#i dont wanna go to school waaa

[sludgeguzzler]

There's a cockroach in my room and it's huge. It is also 6:30am and I cannot for the life of me bring myself to feel a more intense emotion other than "Fuck man. Damn." But deep within me I know I am freaking out

[kittencomicslol]

Gyutaro rant because IM LITERALLY IN LOVE WITH GYUTARO SHABANA OH MY GOD

LOOK AT HIM

LOOK HOW FUCKING PERFECT HE IS OH MY GOD IM GOING INSANE JES SO PERFECT WTF

HES SO FUCKING UGHHHH I WANNA HPLD HIM CLOSE AND KISS EVERY ONE O HIS PRETTY BORTH MARKS AND TELL HIM HOW PRETTY AND PERFECT HE IS AND I JUST WANNA UGHHH

I HAVE SO MANY DETAILED LITTLE HEADCANNONS ABOIT HOW HE WOULD PREFER/LIKE TO SNUGGLE AND OR SHPW AFFECTION IM ALWAYYYS THINKING OF HIM ❤️❤️❤️ LIKE WOULD U GUYS WANT TO SEE THEM??? ID LIKE TO SHARE THEM

I WANNA RUN MY HAND ALONG HIS WEIRD SPINE BIT NOT IN A WEIRD WAY ITS JUST COOL AND IT MAKES ME GO

AND THE WAY HIS RIBS

UGH

ME WHEN THE CHARACTERS RIBS ARE VISIBLE UGHHH ITS JUUUUHGHHGGG

I HAVE HIS LITTLE SPOTS MEMORIZED(at least from the front angle, thr back isn’t rlly memorized)

BIT I SWEAR LIKE I GET STREASWD OR UPSET AND I THINK ABOUT HIM LOKE

OH MY GOD CAN WE APPRECIATE THE KNY ACADEMY VER OF HIM??? LIKE I KNOW I CONSTANTLY TALK ABOIT HOW MUCH I FUCKING HATE MOTERCYCLE RIDERS BIT HE IS AN ACCEPTION AND NOW SEEING THEM MAKES ME THINK OF HIM WAAA ❤️❤️❤️

AS SOMEONE WHO DOESNT REALLY GET TO LIKE. EXPERIENCE REGULAR SCHOOL BC OF MY DISABILITY AND BC I DONT RLLY GET ALOT OF PJSYICAL ATTENTIPN IRL THE FICKING ENDLESS SEA OF IDEAS I CAN MAKE IP W MODERN GYU SWOOPS ME OFF MY FEET!!

I SO APPRECIATE THE RARITY(or honestly it’s getting more common >_<) OF WHEN HE SHOWS UP IN OR IS PRESENT IN MY DREAMS BC GAHHHH!!!! MY WIFE!!

HES MT FAV I LOVE HIM MY FAV FAV FAV MY LOVEE

Haters will say it’s not true but I just know if he was real he would love me(this is a joke if he was real I know this man would not like me) BUT I CAN DREAM I CAN DREAM I CAN DREAM

This is so me and him coded tbh

I love him I love him I LOVE HIM 🗣️🗣️🗣️ RAHHH NORMALIZE BEING IN LOVE WITH AND BEING HAPPY ABOIT AND BEING HYPERFIXATIED FICTIONAL CHARACTERS BC GUHHH IS SO NICE GOOD FEELING YES THUMBS UP HOORAY!!!

[toadstool32]

darlingpost darling post get out while u still can

this is my ososan self insert darling! not their real name they get named a la homestuck aka they need a name and so thats what we call this guy

visual arts student in their last year, no gender unless its funny, always wear comfy or flowy clothes that hide the chest (SHRODINGERS BOOBS?? ((they r flat theyre like a ken doll, )))

le ref sheet

IN MY HEAD darling was like photocopying some doujin pages they were working on (for fun) at some store bc their printer broke or wathevs and then fucked up and suddenlly all the papers are scattered everywhere!!! noooo the gay porn!!! and karamatsu is like oh hang on let me help u with those my good sir (darling is dressed like a mess here) and darling is so fucking embarrassed but still goes like ummm thank uuu??? and karamatsu is like of course! no need to thank me!! karmatsu matsuno!!!<introduces himself here and darling is like waaaa he so nice and doesnt think im a freak for LITERALLY PRINTING GAY PORN IN PUBLIC WHAT THE FUCK anyway they do small talk with like ah yes great work here get home safe dont lose those papers again yes sir yes sir!!

karamatsu goes on with his life but darling is like waaa he was so nice i wanna be friends or something but idk if i will everrr find him again siiighhh. buut like one week later darling is all dressed up on theyr way to the city museum bc they help out there for school credit (is that a thing in japan idk this is me playing with dolls) but still have some time to kill to get there and on the way they see karamatsu in the distance and darling is like oh! i can say hi!! so they go but bc they r dressed more cutesy now karamatsu immediately starts doing his bit before darling even says hi hes like: "AH YES OUR FATED MEETING WAS WRITTEN IN THE STARS!! YES IVE BEEN SEEING U IN MY DREAMS AND MAY IT BE FATE THAT HAS BROUGHT U TOGETHER¿ RIGHT NOW MY **DARLING**!!" or something like that and darling is an idiot so they go "OMG HE REMEMBERS ME FROM LAST TIME! AND HE WANTS ME TO KEEP HIM COMPANY!! OR SOMETHING IM NOT SURE WHATS HE TALKING ABOUT!" point is darling doesn't ask for his name cause they already know it and karamatsu quite literally just names them darling and then they go on a not date to the museum cause i say so

dont get me wrong i ship them but also theyre both so fail at this bc darling is an airhead and karamatsu is....karamatsu

they would be the kind of ship that starts dating without knowing which i find funny bc karamatsu would make a big deal out of asking darling out and darling would be like oh as a friend right and would miss every romance cue ever but then when darling would be like hey are we dating and karamatsuu would be like *dies from both exasperation and relief* and then darling would be too concerned about getting him to the hospital and forgets about the dating part im hjust having fun here

darling tag with silly stuff

ANYWAY darlin n karamatsu are besties darling likes hearing him talk bc its funny and they compliment him on his spakly stuff n music even tho darling knows shit abt music and karamatsu hangs around trying to cheerlead darling on stuff and darling does the same, idiot to idiot communication,

ALSO darling cant see very well n they make a very goofy lights r on nobodys home face whenever they dont wear their glasses and confuse the matsus constantly at the start probably lol,

like after hanging out a bit darling probably sees totty in the city and they go OMGG KARAMACHAN U DIDNT TELL ME U WERE GOnna be in the city we could hang out and ur dressed in pink if i wore my pink cardigan we could maaatch and then realizes, they fucked up and totty is like KARAMACCHAN WHO, but totty was like, with friends and the girls are like omg totty who is this and darling is like TOTTY WHO, and his friends rope darling into hanging out bc darling straight up glomped totty there and they r never living that down ever.

and then todomatsu confronts karamatsu like DO YOU KNOW THIS GIRL and karamatsu is like ah thats darling and totty is like DIE?? anyway they get along fine n totty calls them dari-chan i think darling also gets along with osomatsu darling draws him silly stuff on request n sometimes tries to play with jyushimatsu (dies) ichi probs thinks darling has something wrong in the head to hang out w karamatsu (they do) and choromatsu is like perpetually confused, no one uses the same set of pronouns for darling which creates confusion at the start

darling is technically a nickname (and an overly cutesy one too!) so darling gets named that way by karamatsu at the start so they go oh i guess we r besties for life now and so they go like ok so i need a cutesy nickname for him so they do that and with totty darling fucks up introducing themself to him so they end up being dari-chan to him as a way to make an even more cutesy name out of an already cute nickname i just think thats funny

uuu what else what else, picky eater of the eats meat variety, short, cant see, tummy hurts, lightweight but doesnt care, this is literally me bro, this post is already so fucking long idk what else more, im just playing with dolls man

[suiciderape]

totaltrash

ew! what a gangsta fuckin biitch ew! u guys are mean to me hahaha um im eww shes trying to test our? nasty bitch uh huh! uh uh huhh *gs* paper kitten! its me daddy dick down ew ur geto bois geto cute and skinny and we love u um hi its ghetto daddy dick down ew! im in ur roos ur stephanie soo? um no its daddy dick down ew?! ur not fat anymore? um no. nvm um what she was never fat it was daddy dick down? um at high school..? look look shes dying to type me ow! ow? look @ her faith in her evolution uh uh! ew a ghetto black bitch?! um? it was never pink awkward! ew we skank skate... uhm eh? get a life! ew we werent joking?! thats nasty... we like love her geto boi dick down time... ew! its desarae hollins... ew shes ghetto eww! shes writing my diary again? ew? shes ghetto gooou ew i heard that! nah? were gonna what the fuck bitch whats! suck a fuck babe? um shes here... awkward... i am scary gangsta! fuckin biitch... hmmhehe ew! shes in my housee ew! eww! shes the queen of china now... heheheem ew ur geto boi ew no ur not! wait?! wheres the king of china? ew! hes my daddy now im in his chanhee dick down chamber... with u! ew! i love u so much. daddy scary gangsta ew! ur ghetto boys in love with me?! ew! ur not ghettooo hahaha ew! ur fucking my boyfriend? no mhm :) lol fuck uuu beetch ew ur geto hh7hm mhm 7 :) pussy tiight ah!!! omg shes gotten better?! at this? ew um i love u teew baby ew! fuck u too bitchhh bitch i ge5o omg hi baby! hi daddy where are we? tumblr omg who watches? the chinese mafia ew! ur sad? yes daddy :( awe hahahaha no! i love u i love u too scary gangsta ew! ew ur cute? so are u mt st helens ew! im not him! im not him! pss

scary gangsta are u a super asian still? what is this picture? a super asian at prive school hahaha ew! i thot this was ur diary? ew! it is hmm hahaha ok? so u wanna go back to hustle high school? baby?! come back with mee!! my baby mhmmm mine my baby?! its me daddy il still here hahaha ew! mhm :) ew! ok so why did u leave? i need u forever! surf! and cypress kidnapped me and took me to hustle high school mt st helens style hahaha ur never leaving me :) ew! ur a bad bitch again? who is desarae...?! uh oh! its daddy dick down wtf is this bitch doin? me?! and only me!! heheheh private school suicide uhhh!

scary gangsta hes a super asian private school suicide

scary gangsta ew! haha its on my tumblr tho ill go save rn

𝖕𝔯𝖎𝔳𝖆𝔱𝖊 𝖘𝔠𝖍𝔬𝖔𝔩 𝔰𝖚𝔦𝖈𝔦𝖉𝔢 i dont uppercap shit its suicide rape yes thats what i said! no! i dont rape people u get out faggot rince down

ur uggly faggot bitch! yea im a valley girl! whats valley gurl whats valleu gurl? did u just call me a faggot bitch? ew! ew! ew! ew! pss i found lolita! valley girls content with u horror cut high school downer trademark oreos impressions ew! ur bad at this its scary gangsta post up swag hahaha ew! ok mhm :) ew! ok hurry up baby love

scary gangsta wtf bitch! im in ur pussy walls ew ur a faggot rain and hahaha! my downer bills u up ew ur so ghetto? no! hahaha ur asian skateboarder just that mhm :) ew u faggot rain! what? shes 9 years old now! and i love her black dick down? whats his name baby? yoom keeho oh ok ur daddys name is? choi chanhee the boyz oh ok! ita chanhee whata up? hi ok its her daddy scary gangsta whaat hahaha did u do something bad today desarae? whaat?!?! daddy! no! dont eat me!! ew ur ghetto ew ur fucking asian ew! waaa no ur its out ok its out ghetto & geto are out completely ew! ok so thats it? no! dick and pussy are out ok! thats it? yes ew ok so we get it... ur in the matrix what is in? asian skateboarder ok so get it... whats ur name? suicide rape where do u go? princeton high school ew! shes badass we get her cute new levels of interest ok so u get cute about out ok she gets a cookie... what kind? chocolate chip? yes daddy! ok do it tomorrow... ew! ok so what kind of cookie do u like? chocole chip ok ur scared? sort of! ok ur a baddie an asiam baddie? no asian skateboarder 90s asian skateboarder ew! 1989 ew! ok so 90s japanese skateboarder no! 1981 south korean skateboarder ok? what else hmmm awkward! ok well find her! who is she? she loves weirdcore pictures ew is she cute and fluffy and in lolita pintrest for life? ew! yes daddy its chanhee is she in? yes she is! say yes yes ok were good 4 life foes? nah ok! so weird dreams? im fine with it ok! so chinese 80s yes! ok so chinese 80s skateboarder is ur aesthetic well... did u remember my japanese 1990s race car body guards? and yoon keeho? yes we did! perfect do u have to picture of ur body guard? maybe pss

pussy detective

stop deleting my photos and fix my pintrest

1989s suicide boys suicide boys mission scary gangsta 1981 south korean psychadelic skateboarding china meth lol ur so cute! scary gangsta

[saintobio]

the new chapter is amazing. not you making yn have a disease and make her suffer more than she already has😭😭 if i was in her shoes i wouldn't know what to do, it's just pain after pain after pain.

GOD you have no idea how good it felt to see yn ignoring gojo when he tried to apologize to her. he truly deserves that. fuck him.

also, it's really awful how sera completely dismissed how he felt about his mother leaving him like come on how are you so desperate to be with him but you couldn't accept that side of him????

also i'd like to know if she has always been that awful to her mother and siblings? i know she struggles all her life but she seems really ungrateful...

bsjdnsj dw yn’s got this :’) hopefully she’ll pull through in the end. if not <//3 as for ur question, sera’s not always like that w them but she does frequently blow up these days bc of work-related stress, pressure, and gojo lmao

Anonymous said

Can I please take my bags and go live with Toji? megumi needs a stepmom💞💞💞💞✨✨✨

I would like to point out many points but I do not think I am capable enough to detail all things😭 Just imagine if s*ra became pregnant and refused to abort it ☠️ I think that Mr. Gojo is that man who would force her to do it and pay her a good sum of money to keep the silence idk

Incredible chapter! please take good care of yourself, drink plenty of fluids and rest well🥺 Thank you for writing this masterpiece, I screamed in several scenes and cried in some gshdhhshs I send you a lot of love from here, Ai 💕💕

Sorry my bad English

guroyeu said

tw // sexu*al assault and hospital/illness things

waaa i can officially say that this was the second time where i actually teared up!! having yn remembering about the death of her mother was what got me. i���ve had a similar experience, except my uncle did end up making it after a few months. the first time was when i read about yn getting sexually assaulted cause it made me remember about my experiences with it back in highschool and middle school (and from my best friends at that time also 😟 humans suck sometimes)

so, we learn more about sera and her point of view with everything that is happening in her own personal life inside her own small apartment she got for her family. i empathized with her SO much from the beginning because my family was also not very rich. but all i can say from sera’s pov is that she’s a fucking bitch. from her pov, there was a statement that said, “See, this was the difference you and her. You didn’t experience this much hardship in life for you to complain about not winning Satoru’s heart.” honestly, fuck her. the hell does she know about yn and her personal problems?? how is she gonna complain about yn not having problems and also refuse to listen to her own boyfriend that she probably doesn’t even genuinely love?? i’m pretty sure she only likes him cause of his reputation?? idk. when satoru was showing his flawed side (when he was all stressed) then sera seemed to really hate it. she obviously doesn’t want to listen to satoru’s problems because she wants to view satoru as this one oh so strong man that she can always lean on. like satoru isn’t always going to be perfect. he’s literally in love with u. there is just so much to say about sera, but i’m sure ur other asks have that covered ;)

my feelings towards gojo have been going up and down and up and down. now we know for sure he really wants to treat yn well, and that’s good!! that’s really good. but should she forgive and accept his actions? uh no lol. but i also feel bad for gojo BUT I DONT WANNA HELP SNAJNS

again, i am so so so grateful for ieri and suguru in this chapter. both of them make my heart go brr 💓💗💕💞💘 also, toji was really nice!! i’m so glad he’s yn’s comfort character in her life cause he really does make her feel at ease <33 AND I AM SO SORRY I JUST SUBMITTED MY ASK FROM WHEN I READ CHAPTER 8. i always start reading ur updates at 12-1am (when i get in bed) since my day is too chaotic for me to start reading at 7pm since that’s when it updates here. so i basically sent u 2 asks today which i am so so sorry for cause ur ask box is constantly piling up. thank u so much for this chapter ai!! i feel like yn is really doing better at letting satoru go now and i just hope the best for the best girl <3

@primmaa said

bae, i have no words. i was screaming the whole chapter AAKJSSNSBSBSBS. i hope sera actually took the plan b(wouldn't be surprised if she didn't tho). this chapter was really the turning point for all three of them. sera's true colors are starting to show, gojo's realizing his stupidity & mc is starting to put herself first now. i hope we get to see her actually be happy now that she's realized she needs to prioritize herself more.

as always ai, ur writing is amazing! please make sure u get enough rest & that u eat properly. take care!

Anonymous said

i didn’t find chapter 8 sad so i wasn’t expecting to find chapter 9 sad but i cried so much. i also can’t help but feel for sera, like yes she’s a bitch but her life is genuinely so bad and now i kinda get why she’s so jealous. also i have a feeling that after this chapter, toji will not have an important role in the story at all and might not even be in it. you mentioned a while ago, that you didn’t want to do another main character death (but u might’ve changed your mind) so i hope that y/n doesn’t die. i loved this chapter so much, make sure u take care of yourself <3

(also can i be 🪆anon if it isn’t taken plz)

@japanesevenom said

GODDAMN IT IM CRYING ITS THREE IN THE MORNING IM DYING GODDESS AI PLEASE make it a happy ending heal my heart and end poverty you’re so good at writing man I can’t even express the feelings your expressions made me feel except pain and trauma and sleep deprivation I’ll rant more in the morning if asks are still open because I have lots of heartbreak and I will never recover really y/n energy lmfao blame this on the lack of sleep to say

Anonymous said

just read ch 9! I have some things to say Abt sera. honestly as much as i hate sera, her whole ordeal of being a terrible person is low-key understandable. especially if you're within close proximity with so many rich people whose behavior in our eyes could seem awful. Terrible. but that's the most I'd go to sympathize with her lol. the rest of it? flipping out on your entire family? itd have been tolerable if her younger sibling wasn't there, like that was so uncalled for. you're having problems with your boyfriend and you take it out on your whole family? girl step back and rethink your actions. goddamn. I rlly don't like sera lol </3 I think she really needs to look at her own position here and that complaining and whining and demanding as someeone in a lesser economic position wouldn't do anything for her and would just make her own life worse.

also ai you rlly meant it when y said that 'there's nowjere else to go but up' doesn't exist in ur dictionary. now miss girl yn has a heart condition? wow. amazing. beautiful. i love sn u r doing so well 💔

Anonymous said

ngl i do feel bad for sera a little bcs i can see why she's bitter abt life and all but it doesnt mean she has the right to blame everyone for her misfortune. she cant just call our baddie y/n selfish when she got mad at her mother for buying shit meat (ik she had a frustrating day but that part was hilarious to read )😭😭 i feel like she only likes the idea of g*jo and the attention he gives her + that money 🤪 she doesnt like the emotional baggage he comes with (which ik that some ppl arent emotionally capable of dealing with other ppl's feelings and thats understandable but she didnt have to be rude) i felt bad for his furby ass when she told him to "just move on" from his childhood trauma. i was neutral abt sera at first bcs she really didnt do anything wrong but then she started to open her mouth and only shit came out of it. i dont necessarily resent her(what a lie) or mr.furby (another lie) but i am intrigued to see them fall off their rusty ass tricycle.

i love the way you write y/n so so much bcs she's just so realistic and actually feels like a real person and not just some character that was designed to please the audience. like i understand her choices bcs of the way u write her character.

anyway, i am obsessed with this series and i love you so much ai !! please take care of yourself and im so sorry to hear that someone plagiarised your work (that fucking sucks) also, i love your anons bcs they're all either so funny or smart 😭 i normally dont send asks bcs im shy both irl and on the internet but i just want to let uk that i really appreciate your work and especially you !! sending u lots of love and i hope u have a great week !!

@rchslxtt said

Another great chapter, thank you ai!❣️

I used to sympathize with Sera since I've been in her place before. Loving someone first, having them first, only for them to another woman as their end game. But now, it's a whole different story. After reading Sera’s point of view, I don't think she truly loves Gojo. Maybe she does, but only the stability she knows for sure he will give her once she married him. Like having endless amounts of money in her bank account, having not to worry over what kind of food she can eat or not worrying whether she has money to buy for it. I think Sera thinks—being born into a wealthy family will solve all your problems. She's wrong. Definitely wrong. Sera doesn't realize how lucky she is to still have both her parents even if they're “failures” as Sera portrayed them as. Having both of your parents is a luxury. Something you shouldn't take for granted. As someone who grew up rich, not wealthy, money is not the answer to everything. I'd rather not have money if I could have both of my parents back.

Back to what I said about why I used to sympathize with Sera, here's an advice. Even if you had them first doesn't necessarily mean they will love to the end. People change as well as their feeling towards you. They might love you now, but you never know in the future. It's better to move on than to keep hurting yourself burying yourself in delusions that you will still have them towards the end.

Sera, if you want stability, find a new rich man who can satisfy your needs. But make sure his family is not going to set him up in an arranged marriage.

Anonymous said

Like. I didnt even finish reading the chapter but this Sera bitch is so toxic. It's so clear how she only fell for the poised and perfect image of gojou who could give her the perfect materialistic life she desires. She doesn't care about him. It made me so pissed to see her disregard gojou the minute he started to talk about his mother, like it wasn't even worth her time!! She pressures him into giving favorable answers, like how she expected him to apologize (for what, like, bitch???) and was oh so hurt when he didnt. She blames y/n for so much, like being rich means being born without troubles. So you have a terrible boss and a horrible home life. Shouldn't you be more humble and understanding then??? Shouldn't that have taught you some dignity?? Some empathy??? I also assumed she would've been more sympathetic to gojou seeing as her ma Is a sweet lady( from what i read) under the thumb of her father ( The father probably pressured the ma into giving up the money for alcohol. Like how gojou's parents had a rocky power imbalance or something.) I just wanna smack fire into this lady since I doubt you can smack some sense into her. And, speaking as someone who grew up dirt poor and is still poor, what is she going on about??? Fish is very good and I bet loads better than what she had to make do before. She's complaining about food??? She wants WAGYU BEEF???? Do you know how EXPENSIVE that is?!?!? I would be glad to get a bowl of rice, thank you very much. Good god. I'll probably send in something later since your words evoke so much from me, that I fear I might have a heart condition too. Keep doing what your doing love, your killing us but it hurts too good to stop.

Anonymous said

this chapter made me tear up. wow.

when i read the part about y/n being diagnosed with a heart condition, it made my eyes go wide and i was literally staring at my screen like (° °").

moving on to sera, i feel like she's going in the wrong direction when thinking about y/n, saying that she didn't have to suffer and how she was born with a silver spoon in her mouth, and what sucks about that is how she doesn't know that y/n is not living it well. but then again, she hasn't suffered as much as sera. i was starting to feel remorse for her, but when she called her mom useless after she was trying to cook a meal for her family, i thought about my mom and how she worked extremely hard for my siblings and i to live a good life, and how she actually continues on to work for us, i became so mad. and she even had the audacity to say something along the lines of "i should've been born into a rich family". like okay sera, i understand you don't like your current living condition, but you didn't need to say that.

now talking about gojo, kudos for him for telling sera to take plan b and for also saying that she's not valuable enough to ruin his life. even though i still dislike gojo with a passion, i was rooting for him in that scene. and also, thank you to gojo telling miwa (i love that girl so much wow) to order a boquet of roses for us, but i don't think mr. satoru understands that buying us gifts isn't go to make us want to come back to him, but what absolutely made my heart drop was when we started crying in the bed. jesus christ. i guess he actually is starting to feel something for us.

i like the advice toji was giving out to us, i could never think of anything like that.

anyways, thank you for the chapter. it wasn't as emotional for me as the last one (which i thank you for). you never miss when writing, and that shows that you have an extremely creative mind. kudos to you for that. this chapter was written so nicely. have a good day! <3

Anonymous said

YES I AM EARLY!! FUCK YESS!!!! AI-SAMA!! ILY ILY ILY ILY!!😭😭 I LOVE CHAPTER 9 IT HEALED ME A BIT🥺🥺 ahhhhjm so worried about BBYGIRL YN!!

Also omg Miwa lovelyy!! So glad to see you here!!!! Omg omg why am i a excited about Miwa!! I can imagine her, despite admiring Hoejo Slutoru as an outstanding business tycoon, Miwa aint the type to be flirty with him.. i can imagine Miwa as the first secretary who isn't problematic! Maybe Miwa can even help Hoejo to woo the Queen (but pls, MRS ZENIN SUPREMACY)

Also when Hoejo said *beep* *beep* *beep* and that particular scene of *beep* the ring *beep* *beep*, me be like y'all hear sumn?🤨🤨🤨🧐🧐🧐🤔🤔🤔 Probably just the wind!!🤗🤗🤗🤗

Sincerely yours,

Anon 😻

Anon 😻 cant stop SIMPING over the most important part of the chapter: MRS ZENIN😻😻😻😻😻😻

Anonymous said

NAURRRR JUST WHEN I THOUGHT ITS NOT GONNA HURT ANYMORE BUT YOU DECIDED TO ADD SOME MORE SPICES 😭😭😭😭😭

but this is the great opportunity for y/n to stand up for herself, focus on her happiness and career, prove to the stupid bitch that y/n is not the so-called spoiled brat. her rising up as a famous fashion designer would be a major slap on sera. i like how y/n just decided to focus on herself like "oya oya bitch? you thought I'm gonna stay quiet like a princess do you?" y/n deserves all her happiness that she's trying to pursuit from now on, AS SHE SHOULD!!!!

I don't wanna talk about her illness 😀 knowing about it was also a slap on my face. Death is her trauma. But y/n is facing death like a brave warrior, I'm so proud of her.

Gojo, huh? He's going to be really devastated knowing about her heart condition, knowing that he's the major sources of her pain would make him suffer even more now that he finally realized that sera couldn't care less about his trauma but his ideal self that she created.

Anyway, good job author-nim for making me cry again 😘

Anonymous said

First of all, this is my first...ask, like really. My first ask.

Ch9 is sooooo good, I had to read it multiple times to heal my aching heart that Ch8 caused. Seeing Gojo trail after our Y/n, who's finally thinking about herself (yeees, I love you.), is so satisfying, how the tables have turned GOHOE SATORU. REPENT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!

I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU BECOME AN ASSHOLE TO OUR GIRL AGAIN BECAUSE OF *retch* Sera- *reeeetch*, I WILL FUCKING HOLLOW PURPLE YOUR ASS!!!

Speaking of Sera, the fuck you doing? Huh? Blaming Y/n for something she didn't do? This must be her way of coping, blaming others and not herself. LIFE IS NOT FAIR FOR EVERYBODY YOU BEEECH. Instead of blaming others, what she should've done is move her family away from her gambler of a father and herself away from Gojo because these two aren't good for her. Gojo's indecisiveness will only irritate her further and make her do something bad (like bad bad, like veeery bad) while her father is the main cause of their money situation. Also, why the fuck do you think was it a good idea to move into a house? When you're drowning in debt? Shouldn't you pay your debt first? Be grateful that you have a caring mother and siblings. Your situation could've been way worse.

IF YOU HAVE A SMART MOUTH, DOESNT THAT MEAN THAT YOU HAVE A SMART BRAIN? WHY DON'T YOU STAY AWAY FROM YOUR FATHER, TALK SENSE IN YOUR MOTHER, AND SAVE UP MONEY?? PAWN OFF THAT FREAKING NECKLACE.

Also, a question for the great angst writer, Saintobio:D

Will we see a face off between our badass Y/n and bitchass S*ra? I would love to see/read Y/n talking so politely to Sera but her words are sharp and condescending. I want Sera to feel what she made Y/n felt during their talk in Bora Bora (I still have PTSD from the previous chapter.)

You're so talented, Author, ahhhhh your writing is just *chef's kiss everywhere*✨ P E R F E T T O ✨

@jojoangelley said

Ai this chapter is so amazing as always!! I haven't so emotionally invested in anything so far as much as Sincerely Not! You are so talented 🥺🥺💕💕

It's ironic how Gojou is the one seeking for y/n attention this morning and is so desperate for it. I'm really satisfied when Getou really said it straight to Gojou's face and told him about how y/n went out looking for his ring. Gojou's suffer arc starting now!!

Meanwhile, it's so worrisome that y/n has developed sickness :( I believe she would be fine, y/n is a good person life will treat her well eventually. And she started taking action for her passion. With the help of Toji, y/n would easily succeed + her talent and trusted team!

I personally relate a lot with y/n this is why I can truly apply myself to the story and feel everything vividly 🥰

Thank you so much Ai for bringing a masterpiece to us and thanks to Sincerely Not! you have connected us together as a whole to share our emotions, thoughts and love for this work. We really came to your place talking like we have known each other for years 🤣🤣

I hope you are taking care of yourself and stay safe :) Always take your time and rest as much as you can! ❤❤❤

Anonymous said

this chapter made me hate sera more than i already do. she stay calling mc selfish, but just from the scene with her pov, she's the selfish one. she's constantly blaming mc for gojo's actions, denying the fact that, despite being rich, mc is still a human being and can have problems and go through hardship like anybody else. she won't let gojo talk about his problems and won't make any effort to console him at all, telling him to just "move on." please tell me sera will be forced to realize that just because she's poor doesn't mean she's the only one with real problems in the future 😭 i'm glad gojo didn't take back his words.

speaking of gojo, i don't know how to feel about him anymore. like he seems to want to be better and is remorseful, but i just can't forget how he used to be. i mean, he literally triggered the heart condition we have. well not triggered, but he worsened it, and now if we don't pull away, we could die. he's literally killing us. and if he finds out, i hope he feels the full weight of that.

i can't wait for more interactions with toji! i feel like it's going to drive gojo insane if he sees reader be happy when with toji but cold with him (he'll finally get a taste of his own medicine 😈).

anyway, thank you for another great chapter 😘!! (if you take anon requests i think i should just ask to be 😘 anon now lmao)

Anonymous said

(I wanted to send it after ch 8 but I couldn't 😭 Excuse my English, I'm not good I'm writing with my trash grammar knowledge)

I LOVED CHAPTER 8 YOUR WRITING WAS AMAZING I also felt sad but thats the point anyways

What Sera said when they were alone hurt my feelings lol. Idk I always think twice while I'm talking with anyone about something important and thinking what I'm saying might hurt their feelings. I get yea she's angry but you don't have to be a bitch about it. (And she really acted like a spoiled brat when telling gojo tell her I'm the most prettiest and you only love me. I only saw a little girl idk lol.) I would talk more about Sera but I think people already said a lot of things. it's just that what she said and her actions wasn't good. I don't care what can happen but a person always should be calm, respectful towards the person in front of them and shouldn't let the anger get them. even if you don't like the person. Also she lacks emphaty. She only thinks her struggles as a person. Her struggles are money related and I guess family, she's financially trying to keep her family up. Her struggles are valid I'm sure it's hard to keep up. She's really strong and she's hardworking. I guess only problem when she sees someone that doesnt have her struggles she immediately thinks they have the best but in fact all of us have struggles in life. Whether it be less complicated than yours or not, we have to pass through them and learn. I'm hoping that she can apologize to y/n for her childish behavior??

Okay, now gojo. I'm thinking this man is really stupid or he acts this way. He's so insensitive and selfish. I'm sorry for him what he had been through that might explain some of his behavior but not excuse it. So don't be an asshole. What is he thinking? Like they're (both him and Sera) blind to see what's in front of them and treating y/n poorly. He really shouldn't go to trip with his mistress and wife because it's already obvious that it's not gonna end well. Then he complains about his wife is being cold to him. Mf what do you expect? Show some respect to your wife.

My little y/n :((( she's trying her best and still nobody sees it. I'm wishing her the best. When they argued what she said to gojo was harsh. I often don't talk about my struggles or trauma because after that people might use it to insult me. I know there's nothing to be ashamed of that but that happened and I felt like shit. It also caused me to not to open up to people. I'm thinking what gojo felt? Even tho she immediately apologized and it was probably because of her anger it doesn't change the fact that can damage gojo and he can be more secretive to only person comforts him :( He should go to therapy. Again, I'm wishing the best to all and I hope she divorces him. Also I'm thinking what gojo will do because if Sera gets pregnant he should start to forget y/n. If Sera gets pregnant and theyre still together their marriage would be the worst. Andd, Gojos friends were nice. They tried to comfort y/n and making situation less awkward. I really felt like they care about y/n so that make me happy. They were nice to her whole time.

Okay okay lastly I really love your writing. Thank you for sharing. Buttt please rest. You're doing so much and I really appreciate it, love it but please rest. Don't rush, it's okay if you didn't reply all asks or continued ch. Youre more important so don't push yourself. Hope you're taking care of yourself or you will be punished with love and hugs. (virtual ones) Never forget to rest, eat your meals and stay hydrated!!!

Anonymous said

(sending this before I read chapter 9) mmm everytime I think about SN, thr words "tragic fate" pops up in my mind so i'm just gonna ramble.

Sera gets pregnant and both her and Gojo decide to keep the baby.

At this point, Reader is so done with their bullshit and gets a divorce, then Gojo ends up living with Sera to take care of her. He realizes during her pregnancy that they're just not right for each other and they have never loved each other - despite this, he will stay to take care of the child and Sera, and promise to still try and make their relationship work. Along with Gojo, Sera also realizes that when Gojo loses everything - his wealth, inheritance, power, standing in the hierchary. She's like - "damn I only liked the fantasy of being with a rich future CEO....Now that he has nothing but trauma and depression, I don't want him anymore!!"

Then after 9 months, Sera dies from childbirth, baby gojo dies right after labour and gojo literally sees both of their deaths. Gojo is left a man who got disowned by his father for his divorce + getting his mistress pregnant + not getting the merger (just being an overall failure.)

He regrets everything he did to Reader and wishes he hadn't said such nasty things to her when they were still married. He has a pillow he keeps next to him to make his bed feel less empty, he writes post-it notes for himself pretending that Reader wrote them, and he still uses that shampoo she used.

He reminisces on their past together and cries. "How did we end up this way? Where did it first go wrong?""

Then while he's wallowing in misery, Reader is enjoying the time of her life as a hot rich designer with a handsome husband (Toji) and cute step-son. Oh & she's pregnant.

She runs into Gojo 2 years after chapter 8, with her baby son in arms. They have small friendly chit-chat, talking about how they've been doing, and she tells him that there are no hard feelings anymore, she's happy, while Gojo is left silent at what she said as he thinks about his own fate ((because what if he had treated her better before?))

Soo he weeps in the end thinking about how Reader's baby son resembles her, like "what if that were our baby 😢" UM boohooo satoru piss off 🐈🐈🐈

Anonymous said

CH.9 OMG!!! Another great chapter, and the angst was really bearable this time so score!

OMG MC with her heart condition. Poor bby just can’t take a break and I’m kinda sad that a really serious illness is what took her the courage to see her worth and distance herself from hoejo. But I’m loving it the role reversal. And her trauma with her mom dying right infront of her, I can’t even begging to explain how much that hurts and the burden of carrying that type of feeling with you for a decade gosh! But yess bitch walk your shit queen, make your boutique a dream come true!

IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS ZENIN FAMILY BONDING !!!! Future Mrs. ZENIN IN THE HOUSE‼️‼️

Sera. SERA. Idk where to begin honestly, she’s a manipulative bitch, she’s over here talking about MC knowing her place like BITCH know YOURS. YOUR ARE THE MISSTRESS GET IT THROUGHT YOUR STINGY ASS HEAD.

Like honestly I don’t understand why she calls MC entitled and all when she’s over here not even appreciating what she has lolz. Like bitch we get your poor, half of the worlds population is poor but be thankful for what you have, like atleast your can have dinner, have a room over your head PEOPLE DONT HAVE THAT.

This is a theory but what is she didn’t take plan b but has a missacrage because of the stress and how she’s been skipping meals but tell hoejo she’s having his demon spawn, but when hoejo gets disowned by his family and loses his title or spot in the company she’s like SIKE BITCH YOU THOT

Idk if she was saying this in like a spoiled bitchy way but the MEAT. This girl pissed over MEAT😀. If you want meet go ask for Hoejos meat…. Oh way he might not even want you anymore but he realizes his feeling for MC.

Miss gurl out here joking about not taking the plan B like…. that ain’t gonna help you sooner or later, if you can’t apreciate the small things in like how tf you gonna take care of a whole ass child

A CHILD YOUR MAN SAID HE DONT WANT

(really clown girl shit right here)

Hoejo babe I love you for the realization but it’s over. PERIODT.

Feel the pain and agony and my you Rest In Peace when MC leaves your ass to take over the fashion industry with the Zenins and leave your ass in the dust with that dusty ass SERA🐱 and your demon child😚

Anonymous said

wow i have no words for this chapter… it truly hurt but it didn’t hurt like chapter 8. this tike of hurt was something else and i cant believe im saying this but im starting to soften up to satoru. UGHH im so weak bye😭😭😭 i cant believe i feel kinda bad for him already when this is just the start of his redemption arc. also… THE HAPPINESS IN MY HEART WHEN HE TOLD SERA SHE WASNT VALUABLE. i wanted him to shake her off and end things with her right there but instead he let himself get manipulated by sera into feeling bad about his trauma. thats fucking crazy. talking about sera, she’s such a (pardon my language) fucking bitch. the way she was coming at her parents saying that they are useless bc they are poor… wtf??? she isnt humble at all. she is such a bad person. i feel so bad for her family having to depend on a daughter like that. i have a question tho, does her father abuse them?? bc even tho he is a drunk he doesn’t seem to be the type that gets physical?? or well he didn’t give those vibes. my hate for sera is even bigger rn and she wonders why people don’t like her💀💀 im starting to think it has nothing to do with her status as she swears but bc she has a bitchy ass personality. she’s so annoying. i hate her. i hate. her.

@yourstarvic said

OKAY SO! Gojo is a HYPOCRITE!!! Like bro you got what you wanted and now you’re not liking it??? Be careful what you wish for.

AND SERA PARENTS SEEM OKAY!!! Like yeah the dad had a gambling problem and a drinking problem but like he loves his kids!!! And the mom is so sweet! And sera is out here being ungrateful!!!! They can’t do anything about their financial situation so at least be grateful of what you have!!!!

And also… I don’t think she took the plan B… seems kinda sus how she got defensive (but I kinda get it? Like I would be hurt too if the man I “love” wouldn’t want a baby with me) and they way she was looking at herself in the mirror snd imagine it as if she was expecting it??? Or!!! Could be lying about the pregnancy test??? Idk???? It just seems fishy to me and you do things with a reason and with you saying how Gojo nutted in her is a BIG THING!!!!! I’m so excited to know what you are going to do!!!

AND YES YN!!!! PUT YOURSELF FIRST!!!! WE LOVE TO SEE IT!!!! Make that man SUFFER!!!!

Anonymous said

OH BOY OH BOY WHERE SHOULD I STARTTTT....

franticay running around while reading Chapter 9- oKay so uH- first things first, Sera, fuck u, if u thinking ur life is pure suffering because of ur "useless parents" go fuck yourself, literally your mother is doing her best right now for the family. I understand ur working and all but like why the fuck are you like this smfh.

IT'S JUST AN EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER RN WITH Y/N LIKE, SHE DOESN'T DESERVE HER ILLNESS, REALLY SHE DOESN'T 😭 its literally so fucking heartbreaking how she has her illness when she's already suffering emotionally and mentally like- Ai 😭 p l e a s e our baby girl doesn't deserve death 😭😭😭😭😭

Gojo get ur shit up I don't give a fuck what u do, get ur fucking shit up like I swear to god regretting impregnating Sera? Hope you fuckin regret it for the rest of your life man! Like! I can't even t o l e r a t e you anymore after Chapter 8 🙄 Literally raging and wanting as a revenge to pull a pregnant card on Sera well FINE DO IT. I bet after yall get married Sera just gonna do worser things, just seeing how she treat her parents and even so her younger siblings with such coldness, i think something gonna go wrong here 👌

also i have a theory, one day like in a social event for only major like maaajor companies like Toji, Gojo and Y/N's families, what if Toji and Gojo clash head to head and that causes Y/N stress as she collapses like in Bora Bora how she passed out from crying and they send her to the hospital find out her heart condition just getting worse and worse, please that will be the emotional wrecker for Gojo because the doc prob gon come out of that door and say "Mrs Gojo has a heart disease and she is under very much stress right now." and it will shatter like everyone's hearts there(dont know bout toji tho...)

Honestly i dont know I have no hope for the marriage rn I just want Y/N to be treated better, have a better life and give herself the feeling of euphoria once more so that she can live her life to the fullest without her worrying abt her illness so that she can go on to the afterlife with happy memories

Anonymous said

TW:SUICIDE

Hey Ai! Omg is it okay if i call u that? I'm sorry i just see other anons calling u that but if it's not okay then I'm really really really really sorry 😭 anywayss the reason I sent this ask is cuz I really just want to thank you, I've been very depressed and is very suicidal from the passed months because of a very depressing event that occurred and everyday whenever I'd wake up I'll always be so mad and annoyed cuz "why the fuck did i even wake up?" "Why didn't I just die in sleep?", But since I stumbled upon sn I literally gradually got a lil better. I always loved reading and writing fics especially angst ones even before that specific event occurred and ever since it happened I lost hope and thought that nothing will ever make me happy again or something like that. But since sn, i was able to read your other works and they are just *chef's kiss* AMAZING😭😭😭😭😭, for the past 3 weeks since I stumbled upon your works I didn't wake up that depressed anymore and I didn't sleep praying death cuz because of your writing I had a reason to live, yeah yeah maybe some will say what a very shallow person, but I just want you to know that you writing helped me allot, your writing saved me and it's one of the reasons I'm still holding on. Waking up every morning excited about reading your responses to the anons and especially waiting until Friday for the update!!, I miss this, i miss being able to wake up excited, and I owe that allot to you. So I hope you know how much of an amazing great writer you are, that once in your lifetime you saved someone because of it. Thank you Ai so much from the bottom of my heart!

Anyways i had this lil shower thought pop in my head yesterday 😂 (that's how often I think of sn😭) likee if the sn universe were to be in the jjk canonverse, that means Gojo, as one of the strongest families in business in sn, will still be the Strongest in jjk universe in terms of strength and there are the Zenins too running down the biggest businesses along with Y/N's family in sn, so that means Y/N's family might be a very strong clan too in jjk along with the Zenin, Kamos and Gojos. And since sn!Y/N aside from having a very huge empire like business doesn't like meddling into it then jjk!Y/N might be the same in terms of being a jujutsu sorcerer, wherein she is very strong and her cursed energy and power is just as powerful as Satoru's if she chose on taking the path of being a jujutsu sorcerer(the reason why Gojo's dad wants him married to her to have very powerful baby and possibly to merge clans), and there's sera who's literally just a mere human and all that's why his dad is strictly against it. Lmao that's all those thoughts thoughhh I'm sorry if it's unlike the other anons😭 anyways i hope you're well and you're keeping yourself healthy! Don't overwork yourself we all love you so much! Such a pretty and talented gurl like you must be protected at all cost>:) ohh and if you're still accepting emoji anons then can i be 🐲 anon? Thank you againnn i hope you have a very amazing blessed day!

i love u 🐲 anon !! pls stay strong. i’m glad that my writing helped u cope somehow 😢😢

Anonymous said

OKAY IM JUST.

Why does Sera think just because she's the one Gojo "loves", that she's not a mistress? GIRL pull your head out of your ass and think critically??? Or maybe she doesn't think critically she just thinks about ruining things for other people because she "wasn't born rich and had to struggle." There's no excusing what Gojo has done but I just want him to open his eyes and see what Sera's true motives are. At first I was like, okay Sera I see you, I get it. And then when it was revealed she had gotten money from Gojo's dad who supposedly hates her, I was like "yeah okay fuck you." I'm rooting for Y/N but I'm also rooting for Gojo finally seeing that his perception of love is skewed, and he needs someone like Y/N in his life, I'm not excusing all of his actions up to now but I really do want him to see how he's hurting other people the same way he's been hurt, and that he really needs to re-evaluate his choices up to this point. He needs to acknowledge that he and Sera are in the wrong and Y/N has not done anything out of line. And then he better get on his knees and beg for Y/N's forgiveness because he's probably never going to get someone as good as her to put up with his shit. SORRY THIS IS SO LONG I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABOUT SN

hiyaaaa everyone i hope u guys don’t mind that i compiled everything and couldn’t respond individually but these asks deserved to be published so :) thanks so much for all the messages that u guys send, i swear i read all of them and i appreciate every single one of them <33

[honeybeekao]

the moment i saw you said you liked talking about theatre my first thought was "ask dino to talk about theatre" so

talk about it!!! i wanna hear <3 i know basically nothing but pls. talk about something you love!!!!

hmnjdhjdhd WAAA youre so sweet

okay OKAY so i was in 4 musicals (+1 in middle school but that one barely counts.. i miss it tho) and they were All so fucking cool ! i really wanted to be an actor for like 4 years that was my passion for awhiiile

i got to be in ensemble for newsies and oh my GOD newsies is like the best musical ever i adore it. broadway musical i could watch over and over and over the music gets stuck in my head easily AND OKAY SO. my gender was rlly difficult for me freshman year, but being able to dress up as a boy for that show felt really validating. and just the way the script Is... accidental gender affirmation everytime us as a group got refered to as boys despite the all gender cast. this was also during my "i wear flannels for gender euphoria" moment of my life so my newsies outfit was just...clothes i already wore plus a vest and hat HDKDGDKD

then we did into the woods and.... my god. okay so i dont think i ever got all the lyrics right for the amount of songs with the same melody but Different words... but thats okay. i got to play one of cinderella's stepsisters THE FUCKING DRESS FOR THAT SHOW WAS SO PRETTY only time ive gotten to wear a real princess dress <33 HORRIBLE TO DANCE IN THOUGH. i almost tripped and fell every show (which wouldve been funny i was evil sooo i mean. i shouldve)

then. then we did les miserables and . that musical is hell to work on it's a fucking opera and it's So emotionally taxing but SO good. like i had the time of my life but i barely slept. best show ever best show ever. i played gavroche (an 8 year old boy who just lives on his own.... and joins the revolution) and i successfully made people cry! i really really hope my mom can find the camcorder her bf used to record the whole show because.. i think i'd cry if i got to watch it as audience. the music is terrifying to learn i sung in soprano (for reference on how difficult it is, check the song one day more. the chorus sections are insane)

i also tripped in the audience during a full solo and my ONLY concern at the time was "please let my mic not be broken Please let my mic not be broken." i cried backstage for like 5 minutes after bc of the adrenaline. THEN I HAD TO GO ONSTAGE AGAIN ALONE so i couldnt cry long GDKSHDJ

les mis is like my best life experience that show means everything to me i miss it so much..it went by too fast

the last show i was in was called urinetown (sounds weird but it's a satirical comedy about how capitalism will kill off all of humanity it's fun) and the dancing for it was the most difficult thing ive ever had to learn!

the music is also like. Yikes i was struggling probably just as much as les mis because i switched to alto (i attempted soprano for it but it Hurt me. so i switched. and harmonies are a pain but i got em eventually) i had more lines in this show than les mis but i didnt really care much for my character?? it was similar to newsies except i had some one off lines because comedies with a group of characters are like that. gfjdhdj THE DANCING. we had 2 choreographers helping us, and i hated it so much <3 i hate learning choreo in dimly lit rooms because i Cant see anything. i needed to take videos and learn on my own and had like 1 friend who could kinda help but it was still like aushajha Why

WE DIDNT GET TO PERFORM THAT SHOW. our opening night was march 13th 2020 so . we just had to fucking mourn everything. but i mean the experience was still great and theatre was my escape. idk what i would've done without it, the theatre kept me focused on things i enjoyed and meant i wasnt just wallowing

tysm for asking i love theatre and musicals and i think everyone should watch newsies

[andiaquarium-moved]

waaa i dont wanna go to school i want to stay comfy in my bed

[syhklvr]

i feel suicidal

i’ve always been thinking about killing myself. maybe no. maybe i just wanted to escape the reality and    escape this  feelings ive been dealing with. it is so undoubtly overwhelming for me to bear. exo ,watching dramas, internet,my cats has been my coping mechanism and keep me sane . i dont wanna talk about this publicly (since no one know who i am here so ) because im afraid of being judge for being depressed. saying im ungrateful for a normal dan good life. it is. i have parents, sister, i have a house. a nice house. have food, water,school , friends that care...... and what more. but these days it felt so surreal. my cat is going to die. i hope not. i dont know , so many things are happening in one time, i process it. i just genuinely hope he gets well.. if my cat die i would be crying so much again. i love him so much i dont wanna lose him but also i dont know what to do. bring him to vet? we did. but he’s tstill sick and getting worse. my dad doesnt care about it and it hurts me to my core. he should have said that.its better if he just shut his mouth. im not being rude im just dissapointed and sad and  sad..maybe also because i dont have that kind of bond with my dad. im not close to him. it awkward sometimes. i barely know anything about him. i do but i dont know. i dont have that closure and relationship everyone else had with their dad.my mom ,,, i love her to death. i would die for her. i would do anything for her. but still i felt theres no closure between us. i barely talk about my feelings and what ive currently dealing with. i am scared of death. obviously i dont want to die yet but i just want to escape the reality. i feel so suicidal. i dont know. my religion would curse me for killing myself.. i just felt unappreciated, useless and a burden to everyone. i wish i waaas never born.     life is so hard. im a bad friend.rarely talks to them. they care but i cant see it . or feel it. its numb.. im just ungrateful and useless.i wish my cat will get better soon... bye 

[tears0fsatan]

MWAHAHA maybe i am a psychic who knows wink wonk

SERIOUSLY I AM SO PREPARED FOR SCHOOL TO END ALREADY wish i could be more excited but ive still got a few projects and then next week's fuckin exam week aaaaaaaa

YEAHHHHHHHH i wasnt expecting to get this attached honestly like?? and yes the character designs are what low-key made me play the game....leona vil and jamil are literally so Gender I CANT also LMAOOOOOOO NOT EPEL he's more of a kin lol. dont really have an overall fave yet tbh. i want to say vil bc he's Gorgeous but im not used to his actual personality yet aha. everyone is so likeable tbh

also aw life may have been doozy for you but im glad to see you're getting through! and good to hear about your aunt too. hope your dad and you get better soon :[

and I WOULD ADD U!! DROP THEM GAME IDS BABY i mean i only play genshin and twst but still

-🔶

waaa sounds like ur schedule will be packed right up until school ends 😭 U CAN DO IT!! JUS A LIL MORE ND THEN THE SWEET RELEASE OF SLUMBER!!!! u n me got exams comin up nd we will both ace the shit out of them got it! no ifs or buts!

twst does that to a person fr... its addictive as hell..... and the lessons don't drop fast enough to be obsessed with it 😞 NO SHUT UP LEONA IS ULTIMATE GENDER ENVY LEONA, MALLEUS ND KALIM ARE TOOOO GENDER. let's thank whichever god decided yana toboso for having the character design ideas 🙏 hon... oh im so sorry if epel's a kin... 😭😭 good luck with the pressure and expectations from those around u my love 🙏 based as hell for picking vil.. the prettiest petty ass bitch!

the only thing keeping me going is that i'm moving out in a few months amen 🤞 that and the fact that soon i'll be the flirty, emo, tattooed barista at the coffee shop u only went to once but can't forget about LMFAOOOO but thank u! things will turn out for the better eventually :]

I USUALLY PLAY JP SERVERS FOR GACHA GAMES BUT I'LL ADD MY GENSHIN IDs (i would add my eng twst id but i lost my acc lololol) it'll be in my intro page huehuehue >:) (psst im online on genshin rn if u wanna join me)

[aureiki]

ITS MY TIME TO SHINE uhm thisll probs b a little long sorry but whatever ok 🤞

I def think he grew up... rather lonely.. friendless behaviour y'know. Not in a 'he had no friends in school' way but a 'he has never been to a public school and has rarely ever been outside' way.

His parents?? Either they were REALLY strict/protective of him, hence why he didnt have friends. Or they just didnt care for him enough, hence why he cant do basic things like laundry or cooking bc they never found it necessary.

Mayb also.. he just rlly craved his parents attention/validation. And if he didnt reach their expectations hed just beat himself up over it. Though directly asking for it would be shameful to him.. Its like when you really want to be noticed by someone but you dont do anything to make yourself be noticed out of shame and embarrassment-

He did reveal hes an only child, so he was probably really lonely even in the compounds of his home. And he seems to really be focused on his work/talent to even fathom the thought of going out and making friends.

Moving on to his hemophobia. Its said that something really traumatic must've happened to him to develop such a trigger.. it could be anything tbh, a close friend, a family member, I dont rlly know mayb I'll just needa wait and see..

I don't wanna make this too long WAAA enjoy my brainrot

been obsessing over charles’ backstory recently!!!!!! can someone give me their theories/headcanons of what they think charles backstory is like???? PLEASE IM BEGGING U 😭

[peterparkerwithacause]

Answer 30 Questions, Tag 20 People

tagged by @kalashnikovs thank you! sort of ;) he knows whats up

Nicknames: Em, Parker (only certain ppl can call me that:) liek u guys ;0 ), Emi, Stupid, Emilka, Emilushka, 

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Time: 4:45 pm ish im editing this now and its like 5:15 so this took me half an hour :)?)))))

Birthday: Joineee

Fav bands: hmmm I generally just like songs here and there, not really following any bands atm. Calpurnia, Clash, Toto??? Uhhhh Foster the People.... Gym Class heroes...,...adklsjgwaa Spendtime Palace, the Police, Electric Light Orchestra. HMMMMMM half of these are probably just artistsss buut

Fav solo artists: Again same thing buut Avicii, ummm?? Weezer,  ahhhhh idkkkkk i just like music but i dont know any artists aha

Song stuck in my head: for a better day by avicii wihich i just listened to, also Buddy Holly by Weezer is always in my head, as well as the occasional Africa by Toto 

Last movie I saw: hold on lemme pull up netflix real quick... i dont really remember butt ohh yeahhh wait ok (sorry im being so annoying im just typing out me thots) It waaas Star Wars: the last jedi. yes :) wait no it was Star Wars: Attack of the Clones :)

Last show I watched: I watched kids baking championship yesterday :))) very intense content nooo joke. like this kid helped another one whip her cream because she forgot to and she was crying, so she got it done in time and it was so close to the finale and he didnt have to help her but he did??? like save this boy soft boy

When did I create my blog: like 2 months ago, but i didnt start really using till like 3 weeks ago??

What do I post: currently? Mostly Losers Club stuff, also Marvel, Star Wars, Stranger Things. I have a bunch of moodboards saved that im too chicken to post and I wanna start writing :))) the occasional social justice and aesthetic post

Last thing I Googled: play pumped up kicks by foster the people :) i was trying to make laundry more intresting

Do I have any other blogs: nah I just cram everything in here like a lil douche

Do I get asks: like one from my sibling which they did anonymously... 

Why did I choose my URL: i deeeply relate to peter parker (with a cause ooops, you could say im a rebel.... without a cause omh im so funnnnnyyy)

Following: 153 :/

Followed by: 9 woooooo! rlly good for my ego, literally no one is going to see this post sooo

Average hours of Sleep: ummmmmmmm 7-8 ishhh 

Lucky number: 2, 3, 23, never 32 though ew, and 6

Instruments: technically I can play the viola. and i took piano lessons but i quit like a lil dweeb

What I am wearing: red fuzzy holiday pj pants with polar bears and theyre too short so theyre like capris and im cold.Burgundy socks, black hoodie, school uniform top.

Dream job: film producer or something in film or something like that <3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or if all else fails a dog walker who runs and bakes BUT I REALLY WANT TO GO INTO FILMMM

Dream trip: a long trip with my pals in Iceland, or Japan or Rio or Italy or somewhere in Europe, or Australia, or all of them at once ;)

Fav food: mac and cheese, fries, pasta, chocolate, pizza is preety good, polish donuts :) v healthy boys

Nationality: significantly polish, insignificantly Assorted European

Fav song: wowweeeee ok so, Buddy Holly by Weezer, There she goes by the La’s, Time After Time by Cyndi Lauper(such a bev song :)), Electric Love by BORN, Pumped Up Kicks by Foster the People, Abracadabra by Steve Miller Band

Last book I read: I sadly havent been reading a lot, but i reread Lucky Few by K.E Ormsbee for like the 15th time, very good book :)

Top 3 fictional universes I wanna join: Harry Potter would be prreety lit, Marvel :), Losers Gang seems so fuun but It and also all those annoying people in there so no, and Star Wars!

i dont even have 20 friends anywhere soo (sorry if you already were tagged in this) but um @gayzier @dedeimagines @80sboyss @themobileappsucks

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I'm posting this out of sheer hilarity of it - save date is 4/29/2004

AsHLUVSDuST: you should dump the gf and totally make out with me this summer haha

summerleaguerock: hahah you think so huh kid?

AsHLUVSDuST: yesss cuz I'm prettier and not popular and not full of drama :-D

summerleaguerock: ha you sound like a winner then. thats 3 things i hate

AsHLUVSDuST: what? prettiness popularity and drama? or ugliness popularity and drama?

summerleaguerock: wait 2 things i dont like

summerleaguerock: 1 thing i do haha

AsHLUVSDuST: haha I was like waaa

AsHLUVSDuST: oh! here's another thing

AsHLUVSDuST: I haven't puked since July and I'm not in high school

AsHLUVSDuST: WOO

AsHLUVSDuST: no lame parents to worry about

AsHLUVSDuST: anddddddd

AsHLUVSDuST: I'm friends with the Wentz

AsHLUVSDuST: that's marriage material haha

AsHLUVSDuST: you'd make out with me just to get to him

summerleaguerock: lol!!!!

summerleaguerock: yea you're probly right

AsHLUVSDuST: so yes, if she cheats on you. I'll be in the Vegas area this summer when the boys roll through and we can makeout in a dark alley

summerleaguerock: awesome 8-) its a deal then

AsHLUVSDuST: yesss

AsHLUVSDuST: has she cheated on any of her bf's before?

summerleaguerock: yea she's told me she's cheated on all of them

summerleaguerock: side note: they are coming to vegas right??

AsHLUVSDuST: I'm assuming so. they said every US city

AsHLUVSDuST: YESS

AsHLUVSDuST: my chances are good! haha

summerleaguerock: they better. and if not MAKE THEM

summerleaguerock: haha yea i guess you could say they are good

AsHLUVSDuST: dude, seriously. I'll climb into their van with an AK47 against Hurley's temple and threaten them, but it'll only have water in it

summerleaguerock: hahah okay

AsHLUVSDuST: or we can road trip to CALI

summerleaguerock: wOoO

summerleaguerock: knowing my dad he'd say fuck that your not going.

summerleaguerock: i'd find a way though fo sho

AsHLUVSDuST: I'm going to Cali for Warped tour for sure and I'm trying to find a way to go see FOB and RBF in Cali because FOB is playing there the day RBF is in AZ

summerleaguerock: ohhh

summerleaguerock: yea i think im gonna go to warped here

AsHLUVSDuST: AZ is too fucking hot fo rme

AsHLUVSDuST: *for

summerleaguerock: yea it is wayyyy effing hot

AsHLUVSDuST: is your gf the type of girl that complains about getting sweaty at shows and/or won't kiss you because you're all sweaty? or does she just not go at all?

summerleaguerock: no she's suprisingly cool about all that stuff

summerleaguerock: she gets in the pit sometimes and i just watch haha.

AsHLUVSDuST: haha

summerleaguerock: i never go in

AsHLUVSDuST: I totally wanna start moshing at hardcore shows

summerleaguerock: yea you are into that

summerleaguerock: haha i love girls that are more hardcore than me

summerleaguerock: aw hey kiddo i gotta go

AsHLUVSDuST: hahaha I beat up boys

AsHLUVSDuST: okay

summerleaguerock: i'll ttyl

AsHLUVSDuST:

[howlhowls]

today was decent-! i got my mail and started on del's valentine letter! Actually, I think I finished it, jfnsknd- I wanna add more things in the envelope though. like a polaroid picture! ; v ; that'd be sweet waha. and then onto the rest of the valentine's day cards! ☆ i helped out bunnie a little today, they were feeling very very low- I hope their mind can find peace after all this, aaa;; i'm starting school tomorrow! i gotta wake up super early for it weh, i dont have a bus pass yet so. yeah. i'm excited though! excited to go back and learn stuff and go back to pride- and maybe even other clubs too!! waaa hmm- that's all, yep! wait, i wanna try out some emojis here 😁 😍👌😎😭💌❤🌸😘👏😀😣👍👊