#i fear this is going to become increasingly unhinged

[edgyandoverzealous]

Show Log: Ninjago Masters of Spinjitzu Pt.2

If you don't know the drill these are my thoughts opinions and reactions during my first watch through of Ninjago Masters of Spinjitzu. I made one of these a couple of days ago and I'm back with so many more thoughts. Also spoilers, duh, for up to the episode listed below, and please no spoilers! We good? Good.

Season 2 Episode 14:

• I told you I'd riot. Grab your pitchforks my boy has lost his whimsy. I'm damn near certain at this point.

• Lloyd Garmadon loves his dad and genuinely believed that he'd break through to him, and he did, for a moment, but then his dad, who Lloyd believed to be all powerful, failed to fully break through.

•The pain in Lloyd's eyes (shut up shut up shut up, I know they're Legos) as the Overlord took control again and told Lloyd his father was gone. The way the line was delivered to be saw raw and wrong as Lloyd got overwhelmed and lost consciousness.

• The way he limped over to the shoreline immediately after waking up and how serious he's gotten. I just-- why must you torture my boy, he's just a kid.

• Give him one parent but take away another I think the fuck not. (I'm conflicted more on Lloyd's mama later) Give my boy his dad back, please.

• I think the only reason they aged Lloyd up was so that much pressure and stress wasn't portrayed on a literal elementary school aged kid. But guess what, and say it with me, 14/15 year olds are still just kids and should not be put in life changing and traumatizing scenarios.

• Additionally, destiny was talked about like a deity this episode, if "destiny" has a form as the Overlord did this episode I will give a swift kick to the groin for my boy Lloyd because what the ever loving fuck? The baby, the boy, my boy.

• Also Nya. My blorbo, my babygirl, my favorite girl. They turned her evil??? They turned her evil.

• SHE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO DIDN'T FALL OFF THE CLIFF. Not cool. Not fucking cool.

• But she called after both Jay and Kai as they fell which is very important to me. It shows that she cares about both of them when in other media the "damsel in distress" might only call after her love interest, a lame trope imo.

• She then got kidnapped and fed pure darkness. Like what the hell? Not my Nya, not my girl. The boys are fucked, truly, they lost their girl. The one that makes them tech and upgrades their shit with better combat skills shown canonically, they're so screwed.

• I'm fairly certain she could've kicked their asses but whatever invincible soldiers with their invincibleness and Nya without any super weapons or tech.

• She said goodbye forever but istg if Jay and Kai don't rescue her and find a way to bring her back I'm gonna send a strongly worded email to Ninjago productions and explain why they single handedly ruined their show.

• Because brilliant, beautiful Nya has on multiple occasions carried the entirety of the Ninjago Masters and they would collapse without her. Additionally I believe good written women in what is primarily a show written for boys is incredibly important because it portrays women as complex and strong people which they fucking are.

• Also Jay's character writing is giving me whiplash (more on that later) but I think he's back to normal now?

• Nya got kidnapped and he lost his shit as any good boyfriend would do. They kiss but haven't put a label on it and Nya means the world to him and it shows in the show consistently. Very nice, I appreciate.

• I feel like Kai's reaction should've been a little stronger after they all fell into the sea, because him screaming Nya's name and then acting calm and rational was, ngl, kinda weird kinda suspect.

• but then again no one believes in Nya more than Kai. Kai knows his sister and that she is stronger than most of the team and smarter than most of them too.

• That being said it feels likely that he felt a need to stay strong and focused so they didn't all fall apart as well which with my interpretation forgives the initial reaction.

Season 2 episode 6 - 13:

• Lloyd's mom dropped him off as a baby to the Darkley's Boarding School for Bad Boys. As a baby. I was right. His attachment style is anxious avoidant. It's plain as day when he interacts with his mom.

• At least she's back now and supportive as she appears to love her son. Hopefully she's not evil and doesn't betray him. I don't think she is so far she's pretty motherly and seems to have a thing for Wu.

• She's a homie hopper. Likes both brothers.

• It's not cool how she said she chose the wrong brother though because Lloyd wouldn't have been born is what I got from that, my own mommy issues peeking through I presume. But Lloyd is such a good boy, legitimately, so he deserves appreciation.

• Also I'm pretty sure Lloyd doesn't get what's going on between Wu and his mom because when he asked her "So how'd you meet him" she replied with "Who, Wu?" And he went "what? no. My dad.😐"

• This proves, to me, that his mind is not at a teenager level of development yet as his body is. That or he has no exposure to romantic situations and therefore doesn't know the social cues. Yet again, my boy didn't deserve this and also he's just like me fr fr?

•Zane's dad is alive!!! Woohoo!! And he's adorable an adorable inventor.

• And the sanest insane person I have ever seen. I mean mans went I'm not a fighter and then proceeded to fly the blimp into Garmadon's face. I love him.

• Also his story reminds me of the Greek myth of Icarus and Icarus' dad. Because he was locked in a tower gaurded by a monster and told to invent in order to see his son again.

• I am in love with Zane's dad. Literally like 💍🧎

• He's so, y'know smart and loving and shit. He's also ambitious, patient and slightly insane so my type.

• If there are more parallels I'll cry. *death glaring at Zane* please don't fly too close to the sun I will be annihilated on spot.

• Cole is so comfortable with his dancing now, not him moonwalking and singing over enemies after he got his weapon back he's so silly.

•Just a little guy who likes to sing, dance, and beat up bad guys.

• Why did they turn Jay's idiot meter up so high?

• Like my mans was fully just dumb dumb baby there for a bit there. "I don't pack clean undies. Like my mommy advices cause real men only wear one :P."

• Like bbg. No. Nya deserves better, you have to keep using that brain you goofy goober, you can't just lose you braincells because she likes you---- *sudden self-realization* oh no...

• Additionally his cowardice seems to be heightened. Which understandable the boys are going through the wringer in terms of stressful situations. Which once again say it with me, teenagers are still kids, and you should not chuck them into dangerous, traumatizing, experiences. You will cause psychological issues for the rest of their lives. Woo.

• Also Jay's parents are so real for telling him he's not allowed to save Ninjago unless he eats his veggies. 🫡🫡🫡

• god this is unhinged and I sound like a 27 year old dad, I'm 18 wtf?

• Nya my beloved builds so much cool surprises and shit and Jay is always so pumped for them <333 I love them.

[icycoldninja]

Can you write a reader who’s like Mileena from Mortal Kombat

Mileena is a mutant hybrid clone of Kitana, created in Shang Tsung's flesh pits at the behest of Shao Kahn, who had become increasingly paranoid that Kitana would one day learn the truth and betray him. As a fusion of Tarkatan blood and Edenian physiology, Mileena combines and fully utilizes attributes of both races in combat, boasting incredible speed, brute strength, nimble acrobatic prowess, and frightening, carnivorous savagery matched only by Baraka.

In stark contrast to Kitana, Mileena is an evil, sadistic, cruel, twisted, hot-tempered, selfish, and psychologically unhinged opportunist whose fondest wish is to kill her "sister" and claim her existence for her own. She fights using a pair of sais and a hideous, razor-sharp Tarkatan maw which she uses to bite off chunks of human flesh and crush bones

When the boys confront the reader asking why she’s hellbent on stealing her sister identity, she finally confessed that she wished to have an identity of her own, and that she’s tired of being referred to as “Kitana’s clone” and wants to be reminded as “herself”

She felt robbed of her own autonomy and sense of self every time she looks into the mirror just to realize she’s nothing more that her sister’s clone, not a person of herself. She felt that if she kills her sister, only then she feels that she can no longer be someone’s clone, just a solitary individual

As for her mouth, she’s proud of it and yet sometimes feel shameful for having them because while they’re excellent for combat, it’s a hassle taking care of them and hide them away when needed. Because she’s half Tarkartan, she always felt as if she’s starving and it gets on her nerves a lot, so she had to restrain herself from consuming humans ( not that she had a problem for the taste, it’s just that covering up the crime scene can be a hassle and will draw more attention than needed ) so she started shifting her attention to devils

“ Anything that’s not poisonous and alive…it will go in my stomach either ways”

She’s pretty much a voracious eater as well, f eating etiquette, we’re eating plates and stuffing food down our throat now

Also, Mileena is a really brutal fighter so I can imagine the boys having the “should i be scared or turn on” face when she perform the Fatility on whatever unlucky devils happen to be nearby:

https://youtu.be/fpvzIGHueqo?si=eYoeVa63mUOVzhOr

Sure, sure. Enjoy.

Sparda boys + V x Mileena-like!Reader headcannons

¤ Dante ¤

-Dante thought you were pretty fricking hot from the moment he met you.

-Your fighting style, your insane brutality, everything was just so cool.

-He knows he should be scared when he sees you rip someone's throat muscles out with your bare hands, but at the same time, he's kinda turned on. He wonders that if you had enough strength to manhandle him during intimacy. Now that'd be something.

-He wants you to know that he loves you, and only you, for who you are and not because you happen to be a clone of someone he doesn't even know.

-He thinks your mutant mouth is pretty damn sexy, though he does wonder how he's supposed to kiss you without getting pinched by your teeth.

-Your appetite is amazing, since it's just like his. You guys could chomp away on pretty much anything, enjoying yourselves (and the food) the entire time.

■ Vergil ■

-Vergil admires your strength and exceptional battle prowess, for it is a testament to your immense POWER.

-He finds your Sais and how you use them elegant in its own bloody way.

-He has nothing to fear when you go full rabid-wolf-monster on your opponents because he knows you would never hurt him, and if you tried, he could easily defeat you.

-Finds your bizarre mouth oddly enchanting, and though he'll never admit it, he'd love to feel that long, frog-like tongue down his throat.

-He MOTIVATES you to have pride in yourself and celebrate your individuality. You are awesome, who cares about your sister? He doesn't even know who that is anyway.

-Your eating habits are disgusting, and Vergil will not hesitate to tell you this.

□ Nero □

-Nero felt bad for you, not feeling happy with yourself all because of something you couldn't control.

-It wasn't your fault you were a mutant clone, and besides, Nero is sure you're way better than the original anyway.

-He respects your strength and would love to fight alongside you in battle, but you're so brutal and violent. It's kinda scary.

-Even though Nero has seen millions of nasty demons and equally nasty ways to get rid of them, your methods are beyond anything he's ever seen before.

-He loves you lots, but doesn't want to be anywhere near you once you start ripping people's organs out, or when you decide to scarf down some of the demons' remains mid battle.

-One of the many things Nero finds attractive is that gorgeously long tongue of yours, and he often fantasizes about what you could do with it.

● V ●

-V finds your violent side rather charming, strangely enough.

-He loves watching you fight, even when you do the most obscene things like chugging a can of something, then spitting it out at your enemy, and killing them with it.

-Your abilities are truly astounding, and V never hesitates to tell you that.

-He loves you for more than your combat prowess, however, he also loves how driven and wild you are, in contrast to his reserved and introverted nature.

-He could never be scared of you, for although others view you as a hungry, cruel monster, he sees you as a broken woman who never got to live her life, always being seen as a clone of someone else.

-He wants to help you create a new identity that might aid in your mental and emotional recovery. He's patient; with time, you might be able to live a happy, stable life.

[lilylived]

Lowkey I was getting increasingly worried about Dr. Yunus for months now because I heard how my dad and his AL friends talked about him. I doubt the man is perfect, but the accusations they put on him were unhinged. They were trying to put him in prison for life over it.

And now look at what's happening. Really amazing. There are a lot of SNAKES hoping to take advantage of BD, but Allah holds all power and knowledge so it's important to keep praying for the best outcome and don't limit it.

As for the fear mongering about Bangladesh becoming a t*rrorist state, that reminds me of a lot of the islamophobic fear mongering going on about everyone these days. They didn't care just yesterday when 80+ students were killed and female students were getting raped, but suddenly they're experts on bengali culture.

[muchadoaboutstartrek]

Petty

Written for @salrevientad and inspired by conversation with @female-fogbank

Spock and La'an didn't argue often...

Well, at least they didn't argue about serious topics often.

But more often than not, Spock wondered if there was something in the human DNA, even augmented one, that made them more succeptible to irritation from a stimulus that normally wouldn't cause a reaction in any Vulcan. And as he stared at the red faced La'an, her braids a mess on top of her head while she gestured wildly with her hands, he concluded that yes, it most certanly was a human trait.

"You know I don't like it when you move my shit without asking me first! Why do you keep doing it?" His short girlfriend was becoming an increasingly warmer in the face, so much so that Spock started wondering just how long it's going to take before she turned the color of her uniform. If the vein ticking in her forehead was any indication, it shouldn't be too long now.

He suppressed a sigh as he knew such action would cause even worse reaction. Instead he squared up his shoulders as he gazed down at the woman half his size that looked like she was one wrong word away from ripping his head off. Her feisty nature and naturally short fuse were some of the things that Spock loved but also hated at the same time.

Not that he'd ever admit that to her out loud.

"I apologize for misplacing your work PADD without notifying you first. Next time I will make sure to send you a message beforehand."

As soon as the words were out of his mouth, Spock knew he screwed up. Even the most emotionally stunned Vulcan would have no trouble recognizing the sheer rage that almost radiated off of La'an as she shook in place, her fists clenching by her side.

"You did not just say that to me, you condescending fucker!" The words were more of a growl than an actual sentence, her voice coming from the deepest parts of her vocal cords.

There were very few things that would cause Spock to shrink in fear.

Enraged La'an was one of those things.

"I apologize. That was not my intention." He replied immediately, his voice even more apologetic than the words.

"You do this every time! You say something to make me mad and then apologize and look at me with those eyes and I just cave!" She shook her head, her index finger suddenly shoved up his face. "Not this time!"

Something in Spock seemed to snap at those words and without even thinking his actions through, he grabbed La'an by her hips and slung her over his shoulder in a fireman carry, her strained and surprised yell, followed by a string of profanities slung in his direction falling on deaf ears as he carried her over to his newly made bed and tossed her onto the sheets. He didn't even give her a chance to stand back up as he pushed her down, his hands gripping the band of her trousers and yanking them down her legs alongside her underwear.

La'an tried pushing him off of her with her hips, her voice straining as she repeatedly asked him about the state of his mental facilities, the answer Spock couldn't provide at the moment as he felt positively unhinged. Her trousers and underwear reached as far as her boot before Spock yanked it off as well and slid one of her creamy legs out of it before he spread her thighs like jaws of life and simply dived in.

La'an's protests died off on her tongue immediately, profanities that were aimed at him suddenly disappearing only to be replaced by shaky sighs as he feasted on her pussy. He put his anger and frustration into every lick and suck on her sensitive, twitching cunt, his feelings evident in the way he was eating her out, aggressively almost to the point where it matched her energy from few minutes before.

La'an was shuddering and grinding her pussy against his face, her hands sliding into his hair and tugging on the strands as he allowed himself to be directed in the way she wanted him to go, letting her enjoy that aspect, illusion really, of control because it was evident to him that he was the one in charge, holding her release in his hands.

As her sounds increased in volume Spock found that he had no heart to tease her and torture her with denying her release, even though she more than likely deserved it. Instead he doubled down on his efforts and sucked on her clit with more vigour, her fingers almost ripping out his hair in the process.

La'an let out a scream as she fell apart, her orgasm taking her by surprise as Spock grazed his teeth over the sensitive nub on top of her pussy, her whole body shuddering with the force of her release before she melted into the sheets, practically boneless.

Spock licked his lips, tasting the last remnants of her essence like he was savoring the delicacy, before he stood up, crawling over La'an's still half dressed body, her uniform shirt still on while her pants hung on one of her legs.

"How are you feeling now?" He asked, burrowing his brows as he gazed down at the completely fucked out woman who was screaming at him about misplacing her PADD only a few minutes ago.

In contrast to that image, La'an was laying in bed completely relaxed with a lazy smile on her lips. "Fantastic." She sighed dreamily and surged up to kiss him, her teeth tugging on his lip. She broke the kiss when air became the problem. "Spock?"

"Yes, La'an?"

"Don't ever move my stuff without asking me again." Her eyes hardened and Spock knew that she meant business. He, however, simply smiled and said nothing. He just found the way to make her effectively loose her train of thought and he planned to utilize it to it's fullest capacity.

In fact, if this was the way he could make her shut up, he might start initiating these petty squabbles himslef.

[merv606]

I, for one, firmly believe that Terry would eventually r*pe Daniel in Mercy if Daniel doesn’t give in to him, far more sooner than later. Obviously, it’s not going to happen in Mercy, but I 100% believe it would if Daniel doesn’t give in sooner than later—which we know he will. 

Terry is already molesting and sexually assaulting him repeatedly while he is asleep and/or unconscious. His touches are getting a lot more sexual and graphic in nature too. He’s getting increasingly desperate not just for Daniel’s heart, but his body. We saw in the “first kiss snippet” that Terry very brazenly groped Daniel in the dojo, and then had the audacity to be angry when Daniel moved away in fear and anxiety and discomfort. He’s getting bolder in what he’s doing to Daniel when he’s awake—the hold on his ankle, shaving his stubble, the lingering touch on the temple when Daniel wore his glasses. The kisses on the hand when Daniel saw his mother’s picture in the “Romanian snippet”. Helping Daniel into his sweater in chapter 34. Anything to get his hands on him. 

The touches and open displays of affection and lust are becoming more frequent; almost as if he’s grooming and forcing Daniel to accept more and more of his touch when he’s awake and also not so heavily drugged. Which, considering this is Terry, definitely seems like something he would do to psychologically bend Daniel to his will even further. 

It’ll work too, because Daniel is increasingly ground down and worn down by the isolation and only Terry for company; it also doesn’t work in his favor that he’s so affectionate, cuddly, and yes, sweet. He hasn’t been physical with anyone in months (even with simple affectionate gestures which are normally frequent for him), and subconsciously yearns for a kind and loving touch. This was shown when he snuggled into Terry while asleep when Terry forced them to share a bed. Also shown in how he’s grown accustomed to Terry’s hand on his back or his arm, or holding him close to his side while under the guise of escorting Daniel from room to room. Daniel doesn’t even try to resist Terry anymore. He can’t help himself. No matter how long Daniel holds out, Terry will hold out longer. 

Until he doesn’t.

Terry is an incredibly patient man, something that is both a vice and a virtue with him depending on the context, but that patience is not eternal. Considering it’s been months of Daniel bravely holding out against him while being so tantalizingly near to him—that’s a torment upon itself. 

Daniel is finally unraveling and becoming more unhinged, but so is Terry. They’re like dark mirrors of each other, and sooner or later will snap and break. And though it has been stated that Terry wants and needs Daniel to reciprocate his love and desire, and that r*ping him would ruin that dream of his—I can’t help but believe that if Daniel just kept holding out, Terry would be incredibly hurt, but also incredibly angry. There’s no way Terry would just let Daniel continue to live there with him week after week, month after month, without having him physically. Absolutely not. 

We saw what he did to Daniel to spirit him away to Moldova in the first place. I can easily see Terry saying fuck his dream of Daniel’s love and desire, and just having his way with Daniel entirely one day. He might even blame Daniel in the aftermath, saying it’s Daniel’s fault for not accepting him. Anything to justify his actions. Daniel would be too mentally damaged and broken by then to do anything, but I suppose Terry would have snapped mentally enough himself with his own actions that he would just accept it, and this shell of Daniel. If I can’t have you in one way, well…

Darkest timeline in an already dark tale, but a possibility. Always a possibility. 

Perhaps.

The motivation for refraining from doing it outright is in his mother’s words.

If you can’t remember, it can’t hurt you.

In Terry’s mind he hasn’t hurt Daniel - in any way.

Physically, those were necessary evils and not 💯 his fault, and while this stage is emotionally and mentally difficult, once again, necessary to get him to see.

Terry thinks Daniel wasn’t satisfied, and not living the life meant for him.

He is, above all things, trying to show him that.

When his boy realizes and accepts that, well, the end will have justified the means.

He’s not doing this because he wants too - he had too. For both of their sakes.

Terry doesn’t want to hurt him. He never did. That wasn’t the point when he spirited Daniel away. He wants him and this was the way he went about it -having no other option. He wants Daniel to willingly want it (him) and enjoy it (which isn’t possible at this stage) so when his control starts to slip (having what you want more than anything so close test so far away) he resorts to that.

I think a part of Terry knows if he were to truly force Daniel he would break it all beyond repair.

There is a messed up moral logic just like his messed up sense of love.

Crazy, not stupid.

[irkimatsu]

🔆

Hey Irk, I know I haven't said much lately, but I still really appreciate seeing you around, and I'm glad you're having so much fun with your self-ship! It makes me happy to see that kinda thing, hehe! (Also great to see fans of our demon show having solidarity with each other in the midst of all the hate, too! I can't wait for the rest of the FOUR SEASONS WHAT THE FFFF-)

Right back at you! I may know absolutely nothing about CRK, but I'm glad you're enjoying your time with your queen~ I haven't read the fic, I fear I'll be utterly lost, but seeing you have so much fun with it has been a delight. And other people are having fun with it, too! So damn proud of you, Lauri!

(Also thank you for sticking around even as my self-ship becomes increasingly unhinged. When I first started shipping with Ichi I still cared about maintaining some respectability, and by the time I dropped that act I'd fled to Twitter. Now I'm back and unwell. Whoopsie.)

(FOUR SEASONS, AND THEY NEVER SAID IT WAS GONNA END THERE, EITHER, HOLY SHIT. Words cannot begin to express how happy I am for Viv, Jesus Christ, she is living her dream. And that merch reveal panel is in an hour, too! Sponsored by Hot Topic! We are going places!)

[brightbeautifulthings]

Those We Drown by Amy Goldsmith

"He made it sound so simple--a girl there one moment, gone the next. But if this trip had taught me anything, it was that people didn't disappear. Things happened to them. Usually bad things."

Year Read: 2023

Rating: 2/5

About: Liv is the only scholarship student aboard the cruise ship, Eos, for an educational program called SeaMester that could be her ticket into a good college. The first night, her best friend, Will, becomes sick enough to be quarantined. The more days pass without hearing from him, the more convinced Liv becomes that something terrible is happening on the ship-- and that Will may no longer be aboard at all. As her paranoia increases, she fears that even the staff and her cohort may be part of a conspiracy of human sacrifices and old gods. I received a free e-ARC through NetGalley from the publishers at Delacorte Press. Trigger warnings: human sacrifice, abduction, injury, illness, gaslighting, classism, threats, bullying, underage drinking.

Thoughts: Everything about this, from the title and the description to the tentacles on the cover, said this book should have been for me. Watching The Beast (1996) as a kid with my dad instilled an early love in me for water monsters. Unfortunately, Those We Drown promises way more than it delivers. What little ocean horror we have is sadly underutilized, and the plot is much more focused on spiraling into paranoia and conspiracy than it is on diving into its world-building in any depth. By the time anything remotely full of teeth and tentacles appeared, not only did I no longer care, I had no idea what basis it even had for being there. Something something old gods and sacrifices. If you have a giant squid on the page and it doesn't attack anyone, what was even the point?

Instead, most of the page-time is devoted to Liv hating her rich cohort, obsessing about her ill-fated romance with Will, obsessing about yet another love/hate potential romance in Con, and chasing around increasingly ridiculous conspiracy theories. Does she have good reason for that? Yeah, absolutely. There is something nefarious aboard the Eos. But the reader came into the novel with that knowledge, and the whole is she being gaslit or is she genuinely unhinged cycle gets tired quick. I've said it before, and I'll say it again: paranoia is a difficult mood to sustain for any length of time, and it didn't endear me to Liv. Pull it together and have a little dignity, girl.

On a writing level, it reads like a first novel. That's not necessarily a bad thing, and the target YA audience probably won't be put off by it. Adult readers like myself might struggle a bit more. The descriptions are frequent and a bit forced, and there are some grammar and continuity errors. The first I can never help noticing (sentence fragments for days, and not as a style choice), but the second have to be glaringly obvious for me to pick up on them, since my general attitude is that time is more like a soup than a line. It makes Liv's character seem wildly inconsistent at times, though, when she walks into a glittering party going yes, this opulence suits me, to scorning it the next morning.

As I said, there's little coherent explanation of the supernatural elements, and the finale is left hugely open-ended, as if Goldsmith got so deep into her plot conspiracies that she couldn't write her way out of them. Given the complete lack of closure or explanation, I would say it reads more like the first book in a series than a standalone, but it's not billed or listed as such. Regardless, if books don't have plot closure, they should at least have thematic closure, or some general sense of why the readers and characters went through all of this. Those We Drown has none of those.

[where-theres-smoak-2]

I just glanced at a Netflix video that revealed some new S2 details. In one scene, Aleks is gazing at the Darklina propaganda poster and he can't help but caress Alina's face before angrily shoving the paper away. It's like he's furious at himself for still wanting her so much ("Wanting makes us weak"). The voice over also revealed he still longs to join forces with her again.

(Mild Book Spoilers)

You know I went back and rewatched it after seeing your ask and you are right it does look like he is about to caress her face, I missed that the first watch, and honestly that does weird things to my heart. I do think you are right that he is angry at himself for still wanting her and I think its because of that longing to re-join forces with her, he doesn't want to be on opposite sides to her but he also believes that she is in the way of his mission to bring about a safer world for grisha. His cause is the only thing he has had to cling to for hundreds of years, then he meets Alina and for a small amount of time he has hope, he has someone who he thinks will be at his side and help achieve this goal, he's not alone anymore and he doesn't have to do it on his own anymore. But then he loses her and that dream along with her. I think at this point he is very conflicted because he wants to achieve his mission but he also wants Alina but believes he can't have both.

The voiceover is really interesting to me and not just because of the part where it talks about Aleks wanting to re-join Alina but because it also talks about the new found power Aleks has, which I think is his new ability to summon light, and all he gave up for it. What's even more interesting is when it shows the poster of darklina and Aleks pushing it away we hear that line we've heard in previous trailers 'are you willing to sacrifice that which is most precious to you?' I think it is really significant that they chose to use this line here as I think for Aleks the most precious thing to him, the thing he is having to sacrifice is Alina. Aleks has discovered this new power he has and, as the trailer says, he is more powerful now than he ever has been. He could use this power to help the grisha but he also knows that he had to lose Alina to achieve this so I feel like he is going to be feeling very conflicted every time he uses the power as we saw in the trailer him looking at hiss hand in fear and then gripping it and closing his eyes, we know from other trailers that his hand begins to emit light, so I am wondering if he is feeling a bit of guilt here. I am sure there are times when that knowledge that he lost Alina to gain this power becomes too much for him and that there are times he regrets it which I think makes him angry because he has never had anything waiver him from his cause before and he has never put anything else above the grisha, but then there is Alina and she is making him question things and feel really unstable I think which then in turn makes him feel angry.

I do think we are going to see an increasingly unhinged Aleks the longer he is away from Alina and the more he fails to convince Alina to come back to him. I mean we all saw what he was like in episode 6 when he first realised she was missing, he was frazzled and frantic and not at all the calm collected general we were used to seeing. I think this season is going to be like that only x1000.

[golvio]

Thinking about the potential implications of Ganondorf being buried with that Goddess Harp-shaped belt buckle and driving myself nuts.

Could you imagine WW Ganondorf’s big “your gods abandoned you” monologue being applied to Hylia and, by extension, every single Zelda both past and present, as her being the alleged avatar of Hylia’s will on earth is the justification used for her and her family’s reign? Just going from saying “the gods abandoned me and my people to die of disease and famine” to “You abandoned me, specifically, and as you are the earthly figurehead of the theocratic monarchy that ruled the world in my time, I hold you personally responsible for every bad thing that has ever happened to me, and I am taking you to fucking task.”

I hope if we meet Past!Ganondorf he ends up initially seeming like a Nice, Normal vassal of the Hyrulean Empire sworn to serve the goddess as all able-bodied young men are, only to reveal the depths of his religious trauma and his obsessive resentment of the person he was browbeaten into believing is the earthly avatar pf the Goddess in whose name his land was conquered and his birthright stripped from him in a series of increasingly unhinged “I know you can read my thoughts, Your Grace” moments, along with personally addressed prayers to a Goddess he knows will never answer and who delights in his torment begging to see his loyal sacrifice and avert his fate, bargaining for his life until it becomes clear to him that She will never hold up her end of the deal and will continue to take and take and take and torture him and his loved ones for laughs, all the while insisting she’s just a normal girl like all of her subordinates who just didn’t know about all those nasty things her father did, who can’t stop the authorities she was born to command from sacrificing him as the kingdom’s energy source in her place, who can’t be held accountable for the misery he had to endure at the hands of her faith, her family, her subordinates, and her empire that she’s set to inherit, unless he takes matters into his own hands.

He will either prove that she’s correct about “just being a normal girl” by ensuring she dies like a mortal and takes her whole faith down with her, or he himself will die trying. What could he, who already lost everything and is damned to suffer so much in life, possibly have to fear from any hell that Her Grace could conjure up for him?

And then in the present it culminates in this incredibly tense scene where Present!Zelda is hiding in an underground ruin somewhere while Ganondorf is prowling around like, “ARE YOU THERE, GOD?” *cocks shotgun* “IT’S ME, MARGARET.”

[queen-of-bel]

It's okay if you don't remember but remember when Shizuo and Izaya had their final battle and Izaya actually tried to kill Shizuo? What do you think would've happened if Izaya somehow actually succeeded or Shizuo was the one who killed Izaya instead?

Oh I fucking love this question.

I think if Shizuo had actually killed Izaya, not much would change. Izaya is already pretty much dead to Ikebukuro after their fight. Shizuo's life motto has always been "punch it until it goes away". Now, what "goes away" actually means doensn't matter to him. Did they die? Avoid him out of fear? Paralyzed from the waist down? Doesn't matter, don't care. The annoyance is gone now and that's all that's important.

Izaya on the other hand...

There are few things that Izaya has a genuine emotional investment in, but god damn is he invested hard. The first is his friendship with Shinra, the second is his fear of death and his mission to learn if an afterlife exists or not, and finally, his pure hatred of Shizuo.

By the time we reach vol 13, those first two things have absolutely gone to shit. Shinra has completely abandoned him and he's grappling with this idea that Shinra, who Izaya had considered to be his best friend for over a decade, isn't really his best friend after all. To say nothing of the reality that Shinra cannot be considered a friend in any capacity; that's a thought Izaya can't begin to entertain yet.

He also really fucked up by forgetting to ask Celty if an afterlife exists. All of his suicide meetups, trying to awaken Celty's head-- every hoop he's gone through just to ease his anxieties about death were for nothing. He had the opportunity to ask and was so dumbfounded at her appearance that he said nothing. Way to go, idiot.

So given that he's failed miserably twice in a row, the stakes are extremely high going into this fight with Shizuo. I think this is why Izaya views it as a fight to the death. He's become increasingly more erratic and unhinged as the story goes on, suffering blow after blow from reality that keeps forcing him to see that he is not the man he's built himself up to be. He wants to be so badly the mastermind and the one in charge, and the universe just smacks him and tells him to sit down and shut up instead. By the time we hit vol 13, we're seeing the accumulation of all of Izaya's self-destructive tendencies, as well as the horrible influences that others had on him his entire life. It's an extremely volatile storm that has more than just Shizuo's life on the line. It's also about maintaing his pride, ego, and just holding onto any semblance of the self he has carefully curated and presented to the world for the past 20+ years.

And that's why I think if he did succeed in killing Shizuo, that may be the tipping point for him to go from "morally gray asshole" to "genuinely evil". The man is so desperate from all of his failures that if he gets a taste of success, especially considering how long and deep his hatred for Shizuo runs, that's going to be a high he'll keep chasing no matter the cost.

[dankusner]

Obama takes the stage

In the southern Michigan city of Kalamazoo, about 130 miles away, Harris drew contrasts between her and Trump on issues such as abortion rights, taxes and health care.

But first Obama, the popular wife of former President Barack Obama, fired up the crowd by drawing distinctions between the two candidates on personal character and qualifications, saying there was a double standard in how Trump and Harris were being treated.

“I hope you’ll forgive me that I’m a little frustrated that some of us are choosing to ignore Trump’s gross incompetence while asking Kamala to dazzle us at every turn,” the former first lady said, urging any undecided voters to “snap out of whatever fog they’re in.”

Obama also addressed women’s health at length, saying Trump has failed to demonstrate understanding of its complexity and that his vows to rescind the Affordable Care Act passed during her husband’s presidency would affect the “entirety of women’s health, all of it.”

“We as women will become collateral damage to your rage,” she said, later introducing Harris to an animated crowd. Harris was several minutes into an upbeat address when she was interrupted by a demonstrator who repeatedly yelled, “No more Gaza war.” After Harris supporters shouted down the interruption, Harris responded, “On the topic of Gaza, we must end that war,” then picked up where she left off, asking voters to “turn the page on the fear and the divisiveness.”

“Over the last eight years, Donald Trump has become more confused, more unstable and more angry, and it is clear he has become increasingly unhinged. But the last time, at least there were people who could control him, but notice they’re not with him this time,” Harris said.

Ahead of the rally, Harris met with women medical providers in Portage, Michigan, where she said the country was in a health care crisis following the 2022 ruling by the U.S. Supreme Court that overturned Roe v. Wade, which had guaranteed a women’s right to abortion nationwide.

Harris heard from six women medical providers who described being inundated by patients from other regions due to a lack of reproductive health care in their areas since Roe was overturned. After leaving Michigan, Trump traveled to Pennsylvania, where he tried to reel in young voters with a rally on the campus of Penn State University, at one point bringing the school’s wrestling team on stage with him.

“We have to finish it off with a big victory on Nov. 5,” he said.

PRESIDENT

Former first lady pleads with voters

‘Take our lives seriously,’ Michelle Obama tells women at Michigan event

KALAMAZOO, Mich. — Michelle Obama delivered a searing denunciation of Donald Trump on Saturday in Michigan and challenged voters to support Kamala Harris as the United States’ first female president.

“By every measure, she has demonstrated that she’s ready,” the former first lady said.

“The real question is, as a country, are we ready for this moment?”

It was Obama’s first appearance on the campaign trail since she spoke at the Democratic National Convention in Chicago over the summer, and her remarks were forceful and passionate, even vulnerable.

She said she fears for the country and struggles to understand why the presidential race remains close.

“I lay awake at night wondering, ‘What in the world is going on?’” she said.

Her voice vibrating with emotion, Obama warned that Trump’s potential return to the White House would undermine women’s health and reproductive freedom.

“I am asking y’all from the core of my being to take our lives seriously,” she said.

The rally in Kalamazoo followed Harris’ visit to a local doctor’s office in Portage to talk with health care providers and medical students about the impact of abortion restrictions.

One of them said they have patients visiting from other parts of the country where there are strict limitations on abortion, and another said she’s worried that people won’t want to practice in important areas of medicine because of fears about government intrusion.

“We are looking at a health care crisis in America that is affecting people of every background and gender,” Harris told reporters before visiting the doctor’s office.

Meanwhile, President Joe Biden went to a union hall in Pittsburgh to promote Harris’ support for organized labor, telling the audience to “follow your gut” and “do what’s right.”

Saturday is the first day that early in-person voting became available across Michigan.

More than 1.4 million ballots have already been submitted, representing 20% of registered voters.

When Clinton was running against Trump, Michelle Obama inspired Democrats with the slogan “when they go low, we go high.”

But this year, at the Democratic National Convention in Chicago, she adopted a more biting approach.

She accused Trump of “doubling down on ugly, misogynistic, racist lies as a substitute for real ideas and solutions that will actually make people’s lives better.”

At a campaign event in Pittsburgh, Biden spoke with the Laborers’ International Union of North America.

He mentioned that Harris once walked a picket line with the United Auto Workers — “she has a backbone like a ramrod” — while Trump has undermined organized labor.

“He views unions as getting in the way of the accumulation of wealth for individuals,” Biden said.

“It’s in labor’s interest to defeat Donald Trump, more than any other race you’ve been in.”

[evonkyva]

I haven't watch bridgerton fully so my opinon is mostly using it to talkabout something that pisses me off. Which mean bridgerton trigger this thought but by no means is that a review of the show this is a bias it reminds me of I

My mother's fiance turn it on and it kinda remind me of what I think some incels wish society was without the work

" a club of aristocrats that don't work but are feared and respected for power they exploited and nothing more "

" women living thier life in a panic and centering thierselves around men desires even if those desires are painful and unrelenting childbirth and just being "pretty"

" men just existing and expecting women to come to them in order to exsist in soceity. Or men chasing women soley off of how high it will make them appear a better man "

" literally losing all your opportunities, your friends, your safety cause of fucking rumors "

Bridgerton is not a bad show, but I guess my absolutely unhinged tandrum is coming from the idea that I can't enjoy this. I can enjoy the subtle and sometimes obvious clips I see chanlleging the status quo and deep characters cause I don't see the fantasy.

I see the very restrictive bones..I see the current real life alternatives when I think of things like the over turn of roe v wade, the almost comical and offensive "concern " that soceity has about men soley cause men are not fucking and nothing else but never when women body were being restricted and objectified under the very real and still current rape culture.

Our bridgerton will not be pretty events and gowns and scrumptious gossips. It will be women suddenly not being allowed to have jobs, bank accounts or driving lessons and dying as a astronomical high level of child birth force on by said rape culture and and the fact many women will quickly do what they have to do to survive and if that means suddenly settling for any man who won't IMMEDIATELY kill them and having a child cause the goverment will pay them ( now that they have nothing else to depend on but that and thier "partner") and I'm not mad

And then there men. Yea a pleathora of those men will sharpen thier cruelty overnight. Yea now they have a world where women settle, where women very existence decide how much violence they deserve, were there suddenly more jobs but if the pay doesn't increase( cause women do get paid less no matter how much women say otherwise) it still won't be enough to keep the most desperate of wives and the children force on you. Men will get increasingly violence not just with women but with each other. Cause there more women there more jobs...I'm not.saying peace is bad for men I'm saying that change will not be good

As much as I hate that fucking mouse project when men ( thanks to soceity and patriachy conditioning) have a plethora of desperate women, cheap but unsuccessful jobs, and the pressure to be nothing else but a pussy magnet with money. . . Men will start to kill other men maybe at the rate they kill women maybe more and thats not a celebration....that's a fucking implosion of soceity

But conservatives, traditionalists and the extreme patriarchy will tell you making sure everyone has vanilla sex, as many kids as possible and a strict patriarchal system will save us.

I can't enjoy bridgerton because I can't enjoy the reality behind the fantasy. ...... because I'm an overthrowing autistic black afab and a nutcase and the adorable world of passionate lovers, juicy gossip and outfits cause it's 2024 we are literally inching closer to ww3, men are literally going to a cult of redpill before therapy, everyone becoming homeless ....and I'm tired.

This is just overthinking...this is madness...this is just my Friday afternoon shower thoughts

[biceratops7]

The hopeful ordeal of being known

I never really payed this scene much mind at first but on latest rewatch I want to put it in my mouth and shake it around like a scrap of meat till it’s bones are lying all over the floor for easy reading.

The layers of this initial reaction are so interesting to me. It’s a blunt response for blunt information, but you can tell by Ed’s tone it was highly unexpected. Ed knows full and painfully well that when he says “jump” anyone who’s even sniffed the ocean says “how high”. There’s a wonderfully strange mix of offense and baffled fascination at the notion that anyone, a newcomer no less, would tell him no.

So now after the initial shock Ed’s coming to his senses. Oh yah. He’s new. Duh. A little uncommon, but it’s not entirely inconceivable that there’s still people out there who don’t know who Blackbeard is. The possibility becomes even less ridiculous when the person in question has gained a reputation for having absolutely no friggin’ clue what he’s doing or what’s going on in a matter of hours. And this scenario here is certainly desirable to Ed. Someone who doesn’t know his reputation is a fascinating oddity at least and a potential although temporary refuge at most. It’s honestly almost impossible to tell whether or not Ed is consciously looking for genuine human connection at this stage, or simply a mechanical plan to escape the boredom of his life via the ye old trick-n-maim, but either way the start is the same. He needs to get close to someone, and the fear Blackbeard elicits has made that increasingly difficult.

But then Izzy manages to haphazardly sweeten the pot even more.

No actually, he does know who Blackbeard is, and he still doesn’t want to meet him. In fact he is so utterly un phased by the fact that Blackbeard summoned him in the first place, he turns down the invitation in a gratuitously insulting way. On top of that, Ed’s being lied to. The context that half this stuff isn’t even true and Izzy is just balls to the wall making shit up to drive the situation is so friggin’ hilarious cause he’s driving it on the one way highway to “sign me the fuck up”.

Ed turns toward the light. We’re able to see his face clearer than ever, and it’s hopeful, a smile playing on his lips. Well and truly stunned out of the persona of inhuman legend, there’s a reserved giddiness daring to shine through just a little bit. It’s a mere shadow of the utter delight to come, seeing Stede be his weird little self, sharing his wonderfully ridiculous idiosyncrasies with him completely unafraid.

The untaken care of hair that blocked these expressions from our view like a head made of smoke? It’ll soon be tied back. “Fascinating” quickly becomes “isn’t he amazing Izzy!” As Stede happily brings new life to the leathers that’ve come to dehumanize him over the years. And Ed doesn’t know any of this yet, probably can’t even fathom a guess, but he’s just learned that this bizarre fancy man already knows who “Blackbeard” is, and is unimpressed.

Although “Blackbeard” didn’t come out of nowhere and is a genuinely authentic side of Edward Teach, his monicker signals to everyone that he is less than human, and has done so long enough for anyone to snap. The turning point here isn’t that he’s allured by Stede’s boldness, nor is it that he’s captured by how absolutely unhinged you’d have to be to deny him. It’s the promise that someone who doesn’t fear the consequences of Blackbeard, doesn’t even care who he is, might maybe, just maybe, be able to see who Ed is.

[the-elderly-are-evolving]

Allow me to try to impart to you some small idea of the absolute lunacy that has been our final Midsummer show.

For context, I (an idiot) am Puck. Brian (aka BGEltonJohnPimp, a dear friend and only an occasional idiot) is Oberon.

Before we even get into costume I have to explain the concept of ‘mid morning anxiety shits’ in front of both my directors as well as our costume manager.

Our company has a tradition in which those who won’t be returning give highly emotional (and usually very long and rambly) speeches about important experiences/ fond memories/ advice about the program and everyone sobs their little hearts out together. Anyways, one of our unhinged (affectionate) crew members came out as trans to the whole company, then immediately and without pausing to acknowledge anything about what they had just said, transitioned (hahah lol funny ik ik) into a performance, word for word, of that Lin Manuel Miranda Orders A Pizza video for their speech. It was insane.

Act 2. The long story short is that Brian misses his cue to enchant Titania’s eyes during Act 2, probably due to a mighty combination of heavy bawling and emotional distress from earlier in the evening and the uncontrollable fascination our strangely hypnotic fairy song produces (original music written by our director; upon hearing it most people feel the uncontrollable urge to salute and stand at attention or to go to sleep!!).

After several long moments where, despite our whole company having run this show with little to no incident for the past week straight, there is inexplicably not a single person who remembers who is supposed to be on stage right now. Hermia and Lysander accuse me (the nerve! You accuse Puck of miss the cue??! How dare !!!), I accuse Oberon (not my proudest moment but I panicked), he accuses Helena and Demetrius (not even remotely a possibility given that they just left the stage, but he was getting desperate). Suddenly Oberon turns very white and stalks out of the green room. Keep in mind, friends, the stage has been completely silent for several minutes at this point. Our director has appeared backstage.

Oberon materializes in the wings at stage right, the SR ASM, upon seeing someone who might save this, panics and all but shoves him on stage with the wild-eyed desperation of a drowning man. I now watch Oberon from the stage cameras. He walks, uncertain, across the thrust. He has forgotten his monologue. I know this because I can see the fear in his eyes. Also because he has not said a single damn word yet. He is in the belly of the beast and not even he knows what will come out of his mouth when he opens it. He then proceeds to utter the most plaintive cry for help I have ever heard from a man in pink jazz glasses and neon eye shadow,

“Puck? My most loyal servant Puck where are you, Puck?” It is clear he wants someone to come out and save him, but all I can do is watch my lord from the shadows, watch him finally cross the stage and melt back into the dark of stage left. The rest of Act 2 goes exactly as planned with the strange scene— wherein Oberon appears to get lost in the woods and then, whilst extremely high and paranoid and fucked up, stumble his way across the stage while trying increasingly desperately to get Puck to come help him— is never mentioned again.

We spend all of intermission trying to cheer Brian (he doesn’t take failure well) up. I make the butterfly kisses on his cheeks with my fake eyelashes (they are very long you see). Our director— a very put together and collected woman tonight— says the word fuck. Brian, inexplicably, feels much better. Everything is going smoothly at last.

Act 4. I suddenly cannot find Brian. I am supposed to be onstage, but so is he. I look in every backstage place. The green room. The boy’s dressing room. The girl’s dressing room. Underneath the fucking bathroom stalls. It is then that I become aware that our prop’s master, Carly, is trying to tell me something. Our rapid and hushed conversation goes a little something like this:

Carly, whispering furiously: Gabe, why aren’t you onstage, they need you right now!!

Me, panicked: I’m looking for Brian, it’s his scene and he’s gotta give the monologue to disenchant Titania!! I think he’s missing his cue again!!

Carly, seriously regretting being friends with me: You fucking acorn, Brian is already onstage. He’s been onstage for the whole scene. Go!!!

I have been backstage trying to not let Oberon miss his cue up again while Oberon is onstage, wondering why I’ve missed my cue. Luckily, he can see my hazard orange jacket from the wings and he doesn’t go through with his split-second improv plan which, he explained to me later tonight, was just to make up a story about how the Athenians had killed me, and then make up as many gruesome details as he needed to include in order to give me the time I needed to get in position.

[redrobin-detective]

Ok, I’ve tried and tried and tried to write this fic because I see it so clearly in my mind but it’s just not going no matter what I do. But I don’t want the idea to die with me. The closest this came to being written was exile which was an attempt to bleed out some of the energy of this au.

Anyway, so it starts off vaguely similar to canon only more aggressive. There had been underlying tension between ghosts and humans for a while, the dead jealous/angry at the living for disrespecting them. The successful creation of the Fenton ghost portal (and another halfa) was considered an act of war and so the ghosts responded in kind. So basically all of S1 occurs fairly close to canon except ghost attacks are more violent and have increasingly more consequences as time passes. Also the attacks aren’t just in Amity Park with ghosts becoming a worldwide issue but Amity is a focal point. Regular people know the ghosts hate them though they don’t know why. Phantom is very much a controversial figure as he is a ghost but also clearly is fighting off the more violent ghosts. 

One day, not long after the events of Control Freaks, Amity Park wakes up to find three of their own are gone. Danny Fenton, Sam Manson and Tucker Foley are nowhere to be found. There’s a massive manhunt, the parents go on TV and beg for information but they cannot be found. Curiously enough, town hero Phantom was also missing. There’s some evidence they left of their own volition so the Mansons and Foleys eventually relent that the kids fled on their own. The Fentons are 100% certain the kids were stolen/killed by ghosts as a statement. And the fact that Phantom went missing around the same time means he was the one who killed them. Jazz knows Danny was Phantom but had no idea what was going on and knew her parents wouldn’t listen she just, kept quiet and privately tried to piece together what happened. 

Three years pass and finally it looks like the Ecto War is coming to a close. Young, naive ghosts attempted to raise Pariah Dark in a bid to win. It went disastrously but Phantom (who was periodically spotted around the world, deep in the worst battles of the war) and group of loyal allies subdued the king. By the law of ghosts, Phantom was named heir apparent and he declared that the fighting would stop. Humans and ghosts would have to negotiate and co-exist in peace. But he’s not king yet, no he needs to be crowned at the place where it began, Amity Park’s Fenton portal (”where it all began” has a double meaning of the beginning of the war but also symbolically where Phantom began as Kings assume the crown where their living life ended to show their abandonment of their first life and the commitment to their second). Amity is NOT happy to hear that their former hero is coming home.

Amity has been through the wringer, ghost attacks got pretty bad. The Fenton’s throw themselves into their work to cancel out the grief, they create a group of ghost hunters nicknamed the Reds (for their red blood, ghosts are nicknamed Greens) to control the threat. Valerie heads the young adult division and is considered one of the best, she drops out of school to devote herself to it full time. Oh also her dad is now the Mayor as most have died or didn’t want the job. There are still people who like Phantom and see him as a hero (a lot of Casper Kids) but it’s generally an unpopular opinion in town. Maddie and Jack are ready to obliterate the ghost that took their son’s life the moment he’s within city limits. It’s a powder keg ready to blow. It all comes to a head when Phantom and his entourage arrive.

First off, Phantom looks very different, much less human looking than when he left. He’s clearly aged like a normal teen but his eyes look much, much older.  His skin is dead white with a blue tinge to it from his ice core and his aura is super cold. His hair is longer and is very misty that kind of swirls around him and his has fangs and claws. When he’s deep in battle or his obsession, his sclera turn black and he looks scary af. His entourage is ghosts who have sworn loyalty to him, who he picked up along the way after battling beside them for 3 years. Fright Knight, Skulker and Frostbite are recognizable allies. They are not happy that their future King is back in Amity (secretly fearing they’ll lose him once more to his human life). J&M have a shot and are going for the kill when they see something that shocks them; Sam and Tucker are in Phantom’s entourage.

There had been whispers that Phantom interacted with humans, that humans were in his inner circle but this is something else together. And so are Sam and Tucker. Sam is Phantom’s General, she is talented and collected and half feral. She used to be a pacifist but the trials of war and understanding that peace sometimes needs to be fought for made her compromise. She’s covered in scars and an extremely talented fighter. She’s missing her right hand up to her forearm, she can form a ‘phantom limb’ (basically borrowing ectoplasm from her future ghost) to do some things with some powers. Tucker is the support, he uses human and ghost tech to organize, weaponize and generally keep things running. He’s covered in homemade tech (shields and weapons and computers) and he rarely removes. Both he and Sam have kinda forgotten how to interact with and really BE human after so long among the dead. They had attempted to conceal themselves but they had forgotten how strong parental love and recognition is. J&M want to know about Danny, the teens don’t know how to respond but assure them he’s alive. Phantom can’t bring himself to look at them.

This is where I start to lose track of things but there will be parallels of Valerie/Maddie vs Sam as female warriors on opposite sides who are willing to go behind, possibly compromising the things important to them, for victory. Tucker will be contrasted against Jack/Jazz as the one making weapons but also generally keeping the human parts of the team mentally/physically afloat. *Severe* PTSD for all three of them. They’re also unnaturally codependent on each other, get super anxious when one of the trio is out of sight and sleep in a big cuddle pile. They will fucking Kill You if you look at one of them wrong. Vlad will be involved, he had been jailed for war crimes but convinced Walker to stage a coup to overthrow Danny and take the crown before he’s actually declared King and is too powerful. Vlad is more unhinged here, more ghost than human (a hint on what could happen to Danny if he’s not careful). He is eventually defeated but he sacrifices his life for ghost power which, in the end, is what makes him able to be beaten.

 There’s lots of ideas on what it means to be live or dead and where the divide really is, is it a heartbeat or it is how you choose to use your existence. On how duty shouldn’t mean you need to give up everything. Because Jack and Maddie believe that Phantom killed their son and, in a way, they’re right. Before they left, the ghost war had gotten so bad and the rumors of Dark being resurrected were going around. Amity attacks were at an all time high, people in their school were being killed just because Danny went there. He realized he had to choose between Fenton or Phantom and he chose to protect the world. He abandoned his human identity and went off to fight in war. Tried to convince Sam and Tucker to stay but they followed him through hell and back. Because Danny spends so much time as Phantom, Fenton is severely neglected. His long hair is cool and floaty as Phantom but is unkempt and stringy, hanging in his face as Fenton. He’s wan and underweight and looks like a walking corpse. He knows his human half will give out soon if he doesn’t give it more attention but he just can’t there’s too much to do, too many people to save.

It would end with Danny being outed to the town, not the world, just the town. Jack and Maddie need to recon with the fact that their boy DID leave of his own choice but only because their failure to protect him (from both the portal and ghosts) made him feel he had to take all this responsibility on his shoulders. Danny also has to recognize that he (and Sam/Tuck) can’t do all this on their own and they can trust and rely on the people around him. Phantom is crowned King but he decides Amity will be his base. The trio eat more, sleep some, catches up on school all the while continuing their duties as King and court. The ghosts also see that Phantom’s humanity isn’t a weakness but a strength and will bring peace to the Earth/Zone so they also take some of the burdens off his shoulder. 

Basically I load up heavily with angst at the beginning and end with all the love and comfort imaginable. I just can’t fucking figure out the middle and my motivation will not let me write this shit out. But I can’t let this AU die bc it fucking keeps me up at night.

[cassafra5]

Where Have I Been?

Hey everyone,

It’s been a long while since I’ve made an address about what’s been going on with me and why I’ve had difficulty posting. It’s felt weird being on this site with the large elephant in the room being “what happened to you?” After having made addresses previously explaining a couple of rough experiences, I felt too ashamed to mention something even worse. It felt awful to post something after more than a year of nearly no activity, but I feel like it’s been severe enough to warrant this. I had also been requested not to speak originally because certain parties were worried about becoming “pariahs” on here, but I am writing this post to clear the air and to explain what has happened by my own account.

It’s been more than a year since I escaped an incredibly abusive relationship and left New York. After having lived there for three years, it has taken me quite a while to begin recovering from everything that has happened since 2016 until recent. During this time, my spouse and I were used by his family as caretakers for his grandmother, and we were also threatened with homelessness as his family considered taking the condo we lived in. The mounting stress caused him to start lashing out and to begin drinking, and his behavior grew increasingly erratic. For more than 3 years, I lived in a home where every door was broken to get to me when I tried to get away, and every wall in the house was left with a hole or a dent. I was forced to live under horrible conditions, but when I reached out for help about the abuse, multiple people antagonized me, shunned me, and waved away my concerns because “it’s not like he hits you every day.” My mental and physical health suffered greatly, and I still have lapses in my memory from that time because of just how dire my circumstances became.

Inevitably, I had to leave and was “helped” by some coworkers who, unfortunately, took my situation as a means of having a personal crusade, and thus exacerbated the situation further. Police were involved and I had to endure literally running away with what I could carry. Our divorce only just finalized. A majority of my belongings are still in New York, as I only carried back what I could scramble together while I had the police with me, as well as what was sent to me to try to convince me to come back. At this point, I don’t expect to get my remaining belongings back.

My ex is very unhinged and not well. It is harmful and counterproductive for me to be in contact with him or to involve myself any further with him. That being said, I would appreciate that anyone reading this not reach out to him, if you know who he is, as it may cause further incidents that I do not want. This address is mainly for my own recovery to help me move on with my life, and to explain why I’ve been so inactive. Despite it all, I want him to grow as a person and move on with his life as well.

During our separation, my ex involved a Tumblr user that has commissioned me multiple times. He effectively used this person as a means of getting information about me and to put me in a hostage situation – stating multiple times that if I didn’t speak to him, he would go through this person. I fought with my ex multiple times to try and get this person removed from our personal issues, but repeated attempts to warn this individual did not work. I excused this user’s behavior multiple times because they are very young and naïve, and for a while I assumed they just didn’t understand the situation enough to see how much they were hurting me and furthering the abuse. However, I was then made aware that this person was taking commissions from my ex and making decent money off of him. Even more egregious, they were also giving my ex information about me on who I was hanging out with, what I was currently doing, my day to day schedule, etc. I actually had to argue with this person over my safety and privacy, only to get “but I’m making money” as an excuse for them to continue selling my information. To say this was a breach of my confidence and trust is an understatement, and I cannot explain how violated and outraged I felt when I found out that a follower I was trying to protect had blatantly chosen to stay in the middle of my messy divorce and profit off of my mentally-ill ex while spying on me.

In LA I had a rough time adjusting. I did not have a support system to come back to and unfortunately I realized just how quick some people are to take advantage of someone in my situation. I have ultimately learned that I can’t try to understand people like that nor give them the benefit of the doubt. Throughout my time here on Tumblr, I have met some wonderful people such as @kirain who I’ve become best friends with, and who actively helped me escape the situation I had been in. But I’ve also discovered that some people don’t see me as a person worth basic common decency and respect. I’ve literally had users reach out to me just to get the details and gossip for their own amusement, or to either one-up me or stroke their egos over their own successful relationships, which has hurt me immensely. I even had a nightmare where my ex found me and chased me down, and when I reached out to the person he’d turned against me, the only response I got was, “Well, technically I just commission you, so I’m more of a client than a friend, so you shouldn’t be angry.” This person continued to take my ex’s money and profit off of everything that happened after I cut contact, and I don’t have the words to explain how absolutely nonsensical this entire situation seems to me.

I have cut off both individuals from my life and, while I don’t want to jinx it, I am doing much better. It’s been very difficult, but I’ve been recovering and have made great strides. I’m fixing up my house and making it my own after years of feeling like I couldn’t unless my ex allowed me to. I am working and learning in a new profession and I’m finding people who I can really feel are friends, and even more so. It’s been very night and day to be around people who respect and care about my wants and needs, and to have my autonomy back. I no longer have that feeling of being dipped in acid, which is exactly how I felt in New York.

Getting back into drawing and expressing myself is a challenge and something I’m slowly trying to revive. I do really appreciate all of your patience and kindness. Some things I used to draw are a bit difficult but I am slowly getting better.

To my ex and to the follower mentioned, I would ask that you refrain from contacting me or retaliating. I do still have videos, screenshots and other things that I have kept. If I am attacked for making this post, I can and will release them to corroborate my story. All I want is to be left alone, and I should not be silenced and muted because of you fearing repercussions for your actions.