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kheprriverse · 2 months ago

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Y’all thinking about an older Ares has RUINED me

#hyrule warriors #hw link #kheprri rambling #fucked by the ‘perfect hero’ treatment and is a little hit jaded and scruffy and i am INSANE FOR IT #he does not cope well and i love that for him #obsessed with him. been thinking about him for a couple months now for my wargod au and yall i cannot stop #volga gets the treatment too but its slightly less noticeable coz hes a dragon #also sorry about there being nothing going on. every time i want to start on something i get hit by just utter pain and cant focus #so ive just been playing games and sleeping trying to get through it lol #but that also gave me a lot of thinking time for the aus. especially the main one (and this one obv)#also sorry if u dont vibe with the headcanon/au. hes far from being a dick or entitled hes just tired of being perfect for others—#—and just wants to live in peace with his dragon bf lmao #2024+ is the era of khep(me) forcing myself to draw facial hair because ive always been afraid of not doing it right #actually i love drawinf facial hair and all hair in general tbh im just horrified of people being like ‘lol ur wrong die’ XD #anyways sorry. rambling. too many brain thoughts not enough outlets for #will be posting the mistflier species sheet wip on kofi eventually i just wanna type the words out to make it more legible #it IS still a wip and thats why its gonna be going on kofi until its finished #<- and also coz its tailnrr related

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skunkes · 10 months ago

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#sorry doomer posting #but like idk!#i keep talking abt how if i werent trans id be more inclined to accept my fate of living w my parents/family forever #but also with upcoming election and living in Texas maybe i just wont ever get to transition anyway and that will solve everything wont it #i want to leave so badly but i think id just be swapping my current misery for another set #like id be alone but at what cost. and id be alone. no friends no partner to live with no people in my empty home #work and sleep and struggling to eat. idk #im simply not meant to be alive honestly #talkys #delete later #in general i keep wanting things but not wnough bc ive been taught to not want things #i don't want to leave enough to put in the work to do it #i dont want to transition enough to get past the fear of change #i dont want anything. i dont want anything. i am a good dog

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basilpaste · 11 months ago

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*Kicks down your door* Remember in Act 5 when everyone was telling Siff their wish and Isa said that he wished, “To find, to help, and to save you, Siff?” This implies that when him and the gang was made aware of Siffren looping he made said wish at the Favor Tree, possibly replacing his previous wish to be a clothing designer. That would mean that Isa willingly overwrote his own wish to save Siffren.

Based on that assumption, would Siffren do the same thing for Isa? Would it be more powerful because they actually know how the ritual works?

Also your AU is great keep it up, I wish I was that talented at writing.

ooh. thats a fun question!!!

isa doesnt actually make a wish in canon until act 5 i dont think? sifs heard all their wishes before! the party tells him them when they find out about wishcraft. isa tells them that he hasnt wished for anything! he could be lying there tbf. i could also. be misremembering thats also a thing i could be doing.

id say that sif would overwrite his wish, but thats easier said than done! because isa loops to right after he makes his wish ("you are kneeling in front of the favor tree"). which meeeeeans: sif hasnt made his wish yet. and he remakes his wish every single loop unless isa distracts them from it. and oh boy! if that isnt a lot of... wishcraft.

easy answer to this: sif makes a second wish to help find isa and keep him safe. since they know wishcraft: this basically forces loop to help them! this wish is ultimately not more powerful than their original wish, however. it can only do so much!

AH ALSO I FORGOT TO SAY THANK YOU FOR THE KIND WORDS!!! dont put your own writing down, though!!

#basil answers #asks #anon #isat spoilers #of stitches in sequence #i!!!! dont think i explained this very well ive gotten not enough sleep recently my brain is running at like 3fps.#the way the loops work in osis are kinda fucked up.#because theyre supposed to be siffrins loops. isas wish was just so uh. belief-y that it got tangled up in the webs of sifs wishcraft.#so the loops will sometimes reset based on *sif!* like when reaching the head housemaiden. 'you want to stay with them!'#itll make more sense when i write it properly waughgh.

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ping-ski · 2 days ago

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To the person who sent the ask about EBY (Eclipsed By You) while I've been dragged this Sugar!Eclipse hell pit: No, I haven't dropped EBY! It's of the many aus that I just keep hopping between writing or drawing for because... ADHD lmao. EBY holds a very special place in my heart so trust- I couldn't get rid of it even if I tried lol. I work on bursts of passion and right now that would be specifically for my Sugar Daddy Eclipse au <3 As for what's planned for EBY (which I vaguely answered in the past but I've changed stuff since then): It grew from a vague canon divergent idea to its own beast of a long-form Pizzaplex au fic altogether because I didn't know where to stop with "yes, and". I still plan on it being DCA/Reader centered. Given that you've seen *that* EBY Eclipse art from a while ago, I'll just say it's still relevant because I don't wanna spoil the fun. ofc I wanna get back to it eventually! <3 For now, sugar!clip is on the mind and I'm gnawing on him like a bone. So to answer your last question: I don't plan on a long form fic for sugar!clip. It'll be more like a collection of drabbles and oneshots within the au. I have a "story" of sorts in my head + specific beats I wanna hit, but not one I could cohesively tell in one fic cause that idea alone is kind of nauseating. Gotta love being in the purgatory of not really outlining or pantsing but a secret third thing that only makes sense to you. (I'd argue it's a combination of both, but mostly whatever satisfies my ADHD and poor memory especially cause I love jumping between projects.) Anyways, my heart so full knowing you're thinking about EBY even if I'm not actively posting about it!! <3333

#pingyappathon #pingquery #dca fandom #fnaf daycare attendant #sugar!clip #EBY #eclipsed by you #believe me- if i could write and draw all of my ideas all at once i would without hesitation #i just dont think there's enough hours in a day to do everything i want between responsibilities and needing to rest lmao #maybe i should do a visual of all my au versions of dca but some of them dont have a proper design planned yet ack.#which i have 20+ aus as of right now and some more that are just vague ideas. its a big laundry list lmao #all of my best writing happens when im sleep deprived and can barely keep my eyes open i wish i was lying

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icewindandboringhorror · 8 months ago

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finally finished all of one character's entire quests/optional dialogue/questions/etc.... 100,000 words... .... aughhh

#Given some of it IS lines of code and stuff but like.. minus all that it's still probably at least 85 - 95k words hhhhhh #AND I have to do this for another 3 characters. Then a few partial quests for 3 others. THEN the other random misc stuff in the game #(like there are public areas in the city like a park and a forest that you can go and do a few things at. and chat with a few random #townsfolk that aren't actually full characters or anything. And there's a community board where you can #browse some of the random job advertisments or silly things that happen to be posted around #and also pick up a few odd jobs of your own to help earn coin to buy gifts for the npcs. etc. etc.)#Originally I was thinking like 'ah I'll make a short little game just to try it out! :3 It'll take maybe a few months!''#haha........................hee hee........................................hoho #Also evil that it would have been done already if I didn't totally drop itand stop working on it for like 5 years randomly #i could have made 5 years of steady slow progress gradually. instead of like 'one initial idea dump + about a month of art and writing'#...... 5 year break..... 'sudden mad dash to try to get probably 400.000 words written in a year or less' lol #I just really want to be done and have something out there already so it can lead to doing other things in my world..!!!!!! T o T #Like this can be an introduction and then maybe from that I can make other games. or short story anthologies. or other such things #But there needs to be some initially not very complex easy to interact with starting point first I guess... if that makes sense #That's part of why I stopped posting worldbuilding lore dump stuff as often because its' like.. massive walls of novella length #text are much more inacessible to engage with than like.. ooh a game! and there's characters! so its more approachable! and theres #visuals! oo! and the text is broken up in small bits line by line with other things in betwen! oo! etc. etc. lol #Not that THIS is even very accessible. I think dialogue heavy interactive fiction/visual novel type stuff is pretty niche and considered #boring or tedious compared to something with more ''gamplay'' like where you can actually move around in a world #and shoot things or whatever lol. But its an inbetween point. something SLIGHTLY #more accesible for now. Since i just dont have the budget or means or ability to make some skyrim type thing obviously LOL #Though maybe if theres any interest in the visual novel that could lead to making other things too. or at least I hope. I have a VERY cool #idea for a more ''gamey'' type of game that is a super fun concept and etc. but I would need to hire at least 2 people to make it.. ough..#I could do all the writing and probably half of the art. But I think I'd inevitably need a 3d artist and someone who can Code For Real hbjh #the system for ren'py (the thing I'm making a visual novel in) is not that complicated if you stick to just simple dialogue and stuff.#Making a whole moderately sized 3d game with minigames in it and a bunch of quest features and etc. would be out of my simplistic scope #''just learn it yourself!!' ... i barely manage to eat and sleep reliably every day lol... i do not function well enough to spend months #learning that many new skills. I already have a lot of of things I'm good at (not in a braggy way but just factually like.. i already have #a wide variety of different things under my belt).. at some point I have to just be happy with what i CAN already do and focus on that #and admit I need to get outside help sometimes ghjbh... NO more new skills/hobbies!!! ... ANYWAY

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aloneholy · 2 months ago

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i miss writing i miss creativity.......... how to be creative and intellectually nourished when you're so so so so busy and overworked and have not stopped moving (literally and figuratively) for the past twelve or so months

#asking for a friend.#genuinely i want to work (creatively) so bad but i am so physically #drained it's making it sort of impossible.#genuine question how to hack it???#i'm already not sleeping enough #i'm getting more exercise than i used to and my life is more dynamic than when i was bored and 9to5 depressed #but good god the physical exhaustion every day.#means that i just simply dont have the strength to hit the keyboard once i get home.#i need a writer's residency i think . i need a vacation also #for like 6-12 months preferably.#personal

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faaun · 9 months ago

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oh my god u rly are everyone you've ever loved !! for better or worse !! a part of you becomes them!

#i had a moment of lucidity idk im in this café the person i went on a few dates w is coming to see me i said come study w me #and they said okay immediately even though im a town over and i dont like them i really dont feel even a little attracted to them that way #but i did let them bite my neck a week ago and it still hurts i let them hold my hand i just #i never start anything #i let them kiss me. why do i do that? i dont feel anything towards them #and i told them ill probably never sleep with them and i thought thats enough but it really isnt is it #they write poetry about people they meet even once #theyre coming a whole town over to study w me but its not a date i feel nothing towards them romantically and i dont want to lose them as #a friend. this was her line of thinking wasnt it? i would take the train and meet her near her place in ldn and wed study together and #shed let me hold her and she would never initiate much and we were just studying together and it wasnt a date #like . fuck. i dont want to do what she djd to me to another person ever #their shared location map went offline at london bridge like ok theyre in the underground they are fr coming a whole town over #its a short distance but the point is i think i should have taken what my friend said more seriously . she told me i was kinda leading #them on bc what i thought to be just meetups dates might entail more for them #anyway im gonna be clear w them this time maybe #....IT JUST NEVER COMES UP IS THE THING #do i have to clarify even if it never comes up #i do in fact hear myself #ok #the parallels r lining up #aaa

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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Actually, on the topic of the baby fever. God it's so frustrating. Bc when I was like 14 ish I was Adamant that I never ever wanted kids. And my dad said smth around the lines of "that'll likely change" (probably from his own experience with this) and I was like NO. it WONT.

And then eventually, age 21-22 ish, I admitted that Okay, I still don't want to have my own kids, but someday maybe I'll adopt...

And Now, 27 years old, I got the general baby fever on occasion. It Did fucking change. And I don't know if I actually WILL bother with having my own kid (I still don't want to go through the hassle and massive body changes). But god. I do see a fucking baby and feel that stab of longing. It's almost like my damned hormones betrayed me or smth. Maddening!

I shall simply write fanfic about it.

#speculation nation #pregnancy ment/#honestly though i hadnt felt the wish to have my own until after my dad died #and i realized just how small our family is getting. and just felt this stab of NEED. to continue the line. continue the family.#my family's fucking dying around me i need to add to it. need more family. yknow?#so i dont actually know if this is. because of hormones or because of grief or What #but it was enough for me to put the hysterectomy idea on hold. bc id been genuinely considering it back in like. april? or so.#but then this happened and now im like. fuck dude. i dont know. but the uncertainty's enough to keep me from doing it.#yeah i dont wanna deal with periods anymore. but also. i need more time to decide.#i think no matter what i do want to raise kids someday. once im more stable (financially and emotionally)#but whether thats adoption or putting myself thru fuckin body torture. well i'll just have to decide. later.#maybe the deciding factor will be my own body aging lol. if i wait too long. my body will decide for me. who knows!#i Have thought about what id do if i got accidentally pregnant. especially relevant back when i was sleeping with a trans woman #and used to be id abort no hesitation. but well. i mean abortions illegal here anyways rn so id have to go to another state #but if i decided it i could make it work. it's not That far of a trip.#but. when i thought about it. the concern was less about the theoretical baby. and more about finishing school.#thinking 'man itd be fucking awful to finish school if i got pregnant right now'. but not. hesitating over the baby.#if i was out of school and relatively stable and i got accidentally pregnant. then. well. Maybe.#so me doing my dad vash au where he gets accidentally pregnant and goes all in with it #thats me. sorting out my feelings on it i guess. putting them somewhere.#idk. it's a lot to think about. i dont want to condemn a child to my genetic problems. but at the same time...#i dont know. To Be Decided Later.

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seventh-district · 10 days ago

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#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw negative #cw health issues #‘You’re such a heartless and hateful person.’ well have you ever considered that i’m not really a hateful person and i just hate You #like. call me whatever you want to i guess. im definitely selfish and probably heartless but hateful? idk abt that.#i only feel like i hate people that have given me good fucking reason to. sorry i dont have an infinite supply of tolerance & forgiveness??#but im a wee bit fucking stressed so you’ll have to forgive me for being a bitch. well no one Has to forgive me. do whatever you want #‘That 10-day old pasta salad is making me feel sick.’ MF that was made TODAY. IT’S FRESH AND THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT #if you feel sick how about you look down at the fifteen empty beer cans on the floor next to you and ask them what they think did it #dumbass. whatever man i have bigger problems than your self-induced tummy ache #i feel sick too but i know it’s my fault so i’m not bitching about it. i gave you fresh food while I ate the old stuff to keep from wasting #food. because you act like you’re fucking allergic to leftovers. and yeah it had probably gone off and that’s why I feel sick #but what you ate tonight was fresh as could be so we’re sick for two Very different reasons. and i know how to admit when it’s my fault #everything is my fault. my teeth and gums hurt and that’s My fault for not taking care of them. apparently 3 root canals wasn’t enough #for me to learn my goddamn lesson. i never do. so i’ll have to spend more money on that soon and thats My fault. the dog’s teeth need #cleaning too and that’ll come out of my pocket and i guess that’s My fault for not taking care of him either #i think i have another goddamn UTI and that’s definitely My fault so another $100 trip to urgent care it is i guess!#my Random Nerve Pain has moved to my hands so i can’t use them too much or it fucking hurts and i guess that’s my fault???#my neck pain is back and thats my fault for not clearing my bed off enough to sleep in a comfortable position #my eye keeps twitching and i guess that’s my fault too. i don’t know anymore i just wanna throw in the towel man im so tired #god the UTI tests i wasted money on are arriving tomorrow and if they’re packed in a way that shows what’s inside then i’ll have to explain #That to whoever brings in the mail. great great something else to worry about all night #the living room floor is caving in so now there’s Two room’s floors that need fixing so that’s super fucking fun! 😃#i need to talk to my bank and i need to talk to a tax professional and i need to learn to drive and i need to get an autism diagnosis #well i don’t Need the last one but i want it so bad. but im scared. that i’ll go to all this trouble and they’ll say i don’t qualify #and god it’s NYE now. Besties i’m not gonna get that NMbD NYE fic ready in time. i just can’t make myself write these days. i’m sorry.#i doubt anyone is gonna be That disappointed but I Am. in myself. 3 fucking years now i’ve failed to finish it. w h y. i Want to write but #there’s just too much on me rn. but when is there Not. sigh. idk what i’m gonna do but something needs to change. in my life. soon.

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kunikisss · 4 months ago

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“you used to be so happy as a child-”

AGGHHHHH SHUT UPPP SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUTUPSHUTUP STOP

#OHH MY GOD YOU THINK I DONT KNOW THAT???? YOU THINK I DONTKNOW HOW MUCH HAPPIER AND FUCJING. NORMAL I WAS? I DO. I FUCKING DO #but THANK you for reminding me like i wasnt already fucking wallowing in self pity enough i dont need you giving me more reason to!!!!!!#a good cry would help out so much #but unfortunately #i can only cry on the rare occasions god grants me the permission to #which happens next to never!! ♡#vent #i just want to sleep #im fucking tired!!!$!!$+++!!+$+$8+$(6$+ of just today or my whole existence? who knows lol!!!!!#edgy hours😨😨😨👂🏼👂🏼👂🏼👂🏼👂🏼 ignore this #i js need an outlet

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mira0000000-blog · 1 month ago

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Ugh..narrator...

#slay princess spoilers in these tags alex don readdd #i should be sleeping rn but while i was work i couldnt stop thinking abt #how much i feel like the narrator relates to me in how ocd affects me #hes not just afraid of change hes afraid of possibility. but thats not what he thinks hes afraid of he justifies his fear as #wanting to protect the world from seein death ever again #but in truth he wants to kill the embodiment of change itself #my mind is hazy but like i can get it because so many times i just hope that #things just stop #because i think abt so many possibilities so bad that it hurts me a lot #only thinking about the bad possibitilies and the good possibilities never go through my mind #i think so much abt everything that could happen if i do anything that i try my best at avoiding it #and if i fall into not doing it feels empty and stagnant #its safe but it feels really bad and i feel bad abt my fear #and thats what the narrator wants for the full scope of the world cos he thinks that will be better for everyone #dont get me wrong hes very wrong lol but hes so human at the same time #it only gets more clear by his nightmare where he describes that every good moment in life is a short omen for something horrible to happen #next #thats so ocd to me man “oh fuck this is too good something bad will happen”#bitch should have gone to therapy instead of trapping the gods of reality itself trapped in a torture bubble lol #or he should have played satbk #sonic is always right #also i get a lot of ocd vibes from the cage but its slightly different #she thinks she already knows whats going to happen and doesnt try to test another possibility #the only way to save her is to prove to her that what she thinks will happen isnt set in stone. she cant know what will happen #even if her past trauma feels like enough proof that things will be the same- she cant know...#also how she thinks her body is acting on its own and that it has nothing to do with her but it does she just cant see it #cage....#also i love how she comes from prisoner. because prisoner is actually very reasonable in her distrust of you but she believes that her plan #will work #but it doesnt and it turns into the trsuma that turns her in cage cos every worry feels like its the truth

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sorrowsaint · 8 months ago

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im going to bed

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heres a song i like goodnight

#......................#.............................................#..............................................................................#thats probably enough of a buffer.#last night i dreamed i was in the hollow below the tree that my body was in. when i woke up in the morgue all i wanted to do was curl up #my bones remember i think. even if i dont. sometimes i feel a phantom emptiness on my chest #like the arrows. like the knives.#its scary. its so scary.#im just a kid #will i remember it forever? how long will it haunt me?#people die all the time. people die and come back. people die and come back and they remember but it doesnt haunt them #i was trapped in death and i think thats... its not gone. maybe it is magically but i still feel it.#all i had for so many months was the vague knowledge that i was dead and this overwhelming sense of sharp coldness #my body remembers. i remember. how does anyone forget things like this? i dont want this. i dont want to remember.#i like it under my bed. ive put pillows and blankets down here. the vent that blows in cold air is here too so it feels comfy #and maybe it reminds me of being under the tree. and i dont know why but thats something im actually okay with #my body was under something for so long. the soil was cursed but i loved those woods. i miss the woods. my body hurts.#my mom is missing a leg and sometimes she talks about phantom pains. like her leg realizes it isnt there and screams #can you feel that way about a hole in your chest and your neck. can you feel that way about a tree above you.#can you feel that way about death #maybe i should get angry. but alone. so so alone so i dont hurt anyone.#i cant prove him right. because he was wrong and everything he ever said was wrong and he sucks and i hate him #im not like him.#im like gertie and my parents.#im so tired. im so tired. i want to sleep in dirt for a few more months. maybe sort myself out somewhere dark and quiet.

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volivolition · 9 months ago

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dude the TOP song you posted (truce) fucking kills me and the way you described the animatic is??? so good???? I'd bawl actually /pos

I need to know if there's any other TOP songs you relate to the furies/any DE character really, or any slower songs even if they aren't by TOP

OH AGREED ABSOLUTELY!! TRUCE MY BELOVED... and THANK YOU!! we are imagining animatics and crying together! /pos :'] <3

ooh!! well, i havent listened to a lot of TOP in a while, so i don't have many recommendations there unfortunately :'] but for other slow, soft songs, let's see... i'll put them under a cut with all my explanations, but ☀️ "See The Day" by The Altogether (Volition song!), 🍃 "Rounds" by The Oh Hellos (Shivers song!), 🦋 "Would You Be So Kind" by dodie (general skills song, Suggestion primarily!) are the best contenders!

Pretty sure you've seen it already, but from a different ask, i recommend "Almost (Sweet Music)" by Hozier! (and "Like Real People Do" if you want to cry and yearn with me, though my DE ideas for it are very loose hkjhg) these are slow ones i like hkjhg <3

"Goodbye" by The Altogether is a Harry and Dora song :0

"Soldier, Poet, King" by The Oh Hellos is one i specifically relate to Volition (my beloved protector/motivator/crownhead blorbo! [picks him up and wiggles him!!!]), but i would make one of those animation memes for it with every skill slotted into a "soldier" "poet" or "king" position.

☀️ "See the Day" is both another The Altogether song and another Volition song! a real "the worst is over. we made it through. we're going to survive this. it might not get easier yet, but we'll come out the other side and we'll be alive" song. it makes me cry hkjgh

🍃 "Rounds" by The Oh Hellos is a soft Shivers song, though the lyrics don't start until halfway in. ough my god listening to it makes my heart ache (/pos) <3 La Revacholiere singing to Harry in the wind. "Will you start when I end? Yeah, I'm long in the wind..."

"Northern Star" by Dom Fera, a song Harry would sing for karaoke and dedicate to Kim, and then they'd waltz a little clumsily on the dim, starlit sidewalk on their way home for the evening... <3

🦋 "Would You Be So Kind?" by dodie BUT SPECIFICALLY THIS VERSION, because i love everyone's crowded but earnest vibes. this one is led by Suggestion ("oooh you wanna fall in love with us so bad right? right???") and makes me grin, you GOTTA imagine all of the skills squished together in the front of Harry's brain all trying different tactics to get Kim to fall in love with them, (rhetoric: "I HAVE A QUESTION..." ency: "let's write a story! be in my book!") at 2:35, after all the skills singing together loudly, it's just Harry himself singing to Kim, with all the skills slowly backing him up. the ending is all of them fucking ECSTATIC celebrating when harry finally kisses kim hkjhg jesus this'd be so cute hold on i have to go plan this out i have so many thoughts hkjdh

"Seven" by Sleeping at Last would be a sweet Reaction Speed song (ironic that im adding react speed to a list of soft, slow songs though hkjgh) "I'm ready for whatever comes next!" <3 Reaction Speed is a fast, restless little fella who can't sit still for long, always loves moving, acting, doing. he's like the personification of a verb hkjhg <3 i would also accept an interpretation for echem <3

"Cosmos" by Jawbreaker Reunion is a song that The Furies recently suggested to me as a jean song and it's so right for that, very soft and i like it very much :'] (you should also ask The Furies if you want to, it's much more musically inclined than me, i feel hkjhg <3)

awuahg thank you for asking and for reading!! i appreciate it!! <33

oh and here's links to all of the songs in the tags: Come Together Now, Two, Four, Five, Six, Eight, Nine, RPG Animation Meme (<- homestuck lmao)

#volta transmissions #now: songs that didn't meet the requirements (either not a slow song OR doesnt remind me of de characters/skills) but honorable mentions:#you specifically asked for slow songs but i refound ''come together now'' from the lego movie soundtrack and I HAVE SKILL THOUGHTS...#<- no chemi you're not hosting a fucking multi animator project you have enough on your plate THANKS <3 #but!! that is my idealized version of the skills to me though. ''we're all really different but we make each other better together''#dodie has many more slower songs but i cant really relate them to DE hkjhg <3 the oh hellos too!! and the altogether <3 #''two'' from Sleeping at Last makes my heart hurt but i can't relate it to anyone in specific. but if you want a soft song that i love <3 #also from Sleeping at Last but i dont like these songs as much: ''Four'' is Concept! ''Five'' is Viscal! ''Six'' is Psyche in general #but specifically inland and volition!! ''Eight'' is an Endurance song but i'd also take Authority or Phys interpretations <3 #but eight is kind of intense so it doesnt go in the actual list. ''Nine'' might be Empathy? get over being a moralist little guy!!#i like ''Two'' ''Seven'' and ''Eight'' while the other ones are not my cup of tea... but they ARE soft songs i associate with skills!#only tangentially related but the RPG animation meme would be. extremely fun to do for the skills. and i think about it intensely.#LISTEN... there's 30-ish beats at the start for characters. theres 24 skills plus room to show group ups by type (int; psyc; phys; mot)#the entire main thing of the meme is [someone says a stupid idea] [everyone disliked that!!] WHICH IS EXACTLY THE RIGHT VIBE HFJKFH #HOWEVER. i still dont have designs for [checks] MORE THAN HALF OF THEM. so EL BIGO MISTAKO LIEUTENANT! YOU CAN'T!#i wish i was more well-versed in music hkjhg im kinda just vibing with what i got <3 this is why daily voltas stopped :'] alas!#esprit: Sammie

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aromanticannibal · 1 month ago

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I read the epilogue chapter, and yeah, there is A LOT of misinformation and it's definitely not that bad. My biggest issues with it is that it was framed really poorly, esp on Ochako's storyline, and it's something beyond shipping.

my biggest problem with the ending as a whole has remained pacing, and the lack of some scenes we all assumed would for sure be coming. I think this chapter is overall fine and follows (more or less) the expected route, but how small the entire epilogue was make it stick out weirdly.

#i for one think ochako's storyline could have been handled significantly worse and that for a canonization of a m/f pairing in the last #chapter it's like. largely okay. but again i was predicting “hey kacchan we called our children himiko and tenko will you be my best man”#so like #and maybe im settling? or maybe im just good at and really enjoy filling in the blanks?#there are things i genuinely did not like beyond the pacing but i just dont like shitting on a story i like so much and an author i like so #much like these things dont ruin anything for me and i understand if they do for others but i do actually like the canon we have #(even if im going to be writing a few fix its lmao)#the only thing is i do think katsuki and izuku should've maybe had another talk but thats within the realm of there clearly wasn't enough #time slash space #i think izuku refusing katsuki's place at his agency is like. fine. because its a way to show they're not too codependent or whatever which #fits that whole avoiding drama thing horikoshi said 431 does #in general i think every single choice horikoshi has made could've been received better and in general /been/ better if he had more space t #develop it #and i think the reason why im fine with all of it is because it doesn't bother me to fill in the gaps with whatever i want #ask//#by the way i think everyone should in fact remember that thing about 429 being the epilogue and 430 being the curtain call #not necessarily as a way to see 431 as non canon (if it makes you sleep better tho do that) but as a way to remember that the ending #that is clearly intended to be read as the real ending is 430. what with all the wrap around moments and the final words etc #just. 430 is the ending that is called my hero academia etc. to me 431 is exactly what it's called: more. canon #but not the ending. extras.

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utterhomestucktrash · 1 month ago

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I need to stop going to hang out with people. There are always people there....

#utter bullshit #I'm trying to socialize but I get so distressed if i think someone isn't having an amazing time #I'm trying to regulate everyone and then people want me to focus on them and then I get nervous and someone says something out of turn #and then people get offended and i try to keep the mood light but also tell people off in a nice way #and they're all sleeping with me so the flirting has become less fun and more obligations like #if i say I'll do something as a joke IDK if they'll hold me to it later and then people complain i dont see them enough but #what they really mean is Im not servicing them #I'm a person!!! with feelings!!!!#and everyone thinks I'm a penny machine who outputs sex for validation #which is true but i wish they'd be more subtle #and also everyone's getting possessive of me and it's such a bummer #i dont belong to any of u !!! i belong to my dead husband !!!!

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euclydya · 1 month ago

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tuinkign ablout. Hanahaki Disease adn how we aplareentlt have a similar thing in our system. those Effected dont cough up flowers (... often) but instead find that certain flowers sprout off of them at random. it's not painful until it Is (#yearning and all) and Yes the members mainly effected by this are our bpd holders . and then daisy but whatever the fuck is going on with daisy is like. idk he's an outlier adn should not be counted

#pk;m curly🩹#suffice to say im finding it hard to sleep with all this lavender everywhere #i. well . Y'KNOW. <2 #usually the lavender sprouts from our heads. just behind our ears. at random mind you. or maybe there's correlation #maybe it's whenever you're on our mind. which is... often‚ yes‚ but‚#fhfhdhdhdjfn #sometimes the love gets. painful to feel. it overflows and that's when the flowers start sprouting inside our chests i think #and that's not like. a death wish or anything it doesn't kill us. it's like a minor nuisance that'll ease up in a few hours #but usually the flowers appear behind our ears. a symbol to show how much you mean to us.#in my case specifically they sprout all through the gaps in my bandages. Alllll over my head. i dont exactly have ears anymore for #the flowers to sprout behind. dhdhdhfbfdj #and right now i feel one lodged in my chest. it'll dissipate in a lil bit but for now... mm.#it... hurts. in a good way.#if i remember I'll tell you to your face but whenever you read this i want you to know that loving you is not hard at all.#easiest thing in the world‚ really #you mean the world to us and I'm glad we met you. I'm glad we stayed alive long enough for our paths to cross #... i do have an art idea based off this but it leans more into the horror of hanahaki but i think it'll be fun #@🗡️#this. go.t rambly sorry

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