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I AM EXCITED TO GO OUT I AM EXCITED TO GO OUT I AM EXCITED TO GO OUT I AM
#i dont wanna go out today#:(#its super overwhelming#but i also DO#just every step feels like a lot rn#WAH#luzs tinted glasses
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I miss the time before I was online. I'm so tired. I want to go back to hating relationships and my real friends being my only friends and writing down bad thoughts in a notebook instead of vagueposting and hating people and all this stupid fucking shit that I'm probably too young for. I fucking hate that my parents were right. this sucks. I wanna go back and do it all differently.
#i am. i am so tired i feel sick#i dont wanna go out today#but my mums gonna make me#what if i just started crying or some bullshit#i cant go out what if i just have a meltdown kr something#👤
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being an artist is wanting to draw every time you shouldnt be drawing and not drawing when you should be
#i dont wanna carry around a big tote bag for my tiny sketchbook every time i go out. and i dont use purses#and pockets too small#today my objective is to buy a bag specifically for my sketchbooks
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it's been exactly a year since the last chapter of Operation Walburga's Arbitrary No Kissing Ever Rule and I still miss it. This scene is probably one of my favourite things I've ever written and I've wanted to draw it for forever, so now seemed like an appropriate time
#jegulus#jegulus fanart#marauders fanart#regulus black#james potter#james x regulus#marauders#regulus black fanart#james potter fanart#starchaser#sunseeker#regulus x james#marauders era#jegulus fanfiction#fic: operation wanker#hp#mine#my art#ngl this drawing specifically made me realise why i prefer writing over drawing#i think too much in concepts to be able to capture a scene in a way that i want#you cant draw the same thing from several perspectives at once if you dont wanna go for cubism#(tho honestly cubism fanart sounds like a concept i could get behind mmmmm)#anyway i stayed up far too fucking long to finish this in time for today (and by too long i mean until 8am too long)#because originally i had planned to start posting ritardando as my anniversary celebration. yk more fake dating and all that...#but alas i scrapped the whole thing so drawing happened instead#not 100% satisified with how this turned out cause i dont know how perspectives work. or people. or backgrounds outside. you get the idea#i really very much like the second one tho i think its very pretty
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Belphie blinks at you in greeting as you slide under the covers with him, only humming gently when you hold onto him for dear life. Dark indigo eyes noticing with interest that you haven't even started getting ready for RAD yet---not that he was one to talk---the Avatar of Sloth merely gives you a lazy smirk and wraps his tail around you under the covers as you whisper a strangled out, 'hide me'.
He nods slowly, his throat feeling much too heavy, and he himself feeling much too lazy to use his words. A pale hand pulls the covers over your head, just in time too, as Lucifer bursts into the room, ruby red eyes shining like a wolf on the hunt.
"Have you seen MC?" The eldest asks, paying no mind to the usual sound of morning chaos coming from the rest of the house.
Belphie lets out a strangled, lazy, "Nope." all the while his tail tightens around you.
Lucifer shakes his head. Looking at the you shaped lump under the covers. Merely pinching the bridge of his hooked nose and sighing, "MC. If you wanted a break from RAD, you could've just asked instead of opting to hide."
You pop out from under the covers, eyes wide like a deer in headlights, Belphegor's arms wrap around you from under the covers, his eyes sleepily tracing the features of your face as you speak.
"Right.....yeah. Sorry Luci?" You tilt your head, the Avatar of Pride's eyes soften a fraction.
"Be sure to catch up on your schoolwork, we only have room for one academic failure in this house and I'm afraid that spot has permanently been reserved for Mammon." Lucifer says sternly, though you can see the faintest upward quirk of his lips.
"Aye aye Captain." You nod, sleepily saluting the eldest.
"Belphegor."
Belphie turns to look at his eldest brother.
"Just because MC has a day off school, it doesn't mean you have one. Your uniform's hanging up by your desk." The ebony-haired demon walks out of the room.
"...Diavolo fucking dammit."
#rant incoming😋😋😋😋#i had my first proper day back at school today im going to jump off of a building tyvm.#gng im not stepping foot in there again my uniform sucks and im eepy and its only been one day#but i got half of my results back and they spell out BAABAA like a sheep which is fun 😋#so this year im gonna have to GRIND to work those As up to A*s/maintain those As; and then work the B's up to As (+ if its a high B; an A*)#+ i cant do any languages for A levels if i dont do higher tier in all aspects of it; which I NO NO WANNA ITS GONNA BE HARD :(#+ im starting violin this saturday (i can hardly play piano gng idk what im doing)#gng idk im struggling but not struggling? like happy for the oppurtunities but by Jesus Christ im going to do a whip nae nae#obey me imagines#obey me shall we date#obey me x reader#obey me headcanons#obey me mc#omswd#obey me lucifer#obey me belphegor#obey me belphie
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my dad went to the library to get some books (his goal is to read more this new year) and he brought me back a lil announcement abt a 'bring your own craft' kinda event that happens every Friday from 10 to 12
on the one hand: possibly a cool way to make crafting friends, get out of the house, go to the library more often
on the other hand: the odds of me being conscious before 12pm most of the time is Extremely Low
#out of queue#ani rambles#'ani why are you mentioning this here' idk it feels tangential#its like. i wanna join communities and meet people and have fun#but also i am A: shy and B: sleepy and lazy as hell#like literallly the main thing holding me back from committing to going At Least Once is that A: oh no new people scary#but also mostly B: i dont think i even CONSIDERED getting out of bed until 12pm today and thats EARLY for me#all this to say. uh. thoughts and prayers for your local shy ass nerd i guess
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“How many infected, possible B.O.W.s have you ever seen wandering around? None. If there’s not a cure for me, well…”
#verdugo leon#Resident Evil 4 Remake#Resident Evil 4#Leon Kennedy#Resident Evil#You Pay the Cost#GO. READ. IT. NOW.#COMPELLS ME#ANYWAY i somehow churned this out in around 8-9 hours one sitting#somehow#which is a record for me recently#wouldnt recomend#i had too much coffee today#my art#fanart#body horror#blood#i dont wanna be a freakshow pretty boy anymore
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lateposting . happy 1500 days anniversary to the election special ❤️
#and by late posting i mean that it was yesterday 💔#i finished this at like 11 pm okkay i didnt have the time all day 💔#also posted this one to twt but it had mistakes so i touched it up today and yeahh#the lightning is a lil funky but idc im still proud wtvr#ive had this idea since uhhh march but i didnt know how to execute it yet and today i said fuck it cuz now its my chance so yayyy#this is kinda gay art idk cuz to me its the 1500th day anniversary of their last peak interaction idk#i rlly miss them 💔💔💔#tawog tobias#tobias wilson#gave him a big coat cuz idk a ref to the one and who knows maybe he stole it from harold yayy#i shouldve made the sleeves bigger in that case but idk maybe he tugged them but its not clear here#tawog bobert#bobert 6b#was abt to draw him with a skirt but i bailed on that at the end fml#feel like an angel lost its wings SORRY GUYS 💔💔#if i draw them like this again maybe ill do that who knows#xuz i do wanna draw them again its fun#ran out of things to say okkay thats all rest of the tags GO#fanart#cherrys evil art#tawog#the amazing world of gumball#was gonna add the gumball chronicles but i dont think thats a real tag damn no one gaf 💔💔 i dont either but yk#rainbowdroid#I GUESS yeahh the intention was gay#eyestrain
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Hello guys!!!!! Aforementioned project is finally finished 🫠 It was meant to be just a simple weekend project, and ended up being 30+ hours over the period of like four days. I don't think I'm an actual normal human anymore. This is the project that caused everyone in my life to question my mental and physical wellbeing and health. But I'm super excited to share this all of you!!!! Please enjoy!!!! Even if you don't like vettonso, I hope this is still interesting????
If you make any, please reblog this or tag me in it! I'm excited to see what other people, other than just me suffering alone in my bedroom, make out of this!!! <3
#jesus christ i cant believe i actually made this 😭😭#originally earlier last week i was like ahhh i wanna draw more of them in different eras(like the timeswap au)#and then randomly wanted to draw every single racesuit(nightmare)#and then im like WAIT I CAN MAKE A PICREW OUT OF THIS#no joke when i say i dont think i was a human this weekend#it was truly: eat. sleep. draw. eat. draw. sleep. draw. eat. draw. draw. sleep.#the screentime count on my ipad is soooooo fucking bad im ashamed dhfjfkkg#i dont think picrews are meant to be made in the span of a weekend#*weakly* i did it~#again as i said in the description. please request if you want anything added!!!#i dont know if ill get to it immediately bcs i just spent 30+ hours psychologically torturing myself#i actually feel so ill JSJFKGLGLG but im happy w it and i wouldnt have gone back and changed any of the process#tho the evolution of 'im having so much fun' to groaning every time i opened up my ipad again was so funny#thank you so much to suzuki i could have never have done this without your support and encouragement 🥹🥹#hoping this picrew works as a blood sacrifice to the good health and wellbeing of the amr24. the car that is launching today!#also istg i am going to dm shill and self reblog this with no shame. it is my magnum opus(as of now)#now i am going to sleep and not touch my ipad for a while djfkkglg#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#catie.art.#vettonso#normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion
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TWO! OF! THEM!
#isat#isat spoilers#my art#isat siffrin#isat loop#human!loop#look i have not much to say about this#i WAS gonna draw bonnie today but i got like one shoe in before my brain decided human!loop time and how am i to argue with that#i wanna point out i didnt play the prologue? yet?#but i thought inverted color scheme would be fun#and yknow. all the little details to seperate them as people. because they are not the same. at least not anymore#maybe they were at some point maybe they were always different. who knows with all those time shenanigans#anyways! 5 days in a row!#....okay maybe i DID have much to say about this#also the third picture was an afterthought dont come at me with perspective and wether it makes sense#i know siffrin technically got his back to the mirror but also loop isnt an actual reflection#its more of a two sides of a portal thing i guess?#.....its halfway to one am and all the status conditions have hit me at once and i have work tomorrow so imma go eep#also yes i know the islands symbol is a 4 pointed star not 8 i am aware the 8 pointed ones are on purpose#i got an irregular one too#....yknow the 4 pointed ones on the pins for where they came from the irregular shaped one on the hat for who they became before#and the 8 pointed one to both show that they have grown beyond a homeland they dont remember and the fact that. yknow.#theres two of them kinda
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.besties help im having a moment again
#Robin processes emotions on main#yes i know i logged out. im back. just for this. because of the Nerves#so ok explanation. my college friend is visiting today#in person. we're in person friends. thumbs up. I used to see her once a week#and I'm so nervous about seeing this friend im driving myself CRAZYYY. it is NOT good for me to live w my parents#AUGH#i dont...... i don't wanna do this todayyy#I'm not physically up to going out today but also I'm not good at interacting with friends while in my parents' house. weeps.#I revert into the most anxious quiet and unhelpful child when I have her over at this house aughhhhh#IT'S NOT ANYONE'S FAULT EITHER it's just my stupid. brain and habits or something. I feel terrible about it though#I want to be a better friend but I just dont. have the capability rn#okay. okay. im going to have breakfast and then shower and then clean up my room#wait no first I'm going to text her#hnnnnng
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god bless fast food workers who give poor people extra food.
#ordered a 3 piece tender with nothing else and they gave me 4 <3#stole $10 worth of food today. didnt realize how hungry i was#havent had an actual meal at all today#running out of food at home that i eat#and i dont wanna go back home yet for what i have left#(a few cans of beefaroni and a very small banquet meal)#julian rants
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if i said i picked up this issue for anything but drunk erik i fear i'd be lying
(Wolverine (2020) #3)
#xmen#xmen comics#krakoa#magneto#ok fine logan can get a tag too. this IS his story after all ja/lkLAJVEAVKLJ#wolverine#snap scans#i should read the rest of this run but its like 47 issues i think so. gonna take some time with that#spliced up the panels so its easier to look at everything. and so i can frame drunk passed out erik on my wall#someone uploaded some of the first page some time ago but 1.) i forgot to rb it 2.) it didnt include the rest of the scene#it ESP didnt include erik fallin face first on the table and his lil sleepin face on the next page like please im gettin cuteness aggressio#im so miffed that these are printed on the same page cause i woulda framed this spread otherwise like PLEASE#this shit got me GIGGLING SO BAD i cant. 'dare i say it .......' he's so unnecessary i love him so much#he's so silly ..... also someone said it best in that whenever erik's drawn like a bug it's the best thing#like look at him. that's a beetle. that's my little beetle and i love him i need to put him in a terrarium and watch him#honestly theres a LOT of things i have scanned and wanna share however i have to do it. Reasonably so to speak#in that i dont want to accidentally drown out all my doodling with comic scans jvEALKVJEAKL#maybe i'll do it sandwich style ... art -> scan -> art -> scan etc etc#that does remind me i have a doodle i wanted to do today. so maybe ill do that and share another thing i got scanned ....#unfortunately i do very much love reading the comics. a troublesome thing cause theres so much i wanna share and talk about#like from this issue too i love how hank describes what charles' mutation feels like#its not a grand thing but i love it whenever charles' telepathy is described and how it effects him physiologically#maybe hank was just Theorizing what it feels like but still ... i love that insight so much .....#i'll share that quote another time- i prob won't scan the page cause it's just a text log but i will say it was from here dont worry#ok ive rambled long enough BYE im gonna go draw charles
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I get hating certain political systems and trying to abolish totalitarian regimes but at the same time many of them are so interwoven with our history and society they have become tropes and when I consume media with a setting where the monarchy is absolute and revered then I am playing my part and sucking that princeling off
#litchi.txt#there are games that address this kinda stuff! and thats good! its good that there are games talking about how this is bad!#but at the same time when I go into a game knowing I will be the prince's sword and shield I dont expect the game to be anti-monarchy#despite having pretty strong opinions on many a thing I tend to put most of them away the moment I engage with media#imperialism bad. monarchy bad. doesnt mean I cant enjoy roleplaying in a game where I help these systems#because guess what its fictional and not everything needs to be a strong statement about politics#sometimes we just... wanna vibe with a setting#I am so very thoroughly exhausted from the politics in this country and where things are going I just kinda need that no brainer gameplay#even if it means working as the secret police for an emperor#even if it means replacing one dictator with another#because its still a game#a lot of people talk about imperialism-monarchy-colonialism with these things because they are a big issue even today#and they are important to talk about!! in real world!!#but I rarely see people be this upset about like religion etc which like. thats also a massive problem.#idk Im just tired of trying to look at fanart of all my fantasy medieval games and people being upset that the games#are not super anti-monarchy despite the marketing being literally 'you are the emperor's bestie. you help him out and go on a quest.'#'your quest is to manipulate local government to support the emperor and do his bidding'#like idk how That is supposed to be a game that addresses it properly#and maybe it does but ig since the MC doesnt look at the player and go REMEMBER KIDS! THIS IS EVIL AND BAD AND WHY MONARCHY SUCKS#it doesnt count??? I guess???
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in the video game pikmin four by nintenbo your player character has an option in ur menu that is "rewind time". positing this as a power that you have that nobody else seems to. at least to ur perception. this power is commonly how u achieve dandori beast status by getting practice in thru repeating dungeons. the other dandori supercharged character in the game is louie. he knows how to cook alien animals perfectly seemingly through repeated experiment. but he has not wiped out any species in a certain are yet . do you see my vision
#pikmin 4#louie pikmin#watched frankenbugs' louie vod today while playing dynomites. and then went to a cafe and drank coffee which I really shouldnt ingest#''there are some details in this that dont add up baku'' hi do you wanna hear about the rookie/player character Ive decided I'll draw from#now on. they dont have a name their helmet is always filled with red smoke due to the format of the game only the rescue corps know what#they look like. not even I know. I think they have sort of the second body type. they come from a place (planet?) they call ''auchan''#nobody can hear them thru the smoke. they have to breathe that shit to live. Im going to pass out now good night. have fun ok
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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.
Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.
#my characters#waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit#deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee#and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name#deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c#man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while#he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair#ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so#its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons#but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me#and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not#fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew#and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable#while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts#and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed#so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en#so you know maybe its that idk#and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now#and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it#and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad#that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal#and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it#the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer#anyway story time in the tags again#im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note#its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him#he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times#and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea#and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you
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