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this man is killin me
#my art#wip#digital art#���whys it blurry” SHUT#u wont even notice when im done im NOT fixin it im DONE with lineart i swear i am im tellin myself im done#me @ myself: WE ARE DONE!! NO MORE!! GO FOR A WALK GO TO SLEEP WAKE UP AND COLOR SHADE TEXT COLOR CORRECT AND POST!!#shaking myself#shaking#sobbing crying wretching#“how many times did you watch episode one for the arm&gun references” shut ur dirty mouth#literally started workin on this BEFORE i posed the trimax version how many days has it been i live in a void#goddd who even cares WHO CARES#<-goin insane#i dont wanna draw anymore after this#(lies i will be back on my bullshit)#prolly draw my own ref for this goofy aaarm and gun#after i fullfill my promise of editin a video for my twin its been like 2 weeks or smn 💀#u might think i post to get attention but actually 90% of the time its an excuse to rant n ramble in my own tags#5% of the time its bc tumblr is my lil online sketchbook#the last 5% of the time is for attention#im so mentally unwell for this fucking series#rewatching tristamp n tri98 constantly rereading trimax when im not doin the others#i will never financially recover from this fixation#unfortunately i have nothin productive to say all i can do is get good at drawing the characters#IM ALREADY THINKIN OF DRAWING WOLFWOOD DOIN A SHADOW POSE#as i said im never recovering from this cringe#i wanna draw meryl n milly as poses but i rlly dont know who id draw them as so i might find a dif video game#unfortunate for me i dont fucking play video games#too broke for that shit 😔#ouuuh n i had another vash drawing and a meryl angst that got completely submerged under my need to finish the sonic adventure pose vash se
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(art from april 2022)
i was looking at my old submas stuff and realised ive never posted any of it here because i had my train guys obsession prior to being active on tumblr, so here’s something i made from back then … marnie helping out ingo
p.s sorry if the formatting is weird? i made this when i primarily posted on instagram so i made everything square, i hope it looks alright
#BY THE WAY this is intended to take place on pasio (region from pokemas) which is how marnie’s there#i drew this not long after i downloaded pokemon masters!! i loved (and still love) how they make characters from different gens and regions#interact in that game and it made me think of ingo and marnie talking somehow#because they both have difficulty smiling and iirc in pokemas ingo is self conscious about it#I THINK? ingo and marnie did interact after i made this but i cant remember im not active on the game anymore#pokemon#subway masters#ingo#emmet#submas#elesa#gym leader elesa#marnie#rival marnie#pokemon masters#pokemas#my art#fanart#EEK posting my 2022 art is scary#i really wanna posr my pokemon art though T—T i dont have time to draw much of it rn#or motivation
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💛🌻✨ yellow ✨🌻💛
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#sentai#king ohger#go onger#kakuranger#magiranger#gekiranger#yeah thats enough i dont wanna tag anymore instead let me yell at you about NANGOU#wait where are you going come ba#partner pointed out that it looks like jun is about to shoot gaku in the ass and mika is filming it#and after that i did not have the heart to move them apart#this is a longboard jou truther blog you cant tell me that boy rides a regular skateboard i wont listen to you#also - couldnt help it had to draw kitty kat leo but now i'm living in hell because do i draw shark sela or#'im gonna draw some blues' - does the literal opposite#having a list of names and colours to tick off sure is helpful for beating art block#uuuuuuuuuuh yellow top teir colour never disliked a yellow please enjoy the yellows#only BAD seasons dont have a yellow *i am covering changeman with a big blanket*#2024 art tag
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Yeahlow
#art tag#pokemon#pokespe yellow#pokespe#pokemon special#i wish i had the first ever drawing i did of yellow i think thatd be a fun comparison#i think i do sctually….. shes been w me through so much#when i was 9 i would draw eyelashes onto yellow after the ponytail reveal in gsc but now youll NEVER see me drawing her w eyelashes#i also like pause before i decide what pronouns i should use for her#so i think thats some sort of character development for me#once i bought the last gsc volume onto my school bus and showed it to a friend of mine and she like#pointed to green oak and went why does the boy have eyelashes 😐#n i was like i dont CARE i need to tell you why red x yellow is canon#more character development from me i dont really ship them anymore. same w blue and green. as a pokespe fan ive changed so much#i need to reread dpp i miss the trio so muuuhc…….. i iwhs they couldve returned int he manga and get why not but. i miss the#is swsh nearly over im not up to date at all. i know the dlcs happening but thats it#i wanna see what the scvi protags will be like. and which ones scarlet and which ones violet#and how they handle to version diffs ooo….. two schools? double dead argen parents?#ARVEN sorry. but yea. exciting#WHAT school will each rival be in what about clavel and the teachers ??!!???!??!!?!??!? anyway#thats enougb rambling for one post. goot bye
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Honestly your tags are so fun to read every time, i'm almost more excited for them than the actual post (but not entirely because your art is SO GOOD!!!! i adore it). If you don't mind me asking, what are you studying?
i am studying psychology because i refuse to see a therapist so ill figure out whats wrong with me myself !!!!!!!
#snap chats#WITH. a minor in human resources ☝️ because im evil or something#and whatever character/s i decide to fixate on for the next three years i will also psychoanalyze them I Guess. //loud coughing//#tbh i only saw a therapist to get medicine but since bloodwork is expensive without insurance i dont even do that anymore. sad !#but yeah im a certified rambler if i dont share every thought i have so people understand me as much as i want them to ill die#which is why charles xavier if youre out there you have full rights to my brain .......... //gross wink sound//#why cant telepaths be real itd make my life so much easier. i woudnt have to talk a mile a minute anymore#because i do talk very fast because growing up my mom would cut me off a lot#so now i talk fast in fear of being cut off without all my thoughts being heard. anyways.#thank you for also enjoying my art :] a sideshow to the glory that is my tags i KNOWWW but im glad my efforts are not unnoticed 😌#back to My Major tho when i was in middle school i thought i wanted to go into comic books#but then i thought id lose my love for drawing if i did it professionally so now i do it. semi professionally#on my own terms babyyyy thats right. and if im lucky i get paid to draw my faves im living the dream babes#thats why my text posts take nine years for me to type im legitimately sitting here thinking if i said everything i wanted#and if i worded it right but even then after it's up im like 'but did i word it right tho' but its like 'bro just fucking POST IT'#'ITS NOT THAT DEEP' its as my favorite professor once told me 'youre very paranoid' and he's right !!!! im very paranoid 🥰#ok im done now. see thats why i say Ok Im Done Now its a sign im forcing myself to shut UP#wait not done Almost but not quite i was rewatching 97 to Try to get caps of charles in his combat uniform#and i fear i still cackle at erik telling charles to shut up like PLEAAASSE...... i need that bit CLIPPED#it makes me giggle ... someone remind me to clip all of erik's cameos in the squirrelgirl podcast btw#ive been meaning to do that for weeks but. oops <3 i need all my grandpa's moments CATALOGUED and AT THE READY..#ok i done fr now i have class with my you're-paranoid professor in like an hour and i wanna get some work done before then#BYYYYYEEEE. FOR LIKE TWENTY MINUTES PROBABLY IDK
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I don't wanna wake up at 6am for work tomorrow I wanna be in star wars 😭😭😭
#jane journals#negative#vent#ugh im kinda moody rn#probably still period related reasons#but man i rly dont wanna do that tomorrow 😭😭#i just wanna think about brea and kepler and rex and crosshair and all of those sons of bitches#i wanna draw SO MUCH SHIT but im so dead after work#this job has been fucking whack lately#idk what it is or what changed but im never happy to go to work anymore#if u can believe i ever was 😅
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There's a toxic person who genuinely emotionally tortured me for a couple weeks that I strongly, strongly dislike who draws super peak dialtown fanart as well as dsaf fanart, and has a parody account on twt, which is how he met me. I'm worried now that we dont talk he'll move onto somebody else and do the same. I genuinely live in fear of this happening. This person also has over 8k subs on Youtube because of fucking course things couldn't be easy lmao.
I would so totally out who this person is but considering he threatened to kill himself multiple times and outright had attempts a few times whilst in contact with me, I literally can't. It sucks but like. Yeah.
Just... Know that one day you'll come across a really, really good Randy x Gingi fanart, and you'll never even know it was made by somebody who ruined my emotional state to the point I honestly don't think I'll be able to recover 💀
.... Ugh. Damn it. He's popular and well liked and I'm a complete nobody so regardless of the fact I screenshotted literally everything, it... kinda just doesn't matter, does it. Idk. The only reason I'm hesitating until I know for sure people care is bc I don't wanna do this unless I know for certain it'll have SOME effect other than just making him emotionally destroy me again/possibly harm himself. I want to be heard and I don't think him having an audience is safe in the slightest considering he severely emotionally abused a pretty badly disabled person (me) to the point I had seizures and almost ended myself too, but... like... it's not worth me dying over it if nobody will even hear me.
#vent#tw abuse#toxic people#dont meet your idols#dialtown#dialtown fandom#yes he is mentally ill but some things cant be excused at all and he was horrible to me#he became utterly obsessed with me within mere weeks and forced me into a situation where i had to pretend to like him so he wouldnt die#when i tried to remove myself from the situation he made one of his friends contact me to beg me to unblock#hed get so passive aggressive out of nowhere bc my friends disliked him. they recognised that he was abusive and so they openly hated him#he was so salty#they were having to watch me have these horrific panic attacks every time he spoke to me and so obvs they hated him but he was so so angry#he would draw such gorey vent art of himself right after our one sided fights id try so hard to avoid#then he made a vent twt and i had to watch him blow up every time i didnt wanna open up to him abt my personal issues#hed accuse me of pushing him away but i just didnt wanna be close to him in the first place but i was scared hed die if i left#i wanna say who this person is but im scared ppl will blame me bc i did kind of lead him on on accident#but i was just doing it bc my girlfriend DIED TO HERSELF in front of me... he knew this... i was so scared hed do it too#i told him multiple times and its like it just made him threaten himself even more. like it was on purpose#idk man im pretty badly disabled and i cant even tell if he meant to hurt me anymore. i really dont know#if people genuinely wanna know who it is i might tell bc i wanna open up about it but idk if ppl will care lmao#im not saying who it is unless ppl genuinely wanna know#dsaf#dsaf fandom
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i dont want to improve at my hobbies anymore and i mean that in the most genuine and positive way possible. im now sure that this internal pressure of constant improvement is a good chunk of why i hate writing fanfic now, i was treating it like Homework To Be Passed, like i was gonna get a Grade in it and now i cant look at any of my wips without wanting to throw up so. i dont wanna be better at the things i do for fun. yknow, when not working, ive been drawing much more than writing. and old habits die hard, the evil hustle part of my brain is chanting "get better at it!! actively make it a skill!!! study color learn new techniques watch tutorials and and and and and" the tired part of my brain just wants that demon gone. i dont wanna get better at it, i dont want a new skill, i dont want this to be ruined like how it ruined fanfic for me, i just wanna draw the same silly little chibis of my faves over and over again because it makes me happy. i dont want improvement anymore, i just want fun
#like i still gotta improve in Writing For Work cuz thats my livelihood but thats a Different kind of writing. everything else...#i rlly dont wanna be better at that shit anymore im so tired#i am drawing mc falling asleep at a vending machine rn. she looks p much like every past mc ive ever drawn but she makes me giggle#im after the giggles these days#dootdootdoot
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odd positioning
alt versions cause i am. indecisive
#i wanted to draw water in some assorted ways which. mission accomplished i suppose#i keep going back and forth on the neon blood in the water and the radial artery though.#i like the artery but i wanna axe the blood bit. but also if i do that then (to me) the aretry doesnt make much sense. ugh#whatever i dont wanna draw this anymore its done for now. im gonna go eat dinner maybe ill play with it more after#doodles#osc#object oc#chaos gang#forgot to mention but this is 100% inspired by a youtube thumbnail i saw#by. hellhunde i think was the name?
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Tempted to do redesigns for fun, but for what im not explaining NSNANXN
#side note#I have a few in mind actually not the current one on top of the list#I tried doing Strawberry shortcake redesigns#kinda wanna redo them (I've only posted strawberry but I had others jdskndjs)#i made her look way better after the drawing and i dont like the original redesign i did anymore JDKSJXND#uhhhh#ok maybe ill yap a little just a small bit#a certain someone has got me looking at hazbin content again#and like-#doing a lucifer redesign we be fun#i like his design already#but like#A WAY I DO IT WOULD BE FUN#uhhhhhh#I also think doing redesigns of other things I like would be cool#like maybe even madoka#love madoka magica tho how can I top that I cant#redesign my own characters need to be done too lmao#Still need to finish Herb aka Nero's love interest lmao#and redesign my oc girl band#so much to do#gotta finish art fight first#also I got class in the morning (its 2am)
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im GOING to write today ........ i WILL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#the sky speaks#i havent used twitter in so long and lemme say i missed using tumblr like twitter. just putting my long rambly notes into a single post#anyways onto the rambling#i havent been writing or drawing like at alllll#too busy#also was so sick#but now that i have my new job and i know what my schedule is gonna sorta look like#3 days at joann 2 days cleaning w mom and 2 days nothin#PLUS i dont have to spend money on therapy til after the new year now#and mom is coming home and she seems rly optimistic abt sobriety#im feeling like i can finally create again !!!!#i have 2 creative presents i need to do before christmas#but aside that and 1 prompt still in my inbox (that i rly wanna do anyways) everything else i wanna do is all for Me :)#im kinda put out bc a lot of stuff i wanted to do this fall got shelved.. i wanted to make bday art of kirishima xinyan and kazuha.#i wanted to open comms. but im way too rusty w art rn to be confident doing that. maybe after new years?#god i wanted to come out to my parents properly. the day my mom went to rehab was national coming out day.#it was also one of my last therapy sessions. i came out to her instead#i still managed to do stuff tho. started my new job and got together with friends TWICE !! and i've kept up w doing my moms job alone#idk where im going w this anymore ive lost steam. but yeah. i wanna write today! idk what yet. i hav so many wips i could work on..
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Hey Chi, What's your opinion of Kazuichi Souda (and What's your favorite 3 straight ships with him?)
ok anon im gonna give you the condensed version of my first impression of mr. souda and how it developed as i went through sdr2:
intro/chapter 1: "OH GOD I REALLY LIKE THIS DESIGN!!! UH OH 😳"
chapter 2: "ah we have our best bro character here i see. he's so silly. so cute. oh im starting to actually like him pls dont die :("
some time after chapter 3: "ok i get that he has a crush on sonia but like. he's becoming a simp about it. hope that doesn't last"
chapter 4 onwards to the end of the game basically: "???what the fuck have they done to you you annoying little shit"
and my opinion of him now? he's my scrunkly, he's a dumb little bitch baby, he's my little meow meow, a wet tissue paper boy (all said with affection) <3 his design still slaps and i lov him. feels like im doing this 👇🏼 to him in my brain:
(LMAO my favorite """straight"" ships with him??? like m/f?? i htink trying to ship him with like. mahiru or miu is pretty funny. other than that i really don't ship him with any of the girls 😅 i'd want him to have a normal FRIENDship with these girls first tbh)
#kazuichi soda#ari art#PFFT KINDA#ask draw#my opinion evolved like this 'oh i like him! oh no i dont like him anymore! oh wait nvm i like him again!'#but only AFTER i finished the game i was like 'god. they couldve handled his character/development better :/'#he got very little of it by the end tbh they just amped up his SIMPometer and left him as a bit of a creep/coward#WELL i dont wanna say he CANT be a cowardly character. but they couldve made him less annoying about it LOL idk#i like his fte's with haji a lot bc you get more out of him as a regular person. you get that juicy backstory for why he's like that mostly#also soulfriends <333 obvs <333#ALSO i just realized ur calling me 'chi' bc of en*CHI*lada LMAO i was about to be like 'bitch whos chi???' omgg#anyways (crumples up kazuichi into a little ball and kisses him goodnight) i love the guy :)#sdr2#danganronpa
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Got distracted and I ended up working on my drawing But then I realized a major mistake on it when I thought I was done with the star veil (yes, again. I changed up the stars at the tips of it, this veil is kicking my ass) and I was erasing stuff already so when I realized I'm like: FUCK-- undo undo undo undo und o un do u n d o. And now I gotta... move All those new lil designs at the tip, Again, so I'm like: Okay... alright... I'll do that Later. I'll write now cuz god Forbid I do anything in that design, it's all mistakes!
#aria rants#that star veil has trapped ME in a time loop of perpetually fixing the thing cuz im never done with it like#this is the messiest drawing ive ever done simply by the Amount of mistakes i have on it and the entire process of it like#past aria wasnt lying about the notes she put for me when i was lazy to do the star veil DAYS AGO but she was only thinking#that: haha future me is gonna bead All those lines >:D well lil did she know is that future her aint gonna bead those lines#anymore but the veil is STILL KICKING MY ASS HARDER THAN WHEN I TRIED TO BEAD IT ALL#also the designs at the tip were supposed to just be stars. but then sirius' heart happened and i was like: i need to put morse code on it#and normally id rely on the circle ruler but i alrdy used circles for the Inner beads. i needed a different kind of circle for the tips#and then i managed to somehow??? freehand a perfectly shaped egg so ive just been duplicating layer and moving#that egg cuz aint no way i can redraw that again. the first was a fluke i didnt know was possible. and i also didnt wanna#redraw the lil dash beads i made via the ruler so ive just been keeping two layers with just one tiny drawing each#of an egg and a slanted rectangle and ngl duplicating and moving those things take up way More of my concentration#than when im just doing the lines over and over again cuz i had to keep track of which layer has which and minimize it#by merging the morse code line ive finished (like once im done for the morse code ''you'' id merge that all tgt)#so i can keep myself from exploding out of incredible confusion on which layer is which but Now i gotta redo ALL THAT#i gotta redo the other ''i love you'' morse code at the right end cuz i Forgot. to leave. a space. at the end.#like the left end has a space (star) before the egg for the first dot of ''i'' but i forgot to do that for the right end.......#theres no space (star) after the rectangle for the last part of ''u''....... i need to move All that-- maaaaaaaaaaannnn#writing it is. ill do writing for now. writing is the best. at least then i dont gotta MOVE EVERYTHING once i made a mistake--
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Why is focusing so fucking hard
#i just. i dont wanna fucking work on this animation anymore. im so sick of it#for the past almost week this is the only thing ive been working on. i wish i had picked a different audio clip#im so bored. this thing is so boring. no joy is being sparked and ive hurt myself by working on it#i decided this animation needed. so many fucking hands and head turns. and a forshortened hand no less#sorry beloveds im not gonna be able to draw for a while after this
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i went back and edited a tiny part of that drawing so if you see two reblogs and think one looks different that's bc it is, just ignore it jhdkdh
#it was bothering me but it's not a big deal so im not gonna reblog it again... yet >:)#you will see my post again in the morning. for timezones and whatever#and also i like talking :]#the issue was i drew both halves of the sunflowers at different points in the drawing process#so one of the fields had the flowers spaced out differently than the other#i kept staring at it i couldnt take it anymore jdhdh#chat#kinda wanna make another drawing with that brush but i dont have any ideas rn :0 i'll have to think abt it#i work tomorrow so i doubt i'll feel like it after work#assuming i even get to go to work. might have to call in depending on The Circumstances at my house
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ever since the pandemic ended and i started going out and talking to people with the goal of "making friends being happy loving life" ive started o realize that i in fact do not enjoy the stay at home doing nothing not talking to anyone lifestyle and that i love calling ppl and that nature is actually the bomb, all the times id rather stay in bc "im just not an outings guy" is actually bc im like. traumatized or something
#do i know what caused this no do i want to stop it god. yeah. i wanna go out and vlimb trees :( i wanna hug my friends#and give them little gifts and non stop tell them about everything that im interested in :(#finding out im aromantic also just completely changed how i see my friendships and myself too#like yeah!!!!! friends!!!!!!!!#romantic tension is a lie i am just quirky & chill like that#anyways i AM looking forward to the thing were havong on monday HOWEVER the fact that its happening on my exs house is#unfortunate. like maybe im not gonna be so chill while there. but thats ok im still gonna try and im gonna be mature about it#is it weird hes already after someone else wohin less of a month yeah but its none of my business anymore#i dont want to confront him thats his own mess im being normal about it. i am handling this correctly#if anyone asks me i will be honest if he asks me i will be honest#i have no problem with the girl i only have a problem with him. i actually really really enjoy the girls company#shes so chill. like she says she loves me sometimes and im like woah! i dont rlly know you!#but its a warm feeling i enjoy it#i wanna start saying i love my friends too#i wanna make her a bracelet actually#thatd be so slay#o should invite her and some friends over just to make bracelets#we could make each other little things !!!!#i wanna draw stuff to my friends#yayayayayayayay i love my friends i wanna talk to them so bad omg omg omg what do i talk about#im gonna ask them about their day !!!!!#sg.txt
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