#i feel like a bad person
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hate admitting tgis. So much. but why do i get happier after something bad happens. i should NOT be this joyous.
#listen okay the dude killing himself was really bad but it made me happy somehow and i feel rreally weird saying that#because i know ppl are upset and mourning but i just . don't get it. I've never had a hard time dealing with loss#AM I A BAD PERSON#I FEEL LIKE A BAD PERSON#OM SORRY BUT.#delete later holy shit i will absolutely delete this later
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i downloaded dragon city during christmas because i wanted och exclusive dragons and the dapg banner. i have never touched that app again since.
#i feel like a bad person#but i don’t get the game 😭#dnp#dan and phil#phil lester#danandphilgames#daniel howell#amazingphil#dnpgames
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ruining friendships by being avoidant, insecure, and mentally ill like a boss 👍
#i think i completely fumbled a friendship I really appreciated#bc i got so depressed and scared that they hated me#or were just lying to me#that i completely cut myself off#and now i feel like its too late to do anything#especially bc last time we talked i got really upset and just disappeared#honestly i ruined a lot of friendships a few months ago#at least no one reached out to me since#so idk#i still feel bad about it#i still hate that i feel this way#i feel like a bad person#but its fine. its whatever#i ruin things all the time anyway#just hurts yk?#monnie rambles
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puter how to be empathetic. puter how do I comfort someone. puter. puter do you hear me
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am i a bad person if i message someone to talk to me
#guess theres not even a point to posting this#nobody reads my posts anyway#i sould like a pick me i know i hate myself already its fine#i just#i feel like a bad person#am i selfish
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anxiety is fun bcuz im just chilling watching anime and my brain is like "this is the end of everything, this is the end of all of your friendships as you deserve for being a bad person, its all over soon." and im like "what"
#wretched brain...#tw vent#I FEEL BAD#I FEEL LIKE A BAD PERSON#even if i did bad things i realised theyre bad and avoided it in the future but yknow i still deserve to suffer i think#yeah i am nothing without my friends so#DUDE I AM SO AFRAID OF MY FRIENDS LEAVING ME THO like why#ok i know its inevitable and all but IT STILL UPSETS ME CUZ I DONT WANT THEM TO LEAVE BUT LIKE IM A BAD PERSON#and its better for them if they leave me cuz i fucking suck#but its still upsetting
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I could uhh,,, use some reassurance. If anybody just feels like saying anything nice in my inbox or something.
#hey fellas is it Cringe to ask for validation#idk! i feel like shit#i feel like a bad person#i feel like all I'm doing is hurting people all the time lately
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How can I do better, how can I be more of who I am supposed to be when I feel like im just waiting for medication to fix me, how can I be better when I'm so tired all the time and just want to sit and do nothing, how can I be better when everything feels like so much and everything hurts all the time. How can I do better, be better.
#im feeling not good#i really do feel like im just hoping that getting back on medication will fix everything#i know it wont#but having to stop my anti depressants for lile half a year has really been not great#but then im also trying to get back on T and im hoping that will fix the other thing ive been upset with myself about#even though its not garunteed#i just#dont feel great#i feel like a bad person#i feel like a bad boyfriend#i definitely dont feel like im good enough#i hate myself so much
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me trying to reject someone: screaming crying throwing up
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#yesss she left#I feel like a bad person#but oh Lord I couldn't hear her talking about her “situationship” any longer
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so recently, a few of my friends have been telling me that a sticker i have on my water bottle looks ai generated and one even told me to take it off.
yes, i fully understand ai “art” is bad, and shouldn’t be supported, but the thing with that sticker is…
i got said sticker as a gift after i lost my original water bottle, i got it as a gift from one of my parents.
i’ve even told those kids that i did not buy the sticker, and that it was a gift (which they seemingly ignored)
“but you’re an artist, you should understand how bad ai art is” yes i do understand, i understand well how bad it is. but that sticker (for me) has sentimental value, considering it was a gift.
i feel like a bad person leaving it on but i also feel bad taking it off considering it was a gift, and i *know* those 2 friends will continue mentioning it when they see it.
this probably seems really stupid and like i’m making a big deal over nothing, but i get so easily attached to things and i hold sentimental value incredibly high, especially if it’s from my family.
this might make me look bad, just note i am NOT defending ai. it’s just sentimental value and the fact it was a gift
(also for clarification, the sticker was bought from an etsy shop that only clarifies they sell ai stickers in their bio, nowhere on the actual sell page for each item)
#vent post#personal vent#this is so stupid#i hate this#ai art#ai art is not art#i feel bad#am i a bad person#:/#this is genuinely so stupid idk why im posting this#etsyshop#if anyone is curious#the shop is bearwithmeshop14#i feel like a bad person#sorry for this#okay im going to bed
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My brain has been fucked up to the point where I don't know what is real or not anymore. Sometimes I get so paranoid, I think my friends are all in on this massive joke that I'm the punchline for. Realistically, I know they wouldn't. They are all such amazing people, and I feel so lucky to have them. I'm aware that makes me a bad person, to think of them in such a light.
Unfortunately, my brain doesn't mix well with realism. The paranoia builds and builds until I don't have any materials left, and I crumble. It hurts, physically, when I am this scared. It makes me want to run.
I tend to joke when it comes to sharing my feelings, but I have no identity here. It feels safer, so to speak, when the only person who knows me is me.
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i feel like a bad person
tw ed, sh, body disformia
i feel like a bad person.
because every time someone like you trusts me enough to open up about your issues i always end up invalidating them in my head.
you tell me you used to self harm with tweezers, you'd pinch your skin with them until you left scars.
internally i would look down on you, i cut myself with real knives. i'd think.
i would sit in the darkness of my closet and cry, because nobody really ever wanted me. and draw lines, five at a time. it has to be fives. it has to be even. down the places nobody would ever see.
my inner thigh.
my lower torso.
my upper hips.
until i craved fresh skin to mar.
and i'd slice places they could see.
my wrists.
my shoulders.
my shins.
maybe i was hoping they would.
you'd tell me you don't like to look at your body, you tell me you deny yourself meals.
that's cute. i would think. i examine my body in the mirror every chance i get. searching for the hundreds of flaws i know are there. the weight of my stomach. the awkward length of my arms. the knobby bend in my knees. the ungraceful way my calves would swoop into my ankles. the curve of my jaw. the wideness of my eyes. the swollenness of my constantly chewed on lips. the way my body would look different to me every time i looked in a mirror. the flaws distorting and taking up more room in the reflective surfaces.
and i wouldn't eat. and even when i did i would make myself feel guilty enough to kneel in front of a toilet and force my fingers down my throat until my stomach would give no more and tears were streaming down my face and into my nose and mouth.
suffocating me.
drowning me.
you tell me you've got a new crush. i laugh and indulge you in your fantasies. all the while i drown in my delusions.
you have crushes, fleeting forms of want. i have soulmates, i fall in love. unending, never wavering, unstoppable need.
i pour and i pour all my heart into this person, and never get anything in return. i would never dare to even ask.
you exchange looks in the halls and text me about it immediately after.
i spend a whole afternoon drowning in their voice, but still craving more. and yet i never say a word to anyone. because it would ruin the feeling of my very own Romeo. because with feelings as shallow as yours you couldn't possibly understand, right?
i feel like a bad person.
because i know that you feel as validly as i do.
but you never seem to actually show any thoughts for others. no empathy.
and i have been nothing but kind.
at least... outwardly.
i feel like a bad person.
#boofts notes#i feel like a bad person#sh#ed#trigger warning#poetry#vent post#vent poetry#spilled poetry#spilled ink
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getting into trouble for trying to sleep in my car like i’m a teenager again
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#i feel like a bad person#this guy i kiss and i dont like keep searching me and want to do plans but i don't want to#and now he ask me if i can see him bc he feel bad and anxious and jus need someone so idk#i feel shitty bc I don't want to see him but i do want to help him#I'm helping him rn but i don't how can i help him
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