#i dont tend to listen to full playlists

[waterhorseyblues-ao3]

reveal the forbidden good impressions playlist ( if there's any vibes you go to besides the planets anyways ) ( please )

DID I NOT LINK IT ALREADY??? A FAILURE OF MINE!!!!

I actually was listening to the BBC Space podcast while writing it for a few weeks. A lot of my inspo and vibes comes from crying about astronauts ahahahah

[arolesbianism]

Shout out to my poor poor friend who keeps sending me video game songs trying to pin down my music taste like oh buddy I'm so sorry but Penny's battle theme is so small beans compared to the stuff I listen to

[lindamccartneysstrap]

hell0o. i dont know anything about the beatles but i just watched two of us on a whim and have become insane. fic recs please or just any content, news articles interviews idek. help me tumblr use paulmccartneyprostateorgasm

Sorry I haven't been ignoring this I've just been Thinking. The thing is that I've been into the beatles off and on since I was in middle school so it's hard for me to remember like. Beatles 101. But welcome to hell. Two of us is a cwazy intro to mclennon lol.

Ok so I guess the thing is really depends on how serious you wanna be with your idk beatles scholarship? Like at an absolute bare minimum I would skim some wikipedia articles so you know the major people/places/events/eras. There are a zillion beatles bios and docs most of them bad some of them vital. Unfortunately it haven't gone through any of those since I was a teenager so I can't really tell you which is which anymore. I'm sure plenty of other beatles blogs could provide resources if you want them.

Definitely watch get back and let it be. The movies the beatles were in as well but less essential I guess. Advanced Level McCartney Studies but watch give my regards to broad street it's a fascinating reflection of pauls psyche.

I'd look at blogs like @amoralto @thecoleopterawithana @undying-love for references. Probably more upper level stuff but all of pauls interviews are on the paul mccartney project website and I once went through and read all the interviews from the 80s. Full disclosure, the thing about mclennon that compels me the most is the tragedy of it all, so that's where I tend to fixate. But it was a fascinating experience because you can really see paul work through his regrets/grief/resentment/bitterness/pain about john in real time

A word of caution when reading interviews: both of these guys are incredibly untruthful at times. John, after the breakup in particular, could be very hot and cold, especially about paul so don't take everything he says at face value. Paul also lies a lot no matter what anybody tries to tell you he just gets away with it more because he's still alive and people feel bad calling him a liar

Songs. Their songs are very very important. I sometimes see people act like it's stupid to believe things based on the songs. To a point I get it art doesn't have to be literal yadda yadda. But you also gotta consider these guys communicated a Lot to each other through music from the time they were teenagers. Anyway I'd suggest listening to the songs for a more thorough understanding but just reading lyrics I guess is fine. I personally still like going through people's mclennon playlists and analyzing Why people think they're mclennon. Look at the lyrics, go to beatles bible and/or the paul mccartney project and learn about the context, etc.

Okay anyway on to fanfic. If this is your main concern just ignore all the above advice who cares. Also I'm a horrible resource because I always forget what I read. Um @forthlin @menlove @pauls1967moustache have good fics sorry I can never remember any of your ao3 names. Merseydreams (I think it is) has good fics. @crepesuzette2023 does a lot of fic recs I think. One thing that's always fun about beatles fics is when u think something is completely made up and you look it up and it's literally real like wtf. I'm also a bad reference because I'm heavily biased towards early days fics and post breakup fics.

Ok hope this helps even a little bit. Remember the most important rule is to have fun. People take this shit so seriously but it's literally the beatles. But please do fact check that always drives me nuts.

[she-her-cuntboy]

Fantasizing about having a cis boyfriend who talks me into kinkier and kinkier sex, secretly laying the foundations to start detransitioning me. When I realize, im scared, and I go to a friend to talk about my worries. He's trans like me, and agrees that it might be something to keep an eye on, but give him another chance - maybe it has an innocent explanation, and he's not trying to detrans me. Maybe im projecting my own kinks - when's the last time I had sex that wasn't catered to a cis penis? He convinces me to have sex with him, casually, as friends, we've known each other a long time and used to mess around sometimes before I met my boyfriend. It feels so good, but the whole time I feel guilty - what if my boyfriend sees it as cheating? We haven't talked about exclusiveness, and I tend to lean towards polyamory, but if he's monogamous I wouldn't want to do this behind his back. So the moment I come home to him, I break down and confess tearfully.

He listens gravely, and carefully keeps his expression neutral, but I can tell he's hurt. He asks who it was with, and I tell him - he knows my friends. "Oh!" he says. "That's fine, babydoll. Well, I mean- I would have preferred we talked about it before, so I'm honestly still a little hurt, sweetheart... but I don't have an issue with you, uh, having sex or whatever with other people, as long as it's not another real- I mean cis man." I eagerly agree to his boundaries, and reassure him that I've never been into other cis men and he's the exception, the love of my life. I easily ignore his awkward wording - he's not as familiar with queer terminology and talking about sex can be a little weird to put into words anyway.

What he's carefully avoiding scaring me off with is his true opinion that he's slowly going to acclimate me to, which is that queer "sex" doesn't count without a cis man's penis. It's not cheating if it's two transmen, because that's just lesbian sex and there's no real man claiming his property. He thinks it's cute when I call ftm4mtf "straight sex" as if I'm a boy, because he knows my tgirl friend is still penetrating my needy submissive pussy. And eventually, I start to question my gender, especially in the bedroom. My boyfriend is always so much more affectionate and into it when he's feeling up my curvy body, and he loves when I act like a girl. I tentatively break the subject with my ftm friend who I talked to at first, and he's very accepting of my "gender weirdness", and respects my request to be treated like a girl in the bedroom, and then anywhere private, and then in public. We spend a lot of time together, talking about sex and kinks, and he's naturally empathetic and seems really touched when I talk about how good it feels to be a good girl for a real man. I'm barely aware of how convincing I'm being, because I don't know the sappy playlists my boyfriend makes me are full of subconscious conditioning and affirmations behind the music - good girls make more good girls. I'm a good girl. Good girls need cock in their cunts. My needy cunt makes me a girl. Brains are for boys and my thoughts are just noise. Good girls make more good girls.

Eventually my boyfriend is my husband, I'm his favorite submissive housewife, and all my old "trans" and "lesbian" friends are playthings for his entertainment. We love having lesbian sex and putting on a show to earn his cum, and I dont remember any reality other than this, or any reason I wouldn't want to be right where I am.

[koi0boi]

oh fuck yes ok

ritsu is from the game (series. i guess.) ensemble stars!! which uhhh is primarily a rhythm game (es!! music) but also has a like . i dont know what to call it but its es!! basic. irrelevant . ANYWAY. ritsu is one of the 51 (i guess now technically like... 56? characters? with 4piece added? idk. whatever) idols in the game that you can collect cards of :3

so !! ritsu is part of the unit Knights which is like. kinda fanservice-y but like in a romantic fantasy kinda way yanno. im bad at describing music but they're good . some songs r synth heavy (fight for judge...) but they're usually very upbeat songs :3 the unit is comprised of Tsukasa Suou, Leo Tsukinaga, Izumi Sena, Arashi Narukami, and Ritsu himself !! Tsukasa is the current leader of Knights, taking the role after Leo graduated (everyone went/goes to an idol school ig called Yumenosaki. now the main cast works at EnSquare or smth. Leo and Izumi are pretty important since they formed the unit but this isn't abt them (im insane abt them too tho)

anyway !!! that outta the way . ritsu . the loml ....... he's a funny lil vampire guy. whether or not he's actually a vampire or just like, chronically ill, is kinda up for debate. could be both who knows. either way he's an eepy lil guy !!! he has an older brother (rei) whom he used to have a good relationship with until during Rei's... second? year? he left ritsu alone while he was out searching for a cure for their condition which led to ritsu kind of hating him (im pretty sure ritsu calls him "that brother-shaped thing" or smth on a few occasions its funny) but they're getting better. there's like a fuckton of lore and shit but im. just gonna skip it. anyway . ritsu also has a childhood friend (mao isara) that he's like. yeah. mao regularly has to wake him up for school (and gives him piggyback rides bc ritsu whines until he does lmao) and the two are in the same year (and graduated now) . funny bit of lore: ritsu says at one point that he literally conditioned mao to fall asleep at the sound of his singing voice bc he added his songs into the playlist mao listens to to fall asleep. he's so fuckin weird. he's the Strategist of Knights . he does a lot of the planning and stuff :3 he's also like . very prone to teasing and can come off as a little apathetic or cold at times but he's actually so full of love for the people he cares about . i call him a bpd guy bc he tends to be really jealous and possessive of people (he was basically nonfunctional w/out mao for awhile) but he's getting more independent <3

theres probably more but . its late and im a little incoherent . if u wanna listen to knights music i recommend fight for judge; wonderful happiness; silent oath; coruscate breeze; or the beautiful golden drop; little romance; mystic fragrance; and also the solo songs :3 wonderful happiness is their newest song (along with their second solos ig) but !! its all on spotify. or youtube prolly idk

thamks for info dumping! Also fuck i might get into enstars just for this guy..

[jumpdriveproject]

what kind of music do you listen to offstream?

This is honestly a hard question to answer since I don't really pay attention to genre or anything, I tend to just put my spotify likes on random so its kinda all over the place.

Generally I just enjoy music that has a decent beat, its rare that I find myself listening to slower music. When i was younger I was really into stuff like David Bowie, The Who, power pop in general, etc.

I've thought about making a public spotify playlist or something but in the meantime heres my current top plays.

and have a few select choices of some weirder stuff i like that might give a clearer image.

Simple Man - Klaus Nomi Nomi is a huge inspiration for me, highly recommend all of his work and check out the documentary about him if you can find it.

Elstree - The Buggles Chose this one over their more popular title tracks. Buggles only had a couple albums but theyre absolute bangers that everyone should listen to in full. Trevor Horn went on to do tons of shit and almost all of it rules.

One For You, One For Me - La Bionda I still dont know much about Italo Disco, but La Bionda/D. D. Sound and Righeira kick absolute ass and this particular recording blows me away every time I listen to it.

BE MY BABY - Complex Okay this one isnt one im CONSTANTLY listening to, but it just seems insane we don't hear this getting blasted on the radio even in the US.

Big Painting - The Times I have a huge soft spot for power pop and mod-adjacent music. This album is the one i typically go back to when im in the mood for that. Who cares about the sky?

Michael Caine - Madness Likewise, I love me some Madness. If you somehow havn't taken the time to listen to their hits at least I def recommend it. Classics for a reason.

Finally - The Correspondents Okay I have to add SOME more modern music. I don't enjoy all of their music but Correspondents have some absolute bangers and have a super unique sound. Essentially if they have a video for it it's probably worth hearing.

Androgyne Friend - Eve 6 Eve 6 has been a comfort band for as long as i can remember and their current music is still really good and refreshingly based. Another one where i'd recommend their entire discography.

Starlight - The Supermen Lovers Last one. I simply wish that if my life had a BGM it sounded like this.

[spider-man-2o99]

what’s something you change from canon Miguel as like. a “small detail that annoys me and doesn’t mean much but i still want to change it” thing when you write? also, do you have playlists specifically to get you in a general writing mood?

ARGUABLY that i make him explicitly autistic instead of just kinda autistic coded BUT. As far as hills I’d die on that have no basis in anything canon At All i am Making that man left-handed. it is something i simply Know to be True in my heart 🙏

As for playlists!! i dont have any One Specific writing playlist--tend more to listen through Full Albums in specific orders to write, like a Freak--but i DO have Old Reliable (120-song-long mammoth personal mig playlist) for when i really need to Channel Miguel like a dark spirit. i strongly prefer bouncing around between its subsections to anything else for the Convenience that it brings to literally me and me alone, lol

[iantimony]

tuesday!

hello tuesday :) i'm going to start crossposting these onto my dreamwidth also just so i have a non-tumblr log of my weekly updates. please friend me on dreamwidth i would love an excuse to move platforms more

listening: OH i listened to SO much this week. i tuned in to my spotify release radar thing and it was a great idea to get exposed to some new music from artists i already know i like! i also peeped the discover weekly one a bit

i haven't listened to the newest paramore album in full but 'running out of time' was on the release radar playlist and i really really like the sounds! it feels very st vincent-y to me in a way that i wasn't expecting from paramore so i wonder if that was a conscious influence at all? or if they were both separately influenced by the same sources? it's really good though. i dont remember following shakey graves but they also rule i've been jamming to the whole album 'deadstock' which i think is just a collection of some of their more popular tracks? plus some live recordings. and tom rosenthal makes me cry still

from discover:

and then i found memi through...instagram reels i think? instagram has unfortunately nailed the type of music they should serve me to get clicks so i do. keep clicking them. anyways i love her

reading: quantum :V

oh wait actually i do have reading this week! i re-opened the slowly app (i downloaded it years ago but stopped using it at some point), which is a real-time penpal app - you can send letters to random people in the world, and it will send in "real time" as if you were actually mailing a letter! so i opened it and the app went oh? you're active? cool! and i started getting letters! so i got one from a guy in morocco, which i replied to right away, and also one in mandarin which i have NOT replied to right away because i had to spend like an hour translating it rip. out of five i put my mandarin proficiency at a 2 on my profile but honestly that may be too high oops. ah well. it'll be cool to try and get my mandarin back up to snuff! it'll also be a great way to learn things like idioms and other stuff that doesn't show up as often in traditional learning materials.

for example, phrase that i learned is 畅所欲言, chang4 suo3 yu4 yan4, which is a standard four-character idiom that means to speak without inhibitions or to just frankly speak your mind. i have like a full two pages of new words and phrases that i had to look up to read the letter which is awesome!

the letter from morocco was very cool and like...poetry adjacent? which im not sure if it's just because of a translation quirk - he said his english isn't the best - but i dunno. "I am writing to you because writing is a companion of the tired". anyways.

watching: i started watching evangelion with my partner!! we did ... i think about five episodes last week? it owns. this is the first time in a really long time that i've, like...gone blind into a media? my only exposure to eva has been through out-of-context memes (shinji get in the robot) and i feel like a lot of the time with TV shows i tend to read the wikipedia page before watching to see if it's really worth it :") i've never really cared about spoilers or whatever because honestly if it's a good enough show it won't really matter if i know what's going to happen or not, it's more about How it happens and how it's shot/framed/acted/etc. but i have zero context for eva and im very much enjoying it! i wasn't expecting the body horror at all it rules

making: making good progress on my embroidery project! this photo is from about two weeks ago but it's the most recent one i have and honestly haven't done THAT much more. i just finished filling that vertical headphone cord in with red, started some other headphone cord...after that all i have left is the letters (rip) and then doing maybe some sort of sashiko stitch/cross hatching as fill for the hair? like some spaced out x patterns in a grid or something like that. because i'm sure as shit not doing a satin or brick stitch to fill all that in and i think it'll still look good that way.

im also finishing up valentines gifts to mail to people :3

misc: hgg. quantum midterm on march 2. it is Rapidly approaching and im very nervous about it but in a VERY different way - this semester he's having the exams be open note and open book, which could be really good or really really bad. on the plus side i dont have to drive myself insane memorizing equations on flash cards again, most of my studying will probably be uber-familiarizing myself with the layout of the notes so i know where to reference things and also copying out things from online that might be relevant. on the minus side it means i have really no clue on how hard this exam will be. pain.

research is going. i feel like im sooo close to getting shit to work. however i am also experiencing research fomo because a prof that i didnt even know existed gave a presentation on her group for potential new students and i went wait wow that fucks. sigh. i think that's all for this week gang, gonna crosspost to dreamwidth after lunch!

[glitter-lisp]

for the questions thingy!!: 3, 8, 9, 11, 12, 18?

You don’t have to answer all of em if you don’t want feel free to just pick and choose if it’s too many!

HI NONNY I LOVE YOU

3.What’s your favorite fic that you’ve written?

ooooh tied between complete the chains and when children go to war! when children go to war has one of my favorite scenes ive ever written, but complete the chains is my favorite over all in terms of the buildup to the reveal and tying together some of the pieces id been foreshadowing since the first fic

8.What project(s) are you currently working on?

in theory, the next installments of the juicebox chronicles, something less quantifiable, and the bro-atie au. in practice, im bouncing between a dozen wips like a pinball writing 2 or 3 words at a time until i get distracted by something else

9.Do you write every day? If you wrote today, share a sentence of what you’ve written!

generally yeah, but not with any kind of schedule or dedication lol; i just know ill forget ideas if i don't write them down immediately, so i tend to knock em out on my phone as soon as i think of them. here, a bit of shenanigannery from a few chapters ahead in to wander the woods on your own, the au where zeff is a ghost haunting sanji:

11.Do you have specific playlists for writing fics?

nah, i dont listen to music when i write. ive been told this is my serial killer trait but in my defense i dont tend to listen to music when i do like. anything. i need to either listen to something with my full focus or not listen to it at all, otherwise it's just distracting lol. which i guess also answers question 12 lol

18.What’s one of your favorite lines you’ve written in a fic?

it varies WILDLY. fics i collab on tend to be a lot more planned out simply because most of them start as rambles with a buddy, and then we just clean those rambles up into actual fic. fics i write myself are usually done by the seat of my pants; i didnt have any of the big twists in mind when i started the batgene au or the multiverse fic, i usually just have a vague idea for a scene or a few snippet of dialogue and i write until ive got enough of a framework to fit them into

[xx-psych0-rabbit-xx]

2 11 19 20 29 !!

2.is it easier to draw someone facing left or right(or forward even)?

depends if its fully turned or just a slight face angle, i find all forward slightly to the side angles easy but full turns do not work w my art style lol

11.do you listen to anything while drawing?

i tend to just listen to wtv essay i put on my watch later playlist !!

19.favorite inanimate object to draw

those little stickers i use as decoration in my art!!

20.something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

i actually dunno anything ppl tend to complain abt?? i dont mind hands ig??

29.media you love, but doesnt inspire you artistically

desaturated stuff is lovely ill die id i try it god bless

[rockofcalifa]

when i listen to a men i trust album in full, songs dont tend to stand out from each other, but when i hit one of their songs in the middle of a mixed playlist it can be so mindblowingly good

[majjiktricks]

3, 11, 27 for silly art asks :)

3. What ideas come from when you were little? oh god uh. im gonna be honest i dont remember a whole lot of being a child LOL ive ALWAYS loved fantasy and sci-fi tho so i know a lot of my current interests are based on what i read as a kid. swords, dragons, magical/alien creatures, all that kind of stuff. definitely feeds into my love for d&d and drawing d&d characters <3

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what? honesty ill listen to just about anything that comes up on my youtube. a lot of what i listen to is premade playlists; citypop, game soundtracks, game-inspired playlists. ive been listening to a lot of full-album low roar videos tho after playing death stranding. i havent yet found a song by those guys i didnt like.

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with? im.. terrible about this. i really SHOULD do warm ups, and i know it absolutely helps…. i just…. dont…… LOL i tend to get right into whatever i want to draw before i forget my idea, or i sit so long on one thing that i just never draw it 😭

questions from here !!

[creacherkeeper]

Happy sleepover Saturday! :) What are your top three favorite albums? I think mine are Hozier's self-titled album, Florence and the Machine's Ceremonials and Badlands by Halsey (for the middle school nostalgia, though I don't listen to it as much anymore).

oh hozier is very vibes and i definitely went through a big f+tm phase in high school. i dont know if ive ever listened to halsey? if i did i didnt know it at the time

i .............. think i have my answers but im worried a therapist is going to manifest physically in my home as soon as i say them

transcendental youth - the mountain goats

therapy - radical face

the wall - pink floyd

[onovnii]

hcs for levi as a boyfriend??💞

# boyfriend hcs

feat. leviathan x gn!mc

summary. him as a boyfriend :D

cw. fluff , slight angst , mentions of abandonment , levi’s envy , self doubt , anxiety , manipulation mentions , toxic(?)

author n. pls levi’s so cute i just wanna squish his cheeks... this is all over the place ahahsndmc [feel free to ignore the bottom half of it.]

leviathan.

a relationship with levi is gonna take patience and a lot of reassurance. he’s uncertain about a lot of things, himself especially.

but a relationship with him is equally just as rewarding. it’s loving, he puts in time and effort for you, hoping you’ll do the same.

▸ you know those couples you see that are just so disgustingly cute? thats you two.

▸ out of the both of you, you’re the less shy one so you take initiative more.

▸  it took levi WEEKS to be able to hold your hand without either combusting or getting nervous.

▸ assuming you’re into anime and or games, that’s what most of y’alls dates consist of!

▸ levi will go out of your way to get you mangas and merch:)

▸  whats that? you want the denji nendoroid?? he’s got it already!

▸  huh?? you want that really rare evangelion figure of shinji and his mom?? dont worry, somehow he’ll get it too!! even if it means fighting tooth and nail….

▸  oh! you want to get a figure of madoka and homura? he’s got a bunch already :)

▸  it doesnt matter, levi’s just excited to have someone share the same interests as him and is more than willing to get you merch to make you happy!!

▸  name your favorite shows, characters, story arcs, etc etc— he’ll remember it all!! all of it!!!

▸  loves playing games with you too ^^ you’re his player two, remember?

▸  levi’s kind of a big streamer in the devildom soo,, streaming dates >_<!!

▸  he’ll introduce you to his fanbase as his henry :’)

▸  it’s so cute to watch because you can see levi progressively getting more and more red in the face

▸  cue those “levi getting flustered over his s/o for 10 minutes” videos that were real popular back in 2017 LMAO

▸  cosplay dates! it doesn’t even have to be couple cosplay either, he just wants to dress up as his fav characters with you.

▸  levi rarely posts the photos, he’s too shy… but he keeps a separate folder full of ur cosplay pics <33

▸  speaking of photos…you two have matching profile pictures 😭😭

▸  its a pic of you two making a heart :(

▸  lowkey he loved it when it first made his brothers jealous :)

▸  you two also have matching keychains on your phone. his is henry, yours is lord of the shadows.

▸  secretly flaunts it in public…hahasjd

▸  levi loves hand holding !! it’s a simple affection he can handle.

▸  his hands are always intertwined with yours, he just loves how softer they are in comparison to his. maybe because you’re human? either way he loves that shit

▸  it sorta calms him too…when levi gets especially nervous in public, he likes to go to you, and either hold your hand or just…stand near you

▸  considers you a huge comfort for him :(

▸  occasionally, when walking about with either just you or the rest of his brothers, levi tends to trail behind you a lot 😭

▸  kinda like a bunny following you around…cute

▸  the simplest touch flusters him so much…a kiss to the cheek, kiss on the lips, on the forehead— yeah he’s gone…

▸  levi loves cuddling you in his bath tub.

▸  it’s such a small space and you’re so close… he’s gonna lose his mind….

▸  he gets so lost in the thought of you, he barely notices his heart beating fast…too fast…

▸  ahh, mc…his heart can’t take it, you’re too cute…

▸  when you tell levi about your favorite musicians and bands, all the songs you like, he listens to them all…

▸  he just wants to share your interests!!

▸  haha this ones cheesy asl, but levi learned about a certain human tradition— an old one, from an anime

▸  collects songs he thinks represent you well, or your relationships well and burns it into a cd 🧍🏽

▸  or alternatively he makes a playlist for u <3

▸  he slips you a note, or texts you, why he picked each song.

▸  one song represents his feelings when he first realized he liked you, another represents the time he’s confessed, another represents how much he adores you— and so on.

▸  he’s put so much effort into it, it almost makes you wanna cry 😭

▸  levi wants to get to know you, and learn everything you like !! he knows how lonely it gets when nobody around you likes the things you like…he doesn’t want you to feel the same loneliness he’s felt for a while, so!

▸  my personal hc is that levi is an artist :D

▸  draws little doodles for you.

▸  its either you, or you and him.

▸  you keep all of the sticky notes that have his art on them in a little drawer in your room

▸  when he finds it, he rushes to find you and pull you into a hug.

▸  something about his henry being the best…

▸  levi loves seeing his clothes on u 😭

▸  he thinks you’re adorable… doesn’t matter if you’re shorter or taller, loves seeing the ridiculous sweater paws.

▸  when cuddling, loves it when you pepper his flushed face in sweet kisses.

▸ he can just feel all the love !! ahhh!! mccc he’s gonna dieee!!! stooop- wait no, dont stop!

▸  when out with his brothers, he likes it if you’re near him…sooo sit on his lap ;)

▸  he’ll get so flustered but wont dare to push you off.

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..now that all the cute stuff is outta the way, let’s get into the uh..less wholesome stuff. read cws above.

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▸  as mentioned before, levi doubts himself a lot.

▸  he doesn’t think he’s worth of any of your attention.

▸  always compares himself to his brothers, or if you have any, your exes too.

▸  he’s never even met them! but what if by chance you meet them again and realize what a loser he is???

▸  he’ll need a lot of reassurance. it borders the line between unhealthy and healthy…

▸  he tries to not confide in you too much, he’s aware he can get annoying and fears you might leave him because of this.

▸  but it’s not like he can help it! it’s in his nature!

▸  besides, how do you tell someone that abandonment could almost equal life or death to him without sounding manipulative? without making you feel trapped? …you cant

▸  so he doesn’t.

▸  he wants this relationship to work, he wants to make you happy.

▸  but deep down levi knows you’d be much happier with a human lover…not a demon…

▸  his jealousy doesn’t help either. it’s irrational, he knows it’s over pointless things too.

▸  levi’s aware he gets envious over small things. he knows it can get annoying, that’s why his brothers hardly tolerate it.

▸  but he seriously cannot help it, each time he tries to suppress his feelings, it comes back to bite him.

▸  when he’s feeling especially jealous he feels the need to just leave the room, get his anger out.

▸  he doesn’t want you seeing him like that…

▸  afterwards, he’ll crawl back to you and cry softly into your lap

▸  he’ll apologize for being the way he is, saying that you deserve better.

▸  he’s manipulative without meaning to be. or maybe he’s aware and not sure on what to do about it.

▸  on especially bad days, he’ll hold you close and thank you for being patient with him.

▸  levi loves you a lot, more than any game he’s ever played, more than any character he’s ever liked, more than himself.

▸  and that scares him.

▸  he’s scared that one day you’ll leave, then what’s he’s supposed to do?

▸  he silently thanks you for putting up with him, he knows it must be hard.

▸  one day, he promises himself that he’ll be enough for you. worthy of your love and attention.

▸  but for now, he’s just happy you’re still here, with him.

- val

[beomglocks]

what yeonjun is like as a boyfriend

warnings & other: no warnings except for falling in love with yeonjun, but is that so bad?, side note: no body asked for this but between college stress aka finals and daily life struggles this is the only thing i could manage to come up with so plz enjoy.

w/c: 2 more words and its 1K

jesus take the wheel

when you first meet him he’s flirting

biting his lips and licking them

raising his eyebrows and all like

????

calm down i don’t even know your name yet

very bold

so shameless when you first meet him

“you look like someone”

“oh really who?”

“my future partner ;)”

ngl you would be so put off by his confidence

but he knows when to tone it down and you’re like

“oh you’re actually tolerable!”

if youre shy then rip you

always trying to get you out of your comfort zone

probably does extra shit in public and you just have to laugh along nervously

then when yall are alone you scold him for embarrasing you and he’s like

“ok ok im sorry” *hug*

if youre confident like him youre both annoying

just kidding but thats real couple goals

everyone is jealous of yall

he’s so cocky

always showing you off

“hi everyone this is my partner!”

“yeonjun...we know...we’ve known ever since you introduced them 5 months ago”

thinks you’re the most beautiful human to ever grace the earth and it’s not even close

“seriously how did i end up with someone like you”

seems like the type of boyfriend to kiss the ground you walk on

*not to be confused with a simp*

yeonjun does not simp

he has morals

so you know how he tends to say “baby” a lot

yeah

thats his fav nickname for you and vise versa

omg he loves that nickname forreal

skinship

like i know i said beomgyu and skinship was a huge thing

but my god

yeonjun is on a whole other level

just comes up to you and annoys you with wanting to be close

hes so clingy

but will probrably pout and whine when youre clingy with him

“ahhh y/n you like me sooo much look at you clinging to me like this, leave me aloooooone”

obviously he doesnt mean it like cmon youre each others batteries

kissing you in public

im talking full on makeout sessions

“we’re in public...”

“ok and?”

literally just always all up on you

if youre someone who needs their space yall will CLASH

might even get into arguments because of this

serious arguments where you call him annoying

i feel like he will take it to heart if you call him that

nobody likes being called annoying :(

wont touch or talk to you for days

DAYS

thats dog years in your relationship

you have to apologize and really mean it

he’ll accept it if you kiss him

omg he’s so jealous

SO JEALOUS

doesn’t want people looking at you too long

dont try to make him jealous he will fight the other person

ok maybe just giving them the stank eye then he’ll pull up like

“hey im standing right here have some damn respect”

you guys definitely fight

A L O T

sometimes over petty shit but sometimes it gets serious

always threatning to break up but never doing it 

you both know you’re bluffing but it still hurts everytime

but your relationship is strong

i feel like yeonjun wouldnt get into a relationship if he knew he wouldnt have a strong connection with the person

he values communication

tell him how you feel

he’ll always listen

if he’s feeling down you better buy him his favorite foods and run your hands through his hair ok!

speaking of food

best food runs

like will just randomly be like 

“hey wanna go to this one place with me?”

and it’s like 2am 

but he insists the food is worth it

best dates too

either a restaurant date

(doesnt have to be expensive, just gotta have good food)

or he cooks for the both of you

he cooks surprisingly good????

you’re like there’s no way you made this

he’s like damn you hate me that much

but no like actually can cook but he’s clumsy you know

you gotta be monitering him

which he doesnt mind, he likes having your presence in the kitchen with him

PLEASE i feel like he doesn’t like being alone when he’s doing everyday tasks idk

like if he’s brushing his teeth or if you’re brushing your teeth

he’s right there back hugging you ugh

the type to walk on the side of the sidewalk where cars are closer to <3

if you’re younger than him he kinda has a superiority complex

not in a condescending way

he just tends to baby you more

if you’re older he still tries to act older in some ways

“yeonjun im going to the grocery store!”

“actually i made that exact same grocery list and went 3 days ago”

“the only thing on the list was rice?”

but he likes being babied

coo at him and he’ll get shy and tell you to stop

meeting the other members isn’t too bad

“this is my significant other! arent they just so etheral?”

everyone nods because if they dont yeonjun will probably give them some choice words later

you gotta compliment him a lot

he thrives off compliments honestly

you: “you looked good in that one scene”

him: “yeah but i looked good in all the scenes though right?”

you CANNOT C A N N O T compliment anyone else

you: “soobi-”

him: glaring at you “what about him?”

just to mess with him youre like “soobin killed this scene too”

pouts and whines

“nooooo what do you mean he killed this scene?? i’m the scene too pay attention to me!”

studio sessions with him are a vibe

he likes rnb so yall would just be chilling on days where he doesnt have schedules. 

plays his rnb playlist and yall just vibe out 

youre both laying down on the studio couch with his head in your neck and he’s dozing off *broken heart emoji”

wait ok i know i’ve said this before but

he’s the type to tease you during arguments

“you wanna kiss me so bad”

and when you do he’s all smug about it

“my baby just can’t stay mad at me for long huh”

your friends think he’s hot

they probably think he’s way too good looking to be dating you

so you doubt yourself

but he’s like nah our looks are on par that’s why we’re perfect together fuck them

always wants you to watch him dance

during practice or not, he wants you there

after hours at the practice room is just him playing some random song and freestyling

but you love it because he looks so happy and free

probably does some cheesy shit like ask you to dance with him

or if you’re sitting down on your phone he’ll come up to you dancing just to bother you then just laugh

he’s the best boyfriend

idk

[hella1975]

You got me obsessed with the lemon to a knife fight song.

I was going through your playlists and was like "oh this looks interesting" and when i tell you my jaw DROPPED like thirty seconds into the song because it perfectly describes a couple in an enemies to lovers book im working on.

Its been stuck in my head for a week and i listened to it like 40 times in the last three days and i blame you for this.

I TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY IT'S A CRIMINALLY UNDERRATED SONG I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY FANDOMS HAVEN'T FOUND IT YET my godddd the 'you push and i tend to shove, i give in and you wont give up, im not getting out of here this time, i brought a lemon to a knife fight' i lose my MIND

also this ask inspired me to make an enemies to lovers playlist i hope you're happy