#i feel like a bad person

[vincent666v]

why is it so hard for me to comfort someone. whenever I try I always end up making things worse. the same result happens when I dont do anything. wtf do I do

[thesunkeptrising]

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[adarkn1ght]

puter how to be empathetic. puter how do I comfort someone. puter. puter do you hear me

[skateisawesome]

am i a bad person if i message someone to talk to me

[absolutelyzoned]

hate admitting tgis. So much. but why do i get happier after something bad happens. i should NOT be this joyous.

[boofts]

i feel like a bad person

tw ed, sh, body disformia

i feel like a bad person.

because every time someone like you trusts me enough to open up about your issues i always end up invalidating them in my head.

you tell me you used to self harm with tweezers, you'd pinch your skin with them until you left scars.

internally i would look down on you, i cut myself with real knives. i'd think.

i would sit in the darkness of my closet and cry, because nobody really ever wanted me. and draw lines, five at a time. it has to be fives. it has to be even. down the places nobody would ever see.

my inner thigh.

my lower torso.

my upper hips.

until i craved fresh skin to mar.

and i'd slice places they could see.

my wrists.

my shoulders.

my shins.

maybe i was hoping they would.

you'd tell me you don't like to look at your body, you tell me you deny yourself meals.

that's cute. i would think. i examine my body in the mirror every chance i get. searching for the hundreds of flaws i know are there. the weight of my stomach. the awkward length of my arms. the knobby bend in my knees. the ungraceful way my calves would swoop into my ankles. the curve of my jaw. the wideness of my eyes. the swollenness of my constantly chewed on lips. the way my body would look different to me every time i looked in a mirror. the flaws distorting and taking up more room in the reflective surfaces.

and i wouldn't eat. and even when i did i would make myself feel guilty enough to kneel in front of a toilet and force my fingers down my throat until my stomach would give no more and tears were streaming down my face and into my nose and mouth.

suffocating me.

drowning me.

you tell me you've got a new crush. i laugh and indulge you in your fantasies. all the while i drown in my delusions.

you have crushes, fleeting forms of want. i have soulmates, i fall in love. unending, never wavering, unstoppable need.

i pour and i pour all my heart into this person, and never get anything in return. i would never dare to even ask.

you exchange looks in the halls and text me about it immediately after.

i spend a whole afternoon drowning in their voice, but still craving more. and yet i never say a word to anyone. because it would ruin the feeling of my very own Romeo. because with feelings as shallow as yours you couldn't possibly understand, right?

i feel like a bad person.

because i know that you feel as validly as i do.

but you never seem to actually show any thoughts for others. no empathy.

and i have been nothing but kind.

at least... outwardly.

i feel like a bad person.

[slimyweed]

getting into trouble for trying to sleep in my car like i’m a teenager again

[spectredreamer]

[youcouldhearmesmile]

i downloaded dragon city during christmas because i wanted och exclusive dragons and the dapg banner. i have never touched that app again since.

[nightfallsystem]

anxiety is fun bcuz im just chilling watching anime and my brain is like "this is the end of everything, this is the end of all of your friendships as you deserve for being a bad person, its all over soon." and im like "what"

[stormhasbpd]

AITA??

i just recently stopped talking to this guy romantically because he was too clingy. he always wanted to talk on the phone and constantly referred to himself as my favorite person. (i never said he was??) anyways, i told him i think we'd be better off as friends, he seemed to take it well?? honestly at first i was a little into him but then stuff just started rubbing me the wrong way and now i feel like a bad person. its eating at me because i don't like hurting peoples feelings; but at the same time it would've ended worse if i had let this man continue to believe he was my fp.

like when i tell you this man called me a couple days ago just to overly compliment me and then got upset because i didn't respond the way he waned me to, his voice got all sad and monotone over the phone and when i pointed it out he cleared his throat and said he wasn't trying to guilt trip me?? i swear i didn't just stop talking to him because of his looks or something, he just started being fucking weird

[lesbianfemmefatale]

I think it really sucks when someone who has been a part of your life for a while is suddenly cut out of it. Like they can have a lot of problems, but for them to be there one day and gone another is just shocking. It really feels like a kind of death

[bobsten]

me trying to reject someone: screaming crying throwing up

[antique-symbolism]

I could uhh,,, use some reassurance. If anybody just feels like saying anything nice in my inbox or something.

[lautesschweigen]

i'm so glad they included frank it made the choice so much easier