloud of people, the contents and shape of which changes, might even be completely different and unrecognizable from one year to the next, but theyâre all still there as this nebulous support system. and it reminded me of what bojack said to young sarah lynn about how her fans are the only things she can count on
Todd is babey.
Also him wearing the ace colors under his hoodie!!
I knew Dianeâs rationale for going to chicago was bullshit. she said it makes her feel good, but âit doesnât matter where you are, itâs who you are,â and she still dwells on her bad feelings and hates herself just as much in chicago as she did in LA. moving somewhere else isnât necessarily gonna change those tendencies, she has to work on it herself.
OH MAN AND WHEN BOJACK GETS DR CHAMP DRUNK AGAIN⌠THROWING THE BOTTLE OUT THE WINDOW WAS A WAY TO AVOID RUINING ANOTHER LIFE AND HE ENDS UP DOING THE EXACT THING HE HOPED HE WOULD NEVER DO AGAIN
was honestly kinda hoping that Dr Champ was just pretending he got drunk to show how bad bojack could get if he relapsed but at the end when he was like âstayâŚâ thatâs how i knew that shit was real.
todd is so fucking stupid i love him
ngl am kinda disappointed that toddâs confirmed white, cause iâve kinda been picturing him as latino for a long time and i know rbw said he doesnât want to alienate latino viewers who relate to todd. but it makes a lot of sense, cause he always gets away with stupid shit and gets to the top of things without even having to try just because he knows a guy. and maybe the reason heâs so positive all the time is because itâs so easy for him to be, he never has to worry about shit bc of the privilege his whiteness affords him. also I love that we got to learn more about his backstory
THE CONTRAST BTWN âall the shitty things I did that I can barely even remember because I was high or drunk or it was thirty years agoâ and âI remember everything. Iâm sober now.â !!!!!!!!!!!!!
sharona sounds like a cross btwn princess carolyn and margo martindale
I have⌠mixed feelings about the haircut
Oh man Mr. Peanutbutter had a moment⌠he finally got that crossover episode⌠I was kinda hoping for a joke that went âMr. Peanutbutter and BoJack Horseman in the same room? What is this, Philbert?â or âWhat is this, a short-lived show on a streaming network that got canceled because the star got addicted to painkillers and strangled his costar in a drugged haze?â but this is SO MUCH BETTER. I've never seen him cry before and the way he reacts to himself crying suggests that maybe heâs never cried before at all, and thatâs why he just keeps laughing, almost like itâs forced, cause this is supposed to be his happiest moment and itâs not supposed to make him so sad. fucking,, character development
and the cold open of ep 8⌠you can forgive yourself and move on from your past wrongs but it doesnât erase the things you did, the effects they have on people, and the trauma theyâve suffered. and then like, how can you forgive yourself if they never forgive you? how do you maintain that balance? why should you move forward if they canât?
its weird to have an episode consisting entirely of guest stars but it also illustrates the extensive world theyâve built and i applaud that⌠also where the fuck is ana spanakopita
GINA RETURNS!!! HELL YEAH
her quote about not wanting to be defined by what bojack did to her has always stuck with me, and i feel like now, that quote has sort of come true. like, her saying that made us avoid reducing her to what happened to her, and thats why i wanted to see her come back this season, hopefully moving past it. but she canât. it traumatized her. and everyone can see the effects of it but she feels like she canât come forward, cause if she does sheâll be punished. shit like that changes you.
and itâs another instance on the show where someone chooses to advance their career & preserve their reputation over doing the right thing (like what bojack does with herb & sharona), but bojack does it out of self-interest, and gina does it so she doesnât have to relive her trauma every time she gets interviewed or recognized by a fan. but even when she keeps quiet about it sheâs still reliving her trauma
noah fence but what a waste of the once-per-season fuck word. youre really gonna use it in an episode IN WHICH BOJACK DOES NOT EVEN APPEAR, and not only that, but RECYCLE AN OLD SENTENCE FROM A PREVIOUS EPISODE
netflix places no limits on a showâs use of the fuck word (i think), so⌠fingers crossed for something better in the second part?
OH MY GOD PETE REPEAT INTRODUCED HIMSELF AS PETER ITS ALMOST LIKE HES TRYING TO FORGET THAT TIME & THAT PERSON HE WAS (im probably reading into it too much, Iâm sure itâs mostly so we wouldnât figure out who it was immediately. maybe im just like the kid with the coffee cup.)
and just⌠ppl describe this show as âfamily guy or the simpsons except the protagonist faces consequences for his actionsâ but bojack has gotten away with everything.
you ever just like⌠you ever watch a scene and feel the cliffhanger vibes creeping up and you just know itâs gonna end there and leave you unsatisfied and begging for more but at the same time thatâs what makes it such a good place to end it. that was me with this. (and also the ending of undone)
the thing about this show is, it illustrates what itâs like to be a toxic person. and sure, he has it hard, but the show never asserts that he has it any worse than his victims, even if bojack himself does so. and he only does it so he can feel better about himself. he deserves a reckoning, he needs to pay for his bad deeds. but then, when you know what made him this way and what goes on inside his mind and that he wants to get better, it makes you feel for him, and forces you to ask if he deserves to get better and forgive himself and move forward. but even if he does, it doesnât change the things he did. it doesnât fix the lives heâs ruined.
anyway sound off if you think bojackâs gonna die at the end. hopefully not by suicide
#long post#bojack horseman#diane nguyen#todd chavez#princess carolyn#mr. peanutbutter#pickles aplenty#pete repeat#bojack horseman season 6 spoilers#doctor champ#sarah lynn#gina cazador#horsin' around#mr. peanutbutter's house#netflix#raphael bob-waksberg#lisa hanawalt#phoebe talks#mine
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Further reactions to "The book of lost tales":
I appreciate that Idril canonically wears armor and does swordfighting.
I feel like I can actually imagine adult!Idril much better now like in armor and with open hair, distraught but ready to fight while babby Earendil does not yet realize the danger...
My first thought is that Earendil was probably cute in that baby chainmail. My second thought is OUCH, Idril and Tuor always made sure their growing baby had fitting chainmail cause they felt the apocalypse might get them at any moment. Imagine that, imagine them having the baby armor fitted every year or so :(
Its fun how much of the basic structure already exists but most of what you'd consider the main characters doesn't exist or is scattered across various minor roles The only Prince anywhere in sight is Turgon - Except for Team Doriath, theyre all accounted for. I suppose Maeglin is kinda there in name only with vaguely the same role & motivation, but looks personality and background all did a 180 since. Luthien is still pretty much "princesd classic" at this point, not quite the fearless go-getter from the final version - markedly this version tells Beren that she doesnt want to wander in the wilderness with him whereas the final one says she doesnt care and its Beren still wants to get the shiny so as not to ask this of her and also for his honor.
I mean in the finished version Id consider the 3rd and 4th gen royals to be the main characters (well, alobgside Team Doriath and the varioud human heroes) and theyre hardly here. Imagine the silm with no Finrod!
Feanor had no affiliation with the royal family whatsoever, and is also generally less super. He's just the guy who won the jewelsmithing competition, not the inventor of the whole discipline. Still seems to have been envisionad as a respected member of the community who gets called to the palace for crisis meetings and is listened to when he stsrts giving speeches. From the first he already has the backstory of going off the deep end (or at least growing disillusioned with Valinor) after a family member is killed by Melkor and theyre still the first to die, but its just some other rando unrelated to the royals
The situation regarding the humans is different - instead of Melkor leaking their existence, its Manwe who explains that the other continents were supposed to be for them eventually. So Feanor goes off on a tirade about weak puny mortals comes off as a more of a jerk unlike in the final version where Melkor barely knew about the humans and described them to the Noldor as a threat. On the other hand in this one, also very much unlike in the finished product, Melkor dupes even Manwe into being unfair to the elves as a whole. In this the final version is a definite improvement, both Feanor and the Valar come off as a lot more sympathetic and though still deceived he's partially right in some things at least, so you have more of a genuine tragedy rather than a simple feud
There is something to the idea of Commoner!Feanor tho. I guess some of this survived in his nomadic explorer lifestyle and how both his wife and mother (who arent mentioned here) eventually were the ones to get that background of being not especially pretty ladies who are not from the nobility but got renown, respect and acclaim for their unique talent and contribution to society, with each having invented things and Nerdanel also being renowed for her wisdom. Hes sort of an odysseus-like Figure in that sense. I suppose later developements necesitated that Maedhros & co. have an army not just a band of thieves, which means they needed to be nobles/lords. That said this being a society where artisans are very respected and half the lords have scholarly/artistic pursuits going, the gap was probably not as big to begin with as it might have been in say, medieval England. Esoecially since Nerdanel's father had been given special honor by one of the local deities and that the social order might have been a very recent thing in Miriel's time. One might speculate that the first generation of Lords started out as warriors during the great journey, or perhaps just Finwe's friend group.
Also found that bit intetesting where the Valar have to deal with the remaining political tensions and effects of Melkor's lies on the remaining population in Valinor... - i guess with the change of framing device it was less likely for news of something like this to reach Beleriand. That, or the existence of Finarfin and his repentance made this go smoother this over in later cannon
Turgon's go-down-with-the-ship moment reaaly got to me. Im half tempted to write a fic where his wife, siblings and dad glomp him on arrival in Mandos. I dont care that none of them exists yet in this continuity i want Turgon to get hugs
I love all the additional Detail that got compressed out in the shift from fairytale-ish to pseudohistoric style especially all the various Valinor magic insofofar as it is compatible with the final version - particularly love the idea of the connection between the lamps and the trees that is now integrated into my headcanon forever
Its actually explained what the doors of night are
If I had not already read unfinished tales or volumes X to XII where this is also apparent, this is where I would say: Ah so the Valar were supposed to be flawed characters. Manwe has an actual arc; by the time he sends Gandalf he finally "got" it. I think in the published silm the little arcs of Ulmo and Manwe are mostly just lost in compression/ less apparent when only some of the relevant scenes got in but not all
It occurred to me way too late that the "BG" chars are the most consistent because theyre at the start and most stories are written from beginning to end. Finwe doesnt get a dedicated paragraph of explicit description until HoME X but my takeaway was that he's described pretty much like I always imagined him anyways/ same vibe I always got from him... charismatic, thoughtful, enthusiastic, sanguine temperament, brave in a pinch but at times lets his judgement be clouded by personal sentiment (though that last bit is more apparent/salient as a character flaw once he became the father of a certain Problem Child) ...i guess this would be a result of jrrt having had a consistent idea of him in his head for a long time.
This means Finwe's still alive at the time of the exodus which is just fun to see/interesting to know... Interestingly he sort of gets what later would be Finarfin's part of ineffectually telling everxone to please chill and think it over first while Feanor simply shouts louder (which is consistent with his actions before the sword incident in later canon where he initially spoke out against the suspiciozs regarding the Valar) - but its not exactly the same, he's more active than Finarfin later in that when "chillax" availed nothing he said that then at least they should talk with the other Kings and Manwe to leave with their blessing and get help leaving (This seems like it would have been the clusterfuck preventing million dollar suggestion in the universe where Feanor is related to him and values him) but when even that falls on death ears he decides that he "would not be parted from his people" and went to run the preparations. I find it interesting that the motivation is sentiment/attachment (even phrased as "he would not be parted from [his people]" same words/ expression as is later used for the formenos situation), not explicitly obligation as it later is for Fingolfin (who had promised to follow Feanor and didnt want to leave his subjects at the mercy of Feanor's recklessness )
Speaking of problem children. It seems the sons of Feanor were the Kaworu Nagisa of the Silmarillion in that originally all they do is show up at some point and kill Dior as an episodic villain-of-the-week. And then, it seems their role got bigger in each continuity/rewrite... probably has something to do with the Silmarils ending up in the title later making it in the sense their story that ends and begins with them. They have zero characterization beyond "fierce and wild" at this point, though in what teetsy bits there is we already have the idea that Maedhros is the leader and Curufin is the smart one/shemer/sweet-talker, though not the bit where Maedhros (or Maglor, or anyone really) is "the nice one". Which I guess explains why "Maglor" sounds like such a stereotypical villain name.
"The Ruin of Doriath" was purportedly the patchworkiest bit of the finished product, but I never noticed and it actually left quite an impression of me upon first reading, the visual of Melian sitting there with Thingol's corpse in her arms contemplating everything thinking back to how they met... she had the knowledge to warn him not to doom himself but couldnt get him to understand it because he doesnt see the world as she does.... After reading this though I wish there was a 'dynamic' rendition that combined all the best bits like, youd have to adapt it to the later canon's rendition of the dwarves, have Nargothrond exist etc. But i mean that just makes Finrod another dead/doomed relative of Thingol's whom bling cannot truly replace, like Luthien and Turin. In the Silmarillion you could easily read it as just an "honoured guest treatment" but here and in unfinished tales I get the impression that Thingol actually did see Turin as a son.
Already you see the idea of trying to make the stories all interconnected but there is less than there will be (the human heroes aren't related yet and there is basically no Nargothrond, which is later a common thread for many of the stories - a prototype shows up in the 'Tale of Turambar' tho complete with half baked prototypes of Orodreth and Finduillas
O boi im not even through yet
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hi!! can i ask why you didn't like ww 84? this isnt trying to be an attack or anything!! i just also didn't like it all that much and i wanna see if im just looking too deep into it and if anyone shares my reasons or not ;; hope you have a nice day!!
So like,,, I do have a lot a lot a LOT of thoughts on this movie. Honestly thank you for asking bc like I do WANT to go into it. You can totally drop into my messages if you want to keep talking about it! I would love to hear your thoughts too.
I harbor no ill will to anyone who enjoyed this movie. I just strongly dislike it.
Ultimate TLDR: I get what they were trying to do, they didnât do it well.
Broad brushstrokes:
- So like number 1 issue is the racism. Plenty of people are going to go into that Iâm sure but like, holy fuck. The treatment of people in the Middle East (with the missile scene especially). The use of black people as props for a moral center. Having your villain be a skeevy (and sexy) latino conman (I love Pedro Pascal as an actor but like they gave him a VERY stereotypical backstory and behavior for a latino character, and while it was clear his character was trying to pass as white, they still made him use an accent) while having no people of color as a positive leading role. I get that he was supposed to be a Trump allegory turned on its head by him being Latino but it still ended up being a downward punch. I canât super speak to this as a white person but it definitely rubbed me the wrong way.
- Another major issue I have is Kristin Wiggâs character as a stereotypical ugly duckling narrative. Society has outgrown âglasses curly hair and modest clothes make you uglyâ trope. Could have been resolved by Diana taking her under her wing at the end and teaching her real confidence or even a climactic moment in the final fight where she realizes she was always worth it. I did appreciate though that âwoman gets called pretty for first time and attaches her worth to it and thatâs badâ narrative bc relatable (as someone who was maliciously bullied for their looks) but this movie also frames harassment as positive attention (mechanism affirming she is hot now).
- Diana has no narrative arc. Her having to sacrifice her happiness over and over (which I think Steve lowkey rightly called her out for being so fixated) isnât really resolved or touched on after itâs brought up. Itâs also clear that she already valued truth before the story, so she doesnât change there. Also itâs implied she hasnât grown as a person in 60 years after Steveâs death, and even if she hasnât they donât do a very good job showing much grief.
- Diana grieves a man she knew for a few days to a monthish perhaps (not sure if travel is accounted for much in the first movie) with no consideration for her aunt who she also lost the day she met him.
- You never get to see Diana be a capable researcher beyond using her knowledge of Latin which is just her native language.
- Not to mention people handle artifacts with their bare hands in this movie.
- The exposition all feels convenient because it always comes right before itâs needed and you never see any work go into it. The whole narrative structure is bad and I could tell you exactly what I would have done different (shown Diana on an archaeological dig, or having some legitimate struggles in her life beyond âIâm choosing to isolate myself over a single manâ)
- Iâm happy to see a movie with color in it but itâs clear with some scenes they were trying and failing to show off (I hate the fireworks scene so much). Just so much bad editing.
- They set up a lot in this movie and just never actually truly brought it back around. Especially with the scene in Themyscera which was badass but POINTLESS. Like I get what they were trying to go for with the truth mattering but like, it wasnât executed well. Also why set up that stuff with âthe language of the gods I wonder who made thisâ and not GO INTO THAT I was excited for that potential plot line. The armor even was pointless.
- No sisterhood with the Amazons in a narrative of growing beyond self isolation. First movie was about independence so it makes sense they werenât there. But Diana still ends up completely alone. The Amazons would have been great to help face this or literally any more women being involved in the story. The beginning doesnât show her even being bonded with them then. Theyâre like almost pointless for the influence they have on her backstory.
- Seventy waves of feminism were trying to fight each other and none of them emerged. A movie with a female lead doesnât have to be feminist but itâs clear they were trying to be, so like, it sucked that they didnât execute a clear message at all.
- The fight scenes were all bad. I didnât enjoy a single one. One was just fucking, cirque du soleil (sp?). Dianaâs fighting style was also impractical and I get that even though she is Very Magic she trained with women who were magic but not As magic as her. There was this one sexy kick that just had no leverage. It made me cringe.
- Male gaze. Male gaze on Diana the whole time. Villainâs makeup can run but Diana will have perfect wings while she is crying.ďżź
- The MacGuffin was an inifinity stone. There I said it. Boo.
- Whole narrative structure bad. Just poorly organized. Lack of resolution for anything. There were a bunch stories involved and none received focus or resolve or expansion.
Those are the BROADEST brushstrokes. Thank you for asking :)
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a run-down of / my thoughts on the novel âtrade secretsâ
so! iâve recently finished this beautifully written novel by @bettsicanâ, and am anxiously anticipating for the second book in the trilogy! (seriously, give it a read. itâs a great lgbtq+ thriller and mystery story, i promise youâll love it!! you can find trade secrets in many places, including amazon, where itâs only $6)
as i was reading it, i noted down all the thoughts i had. it was fun, interesting, and kept me on the edge of my seat!
oh, and spoiler warning, of course.
Chapter One
okay. this is interesting. why are they in paris? or rather, why are they NOT in paris?
2080. damn.
who is cooper hall and why is he important i want to knowwwwwwww
Chapter Two
HOLY FUCK
CHAPTER ONE WAS A PROLOGUE
OKAY IF I DIDNT NEED TO BEFORE I HAVE TO READ IT NOW
-ahem- anyway
nate literally everything you think of has to relate to smoking, doesnt it?
clyde you absolutely bitch raccoon
im sort of piecing together whatâs happening here? either way this is a SUPER interesting concept.
i love the idea of every word being important
nate look at you being a nice guy. testing the CAPS before giving them to ur clients
or maybe itâs just good business
but whatever
okay, so credits are money in this world. but how do people get them? obviously thereâs what nateâs doing but whatâs the legal way to get them? ill probably find out soon
if it wasnt explicitly said by betty that nate ends up with another guy (i forget his name. cooper?) i would have thought audry was the romantic interest
audry you loving caring hypocrite
i feel like sheâs gonna be one of my favourite characters
who is this young man that dares disturb nateâs slumber
cooper? cooper.
Chapter Three
nate get up
u turtle get up and hurry down the stairs
orâokay you can fall into that drywall that works too
ohhhhh so nate is a detective. thatâs interesting
i also love this idea of keeping secrets (haha trade secrets)
dude are you sure that your embarrassing entrance wasnât the ONLY reason you blushed? ( ͥ° ÍĘ ÍĄÂ°)
HEIGHT DIFFERENCE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE HEIGâ
nate ur spending an awful lot of time looking at his features you funky little bisexual
oh damn ur smarter than u seem, just watching him take a single breath and youâre already making connections. i guess thatâs why heâs a detective
im gonna assume this is cooper, even tho it never explicitly says so
i feel like we arenât gonna get his name for a while, bc clients and whatnot and not getting attached
Chapter Four
NATE WEARS GLASSES???????
thatâs kind of cute
im lowkey gay rn
anyway
NATE CALLED HIM SWEET-FACED AND PRETTY-FACED O K A Y
oh he has curly brown hair
and oh the glasses arenât real glasses. oh. the use is actually pretty cool!
so from what im gathering civilians are people who donât live in sanctuaries, and lemnis are people who do?
cooper sweetie why do u need so much money what have u done
nateâs pretty clever
HAH I WAS RIGHT WE ARENâT GONNA GET HIS NAME FOR A WHILE
well thatâs that i guess
Chapter Five
heâs so timid awh
hehe heâs on nateâs bed
sorry
goddammit man calm down or else youâre gonna get everyone in a 5-mile radius around you arrested
waitâŚ. zero-credit balance?? didnât he just have a few hundred thousand credits???
OH THIS IS A FAKE PROFILE HE MADE
so cooper isnât his real name either
oh
Chapter Six
oh weâre back to 2080
oh theyâre back in the apartment??
it was obvious before but at this point itâs confirmed that theyâre going to be doing some travelling together or something
Chapter Seven
this is getting really interesting i dont wanna stop reading and type everything that comes to mind
these are gonna be shorter now hehe
âiâd been a petri dish of mixed emotions and wild chemical changes for half the dayâ I LOVE THAT METAPHOR LMFAO
what happened with nateâs mom
i want to know
my prediction: she wanted him to either change up or completely remove the chip bc she did something horrible? or maybe she just wanted to leave idk im bad at predictions
either way it said she was crazy
o h
thatâs why heâs terrified of cutting the chip
poor nate
Chapter Eight
oh this is strangely intimate
very intimate
i feel that, because cooper has such high pain tolerance (or doesnât show pain), he has some backstory for it
Chapter Nine
lmao nate just went off didnt he
THEIR FLIRTING IS CUTE FHJKJDLSKAJDKLSJAK
also is being lgbtq+ widely accepted as the norm in this setting? bc nate considered cooper to be flirting with him
ughhhh itâs so good so far, from the character interactions to the suspense, especially in this chapter
Chapter Ten
rude cooper is rude, rude nate is even more rude
F E D O R A
âcoopâ
Chapter Eleven
aw i love jimmy alreadyâ
WHAT THE FUCK COOPER
EXCUSE ME
JIMMY
WHAT
HOW COULD YOU
goddammit
what the fuck is cooper hiding
cooper oh my god
you
youâre playing a dangerous game, mate
are you really that heartless
âdeceptively innocent eyesâ you got that right
this chapter hurted
thanks a lot jess
Chapter Twelve
âlike a weeping wound on the canvas of my homeâ this has got to be one of my favourite similes ever omg
the way nateâs describing cooper makes my heart hurt awh
i feel like butterflies have some sort of symbolism
maybe being ugly on the outside and beautiful on the inside, or vice versa? the vice versa was basically cooper lol
aye we finally get to meet audry!!
PEANUT BUTTER AND TRICYCLE I WANNA HEAR ABOUT THAT
i love audry omg
ITâS NATEâS BIRTHDAY?? HAPPY BIRTHDAY YA SMOKEY CONMAN
âbright eyesâ is the cutest nickname ever
Chapter Thirteen
oh weâre back to 2080
wait what theyâre trapped together
is this story gonna have a sad ending
please no
Chapter Fourteen
OH ITâS THE LINE ON THE COVER
i like that
nateâs back to where he left cooper
also if it wasnât obvious before, itâs definitely obvious now that nate and cooper or gonna find each other again. hm. not sure how i feel about that
kind of pissed at cooper but also we need him for the story to progress
O H
COOPER IM ONLY KIND OF PISSED AT YOU NOW
IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE
NATE IVE SAID IT BEFORE BUT YOUâRE PRETTY CLEVER
also who is âherâ?
COOPER WANTS TO BECOME A?? LEMNIS?? GODDAMMIT MAN
I CAN FEEL THE PRESSURE RISING
nateâs in danger
wow this chapter is
a lot
i need a break
-cue a break-
Chapter Fifteen
iâm back
eisley is a cool last name
oh wait so even people outside of sanctuaries can become a lemniscate
iâm still not 100% sure what a lemniscate is
itâs so ironic elijahâs last name is king, but i assume you did that on purpose. i also like the slight nod to royalty by his first name
OH
COOPERâS BACK
why hello there
Chapter Sixteen
theyâre
competing
to become a lemniscate
and one of them dies
do they fight back?? is that why they end up in prison??? so many thoughts are going through my head right now
nate, your fantasy about becoming a lemniscate is surprisingly dark. iâm totally down for it
Chapter Seventeen
oh wait so joshua is cooperâs blackmailer?? Interesting that itâs a lemniscate
i keep forgetting nate is wearing glasses
cooper, my dude, calm the fuck down. youâre gonna get yourself and nate killed
itâs the return of soft⢠nate
Chapter Eighteen
oh thereâs another one
oh this is very ominous i donât like
Chapter Nineteen â Twenty-One
okay i was eating while i read so i couldnât type here but just know that these chapters were really really good
Chapter Twenty-Two
wait fuck whatâs happening this is all happening so fast
cooper brought out his gun,,,, itâs aimed at ivonne,,,,,,, theyâre walking,,,
OH IT WAS A FAKE KIDNAPPING
nice
i like ivonne a lot
Chapter Twenty-Three
the entire story just changed course
this isnât just about cooper and nate anymore, itâs about a corrupt government
NATE AND COOPER ARE HOLDING HANDS AS THEY RUN THROUGH THE BARRIER THATâS SO ROMANTIC
also the line âonly the dead are ever truly freeâ is beautiful
THATâS WHERE PARIS COMES IN
THEY ALL GO TO FRANCE DONâT THEY
Iâm so curious to find out where this story is going
Chapter Twenty-Four
this is doin me a confusion
but tbh these hints/ visions of the future, if you could call them that, are giving just enough information to keep me super interested. props to you
Chapter Twenty-Five
AUDRY STOP TEASING NATE
just joking keep doing it, this might actually get their relationship somewhere
ivonne is definitely my favourite character so far. she reminds a little of melia from xenoblade chronicles, in that theyâre both âroyaltyâ that rebel. also theyâre badass and smart
oh fuck the brother is here
okay thank god heâs not an asshole
oh god things are happening again
Chapter Twenty-Six
nate stop ogling at cooper when youâre in a life-or-death situation
holy shit the lemniscate are messed up
this crew is pretty great, it sucks that itâs almost the end of the book
WAIT I FORGOT THEREâS A SECOND COMING SOON HECK YEAH
anyway
YES COOPER PULL THROUGH
awwww yiss
Chapter Twenty-Seven
oh
oh
O H
oh my god i ship them so hard
THEY KISSED
THIS IS SO STEAMY
this chapter was art thank you so much for this
Chapter Twenty-Eight
AHAHAH AUDRY
once again, iâd like to state how much i love her
oh the tension just grew twentyfold
this is⌠great
oh god nate what are you planning, you just got together with cooper and now you want to leave him?
Chapter Twenty-Nine
whatâs with all the dancing?
Chapter Thirty
oh god the description
so heâs going around and giving people credits, all the while confessing things that would help the lemniscate track him down. i assume this means heâs going to die, but why?
just what are you planning?
oh weâre back to clyde, the guy who started it all. it feels full circle
Chapter Thirty-One
OH
HEâS MAKING HIS CHIP SHOW THAT HEâS DEAD
thatâs much smarter
FUCK
NATE YOU IDIOTâCOOPERâS REAL NAME
SHIT NOW KING IS HERE
everythingâs going downhill now isnât it
Chapter Thirty-Two
wait that took an even darker turn
thereâs so much happening right now i canâthandlethis
cooper and nate are couple goals
Chapter Thirty-Three
king isnât as horrible as i thought
still horrible, but not a monster
NEVER MIND YOUâRE A FUCKING MONSTER WHAT IS THIS BS
cooper
actually
shot
nate
Chapter Thirty-Four
OH MY GOD
WHAT
THIS IS HOW YOU END IT
I CANâT
HOW DARE YOU
NO
NO
NO
NO
i need the next book
like right now
what the hell
Final Thoughts
okay so this book was SO good, and so well written. like damn
aside from that horrible ending how could you do this to me
iâm joking, it was an incredible and emotional ending, i loved it and hated it at the same time
it very rarely felt static, and especially in the first half, there was a good mix of action and backstory/description. it was never boring
the story is just,,, so unique. i seriously havenât read anything like it, EVER
the world-building?? Is?? so vast?? and insane??
the increasing tension and speed as the story progressed is perfect, i felt my heart beating faster the more i read
anyway thatâs all from me
this book was amazing i cannot wait for the next
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So, I have a character who is a system, and I wanted to know before I develop them further, how does DID work, from a personal account? I really really really don't want to accidentally create yet another TOXIC misinterpretation of a real condition (because I know how horrible that can feel), and I hope I'm not saying anything wrong even now. (P.S. I love your blog, but I'm too shy to come off anon.)
hey anon!! it means a LOT to me that you sent this message :D theres a lot of really messy-bad potrayals of DID in the media so seeing people actually going to the effort of asking systems abt their experiences is really heartwarming for us. (plus the fact that ppl keep asking us in specific abt system stuff omg,,)
im gonna preface this by saying that, in the end, i can only really talk about my own experiences with full confidence. systems can work pretty differently from each other, but this is how we function and also some details ive noticed from system friends + general discussion over the years
so, to start off: Dissociative Identity Disorder is, at its core, your brain trying to respond to trauma in a pretty severe way. that being said there ARE systems that didnt experience severe trauma and still developed, and im not really sure about the mechanics behind that but i find it really cool and it totally exists. im gonna focus on trauma-based systems bc thatâs our ~tragic backstory~ and also tends to be what most people opt for when creating system characters anyway, but the only real difference from what i can tell is, uh, a lack of trauma.
I HOPE YOUâRE READY FOR ME TO SAY THE WORD âTRAUMAâ A WHOLE LOT JFC
(system friends are welcome to reblog with corrections or added info!!)
anyway. the way your brain responds to things is really weird. if something happens where youâre just, like, completely unable to handle it, like you dissociate yourself so hard because thereâs no way you can manage this, your brain has a chance of going âuh⌠well, fuck, uhâ and generating somebody who can manage it. or it might decide to be a dick and take all of the fucky internalized garbage and turn it into a person whose sole existence is to be an asshole. (they have the potential to get better, i think⌠ours didnt.) honestly theres a bunch of reasons and a bunch of ârolesâ that could lead to an alter/headmate* forming.
* we use the terms interchangeably depending on mood and whos fronting. i think its supposed to be âalterâ is DID, âheadmateâ is implication that theyre non-traumatic? we like using âheadmateâ because it brings this fun mental image of us being a bunch of roommates constantly starting shit with each other and goofing off which is pretty accurate about 75% of the time
i keep getting distracted bc my cat is here. this is gonna be fun to go back and edit.
whatever the original situation is, youâre suddenly not alone in your own brain. and itâs REALLY WEIRD. communication was VERY hard. Icarus, our system original, used to do a very âclicheâ thing of sharing a journal with their early headmates, where theyd write a sentence and then theyd write a reply (although back then they didnt realize that was a system-related thing and just thought they were having a fun conversation with their ocs. which⌠they were, just. Actually Talking.) they didnt have any inward perception of themself or their headmates either, so that kinda built up over time (with some help) along with the appearance of our headspace so that there was⌠actually a location for people to interact in. once they had a better awareness of things, mental communication got a bit easierâ its sort of like background chatter really, when everybodyâs awake. sometimes i get weird out of context things from Mae yelling at somebody, or sometimes ill be talking to a friend and someoneâll butt in.
when talking out loud, this usually leads to us suddenly stopping and then laughing or going âno!!!â. when on discord and around people who know who we are⌠well.
speaking of Mae, sheâs pretty much my sister. not like⌠biologically? because i donât think thats possible for me, but shes kinda literally my âother halfâ which ill get into later. headmates can have strong attachments to other alters! friends, best friends, family, dating, whatever. they can also do that with people outside the system, and itll be different for each headmate. thereâs like 4 people dating Jorb but i just see him as one of my best friends. weâre people and we have complex social interactions that can get to be kind of a nightmare when youâre around a bunch of people who donât know that youâre Not Leo and that youre suddenly not super up to existing around people in general.
plus even if like⌠so Jorbâs dating 4 of us like i said, but his relationship w/ each of them is different? Ica is very clingy and likes rambling to him, Summerâs pretty much just always happy to hang out, Mae makes fun of him a lot but in a loving way, and Leo is⌠kinda âall of the aboveâ because thatâs his gimmick. plus even tho a few other alters have a sibling-ish relationship with Mae like i do, usually its just me and Mae that do the âchaos siblingsâ bit.
the basic system.. thing⌠is that thereâs âfrontâ, which is being in control of the bodyâ so, like, iâm currently fronting/in front, because im the one currently active and using our computer and staring at our cat.â and then theres the headspace, where everybody hangs out when theyre not in front. the headspace itself can differ in style & functionality for each system, and i think theres some systems that dont really have a location at all? but for us its like a full on location where we have individual rooms, places to visit if we get bored while away from front, etc.
theres also like, being at/near/away from front? so currently im in front, but Leo is pretty much always lurking nearby if heâs awake (we have individual sleep schedules that dont always sync up to the âirlâ one, Trust is almost always sleeping), Icaâs somewhat in the back talking to Rookie so i cant really make out what theyre saying (its probably about either a youtube thing they both like or about a comic they want to do), and everyone else is either asleep (in which case they could be nearby but i cant currently âpingâ them, so id have to actually take a sec to ground myself in headspace more) or in a different room. communication is easier if im in front and somebody is nearby, or it can be like with Ica rn where im like âwell, theyre talking, but i have no idea what theyre saying and am making a guess based off their usual interactionsâ, or i could pass off front to go talk to Ica and come back (in which case my memory would be kind of vague and weird because information doesnt always properly translate), oooor i could actually go bug them while still in front. which.. im not gonna do rn bc then id get super distracted.
switching front differs between systems a lot! and even varies from day to day. like there are days where we wake up and we have absolutely no idea who we are bc we went to bed as one person and woke up as another. or we could be talking to somebody and then realize âwait, i stopped being Leo a bit ago, who am iâ. or we could pass off front to somebody, like if Summer really wanted to front sieâd run up to me and let me know and weâd swap. or if something critical happens (usually a breakdown), Leo or one of the other headmates thatâre more built to handle stressful situations will literally drag somebody out of front to make sure they dont hurt themself. or sometimes we throw front at people unexpectedly, like either mid-breakdown where we go âokay i dont wanna be here anymore, tag youre itâ or sometimes because we think its funny because its the metaphysical equivalent of getting clonked in the head with a dodgeball, except the dodgeball is âbeing in control of our shared physical formâ. usually maeâs the one that does that lmao
thereâs a couple major categories of how alters come about. thereâs âwalk-insâ, where they kinda just⌠appear externally? like they just show up. sometimes we get a feeling of âhuh. i think somebody might be here? or somebody might be showing up soon.â and have to rummage around for a while until they approach us or we find them. our walk-ins arenât like, inherently aware of system stuff at first, so they usually get a crash course before they first front (if they choose to front at all) and it can be kinda entertaining. Rookieâs a walk-in! also Hiro, from a couple years ago. most of our walk-ins are fictives (fictional characters, usually appearing in response to us getting extremely attached to something or somebody) but a couple of our trauma splits are also fictives so thatâs not like, a Rule or anything. i think these are mostly associated with non-traumatic systems but we get em fairly often so man idk
theres also⌠uh, i dunno what theyre actually called? we used to call them âconstructsâ but that sounds kind of mean. these alters exist to fill a specific role! and we usually dont talk about them on here with the exception of one major one, they just kinda hang out. Dhe exists to keep the system stable and manages the âbackendâ so to speak. Imp is kind of a mix of our intrusive & impulsive thoughts that came about from us trying to separate ourself from them so that we had an imaginary entity to go ânope!â at, which⌠stopped being imaginary, and is now a gremlin that lives in my brain. they can show up in response to trauma but arent split off of somebody, they kinda just pop into existence to help manage things.
the more⌠well-known, i guess? alter origin is âtrauma splitsâ. rather than âjust showing up one day with no real connection to the system originsâ, trauma splits are formed when somebody in-system, uh, splits. it could be in response to a single situation or something built up over a long time, but somebody just kinda breaks and somebody new that has a bit of the original alterâs identity (if kinda influenced by the situation) shows up.
this can vary. All is a trauma split off of Leo himself, who got saddled with all of our brain hell about our ex and their insystem appearance is influenced more by eir than by leo which is⌠something they struggle with. Mae has a trauma split from a similar situation that is âMae but from 2 years agoâ, so basically her old identity before she reworked herself after getting put through total hell. and then uh⌠then thereâs me and Mae! Icarus quite literally exploded into several people, with Pat (me) and Mae being the most distinct ones. weâre STILL finding out alters used to originally be a part of them that later evolved into their own people, like Summer and Toby. my identity is shaped pretty heavily not just by who Ica was at time of splitting, but also what they wanted to be jumbled together with trying to rationalize what was happening to them (theyâre a pretty big fan of megaman star force, which has a media-typical system in it, so they leaned into hard âits like pat and rey from mmsf! i like pat, i wouldnt mind being like pat, its scary but im like one of my current favourite charactersâ and so i ended up being like, half-weird shapeshifter, half-green-haired prettyboy. and yeah thats where my name comes from!)
(Ica got put back together w/o anybody needing to integrate, which we were all very scared about, and itâs still kind of surreal to me because⌠me and Mae used to be able to stick ourself back together and thats how we found out about what happened to Ica in the first place? and we havent tried that since bc we have no idea what would happen. Ica 2: Ica Harder?)
despite their origins, trauma splits can be way more than⌠being a split. :V;; Tobyâs not just a tiny splinter of Ica, heâs a quiet guy that gets stressed out and isnât totally sure how to interact with people. iâve existed for like 7 years at minimum and im a totally different person than i was when i thought i was still Ica, âcause ive had time to grow and change (and a problem Ica keeps running into now that theyre back is⌠they kinda Didnât change because they were MIA for 6 years.) like everything else though this is variableâ there can be âtemporaryâ splits that dont develop properly and might get integrated back in, which has only happened to us when we were at the lowest point in our life where we were stuck constantly splitting to try and cope with whatever the hell was going on.
so Ica was gone for 6 years, which meant our system was without an original or mainâ there wasnât anybody to be head of the system, basically. for a while i was operating under the assumption that i was Ica, so i filled in that role for a few years before i made the realization. eventually i kinda⌠stopped being able to, though, bc of stability issues, and then we were back to not really having a proper main anymore. to make up for it, we started going by Leo collectively and kinda⌠trying to pretend to be a single person? and so that ended up creating a construct to fill the role of âsystem main and the person we pretend to be when passing as singlet/not a systemâ: Leo himself! heâs kinda the most prominent traits we all have in common rolled into a single guy, which means that not only is he a pretty good system representative but we can also pretend to be him pretty easily (unless itâs someone like Toby who acts totally different). i dont know how common this situation is, i think normally itâs just âif system original is gone, another alter steps upâ like originally happened to us before i had a severe case of problems disorder.
uhhh this is very rambley bc thereâs a Lot to cover and now im trying to figure out how much of it i HAVE covered. systems are complicated and weird! OH WAIT okay i have one last bit.
so like, for us, first realizing we were a system was total hell. we fought a lot. as more alters showed up through various means, there were times where Ica felt like they were completely out of control of their own life bc of having to manage everything. there were a lot of panic attacks of people fronting and not being sure they were even REAL, despite⌠being in front. but we still felt like we were deluding ourself. this was in, like, late 2011, so systems werenât a THING. they were a very fringe community that everyone hated. we got constantly harassed, which only fed into Icaâs panic hell and our identity issues. interpersonal relationships became a nightmare, especially because we have BPD as well which varies in severity for each of us but⌠for me itâs pretty bad! there were times early on where every day was another fun new breakdown from us arguing with each other or our friends or not being understood or⌠etc.
so⌠how are we holding up ~7 and a half years later? pretty well, actually! we talk to each other. we do things for each other, like buy food or games we know specific headmates like. Ica is back and way happier than they were in 2011, and is thrilled to get to hang out with everybody thatâs showed up since. we help each other through problems, because at the end of the day our system ended up being a support network. Ica couldnt function on their own, so weâre like⌠10+ people working together to try and be a single functional person. and we feel pretty okay with that! we still fight, and we still start shit, but weâre not in constant crisis anymore. weâre still working through all of our trauma, especially the more ârecentâ stuff that kinda broke our system for a while until we were able to start rebuilding, but weâre doing it together. :D
so⌠yeah, it can start out as a stereotypical ânightmare systemâ, with constant infighting and toxicity and self-sabotage and etc. but we worked through it! it took a while, but weâre overall more stable than we were before. we got out of the bad environment that was fucking us up, we got mental help for our other brain hell (we havent been able to bring up the system to our therapists bc its literally a non-issue now and we focus more on other things like our depression, anxiety, PTSD, etc), we found people that support us for being us, and we were able to like⌠figure things out. and it was a mess! i still have issues about my own identity because of literally thinking i was someone else for two years. Icaâs still trying to figure out how to adjust to things, especially bc they missed our entire âcringe cultureâ phase so they came back to find that iâd dismantled a lot of their middle-school settings. and, uh, some of their friendships as well.
systems are fuckin weird
#leo chirps#leos reply#system shit#i dont think i covered EVERYTHING#and im not sure how coherent this is#but i tried! :D#Anonymous#ask#pat.txt
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Stu/Billy Reaction to Quiet Wallflower being a Siren
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Im glad you sent in this! I hope its to your liking! & I added quite a bit into the scenario & I changed it slightly
Sorry that itâs so long, the actual request is simple, I just like the idea of a little backstory behind the request:
1. Quiet, wallflower girl who never registers on Ghostfaceâs radar bumps into Stu a few days before a school camping trip. Sheâs very polite & kind & even gives him a hug when she leaves. Over the next few days, she gets to know both Stu/Billy, but doesnât exactly get super close with them, holding them almost at arms length. Both Billy/Stu watch her during the trip, deciding when to go in for a kill. 1) One night, during the full moon, they watch in confusion as she sneaks out to the lake after everyone had fallen asleep, in only a robe, strips, walks into the water, & disappears beneath the surface. Seconds later, they hear a song, hypnotic and sweet. It was beautiful to listen to, and Stu shuts his eyes & just listens. 2) Until Billy hits his arm and points silently, & sees a rude jock that have been bullying the other students over the past couple days. He walks like heâs in a trance to the water, wadding in & then freezing. Reader comes out of the water. A siren (like from the show on freeform) emerges from the water, and holds out a hand as the song gets louder. 3) The jock smiled dreamily & went in deeper, going to her. She grabs him, & disappears beneath the water. There are bubbles, & a struggle & then utter stillness. Then there is movement as reader emerges from the water, grabs her robe, looks around, & heads back into her cabin. 4) Conclusion, how would Billy & Stu react to the quiet little wallflower, who was always content in staying in the background & keeping others at arms length, being a siren hiding on land until the humans sheâs staying with decide she needs to head back home. And would they let her know they know? (Bonus if she knows about them too) 5)
Being a quiet wallflower tends to keep you off the radar of many people
And youâd like to keep it that way tbh
Unfortunately life wasnât on your side; you had accidentally bumped into the infamous weirdo named Stu Macher
Slightly panicked you quickly but politely apologize, giving the tall boy a simple hug & another sorry before leaving
This of course captures their attention; youâre completely on their radar and it was obvious to you (considering theyâre likely trying to include you into their activities ex: parties, hangouts,etc)
You trying to ignore them and stay off their radar; unfortunately that doesnât work as you begin to ease up w/ them. Of course still keeping them a good distance away from your personal space
The more you hangout w/ them the more theyâll likely believe itâll be easy to kill you
But youâve come to terms that despite everything, youâve grown attached to having them in your life
Eventually the schoolâs planned camping trip is around the corner; everyone was ecstatics. Minus you
This just seemed to increase your anxiety, but considering you now have more than just a couple of acquaintances, people you dare call- friends in your life. You have to go
While youâre at home packing and planning for the trip thatâs literally tomorrow, Billy & Stu are coming up w/ a plan to kill you, maybe a few other campers
It would be an easy kill tbh. They knew youâd rather sleep in your own tent and further away from the group, one could be on watch while the other kept you quiet while spilling your guts throughout your own tent
You had completely tripled checked everything; especially the calendar. The trip was gonna last around a week and there was various activities that you were gonna have to do. Luckily the day you were worried over wasnât until the last night
The next day: As everyone was boarding the bus you were forced inbetween one of the schools jocks and the preppy girls. The prep wasnât one youâve talked to considering they were pretty bitchy, however the jock decided to mess around
He was pushing back on all his friends as they pushed him back towards you, you tried to keep far away as possible from the prep while dealing w the jock; however his crew kept forcing him closer
It was getting uncomfortable & annoying
He was more of the douchy jock to so he didnât really back up, his hands slightly grazing you here & there
âCan you back up please?â You asked desperately
But alas you werenât heard
As the students piled into the bus you caught eyes w/ Billy & Stu who only grinned at you, motioning for you to sit near them
Billy made a kid move further back and you quickly took that seat considering you wanted to get away from the jock behind you
Billy sat on the outside w/ Sidney on his right, Stu sat by himself considering his girl was talking w/ another friend of hers further up front
Youâd thought the group of jocks would go to the back but the douche quickly slid in beside you- squishing you further towards the window
Having gotten closer to the boys they knew youâd rather much have your space than be squished up against other people
But you also didnât like having the spotlight on you
Billy was gonna shoo the guy towards the back w his group of imbeciles but you shook your head while just pushing yourself closer to the window, resting
The ride to the camp site started; it was ok at first. But the dude kept touching you
Like heâd lean more towards you, try to start a conversation w you, let his hand drift towards your thigh
Youâd smack his hand away and curl further into the window side
Lets just say it was a long and annoying ride
But fortunately when you get to the camp site youâre allowed to stretch and pick where you want your tent
Taking your stuff and putting it the furthest but not too far from the group youâre quick to set it up and toss your items into the shelter
It was around 4pm meaning yâall had a couple hours before dinner so you were free to chill or walk around so long as you let a supervisor know & didnât go too far
You decided to stay at the campsite and relax; in your tent away from everyone else w/ your music/sketchbook/book/etc
Meanwhile Billy & Stu were finishing up their tent; quietly planning your murder
The duo were hoping to catch you either away from the group or in the middle of the night-where they can keep you silent while they spill your intestines all over your tent
Maybe drag you further into the forest and torture you; a slow brutal death
Maybe even make it seem like suicide?
Ahh but the ideas of all those horror movies theyâve watched could help inspire them to make your death...more..grotesque?
Either way as the day continued and nighttime fell the group was quick to settle in for the night after dinner
The boys were still awake when they heard the sound of a zipper
You were dressed in nothing but a robe; quietly making your way out of your tent and to the lake that wasnât that far off
After the boys deemed it possible they unzipped their own tent, watching the figure stray away from the group- course they took their knives- a kill is a kill
They trailed the figure barely seeing the outline of the person in the dark; they watched as the person had taken off their clothing article- revealing the person to be female
Once the robe was off you slowly walked into the water, the boys watching as your figure disappeared deeper into the cool dark lake
The clouds above slowly moved away, the moon shining down on the lake in itâs full glow. The boys were confused as the person didnât come back up for air
Soon a sweet alluring tune echoed throughout the forest, ripples stirring the once still lake; Billy & Stu silently argued confused about the situation
Ngl Stu was probably slightly scared
Billy likely is confused & irritable
But the serenity was disrupted as the sound of footfalls thudded nearby, branches shaking and twigs snapping
Stu & Billy watched a tall male stumble out of the woods; w/ the moonlight they could make out who it was- that one douch that kept getting handsy w/ you
Billy made a motion towards the dude to indicate that they could kill this asshole too
Billy was the one to silently step closer towards the dazed jock
However the tune they heard had increased in volume, the movement to his left causing him to pause & watch whatever moved
What they assume to be the person that walked into the lake was now exposed slightly; their hair soaked and sticking to their body, skin having a slightly grey hue, eyes different in a creepy but entrancing way
Tbh they probably were just as enthralled by the person as the jock but it seemed as if the jock was literally in a daze
Stu quietly made his way to Billy; watching the Jock walk into the water, not saying a word nor making any other movements
The duo were likely freaked out- just slightly(Stu a bit more)
As the jock got closer to you, you backed further into the water,hands stretched out which now had webbing between your fingers
Once the dude was in your grasp you dragged him to the bottom of the lake, bubbles rising to the surface as you did your thing
Billy & Stu stood there waiting for anything to happen; tbh they felt like they were hallucinating bc of some serious whack drugs
But the figures didnât come back up, not for a long while
âDude Iâm kinda freakedâ
âShut up!â
The boys were likely arguing on what to do, itâs not like anyone would believe them nor why one of the campers were missing
About 15-20 minutes later the female came back up to the surface; walking out of the water towards their clothes
W/ the moonlight Billy & Stu are able to see who the figure was- surprised they watched as you quickly got your clothes and started making your way back
Guess theyâll hold off on killing you, for now they need to get closer to you and figure out WHAT you are
They tailed you all the way back to camp- waiting before heading back to their own tent
Throughout the time spent camping they boys seemed to get increasingly closer to you, being more social w/ you and inviting you do do more activities w/ them
This has you confused but you donât question it rlly
Overall, Stu & Billy are likely confused, curious and considering how you can be of use or if you should just die. Like in all honesty theyâll probably corner you eventually and start explaining what they saw, pestering & threatening you to explain to them. And if they deem you useful youâll either be part of their scheme of Ghostface or youâll be their source of blackmail, getting information on others and keeping any evidence from being found by the police or anyone of that matter.
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Do you have any role-playing tips? Especially for a more ~serious~ character? Cause i want my character to bond with the rest of the party, but im not rly sure where to start, especially since ive established her as kind of closed off
OH WOW OKAY
super honored that you asked
gods lemme see, I have a lot to say and some of it might be contradictory because so much of improvising and character creation and motivation is character, so this is going to be stream-of-consciousness under the cut
things that you can do that are just youâget comfortable improvising things, DnD and roleplaying in general is improv, itâs all say âyes andâ and âgo with the flowâ
âbut also get comfortable saying âyesâ to yourself and not second-guessing yourself
âie if you say something or do something donât second-guess it, let it have happened, let it be canon. and then from there, ask yourself why.
âseriously, the most interesting thing I have ever done and best way that Iâve ever built characters is I thought I had an idea who they were, and then they said or did something during a session that made me go âoh shit, why did they do thatâ, and it either connected to a thing in their backstory I didnât realize or indicated that they had a stronger feeling about something than I realized and letting the thing that Iâd done be canon that then I post went back and extrapolated from allowed the character to grow and mature and develop better than if Iâd been wishy-washy or had stopped myself from doing the thing that came to mind in the moment because I was worried about whether or not it was âin-characterâ enough
âand you can use that to reverse-engineer a character that better fits the overall party dynamic
âfor example, for the department campaign Iâd completely accidentally created a character who was a bit of a prissy field librarian here for linguistics and to be the arcane consultant and had never seen a death before and believed strongly in all life was utterly irreplaceable and precious for a party that was way more classic DnD and way less character-driven and VERY murderous even though weâre the good guys on a classic âsave the world from demonsâ quest just very chill about murdering moochs, and so slowly from interactions and reactions it turned out her upbringing was a more extreme high class controlling mother and her morals developed into a way more interesting âI am privileged and detached and am trying to say that I care about not killing but tbh as an elf whoâs essentially immortal and the rest of you all die in 50 years anyways it is kind of weird to care about your lives and my family thinks Iâm weird and really going through a phase for doing so and itâs hard to stick to that when you all seem chill with killing people so okay I guess weâre murdering people now, gotta stop the demonsâ and the more I leaned into that, the more interesting it became, because as she became a more powerful arcanist I started leaning into the âthe more high level spells she cast the more she started power-tripping/the power affected her brain and the less she stuck to the morals she cared so much about at first that her friends didnâtâ that, like. this has been a hella interesting, hella engaging character for me. if I had gone âSeraph Maewel has never seen anyone die before and she refuses to be a part of intelligent humanoid killing so we have to make sure we only knock people out and just kill the monsters and Iâm going to throw up after every single fight that we accidentally do murder peopleâ it would have been static and boring and sure, what I initially established, but it turns out what I initially established wasnât best for the campaign and this was an interesting, in-character transition that happened naturally because I did things as I did them aligned with what I understood about the character and then thought about afterwards how it fit with everything Iâd established before and what it implied that maybe was different than I thought
âalso people change itâs okay and in fact VERY fun to do character growth arcs you donât have to feel married to your initial conception of a character
âthereâs another concept thatâs a little bit tied? that is pretty much IC vs OOC choices, of, like, and this is my strong opinion because Iâve been a counselor whoâs been in charge of making LARPs fun for little kids for years now? but basically, on a larger scale than the tiny individual interactions, it is your *job* to come up with IC excuses and still make genuine in character decisions that serve the party and that serve the narrative
âlike, for example, a while back, I played a character who actively was planning to leave the party after a year. they hadnât told the rest of the party they wanted to leave, because it was their business, but they were in a point in their life where absolutely nothing was going to convince them to stay with this group of people, *especially* the fact that they cared about them, mostly because they wanted to Prevent An Event That Had To Do With Their Backstory From Happening To Everyone. out of character, I knew that I couldnât just Leave The Party, so I made sure the DM knew how my character felt, knew that I wasnât *actually* going to leave and that my character might be getting uncomfortable or look like they were making plans to leave but that I trusted the DM to do the rest, and the way that it was resolved was my character really didnât *want* to leave their new friends and just cut it too close when they thought they had more time and the Event Happened and after it happened there was no reason to leave. but I found IC excuses to keep choosing an OOC action that served the narrative way better than going âmy character really wants to leave so guess Iâm going to leave.â
âyou honestly probably do things like that anyways? in terms of, like, there is a Plot Hook so you find an IC reason to care about it. but itâs a very useful skill to develop to look at a narrative, go âwhat serves this narrative best?â, and then once you answer that question go âso what reason does my character have to try to do something like that or as close to that as they can?â
âright now all of the above advice kind of sounds like âyooo change your characterâ and the answer is also, *donât*. balancing meta stuff is aâŚmeta thing? just make sure that youâre having fun, and that youâre playing the character that you want to play, and that you have Strong Feelings and act in ways that give you the Feels that you want and that youâre playing for you too. compromise is compromise all around you arenât going to get anywhere if youâre the only person who gives any leeway then itâs not fun and easy to get bitter, roleplaying is collaborative and other people should work to reach out to you too and give you hooks
âbiggest and maybe most important bit: your DM is your friend. esp if theyâre trying to facilitate deeper roleplaying. tell them how yooo you want to try to get closer to the rest of the team, is there any sort of challenge that they can throw at you all that will facilitate teambuilding? a little bit of âwe all saved each otherâs livesâ or âoh fuck we got stuck in this cave in together and have to work together in ways we havenât to surviveâ or âoops we all have to be undercover and are relying on each other to keep up this actâ or just any situation in a story or piece of fanfiction that you would see and go âaND NOW THEY ARE A FOUND FAMILY WHO CANNOT BE TORN APARTâ, well, let that happen to your group.
things that you can do immediately to have reasons to care about the party as a whole:
âif you can learn their backstories, do? group bonding happens with sharing of personal backstories, and, like, OOC, everyone wants to talk about their character and stuff. if you donât like them, a good in character reason is maybe youâre paranoid and donât trust them and want to do some goddamn background checks on the people that youâre working with. but once you know more things about them, you have so many more reasons that you can use to go âah yup and hereâs something my character would hella care about and maybe might be the start of a bondâ
âas a closed off brooding character you still can have feelings that you are just the Dramatic Person In The Corner that you donât show them but theyâre there, that is everyoneâs favorite character in tv shows as they wait for said character to Crack and admit that they have Emotions
âfor example maybe pick another character in the party and oh wow you love them so much, they are your tiny son, you would never show it but nOpe they are yours now and nothing touches them
âpick another character that you absolutely hate and grumble about and glare at, except they are your asshole and nobody else outside of you is allowed to pick on them and if anyone threatens them you will murder that person
âMarian Daywrym, yet another DnD character of mine, has done both; three of the four other characters in the party are 16-ish year olds and Marian is a gruff 56 year old who oops has adopted three more children because tHEY ARE CHILDREN, and then thereâs Djin, space rogue, her ex co-captain of a ship that broke up when they had a huge fight a decade ago and at this point the way that she interacts with Djin is mostly being incredibly passive-aggressive and mean to his face but pretty clearly would Die for him and if anyone else tries to be mean to him she is ready to Fight, and that is how my grumpy standoffish âIâm the medic and Iâm here to do my fucking job and stay the fuck aliveâ space mom captain, who also has a policy of âdonât bond or poke into each otherâs personal business no drama on this ship we all just want to scavenge in peaceâ ended up being So Emotionally Attached To Everyone
âbut thereâs actually another potentially interesting route to go, depending on what kind of Brooding, Closed Off character you are that isnât âoops secretly now I love and would die for everyoneâ? which is basicallyâŚfind someone in the party that you decide that your character maybe admires in some way? of, like, maybe they have an Ideal of theyâre going to be a Hero Of Justice and you had that ideal as a kid and it only brought you suffering and pain and you never reached it and so fell off that path and thatâs one of the reasons that youâre closed off and itâs Painful watching this person with such hope in their eyes try and you donât know if you want them to succeed where you couldnât because they deserve to succeed or if thatâll hurt more too, and that gives you reason to be emotionally invested in their storyline and find yourself taking them under your wing and also for everyone else to go âhey are you okay want to open up?â and for you to maybe feel vulnerable enough to talk about your backstory, looking at someone who reminds you of a less broken you. or not even ideals that you had, ones that are âwow are you really the sort of person that I wish I could have been?â or hey, maybe youâre the idealistic one, then is there anyone in the party that is essentially a âwow I resent you so much for starting from a similar point that I did and falling off the path and/or am fascinated because am I looking at whatâs in my future, I need to figure out what makes you tick even though itâs like looking at a train wreck in slow motion of whether or not itâs going to happen to meâ
âthose are all the thing that come to mind to me right now but if you want me to Tell Me About Your Character And Your Party And Your Game I am always down to listen to people talk about their DnD characters (midterms season is coming up so I might be on and off of here but I swear if you ping me I wonât be ignoring you, just answering when I can)
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all about the lesbian sea pirate
ahsjdkflg okay im gonna do the first section above the cut and the rest under
send me an oc and some numbers pls!! | here are my ocs!
Section 1 - About:
1. Briefly Describe your OC: Appearance, personality, role in a story, etc..
okay so!! hana is half-japanese, half-german, sheâs got short/spiky black hair and fucking Huge brown eyes. sheâs the protagonist of a thus-unwritten pirate love story and i fucking love her. sheâs superbly socially awkward (doesnât get customs like politeness or like asking before doing things asdjkfl), sheâs a Romantic romantic, she loves sword-fighting, she was raised by her father (alongside three older half-brothers, though she was chosen as the heir to his ship which hmm pissed two of them off), sheâs very much butch/tomboy, she loves adventure and sailing so fucking much, uhhh yeah her.
2. Briefly describe their backstory/childhood
like i said, she was raised by her dad, who she idolizes, along with her three brothers on the sea; she never knew her mother, because her father told her that she died giving birth to hana (or did sheâŚ.? hm. maybe hanaâs dad is just shitty?). she was always super excited to play and go on adventures and fight, especially with her three older brothers (only one of whom actually like. liked her.), and by the time she was old enough to hold a sword, her dad taught her how to. eventually, her dad became ill, and named hana, who was only 16, his successor. her two eldest brothers planned a mutiny to overthrow her, killing the other brother who protested. hana fought them but they escaped with half her treasure, promising to come back and kill her, and sheâs spent the past six years seeking them out to defeat them.
3. Describe their family life and friends.
i mean i pretty much nailed her family, but sheâs very close to all the crew. iâll give you a quick rundown: thereâs caspian, her first mate/quartermaster (grew up on the ship with her, an orphan who was stolen in one of the raids, searching out his lost family but is also a big time goof), dover, her âadvisorâ/sailing master (wise, lazy, arrogant, bitchy, basically her pseudo-father because her father was usually off being captain), darya, her gunner (slutty bisexual aromantic queen, runs the artillery AND the under deck gambling ring, always drunk, loyal to a fault especially to hana), and zarya (weâll get to her later ;)) and the other lower-ranking crew members.
4. What is the world they come from like?
hmmm very mystical and mysterious, very âpirates are bad and suck and we dont like them even though theyâre not usually badâ but. you know. hana is still an outlaw of the land. there are mermaids and sirens and cracken and curses so itâs better to assume that if its magical it exists.
5. Are they original or exist in a certain fandom?
original!!
6. Are they an introvert or extrovert?
extroverted babey
7. Greatest fear?
being unable to sail but also, later on, (SPOILERS) being arrogant and greedy and malicious like her father
8. Whatâs their sense of humor like?
honestly just fucking. stupid. she probably likes puns and like dirty jokes.
9. Favorite pieces of fiction or genres they enjoy?
i dont think she can read???? but her third eldest brother bourne would usually tell her princess stories and she liked those
10. Favorite music genres?
folk ig
11. Describe their vision of a perfect spouse, if applicable.
a tall, beautiful, kindhearted woman, who sees past the pirate savagery and sees her heart beneath; a woman who can rule the sea alongside her and knows how to handle her and keep her in check. (looks at zarya meaningfully)
12. Largest regret?
not being able to save bourne
13. Something your OC would say?
my quote for her in her bio is âwhat am i without adventure?â but i also imagine her saying to zarya, âyou are more celestial than the stars, my love, and twice as beautiful to behold.â
14. Whats their morality like?
technically lawful good but could be a roulette wheel depending on the day
15. Would they live in a city, rural area, or suburb?
oof none but if she had to probably rural
16. Which actor would you like to portray your OC? (Or a voice actor)
sjskdldldl my face claim is jen ruggirello
17. Sexuality? Gender Identity?
lesbian baby!!!!!
18. What inspired you to make this character?
honestly?? probably a lack of rep in romance and adventure novels. i just love her!!!
Section 2 - IfâŚ
1. If they existed in another decade, what would they wear? (Asker can choose what decade) (Bonus points if you draw them!)
hmmm ill pick⌠current day tbh, and i imagine lots of overalls and baggy sweaters!
2. If they were in a RPG, what would be their class?
i have to imagine somewhere between paladin and a fighter, im not sure which.
3. If they received a large amount of money no strings attached, what would they use it for?
i honestly think she would just. go into the nearest village and buy all the local hungry children bread. like she wouldnât horde it or spend it on herself. she has everything she needs.
4. If they competed on a competitive TV show, how would they approach to winning? (the âmeanâ one, the one who makes friends, the one whoâs there for fun)
hm⌠i honestly dont even think she would think about it like that dkdkflfl. probably the charming one, the leader, the adorkable one.
5. If they could change one thing about their past, what would it be?
i think she would choose to keep in contact with her mother. not necessarily live with her, because then she wouldnt have her first love which is the sea, but just like. talk to her. know her better. go see her every few months. write her from different ports about their adventures.
6. If you met them, what would they do?
i would honestly probably be so fucking charmed by her. shes got that way about her, a leadership quality you canât shake, even if shes really incredibly awkward too.
7. If your character exists in another seriesâ world, what would they be doing/look like?
i kind of imagine her in harry potter as like. this half blood gryffindor whoâs So Gryffindor it hurts. on the quidditch team, always screaming about house pride, everyone loves her. and then she goes and falls in love with this muggle born slytherin and shakes the whole school dkdkkrklr
Section 3 - Other:
1. What other OCs would they get along with?
oh⌠i think itâs kind of cheap to say jack, because theyâre both pirates, but honestly i think theyâd get on like a house on fire. other than that⌠definitely michael minkus, who would make an epic first mate, and lucy stilinksi-hale, who she would probably wanna smash.
2. Whatâs their singing voice like?
bad. comically bad. she tries to sing to zarya sometimes and zarya locks her out of their room.
3. Take a personality test as the character. Post results.
okay so ive already taken a couple for her in the past (ex: gryffindor, entj, the motivator, etc.) so im gonna take a completely benign one off buzzfeed and post the results. so if she were a song off of thank you next she would be âbad ideaâ skskkdkd
4. What would be their fighting style in a fighting game like Mortal Kombat, Super Smash Brothers, or Street Fighter?
to outsmart her opponent, think two moves ahead of theirs just like in real life. jokes on her no one else is ever thinking skdkkfkfl
5. What are some mannerisms/quirks?
putting her feet up on tables, walking into rooms without invitation, holing up in her cabin for days working, smirking instead of smiling, smoking, docking in random cities for the thrill of adventure, wearing her blouses nearly completely unbuttoned, just taking things and enforcing sharing bc. sheâs always shared everything with everyone naturally and she doesnt know to ask djdkfkfk
6. Describe their favorite meal.
honestly sheâll eat anything but just like. a Nice leg of mutton and a glass of beer. thatâs it. thatâs the dream.
7. What do they do when theyâre bored?
her favorite activity is to randomly attack caspian and have impromptu sword fights with him, but she also loves stargazing and telling stories to the town children.
8. How do they express love/affection for someone?
honestly sheâs very. nuzzley. soft. like a little kitten. also waxes poetic. at least romantically. platonically, shes usually like a dad friend sjdkkrlr. like im talking âattaboyâ and punches on the arm. pep talks. dad voice. the whole nine yards.
9. Most embarrassing thing that could/has happened to them?
honestly, sheâs not easily embarrassed ever. i think sheâs kind of just like meh over most things. the most embarrassing thing that could happen would be losing the respect of her crew. she would hate that so much.
10. Make a portrait sketch of them!
#nicole#hana#oc stuff#love her!!!! so much!!!!!!!#loveallthatjazz#what kind of woman doesnt have an ask#long post#go all the way to the bottom of this post to see a qt uwu#katie writes#wow i went off
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Best Friend! Yuta
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A/N i havent posted in like 5 years and i have no excuse and this wasnt even requested but there is an extreme lack of yuta content and i decided to make it myself smh ANYWAYS i liked writing this a lot and feedback is encouraged!!! lov u lil squishies muah <33 -Admin Madi
ALSO this was inspired by this post from @xuxi-rolls and this post from @youaremychwingum which are both amazingly cute blogs and people so go check them out!
Backstory first! You two met in the 3rd grade when he was deep in his anime phase and you were obsessed with collecting erasers that were shaped like weird things such as lipstick tubes and paintbrushes
Yuta stole the paintbrush one and started using it like a sword like a character from his fav anime and boy when you saw him do that were you were like âim gonna do it. Im gonna kill himâ
You literally stomped your lil sketcher clad feet over to his desk and YANKED that shit from his chubby fingers with zero remorse
And he started crying and you felt bad and were like âwell fine you can have it i guessâ
And he immediately stops his FAKE crying bc hes a snake and sticks his tongue out at you as he snatches the eraser back
And you went into full Attack Mode and you two got into a small fist fight and the teacher had to break it up it was nasty
Anyways after you two went through the next year having some major beef, yuta apologised bc heâs a gentleman and even bought you a new eraser!
It was shaped like a dinosaur and you loved it so much that you instantly forgave him bc you didnt have an eraser in that shape yet!!
And he was beaming after seeing ur face light up like that and proudly pulled a matching dino eraser from his back pocket and was like âwe match!! We can be best friends now!â
And you Loved that idea you were like yes okay first order of business: more erasers
Anyways you two just instantly clicked bc ur sense of humor was v v similar and life became so much more enjoyable with having him there to share the experience with you
Throughout ur many years of friendship, Yuta had always wanted nothing more than for your friendship to be comfortable, honest and loving
Youâre the one that he rants to, gushes to and confides to so your friendship to him is so precious
And as you grew older and gained more freedom, both of you started to do more things outside of school like go on late night drives, go to the movies, amusements parks and out to eat every other day
And it became natural and routinely that going days without one another felt weird??
And you and yuta have discussed the idea of maybe you two being soul mates, but in a completely platonic way
Like you were two halves meant to come together
And yuta liked to reinforce this idea bc when it comes to being lovers, you shouldnât be looking for your other half, but rather looking for the person who already makes you feel whole
And so when yâall graduated from high school you immediately got an apartment together!
Itâs definitely not very fancy or anything since you both only had part time jobs here and there during the school years and summers, but itâs better than nothing!
And although yuta and you are similar, your styles are where you really begin to differ
While he wants to have pictures of mountains and gardens hanging on the living room walls, you would rather have mirrors shaped like suns and fairy lights behind the couch
And obviously after some friendly banter, you come to an agreement that a painting of pretty outside scenery at night would look great with some fairy lights to compliment it!!
And so your apartment quickly becomes a mesh of your style with his and itâs oddly nice?? Like who wouldâve thought that yutaâs knick knacks from japan would look so cute next to your family photos
Itâs a two bedroom apartment but you both end up sleeping on the couch in a heap more often than youâd like to admit
Youâre both in uni doing ur own things so when its time to come home and relax, youâll find yourself curled up next to him on the couch with your laptop open and writing a paper while heâs munching on some snacks and watching a game of soccer he missed bc of classes
And youâll quickly fall asleep bc papers are boring!! And yuta doesnt want to move bc your laying on him and doesnt want to disturb you so heâll just quietly cheer to himself when his team scores and eventually falls asleep
But sometimes he has no problem lightly shoving you off and going to his own bed bc the couch isnt really that comfortable and hurts his back after awhile, but he brings your duvet out so its more comfortable for you at least
And although you two are pretty much joint at the hip, your bedrooms are private from one another
Like its nice being with yuta, but its also very important that you have time to yourself and so neither of you are intrusive when the other person is in their room with the door shut
If either of you need anything youâll just shoot each other a text or quietly knock on the door rather than just barging in which is something that both of you really appreciate
And you obviously have other friends besides yuta that you love dearly! And you make sure that you get to see them often and that yuta goes out with his friends too bc its easy to get sick of each other no matter how much you love one another
And this makes for your friendship to be healthy! Which is like, the most important thing bc being your own person is important and having close relationships/friendships is also important! But its easy to get too attached and end up hurting yourself down the road
And yuta is aware of this as well and so it makes things a lot easier bc he knows when you need your space and when to distance himself if he needs it too
But living with yuta is a lot of fun!
He likes to cook sometimes so youâll always have a full tummy with yuta around!! And if he's not in the mood for slaving over the stove, heâll just make some instant noodles and call it a day
He really tries to make as many traditional japanese dishes as he can so he can have a slice of his home whenever heâs feeling down, and he just really enjoys sharing that part of his life with you too
Undoubtedly his favorite part is when he gets to hand feed you with a spoon and witness the look on your face as you chew bc itâs really rewarding for him
Sometimes your schedules kind of clash on days so whenever heâs home and youâre in class, heâll make food for himself and leave you tupperware containers of food in the fridge for you to heat up when you get back bc he knows youâll just crash and not eat which is really bad
And yuta cares about ur health!!! Heâs attentive as heck!!
But youâll do the same thing for him, and even if you aren't a world renowned chef, youâll lay cash on the counter for him to call in a pizza or something quick
If you know heâs been craving something then youâll leave the number for the place next to the money you leave so it makes ordering a bit easier for him!
Also, yuta is very organized! Sometimes heâll throw his jacket here and there or have some things where they shouldnât be, but yuta really likes having a clean and tidy apartment!
He hates doing the dishes, but heâll literally do anything else
He likes to vacuum for some reason you dont know but youâre like okay have at it! One less thing i gotta do! And heâs really happy once heâs done bc BAM you have clean floors
And youâll just be sarcastic about it but in a loving way and he laps that shit up bc sarcasm!!! His second language <333
You two have a nightly routine that ensues when neither of you are busy the next day so  youâll watch a movie on netflix youâve been eyeing together and crash
Sometimes when yuta gets home on these nights youâll still be in the shower or getting ready for bed, and yuta will come in and sit on the counter and youâll talk about your day and just chill while shampooing ur hair (which yuta is obsessed with btw..he loves touching and playing with it)
But heâll just be there,,listening closely and telling you about his own day while drawing squiggly images on the mirror like hearts and stick figures holding hands (its always you and him, but when you ask, he insists its him and winwin)
And you laugh bc boy does ur bff ever have a massive crush on sicheng!!
But yuta is just cute and likes your platonicness with him
Bc he really does love you! People often ask you two if youâre dating and you can see why people would ask that bc you and yuta are super close, but itâs also kind of an odd thought to both of you bc yeah you love each other but,,,not as lovers
And so youâll laugh it off and talk about it afterwards bc you really cant see each other in that light because you tried dating in high school and it just felt kind of weird
Yuta loves to tease and joke around with you, sometimes be a little (read; lot) sarcastic with his jokes but he really does care about u and thats how he shows his affection!!
Heâll hold ur hand when ur out at the grocery store or shopping together and likes to pat your head and plays with your ears but thats about it for physical affection!
Youâre emotionally bonded more so than physically which is not a bad thing uwu
Yuta finds it kind of hard to openly joke around to the same extent with others as he does to you and knowing this makes you feel really special
Like yeah!! Thats right!!! Im his best friend!!
Yuta also LOVES to dance with you
It doesnât matter if itâs serious or not, he will not hesitate to pull you up onto ur feet and have you dancing with him
ESP to sistars shake it! Yâall have so much fun when that song comes on
At first this was embarrassing but then yuta would just NOT stop shaking his butt so you were like oh well lets both look cutely dumb i guess
And youâll get noise complaints a lot bc the walls are thin and youâre moving around, creating a lot of noise and you feel especially bad when this is all happening at like,,,3am
Anyways you live kind of a fast pace life so whenever you gotta be somewhere you kinda fly out the door with ur feet shoved into ur shoes with the backs down and yuta will silently come behind you and remind you to slow down and will bend down and personally make sure theyâre on properly so you donât trip and die
It annoys him sometimes bc you should be taking better care of yourself and heâs not always going to be there to look after you and that worries him!!!
To allow him to sleep a little better at night, he bought you slide on shoes that you can easily shove on and fly out the door so he wonât have a heart attack at the thought of you falling down some stairs due to the hastiness of which you put your sneakers on improperly
And heâs also the one who is like âhey its been a couple of months so i bought you a new toothbrush bc dental hygiene is importantâ and youâre like âokay nice i just bought some new toothpaste on sale the other day, itâs minty so i think youâll like itâ
And this is how you two co-exist in ur shitty lil apartment
Yuta is also into soccer so you always make sure to go and support him at his games! Even if theyâre just practices or whatnot, youâll always be on the bleachers cheering for him!
Which yuta LOVES because heâll point you out to his teammates and be like âthats my best friend, ugly, right?â and theyâll just laugh bc of his teasing and they can tell you two really get along
And yuta is uwu x100 at this
Anyways yuta likes to show off and do fancy tricks like sliding on the grass to get the ball and heâs all dirty when you get back to ur apartment together and you wont let him touch anything bc that means more cleaning which neither of u have the energy for
So youâll basically make him take VERY large and wide steps towards the bathroom so he can shower and leave minimal dirt behind as he does so
And then heâll come out of the shower with wet hair and clean up the tracks he left with a paper towel but heâll go in circles for a good 30 seconds wiping up dirt and then water from his wet hair
And youâll observe him and laugh for a bit before youâll drape a fluffy towel over his head and heâll pretend to be scared and ask who turned off the lights
To which you nudge him and call him a dork, but when he takes the towel off and get to look at his face, you tell him he did a great job at the game and his eyes will change from playful teasing to filled with genuine love in .5 seconds and heâll instantly wrap you in his arms
And youâll find warmth in his embrace and wonder why he smells so good and then youâll realize heâs using your shampoo
Youâre like okay well, sigh, whatever its okay bc hes cute i guess so we can share
And then yuta will pull away, give your head an affectionate pat and go work on a paper or something due for school
Which you both do a lot of late night paper writing sessions and so when he tells you heâs retreating to his room for the night youâll go and cut up some fruit and gather some snacks he likes and bring them to him before he becomes too absorbed in schoolwork
And he does the same to you except he brings you a lot of water since its âimportant to stay hydrated~!â and will cover you in his favorite blanket bc he claims it âhelps you write better papersâ
And you arent allowed to refuse bc one time you tried to and yuta was like âokay well i guess iâll be moving out thenâ and youâre like okay i know youâre joking but its hot in here i dont want to have a blanket on me
And yuta starts to dramatically pick things off of shelves until heâs saying things like âiâll be out by morning since im not appreciatedâ and youâre rolling your eyes so hard you think theyâll go to the back of your head but its like okay fine thank you for your magic blanket houdini
Yuta just winks at you and does a theatrical bow before putting everything back and leaving you to write your magical paper
ANYWAYS thats what most nights are like, full of playful banter and fun talks
You also both THRIVE off the dollar store which is literally everything bc you two get so excited going in there!
They have everything so its like?? This place is my Second Home and i Love it Dearly
And yuta likes to buy candy there since its so cheap and one time when you were looking for a new broom, he wanders off and comes back with his hands behind his back and is like âguess what i found!!!â
And this is nothing new because yuta gets excited about the cutest things so youâre like âgum?â
And his smile gets all wide and bright like i KNOW you know the one im talking about, itâs literally kept me alive for the past 18 years
And heâll bring his hands out and WOW ARE THOSE ERASERS THAT ARE SHAPED AS SMALL ORDINARY OBJECTS??
And you just want to CRY bc thats literally the sole being of your friendship in his HANDS!
Yuta is proud as heck and buys two matching ones for you two and theyâre of paintbrushes in honor of the one he snatched in the third grade!
Which makes your heart so happy and content
But thats the effect yuta has on you! Someone who always manages to have you smiling and happy with life
But he does end up buying candy bc its basically your duty as a human to buy some expired candy from the local dollar store
And yuta really loves the flavor blue raspberry, esp if its sour and he finds a bag of sour jolly ranchers and goes nuts
And he picks out and religiously eats only the blue ones, a red one makes the cut here and there, but youâre like?? Yuta?? Can i atleast have ONE? And he rarely ever shares but its like okay whatever enjoy your cavities heathen
And youâll clown the shit out of him bc his tongue is blue, his teeth are blue and the area around his mouth is blue and you cant just let that pass
And heâll laugh when you try and come up with palpable things to call him, and when youâre both giggling uncontrollably, heâll try to kiss your cheek bc heâs all sticky and he knows that would drive you mad
And its the same with his fingers bc theyre all blue and sticky too and heâll hold your hand so hard that your fingers stick together and youre like yuta!!!! But you really secretly enjoy it
And then youâll go home with bags full of god knows what and struggle to find places for everything but its okay bc the memories that come with the plastic bags and erasers from your childhood remind you why you love yuta as much as you do
Can you tell i love yuta yet or is this au too vague <3333
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Castle of Shikigami: An informal rant nobody asked for about my most obscure obsession to date
STOP i spent like 2 days writing this post and im only posting it on tumblr because itâs the one website iâm a member of that can hold the most text. i wanted to infodump somewhere...... read this to learn something i guess (´シĎシ`)
Bad voice acting is the Peak of comedy to me, and while I was looking for something to laugh at one day, I found this game called Castle Shikigami 2 for the PS2. The US version of the game's dialogue is rife with machine translated text that makes no sense, and awkward voice acting to boot. They even have voice actors saying the wrong lines, voice actors speaking implied commands, and a few voice lines are left in Japanese. Apparently, Roger Craig Smith (Sonic the Hedgehog's current voice actor) was in this game but I don't think he's even credited?! I think I know which character he voiced but Iâm not exactly sure.
The history behind this gameâs localization is REALLY weird. Castle of Shikigami/Shikigami no Shiro was originally an arcade bullet hell shoot em up game. The series was created by Alfa System and it was one of Alfa Systemâs main IPs. There are three main shmup installments and a text adventure game for the PS2, Nanayozuki Gensoukyoku. Nanayozuki was practically fanservice for whatever number of CoS fans there were back then. Each main game in the series was originally an arcade cabinet, but they were all ported to PC and home consoles. In CoS 2â˛s case, it came out on the PS2, Gamecube, and Dreamcast, but only the PS2 version got localized. The western publisher, XS Games specializes in publishing quality budget titles such as âBass Pro Shops: The Strikeâ for the Wii. I theorize they didnât care too much about the actual content of CoS 2 and were more focused on selling a game quickly for a low price, so they just machine translated it and adjusted a few things. If youâre wondering if Castle of Shikigami 1 was also translated this badly, the answer is No. XS Games instead removed all the dialogue from the western release of CoS 1, and released it with the title âMobile Light Force 2âł.
âWait, what do you mean âMobile Light Force TWOâ if Castle of Shikigami 1 is the first game in the series?â If you want to know what Mobile Light Force 1 was, itâs GUNBIRD; another shmup game, but by a completely different developer than Castle of Shikigami. I donât know why they did that. What really kills me though is that both MLF 1 and 2 use the same boxart, which is COMPLETELY unrelated to the actual contents of either game. AFJQHJFOKLJFDS look at this
Thereâs more hilarity behind Mobile Light Force that isnât hard to find so you can search that up if youâre interested. But thankfully, Castle of Shikigami 3's Wii edition got more of a proper localization by Aksys Games.
Now I would bluntly say something like âstan castle of shikigamiâ but:
1. This seriesâ lore is insanely convoluted. Itâs an essential part of this expansive fictional universe referred to as âMumei Sekaikanâ (I donât know what this translates to in English) where thereâs like, 7 different parallel worlds. Thereâs more obscure ass games and manga that are tied to this universe, and I think thereâs even a tabletop RPG made based off it. Have you heard of âGunparade Marchâ? Most likely you havenât; itâs an obscure video game made by Alfa System that also got adapted into an anime, and I feel it can be described as Mechas x Persona. One of the characters in CoS 2 is just one of the GPM characters going undercover to find her senpai who traveled to the CoS world. Or something like that. The 7-world universe isnât explicitly talked about in the game but they make so many references to it without defining anything that itâs like you Must know about it. There is NO documentation in English about the Mumei Sekaikan I could find on the internet, although there is a wiki in Japanese where I got a ton of knowledge from (GOOGLE TRANSLATE IS MY TRUSTED FRIEND) I feel like I might be THE person in the United States who has the most knowledge on the Mumei Sekaikan, and I could go on another tangent talking about what I know so far (and who this one specific dude Shibamura Yuuri is) but I wonât.
2. The writing isnât excellent and can be pretty Unwoke â˘; the first game came out in 2001 and the third game came out in 2005 if that gives you a sense on what era these writers were in. As far as the games dialogue goes, the characters appear kind of flat. CoS 1 and 2 Kotaro (i refuse to use the official âKohtaroâ) is stupid and driven by JUSTICE to a point where itâs annoying. I canât tell if Hyuga is trying to be a Ladies Man in CoS 2 and 3. Kim, a religious tae kwon do instructor, spends CoS 2 thinking about how he should atone for his sins, then he turns himself into jail at the end. Sayoâs backstory is that she was a shrine maiden raised as a âhuman weaponâ to have no emotions and her only goal in life was to kill god and then die, something like that. However, after CoS 1, she gets a crush on Kotaro because he actually treats her like a human and Of course thatâs what youâd expect from the main teen girl and boy in the series. In CoS 3, Sayo's character is mostly played out to be a major tsundere for Kotaro even though surprisingly HIS character in this game changed a ton compared to 1 and 2 (he had to kill an illusion of his older brother, who he learned actually died earlier, and now he has to kill an illusion of his childhood sweetheart... damb that shit sucks :/). Heâs still stupid though
Thereâs a gag in CoS 2 that I canât clearly remember where itâs like, Niigi makes Sayo and Fumiko, who are both romantically interested in Kotaro, think that heâs only into little girls? Meanwhile, Fumikoâs magic goes wrong and her appearance turns to that of a child though in response sheâs like âhee hee maybe Kotaro will like thisâ. basically more On-Brand early 2000â˛s anime unwokeness than average. Speaking of Fumiko, sheâs a 400+ year old militaristic witch who constantly teases Kotaro (whoâs like 16 or 17) and she wants to marry him for his magical potential since heâs like one of the candidates for becoming God??? From the official CoS 3 character descriptions, âHer hobby is to steal the men from other women. Her second hobby is trampling upon people.â She canonically stole her stepmotherâs husband from her stepmother (the 3rd boss of CoS 3). I donât get how that shit would have worked
3. The game itself is HARD af but to be fair Iâm a scrub gamer. I canât get past stage 3 on easy difficulty without continuing. Yes i bought CoS 1 on Steam, Yes it has a port on steam i feel like i should have mentioned this earlier
4. Besides CoS 1 having a port on Steam, CoS 2 and 3 might be hard to obtain legally. The poorly translated CoS 2 was apparently super cheap back then, but since itâs an old game, its value mightâve increased. When I tried looking up prices for English CoS 3, all the listings were like at least $40 and being broke I wouldnât want to spend more than $29 for a Wii game in 2019... honestly I just emulated CoS 2. shout out to PCSX2
Last month I was desperate, bored enough, and deep enough in the Shikigami rabbit hole that I tried to find the manga based off of it online. The CoS manga only tells the events of the first two games so I still donât really get anything about CoS 3, like who Mihee, Batu, and Emilio are supposed to be. However, the plot events also differ. For example, Roger Sasuke exists as a character in CoS 3 but in the manga he literally Dies. Thereâs 11 total volumes of this; 3 volumes dedicated to CoS 1 and the latter 8 (the âTwisted Castle arcâ) dedicated to CoS 2. Only the very first 3 chapters were scanlated to English all the way in 2011. Fortunately, I did find the entire manga uploaded though............... in CHINESE. So you know what I did? I âreadâ the entire thing using my phoneâs Google Translate OCR app to take pictures of each page and comprehend the translations. Of course I still donât understand CRAP because of the Mumei Sekaikan jargon + machine translation but I understood enough to get emotionally attached to some of the characters. I wish I hadnât. At least through the manga I learned that the characters DO have some depth and pre-established relationships. For instance, the reason why Roger Sasuke became a ninja is because when he first landed in Japan as a kid, he was getting bullied or something and he didnât know Japanese then Kotaro saw this and told the bullies to stop. Then after Roy /sorry i mean Roger learned that he was set to home-stay with the Kugas in the first place, he decided to dedicate his life to Japan in order to protect Kotaro back. I think. DO U SEE HOW ABSURD THIS SHIT IS Anyway Nanayozuki takes place between the second and third games and sets things up for CoS 3. Thereâs a full playthrough of it uploaded to YouTube and I think it contains a lot of juicy lore, but itâs just too much to go over with Shitty Google Translate OCR. Thereâs also Shikigami no Shiro novels which apparently contain the most backstory, but I have a 0% chance of finding these online for free. Not to mention that these would ALSO be too much effort to Google Translate.
in conclusion: You donât HAVE to play Castle of Shikigami. Like, Iâm not gonna recommend it for the content, but if you love shmups and are looking for a shmup game you havenât heard of then I will recommend it for the gameplay (old touhou mutuals assemble theres a POWER-UP-BY-GRAZE MECHANIC). Iâve counted like 4 total fans outside of Japan that like this series for the story, and I donât think that number is going to increase because I doubt CoS 2 will ever get retranslated and ported. I just want you to know that this series exists and that thereâs a ton of wacky shit behind it besides the bad Castle Shikigami 2 dub. also if someone knows enough japanese or chinese and has an INKLING of interest in this series umm talk to me and help me decipher stuff
Iâm kinda sad that the series is pretty much Dead though. This is the most recent piece of official Castle of Shikigami art I could find, and this was for the 2018 New Year. The next most recent piece of official CoS art I found was also drawn by the character designer Sonoda Miku all the way in January 2008, commemorating the end of the CoS manga serialization. Alfa System released a spiritual sequel to Castle of Shikigami on the Japanese Switch eShop called Sisters Royale, with character designs I think are still by Sonoda. By âspiritual sequelâ I mean that it has some of the EXACT same shot types as CoS and the same mechanic where grazing bullets increases your power and score. This is the closest weâll get to a Shikigami no Shiro 4. I wonder what the business decision behind that game was but it actually looks like fun and I want to play it so OK Go off i guess
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For the honesty hour thing: So, how did you fall in love with Sakuya, and want attracts you to his character? Im interested in this!
Lol girl did I ever tell you that I love you?
It took me awhile to answer this because I needed to collect my thoughts about it. AHAHA TAKE A SEAT EVERYONE. Okay gosh where to beginâŚ.. THIS IS LIKE THE INTERVIEW I WAS WAITING FOR. HA.
Well, as some people know I wasnât extremely fond of Sakuya when I first started Servamp aboutâŚ.7-8 months ago? I didnât hate him or anything, just didnât really care for him at first. (but that kinda goes for quite a bit of characters really, but everyone grows on me at some point. ^^)
I think what really got to me was after learning about his past and how it affected his motives, relationships and current situation in the series.
So many aspects about his characters just make so much sense but I feel like are just kinda looked overâŚâŚ. probably cause his backstory was kinda glazed over real quick, in my opinion at least. (Like why dammit? I have so many questions still, this series canât do this to me.) It just really kills me inside, especially the more I thought about it and the more I think about his character.
Iâm gonna kinda express some of my new random thoughts on his past , cause this intrigues me oddly: (Kinda theory time right now whoooo) AND ALL IS WHAT GIVE ME SO MANY FEELINGS MY GOSH.
Just thinking about the extent of the abuse he mustâve suffered is something that really boggles my mindâŚâŚ We know it went on for years, those 6 years before his âdeathâ and then probably a few more before that obviously, when his sister was still alive. Whoâs knows how long she had to endure it though? She was much older, Sakuya was about 9 at the time, and she appeared to be High School (or maybe Middle School canât really tell with the uniform.)Â
She was also the one covered in bandages after all, and we couldnât see any visible scars or injuries on Sakuya. So she obviously took all the beatings so he wouldnât have too most likely but after when she died Iâm sure things got worse for poor little Sakuya.
But this is my other biggest thing about the abuse he went throughâŚ
How come he never tried running away?
We all know his parents threatened to do the same thing to him as they did to his older sister, but could he really not just try and leave before anything happened? Maybe not until he got a bit older.. but stillâŚ.
Was his parents that controlling? I doubt his parents even cared enough to hunt him down if he did run awayâŚ. So why didnât he try? Did they really keep him that locked in? Its so hard for me to imagine him being and feeling that hopeless, did he have zero fight inside him?
Itâs hard to imagine him not fighting back in the slightest. But he could have been a very different person back when he was human too, of course. Maybe more meek and submissive⌠again who knows. (To be honest, I am extremely curious about to what most of the vampires characters were like before they were vampires and who and what they did before as well.
But anyway, do you think Sakuya put up with itâŚ
Because it was ALSO a loyalty thing??!? Iâm making no jokes here. Hear me out, even if he hated his parents(Iâm sure he did obviously, even though he never explicitly said he did, because we had Tsubaki tell his story, and not Sakuya.)
Do you think he never tried running away or whatever, because he just felt like he just couldnât? Like he was betraying something? Maybe not his parents, just because âThey are my parentsâŚ. whether I like it or not. I have to listen to themâŚâ
But maybe because of his sisters death? Like he felt like he had to endure it like she did for him?? I meanâŚ. he was told:
âYou donât want your sisterâs death to be a waste, right?â
YOU GUYS GET WHAT I AM SAYING HERE RIGHT? History can repeat itselfâŚ.
(This boy is gonna kill me with his conflicted ass)
Maybe there wasnât actually much physical abuse doing those years⌠Maybe at least for as long as he did what they said and stayed out of their way and kept their secret. But I kinda already talked about this part in a post about what I think happened to his parents after he became a vampire. (I am very sensitive about this topic alright?)
We know they killed his sister so they could get insurance money(ughh so sickening) but did they really try to kill Sakuya for more money? They would only be two people at that pointâŚâŚ so thatâs why a part of me is like, âthereâs gotta be a greater reason.â The best conclusion I came up with was âThey killed him because maybe he tried to TELL someone.â
Think about it. Sakuya hates lies, he had to lie his whole life basically. He takes it very serious and to heart. WE KNOW THIS.
We know he only kept it a secret because he was threatened and didnât want his sisterâs death to be in vainâŚ. But maybe he eventually cracked under all the pressure⌠And maybe tried speaking about it or was planning too and then⌠That was also the day he diedâŚâŚ DamnâŚ. I just stabbed myself in the heart.
So yes, his past is a big factor on why I found him so interesting initially when I was new to this fandom/series, I was really hoping we would see his past elaborated a bit or learn more and see what he does and how on earth Mahiru was gonna âsave him.â
I could go on and on about these two as well. Not in a shippy wayâŚ. but friendship or romantic, considering his past it makes sense to why heâs attached to Mahiru. Again in another post where I âdefended his characterâ I guess you could say, I talked about how Sakuyaâs âscrewed up friendship methodsâ and how he really dug himself into a hole. -__- But I was saying its almost hard to blame him for going about the way he did. BECAUSE IT JUST MAKES SENSE SADLY.
Sakuya is a real lonely and distant kinda guy. After he sister died Iâm sure he didnât have much light in his life then. No one to talk too, no one who understood. No one who loved him. Iâm sure growing up during those 6 years he was probably afraid to get close to anyone. What was school like for him thenâŚ. did he really have no friends at all for 6 years? Itâs crazy to think about right? His childhood was anything but normalâŚ.Â
But then he received a âsecond chanceâ after Tsubaki found him and Iâm sure Mahiruâs kind-hearted nature really drew him in, itâs not wrong for him to really want a friend, yeah he did go the complete wrong way about it, but unfortunately lies and deceit is all he knew how to do. He found some light in his life, and he was willing to do anything to hold on to that for as long as he could. Also HE KILLS ME because he regretted lying to Mahiru so much and did all the awful things he did/said, BECAUSE HE WAS HOPING MAHIRU WOULD HATE HIM and have his Servamp KILL HIM because he felt that was the only way to apologize for everything. and BOIII did that really kill me. AND THEN MAHIRU FORGAVE HIM STILL and now look at where he is with his conflicted loyaltyâŚ.
YOU SEE WHERE I AM COMING FROM AVI!?!? AHHHH.
-inhales- ALSO ONE THING I NEED TO GET OFF MY CHEST BECAUSE THIS REALLY BOTHERS ME. Before ANYONE says âMahiru is too forgiving about the whole fake memories thing and shouldnât have forgiven Sakuya or be his friend.â Cause I HAVE heard someone say this and it makes me angry.
BECAUSE then you are ALSO SAYING:
Mahiru shouldnât have forgiven and accepted Kuro for his past and all his sins and regrets, that he never shared with him. Also for attacking Mahiru that one time, lets not forget.
Mahiru shouldnât be friends or ever trust Lawless because heâs killed so many eves and killed all of Tsubakiâs subclass and who knows what else heâs done?
Mahiru shouldnât be finding a way to stop Tsubaki without killing him, because heâs not worth it.
Mahiru shouldnât be trying to save Tsurugi either because heâs also done bad things.
AND SO ON.
SO SCREW EVERYONE WHO SAYS THAT. Cause youâre basically saying NO CHARACTER deserves happiness. -exhales- Sorry I just feel very strongly about that and I forgot to mention this in my defense post awhile ago. I feel better now~
So about Sakuyaâs damn conflicted loyalty between Tsubaki and Mahiru. How are things gonna go from here?.WHICH ROUTE MY GUY? I WANT TO KNOW.
Tbh heâs kinda similar to Tsurugi in a sense (a certain someone kinda opened my eyes about that) that the whole âafraid to start something new because this is all that Iâve ever known and honestly I donât know how to feel anymore?â kinda sense.
Although Tsurugi is debatablely the saddest character in servamp right now (backstory and current situation and all ARE WAYYY more painful.)Â
What? Just cause Sakuya is my fave didnât mean Iâm completely biased about him. He sad. But not the SADDEST. I just thought I would mention this cause the parallels kinda fascinate me.
I WANT SAKUYA TO TAKE SOME ACTION. HEâS FREE NOW RIGHT??? Whatâs he gonna do now??? Whatâs he planning to do!?!? STILL WAITING HERE.
. Ughh its probably gonna be awhile until we get anything about Sakuya again. Which is fine. Cause its not his arc right now.
 WE GOT BIGGER PROBLEMS IN THE MANGA. MUCH MORE PRESSING THINGS INDEED.
But still Iâm extremely curious⌠To what he might do in the futureâŚ. I mean Sakuya and even Lilac are still running around freely unlike the other melancholy members at the moment? So will he somehow be involved with that later??? Will he find Tsubaki??? WHERE ARE YOU MY BOY?
Ughh Iâm having Sakuya withdraw lol⌠I hope he gets to do something exciting or important soonâŚ. Tanaka strike is TEASING ME by putting him in so many recent official arts but then NOT IN THE ACTUAL STORY. WHYYYY. (well we do see Sakuya in a recent bonus chapter soâŚ.)
I HOPE THAT MEANS STRIKE PLANS TO INCLUDE HIM AGAIN SOON. Iâll take it as foreshadowing *sobs* Strike obviously hasnât forgotten about himâŚ.so JUST waiting and watching now.
Waiting and watchingâŚ.
Sorry, that got so angsty above I wanted this post to be positive too.. So here are good/fun things I like about him:
Even though he character design absolutely baffles me(yes I mean the hair) I gotta say I really love it~ His hair is really something original thatâs for sure. HA. His design also helped immediately catch my attention to him also I may have a bit of a âstripes biasâ ahaha I own A LOT of stripe shirts myself lol always have and always will.
He owns a lot of pink accessories and wears pink a lot too! LET. BOYS. WEAR. PINK. YES. YOU. GO. MY. BOY. Â He rocks it fight me.
Heâs cool and Iâm kinda curious on what his subclass ability is. If there is even one for him. Weapons seem to be his specialty. (F.E knives, chainsaw(which I am still trying to figure out how magically pulled out in AN ELEVATOR!?! And can make a sword outta blood apparently.
 But I donât really trust the animes canonâŚ.) Also his little black strap things have a function??? THEY ARE ALIVE. WHAT
Look how happy Mahiru makes him. His smile is precious. He loves his friend so much I cry. I want them to be together and be friends again.
All the Tsubaki and Sakuya shenanigans make me laugh. One minute heâs crying to Mahiru âplease donât kill himâ and the next youâre trying to put the guy into a fox trap. What even boi.
WANTS TO BE CALLED SAKKUN HOW CUTE IS THAT.
Has the best âyandereâ expressions.
HE PRETTY STRONG and has great potential to be truly terrifying and useful. UNLEASH THAT POTENTIAL YOU GREEN EMO CHILD.
Another random thought I had was what would have things been like if Mahiru did choose to tell Sakuya about Kuro in the beginning like he originally planned? Mightâve still gone down the same way. But who knows?
(I could keep going tbh)
But for now Iâm just gonna sweat about the BIGGER MATTERS THAT ARE CURRENTLY HAPPENING IN THE MANGA RIGHT NOW. HAâŚ.
Thank you for asking Aviiiii~
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