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my favorite emotion is when someone does something kinda foolish and all you can say is “i love you” in response

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Lena! First off, I hope you're doing splendidly. Your posts always make my day better. Second, I had a mad idea that I'd love your take on but if it's not to your liking, feel free to ignore it. I was listening to the Pride and Prejudice soundtrack today and the thought struck me of which of our beloved clones is like which Jane Austen hero? Wolffe totally gives me Mr. Darcy vibes and I can see Fives as Mr. Tilney (young, handsome, likes to dance, likes to tease, probably understands muslin). Would you be willing to share your thoughts on any of the clones? If you throw in Waxer and Howzer, I'll love you even more than I already do. You're marvelous. Thank you thank you!

LOVE this concept. Mansfield Park is the only Austen story I'm not at all familiar with, so I'll exclude any gentlemen from that one. But here's what I think about the others and their similarities with the clones...

Wolffe is like Mr. Darcy... He's proud, yes, but further, he's a man of duty and principle. He knows what he wants and has no time for things that fall short of those standards. He is a steadfast friend for life, even taking a hit to his own reputation (or life) to save them. In a romantic partner, he'd need someone unafraid to call out his BS, but also patient enough to let him learn his lesson and try again... and he'll always try to do better for the ones he loves.

...Some similarities: Crosshair

Wrecker is like Mr. Bingley... He may not be the brightest star in the sky, but he sure is the most sincere and kindhearted. What you see is what you get with him. He gets along with everybody, making friends wherever he goes, and tends not to get too upset over things. He does, however, get easily flustered, especially when his heart is involved. He'd match with someone who is just as sweet and easygoing as he is, and together they won't have a complaint in the galaxy.

...Some similarities: Tup

Fives is like Mr. Tilney... He's charming and he's playful, he's smart and he's soft. Though he may be private about some matters, overall he's fair and honest and has a very calm but confident demeanor. And yes, he does have a unique appreciation for fashion unfound in other clones. Such a range of traits means he will first and foremost be a friend before a lover, though once shifted to the latter, will have plenty of teasing fun. He'll love someone who can surprise him in return.

...Some similarities: Howzer

Rex is like Captain Wentworth... On the outside he's a strong, dashing trooper, calm and collected in any room he finds himself in. But underneath the politeness and agreeableness is a bleeding heart, a sense of duty that often causes him to strain past his limits. He wants to do the right thing, even if it's at the expense of his own feelings. While he can maintain all sorts of friendships, the only romantic interest he'll have is in someone who knows their mind and sticks to it.

...Some similarities: Hunter

Cody is like Colonel Brandon... Really puts the sense in sensibility, am I right? Faithful, admirable, and smart... he's not old, just "seasoned." He knows which fights are worth having and which are just petty drama to stay out of. He's very generous with his time and resources, but in more of a subtle, working in the background kind of way. His loved ones will have a comfortable life if it's the last thing he does. He may not be traditionally romantic, but his patience and devotion more than make up for it.

...Some similarities: Fox

Echo is like Edward Ferrars... He's another duty-bound gentleman who sometimes gets in the way of his own happiness by choosing to follow what's expected of him over his own heart. He's a fan of good company and good conversation, and can generally get along with anyone. Though his personality may not be as charming, or his looks as flashy, he'd still be able to easily endear himself to a partner of equally good character and heart, once he had no other conflicting interests.

...Some similarities: Dogma

Kix is like Mr. Knightley... He is a sharp, perceptive man who looks out for both his friends and community as if they were family. His maturity serves as a good balance to his more, let's say, chaotic acquaintances, though he's not above having a bit of fun when it makes sense. Despite having such a good head on his shoulders, he can't help but be attracted to someone on the wilder side. Some would say they actually enjoy arguing, probably because they secretly know it helps them both grow.

...Some similarities: Tech

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On Alexander, Angelica and Eliza

Heres some long-ass personal interpretation based on the musical that nobody following this blog signed up for lol. Not gonna be touching on history coz i’m no expert and there’re ppl way more qualified for that. and it’s good to keep things separated.

there’re obviously many similarities between the two A’s. Both are witty, outspoken, center of attention, and a bit of a flirt. To me, the most interesting trait shared by both is their awareness: They know exactly where they stand socially, and subsequently, how to play by the rules to climb up. This clear awareness is where I got the idea for the staircase drawings. “i’m a girl in a world in which my only job is to marry rich/ my father has no sons so i’m the one who has to social climb for one” is a demonstration of Angelica’s awareness, just as “As a kid in the Caribbean I wished for a war/ I knew that I was poor/ I knew it was the only way to rise up” shows Alexander’s.

it’s different for Eliza - i know as the show proceeds, she gradually becomes more ambitious and active, but in Who Lives Who Dies Who Tells Your Story, what she asks, instead of how to rise up, is: “Have I done enough?” this quiet insistence is why i always see her as someone who does things because she thinks it’s a right thing to do, no matter whether that thing in question would benefit her personally or not. sure, she gives off "cinnamon roll" vibes, but girl’s no less strong or badass than Alexander or Angelica.

More under cut coz I’m incapable of being concise:

Angelica:

what always strikes me as interesting about Angelica is the contrast of what she says vs. what she does.

In The Schuyler Sisters, the majority of her lines are about empowering women, which, I think, is where the depiction of Angelica as an angry feminist comes from in some fanfics. But in Satisfied, we see she plays squarely by the rules of patriarchy and social classes (the three fundamental truths part). 

Similarly, in TSS, she says "so men say I'm intense or I'm insane", seemingly unbothered, if not lowkey proud, by these comments, but in Satisfied, she talks about the resulting gossip if she were to marry Alexander. 

I saw a post which expressed that Angelica thinks like Alexander but acts like Burr, and I agree. She has a sharp mind and is unafraid to speak out, like Alexander, but she’s also got things to lose, like Burr. Having family responsibilities means that she does not, and cannot, act without restrictions and hesitations like Hamilton. She doesn't necessarily wait it out like Burr, but she does think things thru, because the important decisions she makes carry enough weight to not only affect the future of herself but also of her family.

I had mentioned in an old post that Satisfied is basically Angelica assessing cost & gain for each of the options she has, for all the parties involved. even though that song's ending has mixed feelings and it's DEFINITELY a heartbreaking song, Angelica's choice did maximize the gain for everyone at the time: She was able to maintain her bond with Alexander and married rich to ensure her material comfort. Alexander was able to marry a Schuyler and elevate his status. Eliza got the boy she loved and was happily married. She even foresaw some possible challenges the newly wed Hamiltons were likely to face (“He’ll never be satisfied”).

She knows she lives in a world of patriarchy; she isn't happy with it, but she knows how to take advantage of the system as much as she can. She knows how to be the center of attention, be charming, and appeal to ppl. She knows what kind of husband is beneficial to have. She knows how to influence politics in her own way (take a break). Part of why I found Satisfied so sad is that her mind and her heart wish for two different things. Angelica is a realist, over everything else. She can be a feminist, but definitely not an angry one.

Alexander:

I talked a bit abt him in an older post on Maria - and a lot of what I said abt Maria applies to him. If the challenge Angelica was facing is invisible societal restrictions on women, what Alexander faces is purely regarding survival. Having needed to fight and compete for resources, I imagine he's at least somewhat influenced by the philosophy of social darwinism. I also said, in the same post, that I don't think he'd be really inclined to help ppl in the same difficulty he used to be in, for the same reason. If he could make it this far with his own hard work, how would it be fair to make things easier for others now? Would those ppl even deserve their success now the bar has been lowered? It's not exactly a right way of thinking, but it's also hard to blame him. after having to compete for resource w others in order to climb up, it’s hard to change the mentality.

I've seen a music analysis (by Howard Ho on YouTube) on Hurricane, and it concludes that when Hamilton was singing that song, he wasn't exactly recalling the past - he's been mentally living in that reality and never truly left. (There's similar remarks that Hamilton's past in the Caribbean had always plagued him despite his power and position in Chernow's biography, but we're only analyzing the musical here.) He never fully turned off his survival mode.

To clarify: by survival mode, I don't literally mean he fights to survive. He didn't exactly show a strong will to survive and was quite willing to give up his life for noble causes, up until he met Eliza. What I meant is, he remembers being destitute and helpless, he remembers seeing deaths of trivial importance, so he fights to be as far away from destitution and helplessness as possible, he fights to have the opportunity to die a glorious and noble death. Because to be able to die for something matters is still a privilege. No matter how high up he rose to position, his insecurity that he may end up losing those never faded away. This raw energy, I guess, is what gradually turned the others in the musical to be more like him.

Eliza:

Eliza seems to be the one who's the most content abt their situations out of the three. After all, one of her motifs in the musical is "look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now", and the other one is “that would be enough”. 

ppl usually say Helpless and Satisfied should be listened back to back (and nothing wrong with that), but comparing these two songs, Helpless doesn’t explore as much of Eliza’s character as Satisfied does Angelica. Throughout Helpless, she’s spent most of the song narrating what happened and falling head over heels for Alexander. As for her first appearance in TSS, she doesn’t have as much of a voice and show of character in comparison to Angelica, Burr, other Peggy either. 

The first moment we truly see her thoughts is in That Would Be Enough. It’s also in this song, her two other motifs (”that would be enough” and “narrative”) are introduced. Unlike Alexander and Angelica at that point of story, she’s happy with her life, wants it to remain that way, and doesn’t ask for more. 

i dont mean she’s not ambitious like the other two - she’s driven, but by other things. she doesn’t think of legacy, material comfort, status, position, etc. as important as Angelica and Alexander, as we can see in Burn. it’s not that she doesn’t know the rules - girl’s not playing the game at all. 

unlike the two A’s, Eliza’s growth happens in the second act. Angelica’s barely in the second act, and in the same act we see Alexander’s most trusted weapon, writing, contributing to his downfall. but for Eliza, she turns from the observer in Helpless, the supporter in That Would Be Enough, to the only one on stage in Burn, and to being the center of stage in Who Lives Who Dies Who Tells Your Story. in the second act we see her going thru the series of most crushing heartaches: Reynolds Pamphlet, death of Phillip, and death of Alexander, but we also see her strength. she’s a good person, but ppl usually forget that being nice takes energy and strength too. it takes strength to support, to forgive, to mourn the passing of your loved ones, and to preserve their memories and legacy. she shines and grows after overcoming the loss and heartbreaks. Angelica says in Satisfied “she’d say 'i’m fine' but she’d be lying”, i don’t think she’s giving Eliza enough credit for her mental strength there lol. 

side note: this is where i got idea for the eliza art from a few days ago - kintsugi represents the idea that your wound becomes your history and forms part of who you are, rather than something ugly to be ashamed of. I think it fits well with Eliza’s development.

Congrats! you’ve made it till the end! don’t know why u’d do that, but thanks! 

if u’re reading this feel free to send me a simple art request to compensate the time u took reading my bullshit

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Glee - Kurt Hummel Type 4w3

Kurt is dramatic, creative and ambitious. He is proud of who he is and is unafraid of being himself even when it might not be approved by others. Kurt has a desire to be special and unique, he channels this through his singing as well as his love for fashion. He is passionate about his image and projecting an appearance that reflects who he is. This can be seen throughout the series with his different outfits and aesthetics in his own clothing and decorating at home.

At his best, Kurt becomes inspired and hardworking to achieve his visions. We can see that he is able to do this when he is interning at the fashion magazine and he is excelling at the work given, but he is also self-aware and supportive of Isabelle as a boss. At his worst, Kurt becomes reactive and will then withdraw from those he loves. He can hide his true feelings from the people close to him and will push them away. We see Kurt’s withdrawn and reactive nature after the death of Finn, as he feels lost without him.

Kurt has a tendency of romanticising love interests. He begins by doing this with Finn and he is enamoured with Blaine from the moment he meets him and wants to be in relationship with him as he thinks he will be soulmate. He is very open with his feelings and sharing this with Blaine. At times, he can become over-dramatic and overreact to situations or he will withdraw from Blaine.  

Despite beginning the relationship much more interested in Blaine and wanting to gain his attention, when he believed that Blaine was not giving him enough attention he started to have an emotional affair. He enjoyed how he felt while texting with another boy as he wanted to have that validation from Blaine. Rather than discussing this with Blaine he withdrew from him and began to look to external comforts for satisfaction. 

Kurt will also become very insecure and jealous in his relationships. He worries about not being enough for Blaine and is very threatened when Sebastian is pursuing Blaine. He shows this through his interactions with Sebastian where he is trying to prove that he is not worried about him and he is sure that Blaine is committed to him.

At his core Kurt believes he is different from other people and worries if they will accept him. He is nervous about coming out to his dad as he sees his dad as being very masculine. However, Burt is very supportive of Kurt and always is. He also battles with this in the earlier seasons when he pretends to date Mercedes. As he matures and comes out he is no longer afraid to be himself and express himself. He really comes into his own and is unapologetic about being different.

Kurt has a strong wing 3 as he is very image conscious, success driven and more open and extroverted than a wing 5. He also wants to prove his worth to the Glee club and is vying for solos to show his talent.

Tritype: 4w3-6w7-9w1

Some quotes to describe Kurt’s motivations:

“Every moment of your life is an opportunity for fashion.”

“My dad bought it for me when he made me promise to stop wearing form-fitting sweaters that stop at the knee. [camera shows he is wearing one] What he doesn't know won't hurt him.”

“Although I've been grouped with the boys, my allegiance remains with you ladies. They declined my offer to do their hair in cornrows, and all my artistic decisions have been derided as too costly because they involve several varieties of exotic bird feathers.”

“ He was my knight-in-shining armour. My feelings lingered stronger as we bonded over Glee, then football, then skincare.”

“You don’t know what it’s like being your boyfriend, you are like the alpha-gay.” “I want my senior year to be magic, and the only way that's gonna happen is if I get to spend every minute of every day with you.” 

“You don't ask me to come out of the shadows. You help me to move away anything that's blocking the sun. It's time for all of us to walk into the sunshine together, forever. Is that something you want to do?”

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Astrology guesses for Sasuke  pt-2

I personally don’t have the best (or in anyway complete) grasp on practically any of the characters, specially Sasuke (despite him being my favorite character). Also I would appreciate it if shippers stay away from this particular post. 

With that out of the way, lets talk about pluto. (incomplete, will edit later)

Pluto is a generational planet so in order to discuss it, we need to take into account generational themes and also note that the theme associated with the sign it is in will be present throughout the generation (keep in mind that the transformation wont necessarily be successful but it will be a theme). In order to have an easier time with this and narrow down our options I will start with natal house placements and potential house overlays and aspects. Afterwards we will have a look at the time line and transformational themes across generations. We might not come to one definite conclusion. 

I have no doubt that Sasuke has pluto in harsh aspect to his personal planets. I say this because not only is he often seen as a scorpio by viewers but all his significant relationships are plutonian in nature and everyone is out to control him. Pluto is generational while personal placements aren’t which means That it makes sense for a whole generation (from itachi to naruto) to be so obsessive, manipulative and controlling towards him (or at least be inclined to do so).

If we go by my guesses in pt-1 of this series, we have 4 main signs to start with.

aquarius -> naruto = 7th, sasuke = 1st

leo -> naruto = 1st, sasuke = 7th

taurus -> naruto = 10th, sasuke = 4th

scorpio -> naruto = 4th, sasuke = 10th

I’ll jot down the potential aspects to sasuke’s personal planets bellow and then we will get to natal and synastry interpretations for both aspects and house placements. The ascendant ones are out of sign and are possible but not certain also the moon and mercury ones wont necessarily be both (could only be one) but the 1st decan ones (other than ascendant) would be at the same time and would exist if pluto is there. Another thing to note is that it is possible for his mars to be in the 3rd decan instead of the 1st (opposite his moon instead of square his sun and saturn but still in 10th) therefore for a more comprehensive exploration we will have a look at alternative possibilities in later posts, if possible.

pluto in aquarius (1st decan) -> opposite sun, square mars, conjunct asc

pluto in aquarius (2nd or 3rd decan) -> square moon, opposite mercury

pluto in leo (1st decan) -> conjunct sun, square mars, opposite asc

pluto in leo (2nd or 3rd decan) ->square moon, conjunct mercury

pluto in taurus (1st decan) -> square sun, opposite mars, square asc

pluto in taurus (2nd or 3rd decan) -> conjunct moon, square mercury

pluto in scorpio (1st decan) -> square sun, conjunct mars, square asc

pluto in scorpio (2nd or 3rd decan) -> opposite moon, square mercury

I’ll lay down the information first and then discuss my personal opinion on the subject.

Here are some short descriptions for pluto in the houses (natal) from cafe astrology:

1st->

You radiate intensity, and others’ first impressions of you tend to be strong, one way or the other. You might often intimidate others with your manner. You can be very protective of your privacy, yet you generate much intrigue and interest with your strong presence. You might struggle with fears of being overpowered, rejected, or minimized, yet few are able to guess that you could be anything less than confident. Your first instinct in new situations is gutsy and determined, defensive and intense. You rarely accept the obvious or the surface of matters — instead you look through situations in order to read any information on hidden levels. Strive to avoid getting your back up or viewing life as a battleground.

7th->

With Pluto in the seventh house of the horoscope, power struggles in close personal relationships are themes. This can play out in a variety of ways. You might simultaneously fear and desire complete absorption in a close one-to-one relationship. You might find yourself both drawn to and resistant of close partnerships, fearing loss of control over your own life. You might be drawn to people who are intense, jealous, possessive, or obsessive, or possibly who you feel are powerful. On the other hand, your own resistance can bring out control issues in a partner, who fears the loss of you or your betrayal. In fact, you might bring out the “worst” in others by your relationship behavior — you tend to be the catalyst for others to discover their more primal instincts and fears. Never underestimate your role in this interplay, and don’t make the mistake of thinking that you are simply a victim. You also discover your own power through your relationships, and this may or may not be comfortable. How you deal with it determines outcomes. You might feel trapped in a difficult relationship, or have a hard time finding the deep connection that you crave. Obsession in your interactions with partners can be a big theme in your life. Watch that you don’t project your own urge for control onto your partner. Strive to come to terms with your own intense and deep-seated fear of losing someone you love and fear of betrayal, or you will meet these energies repeatedly in your closest relationships.

4th->

Early experiences may have led you to feel self-protective or to be secretive about yourself. A parent might have been secretive or ashamed, for example, and this pattern is deeply ingrained in your psyche. You might feel a sense of guilt for where you came from, even if most of you feel proud of your roots. A parent might have encouraged you to look beyond the surface of matters, and might have encouraged in you a love for psychology. A parent might have been very protective of you and attempted to shield you from negative experiences, and you subsequently grew to fear change. Or, your early experiences might have included a shocking, intense, or scary event that lives within you. Alternatively, you might have absorbed the strong fears or obsessions of a parent.

10th->

There is something very unique about you that makes you stand out from the crowd. Your ambition may be well-developed, or you pursue your goals with great focus and determination. You might have a strong interest in research, making improvements, understanding how things work, and transformation and these are qualities that you use most notably in your career or in your dealings with the public. Some of you could have a parent who is/was quite driven or work(ed) in healing or research professions. Your personal presence is strong, and you may find that you might inspire love-hate reactions as a result, particularly in your professional experiences. Nevertheless, you can be very persuasive when you choose to be. You have an especially strong sense of commitment and responsibility, but you are unafraid of going against the grain or bucking traditions if you feel they are outdated. Sometimes with this position, there are deep issues that need to be confronted revolving around the relationship with the father. Many of you are perfectionists and especially detail-oriented, particularly on a professional level. You tend to naturally take the lead, and you don’t always enjoy being in the position of a subordinate.

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Now lets write a basic interpretation for natal aspects:

-sun

conjunction:

The need to shine, be seen or be the center of attention, is integral to the multi-life empowerment journey. A person with this aspect is learning about empowerment through developing and expressing creativity, being willing to have and share opinions, and generally take up space and be noticed. A major need is to leave a personal mark on the world.

The disempowerment in many lifetimes involves not being seen, having the voice shouted over or lost in a crowd, power struggles with others possessing strong egos, pride, self-aggrandizement, arrogance, and needing but not getting attention or recognition. This person will have a strong (and perhaps dominant) personality whether he or she likes it or not, and past pain that has festered into anger may be very obvious. Alternatively, the person might try to hide his or her ego or creativity in an effort to avoid being seen or competed with, as that has been a source of difficulty in many lifetimes.

square:

The person’s empowerment path over many lifetimes has been criticized, pressured, or been in friction with others with strong personalities and egos. The chart holder is learning about egoic energy through pressure to change from those with charisma, creative streaks, and social status (popular). The pressure might come from a leader, or someone else others orbit.

Disempowerment in many lifetimes can come from being shamed, teased in public, controlled, dominated, coercion or being forced into doing something against one’s will and moral compass. All of these things can occur when the Sun influence perceives a need to knock the chart holder down a peg or two, or put him or her in his or her place. This path is one involving learning about what power really is: Is it having the attention of others and bullying, or is it in true and unapologetic self-knowledge and self-acceptance?

The chart holder may somehow seem to find conflict with charismatic, dramatic, popular others everywhere he or she goes. To own positive Sun qualities and overcome beliefs from the past are key.

opposition:

The chart holder has in many lifetimes felt blocked, confronted, or stopped in his or her tracks by others who are or seem dominant or powerful, or have the ears of many. This could be a leader of some kind, or an entertaining figure who’s orbited by others for some reason.

The chart holder will have had a contentious relationship with strong egoic energy in many lifetimes. The result can be that, at the first sign of resistance from strong-seeming others, they rise up in defense or yield a bit too quickly. This person is learning over many lifetimes about the true nature of power and overcoming fear of shadows within, eventually becoming able to work through power issues in various kinds of relationships while standing his or her ground, neither believing that battle or being a wallflower is automatically necessary. Part of this path is in speaking truth to power, but beginning it within the self.

-mars

conjunction:

The best and worst experiences in many lifetimes for the person are intertwined with Martian behaviors, attitudes, and experiences. The person is learning over time how to become strong and confident through making self-assertive choices. He or she is in process of learning the right ways to use Mars, including learning to come out lifetimes of fear and pain when it comes to using Mars energy. It’s possible that he or she has felt forced to attack or defend the self (or family, religion, culture, nation, etc.) and now carries guilt, shame, and regret when it comes to using Mars energy in any way. The result can be someone overly aggressive (but who would like not to be), someone passive-aggressive, or someone with significant buried anger afraid to show or act upon it.

The point of this aspect is to learn to use Mars energy in healthy ways. To get there, you have to overcome fear, pain, guilt, shame, etc., sourced in unhealthy expressions from the past. You need to learn you don’t have to defend yourself, and you don’t have to pre-emptively take things to make sure they are not taken from you. Finally, Mars’ desire energy has been a source of difficulty in many lifetimes from both sides (when you have desired and been wounded as a result, and when you have been desired by others and been wounded as a result), and a grounded approach to healthy desire – both sexually and otherwise – needs to be explored so that you do not lose power if you do not get what you want and don’t feel powerful if you do.

square:

Along the path to Plutonian empowerment, Mars people, situations, and issues have brought pressure and friction to you in many lifetimes. This signature is one that indicates power struggles, yet with various kinds of outcomes. In many lives you have been on both sides of what looks like winning and losing, and along the way have experienced a great deal of conflict with others who appear or threaten to have more power than you do. Some with this aspect have become conditioned to hide their will, desire, fire, and “yes/no” function, while others have become conditioned to be live with tension and anxiety, never really knowing if they are safe and can relax. Through war, bullying, intimidation, competition, and abuse of any kind, a person with this natal aspect has been through the ringer when it comes to fighting and defense, and is likely tired of the fight.

Resolution of the tension involves owning the power to say “yes, please” when you want something and “no, thank you” when you do not. This is basic (and likely seems too simplistic to provide anything of value), but it is critical that you reclaim the willingness to use Mars within you in its most basic expression. Along the way, you’ll have to heal and release fears of being overpowered or abused (or, even, killed). With this aspect you have seen in some lifetimes minor conflicts turn deadly, and you must now learn healthy conflict and to own the confidence that you have the right to choose as you desire. Saying “no” to someone does not have to mean a terrible outcome, and it’s time that you learn to own the power to do so.

opposition:

With the planets opposing in your chart, it’s an indicator that Mars people, situations, and issues have blocked you from being or feeling able to pursue and achieve your empowerment in many lifetimes. Oppositions can challenge and confront us, making us aware of something about ourselves that leaves us feeling stripped bare and vulnerable. With these energies, you’re doing the thing that will give your life meaning and make you feel that you matter (Pluto) and finding resistance and challenges from strong-willed others willing to fight (Mars). The result can be that you expect a fight all the time, even when others are trying to help and support you. You might also buckle at the first sign of someone else’s desires competing with or being the opposite of yours. This is because you in many lifetimes have become exhausted through the struggle to make happen what matters to you most.

In some lives, you rise to the occasion and feel that you win against Martian sources. In others, you feel run down and lose life force energy in the process. Either way, it’s important now that you learn to discern not just what’s worth fighting for and why, but also if there is even any conflict in a given situation. You can overcome feeling that fiery others are adversaries and that you have to fight to prove that you and your cause are worthy, and this will require understanding that winning and losing are not the point of Plutonian empowerment. Instead, it’s all about self-knowledge and self-acceptance. When you see this, you can see others who bring Mars energy to you not as enemies and foils but as those who are in your life to pull out of you your deepest strength and sense of conviction.

-moon

conjunct:

The multilife empowerment journey is inextricably intertwined with issues related to family, belonging, emotions of all kinds, and dealing with and addressing needs. The person will feel deeply and strongly, and might have found family when young not being able to understand or hold space for what – and the depth to which – he or she processed emotionally.

In some lives, this conjunction indicates not being accepted by family, or being taken away from them. It can also be that a person needs to leave family, community, and/or home in order to be fully authentic and honor the self. Adoption, grief from the loss of family, and feeling/being disconnected from home and a sense of safety and security with tribe are all parts of this journey.

Being a parent holds special weight (though not all with this aspect will opt for it) because there are both many happy and unhappy memories from various lifetimes related to it. Some with this placement will not seem to grow up, still waiting for the family of origin to support and validate their needs.

Critical to this conjunction is processing, expressing, and moving through emotional blocks. Empowerment here rests on the chart holder validating his or own feelings, needs, and experiences, even if no one has, will, or can.

square:

Along the chart holder’s empowerment journey, he or she will experience friction with or criticism from/to family, community, and people close to him or her. It may be that family in some lives tells the person that love is conditional, as long as he or she conforms to their expectations. It can also be that the values and lifestyle of the person are different enough from his or her family so that he or she doesn’t feel entirely welcome or safe.

One result is that the person isn’t sure now if he or she has support or will be supported if pursuing what matters most to him or her. This aspect points to many lifetimes of conflict with family, and in some lifetimes this conflict can be deeply harmful. The chart holder might not trust the self to make the right decisions (since seemingly everyone who loves him or her doesn’t understand or support a core part of him or her – there must be something wrong with him or her), or might always keep others at bay just in case they turn out not to be supportive.

This aspect describes both a need to learn about the true nature of family, security, and belonging and a need to learn to take care of one’s self in the most important and meaningful ways. Just because this person has been close to others who doesn’t get his or her core self doesn’t mean that that core self is invalid, but the chart holder is the only person who can make that self-validating decision.

opposition:

In many lifetimes when working to become empowered, strong, and confident, the chart holder will find him- or herself at odds with family, community, and those closest to him or her. It’s possible that loved ones are or seem unavailable to the chart holder because they’re dealing with their own issues, unable to give him or her the attention, nurturing, and care that he or she needs.

This aspect indicates a need to learn about where one belongs and where love comes from. Some with this aspect will not feel that they can work with their families of origin due to a history of finding out that their families deeply do not want for them what they want for themselves. Some will seek out other families (tribes) or create their own families in order to heal a sense of belonging, while others might feel isolated and live through loneliness as they process feeling/being at odds with those who love them.

In the end, the healing process involves learning from loved ones how to validate the self and, if possible, remain connected to family and community.

-mercury

conjunction:

The empowerment journey of the soul is inextricably linked to Mercurial issues. The chart holder will have an intense, perhaps obsessive curiosity and need to get at the truth, while sometimes simultaneously dreading it. Being deceived is painful for this person but beyond it, he or she has phenomenal radar for dishonesty, being able to sense it a mile away. In many lifetimes, truth and lies figure prominently in all aspects of the Pluto path, and this person may now be dealing with the results of having or being forced to lie for some reason in many lifetimes.

This aspect is also about having or being denied access to education, being able or not able to speak one’s truth, and the very basic human intellectual function of asking questions and getting answers. It could be that the person in many lives has become disempowered through learning difficult truths or, perhaps, delivering them to others verbally or in print.

The healing path involves being willing to face/own the truth and bring honesty to all situations.

square:

In many lifetimes, the person’s ability to manifest Plutonian strength and confidence is met with friction, pressure, and criticism from communicators, teachers, and writers – those who generate and carry information. Such people will challenge the assumptions according to which the chart holder will do this most important part of living, and he or she may carry difficult emotional residues from arguing, being called out, and having to defend him- or herself. It can also be that some type of information itself is what brings the tension, as when you get an answer to your question and it makes your life harder.

Squares have the inherent feeling that one says to the other, “You’re doing it wrong – here: do it this way.” As a result, the chart holder might expect conflict with and difficulty from people who in some way live out the symbolism of Mercury. The most critical self-esteem thing in many lifetimes, after all, has been interfered with by Mercurial people and, sometimes, what they say has messed everything up for the chart holder. He or she may also resist giving in to new information or learning many new things, as there can be unconscious memories from many lifetimes that new information just might signal the beginning of the end.

opposition:

The person’s journey to become empowered and make his or her life meaningful in numerous lives is blocked, challenged, and ground to a halt by Mercurial people. They tell him or her new information that slows down the most important thing he or she has to do for the self. This can also be about the revelation of new information or details, and also potentially involves the chart holder’s closely guarded personal information being made public in some way. Whether this is fact or rumor makes no difference – damage can be done.

As a result, the chart holder might have a contentious relationships with various kinds of Mercurial people. He or she may feel a need to keep too many things private, fearing being made a laughingstock. This can affect the chart holder’s relationship to basic education and doing research on his or her own behalf, potentially having developed beliefs/karma that too much information – as well as the kinds of people who traffic in it more than most – can get in the way of what he or she perceives truly needs to be done.

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Lets go onto synastry house overlays (usually with synastry people write them with romance in mind but we can still get a general understanding of how they will show up in platonic/family relationships):

1th->

Positively the Pluto person can help the house person transform areas in their life in which they need transformation. In the negative the Pluto person can be bossy, controlling, dominating, pushy, manipulative or a whole slew of other negative Pluto traits. The house person might find the Pluto person to be too overbearing. The Pluto person likely has a very powerful personality and presence. However, if used appropriately the Pluto person can help the house person become more dominant and to learn to set proper boundaries with others or to take better care of themselves or any other positive transformation. Negatively this placement can point to obsession, manipulation control or domination. 

If the Pluto person is evolved in their Pluto or their use of power then this can point to a powerful attraction with a lot of passion, and the two can be seen as a power couple. If both are attracted to each other then they are likely VERY attracted even mesmerized feeling caught in a spell. Depending on the house person's nature and whether or not they get on well with more dominant personalities or not will depict whether or not the interaction is smooth. Typically, the house person will find the Pluto person alluring, powerful, intense, and sexy. The Pluto person can help motivate the house person, and help them empower themselves and be more confident in their pursuits. The Pluto person may also have strong ideas on how the house person should behave, act, or carry themselves. As long as the Pluto person is not a bully or mean in their delivery this placement can be very positive.

7st->

When your Pluto is in your partner's 7th house your partner finds you secretive, elusive, intense and mysterious. The Pluto person may become obsessed with the house person. The house person may look up to or respect the Pluto person's fearlessness, or how they wield their personal power. Negatively, the Pluto person may try to control the house person or who the house person associates. They might be dominating, controlling, possessive, jealous or vindictive. The Pluto person may also have strong ideas on what a relationship should be and how one should act in one. If this is a romantic relationship, then this relationship has the potential to deeply impact and transform the both of you. Marriage may be an ultimate goal or partnering in some form. Positively the Pluto person will enable the house person to present themselves much more powerfully, to set proper boundaries with others, and exude more personal power. If married, and the two of you decide on divorce, there may be many power struggles, and vindictive behaviors brought out, and you most likely will not remain friends. Again much depends on how mature both are, and whether or not either one has issues with power, to begin with.  

4th->

The Pluto person may take a deep interest in the house person's family and early upbringing. If you are living together, the Pluto person may try to control things in the home or be more dominant in the home. The house person may feel that the Pluto person is too dominating, controlling or bossy at home. The house person can help the Pluto person overcome any of their childhood traumas, by being a place of comfort for the Pluto person. This can ignite a very powerful bond if handled correctly. You have an opportunity to develop a strong intimate bond. In the positive: The Pluto person can help the house person overcome many phobias or fears that stem from childhood. If the focus is on the inner healing of past hurts and family issues, issues with patience and understanding then deep healing is possible. The Pluto person may focus much of their energy on home matters or discussing family matters with the house person.

10th->

The Pluto person will take a strong interest in the house person's public standing and career. The house person will be someone the Pluto person respects and see's many of their talents. In the negative, the Pluto person may try to control the house person's career or decisions made about it. The Pluto person can suggest powerful ways in which the house person may obtain their worldly goals. This is sometimes found in the people who become strong supporters, and marketers of their partner. The Pluto person will likely want to manage the house person or in a negatively suppress their career desires, or hold them back.   It is also possible on the very negative that the Pluto person can somehow destroy or harm the house person's reputation and our public image and Career. This is a great place for an actor and his agent, or business manager, even recruiter or headhunter they will work very hard for you. In a love relationship, you can expect the strong support of the Pluto person or disagreements and control.

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Synastry aspects next (from youtube videos by truth in aspect astrology):

-sun

conjunct:

The pluto person feels like a lot of parts of themselves that have remained hidden or have not been understood, the things they wouldn’t share or show, the sun shines its rays upon and the cold and insecure part of themselves is drawn out and made to feel warm. the sun brings out the plutonic qualities within the pluto person. The sun is the very conscious part of ourself while pluto is the unconscious and when these to meet in a conjunction the sun person makes you aware of all that unconscious stuff like past traumas and hidden difficulties. The pluto person has more interactions with these things through the interactions with the sun person. very often it is the way that they interact with each other that brings these out, not outside forces but how they relate to each other. the pluto person very much wants the attention of the sun person because the sun person makes them feel secure and warm and seen when usually these are the dark cold parts of them selves. so they feel happy because the environment that they are. in is so inviting. the sun person is seen as very physically attractive by the pluto person because the pluto person very much likes the way that the sun [presents themselves and the way in which they have established their identity. There is typically quite a bit of sexual attraction on both sides so they feel like more because they have gain each others attention and problems between these two can really surface when that attention is put elsewhere or is mitigated. these two are likely to avoid each other initially and a lot of times permanently. the sun person has a creeping sense that the pluto is somehow going to control their identity and see them as a threat to their identity because they actually are. prolonged contact between them causes a breakdown in the sun person as a result of how the pluto person behaved towards the sun person. the sun wants to get away because they know what is coming. pluto is really about death and rebirth so the sun person has a real chance of some kind of psychological or spiritual breakdown that could lead to a break through in terms of identity expression. through struggle and hardship together and intensity the sun really becomes more balanced when it comes to their identity and ego. The pluto person will not understand this or be able to really see why their actions towards the sun person have resulted in this loss of identity and break down. the pluto person could be potentially destructive to the sun person. You can have this in a lasting relationship where both people are very centered in themselves and the pluto person has worked through their plutonian stuff or doesn’t have a lot of stuff to begin with, but typically thats not the case.

square:

this is the aspect of hard transformation because pluto is about hard change that we have to work for. when we have this in synastry it is typically attractive in synastry and is hard to resist. we want to see what the other person is about. most of the time when we have this the really difficult parts of it are cut off, a lot of times the people don’t go through with the relating with this aspect because there is a certain amount of hostility or enmity and it can preempt the most potent effects of this aspect because the people will not actually get into a relationship. the pluto person very much wants to control or dominate the sun person. they want to take over because there is insecurity and fear involved and they justify to themselves that they can or should do something. it also represents our resentment so there is a striking of the pluto person when they meet the sun person in a square aspect that brings up the urge to take control of the sun persons identity, expression and the physical body such as location or whereabouts. It could be a situation where the sun is more attractive in a relationship and the pluto person feel the need to control or dominate their looks. Both undergo a potential breakdown followed by a potential breakthrough if they actually do engage in an ongoing relationship. the pluto person brings out a lot of psychology out of the pandoras box of both of them so they let out a lot of hidden, nasty, undealt with past, abusive and unaccepted traits, issues and things that have to do with what we have not accepted within ourselves in both people. in the sun it’s about ego and structure of the ego and they have to reinvent their identity. the pluto causes both of them to puke up a lot of their past. there is opportunity for change and transformation because of the difficulties between these people. this is a soul mate aspect in a sense that it has the potential to bring the two people into who they are meant to be because a lot of people who create difficulties in our lives are often some of the most important people in out lives (life journey) and if it wasn’t because of interaction with those people we wouldn’t be who we are. pluto causes us to grow because we have to through the experience of pain and crisis. typically we don’t see this being expressed to the fullest extent because the sun will fight back and there won’t be a long term relationship.

opposition (there wasn’t a video for this):

Sun opposite Pluto is an aspect in which domination struggles are inevitable. Both partners strive for power and the other one somehow threatens it.

This aspect is like a competition of egos, in which each partner tries to dominate, demanding, at the same time, of the other one to be perfect in your eyes. This is a very difficult aspect to deal with.

One of the most problematic elements of this connection is the lack of mutual tolerance.

You are attracted to the other one, otherwise you would not be in a relationship, but you also want them to be more perfect, more according to your demands and standards, which are high.

This connection is not easygoing and it is always tense, as you try to prove you are something your partner sees in you and vice versa, very likely. It could feel artificial and forced.

Both have strong egos, unwilling to change in order to suit the other one’s expectations, while demanding the same from the partner. You want to control everything and this ego competition would make a central place in your relationship.

Over time, this could be devastating, exhausting and it could even make one loses self-confidence and self-integrity, depending on individual charts.

Was there any hope for this strong and tense opposition to work out fine? Of course there is, but it requires full dedication of both parties. You have to be ready for making certain effort that is contrary to your own convictions.

The key thing is that you stop projecting your egoistical aspirations onto your partner and the other way around. Try to see them the way they are inside and accept what you see.

At the same time, stop pretending you were something they want you to be, but act yourself.

-mars

conjunct:

square:

It triggers some explosive feelings in two people. Mars sees pluto as very forceful or pushy or controlling. you need to see the strength of these planets to see how this is going to show up. if you have a mars in pisces or sweetly aspected or in the 12th house and a pluto tht isn’t very aspected at all and doesn’t really play into their life that can take alot of the sting out of this square and make it way less dramatic than you see typically. because when we see this square we typically want it. we are working something out. there is drama because we are dealing with someones power and someones ego and when they meet they intensify. here the mars person doesn’t want to stand down they do feel a subtle awarness that the pluto person is trying to control or manipulate them in some way so there is a very erruptive reaction that the mars person has. bitter resentment with this square is the norm because there is a war going on and nobody wants to not be right when dealing with mars and pluto specially mars. pluto can eventually accept that it’s not right it could lead to the crash and burn which leads to the rebuild. mars never wants to admit to not being right. so it is a very hard headed aspect. there is no gentleness or understanding tat exists between these to forces in their lives. violence can show up if the people involved are prone or if the mars is being really forceful and the pluto person is dealing with a lot of abuse or past pluto issues. you can see a very unhealthy power dynamic show up as a result of this square. this square will always land drama into a relationship but you have to look at the natal charts to see the level of that and the potentials. the mars person often does a lot of going off and erupting because the pluto person really annoys them. mars feels needled and pushed and will put up with it with creates this friction and build up of energy which will eventually explode. there is also an underlying and unconscious sexual competition between these two people. The pluto person is very much threatened by the independence of the mars person. the mars person is threatened by the controlling tactics of the pluto person. so we have this dance of resistance between the two that could also create some sexual tension. sometimes it brings about sadomasochistic behavior depending on the natal charts.  the mars person will enjoy beating the every living daylight out of the pluto person. so it is on where we have to treat it carefully because the level of passion can boil over into hatred and resentment. the mars person is very reactive in this relationship. the pluto person is more the stand back and watch and subtly manipulate and position themselves so they can force a reaction from the mars person it makes them feel seen and powerful to be able to drive the mars person crazy. pluto is death so anywhere it is in synastry it has a sucking behavior, it wants to take. that is why it represent the other partners resources not things we make for ourselves, but the value we take from another. so they want to forcibly take the energy of the mars person as they explode they suck up the energy they get from the mars persons reaction without knowing that they are causing it.

opposition (no video for this):

You can you trigger intense willfulness, competitiveness, and passion in one another because you inspire each others desire, need to control, and willingness to go to extremes of intensity in order to win. You are working at this relationship from two opposite angles. You have the potential to transform yourselves and your partnership into a potent, assertive force if you can agree to honor both of your leadership qualities and learn to take turn supporting each others self expression. When the first persons Mars is in opposition to the second persons Pluto, everything has a tendency to become exaggerated which can cause arguments if you both stress the need to things in your own way.

-moon

conjunct:

square:

opposition:

-mercury (couldn’t be bothered to look up videos)

conjunct:

They see themselves in each other, Pluto possibly more clearly through Mercury’s communication. It is likely the Pluto person will show how they relate to Mercury on their own time and decision. There is a connection between communication and sharing + the renewing, compulsive, and transformation energies of Pluto. Maybe this relationship is all about sharing past trauma, past and current fears, and secrets.

square:

One person may pressure or coerce the other into things they don’t want to do or more likely pressure them into statements they don’t really mean. Standing your ground can be a lesson along with tolerating other’s opinions and allowing people to make their own decisions.

opposition:

There is a lesson and challenge for thinking for one’s self. Also letting go of fixed ideas or opinions is a lesson. One might try to control the other’s thinking and decision making. One might also look to the other to form opinions. Letting go of control is important.

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Now that thats out of the way lets write the descriptions for the signs that they are in too and we will get to the theorizing:

leo:

The easiest thing for Pluto in Leo to do is reinvent themselves whenever need be. If they find themselves in a less than desirable situation, they can change and adapt in a way that is most advantageous to them. That’s also the best way for them to discover new traits and skills to continue on their quest for self-discovery.

The Leo Pluto people express themselves best in a creative setting for they love to go overboard whenever possible. Their glamorous attitude and approach to everything set them apart from the competition and keeps them in the spotlight, which is where they want to be. That’s the only way they know how to move forward and gain perspective on the world as a whole.

One thing Pluto in Leo has to be careful of is overstepping their bounds when it comes to leading projects or groups. They tend to automatically take over any situation because they are natural born leaders. But they don’t pay attention to whether or not someone has already taken on that role. So, their quest for control or power can be squashed before they even begin.

This does not bode well for them and the other people involved, because they have quite a temper. They have been known to throw a tantrum with their loud lion roar. They make a scene that disrupts the flow of everything going on around them.

They can handle change, but only when they are the one allowed to deal with it. If it’s left up to other people to reconcile the consequences, these people will have a hard time taking a back seat in terms of making decisions.

They are used to being the authority on everything and are unable to easily accept when someone else takes the reins or proves to be more knowledgeable. That’s the best way for them to remain at the forefront.

When it comes to their personal growth, the they are steps ahead of others because they are always looking to improve their station in life. But they need help from their large social circle if they are to extend that kind of attention toward other people.

While they are generous with their time and effort, it’s usually because they want people to hang out and do things with them. That’s how they flaunt their wealth and fame.

They sometimes have trouble seeing the bigger picture, and it takes the help of their social network to keep them focused on essential matters. Pluto in Leo would instead go out and play than stay in and work, and it takes a lot for them to settle down and do what’s best for everyone.

aquarius:

The best part about Pluto in Aquarius is their desire to do good in the world and for others. Their humanitarian efforts have the ability to bring about important changes in society. They believe you can improve upon any idea.

The Aquarius Pluto zodiac sign hate to see any injustice in the world. They feel there is a solution for everything if you can think outside the box. They desire change, which fits in well with their capability to go with the flow.

As long as they are the ones who are eventually able to control the direction of change, they will demand it every time. Their constant search to find out how everything works bring about more questions in need of answers, and they feel they know to find those solutions.

The Pluto in Aquarius isn’t satisfied with traditional definitions and explanations. So, they spend their own time and resources on researching whatever topic interests them at that time. And once they become interested in something it can quickly become an obsession.

They tend to get so involved in their research they can either leave people behind or run right over them in their search for the truth. If they are to grow and develop as a person, they have to learn how to work well with others.

As long as they understand other people are willing to go the distance for the same social issue, they might be more accepting of their offer to help. And outsiders will have to adapt to the work and thought process of Pluto in Aquarius because they are the most unconventional people to work with.

Their ego is what keeps them on track, for they feel they are one of the few who have the capability to create positive change. But being the social butterflies they are, Pluto in Aquarius do need other people to bounce their ideas off of to determine whether or not they will work. In this sense, they create their own “dream team” to help. This is the only way they struggle to control the situation – when they believe they have the right solution. They make sure their theory is solid before implementing it. But because they are so protective of it, they don’t trust anyone else to execute it. This can make it difficult for them to get something off the ground, and that’s where they have to learn to delegate authority and accept aid. Their brilliant mind shines through in everything they do and helps to inspire others to do more with their lives. That’s how social movements begin.

taurus:

Pluto in Taurus doesn’t mind getting comfortable and staying in one place or doing one thing for a long time. Only when that system stops working or they are forced to change do they make any effort to do so. 

As long as they don’t allow their stubborn nature to get in the way of their progress, they will land on their feet every time. And when they’re on that quest for answers that no one can seem to give them, they won’t give up until they find them. They know best what to do, and they will spend plenty of time convincing others of their mental prowess.

The Pluto in Taurus sign people can become quite obsessive when it comes to finding something new that they like just as much as the old. They can lose themselves in their stubborn habits. Once they are involved in researching different tactics and strategies in their lives, they can’t let it go until they have a new set-up.

This means other people may be put on hold while these people are trying to restructure themselves and their schedule. And if other people have a say in these changes, it takes even longer to finish. They are not great at allowing other people to come in.

Also, they hate to delegate authority or take over in any manner. They have their way of doing things, and no one can convince them that any other way is just as effective. This can hinder their progress at times if they take on a bigger project than they realized.

The best thing for them to do is step back from the situation to gain a little perspective on the subject. This is where their network of friends, family, and co-workers can help them out. Nudge this person in the right direction, and they will eventually see the light.

Pluto in Taurus enjoys comfort and beauty a lot. Thus, it can be difficult for them to let go of the cozy environment they have created and do something different. They despise chaos and try as much as possible to avoid messy experiences.

They should learn to embrace these kinds of developments and see them as improvements in their life. Then, they will be able to overcome any obstacle. Some may see this as Pluto in Taurus struggling for control. But, those who know them understand that’s just the way they work.

scorpio:

It doesn’t mean the Pluto in Scorpio sign have a negative understanding of the way the world works. They are prepared for the worst if it ever happens. They also have a better attitude towards things like change, tragedy or death. They know these things are a given and they accept them for what they are – inevitable.

This means they can also be well-adjusted people who are ready for anything. You certainly want them on your side in a difficult situation (or any situation for that matter). They are strong, confident and very protective of their loved ones. This is most important to the Pluto in Scorpio.

The Pluto in Scorpio people keeps everything close to the vest. They don’t let on to what they’re thinking or feeling. They don’t even like to talk about their past, as it may allow others to hold some power or control over them. They need to always be in control and will fight for the ability to gain the upper hand every time. This means they can be manipulative at times, especially when they need others to agree with them or be on their side.

It’s best not to go against Pluto in Scorpio, for they take every little offense personally. Because they feel everything so deeply, it doesn’t take much for them to believe they have been slighted. And once you are on their bad side, it’s challenging to get back on their good side.

They are the most intense sign of the zodiac. This means their reaction is stronger than the offense itself. And since they tend toward darker thoughts and a more pessimistic view of life, it’s difficult for them to snap back to a lighter viewpoint.

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The whole timeline themes thing can wait for another post because it’s too much for this post.

Now lets discuss. 

honestly I’m not sure because most of it makes sense and I can see a mars square dw between naruto and sasuke for instance but I don’t see it between sasuke and Itachi and if he has it with one he has it with the other unless the orb is really not that small. 

let me say the things which I feel don’t fit for each:

pluto in aquarius (1st decan) -> I don’t think sasuke’s pluto in narutos 7th fits. also I feel it’s naruto who wants to beat sasuke up not the otherway around (mars square pluto).

pluto in aquarius (2nd or 3rd decan) -> 

pluto in leo (1st decan) -> 

pluto in leo (2nd or 3rd decan) ->

pluto in taurus (1st decan) -> 

pluto in taurus (2nd or 3rd decan) -> 

pluto in scorpio (1st decan) -> 

pluto in scorpio (2nd or 3rd decan) -> 

[cipher-fresh]

I’m really proud of this short DS9 writing I did. I don’t have a name for it, but it’s under the read-more. I’m going to include a trigger warning for blood and injury. 

You wonder what it's like to be a Starfleet officer. They've started almost swarming the place as soon as the Cardassians left. You're thankful Major Kira is there as a First Officer. You have doubt big-bad Starfeet will want to protect Bajoran interests. But you've been assigned to 'Deep Space Nine'- Bajorans didn't even get to name a Bajoran station. You wonder morbidly about if Starfleet would get big-headed here. They could very easily occupy Bajor, the Federation was the most powerful force in the Alpha Quadrant. 

 A few weeks pass. You've been holding your breath, and you're anxious when you cross the Promenade, not allowed to hold a phaser. Oh, Prophets, you see that tailor, Garak, walking out of his shop one day, speaking sweetly to the Starfleet CMO. Cardassians invoke an instinctual response in you, and you're filled with fear for a moment. It passes. You wiped your hand down your face, feeling the ridges on your nose, and remember the days of the Occupation, where Cardassians would poke insults at your inferior biology and 'broken' face.

The day after the Cardassians left for good you were going to go through the vents to get to daily worship...when you saw other Bajorans walking through the front door of the Bajoran Temple on the station. You didn't have to hide. People walked right in. Starfleet was replicating extra candles for the room, as they were in short supply during the Occupation. Someone who you'd been thrown in jail with by two Cardassians had been a part of a wealthy artisan family, much higher in the caste than you. Things like the abolishment of the Bajoran Caste was something the Prefect of Bajor would parrot about their benefit to the planet. Many didn't even consider it an occupation, they called it some mercantile jargon, benefiting the Father Country Cardassia. 

 You've only ever walked through the front door of the Temple when having to run across the Promenade during a massive explosion. Every other time, and it was secret congregation by travelling through the vents, having to worship in secret, and constant fear of being discovered. But you're walking through the front door. No fear. And you got to worship with the others, and feel unafraid.

Commander Sisko is...the Emissary? The Emmisary of the Prophets?, a human? But it seems right. As time passes, it clicks into place. You have faith in the Prophets. You've held onto the Prophets your whole life, and you'd give them up after they ended the Occupation of Bajor? They gave you life, they kept you safe during the Occupation, and you won't give up on them now.

A colossal BOOM shakes the station. You bet it's the Cardassians. You share a look of fear with the nearest Bajoran, and can tell that was no spare phaser fire. That was a warning shot. You wonder what Starfleet did to piss them off. Before you can start running down the Promenade, the warning shot is followed by more ship phaser fire. Overhanging beams of Cardassian steel falls from the ceiling, and scaffolding crashes to the ground. computers spark and catch fire. The station itself rumbles for a minute, knocking people off their feet. You duck into the shop on the side of the Promenade, and watch as other people duck and dodge Cardassian technology debris from the ceiling. The enemy ships must be doing something about the station's artificial gravity, as it's been increasing and decrasing, then it stabilizes. Metal crashes and you see a Bajoran on the Promenade get a long, thin piece of metal stab through their leg. The rumbling stops, and you run over to help them. They're pinned to the ground, but you kneel down  and lift their head.

"Take off my jacket."

 "Jacket?"

 "I'm wearing- it's a human piece of clothing, help me take it off, you can use the sleeves to tie it around my leg and stop the bleeding."

 Your eyes scan them, and see, oh, that's what they're talking about, and help them take it off, and you move some off the other big debris off of them. Now, the metal pole hasn't pierced their whole leg through, it doesnt seem to be embedded very deep at all. Now or never. "I'm going to yank the sharpened pole out of your leg. It's going to hurt." Should you have said that? 

"Here, hold this in your mouth. You can bite down on it." You take the jacket sleeve and bunch it up, and they hold it in their mouth. Shaking, you walk to their other side, grip the pole, and use all of your might to take it out of their leg. They scream, muffled, and you toss the pole aside, and kneel back down to them. "It's alright, it's alright." You comfort.

You take the jacket sleeve and tie it around their leg as tight as you can. People all around you are moving debris and helping others, and by now Starfleet officers are running around in their stupid outfits. They hold on to you and you help them to Dr. Bashir's Infirmary, and all the beds are already taken. Medical officers swarm around, and you help your new friend down to the ground.

Sitting there, among the chaos, you're able to talk to them, as they wince and whimper in pain. You exchange names. They were given that jacket by the human Starfleet officer that rescued them from a Bajoran labor camp. They wear it to honor the Commander who went down with their team, and was killed by Cardassian guards, allowing the rest of their team to escape. They never got the officer's name. The person who saved their life is a person without a face, in a way. They're less wary of Starfleet than you, but you're starting to feel more confident that Starfleet is here in good faith.

The station gets fixed up like it always does, with more Federation technology each time. You become friends with the Bajoran you bandaged up, and you buy a jacket, as well. To remind you, every day, that there will always be a light in the shadows. 

[calcetineys]

So, I watched Love is Blind on Netflix… and so it won’t be a complete waste of my time, here’s a Steo AU. (Even though I’ve already done something similar. But now it also has Malira!)

If you aren’t familiar with this show, it’s a dating show hosted by Nick Lachey (that detail does come up) where participants go into little rooms called “pods” and talk with another person in the pod next to them. The idea is to see if they can fall in love without seeing each other. 

-

In this case, let’s not think about the logistics of how a bunch of bisexuals who aren’t supposed to see each other are supposed to be housed in the same facility.

So, Stiles probably claims that he didn’t think through this idea, but like, he kinda of did, at least enough to know that he does want someone who wants him for life. The fact that they can walk out and never see each other if that doesn’t end up being the case helps.

 He is ignoring the fact that this is going to be televised/streamed.

Also, he’s sort of thinking that maybe if someone got close enough, he could just go full throttle and somehow that will sabotage his chances? Like, put some much of himself out there that the person he’s talking to will be like ‘yeah, let’s not’. 

He doesn’t get that far with most people, but he wasn’t expecting someone like Theo.

So they meet on maybe the third rotation, Stiles has talked to a guy that was not really interesting and a really sweet girl named Kira who is not at all his type but made him laugh, and Theo not even thinking about the people he’s talked to, even less when he hears the voice on the other side of the wall that catches his attention.

That first ‘date’ goes pretty standard for them, as in, Theo’s kinda smitten, Stiles is a bit irritated but reluctantly intrigued.

At some point, the producers get a sense of who’s got chemistry and who doesn’t and starts letting the people who aren’t attracted to each other interact outside of the pods, to be able to get some conversation and feedback about how people are feeling.

Stiles gets to meet Kira in person, and she’s very pretty and just as charming, but he thinks he was right in his first impression. But he’s glad to listen to her gush about a woman named Malia, who Stiles did get a chance to talk with on one of the earlier days and did like, but he can tell that Kira’s absolutely gone on her.

He kind of avoids the question when she asks if he’s talked to anyone he likes, and she doesn’t push because she’s nice like that.

Also she wouldn’t want some one to do that to her, if she wasn’t feeling so ready to shout about how much fun she’s having with Malia.

She figures that part of it is the environment, that because she doesn’t have to worry about embarrassing herself with anything other than what she says, it’s easier to feel so excited about getting to know someone.

But she also just really likes this woman. Malia’s so straightforward and knows exactly what she wants to say and says it, which seems simple but is something Kira admires so much. And her confidence and intelligence and-

Yeah, Kira’s a goner.

Which is something that would make Malia very happy, over on the other side of the facility, where she and Theo are talking about their respective interests, albeit in a more sedate way.

The producers put them together in person after it became apparent that Malia differed from Stiles in that she was more irritated and not very intrigued by Theo on the other side of the wall.

They get some good footage of them talking about how cute the person they’re interested in is.

“She’s so dorky,” Malia says, smiling. She thinks about how Kira told her she’s never really felt all that comfortable with her body, always felt not exactly uncoordinated but definitely not graceful.

She doesn’t share that with Theo, but Malia thinks that she’d like to help Kira with feeling more at peace with herself, which is something that Malia had struggled with in the past.

Her head’s so wrapped up in thoughts like that, that she finds that she doesn’t mind Theo talking about the man named Stiles that had caught her passing interest early on, because he didn’t manage to keep it after she’d talked to Kira.

But she agrees with Theo as he says that Stiles is just so fucking smart, and clever and unafraid to call out bullshit, that their conversations are endlessly fun, that he doesn’t even want to talk to any of the other participants.

So he doesn’t. 

He ignores the signal the crew gives him to leave his pod, and when Stiles pauses on his way out he asks what Theo’s doing, because he can hear the chatter over the radio on the crew on his end.

“I don’t want to talk to anyone else. If you do, I guess I can’t do anything but ask if would rather stay here,” Theo says.

And Stiles is, unsurprisingly, suspicious of that, and says, “You really need to pull a stunt like this to get my attention.”

And Theo laughs, “Oh, I don’t, huh?”

“Because I’m not impressed,” Stiles corrects. But that’s not the truth exactly. It’s more that he doesn’t quite believe it. “These big, empty gestures…”

Theo’s quiet so a long second, and Stiles tells himself to leave, but he stays, waits until he hears: “It’s not supposed to impress you. I just want you to stay.”

And for some reason, Stiles does.

They don’t say anything for a long while, and eventually, the camera crew just decides to roll with it, because this is more interesting than the standard rotations.

Stiles is the one to start talking again, and at first it’s lighter topics. He starts talking about how Kira’s having some great luck with falling in love, but cuts that conversation off, because he’s ignoring that fact that there are other people here and that they should have moved on by now.

But it’s probably for that reason that he finds himself telling Theo things not as a way to drive him away, but more because he feels like maybe he doesn’t need to.

It is partly the fact that they can’t see each other, but it’s like how having difficult conversations in a car are easier, because there’s no eye contact, because both people are facing the same direction. 

They’re both sitting against the connecting way as he tells him about losing his mother, about feeling like he lost his father for years, about how for a long time when he was a teenager, he felt like he was losing himself and his mind.

Theo doesn’t interrupt, doesn’t say anything during, but Stiles knows he’s listening, and he finds that he doesn’t really care that so many other people are listening too.

“Thank you,” is what he hears in return.

Like his thoughts are a gift and not a repellent, not a burden.

The next time they talk, Stiles listens as Theo talks about losing his parents, though they’re still alive, about his sister Tara, who is the only family he’s ever needed.

Theo doesn’t say it, but Stiles puts together that she’s probably the only person that Theo’s kept in his life and he can’t help but ask why he came here. 

“Would it be too cheesy to say I came for you?”

Stiles scoffs and says, “Yeah.”

“Then I guess I don’t have a good answer.”

That’s not deterrent enough to end the conversation, even when they get the signal that the others are switching pods. When no one tries to get them to move, Stiles gets the feeling that the producers are eating this up and rolls his eyes. 

-

Back in the regular rotations, Kira’s listening to Malia talking about Theo and Stiles, which is more information that Kira learned from Stiles and she’s mostly concerned about them getting in trouble and getting kicked off.

“I doubt it,” Malia says. “It’ll be good for ratings. But enough about that-“

This is the first time they delve into really serious topics, though they’re talked about Kira’s insecurities and Malia’s mentioned her family issues.

But she gets into it more now, because she feels like Kira truly wants to know, to understand, and that makes her feels…good. 

“My birth parents…” she starts with. “She, uh- she regretted having me, my father didn’t know  about me for a long time, and he tries, but he’s not- My adopted family are my family, but I didn’t always accept that when I was younger. And it was even worse when my birth mother came to meet me when I was a teenager. She didn’t have a good reason for coming, not one that I can think of even now. 

And I’ve let go of the idea of ever understanding why she did what she did or why she said the things she sai- she told me I didn’t have a name, not a real one. She said a lot of shit that day, but that’s what stayed with me the longest.  

“But I’ve figured out who I am.”

Kira’s never wanted to be in the same room with her more than right then, wants to see this strength with her own eyes, and she envies the camera crew who get to.  

“You’re amazing,” she hears herself say.

It’s quiet for a second, before Malia says, “I’m smiling right now.”

Kira is now too.

-

“I know this seems crazy, but I’ve never felt so sure of something. It’s amazing that I can feel so certain of this, of you,” Kira says the next time they meet. “And I want to be with you, if you want me to, so will you marry me?”

“Absolutely,” Malia says, without a hint of hesitation, so absolutely proud of Kira for going for what she wants.

And Kira cries because she gets that for the rest of her life.

-

They finally meet in person, and god but when have two people ever smiled so brightly?

-

Theo waits longer than Kira did, because he knows that even though Stiles came here knowing how this process went, Stiles didn’t really expect to find someone who wanted him.

But he did, and Theo’s not shy about telling him. 

He tries not to push, but sometimes he shows how he knows they’re leaving here together, saying things like, “After this, I’m going to take you to-” and “I can’t wait to see your smile.” And- and this was the real kicker for Stiles, “Tara’s gonna adore you.”

He doesn’t wait until the last day though, doesn’t want to put Stiles through having to think that Theo’s not going to ask him.

He keeps it simple, because he knows how little Stiles is likely to believe him, but he speaks with such conviction, because he means what he says:

���I want all of you, everything you’ll give me. And that’s not going to change, Stiles.”

And Stiles is standing on his side of the wall, not wanting to believe that this is real, but knowing that it is, and he hasn’t been this terrified in years

And he thinks about all the times he’s been terrified in his life, all the times he didn’t do what was right for him, sucks in a breath when he realizes that he knows this is what’s right for him- and the fact that he believes what Theo’s saying has Stiles, for once in his life, doing right by himself.

So he agrees.

-

So just imagine, them meeting face to face, how Stiles is breathing hard, standing there, seeing this person who made him feel- feel like he- god, feel like this, he thinks, as Theo’s right in front of him now, pulling Stiles against him, looking up at him like he was something to look at, like after knowing so many of the worst parts of him, that he was still someone to want.

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Kira and Malia have a dance on their pre-honeymoon sort of like in canon, where Kira starts out awkward, which is adorable, but Malia helps her feel more in control of her body, and comfortable with her movements and having fun instead of worrying about how she looks. At the end, Malia’s like, “Yeah, that was sexy as hell.”

And Kira really likes that.

-

So yeah, it’s possible that Theo and Stiles actually go through with the wedding, but because the whole ‘getting married after four months’ things was kind of stupid, and seemed like an entirely different variable in the ‘experiment’, it’s also very probable that Stiles, as Stiles does, freaks out about the whole thing, and worries about his father and if this doesn’t work out and how this is moving so fucking fast and Theo doesn’t want him to feel anxious about them, so he just says, “So we don’t get married right now and we don’t break up.”

Stiles stumbles over his words here and finally settles on, “But aren’t we like, contractually obliged to have a wedding?”

“I think we were also contractually obligated to date bunch of people in pods and I didn’t let that get in our way.”

“So, you’re just gonna say, ‘hey, fuck you Nick Lachey’?”

“Fuck Nick Lachey.”

“…alright then.”

[kanisuru]

The remaining questions (or ones you want to answer if that's too much).

Get to know my character - Accepting 

01. What does your character’s name mean? Did you pick it for the symbolism, or did you just like the way it sounded?Akira’s name has many translations depending on the kanji used such as clear, bright, and intelligent. In Sanskrit, his name means graceful strength, and in Thai (a language and culture important both Akira and his spirit twin Amory) his name means sun or sunlight. Needless to say, all of these descriptors fit my boy to the letter. I actually don’t remember how or why I stuck with the name Akira. It just fit and I didn’t have the heart to change it. 05. Are they sexually confident or more of the shy type?Akira is most definitely sexually confident. Given his track record, probably a little too sexually confident. He is willing to try nearly anything just as long it doesn’t go against any of his morals or makes either party uncomfortable. Since coming into his own as a person and coming to terms with his sexuality, Akira has experimented freely with his body and what turns him on. He has no shame in what turns him on. 

09. Do they have a favorite season? What about a favorite holiday?Akira loves all seasons, but his favorites would have to be the fall and summer. Fall mostly for the change in the colors of his leaves (which are symbolically special to him) and he can comfortably eat all the corn chowder his heart desires. Summer because it’s festival season, and the sun is out for much longer. 10. Is your character more feminine or masculine?I think Akira is a good blend of the two? He’s not some hyper-alpha male, and he isn’t incredibly feminine either. He is comfortable in the middle, sometimes leaning in either direction depending on the situation. Akira enjoys looking good and receiving compliments. He wears jewelry including bracelets and rings on his fingers and keeps his eyebrows relatively neat. He also tries to take care of his skin and keeps his fingernails trimmed and neat. 12. Is there some particular talent, skill, or attribute that they simply could not give up?If asked, Akira would jokingly say that he could never give up his talent for making stupid faces in pictures, but in reality, he could not simply give up his musical talent. While growing up music, whether it was playing his bass or messing around on the piano, was his emotional outlets. They paved the way to finding freedom as a young adult. He couldn’t turn his back on it. 14. Do they live alone or with family? How do they feel about their family/roommates?He lives with his roommate and close friend Shige whom he has known since high school. He loves Shige, and couldn’t see his life without him at this point. Their history is long and at some points quite complicated, but they never gave up on each other. Akira likes the change that he sees happening in Shige and how he views the world, and himself. He wants to be around for all of it. 15. Is there a certain person in this world that they cannot stand? The very mention of this person’s name makes them tremble with anger or fear.I answered this before, but I realized I was not completely honest. After thinking about it, the one person that Akira cannot stand is a person that has died many years ago. After learning of Luci’s history with her father, and meeting some of her remaining relatives, Akira realized that there are certain people he’d bury if he could. 17. Does your character have dreams of getting married and/or having children?Akira would love to get married and have children in the future. That has always been in the back of his mind. The guy loves babies and dotes on his niece and nephew as if they were his own. As it stands, Akira does not see himself getting married on anytime soon. He’s not anywhere close to comfortable in his career, and as modern, as Akira likes to believe he is, he does want to be able to provide for his family. He is very much like his mother in that things need to be lined up and accounted for before he can settle down. But that also doesn’t mean that things could change. Akira has surprised himself over the years quite a bit. 19. Would your character be the kind to get into fights? (physical or verbal) Would they be a good fighter or cave in rather easily?Akira avoids getting angry in general, so avoiding any kind of fight is high up on his list of priorities. When pushed, Akira fights dirty. He knows exactly what to say to rip someone to shreds and will not feel guilty about it. Akira can hold his own despite his stature and weight. You’re not taking him down easily. 22. What kind of tattoos, piercings, birthmarks, freckles, and other such unique physical features do they have?Akira has his right ear lobe pierced, a line tattoo of a pinky promise (matching one shared with Amory) inside of his left bicep, a birthmark on the right side of his neck (it has been mistaken for a hickey on too many occasions), and a few freckles on his face. 23. What is your character like when it comes to school? What subjects are they good/bad at? Do they get in trouble a lot or are well behaved?Akira did exceptionally well academically and was in his school’s natural science program where he thrived. Even though he excelled, Akira placed high pressure on himself to maintain a certain image academically, and whenever that slipped, it was a heavy blow for him emotionally. Like a number of his peers, Akira cracked badly in the last two years of high school but managed to make his mother proud by being accepted into Kyoto Unversity. There he would study industrial chemistry before dropping out two years into his grad program.  Akira was very well behaved and never gave his teachers any real trouble. 24. In their own words, how would your character describe what their lover is like?”I’ve said it since the beginning, but I’ve always felt a kindred spirit in Luci. Meeting her was like meeting another bird in my flock, as weird as that sounds.” He laughed, a soft smile soon following, “She’s the type of woman you can’t help but notice, even with her ever-changing hair color. She’s bright, energetic, and with a mouth on her. She’s the kind of person that I could just as easily drag her into the middle of mosh pit, as I could sit quietly beneath a tree with a book to share. All the traits that I enjoy being around, but most importantly, Luci is real. She is human in all perfect imperfections. What you see is most definitely not all that is there. She’s a kaleidoscope, and with each turn, you get to see all the brightness and even some darkness too. Just like anyone else, Luci has her secrets and she has her bruises. Life hasn’t always been too kind, but even in the face of that pain, Luci found a way to dust herself off and keep going. She still found a way to keep laughing and to keep her heart open. Rainbow has a killer sense of humor if you ever get a chance to get her going. Snarky as fuck when pushed, so watch out! Truthfully, that’s what I admire the most about her, really. She didn’t allow her history to sweep her away. She’s still passionate about the things that make her heart beat faster. She still loves freely and with every fiber of her being, at least, with me she does and I’m still so honored by that blessing. Luci inspires me to become more. More for myself and more for what I could be for her. She was a wild energy that I didn’t see coming, but I knew from the moment she allowed me to compliment her ass and socks, that she was going change my life. I think she said it best, we’re a match we haven’t had before. She’s certainly shaken up my world, and I like to think I’ve added something to hers as well.” - @neonlucija

26. What is their lover like sexually? How do they feel about their lover’s quirks, needs, etc?Sexually, Luci is unlike anyone he has ever slept with before. She pulls things to surface inside of him that are very new, and this has been something that has caught him by surprise. They are passionate and intense when they are together, and border on insatiable when they get going. They’re terrible and have not been above teasing each other about it, too. Akira is convinced that Luci could look at him from across the room, and he’d instantly go find somewhere suitable for them hide and make it happen. Luci has been unafraid to explore with Akira both things that he is already aroused by, and things they as a couple or as individuals have not tried. Honestly, she is just as perverted as he is and actually might be worse, which she has shown on many occasions. They make for quite the pair both romantically and sexually. For them as a couple, sex and romance/intimacy are one and the same. Akira has not run into anything with Luci that has made him uncomfortable. She has been upfront with her needs for the most part and as stated has been open to exploration. Luci has even surprised him with some of the things she has suggested, almost as if she’s read his thoughts, or at worse, to push his buttons. Akira is willing to try whatever Luci is interested, but he also doesn’t want her to do things because she feels that they’ll please him. They are partners. Each person will get what they need without question. Most recently, he’s seen a change in Luci that he wants to explore further, but will go at her speed. 27. If your character was going to get arrested, what would be the most likely reason for it?

Probably for doing something dumb in public while drunk. His friends have never let him live down the time he urinated in the potted plant, and killed it. So…yeah. Something along those lines. 28. If your character became a celebrity, what would they be famous for?Akira is not looking for fame or celebrity status, but if he were then it would be because of his music/producing and his band. Simple. 31. Would your character be the kind capable of killing? Would they enjoy killing or only use it when necessary or, perhaps, refuse to kill no matter what?Akira likes to think he wouldn’t be capable of killing, but if it came down to protect himself and the people he cares for/innocent lives than he’ll do what he needs to be done.  He would not enjoy it though. He doesn’t celebrate death even if the person deserved it. 34. Does your character have favorite foods? (breakfast, lunch, dinner, dessert, snacks, etc)He does and his favorites include corn chowder, green curry, apples (any fruit really), and street tacos. 35. Is your character afraid of death? If they got to choose how to die, how would they want to go?He isn’t afraid of death. Death is part of the natural cycle of life. If he could choose, Akira would want it to be quick and without suffering. If there is a next life in the cards for him, Akira hopes that one is exciting as this one has been. 36. Does your character have any medical conditions? Are they serious or minor? Do they affect their day to day life?Akira has asthma, but it isn’t as bad as it was when he was a child. It doesn’t really affect his day to day life at all if he doesn’t take care of himself. 38. What kind of weather does your character like? Cloudy skies, rainy days, sunshine, etc?Sunny days, a nice breeze and the kind of weather that you can get away with no jacket or a light one. He also loves the first snowfall of the season, and when it’s thick enough on the ground that he can go snowboarding and have snowball fights. 39. When people look at your character, is there some assumption they might make about them just by appearance? Is that assumption correct?I think people assume that just because he dresses eccentric and has a pretty bright disposition that he isn’t capable of malice or depressive thoughts. That wouldn’t be true at all and isn’t true for a lot of people. Akira can be vindictive when pushed or when he feels slighted. He is very much human with flaws and hangups that he needs to continue to work on. 41. Does your character’s family affect your character in any way?His family is the most important people in Akira’s life, and their opinions outweigh anyone else’s. He has spent a good chunk of his adult life unlearning old habits in regards to them, and learning that his opinion is just as important. It is fine to take someone’s words into consideration, but you do not have to apply it unless you believe them to be true to your reality. 42. Is there anything in your character’s past that they regret, haunts them, or they wish they could change?Akira would change certain paths that he went down in regards to some relationships and how he reacted to certain revelations, but in the end, for better or for worse, they have all lead them to where he is today. 43. Does your character have a switch that changes aspects of their personality whether they are around friends, family, etc. Is there someone who gets to see their true self?Everyone acts differently depending on who they’re around, and Akira is no different. It all depends on the situation and who he is around. The people who get to see Akira at his most authentic are his circle of close family members and friends. With them, he doesn’t have to edit himself, even if they may wish he had. Ha! 44. Is there a particular event that would emotionally devastate your character?It’ll always be losing someone he cares for unexpectedly or in a horrific way. That would take a while to recover from, and even then, he’s not coming out of the other side the same. 45. Is your character the kind to hide their true emotions or do they wear their heart on their sleeve?For as long as he can remember, Akira has always had a habit of editing his feelings and hiding things. He allows people to see as much as he thinks is necessary even to the detriment of his own emotional or psychological state. Akira is still learning to be more true to his emotions, and that is okay to do so. 

46. What is some random affectionate thing that your character always does to their lover?Akira is big on physical touch, so when he’s around their lover he’s more likely to wrap his arms around them from behind and nuzzle the back of their neck or kiss whatever skin he can get to. He also likes to send random quotes, songs or pictures that remind him of them, whether it be humorous or sweet. 47. Is your character outgoing? Would they be the leader of the friend group, or the quiet one that gets dragged along?Very much outgoing! He’s spent enough time following behind. He loves getting his group of friends together for a random trip or live show in town. He also very much enjoys their monthly family-style, potluck dinners. There is nothing quiet about Akira when he is feeling good. 50. If your character confessed love to their crush, boyfriend, girlfriend, etc, what would they say?“I have feelings for you”  

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Marred by Poison, Purged by Magic - Malec, hurt!Magnus, ensemble cast fic. Parabatai bond, friendship feels galore. Chapter 1 of 2.

Alec turned back from the sight and watched as Catarina’s magic weaved through the gaping wound, like a master seamstress, healing the jagged puncture in his lung and stitching up the muscles and tendons and reconnecting the arteries. It was absolutely spellbinding watching the way a master healer went about her craft; the intricate way in which she worked and navigated around the tiniest aspects of the human body. The way she could tell which artery and which vein and which blood vessel went where; the way she reconnected the tissues and nerves. Alec couldn’t look away from the way her fingers and her hands danced in mid-air like a puppeteer controlling the string of his puppet. It was so similar to Magnus and yet so different.

Catarina was precise in her movements where Magnus was elegant. Catarina had a meticulous sort of beauty to her gesticulation where Magnus almost danced in his. Catarina’s magic was ethereal whereas Magnus’s raged like burning embers.

Just Within Reach (but of so far away) - Malec, emotionally hurt!Magnus, post 2x12, featuring good boyfriend!Alec. Friendship feels fic. One-shot.

Magnus would never have asked for comfort but with Alexander, he didn’t have to. The only thing Alexander wanted in return was to feel needed, to know that he was wanted. He would have given Magnus everything, which is a reality Magnus found as touching as it was bittersweet. Sometimes, the darkness within him makes him wonder whether Alexander would still feel the same if he knew the real Magnus. The Magnus that was stripped of all the glitz and the glamour and the fancy words and the extravagance; the chipped and fragmented Magnus that cowered in the dark corner of his memory, naked and bare, hiding from pain and hurt and sadness; trying to cease to exist without actually dying. Would Alexander still love him then?

Parabatai Gone - Parabatai fic. Post 2x20. Background Malec. One-shot.

Jace died. Alec felt him being ripped out of his soul.

But…he’s looking at Jace and at Clary and Jace is alive but why does he still feel so empty? His parabatai rune is back but why does it feel so wrong? Why does it feel so incomplete? It was like something that had been broken and put back together, but the cracks would never truly be fixed. Their bond had been broken, and somehow it had been mended, but it hadn’t been truly healed. There were cracks in it that he could still feel; small cracks in fragile connection too tiny to be noticeable but Alec noticed. Alec noticed everything about the bond, even more so than Jace.

Cindereva [Skam] Chriseva, fairy tale AU, ensemble cast fic, slow burn, falling-in-love. On-going.

But the closer the figure came to her, the most details she started to notice, like the fact that it wasn’t the wolf emblem on his chest that was dripping blood, it was blood dripping from his chest; blood trickling down his hand hanging limply at his side and blood caking almost half of his face.

He came within ten feet of Eva’s breathless figure, tears prickling the back of her eyes and her words dead in her throat, unable to move or breathe or think. But his eyes were unseeing, he wasn’t even looking at her as he stepped closer and closer and closer.

Until he finally collapsed in an unmoving heap on the ground right at her feet.

Only then did Eva finally remember how to breathe.

Snapshots [Skam] Chriseva, Eva Kviig Mohn through the years. Post finale spite-fic. Forever bitter squad.

When Eva was eighteen, everything suddenly turned out too complicated. Chris wanted something more, more than she was willing to give, and Eva fell back into old habits, doing the same thing she always did when things got too hard: she ran. This time the path led her to Jonas’s door and his bed. But this was what she really wanted, right? Getting back on the right path, the path that included Jonas and their two kids and the white picket fence on their lawn and the big blue house that sat at the edge of the cobblestone path. Chris said he loved her and that he was ready to settle down with her even though she wasn’t, and as it turned out, Chris wasn’t ready either.

They came together but they left separately, but that was okay.

A Family We Chose For Ourselves [Skam] Chriseva, hurt!Chris, everyone worries about Chris, Chrishelm friendship, Noorhelm, ensemble cast fic, friendship feels fic. Lots and lots of hurt, lots and lots of comfort. Complete.

Eva is sitting by Chris’ bedside in the ICU room watching the rise and fall of his bruised and battered chest. William is on the other side bent over the mattress with his head resting on his crossed arms, reaching out to grasp Chris’ limp hand in a vice like grip, holding him close even in sleep. Eva really couldn’t blame him. Within the last few hours, he’s gone from being in London, thousands of kilometers away on a day that was supposed to be happy and merry, to being worried out of his mind over his missing best friend and the feeling of absolute helplessness after finding out that his worry wasn’t unfounded, if nothing else, it was probably a worse outcome than he could ever have imagine. Eva’s pretty sure he dropped absolute everything, sat on a place for hours without communication all while not knowing the status of his friend, how bad he was injured or if he was even alive. All while being gnawed at by the undoubtedly crippling feelings of guilt.

Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap [Suicide Squad] hurt!Rick, ensemble cast fic. Multiple POV’s. Complete.

Sometimes he thinks of Chato Santana as an entirely separate entity. 

They share the same past and childhood memories sure, maybe even the same interest and the same type of woman. But the difference is that Chato Santana was just a man, he was flesh and blood and bone and he bled red when they cut him. His blood flowed crimson when they shot him and Chato Santana died a long time ago. Long before his own blood started boiling under his skin. Long before he burned rival gang members alive. Long before he roasted those people in that prison yard and smelled the stench of their boiling organs from ten feet away as he laughed. Long before he murdered Chato Santana’s wife and kids with his raging fury in their home. Long before he came back to life as El Diablo, the demon.

Reaching the Breaking Point [Point Break 2015] Bodhi/Johnny, paralysed!Johnny. Falling in love, first kiss fic. Fic 2 of 2. (x)

They venture down to the seashore together and Bodhi can barely tear his gaze away from Johnny’s face; the almost wondrous expression he has on his face as he looked at the foamy water lapping the front wheels of his chair. It’s a gorgeous sight to behold but also bittersweet at the same time.

Bodhi thinks of the man who’d been so unafraid of the steep, rock-strewn drop on that snow covered mountain and the reverence in his voice when he said, ‘But it’s also perfect.’ He thinks of his utter fearlessness when he didn’t stop at the second cliff when everyone else had been too afraid. Roach had called him broken, but Bodhi thought that was the closest he’d seen Johnny come to being whole.

That’s definitely more than five though - can’t help it, I’m shameless. I love and am proud of all my fics 😎

Tagging the usual suspects if you want to/haven’t done it yet: @imyourliquor-youremypoison, @hikaru9 (since you’re a writer now too), @ganseysjane, @s-erendipitiness, @blj2007 @ladymatt @giishere @xoxoalterlove @gonnabreakhisheart @drakamena

[moonbelowsea]

Pottermore Wand Test: the Yuri on Ice Main Characters Edition

It just so happens that sometimes my great and nostalgic love for Harry Potter manifests itself yet again in some interesting ways.

 Today, for example, I had the urge to figure out which wands would the Yuri on Ice "main" characters use -- particularly in terms of wand woods, those being the greater variable and also kind of like a horoscope for characters.

 I decided I wanted to try them out at the Pottermore wand quiz before freely assigning them anything, just for fun. Sometimes the Pottermore quizzes are right enough. Sometimes they're really wrong, and there's nothing to do but ignore it.

 Of course, some of the questions don't really have definitive answers. I often play on that uncertainty by looking up the possible results and picking out the more fitting choices.

 I thought I'd share the results I got. Even though Yuuri is giving me a terrible headache.

 SPOILERS for the Pottermore scoring method ahead, in case anyone likes not knowing.

 Pottermore's wand quiz determines the wood by the following three questions: which is one's eye color, which trait out of a given seven one is most proud of, and which path one would choose at a fork in the road. The given seven traits are: determination, imagination, resilience, intelligence, originality, optimism and kindness. The paths available to choose from lead to the sea, a forest or a castle.

  I started with Viktor. His eyes are very much blue, but when I was doing this I seemed to remember a couple of gifs where his eyes were gray. I checked later and it turns out I was wrong, his eyes are always blue (the gifs do exist but were manips), but I'd make a case for using the results for blue/gray anyway since they're oddly fitting. The trait he'd be most proud of in himself would of course be his originality. As for the path he'd pick, after being with Yuuri it'd definitely be the sea! But I'd also like to suggest that he’d pick the castle before that.

 blue + originality + castle = Fir

blue + originality + sea = Elm

blue/gray + originality + castle = Elm

blue/gray + originality + sea = Cherry

 I really like most of those results. Fir is described as a wand for survivors who pass through mortal peril and also for intimidating, focused and strong-minded people, which isn't not Viktor, especially before meeting Yuuri, but I also feel it's not a positive for him either. Elm, however, is an interesting choice, particularly for pre-Yuuri Viktor, since it's described as producing "the fewest accidents, the least foolish errors, and the most elegant charms and spells," and as preferring owners with "presence, magical dexterity and a certain native dignity." How much dignity Viktor really possesses either before or after meeting Yuuri is up for debate, and depends a lot on how you define "dignity," but I feel Elm certainly fits the image of Viktor Nikiforov.

 I do like to think Viktor himself completely gave up on the trappings of image once meeting Yuuri. And Yuuri definitely changed his life (and certainly his priorities) in some very fundamental ways. Thus the wand most suited to him might change.

 Cherry is of course THE Japanese tree and thus very much something that he'd strongly associate with Yuuri. The description says that cherry wands "possess truly lethal power, whatever the core, but if teamed with dragon heartstring, ought never to be teamed with a wizard without exceptional control and strength of mind."

 Thus I immediately decided that Viktor's core, whatever the wood, is dragon heartstring. That core is said to be "somewhat temperamental," to learn more quickly than other types, and to produce the most powerful wands, which then "are capable of the most flamboyant spells." And... yes. This is definitely Viktor.

  I was going to do Yuuri next but he was quite difficult, so I ended up doing Yuri Plisetsky instead. I'm pretty sure Yurio's eyes are blue-green, and he'd prize his own determination. I don't think he'd pick the forest at all -- he'd either pick the sea because of his association of it with Yuuri or notice that, get pissed, and pick the castle... But here are the possible matches anyway.

 blue/green + determination + sea = Pear

blue/green + determination + forest = Cypress

blue/green + determination + castle = Hawthorn

Neither Pear nor Cypress are really a match at all: pear is for the "warm-hearted, the generous and the wise," and cypress is for the "self-sacrificing, unafraid to confront the shadows in their own and other's natures"... both of which are kind of so unsuited for teenage Yurio it's kind of hilarious.

Hawthorn is pretty great for him, though: it's a wand very suited to both healing magic and curses, meant for "those with a conflicted nature, or passing through a period of turmoil." It's also warned that its wizard should be very talented "or the consequences might be dangerous."

 I was rather divided on which core should Yurio get. Dragon heartstring suits him as well as it does Viktor, and it'd be in keeping with the fact that they sometimes end up parallelled, but I wondered if exactly because it's Viktor's core Yurio might not end up with unicorn hair instead, which would be in keeping with their frequent clashes instead. Unicorn hair wands are very loyal and produce less power but more consistent magic.

  And finally we get to the most troublesome character: Yuuri. This boy took me quite the time, mainly because of his ridiculous choice range. Seriously, Yuuri, what is your eye color? Most Japanese people have "dark brown/black" eyes, but as an anime character, Yuuri's eye color is lighter... and occasionally quite impossible. I think sometimes it looks reddish? Should I then put it down as "other"? Or go for a bit more realism and put it down as just "brown"? I imagine Yuuri would be most proud of his resilience... or would it be his determination?  Would he elect to go to the sea ("home") or to the forest (running away from "home")? (I discarded the castle path due to associating it with people, socialization, and maybe sophistication, all of which Yuuri would almost certainly want to avoid.) Then again, as a friend pointed out, it is just like Yuuri to be like this and give me around eleven possible results, none of which are immediately apparent as his perfect match.

 black + determination + sea = Beech

black + determination + forest = Ebony

black + resilience + sea = Larch

black + resilience + forest = Apple

brown + determination + sea = Fir

brown + determination + forest = Yew

brown + resilience + sea = Laurel

brown + resilience + forest = Rowan

other + determination + sea = Red Oak

other + determination + forest = Rowan

other + resilience + sea = Pine

other + resilience + forest = Dogwood

 Out of Yuuri's eleven possible wands, I'd say only two of them do not fit him at all. Out of the remaining nine, there are two I'd be doubtful about assigning him but see no reason to outright reject. The final seven can all be said to work, and not one strikes me as so perfect no other would do.

 Yuuri wouldn't work well with either beech or dogwood. Beech wands are meant for those "wise beyond their years, or rich in understanding and experience," and, much as I adore Yuuri, I think we can all agree those are not characteristics typical of him. Dogwood is "quirky and mischievous" and looks for a master equally as playful, which are also not defining characteristics of Yuuri.

 Two other possible matches that do not appeal to me but neither do I see great objection to them: red oak and rowan. Red oak prefers a match with unusually fast reactions. "Its ideal master is light of touch, quick-witted and adaptable." Rowan, on the other hand, "is most happily placed with the clear-headed and the pure-hearted." Again, neither of those descriptions are particularly characteristic of Yuuri, in my opinion.

 The long list of maybes is apple, ebony, fir, larch, laurel, pine, and yew.

 Apple is described as "best suited to an owner of high aims and ideals," and its owner will often have "great personal charm, being well-loved and long-lived." I do think Yuuri's natural stubbornness could easily lead into high aims and ideals, depending on how he was taught and his experiences, and although he's often asocial and standoffish, he's very well-loved by those who know him and exceedingly charming in his own way. There's also some evidence to support the theories that, although he sees himself as awkward, people around him interpret his behavior as cool.

 Ebony works best for "those with the courage to be themselves; non-conformist, highly individual, comfortable with the status of outsiders; people who will hold fast to their beliefs despite external pressure and will not be lightly swayed from their purpose." Despite Yuuri's constant assertions of being mentally weak, I believe the truth is that he's very courageous and quite stubborn: he not only deviated from two fairly comfortable possible futures  (helping his family at the onsen; following in Minako's footsteps as a danseur) to follow an exceedingly demanding and expensive dream, he even went so far as to leave his home country by himself for the unknown to better his chances of succeeding... and of course, it's all the more difficult for him since he has anxiety. He also seems very comfortable with the status of outsider.

 Fir demands "staying power and strength of purpose, and favours owners of focused, strong-minded, and occasionally intimidating demeanour." Of course, Yuuri's great stamina is a plot point, and as for the intimidating demeanour, see Minami's POV.

 Larch is a particularly interesting wand wood for Yuuri, as it has a reputation for instilling courage and confidence in the user, which would greatly appeal to someone like him. It is however also very tricky to handle, and seeks out masters that, like the wands themselves, have "hidden talents and unexpected effects." The description furthermore says that the person meant for a larch wand "may never realize the full extent of their considerable talents until paired with a larch wand, but will then make an exceptional match." This might actually be one of my favorite wands for him.

 Laurel wands have a reputation for being honourable, but often their matched owners are involved in a quest for glory, during which lethal magic may sometimes be performed. Laurel wands disdain laziness in their owner, but will actually defend themselves from being stolen from a match that treats them properly, via spontaneous lighting stike. As Yuuri is both hard-working and competitive, he would do quite well with a laurel wand.

 Pine "always chooses an independent, individual master who may be perceived as a loner, intriguing and perhaps mysterious." They're also said to "perform best for owners destined for long lives." Yuuri can be very independent, as seen from him cutting himself off from his family and close Japanese friends for years; and the skating community almost certainly thought of him as quite intriguing and mysterious at times.

 Yew is very rare to find in a wand, and their matches are "unusual and occasionally notorious; heroes as often as villains." The yew wand "never chooses either a mediocre or a timid owner." I know some people will say this wand shouldn't fit Yuuri, to which I insist that "reserved and occasionally shy" is very much not the same as "timid."

 Yuuri's wand core, out of the canon three, can't be other than the phoenix feather, which is "capable of the greatest range of magic, though it may take longer to reveal this." Phoenix feather wands are very picky, as phoenixes are "independent and detached." These wands are "the hardest to tame and to personalize, and their allegiance is usually hard won." Thus, an extremely capable and versatile wand core, but difficult to win over and quite the late bloomer. The many parallels with Yuuri himself are quite clear!

  Here are the complete descriptions!

 https://www.pottermore.com/writing-by-jk-rowling/wand-woods

https://www.pottermore.com/writing-by-jk-rowling/wand-cores

[mikesfarewell]

I’ll see you soon

April 30, 2018

“Show me your friends and I’ll tell you who you are.”

If you’re reading this, I’m currently on a one-way flight from Vancouver to Toronto. For those who didn’t know, last summer I decided to permanently move to Toronto upon graduation. Over the years, my family and I have been through our share of struggles. Immigrating to Canada before I could even walk and nothing more than $500 in our pockets, it’s really no surprise. In truth, family has been a forbidden concept to me. Unfortunately, love often comes second to all the financial and social pressures. Don’t get me wrong, I love my parents for all the sacrifices they’ve made. They’ve done way more than enough.

As most of you are thinking, moving is no big deal (distance in 2018 LUL), especially in my case where I have a crystal clear path in front of me. I think at the end of the day, I’m moving for the chance to fulfill my longing for uncertainty, for insecurity, for adventure. I’m looking to do things my way, and to learn more about anything and everything - without bounds. So why am I writing this? Did you really just stumble across a 13-year-old’s tumblr rant? No, but did you really think I’d go out without a bang?

Let’s be honest with each other. I’m writing this because I’m sad about leaving. I’m crying like a baby. I’m going to miss you guys. A lot. I think I speak for everyone when I say I want to be someone who will be missed. I’d like to think (now you know why my head is so big and round, how else does this ego fit?) that I made an impact on the lives of those I came in contact with, just as they’ve made an everlasting impact on mine. Throughout the rough patches in my life, it has been my friends who became my family. I needed every ounce of support that they’ve given me and they’re the reason that I am who I am. I’m forever in debt to you guys. For those below, I’d love to wish you guys the best (and I whole-heartedly do), but I hope you feel an ache in your heart when you realize that I’m halfway across the country (4,382 kilometres to be exact) when I cross your mind (but only so I can be the remedy to your heartache when/if I return, of course). 

As true to my transparent (and cringeworthy) self as I can be, I’d like to write to those who made me the person I am today. I’m so incredibly lucky to have met the people below, and to be a recipient of their company. I’m not going to apologize if I missed anyone - because I didn’t. There has been way too many unspoken words over the years, and there’s no better time than now. In short, thank you. For everything. This isn’t goodbye - I’ll see you soon.

(In chronological order):

Brenda Nguyen

You never forget your first crush. Looking back, it’s pretty surreal that I spent a solid 6-7 years chasing you. I’ll never forget the smile on my face when you’d write your name next to the number 5 on my dance card. Why else did I put so much effort into organizing those school dances with Mr. Biln? Still to this day, your birthday is the only one I know even better than my own. Every underground R&B track will remind me of the times you used to make fun of my taste in music - only to be listening to the same shit as me a week later. Drifting apart was only natural, but don’t think for a second I forgot about you. 

Karl Caslib

Thinking back to my childhood, we created my fondest memories together. Needless to say, you defined friendship for me. During those last few years at Norquay, I don’t think anyone thought we’d ever be apart. Our friendship taught me that it’s okay to treat your friends differently - because only then can you make the ones who matter feel special. You influenced most of my hobbies, my taste in women, and ultimately what I look for in a friend. You were the first person that treated me like family, and I’ll always remember that. I hope one day our paths will cross again and we can pick up where we left off. 

Surya Viswanathan

Most probably don’t know that we met playing baseball when we were like 7, but I’d be lying if I said I recognized you in grade eight. Some of my best memories from high school consists of joking around in your basement until sunrise. Or maybe it’s that time I came over for New Years and woke up with a face full of acne. I always admired your ability to connect with anyone you wanted and you showed me that being kind and genuine always pays dividends. Around you, I felt comfortable and confident, unafraid to go outside my comfort zone. Maybe one day I’ll be able to have the same kind of aura. I know you’re doing amazing things and I’m always here if you need a hand. 

Carter Fang

I’m not ashamed to say that you were definitely my parents’ favorite. Probably because you single-handedly changed the course of my life. It’s difficult to describe in words the impact you’ve had on me. Through you, I learned that intelligence is cool and our greatest weapon. You opened me up to asian pop culture, which is a large part of my life today. You always led by example, and proved that hard work triumphs all. Sometimes I wish we were still close because I don’t think I’ve met anyone that’s as good at having heart-to-heart conversations. With you, I never had to worry about if you were being honest or genuine, because you always were. Because of that, I’ve wore my heart on my sleeve ever since. 

Ethan Trinh

You’re the kindest person I’ve ever met - hands down. I miss the days we used to bike everywhere and roast Carter about everything we can think of. You showed me what it means to be dependable, and how important that is in a friendship. I was always impressed how lightly you took money and it’s still something I practice in my own life to this day. You never let others tell you how to think and always remained true to yourself. As someone who struggled with that as a kid, seeing your actions gave me the courage to fight against peer pressure of any kind. Anyone who has you in their life is incredibly lucky.

Wray Ip

Does shirtless snow-angels ring a bell?! I remember looking up to you and wanting to be just like you when we first started as friends. I admired you street smarts and how you always did whatever you wanted. That definitely rubbed off on me and I can’t thank you enough for that. I reminisce from time-to-time about the random shit we used to do, and how your family would always invite me to hotpot every year. I wish you the best.

Suzanna Che / Jenny Tan / Deanna Leung

None of you know this but you three were my role models growing up (along with Carter). I still remember being in that 4/5 split class with you and thinking how beautiful Suzanna was. Remember that?! The first time I saw how neat your handwriting was, I went home that day and practiced my handwriting for hours on end. Now I have all three of you to thank when everyone I meet says I write like a girl. I always aspired to have a friendship like yours, and I’m glad that your friendship has survived the test of time. I hope mine will as well. It makes me happy that you guys are all doing amazing things and it makes me so happy seeing Norquay friends succeed. 

Lalaine Oquendo

I don’t know what it is about our friendship that makes me miss it so much. I really do feel like we shared something special and there was something that compelled me to have your back no matter what. I won’t forget all the times you stuck up for me amidst all the high-school drama. You always had my back and I knew that you always had my best interests at heart. 

Derrick Feng

A5, 7, tears fully stacked, trollfest, UBC, the list goes on. Every notable experience that I’ve been through the past 9 years have been with you. Name a more iconic duo. Out of everyone on this list, you’re the person I’m certain will be by my side until we’re old and grey. Who else are you going to compete with? This is definitely not the end for us, and it makes this move a lot easier knowing this in my heart. I couldn’t have asked for a better friend, a brother. You have a big heart - not everyone can see it, but over the years I’ve learned to appreciate the things you do. It’s painful for me to know that we’ll be accomplishing so much in the next few years but rarely will we get to share it with each other. Promise me we’ll try our best to keep each other in the loop, okay? Let it be known that as egotistical as I am, I’ll always view you as my equal and there isn’t anyone I respect more. I believe in us to make the most of what we have and maybe one day even our kids will be the bestest of friends as well. Maybe they can compete and push each other to be better too. Out of the three OG couples, only yours is left standing. Take it to the end and give me a second reason to come visit you guys again. I won’t worry about you. I know we’ll be grinding as hard as we can - doing all that we can to succeed. I couldn’t be ore proud of you, of us, and it won’t be long until we cross paths again.

Ronald Lin

Why does it feel like our friendship is untouchable? We’ve been through so many ups and downs and yet at the end of the day, nothing can break us. Let’s not forget the first time we met. I sat in front of you on the bus ride to the Grade 8 retreat and offered you my only Kit Kat. Little did you know, Kit Kat is my favorite chocolate bar, but I was scared of you and wanted to be on your good side. We’ve come so far since then. Let’s not forget all the times we lit fires in Central Park, adventured deep into the depths of Stanley, biked until the birds chirped, and all the nights I stayed out too late because you were my only ride. Burnaby boys have to stick together, and I’ll always be a Burnaby boy at heart. Thanks for sticking by my side since the start. The memories we shared will never be forgotten and I know we’ll pick up right where we’ve left off when we reunite. If you ever need anything, don’t hesitate to ask - I’ll be right there.

Martin Chiang / Louie Wong

The tricky thing about tipping points, is you can only define them in retrospect. I don’t think any of us knew that a anonymous letter in Mr. Mar’s mailbox would be the beginning of a legendary friendship. I couldn’t have picked better friends to spend my teen years with. It’s unbelievable how much chaos we caused and how much fun we had doing it. Above all, we were undyingly loyal to each other every step of the way. Although all good things eventually fade away, I have no doubt that our friendships are eternal. I’m excited to see where life takes us and the stories we’ll have to tell when we meet again.

Sonny Lim

Never despair. Throughout the years, you’ve been the living embodiment that “life goes on”. I want you to know that there’s a reason you’ve been a close friend to me and our mutual friends all these years. Don’t sell yourself short. I hope one day you can muster up the courage to step out of your comfort zone and make a permanent, positive change to your life. You’re every bit as capable as the rest of us, prove it to yourself. 

Jason Huang

I remember thinking you were just some random guy when you were showing me magic tricks in Ms. Sam’s class. Little did we know that we’d become the closest of friends in a matter of months. Tears fully stacked is a big part of why our friend group is able to share our feelings towards each other so easily. It really took our friendship(s) to another level. Your empathy is something that everyone can appreciate and the little things you do for others is something that often goes unnoticed, but truly shows how selfless you are. You’ve heard this from me before, but I appreciate your generosity and it definitely gets taken for granted way too often. It makes me so happy to see you succeed and when you start the next billion-dollar company, I’d love to do the finances for you. We’ll definitely stay in touch, and I wish you the very best with WT (When’s the wedding?! Give me an excuse to come back!).

Hugo Kwan

Is it fair to say that we’ve spent ten times as much time on Skype than we have IRL? Jokes aside, it’s been a pleasure to be your friend, your MS party member, your league duo partner, your.. okay I’ll stop before the cringe gets too much. I’ve slowly realized that you’re a low-key genius and with the right amount of confidence, you’re going to do amazing things. It’s been amazing how much your confidence has grew and you’re only getting started. Don’t forget about me - who else is gonna climb out of Gold with me?!

Jailen Goodson

It’s hilarious to think that you came into high school being afraid of me, when in reality it was me deathly afraid of you. We had such a strong mutual respect for each other that it eventually turned into a friendship that I never want to forget. You made high school so enjoyable for me and the nights at Surya’s house are ones I’ll always remember. Because of you, I’ve learned how important it is to have tough skin and to shrug off what others say. You taught me that once you start competing with yourself, that’s when the challenge starts. I’ve never stopped competing ever since.

Jodie Huang

Can I start off by saying I miss you? Of all the people on this list, you’re the one I wish I treated better. I really didn’t know how much our friendship meant to me until it was gone. In Ms. DeSouza’s class, you and Yuqing changed my life for the better. I always idolized how seamless you were with your writing and how you can naturally ace a titration test while I was trying my very best just to keep up (I’d never let you know that of course). You made the academic side of school fun for me and the joy of learning has never left me since. I realized too late that you were my friend, someone who looked out for me all this time. I won’t forget that night when you stayed up with me to talk about all my insecurities and struggles. So, so many regrets. Hopefully we can rekindle our friendship sometime.

Brandon Kwok

It’s hard to believe that from now on, the only place I’ll be seeing you is Tilted Towers (or Mighty Mars?). Jokes aside, I’m happy to have grown to be such great friends with you. As we started getting really close through 3D1A, I always enjoyed including you in everything I did because you bring the positive energy and everyone needs in their life. We give you way too much shit because the truth is, any girl would be really lucky to have you. GO OUT AND FIND HER! Thinking about it now, it’d be impossible for us not to be friends given all the similar interests we share. I remember looking forward to the end of my lectures because we’d have so much planned to do together every Tuesday and Thursday. Or maybe we were going to game non-stop until we were both tilted off the face of the planet. You treated me like family, and I won’t forget the love that both you and your family showed me every time I come over (yeah, even you Brian). I’m looking forward to hearing that you’ve figured out what you love in life and pursuing it with all your heart. I’ll be waiting.

Henry Yu

From bullying you to defending you at every turn, is it safe to say that our friendship has come the furthest of them all? Respect is one thing, but loyalty is another beast. You’ve been loyal to me ever since that day, and we’ve never turned back. I’m proud to call you my friend. I don’t care who you become or what you do moving forward, I’ll always and forever have your back. I’ll always be here to support you. Hold it against me all you want, because I mean it with all my heart. The friendship and trust that we share is something special and I will cherish that until the day we meet again. There’s not a doubt in my mind that you’re going to pick yourself back up and prove to the world that you’ve got something incredible to offer. I’ll be cheering you on every step of the way. Remember that just because I won’t be there physically to be a shoulder to cry on, I’ll always make time to catch up and we can talk about our feelings for hours on end. Keep your head up. I’m with you to the end.

Crystal Au

There’s only one person who could’ve kept me in Vancouver. Is it an exaggeration to say that the Biology 12 project we did for Ms. Tam was the favorite school project I’ve ever done in my life? I think not. October 31, 2013 was the day you fearlessly (or more like fearfully) shot roman candles into the night sky. The colors of the shots is the perfect metaphor for what has happened since that day. My life was never the same. The world knows by now that I see you in the brightest of lights. There will never be another Crystal, I’ve come to terms with that. Of everyone on this list, I have no idea what distance will do to us. You taught me through action that you have to grab every chance you get with the people you love. I should’ve listened more carefully. You know, having someone that changes you for the better is the best thing out there. Having someone do it again and again and again is unheard of. It’s more than I can ever ask for. Thank you. The reality is, when we can no longer change the situation, we are forced to change ourselves. This is the hardest goodbye. Don’t be a stranger. 

Kitty Zhu

My eighteen-year-old self wanted to marry you. Same for 19, and 20. I always said, everything changes but one thing stays the same. I don’t think our relationship ever changed, but people do. I don’t regret a thing. The happiness we shared in our time together would be enough for a lifetime. I wish you the best, because that’s what you deserve. I’m always here if you need anything.

Melanie Kung

I have a clear memory of sitting in the backseat of a 2001 VW Golf as my dad drove through mountains in Scotland while I desperately searched for internet connection to continue a conversation we were having. Remember that? You were by far the easiest person to open up to and I always felt like we were on the same page. There wasn’t a thing I felt I couldn’t tell you. From the moment we met, you chose to take my side and I appreciate that. Patiently waiting for the day we catch up again.

Wesley Chan

I knew from the moment we got to know each other that this friendship was going to last a lifetime. That won’t change. You’re everything anyone could ever ask for in a friend. You’re caring, selfless, considerate, and everything in between. When I was going through the toughest of times, you were always by my side. Never did I feel any negativity or resentment from you, or judgement of any kind. I owe you the world. There are no words to describe the friend that you are and I hope I made you feel appreciated when I had the chance. I won’t forget the countless nights you came to save my drunk ass. I won’t forget the fun days we spent together: eating dessert, watching movies, biking, travelling to Korea (Iow-key kinda sounds like we were dating KappaPride). I know we’ll be reunited soon and I’ll be patiently waiting for that day. Call me if you need me, whenever.

Elaine Nguyen

You and I both know how much I appreciate our friendship. I love how we can always be honest with each other without any fear of judgement. It’s nice to have someone that understands the struggles we go through and that it’s okay to not always be the best version of ourselves. You made my life so much easier ever since I met you and you can always count on me to support you in any decision you make. I’m always going to be in your corner. 

Wynne To

Is it just me or do I still remember the first couple weeks of our friendship extremely clearly? You have no idea how hard it is to find someone as real as you are. You give and you take at face value and that’s why we get along so well. Only you can match my bluntness (but even so, I still out-do you, I was born in savagery). Funny thing is, you’re going to be my first excuse to come back to Vancouver - so tell Hanki to hurry up and say the magic words already! Thanks for being supportive and kind even when I didn’t deserve it. 

Gurinder Mahal / Christie Chau

I don’t think my life at UBC truly started until I met you two. Before our friendship, school was routine. Not only did you guys make my life interesting (at my expense), I started looking forward to going to school. I’d be lying if I said you guys didn’t have a large influence on my academic success. There’s no doubt in my mind that our friendship will continue on past this phase (especially when we reunite this summer), but I wanted to show my appreciation nonetheless. I’m typing this now, but don’t expect anything nice from me for a year - I love you both.

Talise Tsai

Before I met you, I didn’t think someone like you existed. I admire your drive, your determination to do nothing but good - it’s all incredibly inspiring. It motivates me to make a real difference, regardless of scale. Ever since meeting you, you’ve changed the way I approach life. Let’s make sure we always put our best foot forward. This is only the beginning of our friendship, and I can’t wait to what Toronto has in store.

Iris Chu

Do you remember when you used to be deathly afraid of me (I still have no idea if that was serious or not LOL)? In our limited time as friends, you’ve been a shining light that I wish I got to know sooner. Being around you brings nothing but happiness and that’s something everyone needs in their life. If there’s ever a time I’m in dire need of a photographer, I’ll know who to call! I wish you the best of luck and I hope you’ll still be in Vancouver the next time I pass through.

Daniel Duncombe

As proclaimed by Bowie, the golden boy himself. Because of you, I joined JDC West, leading to the highlight of my past four years. It’s I’m not afraid to admit that look up to you and I wish I could go about life the way you go about yours. The friendships you’ve built and your openness to experience is to die for. You’re without a doubt one of my biggest role models and I’ll see you at the top of another summit the next time I’m in town.

Stella Cho

How many people can you say you’ve jumped off a plane with? It feels like we’ve never actually “hung out” like normal friends cause every time we do, we’re doing something spontaneous and exciting. Just like the start of our friendship, we’ve always took our adventures away from Vancouver. Looks like the future has plenty more of that left to come.

Clara Chu

To tell you the truth, I don’t think I could’ve made it through JDC without you. In my weakest moments, you were an amazing listener and showed me how important it is to listen first and judge second. We’ve grown so close in the past year and it’s all because we just understand each other. Can’t wait to be a terrible influence on you when we go on our adventures this summer. I’ll always be here when you need someone to lean on.

Thanks for giving me the time of day for the past 20 years. I’m a firm believer in fate. If life brings me back to you, I’ll be running as fast as I can. 

I’ll be seeing you,

M