#i feel much better now

[littlemeltymarshmallow]

I got to thinking about how much happier I am now that I'm no longer forcing myself to have crushes on people. I wanted make myself believe I felt romantic love, because romantic love is 'normal', right? I've long realized I'm happier being seen as 'weird' than feeling that... icky and hollow feeling I felt when I tried to attach romantic feelings to some random person, just so I felt like I 'fit in' with everyone else around me.

[nguyenfinity]

help

[royal-elfroots]

PLEASE excuse this yap session, it may not make sense because I'm about to word vomit.

I'm straight up gonna puke. Finishing my canon run right now and playing Tresspasser. Almost at the end. I've been taking my time with this one. My hands are shaking, THIS IS SO SILLY. Oh wait I haven't eaten yet... please excuse this current stream of conscious. But I have so many feelings, I feel so... emotional about my Lavellan, I feel like she's been through so much, never able to catch a break. I'm at the point where Solas and the Viddasala are at the other side of the eluvian right now. I'm struggling to end this, because I already know what happens, I've played this before.

But this is the first time I'm beating the game while actually understanding the lore lol. I'm not gonna lie, before I truly didn't understand the gravity of how much this revelation of Fen'Harel would impact my romanced Lavellan. Of how much everything you've ever known was a lie. You've been slowly realizing that throughout your life, and especially in your time in the Inquisition. You fell in love with the villain of the stories you were told as a child. You fell in love with the creator of the mark that is currently killing you, which by the way, I know for a fact she physically has not been doing well the moment she arrived at Halamshiral. It's just been a downward spiral this whole time, and I know in the game itself it makes it so the Inquisitor only realizes who the agent is when the Viddasala tells her, but I headcanon that mine not only knew it was Solas, but she already had a terrible feeling and realization in her gut that he was more than just the agent. The answers were right there in front of her face the whole time. And I don't just mean Tresspasser, I mean THE WHOLE TIME. There was just no way Lavellan never knew he was always hiding something heavy. She's a smart person, and mine is particularly curious about EVERYTHING. At the time, she couldn't connect the dots, and while I'm sure she asked him often of his past, she wanted to respect his boundaries. She always knew he carried some kind of heavy burden. It wasn't until the events of Tresspasser that she figured it out.

Ugh, anyways, I am just not ready to finish this. I am emotionally ready. But I don't even think my Lavellan is, she's just desperate at this point. Desperate to see him, believing that she will die soon. I can't even begin to comprehend wtf is going on in her head. Everything all at once. But right now, Solas is the focal point. More than the voices in the well, more than the unbearable, excruciating pain in her hand and her entire body, more than the looming threat of a war with the Qunari against the entire South, yet another goddamn war. More than deciding whether or not to disband the Inquisition, more than what she's had to become throughout this whole journey, everything she's lost and everything she's gained. More than any of that, she just wishes to see Solas.

[crabs-and-bongos]

I just threw up :(

[lizisanamimal]

Omg, pleaseee be snarky and sassy about these MET looks!

FINE, THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THEY DEDICATE A GALA TO A GERMAN HILLBILLY WHO THOUGHT PUTTING PEARLS AND BLACK BOWS ON EVERYTHING WAS ✨FASHION✨

[luckymandy4-4]

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ah man, almost fainted in the shower and had to get out right away. soaking wet and conditioner still in my hair. so dizzy i had to lay down on the floor in my room right away and then vomited.

[the-better-psychic]

Ooc thing!

I love how you play mobile and how you add onto him as a character alongside expanding upon his psychic things!!

ooc: Hold up- Really??? NAHHH I thought everyone hated it. omg thank you kind anon!!

That's actually kinda crazy to me! But yeah I guess when I thought of being Mobile I didn't thhink I just thougght "Oh there's not many Mobile accounts" then I just plopped Mobile into an rp and was like ''have fun.'' despite having no idea how to play mobile (ALSO THIS IS 1000% AN AU MOBILE I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THIS GUY COULD BE CANON)

[pose4photoml]

I’m DONE!!

[rainbowcrowley]

the best cure for a nasty cold is tea, leftover christmas chocolate and an ofmd rewatch ✨️

[myunghology]

I'd love to show you the eichi image but I can't send it and i have no idea how to make you find it on google, closest i can get is "eichi and some soccer guy" and there's a picmix edited gif of the edited image... if you use google lens you should get it maybe - latino anon (good luck on school btw!)

HELP OK I'LL FIND IT LATER😭😭 ALSO TYYYY HEHE

[vivid-vices]

did u die in the parking lot?

i went and got food and have returned to the parking lot 😭

[death-by-moth]

I love writing out an entire personal vent monologue at 2am, then deleting it after it’s finished. It’s a great way to organize my thoughts and work out my feelings about things that are bothering me. Sometimes I cry when doing it, but I usually feel a lot better afterwards.

10/10 best therapy I’ve had so far, would recommend

[are-we-really-doing-this]

TAGZ !!!! happy birthday you beautiful weirdo <333

Oh my goodness I am flattered, I’m beautiful AND a weirdo! I’m gonna cryyyy

[bryverros]

theres no question to be posed hes unholy case closed did you forget that hell is foreverrrrr

[sqrkyclean]

being vulnerable for a second to use my pooltoy furry oc to convey what recovering from contamination ocd has been like while undergoing hrt.

[ashcadence]

My brain, "I don't wanna live anymore!"

Me, "Nope! Stop it Ash! You've worked an entire week of overtime doing physical labor, plus prepping for Christmas at home. You don't want to die, you just need sleep."