#i dont want to do anything aughh

[kaoharu]

there were so many typos in my last post sorry guys

[rapidhighway]

i have to get better at lineart, i have to get better at rendering, i have to get better at picking colors, i have to get better at composition, i have to get better at storytelling, i have to get better at shading, i have to get better at drawing backgrounds, i have to get better at drawing expressions, i have to get better at anatomy, i have to get better at coming up with drawing ideas, i ha

[icewindandboringhorror]

boy in silly sitting positions compilation

[itsalwaysdark]

i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

[watch-out-it-bites]

The Reason You Might Be Feeling Awful And Experiencing Issues Standing+Walking Around Is Because 1. YOU ARE SICK and 2. YOU ATE A MUFFIN AND A PIZZA YESTERDAY. And a slice of bread.

[autism-corner]

im sick

[skrunksthatwunk]

been wringing my hands about the concept of family therapy. scary stuff. like maybe it could help and we sure as hell need SOMETHING to change but i think it would be like taking a potato peeler to the soles of my feet

[nyxi-pixie]

Hiiiii.

Sorry to bother you, I wanted to know if you had any fic recs? Your writing is so good and your tastes are immaculate, and I am starving for any kind of good content. Please?

its not possible to bother me love dw <3

NOW. i dont actually read all that much anymore bc i am horrendously picky but this does give me an excuse to hype up the few authors that have satisfied my unreasonably specific tastes 🤩.

so. a few bsd recs for you (except theyre 99% skk because im horribly predictable forever). everyone go read all of these and tell the authors how wonderful they are in the comments please <3

anything @booksandpaperss has ever written is genius work and everyone should read it. could talk abt all of their stuff for hours (and i have🤩 they put up w so much of me bothering them godbless). also our brains do some accidental crazy mind melding shit whenever either of us write fic so if you like any of my stuff you will like theirs. thats the rules. <3

like twin stars in the dark (we collide)- dead apple skk porn as a vehicle for 22skk analysis. makes me salivate i have read it so many times. they get 22skk better than anyone🙏

my lies are for you to keep (my love for you to lose) - the only take on beastskk that matters to me ever. you can actually see me losing my mind in the comment i wrote on this fic bc of how fucking insane every single line made me. theres SO much packed into this thing its fucking crazy i NEEEEED everyone to read it. thats all <3

till death, I'll give you my breath - dazai death timeloop. this fic terrifies me so much i await every update with my teeth chattering and my heart pulsing so rapidly i should be hospitalised. the first scene of chapter 2 genuinely had me on the verge of tears im unwell about it.

(elli also has some jjk stuff thats REALLYREALLY good and if ur into jjk u should check that out too.)

NOW. aside from being a propaganda machine for my fav writer ever. Heres some other stuff i love.

the second perspective by @wildflowerteas. murder mystery/detective noir stuff w some time fuckery. the au of all time. mashes aspects of beast, canon, and some extra special niko sauce into a mixing bowl and goes crazy w it. just Such a genuinely impressive piece of writing. i could talk abt the technical brilliance of it for hours but i will stop myself. you gotta commit to this thing because it WILL make u crazy. also i loveee the sskk. its like if we had the beast first meeting sskk forever. SOSO GOOD!!!!

did fate guide the gun or did you? by @kanetheo. i read this pretty soon after chapter 109 and it genuinely fried my brain for months. the writing style is beautiful (as for everything they write AUGHH!!!) and the angst is delectable. the way it intersperses more fun silly skk moments with just. complete misery. GOD. it just hits. ive reread it quite a few times and it never fails to make me go crazy. srsly cannot rec this enough.

the decomposition of dazai osamu by @hella1975 this shot several bullets through my brain and i still havent recovered. i keep thinking 'oh i should reread that' and then i dont bc some part of my brain still concerns itself w maintaining whats left of my sanity. BUT its crazy good and everyone should read it and suffer at least once. EVERYONE LOVES YOU OSAMU!!!! EVERYONE EATS YOU!!! line of all time lets all kill ourselves.

smoke held conversations by feralrookie - i havent reread this in a while but it does cool stuff with nlh and the skkisms are really good in this too. ppl often write teen chuuya as less intelligent than he actually is. hes very observant, esp of dazai, and this fic gave me that 🙏

i called your name til the fever broke by forest_raccoon - vampire chuuya. biting is involved. i blacked out reading it. enough said.

[cherrythepuppet]

Hydroelectric Dam

TW: Gun violence, killing, general violennce

Stone and Dante: ZeddyZi

Sora (Bonus: Kip): @small-world-au

Gram and Scribble: Me

FALL

Dante and Gram on a mountain trail where They approach a sign welcoming them to Ramshackle City “Ramshackle city. Means we're close to outskirts, right?” Gram asked “Shouldn't be more than a few miles” Dante shrugged

“You ready to see your family?” Gram chuckled as they continue down the trail “I'm just ready to get there” Dante sighed “You nervous?” “I don't know what I'm feeling” The road washes out ahead

“So much for this road” Gram groaned “You just follow the river, it'll lead us straight to their place. C'mon” Dante replied while They drop down towards the river and follow it downstream “What happened between you three?” Gram questioned

“What do you mean?” Dante looked back “You, Sora, and Stone… you're not together, so clearly something went down” Gram said “Oh- We just had a bit of a disagreement, that's all” Dante told him

“Ah, here we go… so what was it about?” “Stone saw the world one way, I saw it the other”

“And that's why he joined the Fireflies?” Gram asked “Yeah, your friend Vinnie promised him hope. That kept him busy for a while, but just like Stone, he eventually quit that too” Dante muttered

“What about Sora?” “Well… Sora stuck with him through it all, I dont have anything against that” “How was it, the last time you saw them?”

“I believe Stone’s last words to me were, I don't ever want to see your goddamn face again” Dante said “Jeez. But he's gonna help us?” Gram replied “I suppose we're gonna find out” Dante shrugged

The pair come to a large hydroelectric power plant spanning the river “Whoa… what's that?” “That right there is a hydroelectric power plant” Dante explained “Wha… A… hydra who?” Gram blinked

“It, uh… it uses the river's movement and, uh, turns it into electricity” “How's it do that?” “Look, I know what it is, I don't know how it does it” They ascend a staircase leading to the dam, Dante turns a crank wheel that rotates half of a platform from out of the water

“Well, that gets us halfway. If we get the other one up-” Gram was cut off by Dante jumping into the water “Okay then” Dante dives underwater and frees a wooden pallet wedged in a submerged structure, bringing it to the surface

He goes to push the pallet to Gram “All right, Gram, I need you to-” “I know, step on the fucking pallet” Gram jumps on the pallet and Dante ferries him to the other side, Gram cranks the wheel, raising the other side of the platform, forming a bridge

Dante climbs out of the water and starts crossing it, He crosses as Gram waits on the other side then raises his hand for a high-five which Dante laughs at slightly and gives Gram a high-five

They climb their way up to the outer walls of the power plan “Aughh, I'm so hungry” Gram groaned “I know, I am too” Dante sighed “All right, next squirrel I see, I'm totally shooting it” Gram said

“Let's get past this place, then we can scrounge up some food” Dante chuckled “Well, if I starve, you're responsible” Gram joked while They reach the main entrance to the plant but They notice the road leading out is blocked by a big gate

“Uh… should we head in?” Gram asked “Ah, ain't no way around. Gonna have to cut through the plant” Dante goes to open the entrance but as He attempts to nudge open the gates when suddenly, armed guards atop the dam's walls aim their weapons down at Dante and Gram

“Don't even think about reaching for your weapon!” A young woman exclaimed while Gram draws his pistol “Tell the kid to drop theirs. Now!” She demanded “Gram, do as the lady says” Dante said

Gram slowly put his pistol on the ground then raised his hands “Please tell me you're lost” The woman grumbled “We didn't know the place was occupied. We're just trying to make our way through” Dante explained

“Through to where?” The woman asked before being cut off “They're all right” A voice said opening the gate “Wha- you know these people?” the woman asked “I know him” The voice stepped out of the gate

“He's my step-father”

“Sora?” Dante asked and Sora quickly hugged Dante “How you doin', kiddo?” Dante asked as the woman and another person walk out of the gate “Let me look at you” Dante Pulls away and looks at the second person “You got fucking old” Stone laughed

“Easy- it's gonna happen to you too” Dante replied as the woman walks beside Stone and Sora, still holding her rifle “This is Scribble, She guards the gate” Stone said “Ma'am. Thanks for not blowing my head off” Dante joked

“Would've been embarrassing, considering you're basically my grandpa” the woman, Scribble, scoffed as Dante paused looking over to Sora and Stone “We found when she was eleven” Stone explained

Sora looked over to Gram and smiled “Gram, right?” He asked and Gram nodded “What brings you through here?” Sora replied “Uh… it's kind of a long story” Gram mumbled “Why don't we bring 'em inside?” Stone suggested

“Yeah. You hungry?” Sora looked back over to Gram “Starving” Gram said, Sora leads them into the dam as Stone closes the gate behind them while Inside, Scribble gestures to the other guards to lower their weapons

“False alarm. They're friendlies!” Scribble called out “We've been dealing with raids. A lot of bandits in this area” She added looking over to Dante and putting her rifle on her back “It's been quiet for a few days” Stone shrugged

“What the hell are you doin' here? I thought I'd find you in the outskirts” Dante asked “Been trying to bring the plant back to life, We had it working before, but one of the turbines went south” Stone explained

“We have electricity, Dante… Well- had but We'll get it running again” Sora smiled, Sora opens a door and leads them into the building before a voice was heard over Sora’s radio “Yeah, go ahead” Sora said

“We're in the control room. Steve's about to start it back up. Do you wanna come check it out?”

Sora looked over to Stone “I'd rather eat with Gram” He mumbled and Stone nodded “It's my turn anyway. I'll go” Stone replied “I'll come with you” Dante added then turned to Gram “Go with Sora and put some food in you” He added

Gram hesitated but nodded “C'mon, Gram. Let's give the boys some space” Sora and Gram begin walking away and Sora says over his radio “I'm sending Stone over. Stand by” “Ill watch the gate” Scribble cleared her throat

“Keep your radio on” Stone told her “Dad! I know!” Scribble groaned while Stone leads Dante away into another room, a respite area with bunk beds “Uh… I got something for you. Last year I went back to the bar, Most of your stuff was long gone. Most of it”

Stone went over to a bag on a crate and then pulled out an old faded photo and handed it to Dante whos eyes went wide seeing a photo of him and Cinnamon when he first adopted her “It's a little faded but it still looks pretty good” Stone muttered

Dante stared at it and shook his head handing it back while avoiding looking at the photo “I'm good…” He grumbled “You sure? I mean-” “I said I'm good” Stone nodded and put the photo away

“Stone, I… I need to talk to you. Privately” Dante sighed “Yeah, okay. Let me just check on my guys real quick” Stone said leading Dante up a set of stairs and back outside, now at the top of the dam

They walk to the control room and Outside of the dam's control room lies a dog, Kip, chewing on a tennis ball and Dante bends down to pet him “Hey, buddy” Dante chuckled “That's Kip. Not much of a guard dog, but he's good to have around” Stone smiled

Dante stops petting Kip and the two enter the control room, where two workers are looking over schematics for the turbine while Another sits at the control panel “These two geniuses are gonna bring this plant back to life”

“We think we got it this time” “You don't believe us? I bet you a million bucks it works” “Sure. Make it two” “Ah, we're almost ready. They just need to finish putting the shield back on” “No rush”

Dante and Stone walk into the generator room and look on as a group of workers begin to place the shield back on to the turbine

“To the left! Watch it!” “Okay, that's good. Lower it. Slowly!” “All right… that's good” “Stone's here. We good to go?” “Gimme… one second…. Okay, good to go!” “You ready?” “Go ahead. Hit it” “Here we go”

The turbine starts turning and the electricity comes back on before Sounds of applause and cheering erupt in the room “Somebody get on the horn and give Sora the good news” Stone exclaimed

Stone then turned to Dante “All right, Dante. Let's go talk” He said as The two enter an office on the other side of the room, Dante shuts the door behind them as Stone stares outside from the window

“That's quite the crew you got there” Dante mumbled “They're good men. This place gives them a second chance. It gives us all a second chance… So why'd you leave the Zone?” Stone got straight to the point

“I've been on quite the adventure, Stone” Dante replied leaning against the wall while Stone turned around “I reckon it's got something to do with that boy” Stone replied “Oh, it's got everything to do with that boy” Dante said

“Well, go on then…”

Dante leaned forward and sighed “He's immune” He told Stone who was confused for a second “Immune to what?” Stone paused then laughed “Oh, c'mon” He chuckled “I've seen him breathe enough spores to take down a dozen men and nothing. I wouldn't have believed it neither, but I can show you” Dante shrugged

“I'll bite. Why bring him here?” Stone asked “I was supposed to deliver him to the Fireflies… The way I figure they're your old frineds, you finish the job, you collect the whole damn payment” Dante suggested

Stone tensed up “I haven't seen a Firefly in years” He muttered “But you know where they are. Now I'm not asking for much, Stone” Dante sighed “What makes you think I'd do this for you?” Stone scoffed

“This isn't for me, Stone. This is for your damn cause” “My cause is my family now. You ain't talking about some walk in the park here” “Jesus, boy… Have Sora get some of your friends to do it” “They got families too”

“Stone, I need this” Dante sighed “You want some gear? Sure. But I ain't taking that boy off your hands” Stone told him “This is how you gonna repay me, huh?” Dante grumbled “Repay you?” Stone glared

“For all those goddamn years I took care of us” Dante replied “Took care? That's what you call it? Sora’s got nothing but nightmares from those years!” Stone exclaimed “You two survived because of me!” Dante shouted

“It wasn't worth it” Stone said pushing past Dante to the door but Dante grabbed his arm to stop him “I bring you the cure for mankind and you wanna act like that?” Dante muttered as Stone sntached his arm away

“We ain't back in the Zone. You lay your hands on me again, it won't end well for you” Stone warned while Dante scowls when suddenly, the dam's alarm goes off in the background “What the hell is that?” Dante asked

“We're under attack!” Stone told him grabbing his rifle and glancing out the window “You still remember how to kill, right?” Stone addded exiting the room with Dante following, They rush out into the heat of combat as workers shoot at oncoming bandits

The brothers, along with the dam workers, clear out the bandits in the generator room then They push up to the control room and kill the last bandit in the area, The group begin running towards the bridge just as Sora radios in

“Stone! Bandits, they're breaking into the building!” Sora yelled over the radio “Can you get out of there?!” Stone asked “No, we're trapped” Sora replied “We're gonna come to you, just stay-” Stone was cut off

“They're here. Gram, hide!” Sora exclaimed “Sora?!” Stone yelled but the signal cut out while They arrive to the bridge, where another group of bandits come rushing out from the other side. As Stone's group advances on the bridge, more dam workers show up to assist

They eliminate all of the bandits on the bridge “We gotta get to the boys!” Stone said running into the main building, taking up positions on the upper level. Below them are several bandits raiding the cafeteria

Sora and Gram are held up behind the kitchen inside, defending themselves and Dante quickly shot the remaining bandits then ran into the kitchen “Stone?” Sora called out “Sora!” Stone sighed out relief

“I'm all right! The kid's with me!” Sora replied coming out from behind the kitchen, Stone runs to him while Dante races to Gram “Gram!” Dante exclaimed “Dante. Oh, man… They were coming in from every direction!” Gram said

“Then Sora was like, We gotta run! And so we dove over these tables and this huge guy blasts in with his shotgun-” “Slow down, slow down, slow down. Listen-” “And then-” “Hey, hey, are you hurt?”

Gram shook his head and Dante chuckled slightly, Stone looked overr to the two of them then back at Sora “I need to talk to you…” He mumbled

-

“Absolutely not. You tell him to go find somebody else” “Sora, I can't have this hanging over my head” “Do you have any idea how many men we lost here today?” while Sora and Stone argued, Gram walked up to Dante

“Does that have anything to do with me?” Gram asked “We'll talk about it later” Dante muttered “Did he tell you where the lab is?” “We'll talk about it later” Later… Right” Gram scoffed turning around and storming off

ante goes to say his name, but refrains “It takes one. One fuck up! One fuck up and then I turn into one of those widows. Okay?” Sora shouted “I have to do this. I don't know what else to say” Stone sighed

Sora shook his head then turned to Dante “If anything- anything- at all happens to him. It's on you!” Sora told Dante who nodded before Sora storms off in the opposite direction “I'll take that boy of yours to the Fireflies. You don't have to worry about it” Stone said

“It's best this way…” Dante sighed “Well, maybe some real good will come of this-” Stone was cut off “I need to talk to Gram” Dante muttered, Suddenly Stone’s radio chimes in and Stone listens in

Dante looked away and Stone groaned “That boy of yours, He took one of our horses and rode off” Stone grumbled “Damn it. Which way?” Dante asked “C’mon… Let’s go find out” Stone replied…

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[azucar-skull]

I JUST READ THE ENTIRETY OF GEM

it's weird bc I didn't manage to finish it in one day/night like I normally do with 30-40 fic chapters... BUT IGNORING THAT

AZUCAR YOU SPAWNED SO MANY THOUGHTS AND. I DIDNT EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT SHELLDON WAS SAYING AT THE END BUT OH 👏 MY 👏 FUCK 👏 YEAH. 👏 I'm gonna be honest I tried getting a shelldon shimeji thing on my phone but THEY DO NOT HAS. AUGH...

anyways I am STILL CAVKLING AT TINY SHELLDON IN THE WORLD-TRAVEL CHAPTERRR!!! I'm just imagining this tiny chibi him skittering around like mad with this CD on his head that's like THRICE his size- with like that audio where it's the- scat man guy?? with the thud at the end- and AUGHH..... also it's in elliwoods' art style if that's anything

and as always I have screenshots!✨️ almost none of these are cropped tho so fair warning

I DONT WANNA MAKE THIS ASK LONGER BUT IM REMEMBERING WHY I TOOK THESE SO... FUCK THEY'RE GOIN IN THE ALTS

still wishing shelldon could actually hear me/see me waving at him-

I am so glad you loved GEM!

If it was in my ability, I would make Shelldon one of the desktop character thingies that hangs around on your screen. But idk how to game code or anything so...tis a dream.

But yes he is a skrunkly little guy running around and I love him.

Oke lemme see these screenshots.

"Man the past is harsh" << Yeah that's my little parallel timeline twist. =)

"HOLY FUCK." << Lowkey inspired by The Neon Void. I wanted to capture that sort of playing around with text format but I am so unexperienced with that sort of stuff so this is all you get. Fjdjdjd

*The kids getting in trouble with Mother Carol* << Look at em being goobers. This scene was so fun to write.

*4th wall breaks/Me being Aztec* << Slowly but surely my Aztec identity is slipping into my stories as I learn to be more comfortable. It started with Hueso in MLTS who I wanted to be Aztec but got scared so I didn't, instead I wrote the Patecatl Herb. Then in GEM, there's this scene. And in FCAU, our main boy will be Aztec.

*Group chat* << my boy is a father, I'm so proud /j

Seriously though, I love getting comments/asks about this. I am so glad you enjoyed GEM and impressed that you read it so fast like wow. 👍 And I hope to see you some more! =)

[toothlesstdm]

aughh dont do fully colored pieces traditionally often but.. here's a school project i started some months ago that i got to work on again today in class !!!! I wish i could adjust his snout/eyes a bijt but I can't erase anything unfortunately :'3 BUT !! wanted to share how its looking so far!! still not fully done YET but

[fuckmy-emolife]

i’m the tweakmaster 69 fuck my emo freakin life i want people to like me so bad, but i don’t know if people hate me or not, i dont know how to ask either because aughh so i just thug it out but sometimes it just too hard to thug out and i wanna fucking end it all, i want everyone to leave me alone but i know that won’t do anything nd i know if i yell at them tell them i don’t wanna be friends with them anymore it wld be a test for my friends to see if they like me nd for their attention because guh

i haven’t talked to these two people in forever but watching them hangout without me makes me so upset? like we were friends and ig we still are but it’s like AUGHHHH i wish i didn’t care i wish i wasn’t angry about it, i wanna message them again but i don’t know how i’m gonna shoot myself fuck my emo life bro

[tears-of-boredom]

for all the times i shout at the void about how people shouldn't treat having kids lightly, and they should take a long time to consider if it's a thing they want to do;

in my ideal world, people wouldn't need to think over, and calculate, and predict their whole lives when they are considering becoming parents.

because in my ideal world, every child would be unconditionally guaranteed a happy and healthy life.

it is impossible to except every single person to raise their child to adulthood, let alone expect them to give the child a good life. it will be way easier to just create such a support network for everyone, so that if they are struggling, they will be helped.

i um. i tried to word it better but everytime it just sounded wrong aughh. but im talking about a ideals anyways, so perhaps its not bad to leave my words so vague.

just like,, everytime I say;

"dont become a parent if you aren't absolutely sure"

know that what goes unspoken is;

"I wish it wasn't so, I wish you and your child's life could be good even if it turns out you suck at parenting, or you're poor, or literally anything. i wish there wasnt a thing that could ruin children's upbringings, nor parents' lives"

[nanochittle]

Remaking this shit cause tbh, it really sucked...

My name is Nano, I'm a genderless individual and i go by xey/they/it (pls use xey and it because it gives me a lot of euphoria :3)

I am biromantic, asexual and lithoromantic and in a qpr with the amazing @theetherealraphael and @walking-at-nighttime-is-the-life @marbledew (aughh ily both sm <33)

I'm a rotary phone hell yeahhh

I run the gimmick @wikipedia-the-non-official so if you wanna send asks or rp, pls do <33

I love my qpps

Please have patience when talking to me, because i am a bit stupid and get confused very easily. I'm also very bad at social interaction in general so I'm so sorry if i every accidentally say anything wrong, i try my best not to- if i ever make anyone uncomfortable please tell me immediately and I'll change my behavior :3

Have i mentioned i really love my qpps a lot? :3

please dont interact with my posts if youre gonna say horny stuff or make sex jokes, they make me uncomfortable

This blog is endo friendly btw, just dont be mean

PLEASE INTERACT WITH ME I'M SO LONELY

I tend to get very affectionate with my qpps sometimes, so if you don't want to see any of that, you can block the tag #qpp posting

(They userboxes with the amazing handwriting are made by my beloved qpp (Raphael) <33)

[angeltism]

OH YEAH YEAH DONT WORRY ABOUT THAT i have also been doing stuff for new years I UNDERSTAND!!!

YAHOO WE ARE MUTUALS FR FR!!! yeah im really comfortable with the way we are talking rn, theres still the fear that you May be disappointed with how much i have been faking my way of speaking just to not raise suspicion (i even changed the way i keysmash good lord) but idk! its really fun this way! the hopeless romantic that im displaying is still there im just showing it way more than i usually do SHAJHSJSHS you just gave me the perfect opportunity for that hehe YEAH YEAH im reaaaally enjoying getting to know each other better before actually. knowing who i am HEJSHSJSHS kinda makes me a bit less anxious about revealing myself honestly. gotta build up that familiarity before anything else yknow, specially considering how anxious i used to feel about the idea of directly talking to you, i just always end up seeing others as. unreachable? that if i say something in their askbox they wont like me? so having anon on while talking to you has helped. a lot. unfortunately makes things a bit more complicated but its still soooo fun hehe ALSO awesome joke you got there. happy new yuri brought to you by valentin and loveletter anon! (we are barely even girls)

- 💌 anon

aah I'm so happy uu feel comfortable,, I know a lot of beings ?? seem to think I'm scary . which . thank uu but also I promise I'm silly just like the rest of uu . heart hands . and aughh I get it sometimes when I go on anon w others I change my typing style a ton . like obv no "nawt" "purrfect" "purrobably" etc bc that's a dead giveaway that tis me !!!! the fool !!!! but also like . in general other stuff too .

n honestly as long as uu aren't outright changing uurself into an 100% different being like . I don't think I'll be disappointed or anything . in the end there's a sweet romantic being behind these asks even if uur typing style is different n that's what matters !! <3 <3

and yeahh I get that . . . I used to be suuuper socially anxious around my nyeow adored mewtuals n barely able to send an ask . . . tbf I still barely send asks I just . if I want to , I can without like . dying as much as I used to lol .

but um yeah I don't mind uu being on anon fufufu,, like it's fun and we're getting to know eachother and if uur more comfortable this way I don't mind staying this way for a while y'know .

and YESSSS ty somebun who recognizes my comedic genius ehehehe . happy new yuri from both of us teehee !! 🫶

[ardienothesieno]

AUGHH there are so many games i want to play but i dont have the time or money or anything to actually play them so i spoil them for myself and then i regret spoiling them for myself so i stop spoiling them midway through spoiling them but i still dont actually then have the time to play them so i eventually always fully spoil them for myself and ruin everything and I DO THIS FOR EVERY SINGLE VIDEO GAME IVE OBSESSED OVER WHY DO I DO THIS HELP