#i dont think im making it to heaven folks

[doctor-octiddius]

OK FINE.

FINE.

I PUT HIM INTO A JAR.

[angel---eater]

i truly have no tolerance for this fandom shittin on random fans personal trans headcanons. someone saw themselves and their experience in this character, isnt that beautiful? why dont you mind your business and focus on your own fan stuff? wouldnt that make you happier? someones headcanon doesnt negate yours. what the fuck is wrong with yall. its playing make believe x2. its just a headcanon. real life trans folks are in active danger right now and some of yall are wasting all your energy abusing others over which pronoun set figments of someone elses imagination 'should' be using

[teddie-bear420]

tier list

OPINONS UNDER THE CUT

warning this is super long and ranty but does have some silly doodles ill post else where :)

-teddie bear 420

I have had several dreams about vaggie and lute and alastor, they plage my every waking moment. one was me going to smooch city with alastor (very scary that man does not wash his teeth). the others vaggie just shows up sometimes

really liked vaggie in her angel flash back, her hair cut was so cute, not a fan she still has pink eye but what eves. I LOVE HER PONY TAIL THO, give my girl better hair styles!!!

do you think theyve explored each others bodies?

I hated lute at first cuz, just look at her. you could get snow blindness with how white that woman is oh my lord. but once the 8th episode rolled around with hot women fighting my brain kinda clicked on for our old second in command. i keep going back to her in my brain and slowly morphing her into a heart broken lesbian who has a superiority complex and bullies her crush and then moves on to having a sugar mama situation ship with Lilith.

alastor is just so fun and silly, and there's this one x reader fic that ive made fan art of, you've all seen it. i just love this guy but i like to imagine he's a woman just for me :)

i understand why he is a fan favorite

i love charlies look but i hate how childish she is, like girl you are like 24 kill your friends pimp. nifty molly emily are all so cute and i enjoy looking at them. cant wait for the nifty episode (delusional)

i do love nifty more than the rest of these ones tho. i see lots of folks talking about how nifty is alastors daughter or angel dusts little baby daughter SHUT UP

SHES 25 YEARS OLD AND MURDERED HER HUSBAND IN HER SLEEP. NIFTY CALLED ALASTOR OVER TO HAVE THEIR LUNCH DATE AND HIDE THE BODY!!!

OK maybe nifty lives in my dreams too

do you think theyve explored each others bodies?

mimzy makes me mad cuz the show hated having her there clearly, like why is she the only fat person in hell. dont worry girl, I'll appreciate you once again i have to make alastor a dyke for my own sanity

do you think they-

lilith and rosie are good to look at, i like how rosie talks and her showtunes, god i love her show tunes. pentious is the only yellow dude in hell. velvete looks like ass most of the time but I LOVE A BAD BITCH

like i said, no strong feelings

ok most of these dudes are too ugly or too annoying and i hate when they are on screen, lucifers pants are his skin, angel dust has the worst fashoin sense ever UGHS I HATE HIM WHERE ARE HIS TITS WAAAAAA

also i love that her name is sarah, thats such a basic name, like i can type alastor x reader and theres a bunch of results but if i typed sarah x reader, shes no where :(

also shes got that mlp horse face going on i love it

i despise carmilla carmine, i hate her dumb horns, i hate her unnamed daughters, i hate her skirt, i hate her song, i hate her blazed ass eyes, i hate her long hair

vox just looks bad i cant lie

OK ADUM MAKES ME SO MAD HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN JACK BLACK WE SHOULD HAVE SEEN HIM BEING A FAT BASTARD CUZ I WAS CONVINCED HE WAS ANOTHER SKINNY TWINK also i am an anti shipper when it comes to adum x lute cuz that shit is weaaaak. he is so mean to her and not in a hot way, adum is some incel and lute is a goddess

yeah, #adumisoverparty 2024 the most divorced man in heaven

i can not wait for season two dude, im so pumped

[fuckthisloser]

I wasnt as StarStruck as I was.

I dont know where else to post this without it getting the wrong attention and others getting the wrong idea, but truth be told Im not slandering his name nor am I saying hes a bad person. But my experience wasnt as warm as i thought it would be like everyone else's. Now, what youre reading is my personal opinion & experience, mine alone. Take this with a grain of salt.

I knew about Neil at 8 years old when I watched "The Discovery of Heaven" with my mother. Since then I learned more of his work as an actor and sooner or later started to follow suit. Lost my passion for acting and went straight to work, Neil popped back into my life as heisenberg and became a fan again.

I got a chance this past march to see him at fan expo 2024 in Phoenix Arizona and get an autograph, really wanted to make this worth it, but could only afford sunday. I bought him a pancho(gaban) as a gift for him to take home from mexico(i live in rio rico,az) knowing he likes learning about other cultures. I got there, got Maggie Robertsons autograph (no complaints there, worth it) before I got in line for Neils'. Let the anticipation begin.

7 HOURS later of waiting in line, which I wont complain about cause he went through VIP first, I get It. Aside from what I heard, was that Neil had a plane to catch straight after the con, alright I should make this quick and painless as possible for him. When I came up and I first made eye contact, It wasnt cold. But absent.

It felt rushed, and he had every right. But I genuinely dont remember our conversation except Me remembering giving him the poncho (which he wanted to refuse but took it anyway). He joked if its gonna fit in his suitcase, funny. While someone else joked if he was actually gonna take it home. Heartbreaking, yet understanding. He signed my autograph book, got the picture and gave me a partial hug over the table. Even the hug felt empty.

That 5 minute walk back to where I was staying really made me think What the fuck actually happened. I didnt feel warm, I didnt feel happy, nor complete. I genuinely thought that meeting him might light that spark of me wanting to be an actor again but better off as a comedian considering I felt like a joke. Now I know that my experience shouldnt be compared to everyone elses but I genuinely felt underappreciated. I shouldnt, but still hurt. To this day, I still dont know whether or not he took the pancho home with him, I would have rather have taken it back.

But like Neil Newbon said in his own stream, "Dont ever meet your heroes folks."

[ganondoodle]

so, been thinking would you want me to redesign the zonau for the rewrite project too?

botw alone barely has any info about them so i would take totk as a basis but move them closer to what we had in botw (mainly more nature based)

personally i dont like how perfect and sterile all about the totk zonau look, tho i dont want them to be "barbaric" as botws only description has it but still move them to something more .. natural, and perhaps make them more of an underground species, which would be a neat paralel to the shiekah who were all about the stars, and tho both cultures never truly met their tech does in a way and both reached to the part of the world most foreign to them (shiekah reaching into the earth despite them being more astrological, the zonau having reached to the heavens despite having come from below the ground; perhaps its bc of that that they found old remnants of the long forgotten past there in the depths, and reached to the folks above to warn them of ancient dangers- ... whoop im coming up with more ideas ..)

[loemius]

im too like fuzzy from cough syrup to answer YOUR question-- Hephaestus is associated with copper specifically from my understanding, but I know a lot of modern helpol folks associate him with stuff like computers, the internet, metal in general. Hephaestus needs some love, whats some other things you associate him with, either upg or historically (I kinda like thinking of him as the god of disability aids like wheelchairs and prosthetics)

OH BOY I LOVE THIS QUESTION!!!!! i love hephaestus and i am so glad to spread some love for him. thank you for this fantastic question <333 historically speaking: -cranes! paper cranes are really fun and easy to make and would be an awesome votive for him. -donkeys! i think about this one a lot and his myth with dionysus where he'd been cast out of olympos and dionysus was the one who came after him and was able to convince him to return, and he rode back on a donkey: "One of the Greek legends is that Hephaistos, when he was born, was thrown down by Hera. In revenge he sent as a gift a golden chair with invisible fetters. When Hera sat down she was held fast, and Hephaistos refused to listen to any other of the gods save Dionysos--in him he reposed the fullest trust--and after making him drunk Dionysos brought him to heaven." [theoi.com, Pausanias 1.20.3] i mean just look at him on his steed. i love it. [also sourced from theoi.com]

-this is a weird one but chains. he's got a lot to do with chains, from the aforementioned binding of hera to the net of chains to capture ares and aphrodite in their affair to the binding of prometheus. i havent quite developed my thoughts on this yet, but i think it's very interesting. -hammers. he's often seen depicted with his hammer, and of course he helped zeus give birth to athena by using his hammer to split his head open. having experience in metalworking really made me appreciate this more, because there are SO many different kinds of hammers and using the wrong one can completely change the outcome of your work. also, its hard work! makes me think more about just how strong lord hephaestus is to make such grand works. -i think about him a lot with jewelry making, since he's got quite a few historically attested pieces of jewelry that he's made. upg: -i also associate him with mobility aids of all kinds. i also think about him and apollo working together to make medical technology, which means a lot to me as someone who's had health struggles. -i also associate him with computers too. i pray to him when my technology doesnt work LMAO -tobacco. i liked to smoke a cigarette with him before id go into the metal shop (dont smoke please its terrible for you) -the smell of metal. weird one but id go into the metal shop and take a sniff and be like :') ahhhhh hephaestus. i worked a lot in copper and bronze bc theyre soft and cheap metals, and the smell of copper on your hands after spending hours on the jewelers saw... like nothing else in this world. -soldering. when i learned to solder i would pray to him to help me do it well and get a good solder. it is harder than you think, especially when working in silver which can and WILL melt if you're not careful enough. it really made me appreciate how diligent and patient he must be. on a similar note, annealing metal also made me think of him. annealing is the process of heating and quenching metal to strength it once it gets too soft and you are quite literally just blasting it with a torch until it’s red hot. takes so much patience and carefulness. -open flame cooking. he's associated with fires after all and just. tossing something on the grill or over a campfire always makes me think of him. i also think of zeus when i grill things but i dont have a reason for that other than grilling is dad behavior and he is the ultimate dad. -LEGOS. any time i play with legos i am thinking about him. its the building aspect and the creativity. -really i think about him, athena, and apollo a lot when i'm creating, especially 3d works for hephaestus. i'm pursuing a bfa so i make a lot of things, and i think a lot about his skill and dedication to the craft when i make them.

thank you so so much for this ask!!! i loved answering this and would love to hear others thoughts on this <3 gods bless you with health and happiness!!!

[send-up-my-heart-to-you]

this is far overdue, so heres an introduction post

• you can call me queenie, im keeping my real name anonymous • muslim (feel free to ask any questions, idm, theres no stupid questions only misinformation) • minor • my birthday is march 20th, astrology is full of shit because i am the epitome of a gemini but apparently im a pisces ??? no • she/her • poc • intp (i know way too much about mbti and not enough about other forms of typology, like socionics, enneagram, etc) • self-diagnosed autistic • my special interests include writing (either original work or fanfics) and psychology • hobbies include hyperfixating, reading, writing, listening to music, and ranting to my friends about books ive recently read

on this blog pretty much all i do is talk about my fandoms, which may include:

• riordanverse • shadowhunters • the folk of the air • the ascendance series • heartstopper • anne with an e

(its mostly the first two tho)

and then the slew of anime i watch, which ill link here

my asks are also open in case youd like to request headcanons or fanfics, but obviously i cant do it if i dont know the fandom, so please if its anything anime/manga related, i cant guarantee that ill know it, so try to include the name in the ask

i also have a side blog @queenie-says-free-palestine. dont think i need to clarify what the posts are abt

uquiz masterlist (uquizzes i made):

• assigning you an ascendance series kin • choose something about me and ill decide if i like you or not • i assign you a percy jackson kin except the questions are stupid

more to come

kinlist here

my tags:

#queenie doesnt shut up #eka asks

dni if you are:

• zionist • ableist • sexist (that counts as misogyny OR supporting #killallmen) • racist • religiophobic (including antisemitism) • xenophobic • proshipper • sexualise minors (real OR fictional. idc if you age them up)

masterlist of my writing

i do have an ao3 account, which i will link here, but i only have like two works up on there as of april 2023

i also have a wattpad account, but its just the same fics as my ao3 account

also please follow the writing blog i made with my friendsss

tagging people who deserve some love:

irl: @itadori-yujiii - sister who is always on the receiving end of my rants @tinadablackthorn - other sister, sometimes forget she exists tbh @greenmanwiththesauce - asshole friend who exists solely to make me question my existence @velversess - my parabatai ily @1tomie1 - one of my irl friends who is literally me but not really @maybecordelia - cousin but also best friend also my fangirl buddy 🫶🫶 @ada-apolog1st - frenemy 😘😘

online (all of which are very cool people w amazing taste) @aliciasfantasyxox - online-friend-in-law we have not conversed but hello @moondust-on-the-hijabi - one of the first friends i made on here :D lovely lady lin rules over EVERYTHINGGG @that-multi-fandom-hijabi - ARAB MUSLIM AROACES UNITE !!!! @nerdy-girl3791 - showed up one day n i love seeing you around yes hello @sleepy-vix - someone who likes heartstopper, bsd, sk8, thats hot people shit right there @loife1m - LOLLIPOP :DD my love you are a breath of heaven walking upon this beautiful earth STAY STRONG BABES @someonewhogotanaccount - rambling twinsies whos basically a confused n optimistic me @heartstars - MY LITTLE SISTER I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH @reyna-obsessed - my darling mini come lets be gremlins together @hijabi-desi-bookworm - STOP CALLING ME [redacted nickname] OR I SWEAR TO GOD ILL SMITE YOU (jk ily esme<33)

yea thats pretty much it, may update later idk

[fipindustries]

tagged by @st-justt-just these are always an issue for me because i dont have a "Playlist" of any kind, i just let youtube put together playlists on my recomendations page so with that in mind, lets see what comes up.

Bradinsky on violin - [tetris tengen] by bradis fuller - funny thing about this, you may hear it and think "ah yes, a song inspired by classical russian folk music". in reality is a fully original song made by the composer. hence the BRAD-insky.

Ya te vas a mejorar (speed up) - el cuarteto de nos - i like this version of the song about a guy who gets brain damage and becomes a chainsaw murderous maniac over the original. is not quite nightcore but its certainly more energetic.

Aikendrum - Ewan Maccoll - i got this out of a cute webcomic about jekyll and hyde. i have no idea what this song is about but i sure do love the scottishness of it all. aikendrum aikendrum is a great catchphrase.

As your father i expressly forbit it - Neil cicierega - the theme of this song is so weird for a neil cicierega song. is about such a intimate, mundane topic and the double punch of this and earn my life is actually kind of brutal to hear in spirit phone.

Noches de boda - Joaquin sabina - i fucking love the intro of this song by chavela vargas, i remember when i first heard this song i thought it was some old guy but no it was one of the most famous female singers from mexico. as an argentinian there is something delightful about hearing a spaniard and a mexican singing together like old friends. great fucking song to sing drunk out of your ass at 4 in the morning

El cisne que ladra - maria elena walsh - my love for children songs continues undaunted, specially the songs by elena walsh. there is something very otherverse about this song in particular because its about a thieving swan who goes to a lake one night and steals a treasure hidden in that lake. then the next morning when the sun comes out you cant see the treasure anymore because the swan stole it but it turns out the treasure were the night stars being reflected on the lake, its just so beautifully poetic

California heaven [mashup of california girls by kathy perry and heaven by envy, plus a bunch of other songs] - Jason rollins - i just discovered this guy a few weeks ago because he just started doing this a few months ago and he turned out to be such an incredibly strong entry in the genre of weird, deep fried, dense mashups. i highly reccomend to listen to the rest of his channel

Octopus garden -the beatles - i saw a documentary about why the beatles broke up recently and knowing that this song was composed by ringo as the team was going through deep tensions and fights about to separate makes this song so much more heartbreaking. ringo just wanted for him and his friends to get along and be happy on an octopus garden beneath the sea. jesus dude, me too.

Desaparecido - Manu chao - weirdly political song for what i usually listen to. a song about the experience of illegal immigrants living in the united states without papers. one funny thing about manu chao is that he is famous for many spanish songs that talk about the hardships of the latin american experience and the guy is fucking french. i genuenly could not have been able to tell just from listening to him.

Brindo por las mujeres - Los rodrigez - just a fantastic song by one of my favourite singers from my country, andres calamero. another great fucking drinking song to yell drunk off your ass with friends at 4 in the morning and frankly a great way to end this list

honestly i am rather proud of how incredibly ecclectic is this list, i think this is a pretty good crossection of the wide range of my musical tastes

im tagging @not-terezi-pyrope @ericvilas and @mrcatfishing

[weebnotheree]

꧁༺♡⚜『𝑆𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝟚 - 𝑀𝑟. 𝐶𝑟𝑦𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑙 𝑥 𝑅𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟』⚜♡༻꧂[PT2]

𓂀 ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟚 𓂀

Im glad this was finally out on a platform I have now! ENJOY!

𝕍𝕠𝕥𝕖 - 𝕊𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕖 - 𝔽𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕠𝕨

_____________________________

~ Not good enough ~

"Thanks, Mr. Moon" Johnny said chuckling.

"Yeah!" Gunter agreed, coming into the conversation. "I think we pretty much nailed itt!" he finished.

"So, i-is she here?" Rosita asked walking up to Moon. He nodded and motioned them to follow. The audience could be heard laughing as they approached. He moved the curtain slightly and pointed towards a lady. "There. See the dog, middle third row?"  

Rosita smiled "Oh, she's younger than I imagined"

He turned to them. "Yeah, well, supposedly, she's the best scout in show business" "I can't tell if..if she's enjoying it" Meena said tilting her head. "Come on, let's get a better view" he said as they followed him onto a wooden plank big enough to fit all of them that was attached to a pulley and pulled the lever.  

[Rabbit] "This I know"

[Rabbit 2] "He told me 'Dont worry about it' He told me 'Dont worry no more.' We both know we can't go, without it[music fades]"

They rushed over after Moon to Ms. Crawly. "And how we doing over here, Miss Crawly?" "Oh, very good, Mr. Moon" she looked through her telescope again. "So far, I counted nine smiles, two belly laughs, and five chuckles. Uh, though the last one could've just been gas."

"Well, that's proof, right? She must like the show" he said as he looked at everyone. "Oh, my gosh. You think so?" "I hope so" The two girls said as they smiled. "All right, now, keep up the good work. Come on, everybody, back to positions" Then they began heading back. "She'd be, like, cuckoo not to love the show" Gunter said as he left. Moon sighed happily. "Dream big dreams. [looks over at her]That's what I always said, right?" 

"Mm-hmm"

"Well, looks like we're about to take this show to the entertainment capital of the world" "Mr. Moon, she's leaving!" "Huh?" he said as he quickly grabbed the telescope and threw his paper aside to see. "She's leaving the show" 

"He told me 'You'll never'..."

She was in fact leaving, now walking in the open space of the red carpet heading towards the door. He gasped before jumping on top of the pole, handing her the telescope "Miss Crawly, stay right here" "What are you gonna do?" "I'm gonna follow that dog" He then jumped and hung from a light on a pulley. Then landed next to Nana with a grunt. She was startled and looked at him. "Good heavens!" "Hey, Nana!"  She fanned herself as he looked around. "What are you doing?"

"The scout is leaving" he said as they both got up to look. Yep, she was indeed heading out the door and also looking at her phone. "Ah, so she is. Hurry" And so he did.  

The monkey, who was standing at the double doors opened the second door for her. She nodded with a thank you, looking at her phone still. Luckily he caught her in time. "Uh, Suki? Suki Lane?[sighs/walks down the stair to her] I'm Buster Moon. Uh, hi. So glad you could make it. Um, would you like some popcorn?" She shook her head not looking away from her phone "Oh, no, thanks. I'm not staying for the second half, so..."

"Oh. But, uh, we thought you were enjoying it. I mean, not that we were watching you or anything" "It really is a cute little show. [looks at a poster in front/chuckles]Just not what we're looking for" 

"But-but wait. Y-You got to see the second act. I'm-I'm telling you, [chuckles] it's a smash."

She stops and puts her phone away. "Okay, Mr. Moon, can I be honest?" "Of course" "Are you sure? 'Cause folks say that when they don't really mean it" "No, please, please, be as honest as you like"

"You're not good enough" then she opens the door entrance "What?" lifting a hand. "Taxi![looks back at him]You know, maybe I will have that popcorn.[goes to taxi] Look, you've got a nice little local theater here, and it's great for what it is, but trust me, you'd never make it in the big leagues. Take Mrs. L/n for example. You need to be that good. Bye, now" she says as the window rolls up and she gets her phone back out. 

Moon was shocked at what she said. "Well, what did she say?" Nana asked walking quickly over to him. He looked at her "Ill be right back" and-

Suki was talking on her phone to someone. "Nah. Mm-mm. [eats a popcorn]A few laughs, bunch of quirky ideas. But, anyway, about Thursday..." There was a tap on the window as she was about to eat another popcorn. She looked over to see "Oh my..." "Yeah, hi. It's me again. [gasps/paddles faster]Whoa whoa" "I'll call you back. [rolls window down]Are you out of your mind?" "When are you holding auditions?" 

She stammered. "Tomorrow. But there is no way you'll-" "Uh, listen, it-[HONK HONK]" A red vintage car pulled up to the side of them with a hippo driving it. "Get out of the road, you idiot!" "Hey, do you mind? I'm in a meeting here. [looks at her]Could-could you at least give us a chance to try out for your boss?" he asked still managing to hold onto the car. 

She slightly shook her head and looked forward. "Driver, could you please lose this maniac?" the window began rolling up. "Wait, wait, wait, wait. Hold on a second. [car turns fast]No, no, no, no!" Buster on the bike went super fast plus going down stairs, into the air, and into the river.  As a whale came up the crowed groaned, Buster looked around thinking they were cheering for him[they cheer]..he waved and smiled, then it blew water out and Buster went flying..the crowd groaned again. 

Buster walked back to the  theater sadly and slowly dripping wet. 

["Goodbye Yellow Brick Road" by Elton John playing] 

Slowly walking up the stairs he looked over at the poster, it said

'𝐀𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐖𝐎𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝' 

{"𝙔𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙨 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙩!" - 𝘿𝙖𝙞𝙡𝙮 𝙋𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙤𝙩}{"𝙎𝙪𝙥𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙛𝙪𝙣" - 𝙂𝙖𝙯𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚}

♪ When are you gonna come down? ♪

♪ When are you going to land? ♪

♪ I should have stayed on the farm ♪

♪ I should have listened to my old man ♪

♪ You know you can't hold me forever ♪

♪ I didn't sign up with you ♪

He blowdrys himself. 

♪ I'm not a present for your friends to open ♪ Next thing you know, shows over and animals were leaving.

♪ This boy's too young to be singing ♪

♪ The blues ♪

♪ Ah, ah-ah, ah, ah ♪ Nana was looking for him by the doors where he left her. "Mr. Moon?"

♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪ She went back stage, not there. Clothes/ccostume rack, not there.

♪ So goodbye, yellow brick road ♪ His office and flipped on the lightswitch and tapped her chin with her fan. 

♪ Where the dogs of society howl ♪

♪ You can't plant me in your penthouse ♪

♪ I'm going back to my plow ♪ Looked behind the couch, not there either.

♪ Back to the howling old owl in the woods ♪ Under the desk, not there. Going behind the desk..looking at.

♪ Hunting the horny-back toad-♪ Nana hit the radio and it turned off, staring at the drawer. She opened it and was startled. "Oh, for heaven's sake" He sighed. "What can I say, Nana? I'm a failure"   

"Oh, poppycock" she said walking away from behind the desk. "I was reaching too high" 

"Honestly, one negative comment, and it's all, "Woe is me.""saying as she dramatically put her hand on her forehead walking to around the room. "Nana, come on. She said I'm not good enough. I mean, heck, I've just been told that my destiny, all of my hopes and dreams, uh, they all end right here" he told her. She rolled her eyes at his dramaticness.  

"Well, what did you expect? That she would drop to her knees and declare you a genius? Roll out the red carpet for the great Buster Moon!"

"She-she ran me off the road into a canal" "Well, you're still in one piece, aren't you?"

 "Well, yeah, but-" "Well, anyone who dares set out to follow their dreams is bound to face a lot worse than a dip in the canal. [Penguine Hobbs walks in]Ah, Hobbs. I found him. Uh, bring the car round, will you?[he leaves] There's a good chap"she looks at Buster. "I-I... I just thought she'd at least see we deserved a shot" 

"Never mind what this person you don't even know said. Do you think you're good enough?"

"Of course, but-" "Then you must fight for what you believe in. Guts, stamina, faith. These are the things you need now, and without them... Well, maybe that scout was right. [walks out]Maybe you're not good enough" he watched her leave and looked away in thought. Nana leaned back and looked at him before leaving.

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Tossing and turning in his bead as cars drove by. He then put his pillow over his head..and for a few seconds stayed there...before moving it off and looking at the ceiling for a few seconds. Guess Nana's words really got to him. 

He went down the stairs, clothes already on. Unlocked a big suitcase(bc its big compared to him) and filled it with costumes, hats, and props he made. It was kind of hard to close but he managed. 

Now he's walking down the street talking on the phone. "Oh, I... No, I know, Rosita, but trust me on this. It'll be totally worth it. And listen, I'm outside her place now, so can you call the others and have 'em meet up in half an hour? Great. Thank you" 

. . . . . ╰──╮˚ ༘♡ ��｡˚╭──╯ . . . . .

I hope you enjoyed this chapter u-u. Thank you for reading it. Even thought I don't have the same motivation like I did when I wanted it to be streaming on platforms but I still have ideas for it and I'll keep doing writing aka finish this book so yeah, don't worry. 

𝚅𝚘𝚝𝚎 - 𝚂𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚎 - 𝙵𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠

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[ihavenothingtodo10220]

do u ever think how in life we are told to aim for so much success and reach our full potential but then every other average person including celebs, idols etc etc are or have already done so, so why should we also need so much wealth or why should we need to put ourselves out there.

im constantly torn between wanting a simple affordable life that id be happy with maybe in the countryside (but its not affordable nowadays to live simply we still have to slave away) and the other side is that i have a need to constantly prove myself and to gain some type of recognition cause we are always told from kids to aim for the top paying jobs etc etc, most of that is what celebs have or do. i mean it cant always be that great what do rich ppl keep buying for each other dont they run out of things to own eventually cause they already own most rich people items?

fair enough if celebs and idols have talents but i dont im not even remotely pretty enough to do whatever it is they do but again its alwayd the what if i wouldve done things differently, maybe it would feel less narcissitic to want a bit of what celebs have if i already had done something differently yonks ago

the other issue is i no longer feel so attached to society if at all like i dont care to succeed i dont care to fail, im neither fussed if im alive or dead it just dont matter to me anymore, in the end the only thing thats going to happen is i will eventually pass away so no ones exactly going to miss me even in death or heaven as people still have their own lives i wouldnt or havent been anyone special at all

its almost saying how it only matters if its someone rich and famous so we have to be a somebody in order to be remembered otherwise we generally end up being a nobody as it is the way the internet goes into meltdown when celebs pass away as if it wasnt to be expected at some point. but if we arent on social media or we dont have a following we honestly do not matter even if we dont have partners or social group either like im so irrelevant no one gonna notice bar immediate family if i stop existing rofl

the way we have to do everything via a screen and screens are everywhere doesnt help me at all cause i feel further distanced from folk and like i dont belong, i dont need nor want a following but its almost being forced on all of us like people.

even idols cant do anything without needing to show their fans but the idols wouldnt notice every single fan to ever exist would they? all the interactions with celebs that fans have is always monentary or beifly. stays even treat bangchan like a long term permenanttherapist friend. yet neither if them truly know one another, so why do we get so attached to the idea of having thoughts and feelings towards someone whos never going to know us so again it dont matter if we do or dont exist as long as these idols and celebs briefly have enough fame for them to get by

but then what am i someone who just does nothing for a living cause i dont want what others want out of life if that makes sense? i either end up feeling like im from the wrong era dont belong with my generation dont belong with next generations would probably have preferred being in previous generations when things were simpler and affordable

sorry if this ask is a bit morbid, nihilistic or pessimistic i have so many mixed thoughts and feelings about existing lately what do you think? i mean obviously there is much narcissism in the world as it is so wouldnt we just be adding to it? am i just having nearly mid life crisis early? idfk anymore

Honestly people tell you to aim high because not only is it the best way to survive, but also because you can easily improve things. Many people who’ve done a lot were considered sub par, and the main reason they did was pure spite to the people who looked down on them and had more, and then they eventually became those people. It’s a cycle, and it’s human nature. And in this society, whether we like it or not, only the successful can truly be sure they can make it. Even middle-class families can easily crash and burn in the blink of an eye with losing their job and end up without anything to eat. But the successful don’t really have to worry about that, because they have a lot to fall back on. Things are also getting more and more expensive, and only the wealthy can really keep up with that. It’s sad, but reality.

And yeah, I think fans put so much pressure on idols because they’re just that. Idols. They idolize them and see them as these perfect beings far above any and everything, and they delude themselves into thinking they can be with them one day. So if an idol makes one wrong move, or dates someone, that false image comes crashing down. You don’t see that in the west simply because we don’t idolize celebrities to that same capacity. To us they’re not necessarily idols, and they’re much more open about their humanity.

[soupsnspoons]

everything behind your thena redesign thought process 🤲 hand it over

OKOKOKOKOKOK

first off, apologies if this ends up sounding messy and rambly, im very excited and im not gonna proof read this after sdjkgnbdsjk

second, i dont remember half the stuff that went on in my head since it was way too fast-paced to keep up with and again. it was 2am.

okay now on to the thoughts i *do* remember

here's original young thena's design for reference:

(sidenote, there apparently is no picture of her with her headphones where she doesnt look sad and/or traumatized so.)

do you see that bunny bag she has? the bunny bag that is never mentioned or alluded to anywhere in the game because its canonically just. something that has no significance to her character or story?

well *I* like bunnies, think more people should, and believe that athena loved bunnies AND SPACE like the awesome person she is so i shoved all that into her design!!!!!!

(ALSO if you would go to ashen’s blog and look for their art, youd see some pictures of their young athena design which SHES SO CUTE OH MY GOD and you might notice that the antennae look kinda like a certain animals ears)

since she doesnt really get much backstory other than things that surrounded gyaxa, it gives me total freedom to be the sole person deciding her canon state as a kid!!

so im saying right here right now, athena has/had a bunny and space obsession.

(and because i always have to tie my headcanons to myself in some way shape or form, i hc shes really good at rhythm games and her favorite game is bunny hop from rhythm heaven <33)

(she has bad taste in rhythm heaven games <33)

TIME TO TALK SPECIFICS

i wanted to show more of a difference between her 18 and 11yo selves without doing anything too drastic so i made her kid pallet more blue than yellow, the opposite of her lawyer fit

i also gave her pigtails so that she looks more child-like, and to give more of that bunny feeling

of course i had to keep her bangs the same!! she wouldnt look much like athena without those funky bangs

OH OH OH ALSO HER HEAD PUH-HOHN-EES

okokok so yknow how her headphones were made by metis?

well why not cater to her daughters interests and make them space bunny themed?

i like the idea more than i like the execution but it wasnt bad by any means jsdkhngjksd

her bracelet was nothing special, i just wanted her to have some accessory and wasnt feeling super creative at the time

yeah i know she has her whole moon necklace thing, but i dunno i just. didnt like it?

theres nothing wrong with it i just dont like it

anyway, her boots seem to be the last thing i can think of at the moment to talk about but is honestly the most boring part

theyre just boots that look like bunny feet, but theres a secret on the bottom...

THE BOTTOMS LOOK LIKE THIS

YES i stole this straight from Maxwell DeSoto do NOT ask who that is and YES i know that rabbits dont have paw pads but SHUT UP THIS IS MY REDESIGN I CAN DO WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT WITH THEM

ahem

anyway

might follow this up if i think of anything else, or for an update, or whatever

thanks for coming folks, youve been an amazing crowd.

(this is MUCH shorter than i thought it would be, youve been spared. for now.)

[rainbowgod666]

You know what? I kind of HAVE to expand on this.

I *literally* never thought I could even REMOTELY get to 18 and enjoy it. Now im 19and5months and am going to finish school. I dont care i realized i should've taken art and not psychology (or Human Sciences as we call em here) 5 years too late. Fuck that shit i can be the empath tiktokers think they are

Speaking of school- its VERY FUNNY how so many world events are conjoined to my life events. I started 1st Superior being like "time to Grow tf up then! My mama and papa are right, theres a life outside of my brain and-" WAKEY WAKEY ITS XI JIN PENIS AND HE JUST PULLED OUT OF HIS ASS THE FUNNY LETHAL INFLUENZA HAHAHAJAHAHAJAJAJAJA ENJOY NOT HAVING SOCIAL SKILLS YOU DUMB BIETCHƏ

Life. Just life.

The fuckign song that goes "soon ill be 60 years old" soon my fucking ass immortality will be a thing by the time i get to 50 (supposing it becomes ILLEGAL in america to have any political seat, no matter how local or global, after the age of 50).

The feeling that everyone around you is SO. Fucking incompetent at existing. Like ffs im lazier tmthan sans undertale and weigh like an indian elephant and have no idea what things are yet i know EXACTLY when and how is someone else wrong. Yes its annoying being Worse Cimmerian, thankyouverymuch

G i f t e d K i d B u r n o u t ~

The fact that i genuinely feel better hugging THIS thing

Yeah i canonically own a blahaj.

Anyways.

The problem of society is that everything is extremely fucking fast. That one MatPat video was correct, but its not just youtube.

Its everything

And i will fucking tear to shreds reality itself, heaven and hell, time and space- if i get caught in the fucking squidward destroyer of capitalism.

Its MY rat race. And heavens willing, i WILL have a say in what i get at the end of the lap, and WHEN i get it. Its MY cheese, My rules.

Pirate games, donate to transgender folks who have been kicked out. Read SCP. Vouch for the removal of JKR from everything ever and also a rewrite of HP. Learn how to hack the pentagon, best case scenario you become the new @nyancrimew. Travel the world. If you see a gang of any kind keep a fully loaded machine gun chambered in .50 BMG. Donate blood. Divert all funds from autism speaks (and PLEASE change the shade of blue- i excuse the puzzle piece, as it can be given new meaning. BUT NOT THE DESATURATED ASS DIEP.IO ASS MUFUKIN BLUE BLUES OF FUCKING INSIDE OUT'S SADNESS ASS. FUCK THAT LAME SHIT.) into better ORGs. Vote pro-trans representatives. Visit my country of italy (ignore the screaming youtubers and the multiversal diharrea of memes and hentai). Study for that dream job you've always wanted. Make a youtube channel and say fuck you to the algorythm. Grab old electronics from anywhere you can, salvage them, and megalovania the balls out of technology. Call out anyone that uses the name of God to excuse anything bad and fucking stomp on their skulls like its the last episode of TOH season 2. And to Ouroboros this shit- pirate anything from your childhood.

If you cant get off the chains, use them to choke your oppressors to death.

You know what people don’t talk about often enough? Playing catch up in life after spending your teens or early 20s suicidally depressed. There’s so many more layers than just being able to say “I don’t want to die anymore.”

The difficulty in academia or a career after spending years thinking you wouldn’t be alive long enough for any of it to matter.

The exhaustion that comes from self awareness and self soothing, with the constant voice in your head saying “don’t go backwards.”

How lonely it is to watch the people your age starting families when you’re just barely learning what stable relationships are, and the sudden societal pressure of being “up against a clock” for these kinds of things.

The judgement from others if you change your image or interests this late in the game just because you finally figured out who you really are under the demons.

Be kind to those who are developing and blooming after years of not planning on being here long. We are living a life we absolutely didn’t think we’d have, and it’s hard enough without society reminding us there’s expectations of our age.

We didn’t get to be young; we were too busy fighting battles few know.

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[troddensodden]

2 & 6 for ur fallout ocs? :3

oh man! this took a while. and i was considering including my synth oc, but im still kinda working on fleshing him out and soooo it was too difficult anyway lets go

(answers below the cut)

2-- "Does your character have any noteworthy features? Freckles? Dimples? A scar somewhere unusual? etc."

cedric (fo4): freckles!!! hancock likes to tease him about them (preston quite likes them too. his boyfriends all do, actually, but !!!) also he definitely does have a few scars, mostly on his arms and torso from combat, both in the wasteland and the military, which is to be expected. none that are particularly special. one going across his mouth, from a fight that he cant quite remember. and one that he does remember, vividly, is a radiation-caused burn scar in and around his left eye. he hasn't been able to use that eye ever since. generally, he gets injured quite easily, but this is mostly bruises rather than scars (mostly due to a deficiency of vitamins.) he bruises like a ripened peach.

emil (fnv): they do have dimples, actually! and a light speckling of freckles. they dont like how it looks, though, so they cover it up when possible. luckily the dimples are only visible when smiling, and the freckles are only really easy to see when they get a lot of sun exposure, so these markings dont really take away from their "intimidating" appearance. definitely more scars than the other ocs, though they cant remember where any of the scars came from. a few on their face, but mostly all over their body. one that always stuck out to them was one that is almost a perfect ring, going all around their neck. additionally, one of their gauges was ripped out in a fight, and so their ear ripped entirely.

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6-- "If you were to pick one song – and only one song – to describe your character, what would it be and why?"

man this one is a bit difficult but uh, lets give it a shot

cedric: "a sadness runs through him" - the hoosiers; "all our bruised bodies and the whole heart shrinks" - la dispute

hes been through a lot. he really has, over the past two-hundred-something years. his wife died, he lost his child, he was suddenly thrust years into the future with little to no preparation. it isnt easy. and as much as he wants to think, "it made me stronger," its hard not to want to go back. back to when everything was normal, easier. because sometimes he feels like even if it did make him stronger, it also made him emptier. he still feels sympathy for people, but hed never even considered being able to kill someone before, and now suddenly its a constant in his life. he used to look forward to seeing shaun, the light of his life, grow into a man. and now... everything has disappointed him. he didnt want the future to be this way. times have changed, he has changed. and he hates it.

emil: "saint bernard" - lincoln; "sex hat keine macht" - oomph!

theyve always struggled with truly baring themself to someone. partially because they find it unimportant, but also because theyre afraid. so instead their free time is full of drunken hookups and taking advantage of people. they used to feel guilty, but they struggle to anymore. "i lived through it, so can they," is essentially their thought process. as much as they know its wrong, they cant help but defend it in their own mind, that theyve gone through the same thing and it made them stronger. theyre just making those folks stronger, yeah?

again, they know its wrong. but it helps them get through their life, and thats already hard enough, without worrying about others feelings. theyve disappointed enough people, whats a few more? they already arent going to heaven, whats the point anymore?

[ao3gingerswag]

Hello. Saw ur post re: names. Mayhaps the inn is called 'Willow's Inn'? I read a reference to a weeping willow in the most recent chapter where cas' dad taught him to fish under one. It makes me think that there's a willow nearby & maybe it isnt officially called anything at all but travellers who've stayed there & who sometimes return to it call it that. Maybe it started as just a means of identification. 'I'll start today' 'I dont want you spending the night in the forest' 'I'll just stay at an inn' 'which inn' 'the one by the willow' & they pass it on to other weary travellers that they come across, who are looking for a warm place to sleep. 'Walk with the river. You'll come by an old weeping willow & a small inn next to it. The stew is heaven'. Willow's inn. Has a homey feel to it. A familiarity. I think the travellers would be comforted by that.

2/3 On the other hand, though, if it really is the only inn for miles & miles, then there's really nothing wrong with just calling it, 'The Inn'. I've known places like that.

3/3 Alternatively I've been ruminating the idea of it being a 'Dead Man's Inn' of sorts because of its placement & the fact that few people ever pass it twice. You know maybe it's just one of those places frequented by soldiers & hunters, & families who have nothing. Or maybe it's just that kind of place where reality seems to shift just a little bit to the left. You know, the kind of place where everyone there is running from something. Everyone there is looking for something. Everyone there is tired. There is almost a camaraderie b/w all these exhausted, hungry folk. But no community. There are barely any words at all, but there is still conversation. There is still kindness. But not too much. Because compassion makes you invested, & it is an unspoken agreement between every soul in there bar a few that they will never see each other again. You know, those places where every interaction is that much more intense because it feels like it's the last time? Which is ridiculous, because most interactions are like that. Most people we see are people we will never see again, but its different here. Its different in these places, I suppose, because you are more awake. Because though you are tired, you are at peace. Idk there is a certain comfort to be found in being a nameless stranger in a roomful of nameless strangers, in having nothing to say or no one to say it to in a place where no one is eager to break the silence. There is a certain sense of belonging in a place where everyone sticks out like a sore thumb. All dead men seem familiar.

OOooohhh I really like the idea of willow inn thats so homey and nice!!!! i also love the idea for dead man’s inn and think u r extremely correct about the ~vibe~ if the inn bc of how almost everyone is just passing thru <3 <3 however i feel like dead man’s inn is too sad it would make cas sad :( like what if it makes him think of his dad!! :( id cry!! I think im gonna steal ur idea for Willow inn tho thats so sweet and nice :)))))

[beca-mitchell]

i’ve just got back on my bechloe shit for the first time in over and year and i must say i am craving angst? like i want a good cry over them?

1) so glad to have you back…we’ll always be here to welcome u home (yes i stole that from j.k. r*wling) 

2) i’ve been occasionally known to write angst so i like to think i know a thing about two about angst…so here are a few of my personal favorite angst fics also there are so many i’m missing but there are so many fics out there! go forth!!

*mwah*

Forgive Me These November Days

by @obstinate-questionings (12 chapters, 78705 words, complete)

angst-o-meter: medium-high. i cried…in fact rumour has it i never stopped in 2020

Summary: Why Chloe Beale didn’t graduate—and why she finally did—as told through yearly celebrations of Thanksgiving.

notes: yes im gonna shove this fic down ur throats until u accept that it’s probably the most solid Chloe character-study in this fandom

it feels like heaven to me (series)

by kissmeinnewyork (14,937 words, 4 works)

angst-o-meter: low-moderate…god…it hurts so good.

Summary: a collection of bechloe oneshots following their relationship

dream another sunset with you

by captainsabs (4,617 words, complete, warning for character  death)

angst-o-meter: high—i literally couldnt read this again, my eyes are stinging writing this

Summary: and please don’t tell me that I’m dreaming, when all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you. If I roll over when it’s over, I’ll take this Cali sunrise with me, and wake up with the fondest memories.

Barriers

by swanqueenfic13 (30 chapters, 63086 words, complete, warnings for non-con and violence)

angst-o-meter: high!! the content (and please be mindful of content warnings) + the writing…i definitely cried.

Summary: Beca meets Chloe at an LA Pride parade, but fate keeps bringing them back together. In the face of a tragedy, Beca has to learn to let down her walls and rely on others.

Petrichor 

by @suituuup (15,120 words, complete, warning for character-death)

angst-o-meter: pretty fucking high, strap in folks

Summary: Beca wants to scream, let the world know how wrong this feels. How she can’t imagine being Beca without Chloe in her life. How she will never be okay in her life again if Chloe is not a part of it.

notes: still one of my fave angst fics. i stand by it.

in the middle of my chaos, there was you

by themetgayla (3,029 words, complete)

angst-o-meter: moderate/medium, you might tear up or your heart will clench

Summary: “You’ll hate me, just like Jesse does. He wanted something I couldn’t give him and now he hates me. Do you know what he called me, Chloe? Unlovable. And I am; he’s right.”

or

the one where beca’s asexual and worries chloe won’t accept her for who she is.

meet me in the afterglow

by @chloebeale​ (5121 words, complete, warning for smut)

angst-o-meter: moderate

Summary: Just a few days ago, she and Chloe were talking about going on vacation to Disneyworld and now here Beca is, alone in her kitchen on a Sunday evening, worried about liking her own girlfriend’s Instagram post.

hold on (i still need you)

by @backtobasicbellas​ (9,545 words, complete)

angst-o-meter: moderate/maybe lower. B just has such a good way of writing angst and tension…and this one just happens to have a happy ending.

Summary: Chloe lets out a small sigh of relief. At least Beca’s going to be okay. She’ll be fine. She’s—

Fuck. Beca is on the other side of that door. Beca, who she hasn’t spoken to in months.

suffocating (i’m tearing up, across your face)

by @teacupsandbechloe​ / @paintedviolet​ (19,908 words, complete)

angst-o-meter: low, but still angsty. dont look at me.

Summary: You’re 18 when you discover that your life isn’t always going to be like this, that you’re not always going to be walking around with the chains locked and ready around your neck.

Wishingbone

by Kapua (9,709 words, 3 chapters, complete, warning for non-con)

angst-o-meter: high!! beware of content warning!

Summary: Chloe’s got a past, and it’s keeping her from giving Beca everything she wants. 

notes: i actually go back to this fic a lot…idk why. it’s written really well and i think there’s something about it since it was written in the PP2 era…untainted by PP3.

Passing Ships

by scrappymitchell (81,594 words, 17 chapters, complete)

angst-o-meter: low/low-medium.

Summary: Post-PP3—Beca and Chloe have been hiding their feelings from each other for years for their own reasons, but when Beca see’s Chloe finally starting to move on in front of her very eyes she realises how she has messed up on the most important thing in her life and now has to deal with going back to New York and living with Chloe, who now has a boyfriend. The question she now asked herself was if this will make her shut her feelings off for good or will it push her over the edge to blurt her feelings out?

Get A Say

by @asweetmelodytrickling​ (21,924 words, 10 chapters, complete)

angst-o-meter: low-ish…kind of angsty bc i love that good ol’ forbidden love.

Summary: Chloe tells her teenage daughter that she’s started seeing the girl’s Godmother…romantically.

[kibleedibleedoo]

Hero of your own Fate 2/?

Thorin x reader

Warnings - brief mention of mental illness, slow burn

A/n - sorry it's a long one

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~Thorin's POV~

It had been a long detour via the Blue mountains which unfortunately had not born any fruit. All Thorin could think about was a hot meal and a place of safety to sleep tonight. He was getting far too old to be a solitary nomad. His fantasising of his next meal led thorin down his third wrong turn of the evening. The shire was full of winding roads that seemed to follow no logical order in their constuction. Thorin could see the house up on a hill, by mahal he probably could hear the company from back in Bree, but he just could not find the right path to get there and the fading like was offering him no favours.

Thorin watched confused as the heavens seemed to rip open as Bagend was aurrounded by a vrief thunder storm and depositing a girl on top of the hill. From this distance it was hard to tell but she certainly wasnt one of his kin and the clothes she was wearing made ger look out of place in this world. Maybe you were a one of a secretive kind, some even more secretive than dwarves that few even knew the existance of. He watched as you settled yourself and entered the hobbit hole. Something deep inside him was drawn to this unfamiliar woman so deep that Thorin was taken by surprise when he knew how to get to that blasted house, to get to you.

~Reader's POV~

That evening was a whirlwind so much seemed to happen in so little time. The quest was explained along with the risks and contracts were handed out to you and the other burglar Bilbo. It took many by surprise when he fainted at the thought of incineration, sure it would be a bad way to go but an instant death was far more preferable than a long drawn out one, the only one not surprised was the leader of our company Thorin oakenshield. He seemed to react to the hobbit with pure annoyance even going so far as to question him on battle experience upon entering poor Bilbo's home. You had no battle experience at least none in hand to hand combat. You cast your mind back to one of your childhood school trips where you were taught how to fire an arrow and a bit of fencing neither of which you were any good at, at the time which gave you little hope for your ability to fight on this quest. You needed training or you would be a liability and you were positive the whole company knew it.

You took the time during Bilbo's recovery to pull Gandalf aside.

"what am i doing here?" you asked rather annoyed with the wizard.

"You offered to help in the café did you not?" he quipped knowing the answer.

"Yes but there is no point me joining if i am only going to be a liability Gandalf" you huffed, you wanted to help you really did but there was no point volunteering for this quest if it was going to end in your demise or the demise of some of the dwarves before the quest is complete.

"You posess talents aside from fighting that will come in useful that I am sure something that those of middle earth lack" the wizard mused. He was almost certainly keeping something to himself about what you could contribute. Before you could respond he continued "I took the liberty of packing supplies for you, some hygiene products from your home but mainly supplies from here for the journey. They are with your pony at the stables" Your eyes grew wide as you realised the wizard had gone through your things.

"You broke into my house!" you exclaimed in a hushed tone trying to stop any of the dwarves from prying, unfortunately you could not seem to shake the handsome one's peircing gaze. "What if my roommate saw you? omg wait what did you see in my stuff!" at this point you were starting to panic, your roommate had always suffered from anxiety and happening upon a strange man riffling through your stuff wasnt exactly something they would take in their stride.

"I was not seen, and magic comes in useful in your realm too" he chucked "the essentials come to me, they seemed nicely organised so I packed the entire bag for you" mentally you were piecing together what you would be carrying. That bag contained your toothbrush, toothpaste, a few wash cloths, deoderant, conditioner, a spare pair of panties, and some everyday makeup items. Okay so no shampoo, you werent exactly sure when you would get the opportunity to wash your hair while trekking across this world but you had heard others try a no-poo style of washing their hair so that must be what you would have to do from now on. "Along with what is already packed here are a new set of clothes to help you fit in better and if you will let me I can exchange and money you have for coin you can use here." You werent sure exactly where he had stored the fresh clothes but he seemed sincere so you handed your bag over to him.

"Dont touch anything else in there, you only have permission to exchange currency" you said in a stern voice "they might not all work here but they are important to me" you finished softly. You took the clothes to a seperate room and closed the door behind you. It was dark but you still had your phone in your pocket so could use the torch for a while. You silently thanked whatever deity was up there that your parents had got you a solar powered power bank for christmas and it was in your bag, where you always kept it, your phone might run out of battery soon but you knew that you would be able to look through your photos whenever you got homesick on this quest. You turned your attention to the clothes, inspecting each item you noticed the outfit looked like something that would have been worn during the 18th century back home. Luckily your roomate was studing fashion history at the local university so you knew where all the fabric was supposed to go. Gandalf had also been nice and provided you with a corset which did up on the front, looking at them you could almost hear your roommate telling you this style was called a 'pair of bodies' and you chuckled knowing that while this outfit might be more practical than what you were wearing it was still going to be a nuisance to put on and wear all the time. You got undressed and threw the shift over your underwear, not ready to give up your modern bra and pants just yet, next you decided you still wanted to wear your leggings. If you were supposed to learn how to ride a horse tomorrow you sure as hell were going to have some fabric between your skin and the saddle plus it would preserve some of your dignity if you fell off and your skirt flew over your head. Time for the corset, the stomacher was rock hard which you thought might provide some protection, against what you werent quite sure of yet, and the corset was surprisingly easy to lace up at the front. The next item you loved, it was a shame modern women's fashion hated them so much but these bags you tied at your waist formed huge pockets which could fit most of the contents of your bag in without anyone being any the wise. The petticoat and skirt followed and a jacket tied the look together. You decided your doc martens would be far better to wear than whatever flimy shoe gandalf had provided so with your outfit complete you returned to the company.

Gandalf sat there smiling with a bag of coins in his hand. You felt you looked slightly ridiculous, especially since your bosom was more pronounced than in your oversized tee.

"Now you look like you belong here" he took a sip of wine and nodded.

"I might look like it but I have still kept some of my modern luxuries" you responded smugly waving your t-shirt a bit. He smirked handing you over the coins and your backpack back. You stuffed the tshirt in with the rest of your stuff and made a mental note to wear it as a pyjama top.

~Thorin's POV~

Y/N had disappeared off into one of the rooms shortly after her argument with gandalf. It seemed like the company had lost both of their burglars within the space of five minutes. Thorin huffed and sat back next to Balin who was always a source of comfort to him even before Erebor fell.

"We do not have time to delay Balin, if we must leave without them then that is what we must do" Thorin sighed, fewer and fewer folk were supporting this mission a band of 13 dwarves and a wizard was hardly a match for a dragon if Smaug still lived.

"I know lad, have faith this is a worthy quest and mahal would not have forsaken us" Balin smiled reassuringly at Thorin. Balin trusted Thorin like he trusted no other, he knew Thorin would give anything for his people and would do everything in his power to provide them with a place of sanctuary. The pair sat in silence for a few moments when Y/N came out of one of the rooms in a different outfit. The dress made her look like one of them, it fitted her so much better than what she had on before and Thorin found himself staring in awe at her.

"it seems she hadnt given up on us afterall" Balin nudged Thorin grabbing his attention

"aye but does a woman belong on this quest" Thorin sighed "she looks weaker than Dis and we wouldnt allow her to join us"

"she will be fine" Balin was puzzled by Thorin's sudden change in attutude until he realised Thorin was still watching the lass like a hawk. "she will have us to protect her and Im sure you wouldnt mind training her" Balin joked.

"I will not let her presence effect this quest, we will make sure she is trained" Thorin barked back. Both dwarves knew it was already too late just her sheer presence made Thorin reconsider his priorities.