#i feel the weight of the responsibility
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honestly it’s so wild because i’m very aware that this is in NO way akin to any serious playwriting or drama work, but it’s STILL wild that i managed to create a situation wherein i get to write, cast, direct, and act in my own play that is going to be held in a big fancy mansion and people are going to pay money to see. like. hello?????
#NOWHERE else would i EVER get this opportunity#i feel so powerful#i feel the weight of the responsibility#and i am SO excited#the monologues are. in progress.#i have not had a lot of time to work on them#but i WILL have time#i need them done before i leave for the MD reading#that’s my deadline now according to me#and then the character backstories done before the 19th#THEN we will be on track#anyway become a park naturalist folks - you can play-act being a biologist historian and a playwright all at once#and get PAID for it!#not too much - but better than nothing which is what i was making to play at those things before!
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big thing about the terror is how it treats every single death as a massive tragedy. from the death of david young in the first episode through every horror that follows every death scene is given enormous weight in the narrative, it never once feels like anyone is expendable despite most of the cast really not mattering that much. it's such a good choice to make tonally in a show about how these people are simultaneously tools of british colonialism and victims of the indifferent imperial machine.
#a lot of the weight comes from how much francis feels responsible for them#i love the little moment in the first ep when sir john casually lets francis know that david young died and francis reacts to it#excellent screenplay#the terror#the terror amc#the terror 2018#francis crozier#james fitzjames
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A moment of respite
#the lost woods are such a home in botw to me#even when you carve a home out of the house in hateno it never feels as comfy as this#kind of like#meeting w people who knew you when you were a child#and youre diffrent now and they don’t mind but you can tell they’re kinda impressed by how much someone can change#idk#i feel like other iterations of Link held the responsibility of their destiny like a weighted blanket#while this one carries it like a tumbling shrine#well#anyways#yahaha#fanart#link#legend of zelda#link botw#botw#loz#loz botw#loz link#breath of the wild
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emotional security is stored in the undramatic calm utterly certain and unbearably soft way alistair says 'my love?' when you switch to him once he's reached 'love' status
#gets me every time. the change from the giddy giggly responses early on in the romance to just like. that. help#it's so. *steady*. it feels like you could build anything on that and it'd hold up under the weight#alistair and garrus handshake meme that way#you can't just speak to me like that alistair you're making me think there could be hope in this world#that and the way zevran says 'my friend!' is all that's keeping me going right now haha#dragon age#dragon age origins#alistair theirin#also got the banter today where he calls wynne his second favorite mage when you're romancing him as a mage 😊#god bless wynne for trolling him too I love everyone in this stupid game so much fuck you I'm not crying
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I was sad that they cut the "stop it or I'll fall in love with all of you!" scene (it's an adorable scene), but I'm glad the anime shows how highly Subaru's allies think of him post arc 3, even if it's a short scene.
Like, really short, super short (also Subaru looks confused and not happy by the assurance either)
I see people seeing this scene as unnecessary or hamfisted, but I think this scene is important to show how much people expect things from Subaru now? Especially with how much Subaru's self-esteem and self-love is ALWAYS the B-side of Subaru's plotline since forever (even the narration in LN 1 and LN 2 blindsided me by how low Subaru's opinions of himself are sometimes, like boy he has issues). And this also ties in with arc 6 until arc 8, (and most likely consequent arcs). It's important for Subaru to know how highly others think of him and how much they expect things from him.
This expectation of others is good, but just compare how Julius in the end accepts Al leaving their party to search for his missing master, while everyone hopes Subaru to leave his kidnapped master alone with her kidnapper for who-knows-how-long because they think he's knowledgeable about the witch cult (even though currently he has the same information as them). But he can't just say that because everyone expects him to have information they don't have.
Also, I think a lot of (most, I think) people forget that this scene is why they assure Subaru that he's not a deadweight, that he's worth a hundred men, and that his presence is reassuring.
Natsuki Subaru is their weakest man, he's very fragile, he's unarmed, everyone involved with the Royal Selection sees his defeat and how powerless he is, and yet he doesn't give up. If their weakest man hasn't given up, how can they kneel on the ground in despair?
That's why Subaru is worth a hundred men. By looking at Subaru's relentless spirit, everyone can find the strength within themselves to stand and fight again. That's what Crusch, Ricardo, Wilhelm, Julius, basically everyone in the White Whale and Sloth battles think of him.
Yet before they retake the city hall (and before the famous speech scene), Subaru hasn't realised how empowering it is for everyone to have him standing by their side and just be himself. Sure, others may rely on him for his knowledge and creative thinking, but Subaru is first and foremost the emotional support of any battle he's in.
Tl;dr: I think the praise is not 'too much' actually, they just say it as they see it.
#re:zero#natsuki subaru#re zero#the narration + crusch's speech during this scene in the white whale battle is so good (at least in jp)#this is so obvious from the anime and the written narration#also the 'glazing' is treated by the narrative and felt by subaru as a very heavy expectation which he is responsible to fulfill#the more others praise subaru the more they expect results from him the more subaru feels the weight of responsibility#that's why otto says that he doesn't expect much from subaru to ease him from the weight of responsibility from others' expectation#interestingly in the emilia camp only otto and beatrice (by the time of arc 5) is explicitly shown to know how heavy it is for subaru#that's also why ottosuba is one of the superior subaru ship lol#i like how the male mc (subaru) is the designated emotional support + battle support + strategist#while the female mc (emilia) is the powerhouse + musclehead + moral compass of the main couple in rezero
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I could definitely see Till getting angry at Ivan for what happened during Round 6 and choking him as some sort of payback.
Only for Till to be horrified by the realization that Ivan would just let him do it…
#till: ‘‘i’m so angry i want to kill you’’#ivan: ‘‘that’s fine with me as long as it’s you’’#till: wtf???#the power dynamic would be fascinating to see#till has had power/control over very little in his life#what would he think after learning how much influence he has over ivan? how would he act?#would he be disgusted (because he’d be no better than the alien owners)?#would he be honored (that someone cares and trusts him that much)?#would he be scared (a life is such a heavy responsibility)?#at the same time ivan is not without his own power#he knows till better than anyone#he knows how to push his buttons and get under his skin and get the reactions he wants#he knows that till is emotional and that the weight of ivan’s feelings might crush him if he confesses#oughhgh#i’ve once again failed to be normal about these two#ivan is still alive btw#this is not up for debate#alien stage#alnst#alien stage ivan#alnst ivan#alien stage till#alnst till#alien stage round 6#alnst round 6#alien stage ivantill#alnst ivantill#ivantill#ivanttakethis shut up about ivan challenge: impossible#ivanttakethis talks too much
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If fighter pilots lived in a world of split seconds, bomber boys lived in one of agonizing hours, with too much time to think about their own end, which depended inordinately on Lady Fortune. In its testing and training programs the Air Force looked for different qualities in fighter and bomber pilots: physical strength, judgment, emotional stamina, dependability, team play, discipline, and leadership in bomber pilots; rapid hand-eye co-ordination, aggressiveness, boldness, individuality, and a zest for battle in fighter pilots. In a profile of the ideal bomber pilot, the Air Force noted:
"The attitude of crew members... was that they would gladly let some other crew have the hottest pilot in the group... if they could have the man who, when in a tough spot, where a decision which might mean life or death to them had to be made, would quickly... make the best possible decision." For bomber pilots, "intellectual traits" were more highly prized than sensory-motor skills. "Love of blood sports, cockiness... and lack of high intellectual stature would prove to be good qualifying factors for fighter pilots," said this Air Force study.
Ch 10, Masters of the Air, by Donald L. Miller
#I loveeeeee passages like this#Like yeah sure Egan and Cleven seemed like individualistic hotshots on base#but actually in the grand scheme of the AAF as a whole#they had a LOT of traits that other pilots wouldn’t have#leadership skills and the ability to get their crew to all get along and work together#a fighter pilot can scoot off or climb or dive if things get too hot#but a bomber has no choice but to keep pressing on while taking flak#having to manage all the emotions and fear of your crew#while they’re getting blown up and panicking and crying over comms#holding them all together emotionally WHILE still flying the plane#for a lot of crews their pilot’s preflight pep talk was akin to a prayer#their pilot was EVERYTHING to them#and the pilot had to carry that weight and responsibility#anyway. feeling a lot about bomber pilots today#masters of the air#post#gale cleven#john egan
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when you remember dean was originally meant to be 14 in 9x07 Bad Boys
#14 !!!! and john left to ''rot in jail''#i'm particularly in my feels abt it bc i'm working on a short fic set when dean is 14. and he's still just. so young#and with the weight of the world on his shoulders. feeling responsible for everything when he should just be a kid#and yea i have a nuanced interpretation too. abt how it would have raised less suspicion to let the cops think dean was just a rebel teen#instead of a hungry kid taking care of another kid#letting dean take the fall and spend some time in jail / sonny's would keep the authorities from looking closer at the situation#and when the dust settled john showed up to get dean#still bad though !!! still fucking shitty for dean to hear !!!#john's A+ parenting indeed#young dean
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This part has provided and honestly confirmed an insight that's been implied occasionally, but never openly stated as much as this moment.
Arcanists are less durable.
It's mentioned a handful of times how it's important for combat between arcanists to be quick and efficient. While they can be physically strong even beyond human standards, their limits are far shorter in comparison. They're far more prone to taking physical and mental damage quicker with their quick healing/recovery to make up for it, but not change just how fragile they are.
This is very insightful too as to why arcanists would be more inclined to fight using arcanum instead of physically as much as possible. Their arcanum gives them an upper hand where their physical stamina is lacking.
#reverse 1999#reverse 1999 lore discussion#uluru games#arcanists are so mentally and physically weak like an actual mage in DnD y'all#i still think that spathodea jumped too conclusions on ezra's intentions and it's really rough to see how raw and real that is#for a topic about building friendships between two people with clearly problematic topic on oppression and prejudice hanging over them#they're just kids. and spathodea has the weight of keeping one of the few remaining arcane cultures alive on her shoulders#it's a lot of pressure and the fear of humans erasing or taking it must not feel good to her and that blinds her from ezra's kind intention#it's also tough to swallow seeing this is a really sensitive topic and an honestly well written expression to just how painful and awkward#it is because ezra needs to acknowledge just how bad it is and even if he's not participating in the system's oppression#he has to carry the weight of generations of it and take responsibility in order to make sure that change starts happening#they're kids. God they're fukin KIDS#i have many feelings about this man. this event is so good wtf
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#p4#p4g#persona 4#persona 4 golden#hanamura yosuke#yosuke hanamura#haha the way yosuke just takes ownership of caring for his friends#i actually never recovered from this scene you know. no one else volunteered this because teddie was such an unknown#and we could say everyone else has their reasons for not doing so but.#in a way so does yosuke. hes got to go to bis parents as well and tell them to look after this new kid#and he pulls so much of his weight in caring for teddie as well. he teaches him how to get around#he teaches teddie how to live in the human world. he teaches teddie how to work#i feel like the last point is so complex because. it helps yosuke alleviate the boredom of working at Junes as well by having a friend there#but inadvertently or otherwise. hes also preparing teddie for a life when yosuke wouldnt be there anymore#(because hes moved out to go to college or whatever)#and i feel so strongly about their dynamic but also. also!! the way yosuke was the one that made this step#how he just takes responsibility for the people around him without need for praise. how he cares about them.#he's good with his queue
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"Cuhut it out- you guys!" "Nu-uh, not until you're all perked up first! You don't want those gym challengers meetin' with an ol' mopey leader, do ya?" "Whitney's right, dear friend. No need to hide that beautiful smile of yours, alright?~"
What it takes to cheer up Johto's beloved ghost boy 👻💕
#some incredibly self-indulgent fluff for my own sake SKJDFSNDFS#Morty was having one of Those days where the weight of his responsibilities as leader and expectations as someone meant to bring back Ho-Oh#-felt a little too heavy to handle (more so than usual)#luckily his best friends (and mayhaps crush of nearly an entire decade) are here to take a stand against his low mood 🤼#I've been having brainrot of Whitney's dynamics with these two alrighttttt they all deserve to be silly with each other#best wingman award goes to this girlie for putting up with these two's mutual pining antics for years sdkfjskjdfh#the way I see it Morty and Whitney were besties way back before they had even become leaders (with Morty being the older between them)#there were definitely rumors going around between their towns about how they're an item#when the reality is that Whitney's more focused on winning the affections of the other cute girls she hangs out with#while Morty's a repressed gay lad burdened with religious guilt SDJFHUISJDNFS /LH /LH#the second Whitney caught wind of Morty actually developing a crush on someone you just Know she was on his ass Immediately#asking about aaall the details--who he is- what he does- how he dresses- if he could even conceivably pass her standards of how a--#--fitting partner for her best friend's meant to be#to which an incredibly exasperated Morty struggles to answer because Eusine is just beyond his comprehension /affectionate#when Whitney does eventually get to meet him in person the first time she most certainly takes a jab at his fashion sense SDKJFSDFNS#BUT they do end up getting along a lot better than Morty braced for- which was a huge relief to him#it soon reaches that point where Eusine's secretly asking her for details on the things Morty likes and how to possibly impress him#all the while Morty's asking her for advice on how he could cope with his feelings when he's still unsure on whether they'd be requited#Whitney finds the whole ordeal simultaneously very funny and perhaps one of the most frustrating things imaginable SDKJFSKDNFS#enough of me yapping thouuughhhhhh I should save that for its own post 🏃♀️🏃♀️🏃♀️#pokemon tickle#gym leader morty#morty pokemon#gym leader whitney#whitney pokemon#mystery man eusine#eusine pokemon#eusine#lee!morty#ler!eusine
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#not a vent just a journal entry (feel free to scroll past; there is no snz here and this is also not that interesting)#realizing now that i never thought of myself as#someone whose absence would register to others in any other way than just neutral/detached recognition?#phrasing this really badly and i am truly going to delete this later bc it is embarrassing LOL#i think when i was young and posting all this fic into questionable places (the f*rum) i was like#(@ an unfinished work of mine) no way anyone could be bothered by these cliffhangers 👍 they can just imagine the ending#even though i would frequently be bothered by other people's cliffhangers. that exact same principle just wouldn't apply to me in my head#and when i did not respond to people i was like.. i'm sure i wasn't really an important part of their lives so they won't mind it#if i stepped away?#i never really entertained the concept of people missing me or looking forward to my responses 😭 i never thought of myself as someone worth#missing... so when i disappeared it was always with little to no sense of guilt. i think even now i struggle with#seeing myself as someone that inhabits like a tangible enough space in other people's lives that my absence would be felt#(and i don't mean that in a morbid way. and i do recognize that it's quite hypocritical)#on the flipside of things i frequently miss people and look forward to their responses. and sometimes i wonder like#do they all know? do they all know that i miss them because they somehow understand this aspect of human nature better than i do?#or are they in the dark like i am? are these things assumed or are they only known when they are said... 😭#i am a little bit of a coward so i am not saying anything (also because can you even say this kind of thing to someone??#i would probably die of embarrassment) but#how strange it is to have someone suddenly inhabit a space in your life that is substantial enough that#when they're gone you feel that space open up and you miss them#the few times in my life people have conveyed that sentiment to me i remember feeling puzzled that my presence could have that kind of#weight to them. i think my problem is that i purposefully do not read between the lines if the conclusion is something favorable towards me#because i don't want to bank on something good that might or might not be true 😭 anyways this is way too long already. if you read this#then good morning or goodnight
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please tell me its not just me
#i made this for a gag in an usagi video but i think y'all should see this already#i fucking love goody two shoes characters so much man#the weight of the world on their shoulders#the persistent feeling in them of wanting to save every person around them even though its literally impossible#the fact that they're expected to act as the responsible one or the leader#i eat that shit up. they're so me#btw this goes for every version of leonardo too#and leon#usagi yojimbo#iida tenya#leonardo#tmnt leo#leon kennedy#dbh connor#tmnt leonardo#miyamoto usagi#i hope i'll actually finish that usagi video in the future lol
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“ what you are, I was; what I am, you will be ”
#FFXIV#Gposes#my characters#OC: Lev Dagnyr#OC: Leucothea#endwalker spoilers#shadowbringers spoilers#Azem#listen you do not know what a grip this memento mori has on me ok. i have it tattooed on my body#i love it so much through a lens of reincarnation and the cycle of the burden of hero being passed on by you and the yous yet to come#you WILL be a hero. and you will suffer for it greatly and only then will you understand what a heavy weight those before you have borne.#and one day you will be free. either through retirement or peace. and those heroes who come after you will learn it just as you have#a warning. a curse. a solemn reminder.#and i love it with the idea of seeing yourself in azem. a hero. someone burdened with responsibility as the world ends. just like you.#Lev not feeling worthy of being even a SHARD of Azem and struggling with living up to that expectation after scrutiny by Emet-Selch#and it affecting his ENTIRE mental wellbeing from then on. Azem could do this. right? why can't he? why is he so weak? but...#dw he gets over it but it takes him like all of endwalker to do so.#hence the locations of Amaurot (dungeon) and the final stop of Endwalker#anyways!!!!!!!!#i love simplicity i love one panel gposes im going back to what i know best LMFAO
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skyglow:
(alternative title: photo dump of a midnight desert run)
#photography#Ford's Art#color says shit#it was either go on a twelve mile run or re-download grindr and get absolutely blasted so I went with the more responsible option.#b because damn I'm feeling it tonight. or at least I was before the run. I need to shower and then I'll cook dinner and go to bed satiated.#I did also jerk off under the bridge and then piss on someone's flowers on the way home. gotta get those animal instincts out somehow right?#anyway I've successfully vented most of my manic energy and a cold shower will finish it off and then we're good.#the mood meds have been helping a lot. last time I got hit with this kind of a mood I came out of it with huge bite marks and chlamydia.#and I haven't been feeling it nearly as bad this time so that's nice. more like a restless dog and less like a caged wolf thirsty for blood.#yes I'm making references to Call of the Wild again deal with it.#anyway sorry to anyone who sees this from the tags and not because you follow me. you didn't sign up for this lmao.#also. this is why I can't be a binary trans woman. this night photography shit is the most gay-man thing ever and I enjoy it.#I was doing it before my last boyfriend but he got me even more into it.#anyway bye I'm gonna go shower and then eat food. I've been hungrier more recently.#between the meds and the hrt my appetite is bigger and I'm gaining weight with the hrt fat redistribution which is cool and good.#I want to be a healthy weight and maybe even a lil chonky? we'll see we'll see.
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sam externalizes blame for all the things he hates about himself and dean internalizes blame for his.
#saw yet another post about sam feeling unclean and yeah i mean i see it#(although i think we give that a lot of weight considering it was brought up like. thrice)#but he doesn't think he has anything to do with that#it's his responsibility to fight the evil#but all the evil in him was placed there by someone else#and he doesn't think he can contribute to it#and dean is like. everything bad in the world is my fault actually#to be clear. both of these are incredibly unhealthy.#no one should do either of them!!!#but i do think it's interesting re: sam and accepting responsibility and apologizing#posting something slightly mean about sam in the light of day please PLEASE don't hate me#spn
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