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[yuyu-bubu]

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I know this is breaking Tumblr law lol, but can I ask how many followers you have? I feel like you’re seriously underrated, your writing is incredible 😭😭

Um currently I have 86 followers. I had an old blog before that was terminated that had about 2k but it got nuked so. I don't really keep track of followers tbh like I'm thankful for everybody but popularity isn't really a big thing for me.

However thank you for the compliment about my writing eee that makes me very happy. I know my works are kind of a certain niche for a certain audience so I appreciate everybody that send nice anons about them or leaves comments/kudos. Always makes my day so thank youu

[tteokdoroki]

what he lost | k.bakugou.

⇝ pairing: katsuki bakugou x fem!reader.

⇝ word count: 5.4K

⇝ rating: for everyone.

⇝ genre: pro hero!au, exes!au, angst.

⇝ summary: back then; he was young, dumb and a little too prideful, taking your love for granted. now, years down the line he wonders if he’ll ever stand a chance in getting you back or the one in which katsuki bakugou grew up a little too late.

⇝ warning(s): please read ! heavy angst, no happy ending, mentions of toxic relationships, emotional distress, mentions of violence ( explosions, fight scenes, knives, blood ) and cursing all around.

⇝ author’s note(s): greetings everyone!! i hope you’re all doing well, today’s one-shot is a request from @killakatsuki​​, i know you wanted a happy ending but i got a little ahead of myself eee !! anyways thank you all for 400+ followers, i love you all :(

⇝ masterlist | requests

“katsuki bakugou if you leave me right now, please... please don’t come back.”

bakugou had always hated that, he thought, casting his gaze elsewhere in the room. he always hated how you cried when you were angry, red hot tears stinging a pathway down the apples of your usually glowing cheeks.

he couldn’t quite place the reasoning as to why. maybe it was because you rarely ever found yourself angry or perhaps it was how pathetic you looked when your bottom lip wobbled and your harsh words were laced with watery sobs.

or maybe it was because he didn’t want to feel sorry for you, didn’t want to comfort you when he was too prideful to admit that you were right. “whatever, don’t tell me what the fuck to do.” he spits, eyes and voice full of a venom he barely ever uses against you. he watches with a scarlet gaze as you falter, as if a knife has dug deep into your heart and cut you all up but bakugou only scoffs and continues to pack his side kick costume into the duffle bag he’s got on your shared bed.

every fibre of his being is tell him to reach out for you and apologise, he knows that he’s wrong. keeping his late night shifts from you, working extra hours— of course you were going to worry but he needed you to understand that being a hero was his dream above all else. the last thing he needed was a distraction like you.

something in you changed that night, both of you. as the rain hit hard on the roof of your shared apartment, even as you took his things and threw them out into the hall and even as you gave him one last chance on the doorstep. “you can leave now and not comeback or you can stay and we’ll talk this through—“ your eyes spoke to him in a silent plead, asking him if he would really give up the life that you’d built for lies and a better job?

but you knew the answer already.

“like i said,” katsuki rolled his eyes as knowing sobs wracked your body. “i never needed you anyways.”

you slammed the door before he could walk away and forget the tears in your eyes.

six years later and katsuki is pissed.

he’d been irritable since this morning when his interns fucked up the paperwork at his agency— leaving him to clean it up and then when his assistant brought him the wrong coffee and forgot to notify him of the pro hero meeting he was currently attending right at this very minute.

of course heroes of all different calibers were present; including none other than the number two, shoto todoroki, who was in charge of directing this week’s patrol missions but something about that only grinds the explosive pro’s gears even more. although, he could see himself being even more pissed if the number one; deku had shown his face instead of being away on an overseas mission. the schedule for this week’s patrol sits heavily in bakugou’s hand and he almost wants to burn it to pieces just at the thought of working with his future partner.

‘yn ln.’

the sight of your name printed in block capitals next to his has the ash blonde reeling, glancing up to send a blazing scowl towards shoto. he feels set up, as if the half hot, half cold bastard is dangling you right in front of him— its not like todoroki doesn’t know the history that sits between bakugou and yourself, after all,  he had been the friend you’d ran off to during the fight that ended your five year relationship.

it’s like todoroki had a sixth sense because by the time he’d finish announcing the pair ups, he’d tiredly caught wind of katsuki’s heated stare. “bakugou—“

“i wanna fuckin’ switch, icyhot.”

“you can’t.”

bakugou stands from his seat next to kirishima ( who only looks apologetically at his colleagues ), annoyance rippling through his veins as he approaches the taller male. “why the fuck not?” he growls, small explosions sparking in the palms of his sweaty hands ( he was undeniably nervous because of the impending patrol ) the group of heroes simultaneously sigh— having been used to the explosive pro’s usual outbursts.

todoroki sighs, running his cooler hand over his face. “because the pairs have been matched up by quirk and strength, on top of that they were done in advance so if you really have a problem with it then i suggest you take it up with the number one—“ the dual quirked hero falls silent, a triumphant smirk appearing on his lips as red riot pulls his friend away before it’s too late.

“dude, you can’t just go blowing people up!” the red head scolds beneath bakugou’s sailor mouth, wrestling him over to the couch.

katsuki feels defeated, there’s no way to get out of this situation. he’s done his best these last few years to avoid you like the plague. it was somewhat easy, considering you were lower in the ranks compared to him, so there wasn’t much time to interact anyway. but katsuki hated the fact that he had always thought you would fall below him.

nonetheless; he took to switching event time tables around, rejecting hang outs with his old high school friends... all to avoid you, and now that he had to see you face to face, he wasn’t sure how to react. would you still hate him? how did you feel about working with him?

there’s not much time to dwell on the thought for kirishima is already patting his back and guiding him out of the meeting as it ends, the promise of drinks at an ‘heroes only bar’ hanging in the air.

“you’re so handsome, ground zero ! thank you for protecting japan !”

bakugou can feel the bile rising in the back of his throat at the words from the sickly sweet fan, so he gives a nonchalant grunt in response as he finishes up his signature on her notebook before continuing his march to your hero agency. it’s been a few days since the meeting between the pro heroes and all the number three wants is to make it to your agency without being fawned over by more obsessive fans.

he gives the fan a casual wave, ignoring the look of disappointment on her face— either she was expecting his number or for him to grow bashful under her flurry of compliments but katsuki was never one for fan service.

he hated fans that expected something from him, ones who wanted more than a casual chat with their favourite pro hero but he wouldn’t let them in. they didn’t want the intimate, vulnerable sides of katsuki bakugou like you had— maybe that made the ash blonde stuck on you.

yn ln was the only girl in his life who had tried to understand the many layers of the hot headed hero, you saw past his aggressive nature and touched the deepest parts of his soul…parts that you longed to love and keep safe.

you’d loved him for who he was below the surface, not for the money and fame he had come to amass as number three in the ranks.

behind scarlet eyes are the best moments of the hero’s life, each shared with you. katsuki had took for granted the seconds you had been with him, even from the very start— he didn’t care for the way that you held him after he’d been kidnapped, clinging onto him like he’d disappear or would never return to your arms, he should have cherished the tears of worry you shed for him too but katsuki was too prideful at the time.

too full of himself even with his raging nightmares that you had managed to soothe.  

you’d comforted him after he’d failed the licensing exams, promised him he’d still get to be the greatest hero of all time and still, bakugou had cared for none of this. now that he’d thought about it, he hadn’t been good to you, he didn’t know how you’d dealt with they way he undermined your quirk and doubted your ability to protect him when he should have been the one to protect you.

your love was wasted on him, and for that bakugou needed to apologise.

hands in his pockets, katsuki’s mind could have been said to be away with the fairies, haunted by the night he came home with a half hearted apology on his lips to an empty apartment and a note from you. something about staying with the icyhot bastard and not to contact you.

that is until he collided with the back of someone in the crowd. “hey!” he’s quick to growl out to the figure, a slight snarl to the words leaving his mouth. “watch where you’re going, shitty extra—“

“ah, katsuki! nice to see you haven’t changed,” your voice sends shivers down the blonde’s spine, bright red eyes focusing on you and only you. your smile is bright, dazzling under the hot japan sun and even if katsuki hadn’t changed, you certainly had— your pretty eyes he used to get lost in, he used to watch glimmer with tears now hold a different kind of light, they greyish hue that dulled you over your time with him had finally cleared.

you looked healthy, happier and bakugou realises how much your relationship must’ve wore you down.

he feels like he doesn’t deserve the grin that you give him; the one you would save just for him in the early mornings you’d spent together back when you were dating. maybe that makes his heart jumps out of his chest.

“y-yn— “

he hadn’t prepared himself for your sweet, airy giggle that fills the space between you. “ground zero getting shy on me now? don’t tell me you forgot about our shift today, did’ya?”

“n-no, ‘course not, dumbass.” fuck, katsuki’s heart thumps against his ribcage so loud that he’s afraid you might hear it with the little distance between you. since when did you make him nervous? despite the pet name, you still give him a laugh as a flicker of fondness twinges in your bright eyes.

it’s quickly replaced when you blink it away, beckoning ground zero into your hero offices. “nice to see that sailor’s mouth hasn’t changed either ,” you mumble more so to yourself than him. bakugou walks a few paces behind you while you explain to him that you have to finish assigning your sidekicks and interns a few low level missions before you can head off for the day.

the group of young heroes are excitable, seemingly loving the opportunity to work with you— their chatter is loud but it gives katsuki time to drink you in.

crimson eyes travel over your form while you talk— your hero costume has changed a lot since your U.A and sidekick days.

you’d interned under the number two at the time, hawks, thus leading you to have become one of his most trusted sidekicks. no doubt; his skill level had not only  improved your abilities, how you controlled your quirk but your costume as well.

your quirk was known as lullaby, if you could sing a tune in the right pitch to certain groups of people, it allowed you control over the abilities and to put them to sleep. this obviously however meant you were poor at short distance attacks— something bakugou always teased you for, so he was excited to see how you’d improved.

your suit had a visor that allowed you to amplify your quirk, while patterns of the night sky dressed your body— paying homage to your hero name ‘nightsky’.

katsuki felt bad to imprinting the image of your skin tight, midnight blue suit into his mind but back when he had known you like you were his, your costume hadn’t been nearly as advanced as this.

snapping fingers pull him from his thoughts before they can get too hazy.

“eyes are up here, explosion boy.”

katsuki’s gaze snaps up to meet yours, an angry red to rival his gemstone eyes spreading like wildfire across his cheeks. “i wasn’t staring.” he tries his best to defend himself, but your knowing look tells him that you’ve caught him red handed.

“of course you weren’t, sidekicks left about ten minutes ago so we can head out  now—unless you want to keep glaring daggers at my boobs, katsu.” you’re teasing him, voice dripping like honey off of a spoon as you waltz back out onto the streets of japan and leave a bewildered ground zero behind you.

you’ve changed so much since your relationship ended with bakugou, you’re stronger, a vixen and more confident in yourself.

and he hates knowing that he’s the one that kept you down all this time.

patrol remains uneventful even as the afternoon goes on and the stress of japan begin to fill with citizens for the oncoming rush hour.

the lack of action has lead your conversation to die within the wind and leaves katsuki alone with his thoughts for the time being— you only really speak when you catch the blonde staring you down or when he accidentally walks into something ( highly unusual for him ) but he enjoys the seconds where your teasing voice tickles the tips of his ears and you smile so wide his own lips pull into somewhat of a grin.

bakugou doesn’t know why he’s so quiet, not when the storm in his mind brews all the words he should have said to you years ago. the apologies, the grateful thanks that you deserved; none of these could fall from his tongue.

he liked to say he never had the opportunity, which was partly true you were both up and coming herores yes, but you had damn well made sure you’d never have to encounter bakugou unless the situation required it. and it seemed, that years down the line, he was still doing the same.

the thought alone cause nerves to choke him from the inside out, building up in his throat until all he can do is grunt in frustration—  kicking an empty can along the road you’re currently walking down.

“that’s unlike you,” your chuckle cuts through the thick fog of katsuki’s mind, drawing deep red eyes towards your frame. you walk in front of him now, arms folded behind your head while you step backwards— the sight almost comical to anyone passing by. bakugou must look just as shocked because some how he manages to pull the cutest snort from you, even as his face morphs into a snarl and he marches forward to fall into pace with your steps. your eyes dazzle with your next words. “the great katsuki bakugou, quiet? never thought i’d see the day.”

you’ve always been able to read him like an open book, seeing right through the front he puts on. “i haven’t changed.” he grunts through his teeth.

katsuki stops walking when you do, now standing a breaths width away from you. electricity jumps between you both, static forming in the finger tips that just barely brush against bakugou’s arm.

your eyes spell it out for him, clear as day, as you finally reach out to touch him. His own close at the brief gesture, the pain from having lost you blooming across his chest.

“you did.” you breathe out,  the warmth of your soft voice making katsuki’s eyes screw shut.

he could never get a lie past you.

“we both did.”

vermillion eyes open, trying to seek you out in the light of the day as bakugou wills and prays that he can say what he needs to right now, to get you back but he doesn’t have the chance as an explosion cuts through the building on your left.

bakugou manages to wrap his arms around you, shielding you from the blast before you hit the ground. the impulse sends you  both rolling down the street, small grunts escaping you until you roll to a halt and end up on top of katsuki— straddling him.

dust and debris surrounds the pair of you, creating a thick smog in the air as sirens and screams sound off in the distance. the explosive hero groans in pain— no doubt with a litter of bruises forming under his suit but he has no time to register the sting properly before he’s noticing you on top of him, smirk on your face, devilish glint to your eye.

you’ve been waiting for some action all day.

you’re gone in the blink of an eye, so you must have a plan. katsuki remembers from high school that you made up for strategy where you once lacked in strength, so it’s no surprise to him that you’re already on the move. meanwhile; you manage to slide undetected through the smoke, moving fast to take out the low level criminals.

it’s only a robbery, but the explosion could have caused more casualties than you would have liked. you trust that bakugou can take care of the civilians and bring them out of harms way as you do your best o sus out the ringleader.

the grey tinted fog that sweeps over the area allows you both to work quickly; neither of you need to say anything, for one it would give away your position and secondly— there’s an underlying trust in one another that the two of you had built up when you worked together while dating.

bakugou, through his end, tackles down the small group of criminals after clearing the area and making sure no one was hurt. emergency services had been alerted and were already on their way, all there was now, was to predict your next movements and follow your lead. he’d never liked being bossed about, but the look in your eye made him believe you knew what you were doing.

you were right, you’d both changed. you might as well have been a better hero than him.

the ash blonde follows the trail of unconscious wannabe villains to your whereabouts, he only knows that they’re unconscious because of your ability to put people to sleep with your quirk— all you had to do was get close to them, which wouldn’t have been hard as katsuki knew first hand that these guys’ quirks weren’t shit.

“it’s almost funny, how you thought you could pull a stunt like this on a day when all of japan’s biggest heroes are in one place,” bakugou’s ears pick up on you teasing the criminal leader with that smooth chocolate voice and he follows it deeper into the air that’s heavy with debris— glad you were able to find him before the smoke cleared. “even with the number one out of town, tsk, you should have known better…”

the hot headed pro spots you, holding the hooded ringleader in a choke hold with only your thighs as you sit on his shoulders— eyes wide with victory.

he recognises the dip in your voice as you adjust your tone to put the guy to sleep and call it a day. you’re powerful, a great pro and bakugou watches with awe while you get ready to take this guy down once and for all.

“so cocky, nightsky— why do you think we chose attack the street you were on?” the guy spits through clenched teeth, resisting the urge to succumb to your lullaby of a voice.

brows furrowing, you decide not to dwell on the criminal’s words before leaning down to whisper. “sleep...” but katsuki’s body comes alive with fear as the villain wannabe jams a blade into your thigh, causing your grip on him to loosen enough for him to throw you to the floor and put a boot to your throat. “oh miss nightsky, you really rely too much on your quirk and not enough on your senses. hmm, i think it’s time we say goodnight, don’t you?” the guy chuckles while you squirm under his foot— the need for air burning sharply at your lungs.

bakugou, who’s remained hidden this entire time feels himself snap— a heavy explosion loading up behind his gauntlets while he launches himself right into the scene. he won’t let you struggle for your life, not on his watch. “GET YOUR FILTHY FUCKIN’ HANDS OFF OF HER!”

he reaches the criminal just before your eyes roll back into your head, an explosive right hook colliding with their cheek and sending them flying down the street.

the ash blonde reaches down to pull you up into his chest, that very same one heaving with laboured breaths; you’re shaking but it’s nothing you can’t handle even with the red lines at your throat.

“you good?”

“better, thanks to you.”

there’s a look that you wear right now, one that katsuki recognises from years of training and running into fights with you— you want to do the move. he nods at you, vermillion eyes lighting up with a bright fire while you grip onto ground zero’s wrists.

just as the villain stands, you kick your feet off the ground and in the meantime bakugou begins to twirl you in circular motions until you’ve built up enough momentum for him to throw you towards the criminal.

you collide with his back foot first, knocking him to the ground as your eyes glow a bright white. “i said, go the fuck to sleep.”

the criminal drops to sleep and you roll to the ground after taking him out. you smile to yourself at the familiar wail of sirens in the background but don’t bother to make an effort to stand up, letting the exhaustion, pain from the wound in your thigh and bruises at your neck finally flood your body.

sitting beside you, bakugou smirks and holds a fist out to you. “still got it,” he gestures between the pair of you, the same signature move you’ve been doing since high school having worked successfully once again.

“still got it.” you look up to the now clear sky, fist bumping bakugou right back.

he’s going to do it, he thinks, he’s going to apologise.

after everything you and bakugou had been through, something in his chest was relieved to know that you didn’t hate him, something in him is lead to believe that you’re going to give him another chance.

katsuki watches you now, an attendant from the paramedics that you called working on patching up the gash in your thigh while you rub a salve into your neck.

despite the pain you must be in; you’re still glowing, still smiling even when fans ask you for autographs or tell you how brave you were during the fight. you’re so genuine, such a ray of sunshine in the world and bakugou can feel himself falling for you all over again.

“Is that all mr. ground zero, sir?” an officer asks, taking down notes for the report about the incident. the hero nods, waving the kid off after giving them all of the details from today. they thank him and he finds himself marching over to you almost immediately, now that you’re all bandaged up.

“walking already, ln? are you sure it doesn’t hurt?”

you beam up at the ash blonde, hopping out of the back of the ambulance and rubbing at the tear in your hero costume where the cut is. “it’s good, stings a little but i’ve seen worse on you,” you comment to him, beginning your stride back to your agency.

“and who’s fault is that, dumbass?” a genuine laughter bubbles in bakugou’s throat, albeit raspy, its not a foreign sound to your ears and it makes you laugh along with him.

he knows you’re referencing the many times you’d kicked hiss ass when sparring from high school to your side kick days. back then you‘d have traced every scar that littered his pretty body and told him how much you loved him.

katsuki aids you while you head back to the nightsky agency, you insist that you don’t need help to walk but you’re limping and the explosive pro hero is stubborn as hell— he’s not about to let you get hurt again, even if its physically and not mentally like he had done to you before.

with the lighter mood, memories flitter between you both— you mention how katsuki used to love his food so spicy you would cry and he brings up the time you had given him and kirishima a bout of food poisoning when you’d come up with an alternative to the latter’s cooking. the stories don’t seem to end even as you lean into him more; trusting him again.

“about what i said earlier…” you begin after finally coming to a halt outside your agency building, a scarlet gaze full of fondness lands on you. you turn to face him with the softest of smiles, half chewing on your bottom lip— something he knew you did when you were nervous. “you’re different, to how…how you were back then and it’s good, katsuki you’re so good…”

there’s a breath of silence, only filled by the quiet hum of city traffic where people are travelling to and from home. “i’m glad i had time to become good,” bakugou offers, forgoing the words ‘for you’ and pausing instead. “i regret who i was back then, with you… thought it made you hate me and that you wouldn’t fuckin’ work with me today.”

you shake your head, breaking contact with bakugou to paw at the stupid tears preparing to make their way down your cheeks. “i-i did hate you for a while, after everything…but we were young and dumb and—“ you freeze as the ash blonde wipes a stray tear from your cheek, you not having realised that it’d escaped. “and i’m so thankful to have met you, to have shared a love with you, you taught me so much and that i could never hate you for.”

“yn...i—“ i love you. i’m sorry. i should have loved you better. the words are there, the ones that katsuki always told himself he would say to you if he had the chance but he finds himself frozen and unable to speak. why? why now? when the perfect chance sat right in front of him, the perfect time for him to make it up to you.

to start over.

“yes, katsuki?”

to get you back.

“yn i’m sorry—“

“—guess who?”

a sing song voice full of positivity bursts through the moment while a pair of hands clasp their way over your pretty eyes and hide them away from the world.

bakugou instantly recognises the voice as belonging to none other than his childhood rival and number one pro hero, deku. he seems to have changed— grown taller, green hair shaved at the sides for an undercut.

the ash blonde isn’t very sure what else has changed, but then again they hadn’t seen much of each other as sidekicks, working under different agencies with different missions.

it was only as they started competing for the top ranks that they started to run the same circles— but bakugou had no idea how you would’ve come to know deku since the blonde hated him and you were dating each other for most of that time.

katsuki is just about to tell the green haired idiot to ‘fuck the fuck off’ for ruining his moment when you do the unexpected.

you clasp your hands over midoriya’s, cheeky smile gracing your lips as you attempt to pull them away from your face. “let me think, could it be? izuku midoriya?” relenting to your cheery voice— deku pulls away from you, hands falling to grip your waist sweetly. possesively. horror flashes behind bakugou’s raging red eyes. you turn in his rival’s strong arms, smiling so hard that it delves deep into the apples of your cheeks. “izu ! when did you get back? i thought you wouldn’t make it in time for today…”

“flew in this morning doll, i wanted to surprise you—“ the number one beams down at you and bakugou’s world crumbles when you cut him off while pressing a chaste kiss to deku’s lips right in front of his eyes.

this couldn’t be happening...since when were you and the damn nerd a thing? why didn’t he realise? why didn’t he grow up and try and get you back sooner?

he has no choice but to sit and stare, a dark cloud now sitting over his shattered heart.

all the while, you’re giggling into deku’s lips, fumbling over his hands that pinch at your sides just to get you to gasp enough for him to kiss you more.  the painful ( well, only for the explosive pro ) lip lock ends when you both come up for air and your eyes land on your ex boyfriend.

“ah, katsuki ! you remember deku right? wait that’s a dumb question you were literally childhood friends—“ you start to ramble, mind getting away from you and katsuki barely registers anything that leaves your lips. his crimson eyes lock with the emerald ones that stare right back at him and hurt swells in his chest.

to deku, he must look like a kicked puppy. a weakling. a loser.

all the things he had labelled izuku midoriya when they were kids.

when bakugou tunes back into your excited rambling, his heart cracks even more in his chest. “this green giant flew all the way in from overseas to come home for wedding planning ! can you believe it?”  the answer to your question is an obvious no.

he had no idea that you had been seeing the number one, let alone being engaged to him. the hot headed hero freezes in his spot when you reach down the chest of your hero costume to pull out a silver necklace.

on the end of it, an engagement ring with a tiny emerald in it’s centre.

katsuki bakugou feels sick, bile rising up in his throat. he’d really lost you. really. “...pretty thing that is, congratulations.” he mentions blankly, eyes trained on midoriya once again. you don’t notice, but deku does and bakugou hates the sympathetic, apologetic look that the fucking nerd gives him.

“mhm ! izu put it on a necklace for me because, well you know, i’m clumsy and didn’t want to lose the thing,”

you’re so clueless that it hurts, burning katsuki from the inside out. that should be him. it should be his arms around you, his lips on yours, his engagement ring on that fucking necklace. not deku’s, not anyone’s. the green headed hero beside you seems to notice the distress ebbing away at your ex and tilts your head up to look at him. “doll, why don’t you head inside and change into something more comfy real quick? we’ve got cake tasting in an hour…”

the tail end of deku’s words are drowned out by your happily animated squeal and with a quick nod you press a kiss to his freckled cheek and bounce inside— missing the way bakugou winces at your display of affection.

it’s quiet despite the bustling sounds of the city but neither if them know what to say, even as the minutes pass.

bakugou knows that you’d be better off with deku, he would treat you right and give you the love that you deserved all along. but that didn’t make it any less painful.

“kacchan, look...“ the number one says eventually, green eyes swirling with guilt. “i’m sorry—“

the blonde shakes his head, spitting his words out through gritted teeth. “don’t...just,” fuck, it hurts to breathe. “just…take care of her for me, you got that deku?”

“yeah, of course…”

the pair of childhood rivals don’t have much time to speak after that, for you’re already bounding out of your agency wearing a comfortable mint green summer dress and pair of red sneakers to rival deku’s, despite the thick bandage to your thigh.

“ready to go?” you ask your fiancé, face as warm and as bright as it had once been when you used to look at bakugou. izuku nods, delight dancing in his eyes despite the nervous chew to his bottom lip, before letting you turn to your ex lover. “great ! well, see you around kasuki, don’t be a stranger ! we’ve got to catch up again sometime, alright?”

you link arms with izuku midoriya, your fiancé, after that—walking away and  leaving ground zero in the dust.

he doesn’t know how long he stands there for, heart in his hands even while he comes to the realisation that you hadn’t gone to todoroki that night when you’d left. no, you’d only told him that so it hurt a little less when he found out midoriya had been the one to look after you. you’d lied because you’d loved him.

you lie because you love him.

and it was only now that katsuki bakugou had realised what he’d lost.

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Dear diary,

ஐoh em geee!!! eee my big doe eyes are so cute!! woweeee I keep getting compliments on my eyes,,, every one is so inlove with my eyes. My eyes are so mesmerizing, big and sparkly, my future children are luck. My lashes grew so long they look like manga lashes!! everyone is totally inlove!! even me! all the compliments really warmed up my heart. Everyone wants my eyes,, they really are pretty, my big doe eyes are just beautiful as everyone would say!! my big doe eyes people mistake as the space since my eyes are so shiny and glossy. I literally look like the “🥺” emoji. I am so adorable!! not only because of my eyes but because of me!! but my eyes are adorable!!

ஐaaaa! my button nose WOW so cute, pretty and upturned I look exactly like a baby!! howww am I so pretty jk I’m born pretty!! my button nose got sooooo many compliments!! my nose is so pretty,,,, so tiny and cute with a low nose bridge, small nostrils, no pores are visible on my button nose,, wait who am I kidding no pores are visible on my clear face with zero pimples or anything that makes my face unclear,, my nose literally looks like the Pinterest button noses even this one girl pointed out that my button nose looks like the perfect button noses on Tiktok, pintrest,etc !!! I am so Inlove w/ myself😋

#manifestation #slay #frfr #buttonnose #nose #cute #delicate #bigeyes #i #am #so #inlove #with #myself

[deliciouslymindless]

Rebecca was so excited as she unboxed her new headphones, she had given them a quick trial run in the electronics store and instantly fell in love! The audio in them just hit her in all the right places, and like. it had a special app that would be able to analyze your game and give you the perfect mood-setting music, depending on the game, so if you were doing a bossfight for example it would be intense, where as if you were speedrunning call of duty it would be quick and energizing, making sure to keep you in the right mindset for the game you are playing using special subliminals.

 The headphones of course came in all sorts of colours and styles, Rebecca had however went for the cute kitty-ear headphones as she felt like they just fitted her!

Rebecca was a gamergirl and a twitch streamer. She was a goofy girl, so streaming just kind of came naturally to her, always talking with her spectators and fans to include them. This had gotten her widely popular along with her cute looks of course.

Rebecca loaded up PUBG, and quickly felt her anticipation build as she waited in the lobby, ready for the match to start, the app was really working, and it was amazing. Rebecca loved the specs in the headphones, the audio quality was like she was actually there, and not only that, but you barely felt like you were wearing them, not like the other heavy-duty gaming headsets that gave you a headache from squeezing on your head or the pull from the weight.

Rebecca bit her lip as she was looting the building, they were down to 15 players and the map was getting smaller, she felt so on-edge she completely forgot about her fans, she was so emerged…

Her heart raced at the sound of a gunshot, the adrenaline was rushing through her body, quickly scanning her surroundings, she wiped a pearl of sweat from her forehead and went outside, crosshair so stable, so focused as she noticed the other player, gunning him down in moments “FUCK YEAH!” she exclaimed loudly, giving a confident wink to her watchers.

*****

Rebecca shut down the game after a few matches, it had been so thrilling, she could still feel the excitement in her system, but in her time streaming, Rebecca had learned how to release that excitement.

She took her laptop and went over to her bed, typing in “P” and just like that, pornhub came up like usually, she was used to a nice little release after an intense gaming session, but today, she was feeling hornier than usual and was quick to find a fitting video. At this point she didnt care what she watched, as long as she got to cum.. Quick.

Rebecca barely noticed how “Take it off” started playing as the woman in the video stripped down, and Rebecca found herself doing the same without any intention.

As her index finger went in her mouth, she started sucking eagerly, getting a weird flavour in her mouth… This wasn’t what a finger tasted like? it tasted more like a-a… a cock, that was it. It tasted like a big, juicy, filthy cock, and somehow it was making her excited. That’s weird, she thought to herself. Rebecca was a long time lesbian, and knew guys were’nt her thing, but as she sucked her finger, imagining a huge throbbing cock, she couldn’t help but rub her aching clit, GOD she was horny… Watching that pink haired, big tittied dumb ditzy bimbo on her knees bopping and sucking, while her mind was popping, she couldn’t keep herself aware as she came harder than ever before, the pleasure flooding through her, overwhelming her every senses. It was like her mind got too much input and just short-circuited.

***** As becky woke up on her knees, she felt odd, somehow. she like, totes didn’t cum that much.

Her aching puss told her otherwise. It told her she’d been rubbing and fingering herself for hours on end. God, there had to be enough cum there to fill a bucket.

Imagining it made Becky extremely wet.. A bucket of cum, and she’d have it all to herself. She could just get lost as she poured it all down her throat…

WTF? what was she thinking? that was like, so nasty! but oooh so hot. Becky bit her lip but shook her head, she like, def. couldn’t like, spend all her time thinking bout cum when she had her twitch to entertain!.

Becky went to get dressed, but found yucky boring outfits, so she decided to go shopping first. Her fans could wait, after all, it’d be worth it, she smirked at the thought of what she was gonna do for them.

*****

“HEYA GUYS! It’s like, Becky again!” She giggled, squeezing her big latexc-overed tits. She was wearing a shiny pink Croptop and like a black latex miniskirt.

She turned around and flipped up her skirt, giggling as she wriggled her bum.

Becky had her pink headphones on, and had some porn running in the background, cuz she like, totes needed her subliminal training to be a good slut!

“Look guys, it’s like, so sexyy in dis skirt, mah butt is like.. sooo big! dont you just like, wann play with it? cuz i like. totes could use some cock!”

The twitch-chat went insane, so many compliments and sexy teases flying over the screen.

“LOOK AT THAT ASS, I COULD FUCK HER RIGHT HERE AND NOW!”

“Ohh my god, i just want to feel those lips between my legs!”

Becky giggled, apparently she wasn’t the only one who was horny.

“Can we like, meet guys? I’d like, totes love to take all your cocks!”

*****

Becky went to the park where they had planned to meet, she was like, so ready to get fucked in public.. and by 5 guys! eee, it was so exciting, she couldn’t think straight…

The moment she had put on the headphones, her mind was gone.

The moment she came to the view of cocks, she became a horny fuckslut

The moment she put on a show, she became a slutty bimbo camgirl.

The moment Becky went to the park, her life changed forever….

[tsukidrama]

i’m glad you could have your weekend off! i hope you had some rest :)

i’m really happy we agree so much on yelena! but also thank you for making me discover her more it’s been really interesting to talk about her!

same for zeke, season 4 managed to make me forget about what he did to erwin but it still happened and i never thought i’d cry for a man until he died. i was very sad but also kinda mad for feeling so devastated about a man lmao.

i’ve seen more lara tybur works lately, even a nsfw alphabet and honestly she DESERVES, if you ever write for her again i’ll gladly read it!!

i (re)read some of your annie fics today and she really is one of the best aot characters, i can’t believe i didn’t care about her at first. i thought she was so cold (partly because of the dub version of my country) and before knowing more about her and how marley works i really was mad at her for killing all these people but context is very important in her story. anyways i read your post rumbling headcanons and it’s so SOFT, annie really deserves it after everything she had to go through, especially since she thought she was gonna die at a really young age, she can fully enjoy her life now. i am also a big supporter of lesbian annie, i don’t like her with men and annie x armin makes me uncomfortable for some reason, people ship it because armin kept visiting her when she was in her crystal but it was him being obsessed while she couldn’t do anything and i don’t really see how it’s supposed to be romantic? so yeah i really don’t like that ship but if i have to be honest i don’t really like either of armin, eren or mikasa. all the side characters are so great and so interesting that the main ones can seem boring at times.

i’ve also read the great hair massacre of 857 and please it was so sweet and funny!! the whole conversation was already funny but then “There you go saying that gay shit again…” actually made me laugh out loud askljldfijdf. the dialogue in this fic was really great, it seemed so natural!! i really love seeing that side of annie, thank you for blessing us with that content! she was so in character too, the reference to her relationship with her dad was subtle but very welcomed, her tearing up after saying “i left” made my heart clench, her relationship with her father is very complex and you wrote it well!

after reading i got curious and wanted to see annie with actual bangs (apart from that flashback we got in season 4) and i couldn’t find anything, i really wish i could draw rn. oh and both the headcanons and the fic being in canon made me so happy too!! i know i’ve already said it but it’s so rare reading aot stuff in canon i really cherish canon fics when i find them! (that being said, I absolutely love your AUs, i guess i’m just a big fan of your writing!!)

annie kinda feels underrated sometimes which is weird because she seems present in a lot of fics and fanart but she doesn’t seem to have that many fans? especially compared to some others. she 100% deserves more love.

-j

you're so sweet 🥺 thank you. i've been a bit sick lately (chronic illness so nothing out of the ordinary unfortunately) so i'm definitely getting lots of rest!

of course! like i said it is ALWAYS my pleasure to spread the love for yelena. i told you i could make you like her 👀 i didn't even mean to get into her as much as i have but she's so interesting and hot. i'm glad you leaded up liking her!

I WILL NEVER FORGET AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE! i cry about Erwin on a regular basis. i've always felt really strongly about his character and i feel his loss all the time in the final arcs of the story, every time hanji and levi are without him 💔 if there's any man worth making an exception for it's Erwin, that man chugs his respect women juice.

oh fuck yeah! good, it definitely is what she deserves. now i'm gonna go scour the lara tybur tag...

pppffft i was in the opposite situation - i loved her before i knew shit about her character and then felt like a traitor when i pieced together who she was and what she had done.... not sure when you got into snk but i watched season 1 the year it came out and kept up with it so i've really felt every cliffhanger in my bones. i started reading the manga after season 2 aired. my point is that i loved her through Annie all along with her flaws from the beginning, and i've never thought she was "good" per se but it's also obvious that she's affected by what she's done. i always figured there was more to her story than we knew; her reactions, the way she cries over the dead, and the fact that she gives up on her mission that's literally her purpose in life all indicate remorse beyond just regretting being caught. even way back in the day i was like: SHE DOES NOT WANT TO BE DOING THIS!! IM TELLING YOU! my brother would constantly be telling me to shut up slksajdfkj but in the end i was right! i just didn't realize that pretty much ALL of the warriors didn't want to be doing what they did, or how complex it all was. she really does deserve a peaceful life being able to do what she wants. i used to cry about her having to die at age 24 a lot, so the ending taking away the titan curse is just about the only part of the ending i vibe with.

yep, same. i absolutely despise that ship-that-must-not-be-named, in my opinion it's a disgrace for both of their characters, but especially hers. it's really creepy, i agree. i don't blame Annie, being in a crystal with only annoying ass people talking to you for 4 years just left her a little confused. armin is gay anyway, i literally just block ppl who post about the ship. i love Mikasa but the other two i agree are pretty crap characters overall.

heheh well there are the manga caps from 139 but it'll be a while before we have her bangs animated. i'm actually so proud of how the great hair massacre turned out, it was such a sweet and goofy story that shows the lighter part of Annie's personality. eee thank you as always and i'm especially happy you mentioned the dialogue! and how it felt natural, that's such a reassuring compliment ❤ and for the bit about her dad. i feel like i'm the only person who likes him alkjdfalksjd i know he's an asshole and he messed up bad but he does really care about Annie and he's important to her therefore her is important to me. can u tell that i have parents-in-law?

i agree! a lot of people seem to either have the attitude of "o yea she's pretty cool i guess" or the full on EVIL MALICIOUS BITCH!! SHE KILLED LEVI SQUAD REMEMBER THE YOYO! i will eternally point out the hypocrisy - Reiner and Zeke do just as bad and worse as she does but the fandom doesn't hate on them. whatever, i'm happy in my bubble over here!

[inkykeiji]

Can I just fucking thank you for the tag your it fic? Like not only did you feed us Dabi, you fucking fed us keigo. The codependent sibling relationship you gave us really sends me. Seriously how are you so talented at writing these toxic dynamics? It was such ansty feeling reading what keigo was going through and how it affected reader. I didn’t know reading a fic would make me less ignorant but it did. I always knew drug addiction was bad and what not, but you made actually feel the addiction hawks was suffering from, as if I was him. If this becomes a series, will keigo’s relationship with reader become more explored? Seriously, thank you for such a masterpiece♥️

aaaah you’re welcome, thank you very much for your beautiful compliments 🥺🥺

tw clari overshares, tw drug use + addiction, tw toxic relationships under the cut!! <3

eee OKAY first of all thank you again!! i am extremely happy to hear that that’s how you felt while reading it, oh my god!! that seriously means so, so much to me (i’ll explain why below), so thank you for sharing that!!

the answer to ‘how are you so talented at writing these toxic dynamics?’ is that, unfortunately, i grew up surrounded by them. i was raised by them, literally. i won’t get too personal ahaha but i’ve had a lot of moments where i look back at my childhood and teenage years and just recount everything that happened and the environment i was raised in, and go ‘oh, THAT’S why i’ve got so many mental issues,’ lol. it’s actually a little comforting to look back and reflect on it as an adult, knowing what i know now, and just be like ah yes, this makes so much more sense.

i’m also really glad to hear that i captured his addiction in a way that you felt was personal and realistic. someone very close to me has been struggling with an opioid addiction for nearly my entire life (20+ years) and i know all too well what addiction does to a person, what it does to a family, and just how hard and deep opioid addictions in particular dig their claws into someone. as such, i spent most of my teenage years taking care of an addict that went through withdrawals every few months, so i know those intimately as well.

taking both of these facts above into account, writing this fic ended up being extremely cathartic for me. obviously i’ve romanticized those relationships a little, which is how i cope more or less hahaha (just being able to take these situations and be in complete control over them), but i’d say that this fic is by far my most ‘personal’ fic, and that this reader is the closest to ME as a person ahahaha

it will be a series!!! it was originally planned to be three parts!! so yes, keigo & readers relationship will most definitely be explored in depth in the future instalments!! <333

thank you so much again for your message n letting me know how it affected you and how you felt!!! i know this oversharing session got a lil deeper than they normally do—i didn’t intend for this fic to end up being as personal as it is (in concepts more than anything else, but still), but because it is, it has become especially important to me, and i kinda felt like explaining why, i guess!!! u guys know that all of my fics are my babies tho ehehehe

[threeletterslife]

CHANA! I LOVED ITSR SO MUCH! AS SOMEONE WHO ISNT EVEN THE BIGGEST FAN OF FANTASY, I REALLY LIKED HOW YOU WERE ABLE TO INCORPORATE SOME MODERN THINGS INTO THIS AS WELL. TAES CHARACTER WAS ADORABLE AND I LOVE HOW EXCITED HE GOT, AND JIMIN AND YN HAD SUCH AN ADORABLE RELATIONSHIP. EVERYTIME I READ YOUR STORIES IM REMINDED ON HOW VERSATILE YOUR WORKS ARE? YOU WRITE SO MANY DIFFERENT CONCEPTS AND ALWAYS MANAGE TO MAKE THEM GOOD. AND THANK YOU FOR GIVING THIS STORY A HAPPY ENDING!- WEEKLY ANON <333

AHHH IM SCREAMING!! THESE ARE SUCH BIG COMPLIMENTS FOR ME 😭😭 TBH I’M NOT VERY WELL-VERSED WITH FANTASY EITHER. BUT I’M SO GLAD YOU LIKED ITSR. JUST MEANS I CAN CATER FANTASY TO THOSE WHO AREN’T HUGE FANS OF IT

OMG JIMIN AND YN’S RELATIONSHIP WAS THE HIGHLIGHT OF ITSR 😭 I JUST LOVED BOTH OF THEIR CHARACTERS SO MUCH. I LITERALLY WANT TO BE YN BYEE (not me getting jealous of my own character). EEE EVEN TAE’S CHARACTER WAS SO FUN TO WRITE 😩😩 I LITERALLY JUST LOVED ALL THE CHARACTERS IN ITSR

AHHH THAT VERSATILE COMMENT MADE ME SQUEAL 😭 THANK YOU THAT’S SOMETHING I TRY REALLY HARD TO BE! I ALWAYS WANT TO DO SOMETHING NEW AND TEST MY WRITING LIMITS LMAO. IDK ABOUT ALWAYS MANAGING TO MAKE THEM GOOD THO 😭😭 BUT I DO MAKE AN ACTIVE EFFORT TO EXPERIMENT WITH DIFFERENT CONCEPTS AND CHARACTERS—MORE SO FOR MY SANITY THAN ANYTHING ELSE LMAO

i would definitely get bored (for example) if i wrote the same general oc with rotating members in e2l fics all the time. i feel like you can only take a certain concept so far! and there are so many concepts out there. so my goal is to just touch bases with everything LMAO

[grimelords]

I have been unbelievably busy for all of 2020 so far. Starting a new job and crunching to finish an old one, it's been very good but it has also meant that I haven't had the downtime I'd have liked in order to write long screeds about when drums sound good in songs so my December and January playlists unfortunately never got finished. They will exist as 'lost' playlists in the grimelords canon where you will simply have to listen to them and have your own thoughts about the songs instead of having your judgement clouded by me saying things like 'this sounds nice' and 'I love when the guitar goes woo-eee'.

You can listen to them here:

December https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4crPEVSPwftPpWl14xUrXF

January https://open.spotify.com/playlist/25MP7onYLCwWRYBIi0u3yc

As far as this, my February playlist goes: It's great! It's two and a half hours. The songs sounds nice and the guitars go woo-eee. I was worried I wouldn't be able to listen to as much music with my new job but it turns out I'm listening to more than ever which is extremely nice. Please enjoy, and if you'd like to subscribe to this playlist please do so here: https://tinyletter.com/grimelords

Listen to this playlist here: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3ZraEZOeS6qvVxfnz3AJS9

Ballad Of The Skeletons - Allen Ginsberg, Paul McCartney, Phillip Glass and Lenny Kaye: I had a dim childhood memory of this 1996 Hottest 100 funny skeleton song that my sister randomly brought up this month and was was shocked to find out that somewhere deep in my brain the part where the electric chair skeleton says “hey what’s cooking???” was still stored. I was also shocked to find out that the funny skeleton song I remembered from when I was a kid was actually a collaboration between Allen Ginsberg, Paul McCartney and Phillip Glass and was an unexpected hit on MTV and Triple J in 1996 for an as yet unknown reason.

I Can Go With You - Sam Burton: This song came up in my Discover Weekly, and I was so excited to listen to more of this 70s singer songwriter I've never heard of before who has no doubt had a long and illustrious career and was shocked to find out that not only is this song from 2020, it is also the first and so far only release by Sam Burton and his debut album is coming out sometime this year. I love how plain it is, and the first time I heard it it made no impression on me until a couple of hours later when I realised I was humming the melody to myself. It has this decepitive simplicity to it, and it sounds like a song you've always known which is really about as good a compliment as you can give a song. I also love this statement from him: “I was writing a song a day for 30 days as a personal challenge to myself. I Can Go With You came near of that practice and I considered it a throwaway at the time. After recording most of the album I still needed a couple more songs and decided to throw it on and we recorded it live followed by two others. When I listened back it ended up being one of the tracks I was happiest with on the record.” I love when artists are asked about songs and they have no divine inspiration to relate, just a process of daily work where they're like "well, I wrote it, like I always do. Did the chords and the words and everthing just like normal. I write hundreds of these things and this one came out pretty good. I don't know what else to tell you."

Wild Dogs - Colter Wall: This is a song by Billy Don Burns who you can probably expect to see on this playlist next month, and who as I understand it is one of these 'real' country guys that have been around for a million years and only ever had success when other people sang their songs. So it's very nice of Colter Wall to continue that tradition for him. I love the way this song takes the metaphor to a place of almost uncomfortable literalism, a tryst metamophising into something private, bloody and feral. The subtle way the lap steel whines slowly along in the background before stepping out and taking centre stage once the song picks up steam near the end is a marvel too.

Tom's Diner - Suzanne Vega: I had a live version of this randomly recommended to me by youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DkYPge6ZKSQ and it made me see this song that I'd always been sort of aware of in a new light and really properly appreciate it for the first time. Somehow I'd never noticed the last verse where it moves from literalism to memories, and of course that's sort of the moment that ties the whole song together. What I really appreciate about the acapella arrangement is that it feels like this is a song that's existed a million times before but she's the first person to actually write it down and record it. Everyone's made up a little dishwashing song or a little walking song, reciting some to-do list in your head. It's an entire genre that exists under people's breath for a few minutes and gets immediately forgotten.

If You Don't Know Now, You Never Will - Drugdealer: I could have sworn this was a Tobias Jesso Jr song. I really just assumed it was until I looked at the credits. It's such a nice song though and I'm glad this sort of 70s californian vibe is making a quiet comeback because it is just uniformly pleasant and it's nice to hear these sorts of arrangements, with the accenting violin runs and things like that. All the extra decorations and ornamentations that have sort of disappeared.

Crimson Tide - Destroyer: I absolutely love this new Destroyer album because it just feels like such pure uncut Destroyer. I’ve always thought of him as a sort of 400 year old vampire lounge singer who is just amusing himself at this point and so the cover art has really confirmed my suspicions on that front. The lyrics through this whole album are so good, the sort of stream of consciousness strangeness like ‘when lightning strikes twice the funeral goes completely insane’ that takes a on such gravity because he sings it with complete deadpan seriousness.

Truth (feat Alicia Keys and The Last Artful, Dodger) - Mark Ronson: I didn't really give this album a chance when it came out but ever since I found out Alicia Keys is good now (Time Machine) I've been looking for more good Alica Keys work and found one here. The Last Artful, Dodger is one of the worst artist names I think I've ever heard but she absolutely kills it on the way she says biiiiitch so I'll forgive it.

Surf & Turf - Boldy James + The Alchemist: Alchemist's production on this whole album is so incredible. He really just lets Boldy go and doesn't get in his way like good production should. Especially on the opening verse where Boldy James sticks with that loping flow for so long in 3s over 4 that matches that arpeggios in the beat, it's just a perfect harmony of rapper and producer.

Fat Mac - Duke Deuce: Misogyny in rap is a real issue that nobody seems really allowed to talk about because it's obviously very complicated, and this song some real classic 'stay in the kitchen' type woman hating in it and is basically incredibly callous and cruel throughout. However this beat is hot and there is also a part about a third of the way through where he says "fuck her till that pussy fart" and then makes a big fart noise, so.

Set It Up (feat. Trina) - Kamaiyah: I only found out about Kamaiyah's fantastic 2016 album A Good Night In The Ghetto about two weeks before her new one came out so I've been on a real Kamaiyah hype for a little while now. She's just fantastic. I love this song because I love the part where Trina seemingly out of the blue threatens to piss in my mouth. The first time I heard it I said 'wow!' out loud.

Come As You Are - Greg Phillinganes: There's something going on with the pop math in this song that I just can't put my finger on. It feels for all intents and purposes like this should be a hit. The melody is great. The big synth voice is great, it's got extremely fatty bass. It's great! But something about the structure of it is just off, it's got too many sections or something. Which kind of makes me love it more really.  

Devotion - Pure Bathing Culture: What surprised me the most about this song is the secret shredding happening throughout. It feels like a sort of clean and cool guitar that hasn’t existed in the wild since the Lethal Weapon soundtrack and it adds such an energy to this already completely wonderful song.

Paper Cup - Real Estate + Sylvan Esso: The production on this song is just so beautiful. The violin melody and the pillow soft synths really add such an extra dimension to it. The tone on everything really. The guitar in the solo. Every time I listen to this song I just want to listen to it again because it goes down so smooth.

Mark Zuckerberg - Nap Eyes: I’m a very big fan of the way this song transitions from a sort of TMBG novelty song halfway through into a lonely and beautiful thing instead. It’s like he got distracted and wandered off in the middle of his set but the camera followed him. I also haven’t heard a lyric in a long time that made me bark laugh so instantly as “And what does he do with all that sand? He collects sand right? I think I read that somewhere. Seems innocent enough.”

Viking Hair - Dry Cleaning: I fell in love with this band immediately on hearing this song. The way the spoken lyrics sit in a place of almost coherence, dipping between mysterious phrases and earnest admissions feels like Life Without Buildings for a new generation. I love the feeling of a huge crush at the centre of this song that comes through achingy in every single word, even when she's talking about abandoned refrigerators.

LeBron James - Do Nothing: This is my number one song this month I think. I've listened to it every single day and I cannot wait to see what this band does once they've got more than a couple of songs out. It's my absolute favourite kind of lyrics: the kind that sounds like you just wrote down every one-sided phone conversation you overheard on the bus and then the music is some halfway point between Black Midi and Franz Ferdinand. What else do you need!

Can I Receive The Contact? - The Spirit Of The Beehive: The Spirit Of The Beehive's album is one of the best I heard this month. The way the production incorporates sound collage and samples without diluting the immediacy of the songwriting is really something special that feels hard to pull off in a rock context but sounds effortless through this whole album. The way this shifts at the end into the odd time section is so great and really the way the whole album flows like one long track is just amazing. Please listen, I'm obsessed.

An Air Conditioned Man - Rolling Blackouts Coastal Fever: There is so much space in Rolling Blackouts songs. They just go and go, sitting in this great jam space without feeling shaggy. The tempo across the album stays pretty consistently at this breezy, upbeat, driving speed that makes it feel like as soon as one song ends the next one just picks up exactly where it left off. It almost feels like a studio confines them and they'd be better off just recording their album live at a show where every song can go for 8 minutes like it wants to.

Leak -Truth, yesnoyesnoyes- - Boris: I got to see Boris and Merzbow this month, which was a great treat for me but it was also at a seated theatre venue which was a very strange choice. Sitting down and clapping politely as Merzbow pressed the screaming button feels odd, like being at an 1800s World's Fair show about the wonders of electricity or quite literally like being the guy in the chair getting blown away by the speakers in the Maxell ads. I bought earplugs for the show but ended up pulling them out for the last three songs or so to properly experience it, and it was fucking great. Something I was thinking about after the show is that it's interesting how Boris mostly have clean vocals, and really approach metal as an idea from and angle that's more shoegaze than Slayer. Aside from the immense volume, there isn't a lot about their music that I would describe as agressive, even most of what Merzbow added to the set was just extra feedback frequency noise, not atonal agression. I don't mean this in a trve kvlt way, more like it's interesting how they've taken the aesthetics of metal and refined them into pure amplifer worship, in their words, by either playing straight drone, or just playing normal hard rock at inhuman volumes. Boris are very good is what I'm saying, and I can't wait to listen to more of their extremely large discography.

Nameless Streets - Defeater: I've never really listened to much hardcore and I'm not really sure why. I've listened to Defeater's first two albums to death though so maybe it's time to branch out. What I love about this song, and this band in general is the vocal delivery. In a lot of agressive music from metal to screamo, because the agression and emotion is always sitting at a 10 the nuance can get lost and it becomes a sort of white noise, but Defeater have a nice way of backing off musically and vocally here and there to let the hard hits really hit hard. The outro to this song is also some absolutely world class snare work, building a tension bed in the simplest way thats relieved when the rest of the band comes crashing back in.

Boys In Town - Divinyls: I love the true desperation in this song. The trapped in a small town, surrounded by fuckers stress that gives way in the second half to just screaming "get me out of here!!". I am also interested in the evolution of the phrase 'too much, too young' and would like to know whether this song is referencing the song by The Specials, and if the Defeater song on this playlist is referencing this song or The Specials song, or if all three came up with it independently. It's a simply enough phrase, I suppose they could have. Who cares, really.

Body By Crystal - Spike Fuck: Come on a journey with me and imagine a world where Alex Cameron makes good music. That's Spike Fuck! The sort of burned out, past their prime singer desperate for a hit in any sense type of character - except actually put together with some heart and emotion and not an 80s comic book writer's understanding of human lows. I cannot wait to hear more from Spike Fuck.

Rogue Wave - Aesop Rock: It is something of a marvel how consistently high quality Aesop Rock's work is. For all his verbosity and expansive vocabulary he seems to never veer into white guy rap god flexing for the sake of it. Even a song like this that's 3 minutes of dense verses with nothing resembling a hook doesnt feel exhausting, it just feels like a series of extremely pleasing words and images like "take it where the warlocks lock horns, soda pop, popcorn / top notch gore set to Bach over fog horns" that makes my brain go "nice".

Momentary Bliss (feat. Slowthai and Slaves) - Gorillaz: I love the strange rollout Gorillaz are doing for this album, building the tracklist one song at a time. It's a nice way to force close listening, especially in songs with odd structures like this. I love hearing how different prouction changes Slowthai's approach; on this and Deal Wiv It that he did with Mura Masa it feels a lot brighter than anything on Nothing Great About Britain and there's a playfulness in his flow that comes through accordingly. Gorillaz are always moving around musically but I love how much of a live band feel this has compared to the more studioy sound that killed their last album for me.

We Will Always Love You (feat. Blood Orange) - The Avalanches: I am so excited at the possibility of a new Avalanches album already, and this is the perfect song to have as a lead single because it functions more like a teaser. Like 'would you like an hour more of this kind of beautiful, loving dream?'

Tar Sequence - Lalo Schifrin: I found out a little while ago that the local news theme when I was growing up was actually this song from the score to Cool Hand Luke, and according to a bunch of other guys in the youtube comments it was the local news theme for a lot of stations across America as well. The scene is of a prison road gang working under the blazing sun, and I'm sure someone could write a thinkpiece about the soundtrack to the nightly news, and really the platonic ideal of news themes in general stemming from the score to a scene about prison labour. But not me! I'm just going to write this little post and say we all owe Lalo Schifrin our lives for inventing the sonic pallette of kung fu AND the news, which is an incredible achievement whichever way you slice it.

When You - Tha Pope: It's a little bit of a shame that footwork is 'over' now but I suppose that's the way of things. The intro to this song is an absolute all timer for me. The delay soaked tag, the extended organ lick and then a total gear shift into this shrieking vocal sample that sounds like something has gone wrong but is revealed in actuality to be the centre of the whole track. I absolutely love Pope's little adlib at the start, and halfway through when he brings it back - it injects some real humanity into this cacophonous, volatile song and lets you know someone's done this on purpose, they've not just turned every dial to 10 and pressed play.  

Jonny/Jonny (Reprise) - Faye Webster: I am absolutely in love with the tone of Faye Webster's voice and especially the way she slowly slides up to the note at the end of every line in the verse. This is a song that belongs to the great genre of songs that sound like they were entirely written and performed while laying on the floor and staring at the ceiling. The reprise here comes back at the end of the album and I love it so much. It feels like a Sex And The City monologue set to music, an underexplored genre I'd definitely like to hear more of.

Holes - Matt Berninger: Matt Berninger of The National covered Mercury Rev's Holes for a series of charity 7"s that Planned Parenthood are doingand I really love his take on it. It's a difficult song to cover because it is so beloved, and I think he does really well to not smooth out the arrangement into any sort of easy listening version. The rumbling piano and the extra vocals that mirror the original saw sound near the end are just wonderful. The part that always breaks my heart in this song is the "bands" line at the end and he really does it perfectly without being overdramatic.

Ta Aro - Nadia Reid: I love the way this song is just soaked in tension and potential energy. She has a beautiful way of holding a note just past the edge of her breath, like when she sings 'glory hallelujah' or 'I am stronger' and in the wordless refrain that just draws me in. Then the way it all closes in on itself and shadows close in at the end while it swells to this beautiful thunderstorm of sound. Just great.

Purify - Neurosis: Someone had a tweet a while ago that was like 'listen to a new album every day in February and write about it' and I thought 'fuck it why not' and started doing that. I kept a little note in my phone of every album I listened to that I'd never heard before, and I ranked them out of 5 so I could remember which ones I liked. I ended up listening to 49 new albums which surprised me, and it was surprisingly easy to do as well so I've decided to keep doing it in March as well. Highly recommended. A nice side effect of constantly searching for new things to listen to is it's given me a chance to hear bands that I've always heard about and know the name of but never actually listened to for one reason or another, which is how I got to Neurosis. It's nice to hear this kind of industrial 90s metal that I'd only ever previously heard in Tool from another angle, and it is especially nice to hear bagpipes in a drone metal context - a thought I'd had independently about a week before hearing this album and was glad to have willed into existence before me.

Shallow Sun - Real Estate: Time! I love a song about aging that mentions specific years and ages so you can count along on your fingers. '25 in 2010... so he was 24 when they put out in their first album.. 39 in 24.. so he's... 35 now.. and i'm 28... which means I'm... 3 albums behind..'

Quand Vas Tu Retrer - Melody's Echo Chamber: I'll listen to any song in 5/4. It is simply groovy. This song is so beautifully textured it feels like you can just get completely lost in the sound while the groove moves it along.

Living Through Another Cuba - XTC: I think I've posted this song on one of these playlists before but fuck it, the more time passes the more I think this might be one of the best songs ever written and a complete and total encapsulation of the cold war mood. The absolute maniac resigned powerlessnes on full display, screaming and shouting about pullings fins from an atom bomb and the absolute certainty that even if the world isn't destroyed this time it'll all come around again soon enough anyway.

Time - U.S. Girls: I am a huge proponent of the long song at the end of the record as a concept, and really I believe every song should be the long song at the end of the record if at all possible. This amount of colour in this jam is just incedible, it never gets weighed down or waylaid it just keeps moving though an ever shifting kaleidoscope and I absolutely love it. It also reminds me of Los Bitchos who were on one of my secret lost playlists from December so it's nice to have their vibe represented here at least. This song also interestingly ties into a thought I was having this week about the limits of music wherein time is the only immutable constant. In all of life music is an inescapable constant of course, but in music especially compared to visual art or written art, time is an inexorable force. You simply cannot bend time in music, a song or performance will always have a duration that will define it, short or long, which cannot be muted or played with in the same way that rhythm or tonality can. 4'33" is a good example of that, being devoid of everything except time. When there is nothing, there is still time. Canyons of time.

Bad Magic - Weyes Blood: I got to see Weyes Blood a couple of weeks ago and I feel extremely blessed that I did. She's just amazing. She played this song solo as her last encore, and she's in a sort of interesting position of blowing up majorly on her fourth album so people (myself included) weren't overly familiar with her older stuff. So when she said 'this is a song called Bad Magic' everyone clapped politely and one woman right up the back screamed "oh my GOD??" which is the kind of personal, just for her, singular experience I'm always here for. Hearing this song for the first time in that setting has really made me fall in love with it. The thing that's always alienated me a little abot Weyes Blood's earlier work, and the thing she changed so dramatically on Titanic Rising is the structuring of her songs. Titanic Rising embraces pop songwriting so wonderfully where her earlier work was so much shaggier and harder to access as a result - but in this song I love it. This song is meandering and long and wanders around in circles and I'm here for every second of it.

Listen to this playlist here: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3ZraEZOeS6qvVxfnz3AJS9

[writeraquamarinara]

This is a bit late, but congrats on yet another trip around the sun, everyone!

I want to start this year off by thanking everyone who got me through the last one; I love you all.

Notes of appreciation are below the cut (because this got wayyyy too long, woops), and @s are in alphabetical order so you don’t have to dig through them to find yours, lol.

@arsenicpanda: Thank you for providing this fandom with wonderful gif sets, commentary, and tumblr tags. You do so much as a Discord mod, and your support of content creators is always so wonderful to see.

@awkwardteenwrites: Hi, darling! I hope you’re doing alright. Thank you for sticking around and being such a bright light in the fandom. Your gifs are always so incredibly beautiful, and I come back to them often. <3

@bettsc: You are such a lovely human being and your presence in the fandom brings so much joy. I love your fics, and how much you support those of others. 

@bettycooper: Thank you so much for everything you do for the bughead fandom, Cat. Without you we wouldn’t have so many of the events, and thus content, that we are spoiled with. Your work in organizing the fandom and support of content creators does not go unnoticed or unappreciated. <3

@catthecoder: Lav, darling, you are one of the most beautiful people on this entire site. Your (not-so-anon) asks always bring me so much joy, as does your writing. We are so lucky to have such a loving person in our midst. 

@cracklr: I love you, you hilarious gal. I wish you would send me vaguely threatening messages more often. :)

@crepuscolo-writes: I don’t know if I could have gotten through some days without your support and/or yelling at me to get shit done. Your edits are gorgeous, and your photography even more so. I love your commentary on posts, and you’re the most badass person I know. <3

@dottie-wan-kenobi: You make me smile, you make me laugh, you understand me so unbelievably well. You support me even when I haven’t been online or active for months on end, and you never make me feel bad for being absent. You are brilliant, and an incredible writer, and I look up to you for all of that and more. I love you very much.

@earthlaughsinflowersblog: You are one of the most thoughtful, insightful persons I’ve had the pleasure of coming across, ever. The details you pick up on, and comment on, the ideas you share, your outlook on and love of life, your appreciation and encouragement of others — I aspire. Thank you for setting such a lovely example for us all. Much love.

@fictitiousoshine: Oshine, you have one of the most brilliant souls I have ever seen. Thank you for thinking of me, sending me messages, and support on so many platforms. You write some of the most wonderful comments I have ever received. I hope you have the most amazing year, decade, and life. You deserve the world and more. <3

@halsteadandlindsay: Hello you gorgeous human. I love you very much. I love our conversations, and I love reading your writing — it’s so beautiful. Sending you so much love <3

@hellodinoflower: I appreciate you and your presence in this fandom more than I will ever be able to say. Thank you for making me smile with your thoughtfulness and your encouragement. Thank you for writing stories and comments I come back to often. Thank you for being kind, and friendly.

@hufflepuff-betty: Your posts, and the occasional commentary on them, always make me laugh, or smile, or think. Thank you for being in the fandom, and for supporting my writing. I can’t say I’ve ever listened to a podfic before, but rest assured that when I do, the first will be one of yours. (send me recs if you’d like!) <3

@ithoughtyoulikedmereckless: Thank you for always reaching out to me, and making sure that I’m doing okay. Thank you for being so kind and loving, and for the beautiful fic you gifted me this year. I love that you’re always smiling and enjoying life, and living it as unapologetically as you do. I love that we share so many interests, and I love talking about them with you. Here’s to hopefully meeting up soon <3

@itseitheryeetorbeyeeted: Hello, my darling Mia! You and your kitty always bring me so much joy. You are the queen of eyeshadow and I really wish you could teach me to be as good at makeup as you are. Also I really want to go to the Lightning Thief Musical with you one day — we can dream, right?

@justcourbeau: Mel, you are one of the most special people I have ever met. Your kindness and compassion know no bounds, and I am so lucky to have you in my life. You are hilarious, and I love that my appreciation for English Lit memes matches yours. I enjoy our conversations so much, even though I’m often absent for extended periods of time, but I promise to work on that in the new year. I love you so much, and I really cannot wait for when (not if, when — I promise I’ll visit eventually) I’ll be able to give you the biggest hug irl. 

@miss-eee: The vibrant energy in everything you do — tumblr posts, Discord messages, and fic writing — always brings a smile to my face. You are such a wonderful person, and I’m always so happy to see you on my dash. Thank you for bringing me so much joy from day to day. Much love.

@panalegs27: I can’t believe I found someone so lovely and kind who also adores so many of the movies and shows that I do. Thank you for bringing me so much joy with every single one of your posts and messages. <3

@redundantoxymorons: Izzy, I truly don’t think I would still be online if it weren’t for you. I most certainly would not be writing anymore without our brainstorming sessions and your constant support and beta abilities. You are such a bright, caring person, and the world does not deserve you. I am so lucky to have your friendship, my darling. (Also the P&P posts on your blog make me SO HAPPY.)

@satelliteinasupernova: Thank you for providing this fandom with so much beautiful art; you’re my favorite artist on here, and your stories are just as well-crafted. Not only do you create such wonderful content, but you also support that of others. You send asks and interact with others on their blogs, and that is so important — you make us feel seen, and loved, and we could not ask for a better person to be in the community. 

@sheriff-snikety-snake: You are so incredibly hilarious (and thank you for complimenting me when I try to be as well) and thoughtful, and I love hearing your thoughts on absolutely anything. Thank you for listening to me when I started ranting about my thoughts for Valhalla, and encouraging me despite it being a complete dumpster fire of a fic. Thank you for sharing your art and writing and craft-work with us — we are so incredibly lucky.

@shirly-gallagher: Thank you so much for supporting my fics this year. Your comments and excitement always brightened my days <3333

@stirringsofconsciousness: I consider you something of a mentor — in how to be kind, caring, and brilliant. I love reading your masterful writing, and helping you out with a story that one time still sticks with me as one of my favourite moments on tumblr. Sending you so much love, and hoping you have a wonderful new year, decade, and more. <3

@sublimateradiate: I absolutely adore your bughead edits, and you as a person. I admire the thoughtful way in which you run your server and the interesting questions you ask in it. I admire the posts you put on my dash and how cool your interests are (cephalopods?? dude!), and thank you very much for being here and being so wonderful.

@sullypants: I don’t really know where to start with this one. Your many blogs are so important to me, for so many reasons, and so are you. You have guided me through so many tough times this year with your kind, empowering words. You have sent me messages that I think about and come back to often. You are such a well-read person, and I honestly aspire. Thank you for being nice to me (and everyone else on here). Thank you for providing me, and others, with content that means a lot. I cried reading your riverdale art history yearly recap, and I thank you for that. Here’s to a 2020, and many more years after that, that’s as nice to you as you’ve been to me. <3

@theheavycrown: Sarah, I don’t know what I, and us as a fandom, would do without you. You are always reminding me of the events you’re running, and supporting all of the content that everyone creates for this batshit crazy show, while also creating incredible content yourself! I admire how much time, effort, and patience goes into being so involved in the fandom, and running the Discord/tumblr accounts. We all bow down to you and your brilliance. 

@whaticameherefor: Your support of the crazy idea for a fic that I sent you ages ago made me so happy this year — I can’t believe you remembered it! You are such a wonderful person full of love, kindness, and intelligence, and I wish you all the best. Thank you for being a friend to me when I first joined the fandom, and for sticking around since. Much love.

@wolfofansbach: Your writing is so brilliant, so thought-out and well-researched, and I love reading your fics. I love reading your posts — because they are genius, and hilarious — and hearing your thoughts on the crazy show we all came together for. Thank you for supporting my writing even though it’s nowhere near as good as yours and despite me taking forever to post/update stories. Thank you for supporting content creators other than myself and for bringing so many of us so much joy. <3

I’m probably missing some lovely people but just know that I love every single one of y’all so very much, and I hope that you all have a wonderful new year xx.

[kouei116]

Overcoming the ordeal of love together - Harr

I translated IkeRev JP's Overcoming the ordeal of love together collection event: Desparate situation at the Couple Race - Harr's story 🏃🏻‍♂️

One afternoon with clear blue sky … Today I would definitely win. My heart was full of fighting spirit, because …

Presenter: Everybody who participate in the Couple Race, please assemble at the starting point!

Harr: Couple Race huh …. Now I hear it again, such a terrible name.

Yuuki: Yeah, but it’s a running competition where the man escorts the woman who is wearing dresses, so the name is probably ideal.

Harr: I see … Although the name is weird, we are participating so we must win.

Yuuki: Yes!

The winning prize was an amazing All-you-can-eat pair ticket at a Cradle’s popular restaurant; hence there were a lot of couples assembling around us. The truth was, I had planned to participate with Loki …

Yuuki: Harr, thank you very much for accompanying me.

Harr: No, I should apologize. My housemate has some sudden errands to do …

Yuuki: Not at all! It’s reassuring that you came, Harr. But… there are so many people here, is it okay?

Harr was a wanted/fugitive great wizard and his posters were still being hanged in town.

Harr: Ah, within a limited time, the“impression manipulation” magic will make people around unable to recognize me.

Yuuki: Ohh! (As expected, he is a great wizard …!)

While I was being impressed, Harr suddenly smiled at me.

Harr: … It’s the first time I have seen you like this.

Yuuki: Ah… (If I remember correctly, I haven’t gone out with Harr while wearing a dress before)

Harr: Uhm … I can’t say this very well, but …

Yuuki: …?

Harr: I think it looks good on you.

Yuuki: Ah, thank you (Somehow, when Harr complimented me, I had a ticklish feeling … Why there was a small throb deep in my heart …)

Presenter: Although the race is scheduled to start soon … due to the shortage of changing rooms, it will take some more time, please wait a bit more …!

Yuuki: Uhmm … Harr, earlier you said the “impression manipulation” is within a limited time …

Harr: Ah, nevertheless, it’s alright. Besides, when the race starts, we will be the first to reach the finishing line, don’t you agree?

Yuuki: Hmm … Yes! (… He was really reassuring. Harr’s smile and reliable words made all my rising anxiety earlier disappeared.)

Presenter: Well then, let the race begin. At your position … ready, set, go!

The race finally started, I took Harr’s hand and started running. (This dress is heavy, and it’s difficult to run in heels!)

Harr: Are you alright?

Yuuki: (Ah, I can’t complain!) Yes … You came here, Harr. For your sake, we will definitely win! Then we will eat as much as we like, together!

Harr: … Uhm, it’s a promise. But… Yuuki, we will probably run out of time soon.

Yuuki: Eee (Oh no…!)

Harr: Let’s hurry up.

Harr gently held me up in his arms.

Yuuki: (…?) Ha…Harr!

Harr: This is still me escorting you

Yuuki: Prob..probably …!

Harr: Could you please hold on tight to me like this?

(We have to do this because the time is running out …? ) The tension and Harr’s warmth made my heart beat even louder than when I was running. Carrying me like this, Harr ran past other couples one by one.

Harr: The finishing line is near.

Yuuki: (There were no contestants in sight, only the finishing line) You are amazing, Harr! We’re the first ones …!

Harr: Because I made a promise with you.

(Harr … ) His smile made my throbbing heart tighten strongly for a moment. Then Harr ran past the finishing line…

Yuuki: Yayyy! (I was too happy and spontaneously hugged Harr around his neck.

Harr: …!

Presenter: Uh oh, the first couple that finished the race is quite intimate eh. Congratulation!

Yuuki: Ee…Ah…

Harr was hiding his bright red face and whispered into my ears.

Harr: …I’m sorry, Yuuki. Can you help hide my face?

Yuuki: G…Got it!

Pretending to be an intimate couple, I received the prize certificate and held it in front of Harr to cover his dyed red face …

The End -

[dove-actually]

🌹?

HELLO FRIEND. I’ve been sitting on this for like two months, because work got busy & my askbox got too intimidating--but this is probably the ask I was feeling Most Guilt about, because I HAVE SO MANY COMPLIMENTS FOR YOU💕 I know the game is ‘send one 🌹 and get one compliment, but since i’m so late answering, we’ll call the others accrued interest😅

First of all, your art is beautiful. (Srsly followers seeing this, check out that link for some delightful OC drawings -- plus EEE) 

Second, you create such lively, diverse and fun OCs. I originally became a fan of Haliya, but everyone in Hero Not Hero that we’ve met sounds amazing. i want to befriend all of them and also can i pls adopt Bubbles’ menagerie?? 

Finally, you are so sweet and generous with your time, and always support other writeblrs and engage so positively with the community💕 you’re a lovely presence on my dash and everyone should go follow you and your fun works. 

[itsmarscosta]

#40 please ❤️

So, I'm finally replying this prompt, by the lovely @miss-eee. I hope she, and all of you may like it. It's based the song Sight of the Sun, by fun. Oh, and by the way I got just a little carried away with it.

Sight of the Sun

Read it here!

A huge thanks to the lovely @indiebughead for betaing this, and to Rachael for the gorgeous aesthetic!

[lemonsandstrawberries]

Double Trouble Reunion, part 7

fandom: Stony (Steve x Tony), Avengers,

universe: Double Trouble universe (Steve and Tony, T2 and S2)

summary: Tony experiences his first triple tickling, and Steve is introduced to new culinary sensations, while S2 is still working on getting closer to Steve and T2 is just happy with the finally calm days.

length: 5 190 words

warnings: they gonna eat seafood and drink alcohol later in the chapter.

a/n: this is kinda a slice of life part, with nothing too exciting happening, just a day out of their lives. also, I am not a big fan of seafood, but I watched waaay too many vidoes of Gordon Ramsey preparing seafood and got intriqued. likes, feedbacks and reblogs and suggestions what you would like to see happen in this series are welcomed and needed!

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Double Trouble Reunion, part 7

When to think about, neither Tony or Steve had long vacation very often. Short, weekend trips to Europe to some luxurious hotels, or staying in a cheap motel under a fake name for a couple of days, that was more of their thing. Long vacation meant putting their superhero duties and business stuff on hold and it was always difficult for people of their position. A few days outside New York was enough for them to regenerate and boost their batteries. It was hard for Steve to get out of his army mode and fully enjoy vacations, but, slowly, slowly, he started to get up a little bit later and found pleasure in the calm atmosphere. But just as he was getting more relaxed, someone else was becoming more tense.

"I am bored."

Steve didn't answer. He was outside, spread on a sunbed near the swimming pool, enjoying the sunny weather. It was a great vacation weather. The whine was delivered in a soft voice, as Tony's face remained smushed into Steve's chest.

"I am really, really bored."

"Hmm," Steve finally acknowledged the whine, running his fingers through the hair on the back of Tony's head in a comforting manner. Tony had trotted to him some while ago and smushed his face into soldier's chest, draping himself over his boyfriend. Steve thought they would have some relaxing afternoon for themselves, as S2 and T2 went out to restock their fridge, but seemed that it was wishful thinking.

"Steve, do something."

More humming and more scratching. Steve almost forgot that Tony didn't do long vacations. He was not used to having so much of free time and being pushed away from his company work wasn't something he was dealing well with on a longer run.

"Steeeeveeeee…"

"Yeah, babe?"

"I. Am. Bored."

And how was that Steve's worry?

Clearly, it was, as he opened one eye and saw Tony limply stretched on top of him, giving off miserable vibes.

"Why don't you go to your workshop and play with something?"

"Play with something?" Tony lifted his head up, seething the words in anger. "I don't play in the workshop, Rogers."

Steve only smiled. "Sorry. 'Design' something," he said, using air quotes.

Tony huffed and smushed his face back in between Steve's pecks. A very comfy place. Thank you, lucky star, that Steve decided to sunbathe in swimming trucks, even though he couldn't really maintain a tan. Tony decided to join him in a similar set of clothing, he just had an unbuttoned Hawaiian shirt, the very same one T2 had worn some time ago. Skin to skin contact was quite lovely.

Steve slid his hand under the material on Tony's back and steadily rubbed his fingertips along brunet's spine. He closed his eyes, enjoying the sun on his face, and letting his fingers do the magic and calm his boyfriend down. It worked for a few seconds until Tony groaned miserably.

"I am still bored," he muffled into Steve's skin, his leg twitching a bit when just the right spot on his lower back was scratched.

"Well, if you are bored, I have a question I wanted to ask you…" Steve said thoughtfully.

"Hmmm?"

"Why do you have a swimming pool?"

"What?!" Tony lifted his head up and scowled. That was a bizarre question.

Steve grinned sheepishly, seeing the outrage in his boyfriend's eyes. "Swimming pool. Why do you need a one, if the ocean is just a few feet away?"

Tony rolled his eyes. "Because all rich people have swimming pools."

Steve blinked. What?

"Yeah. How was I supposed to throw pool parties without having a pool?"

"Pool parties?" Steve repeated, involuntarily grimacing.

"Ah, pool parties. Those were the days when monogamy didn't exist in my dictionary. The things this house saw, Steve--- OW!" Tony yelped and giggled the next second when a punishing slap was aimed at his ass. He saw Steve's angry face and felt how the other man tensed. "I am just joking around," Tony smiled sweeter and moved up Steve's body, wrapping fingers in his hair. "Don't be mad, honey," he rubbed his nose against Steve's playfully, trying to ease the tension.

Steve pursed his lips together and strongly wrapped arms around Tony's waist. Those days were gone and Tony was his now. Only his. Well. Kinda his. He still had to share him, but he didn't mind terribly the people he was sharing his fiance with. Most of the time.

"Hey, we should throw a pool party! The four of us!" Tony suddenly perked up, finding his task for the day. His face was immediately lit up with a smile, and Steve felt that he could kiss goodbye the thoughts of having a calm afternoon with his boyfriend.

"Did someone say a pool party?!"

Definitely kiss goodbye.

"Well! It is about time you two came back!" Tony scoffed, turning around and laying on his back, while still on top of Steve. S2 and T2 stopped in their tracks, pausing because of the sudden hostility until T2 rolled his eyes and S2 chuckled lowly.

"What is our princess whining about again?" S2 asked playfully, sitting on the sunbed next to the one Steve and Tony were on, T2 following.

"Princess?" Tony grimaced.

"We just noticed you tend to get a little whiny lately," T2 explained innocently, as S2 slung his arm around him, nodding to his boyfriend's words.

"I do not!" Tony argued, frowning at the couple. "And I am definitely not a princess. I am a queen. Steve, tell them!"

"Yeah, you are definitely a queen," Steve consoled him, kissing the back of Tony's head.

"Not thaaaat," Tony whined, ignoring the laugh from the other couple, "I meant the whining part!"

"Sorry, babe, the evidence is against you," Steve shrugged, remembering how their conversation started. Tony huffed, sinking more into the man below him and crossing his arms for emphasize.

"You all suck. I hate you."

The remaining trio exchanged quick looks, some connection working in their brains.

"Awww," T2 was the first one to break the silence. "Is someone grumpy because he didn't get any attention lately?" he asked in a teasing voice, wiggling his fingers closer to Tony.

"No!" Tony scoffed, attempting to kick the other him. "It is because you all suck!"

"Maybe we can suck later," S2 concluded, and Tony could only scream when T2 suddenly jumped on him. He had no way to escape, remaining in Steve's strong hold.

"Nooo! Wait, wait!"

"Steve, hold him!"

"Steve, don't you--- NO, I said WAIT!"

"Okay, what?" T2 asked, granting the other him with the moment he needed. It was a shame to delay, really, as Steve had managed to grab Tony's hands and spread them away from his torso, leaving him all open, with a bare belly, while T2 was seated on his thighs, pinning them both down. Perfect.

Tony's breath was quickened, and he somehow wearily eyed his surrounding before looking back at T2. "You can't do it here!" he hissed. It was confusing, but a relief to hear that Tony didn't refuse to participate.

"Eee… What?" T2 asked with a smirk, not understanding the order. Steves looked equally confused.

"What if someone is watching us?!" Tony continued to hiss and struggled a bit, trying to wriggle his hands out of Steve's hold. Very ineffectively.

"Like who?" T2 asked, sounding amused. The other him was just making excuses. "Who is watching us now?"

Some pause, as Tony had to recalibrate.

"Google earth!" he blurted out, still trying to wriggle away. "Google earth is always watching! God, why are you so strong?!" he suddenly turned to Steve, irritated with not being able to get out as quickly as he imagined.

T2 tipped his head up and laughed. It was getting absurd. "Yeah, no, I think we are safe," he said, putting his fingers against Tony's stomach and drawing some circles into the skin.

The effect was immediate. Tony's whole body spasmed and his eyes got wide and round, before he squeezed them shut, trying to control the bubbling laughter in his throat. "Nnnnnnooo, stahhap!"

"I don't think so," T2 cheerfully denied the request, continuing to draw some small circles into the skin, and enjoying the way T1's belly sunk in and then pushed out again. "Damn, when you suck your stomach in, I can actually see your abs."

Tony growled, which didn't sound so threatening while he was simultaneously giggling helplessly. "I wihihihill khihihil you!!"

"Hey, it was supposed to be a compliment," T2 justified himself, putting hands on top of Tony's ribs and dragging fingernails down to the hips, all along the length of the stomach underneath him.

"BWAHAHAHA!!" Tony tossed his head, letting out the loudest laugh so far.

"Oh damn, that was hot," S2 said breathlessly, observing the full stomach roll. Tony really had some nice abs, which were usually hidden under a softer layer of skin. It was a great contrast. "Do it again."

"NO! Don't do it again!" T1 warned, flushed on his face. And there was something off in him. Something that made him all twitchy and nervous.

"Hey, are you alright?" T2 asked with concern the other him. After all, it was supposed to be playful. Steve leaned his head a bit to the front and looked at his boyfriend's heated face.

"Yeah, just…" Tony said, taking in shallow breaths, his eyes having some peculiar look to them.

"Do you want me to stop?" T2 asked.

"Nooo…" T1 meeped quietly. It was always hard to admit.

"Then what is it?" Steve asked.

"It is just… Ahhh, I can't do this with you all staring at me like that!" Tony almost yelled, sounding distressed.

"Oh," T2 said. "Uhm. But we already did that? Like many times?" he asked, feeling lost.

"Yeah, but never like this! It… It is just different when we do it, like, in the bedroom, okay?!"

"Mhhhhmmm," T2 made a thoughtful face, trying to understand.

"Are you shy?" S2 asked, smiling with adoration at his other boyfriend. Tony's face became red very suddenly and very quickly. "Oh my gosh, you are shy. I didn't know either of you were capable of that."

"Shuuuut uuuup," Tony seethed, as the confusion in his lovers' eyes was replaced with a whole lot of fondness. He didn't know what was worse.

"Tony actually got pretty shy when I first saw him without a shirt. He thought his belly button will freak me out," Steve said, remembering their first nights together and Tony showing Steve his front only briefly. Steve thought it was because of the arc reactor in his chest, but turned out that it was something different. Something Steve utterly adored about his boyfriend. "But it was unnecessary, right, babe?" Steve kissed Tony cheek, drawing a whine from the other.

"Okay, you know what? I will do this," T2 said, tugging Tony's shirt from underneath him and buttoning it up, "and maybe this will make you feel more comfortable. Better?"

Tony took a deep breath, feeling safer with his stomach not being in full view. He didn't have problems with walking around shirtless, but being tickled in the open and in daylight did make him feel watched. "Yeah. Yeah, it is better."

"Good," T2 smiled, walking his fingers under the material on Tony's stomach, making the other him already twitch and giggle. "Because this doesn't mean I can't get you. It is kinda even more fun this way. Just having my hands buried under your shirt, searching for the spots and the best reactions---"

"GAH!! HIHIHII!!"

"Oh, I think I found your outie. Let me make sure. Hmmmm, yeah, I think it does feel like your outie…"

"HIHIHIHI!!"

"I wanna join," S2 said with a grin, having enough of being a viewer. Instead of joining T2, he sat on the heated ground at the bottom of the sunbed.

"HAHAHA!!" Tony arched his back when the soft tummy tickling was joined by a light scribble of blunt fingernails across his soles.

"This is your pool party, babe," Steve said in a teasing voice, managing to take both of Tony's wrist in one hand and hold them outstretched above their heads. He used his newly free hand to scribble over the side of Tony's ribs, applying gentle pressure. Seemed that nature was even on their side and some clouds passed in front of the sun, shadowing the scenery and bringing a more soothing, calming feeling to their shared moment.

"Doesn't it feel good?" T2 asked his counterpart, matching his tickling in terms of playfulness to the other two, and just lightly scribbling over the smooth skin instead of properly digging in. "Your first triple tickle!"

Tony was giggling and giggling, feeling impossibly good. He twitched and tugged on his arms, whenever one of his lovers hit a more sensitive spot, but it wasn't the place and time for a proper tickle session, and the spot was quickly abandoned in favor of some less sensitive patch of skin. It was really good and reminded him of their shared mornings when everything was sleepy and giggly. It was something that would be hard for him to admit, but he felt really loved. Such intimate, soft moments between him and Steve were always one of his favorite memories when the tickling was gentle and slow, and having the same thing with his Steve and both T2 and S2 really made him happy.

When the sun showed from behind the cloud, it was a signal for everyone to stop. Steve let go of Tony's hands and Tony didn't feel a need to lower them, too comfortable and still giggling to be bothered. T2 smiled, seeing that smile on the other him's face. It was a smile full of happiness and trust, something they all had to work hard on to achieve. He leaned down and placed a gentle smooch near the corner of T1's mouth.

"Me and Steve brought a surprise for you both," T2 hummed out enticingly, placing the same kind of kiss on S1's face.

"Hmm, you did?" Tony asked with a relaxed smile, as Steve's kept moving his hands up and down over his ribs, additionally soothing him.

"Yeah, but we have to go home for it."

"Do we want to go home?" Tony asked playfully, looking at his fiance.

"Dunno, I am pretty comfortable her---EEEHHEEHE!!" Steve jumped up, the combined weight of two Tonys on top of him stopping him, until he jostled again, throwing T2 off balance and off of him, Tony toppling down after his counterpart. "AHAHAHA!!"

With a mischievous grin, holding his foot and tickling quickly was S2, still sitting on the ground. He saw a chance and took it.

"Ow, maybe some warning next time?!" T2 hissed, splayed on the ground with T1 spread on top of him, looking all confused.

"Sorry," S2 laughed, not sounding sorry at all.

"STOP IT!! STAHAHAHAP!!" Steve yelled, not able to contain his laughter, already sliding halfway off the sunbed in a failed attempt to escape. He somehow managed to snatch one of his feet, and aimed a kick at the other him, which S2 had successfully ducked, but it made him stop his play.

S2 whistled, observing the other him becoming limp and heavily catching his breath. "I forgot you get violent when your feet are being tickled. Guess next time I have to tie you down."

"Oooh, can we watch?" T2 asked on behalf of him and T1, and Tony nodded quickly to his words.

"When I tie him down? Sure," S2 said, which was answered with a lot of whining on Tonys' side that it wasn't what they meant.

"Don't… sound so smug," Steve breathed out, lifting himself up. "Remember that my spots are the same as your spots," he said, just because he wanted to wipe off some of the annoying smile S2 had from time to time. Somehow, it had an opposite effect and just added to it, like if S2 was throwing him a challenge.

"Anyway, our surprise is waiting!" S2 said, standing up and pulling both Tonys up effortlessly. "Come on."

"Steve, come on," Tony said, staying behind as the other dimension couple started walking to the house. "Come on, move it, it was just like ten seconds, man up," he urged his boyfriend. Steve just sent him a dry look, but slowly got up. "Good soldier."

Still feeling some tingling on the bottom of his feet, Steve and Tony followed the other couple.

One day…

***

Upon seeing the surprise T2 and S2 meant, there were two entirely different reactions. Steve froze in shock. Tony was delighted.

"The heck is all this," Steve whispered, eyeing with terrified eyes the whole display on the kitchen counter.

"This is really for us?!" Tony shrilled out, bouncing excitedly around laughing T2.

"Yup," S2 smiled wide, "freshly caught."

On the counter, on silver trays full of crushed ice was the biggest arrangement of fresh seafood Steve has ever seen. Huge, grey lobsters, crabs with big claws and a whole pile of closed, fist-size shells.

Steve felt a little overwhelmed, never before dealing with fresh seafood and not being a fan of the taste, to be honest. Yet here he was.

"This will be so great!" Tony continued to skip happily, being Steve's opposite and a big fan of seafood. He usually had to hold back in front of Steve to not irk him out, but with another seafood lover in the house, he had someone he could relate to. "Oh! I know. I am gonna pick some wine for us," Tony beamed, walking energetically from the kitchen.

"Hey, just don't get anything with a high acidity! Some Chablis or white Burgundy will do fine," T2 called after the other him.

"Well, duh," Tony made a face. It was obvious to him.

"Or maybe some champagne! Or never mind, I will go with you, I am not risking you screwing this one up," T2 announced, marching to T1.

"Excuse you, are you questioning my taste in wine?"

"Maybe not taste, but I don't know what bottles you kept in your wine cellar."

"Probably the same ones you have!"

"Can't risk it, can I?!"

Speaking of screwing up.

"Guys!" Steve called after Tonys, "what I am supposed to do with all that stuff?!" he asked, some panic hearable in his voice. Never in his life, he prepared seafood.

"Oh, you don't have to do a thing, my Steve has it under control!"

"Thaanks, S2! Steve, just listen to the other you!"

Figures. Steve turned around looking at his counterpart. "You know how to cook this all?"

"Yeah," S2 nodded, clearly enjoying the other him's confusion. "It is not that hard. You just need to know some ground rules."

Steve scrunched his nose. "I forgot you are one of those people that eat everything that is not fast enough to escape." Steve was not a vegetarian by any means, but he did enjoy a healthy bowl of salad from time to time. S2 was a true meat eater.

"Then you better start running," S2 grinned dangerously. Instead of fulfilling his promise, which did send a nice, involuntary shiver up Steve's back, he turned to the cabinets and took out a huge pot to put the lobsters in.

Steve was not used to not helping in the kitchen, but he also didn't know what to do. Seemed that he really had to listen to the other him…

"Um, anything I can do?" he asked, watching S2 filling the pot with water.

"You ever deshelled a lobster?"

"No."

"Opened an oyster?"

"No."

S2 sighed. "You can set the table." Some stubborn silence. "I mean it! Someone has to do it. Oh, and you can melt butter for the lobster."

Steve narrowed his eyes. He would melt the butter alright… He would melt it so much, it would knock off S2's socks.

***

"Sooo goood!"

Steve tried to hold back the way his shoulders jumped each time one of the Tonys cracked open a lobster or crab. The exterior turned orange after cooking and the meat inside was white and tender. The smell wasn't even so bad, somehow fishy, but not overpowering. Just the sound was the worst.

"This is so amazing," Tonys kept smiling and praising, always being enthusiastic and grateful when it came to food. It was a pleasure to watch them eat with an appetite. "Those kinds of butter are amazing!"

Steve prepared three kinds of butter for the lobster, acting as a dipping sauce. Parsley and garlic, spicy citrus, smoked paprika and a lot a lemon wedges. There was a bowl with traditional, clarified butter for a more classic taste, and Tonys were happily dipping various chunks of crabs and lobster into the butter bowls or pouring over the portions on their plates.

"Steve, come on, sit down already!" T2 called to his boyfriend, cracking lobster claw open at the same time. S2 kept standing at the pots, serving out freshly cooked crustaceans whenever they were ready. It was easy to overcook lobsters and crabs and he had to be extra careful.

"I will be done soon!" S2 answered, multitasking and tossing some breaded bits on the pan.

"You have to try this," Tony hummed enticingly, inching his plate closer to his Steve, with a long piece of white meat.

"What is that?" Steve asked, growing suspicious.

"Lobster tail. Just cracked it opened. It is the best part of a lobster."

"Uhmm… Isn't lobster only a tail and claws?" Steve asked, noticing that almost all the claws were devoured by T2.

"There are also legs!" T2 said happily, waving a little lobster leg above his head for Steve to see. "Not much meat in them, but it is so sweet!"

"Just one bite, Steve," Tony asked, even preparing the dish for him and pouring some clarified butter over the meat and squeezing out a lemon wedge. T2 leaned out, chewing his portion and even S2 turned around to watch Steve's first bite of a lobster in his entire life. With such an audience, he couldn't back up.

Steve took a fork and tore a chunk of meat off. It was a firm kind of meat, not as flaky as a fish. Okay, first bite. Steve expected strong, salty flavor, but the meat was delicate, and tender and juicy. He had no idea if it was supposed to taste like that or if it was thanks to S2's skills. Three pairs of eyes were looking expectantly at him, waiting for his verdict.

"It's… It's good," Steve said, sounding surprised on his own. Raw fish on sushi, octopus prepared in any way were not his flavors, but maybe lobster was.

There was a general outburst of happiness from Tonys, and S2 smiled turning back to his pots.

"Now you have to try some crab!"

"And a lobster leg!"

"Try this," S2 said, sliding in Steve's direction a plate with golden, breaded bits they had seen him earlier tossing on the pan.

"What is that?"

T2 gasped loudly, and Tony dropped his fork with a loud clang as the utensil hit his plate.

"Pan-fried oysters," T2 whispered breathlessly and both Tonys looked at Steve's plate with wide open, hungry eyes. Didn't matter that Tony was still chewing some of his food, he clearly wanted those oysters.

"Guys, let him eat in peace!" S2 ordered, pointing tongs he used to fish out lobster at their boys. "I have oysters for you too, just decide if you want them as oyster shooters, or pan-fried."

"Can't we have both?!"

"Yeah, we want both!"

Steve looked at the fried bits on his plate. He saw raw oysters and they didn't look too appetizing. But he already tried some lobster, he could try this too. He put his fork into one bit and cut it in half, hearing a nice crunch from the breading. Time for a taste test. Again, Steve expected something slimy and awful, but it was creamy and salty and, dared he say that, quite delicious. Well, everything was better fried.

"Do you like it?" S2 asked, putting a plate of opened, raw oysters on ice for Tonys, with some more lemon wedges. Oyster shooters.

"Yhhm," Steve smiled at the other him, simultaneously watching as the half of the oysters were disappearing, almost as if Tonys were having a contest who could swallow more in a shorter time. "But I am not trying this," Steve pointed his fork at the fresh oysters. That looked slimy. "Why there is water inside it?" he asked, noticing the liquid the slimy thing was gently submerged in.

"It is sea water," S2 explained, taking one half of the shell and putting it to his mouth, slurping the content out with a wet sound, and Steve looked a little panicked as he imagined the slimy thing going down his throat. "Really gives the flavor," he said, putting the shell back on the platter, just turning it. "Hey, you see that?!" he barked at Tonys, getting their attention. "If you are done with the oysters, put the shells like this back on the plate! And keep the lobster and crab shells in one place and not all over the table!"

"Yes, sir!" T1 joked, and even saluted, earning himself a glare from S2. Probably the very first one he had ever received from the other Steve. "T2, how can you mock Steve like that?!" Tony turned to the other him, gasping in faked horror, and T2 blinked, his mouth full of crab, "after all his slaving in the kitchen to make a seafood feast for us!"

S2 laughed and turned back to his pots, deciding to let that offense slide. Steve continued to eat, feeling the home atmosphere getting to him. It was a really comforting feeling and he kept smiling gently, chewing on his lobster tail, not even commenting that the pan-fried oysters somehow magically disappeared from his plate. He had a feeling that if he would ask S2 for seconds, the other him wouldn't mind preparing it.

***

The sun was setting down and the day was slowly ending, soon changing into the night. It was quiet and serene, just one voice was echoing in the air.

"Okay, ready?! One, two… Three!"

Two voices.

Tony jumped with a squeal, catching in his hands a makeshift bouquet consisting of some palm leaves. "I got it, I got it! I am gonna get married!"

"Wooo!" T2 cheered, wobbling on his legs, "now do me, do me!"

"Okay!"

"What is going on here?" Steve asked, observing Tonys from a distance, playing some game near the pool. He stopped next to S2 who was spread on a wide hammock hanging between two palm trees. Tony's house really had everything.

"They are drunk," S2 said happily, observing their boyfriend's. Two bottles of white wine, one rose, and sparkling for the end. Steves had drunk some too but weren't affected, in opposite to their partners. Steve just left them three alone for few minutes, having to throw out the leftovers of the seafood, while he walked on a lot of screaming and chaos. Tony turned around and took some swings, before tossing the leaves and T2 sprung forward, reaching his hands to catch it. When he did, he hollered in excitement, Tony spinning around and yelling too.

"It's mine, it's mine! I am gonna get married too!"

"Yeaaaaah! Now toss it back!"

"Noooo, I can't, my marriage depends on it!"

Steve listened to the hiccuped words and Tony yelling that he would get married anyway, blinking in confusion. "Are they… practicing throwing flowers for the wedding?"

"Yeah," S2 laughed, "they are so stupid while drunk, it is adorable."

"Hey! Keep your distance from the water!" Steve yelled when his Tony started to chase the other him to get the bouquet, yelling that if he won't get married it would be his fault, dangerously close to the edge of the swimming pool.

"Oh, they will be fine," S2 waved his hand dismissively. "Not counting the massive headache they will have tomorrow," he added on a more mischievous note.

"Away from the water! Away from the water!" Steve kept yelling, and Tonys did step back a little bit. "Don't make me come over there!"

"Wow, you had to be fun at parties," S2 pointed out with a smirk, swaying in the hammock.

"Hey, there are some rules, okay?" Steve turned to the other him, his face gaining a serious look. "Like don't get close to water after drinking alcohol. Or just poach lobster to release the meat from the shell and not cook it. You said it yourself."

"Yeah, but those are the rules for cooking. This is vacation---"

"Yp!" Steve yelped when he was strongly tugged over and pulled to the hammock.

"--- no rules during vacation," S2 said, having Steve pressed into his side and smiling at him with a peculiar glint in his eyes.

"Are you drunk too?" Steve asked after a while, finding this situation suspicious.

S2 laughed loudly. "Will you relax? You always think that I am planning something," he said, looping his hand around the other man.

"You usually are," Steve grumbled but decided to go along with the situation and made himself more comfortable by putting his head in the crook of S2's neck and placing one arm on the other him's stomach. He couldn't move too much anyway, because the hammock was already wobbling and Steve started to worry if their combined weight wasn't too much for the net to last.

"Yeah, but not this time," S2 answered with a smug grin, to which Steve narrowed his eyes. It was that unnerving, cocky smile S2 liked to treat him to from time to time. Joke on him.

S2 eeped and the smile was gone when Steve surged up quickly and pressed their lips together in a brief kiss. It was still surprising how soft their lips were together. When Steve drew back, it was as if their facial expressions exchanged during the contact.

"Oh, cute one, doll," S2 said, narrowing his eyes at the other him's smug smile. He framed Steve's face and caressed his cheeks, before letting their lips meet again, properly this time. Slow and sweet and testing. They would have to test a lot to find the proper pace for them, but somehow, Steve didn't mind giving it a shot.

"Make room for the groom!"

Was all the warning they got before T2 took a running start and launched himself onto the hammock, heavily landing across the blonds, while the hammock made an ominous sound of protest among the laughter and surprised screaming.

"And here comes the bride!" and T1 followed, landing on the top of the human pile, drawing out more screams and laughter from his lovers and---

SNAP!!

The hammock gave up, sending them all crashing to the ground, their startled yelps accompanying them all the way down, soon changing into grunts of pain and some cursing. And then again into a whole lot of happy laughter, echoing into the sunset.

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[staysuki]

hi, hello

first of all - i apologise for my language

okay let’s get it

HOLY FUCKING SHIT. so i just read you trilogy(?) (sweet like candy, hdd and don’t shoot me) and oh god…I LOVED IT SOO FUCKING MUCH. jesus, the way your mind works??? it was definitely something new for me, because i usually read those sappy little love stories (because that’s all there is, i still like them tho lol) and the way you added those criminal activities in your stories was sooo interesting and captivating. like i couldn’t stop reading, it was like a movie.

although there were times when i got a little bit lost because of many characters but that’s my problem lmao my brain can’t function sometimes. i had to remind myself who they are connected with and what is their connection every single chapter lol

okay, back to the point. the fact that you were able to portray three heavy stories through texts???? that’s a talent. literally, i didn’t think i would enjoy it that much. i love how those three stories interlaced with small details and even if it was somehow a “similar” plot (well not really but idk how to explain, like i said before, my brain can’t function. maybe plot is not the right word) it was still soo different and individual.

another thing - characters. oh my god. the way you shaped each of the character made me believe that’s how they are (i obviously know they’re not but you get the point). and the way it all fit? like i seriously imagine jisung not knowing how to feel but still act “goofy” like some kind of psychopath lmaoo. felix just appearing out of nowhere (in slc), being secretive but also sweet? seungmin acting like he doesn’t give a fuck but in reality he gives a lot of fucks? minho being possessive af? basically every single person in your stories felt sooo REAL.

okay i’m gonna stop here lmao sorry for the long message but i loved it, thank you for sharing🥰

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thank you for this!! huhu, honestly my favorite compliments are just the rants and the character observations, because most of the time, it really makes me see into the readers' eyes and i appreciate that alot!! 💕💕💕

thanks for taking the time to send an ask huhu

[briteboy]

okay i’m gonna be real with you. i have...a LOT...of messages. going as far back as like...january? probably? i know...i’m so bad...don’t crucify me. i tried to get through all of them but there were a lot that i didn’t have a worthwhile reply for so i’m sorry if i didn’t answer something you sent :{

so here we have: a lot of nice things, a lot of santisms, reactions to the lou and cillian punchout, a few responses to my portfolio and other stuffs...i wanted to put astrology asks in at the end but it’s...a lot more than i thought it was and it’s 3 am so i’d rather die than answer all of those LMAO sorry. i’ll get to it next time

Anonymous said:

u can delete the snorting cum asks but it will still follow you for eternity

okay so I saw the ask about snorting cum and it reminded me of a time that cum came out of my nose. It was gross but my boyfriend and I laughed it off. idk. I thought it would be a funny thing to share!! i'd understand if you didn't want this on your blog!! (maybe it makes you laugh!!)

wELL. WE’RE OFF TO A GOOD START HERE. i’m screaming at this...i hope nothing EVER comes out of my nose ever in life...i hate this but ur right it did make me laugh

(Winry anon again) Also, did you get her name from FMA Winry Rockbell because if so I love it

hehe...yes...

hornybodies

this is what bartsim calls me and i hate her for it

whats the truth bitch

I DON’T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT THIS IS ABOUT BUT I’M LAUGHIGN

i never realised how much i actually missed santi but now im CRYING AND I WANT HIM BACK IN EVERY SINGLE POST WITH LOU BY HIS SIDE LIVING HAPPILY EVER AFTER PLEASE

I missed santirat's beautiful face there are literal tears rn

me too...i hate that i miss him so much it’s so freaking dumb...i haven’t cried to my own story in a while but i bet i’m gonna once santi’s comeback rolls around. i’m already bracing myself

nvm u can have the lovely rat back, that way my heart wouldn’t be hurting like it is now

honestly yeah that’s fair

Been silently following your blog and though I'm more of a "ghost"(? What does that even mean¿) follower, I can't help but express just how chocked I am to see Santi again OMG. Gutted Lou has had a flashback, she does not deserve this. :'(

hello casper the friendly ghost...i love having santi pop up with surprise flashbacks hehe...ur right though she DOES NOT NEED THIS in her life, but it will get better for her soon do not fret my ghoulish friend

I need more pics of Lou and Santi together I’m not satisfied, thankssss

ELI AND MIYU GETTING SO EXCIted WHEN LOU TOLD THEM SHE LIKES GIRLS MY HEART :’)

HEHEH i love it cause that’s literally how my friends and i act, it was fun to write in a scene :~} i’m glad you liked it :’}}

Yeah when I cut my hair short everyone assumed I liked girls I found it kind of odd, but I didn't care too much. It mostly just made me end up realizing all the shit lgbt people go through, one time a guy literally went up to me and my friend, my bff who no one really knew was a lesbian was terrified because he said "oh dont worry lesbians are hot, but gay guys are just disgusting" it ended up he was talking to me, i just rolled up a piece of paper as tight as I could and smacked him on the head

EWW first of all that guy can take his weird fetishization and homophobia elsewhere thanks...i’m glad you threw a paper ball at him LMAO. but yeah on one hand, coming from ignorant/straight people it’s like “uhhhh why would you assume that about me”, within the lgbt community it’s like...common ground...an inside joke...i guess? so it’s weird. the link between hair, clothes and sexuality is can definitely be harmful in certain circumstances

fiona is my spirit animal and i love her ok thanks for coming to my TED Talk

that was illuminating thank you

i re-read santis story and i s2g i've read it so many times idk, but like its so easy to read i dont mean like emotionally but it flows really well. and like its not too confusing i hate when people make overly convoluted stories in an excuse for being deep its some good shit good job my dude

AKJSDKGKSJD THAT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i never expected anyone to read it oNCE let alone REPEATEDLY...that really makes me so happy though because it’s definitely something you have to go back and read to catch all the details. ahhhhh thank you so much, i never ever want my story to be too complicated so i’m glad you don’t think it is!!

im crying because your recent post reminds me so much of my relationship with my mom when i was younger... she was always out of a job and sometimes we had to resort to living with other family members, it was all really hard on her and especially with having a kid she had to take care of at the same time. even though these are fictional characters, it’s comforting to know that other people have gone through the same situations i have. i love fiona and lou so much, they’re my heart and soul <3

OMG ;_________; i’m crying i’m so glad it resonates with you...i had a lot of friends growing up who were in similar situations and i think i kinda based lou and fi’s relationship on that, so you’re definitely not alone <33 i’m so glad you love them i love u

basically what I’ve learned from these asks is that Gianni is a perfect god-like human and I want one

he is. one time an anon told me they were like santi but they wanted to be rooney and i was like “i’m both santi and rooney on different days and i want to be gianni.” now u know why

hi, i just wanted to pop in and say that i really, really love your blog and i admire your editing skills SO much, i think you are EXTREMELY talented and i don't think you get told that enough. i've been following you for awhile now and i am in love with ALL of your stories, characters and edits you've put out! you're really an inspiration to me and i hope someday my edits can turn out as good as yours!! i don't have reshade so it's harder for me, but i'm trying to learn!! ok have a good day :-)

OMFG ;-; I DO GET TOLD IT A LOT AND IT STILL SEEMS FAKE...you don’t have to go out of your way to compliment me ;___; but thank you so so so much i’m crying...it makes me so giddy that i might inspire someone like WHAT...i don’t even know what i’m doing half the time i edit so u will definitely be able to catch up to me one day even if you don’t have reshade, i know it. i edited without reshade for like 2 and a half years on this blog so you can do it i promise!! have a good day/night/life i love u

fuck my succ

I'm in need of some giannti in my life

we all need some gianti in our lives

Hey! I just wanted to say that ur an amazing writer. You portray everything so well, it’s insane. I want to be a writer someday and I hope my writing is at least somewhat close to yours. Have an awesome day my dude💕

WOW I’M CRYING...i still have a lot of room to grow and so do you, i hope you are able to become the writer you want to be :’} and thank you so much for the wonderful compliment i’m emo have a great day as well

aver is my queen, confirmed.

avey is everyone’s queen confirmed

oksy but listen, look up the model Charlotte Ray Spencer

i did but i couldn’t find her?? all that came up was ray spencer obituaries in charlotte, SC LMFAO...charlotte spencer is an actress tho it seems, is that...who...? omfg

MAY I JUST OFFER THIS NEW SONG OF THE NEIGHBOURHOOD CALLED VOID BC I HAVE A FEELING SANTI WOULD LOVE IT (it's also meant for my aggressive sadboi oc)

OH I LOVE THIS IT FITS PERFECTLY WITH THE PLAYLIST I’M MAKING FOR THE NEW ERA OF SANTI...THANK YOU I’M TOTALLY ADDING IT

I had a ectopic pregnancy when I was seventeen but I feel like I got off lightly compared to Molly. Your story is so beautiful in so many ways, I think it’s incredible how much character development you’ve managed to pull off honestly I’m amazed. Thank you ❤️

omg ;_______; i don’t even know what to say to this, but it means so much to me i can’t even put it into words. thank you thank you thank you so much, and i’m so sorry you had to go through that as well. molly was an extreme case and i hope no one has to go through what she went through. i’m glad you’re okay now, and thank you so much for reaching out to me and reading my story at all ;-; <3333

just a heads up: the links button on your ccfinds blog goes to the femmefinds url still

oh yeah i know i’m gonna be real with you...i’m too lazy to fix it lmAO

Luv your stick n poke tats u posted!!! Could u do more? Maybe on diff places on the bod?? Ur so talented. Xx

omg that was FOREVER ago...maaaaaybe in the future...we shall see...but thank you <33

Can u do a family portrait for all ur characters like u did w Lou!!!

oooooh hehe i probably will in the future!!

Kill v maim is one of my favorite songs of all time omg it makes me wanna wear ripped jeans and a leather jacket and cover myself in glitter and smash some windows with a baseball bat MMMMMM

HELL yeah me too...i become a cyber punk alien vampire when i hear that song

maybe do a casting call posted here ? u have many followers and im sure a good chunk live in ur area and would be willing to model ^_^

omg SCARY...i probably could tho tbh that’s a good idea, thank you!

hi sunny, what program do you use to merge your cc and what do you use to detect and remove broken cc that just doesn't work in game anymore? thanks!

i actually haven’t merged on my new laptop yet but i used s4s for merging and there’s the mod conflict detector!!

My game hasn't been working since the first Cats and Dogs patch but I uninstalled and reinstalled and it finally works again 😭

sunny!! would you recommend your computer to play ts4 on? has it good graphics, can handle the highest settings and so? i really need a new computer but i have no idea which one to go for

yes i would recommend it!! i have reshade, ultra settings and like 8 gb of cc.

thanks for answering my ask eee ur story is probably the best ive read on here and yeah. i love how everything connects and everyones just so real. you dont have to post this i just wanted to thank you for being my inspiration and making me smile, laugh, cry, and scream in the middle of the night with your characters.

I LOVE U...it still sounds so fake to me when people say i inspire them, i don’t even know how to respond to all this ;-; just thank you for sparing a glance my way and resonating with my creations. <3 we scream and cry 2gether

I listened to Separator by Radiohead on repeat whilst reading Santi’s story and now that song just reminds me of him and Lou. I’d totally suggest listening to it’s so good! As is your story :3 xxx

oh radiohead that’s good sh*t...i’m listening to it now and i feel the santou vibes...especially when santi’s feeling out of his mind and she’s the only one who can calm him...haha cool..anyways THANK YOU!!!!

how do you make poses for the roof? i'm not sure how i can know if the sims will clip into the roof or float

honestly i just...eyeball it...because all roofs are different and you can’t put them into blender so. i just winged it lmao...i just made a pose that looked like it could’ve been lou climbing out the window, only the rig was still ground level, and then i used alt + 9 to lift the teleporter onto the roof as best as i could. that’s why it probably wouldn’t be a very practical pose to release, because i have no way of making it easy to use 

Lou punched him and I knew it would happen. 😀👌 nice, nice I like Lou whopping ass.

hehe i’m glad you enjoyed it...who knew she had a freaking hook like that

ok a theory... santi went to look for molly's mother and yea

omg tell me cillian sings every other freckle at some point

OMFG well...that song came out in 2013 and the current flashback year is 2008 so. i would personally murder cillian myself if he was still in lou’s life 5 years after this honestly

hey kitty girl! i was wondering if you could answer this teensy lil question i got. im writing a "story" anddd i was trying to figure out how to make some parts not cliche. like i hate reading about whatever and being like girll ive done seen this before so i just needs to know. kisses

i absolutely love how this is worded and the fact that u called me kitty, very cute. anyway...this is pretty broad, perhaps you could clarify what kinda cliches you want to steer clear from? a lot of the time when i know something is gonna be cliche and there’s no avoiding it, i just kinda own up to it and try to subtly point out how cliche it is and somehow that makes it work out better...like being self aware somehow adds another more realistic element to the story that makes it better? idk...anyway dm me if you need help!!

so.... lou can remember more of what happened? this is good! go 2 the police bitch! tell them!!!!!!!

she should!! but the only problem is she doesn’t have proof. so... 🤔

how do you write your stories in a way that everything is organized and you're certain and not confused with everything? i mean, do you have any way for writing that let you develop your stories with not so much difficults? i'm trying to write an story for months but i only have a few of the most important events on my mind, i don't know how to develop another important details, i always feel that everything is confuse or crap

hmmmmm well my mind is very ah convoluted so it’s a wonder any of this comes out even somewhat cohesive? but basically i have a very good memory and utilize google docs a lot hahaha. i’ve gone in depth about my writing process here!

whats a good way when it comes to starting a sims story? i mean like the first post? :/

ummmmmm maybe test the waters a bit and just make a post introducing your character(s) first? or dive right in and get sh*t started. it could go either way tbh

boyish by japanese breakfast is a santixlou bop

oh sh*t!!!!!! i love japanese breakfast!! and i love this thank you!

So is lou like into cillian in a way? Making him kinda be in her type

as of right now (in the flashbacks)? HELL fucking no. but you’re right, she did say those things in the future to santi. so 🤔

Everyone guessing shit stupidly annoys me haha. I'M UNOBSERVANT AND I DON'T WANNA GO BACK AND CHECK SHIT, LET ME LIVE. *Like* if you a ~dum~ reader who doesn't want every bit of foreshadowing called out. lol

i respect this honestly whenever i drop the hottest foreshadowing of 2018 i never expect my inbox to flood like it does but here we are and i am amazed

CILLIAN NEEDS TO FUCKING FIGHT ME (TYPING THIS ON MY COMPUTER BC I SAW HIS DINOSAUR ASS AND CHUCKED MY PHONE OUT THE WINDOW)

i’m screaming...i’m so sorry it’s my fault about your phone but like also i’m poor i can’t pay for that

i'm studying your latest posts because they're beautiful and my hatred for that long necked bitch is intensifying -- what makes me burn even more is that he's still wearing her necklace, can we say let the bitch burn?

burn babey burn

Why don't you use quick tags?

i’m dumb is why

CILLIAN IS SUCH A SHITASS I HATE HIS FACE WHY R U DOING THIS TO ME

BRUHHHHH THE DINOSAUR LOOKIN ASS BOY IS B A C K run

WAIT THE NECKLACE. HE STOLE THE MCFUCKING NECKLACE BROOOOO

What if Fi's blue eyes are from... Cillian..?

wHY did you have to make him cute and fucking cool though? I still hate him but it's harder.

NVM I JUST LOOKED AT THE POST AGAIN HES WEARING HER NECKLACE INHOPE SHE CHOKES HIMS WOTH IT THIS TIME

I SCREAMED AT THIS SERIES OF QUESTIONS OISDFNGJKDSKJN yeah sorry he’s conventionally attractive but unsettlingly so and i feel uneasy when i look at him and plus the fact that he’s literally evil so .

im like, to 90% sure that cillian is in ace joker. so that song might have reminded lou of him...

this was sent right after that scene of lou hearing the song at pippin’s, so

My conspiracy theory is that cillian is Lou's father. Speakimg of which are we gonna get to that soon, I'm dying of curiosity;.;

I’M LAUGHING I THINK U MEANT FIONA’S FATHER AKSJDKJGDSJ but yeah well. You’ll See

what do u resize ur photos to?

whatever 33% of 1920x1080 is i forget. i have a resizing + sharpening action so i just run that

im about to kill those kids if they keep fucking with my baby

THESE BITCHES BULLYING MY BABY LOU? CATCH THESE HANDS

me @ these ugly kids:

Who are the best creators for mens clothing? I struggle so much to find good cc creators with men specifically!

badabing badaboom

I’m not sure if you’ve converted things before but do you know any good sims 3 cc to sims 4 tutorials? Or your followers?

errrrrr i have no idea i’m sorry :x

would you consider making like a photoshop psd file with all the layers in your editing process?

omg...heck no it would be so unhelpful OMFG mostly because my editing is just my own action + shading and highlighting unique to that pic

would you ever do an editing timlapse of your gameplay pics? 💖💖

ahhhhh maybe!! probably in the future!

OMG HEATHERS WAS FILMED AT MY HIGH SCHOOL AND IM JUST HYPED UP SEEING IT BEING MENTIONED ON THIS ACCOUNT!!

OMFG THAT’S RAD...i’ve literally only seen it once tho i’m fake

I'M SHOOK. my friend kinda asked me out and I wanna say yes but my parents won't let me date. I'm 18! I need your advice! -signed 18 and alone anon

um UR 18 BUDDY UR AN ADULT...DATE WHOEVER THE F*CK U WANT HONESTLY

Can you pretty please link some photoshop tutorials you recommend? I really want to make my photos more cinematic and like your's without totally copying you or someone else. All I do right now is sharpen, color balance, and add some noise and then resize. I really need some more ways to get better looking photos such as yours.

ahhhhh the problem is i don’t know of any i’m sorry...lmao this is totally unhelpful :\ i have my own editing tutorial which is outdated but can probably help you out with the basics of lighting effects and shading n stuff?

Heyyy, I saw that you answered a question about making a ps action like your reshade, and I just wanted to say that I would love that! Unfortunately Mac users like me, can’t use reshade unless boot camping Windows onto our computers...☹️ and your reshade is just soooo pretty...

i don’t know if i’ll be able to replicate the reshade effect totally but i could release the action i’ve made for myself? it warms up screenshots but is totally adjustable to your liking for different color tones so in that way it’s kinda similar to the reshade. i’ll seeeeee what i can do...i know the woes of mac users all too well, my friend

i just wanna give lou a big ol cozy hug :o((( pls

pls hug her she needs it.

Do you post on tumblr from your phome or from your computer? Just curious.

mostly from my computer, sometimes i answer messages on my phone while i’m out and you can tell because autocorrect actually makes me use proper capitalization for once in my life

how many hours have you played the sims? for me i have 4,070 hours. haha help

OMFG i think mine is like...900 or something...i can’t tell if that’s too much or too little, but it’s definitely inaccurate

if i could only look at one person's tumblr from now on it would be yours. ur literally the queen of tumblr #shookaf and also i really hope i die before you ever say ur leaving tumblr cause when u do, i will legit die and bury my own grave. i really appreciate u and hope one day i can be on ur level but rn im at level 1.5 while ur up in the millions :D

I’M SCREAMING PLEASE I AM A PLEB.............i cry u flatter me too much ;-; i genuinely hope i never leave this place because it’s been so fun and it’s helped me evolve so much as an artist and a writer, plus i made some of my greatest friends on here. so i hope that day never comes!! but who knows life is wild. anyway i’m sure you’re actually like at level 578 and are just being modest. it’s okay you don’t have to be humble

i think its so cool that you and wanderlust and other simmers use multiple worlds to make your own town and stuff. idk why but thats just so cool to me and i would have never thought of it. love your blog and story <3

omg!!! well i couldn’t resist, i love a bunch of them and can’t limit myself to just one ya know. plus the more i thought about it, the more my gen 2 story kinda centers around these kids from this one town and the town itself is very relevant. so i felt like i had to make my own!! and i’m very excited to get started with that hehe

I just met a guy named Rodrigo Santiago and I sCREAMED HOLY SHIT

Update (tho idk of you got the first one): I just got a text from a classmate named Rodrigo Santiago. I'm sCREECHING

no freaking way. there’s no way i don’t believe...i want proof...

YOU SO FUCKIN PRECIOUS WHEN U SMILE

dont worry about posting this or do idc but i just wanted to say you should write about whatever you want and not care about whether people think you condone it or not. if i (a gay male) were to write about lesbians its not like im saying YOU HAVE TO BE LESBIANS BLAH BLAH BLAH you know what i mean? or if im writing about a robbery doesnt mean im like condoning robbery so like idk you do you boo and keep it coming ;D ilysm btw

OMFG no yeah i get it, i mean i think now especially in this online environment, people are hyper aware of Problematique things and so they’re a little too quick to point fingers without looking deeper than the surface. and whatever it’s fine people are always gonna be like that because people are mostly inherently judgmental, especially when it comes to consuming media. artists/writers face stuff like this all the time because people refuse to look past the surface, hence why works have gotten misconstrued all the time. but yeah i really appreciate this sentiment, thank u i love u

hope this isnt a weird question but what is the image size that u used for your character page?? thnk u 💕

omg it’s 300x300

have u listened to visions of gideon by sufjan stevens i was listening to it while reading ur stories and it made me so :(

oh my boy sufjan aka gianni’s personality claim i love him...and this song is :{ but i love even if it’s from the nasty age gap peach fucking movie

If i was married to Jamie and he treatin’ our daughter like that… oh I swear HES GOT TO GO!

it’s 2 am i’m so tired answering all of these i forgot who jaime was for a sec i was like um why are we talking about GoT anyways good night

how does alpha hair work with reshade? it seems so good in your screenshots and i’ve seen that in others screenshots it looks bad? whats the secret?

well good morning haha jk i never went to sleep anyway here u go

hooow do you make adorable toddlers in ts4?? teach me, gimme some advice please :(((

chubby cheeks! big eyes! small faces! little but plump lips! a good skin! dats all

how did u get ur sim onto the fire escapes?

ze teleporter mod, that’s it

I snickered at the, THE RETURN OF SANTI. Like I imagine it written in red horror lettering and santi just busts down the door and says ho ho ho im back bench, Did U miss me?

honestly i own a calendar and if i knew a definite date u already fucking kNOW it would be up there

ahhh im sorry for asking but im wondering how you find voice claims?? i'm looking for some for my sims, but it's tough to find one that's *right*, you know?? and your voice claims are great!! thank you <3

OMG voice claims are HARD, i literally just like “collect” them over time...i have a list in my phone of voices i like/may use in the future lmao, but try to think of actors or musicians and search interviews/movie or tv scenes with them speaking!!

i don't even read your story but i still follow you because i love your personality, sim style and just your whole entire tumblr

u follow me for ME? UM...what are u doing here...i’m so sorry (i love u...)

do you have a different reshade preset for flashback screenshots and for the present ones?

i do not!! i just edit differently

what happened to the honeycomb?

OMFG it’s still there...but we legit haven’t seen it since girooni’s wedding so um...it’s gonna have to get a makeover. i’m gonna do it when girooni come back home so i can finally show rupi working there like...wow...she deserves to be seen

lou's dad is the biggest asshole and i am waiting for the day that bitch dies

us when he dies

shit theory: caroline goes to find and confront cillian about what he did in teen lou timeline. care ends up forming a crush on cillian and goes back to meet him several more times, but cillian ends up liking lou more which makes caroline jealous. and that's why they don't speak currently, 'cause cillian ruined lou's life in more ways than one.

uM holy fuck that’s all i got to say

pls tell me that Caro killed the dude that choked Lou (or beat his ass)

god i hope so !

how many people do you follow? are you “strict” with who you follow?

i follow 264 people and yeah i’ve gotten a bit stricter with it just cause like...i only want to follow people whose content i truly care about/will actually notice on my dash

would you ever do a sim dump?

probably in the future, it seems like people want more male and female sims from me SO

ramona got some moves tf

the girl is out here bobbing to the chicken dance like nobody’s business

have u seen the end of the fucking world? if u did what are your #thots

UM......................i watched the first episode ‘cause i heard so much about it and um.............................it was so bad OMFG i hated it. way too edgy for me. completely missed the mark. not into it at all. hard pass

CAN LOU PLEASE HAVE A MAN IN HER LIFE WHO IS NOT A COMPLETE TWAT PLEASE

HOPEFULLY ezra will follow through with that and i don’t necessarily mean in a romantic way but like...as her new roommate MAYBE he will be a blessing we can HOPE

I'm not sure if you've been asked this or not, but your poses are so good and I was wondering if you have ever considered making a pose pack? Sorry if this came off as rude! I love your posts!

i will probably in the future!! but first i gotta figure out which ones i’d actually include

okay so this is random but I just wanted to say that I absolutely love your sims stories. Everything is so perfect and I'm forever shook because I can't believe the "sets" you use are actually the game. Your sims are so fleshed out and you are a huge inspiration to me. Anyways sorry if this was weird but I'm like obsessed with ur blog. bYe

AJHSDHJFSD THANK YOU!!!!!!! yes somehow we work miracles into this game can u believe it...ahh but thank you so much, it means everything that i would inspire you in any way...like what...omg

Santi is actually standing outside present Lou’s apartment wondering where the fuck he went wrong

he’s been there for 6 months just on the street standing there please someone let him in .

LOUUUU OH MY GODDD SKKDSNSJDH MY BABY. SO THATS HOW SHE GOT THE SCAR. WOW

there it is fellas. this message is sooooo old i’m so bad

Have you read/heard of The Lunar Chronicles

i have not!! but i’ll jot it down!

I was wondering if you’ve ever had any problems with skins? For me some on the palm side of the hand it’s noticeably darker than what the skin is supposed to be.. like the rest comes out find but the hands are darker.

hmm...that’s weird, i haven’t seen that. i think it probably depends on the skin? or maybe your sim detail settings?

santi my daddy, honeybodies my mommy, lou looking like a cutie when she saw dat tiny puppy. my name is rappin anon, and i just wanted to say, ur are my favorite simblr basically saving my day. rappin anon OUT

o...my god

i love u

i love u...