#i dont wanna make it sound like i have no hobbies bc i do make bracelets and i write wikipedia articles once in a while etc

[minglana]

thinking that i need to should get an irl hobby where i interact with people.......... i cannot keep on going like this

[echoesofadream]

3d is this low mainly due to the feature. there is an alternative version without him but even with that one i dont know if i would change my rating because the champagne confetti as a metaphor for female ejeculation as well as the song being about phone sex and really disgusting lyric overall puts me off the song so much. i like the hook but the song is still kind of terrible that the other songs, while boring, isnt. I also learnt the choreography for the chorus lol so maybe that speaks in favor for it some kind of subconscious liking of it. it was because i saw one of the kpop dancers on youtube dance it and i was like wait this is really pheeww attractive when its a woman doing it. cocky women doing hip thrusts oh yes…you know even the champagne confetti doesnt even sound that bad anymore… i want her— anyways and seven, im going to be honest if this song suddenly starts playing im going to already be bopping to it and like it feels like familiar when i hear it on this album full of strange and unfamiliar songs, its like oh yeah the good old seven beat. i think if this was a slow sort of jazzy song with a different mode of singing, say, more floaty and romantic instead of this rapid, kaxig (i cant think of english word) voice, i could dig it, at least the clean version because there are some treacherously tender parts of this song. Alas, it is not, but maybe ranking it lowest was unfair of me. I think part of it tho is that i have grown really sick of it, as i was at first really impressed with his singing style in it and now i am saying its the reason i dont like this song. it also sounds too fast, like the instrumental, like a sped up TikTok song. I guess the faster songs will be the standard in the future.

im gonna try rating it like my current, initial feelings that might change because I havent listened enough to all songs to really say

SNTY

yes or no

shot glass of tears

hate you

closer to you

somebody

please dont change

too sad to dance

3d

seven

[ushouldwatchhaikyuu]

hiiiii so I wonder if you could make some headcons about me x Tsukishima Kei or nishinoya yuu ?

so im a girl and i am gyaru / mcbling like i have manyyyyyyy accessories and i love shine and thinks like that like im girly but in higher level, i love makupe, juicy bags, low rise jeans, tops and I have septum in my nose ( i did it by myself )

I am veryyy extroverted and very talkative, sometimes I feel like I never run out of words im kinda popular like i dont wanna to narcissistic but i think mamy ppl in my school know me bc my loud character and the way i dress, and I am veryy self-confident (you have to be that way to dress)

I'm the most typical gyaru you can imagine, I'm loud, extroverted, I'm everywhere and I always want to be friends with everybody

My hobby is doing my nails, I always do my own nails and my friends love doing duck nails, shiny and pink with lots of accessories.

i hooe that i dont sound narcissistically

Nishinoya Yuu & Tsukkishima Kei x Gyaru! reader

warnings: cussing & mentions of unsafe piercings lmao.

Gif credits: Nishinoya & Tsukkishima ; Dividers ; Middle pic

Nishinoya Yuu:

oh girl that boy is a girlypop queen he would be a sucker for your style lmfaoo

he would absolutely let you do his makeup & give him makeovers.

you'd think he's just playing around letting you do his makeup in your room but he actually wears it out as long as it's not too dramatic/heavy, mostly just because he gets physically uncomfortable. would definitely rock some highlighter & eyeliner to volleyball practice though

he's absolutely your number one hype guy, he showers you in compliments everytime you show him an outfit and he always notices i says how much he loves your nails whenever you do a new design on them

sooo many sleepovers to watch your fav fashion/makeup shows and influencers and paint his nails or give him makeovers

gets you matching jewelry that goes super well with your style

definitely gets you some tacky 2000's style graphic tee that says some corny pickup line with lq pictures of your faces and a heart between u two.

will fight anyone who judges/criticizes your style

he didn't encourage you to do your piercing yourself, but he did let you pierce his earlobes lmao

kinda random but he loves the noise your jewelry makes lmfao

Tsukkishima Kei:

while he's not as passionate about fashion as you are, he likes seeing you be so happy and passionate about it

he drops simple compliments on certain outfits, makeup or nails every now and then.

he would also let you do very simple makeup on him, sometimes. he would make you work for it though, but he definitely loves spending time with you like that

he carries your stuff whenever your purse is too small and always lets you borrow his jacket if you get cold or wanna cover up a bit

he goes shopping with you and gives genuine opinions when you ask him. again, he might not know much about makeup or fashion, but he definitely tries to think about whatever you're showing him and gives you his honest thoughts, which are often actually helpful.

he also definitely spoils you and buys you anything you ask for if you smile bright enough but don't bring that up cause he'll get embarassed and nervous about it

loves watching you do your own makeup and outfits, he thinks its endearing how much thought you put into it

he does try to learn about the stuff you like though, and has a pretty good grasp on what your style is– so he always gets you the best gifts and sends you lots of pictures of stuff he thinks you'd like.

he does NOT like the fact that you pierced yourself and scolds you everytime you bring it up cause he got so worried about it

he doesn't ask for it, but he would definitely wear like one or two pieces of your jewelry if you suggested it would look good on him. same with painting his nails.

[strwbrry-skies]

Joe x kind reader pls?

☆PLATONIC! JOE AND KIND! READER☆

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"'do not enter' it's written on the doorway.

why can't everyone just go away?

except you, you can stay."

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summary: the first day of summer break, you were playing with other kids in the park. when one kid caught your interest. joe secondopinionson. you started to talk to him, being as patient as you can be. and you guys get closer, and closer. becoming best friends.

pronouns: joe he/him, reader they/them.

trope(?): fluff, childhood bestfriends. short fic and headcanon.

warnings/head's up: no capital letters, lighting ants on fire with a magnifying glass, i tried my best to not use reader or y/n but i had to😭😭 (plus this is kind of rushed,, sorry!)

author's note: hi, anon!! i'm sorry if there's anything wrong abt this fic lol.. and i made this a gender neutral reader fic bc it isn't really stated in the request!! have fun :p

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ah, yes. summer. the only time where school doesn't matter anymore and you can just rest. despite the sun being really hot, you decided to go to the park.

during the walk to the park, you saw your friends. orel, doughy, tommy, and.. what was his name again? oh, well. doughy was the first to notice you, "hey, buddy! where are you going?" he asked as he waved and walked towards you. "i'm going to the park! you guys coming?" you replied and everyone said "yes", looking very excited to go with you.

when you guys arrived there, you all decided to play hide and seek. " okay! the last one to touch their nose.. becomes… it!" tommy said as everyone quickly touched their nose, but it seems that you were a little too late. "alright! you're it! now close your eyes and count from one to twenty while we hide!" orel exclaimed, telling you the basic rules to the game. and so, you close your eyes and lean against a tree while counting. "one, two, three-"

after a few numbers, you screamed "ready or not! here i come!" before you even started to look for them, you could hear laughter from behind the tree you leaned on. you took a peak to see doughy and.. uh.. him! so you creeped behind them and hug them from behind. "found you two! now, you have to help me find orel and tommy!" doughy and him were surprised, "how'd you even find us?" him asked as you let go of them both. "well, i just believe in myself and pray!" you replied. "woah.." they both said in union. to you, you sound like a normal kid but in their eyes, you are like a hero!

so you told everyone to split up. and by "split up" i mean doughy and him are together while you are alone. during your search for orel and tommy, you found someone else. you saw a boy with black hair burning ants with a magnifying glass. and you took that personally.

"hey, i dont think you should be doing that." you said towards the boy, while you were walking his way "and why do you care?" he replied. "well, it's because those ants didn't bite you, right? you shouldn't hurt other creatures because they didn't do anything to you!" you explained, now being beside him. "... nyeh!" he said as he stuck his tongue out at you. "was that a 'yes, i swear to never do that again'? oh, well! my name's [reader]! what about you?" you asked the boy as he put tongue back in his mouth.

"joe." he said in a harsh voice. "hi joe! wanna be friends?" you asked, offering your hand to make a "friendship handshake". joe was a little taken aback but he replied with a scoff, "wh- you wanna be friends, with me?" and you answered "yeah, so..??" "... pfftt! fine!" he said as he shook your hand.

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okay, so now for the headcanons!

• after a few days or even weeks of you guys first meeting, he would already be clingy. because, come on. he has never felt.. this kind of kindness from a friend before. instant besties.

• and because of that, he would vent to you. a lot. and ofc you would listen!

• if you have some hobbies that involves making stuff and you give the stuff to him (like, for example, a drawing or food or anything like that) he would freak! but he wouldn't show it.

• he would collect some flowers and cool rocks for you in return.

• he thinks of you like, a younger sibling for him to protect. (but if you are older/more mature than him, hundred percent bigger sibling)

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author's note(again xd): WOOHH… joe is an interesting character to write about. and since i'm still on season.. one? i think? it's pretty hard lol. but i tried my best! thank you for reading and requesting me!

[faunandfloraas]

Here's A Little Get-To-Know-You Tag Game!

Tagged by: @noonaracha and @hhnquokka thanks for the tag you beauts!

Name(s): Jess

Pronouns: she/they

Star Sign: capricorn

# of Siblings & Fun Facts About Them (if you have any): One older brother but I also have two older cousins who lived with us a couple different times and then I have more cousins who would pretty much come around every weekend as well :)

# of Pets: 2 cats, Tigs who is 16 and has a very loud and a stray we call Tab/Barry/Lil kitty I rescued from the street last year and shes the funniest lil cat around. And a dog named Clancy we saved from a disgraced jockey who had a cocaine habit and also hoarded dogs and he looks just like a dog that would come from those circumstances

Fandoms: Stray Kids is The Thing for me right now, I was big into rgg/yakuza for a while though and also i've been watching a cdrama I Need to gif so that's the main thing rn :)

Favourite Colour: Today... custard baby pastel yellow. Tomorrow? who knows.

Favourite Song: I dont really do favourites because.... idk I have many favourites, therefore I kinda have none, if that makes sense. For today though I'll say Hate to admit by mr cb97 himself bc.... oh it feels very relatable to me in this moment lmao

Favorite Author: Emily Bronte. But didn't she only have one book? Well yes but it was a good book. and also her vibes were impeccable. to me.

Hobbies: my longest one is painting and drawing... I would like to try and do my skz art this year! I was painting Chan before so :dmirk: I like baking and cooking, i love to try new cuisines, i like going to nerd ass anime conventions, i like walking everyday, got into gaming during 2020.... uh yeah Oh i like collecting shit but also its a bad habit more than a hobbie lmao

Favourite Holiday: Halloween... it was never a thing much as kid here but its more popular now. Walk around, wear a costume, get some lollies, spooky stories- sounds good to me.

Do You Have Any Partner(s)?: I have chronic deadly singles disease, the 2 times I was not inflicted with this ended very... Badly. so maybe the deadly singles disease is for the best lmao

Fun facts about you/anything extra you wanna share!: I think I shared too much but 😂they put me on a higher dose of my adhd meds which might explain why I just wrote so much lmao

I'll tag my beloveds @chanrizard @inloif @blueprintchan @comflexing @sesuavity @linoguy @wantbytaemin @sternburgerpilsner @haenglixie @rainknow

[luveline]

hi ily im usually just reblogging ur stuff but now i wanna interact w you as well so i’ll tell u whats on my mind i wanna know what u think as a writer especially!!

when i read x reader fanfics i dont really envision my life like im a completely different person, family and life in general even my insecurities i dont specifically look for things that include it. Usually im reading fanfics because i enjoy the writing of online authors and i just want more content of the character. Even if im daydreaming and i insert myself into an episode or a movie im watching, its not really me? I dont do crossovers lmfao if that makes sense and i was wondering if everyone is like that or do people actually like to put details of their lives into it? Even its just for themselves like for example in your head do you want to introduce your fav fictional character to ur baby brother?? This sounds psychotic but its been on my mind bc i had a dream of the cm chatacyers and my actual life bled into it and now i feel weird and im having a crisis lowkey. (sorry for rambling feel free not to reply lol!!)

I think in the moment of writing I feel quite deeply connected, but it’s been a long time since I wrote for a reader and felt like it was really me !! I don’t think it’s weird to let your hobbies bleed into your life or your dreams

[naturalbornlosers]

actually. i dont normally get this personal so i might delete this later but geez i need somewhere to put this or i'll go insane.

we lost my grandfather a year ago and Christmas has sucked ass this year. i'm overstimulated and exhausted. my family doesn't even try to connect with me. it's like i dont fucking exist anymore to them except as a problem-solver ("can you help me find xyz?") or a piece of furniture or someone to dictate later plans to or a fucking memory pad ("don't let me forget,") or a problem. we try to eat dinner together and i dont open my mouth a moment in the conversation bc there's no opening for me, there's no topic i can contribute to, no one even tries to include me, and the only time i'm spoken to is to tell me plans we're doing later. i wanna make something with my family and it gets brushed off. i wanna do something, it gets brushed off. i bought us a game to play and we're taking it down when we take my grandmother back home bc no one could be assed to remember to play it even though i made sure it appealed to all of our interests.

my mom made a joke about "oh we're just giving you money because we have no idea what you want haha!" and while yeah, i am grateful for the money, it fucking SUCKS that every time ive talked to her about my interests - about our shared interests and hobbies, too - it sounds like it's gone in one ear and right out the other!! i've shown her in person things i would like to eventually get in the future, all year. and it's like… none of it matters. no one tries. no one tries when it's me, but everyone else gets thoughtful things and i'm even still planning to get more things for my mom and my grandmother. no one tries to engage with my interests. my interests actually get made fun of here and there or outright dismissed ("i'm sure [person] doesn't wanna hear about xyz" is said often when im infodumping) and everything i like is trivial. everything i like is fodder to be mocked by my moms husband and just goes in one ear out the other with my mom and my grandmother has no idea what to do with my interests.

and, fuck, now my family doesnt believe i have endometriosis or pcos bc my ultrasound came back fine even though i explained to them repeatedly that it may not show up on an ultrasound. they dont want me to get a second opinion. they dont think its worth it, trying to find out why im in so much pain i miss class/life events and why im so sick and fatigued every month i cant leave the house sometimes. i just sit around like a decoration. i get teased for being on my phone. i get teased for not eating the same things everyone else does. and to top it all off, my moms husband vaguely threatened me tonight in front of everyone and no one did a fucking thing. no one even acknowledged that he just flat out went "dont do xyz, if you do xyz, there's gonna be a problem" in a very clear manner of 'you are going to be in deep shit'. which is fucking tiresome bc he tried to kick me out three separate times in 2020. once bc my bathroom wasn't tidy enough (just a bit cluttered, but i dont have much counter space, so naturally it was cluttered), once bc he wanted to turn my bedroom into storage and have me move into the attic spare room, and once bc "this is my castle and i am the king and if you don't like it you can leave". this was during a time i had no friends irl, no bank account, couldn't drive, no job, nobody around i could go to… he knew full well he could just toss me out and no one would say a fucking word.

i'm learning how to drive. and then i'll get a job. and then i'll move out. and then i'll put this shit behind me. but i fucking hate being in a room full of my family and feeling like none of them know me. that i'm entirely alone. that i don't fucking exist and everything i am is trivial and doesn't matter. if i make plans, there's a high chance they wont happen or will get changed last minute and then i get mocked for being upset about it like i'm a child who doesn't get how the world works. i'm twenty four. i'm young for sure, but fucking hell, i'm not six.

i just don't wanna be here. i'm gonna keep on keepin' on. but i want things to change for the better and i know they wont until i move out. i just don't believe i will actually, ever, leave this house. ughh. i'll survive but holy shit i'm gonna be screaming the entire time.

[chouchen]

Hey there! You're a very inspirational person to me and one of the reasons why I realized that art is my true passion unlike all of the other professions i convinced myself to like because they're more "profitable". So I'm now seeking to enter an art college once I finish high school, but in my country it's a little hard for me to find anything "eye-catching".

I'm going to apply for a visual arts course next year in a very popular public school here in my country for preparation (the applications are only at the end of the year and i didn't apply for anything last year), but I'm still a little worried about finding a good art college, specially since art is very undervalued in my country (maybe it will change bc of the new president, hopefully), but i was very interested in the weekly schedule you posted of your art school last year, since it's pretty much everything I wanna learn in my art journey, so I'd like to know if you have any tips on finding a good college? There are quite a lot of art colleges here but I find it hard to find something that fits what I want,,,

very long reply

hi ! first of all i'm super glad that i can be such an inspiration to you aa ^_^

second of all, i don't really know how colleges work for you but for me i made sure of 3 things to choose mine.

first is the teaching, art colleges are very different from each other because art is a very vast and each college has a speciality so choose wisely depending on what you want to do.

second is the diploma, idk how it works for you but here some diplomas are certified by the state (means they recognize you has a student etc) here certified diplomas can help you find a job and its easier to change job all that. Honestly in the art industry the school you did isn't that important (ofc it's always better to have a prestigious school on your resume but) your portfolio is really what's gonna show your work and this is what employers are gonna look at !

third is the cost, here we have free or paid colleges, either free or not art studies cost A LOT, all artistic material is expensive traditional or digital (especially digital) if you can't afford everything they are some solutions (second hand material, adobe cracks etc) just please make sure you don't put yourself in too much debt because art is still a job that doesn't pay much at first (especially if you go on freelance)

and lastly, ask your college it's employment rates, in my college for example, big studios directly come to recruit some people, they're the judges for our final exams etc, make sure your college has connections with the working world because as fun as it sounds at the end of the day you're looking for a job !!

bonus, ask old students from the college and ask about their experiences, here we have special conventions where college show what they do and you can meet people (YOU DONT WANT A COLLEGE WITH WEIRD PEOPLE!!! especially if you're a girl and you want to go in video games like me, i got asked my number and to go get a drink by some dumbass and let me tell you i did not choose to go to this college, students reflects what the reputation of their school and you don't want to go to a place full of dumbasses)

i also really recommend you visit the colleges you're interested in !

bonus bonus, art studies takes a lot on your mental health, there's a real difference between drawing as a hobby and doing art for a living, but i think you already thought about that so all i have to say is good luck !

that was long aaa i hope i didnt discouraged you too much, it took me a while to find my college too but once you're in you're good !!

[gr1evance]

for Ronnie; 🎮 🎻🎶🎄 ❤️ and for Strudel; 🎶 ❤️ 🤍💔🍦

for ronnie (going with like. the ronnie i use for rp where its post grievance and atrophy and theyre living in a mortal world just bc its more applicable to a lot of these questions):

🎮 VIDEO GAME CONTROLLER — what are three of your oc's favorite hobbies?

definitely playing guitar or just doing anything creative or artistic, probably going out in nature just like. taking a walk or something. even doing creative stuff outside but just Being outside (and vinny has definitely gotten him into gardening too at least a little). and then the last one. does gay activities count. cuddling and kissing. i feel like thatd be really high on his personal favorite activities list so im counting it

🎻 VIOLIN — does your oc play any instruments? what is their skill level

YES as previously mentioned he plays guitar. and hes had... hundreds of years to practice it so. hes definitely good at it though i dont think he honestly cares much for "mastering" the instrument or being able to do anything super complex i think he just enjoys the sounds and the process of playing the instrument and making the music happen

🎶 MUSICAL NOTES — what type of music does your oc like? do they listen to music very often?

i dont think he really has a preference? generally stuff thats not too loud not too fast paced. i can see him really liking jazz though. or anything in the blues genre. he seems the type to like older stuff as well. again though i dont think he has too much of a preference as long as its kinda slow and not too loud

🎄 CHRISTMAS TREE — what is your oc's favorite holiday?

probably valentines day because 1. his husbands birthday and 2. he is very gay. i think the gusbands generally try and celebrate mortal holidays just for fun and to shake things up but he doesnt have like an attachment to any of them that mortals might have from growing up with them. but he likes valentines day.

❤️ RED HEART — what are three of your oc's positive traits?

hmmm. probablyyyy. hes a good listener. very thoughtful. and this is a weird one but just bear with me. hes like.. kind of slow moving? emotionally and physically he takes a while to process stuff or spends a while getting to places and like. that strikes me as a positive trait bc theres just a lot more thought going on there i feel? a lot more consideration of just everything. if that makes sense

for strudel:

🎶 MUSICAL NOTES — what type of music does your oc like? do they listen to music very often?

definitely like. pop music love songs or songs about feeling good having a good time with other ppl. just generally positive stuff. but also probably more like. indie stuff thats kinda chiptune and fast paced and generally upbeat in that kind of pink glittery sparkly way. if that makes sense. though i think hed like a lot of different stuff thats just what he gravitates towards

❤️ RED HEART — what are three of your oc's positive traits?

hes VERY very caring and compassionate. cares about everyone and everything with his entire being. hes also an artist with a very high appreciation for art (because he. is kind of just art that came to life) and also a strong desire to make art and especially has an interest in art for children and he thinks art made for children to experience and learn from is very beautiful and essential and i just find that a really sweet trait of his. i dont wanna just describe the words kind or sweet or caring over and over again but i feel like. hes just full of kindness and love and its hard to not bring that up repeatedly. hes never judgemental and loves everyone and is kind to everyone and i just think hes so so sweet

🤍 WHITE HEART — what are three of your oc's neutral/questionable traits?

he is. completely selfless. which CAN be good especially i think in the fact that hes a pacifist (specifically in the situation hes in.. i think this is beneficial to him. even if its not too beneficial to the overall group) but. he kind of views himself as lesser and like hes supposed to be protecting everyone else and never himself. which can be good but also does a lot of bad especially for his mental health. and then hes also very sensitive which like. not a bad thing. its not bad that he cries easily or is bothered by violence but it creates a problem because he is trapped on. the murder and gore and death forever repeating island. and finally hes very obsessive and attached to his boyfriend which. again. is a thing of his thats not really a problem? it wouldnt be a problem really if it werent for the fact that his boyfriend is just a plush toy of. his boyfriend he used to actually have that he can never talk to again and it causes kind of constant emotional turmoil. and also the murder island is not the safest place to bring the last remaining thing of your boyfriend you have left

💔 BROKEN HEART — what are three of your oc's negative traits?

he is a self sacrificing pushover and that is not really an exaggeration. i mentioned before hes very selfless and while that can have some upsides. his self sacrificial tendencies are just unhealthy and HAVE almost lead to him dying. and also if you told him to go stand in a bathtub full of acid hed be like :( okay and go do it? simply because you told him to. and then hes.. extremely self isolating and up until the island quite literally almost never left his apartment. a very very big shut in living in the quiet and the dark alone which is definitely doing some evil stuff to his psyche. finally the last thing. again its hard not to circle back to some of his big traits like being a bit of a pushover but prior to the island he kind of exclusively hung out with people who made fun of him because. he felt like that was all he had in the communities that he was interested in. all of these are very like focused on himself and not as outward and thats because he really really tries to be. as loving and compassionate as possible which is great but it does mean he is shooting himself in the foot 50 times a day. yknow?

[fullsunstrawberry]

hey girlllll

okay first- the chap was SO GOODDDDD and i’m so excited for your nct reactions and texts!

also your tattoo with your mom is so cute 🥰🥰 and the designs for your seventeen ones are adorable so i’m sure your nct dream ones will be super cute as well <333

i want to get a tattoo but let’s be so fr i’m so scared of needles 💀 kao (bf) has a bunch of tattoos and they’re so cute but i personally would never - your so brave for thiss

also mother in law apologized thankfully so so more problems there :)

my life has been pretty boring tbhhh i’m living with kao rn but he’s pretty busy with his med school things rn so i barely see him 😢

i really need friends 😭

BUT ITS NOT LIKE I DONT HAVE FRIENDS my two ride or dies (yes we are a trio but we’ve known eachother since 2nd grade and there has been 1 argument that lasted 30 mins 💀) are literally so far away 🥲 missing them 24/7 but we have our weekly group facetime soon so 😋🤞

ugh life has been so boring recently fr i need a hobby asap

i feel like i’ve lost all my interests because i’m high school i would lterally do math for fun and that’s the last thing i need to do rn 😭 like sure i did. volleyball but where in nyc am i going to okay volleyball like be so fr rnnn

WNYWAY HOW ARE YOUUUU????? TELL ME EVERYTHING 😜😜😜😜😜

i have an obsession with these emojis i find them so funny

also my niece/cousin idk but she’s so like… IDKKK- she’s middle school high school age but i feel like i’m just on a whole different planet bc she’s so into everything like i need to keep up frrr

ANYWAY

make sure to drink lots of water and eat lots of good foodss- i love youuu 😜💓💓💓💓❤️❤️❤️���️‼️‼️

also congrats on your blog growth! you deserve it fr

I got a bunch of nct random texts that I'm gonna post soon 🤪 but I gotta make some enhypen ones too cause my master list is lookin a little biased 😅

ahh thank you! i gotta hurry and get more kpop tattoos because my mom has more than me (she has two bts tattoos and wants a txt one)

i was terrified of needles but i had to get a bunch of blood work done when i was younger, so i’m a pro now 😤😤

if my partner had and tattoos i would color them in with markers if they had black and white ones

life’s been pretty boring for me too that’s actually why i made this account cause i used to have a tumblr way back and post on it but it became too hectic with my schedule…so i deleted it. but now i’m not really doing anything i love how hectic i post!! it gives me something to do and look forward to

i’m also in a friend group of 3 💀 but mine is kinda rocky because the other two always fight and im in the middle sometimes… but i love both of them and one of them might read this 🤪🤪

i still have lunch with them every other day in school but one of them is going to a different school and im gonna make sure we don’t drift apart 😤😤

most of my hobbies involve technology lol…

i like to make random webpages and of course video games, mostly sims or acnh.

But i love scrapbooking and i know a lot of people do it online now but nothing beats cutting up pictures and gluing it to a cute notebook or having a pen pal and decorating my letters

also photocard trading is fun and helps keep me busy

i’m glad the mil apologized because no one wants bad blood in a new marriage!!

i love using emoji’s because i don’t wanna sound boring when i’m writing and i can only use “T^T” so much

SAME! my cousin is younger than me and she makes me feel so old even tho i’m young! but she talks about tiktokers and celebrities i have no clue who they are nd half of the words she says, i’m like what?

tysm!! i’m surprised on how well my blog is doing, I love how many people have reach out to talk to me! It means a lot 😩❣️

don’t skip a meal!! 🥰🫶

[pensiveabstraction]

15 questions 15 mutuals

ty @dont-leafmealone and @elfinfair for the tags

were you named after anyone? for my deadname one of my middle names was the same middle name as my mum, my new first name and first middle name are indirectly and directly taken from the names of characters i like

when was the last time you cried? i think it was, i finally watched into the spiderverse for the first time like two months ago seeing all the hype abt the sequel, and when the big sad emotional climax moment happened, the one during the big fight, i was crying, not silent leaking eyes maybe sniffling a bit, like full on open mouthed sobbing. shit just hit me rly hard, that movie's so good

do you have kids? nah

do you use sarcasm a lot? i think so yeah. unfortunately i am also extremely monotone so i frequently have to be like 'no i was kidding' bc out lout my normal voice and sarcasm voice must sound a lot closer together than in my head

what's the first thing you notice about people? idk i guess i notice if their clothes style and whether face looks like someone i know/know of

what's your eye color? greenish-grey last time i checked

scary movies or happy endings? both. depends what mood im in tbh. if im watching a movie i dont usually have a huuuge preference of genre, i tend to prefer stories w somewhat developed characters who have arcs so u'd think that'd make me averse to scary films where the characters r sometimes neglected/used as a blank slate to experience The Horror through the eyes of but i ALSO rly like well built up tension and just,,, interesting creepy vibes. i usually try to stay open minded w watchin stuff. however there are times when i feel down and just wanna watch some dudes fuck around and have everything come up alright in the end

any special talents? hmm. man idk. im pretty good at making minecraft skins does that count lol.

where were you born? england and i shall say no more

what are your hobbies? writing, reading fics (do not look how many bookmarks i have on ao3 why would you need to), drawing's fun. used to watch twitch a bunch but the main streamer id watch aint comin back so w for my sleep schedule ig

have any pets? yes a dog he is an old man he looks sort of like a skeletal dark souls creature (not through maltreatment he eats like a king his breed r just skinny asses lol)

what sports do you play/have you played? netball, softball, cricket, bit of tag rugby, loads of rounders, street hockey was my fav out fo em i was pretty ok at defending (all of these r from when i was still in p.e. classes in high school idk if that counts but its what i got)

how tall are you? last i checked 165cm (like 5,5 in the other measures i think)

favorite subject in school? hmm. probably either art or english. though i only rly got an appreciation for english when i did this additional gifted kid project thingy and rather than just literally tell us an interpretation of a text to memorise for an exam the teachers gave us a bunch of analytical lenses to choose from to analyse a text and i was like "yo wait interpreting meanings from the text is kinda fun when you havent got bitches in your ear telling you 'ok so this is exactly what the author meant and you just need to memorise that and write it in the test'"

dream job? i honestly have no idea. i wouldve said author once but i enjoy doing it for fun, i dont think id be able to make smth publishable and if i somehow did i feel like itd ruin it. if i had some kind of like repetetive but simple task and i just had to do it over and over, maybe listen to music or a podcast or smth in one ear i feel like so long as i earnt a decent amount id be cool with it. i am a simple little guy my dreams amount to 'eh id like to do some cool stuff :]'

i dont think i have 15 mutuals so ill just tag a bunch @jctko @thinkingjasico @captainchibi @zodismegalame @aroacekitty @glummar @ablueeyedarcher @erisenyo

[babbity-boo]

15 QUESTIONS

tagged by @generatorcat (thankuu lovely!! 🫶💖)

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYBODY?

nope! my name was picked bc it was easy to pronouce in both my mum and dad's native languages!

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?

abt a week ago when me and my best friend went to see Frozen w/ a live chorus and orchestra LOL

3. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?

no, thankuu

4. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?

i don't think so, but sometimes here and there i guess ahaha

5. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED?

i did both swimming/surf life saving and karate as a kid ahaha i liked swimming a lot tho and i kinda wanna pick it up again (but its so cold rn.. 🥶) also sometimes i run!

6. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT SOMEONE?

this is gonna make me sound soooooo superficial but to be completely honest, its hair and make up...... probably bc i, myself, put a lot of time and effort in my own hair and make up and its always something i like getting complimented on (lol) so i just naturally gravitate towards it 😐 but i never ever judge ppl on how they style their hair/make up or if they don't wear any at all!! its just an interest of mine (and maybe some internalised misogyny i need to work through? idk lol) ((but sometimes its nice bc i can usually notice when someone gets a haircut even if its just a trim so i can easily compliment them on it even if they dont say anything!))

7. EYE COLOUR?

brown!

8. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?

i seriously cant choose, so both! i love spooky bloody things and i love cheesy corny things too ahahaha

9. ANY SPECIAL TALENTS?

not really! ive yet to discover any.. but thats ok i have my whole life time to 😆

10. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?

in a hospital

11. WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES?

reluctant to list drawing as a hobby since i havent drawn anything for fun lately 🥲 but i like eating a lot and trying new desserts, reading, wikipedia deep dives, window shopping, just wandering aimlessly around in places like the city or just my neighbourhood, tbh i dont do a lot ahaha

12. DO YOU HAVE PETS?

no, but i think id like one in like a decade or two when ive got my shit together and have figured myself out ahaha

13. HOW TALL ARE YOU?

161 cm

14. FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?

english and studio arts!

15. DREAM JOB?

i’ve never really had one, i think i used to dream of being an antique bookshop owner when i was younger ahaha but im trying to make something of a dream job through tattooing! i really enjoy it rn but it does get hard and overwhelming

tagging: @tiredbon @mawziee @amarkls @rolypolies ! (please dont feel pressured to do this lol)

[sinbury]

I’m relieved to hear you’re doing better!! I’m really sorry it took me a while to get to you life has really been beating me down lately and it made me nonverbal, I have thought of you though, how have you been?

I’m sorry, how’ve you been with that? I’ll never understand your loss but I do understand your bond, I have an older sibling and she means a lot to me. It’s funny huh they know how to tick you off but at the end of the day your each other’s missing piece.

Ohh okay good questions!! I do have a cat. I’ll show you pictures when I reveal myself but she’s a grey tabby!! I adore her and found her in the streets lol I have an older sister aaand my favorite hobby is crochet it gives my hands something to do yanno? I get pretty antsy so that helps. I wanna learn bass or maybe drums in the future (I heard the ladies love a girl who plays an instrument and I need something—anything to impress lol) jk I love the sound them 😊 okay, I’ll keep this short buuut I love villains because how misunderstood they are, most of them are woman and our feelings are belittled even in the media. It’s always “they’re crazy” or “you can’t excuse their behaviors because of their trauma” failing to realize that not everyone comes out of trauma as a soft uwu. Trauma isn’t pretty. And most men are forgiven by the public even after making terrible decisions. Some actions become a defensive mechanism and we just want what we deserve. People fail to see that with woman. Men get to feel rage and destruction and literally nobody bats an eye, that behavior is so normalized god forbid woman feel that same intensity of rage and selfishness without the public making entire studies about their behavior. I think 2 of my favorites that I can think of at the top of my head are Catra from shera and Jinx from Arcane. Maybe I’m bias? Now your turn, hobbies? What tv show are you currently watching? Fave season? - Red ❤️

thanks for responding!! i was starting to get worried abt u hehe xx im sorry to hear lifes been hard enough to make you nonverbal :( i dont know what thats like specifically but i know it must fucking suck. i hope u feel better soon and im sending u love 💕

grief sucks ass but its always nice to hear about other peoples siblings!! makes me feel a little bit closer to my brother sometimes :)

i am SO excited to see ur kitty!!! i love that u enjoy crochet bc i have dabbled in it myself and omg its tedious!! kudos for having that patience lmao. i def recommend learning bass too bc my brother was teaching me for a while and its SO FUN !!!!!! 1000/10 makes u feel like a sex god

i like your breakdown of villains in media too, thats always why ive been drawn to them too! especially hot sexy women who do unspeakable acts theres just something so good and cathartic about seeing that 😍😍😍 i havent seen all of she-ra or arcane but i do LOVE jinx from what little i know of her!!! probably due to my harley quinn obsession when i was in high school lmaooo

my pretty much only hobby is art. i just say art as a broad term bc i tend to skip around mediums forever and ever hehe i love all kinds of art!! im not currently watching anything new but one of my fav series is an old detective drama called Life bc the symbolism and the writing is just SO chefs kiss that ive seen it approximately 274818858 times!!! it only has 2 seasons and both are so beautiful in different ways :)

i realize now that i dont even know your pronouns smh!! tell me more abt u!!!! i need all the juicey deets >:3

[irreversiblydamagedmeow]

gaining whimsy, yet losing aura

i was on tiktok yesterday and i saw 2 venus cosplayers and i was omg i got that doll for easter when i was little! and then i clicked the search thing at the bottom which was about the actual doll and i think he was going thru different generation venus dolls. i didn’t see the one i had, but it made me want to look more into the things i used to like.

i mean there’s only 2 things i looked into and only one im pursing. well at least for now. monster high was obviously the first thing i was looking into and then the other is mlp!! i watched it a lot when i was little and i remember a time i got a little clear glitter pony. i think it was dark blue with purple hair. idk what pony it was. im not like well-versed in mlp characters and lore. i watched it as a kid but idk i think it was still on tv ?? so i didnt watch all of the episodes bc no way I had cable. i was watching it on my great aunt’s netflix account. (she got money) i dont remember who was my favorite when i was little. i think it was twilight or maybe fluttershy. i wonder if i asked my aunts if they’d know. i really like rarity and fluttershy’s design is cute but she is lowk annoying. i think she gets better throughout, but im only on season one.

i found a really cool website with a lot of mlp toys i wanna get. i really need a job. there’s a hobby shop by my house kinda. downtown. i wanna work there. i love that store. they have pokemon models. i got jigglypuff like 2 years ago. peak. i was way prettier and i was skinny. i hate myself

that’s not the point! im trying to talk about things that make me happy.

im writing on here bc i dont have anyone else to talk to about it. i was so excited to talk to my boyfriend about the monster high dolls and he was going to work so obvi didn’t say much and thats fine but when i asked if he knew my favorite he didn’t. i know its been brought up and i’ve definitely told him before so its 100% him being fake. i dont know who else i could yap to. but i guess i know its annoying so i need to just stop talking so much about shit nobody cares about. i guess i’ll just come here next time im excited about something🥲 cringe emoji but that’s how i feel having no one to share my interests with and already knowing im annoying so i have to limit how much i say.

there’s probably a way to set your phone so you can only send a certain amount of messages… i wish i could just have the self control to shut the fuck up.

when i was talking to my boyfriend and i got upset that he didn’t know my favorite ghoul (draculaura) (fucking duh she’s pink and he knows my favorite is pink stuff) (he literally sent me a tiktok and it had her in it (other characters too she was more at the end)and i pointed her out)

i was so upset and i just unsent all of the texts i sent about mh bc it doesn’t even fucking matter. and then i just made a voice memo talking about it for 14 minutes. im prob just gonna delete that too bc i dont think i’ll listen to it and nobody else would. i dont want anyone else too. it’s cringe. i was just talking to myself about stupid things. now i just feel stupid. i feel immature and childish but i still watch it and want mlp things. i think i would just not talk about it. i need to talk less in general. how do i do that without seeming uninterested ?

i love these type of the ponies. they’re like the little one i had when i was younger. i had it for a long time but i don’t know where it is now. im sad bc i think i might’ve thrown it away in jr year but that doesn’t sound like me bc i love cute things. idk.

when i get a job im coming for you…. my precious mlp glitter figurines

[cheswirls]

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk

this week sucks.??????????????? i feel like the existential dread has taken root and refuses to let go. im not getting anything done. there no point to absolutely nything. i have no idea what i wanna do with my life or even tomorrow or two hours from now. theres no enjoyment in anything. i havent created or done anything substantial with my hobbies all summer. i feel like im in such a downward spiral and everything sucks

theres literally nothing

im not eating bc nothing ever sounds good. i take my meds but low energy and lack of drive means im still not getting anything done. the only time i leave the house is to go work a shift at a job i hate. im not even in uni this semester. everything is so hot outside and stupid and dull and i feel so trapped in my own mind, my own body. but instead of wanting to do something and not being able to force myself to do it, i just.... dont. i just lie around all day. i spend all day on the internet or whatever hoping for some modicum of serotonin then after i get it im back to being empty. a blank canvas with a big hole in the center. theres nothing to do and nothing i want to do to a point where im like. what is the point?? i thought i was done with this in march. i thought that was my low point of the year where i skipped class and clinicals for three weeks and spent all of spring break thinking abt killing myself. i thought i was done but aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa idkkkkkk

there rly isnt anything. i wish i could up and leave but i have next to no money and no car and everyone i could potentially think of staying with temporarily lives somewhere even hotter than where i am now so the change in environment would mean absolutely nothing. i feel so unhappy here but i cant let go at the same time. why am i throwing my money away here?? i didnt pass a single class in the past 2 semesters. i get excited about projects but as soon as theres a deadline attached i lose all my drive and motivation. every obligation i take on sucks the life out of me. im so tired and miserable all the time. theres rly nothing i want to do with my life. im so socially inept that i have no friends and zero support system. i spent years and years and years avoiding talking abt myself as a defense mechanism that now its so hard to share things even with my dad who i've always been able to talk abt anything with.

idkkkk im jus rambling at this point. this isnt even making me feel better.

[dovveri]

omg i get what u mean but also generally speaking no one always expects ppl to be bad either. blindly trusting someone is normal (you trust ppl for being a safe driver without knowing them for example) but the issue is putting them on a pedestal and not letting of that go of that trust when it’s been broken 😭

i saw tiktoks like that too but i don’t wanna sound like im going against u. i agree as well but most ppl just go into enjoying things expecting the good out of everyone in general. now it’s becoming “see why did you do this you should’ve known better” and then it’s blaming the woman for just having a hobby. idk if that makes sense but that’s how i saw those comments as.

i don’t stan bgs just bc of how the men in that country are known to be like. their behaviour is gross but i think those comments just stem from trying to be realistic bc no one expects someone to just be a disgusting and horrible person. esp when they portray themselves like that (not jsut to the public but probably in their personal lives as well) and shaming other women for “not realizing” can also be rude just bc it’s not like anyone knows that or is expected to

but i get what u mean abt not centralizing men you don’t know bc that can be obsessive and crazy. i’m just saying trhy can like whoever they want but when they don’t let go of them once the man does end up being bad, then it’s a bad thing.

wajt omg this is kinda funny that these asks came in this order bcs the ask i got right before this and responded to just now talked about this too just on the other side of the argument

i can defo see what u mean! i think it comes down to personal experience (particularly w men in this situation) like i can see women being optimistic in their attitudes towards men if they havent been treated like shit but as someone who has had plenty of negative experiences with men i guess im just a little more cynical than others. but also women being optimistic as i said in my last post is also a little naiive bcs like u said urself, u dont stan bgs bcs of the reputation men hold in korea, so u dont necessarily need bad experiences with men to see that men in korea generally suck, u just need to care about women and be empathetic.

like i can see what u mean by no one is expected to know that these people will turn out bad but thats also the defense for when kpop idols do blackface or culturally appropriate like the excuse is “they couldnt have known!” but regardless of whether or not they did know, they really SHOULDVE known especially when it comes to such politically charged items that can cause a lot of offense and damage to groups of people and bcs theyre in the public image and they have that impact. like im just saying if im interested in something, id like to know more about it before i ‘stan’ so although i agree that people do blindly stan a lot, i just think it shouldnt be normalised and people should educate themselves better before doing so - especially when again, its not just trusting someone to drive u home, its something that affects masses of people (korean women)