#i had a beautiful experience with Aphrodite recently

[kosmic-songbird]

Throwing this one out to the universe and my deities:

My college application is great and I get accepted without hesitation. I'm able to study the way I want to and my current hormonal imbalance sorts itself out. I find the best wedding dress and fits exactly the way I want it to fit. I don't even have to think about money; it's not an issue.

✨✨✨

[thrashkink-coven]

*TW: Sexual content, Minors DNI*

A recording of an intimate experience I had with Lord Lucifer.

I’m just vibing by Lucifer and Aphrodite’s altar. My old deity candle for Lucifer was close to being burnt out so I did a little ritual to bless a new candle in front of my Aphrodite sculpture (yay!!! I’m still very excited about that)

And Lucifer was extremely active, which was really nice. I ended up writing a few grimoire pages with his help and it was a cool vibe. Then Lucifer’s presence absolutely overwhelms me and the entire space. He comes in a very breathy whisper and his energy is hot and smouldering rather than smooth and warm like usual. It’s intimidating. I almost wonder if I’ve done something wrong

Lucifer: I want to have you

Me: I’m here, my lord! ❤️ whatever you want!

Lucifer: no, I want to have you, all of you, it’s been too long since we last had each other. I want to remind you how dear you are to me

Me: 😳 (aaaa!!!!) what can I do for you?

Lucifer: There’s a pink toy you got recently that I haven’t blessed yet. Let me put my hands upon it so I may put my hands on you. Make the room completely dark except for the light of my candle. Abandon your dress. Pray for Aphrodite’s comfort while I dominate you. Say my enn and give yourself to me completely.

me, trying not to explode from excitement: Yes, my lord, of course

Lucifer: you are too good to me, sweet creature of mine. (!!!) Please relax and clear your mind, let all troubles escape you. You don’t need to think, I’ll take care of everything. If you must have a thought let it be of how wonderful you are.

He makes me look in the mirror as I honour him, bowing before my altar as an act of self worship. I look up and see his blazing eyes looking down on me, terrifyingly gorgeous. My body becomes a temple of flesh, a chalice to be filled with bliss. I can’t help but think of my partner, and he applauds me for this, reminding me of how sweetly Venus has blessed me.

*Deep into trance the vivid feeling of snakes slithering up my thighs and gentle light enveloping me is almost too much to take. Never have I been embraced so tenderly by him before. And the deep whispers of his breathless voice twinkle in my ears, soothing and encouraging me towards climax. “You are my dear devotee, I am forever close to you” Through every step he directs me and praises me, telling me how good I’m doing, how impressed he is and how much he appreciates me. “Look at how amazing you are. How have I been blessed with a devotee so wonderful?” I feel as if I am floating and falling at the same time, all the singing voices of the wind harmonize as his candle burns tall. He celebrates every curve of my body, and we both call out to Aphrodite.*

I sleep soundly for hours, feeling as though I am laying in a field of flowers, blanketed by his warmth and love. He caresses my hair softly, thanking me, until I awake just in time to watch the evening star rise into the sky. When my lover arrives home from work he seems even more beautiful than when he left this morning. Oh gods. I’m overwhelmed by how much I love him. And suddenly I feel beautiful too, and we cook dinner and relax on the balcony together as Hesperus rises. Later in the evening I show him everything Lucifer taught me and hopefully bestow him even a tenth of my bliss. I thank Venus for blessing me with such beautiful, marvellous things, and know that I am well deserving of them. I remember why I am his, and I revel in the fact.

Thank you Lord Lucifer, my love. I am beyond blessed to be with you.

These experiences don’t always come often but I am always fascinated by them whenever I’m lucky enough for them to occur.

aaaa ❤️💕♥️💗💖💞💓💜♥️💕💘

Hail Venus!!!! 💖 :))

update, (i haven’t even finished writing this post yet omg) I ordered a new collar for Lucifer on Aphrodisia after he requested one and I swear to gods I just got a cheque in the mail for the exact amount I paid for it. So I basically just got it for free! AND my bf got me chocolate chip cookies for dessert 😭 I am definitely being baby girled)

[khaire-traveler]

hey! just wanna know, how do you feel about hellenism related media? do you like something?

Hey, Nonny, thanks for the ask! I appreciate that you're curious about my opinion.

Personally, I don't engage with modern media about the gods much. I've had people tell me about it, and I've read about it, but there's a lot of stuff out there that I haven't really interacted with. I try not to be too judgemental, although I used to be a lot more critical of how modern media depicts the gods, but it's still not something I often enjoy. As a worshipper, my opinion is always bound to be biased, but I try my best to judge modern media for its story-telling rather than its accuracy (although that doesn't always happen, if I feel the depictions are egregious enough).

Below, I'll state my thoughts and opinions on the media I have interacted with (or at least have heard extensively about which is the case for Percy Jackson, as I haven't read the books).

I did like the Hades game! I felt it was really fun to play through, and as a game, it kept me engaged. I genuinely had fun with the game mechanics and the relationships you can build with other characters. It has its flaws, but so does every game. I've recently heard some grumbling about the way it depicts Greek mythology, but honestly, I think that if people are basing all of their knowledge of Greek mythology on a video game, it's up to natural selection at that point (this is a joke).

Along with Hades, I did find myself enjoying Immortals: Fenyx Rising. I was surprised with how similar the gameplay was to Genshin Impact, actually, but I'm not gonna talk about that lol. Fenyx isn't as widely known, but the way it handles Greek mythology is adequate and intriguing. The characters are pretty fun, and I enjoyed helping them in their main quest. The twist at the end (I will not spoil it) rubbed me kind of the wrong way, but I understood that it's just a game trying to tell a story, you know? It was fun, engaging, and interesting. Oh, and the monsters were pretty cool! I loved how they included monsters that you wouldn't really expect to see. The Hydra was a bit underwhelming to me, though.

Then there's the God of War series. Listen, I LOVED the recent additions to God of War that centered on the Norse pantheon - beautiful graphics, interesting story-telling, and a fun use of the mythology - but the original games that take place in Greece kind of bothered me. Mostly, yes, it was the representation of the gods. The way pretty much all of them were villainized (and the way they did Hermes so, so dirty, imo 💀) was a bit comical and strange to me. It felt like it lacked nuance to their characters (even Aphrodite was kind of there for one main "purpose" if you catch my drift). I also wasn't too big on the character designs of all the gods. Some were interesting, but others didn't land for me (mostly Hermes; he looks like he should be Apollo or Helios, and I just don't understand what they were trying to do with his design). Overall, it's a VERY fun series, but I find myself not being able to enjoy the original games as much because of their depictions of the gods.

Other forms of media (that are more popular), however, aren't really my thing. Percy Jackson isn't something I'm too big on. It plays into a lot of harmful tropes about the gods, and unfortunately, I've had some bad experiences with the more disrespectful side of the fandom. Not every PJO fan is an asshole, though (most aren't), which is extremely important to keep in mind (I see a lot of hate in the HelPol community towards them sometimes, so that's why I say that). I felt the plots were creative, for sure, but I didn't like the way Rick handled some topics or the way he sort of twisted the mythology for his own purposes. Like, some of these major plots throughout the series are absolutely bizarre; they make certain gods out to be massive assholes, tbh. Also, I didn't like the way Rick stated that the Greek gods "left the dangerous Mediterranean"; it just felt like a really weird and uncomfortable way to refer to Greece. I think if Percy Jackson brings new people into HelPol, then that's great, but people definitely shouldn't base their knowledge of Greek mythology on the books which is something I've unfortunately seen happen. If you enjoy the series, that's cool; it's just not my cup of tea, personally.

I think the one piece of modern media about the gods that I genuinely hate - and I really do mean hate - is Lore Olympus. That shit has harmed even the pagan community which is kind of wild. I've literally had people call me an "Apollo sympathizer" for worshipping a god who is NOTHING like the damn comic. It is an extremely disrespectful representation of the gods and mythology, and it's something that gets under my skin quite a lot. And honestly, it doesn't need to happen with the Greek gods. If you took the characters out of the setting they're in and placed them somewhere else, it wouldn't really change much, in my opinion; the Greek mythology part of it is really just used for the dramatics. It doesn't have much to do with Greek mythology besides just wanting to make Persephone and Hades the main focus. I have other complaints about it, but I will save my Lore Olympus critique for another day lol. I could go on forever about what bothers me.

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I hope this answered your question thoroughly! Feel free to ask more if you're curious about anything else. Have a great day/night. ☺️🧡

[c0yoteclaws]

Stares at you well do you have peach pit recommendations…

ok actually i've had a ask (from @gnarlyimp) sitting around asking me what my favorite peach pit songs AND ablums are so I'll just give it to you :3

ALBUMS

Being So Normal

first Peach Pit album i listened to in full, has the first Peach Pit song I listened to on it (Being So Normal....little did i know this would become a 3 year long interest), has some of my favorites on there (Chagu's Sideturn, Alrighty Aphrodite) and one of their most not-Peach-Pit-songs, Private Presley and Hot Knifer (in a good way) plus my DREAM song to see them play live (Not Me) (plus how they reuse the bridge lyrics in Black Licorice WOW). Also an awesome story about the title (they were criticized for "being so normal" based off their first EP (Sweet FA) so its especially cool to see how they experimented in this one) Plus this was the documentary era where Mike feeds Chris boiled eggs which is awesome....AND ITS GOT TOMMY'S PARTY WHO COULD FORGET...

2. You and Your Friends/From 2 to 3

I CAN"T PICK OK..........YAYF has some bangers on there + lots of improvement from BSN, I love all the riffs and Shampoo Bottles and Black Licorice are ICONIC....plus the guitar on all the tracks is AMAZING but especially Brian's Movie (and Chris' 12 string guitar), Thrusday, You and Your Friends, Figure 8 and Psychics in LA....

BUT FROM 2 TO 3 holds a special place in my heart....I love the story behind Up Granville's riff (Chris reused it from a song he wrote 15 years ago and it saved the track), it was the first album i was there to see them release, I like the different tone they took with it + Mike's harmonica solo in Look Out! is so so so so awesome....

3. Sweet FA

this one is a bit unfair because it was the first EP/Album they released and it DOES have some iconic ones on there of course (Seventeen, Sweet FA (+ the music videos for these are great)) but its also got......the first version of Drop the Guillotine......ew...

SONGS

ok here comes the hard part....first I'll do honorable mentions that just didn't make the list

HONORABLE MENTIONS

Figure 8 - this one was pretty close, I'd swap it out most likely with Private Presley because they're on the same level (I just love the slow intro in the live performances + the guitar of course)...live version makes me cry everytime i listen to it

Pepsi on the House - this is probably my 10-8th favorite Peach Pit song, big fan of the lyrics anf guitar

Look Out! - love the beginning part, plus the music video is great (Chris fell off the truck while they were recording so instead of panning to a beautiful sirene landscape, it just shows Chris running really fast)...THE HARMONICA SOLO....

honestly From 2 to 3 just in general has some really good songs

Brian's Movie - this one is an EXTREMELY CLOSE 5......the slider/Chris' guitar playing.....the lyrics........Peter in their live video....its all so good

THE FINAL DECISION 1. Hot Knifer

honestly this one hasn't ALWAYS been my top song....but recently, with the addition of Dougal's violin in their live performances AND Chris' beautiful solo has me captivated...plus Peter's vocals and bass playing during the chorus + with the solo is BEAUTIFUL..!!!!! PLUS PLUS PLUS IN RECENT LIVE PERFORMANCES MIKEY'S BEEN PLAYING A HARMONICA SOLO......this song literally could not get better...i kind of doesnt sound like a peach pit song but thats what makes it good..ITS DIFFERENT.....AND IN THIS VIDEO Peter and Chris play together and its so sweet. The world is a beautiful place

2. Up Granville

This one is mainly because its just so beautiful....the music video makes me cry everytime i watch it, I love the slow beginning of the intro and then all the instruments joining at once....the whole thing is about loving your friends.....its the origin of the album cover..the fact that the riff is reused from when Chris was 15 and thats how the whole song came together......WHAT IF I CRIED.....i love hearing the croud sing the chorus too.. thats how its supposed to be heard in my opinion

3. Not Me

some of my favorite aspects of this song are similar to hot knifer (the non-peach pit sound, catchy riff, the lyrics that they reused in Feelin' Low (F*ckboy Blues) will never NOT be cool to me) but i ADORE this distortion and lead up to the solo.....definitely one of my top peach pit solos. Sadly they've never played it live (that i can find anyways) but it seems like SUCH A COOL SONG to see live. but who knows. a man can always hope :) OH AND THE SOUND CLIP IN THE BEGINNING IS GREAT. I love when songs intro with a clip. and the outro is sick as hell

4. Private Presley

pretty similar to Not Me and Hot Knifer in terms of why i like it. its based off Elvis Presely which is cool. Dougal also plays violin in this one......GODDDDD the solo means everything to me. I love seeing them play it live and how much they move around. man and just seeing Chris shred the solo is the most inspring thing in the world...he moves up and down the fretboard like its BUTTER. and the distortion...who could forget

5. Being So Normal/Alrighty Aphrodite

I'm counting this as two because these songs are connected when they preform them live OK......Being So Normal has such an iconic riff and the lyrics are SO FUCKING GOOD..............I <3 the transition from Chris' loop to the bass line like WOW!!!!!!!! + the bass in Alrighty Aphrodite is definitely one of my favorites, plus the solo that Chris does is AWESOME and i love Neil's dancing in their live performances...!!!! ALSO THE TRANSTION FROM RAINING BLOOD TO BEING SO NORMAL IS SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER NOT BE COOL TO ME....

Grins at You Thanks for asking Scott....i love Peach pit so much❤️ now im going to go listen to their songs a billion times

[celiaamara]

What is Godspousal? Is it real? My journey so far!

Hi everyone! My name is Celia. And I will be a soon to be godspouse to Aphrodite. What is that?

Godspousing is where you basically marry your diety. It's a very rare form of devotion. People who connect with a God in this way are represenative of this God and are meant to be not just spouses but placeholders of the God's themselves. They are not a God nor a messenger of the God, that would be hubrism, but think of them as teachers of others. Godspousing cannot, CANNOT happen with all gods. Certain God's are devoted to their already wife or husband, like Hades, or are virgin goddesses, like Athena, Hestia, or Artemis.

Not all people who claim to be godspouses are Godspouses to God's or Goddesses, what are the signs of this?

One : people who godspouse early into their relationship. It's okay to know if they want a relationship with you if you have history with them in the past or if you have worked with them for a while. For example, I used to worship aphrodite for years before I converted to other religions. I eventually found her again after a long journey and she told me that we are to get married some time in the future if at all. She wants me to work on myself beforehand. Become more stable, etc etc. You have to earn your marriage. Just like with any relationship. You aren't supposed to be one day into being pagan and getting married already. That is indeed a huge red flag, and why it's number one on my list.

Two : if they say they're marriage is perfect, they are either lying about being a godspousal or lying about the very nature of their relationship. I am 24, been living a lot of years, though I'm not that old, one thing I've learned over my near decade of dating (yes I've been dating since fourteen and haven't been single until very recently) is nothing is perfect. You're a liar if you say they are or in denial of the nature of your relationship. As I mentioned above. No matter how happy you look outside, inside cannot be perfect. It can be joyful, peaceful, and full of love while still not being perfect. People aren't what we call "perfectly compatible", and gods and goddesses are no less. Gods and goddesses may know more than humans, may be more evolved than humans, but can be prone to jealously and anger just like any other person. And the same is of course applicable to you. But as a couple, you work through all the fighting, you work through all the negativity, and most of all you and them love each other through it all. It's a huge red flag to see someone say, "We never fight," or "He or she is so perfect." No, with any relationship you should be like, "You're amazing but I am my own person with flaws. Sometimes that causes issues, but at the end of the day, we love each other. And are committed to living this life together as a team."

Three : if they are with a God or Goddess who is a virgin goddess or with someone like Hades who is loyal only to his wife. Self explanatory really.

At the end of the day, I won't judge who think you're with. There's rules to this but hey, if you married Artemis, good on you! We all have different experiences from one another and I will respect how you feel. I won't cast you out or anything like that. All are welcome! All godspouses are. Just keep in mind that this is how I view godspousing.

Now my story:

I knew I loved her as soon as I saw her. I knew she loved me since childhood.

Aphrodite and I have had a complicated history. When I was younger, in high school, around age 15, I worshipped aphrodite after I was drawn to her. I never saw her, so I stopped worshipping her my third year of college. I was Jewish for a bit, then Muslim, then an atheist.

Recently, I had a vision of her that was so beautiful and vulnerable of her it felt amazing. I started worshipping her again learning more about my practice. I soon learned about godspousing and didn't think much of it at first. But then it was mentioned again and I meditated on it.

Aphrodite said to me that we would be godspouses one day in the future, but I need to become more stable and mature for that to happen. So, for now we're not an item. But we both want it so bad. I'm anxious to be with her. It feels like a genuine connection. ✨️

Yeah, that's our love story. For now, she's teaching me to love myself and be more joyful. How to handle intense and complicated emotions. It's beautiful cause we're growing together like a couple would already. It's weird people don't believe you can marry or be together with a God when literally they come down and be with humans all the time. It's just strange.

That concludes my rant, godspousing is a real thing and it's beautiful. Do your research before committing. And understand marriage is a hard thing to go through especially as figure out how your relationship will look once your marriage begins. Married life isn't a joke haha 😆 anyway. Love you guys. From Aphrodite and I, see ya later!

[hqrtsszz-elizablog]

results I've been getting lately from #loa #subliminals

I'll be explaining my results which subliminals I used and how to achieve my results if you're interested in having a similar experience.

I usually don't sing that often anymore but music is something that was a big part of my childhood and recently my skills have improved!!🍒🍒¯⁠\⁠_⁠〳⁠ ⁠•̀⁠ ⁠o⁠ ⁠•́⁠ ⁠〵⁠_⁠/⁠¯.

I got a few compliments on my Instagram and TikTok. It really amplified my mood and made me question just how beautiful I am (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)⁠♥. It really made me think about how I've been listening 🎧 to a lot of beauty subliminal messages and how often it works out for me.

appearance!!👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩my eyes are becoming more doe like and I have been manifesting my face claim which is this

I met a new person recently and she's really honestly so cute I'm lowkey simping also hoping she'll eventually see me as something more because we're just friends rn. She's so pretty btw. We instantly clicked and liked the same things <3.

btw I confessed this morning that I had a crush and she said that it was cute:)).

MY TAROT SKILLS OMG they've gotten so much better I'm working with multiple deities right now such as Aphrodite and Hades. I gave both of them a deck and it's constant messages and really helpful advice to me !!.

I got crystals and some aura healing posters recently and it helps a lot ngl. I used it to create an altar or sacred space. You guys definitely should too it would boost your subliminals. So just create one for your sub playlist.

PACKAGES!! all my packages I ordered including new coquette clothes is arriving a lot earlier than expected and I am in disbelief of everything I'm receiving. I so deserve it !!!.

[euphoriaphrodisia]

My most recent experience with our Enchanting Glorious Goddess

I was in an extremely low state. Losing hope in myself, in my world, in life in general. I was driving myself to work, I had some time to kill so i was listening to music in the parking lot. I put on Aurora, her music makes me feel more of a connection to the otherworldly energy that surrounds us. Through Aurora's music, I heard line after line, song after song, that answered my prayers. Responded to my thoughts and soothed my worries, I knew Aphrodite was speaking to me in those moments. When I tell you I sobbed in my car right before my shift, feeling unconditional love and support and feeling held by Her, it can't be understated the emotions I had.

I'm doing a lot better now. Glory Be to Her Lady the Protecter and Mother. Beauty's Curator, Life's Warm Support. I thank her for giving me the strength to rise above the turbulance I've faced, for reminding me who I am and why I'm here. In her name, I pray ♡

[kyprigeneia]

just wanted to celebrate a revelation that i had recently with another aphrodite devotee: i've grappled with shame around experiencing anger since i was young, and only very recently have accepted it as something beautiful and not something to be afraid of. She would want me to stand up for myself, to experience the miracle of the full spectrum of my emotions! only when i accept the emotion can i learn to manage it in a healthy way! sorry if this feels outta left field, i'm just so grateful for Her wisdom and i don't have many friends who worship Her to gush to about this fhdjsksks

This is beautiful!!!! Thank you so much for sharing this with me, I'm honoured. Please feel free to gush anytime <3

(Also, I am so sorry for the lateness of this answer, Tumblr is an evil website that didn't notify me about the ask... ever.)

[jasperphoenixx]

TW // mental health struggles, hospitalization (briefly)

I had never been one for religion.

I never understood that "light" that people feel when they commune with their deities.

I didn't get why it comforted them so much. I never had that experience.

The first deity I ever worked with was Hekate. She came to me at my lowest point, after I was hospitalized for psychosis and I was lost and relapsing and didn't want to be here anymore.

She helped guide me out of the dark. She helped me navigate the crossroads that led me to where I am today and I am eternally grateful.

It's been just over a year since then, and I've moved across the country into a healthy, happy, safe space, started openly being who I am, healing, and started honoring many different hellenic gods, but lately there have been a few who I've connected with more than others.

I've never felt more handsome, beautiful, and confident than since I started working with Aphrodite. I've had a LOT of horrible luck in relationships and a lot of trauma stemming from that. She's helped me start knowing how to love myself, and how to love others in healthy ways. She's protected me from potentially harmful encounters, she's helped me see what I want out of love and relationships of all forms with other people.

Dionysus has taught me to embrace the religious aspect of life I always shunned and revel in it. To find fun and joy in everything I do. To moderate and handle my alcohol intake. He helped me come back from my psychosis.

I feel so at home, so comforted, so safe when I commune with Hermes and when I leave offerings for him. I feel secure every time I leave my house and send a prayer to him. I feel him in the wind, and in the sunlight. Hes taught me to find and make humor in my everday. He's helped me start learning how to communicate openly and effectively, brought luck and light to my days, and so much more.

I recently realized that the Twins have been watching over me for years. Artemis watched over me for the first portion of my life as a young girl, and Apollo has been watching over me on my journey as a transmasc, as an herbal healer, he's with me when I practice divination, when i make music....

I get it now.

[solvicrafts]

I can’t speak as well for other religions, but Dodekatheism/Hellenic Polytheism is pretty well-preserved and documented.

Theoi.com will give you a rundown of various gods, heroes, nymphs, titans, and so on, including their associations with plants and animals, a basic overview of their myths, any family/friends/romantic partners/mortal enemies they’ve had, and extra sources on them.

Baring the Aegis (Elani) is a pretty well-known Hellenic Recon, and you can find a ton of information on her blog.

Hellenion has a calendar that you can look at for Hellenic holidays. Holidays in ancient Greece varied greatly between regions/local customs and time periods, so there’s a LOT you can pick from.

Soloontherocks has a great resource list, too.

I, myself, am no expert by any means, but you’re always free to drop an ask in my inbox, and if it’s something I don’t know the answer to, I could point you in the direction of someone who can.

One major thing I would stress about writing a fantasy-polytheistic religion is to not fall into the trap of making the deities shallow caricatures and reducing their followers to extremists on various ends of the same spectrum.

For example, an ancient follower of the Theoi wouldn't just pick ONE god to pray to, they'd pray to all of the gods throughout their lifetime. They might have a few gods that they'd have a closer relationship with, either because that god was a patron of their city or their profession, but they're not gonna go, "well I'm a soldier so I can ONLY worship Ares." Realistically, they're going to also pray to Hermes for safe travels. Also, the gods themselves cannot be reduced to just "God of War" or "Goddess of Beauty." You would not just pray to Ares for help in battle, you would also pray to him for peace. Likewise, Aphrodite isn't just a goddess of love and beauty, she is also a warrior goddess.

So if you decide to have some gods in the pantheon be more evil-aligned or good, don't forget that even a good character, if they are polytheistic, is likely going to pray to the "evil" deities when they need help with a situation that falls under their domain. I recently had a discussion about the Dark Seldarine/drow gods on this very subject.

Lastly, a word of advice: there are some unreliable Big Names in the pagan community you will want to steer clear from, for various reasons. I’m not familiar with all of them, but the ones I can remember off the top of my head are Galina Krasskova and Timothy Jay Alexander.

Krasskova is a very long and well-documented history of being a hateful bigot and trying to stir up violence within the Asatru/Lokean community, particularly towards those whose religious views she for some absurd reason feels threatened by (last time I was active when this was going down, it was against pop culture pagans). She’s even bragged about allowing a client in her business to suffer from a potentially serious medical emergency and just sitting there staring coldly at him and feeling smug because she thought Apollon was standing up for her bruised ego or something. Awful, awful person.

Timothy Jay Alexander has been known to be quite toxic as well, his Hellenic communities have been known to be extremely inhospitable and outright intolerant toward newcomers. As far as I know, there’s nothing technically wrong with his books, it’s just bare-bones stuff you can find online for free. The bigger issue is that he supports (or at least DID support) an openly anti-LGBT Hellenic group, and from my own personal experience on one of his forums, was really sexist and also extremely intolerant towards people who practice magic. I’d like to hope he’s changed, but I haven’t heard anything about him of late, so I’d play it safe and avoid his stuff since there’s better information out there.

...while we’re at it, it’s probably best to avoid damn near everything from Llewellyn. They’re the #1 resource for watered-down New Age nonsense and any information you find about gods from ancient polytheistic religions (Greek, Norse, Egyptian, Celtic, etc.) is going to be flat-out wrong. Basically... 90% of the stuff you see about Wicca online and in books is made up woo crap. Wicca itself is an actual religion with actual deities, but it’s a closed/initiatory based religion, so a lot of what’s available to the public isn’t quite accurate to the religion itself. I *think* initiated Wiccans are supposed to be oath-bound? So it might be hard to get reliable information about the religion, unless it’s changed -- or I’m completely wrong.

ATTENTION PAGANS OF TUMBLR❗️❗️

I want to create a character who follows a religion inspired after paganism for in my fantasy world. Does anyone have any reliable sources I can go off of? I'm not a pagan myself and don't know where else to ask. I really want to avoid any of my research ending up as misinformation, so I'd appreciate a little help, thank you! <3

[evvlevie]

I SHIFTED FOR THE FIRST TIME !!!!  (as detailed as a shifting blogger can be but scroll down for the juicy part)

Hi, Hello, my beautiful beautiful readers! It's your favorite blogger Evie again and I don't know where to begin 😭 You've read the title so you know damn well what this post is about, and I am freaking over the moon to say it finally happened!

"So how did you shift?" Is most likely your very first question, and I promise I will answer it, but not without giving you full context on what led up to this magical event (or just scroll down in case only the shifting part concerns you)

so as I mentioned in my last post I had been in this state of not putting any effort into my shifting attempts anymore and basically treating shifting like any other of my manifestations: that it will happen on its own, if I simply want to.

⇣the post in question in case you're interested⇣

"Did it work?", you may be wondering. It did not. It might work for other people, because some points I made in that post still apply to me, but the idea of just counting on it to happen on its own didn't really work in my case. This being said, just because it didn't work for me, doesn't mean it can't work for you, and if you are an advanced manifestor who has complete trust in the law, this mindset might even be yours to apply.

Ever since I posted this, some days went by and my typical shifting-cycle repeated. I didn't shift after being so confident I would, and then the realization hit hard and I became severely demotivated. I even told my shifting bestie I was about to give up and lucky for me she motivated me and gave me back my faith. Speaking of faith: I had been noticing that certain angel numbers kept reoccurring in my life. The numbers being 1237 and 119. These numbers seem random, but 12:37 is the time my niece was born and 11th of September is my birthday. (yes I was born on 9/11, no not in the year that it happened, but two years later which is basically irrelevant information but it's a little fun fact about me.) I always thought the universe was showing me my birthday, up until I googled both of these numbers and realized they both mean something among the lines of "keep faith and trust in the universe". And lucky for you I did.

⇣small fangirl and shout-out-moment ⇣

Then on Monday I had a doctors appointment, and being bored in the waiting room I opened Tumblr. My feed was full of law of assumption content and I actually took the time and read through them all, and I reposted the ones I felt like gave me a lot of insight. Now to the freaking craziest part of all of this. (okay not true but it sure meant the world to me). I wake up in Tuesday and see that THE @astra-nomy reposted my post about the newest shifting tip I had found, and not only that, my comfort-shifter @multiversebaddie not only liked one of my posts, BUT FOLLOWED ME BACK. All in the same night and even right after another. CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT THAT DID TO ME????? I was like no, nope you guys, I can't not shift if my favourite shifting and loa bloggers fucking found out I existed. (APHRODITE FOLLOWS ME I CANT COMPREHEND THAT). Plus @lavender--fairy commented on the post mentioned earlier, and her post that I reblogged, was the one who actually gave me the key to shifting. Hell yes. I mean I knew what I needed to know from other bloggers anyway, but her post actually brought me back to the correct mindset.

✧THE ACTUAL SHIFTING EXPERIENCE AKA THE REASON YOU ARE READING THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE✧

so now it is Wednesday. I never really talked about what DR I am shifting to, and I mentioned it somewhere on an old ass post but to put it as briefly as I can: my DR contains a certain group of YouTubers, and I am shifting so I can be friends with them. Now they post videos on Wednesdays and due to the time difference I get to watch them at 11:30 pm, so basically right before going to bed. I went and grabbed a quick shower and then I laid in bed and started doing what I was always doing: affirming. But due to me being me this quickly turned into overthinking and overcomplicating EVERYTHING which is why I stopped, went back on TikTok to clear my thoughts a little and then returned to my attempt.

✨ THE METHOD ✨

☞ I laid in a position most comfortable to me and I started imagining myself in my DR making myself ready for bed. In my head I reminded myself of the thing that I was able to remember due to @lavender--fairy 's post: The 4D is the real reality, and the 3D is only the translation of your inner thoughts. meaning: if I can visualize it, I am already IN it.

☞ Along with me imagining my DR-me doing what I did, I always reminded myself (affirming if you will) that if I can imagine it, I am in it. I purposely chose the Visualization of me doing things I was already doing in my CR day-to-day because you can feel the moment so much better and ground yourself in that reality way easier than imagining me climbing a mountain since I never did that.

☞ I was making myself aware over and over again, that the imagination is the real reality and that if I can imagine it, I am in it. For as long as I was trying to fall asleep. I even moved and rearranged my position constantly, imagining that I was my DR-me doing the same thing. I really just emerged myself in that visualization and started feeling what ever I did, because essentially that's how manifestation works. You don't need to worry about the 3D, and you don't have to feel like you're lacking something. You imagined it in the 4D, so you already did it silly!

☞ In combination to that I never forced myself to stay focused on my DR. Because as mentioned in this post below, you are supposed to let you mind do its own thing in a way, because you can't shift If you are too aware of what you are trying to do.

✨ THE MOMENT ✨

I found myself in this weird state between falling asleep and still being conscious enough to see and understand what you are envisioning. So I was technically awake while it happened. I didn't visualize my DR anymore, instead my mind went into a completely different direction and I saw myself buying milk with Harry Styles. No I did not even script him into my DR, this was just my brain doing brain things. Nonetheless I was still affirming that if I can see it, I am in it, and suddenly I felt myself getting pulled. I heard a little whooshing sound and I literally zoomed out of my body. I was standing in a dark corridor and I could see an open door in the distance with a little something happening in the room it was leading to but I was too far away to see what was happening. Suddenly the corridor started spinning and I felt myself getting pulled into a whole different door. I gained consciousness in this unknown room, but I couldn't tell where I was, or what I was seeing, because it was just dark in there and my eyes had no chance of adjusting quickly enough. I panicked and before I could even comprehend it, I knew I set the intention to shift back to my CR. I got pulled back into this mysterious corridor and shoved into another door by some weird energy and I opened my eyes back in the CR. I know it wasn't a dream because this whole zooming out, the mysterious energy sending me from door to door and the random dark room felt way too physical for it to be a dream. I could literally feel myself in this corridor as only a "being" of some sort, but definitely not as a human with a physical form. From the many success stories I have read regarding shifting realities, I have noticed that many shifters do not reach their desired reality on their first try. Almost every shifter that has talked about shifting mentioned that their first shift was weird and to a strange, undefined reality. (@multiversebaddie shifted to a random ass classroom for example)

✨ ADVICE TO TAKE AWAY FROM THIS EXPERIENCE ✨

I believe I shifted when I did, because my mind was in this gloomy state between conscious and unconscious, which ultimately made me believe myself on the spot when I told myself the affirmations I mentioned earlier. I did not doubt them and that's probably why the void state is such a powerful state to be in, because even if I wasn't, I imagine it to be very similar to this.

Another thing, that won't hurt you is educating yourself on the law of assumption. I know it helped me a lot and I believe that people who struggle with shifting, would benefit if they understood the way manifestation worked because ultimately manifestation and shifting is the same thing.

If you read everything from top to bottom: I love you. If you are doubting shifting, your ability to do it, or wether or not it is real: I can guarantee you as a first-person-witness: not only is it real, it's something every single dingus out there can achieve! And if I can help you in any way, shape, or form: don't be afraid to ask.

I send a lot of love and a lot of positive vibes to everyone reading this! I had been waiting to do this post ever since I created my blog and I still can't believe that I finally got to do it 😭

Yours in every reality

Evie <3

[dboliklover]

Breathless Whispers - Shu

My new series. Will take a while to complete (don’t mind the fact I am STILL working on the Easter Smut series). It’s based off an ask I got and is very sinful and I implore everyone who is triggered by the following to NOT INTERACT WITH THIS SERIES. The tags will vary from each entry but “Breathless Whispers” is a SAKAMAKI BROTHERS X STEPMOTHER! READER Smut series. As such Cheating/Adultery and pseudo-incest/stepcest are always going to be included in the chapters. 

Tags for this chapter: Stepcest/pseudo-incest, cheating, NTR (Netorare) ((Karlheinz gets cucked)), dub-con (the reader believes she has feelings for Shu), dubiously-consensual implied impregnation, mentions of pregnancy, blood, and my out-of-practice smut writing skills that border on cringe, Happy sex (?) 

This is as vanilla as it’s gonna get for this series, methinks. Next chapter it’s Reiji’s turn. ;) Happy sinning ❤

WORD COUNT: 5.8K (11 pages)

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In his life, Shu learnt to try to ignore meaningless things around him and to feel as precious little as possible - he didn’t need to feel, it added no enhancement to his life. To love was to have weakness and those he loved and cared for often ended tragically.

It was only natural that he chose to stick to himself and become a solitary creature after all that he’s been through, was it not? Solitude meant safety. Slowly but surely Shu cut as many emotions away with a metaphorical knife as he could, opting instead to be careless regarding all matters. He didn’t need anyone else, just himself. Only himself.

But there was one emotion that refused to leave, one emotion he would never allow the chance to withdraw from his heart - hatred. Pure, unadulterated loathing towards the man who caused his, his brothers’ and their mothers’ tragedies - Karlheinz. The hatred he felt was coated by a layer of would-be indifference - he knew better than to challenge the man, at least for the meanwhile - memories from the North Pole haunted him still. His father was a cruel, demanding man and Shu felt abhorrence, perhaps it did not reach the hatred felt by some other brothers but it was there and undying.

Karlheinz’s largest sin of all was the pain he caused his mother - the burdens he put onto him were a close second, however. But Beatrix’s suffering still wounded Shu to think about even after so many years had passed. The guilt instilled in him from that time flowed through his veins, unrelenting. His mother had her streaks of emotionally tormenting him but after all she merely wanted to prepare him for a difficult life ahead and Shu missed her presence as demanding as it was. And that was why when his father chose to re-marry yet again, Shu felt nothing but slight pity for the bride but regardless, he felt towards her as he did with most things; wholly indifferent. That was, of course, until he got to know the woman - he recalled the wedding day, it was a boring event and the fact his appearance had to be publicly seen bothered him for he’d much rather be doing anything but - still, he did as told and attended, albeit with minimal effort.

You made for a blushing bride, he couldn’t deny that. Glamorous appearance was hardly something he heeded though, and his father was known for choosing beautiful women as his wives - you knew nothing of the terrible fate that was bound to befall you in the coming months or years. At least all the other wives were long dead, namely Cordelia (whose torments only fed into the neglect his father served his mother, furthering her agonies) so you’d have no other competitors for Karlheinz’s horrid affections. He felt nothing for you, then. But unbeknownst to him, that detachment would not last forever and soon thereafter Karlheinz sent his bride away to live with his sons: what drove his father to such a foolish decision baffled Shu and he felt it somewhat of a ploy, another experiment to conduct. Maybe it was, but then again it only wasted time and energy to speculate on what went through Karlheinz’s mind. But you were their new stepmother, not one of their sacrificial brides; that was made clear, if unspoken. You were not their shared property but the property of the vampire king and it was to be respected, even if you had a puppet authority or no true power over them.

He avoided you at first, in his mind getting to know anyone was worthless;  and yet you persisted under the guise of ‘getting to know’ him and the others, wanting a relationship with your new stepsons. None of them really wanted a relationship with you, except for perhaps Reiji who hoped that you’d speak well of him to his father, ever-the-suckup.

You were a vampire of course, although it was surprising to learn that you were not a pureblood as they were. Karlheinz always made his decisions for a reason and he knew the reason for marrying you wasn’t love: therefore must’ve been something else entirely.

Karlheinz was incapable of love.

Gradually he found himself enjoying your attempted affections and voice - you figured out his disposition and chose to talk to him without expecting anything more than grunts and hums in return, knowing he preferred to listen to his music. Even he wasn’t sure at what point in your relationship he started to favour the sound of your melodious voice to his earphones, but it happened and he soon found himself turning down the volume as you spoke about your day if only to listen to your sweet voice far more vividly. He started to seek you out, something...unusual growing in his soul at the sight of you - he began appearing in places you were around the mansion, silently guarding you against the likes of the others (such as Laito). He liked being around you - a feeling he’d lost long ago ever since the “death” of Edgar - true companionship. But it couldn’t last perpetually, as nothing ever could, and those amicable feelings grew until they bloomed into something far darker than protectiveness towards his new stepmother and prospective friend - his heart yearned for you in the most unusual ways. It was troublesome for an overwhelming variety of reasons, primarily because he couldn’t have you. His romantic intentions soon turned to a subtle obsession. He needed to be close to you, always there - watching.

You’d always smile and greet him pleasantly, innocently - how on earth you could be so innocent after centuries’ worth of living on this earth, much less so after marrying Karlheinz, he had no clue. Your naivety and sweet nature brought him to you, made him fall into insanity because of you. It wasn’t instantaneous, things rarely were. Months went by but eventually he could no longer cope, his dreams were haunted by your form and always the exact same: you laid nude, breasts perfect and demure for him to corrupt, moaning out his name like the most delightful song from an ephemeral musical meant only for him. But when he awoke he was alone.

You tempted him without even knowing it but it was only a matter of time before it would come back to haunt you, he couldn’t be expected to have control over his instincts and needs forever and the time came when he finally snapped.

Stepmother or not, he was going to have you. In a way, it served as the most exquisite form of perceived vengeance towards that man - to steal his wife. He was hesitant about how to approach his desire to seduce you, such things were really more of Laito’s expertise, but he’d be damned if he failed to achieve his goals. You were too good for Karlheinz - a kindly thing to the point of intoxication and frustration, too pure for a vampire. He wanted to be the one to fully spoil your spirit, he wouldn’t permit his father to shatter your psyche as he did with all his previous wives. Shu was going to protect you, but in order to do that he first had to take you; claim you for himself. And that’s when he came across the most intriguing sight: your hushed moans of pleasure as your [slender/chubby/elegant] fingers stroked your glistening cunt in your private chambers - the same chambers which were supposed to be blessed in sacred matrimony if only his father hadn’t left you here all alone at the mercy of his ravenous sons. He must’ve assumed such a thing would happen sooner or later, hadn’t he? If not, then...well, Shu couldn’t help but think it his father’s loss from his own folly. “Shu.” Your angelic voice uttered his name - not his father’s, not your husband’s - but his. In your moment of unholy ecstasy, it was him on your mind; thoughts of him that edged you to your bliss. His obsessive passions were returned to him in kind, it seemed, and he couldn’t be more glad.

“Shu?” You questioned the following evening at dusk, that blossom-pink blush dusting your cheeks like an undead Aphrodite, tempting him further into his hidden lustful hunger, “Is...is everything okay? You’ve been staring at me all evening and I just wanted to ask if there’s something wrong-” He sighed, eyes half-lidded as if tired but it was his internal frustration revealed. “There is.” “Oh?” You pouted and fuck, he wanted to bruise your plump lips right there and then until they held his mark. “You really are more trouble than you’re worth,” It was a lie, of course, but he was a guarded man and his words reflected that. “Shu…? What do you mean?” The sadistic aspect of him was fuelled by the subtle distress in your eyes, however, you tried to remain calm, he’d said harsher things and you knew he scarcely ever meant them but something...something seemed so offbeat tonight. No, not just tonight - as of recently, but you couldn’t place a finger on the exact date when things began to change between you.

Your hands were down, pressed together as your thumbs nervously rubbed the other. You just wanted answers. “Heh,” He smirked, “You have no idea how alluring you are, do you?” His tired eyes stared earnestly into your soul and you felt stripped of your integrity. An innocent blush flooded your visage with lecherous embarrassment at such a sensual suggestion, sputtering out various syllables as you rushed to find your footing and speak out in protest of such an inappropriate topic between mother and son - that was what you were, related or not...you were his mother, even if merely by marriage. Guilt clogged your throat up as you thought of your own lust for your stepson, he was only slightly younger than you were and handsome beyond compare (as much as you loathed to admit it, your carnal self preferred Shu’s indescribable silent grace and steely blue eyes to the snowy tresses of his father) and disgust for yourself stung you deeper than a knife dipped in holy water - had he...witnessed your acts of depravity in your chambers? Did he know? “S-Shu, I...I don’t know what you mean,” You were drowning, unable to form proper words, “Don’t.” He cut you off before you could deny what you both knew at that moment. You weren’t as innocent and proper as you made yourself out to be. As you wished to be. No, you were a creature of tainted prurience and Shu was more than happy to play into your fantasies. You paled and nodded, if you were human your heart would’ve surely been palpitating by now. Fear wholly consumed you - would he be disgusted by you - no, he would’ve made that clear by now. Shu hid his thoughts and feelings from others but if he’d felt abhorrent disgust he wouldn’t have chosen to speak to you or indeed even be around you, you trusted that truth if nothing else. But then there was only one explanation for his demeanour, one that made you clench your thighs tight as you stood before him, a woman. He stood from his seat, no longer laying on the windowsill. “You’ve been a terrible wife,” Tears of crimson welled in your eyes while your knees felt weak but you nodded, ashamed. “Yes.” “And a filthy mother,” His harsh breath on your ear and neck made you whimper, “Y...yes,” You stuttered out with another whimpering moan, “Shu please don’t toy with me, I’m sorry I-” Without another sound escaping your painted lips you felt the amorous pressure of your stepson’s kiss, disclosing the intense emotions he returned for you. Your mind screamed at you for your sins and yet you were both inhuman creatures; Perpetuity of faithfulness was boresome and your husband had done little but ignore you and your hopes for a good life. Shu, however, had been there since the beginning of your marriage - even if you’d started out as nothing more than his father’s wife - now you were so much more, immensely more. Your knees buckled as you gave into the kiss, unable to avoid your feelings for him a second longer - you needed him just like this and he needed you too.

Human or not, the inherent wrongness burned your flesh and chest. You’d tried to be a good wife but your husband had practically abandoned you here with his sons bred for him by other women, he’d left you here and did little to even write to you. Loneliness was an obvious side-effect and it was only a matter of time before you would’ve fallen into another’s arms. But your debauchery brought you right into his son’s embrace. A terrible wife indeed.

Shu devoured your moans, swallowing your lust and increasing his own as his ample size grew in the confinements of his pants. “Fuck,” He huffed out as you pulled away from him, blinking. Your thighs burned with a need only he could satisfy. A shy hand wandered down his body towards his growing erection, stroking it from the fabric of his pants. Your efforts were rewarded by the sound of his deep groans. How long had it been since anyone touched you like this? Since you’d been able to make someone feel unutterable pleasure - since anyone made you feel wanted? You had slept with Karlheinz only a couple of times and he failed to sate your inner hunger as Shu was doing with only kisses and loving groans. “You’re playing with fire,” He breathed out, staring at you and sealing you in place. “I...know,” You swallowed thickly, “P-please, I...I need-” “What do you need, whore?” His teasing words of degradation made you feel alive, you were the object of his uttermost attention. His lips traced your neck, licking and gnawing but never piercing, fangs flying over the tender flesh. “You.” The certainty in your otherwise meek voice nearly made him burst right there. He was done restraining himself, pearly fangs sharper than needles pierced your neck as Shu drank the sweet nectar beneath. Your pleasured moans filled the hallways of the Sakamaki manor and he prayed his brothers could hear you wherever they were knowing that he won you. And he was going to keep you. You were going to no longer be just his stepmother - you would be his woman.

The blood, thick and plentiful, dripped down your neck. The droplets were not wasted as his tongue gathered them before they could drip onto the marble flooring. Shu was going to get addicted to this taste - your taste - he was sure of it. This was what you were made for; to belong to him. As he did this you toyed with his pants, unzipping them and releasing his erect cock from its prison, letting it spring free, wet with precum. “Oh fuck,” You whimpered at the sensation, pumping up and down his length. You wanted this, you wanted him so badly. You could feel yourself slowly dripping with clenched thighs. This was wrong - it was revolting - but you couldn’t stop the heat inside you, your inner desires. On your quest to befriend your sons you inadvertently ended up falling in love with one of them and never before had you longed to be held by someone as you did when you were with him.  

You wanted to be his, no one else’s. But you couldn’t be, for you already were a taken woman; despite the truth, you wanted to succumb to your immorality; to pretend that, for tonight alone, you were his.

Once he pulled away from your neck Shu chuckled lowly, “You’re such a lewd slut, mother.” You cringed at the name, reminding yourself of the positions between you two and, for a short-lived second, you attempted to pull away except the moment you did he caged in on you, back shoved against the wall with burning eyes glaring at you. “But you’re going to be my slut from now on.” his breath hitched as your hand movements sped up, blushing crimson from your wicked sensuality. You were loving this, in all its sinfulness. “Y-Yes,” You choked out submissively as you brought him to his edge, creamy cum coating your hand and sinking into the fabric of your dress, physically tainting you. It drove you wild.

The sight of you in front of him, dress dripping with his cum made him hard almost instantly as he ordered you to strip for him after he grabbed your arm and pulled you into the empty music room - he didn’t want to be interrupted by any of his bothersome brothers.

“Strip for me.”

You nodded and bit down harshly on your lip, droplets of blood still flowing from your neck at the open puncture wound, staining the white semen-soaked fabric as you unzipped the back and slowly released your hold on it as it fell down your form until you were exposed in only your undergarments, intimate and raw. This was incredibly embarrassing and yet, for him...you didn’t mind humiliating yourself. You were convinced of it, now: you were in love with him. Soft hands twirled around to unclip your bra, feeling as though it wasn’t merely your body which you were exposing to him but your very being as your breasts bounced free from the cups’ confinements, bra forgotten as you threw it down onto the floor, not caring about anything else but him. ‘Don’t do this’, your sanity pleaded but whatever morality may have existed in the cage of your heart was extinguished with a single gaze into his yearning eyes. If you didn’t do this the lack of his touch on your skin would surely drive you insane. You just wanted to be loved, cherished and used.

You were married - and although that sentiment alone should have been enough to snap you out of this sexual haze you were trapped in, it did little to sway your lust-filled judgement. Swallowing nervously your fingers dipped below the strips of your panties, sliding down your silky thighs, pride consumed you as you watched his subtle but intense reactions, the way his thick member twitched in anticipation made you feel powerful for the first time in your life. You couldn’t wait to feel him inside you. “Come here,” He growled, making you squeal as you nodded like a good little whore and fell onto your knees, crawling over to him - you felt like putting on a show for him, filled with risque concupiscence. If your husband was to ever find out you feared the consequences and despite the dangers, it drove you further into the arms of his eldest son to consider how taboo, how wrong such a union was. There was something unspokenly intimate about this. An intimacy from which you never wished to awaken. As soon as you were at his feet you admired his cock, glistening from residue cum in the moonlight. “Oh God,” You were about to cross a border from which you could never return and it turned you on profoundly to think about how your relationship would develop from here. Opening your mouth, you took his length inside your warmth, (e/c) eyes staring up at him like a sweet gazelle, pumping your head up and down and twisting your tongue around him as you sucked his member with a fierce determination to please. He believed this was the closest to heaven he would ever be; you, his personal fallen angel at his feet, his cock in your mouth.

Shu thought you were perfect just like this; doing all the work as you fucked your mouth on his cock, giving him your all as he sat back, eyes fluttering shut to focus on the pleasure you were providing. You were so good for him, such a pretty girl. Such an ideal woman, his woman. Further lewd commentary fell from his lips as he prompted you on. He wanted you on your knees for him each night, and you would be. He would make sure that things would stay this way forever now he was so close to having you all to himself. Even if it meant having to fight against his father, even if it meant the most intensive of efforts and having to use all the energy he had stored in his muscles - though he’d never utter it aloud, for you he would do anything.

Even if the only way to keep you would be to commit patricide. You were worth it. Just before his release, he pulled your head back by gripping your hair forcefully causing a pained yell to escape from you, your voice full of physical anguish that set off a primal need within his chest. “That’s enough.” He then lifted your chin to look him in the eyes, “Ride me.” You gulped back the juices in your mouth and shakily stood as your thighs were flooded with slick. “Y-Yes I…” You blushed vehemently as you aligned yourself with his cock, sucking in a sharp hiss as you felt the heat of it against your burning cunt. “I want you to make me yours.” Instantly you sat down, thighs clenched as your walls adjusted to the intrusion, making you cry out in ecstasy. Did you seriously almost orgasm simply from having his length inside of you? You couldn’t be blamed - not when your husband had neglected you. But it was going to be all better now that Shu was here to help you. Just as a good stepson should. “Fuck,” He gasped out quietly, breath falling from his chest. You were so fucking tight he could’ve potentially fooled himself into believing you were still virginal. That was, of course, until he reminded himself that his father stole that honour for himself and elicited underlying rage in Shu. With the buck of his hips he drove himself inside you as you cried out his name, holding tightly onto him, arms tied around his neck as you rode him, clumsily moving your hips and revealing your sexual inexperience to him; the knowledge that his father didn’t seem to take any time cherishing your body like this, lewd and sinful, eased him somewhat because it meant he could be the one to make you completely lose your mind and become his perfect little whore.

Maybe he’d even make you his wife, along the way.

His arms held your waist and he lazily guided the movement of your hips. You were insatiable, rapid. He could tell you wanted to go faster but his strong hands consistently ceased your attempts - he was going to force you to take your time, to truly feel the way his cock filled your insides, to ensure your walls would take the shape of his dick.

He wanted you to know that he was superior to his father, that no one could ever please you better. He never felt so attached to anyone prior to you, you did something to him. Something dark. Enchanting. And he was never going to let you go after this. By giving your body to him, you have given yourself in your totality.

Even if you didn’t know it quite yet, or didn’t fully apprehend the consequences sex with him would bring.

Your whines became far more desperate with each blunt thrust. Slow, steady but forceful; Shu’s cock reached into the deepest parts of you, lovingly rubbing your cunt. It was indisputable that he was focused on your enjoyment as much as he was on his - it wasn’t anything like what sex with Karlheinz was like, he was self-gratifying and solely cared about his own high, Shu (much to your surprise) paid attention to your smallest reactions to ensure this was as great for you as it was for him. His fingers delved below and started to mercilessly torment your clit, electricity flying through your spine and cunt clenching as more love juices were produced, soaking his cock and helping to lubricate the thrusts.

He wanted to show you how mindblowing sex with him could be, to show you he could love you in ways no one else ever could. In the eyes of his brothers, especially in Reiji and Ayato’s point-of-view, he was the one who got everything; the golden, careless heir. But they did not and would never understand that he had everything he didn’t want. His entire life the things he truly yearned for were stolen from him, his happiness, his innocence, his friends and beloved companions of human and animal kind; destroyed, ruined, killed. It reared his indifference to the material goods he possessed for they held absolutely no value of their own. And now there was you. You, you, you. Sakamaki Shu knew that, without a single shred of disbelief, he would happily give up all of this if it meant he got to keep you. All the wealth and grandeur and power that his position brought was worthless in comparison to his beloved whore whimpering above him as she impaled herself on his cock.

“S-Shu,” You moaned out into his ear, “Fa...faster, please,” You choked back spit as you made feeble attempts to catch your breath, the intense friction between your joined bodies making it difficult to think. It wasn’t as rough or primal as you initially thought it would be like, it was...better than that, intimate. Was this what they mean when they say sex can be ‘making love’? This closeness between bodies as they become one, the heat and passion in the air and bouncing breasts and thighs clasped around one’s lover? It wasn’t fucking - it was so much more. A proclamation of love, even, though you could never dare and utter that belief out loud. His self-satisfied comments, “Hm,” He playfully paused completely, making your eyes widen as you stared at him with desperation for him to continue, to let you reach your climax. Your nails scratched his back like a needy brat as you cried out pleas, “Please - please Shu, I need you to keep going I-” You swallowed thickly, blinking wildly as your core ached without movement and he kept your hips down, unable to fuck yourself on his dick regardless of how hard you tried. “Say you love me.” “W-What?” You gasped out, sweaty and needy but with enough common sense to know that saying something like that to him - even if it was true - would seal a secret deal between lovers, it would open all the nightmares of your very own Pandora’s Box.

But you loved him - you did, somewhere along the way you became enamoured by your stepson and now he was inside of you, fucking you with a tenderness that made you sure that he must love you, too. “I…” You smiled weakly, genuinely. You pulled back ever-so-slightly, (e/c) eyes sinking into his. There was a vulnerability in his eyes that he was finally permitting you to see; he trusted you with his heart, you could see that now. Your hand stroked his cheek, his hard dick still throbbing inside of you (you knew he wanted to keep going but held himself back, resolved to get what he wanted out of you). He melted into the caress, your hands were soft as angel feathers. “I am in love with you, Sakamaki Shu.” Despite the arousal that filled your mind you earnestly tried to convey the true depth of your affections for him and it seemed to awaken the beast of passion as he soon started to bounce you up and down his thick, throbbing member at a speed only vampires could achieve, determined to claim your womb for his own.

It wasn’t hard to notice your maternal longings, your desire to baby the boys despite their inherent aggression towards you all but proved it. And if was a baby you wanted, well...who was he to deny you of that right? His hushed grunts only sent you further into ecstasy - You had the power of feminine sexuality over him and it gave you somewhat of a power rush. It was paradise - not worthless fucking like animals - but true divinity here in his arms, where you felt appreciated and loved and as though you finally had a raison d’etre - You wanted to be his so badly it caused you physical anguish but you were his if only for the moment, connected to him so snugly. “I love you,” You sobbed out as tears welled in your eyes from the intense satisfaction and your own emotions coming to the surface, “I love you, I love you,” Each word sent Shu into a brand new dimension of rapture. You loved him, you loved him - more than anyone else in this world. If binding your bodies together didn’t officially make you his your whimpering confessions just did. The urge to impregnate you with his seed only grew with every passing moment as you mechanically moved in perfect timing to his thrusts, nails once again clawing at his flesh. “That’s a-” He inhaled sharply, stopping mid-moan, “That’s a good girl,” He breathed heavily, you felt so perfect on his dick, his personal cockslut, the love of his life, stepmother and soon; the mother of his children. “F-Fuck you’re going to look...fucking amazing,” He sighed out as he felt your fluttering walls try their hardest to milk him, “When you’re swollen with my troublesome brats, heh…” He could only smugly smile at your immediate reaction to the statement being to clunch down on him, tightening as if your womb was begging him to cum inside, to fertilise your pussy and breed you over and over. “Pregnant?” You exhaled out, teary-eyed as you locked your eyes with him, fucked out to the high heavens with sweat causing your hair to stick to your reddened forehead and lipstick smudged with perky, puffed lips. “Yo-You want to get me pregnant…?” The timidity of your voice betrayed your excitement. Logically you wanted to escape, to push him away and scold him for even suggesting such a thing - you couldn’t become pregnant with his child! It was atrocious enough that you were currently having this affair with him, your stepson, but to be bred by him was in a category all of its own - truly disgusting.

No matter how much your husband neglected you he didn’t deserve to for his wife to not only cheat on him with his own son but to be inseminated by him - but the inner beast within you was wanton, a silent whisper in your mind that tried to persuade you to surrender fully to your hopes for motherhood, to allow this man in front of you, this beautiful vampiric prince, to fill you with his seed and claim you as his bitch, his bride; to be stolen from the man you originally wed and live your eternity as Shu’s whore. “I-...we can’t, Shu! We-” Morals renewed, you tried to get through to him, “Please-” “Shut up.” He ordered and you instantly did as told, being the good girl that you were. “Don’t lie to me. You’re loving the-” He moaned, “-idea of...of my children growing inside of you. I felt you tighten up at the notion, you’re such a fucking lewd woman. My lewd slut.” You hated yourself because you knew he was right; it was true. You wanted this so badly, to give birth to his kin, to feel your uterus painted white with his cum. Primal needs craved relief. “No, we...we can’t, I...don’t…” You choked on your words as he kissed you roughly, his thumb on your clit twirling and pulling until you were unable to form anything more coherent than mindless stutters. “S-Shu! Fuck, fuck, fuck I...I...I love you! I do! I do, please I just...I want-” “What do you want, pretty whore?” “...I want, I w….want your cum! I need it, I need you to fill me up and get me pregnant!” The last remainder of your will crumbled under the pressure of your sudden orgasm. ‘I’m so sorry, Karl…’ you thought bitterly as amazement overtook you, making you screech in the midst of the night in the moonlight, squeezing the lifeforce out of your stepson’s dick. Shu groaned and laughed in dark victory as you came undone around him, biting into his neck instinctively mid-orgasm. The sharp sensation was enough to push him completely over the edge.

Your tongue lapped over his neck, sipping the blood that flowed with delicious fervour as the heat of his semen poured into your deepest depths, coating your womb with his lust. Once you pulled away you felt almost faint from the intensity of your love-making, concupiscence fading as the realisation of what you just did hit you in full force, causing your eyes to open. “Shu..oh fuck, I...we...just--” You squealed and tried to hop off but he kept your hips forced down, still inside your leaking cunt despite slowly growing soft. “No.” Shu was serious, now, eyes grave. “You’re not running away. You,” He exhaled, bringing your lips closer to his, “Are mine.” “Shu-” The distance between your lips was closed as he fought with your tongue. Your heart yearned to return his kiss and despite the inner war ongoing within your soul you did, tongues dancing in the warmth of your mouth. When he pulled away he smiled.

And you felt yourself smile too, hand travelling to the spot below your stomach but above your cunt. “You’re mine now, troublesome woman.” You laughed, nodding and kissed him again. The conflict within you wouldn’t fade, and you were terrified of what might happen now to yourself and to Shu. But maybe it won’t be that bad. It was only one time - you can surely find some form of birth control to ingest before the next time, and he’d never have to know. It was...one time, so you shouldn’t get pregnant this time...right?

Somehow you felt proud - proud to have his cum flowing from your core, to know it’s his seed that potentially is currently fertilising you and not your husband’s. You did feel authentically guilty but the guilt made you more aroused. Karlheinz didn’t deserve...this and despite that here you were, and the worst part was you knew you wouldn’t be able to stop anytime soon, there was no point in vowing to yourself that this would be the ‘last time’ because you knew that the moment he came inside you you were already addicted to him. The child of your lover...realistically it was an awful, unspeakable idea but a sense within you wanted to go through with it, to allow yourself fertility, to fully become his.

Little did you know you would have no choice in the matter.

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TIYMAS Chapter Ten: It’s Much Less Picturesque Without her Catching the Light

Fidgeting in front of the hallway mirror, Alfie’s silhouette blocks the tint of twilight, streaming through the stained glass door. Formidable hunched shoulders and a wide-leg stance holding steady by one gold-riddled hand leaning on the side table His black jacket and waistcoat pinching at a well-pressed white shirt, a spatter of chest hair poking through the unrestricted collar.

Scratching impatiently at his nose,  he pulls at the star of David chain protruding from his pocket. At his feet, his faithful companion sits comfortably in a makeshift bed created from one of Arabella's scarves.

'Cyril, let me tell you something right – they say that he who waits longest, most surely wins. Now judging by the hands on my fucking watch, I'm in for a clean sweep on the prizes.'

Alfie winces as he bends down, patting Cyril on the head. He strokes his hands down his dog's body and to the red patterned scarf that is pinned to the floor with two paws.

'Well, you're a brave lad ain't ya? She sees that and you're fucked, mate'.

'If she sees what?'

Arabella's voice carrying from the landing makes both males stand to attention. Cyril makes a bolt for the door.

'Oh yeh, leave me with the incriminating evidence ya big bastard'.  His words are lost as Cyril retreats to safety, leaving his owner firmly planted in no man's land.

Glancing to the landing, Alfie’s eyelids become heavy as his tongue darts out to wet his bottom lip. Tumbling and voluminous waves of long blonde hair billow down one side of a body enraptured in a green dress. The velvet fabric weaves around the ellipse of her figure and draws definition to the sharp viridian sparkle of her eyes.  The low neckline of the gown sits beneath her perfectly crafted collar bone, the heavy structure pinching at her skin to reveal a tastefully alluring amount of cleavage that produces ideas in Alfie's head that he knows would push him into moral bankruptcy.

'Is this hollow enough for you, Mr Solomons?'

The sarcasm in her tone is squandered on Alfie, who’s attention is firmly fixated at her bosom. Without thinking, his feet carry him towards her, impulsively meeting her hand with his lips and making it feel like no other had ever pressed their mouth there before.

‘Arabella, you look. ... well, fuck me, you look like a vision in this get up’.

Hasten to admit, the carnality of his stare as it prowls her body, makes her feel exceptional. His strong fingers still dance around her wrist with a delicate precision, as he stands stone still, one step below her on the staircase.

‘Well Alfie, this is the quietest I’ve known you to be. I have to say I’m rather enjoying it, maybe I should dress like this all the time, eh?’

‘You know I once saw a man at the British museum, rather foolishly ogle and philander himself around a statue of the Greek Goddess Aphrodite. He got more and more desperate as time went on and the Olympian Divinity seemed some what to ignore his advances. As his charms died a death at her stone feet, security prised him away and threw him outside to the cold museum steps- a man broken by beauty. You dress like this everyday and you’ll be surrounded by more fools than wise men.’

‘In my experience Alfie, different guises of beauty cause men to make fools of themselves in various styles- a woman who knows this and uses this to her advantage will always get what she wants.’

Alfie eyes her angled face, something about the way she never let his words and tales master her, both excite and alarm him.

‘And what is it you want then, Arabella Shelby?’

Simpering, she moves a step toward him, running her red pointed nail inspectingly through the scuff of his recently trimmed beard and stopping short of his plump bottom lip before digging into the flesh, making him hiss.

‘Telling you that, Alfie Solomons, would be too easy- you need to play the game and follow the rules.’

Their staring eyes bounce a luring restlessness like a tangible thread in the air between them. Alfie’s steady composure begins evaporating into her soft skin, as he trails the hand at her wrist, up her arm and down the curves of her dress, stopping short at her waist. He feels the power and control she possess with the add of a touch of velvet from her gown. He leans into her ear, his salacious tone like a match ready to be struck. Her heavy lids close at his words.

‘Sweetie, what fun are games if you don’t bend the rules?’

Turning her head, she finds herself eye to eye with the devil beside her. His head tilts towards her as   the rose like scent of her perfume invades his nose like an alluring toxin. Arabella lets her eyes roam beyond the bulk outline of his frame. She draws a deep breath in as his lips dance too close to the column of her neck.

‘Alfie?’

Her words inflect with heavy breaths as his hand finds it’s way into the elastic spill of her hair- pulling a wave through his rough fingers and letting it drop onto her shoulder.

‘Yes, treacle?’

His lips migrate to within a daringly close proximity of her skin, the thorny prickles of his beard dig into her.

‘Is that my fucking silk scarf?’

A gust of air whips his cheeks as she flies abruptly down the remaining steps to pick up the garment. His wide eyes blink in acceptance of the moment, staring at the spot she had quickly vacated.

‘Fuckin’ hell Bella, you know how to wrap a man’s balls in a vice until they fall off, don’t ya?’

Not taking in an ounce of his words, Arabella bends to retrieve the fabric, shaking off the dog hairs and tutting at the drool staining the pattern.

‘I do hope you’re not going to harm my dog over this?’

‘Hmm, it’s his owner that should be more scared. You could have moved him off it, Alfie. Look at it , it’s fucked now’.

He takes the scarf from her hands and hangs it on the cast iron radiator.

‘Look, don’t worry about it right, I’ll make sure Cyril buys you a new one on his morning walk tomorrow’.

Pursing her lips and sending him a sharp look, Arabella reaches for her perfume bottle on the hall side table. Sending a puff of liquid across her chest, she looks through the mirror and watches Alfie fumbling in his inside pocket.

‘Consider this then a truce and a peace offering. You’re gunna be needing this for tonight and from now on actually’.

Retrieving a small black velvet box, he walks toward her. Turning to face him, she stares down at the case he is thrusting into her palm.

‘Well open it then’. Impatience loiters in his expression, his eyebrows tightly knit.

Her breath convulses. Inside the box is the biggest cut of diamond she has ever laid eyes on- a majestic jewel laying on top of a ring, with it’s sparkle clear and blinding as the light hits. The diamond is set beside two perfectly cut square emeralds adding to a unique art-deco design. This man in front of her did nothing by halves and everything by extravagance. Words sit queued up in her throat, her ability to speak, stolen from her. Alfie comes to stand behind her, placing his wide hands over the top of hers on the box and lifting it gradually and slowly so he can shift the stones around to dance in the light.

‘I’m glad you chose this colour dress for tonight, it matches the stones perfectly, dunnit?’

‘Alfie. . . I . . . ‘

‘This, yeh, is a 3.86 carat European diamond, a single platinum cut’. His mouth is once again close to her ear, the warmth of his breath promenading down her neck makes her betraying body shiver and goosebumps to break out along her exposed skin.

‘These here, right, are two Colombian emeralds’.

Arabella turns her head to the side, he returns her look, giving her direct eye contact and studying her irises as he continues his rhetoric.

‘They’re two very rare emeralds ya see, each weigh 1.72 carats. Emeralds, yeh, they usually get bogged down in fuckin’ oils to make their colour and clarity stronger, it’s very rare to find ones that needs no enhancing.’

‘You seem to know an awful lot about diamonds and stones, Alfie’.

‘I do treacle, yeh. I’m quite the collector of beautiful and coveted things’.

His innuendo is not lost on her as yet again her body forsakes her strong will by aligning her cheeks with a blush and soft tingles between her legs- the result of being in this close proximity and taking in his manly scent.

He picks the ring up delicately from the confines of the box.

‘So this morning when you were berating me for attending to business, well, you are holding that very business in your hand. This, is your engagement ring- if you are to be my wife then from now on you will be subjected to the best of the best.’

Once again, Arabella feels a gasp escape her lips.

‘Alfie, I can’t accept this’.

His head creases in furrows as she pushes the box closed.

‘Why the fuck not? It took me forever to find this- it’s perfect for you’.

‘And I thank you for the effort but this is just too expensive for me to take. I don’t want you or anyone else thinking that I want all this obligation as penance for being your wife’.

‘Yeh, you Shelby’s have always got to be difficult, ain’t ya? The fact of the matter is though, tonight I am announcing you as my wife-to-be and as someone about to be Mrs Solomons, you will have the best of everything whether you want it or not because I’ve got traditions and reputations to upkeep. Now, if you don’t like the ring then fine, we can get it changed but you will just have to suffer and wear it tonight’.

‘No Alfie, I do like it- I love it in fact. It’s he most beautiful ring I’ve ever seen. It’s just that no-one has ever given me anything this extravagant before and so it’s a lot for me to accept’.

‘What, no one has ever tried to shower you with every expense that they can afford?’

She shakes her head as Alfie tuts under his breath and mumbles a few obscenities for good measure.

‘Well ‘at seals it for me. You Birmingham people are more bonkers than I first thought- a condition only getting fucking worse, so it seems. I mean look at ya! You look like you’re worth all the money in the world, so ‘ats what you should have innit?’

He re-opens the box and picks up the ring, sliding it down her ring finger, before holding her hand up between them.

‘There ya go, look – a perfect fit’.

Arabella stares at the weighty ring now adorning her hand. Watching her, a light smile creeps into Alfie’s features.

‘Come on then Aphrodite, time to meet your Athena's’.

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[khaire-traveler]

Thank you so much for sharing your experiences, Moon! This was really interesting to read about, and I've found myself having similar experiences. Also, I totally get what you mean when you talk about feeling the difference between when a dream is nonsense vs. when to interpret it as a potential sign. My brain likes to create all sorts of nonsense for me to sort through, so I've gotten fairly decent at being able to tell when something is a bit more legit lol.

I've dreamt of most, if not all, of the deities I worship, but in my case, I have been able to see them as they speak to me, although this doesn't happen all the time.

I've noticed that the dreams coming from Athena often don't have her present in the dream at all - not even by name or voice - but I have seen her in my dreams before on rare occasions.

With Dionysus, I have a similar experience! His form has shifted and changed between my rare glimpses of him, but he is always in some human-like form with certain repeating characteristics (black and long curly hair, darkly tanned skin, multi-colored but mostly green eyes). I can always see him, though, when he is in a dream with me.

Apollon in my dreams can be similar. I've had dreams of him where he is this figure surrounded by a blinding light, and due to this light, his features are obscured to me. I have seen him before, though, and I'd say 7 times out of 10 I can see him clearly.

With Aphrodite, I've only seen her in my dreams a few times, so I can't say that she has a specific pattern for me, but every time she's gifted me with a dream, I have seen her very clearly. She's very beautiful and often speaks smoothly, like honey, as you describe. Her presence often feels very comforting and stable, and I've had dreams where the sound of ocean waves accompany her despite the lack of an ocean nearby.

Hermes moving so quickly you can never get a glimpse of him is SO fitting that it made me chuckle! I've seen him in dreams before, but recently, he is usually only mentioned by name or symbol. Sometimes he speaks so quickly that I have to ask him to slow down to understand what he's saying; it's kind of funny. It's almost like he has so much enthusiasm for what he has to say that he speaks faster than the other person's mind can actually process. In many of my dreams, he's a lot of fun and usually causes some form of mischief or completes a task assigned to him.

Thank you again for sharing your experiences; I hope you don't mind me sharing mine with you as well! I thought you might find it interesting that we have some similarities. I definitely do! Take care. ☺️🧡

Please reblog this if you vote! ☺️🧡

[loemius]

I don’t know which Theoi is right for me, do the gods pick follows or do we have to go to ghem

khaire anon! thank you for the question! as always, caveat that this is a subjective opinion. there's no historical sources that i can point you (off the top of my head, if anyone has any please feel free to reply with some) so take this for what it's worth, i am not an authority. i just really love apollo okay

anyway, i'm gonna keep it real with you, this is a loaded question. it's a huge source of debate within hellenistic communities, and i really don't think there's a right answer. if there is, the theoi know it, and it's not really my business. that being said, my personal answer and belief is that honestly? it's a mix of both.

my experience is as follows: i've had quite a few gods try to grab my attention. they may ask you to worship them. you have the opinion to say yes or no; they won't be mad if you say no respectfully. i'm an apollo devotee right and the first few times he tried to reach out to me i was scared as shit and said no. when i was ready, i said yes, and i let him into my life and honestly? never looked back. but that's my experience. aphrodite also called me really hard and i honestly ignored her for a bit! i worship her now, but when i went to france this summer, i had this intense urge to buy one of the mini statues of venus de milo, and at the time i was like. i dont even worship aphrodite? i dont know why i need to buy this but I DO. and it felt really weird to have her be my first statue because i didnt even really worship her! honestly, i was scared of her too. recently i let her into my life and my praxis and she's been lovely. i said no to them at first, and they were still there. i think that's really beautiful.

i use a deity identification tarot spread, a personal one i've made up. perhaps later i'll make a post on it and edit this post to link it; this ask is already long enough LMAO

that being said, i've also had the reverse happen when i started out. i didn't really get any major calls to hermes, i just chose him because i have a foreign language minor, i play dnd (he's the dice divination god), i'm a traveler and have been a lot of places. i saw something in common with him and his domains, so i worshipped him. we've also went our separate ways with respect to each other. there's nothing wrong with that! i learned what i needed, i thanked him for it, and respectfully parted ways.

this is a really great example of the nuance and gray area in hellenistic practice. there really isn't a good answer. i've told you mine and my experiences. your answer will be personal and subjective. but i hope that my words provide you some guidance and you find the right path for you. may the theoi be with you and guide you towards knowledge, peace, and happiness!

[nxrthmizu]

love in bubble wraps.

fandom | haikyuu!!

pairing | kuroo tetsurou x reader

genre | fluff

w.c | 1.9k

author's note | based on a real life experience... :)

Love, you think, comes in many forms. Sometimes love is a warm, home-cooked meal that is now cooked at least once a week because you told your mother you liked it. Other times, love is laughing and crying alongside the friends you’ve known since pre-school because everyone passed their highschool finals with flying colours. Throughout our lives, we gradually come to meet the different forms of love, because it comes in all shapes, colours, and sizes.

First, we learn that love is a roof that you can always turn to when a storm blows in. Then, we learn that love is knowing that there are people who will drop everything to help you when your car breaks down in the middle of nowhere. Lastly, we learn to interlock our fingers with the one we wish to walk to the end of time with.

Then again, love varies from person to person— Just like how the goddess of love, Aphrodite, looks different to every soul that sets its sights on her; Beauty truly lies in the eye of the beholder. For some, love comes in the form of a warm body to cuddle next to on a rainy day. For others, love comes in the form of a jewelled ring. For you, love comes in the form of a 6’2 man who still doesn’t know how to tame his bedhead.

Tetsurou is often too busy for his own good, always running around here and there to secure contracts, ensuring that Japan can make a name for itself during the Olympics. He books train tickets to opposite ends of Japan at least once a month, leaving before the sun rises and returning after it sets. The sun never dictates his work day, because while his coworkers work from nine to five, Tetsurou works until he finishes his tasks.

Okay, so your husband is a bit of a workaholic. And maybe not just a bit.

“L/N-san,” Your colleague asks one day out of sheer curiosity. A group of women are gathered around the snack station, sipping on cheap, machine-produced instant coffee as they gossip about their marital lives instead of working. “Now that I think about it… I’ve never met your husband, have I?”

“Ah,” You sweat-drop nervously at this. Wonderful— Your parents are already pressuring you about how Kuroo rarely visits with you— And now your coworkers, too? “He’s quite busy. He works very hard to make sure that we’ll be well-off in the future.” You respond, knowing that your reply is just a thinly-veiled way of saying ‘He’s rarely home,’.

“Oh, that’s awful,” Wherever you go, there’s always a middle-aged lady who has nothing better to do than to prey on the weak spots of your life, “It must feel lonely. You must feel so sad when you see my husband pick me up from work.” A smirk dances up her lips as she waits for you to walk into her trap, smiling as widely as a spider watching its incoming meal.

“Not really,” A practiced smile counters hers as you take a sip of your coffee. “I know Tetsurou loves me— There’s an unbreakable trust between us. He might not be home often, but I know that he’s working hard so that we can have a better tomorrow… And that’s sort of comforting, in a sense. Knowing that Tetsurou wishes for a future where we’re financially stable, where we can just spend a whole day doing nothing in each other’s presence…”

A chorus of ‘awws’ makes you blush. Out of the corner of your eye, you see the middle-aged coworker huff in failure. You mentally fist-pump the air at your victory.

“Anyway, I heard that you got engaged last weekend, Shiho-san,” Changing the topic quickly, you smile when the attention of all the ladies instantly redirects to the said woman, who blushes fiercely as they all coo at her ring. “Congratulations!”

“Oh my! He bought you such a beautiful ring… Ah, Shiho-san, you’re so lucky!”

“My husband also bought me a new bag last week,” The middle-aged woman chips in proudly, cocking her head towards her cubicle, where the leather handbag sits atop a tower of documents. “It’s very expensive.”

“That’s nice of him! It’s been forever since my husband bought me something.” Sighs another lady. Most of the group hums in agreement, sharing sympathetic looks with those that share the same fate.

“At the beginning, when we were still dating, Hayato used to buy me so many things, now…” The coworker that brings homemade cookies every New Years’ party says, looking dejected. “It’s like once we’re married, they don’t have to worry about making us happy anymore…”

“Ah, what about you, L/N-san? Does your husband buy you things often?”

You groan internally when the attention shifts to you once more. Honestly, you’re just there to listen and enjoy your coffee— Must you keep getting dragged into the conversation? “Well, personally I don’t really need my husband to buy me things to keep me happy, but… He does bring back trinkets whenever he travels.” You think about it for a while, then brighten when you remember the latest thing Tetsurou brought back for you.

“What is it?” Your change in expression isn’t missed by your coworkers, who preen with curiosity, excited to know what made you brighten up.

“Ah, it’s nothing… I promise, you’ll be disappointed if I tell you.” You chuckle.

“Come on!” “Be a good sport, L/N-san!” “We’re curious now, you can’t not tell us!”

“Oh, fine.” You sigh, “But don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

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[ Three days ago, Saturday ]

You were on the couch, binge-watching Grey’s Anatomy with the Netflix subscription Tetsurou got for you to occupy yourself with while he was out of town. Your cat, Kazume (nicknamed after your husband’s best friend) lazed on your lap, yawning once in a while and swatting at the stray threads from your sweater.

Somewhere in between your fifteenth and seventeenth episode, the front door chirped with the sound of someone inserting a key into the lock. You perked up at the noise, Kazume yelping in protest as he almost slipped off.

“Oh, sorry Kazu.” You said quickly, a smile widening your lips as the front door opened.

“I’m ho—” Before your husband could finish his sentence, you were already at his side. Kazume meowed loudly from the couch, complaining about you abandoning him for another man. Tetsurou’s eyes softened, the edges of his hazel irises worn down by exhaustion. You took his laptop bag from him, as well as the folders he has in hand, balancing them like how you would balance your three grocery bags when Tetsurou wasn’t around to help. “I missed you too, but are you sure you can carry all of my files with one hand?”

“Yes!” You replied confidently, showcasing your balance as you wobbled through the living room with all of your husband’s stuff. Tetsurou’s laugh echoed through the apartment as he followed you, his reflexes coming into play as he dived for a falling file. “Oops.” You giggled, helping him up after he practically hurled himself at the floor.

Tetsurou shook his head, sighing fondly while he hugged you from the back, taking comfort in the familiar smell of your hair shampoo. “I missed you.” He mumbled.

“Me too.” You hummed, reaching back to stroke your hands through his still-untamed bedhead.

“Oh, before I forget,” Tetsurou leapt up suddenly, chucking his backpack onto the ground. “I brought back something for you!”

“I already have like, twenty-five keychains from Hyogo,” You reminded him, “Please tell me it’s not a…” Your voice trailed off when Tetsurou proudly whipped his gift from his backpack, hazel eyes shining for your reaction.

“... So?” Tetsurou grinned widely, like a five-year-old child holding up his drawing for his mother to critique.

“Oh my god, I love you.” You declared in your 80 sq ft kitchen, grabbing the gift from him. “I’ll clean up your stuff, go take a bath and we can have dinner while watching the…'' You pursed your lips as you try to recall the information that kept evading you like an annoying fly. “... 15th? 16th episode of Grey’s.”

“You started that without me? I said I wanted to watch that.” Tetsurou pouted petulantly like a child.

“I finished all the other stuff I wanted to watch,” You told him unapologetically. “And Kazume wanted to watch it too. Now hurry and take a bath or I’m starting without you.”

Twenty minutes later, you were cuddled up to your husband, who did not bother to comb his hair (“It’ll just be messy later anyway,” His reasoning was). Every few seconds, he would scoop some cold mash potato out of the giant bowl (The two of you were too impatient to heat it with the microwave) and feed you. All throughout the episode, there was the constant pop-pop-pop of you working your way through the giant piece of bubble wrap Tetsurou had brought home for you.

“You know, I was thinking,” You hummed as Tetsurou pressed ‘Next Episode’. “If It were any other woman, they might have slapped you for bringing just bubble wrap home after a whole week away.”

“Well, then I’m lucky that you aren’t ‘any other woman’, am I?” Your husband smiled, pressing a gentle kiss onto your lips before picking up the mash potato bowl again. “Are we just going to have mashed potatoes for dinner?”

“I bought spicy instant noodles yesterday, we can have that later if you want.”

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[ Present, Tuesday ]

“That’s actually so sweet of him!” Your colleague coos as you finish your story. “Wish I had a husband like that…'' Even the middle-aged lady begrudgingly nods in agreement. For a moment, you feel a surge of pride— It was your husband they were talking about— Your sweet, hardworking, dork of a 6’2 bedhead.

“You wouldn’t be able to survive.” Another lady snorts. “That guy is away for weeks at a time.”

You hum. “Well, at least he calls back every night, regardless of how tired he is.” In the corner of your mind, you remember that he makes sure to call his grandmother every weekend, and that he sends his parents (and grandparents) money every month, that he visits your parents the first Sunday after he’s back from his trips— Not to mention that he always brings a gift of wellness products (The most recent one was a box of abalone).

The group of women swoon once more.

“Well, I guess we should get back to work,” You dispose of your paper cup in the trash, brushing your hands off. “See you ladies later.”

The moment you’re back at your desk, you take out your phone to text your husband, who is, no doubt, going to be very, very confused.

[ y/n ] 2.37pm

— we have a problem

[ tetsu <3 ] 2.39pm

— what’s wrong???

[ y/n ] 2.38pm

— i may have accidentally caused 20 women in my office to fall in love with you

[ tetsu <3 ] 2.38pm

— what ???

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you know it's love when your dad comes home with this giant piece of bubble wrap and your mom literally squeals and snatches it to immediately start popping it on the couch while browsing facebook on her ipad