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ultimate lifeform or something
#shadow the hedgehog#my art#i habe a whole page of shadow sketches this is only one of them#i had to force myaelf to stop rendering this bc i have like 6 other shadows#going to explode he is everything to me#ive never even been into sonic my whole life this came completely out of left field to me#and i havent stopped thinking about him for like a week straight now#sonic the hedgehog#hes not in it but thats the name of the franchise so sorry#i got into sonic at a very good time tho!! very lucky to be getting fresh new content left and rightand theres tons of games to play too
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i FINALLY have free time (homework list has been whittled down to only like 1 class :3333 thank GOD because homework is killing me) so i can FINALLY FINALLY FINALLLYYYYYYY start working on that halloween animation meme i had in my mind like back in september,,,,,, finally,,,,,,,, these r just sketches i made in preparation for the final thingy. i just decided to make them classic halloween esque themed bc how could i possibly resist zombie horror BRAIN IN SKULL!!!! so kewl
#i just need 2 draw them digitally and then animate it#i probably need to do backgrounds too i will NOT be caught lacking this time TRUST#this one's much shorter than the heavenly u animatic i did (and i have EXP now)#so i can put that experience to the test :333#i dont know what ill do 4 the final part bc it has 4 sections#so i might go killer horror dust and then i need to find something to do for the fourth section of the audio#and then the first intro part w the cards i found i can evenly split into 3s which is good#iNEED to figure out what i'll do 4 that section of the meme..... cannot just habe it be nothing#yall who put those bite marks onto horror and dust wtf who did that. not me tho what the hell who did that#idk if ill actually put the bite marks there in the actual meme it would be so mttpoly but also like ermmm#STOP SHOVING YOUR SHIP DOWN OUR THROATS TRIGLYCERCULS!!!!!#im gonna put them but make it barely noticeable trust#tricule rant
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I may be avoiding focusing in class but PLEASE GO TO SLEEP I BEG OF U
It's 2pm and naps make me feel terrible T-T dw I only have to do this until Friday and then I get to sleep for real agaib but thank u for your concern I will survive probably
#I have severe insomnia due in part to ptsd and I can't take my sleep meds#bcs I have a medical procedure on friday#I'l be okay tho I used to live like this all the time#also I'd probably judt habe nightmare anwyas
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hi so so sorry if this sounds genuinely deranged but I need to know did you write a fanfiction in like 2014 that was set during ww2 where zoro from one piece was sent to a japanese internment camp and sanji went to conversion therapy I remembered it recently because it blew my mind at age 13 and I had to reread it + need a kind of where are they now with the author so if that's you 1) what's your stance on the fic today 2) how much of the research was done during writing and how much did you just know beforehand and used as inspo 3) did you have any ideas for where the other characters ended up because I did always wonder if like idk chopper overcame the trauma of being in the war and also just what usopp's situation would be in general what with the political climate. once again. if you didn't actually write this fic so sorry this must look like the ravings of a crazy person. godspeed
Hi. Uh, yeah I did write that fic. I would have been like only 17 at the time. I did do A LOT of research, like the fic was basically an excuse for me to research Japanese internment and WWII history in general bc I thought it was super fucked up. I was absolutely hyperfixated on the topic and my parents probably thought i was nuts for my ability to talk at length on this particular area of history. I just finished skim reading back through the fic and woof. What a bleak fucking story. I was very cruel to everyone. It's frustrating bc I think it's an interesting and compelling idea for a story. But to me it feels like: here is all the research I did and also characters talking in what feels like a too modern way. Plus, I was 17 and didnt understand people very well. I wish I had the energy and motivation to rewrite it. Although, I forgot I used to do song lyrics at the start of each chapter and the tonal dissonance of Owl City lyrics at the top of a chapter of harrowing events around the time of WWII is unfathomablly unhinged.
#as for where r they now? i forgot the last chapter was like fuck u nothing matters life goes on sanji probably died of lung cancer#like jesus dude calm down. i think now id give them a bit of a softer ending#like i mean sanji still prob dying of lung cancer but he lives a long life with zoro and thry make the most of the time they have together#and i mean when u see horrific things in war i imagine its something u never really get over but i think the crew members that became#soldiers go on to live fuffilling lives and usopp finds a stable and relatively well paying job. gets married and lives happily ever after#god. its so frustrating to me that ill probably never rewrite this. it could habe been so good#but i just dont have thst kind of energy. i do think abt this fic more than almost all my other tho#im glad u liked it anon. its a fucking unhinged fic just from the perspective of: rural ohio teen wants to research a fucked up aspect of#ww 2 history and decides to write a fucking fanfic abt it. like bro what why. but idk weird weird times#there could have been themes and exploration of trauma and adversity. complex relationships. but no u get cringe written by a child#and now at the age of nearly 26 i am old and tired. christ thst was almost 10 years ago. i was a whole different human#weird the fanfics that stick with u. i have many i think abt from hs. wonder where the authors r now...#unrelated#i also forgot that in the authors nots i was like: if u r a n4zi fucking kill yourself.#which i standby but i was not expecting to see thst in the notes of a one piece fic i wrote as a kid good god
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GWAH THANKYLY i believe that words is one of the defining characteristics of a dawn and thhankyiu for enjoying themmy words and sayuing :]!!
#i liek to say words with my keyborad and my vvoice. of which i should finish audio portion of entry right now but methinkies too flusytered#i habe time tho :]
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i have witnessed a lot of bad ships and a lot of cringe ships but very few inspire the same feeling of cringehorrorjudgement as whatevers going on with silver/thomas hamilton in black sails ao3
#and silver/flint/thomas#i briefly braved the waters of black sails ao3 again and every time i do i am speechless by bad taste#my post#black sails#i expected silverflint snd fuckin flint/thomas as boring and awful as they are bc its the same story in every fandom#u rlly habe to go out of ur way ignoring madi to ship silver/thomas tho.
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i am soooo goddamn sleepy how will i get through the day
#just abt 4h left of my shift tho#and i habe so many coffees in me already#but once i get home im gonna flop on the bed and sleep for hours#i neeeeed a long nap#bc god knows this cat is not letting me sleep through the night#i was woken up like 3 times for pets#once she smacked me with her paw when i wouldn't move lmao??????#like dude i swear im alive dw
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"Last time I saw ÿou, you said you would feed me prices of my flayed skin"
Ok, so ed is traumatized by threats of autocannibalism from his previous captain. [Aka boss] And when he is spiraling in self destruction, he does that exact thing to his close friend (+whipping boy?)
In his death images, the electrical activity happening as the body dies, his big radical shift in perspective is to place his behavior in the identity of his former abuser. And continue his own identity, "ed" in contrast, and at the whims of that person.
Now, the captain continues his life forward. Nourishes his body. Does what he has to do. And even, in this moment, treats him with respect! Dignity, even.
But underlying, there is a threat. Ed is afraid.
I think Ed has sought power to escape the abuses of hierarchy, and used those violences himself to get there. To build an image.
This made him lose himself, in a lot of ways. It's extreme masking trauma. It's made him feel so trapped that he has become suicidal, long before canon.
Ed realizes that to continue to be a pirate, he would rather himself be dead.
...or he can retire?
#but stede was the balm. it made him feel spontanious and like himself again#if we r thinking about relationship anarchy. stede has sought out new ways to relate to other peoples away from arostrocratic sociery#ed has been boxed into the behaviour of being a pirate. certain patterns started when he had no autonomy and have continued now that he is#in power on the ship. izzy is acclimated to the navy#he is loyal and he takes orders. he has souht a life outside the norms. in piracy. but he still upholds some of the shit#he internalized about being strong and useful. he doesnt have a hugh self worth. izzy isnt enough of s catalyst to break Ed's patterns#and i think its bdcause he js a subordinate. and because he doesnt habe#have a radical approach to intimacy. he just tries to keep things going.#fuck idk im sortimg my thoughts. my personal endga#endgame is ot3#ed has a lot to come to terms w tho#ofmd season 2#edward teach#edit: so sexy and systemlike of u edward. ive noticed u fracture ur identity into underlying parts which sometimes share space and time.#this intrigues me#edit edit: lost im the sauce im about to lose keyboard privleges sianora fuckers
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i do kinda want to delete tumblr tho
#tumblr is the last social media ihave that sucks my time#i habe insta but mostly just for texting irls who prefer it#also discord for talking to online friends (and sometimes irls)#tumblr tho. tumblrs the one thats got me doomscrolling#……#tobin talks
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Experienced Megamix aka 7 minutes of Louis basking in purple and in rainbow lights singing two of his best songs while I was (slightly) high ✔️
Perfect way to say goodbye to FITWT live 💜
#it’s so hard to time edibles so sadly it was wearing off when the show started#but i had a good buzz and it probably helped with the 75 min of cardio that was the show for me#fitfwt vancouver#mine#my phone takes shitty pictures#i brought a disposable camera tho! will habe to get the photos printed out
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Slightly overdid it going out to get stuff for graduation w my mom. Oof ouch augh ow
#lidocaine has fully worn off so ow#but hopefully i will habe even less lower back nerve pain#bc i also get crazy sciatica from not even that cramped positioning#but last two weeks habe def been a lil easier in that dept only (sadly)#i am a lil less dizzy tho this time
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#i dunno what i planned to do today. but it wasnt spening 8am-5.30pm weighing samples#just like i didnt plant to spend 11am-6.30pm yesterday weighing samples. but sometimes the universe doesnt let u choose#mostly i feel bad that our undergrad had to do all that time with me when she has all her class work as well and#like i dont care abt the project and ive been with it every step of the way. it was nice talking with her tho#fucking exhausting bc i talked the ENTIRE TIME bc i cant handle lulls in conversation. but ive been assured im not annoying so whatever#god. my boss asked me yesterday if id gotten to relax this last week and its like. i mean compared to the fucking month ive had? yes#but probably not by the standards of a normal person. i definitely havent been getting enough sleep#and tomorrow i habe to go in at 8 and in theory im supposed to go to a retirement party tomorrow at noon#and the guy is a rambler so who knos how long ill b there. and im already socially drained. thrn monday i should start with my other#project again. but i habe to check the machine and im just gonna have to go full on no breaks until mid may#so whej will i get a break? in theory after may 14th. so fucking frustrating#and im not mad at anyone specifically. i just hate this project and cant wait to quit and move#so now im gonna fucking draw more too earnest narut0 fanart and avoid the things i should b doing#bc im fuckine exhausted. literally i was standinf from 9.30 to 3pm with not breaks bc idk i didnt look at the time#and im not running today apparently bc im too tired and the sun is gonna set in 20min >:-[#ay ay ay. 2023 my year of hatred and rage#wah. i don't wanna drive tomorrow 😫#unrelated
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The only things I liked abt the sonic 3 trailer was the stuff I can get from the games where it's also better so
#sonic#i usually like the movies for what they are. i habe fun w them even tho theyre whatever.#but man. this time. not so much
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i am so building a sim ver kf my workplace tho
#gotta replace the pool tables w something else tho 👎#god knows ive spent enough time i thst building i could recreate it almost from memory. that is my fucming BAR#no i dont habe some weird kinda ownership over it why do u ask. anyway .
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Actually I’m gonna go more in depth here. Tags were before I wrote this part.
Even with a basic savings account, the 10million will quickly outsize what the 1k a day is capable of.
1k a day, may as many have said, reach 10million in 27 years.
But the 10million in those 27 years, even from just basic interest, could reach a lot more.
Like this:
I’ll put the interest rate at 3%. Modest conpared to some, but reasonable. It’ll partially account for how interest rates fluctuate form high at 5 to 6% to lows of 1%
Lets say you spend 1 million to get a house, pay off loans, decrease your weekly expenses.
9 million stowed away for interest.
After 1 year, 9 million becomes 9 270 000 (increased by 270 000)
The second year, that becomes 9 548 100 (278 100 increase)
Third year: 9 834 543 (286 443 increase)
Fourth Year: 10 129 579 (295 036.29 increase. Im lazy and ifnrinf the .29 tho)
At least point you have officially recouped the money you spent paying off loans/buying a house or using as simple spending money.
Fifth year: 10 433 466 (303 887 increase)
Sixth Year: 10 746 469 (313 003 increase)
Seventh Year: 11 068 863 (322 394 increase)
Eighth Year: 11 400 928 (332 065)
Ninth Year: 11 742 955 (342 027)
Tenth Year: 12 125 243 (352 288)
Eleventh Year: 12 489 000 (363 757)
And after 11 years the interest alone almost matches the amount you get each year from the 1k a day.
And with each year the bench mark to match the lump sum amount shifts ever farther.
(By 27 years, the lump sum person with a modest interest rate of 3% could potentially have gotten to 20 041 171$. Double the original sum, and double the ‘goal post’)
All this is with a more reserved interest rate. If you had a higher interest rate or were actively investing, this would be rather different. A 5% interest rate would’ve matched and surpassed the rate of 1k a day in the first year at 450 000 a year (not accountjng tax on the interest) even a 4% on 9 million puts you just under at 360 000 per year, meaning the bery next year youve surpassed it.
Additionally, if you are still working a job, you likely have saved additional money due to not having to pay off loans/pay rent or other stuff. Obviously i habe not accounted for that variable.
Any bad marhs is cause a) its 8 am and i havnet slept wheee (also probably did this a harder way than i needed to)
And also maube just me funbling them keys and numbers fjjfjf.
Explain your reasoning plzzz
#im surprised how many people are choosing the 1k a day#when like doing the math you wont even fet close to the 10 mill at once#and with a limp sum at once you xan more quickly get a house and defrease your weekly/monthly expense of rent#cs havibg to wait a year or more to save up enough (or howver long yous beed for just the loan so maybe only a few mobths)#plus with 10 mill youd get interest#i do wish these thibgs would say what currency like usd or whatever your own currency is?#cause like 10mill usd is#16 627 000 ish nz dollars so#vs 10 mill nz being like 6013000 ish in usd so#but even so lump sum defibitely#and interest rates even if it was like 1% youd get like 100 000 k or sone shot for it#and then that gets taxed but youd still be getting more in retunr#which you could donate and use to help epople in shit#can help more people with 10 mill than#well lemme do the actual maths for how mcuh youd grt with the 1k a day#im dumb i did my maths wrong#you would get more in the end with the 1k a day oops#why did i matth so pooorly noooo (i missed a 0 on the 1k lol)#so with the 1k a day youd get 365 000 a year#over 60 years thats 21 900 000 so yeha better than the 10mill just over a long amount of time#oops my math did a fuck up wheeee#and im too lazy to delte my tags#even so having a lump sum at the start would help some people oit of having to pay rent and shit constantly and pay off loan interest and#but idk if the interest on the lump sum would beat out the total over the uears for the 1k a day#plu witj 1k a day i suppose you always habe the security of knowing youre gonna get that money even if soneone hacks your account or some s#tho depending on the interest rate with the 10 mil if you dont touch it for a bit#you will end up making more interest per year than youd get per year with the .1k a day#fuck im almost at tag linit. but anyway if youre ahove 3% per year for interest youll get the same amount back basically#then interest gets taxed but even so within a few years youll be getting more interest than with just the 1k so long as you dont touch stra#dont touch it straight awya
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stop doin my lil post work pilate time for a few days and i did one again and died. plank involved anything are still very much my nemesis. also outer glute stuff BURNSSSS
#i like the feeling of regular glute but the outer side??? AHHH#and my abs shake when i habe to curl lmfao#i am like an udon noodle. thicc. supple. floppy.#i been tryin to practice holding my navel in at random times to get used to the feeling tho cause i am a relaxed gut mfer most of the time#and trying to remember to hold it while doing the exercises is HARD. but helps with spine pain
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