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i think we should all acknowledge how much snake enjoyed this
#not that we didnt already but yknow#i feel like i shouldnt be watching from this angle#its like im standing behind ocelot waiting to tell him something while this is going on in front of me#and im not even interrupting because theyre both ignoring me#mgs#revolver ocelot#venom snake
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being sarah’s lil best friend who just won’t leave rafe alone.
you always see yourself into the house, which aggravates him as it means he has no control over the home he sees as his own, stepping up for ward. sarah hasn’t even made it out of her bedroom before you’ve barrelled into the kitchen in the tiniest shorts and a bikini top that might aswell not be there, throwing your arms around him as soon as he turns around.
“hiiiii rafe!” you practically pur, lashes batting and purposeful. he swore he could even feel you pushing yourself up against the shape between his thighs beneath his shorts.
“shouldnt you be with my sister?” he drawls in a deadpan, trying his best to ignore the way his body heats up. he peels you off his body and pushes his hair back.
“what i can’t say hi?” you coo, clasping your hands all faux innocent below your waist, the act of your arms coming inwards only forcing your tits to jostle together. he licks his lips subconsciously. jesus, rafe— control yourself. that’s your little sisters friend.
he doesn’t get to think of an answer because sarah comes swinging in, instantly wrapping a hand around your arm. “hey! there you are.” she directs her attention to rafe, a glare. “is my pervert brother bothering you?” she scowls and he throws his hands up in exasperation, knowing for once he actually didn’t do anything wrong.
“no, no. it’s okay.” you shake your head all shy, all victim-like and non-convincingly which only makes sarah shake her head in disgust at her brother, leading you up the stairs. he watches you go, and you peer over your shoulder — stifling a giggle as you bite down on your manicure. fucking menace.
he doesn’t like losing, or more specifically — losing control, so when you show up one day when sarah isn’t home, he feels like he has to escape you before he gives into his impulses.
“there you are, been lookin’ all over for you.” you chirp, sliding into the kitchen where he stands at the fridge. his eyes widen for a second, looking around for his sister.
“y—you know sarah’s not even home. wastin’ your time here ‘cos she’s off with that routledge kid.” he shakes his head, forcing nonchalance as he leans down to scan the inside of the fridge. you’re at his side before he blinks, nail grazing his thick, tanned arm as you all but pet him. he felt weak.
“cant i just hang out with you? why’s it always gotta be about sarah?” you pout, urging him to look your way. you’d really perfected your doe eyed pout since you’d last visited, and the angle you stood at gave him the perfect view down your top. it’s exactly why he grabbed an apple juice carton and turned away, meandering away from the fridge after closing it.
“well i’m not your friend, alright? go home.” he commands, but of course you follow.
“you’re playin’ hard to get.” you whine.
“you’re playing hard to get rid of.” he retorts and you giggle, catching up to him.
“play with me rafey.” you chime seductively, and the tone makes his cock jump. so much so that it irritates him, and as you reach to grab at him again, he snaps around to you, gripping your wrist.
“quit with the slut shit, alright? you’re my little sisters friend. know what that means? means you’re just a fucking kid.” his voice raises only a tad, but it’s enough to snap you out of your whole bravado— the act dropped as you stare up at him with wide eyes, shocked. he can see that you’re hurt and he lets go, the regret instantly settling in as he licks his lips thoughtfully, scratching his forehead.
“okay.” you barely whisper, rejected and damaged. he watches you for a moment, and as you move away to leave he speaks.
“sarah will probably be home soon she… she always comes back. so… just go hang in her room. you’re uh—welcome to stay, alright?” he raises his eyebrows, talking all slow and reassuring the same way you’d speak to a younger sibling to stop them from crying and snitching on you when you play too rough. that wasn’t much comfort to you.
you do as he says and stay there for the rest of the evening. you wake from your slumber when the door cracks open, late at night. you think it might be sarah, but you’re met with her big brother instead.
“sarah still not back?” he converses awkwardly, though the answer is clear. you shake your head, shy and bashful. this was where he wanted you. the control was back in his hands. he’d broken you down to make you feel like you couldn’t have him, and now he could take what he wanted.
he nods, slowly approaching the bed and he almost smirks at that hopeful look in your eyes.
“doin’ a bad thing, kid. you are aware of that, right?” he asks and you nod, your turn to look guilty. he scratches at his jaw, deep in thought as he eyes you over— cute little lacy cami and pyjama shorts that rode up far too high. shit, he could even see your nipples through the thin fabric of your top. was he meant to be the bad guy for not being able to resist this shit? “must think you’re a big girl… comin’ onto me like that earlier. hah…” he chuckles, almost nervously at what he’s about to do.
“just want you. s’not my fault.” you pout and he fixes his expression to a faux solemn frown, nodding like he was very serious.
“yeah, nah— can’t… can’t control what our bodies want, right?” he justifies and you nod before the two of you stare at eachother. his minds made up. “so ‘fuck you still staring at me for? take those shorts off… n’roll over. not dealin’ with the guilt of the shit you’re about to make me do in my sisters bed.”
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𝖫𝖮𝖲𝖳 𝖱𝖤𝖢𝖮𝖱𝖣𝖲 ౨ৎ : vlog one
about: lost records of the past and even past friendships lie between small little films from a certain camera. 2006 was a year of laughs, smiles and even more that turned most of them over. who knew going back into the past would help cause a bit of deja vu but also some memories that shouldn't of been shown. note: this is taken during 2006 where everyone gets ptsd lolz!!! but the point of you is basically yk watching the film. reader pronouns are she/her and is a female reader!! the readers personality maybe a little different to yours (sorry) i wrote this all in one go so tell me if theres any spelling mistakes
"nobara we shouldnt be doing this..!!" the pink head nervously fidgeted infront of the tv. "its fine its not like anyone will know if we put it back in the same spot!" she claimed smiling.
opening the small box of tapes with names on the side such as 'beach day ♡' or 'vlog with toru' and other ones with colourful dried out gel pen writing. itadori grabbed one from the box with the name 'vlog one yay ★'.
a certain sea urchin haired walked in with a towel around his neck pausing seeing the familiar pinkish box gojo kept in his wardrobe. "why are you looking through that?" he walked over seeing all the little nick nacks laid out. megumi hadnt seen any of it ever since he was younger when she was around. crouching down and grabbing the tape out of itadoris hands while placing it into the dvd player.
all three of them sat in front of the tv waiting for the tape to work. little speckles were on the screen before showing gojo in the distant talking to someone. they could hear laughter and it was like deja vu all over again for a certain one.
"stop tryna flirt with n/n shes not gonna answer" a tall guy stood next to the white haired one. the camera then turned to a 180 degree angle focusing on a h/c girl with her knees tucked to her chest smiling at the guys away from them. the breeze gently waving there way through her hair with a little smile adoring her plumped lips. she looked to the camera smiling and waving. "do i need to say anything to this vlog?" she rested her head on the top of her knees staring. "just say your name, age, and whatever you want" from the camera person who was oodly familiar.
"uhm! well my name is y/n, im 15 turning 16 in a few days and well i want to help people" smiling at the camera before turning her head to the guys after hearing them quiet down. the camera turned to where she was staring seeing the albino haired man stare back at her before turning away. the other male had bursted out laughing at him before jogging to the camera. "oi geto do an intro to the camera" the camera person claimed at the male who looked confused but grabbed the camera so it was facing him.
"the names geto suguru, im 16 and i love watching gojo fail at confessing and also i really like kfc so if you have it hit me up babygirl" he chuckled before flipping the camera to the two girl showing a brown haired girl. "now you shoko" he claimed while hearing a bunch of footsteps in the background.
"shoko leri, 16 and i hate everyone here except n/n" she smirked before lighting her ciggarette while you could see y/n scrunch up her nose before turning away from the puff of smoke. "bleh" she exclaimed while resting her head on the albino who randomly sat next to her. "well satoru its time for you to do an intro to the camera" geto had placed the camera in his hands before sitting in front of all three of them.
"UHM what do i say n/n?" he turned to her who she was already looking at the camera with curiosity. "just say your name, age and idk a comment..?" she sweat-dropped at the question before grabbing a few daises from the ground making a bracelet.
"well so my name is gojo satoru and im 16 and uh and uh really hate kfc and thats directed at someone here" he looked around for an answer to pop up. it had taken him that long to think until feeling a small amount of weight on top of his head. softly tapping his white locks feeling flowers realising y/n had made a flower crown which could be seen on the camera while she had one of her own. "you like?" she rested her head back on his shoulder staring at the camera dozing off. "of course i do if its from you" he wiggled his eyebrows at her while geto was choking from laughing.
"okay thats enough of flirting on this vlog so say bye" shoko exclaimed grabbing the camera back facing it towards the two males and girl. they looked to the camera and waved.
"geto is a bum-"
the tape had finished and pop out from the dvd player. a cough rang out the dorm seeing the albino male standing there with a small smile leaning against the door frame. "we are so sorry sensei we didnt mean to go through your stuff!! we were just confused why you have a pink flowery box!!" itadori kept bowing up and down praying.
megumi looked away showing small amount of guilt but completely out of it. he missed the sound of one of the girls voice and seeing her again.
nobara just sat still staring at her sensei before getting up while grabbing the box to give back. "were sorry .. it was my idea i was just curious" she bowed while having the box in the air infront of the male.
gojo only chuckled at them before standing back while sighing. "its fine tell me when you watch the second one.. i havent had the time to watch them" he rubbed the back of his neck while keeping eyes on the sea urchin.
"who was the woman that you sat next to gojo?" itadori asked the taller one without a filter. "her name was y/n and she went here" megumi said before gojo knowing he would blurt something out.
"she was so pretty can we meet her one day" nobara and itadori asked gojo with imaginary tails like little golden retrievers. gojo smiled and turned around keeping his back away from them. "yeah i'll take you sometime soon" he walked off making the first years confused.
#xreader#x reader#fluff#jjk#jjk x reader#jujutsu gojo#jjk gojo#gojo x reader#blue lock#gojo satoru#saturo gojo#jujustu kaisen#geto suguru#jjk geto#jujutsu geto#satoru#suguru#gojo#shoko ieiri#jjk shoko#jujutsu kaisen shoko#jujutsu shoko#jjk spoilers#anime#manga
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hey i liked cockatiel x chameleon to an extent. i did want to ask about the george floyd section since it was probably the most effective part in the story for me (i’m black i shouldnt have to say dis) but what was it’s thematic purpose in the story beyond pulling you away from the languid hellscape of suffering people into the real world? i get that gramme was in the protests/riots and went secluded.. but i feel like there was more in that moment.
Thanks for the question. I already talked a bit about George Floyd's inclusion in CxC in this post, and the thematic idea of the "End of History." I recommend reading that post and seeing if that answers your question, but in case it doesn't, I'll approach the question from a different angle than I did there.
In 2013, I wrote an unpublished, pre-Bavitz novel called This Really Happened. It was, at its onset, a surreal murder mystery plot in which a wealthy young corporate heir was framed for a murder of an executive in order for the true culprit to seize control of the company. The heir, a ridiculous weeb named Luxembourg, is harassed by an unstoppable, Terminator-like black detective named Denning. Luxembourg panics, takes his secretary Rachel hostage using a katana, and flees into the Los Angeles streets. (Rachel is, at Luxembourg's behest, dressed in cosplay of the character Rydia from Final Fantasy 4.)
20,000 words into the novel, these three larger-than-life personalities run smack into the 1992 Rodney King Riots, which have just started while all this murder mystery bullshit was going on. The rest of the novel is a beleaguered chase through an anarchic Los Angeles, Denning unable to receive backup, Luxembourg trying to reach his father's mansion on the northern fringe of the city. The murder mystery elements strip away until there doesn't seem to be anything propelling this chase besides momentum, while the story is intercut with transcripts from real interviews taken during the riots and other depictions of things that, as the title claims, Really Happened. The second-to-last chapter of the story is just a transcript of the Murphy Brown speech then-vice president Danforth Quayle gave regarding the riots (a quote from this speech would later wind up as a Chicago chapter title).
To prepare for the work, I researched the riots assiduously. I watched hours upon hours upon hours of on-the-ground footage, I watched documentaries about the causes of the riot, the reactions to the riot, all from different perspectives and angles, I read books on the subject, ethnographic research of the LAPD, pretty much a full-scale immersion into the subject.
Since then, the subject of police brutality has always been one of particular importance to me.
In some ways, Cockatiel x Chameleon is the evolution of the ideas I had with This Really Happened. The collision between fiction and reality, "fake" problems versus real problems, personal desolation and communal. (A minor character from This Really Happened has a small, unnamed cameo as a reporter Gramme encounters at the protest. Gramme also briefly wields a katana.)
The thing that always strikes me about the George Floyd video is how the police officers don't seem like real humans. Not simply in the heinous murder they're committing, but in how they talk and act. The bystanders shout, scream, sputter, fumble their words constantly. Floyd begs for mercy. But Officer Thao talks like an MCU character, like he's always trying to drop a funny quip. "Don't do drugs kids." Chauvin just looks around with one eyebrow raised like he's pulling a sitcom reaction face. At one point, Thao aggressively pushes a bystander, then says "Don't touch me again," despite him being the one doing the touching. It's absurd. I think if the video was fictional, if it happened in a movie, I would roll my eyes and say, nobody is that one-dimensionally evil! But it did happen. It's impossible to deny, and that causes the absurd to turn to disgust, to anger and sadness. I cannot watch that video without being sharply emotionally affected.
One of the books I read for This Really Happened is called Policing Space, by Steve Herbert. It's a work of ethnographic research on the LAPD after the Rodney King riots, meaning the author rode along with LAPD officers and studied them in their typical environment. Herbert concluded that there are a series of ideologies that influence police behavior, and that among the obvious ones like law, safety, courage, and morality, there's one called adventure. Police see themselves as action heroes, like from a movie, and that can color their entire mindset, including their perception of law, morality, etc. They're the hero and their enemies are, well, enemies. They're roleplaying.
If I were a smarter person, I would've thought to make a connection between the outrageous fictionality of the officers' dialogue and the fictionality of the roleplaying the other characters perform throughout CxC. That if "roleplaying" is the only way for Harper, Gramme, Sister, and so on to construct meaning or identities for themselves, then that is also the only way these police can construct meaning for themselves as well, to disgusting results. (The officers in the Floyd video aren't even doing their job. The bystanders are pleading for the cops to arrest Floyd, which they refuse to do.) The culmination of this idea is the LARPing vigilantes with the Punisher logo on their truck that roll up to the protest and abduct Fletch. "Hostile neutralized," they say, completely clownish fake dialogue. Fletch responds by shouting, "You can't arrest me, you aren't cops, you're fake, you're playing pretend!"
I hope either this answer or the other one is satisfactory answer to your question.
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the thing about luxury sex object prison is that it doesnt even have to be a physical place. like i love the idea of porter, now ascended to godhood, trapping jace in a pocket dimension + chaining him to their bed + exclusively dressing him in silks and furs as much as the next person (and we are so getting into this) but you can also take the angle of like. porter's gone, he's a god now and he's not coming back, jace is left on spyre with nothing but his memories and what little personal affects porter had. and one day, jace notices that he's... gotten younger? his crows feet are less pronounced, hairs that were definitely grey are now coming in blonde again. and even with his weak immune system (constitution isnt a sorcerer stat), hasnt had so much as a cold in years. and like, hes been out to the red wastes since porter ascended and he's good at magic, he can defend himself, but he shouldnt be able to toss himself and only himself at a rakshasa and live to tell the tale with only minor bruising. his spell slots recover faster than usual - four hours instead of eight. and it should be impossible, what he thinks is going on. so to test his theory, he tries to drink a vial of poison. on purpose. and aside from the bitter taste that makes him gag and choke, he feels nothing. nothing except porter's eyes on him, somehow. watching him and keeping him safe and beautiful. and THAT is luxury sex object prison.
#starbreaker#<- once again i am so sorry to anyone in the main tag this is related to an extended discussion on my dash with 12 other perverts
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hey listen those millisecond face reactions from shiv and tom when they say something as if they didnt want to say it in the first place. notice shiv’s face and that quick angling herself away from tom so tom wouldnt see her face after saying “i was fucked up long before i met you”. that face says tom truly did fuck her up.
also, shiv’s initial reaction when tom said “i think i want you, i think i would like this back” she’s battling with her own emotions because she knows she wants it too but she’s too scared to get hurt again. (sarah is SUCH a great actress mygod, they need to do an analysis of her acting choices) then she smiles and proceeds to saying “well then you shouldnt have betrayed me” then her face reaction quickly changes to anger. (screaming while i watched that masterpiece). the push and pull of emotions had my insides twisted
that quick pained, unsure and that feeling of “i shouldnt be okay with this” face reaction from tom after they both laughed together??? i know they were like sealing the deal that their relationship would only be transactional but deep inside they do love each other and they cant say it to each other’s face.
and bonus: shiv again angling away from tom and having a little smile when tom said “i cant help it if i find strategy sexy, though”. so fucking smooth i died!! tomshiv keeps winning and also i guess this is how tom gets all those models huh?
this is not being delusional. i swear there is really something there fucked as it may be but it’s something.
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Spn wincest is gothic horror trope
Just wanted to put this out there that kripke n co knew exactly what they were doing with supernatural ... because it was part of the tradition of gothic horror and one of the key tropes of gothic horror? = incest.
From https://www.thegothiclibrary.com/gothic-tropes-incest/ :
"Incest has been a core trope of the Gothic from its very beginnings with the first Gothic novel, The Castle of Otranto by Horace Walpole (1764). " the others being atmosphere and mystery....sounding familiar?...
We've also seen it in movies like "crimson peak" and recently in good ol GOT... but usually, its a cis-het pairing and usually its a "period piece"-setting.... this one is more "modern gothic"
What sets "Supernatural" apart is that 1) its 2xhot guys 2) its a scripted show on a tv-channel with attendant restrictions on portrayal of taboo-topics - incest (or domestic abuse or child abuse etc) is certainly not what you'd "normally" expect to see on a network channel show unless it was a police procedural and even then it'd be heavily restricted. 3) the show manages to somehow bring in these subjects in not only its case-fics and monster of the week formats but also as a series-long arc.
For those that feel like they're "glimpsing" something that perhaps may not be there or "shouldnt" be there or "wtf"-ing through it - its legit and its real - and its a well-known trope of the genre that this show originally started out being an instance of.... coz remember, there are actual lines and long lingerring camera shots and atmosphere created between the brothers - in a scripted show - this stuff had to be written, rehearsed several times with a full crew there and full lighting and camera-angles adjusted, theres editing and post-production and approvals from execs to be obtained etc,etc - all the things that go into making a series..... they didnt just wake up 1xday and go "right we're turning this into an incest thing" - the actors can certainly "slip in" something or writers or directors but it'd be limited to a season or an eposode if they had - it wouldnt be a long running theme throughout the whole show incl other characters and actors saying lines that allude to it (zachariah or ash and his "soulmates" line).
Yes incest is taboo. Yes it is also a legit part of the show - because its part of the genre of gothic horror that supernatural belongs to.
The point of it is to introduce a subject matter that is in itself considered "repulsive" or introduce a level of "social horror" on top of any ghosties and ghoulies in the story....the point is to make it a driver for some of the horror also.
And guess what? - adding a wincest lens does that in spn - it amps up the pathos,the underlying despair and "wrongness", the tragedy of the brothers within the larger story of gods and demons and angels and monsters ...in a very human way. It adds and magnifies the theme of "family is hell" (thanks tenlittlebulletts) and also that just coz they love you, doesnt make it less horrifying - ie love as horror.
What the makers probably didnt bank on and later season-makers backed away from most likely - is how much the 21st century tv audiences wanted 2xhot guys to get it on and didnt care if they were brothers or not - ie, they underestimated how much of a "freak" we,the audiences, were/ are!....😂😅😉
Im still putting together the piece on all the ways that wincest adds/amps things up in the series-arc...likely a longer piece.... [this is not to take away from the awesome performances of all involved or any of the contributions from anyone and yes there might be all this other stuff going on around it: j2 irl speculation or actor-drama or fandom drama etc,etc that ive no idea about xoz i only watched spn during covid n got hooked - but i know theres drama - and im choosing to ignore it all in favour of simply looking at what is in front of me objectively and understanding its role in the genre and within the story being told itself - a story i love deeply].
Hope this helps anyone struggling with their sanity when they see these glimpses and helps to validate what you're seeing - you're not crazy - its there - & it has a purpose within format or "formula" / trope of the genre/story itself.
#supernatural#sam and dean#Spn is gothic horror hence wincest is “real”#Didnt imagine the wincest in spn#I do not condone incest or family violence of any kind - just sayin its part of gothic horror stories#Incest is wrong - obv and also illegal#Media literacy#English literature tropes n traditions
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scott pilgrim vs the canon
boy you better have this tagged against spoilers because otherwise this is going to ruin a lot of stuff. all im going to say is, this show cannot be watched without having read the comic first so. keep that in mind.
scott pilgrim was the seminal work of my generation, it was the thing that defined us and the internet to a large extent after it came out in full back in 2010. now we are all here back again, in our late 20's, 30's and even 40's to take a second look at this franchise after everything that has been going on.
and this franchise had things to say.
i went in expecting scott pilgrim the comic, this time more lavishly (and faithfully) adapted than the movie could have ever been. suffice to say i was not dissapointed at all because i didnt get that in any way what so ever.
this is in some senses the modern cannibals of the scott pilgrim franchise, perhaps less cynical and bitter. this is an examination of this story from a slightly askew angle. this is a what if that takes itself to another level.
those who say that this "feels like fan fic" are half right, but if so i want to see what fan fics they are reading because i never saw a fanfic that take the world and its characters so wildly out of context, put them in outrageos new situations they would have never been in, do some genuine crack slash ships and yet still feel so genuine, so true to the original. just because none of what is happening here happened in the comic that doesnt mean these arent the characters we know and love and that this isnt the world and the mood and the vibe that that we all grew up with.
the brian lee o malley style is so incredibly hard to capture. its this wonderful mix of over the top anime/cartoony action mixed with incredibly grounded, down to earth, super chill vibe. we've seen the wonders that came out during the 2010's made by other artists inspired by it or directly trying to emulate it, and yet none of them were able to capture it quite right and this show is the bona fide real deal. it made me remember why scott pilgrim captured me so much back when i read it as a teenager, its a mood impossible to reproduce and yet reproduced all the same here in this show.
wonderful.
the animation is of course out of this world. the voice acting could do some work but im willing to let it slide considering that they went with the original cast from the movie.
this story feels almost like an answer to the observation many people made at the end of the comic and specially the end of the movie. that scott and ramona were obviously not meant to last. that they were still too young and too messed up as people and the relationship was probably going to end badly. the show examines all that with raw honestly and concludes at the end that, sure, maybe this is not going to work out. but that doesnt mean they shouldnt give it their best shot.
as i said at the beggining, this has to be understood as an addenum to the comic. it starts as an adaptation, it lulls you into thinking its a wacky what if and ends up being a covert sequel. with that in mind, this show understands that you already understand and know who scott is and what his deal is, so it chooses to focus squarely on ramona and the exes, and let me just say. the exes are the fucking break out stars of this show. i love every single one of them. the fact that each of them get their own little mini arc and a chance to either redeem or at the very least become genuenly sympathetic was absolutely brilliant. these guys are amazing.
this story in general just presents such a feel good, likeable, chill athmosfere, where even villains who seemed irredeemable can still have just a calm conversation with the hero and just chat for a while. share a coffee, wind down.
if i had one single complaint at all is that i was a little sad by the implication that scott wont learn his lesson at the end of the original story and will continue to be kind of a clueless immature douche. but it is tempered by the fact that this story still has a lot of sympathy for young scott and it makes the case that the guy still very much deserves a chance.
so yeah
loved it, great work, it tried to do something super weird and it somehow succeeded. good job 9/10
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💘💔 for Ashara!!!
💘 HEART WITH ARROW — what and/or who do(es) your oc consider the most important to them?
oooooo good question !!! i think broadly speaking her clan has always taken precedent over everybody else, especially her keeper and her nephew. TECHNICALLY her twin sister is her #1 priority but she would never admit that bc publicly she's a hater. but if it came down to a choice she'd pick mithra every time.
in dai and onwards obviously solas is sort of at the forefront of everything. despite her somewhat umm repulsive personality <3 she IS a romantic at heart and she falls in love very quickly with people who are kind to her and he wasnt an exception, so she rly had it in her head that they would run off and have a family together before he dumped her lol. since then he's stayed THE looming figure in her life post trespasser but in a deeply unsettling psychosexual tom and jerry "my entire life's purpose is to drop a piano on your head" type vibe. she pushes away basically everybody during this period except (divine) leliana and cassandra, who's council and general presence is the only ones she trusts.
💔 BROKEN HEART — what are three of your oc's negative traits?
she will - and especially at the beginning of dai - answer every single obstacle with "hey cassandra i think we're gonna have to kill these guys :/" . she has enough self awareness to know this isnt a great way to walk through life and she wishes (and tries, usually to some degree of success) to course correct, but she hates personally suffering through diplomacy because she thinks people shouldnt have to be incentivized and ass-kissed to do the correct, moral thing. IRONICALLY, she isnt ANTI diplomacy at all - as first to the keeper in her clan she did strongly encourage her keeper towards more open trading and collaboration with human towns. she just hates having to do it herself bc she does not have a charismatic bone in her body. which is why shes thanking mythal every single day for josephine montilyet lmao.
also still tethered to her hot headedness/frustration angle, shes also deeply emotionally stubborn. i say emotionally bc its not so much plans or ideas she wont budge on, because she's usually pretty thoughtful and open to teamwork. PEOPLE are what she struggles with, particularly if they hurt her (solas) or abandon her (solas) or betray her (solas but also blackwall). when she doesnt like someone it is borderline impossible for her to move past that and she will devote great deals of time and mental energy to being hater #1. she and blackwall *hate* each other after his rainier revelation and she allows him to join the wardens as penance only bc she is Actively banking on him dying horribly in the deep roads 🥲 same with solas. ironically if he had just told her the truth she would have been more or less on board with helping him out, and she does for most part agree with him on 85-90% of it. but its the fact that he lied and then dumped her and then humiliated her which is the reason she will never collaborate with him or entertain any of his ideas or stop trying to drop pianos on his head ever. if she can get past this sort of knee jerk reaction by/during datv then she'll be more open to redeeming him but until then. hater vibes only.
lastly, on a more sympathetic note, she struggles a lot with vulnerability. she watched her mother become an abomination bc a lifetime of pain overtook her in a moment of desperation, and ashara, being only like 13 when this happened, really took that lesson to heart. she thinks pain is an admission of weakness and defeat and death (ironically she does not think anger counts as an expression of pain, although it absolutely does) and so she tries to distance herself from opening up to others about her struggles because she feels its her burden to bare and she wants to protect people from that uncertainty. she wants them to trust her and feel like they can depend on her because they can.
her only real exception to this was solas, so to have been fucked over by him of all people really only just reinforced how she already felt about it all. lol.
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im trying to draw your little guy because they're so cool but i have done 4 arts total and i have no clue how the hair works here , , (not that its bad im just terrible at perception and brain visual)
OKAY HERES AN OVERLY COMPLICATED STEP BY STEP GUIDE TO HOW I DRAW MY HAIR
basically everything is designed to be as easy and quick to draw as possible and it can all be broken down into 3 shapes. every one of them is meant to be drawn in one stroke for simplicity but if you need to take it one line at a time thats okay!
first things first is the big, defining shape. i usually draw it on the viewers right, since thats the way im most comfortable drawing curves, but it can be switched (see: my pfp where i did it the other way). the starting point/root should be at about the middle of the head, if you care much about spacing. i dont but ill try to pay attention to that here. from that you curve up and out, make it as exaggerated as you feel like. this line is supposed to go off the head for silhouette/cartoony reasons. also its fun to draw big exaggerated shapes!! after that, you pull it in for two spikes. if you cant draw the whole shape in one line, try to get these at the very least.
next shape is simple too. youre gonna start roughly where the first shape meets the head on the downward curve. then from there, its straight down, ending in another (much smaller but sharper) curve. two more spikes, and then right back up.
repeat on the other side, starting the other one pretty much wherever you see fit, so long as its pretty close to the other side of the head.
THAT LEAVES YOU WITH THIS BUT WERE NOT DONE YET BECAUSE THERES STILL A PONYTAIL!! luckily its more of the same
you start somewhere behind the start of the curve of the bangs? roughly the midpoint but it doesnt matter too much. here you get to draw a little oval for the start of the ponytail,,,, so little,,,,,,,. then its up a little bit and then down, then going right out again for two more spikes. the culmination of everything youve learned over the last. hold on lemme check my watch. okay its been like 6ish minutes for me but like 30 seconds ideally this shouldnt be too hard to draw.
and then its down to the dead eyed expression and hoodie that hasnt been washed in 1-2 weeks at an given moment, headphones are a give or take. and theres me!! being tired, mostly. oh so tired. and a bit sad. BUT THIS ISNT A CRY FOR HELP ITS AN ART TUTORIAL!!!!!!!!
these features basically stay the same for drawing me from any angle. mostly because im too lazy to think about how it should work in a 3d space. this is cartoon logic not real life logic. hair looks weird from a certain angle? jUST DONT DRAW IT FROM THAT ANGLE!!!! SWITCH THE BANGS AROUND IF YOU MUST!!!!!! THERE ARE NO FUCKING RULES
also hair down ash looks like this. and also what id look like in an ideal reality
okay thats it.
#i mostly figured this out based on a need to quickly draw myself (poorly) for a joke#in actuality if i have my hair up (which i do most of the time) its because of sensory annoyances w feeling my hair and/or hair getting-#-in the way. so i almost never actually have bangs#but theyre fun to draw!!!!!!!#doodles
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HIIIII HAPPY MELTING POINT DAYYY 😆🎉 we should start normalising saying happy melting point day instead of happy friday actually
finally completed my workload for the day so i finally have the time to read the newest chapter 😝 im seated, seat belts buckled & so ready for the ride
"boyfriend" I GIGGLED THEY R SOOOOO TGT NOW 🫂🫂 used to pray for moments like this ...ok the minhee not responding to yn as usual kinda sus yea 🧐🧐 but anyways dgaf for now bc HOON CAME TO SURPRISE YN? I LIVE FOR THEM 🤍🤍🤍🤍 STOPP HE LET HER ADD HER OWN TOUCHES TO HIS CAR?:!!: AWWWW THATS SO SWEET i love when couples have a synergistic effect like hoon showers yn w all his love and attention and likewise yn gives hoon nothing but love and pride they truly are meant for each other
NO WAIT HOONYN HAD MORE HISTORY?.?:! when i say match made in heaven i really do mean it 😭 but hoon saying he had a reason when he rejected her... 🧐🧐🧐🧐🧐🧐 HMMMMM HMMMMMM 🧐🧐🧐 FAWKKING HELL THEY SAID WHAT NOW 🥺🥹🥺🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 they LOVE each other 🥹🥹🥹🥹 aj i ABSOLUTELY LOVE the little glimpse into hoonyn's past and the little moments that add up to their r/s now im just 🥰
i also absolutely love hoon sets yn straight like u can love both parties but there really shouldnt be a double standard, family or not. and its so refreshing to see main characters actively voice out their feelings! yn pookie imma have to need a word with u bc... i get that this is minhee's first chance at going even bigger but its still as big a thing for hoon too 🥺 and we cant deny minhee has said terrible things about him too...
oh no the mother and son r plotting.. i dont like that 😠😠 okayyyyyy minhee is acting too cold to yn for it to be normal now 🤨🤨🤨 UGH I JUST HATE THEIR MOM. like WOMAN PLEASE. theyre both ur kids ur flesh and blood i get that this is a big thing for minhee but like UGH 😤 OMG? rina made hoon's fit? SLAYYY U GO GIRLLL
WORLD PAUSE. WHAT HAPPENED?:!/!/& the moment i read the words "his ankle unexpectedly snaps at a 90 degree angle" MY HEART DROPPED MY JAW DROPPED BC THERES NO FREAKING WAY. does minhee want to fight WHY IS HE HOLDING YN BACK. LITERALLY LET THE GIRL GO!!!!! wtf. did minhee actually have something to do w hoon's skates. bc if he did istg. NOT HIM TRYING TO CHANGE THE TOPIC WTF. NOW IS NOT THE FREAKING TIME U DINGDONG!!!! but ig now we know why he was acting so distant w his own sister 😠
OK SO HE REALLY DID IT? oh U WANNA FIGHT KANG?.!.!/ AND HERE COMES THE MOTHER. if u can even call her that 😡🤬 IM SO?.!.&/ WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT DO U HAVE NO SHAME NO MORALS WTFFF 🤬🤬🤬🤬 i knew chapter 4 was the calm before the storm 😭😭😭😭 i hope yn got to see hoon tho 😭 im starting a hoon ankle speedy recovery manifestation ❤️🩹❤️🩹
icb i finished the chapter so soon 🙃 now im back to living non melting point days.... patiently waiting for melting point day to come 🤍
i am with you on that! happy melting point day is how i'm greeting every friday from now on !!
ynhoon have been going longer than anyone realised and honestly i know i wrote it but why do i still get so ajdhsjhd over hoon when i remember he told his dad to give her the sweets?? its my little pocket of happiness :( and it just makes the i love you so much more deeper than we realise!!
minhee and the mum, honestly, i love the reactions 😭 the plot thickens each chapter and i can't wait to watch everyone unfold it along with yn.
thank you as always for reading! ilysm you have no idea!!
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I want to grab Ranboo by the shoulders and shake some sense into him. Poor guy, I feel bad for him, he's so controlled by his viewers, but I haven't kept up with MCYT in years so I'm not sure how bad it is. Love your blog btw!
Ranboo wants to be a good person, this is clear. I just wish they wern't trying to do it in front of an audeince that has such strong predisposition towards turning on them. For a long time the gaming sphere and 'sjw' anything seemed kind of at odds, so having someone like Ranboo who seems to genuinely care beyond being strongarmed (although they are strongarmed, a lot) is still a thing I can appreciate. I just wish that the fear of being bad wasn't something that people were so eager to exploit. No matter how much 'sense' Ranboo comes to, not much is going to be able to fix that audience, and he's stuck having to figure out the right thing anyway with them giving constant feedback.
I wasn't following this situation directly, but I understand a loose outline of the issues with The Last Of Us 2 and the misfortune of playing it / being involved with it so close to a time like this. Ranboo response here in full, I think they do a better job than they give themselves credit for when it comes to explaining but some people genuinely don't want to listen, this is a parmanent mark against him now. I don't know how many people knew or understood the situation with Israel a few months ago, but I'm comfortable with saying that more people know now and in way more clear-cut terms than they would have before. It seems more obvious in heightsight, but with the way it was being treated at the time I understand where his moves came from. It's a perfect storm of bad circumstances, now.
I also feel bad for Ranboo when it comes to things like this. They've had a terrible run of luck that will never end with how closely their audeince watches their actions and combs them for mistakes. The crowd seems to want safety and control, but from a kind of impossible-to-fully-satisfy angle, and he'll inevitably not be able (or willing, which sometimes he shouldnt be) to give it to them.
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the crinkle of white. i despise these chairs. i never seem to be the correct proportions to agree with them. my feet dangle. i should have worn different shoes. there is nothing so humiliating as being watched as you untie your shoes.
i stand with my back to the scale. i always have. today i didnt. it slipped my mind. i dont even believe i understand how to read a scale such as this. i never did well in science.
im picking at my hands. its soothing, or at least i assume it is, since i do it so often.
i dont know how to explain myself anymore. what is normal, what is extreme? what equates to a halt on life and a simple expression of disdain?
i am trying to be honest. i feel judged. when im anxious, the back of my head itches. i cut my nails last night. theyre blunt. it does nothing.
im staring in her eyes. im unfortunately well executed with eye contact. i want to gaze at my shoes. i want to cast my attention out the window. i can see my car when i flicker that direction. i parked like a maniac.
the wooden floor creaks. i can hear footfalls before someone enters. they knock, short and polite, a premonition to a greeting. not a warning.
im going to pick something up tomorrow. and at night ill swallow it. and the next morning i will too.
i hope it does something. im surprised i remember hope so well. it seems hope is best executed when in the throes of benevolence.
just hoping that a switch will flutter inside me. i am only hoping for that.
my car is cold. and the right heater wont angle right to press heat flush to my hands. my left hand ends up warm whilst the other becomes only more frigid. i never seem to be warmed these days. i wonder where the chill comes from. it follows even when i leave outside.
im anxious. i at least can discover that. my chest is heavy. it hurts. everything does. im ashamed. i shouldnt be. im punishing myself. i shouldnt.
its not easy to die. and if it were, i would be. its not easy to live. all of these pieces. this life. the mosaic of it all.
i should stop drinking. and smoking. and consuming caffeine. i should eat more. i should sleep more. i should relax more. i should do a great deal of things. i wonder why i dont. i guess its good that i might have a hope, though. hope is a bit futile all by itself.
i want to disappear. i know if i die i would. there would be nothing left to feel remorse nor guilt. i suppose thats the relief. should i care of it if it no longer affects me?
its late. im conversing with myself. im dreadful. im not at all. im a lot. i suppose im just that. a lot. so much. neverending. all the feelings. and emotions. and sadness. anger. desolate plains of my mind.
i feel foolish. i wonder when i ever dont. i dont want much. i want everything. i want ease. i want simplicity. i want love. i want forgiveness. i am selfish. it is so easy to want things.
im going to wake up tomorrow. and ill brush my teeth. ill probably shower. ill listen to music. ill pick up what i should swallow. ill see people i love. who care for me. and night will come again. and ill keep doing this. and one day enough things will change that i will have a new life.
i might shave my head. pierce my skin again. tattoo every fraction of flesh that decorates my body. the amount of times ive yearned to become someone new. one day i will. im sure of it. i change so often.
this is embarrassing. it all is. everything all at once is that way. its a spiral. it eats itself. it is what it sees. i am what i see. its a circle.
tomorrow will happen. the day after. and the day after. again. and again. its a relief and a horror. both. at extremes.
i only hope.
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So I’m getting a little worried.
Sam has not had the development that I thought he was going to get by now. Im holding out hope that this was by design, and that the final two episodes will be Sam-centric because as of now, Sam has definitely taken a back seat to Bucky, Zemo, and even Walker. Sam is supposedly the main character and yet as of episode 4, he has stayed mainly calm and composed this entire time. We've already seen this Sam. We have seen this Sam in the past few movies. I want to see something more from the man. As of now, we have seen Bucky at his weakest, we have seen his anger, his pain, his struggles…that what makes him so engaging to watch. That what makes any character engaging. That is what makes them relatable. Why haven't we seen that with Sam yet? What exactly makes Sam tick? What gets him sad? Who is this man? I already know Sam a nice guy who is an extremely loyal friend. I want more. Why does he feel like a side kick to Bucky? Even some of the camera angles and character placements have Sam nearly off screen or behind Bucky. Why isnt there more scenes of Sam fighting versus all the other characters? His fight scenes have been extremely limited in comparison to Bucky and that really freaking problematic.
Are we going to flash back to Sam past like Bucky, or are we going to get cool calm and collected Sam all the way through? Will Sam mentioned his past partner at all, or will he just end up being the guy who calms down Bucky? Sam is way too much of a passive character for my liking. Things are happening around him and he barely gives his input. This is sidekick behavior. Man do I want him to really put his foot down, have conviction, have some passion, show some real emotions rather than just looking worried all the time. And I don’t mean him act out of character since he is generally a level headed guy. But even level headed characters have their buttons, have their limits, and if you are the main character than your character should be facing those limits because otherwise, the story will be very uninteresting because the character never changes. I mean, we just witness Bucky really breaking down and that is amazing and makes you feel for him. Sam has yet to move me on anything and we have yet to get inside his head. Walker has shown more sides of him than Sam! I'm worried because I expressed similar discomfort with Finn character in star wars the last Jedi and they ended up disappointing me big time with the last movie. They go with introducing a black character with a lot of potential but as the story goes on, his character never truly develops or given the screen time to just be them. Im going to be really peeved if the black character is once again, the most misused character in the god dang series. I’m going to hold out hope for the last 2 episodes. Please do not disappoint.
Also, it doesn't make sense that Sam disregarded the deaths of innocent people and viewed Karli as a kid. I had a hard time wrapping my head around his logic. If the girl is okay with bombing innocent people, she is obviously too far gone to reason with. Yet Sam wanted to give her a chance to talk it out. Doesnt make any sense. They shouldnt have had her bombing buildings full of people if they wanted to go this route.
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Remember Me//Ranboo
Pairing: Ranboo x Reader (Schlatt’s sibling) (platonic)
Genre: Angst to Fluff
Warnings: MANIPULATION, BLOOD, GORE
NOT EDITED
It was terrible to be stuck in there.
You were kidnapped by Dream, forced to live in his home far away, that no one could find you. Then, after the prison was done, you were moved there.
It was great to get fresh air, even it was to be moved to a secure facility. That had been three days ago, and now you were sitting in your cell. It was surrounded by lava, and you had cried so many times due to the blistering heat.
Sighing, you ran a finger through your hair, only for your hands to hit your horns. You touched them, reminding them of your brother, Schlatt.
You’ve always wondered what had happened to him, that last you had talked to him was after the election. You smiled, feeling a bit closer to him.
You thought about Tubbo, and how he was. You remember the saddened faces he and Tommy made when your brother had won. You remember Wilbur’s face, how his face contorted to disgust.
And finally you remember Dream’s sinister smile.
Your head hurt, since your brain blocked out most of your memories. Crying softly, you sat next to your bed, curled up on the floor.
After a few minutes, you jumped as you heard the machinery spring to life, signifying someone was here for you. You tried to stop sobbing, it hurt terribly as Dream has slit your throat, then bandaging it terribly, but you couldn’t, so you watched and waited.
As the lava stopped, you gasped as you saw Sam, and he also gasped when he saw you.
“[N-name]?” Sam hesitated, looking at you as if you were a ghost.
You nodded, not being able to speak.
He ran up to you crouching and looking at you. “Where have you been? Its been so long since I’ve seen you.”
You smiled softly, motioning that you weren’t able to talk.
“Let’s get you out of here, and then I’ll ask you questions, okay?” He smiled softly.
You shook your head vigorously, knowing a punishment would arise if you left.
“Why not? Is something wrong?” Sam looked at you, trying to find out what was wrong.
“Dream..” Was all you said, as your voice didn’t permit it.
“Its okay, Dream can’t hurt you anymore.” Sam picked you up, carrying you out as you passed out.
It has been a few days after that, when you had already come to, you were all bandaged, with someone named Puffy and Sam.
Puffy was really nice, and at the beginning it scared you, since you couldn’t trust anyone anymore. Dream was exactly like her, and he hurt you.
As you finally started to trust her, you had found out that your brother was dead, as was Wilbur. That broke you, knowing that your brother figures were both dead.
Schlatt said he would be there for you, but everything took a toll on him, and now he was dead.
You had also found out Tommy and Tubbo were going to fight Dream, and you knew they weren’t going to win. You had seen how sinister he was, and what his plans were.
You even felt like you shouldnt be here, shouldn’t be away from captivity.
After a few days had passed, you were able to speak a bit more, and roam the place. You bolted towards Tommy’s house, having the chance to tell them Dream’s plans.
As you entered, you didnt see anyone. Shuddering, it vaguely reminded you of something, and before you could turn, you were hit with something. You blacked out once you hit the floor.
When you had felt the familiarity of a cage, you knew it was Dream that kidnapped you again. You moved to the corner, as iron bars surrounded you, showing you from every angle.
You saw that you were in front of a stage, and everyone was there, shocked at you. As you looked at your surroundings, you noticed Dream was next to the cage on the stage.
“THIS IS TO MAKE SURE YOU NEVER CROSS ME AGAIN!” He yelled at everyone as they sat, trying to get up on the stage but failing, their anxiety forcing them down.
He walked up to you, grabbing you but your horns and throwing you down in front of him. You yelped in pain as you kneeled, your horns sensitive to pain.
Dream grabbed onto your horns tight, ripping it from your scalp as you yelled in pain, blood trickling down your face.
“DOWN WITH THE SCHLATT SIBLINGS!” He laughed, running away as people tried to chase after him to no avail.
People tried to help but you were suddenly held and teleported to an obsidian looking bunker.
You looked up to see a two-toned boy rubbing his neck,
“Sorry, you just..seemed to want to get away. Oh, let me help you with your horn."
You laughed a bit as he bandaged your horn as best he could, but you couldn’t help but remember him. Your head started to hurt, and he looked at you confused.
"You okay?” He said softly.
“Yeah, i just..feel like i remember you, but it just gave me a headache.” You mumbled, throat hurting.
“Oh…” He said, as he kept on helping you, and he looked a bit disappointed.
“Name’s Ranboo by the way!” You smiled as he finished bandaging your horn, handing you a healing pot.
“[Name]..” You whispered as you drank the pot, the pain lessening.
“W-would you like a hug? I mean i dont know if you’d want one i just-” Ranboo mumbled as you laughed quietly and hugged him.
“Oh, okay.” He smiled, leaning against the wall as you put your head on his chest.
“I hope you remember me, [Name]” He whispered as you started to drift off.
#ranboo x reader#ranboo x you#ranboo x y/n#ranboo imagine#mcyt x y/n#mcyt imagine#mcyt x you#mcyt x reader
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DRUNK HELLA DONT ANSWER THIS ASK I DONT TRUST YOU
Sober hella, in your opinion, what is the best time/way to kill off a character? Basically like how to not pull a banana fish and just kill characters for the sake of a dramatic ending lmfao
omg hi i also saw this when i was drunk and immediately forgot id seen it but now i vividly remember being like 'hehe im gonna answer it just bc you told me not to' and then some smart part of me was like 'hella NO' and i put my phone down. anyway here goes:
so i think i have a very biased opinion bc my viewpoint on this subject as a reader is very 'please dont kill characters that i like please god no' and it tends to reflect in my writing, but having said that, as a writer i do understand that not only is it necessary but sometimes it just DOES spice things up? and that's okay! it's literally totally okay if you look at a character and go 'i am literally only killing you because it makes things interesting'. you dont need some in depth bullshit reason behind everything you do. like me and @rotisserie5107 were saying the other day, sometimes sexiness is the only justification you need with writing. and no that's not a sexual thing i just mean genuinely making choices that are fun/aesthetically pleasing/etc. there's a real narrative with fiction atm that EVERY choice a writer makes has to have a genius explanation behind it and if a scene/dialogue/character doesn't further the plot then you need to axe them from the story, but i personally think it's bollocks.
what im trying to get at is that things like this are less 'when to kill a character' and more 'when to think twice', which thankfully narrows things down quite a lot. whatever you're thinking rn for the poor sod in question, id honestly say trust your gut. you are a writer and this is a person you have plucked from your brain. you are the only person who can be trusted with them. the ONLY time you should think twice is when it starts getting a little too... real. if their death symbolises something in a bad way, if they're the only minority character, or even something like if you just have a LOT of character death. i watched game of thrones in its entirety and for the hundreds of characters that died i cant think of a single one i actually felt upset about, bc it just got so ingrained into me that that's just What This Show Did and if readers know there's a lot of character death, they get very very apathetic to it.
so anyway sticking with the example of banana fish bc i think i may have mentioned once or twice how i feel about that show <3 (bf spoilers ahead):
ash was a victim of extreme sexual trauma starting in childhood. he was exploited by your typical rich white men. he was a child. his narrative was angled in a way that made him seem like he was going to get a happy ending just for it to be cruelly snatched away in the last 10 mins for the sake of shock alone. these are all factors that make his death grotesque. now this is all personal opinion bc there's a LOT of debate in the fandom about this, but ive made it very clear that i genuinely dont think there's any justification behind killing him off. 'it was foreshadowed' 'death was an escape' etc are all really fickle defences to me, because at the end of the day, what the author wound up saying is that people who can see their own traumas in ash are incapable of healing and shouldnt even bother, and that suicide (bc we all know he could have called an ambulance) is not only a good choice but quite possibly their only choice.
HOWEVER, as much as i hate it, if yoshida was so hellbent on killing ash off, there are ways i think she could have done it better. the shock element, for example. i dont think it's an inherently bad writing tool - hell ive done it myself a couple times - but killing the MAIN CHARACTER of the show in the last 10 minutes made it seem really thrown together regardless of foreshadowing and just gratuitously cruel to ash. he did not get the time he deserved and the viewer is kind of just left sitting there. i know i personally didn't actually cry or anything when banana fish ended bc i was still so stunned by what the fuck i just witnessed. i think if he'd died the episode before or at the beginning of the episode and we got to see things pan out from there and just have it SETTLE a bit, it wouldnt be so disrespectful to ash. also, less to do with writing which is why i stressed earlier that the 'donts' are actually significantly fewer than the 'just go mentals': yoshida had a habit of saying really dodgy shit in interviews that made it clear that the defence many viewers used in favour of ash's death - that it made narrative sense and allowed him freedom he 'only could have achieved in death' yadda yadda; they try make out it's super artistic idc - is actually bullshit, bc yoshida has ADMITTED that she thinks ash is a bad person and that's why she killed him, bc he has also killed people and therefore DESERVES TO DIE. so this is more of a check your own mindset before you kill a character. if they're a villain then go for it, but if you're enforcing some personal vendetta on a victim that has some real honest trauma then just be careful. that comment is super harmful, bc her 'this criminal deserves to die' blanket statement translates to 'this seventeen year old who has suffered the most horrific abuse and has been forced to do terrible things to survive to the point he doesnt know anything else deserves the exact same fate as the old men who knew EXACTLY what they were doing when they abused him'. like. come on
basically, there's actually very few ways to kill a character BADLY. youve got to consider that the reader wont like it no matter what you do (again, unless it's a villain), and if they do then you're doing something wrong bc you WANT them to love this character, to grieve them, to be angry for them. but it's killing them in a way that is DISRESPECTFUL to that character that things go wrong, and what is disrespectful to certain characters isnt disrespectful to others. ash showed nothing but grit and a need to survive for 24 whole episodes. when he was stabbed, he was RUNNING TO EIJI IN ORDER TO GIVE LIFE ANOTHER CHANCE. he was healing, he was hopeful, and we're supposed to accept that he let himself succumb to the same fate as his abusers, and not only that, but that he 'deserved' it. it's disgusting and really detrimental to a lot of victims of sexual trauma that ive seen discussing this in the fandom, because it is INCREDIBLY disrespectful to their trauma and their healing. if you took a different character though and killed them in the exact same way, it could work, because like i said, disrespect is subjective.
i hope that makes sense?
so yeah, banana fish is very much an outlier i think. try not to stress about it, im sure you'll pull it off and ruin EVERYONE'S day by pulling off a beautifully tragic character death x
#i think the fact you're even asking people's opinions says a lot though anon#i genuinely think you've probably got this sorted and you have nothing to worry about#but still i hope i could help in any way!#ask#banana fish#banana fish spoilers
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