#i missed talking abt her so much woaw

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💘💔 for Ashara!!!

💘 HEART WITH ARROW — what and/or who do(es) your oc consider the most important to them?

oooooo good question !!! i think broadly speaking her clan has always taken precedent over everybody else, especially her keeper and her nephew. TECHNICALLY her twin sister is her #1 priority but she would never admit that bc publicly she's a hater. but if it came down to a choice she'd pick mithra every time.

in dai and onwards obviously solas is sort of at the forefront of everything. despite her somewhat umm repulsive personality <3 she IS a romantic at heart and she falls in love very quickly with people who are kind to her and he wasnt an exception, so she rly had it in her head that they would run off and have a family together before he dumped her lol. since then he's stayed THE looming figure in her life post trespasser but in a deeply unsettling psychosexual tom and jerry "my entire life's purpose is to drop a piano on your head" type vibe. she pushes away basically everybody during this period except (divine) leliana and cassandra, who's council and general presence is the only ones she trusts.

💔 BROKEN HEART — what are three of your oc's negative traits?

she will - and especially at the beginning of dai - answer every single obstacle with "hey cassandra i think we're gonna have to kill these guys :/" . she has enough self awareness to know this isnt a great way to walk through life and she wishes (and tries, usually to some degree of success) to course correct, but she hates personally suffering through diplomacy because she thinks people shouldnt have to be incentivized and ass-kissed to do the correct, moral thing. IRONICALLY, she isnt ANTI diplomacy at all - as first to the keeper in her clan she did strongly encourage her keeper towards more open trading and collaboration with human towns. she just hates having to do it herself bc she does not have a charismatic bone in her body. which is why shes thanking mythal every single day for josephine montilyet lmao.

also still tethered to her hot headedness/frustration angle, shes also deeply emotionally stubborn. i say emotionally bc its not so much plans or ideas she wont budge on, because she's usually pretty thoughtful and open to teamwork. PEOPLE are what she struggles with, particularly if they hurt her (solas) or abandon her (solas) or betray her (solas but also blackwall). when she doesnt like someone it is borderline impossible for her to move past that and she will devote great deals of time and mental energy to being hater #1. she and blackwall *hate* each other after his rainier revelation and she allows him to join the wardens as penance only bc she is Actively banking on him dying horribly in the deep roads 🥲 same with solas. ironically if he had just told her the truth she would have been more or less on board with helping him out, and she does for most part agree with him on 85-90% of it. but its the fact that he lied and then dumped her and then humiliated her which is the reason she will never collaborate with him or entertain any of his ideas or stop trying to drop pianos on his head ever. if she can get past this sort of knee jerk reaction by/during datv then she'll be more open to redeeming him but until then. hater vibes only.

lastly, on a more sympathetic note, she struggles a lot with vulnerability. she watched her mother become an abomination bc a lifetime of pain overtook her in a moment of desperation, and ashara, being only like 13 when this happened, really took that lesson to heart. she thinks pain is an admission of weakness and defeat and death (ironically she does not think anger counts as an expression of pain, although it absolutely does) and so she tries to distance herself from opening up to others about her struggles because she feels its her burden to bare and she wants to protect people from that uncertainty. she wants them to trust her and feel like they can depend on her because they can.

her only real exception to this was solas, so to have been fucked over by him of all people really only just reinforced how she already felt about it all. lol.