#i feel so kuch about these 2 its crazy

[koukaaa-descent]

born to die

So; the story ends like this. The star is carried onto Gordion. Monsoon can hardly even move by the time they arrive. It is burning, charring as it moves, the bright flecks of indigo upon its skin dulling as it dies. It carries the star, faithful beyond words, trusting that Indigo will be there. And he is. He is.

So. They stand on Gordion, the only things there. There is nobody else. It is still far too early into the quota cycles.

Indigo does not understand the emotion that claws at his ribs, the awful heat that builds in his throat, behind his eyes. He cannot (and will not) ever understand it.

He is the one to initiate the hug. The last. (The first.)

It is such a desperate, clawing thing—Monsoon crumbles into him, smearing ash against his body. Monsoon is the one to wrap itself around him, because it knows that these are the last moments. It cannot muster the strength to clutch him as close as it would like, but it is not afraid. Why would it ever be? It's right here, where it began and where it will end, in the same arms that raised it. Fear has no place in its existence when Indigo is there.

[ramu-ego]

AHHH JEEZ A 2 DAYS LATE REPLY MY BAD, i def wouldve responded sooner but i suddenly got busy, missed camping in this little blog here 💔😭 (yes 2 days is a lot in my book LMAO)

when i saw sir nighteye, i looked at ego and i was like. Yea. Yea that’s a type alright LMFAOO.. IVE MEVER SEEN THE REST EXCEPT DAZAI BUT MAYBE THATS SIGN FOR ME TO OPEN MY TASTES A BIT MORE..

100% agree on the ego paragraph!!..!.!?! EVEN IF I WASNT THE BIGGEST FAN ITS SOO OBVS HE CARES.. one day imma see an ego appreciation paragraph analysis explaining every single detail abt what he did and i wouldnt be surprised if that post is from you LMFAO

god i’ve never heard nikko’s eng voice but i’m def not looking forward to it — i read the nikko post though, GOODD LOORDDD may of changed my perspective of nikko on ruining him but still, gotta stay loyal to my favs (a lie, i’m a whore and would jump around but niko just aint it for me LMFAO)

god yea, my timezones been like .. the direct opposite of most people so i wasn’t surprised to see ours be different, JUST CRAZY HOW KUCH OF A DIFFERENCE IT ACTUALLY WAS .. fuckk guess we can twin in being last to almost everything then huh? the only win i get is just having an asian timezone to be early to actual content LMFAO

i respect liking dubs!!!! i used to watch dubs for like, romance anime? toradora and shit when i was WAYYY younger!! HONESTLY I SEARCHED UP ALL UR RECS AND III THINKKK i may start with mob psycho first since it peaks my interests the most! but i’ll def check fire force since it’s one of ur favs, i’ll tell you what i think abt it when i actually DO start it (chronic procrastinator, i even procrastinated writing this message despite how much i wanted to chat LOL)

I HAVE REALLY BAD MEMORY SO IVE GOT NO IDEA WHICH GUY I WAS REFERRING TO.. curly hair??? black hair??? looked kinda dead inside??? I THINK IT MIGHTVE BEEN W GAGAMARU AND RAICHI.. his hair looked kinda like it hadn’t been washed in weeks ngl

IM HAPPY TO READ YOUR RESPONSES HONESTLY, SUPEPRRR FUN and it feels like im having a genuine one on one convo even if we are like — replying to it like letters or sum LMFAO, guess we going back to the past era for this! BEINNG A HAIRDRESSER FOR 5 YEARS IS SOO COOL?? you’re only 25 now so like — did you pick this job up early on??

i’ve never watched haikyuu but i could see a lot of people felt differently abt blue lock compared to haikyuu, blue lock kinda increases that competitive spirit that’s rare to find in that. team work stuff?

since i felt as if my replies were kinda ass this time, i got news! just watched blue lock episode 11 and good fucking lord this shit was good — yea i was worried about bad animation but shit POPPED OFF.. and rin itoshi :?/!.?.!?! i screamed creamed probably was thinkign with only my metaphorical dick from that point on because good lord i want this man HELP.. it’s been like a year or two(?) since i first saw rin itoshi in the manga but good lord when i saw him animated and even spoke, i felt sum ROARING DOWN THERE … (excuse my language i only think with my lower region!) this awakened sum in mme.. don’t be surprised once i start sending genuine requests and thirsts

since i even joked about this being like a literal letter, maybe i should start signing off like one!!!

from 💌 anon or something LMFAO

NO NO TWO DAYS IS NOTHING I CAN BE AWFUL AT RESPONDING-

-I am so bad at like focusing to respond so trust me no apology needed bc I'm chronically bad at looking at a message and then giving myself anxiety over it. It's something I'm working on 😂😭

Dazai is mildly the odd man out except for the dude with black 'n white hair they're kinda con losers together but I'd say the over arching theme is "they look like they bite...but not really" I have no sense of danger I want the weird looking men no one wants 😂 but no seriously all the fandoms they're from are really good highly recommend Dr Stone and Fire Force if you enjoy Blue Lock. They are *chefs kiss*

do you know how hard it is to keep my twitching fingers on my keyboard to not rant about Ego??? I could do it I could go on and on about this man but- asdfghjkl- I'm controlling myself! mostly bc i don't wanna share my weird husband shhh that's not the point shhh he's my ugly little greenbean

i blame my friend on the niko bullshit!! she went on about how perfectly he'd fit that pervy hentai protagonist who like- steals panties- and cries when he gets caught and all that bullshit?? now I can't unsee it?? he's so stealing panties and putting under his pillow to sleep with only to make up a loud sob story when he gets caught. He's a perv and now I can't unsee it and I hate it 😩

really you have the problem of conflicting timezones?? I'm genuinely surprised bc like- everyone I talk to is like bare minimum in Europe and further over as I sit my lonely self in the United States. Count your blessings bc at least you don't live in the States we're awful 😂 we can be opposite timezone buddies like long drawn out lovers from two forlorn families writing drawn out poetic letters to each other to be sent by snail mail as we try to survive the black plague! or you know...something like pen pals 😂

my peanut brain suffers with subbed I can't look at the animation and take in what they're saying T^T I did it with Jujutsu Kaisen when it came out and can honestly say I don't recall anything I watched bc I was reading subs. RIP this is why I have to read the mangas </3 Oh but Mob is so good!!! It's one of my favorites and my comfort animes I can't tell you how many times I've watched it?? I think like- seven times? Eight times? Easing your way into the list makes Mob Psycho a good starter. But no seriously I cannot stress it enough how much I love Fire Force. Plus cursed knowledge, English dubbed Ego is Fire Forces main character and he is a cinnamon roll of a good boy and a total 180 of Ego's character 😂 Equal parts blessed and cursed when you hear Ego being a good boy

a lot of them look dead inside but dying so hard at gagamaru being put in the dead eye category?? my wife is in love with him so now I'm dying over the dead eye thing 😂 tbh they're so many characters I still have to look back and know who's who

you will find out I can't keep my mouth shut so if you get me talking I will put in that much effort 😂 But actually sweet I'm not 25 I'm 27 (had to double check with my wife I lost track) So the five years of hairdressing isn't too out there but I did pick it up after two yrs of college when I dropped out bc US education system suuuucks. Love hair but covid made people entitled shitheads and didn't want to spend nine hours a day with jackasses to come home to a baby so I just swapped entitled costumers to an entitled baby XD

haikyuu is...cute. like- ok i dont really do slice of life animes and heavily dont do sports anime (haikyuu and blue lock are literally the only ones) but Haikyuu is definitely not the same as Blue Lock. They spend a lot of time explaining how the game works where as Blue Lock its kinda "you know how soccer works or sucks to be you" which I like bc the one thing I do get tired with haikyuu is the over explanation of things. It's a cute show though! I could only watch it once thru but its fun when you haven't watched it before

UGH IM SO WORRIED OVER WHO IS GONNA PLAY RIN I'VE BEEN CHEWING MY NAILS OVER IT- Their casting director has been so good so?? Like?? I know it'll be good but at the same time?? I'm still so worried?? I mean- They convinced me to love Ego even after knowing who his VA was (and what I watched him previously in was NOT anything like his Ego role) but still- Rin's my baby?? Rin's my little bratty temper tantrum baby i wanna smoosh?? He has to be perfect?? More so than anyone else?? Pleading with the casting gods Rin sounds good or I will sob 😭 And I'm like- Have no idea are they doing 12 episode season or a 24 episode season. I need answers T^T

pls send me Rin thirsts I can't shut the fuck up about him

[tellywoodtrash]

sanjivani 05.11.19 lb

i'm already all yelled out with @nawaazishein​ even before watching this ep but... here we go.

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SIS TU BOLNA BANDH KAREGI TOH WOH KUCH BOLEGA. TRAIN KI TARAH CHADHE JAA RAHI HAI USKE UPAR.

ishani toh silence se violence pe utar aa gayi. good, achcha target hai yeh. issi ke wajah se toh hua hai sab.

........... this proves nothing. they were bffs already. like if rahil had a pic like this of sid and himself as his wallpaper, would she react the same way? matlab, kandhe pe haath hi toh rakha hai, not like they're making out with tongue in the pic.

aman almost seems more broken up about sid/ishani than asha (and his unborn fetus.) waah re indian tv. shipping ho toh aisi.

i feel nothing. i feel nothing for any of these fucking dumbasses. you're all so fucking dumb, jesus. how are grownass adults allowed to be this goddamn stupid????

suchhhhhhhhhhh fucking bad dubbing. like srsly, y'all couldn't shoot a decent scene with robin while you had him???

BRO MAAFI TUJHE PEHLE ASHA SE MAANGNI CHAHIYE, THE FUCK IS THIS BULLSHIT?!?!?!

THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN SID NE MUJHE DHOKA NAHI DIYA?????? JUST COZ HE DIDN'T HAVE SEX WITH ASHA DOESN'T MEAN HE DIDN'T FUCK YOU OVER WITH WHAT HE DID. SIS WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?????/

"AB MAIN BILKUL THEEK HOON." 

UHHHHHHHHH I BEG TO DIFFER.

this boy needs to legit be put on r/dogshaming, with the amount of guilty puppy face he makes.

BEHEN YOU NEED TO LEGIT GET A HOLD ON YOURSELF WITH THIS ADORING, WORSHIPING LOOK. HE WENT AND MARRIED A WHOLEASS OTHER PERSON 12 HOURS AFTER TELLING YOU HE LOVED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

NO. STEP THE FUCK BACK. HE IS SOMEONE ELSE'S CONVENIENT HUSBAND. NO TOUCHY-WOUCHY TILL THE COURTS/GOD HIMSELF MAKES A DECISION ABOUT THE DISSOLUTION OF THEIR MARRIAGE.

of course.

shashank be like jfc all my kids are fucking crazy. uh DOYYYYYYYYYY. SIR MASHA'ALLAH SE AAP HI KE NAKSHE KADAM PE CHAL RAHEIN HAIN.

juhi giving generic insta/facebook waala parenting advice that childless ppl give sooooooooo easily.

she's so cute and they're so happy around each other and i wanna support this but ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i'll eventually make my begrudging peace with it, but for now imma sulk.

you're making some lofty promises, ishani; considering you just walked in, don't know what's wrong with her/the fetus, and haven't even so much as looked at a goddamn chart or run a test.

ugh poor asha. she's so so relieved to get her female friend back. i feel that, sis. no matter how much a man tries, he just can’t be as comforting as a woman. it’s just fact, dude.

lmao instant accusation on sid. bechaara, he can't do anyyyyyyything right these days. kahaan phas gaya yaar tu? achchi khaasi toh chal rahi thi teri life. neki karne ke chakkar mein pair pe kulhaadi nahi, apna saara pair hi amputate kar diya tuney, bewakoof.

someone unleash this hormone-riddled, ragey asha on aman. i would like to see it.

haan, maafi aur dosti ke tu kaabil nahi hai... par ugh. pighal gaya dil, kya karein ab.

LMAO ISKA HAAL DEKHO. I CAN'T HELP BUT LAUGH AT THIS DUMBASS DHOBI KA KUTTA. BOHUTTTTT SHAUK CHADHA THA NA??? AUR BANN MAHAAN.

"uss raat mein tumhaare paas aa raha tha..." pft. that’s enough to make laddoos phootofy in ishani's brain.

STUPID. STUPID STUPID STOOOOOOOOOPID FUCKING SMILEY BEAN I WANT TO KILL YOU FROM SHEER RAGE WHY ARE YOU SO DAMNED CUTE YOU STUPIDASS FUCKER MY GOD THE CONFLICTING EMOTIONS RUNNING THROUGH MY BODY RIGHT NOW I NEED TO FUCKING LIE THE FUCK DOWN.

BRO HONESTLY, WHAT THE FUCK KINDA EXCUSE IS THIS??????? MESSAGE NAHI KAR SAKTA THA KYA TU ISHANI KO, NORMAL INSANO KI TARAH???? DOES WHATSAPP NOT EXIST IN THIS UNIVERSE???? HER BEST FRIEND JUST CALLED SCREAMING AND THREATENING SUICIDE AND YOU DIDN'T THINK SHE DESERVED TO KNOW OR COME HELP????????? YOU JUST LET HER HANG OUT OBLIVIOUSLY AT A RESTAURANT TILL 2 AM WHILE THIS WAS GOING ON????? THE ACTUAL FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOUR BRAIN?????

lmao ketchup.

asha, you're a doctor. you should already know that wrist-cutting has super fucking low chances of actually resulting in death. also if you really didn't care about the life of your fetus then, why didn't you just go for an abortion????? itna pain aur bleeding bhi nahi hota MTP mein toh........ idk why the hell you didn't just go for that option.

asha unknowingly pushing alllllllllllllllll of sid's triggers. how serendipitous!

"iss bachche ko baap ka naam milega."

oh cool, so you'll go find aman and reason with him then? to come back and make a rational, logical decision together with asha?

"iss bachche ko main apna naam doonga."

oh. oh no. completely the fucking opposite then. UH HUH, OK COOL. MAKES TOTAL SENSE.

AND ASHA, LIKE I SYMPATHISE WITH YOU AND YOUR SITUATION, BUT THE FUCK KINDA STUPID ASS EXCUSE IS THIS FOR MARRYING HIM????? USNE OFFER KIYA AUR TUMNE ACCEPT KAR LIYA??????? IF THE WATCHMAN OF YOUR BUILDING OR A POLICE OFFICER OR SOMETHING HAD BROKEN IN TO SAVE YOU AND MADE THE SAME OFFER, WOULD YOU MARRY THEM???? MATLAB YEH KYAAAAA HI BAKWAAAAAS LOGIC HAI KISI SE SHAADI KARNE KA????

BITCH ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY??????? STOP GAZING AT HIM LIKE THAT. JESUS. YOU'RE ALL FUCKING BATSHIT MENTAL. SANJIVANI NEEDS TO START DOING MANDATORY COUNSELING BEFORE INDUCTING PEOPLE INTO ITS RESIDENCY PROGRAM. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M SAYING THIS BUT PERHAPS ARMAAN AND RIDDHIMA AND THAT DUMBASS BUNCH OF OVERGROWN TWEENS WERE SMARTER THAN THESE ACTUAL-GOBAR-FOR-BRAINS NINCOMPOOPS?!?!?!?

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haan ok saath toh tu hai, par isse aage kya???? you're just gonna live happily playing ~~ishani maasi~ to this kid, ecstatic about the fact that he didn't have sex with asha to make this one particular baby???? what about the rest of their marriage and lifelong co-parenting relationship???? LIKE...... WHAT'S YOUR LONG TERM VISION OF THIS SITCH AND HOW YOU FIT INTO IT, ISHANI?????? GOD. YOU'RE SO FUCKING STUPID, I CAN'T EVEN.....

[rowdyprofessor]

Saat Soch: IPKKND3 Episode 24

Here there be spoilers!!

Previous

1. Paheli Kumari

Okay, but it seemed like the person she was talking to on the phone was already in the house!!!! Didn’t it?

What was the point, exactly, of the sneeze-inducing-chemical? Will we find out in a later episode?

And who runs around dressed like a cowboy unironically? Was it a costume or does this character always dress like that? #PhatiSariAsksTheRealQuestions

2. PP and Chandi in the guesthouse

The outside is now an entirely different location and not the hotel/restaurant of earlier episodes.

PP is absolutely disgusting -- he apparently runs around with handcuffs in his pocket-wa #JustInCase. But note that he doesn’t carry a condom #JustInCase because tellywood is ridiculous. He also likes Advay’s bed ...

Notice the bird cages in the background? Indrani once hung up a bird cage and trapped moonlight (Chandni) in it. The scene was linked to another in which she admitted that the household’s fate will rest on Chandni’s shoulders. There’s been a lot of foreshadowing that Chandni will be caught in a compromising situation with Advay, which will lead to her marriage and the downfall of her household. I found the placement of the bird cages interesting because it really cements the idea that Chandni will be compromised through sex.

I loved that Chandni broke into Advay’s drawer using a trick that Dev taught her. I really enjoy all the parallels, it gives the show a grounding in reality that it sorely lacks in many of its other tracks and ideas. I also love the actors who play tiny!Advay and tiny!Chandni (tiny!Chandni is absolutely wonderful). The instrumental that played in this scene is my favourite of all the instrumental versions of ‘Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon’, remixed to perfection.

Chandni: “Tum nahin hote na Dev, toh pata nahin mera kya hota.”     [If you weren’t around, Dev, then I don’t know what would’ve happened to me.]

I just love that this line was followed by a shot of Dev Advay arriving at the guesthouse!

Of course Chandni doesn’t see the actual piece of evidence she needs -- it’s only Episode 24!! I love that Advay keeps the photo locked in a drawer though :) I was surprised that her sari got stuck but she apparently didn’t leave a small scrap behind as a clue. I was totally expecting that. Advay doesn’t seem to suspect anything, which was also surprising.

That phone call between Shilpa and Advay was totally useless. She literally told him nothing and he asked her to keep doing her job, but I guess it did distract him from the almost-closed drawer.

The resurgence of katto gilehri made me want to scream. 

3. In which I am angry

So Veer intends to seduce Shikha in two weeks while he stays in her house. *sigh* Veer, I used to like you.

In the middle of teasing Chandni for yet again turning a conversation about PP into a conversation about her beloved ASR, Shika notices Veer’s presence. Her behaviour is absolutely deplorable. She’s impassioned, and loud, which would have been fine if she was actually in the right. But she’s not.

1) It is not actually Veer’s fault that her friend, despite being engaged, was interested in a lunch date with another man. The fact that cameras were present and the footage distributed doesn’t make that okay and that her in-laws are absolutely correct in reevaluating the relationship having seen it. (We can debate slut shaming later, sure, but all the blame does not lie at Veer’s feet for creating the situation).

2) At no point is the willful destruction of property okay. The cinematography, editing, and music in this scene imply that we should feel proud of her. If the situation was reversed and Veer broke Shika’s laptop then I’m pretty sure no one would think he was justified. It’s not cute just because Shikha’s a girl. 

She breaks a camera and a light before grabbing one of the tripod’s legs and taking a swing. But Veer ducks, being a human being with more than two braincells to rub together, and she gets PP instead.

Pandemonium ensues.

4. RajVeer

Despite the tripod leg being a relatively blunt object, PP’s neck now sports three lines that look conveniently like claw/nail marks. The PP clan is decidedly unhappy, PP in particular because it was his imported video equipment.

PP: “You crazy girl!” PP-Mummy: “Indrani-ji, aap ki teeno betiyan pagal hai kya?”    [Indrani-ji, are all three of your daughters crazy?]

Yes, yes they are.

PP-Mummy says that Veer is her childhood friend’s son, Rajveer, whom she hasn’t seen since he was a child. Remember this guy from Episode 19, the one who PP-Mummy wanted to visit so he could meet Chandni’s sisters:

Surely he’s Rajveer Singh. Wasn’t the implication that Veer would take that dude’s place to enter the haveli? Or is the idea that we forget that guy, and now assume that Veer’s full name is Rajveer?

Questions, questions. Though it’s pretty obvious that he and Shika will end up together.

5. If that wasn’t ‘angry’, I don’t want to see Indrani angry

Wo0o0o0o0o0.

Indrani was amazing in this scene!! I loved that she took Shikha down a notch.

Indrani: “Humne gussa karna chod diya hai, bhoole nahin hai.”     [Though I’ve stopped getting angry, I haven’t forgotten it.]

I must admit I was surprised at this display of not!anger because she’s so tolerant of Chandni. It strengthens my suspicion that Chandni is somehow different to her younger sisters (my theory is that she is Yash’s daughter from an earlier marriage). And the sisters know that Chandni is treated differently to them but don’t seem to know why.

6. These small town girls, they’re crazy!

The miscommunication of the century occurs when Advay returns to the haveli, having changed into an outfit that coordinates with what everyone else will wear for the function.

The thing is, the dialogue doesn’t even seem natural in this scene. It’s not that PP tells a story and just forgets to mention certain key events that could clue Advay in -- it’s like he’s doing it deliberately. There’s no finesse in the dialogue here and the bluntness disappoints me. 

Advay naturally jumped to sex as the explanation -- in their last interaction, PP made it clear that he was going to try to sleep with Chandni and all his words implied that’s exactly what happened. And PP mentioned the amazing bed. 

Advay: “Chandni kuch bhi kare, mujhe faraq kyun pad raha hai? Focus Advay, tu usse barbaad karne aaya hai. Aur kuch nahin.”    [Whatever Chandni does, why does it matter to me? Focus Advay, you’ve come to destroy her. Nothing else.]

I also think it’s a manifestation of a fear that lay in his heart -- he doesn’t trust Chandni and he sees her as a liar and a cheat, but he’s also visibly hurt that his ‘suspicions’ have been confirmed. For me, this is the conflict between Dev and Advay in a nutshell. Sometimes it feels like the Advay aspect of the character has to keep reminding the Dev aspect what they’ve returned for. Sobti plays this kind of duality extremely well (for example, the Rajkumar and Rakshas in IPKKND).

7. The Vashisth round-table

This scene was overly dramatic and unnecessary, in my humble opinion. 

Though the reference to the painting scene in Titanic made me laugh, it also made me consider why it’s okay to make fun of men when they’re sexually curious. I mean, Advay is obviously going to slut shame Chandni because he believes she slept with PP, and I just feel like it also shouldn’t be okay to shame men for being interested in or enjoying sex. The stereotype that men are always horny and always up for it and always have greater libidos than women is damaging to all of us.

Chandni literally referred to Advay by all the cutesy names she’s given him, and she referred to his voice as ‘husky’. In addition, her voice did this thing where she seemed to be fondly recounting how he’s pestered her rather than actually voicing a grievance against a man who SET ANOTHER MAN ON FIRE IN FRONT OF HER (has everyone in this show forgotten??) She then got stuck on how he keeps commenting on her height, pointing out that a remote control can command a TV so why can’t she command ASR?

I’m tiny, okay? I’m five foot nothing in four-inch heels. I would absolutely love a lead who didn’t let people make fun of her height. But I found this entire monologue rather absurd.

Shikha: “Apne aap ke samajhta kya hai? Woh kisi aunty ka bachcha ban ke ghar mein ghusega, aur hum chup chaap baithe rahenge?”    [What does he think of himself? What does he think, that he can just barge into this house by being some aunty’s kid?]

Ha, this seems to imply that Veer is pretending to be Rajveer, doesn’t it?

Precap: "Everyone’s a cheat!” “I’m not a cheat!” Oh he knows about the guesthouse, interesting. Does he also think she made love with PP on his bed, because ew. Ha, Chandni’s dialogue is written to deliberately imply that she knows he’s Dev.

Theories:

1) Slut-shaming ahoy. That’s just the kind of dude Advay is -- he has all these notions of purity and female chastity and they’re tangled with the way he believes Chandni betrayed him. He won’t be able to help himself.

2) Shika’s apology will not go well.

3) Veer is taking the place of Rajveer, the guy we briefly met in Episode 19. The truth will come out after Shikha falls for him a little bit, thus creating a new hurdle for them to overcome.

Will I continue watching?

Yeah *sigh*

Next

[boredomoverloadmy]

College (in a nutshell)

So I’m officially done with college *insert party streamers emoji*. Actually I’ve been out for some time now but I have yet to get off my lazy arse to do anything genuinely productive (other than trying to master a few piano pieces with little progress). Mum put me in charge of most of the domestic work at home and chauffeuring the kid here and there and the groceries and all that jazz. I would go back to that part-time teaching gig but I reckoned I’d only be around for awhile and mum agreed to give me some allowance (mostly for the groceries though). But that’s beside the point of this post now isn’t it?

So now I’m going to talk about my college experience. Nothing special really and I don’t think I’ll be able to go into detail about it so if you have any questions feel free to ask. I have an ask section up there *points to the top of tumblog* and I (finally) turned my tumblr notifications on so I may be able to answer a.s.a.p this time.

I started my foundation studies June last year (2016) at Kolej MARA Kulim, Kedah affectionately known as KMKu under the Pre-U USM program. Basically its just like any other foundation like if you’d go to Universiti Malaya’s or UNIMAS foundation. But the difference for my program was that I had a sponsor (MARA) who would be supporting my degree studies later on, given that I reached the minimum requirements. Subsequently, those in my program were more or less “tagged” as to which field of study they would be pursuing post-foundation. I and 36 other people who were my classmates in college were tagged to do Medicine in USM-KLE in India later this year (2017). I’m not going to go into detail as to what USM-KLE is because I’m saving that for another post.

I’ve actually had a lot of people ask me why I didn’t choose to return to the UK. I have my reasons, mostly because I decided to pursue Medicine in the way that I wanted to. I’m the kind of person who chooses caution and strategy above everything else, so taking IB or A-levels to me was out of the question from the very get-go. Again, I’m saving the story behind that for another post.

Going off to literally the other side of Malaysia was both exciting and scary for me. When I was in secondary school it never really occurred to me that I’d be leaving Kuching because at the time my mindset was “ace SPM get good grades other stuff comes later”. So when the day finally came, I had no idea what to do with myself. My teachers would give you the illusion that I had it all figured out, just as I had the illusion that all my other seniors had it all figured out. The truth is, you never really do have it figured out. No matter how shiny your high school reputation looks, in the end we’re all just winging it one way or the other. But that’s okay. That’s life. Just go where the wind takes you and you’ll arrive to the place you’re meant to be eventually.

There was another person from Sarawak going to the exact same college for the exact same course. Her name is Martina and she was introduced to me by my old primary schoolmate over WhatsApp. She’s not from Kuching but we both decided that it would be better to be in contact with someone from the same state for travelling arrangements. We left from different airports though, I took a direct flight from Kuching to Penang while she had to transit via KLIA from Sibu. On some occasions we’d wait for each other at Penang airport to catch a taxi to Kolej, which was in Kedah (it was easier to go there via Penang rather than Alor Setar because it was closer).

Registration day for me was chaotic. It wasn’t because of the management though, I’d say that our seniors, Oddytix did a good job handling that and orientation. It was because I was missing some documents and I FREAKED (not an exaggeration). The fact that the only way to go home to re-do things was by flight did not help either. Before I left I double triple checked my documents so when I made such a big blunder by not printing out some of the required documents I felt so incompetent and I didn’t want to trouble my parents more because not causing trouble for my parents was why I accepted the offer in the first place. But in the end I guess it just added fuel to the fire. Throughout the first semester I found myself drowning more in the paperwork for the offer than the actual studying; constantly having to check in with my parents and the post office about my corrected documents. Note to self : when I decide to set up a scholarship someday brief the scholars as to how it’s done to save everyone’s time and energy.

My batch (which would be named Erovra) consisted of about 100+ students which was a few people more than the Transformers (my high school batchmates). We were divided into 3 classes, USM A, B, and C (see the use of the Oxford comma there? I just learned that haha). My class was USM C which consisted of 36 other people bound for India, a few people more than in 5 Delta (my graduating high school class). Each class was further divided into four tutorials, e.g. C1, C2, C3, and C4. My tutorial was C1 which had 11 people, 4 boys and 7 girls (Alya joined a bit later) including myself. Regrettably my tutorial was late to come together unlike other tutorials which bonded quite closely in the first semester. Towards the end of foundation I realised the reason why other tutorials called us C paling pelik and believe me it is a fact I will not deny (especially Lah I had no idea you were like that tbh hahahaha). 

Generally speaking, the first impression I got from my classmates was that God had copy-pasted 30+ versions of Stephen Goh Kok Yew, except some were female and none were Chinese or aspiring body-builders (inside joke. Transformers 1115 will understand). They were so studious that if Ben were to enroll in this program Ben would have been shocked and disgusted; shogusted (but deep down inside Ben is super rajin too don’t deny it). But I guess that’s how things are going to be from now on. After all, you wouldn’t want your future doctor to be a lazy bum now would you?

Before I forget, in this college there are several programs doing foundation studies (UniKL, MKPM or the regular matriculation, UMK and USM) and each program is referred to as a “unit”.  For accommodation the girls in my unit stayed at the Fatimah Az-Zahra block or FAZ. Each room had a minimum of 4 occupants. One of my roommates, Awin, was my classmate while the other two, Nida and Bella, were from USM A. Everything in basic in kolej was provided despite the fact that it still felt like we were in boarding school. For me, it was a level above what I’m used to, mainly because it had a laundromat and washing machine. I washed my all my clothes by hand in boarding school, even during my senior years and even when my hands started to have the skin peeling and flaking off because my skin doesn’t take too well with detergent. That was mainly because the one and only washing machine in my block would already be used and most often it was the juniors who used it but I was too lazy to play the seniority card. I don’t do that shit even if you’re what people would say “kurang ajar” with me. Berkat and kifarah are my magic words. But in kolej thankfully I didn’t have to worry about that which is a huge improvement, as opposed to what other people would say (people who’s schools can afford a lot of washing machines I suppose). Plus, food was provided albeit being the standard asrama food. My friends under other scholarships complained that most of their money went to buying food which was expensive in their area, so even though I found out I couldn’t stomach ikan keli (new discovery) for the most part I took what I got.

Studying and exams felt way different for me. Perhaps it was because I was surrounded by people who came from different kinds of schools. I felt a bit out of place honestly. My strong points were always reading and humanities subjects (Sejarah, Language, that sort) but now I had to put more emphasis on pure sciences. I constantly fell behind in Maths especially (no surprise there frankly) but I sought help from Muja and Zatil mostly which lead to small but consistent improvements. The lecturers were also really nice and helpful and we could approach them whenever. However I felt that my downfalls were caused by time, not that I didn’t have enough but maybe because I had too much free time (you can gasp now). For 2 years I had become accustomed to starting class at as early as 6.30 a.m. and finishing at 6.00 p.m. only to continue after Maghrib until 11.00 p.m. that having gaps in between felt strange and I felt I could have managed my time a lot better than I did (*highlights this point as a reminder for degree studies*). 

Two major components of my program to India (other than the exams) were the interview and IELTS. The interview was as straightforward as a medical school interview could get. IELTS was the rumoured killer. IELTS is basically some big shot English exam in which you have to score a certain “band” to be allowed to study or work overseas. Our requirement was 6.5/9.0 overall minimum. Now if you knew me personally you’d say “Faqihah mesti band 9 punya” which is close but not really. I scored an 8.5/9.0, which actually serves me right because out of the 30 hours access to the IELTS online learning module I used a total of 0.00 hours and the night before IELTS I was watching Moana with Bella. I kid you not and yes you can slap me later. My main downfall was the writing component. I wrote under 250 words for the second essay which was unusual for me and could have resulted in getting a 5 , I got a 7.5 for the writing component which was okay and my reading, speaking and listening components helped quite a lot. During the writing test I was very much distracted by the terrible kindergarten pencil and the crazy old guy who was making a fuss before the writing test. But as I’ve said again again this year, “as long as I pass what is required its more than enough”. 

I’m not going to lie. There were some moments where I doubted myself; whether I had what it takes to do medicine. I think each of us felt that way somewhere along the line, just no one dared to say it out loud or else there’d be people being condescending and saying “eh kata nak sangat jadi doktor kan”. But again, the truth is no one ever really has anything figured out. There were many times I thought to throw in the towel and go home. That would have been easier. But I realised the cliche of it all, that if it was easy everyone would do it. And that is the naked truth. You think you’re in control of things but it actually isn’t you. It’s Allah’s doing. Every. Step. Of. The. Way. You’re only expected to do your best with the challenges at hand. You don’t need any other reason to do it, only that Allah showed you that this is the way; and then you start walking. Crawl, if you must. As long as you follow it. 

I know that this is just the tip of the iceberg and that there will be many more moments like these to come, but I’m writing this down so that when those moments come I’ll know where to look for the courage to keep going. And I hope after reading this, you will too.

[yatsy83]

Amsterdam's Red Light Area aka RLD

Amsterdam a place where prostitution is legal and where u can roam around wihtout been pressurised that u r doing something wrong, the feeling that Indians usually get. There is a dedicated place where you can find some seriously hot, sexy and adorable girls and that is called The Red Light aread famous for been called as RLD. Probably this is the first place that comes in anybodies mind when they visit Amsterdam and its like yaha nahi gaye toh kya gaye. So it was Maya's first day in Europe and we decided to head on first day itself from Brussels to Amsterdam. Amit had rented a car and mayagastyatin with Amisu started the journey to meet our married friends in Amsterdam. Reaching there we were out to experience the night life. Right in front of the lane opp to C&A in Amsterdam Central, we made our way to enter the famous and much awaited RLD. Hemal indicated the boundary of RLD with a small red light lamp post lit up. "Yaha se suru ho gayi iski boundary" he said. And then kya tha, I help maya with her Hand and Agastya was with Amisu enjoying, jumping. Bhai it took 34 years for me to come to place like this and Agastya entered in just his 4th year. Hmmmm generation gap may be :D It was already 10pm and night had pulled over its black blanket. "We have to roam but Agastya ke saath nahi ghum sakte" I said "But I want to see whats in these gallis of RLD" claimed Maya. "Arre dont worry, kuch toh jugaad lagaanege" said a confident Hemal Then we entered in a coffee shop. Sat there. Agastya was still enjoying with Amisu, Maya and Ruchi (Hemal's wife). "Chal tujhe ghuma laata hu" Hemal said to me. "I will come" I indicated maya. Hemal took me to a very small lane in which one can walk only in a single line. "Bhai kaha leke jaa raha hai" I questioned with a nervous voice. "Tu aa" Hemal said and was walking so confidently. We then got into an apartment where girls where standing on the doors of the rooms. Doors which were not bound with glass. I was roaming inside the interim of the gallis and trust me the girls were awesome. There were tall and each girl was just wearing a sexy coloured bra, matching panty, few in thongs and stringed, heeled shoes. I was walking as close to them as possible just away from hugging them. Some in black attire, some in red, blue and some even in glowing flouroscent coloured lingerie. Trust me that walk of probably 20-25 secs was like walking in heaven. "WOW" I said and Hemal just smiled. "Now its Maya's turn" he said and took Maya for a walk. Maya came back and she was like "Ekdum khatarnaak yaar, they are really beautiful girls, but thoda odd laga". This was bound to happen as we never roam around in India in such places and they are not as aesthetic as they are here, probably. Agastya never looked as if he wants to sleep. He was busy playing some pizza pizza games with Amisu and Ruchi and never bothered where his parents were. So now it was round 2 of night life. "Now you both come with me and let him play with these guys. He is enjoying it here" Hemal said to us. "So whats next?" I asked curiously. "Time to peep in peep show" he exclaimed. Peep show, a small place where you have very small rooms and rectangular glass window. These rooms are around 8 in number enclosing a circular bed which is moving slowly. You have to enter the room, close the door, put 2 euro coin in it and tak, the light goes off.Then what do you see through the window? A girl who is nude is performing on the circular bed. Performing what? Well is just lying on the bed moving up and down, opening her feet to show her clean shaved vagina, pressing her breasts which looked pretty soft and she was doing it gently ofcourse. So it was all about seeing the nude beauty in front of you doing some acrobatic or erotic stuff. After a min the light turns on and show over. So Maya went first in and the moment she entered the room and out the coin, the lights went off and what she saw was a nude tall girl with her legs wide open and maya had her pussy open right in front of her eyes. Maya was like auughhh, whats this. More than the girl Maya was looking at the expression of guys in other rooms which were visible thru the window and she was like baap re yeh toh saare ke saare ghus gaye hai isme. Maya came out immediately. "Arre kuch bhhi hai yeh toh" Maya said. "Ok let me try now" I said and entered. "Enthu toh dekho iska" Hemal and Maya started laughing. Usually the light turns on after a minute but when I went the light didnt turn on, probably because there was change of girl in between and the time went beyond 2 mins. Hemal opened the door and said "Kya aaj yahi raat bitaaega kya:D" We laughed and came out. Now it was time to check aggy boy status. We went to same coffee shop where he was playing with Amisu and Ruchi. This time the game had changed as they were playing with juices and fanta. "Jao ghumke aao" Said Ruchi with a smiling face. Mayatin turned towards Hemal. "Time for strip club" he said with a naughty look. We both nodded with a naughty look too. Now this club was located right next to the coffee shop. With a 10 euro entry we entered the club. Again this was a pretty decent place but crowded. I was holding on to Maya so that she doesnt get lost amidst the crowd. We stood behind. The bar table was not too far from us, say a mtr away. Sexy. smoking hot gurlz were dancing on the desk. Giving lap dance to people. One of the girl was wearing a thong. And the guy with whom she was playing around had already gone pink. She was insisting him to spank her nice and hard and was shying away. Mere haathon mein khujli ho rahi thhi :D:D But he did spank her but gently. Then he held his head facing upwards on the deks. With notes in his mouth, the girl came slowly down who was standing on top of his face and just brushed herself against his mouth. Yeah yeah he shouted and was ecstatic. Now there was another guy sitting on chair in front of Maya and me. he waived with 20 euro note towards a girl and she came over. She was damm sexy. golden smooth silky straight hair, breasts round so as to define the shape round, looked soft. Thighs and legs tonned to perfection. Arse soft enought to go and spank nice and make them red to engrave ur fingerprints. And tummy so flat that even a flat pan would be shy off. She came and sat on the guys lap. The guys was completely completely engrossed in her. He lifted his hands to touch her breasts, feel the nipples. Maya and me were standing right behind him. Maya was looking at the guy with her head tilted 45 degrees. The girl lifted her legs, held the boy with his head, pulled him close towards her and placed his head right in between her breasts. oooohhhhh, I was like, oo la la...Then the boy kissed the girls breasts, felt them, took his head behind, closed his eyes and looked upwards as if he just had a puff of smoke. Looking at his expressions Maya started laughing out loud. Looking at Maya the guys around us started laughing and me and Hemal followed suit. So basically apart from the boy and stripped girl all of us were laughing. This certainly didnt go down well with the girl and she gave a very staunch look to Maya, the guy was still in cloud number 9 :D So just to avoid a situation we came out from the club laughing again. crazy people, crazy time. Now it was almost 2 AM and Agastya was still playing "The one who finishes the JUICE last is the winner" game. At times children have a game of their own.We ended the game as we finished seeing other games and it was time to return back to room and relax. So this was all about the out of box experience we had about Amsterdam night life. Trust me, this may be a bit weird to read but that was a very raunchy and erotic experience for both of us.

[wittynshitty-blog]

CH 5-REAL GOODBYE TEXTS part 2!

The good times flew so quickly’

It was all he could think of when he was packing his luggage. he was happy that they did meet and bid goodbyes to each other and finally he was going tomorrow. So he finished packing and went to his Facebook page and started downloading all of her pics, as creepy it may sound but he wanted to carry a small part of her with him suddenly his phone buzzed.

She -Hi

He –hi!

She-wassup ?

He-looking at Ur pics again again!

She -Again ? Aap ke pass kaam dhandha nahii hai kya ?

He- hai naa both are YOU! :*

She-Mein dhandha hu ? :PD

He-Yup mine! :p I know I sound crazy idk y i’m saying this!

She-Hehe :P, pagal Admi :P, Card padhe ? he realized yes the cards she had given him some hand made cards and he was not allowed to read it in front of her.

He-nahi,should i read them now? as previously i was not supposed to read them till i reach my destination?

She-No.you read them now and tell me how you feel,as i’m a girl i cant wait for that long.

He-Okay! i will read them in the order in which you have given it to me.

She- okay!

He-happy new year in advance to you! (it was a simple card but the main thing was it was hand made and that made it felt so unique and hard touching)

She- next? and Dekho handwriting ke bare mein kuch mat bolnaa.

He-okay its my birthday! thanks again!

She-you know three years passed and we never meet at your birthday?

He-Its okay! though we didn’t meet but you are always the 1st one to wish me! and plus we meet at your birthday so!

She-okay next?

He-okay its 14 Feb tab Kya hota hai?

She-IDK! Dekho heart paint karne liye mere pass brushes nahii tha So I did it with my fingers toh ussko kuch maat bolnaa

He-Hehe okay! :p I’m reading it my Valentine!

She-Next ? tum padho I just brb Ek sec mein

He-okay! and  best aadmi? sure? :p

She-I’m Back and yes best aadmi! and next thing will be holi! sorry i couldn’t help myself!

He-hehe! okay! let me read it!

She-hmm…!

He-okay I know d bet is valid pagal Will do it next year pakka! (he remembered his bet about kissing her at time of holi and havnt been able to do so)  n tshirt? kyu? (in this she was mentioning his abs, he knew it still pushing it…)

She- Yes!

And  Toh as i said I won’t go for holi Next year jaaungi as without you what will i do!

He- oh I love u so much! n holi se pehele toh its Ur birthday missy! :p happy birthday in advance wish u have every moment of happiness in Ur life for ever!

She-Happiness toh next year hogaa na

He-okay!

She-next

He-okay next one says SORRY n I have no idea y? should I open it? :l

She-YES

He-okay wait!

She-okayy!

He-I hate you! a lot :* pagal! mein darr gaya tha! :l (this one actually was April’s fool day card but that got reveled in the end only, as the start talked about her relationship with one of her friend which he had no idea about, it was a relief when he read the last line and came to know that it was a joke)

She- haha! but idea was good naa?

He- Yup! pagal aaurat I love u!

She-I love you too best admii

He-okay last one! Diwali!

She-0kaayy

He- u know u look like a princess in white! :* (in this she had elaborated their first Diwali together so well that it felt like he was there and was reliving that moment again those lights,that scent of crackers in the air,that face she use to make when there was a loud cracker burst, all that was so lively and enjoyable)

She-So happy ?

He-very! and thanks for all the effort you put in.

She-you know what?

He-what?

She-kal bhi maat jao!

I pinky swear! I won’t fight And I won’t irritate! and will let you poke

Sochlo aisa offer fir nahi milengaa

He-Jaan u know I want to stay but think Ur family Will not accept me if I’m not settelled in my life! :l I’m going for us Jaan for our future! :l n most importantly for YOU my love! please understand!

She-I do! please be back soon!

He-i will! you know what?

She-What?

He-I don’t know how should I thank u for everything u did for me for all these 3 years!

She-You don’t need to thank me  Bs jaldi jaake jaldii aao

NAhiiii wait

Der se jaake jaldi aao

He-okay!

She-Pagal! Go sleep It’s your soone ka time And you must be sleepy

And You watch big boss right ?

Guess who’s the winner ? Miss Khan!

He-I know that! okay I gtg! sorry Will talk to u later! too sleepy!

She-okay bbye good dreams sweet night! (that was her way of writing it she knew it was wrong but she always wanted to be unique!

He- bye! same to you! :*

She- :* have a great journey and do miss me!

He-I will!

[andthereshegoess]

Jet-setting February 2013

February 2013,

It’s a lifetime experience that I will never forget.

My trip started at the end of January, 30th. I went to Xiamen, China for Syafiq’s Graduation. I have never been to China and it’s a very different experience.

One of the different thing would be; as soon as the plane landed on the ground, everyone unbuckle their belts and already trying to take their luggage from the overhead compartment. I was a bit mind-fuck because the stewardess had to use her back to hold the passenger and told them to get back to their seat.

Other than the language and the things that I expect.

I thought most of them could at least speak simple basic english but they don’t. they don’t even understand my sign language. In which made me regret for not finishing my Mandarin class and I realized that I suck at sign language. I can’t even tell the sales person where do I look for a towel.

I also expect for them to have small squinty eyes but no, their eyes were as huge and round as mine.

They drive on the left side of the car and they don’t have road rules. They just avoid whatever comes their way, so I guess the drivers are quite alert and you just got to be careful as to not get hit.

That Chinese food are just awesome because it’s halal so I can eat it. I don’t remember the name of the place but TAECO brought all of us there for the graduation dinner with everyone that was involve with the ceremony.

Things like Zara, Pull&bear, Bershka and so on is damn cheaper compare to the ones in Malaysia and there’s more variety too. So, I think shopping in Xiamen is better if you don’t think about the language barrier but if you speak Mandarin then, there’s nothing to stop you from going.

I went to Gulangyu Island. It’s a huge island that I didn’t get to discover all around but there were so many souvenir shop throughout the island. Most of them sell the same thing at the same price.

I expect myself to be back and to explore the island smartly the next time.

On the 5th Feb, my parents and I flew back to K.L but I only transit in K.L to get on my flight to London. Other than going back to Perth alone, flying to London would be my first trip overseas alone. Then again, there was a friend of mine waiting for me at the airport.

I was exhausted when I arrived on the 6th February, but when I saw my friend (abang) from afar, I was happy! and I got too nervous, I ran to the toilet and vomit. I stayed in London for a couple of hours, to sleep and waited for my friend to get his visa to the States. After lunch with his cousin, we hung out for a little while before heading to Portsmouth about 4.30pm.

We headed to Paddington train station, with the thought that the line would connect us to Portsmouth but we were wrong, we actually hadto go to Waterloo station to get to Portsmouth and it was during peak hours to Waterloo station using the underground line. It was an amazing experience but I was exhausted but I was trying hard not to be.

It was probably about 5pm when we reached Waterloo station and the train departed for about 6pm. At least I get to sit down for about 2 hours, talking to Abang along the way was quite hilarious too and sometimes I wonder why the hell am I here but at the same time, it was relaxing because it felt easy. Now, I don’t even think we could talk for more than 1 minute.

Before I left, I wanted to eat everything there is in the U.K. but when I was there, I don’t even know what happened to my appetite but I didn’t eat anything much. I know I had the dessert at Wharf Quay, and it was delicious.

In Portsmouth, we stayed over at Meera’s house and she actually waited for us since afternoon. We followed her to  rehearsal, it was quite nice actually and to watch her dor the real event but I didn’t get to. We had Ken’s Fried Chicken for dinner, it was too salty and the trick of  Towards the end of the day, I don’t really care about anything anymore. All I want to do was sleep for hours and hours and hours.

The next day, we went to town or city center and I sat at the fountain thinking about nothing and how exhausted I still am but I tried not to let it get to me because it was supposed to be a trip of exploring parts of England! While I was there, I learned to play pool too and I don’t think I like it because I actually don’t like the fact that my boobs touches the pool table every time I leaned over to take a shot. Haihs.

I spent two night in Portsmouth and the last day, we had lunch with Meera’s friend named Jon at a Seafood place. It was nice! and there was a bit of sightseeing of the ocean. I was damn cold. I do not want to be in Europe for winter again. I highly dislike it besides I love to hibernate during winter.

Anyways, we took the train and went to London. I got even more tired when we reached London. I honestly don’t know why I made this kind of trip. At first it was for this crazy life experience that I’ve always wanted to know how it’ll feel like. How does it feel to fly over from one continent to another. Well, I really did get what I wanted and it’s damn exhausting.

London was nice, we took a taxi from Waterloo Station to the hotel and I get to do a bit of sightseeing along the way. The hotel we stayed was 5 minutes from the Paddington Station and I was amazed that everything was actually so near. We walked everywhere and we had Noodle Oodle for dinner, it was delicious! I like the roasted duck. yums! I found my favourite place…. BOOTS! haha. Then, we walked to the hotel after dinner.

The next day, we went to British Museum and it was huge! I didn’t get to cover the whole area but that’s just another reason for me to go again the next time. There’s a list of things that I am going to do the next time. After the museum, we walked to Oxford street and Abang stopped to asked a lady for direction but Primark was just opposite the street. I wanted to laugh so bad that time but I was tired. hahaha. But somehow towards the end of the day, I turned moody and I was in no mood to talk to anyone. I realized that it made things awkward but I was too tired to care. I really am sorry for my behavior and I shouldn’t do that to people. Especially Nisya and Pedot because they took a couple of hours bus ride to get to London.

The last day in London, the only thing plan was check out and move to another hotel and the Chinese New Year Fireworks at Trafalgar Square. It was freezing! and the stupidest thing I did was to wear three layer of clothes and I didn’t wear my thermal wear. I guess now I know how the homeless feels, frozen to death. My jacket was wet because I wore the wrong one and I was stupid enough to not buy a new one when I was at Oxford Street.

The fireworks didn’t go long as expected and I guess because of the rain. It was devastating and I pity Jon because he was excited about it too, I guess he should come to Kuching for Chinese New Year. The fireworks would be  more awesome! but just suffer the consequences of the haze after!

Well, after the firework, we did a bit of speed touring like walked to get to the train station which passed by the London Eye, Big Ben and The Parliament *The Parliament house is where we can talk* I did took a few photos but I don’t have it with me right now and I don’t know when will I ever have it. Maybe just maybe, I am not going to have it and I’ll go to London to re-write this trip. By that time, I’ll post an even awesome trip.

After dinner, there was a bit of snow and I was soaking for my jacket is useless. I wanted to experience the snow so much and when I get it, I don’t like it! not even one bit! We sent Pedot to the Bus Station because she could only stay for a  night. But I’m thankful for her to visit me even it was for a night and I was being a moody bitch. I am so very sorry dot. Nisya stayed for another night and the three of us slept together and when she sleeps its kinda cute because she hides under the blanket.

Oh the second hotel overlooked the Hyde Park and I wanted to walked around there but with the weather being too cold for me to handle I would rather stay in bed or indoors but I didn’t do that much either. Oh, I fell in the tub and I called it Hyde Park!

The morning that I left, I was sad because I wanted so much to stay and really enjoy my trip, discover more places and eat all those desserts. It was such a rush trip and all I could feel was my exhaustion.

I arrived K.L on the 12th February morning and had teatime with Niessa at Bimmers, eating rojak ayam. Man! food never taste delicious as I didn’t eat the whole flight from London – Kul – Kch. My flight leaves to Kch at 8pm of the same day and I am so glad that I get to nap.

I slept through the entire flight from Kul – Perth. I arrived in Perth on 13th February at 5am and was glad that Nora pick me up. I stayed over Nora’s house for a couple of days, then to Deska’s and then to Waterford. I slept through the first 3 days that I was there. So there’s nothing much that I did there but to meet up with my movie partner, Denah, Dayah and Jas. I met up with Jas in London and  we both met up in Perth too. At least I get to eat the few things that I’ve been wanting to eat for the past 2 years.

Did a bit of cleaning at Waterford with Azri and it was kind of funny as a bug flew up my nose when I was cleaning the pantry.

I did a bit of shopping at Carousel, Harbor Town and City but I didn’t get to do anything else.

I was also in town for Fringe World Event. It was nice. Nora and I walked through Northbridge to take a look around, passing by Metros made me miss those days when everything was fun.

I left Perth on the 18th february 2013 and I was sad to be leaving Perth. It was home, it was a place where I sort of grew up. Well, I was raised and grew up in Kuching but a place where I explore life was in Perth and it’ll always be home.

To sum up the trip, it was awesome! I went from Asia to Europe to Australiasia. It was pretty damn exhausting but some time in the future, I’ll probably tell someone to never travel like how I did in February 2013. You could at least spent 1 week plus in one place and really enjoy  the place, the people and explore!

[tellywoodtrash]

ishqbaaz 27.08.17 lb

plain text version here.

let’s do this shit! 

ok the start to this ep feels so... random and disjointed from the end of the last... like... is this the same day as the shaadi nonsense? is it not? how many days/months/years have passed? who knows, not me. 😕😕😕

before shit goes down, can i just take the moment to say, goddamn, my girl looks sooooooooooooo good. 😍😍😍 i’m glad her hair’s back in the waves. i prefer it to the poker straight hair. plus the outfit. simple, clean lines. what a goshdarn babe. light of my life. my sun my moon all my stars. 😌😌😌

... ohhhhhh boy. i don’t think i’m ready for this jelly. (coz my body too bootylicious for ya babe! 🍑🍑🍑)

is he for real though, or just faking to make her spill it? 🤔🤔🤔

oh no is he gonna think she left him coz he doesn’t have NKK anymore? 😬😬😬

he’s faking. he’s so fakingggg. he just remembers that ONE sentence she said and is using it to get it outta her.🙄🙄🙄

billu ke dimaag ke paiyyyen ghooooooom rahein haiiiii, trying to piece together these little tidbits she’s dropping. 🎡🎡🎡

ugh. emotional moment ke beech mein 2 second ka romance ghusa diya, my heart is so confuseddddddddd. 😖😖😖

anika be like OH BETE KI KAHIN PAPPU BANAAKE TOH NAHI CHALE GAYE MUJHE. 😯😯😯

sudden change to chirpy, cheery gauri. i can’t keep up with the sudden change in tone of scenes without suffering whiplash. 😕😕😕

wtf even is om doing in the bg? 😟😟😟

sudden change in mooood in my baby bulbul’s mood. aw noooo. 😥😥😥

YEH PAKDAAAAAAA. HAWAAA CHALIIIIII. YASSSSSSSSSS. FUCKING YAAAAAAAAS!!!! 😀😀😀

THIS SONG. *WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPS* ALL THE FEELZ. 😭😭😭

ok “pyaar” is a little too much and all, but the lyrics TU KI JAANE PYAAR MERA + THIS FACE. *sobbing for all eternity* 😭😭😭😭😭😭

what’s with this dude and her shoulder? this is a very strange fetish, bro. 😕😕😕

ok but over there your brother and bhaabi are into knifeplay, so this is relatively harmless. carry on. 😌😌😌

BUT ALSO FUCKING GOOSEBUMPS OMG THE FUCK I AM BOTH 😥😥😥 CRYING 😥😥😥 AND HAVING 😏😏😏 THARKI THOUGHTS 😏😏😏 AND OH MY GOD WHAT EVEN IS HAPPENING TO ME I WAS NOT READY FOR THIS TODAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭

also i can hear maisu’s @vishwaspur​ head 💥exploding💥 at all the close ups of kunal’s hands all the way from here. 🙃🙃🙃

ok i know nothing of this jal jal ke dhuan sequence, but damn it looks fucking hot in any flashbacks they show in ib. i don’t think i’ll watch the actual scene, just to preserve the hotness in my mind. 😙😙😙

VE BADA PACHTAIYYAAAAN ANKHAAN NAAAL TERE JODKEEEEE *weeps* 

i always lose it at this part of this song anyway, but coupled with these visuals, hahahaha fuck meeeeee 😭😭😭😭😭😭

jfc why can i not stop cryinggggggggg 😪😪😪😪

oh this is why: 

LOOK AT THE WAY THEY’RE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER OH MY GOD I CAN’T EVEN 

“KUCH NAHI”?!?!?!?! OMFG OMKARA, DO NOT MAKE ME COME IN THERE AND FUCKING KICK YOUR FUCKING ASS. DON’T TEST ME BOY. I’LL DO IT. I’LL FUCKING DO IT. 😤😤😤😡😡😡

her disappointmenttttttttt. oh my god, my heart. i can’t bear it. 😫😫😫

SIRF BAHU™. SISTER OF SIRF ANIKA™. THE SIRF SISTERS™. 👯🏽👯🏽👯🏽

the fuckkkkkkkkkkk, om? i thought you were the emotionally intelligent one among the three idiots. god. you’re just as bad as those other two. 😒😒😒

literally don’t give a rat’s ass about ruvya as a couple. fwding. 

where’s he going now? abhi abhi toh lauta hai germany se. (germany said in this accent. please know i ALWAYS say “germany” like this. 😆😆😆)

ok i’ve now said the word germany too many times and it makes no sense to me. germany. 🤔🤔🤔

the editing of this episode is hella weird man. why would they put this scene now; like, she literally just walked away mad at him and now she’s back and like lemme unpack for you. what nonsense. 😒😒😒

lmao her startled face at him throwing things around. 😂😂😂

omki shomkiiiiiiiii, did you bring the wifeyyy something back from GERRRRRRRMANY? is that why you’re acting weeeeeeeeird? 😏😏😏

HAHAHA CALLED IT. WHAT AN AWKWARD AARDVARK. CUTIE PATOOTIEEEEEEE. 😚😚😚

did he take the mor pankh with him FROM here, or did he pluck a german mor ka pankh? 🤔🤔🤔

germany mein mor hai bhi ya nahi? 🤔🤔🤔 (calling @nawaazishein​ to confirm or deny.) 

LOL “MERE LIYE” YOU IDIOT JUST GIVE IT TO HER 😂😂😂

“THIS IS THE NEW ME”

yeah, this one is definitelyyyyyyyyyy shivaay’s brother. same weirdness and tadi-fueled stupidity. 🙄🙄🙄

LMAOOOOOOOO OM YOU IDIOT I LOVE YOU 🤣🤣🤣

RUDRA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

omfg rudra imitating his lameness hahahaha 😂😂😂

I LIVE FOR RUDRA TAKING THE PISS OUTTA OMKI 😆😆😆

rudra ki vishesh tippani: you look like a goddamn fool, please just give chulbul bhaabi the stole already. 😋😋😋

i love it. this is why he gets the ladies. he smart in this one dept. 😊😊😊

damn, ragini looking FAAIIIINE 😘😘😘

ohhhh boy. she wants to MURDER anika. 😬😬😬

OMFG SHE HAS A SHIVAAY BEDSPREAD. JFC GIRL. LIKE I KNEW YOU WERE CRAZY BUT NOT THIS CRAZY. 

lucky for you.....

also, 10 bucks says one of gul/neet took that thing home once they were done shooting with it, considering how much they stan for nakuul. 🙈🙈🙈

“maarna wahin chahiye jahaan par sab se zyaada dard ho, aur main bohut achche se jaanti hoon shivaay ko sabse zyaada dard kahaan hoga.” 

sooooooo... she’s going to mess up his hair? 😕😕😕😗😗😗

lmao i am lovinggggg vikram’s exasperation and defeated confusion. 😆😆😆

btw, finally found the actor’s name, for those interested: danish pandor. unfortunately, he’s not big on social media, so get your jollies by taadofying at him here. 

sooooooooo.... vikram, who wanted anika enough to marry her even without her consent, is perfectly ok with this plan of killing(?) her? 🤔🤔🤔 like....??????? what even is this dude’s deal? he seems perfectly sane and sorted but i dont get his motives re: anika. 😕😕😕

omki’s cryyyyying? whyyyy??? is it coz he’s a loser who can’t summon the guts to tell his wife the words “i am sorry”? 😐😐😐

“kaunsa sach?” 

coz at this point everyone is hiding so many things from each other than it’s hard to fucking keep track anymore 😗😗😗

bruh, does this fucker know or not, or is he just going around faking everyone out and getting them to drop him enough breadcrumbs 😒😒😒

lmaooooo rudra is exhausted solving everyone’s issues. 😆😆😆

bhavya’s in A Mood™ 😬😬😬

ok... fuck this sultan nonsense all over again. fwding. 😒😒😒

YEAHH THIS FOOL DON’T KNOW SHIT. HE’S JUST FAKING. 😑😑😑

oh shit, rudra. god, he’s going to be the straw that breaks the camel’s back. he’s going to vomit out everythingggggggg. 😧😧😧

LMAOOOOOOOOOO I KNEW ITTTTTT. I KNEW HE WAS FAKING. I CAN’T BELIEVE THESE PPL ARE FALLING FOR IT. FOR FUCKS SAKE, DON’T YOU KNOW THIS GUY AND HOW HE WORKS AT ALLLLLLLLLL? 😂😂😂

aaaaaaaaaaand, there it is. is ladke ke pet mein kuchhhhhhhhh nahi rehta. 😣😣😣

omki is desperately babbling. it’s hard to watch him, the most sorted one, like this. *pats his floofy hair* 😞😞😞

my boyyyyyyyyssssssssssssss. *weeeeps* 😭😭😭😭

time to dramatically ponder in the dark. 🙄🙄🙄

dang, look how much nakuul’s hair grown in two months. 😯😯😯

ok really don’t care about this jhanvi plot today. give me mainland madness. 

yesssss pinky’s here. DRAAAAAAMA TIMEEE. 🙃🙃🙃

LMAO DADI DO YOU NOT KNOW PINKY AT ALL? AT ALL??????? 😣😣😣

enough foreshadowinnnnnnnnggggggg. GIVE ME THE FUCKING GOODS. 😫😫😫

damn kaveri darling is even kinkier than svetlana. 😯😯😯😏😏😏

jhanvi just bustin in there like... ok mainu kiiii. fwding to get to the real fucking drama. awaiii mera sunday barbad mat kariyo. 😒😒😒

ok. full fam gathered. vakeel bhi aaya hua hai. AB DANGAL HOGA. mwahaha. 😆😆😆

yiiiiiiiiiiikes, the SSO waali danger look he gave the lawyer at being questioned. 😬😬😬

ok i know what’s coming. he’s gonna give it all to anika. and that’s gonna provoke pinky into fucking loooooosing it. 😗😗😗

YUPPPPPPPP. 😐😐😐

lmao everyone’s faces: 

"UM, THE FUCK?”

“.... um, i understood one of those three words. what’s an e-cutie? am i the e-cutie?”

“wait, what about us? we’re putting up with those two and their daily chutiyapa for NOTHING?”

“yeh roz roz ka drama mujhse jhela nahi jaata. dadaji oberoi, mujhe apne paas bula lo.”

“🎵  aankh ladaake tune maara! tin-tidin-tin-tin-tin-tin-ting! ghayal ho gaya dil bechaa... 🎶  wait, what was that? it seemed important. shit, i should have paid attention. oh well. it’s not like anyone here wants my opinion anyway. 🎵 SUNA HAI TERE CHAAHNE WAALE... TIN-TINDIN-TIN...🎶 ”

food for thought for me tonight: how much am i willing to tolerate from an asshole like shivaay if it means he will eventually transfer all his assets in my name? like... is one gajilliontrillion bucks enough for year’s worth of mental torture? like, i’m suffering through life right now FOR FREE, which seems like a pretty unfair bargain. if he gets too annoying, i can just take the money and then gone girl his ass. hmmmm. note to self: make a pros/cons list to evaluate comprehensively. 🤔🤔🤔

pinky is fucking frothing at the mouth hearing shivaay’s soft and gentle voice baandhofying taareefon ke pull for anika. 😬😬😬

anika at this point: i would very much like to be excluded from this narrative, one I have never asked to be a part of, since i met you hellspawned fuckers on a dark and godless day. 🙅🏽🙅🏽🙅🏽

ok the way she’s jabbing shivvay in the chest looks painful. he’s got a heart issue, woman. plus he’s been shot in the chest. please stop. 😖😖😖

yiiiiiiiiiiiikes. so she just wants the money? damn pinky, that’s cold. even for you that’s cold. 😥😥😥

WAIT WHAT?!?!!?!? 😯😯😯😟😟😟

HOLY SHIT. ALL THAT FOR FUCKING NOTHING. THIS STUPID FUCKER ISN’T NAJAAYAZ AFTER ALL?!?!??!?? THE FUCKKKKKKKKKK 😧😧😧

BUT.... WHAT ABOUT MAHI? HOW EVEN??????? THE DNA TEST SAID THEY WERE BROTHERS. SO MAHI IS A BONAFIDE OBEROI WHO’S PINKY’S SON TOO???? LIKE, I REALLY DON’T CARE ABOUT SHIVAAY COZ A CAT WILL ALWAYS FALL ON ITS FOURS WHAT ABOUT MY SON MAHI?????? TELL ME ABOUT MAHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *SCREAMING* 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩

OMG WHAT THE FUCK FAKE!TEJLANA LITERALLY NOONE CARES ABOUT YOU RIGHT NOW GTFO MY SCREEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😡😡😡😡

yikes. “mrs. pinky singh oberoi” 😬😬😬😬

ladka haath se nikal gaya hai. say bye bye bye to your laadla beta, mataji. 👋🏽👋🏽👋🏽

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ishqbaaz 17.07.17 lb

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pfffft malhotra house ki security. kabhi apne ghar ka bhi dekh le. pata nahi kis kamre ke kya freezer mein kaun mil jaaye. 🙄🙄🙄

wifey maaaaad. wifey SO MAD. 🙈🙈🙈

shivaay is the polar opposite of ross geller. 😌😌😌 (“WE WERE ON A BREAK, BUT I HAVEN’T KISSED ANY OTHER NECKS; COZ I’M A LOYAL HO WHO LOVES YOU”) 

OH DAAAAAAAAAAAMN. SHIVAAY ADMITTING FARAQ WITH PUPPY EYES. 😧😧😧

dhatt teriiiiii, ruined it. changed it to IMAGE ko faraq padta hai. stupid boy and his ego. 😣😣😣

lmao anika is going all asad ahmed khan “woh bechaari nahi hai!” 😂😂😂

shivaay is such an idiot. how can someone this naive and unable to read people be the “businessman of the year”?? 😒😒😒

hey.... bechaare ppl take selfies too, anika! what is this anti-selfie attitude you have? 😕😕😕

okaaaaaay? weird scene with the stopping and the phone falling? 😕😕😕

aye girl, use your anika fanclub fauj to catch nagini. 😌😌😌

that’s a very large and inconvenient to carry around picture, gauri. 😐😐😐

aw, gauri, no leaaaaaaave. 😭😭😭

but my brain says good. leave with dignity. make him chase you and get you back. 😚😚😚

... um question that just suddenly occurred to me: how come gauri is selectively allergic to paint ka smell? as an artist, om’s room must smell quite strongly of paint all the time? she was perfectly ok with sleeping here for months. sudddddenly she’s cheenk-ing up a storm? 🤔🤔🤔

snort, omki just raided shivaay ka mobile dispensary for antihistamines. 😆😆😆

ok, overly dramaticcccccc reaction to photo falling. 🙄🙄🙄

um gauri, tumhari hi haath lag kar gira tha. us par kyun bhadak rahi ho? 😶😶😶

like, i get her andar ki bhavna and all, but it was truly a bizarre change in mood???? she was perfectly ok and mellow 2 seconds ago. 😕😕😕

but these things needed to be said, so i’m glad she did. 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

aw, omki is hurt. ANGSTTTTTTTTTTTTT. 😭😭😭😭😭😭

and here we see the difference between shivaay and om - shivaay would have shown double tadi and maybe even thrown some hurtful words back, but not left. because that’s HIS way of showing love, by constantly BEING THERE, physically. but om is more quiet and introspective and respectful of personal space. he understood the sentiment behind gauri’s words, whereas shivaay would have just taken the harsh tone and words at face value. 

idhar inka spider puraaan khatam nahi hua. 🙄🙄🙄

oh god rudra, just get a can of raid, ffs. 😒😒😒

hee hee “michmichi” is now officially in the oberoi lexicon. 😊😊😊

ok this chick is on her own mood trip as well. who’da thunk that ANIKA would be the most stable one of the three girls? 😕😕😕

aw. poor rudra. baby. come here. *hugs him* 😔😔😔

pffffffffft we really don’t give a shit, ACP anda. 😑😑😑

hahaha khanna’s face. bechaara, he’s been walking around with this basket for over half a day now. 😆😆😆

LMAO KHANNA’S SASS CAN BE REPRESSED NO MORE. 😂😂😂

ouff, how do ppl even get their mail in this goddamn house? they should have a better system. those dorm hall type cubby holes or something. 😐😐😐

.... are those ice cubes in tej’s wine? i know next to nothing about wine, but even i know you shouldn’t put ice in it. 😟😟😟

svetlana, damn girl. too hot, hot damn. 😍😍😍

this was the kinda lingerie i wanted to see anika in. not that weird pink monstrosity. next time shivaay should take svetlana with him while buying his girl lacy underthings. she has great taste. 😊😊😊

ughhhhh svetlanaaaa, why are you wasting your hotness on this decrepit bag of assholery? 😣😣😣

oh gauri. this is the REAL om. blame gulNeet for his crazy personality transplant. 😤😤😤

yeah, no one cares about your observations on rudra, bhavya. fuck off. don’t you have a MISSION to complete? 😒😒😒

THIS GODDAMN ANDA THING. HONESTLY. I AM THIS CLOSE TO LOSING IT. THESE FUCKING PPL ARE SO RICH, THEY CAN BUY A POULTRY FARM AND SET IT UP ON THE BACK LAWN. WHY HAVE THEY BEEN BITCHING ABOUT A HALF DOZEN ANDE GOING MISSING EVERY DAY? GODDDDDDDD. 😡😡😡😡

omfg nooooooo, talk about you and omkara, gauriiiiiiiiiii. NOT RUVYA. LITERALLY NO ONE CARES ABOUT THEM. 😫😫😫

acp anda’s using her sleuthing skillz. at least they’re showing some result in this one area. abhi locket bhi dhoond le meri maa, aur yahaan se chalti ban. 😒😒😒

HBIC - Head Bhaujai In Charge 😂😂😂😂 - breaking it down for her two emotionally challenged little chele. 

awwwwwwww, bhaabi explaining om’s silent behaviour to gauri. *weeping* my brOTP. give me more aniKaraaaaaaaaaaa. 😭😭😭

what fucking thand, its fucking july in mumbai. the lowest it gets is like 25 celcius. kuchhhhhh bhi, awaaaaaaiiii 😒😒😒 (shravan ki chachi from edkv style) 

anika, PhD in Obros and their moodswings. 🤓🤓🤓

pffffffffft, don’t be lecturing and teaching anika about SABR. koi aur hoti toh kabka is manhooos ghar aur parivaar ko aag laga ke chali jaati. ek anika hai, is liye abhi tak zinda bache hue hai. 😒😒😒

gauri has to be chutki. she just has to. please god. i need her and anika to be sisters. i need my two awesome queens to be sistersssssssss. 👭🏽👭🏽👭🏽

yes please bhavya, please be actually useful for once. locket toh dhoond nahi rahi ho. saboot hi dhoond do. 😑😑😑

YAAAAAAH BOIIIIIIIIIIII NAARI SSSSSSAKTI JINDABAAD. ✊🏽✊🏽✊🏽

lmao tej couldn’t handle svetlana’s hotness. she LITERALLY took his breath away. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

uncle, budhdhaape mein apna libido control kijiye. umar nahi rahi aapki. 😆😆😆

god, just DIE already, tej. you’re such a waste of precious oxygen. 😑😑😑

jhanvi is just sooooo nice and calming and... god she deserves so much better than this crap. someone give her the happiness she deserves, please. 😪😪😪

meanwhile pinky madam is on her sleuthing trip. acp toh inhe hona chahiye tha. not that useless bhavya/ranveer. 😒😒😒

whut? even using shivaaaaaay’s name didn’t work? WILL WONDERS NEVER CEASE????????? 🙄🙄🙄

LMAO, yuppppppppp, there it is. the way to get anything done in india. 💸💸💸💸💸💸💸💸💸

WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK HE USED OMKARA’S NAME, THE SHAMELESS ASSHOLE. 😟😟😟

YAAAAS PINKY, FUCK HIM UPPPPPPPPPPPPPP! 😈😈😈

it feels so good to be rooting for pinky again! 😊😊😊

“yeh maine dil se kiya hai, majboori mein nahi.” 

oh my heart. omki. my sweet, soft, full of love, omki. 😍😍😍

OH OMKIIIIIIII. I DIDN’T THINK I COULD LOVE YOU MORE THAN I DO. BUT I DOOOOOOOO. *WEEPING* I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

girl go find him and kisssss him. kissssss him on the mouthhhhhhh. 💏🏽💏🏽💏🏽

sigh. gauri is so soft and sweet and smol. so perfect for my omki. 😌😌😌 *smooshes then both together* 

ok after a heartfelt handmade drawing of her mom, rudra’s gift of ande and gym equipment to bhavya is feeling especially unromantic. learn from your brother, rudra! 🙄🙄🙄

lo, anika ke liye bhi gift. koi prime day ya flipkart ki sale chal rahi thi kya? 🤔🤔🤔

ek aur phoneeeeeee! 🙃🙃🙃

haaaye, remember that super sexy way he gave her the first one? one of my faaaaav shivika scenes ever. 💖💖💖

“mujhe sirf apna phone todne ka haq hai, tumhara nahi.”

lol, what about prinku’s phone that he threw in the pool in one of the first episodes? 😆😆😆

and the time he threw anika’s phone on the floor and stomped on it during the amnesia games, when she was pretending to talk to rohit??? 🙃🙃🙃

girl i hope you’d backed up your old phone. all those videos you’d made of him before leavingggggggg. 😭😭😭

girls are on all-expenses-paid Guilt Trip, sponsored by the oBros. well played, boys. well played. 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

OUFF OH PINKY. PEHLE ROOM TAK JAAKAR DEKHTI TOH SAHI. 😫😫😫

le, taiii taiii phis. next time, plan better, pinky! 😐😐😐

haaaye, look at these teen bechaare, pyaar ke maare. esp my poor omki. *hugs him super tight* 🤗🤗🤗

 “MAINE APNE ANDE DIYE USKO!!!!!!!!!!!!” 

hahahahaha shivaay and omki’s faces at that very strange statement. 😂😂😂

“arre sunaati toh woh gauri hai...” snort. tune bhi toh kaafi kuch sunaaya tha. le ab bhugat. 😊😊😊

“galat matlab nikaalna toh koi anika se seekhe.” pffffffffft. hello kettle, this is pot. YOU’RE BLACK. 🙄🙄🙄

also, clearly, you are sooooo disturbed by anika’s accusation about a person that you literally give zero fucks about, that you went shopping for a gift for her. nice. totally makes sense. 😒😒😒

lol these fucking idiots and their butthurt feelings. they’re suchhhhh assholes to the girls, but one time they get yelled at, they’re all sitting here as if they’re the most bechaaare victims in the world. 🙄🙄🙄

lo, baby bomb phattttt chuka. 🙊🙊🙊

LMAOOOOOO THE GESTURING. 😂😂😂

snort, their conclusion is that it’s OBVIOUSLY 23 YEAR OLD RUDRA crying like a fucking baby. 😆😆😆

how is the baby even BREATHING, with the way that damn basket is packed? 😧😧😧

meanwhile, Guilty Girls’ Gang is on Mission: Maafi 😕😕😕

lol their faaaaaaaaces. as if approaching a literal bomb. 💣💣💣

“main isse hilaaon kya?”

lmaooooooo what? why would you do that??? 😟😟😟

also my mind just went instantly to the dirty meaning of “hilaana”, so i had to pause the video and cackle for 2 minutes. 😆😆😆

om (repeatedly, in genuinely confused tone): “lekin ismein HAI kya?” 

this fucking idiot. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

as usual, shivaay has to do all the work. 🙄🙄🙄

MY GOD, OPEN IT TODAY. 😤😤😤

ok, we get it. nakuul has kanji aankhein. bloody, close up lene ke chakkar mein camera uske bheje mein ghusaaoge kya? 😒😒😒

snort, pinky doing subtleeeee OMM of jethji. 😈😈😈

oh no, please don’t create rift in this sisterhood. i need pinky and jhanvi to be a team! 😥😥😥 

yo man, when pinky of all ppl starts spitting the truth like this.... 🤐🤐🤐

dammmmn pinky, you smart! i’m so glad you got proof! 😇😇😇

“meri imagination itni wild kaisi ho gayi???”

beta tumhari imagination toh suhaag raat waale episodes mein dekh hi liya tha humne. it was always kaaafi wild. 😏😏😏

oh, it’s a baby girl? 😊😊😊

... oberoi sons could include tej and shakti too, no? 🤔🤔🤔

ok really, i do nottttttt like babies usually, but god damn, that is one cuteeeeeasssss baby. look at its gapuchiiiiiiii cheeeeeks!!!! 😚😚😚

LMAO INSTANT ACCUSATION ON RUDRA HAHAHA 😂😂😂😂

omggggg omki’s reaction like “oh come on!” 😆😆😆

snort, doosra baby daddy waala accusation on shivaay in less than 6 months. how many times does this one poor celibate man have to go through this shit???? 😂😂😂

grownass men, talking about how babies come from god. jesus. 🙄🙄🙄

lmao i love when omki gets mad at rudra for being stupid. 😂😂😂

“PEHLE FAKE SHAADI, AB FAKE BABY; MUJHE LAGTA HAI YEH BABY BHI EK POLICE HAI!!!!!!!”

bet this baby would still be a better police officer than acp anda and acp psycho tho. 😕😕😕

kunal is killlllling it with the physical comedy today. i can’t stop laughing at him. 😂😂😂😂

arre make bulbul call her bade bhaiyya instead of this acp anda. he can’t resist bulbul’s sweet sisterly vibe. 😌😌😌

i really don’t care about this tejVi nonsense right now. 🙄🙄🙄

oh boy bhavya is going to break yet another door down. 😬😬😬

LOLOLOLOL right to the gut. also hey, isn’t that anika’s chameli?????? 😯😯😯

“kaaam kar rahe the? aur AAP? *snort* aap toh koi kaam karte hi nahi hai.” 

lol pettttt pe toh laath mar hi diya, ab yeh below the belt bhi maar rahi hai. 🤣🤣🤣

bhavya ko toh rafa dafa kar diya, chulbul bhaaabi ko kaise karogeeee rudyyyyyy? 🙃🙃🙃

i like when bhavya says “kambakhat”. idk why, but it’s hilaaaarious to me. 😁😁😁

raaare rift between oBros, as they accuse each other of doing the dirty. 😋😋😋

baby se zyaada rona toh in logo ko aa raha hai. 😂😂😂